#azelais

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

In my dream i was living in a house i dont recognize where homeless people would come to the porch & i'd give tbem food + water bottles then hang and talk for a while. As soon as one left another one would show up. they were all incredibly kind & i wanted to know all about them. Also My bedroom door was covered in Azealia Banks posters like how she looked in the Atlantis music video And when i woke up + opened my group chat the first thing i saw was an old Azelai Banks photo my friend sent.

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Ozoo - Azelai // Clip Officiel //

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2.27.23 Monday

9:35 am

Rainy days and Monday's always get me down???

Done,cooking... But I still wanna leave the hometown... Later,I'm gonna explain my analyzation for 16 years since 2007...

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Chicken Tinola ♡♡♡

My main point angels... I have fear if the mystery lover's will be here living at the side and it is really happening now....The squatter life but a smasher squatter...

I wonder who are the people, who organized since 2007 to stop my growth and who are those jealous people who wanted to change and smash me as if I wasn't spoiled...

Being spoiled is not bad at all... It is always it depends on the family unity and what was or what is the reason and sometimes having spoiled means a family is able to produce...

But me being spoiled coz there are group who wanted to use me and I let them but it doesn't mean that they will take away my individual rights to be independent and mature being...

But on the case of Uno the undergraduate son of George will be put on a high pedestal by the Mystery Lover's ( Uncle DD & Aunt Karen ) who have the link on something to lift up people but when it comes to me, sometimes I feel that they have this invisible agenda to not let me go up or for me not to be successful...

My point why Uno will be the next big daddy or will be the next big thing in our clan...

Clan means a combination of 2 to 10 families...

Tribe a combination group of more than 10 families....

Meaning these are solid group supposed to be of my family but wrong ranking they created... I opposed to that kind of decision making...

The main problem here in De Ocampo, Uncle DD made a decision from the past years the our Kate Middleton would be my half-sister Burger who is an undergraduate like him or them??? That Burger or Azelai was nearly on taking over this main house of my adoptive parent's... That Burger will buy this house and renovate and they will become the main people here in the cute,old ranch house of my adoptive parent's...

I was really,really in pain from the years...That where am I? Who am I in this family?

On my biological mother, still the same she lifted-up my half-sister's but just like them an undergraduate...

Someone always took my seat and I lost mine... To the point that, I almost forgot myself...

Someone said that if Uncle DD and Aunt Karen will start living there, Aunt Karen will bring her 2 children...That will be the start of them smashing me here and I heard their group are having the same car like them... That if people will know me,they can't do their bad agenda on me.... Coz their providence-effect is just an effect but not enough, angels...

I don't feel them coz they just wanted to appear that they have a car and they are much more able in life than me a real college graduate...

To the point that I lost a social life....Other people took advantage of that situation and my ugly family situation, that I was and still on the center of embarrassment... I'm inside of a crumpled wrapper. It makes me sad and giving me complexities in life...

11:36 am

1 chopping board missing... Hmm.....Was it Uncle DD this time?

1:32 pm

What is the plan of Uncle DD? What was their movement since 2007...

This Uncle Jun is forever observer... He is just here in the house watching movies...

I still have the windblow and I feel bitter....Totally unfair for me since 2007... Waiting for what?

I hate it when my past linked with my friends that I didn't even know... I want some respect!!!

I wanna have a career...

1:44 pm

Theory:

So many fake relatives...So many fake friends....Fake people who are claiming to be my follower or my friend but behind of everything they just controlled my life unfairly since 2007...

Paul is fake, so many Paul in the world... One is a church of christ member who made a pact with a star from TV....My life and my dignity and pride as a college graduate they just tried to remove it for them to appear matured than me.... They wanted to make themselves believed that I was still a child with no maturity, they always wanted that way those unfair people... Paul and some ministers dragged these stars and this particular star who made a pact with Paul....I couldn't just believed that even your churchmates, even if you were an original choir member of that church they can forget it because of money and for their own personal agenda. Dragging those stars here...

4:02 pm

Uncle Jun went to baranggay asked for 5 pesoses but I gave 10.... I told that's enough for now coz I need to buy coffee...

I don't have enough money for now...

8:43 pm

Hmm... Ateh Cha doesn't want me to have credit on them....Well, I feel hurt coz I paid my creditz on her... But she refused to let me borrow a coffee...Not a real follower or supporter... But I still considered her a friend in a way...

But something on her youngest daughter and Jean ( eldest daughter of Ateh Cha ) coz whenever I buy, I think they texted Uncle Jun and DD...

I heard Ate Cha's group was the one having a link in Lacub Village and linking with Ms Enaoj R-None.... Very intriguing behaviour... Reporting to each other linking to scoop on my coins...

I need money and I need a job...

Who got the links angels? I feel hurt for 16 years they made me stupid...

8:55 pm

Theory:

I therefore conclude;:;

I can't go up angels this is for 16 years....Uncle DD and Aunt Karen I don't feel them if everything is just just just... Coz someone just told me that they were/ are part of some weird movement against me... One of the reasons I can't get a stable job... There were people always at my back that always controlling my life since 2007... I wanna kill that man,whoever he is... I lost my xfactor, I lost my charm on getting good friends.

Can't even support me on my needs on coffee, on my lotions, on my gluta shots...

Uncle Jun main thing,he needs a payment for doing things here... But he is really focus on Neko coz that is the dog of Uncle DD... Recently, I care for Neko coz she was impregnated and having children made by my baby John... I know it is tiring to feed Neko and clean her cage....But as family we need to move as family...Me? I cook these days that I didn't usually do... I clean and I'm also tired everyday plus taking care of my baby John... That's why in a way Uncle Jun is supporting Uncle DD and Aunt Karen for some money that he can get from them.... In a way,their personal movement...

Me? I have sciatica,I don't have enough fundings for the actual therapy but having Elsie is also applicable her ways of doing her massage therapy... I feel the pain on my pelvic, sometimes my entire left body is really in pain... This is 1 year and 3 months now... My main point Uncle DD and Aunt Karen,they don't have the mind of a matured guardian that these things should or must take seriously...

Somebody just told me Peachy you can't go up coz there are people that are following you and stopping your growth... Somebody told me they are in group, some are owning a black car just like the car of Uncle DD and Aunt Karen...

I feel bitterish...They made a movement why they can't ask a permission from me....If I'm ohkay, if it is ohkay?

Some said my biological mother told other people that they don't need me... I was shocked... And I answered huh? They don't need me where???

Somebody told me that a relative is doing a movement against me that whoever followed me or support me, that group of a particular relative will kill the people who love me truly!

I hope my follower or my supporter or my FRIENDS should know how to fight and win!!! I just walk by faith...

9:52 pm

I feel bitter, I'm a college graduate but no xfactor now... I feel fat and ugly...

I have low self-esteem,I just have maturity but I feel fat and ugly and I lost friend's attention in a way...

I wanna do beauty therapy but looking forward to get men's friends or a possible future again, who can accept me now as like this... Before my big transformation in the future... I wanna a career...

I wanna have a job on a good platform... I wanna go back to gym and I wanna see donkey and camel...

I wanna find true men's friends with sanity and maturity... I don't like the Nepal guy the last time I talked in Tagged, he seems immature and rapist... It is difficult to find new men's group,most specially having stability on mind and in life and looking forward to get pretty faces just like my exes and guy friends...

I hate some group of church of christ who can't support me, I was the real one, a genuine choir member...

I feel bitterish...

11:30 pm

Grrr... Whew! Coffee sachet is getting higher now... It became 14 pesoses from 10 pesoses... Life here in the Philippines is totally unfair...

This windblow cult is so unfair they just want to smash me... I feel bitter...

[poetriazela]

Tak terasa, sebentar lagi ramadhan akan menghampiri kita. Semoga Allah mengizinkan kita untuk membersamai ramadhan. Memperbaiki diri, beramal sebanyak-banyak dan menjadi sebaik-baiknya manusia yaitu manusia yang bertakwa. #marhabanyaramadhan😇 #azelais https://www.instagram.com/p/CNg0EWahAan/?igshid=1mxrxrrxykbpt

[aiiaiiiyo]

My grandmother’s funeral is today. This is my favorite picture of her, 17 years old and a nurse’s aide in 1969. Check this blog!

[azelais]

Sometimes I forget that I’m able to just do things I want to do, even if they don’t necessarily follow social conventions. 

For example, tonight I wanted a taco for dinner and a piece of cake for dessert. I was getting stressed because I really wanted to eat the cake right then, but I wasn’t hungry enough to eat the taco yet. I was considering going ahead and eating the taco despite not being hungry just so I could eat the cake, when I remembered that I can just eat the piece of cake without eating the taco first. I got so caught up in the convention of “dessert after dinner” that I was going to make eating a wonderful taco a chore.

It seems really obvious in hindsight, but I feel like it’s very easy to get caught up in that kind of thinking. It’s important to remember that you don’t always have to do things the way they’re “usually” done if it makes you happy.

[su-skin]

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[aeschylus]

@azelais​  hm  compared to vampire knight, castlevania is practically Academic loll i recommend watching it if you don’t mind your vampire lore to be deviantart-shoujo-manga flavoured 

but i will say that the vamps are just as snobby and shamelessly good-looking as castlevania vamps loll

[ohimesama]

10.17.22 Monday

6:57 am

Drinking my coffee... Bebeh John still sleeping beside me,on the floor... Still,having this windblow trap... I feel panicky....

8:12 am

Uncle Jun is up already,in the kitchen and for sure feeding Neko...

I feel frustrated... Will be 41 tomorrow angels...

Theory:

People on TV shouldn't interfere unfairly...We know that they have power of beauty to control and make people believe on their words...

We are equal in a way but sometimes on beauty not... Like they are all well-fixed and us here outside we are not...

The people on TV shouldn't decide for people's lives...

8:53 am

Hmm... I need money and self-fulfillment..

Theory & Trivia & Truth:

Oh! I have half-siblings by the way,on both of my biological parent's...

On my biological mother I have 5 half-sister's and 1 half-brother.

On my biological father I have 2 half-brother's and 1 half-sister.

The first half-sister on my biological mother named Mary Carolyn or her pet name is Maco coz of Ma-ry & Ca-rolyn. So, I remember the time that my biological mother was pregnant on Maco, I was with her and we always went to mall... Before the time that my biological mother was on her own peak on her art life, we always went to mall to shop as in shopping to the fullest... But not the way of upbringing of my adoptive parent's on me...

The story of the name of Maco, we went to mall that time and we went to this particular doll shop Carolyn dolls. My biological mother suddenly told me that I will name your sister as Carolyn. Why,Mary? Coz of hmm... hmm... As far as I can remember coz of mama mary? I forgot but the Carolyn got from the doll shop.

And another half-sister came into our lives named Audiezel but sometimes we are calling her Azelai then suddenly Burger... Why? I was with my biological mother when she was on her labour on Burger... During her labour and until she gave birth on Audiezel, she said I will still think of her name...

Then,time comes that this Audiezel was already in the world... We held her in our arms and we all noticed that her face looked like a Burger with many sesame seeds on her face... And my biological mother said she looked like a burger,right? And I suddenly sing a song for her that " I love you Burger2x Azelai Burger,you are the Burger,Azelai Burger" maybe next time I can add the rhythm here...

About Chelsea Aisle, I think we separate ways already... Time that I transferred here in my adoptive parent's... I don't have memories on Chian but I know she is my half-sister...

9:34 am

Break time of the old memories... I need to cook and I need money...

I still have the windblow trap and I'm panicking... Not happy....

10:42 am

So,strange this place... Carinderia is close and the store of Ate Cha... hmm... Is this conspiracy??? What is happening??? Is there a tandem???

1:10 pm

I still have the windblow trap....Wanna leave the hometown... Still,wanna see donkey and camels... I need money....There are so many frustrations in me... Roads that I wanted to return,that I wanna apologize for not even saying hi... Friendship that supposed to be I was able to nourish and grow...

4:29 pm

I still have the windblow trap and I feel frustrated and self-pitying... What can I do,if some magical force doesn't like me since 2007...

I feel bitter and self-pitying... Some old road of friendship, I don't wanna see again... But some old road,how I wish I can make a u-turn and probably these days would be easy... Some new road that I wanna meet...

Theory:

There were so many gossips about my biological father that has a child with his co-workers in dancing,aside from the step-mom that we have... Some,half-sisters that I met and have... Some half-sisters that I considered somewhere... Hoping for truth and genuine care...

8:18 pm

In a lil while will be 41 and I feel bitter and frustrated... Hoping you can visit me angels in Tagged later... I feel bitter...

These irresponsible cult of Manalo that controlled me since 2007 just put me on a cage... I feel burn-out... I always wanna leave the hometown... I can't see the people that I wanna see... I wanna have many2x friends along the way and upper friends in God's time...

Unfair cult they made me feel low and cheap for 15 years!

[poetriazela]

Detik demi detik berlalu tanpa makna. Hari ini, ada yang lelah pada hidupnya. Usia bertambah namun tak satupun pencapaian hidup terpenuhi. Mulai bertanya-tanya, " sebenarnya, untuk apa hidup ini?" Hari ini, ada yang sudah genap seperempat abad umurnya, tapi masih sibuk mencari jati diri. Orang sekitar ribut menyuruhnya menikah atau bekerja memenuhi kebutuhan hidup atau bahkan menyambung sekolah. Menyesal dulu menyia-nyiakan waktu. Membuang waktu untuk menikamati masa muda, katamu. Hari ini, waktu terus berlalu. Harus bergerak lebih cepat. Waktu tak pernah menunggumu untuk jadi siap. Bergeraklah!!! Untuk kamu, terkhusu aku... -azelais- #menyesal #buangwaktu #masamuda #lupabelajar #barumaubelajar #gerak #cepat #azelais https://www.instagram.com/p/B4LokK5BBDy/?igshid=z1eknk7cnder

[azelais]

how am i supposed to do homework with WAP stuck in my head 😔 just not possible

[exmateriadead]

1 (ish)SENTENCE HEADCANONS

amon had a sibling named azelai who was supposed to be the one sacrificed but she took their place, may this demon actually have had a heart? more at 11.  

[isiyu-fr]

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