ohimesama

[ohimesama]

It's my 8 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[ohimesama]

9.2.23 Saturday

11:47 am

I need help angels...I can't open my other journal here and I feel bad...There is no help system here...

Can someone help me to access my treyes_phyllis@yahoo.com

I'm " theorist-influencer-untitled " there.. I have to open that as well angels...

1:14 pm

I can't open this 2nd journal and it is very,very important for me to keep these 2 journals...

1: 44 pm

Yey! I'm able to open the 2nd account they just separated these tumbler from face book...

I need to keep this angels coz I had amnesia and this is my therapy to remember everything...

See yah on my 2nd journal account this one...

[ohimesama]

2.13.23 Monday

7:51 am

Uncle Jun forgot that he heated casserole in the kitchen and suddenly there was a smoke and the casserole is already dry...

I looked for him coz he was outside the house... He suddenly came into the kitchen, I told him who is heating this? It is already burnt even the casserole and he said I forgot that I'm heating the broth of pata...

8:06 am

My personal case... I still have this self-pity on money... I'm still thinking of leaving the hometown...I wanna buy starbucks everyday... I wanna buy coffee machine... I feel self-pity... I wanna see donkey and camel...

My employer texted me and still I have a part time job... It is for our basics here, me and John... The salary that I'm getting from mommy Adnil is a big help for me and John just to survive our basic needs for the meantime....

Still,looking forward to see Daniel... And meet more new good men's friends with stable mindset...

2:59 pm

I still have the windblow trap... I still thinking of progress in life.... I hate being smashed down by other women unfairly...

I still feel bitterish... I'm longing to see my old good friends and meet new upper men's friends...

3:07 pm

I streamed last night until 4am...I bought my iron sulfate.

Bought Uncle Jun his toner Silka for his modeling and as a token of payment for helping me on cleaning John's mat... My salary is still small I hope he can appreciate it...

[ohimesama]

2.12.23 Sunday

Special Post:

CASSIE 7 roses...

My niece Cassie

[ohimesama]

2.12.23 Sunday

Special Post:

With my half-sister Kuting

Waiting for the celebrant...

With George and his family gang...

The birthday celebrant...

Parent's of Cassie...

Anne... Daughter of George...

My nephew and niece phem2x...

My cousin Jobelle

[ohimesama]

2.12.23 Sunday

6:32 am

Good Morning Angels....Still have this windblow trap cult of Manaloz?!!!

"Karma begets karma" " Do good things and people will remember you"

I wrote it at the back of diary of Mommy Adnil... And there is also a saying about happiness, the thought is do job that makes you happy...

8:15 am

I remember someone an old friend and I hope he can still remember me...After 30 years... I still wanna leave the hometown and thinking of money...

I hope he kept my letters and everything... Now,I'm better...

How, I wish to see Mitch and only if I can turn back the time...

But you Daniel, I hope we can meet up soon even as good friends or group now that I needed your hands...

9:57 am

Done,watching... Loving Pamela... I think she is a homecoming queen but spotted...

10:58 am

My moment ... This is my moment...

Wow! Yummy... My moment... Simple but elegant ;)

My yummy patah ;)

12:27 noon

My final white fish & veggies...

1:43 pm

I feel bitter and I still feel ugly and fat and I'm thinking of money angels... I feel really ugly and I'm not fixing at all...

I wanna leave the hometown... I wanna buy starbucks everyday... I feel so ugly here in Cavite, I can't find my old bf's and some group stole my bf's and I can't meet new upper bf's who are willing to help me fly...

Later, will attend the party of my niece Cassie, I think she is my 2nd favorite after Phem2x...

Will be wearing something like a kiddoe outfit the disadvantage of being poorish..

3:05 pm

Weird feeling...I feel lazy but I will attend the party of my niece Cassie in Mc Donulds....Weird... Coz it is nearly summer...

4:09 pm

Someone stole my key room again... It feels like unlucky day...

4:11 pm

I saw it on the floor....

4:46 pm

My brother

My sister in law and my sister at the back..

With mother of Janna, Tita Joanna...

7:24 pm

The party is over.... It was kinda weird for a 7 year old celebrant, to have a 7 roses, 7 lollipops, 7 candles...

I was really shocked when I heard my name that I was one of her godmother... I just wished her a good fate, be a good girl, have a good heart, be religious and be pretty like me...

7:34 pm

My personal case:

I still have this self-pity and still wanna leave the hometown...

I feel fat and super ugly... I hate seeing skinny women... I don't feel the gang of George anymore, I was just decent there... His youngest daughter is skinnier than me, I don't like her... I sensed a demonic group on George.... I sensed a cult on George.... They are successful and I can't go up...

They need to eat skinny people... I'm still thinking of money and I'm thinking of better chances in life....

9:12 pm

I still have the windblow trap... I feel self-pity... I can't see my old bf's, I need a lift these days... I can't see JP, I need a lift for old time sake... I can't meet new upper men's friends, I need a lift...

To be continued....

[ohimesama]

2.11.23 Saturday

5:46 am

Good Mowninglezz angels... Another example of the old me and a caregiver get-up in Japan... I posted here already that Japan doesn't want ignorant people... I always wear my leggings or tights coz I used to do basics gymnastics...

I mean there are some judgemental on me and most specially those other tricycle driver's, who judged me... Remember the "Pepsi thingy", the issue of Tito, Vic & Joey...

I mean I have a clean conscience... I used to wear boots ever since I was a kid coz our family background are mixed people there are some college graduate and others are into ARTS! Arts meaning way back my family owned a Karaoke Bar Club somewhere in Makati... It was owned by my adoptive parent's the younger sister of myr biological mother who is married with a japanese and they were the one who supported me to finish my education since high school until college that I got my college diploma in B.S. Biology batch 2004 product of De La Salle....Due to life reality bites, sometimes the wheel of fortune is not yet on our hands but good thing and I hope that the heart of Uncle DD and Aunt Karen are good or pure coz they have the link on the circle of wings of friendship....

The way I dress was originally tinted with a Japanese Fashion coz my biological mother used to go to Japan since she had have me during her teenage years....She needs to work for me at the young age of 18....Since I was a kid all of my stuff were coming from Japan... But they always told me to humble your heart. Still,there are some judgemental people in this world and in Lacub...

Again, ignorant people are not allowed in Japan...

6:54 am Punch-in but 7:18 am now...

First routine on going...

7:29 am

Mommy Adnil's meal this morning ;)

7:41 am

It is Saturday,I'm so happy if LJ is here though she is just in her room but at least there is someone here...

Whew! I had fear from last week coz of some negative issues that people told me about here, about R-None family...

Last week, I felt that there were spirits in the first kitchen coz of the 2 lights were open, the lights having 3 bulb and it is both placed on both sides of the ceiling meaning there are 6 rectangular oblong shapes bulb, 3 on the left and 3 on the right... It was really a goosebumps for me here last week..

Me and LJ were there and I knew that we had this weird connection... I felt the fear on her as well 50%... But I didn't ask her or open this topic for us to maintain our strength and maturity...

Whew! My job shift here is just temporary but thankful for Anid and here when it comes to professionalism... But as a partner even as friends there are some missing loophole on Anid... I felt that she will never back me up in times of danger or friends or partner as friends should talk their fears coz we are on caregiver status here as our professional title as of the moment.

Lemme continue the story, last week, Mommy Adnil told me that he saw a person at my back or outside her room but the thing was that time only the 2 of us here... LJ was in her school in Lyceum and Ms Enaoj was on her way from Phillipines Airlines office... Goosebumps but I told Mommy Adnil, mommy there was no person and I tried to ignore it...

After her dinner,I have to brush Mommy Adnil's teeth on the first kitchen... Then,in a lil while LJ arrived from her school and she brought a cat food... While, I was cleaning Mommy Adnil's teeth, LJ was arranging the cat food and checking her cats and I think even that cat bowl plates...

I've already mentioned the windblow trap cult... This windblow for religious people they will truly understand this windblow thingy. Or the windblow coming from a priest to protect you or a whisper coming from a lover or someone who cares for you or just a windblow trap just to trap and control your entire life and being...

So,let's go back to the main story here... That night while I was cleaning Mommy Adnil's teeth, I already have the windblow sometimes they are good but I just hate if they will just trap me for nothing but hoping for protection. There is windblow in a religious way, a ritual coming from the living people... But that time I sensed an actual spirits there in the first kitchen as if there were people actually talking between us me and LJ... So, I got panicked and I slightly took a glimpsed of her and I saw LJ suddenly stood up and open the other 3 lights aside from the devilish lights 3 on both sides... Then, I focused myself on cleaning Mommy Adnil's teeth...

Probably, coz the 3 devilish lights on both sides are too bright... It is too bright as if there is a party or gathering... or some bad spirit from the other world came here in their house or a spirit from the death group or a judge from the dead group... They were talking or discussing something there that time...

Or a hint of massacre here....I told you angels, my nature is really a good person....If I can throw out the negative spirits I will... But those spirits were dead really, a judged somewhere...

My prayer:

Oh! Truly angels from up above,save and always protect me....Safe me from harm... You are my God the powerful God....Safe the people who are genuine to me... You know the fake people on me,punish them with pain and death...

Sinclair a sun from somewhere let her envelope me with her protection in this world... In the name of Jesus Amen...

9:30 am

Just being on my position here angels...

I asked my employer if I can have the 1 box of their ice cream...Last Monday Ms Yoj, the other nurse sister of Ms Enaoj invited me to eat an ice cream coz she bought ice cream she told me... Today,I just remember and I texted Ms Enaoj if I can bring a 1 box of ice cream since I'm just their caregiver it is the right of a caregiver to ask permission if not,it is ohkay... Coz I know the father and son here are on a diet... Coz Ms Enaoj and her daughter are both on short hairs...

Another ,harmless act!

10:19 am

About my vagina? It is ohkay now... Betadine is effective, itchiness is gone but I still need to do some derma down there... I feel so conscious.... I did have pimple down there.. Looks so ugly.. I think so... I feel so conscious...Anyways, I feel confuse now that I'm menopause or just stress... A pause of my menstruation due to stress...

11:11 am

The butt bedsore of Mommy Adnil is wet again....It looks like it is going back to its old look

But last Monday, I was with Ms Yoj it was almost dry...Even the pinkish on the upper part of the butt...

12:20 noon

I'm gonna discuss something... Probably Mommy Adnil ordered Anid to use the plain nss with clorox to clean her butt bedsore... Coz Ms Yoj and I had our duty last Monday and Ms Yoj took a picture that it is already nearly dry in a lil while...

Always Ms Enaoj is the best....Whatever I did was taught by Ms Enaoj... Then last Wednesday I got her, she ordered something on Anid coz suddenly she insisted that plain nss with clorox to use it and I said no it is just for the deep hole wound... Then, she talked to her daughter about the process of cleaning if Anid or Me is correct but Ms Enaoj is the best!

1:29 am

Yehey! LJ gave me 2 boxes of ice cream! I'm gonna bring it home... I found out they have 3 boxes of ice cream... Yehey!!! SUPER HAPPY!!!

1:41 pm

Hmmm Still, thinking of connivance? conspiracy? Hmm.... Who is with them? What is their planned? Who done it???

5:50 pm

Kuya Oliver will fetch me later...

More stories later... I just care genuinely for Mommy Adnil... I care a lot ;)

Dinner time,eating her biscuits and drinking her milk...

7:02 pm

My mind is confuse... Still,having windblow trap... Kuya Oliver fetched me and went to Ate Sally's store and she wasn't there....So, I just bought a plastics and her helper probably, told me that Ate Sally is in the church of church of christ... I said Oh! I see... I was really, really, really shocked...

Whew! I forgot to bring the ice cream...

Mommy Adnil told me that don't forget the things that I taught you... Strange...

About her cleaning solution....We discussed it awhile ago that Mommy Adnil told me that both are correct... I told Mommy Adnil I didn't say that Anid is wrong coz she ordered Anid to use the plain nss with clorox on her butt where the skin is growing back supposed to be... We all know angels that the plain nss with clorox can burn the skin if you apply it on the returning surface of our flesh like for example the epidermis layer, supposed to be returning smoothly... I said Mommy Adnil I didn't decide or create my own way of cleaning your bedsore it was all coming from Ms Enaoj... With my respect with the rest of R-none, I explained using my calm and flat voice or as if I'm talking to a child coz I was a former English On-line tutor for kids from 5 years old up to 16 years old...

Again, the solution plain nss with clorox is manily for the deep hole coz the flesh is still open and it is full of bacteria's... So, according to Ms Enaoj it was a formula of their company doctor in Philippine Airlines... It is the best solution to heal an open wound or deep hole bedsore...

8:11 pm

I washed underpads and some butt foam today for Mommy Adnil's butt bedsore... They have washing machine and I just used delicate...

So,probably Ms Enaoj didn't come home... It is caregiver's responsibility to wash stuff for Mommy Adnil...

8:23 pm

One more thing how can you be angry on Mommy Adnil if you are her caregiver and when it is time to remove her teeth... You will see that she's really an old woman, angels...Just be careful when evil spirit is entering her body...

8:49 pm

My personal thing as a person:

I want to buy starbucks everyday....I wanna see JP again for some important matter in life. I wanna have some progress...

I saw JP's messenger but I can't pass through... I need my own bf's...I feel so defeated and self-pitying...I'm still thinking of money...

Still, dreaming to meet my dream arab man/men hahaha.....Still, thinking of personal progress...

Self-pitying... No lifestyle but I'm just able to wear my old clothes...

[ohimesama]

2.10.23 Friday

6:53 am Punch-In! But 7:13 am now...

First routine on going... Good Morning Angels...

I was with Kuya Oliver...

7:23 am

This house of Mommy Adnil R-None is full of symbols...I wonder why... Now, today this am.... Hmmm..... Usually there are 2 trash cans outside the room of Mommy Adnil but today and now only 1... Very immature people here...

It is supposed to be 2 trash cans... But look, angels...

Sometimes,angels people have to talk or verbalize their message or write a note or letter...

Going to their kitchen...Immature people here...

Someone just left the 2 breads inside the oven toaster...I told Ms Enaoj, "Karma begets Karma"... But why???

7:36 am

Mommy Adnil is eating her breakfast now... I need money,Ms Enaoj knew and I appreciate being here and I do care for Mommy Adnil coz all of us we will be like her,one day... Moment to learn her case, bedridden stage 4 butt bedsore...

But as individual still hoping and praying for progress in the future... In a lil while...

My Fear:

I have fear, so many fears... One of my fears is to get old or aging without money... I wanna aged with grace and I miss going to my derma, one day again...Someday...

I wanna aged just like other old people who can hire a caregiver but hoping for more success...

I do appreciate Mommy Adnil's hardwork on her Avon thingy...

8:01 am

I know my patients, I know my boss, I know it is ohkay to be friends with your boss or employer... I value friendship and I know the truth... I know the rules of professionalism and I also know how to be flexible... But I hope everyone is matured on viewing things... I need money, I know my credibility... Let's not make a small issue big just to destroy the professionalism... Coz in reality me and Anid only got half of 3500 per day... This is not about money but of course I need money... We value friendship, we crossed-out the ot... Let's be fair on giving each other a comment.

8:59 am

Done,cleaning Mommy Adnil's room and living room, again the living room is not really my task... It is just freewill coz there are so many pussy cats here....

The other trash can is over-lapped by the other...

9:03 am

Being a caregiver is not really easy... Your emotion will go up and down like what I posted sometimes you will get mental block...

Mommy Adnil is nice but like what I posted she is like a mother hen always protecting her 5 children most specially Ms Enaoj... That without Ms Enaoj approval we can't make a decision. Sometimes she is nagging on you that you will get confuse... But she is an old person already... Giving way can't harm you as a caregiver but explain your side to her family...

Being a caregiver in a private house can give anxiety to you as a caregiver, of course, this is private house you don't know the family here except if Nightingale will make a back-up but unfortunately there is no back-up coming from that fucking Nightingale.

I'm here as a caregiver and I'm different in our house and I was different before time that I was really pampered and had yaya's or assistant... Being a caregiver is a lonely job and you need to have full and over-flowing of maturity. It can give you a heavy anxiety and complex on your personality even if you are a college graduate or even a sales lady like Anid. It can makes you crazy but you have to balance your sanity...

My personal case:

I still want a progress and still thinking of money... I have so many missed things in life. I do have a self-pity in me coz of this windblow trap cult of ManaloZ since 2007? I feel low coz of the windblow trap....I wasn't able to grow as a successful person, that gives me a self-pity...

I wanna buy starbucks everyday, I wanna see camel and donkey... Things that I wanna do... I wanna gain upper men's friends... But now, I feel that someone is caging me unfairly since 2007... I feel self-pity... Still,thinking of money.

And this how can you see me??? I LOVE THE AL-MAKTOUMS PRETTY FACES... Many more Al-Maktoums....CAN'T POST EVERYONE HERE... Pretty faces...

For the interfering women and group:

Get your own bf's... Stop getting my type... I feel bitter coz all my exes and bf's were stolen...

10:42 am

I feel confuse... I'm already menopause angels... It didn't really come out from my spotting last monday.... My future is gone...But again having a child is just an additional evidence of some couple's love... or I would wanted to gain genuine men's upper friendship with stability...

I wanna have a better life... I wanna be successful... I wanna buy starbucks everyday...

6:28 pm

Kuya Oliver will fetch me tonight after my duty...

[ohimesama]

2.9.23 Thursday

Special Post:

Spoiled John,love by mommy Peachy ;)

11:01 pm

Sleeping already my baby John...

[ohimesama]

2.9.23 Thursday

Special Post :

10:27 pm

Spoiled John...Love mommy Peachy...

[ohimesama]

2.9.23 Thursday

5:43 am

I still have this fucking cult of windblow trap of Manaloz? I go for Sinclair and her dog! A true sun! Genuine star...

Mowninglezz.... I have duty today on Mommy Adnil... I feel blessed but hoping and praying for more progressive state of me... Hoping and praying as well for Mommy Adnil's fast recovery... In a lil while she needs an occupational therapist... In a lil while.

I'm still thinking of money angels and I feel bitter in a way, I think it is the end of life, I think I'm menopause already... 16 years of faking of people in the rituals, cult of ManaloZ.

Early in the morning this Uncle Jun,I don't know if this is fake or real... Coz I washed my clothes yesterday and suddenly it rained in the late afternoon, Uncle Jun helped me to transfer my clothes in the garage...Uncle Jun commented this morning, what about your clothes in the garage coz there will be workers today....I hope nobody will steal my old clothes....I said Uncle Jun kindly tell the workers to transfer my clothes if the sunshine will go out,if not I hope they can make a way... Coz they are still straining the sand in the garage... Uncle Jun will have his duty in baranggay as well...The problem this am coz there will be workers of Uncle DD in the garage creating their dreams, their house there at the side of the kitchen... So, I hope the worker of Uncle DD will give respect to me,I don't know where to put my washed clothes...

Morning Angels!

6:53 am Punch-In but 7:10 am

On going morning ritual of Mommy Adnil...

7:49 am

Done,serving Mommy Adnil her breakfast...

I talked to Ate Sally this am the store owner in-front before actually going inside here in Mommy Adnil's village... I figured out that the Popoy tricycle is owned by his father. I'm kinda shocked but I said oh! really... The one has a printed name "Popoy" inside the tricycle... Ate Sally said yes! But my father let it used by 3 different driver's, and guess what angels? One of them is Kuya OJ... I said oh! really...

Ate Sally told me that Kuya OJ looks like a mestizos or yellowish chinky eyes... Hmmm... There I got confused coz my main hint is the printed name inside the tricycle "Popoy"...

Kuya Eidor fetched me this am, I mean I already walked inside the subdivision coz there were no available tricycle in the front lane, everyone got a passenger... While walking Kuya Eidor arrived and I went to him and rode his service and told him to fetch me later, after my shift... Going to the street of Mommy Adnil I saw a man riding a bicycle selling pandesal or bread and I think that is Kuya OJ... But what and why? Now, a seller of breads?

Behaviour of Kuya Salve is weird but not really harming me or anything... It is just that,he is not existing but I think he bought a new mobile coz he can text now... I'm happy for him...

9:36 am

My menstruation stopped? I had spotting then now my napkin is clear white....I have so many frustration in life and those people who are part of whatever movement....SINCE 2007...16 YEARS ANGELS...They made me nothing...

The purple or lavender car on a fully tinted is gone,replaced by a white van... Weird... I mean here in Mommy Adnil's house...

I still have this windblow trap cult of ManaloZ?

Uncle DD wants a different history? Are they linking here??? I'm thinking a lot of things..

People here in Mommy Adnil's circle are all college graduate... She got 5 children all are college graduate... 1 engineer, 2 nurses, 1 business woman, 1 died the gay son, I don't know what was he....

9:55 am

Mommy Adnil is on her rosary prayer...Praying as well for her fast recovery...

Me? I need to find my new group of upper friends... I need a lift.... I'm having self-pity and I feel frustrated...

11:51 am

Done,shampooing and cleaning Mommy Adnil's flower but there's more...

Something is strange on cleaning her butt bedsore... No blaming a particular but Ms Yoj and Me, we were here last monday...

I knew it that Anid and Mommy Adnil were competing on something here....It is actually between them,angels...

The first time I saw them when Anid was showing me the routine they were having argument on something... That this is the way mommy Adnil said and Anid will say this is the way...

12:56 noon

Whew! Lemme just continue the story and my observation here...

I just got in coz of Anid... I know Anid is already 1 year here... They were both fighter Mommy Adnil and Anid the first time I saw them doing their routine...

So, I was scared and I take and took everything seriously... I updated my beloved fake on me my professor Mr Xela for the guidance and back-up but I did respect Anid for being here since last year of August...

At one point Mr Xela asked me what is the stage of the butt bedsore and I said I think this is stage 4... I took the picture and sent to Mr Xela and he agreed on me that yeah! That is already stage 4 as you can see the wounds are deep and when I arrived here I saw the wound on the lower butt was really deep hole and almost you can see the bones but Mr Xela told me that it is showing signs of healing... Eventually after couple of weeks, Mr Xela's words were real... It is getting better and the skin tissues are starting to grow back...

So, Anid told me that there was a plain nss solution and there was a betadine... Just clean the butt bedsore... The first time I observed while Anid was cleaning it...I smelled something like a smell of zonrox... I was really shocked! Then, I said hey! Anid are you sure that this is the solution? Anid said yeah! Peachy, why? I answered her with a shocking emotion, I said Anid but it smells like a zonrox? I got shocked! This is zonrox Anid! Anid told me yeah! It has zonrox, Mam Enaoj made that solution... Then ,I shut my mouth and I said ohkay....

After awhile....Ms Enaoj asked me to have my duty on Monday though it is supposed to be my off... So, I went here and she discussed me something about the routine and I asked her about the plain nss but smells like a zonrox...

So, she taught me to clean the wound on the lower butt,the deep hole wound, she took a cotton and put a betadine and inserted her pointer finger and told me just clean it this way and the outer sides...

I said what about this plain nss solution, I asked her why it smells like a zonrox? Since Ms Enaoj is a company nurse... She said yeah! It is a mixed solution of their company doctor she told me that 1L plain nss or saline solution + 10 cc of clorox ( original bleach no flavor ) to clean the butt bedsore but!

But she told me only on few amount but not on the outer healing skin of the entire butt coz it will burn the skin...But on the deep hole wound you should wet the square gauze a plain nss solution with clorox and just put it inside the hole... But not on the outer healing side of the butt...

Coz my observation today it is somehow wet again the entire butt and the wounds on the healing skin of butt...

And I asked Ms Enaoj if I can just use betadine to clean the entire skin of the wound on the butt, she told me yeah! It is safer than the plain nss solution with clorox, it is mainly for the deep hole wound...

So,angels this is the caregiver some issues to encounter....

I told Anid,hoping we can finish this butt bedsore of Mommy Adnil by April and let her transfer to an occupational therapist.

Awhile ago, suddenly Mommy Adnil seems forgetting me just for 2 days that I had my off... Suddenly,she is ordering me and telling me on how to clean her butt bedsore... She told me that you should use that plain nss not the betadine! She shouted awhile ago....I got shocked...

Grrr... Hehehe I answered back on Mommy Adnil in a nice way... I told her Mommy I was doing this from the past days and it really dried your bedsore quickly and this method was taught by Ms Enaoj...

Mommy Adnil insisted that no! You always go there and getting a cotton with a betadine... I said Mommy but it really works... But today I couldn't say that her butt is wet and looks like having some pus...

1:40 pm

My personal issue here:

I still have left aching sciatica and having both sides pelvic pain... I have anxiety thinking coz my menstruation suddenly gone...It was just spotting last Monday and didn't actually come out... whew!!!

3:06 pm

Done,feeding the dogs and the puppy is now a fighter, he is already part of the group. It is a relief for me... Coz I was worried from the past dàys...That the puppy couldn't eat coz the adult dogs were threatening him... But today I saw him that he is already fighting just to get a food.

I still have the windblow trap....I feel frustrated on being menopause at 41 and can't get an upper friends who can lift me... I don't know... I need money and still thinking of money and wanna buy starbucks..

I want new fresh men's friends... In time.. With pretty faces and sanity and nice set of teeth...

4:57 pm

I still have the windblow trap... I feel fat and ugly... I hate the windblow trap cult of Manaloz, unfair group since 2007... I feel self-pity coz of them... I feel that I'm always out of place coz of those fuckers on that windblow trap.... Totally unfair!

Done,doing mobility massage on both legs...

9:23 pm

Spoiled! Love by mommy Peachy, so much...

9:42 pm

[ohimesama]

2.8.23 Wednesday

12:23 am

Done,cleaning the 5 kids here ;)

WE ARE ON HELP-SALE ;) We need money here ;) Thanks Angels!

7:21 am

Done,watching this wow! I'm still thinking of money and these irresponsible cult are having thicked-face...They just took away my styles and my personalities and mostly on TV having link with the crowd... 16 years of taking away even my life...

Some crowd are judgmental on me... Some crowd wanted to observe me... I hate being copied unfairly...

7:25 am

I feel bitter, I lost attention in the Philippines coz of that fucking fake cult on TV linking on the crowd....How can they say we're friends? If they are earning and having a beauty therapy and their inguinal is very,very,very smooth...

I still have this windblow trap cult since 2007... I wanna have new set of fresh taller than me men's friends with stability... I wasn't able to meet new decent and mature men's friends. I'm on my menopausal and it hurts me so much, so much that a particular cult just took away my exes and now they're having family and me? I'm on a hanging bridge... And it hurts so much that they already got kids and this windblow trap made me stupid for 16 years...

But I'm so choosy on getting men's friends... I want someone intelligent...Someone who can understand my needs and my views about life, a man friend who can just laugh at me and say that bullshit ohkay yeah! Coz you are my friend!

I have complex that I wanna give birth and I don't wanna give birth coz I feel fat and ugly... I feel that I'm not fulfilled...

My truth and my pain:

I was a choir member and I never say a bad thing on anyone... But this windblow came into me since 2007 for 16 years now...I'm so in pain...

Time that I was so active inside that fake Church of Christ, I mean still some are on my side,some aren't on my side and that's bullshit! I thought Church Of Christ would be in one...

Time that I was super active in the choir, I used my voice, my mouth, and my tongue 101% holy.. I mean my soul is holy,that when I sing there in the top-middle front of the church, everything was holy in me... Meaning I put everything in my heart and I live having a good flow with people like on the bible... Don't backstab a friend, don't make gossip... An issue is different on gossip... We opened an issue for our self-awareness and self-protection...

The 3 eggs of Eat Bulagah the TiTo,Vic & Joey had a very sensitive issue that they raped and killed the actress named Pepsi Paloma, those were their major issue!

10:25 am

Done,cooking our lunch here and dinner as well coz I don't have duty today...

Hmm...Still,thinking of money and more money... This is not my ideal life... But thankful for Mommy Adnil's office-house coz that earning is basically for John and I to survive our some basics needs in life but I'm not contented... 16 years of being trapped for nothing... I have so many wasted dreams for 16 years they just planned to make me ugly and fat and stole my exes and my some good friends and new possibilities that I'm supposed to have... I need money for my starbucks everyday and I wanna have my own thingy like a business... My crown is always stolen by some fake me who wanted to be for 16 years... They reversed the people and throw me at the back stage, put me on the waiting list always but they stole everything from me...

I wanna see donkey and camel... I wanna idol Mommy Adnil's some branded kitchen stuff.. I wanna go back to the time that we had our own oven here, I mean the big oven if you are a baker kind of woman... But! I love beautifying so much... I wanna do gluta shots and polish my teeth again... But I need more money and I need money. I can be a professor one day but I need more fundings and money... Longing to do my derma and wanna show our beauty me and John in the future dog show modeling...

I really wanna have my own house and once again I wanna idol Mommy Adnil's for her La Germania gas range stove coz it is double price of our standard Hanabishi gas range stove. Coz the La Germania when you open the fire,everything is super synchronize....Wow! I'm so amazed by the blow of fire coming from the gas range stove... I want Mommy Adnil's Imarflex multi-cooker and I said wow! I only have my first air fryer from Lazadah. Hoping for an upgrade... About the non-stick wok, we also used to have it here and I don't know, all suddenly gone but I didn't know how to cook just recently after taking my 2nd course my vocational caregiving year 2018 but I'm a Biology graduate angels 2004 product of De La Salle...

Mommy Adnil's wok are all non-stick and it is so amazing coz no splashing of oil and sometimes you don't need an oil if you are using non-stick pan...

1:03 pm

My God! Uncle DD called me about the opening of AC in the room of RV that Uncle Jun mentioned on him...

Uncle DD said that Aunt Teresa was really,really angry again coz of opening of AC of RV. I just said as far as I know Uncle Jun told RV that he shouldn't use their AC coz we are not using AC here even the washing machine, coz of tight budgeting...

I told Uncle DD I don't want to interfere on that issue coz RV will say on me that what about you, you don' t have a share on bills here... In short Uncle Jun should be the breaker in this situation coz he is living here these days and he is the Uncle on the family position.

But from the past month we only have 4500 to 5k pesoses only in our electric bill coz we don't use ac and washing machine .

Yeah! The family here is sardines.. Chipay but we can't do anything about it... Yeah! Uncle DD is making their house here at the side of the kitchen...

I feel embarrass here there's no man in the family... I can't accept a suitor....All of the men here are as well are vagina'Z... Everyone is VaginaZ.... There will be no super hero...

I feel irritated again on Nightingale and on that crazy Mr Xela, a bad person coz he is not interested even if the situation is life and death...

How will you considered a family is Chipay? This is the house of my adoptive parent's and the side of the kitchen outside will be the house of Uncle DD.... I only have my old room there at the terrace... I need money and I want money and I need big money for my own future... I don't know I have a windblow trap...

That bullshit Nightingale and Mr Xela are all bunches of plastics they just accepted our 100k and didn't give us assistance on going out...

My point if ever I have the way to lift up a family,I will do it in a distance if it is coming from the heart or I'm gonna be a wind beneath their wind beneath their wings but I'm gonna fly as well on different place...

I'm not sleeping in my room to conserve the electric but I just go up to arrange my things and I'm taking care of my dog and my grandmother...

I always tell Uncle DD to get a house in Avida or other village though they are helping here on paying the bills... That is maturity, if he has access on that organization... Philippines organization of fundings for circle of wings,wings of friendship...

I'm just on my own and now sadly I don't have any group... That's why I feel bitter I can't meet or get upper friends coz of my situation... I need money and I need big money.

3:29 pm

I still need money and I wanna buy scrubs and do beauty therapies... Not happy that my skin is damaged now and still, can't get an earning to shoulder a particular bill...

I really feel ugly my skin on legs are damaged again... I feel irritated and ugly... I don't wanna be with white women having white and smooth skin, I will just feel intimidated...

How can do my gluta shots.. I want to have a progress in life... I wanna leave the hometown....

[ohimesama]

2.7.23 Tuesday

11:24 am

My sciatica is aching and still having windblow trap... I feel bitter and low...

I wanna leave the hometown... I'm still thinking of money... I need more money... I want upper friends but thankful for the good people along the way...

I wanna leave the hometown...

Hoping for more progressive state in life.My dream is to be Queen but I can't exist correctly...

THANKFUL FOR MY JOB, MY OFFICE-HOUSE IN LACUB... But hoping for a progress a good story twist...

I wanna have gluta shots and I wanna have men's group with pretty face and stability.

I feel jealous if my exes and my boy friends and my target bf's stole from the past years...

I wanna have a fresh start with men having pretty face and sanity to assist me... I want men friends...

12:44 noon

2nd bottle of mamah Neko...

9:34 pm

For the story here and genuine story I just bought a 1 liter of fresh milk on Uncle Jun for payment of cleaning John's floormat... I still have small amount of earnings... Some breads here for my nana... Hoping I can buy more breads in the next few days..

I feel fat and ugly... I need more money and I can't save money now, I need a progress in life...I miss going to gyms... Still, having this windblow trap... I want a beauty therapy...

I tried looking for vaginal gel of Betadine, it is not yet available here... I saw it on google, it is existing in arab country... Hope the arab can import these vaginal gel...

I feel conscious down there... Can't go back to my obgyne super tight budgeting....

I'm announcing to meet new set of men's friends who can speak English or Taglish with stability having a nice set of teeth just like my exes...

All my ex bf's are tall and having nice skin and nice set of teeth... I USED TO WEAR MY TEETH BRACES.... I know I have to go back to my dentist but I don't have money now... I hate the cult of Manaloz, imagine 16 years of snatching or stealing my youth...

9:50 pm

Hmm... Suddenly ate Cha store is selling "Pepsi"... Is Ate Cha,a traitor???

9:58 pm

My exes were just like me angels...

I was a choir member....I was religious... I grew-up in the church, one of the reasons all of my exes wanted me to be skinny and perfect all over... It was supposed to be our fun... I was normally chubby, all my exes wanted me to be skinny at one point in our future lives...

Looking forward supposed to be with the Al-MaktoumZ....

I don't wanna be church of christ anymore... My heart says no!

I really wanna be with new fresh pretty face of men having sanity, stability and willing to have a mature relationship with me... Of course a mature man will never be in a hurry...

Just like Doc Miguel, he was a friend of my biological father and I didn't know that he is married but we were just friends... I was a lady like when we dated way back but now, it is just weird I'm becoming 13 again... I feel fat and ugly and I'm broke...

10:34 pm

I want privacy in life that some family and relatives and some people are always wanting to know about me just to steal my personality and stuff that I had and some are stolen...

I just figure out now,that the tinted of my sliding window is reverse at night with lights on,people outside will see me...

Uncle Jun suddenly knocked on my window and I got shocked that he was intellectual nearly observing me, he said the ac of RV is open and tell him that it is not allowed... When I asked him if he can see me here, he said no unless he came closer... When I went out he said that the ac of RV is off already and when I checked in our terrace the winddow of my room, it can clearly see me...

I put a curtain and you can't see me anymore....

10:51 pm

Let's go back to the issue... I have this windblow trap since 2007... I feel bitter that I wasn't able to get a new set of bf's/ friends since 2007... I feel so fat and ugly... When it comes to beauty,money and career, that cult of ManaloZ took it all away from me...

Theory:

People or Family should know boundaries but must give a genuine care...Like for example being observer in a good way like I think I have a killer that wanting to harass me there in Lacub that Kuya OJ that thing in the family and in the circle of friends should give an attention with genuine care. This is a special case!

[ohimesama]

2.6.23 Monday

5:30 am

I'm gonna show them what is the real caregiver looks in Japan and in upper society... The employer on the upper society will never get jealous on me... A caregiver must be matured!

Probably they will hate me in Lacub...

In Japan they will never get a low class caregiver and mostly a college graduate just went down for emergency cases... Probably the people in lacub are ignorant...

7am Punch-In but 7:21 am

On going morning routine...

I saw Kuya OJ and I just said You will not have a trip using his tricycle now? I just flipped my hand negatively that meaning mind your own life...

It looks like he is copying me and now very angelic face...

RC wanting of recognition... Nausea...

8:12 am

8:30 am

I talked to Ms Yoj, she mentioned that issue not here, the big house on the corner lot at the end side of this street... That the issue there it was about big money,about five-six....Someone went in and shot the father there... But I told her that the people told me that, the body was just brought right away by the Funeral Parlour.. She agreed on me yeah! The body was right way fetched by a funeral car.

But some statement she just agreed with me... Anyways, I just want our safety here, me and Anid as professional caregiver here in R-None.

Coz Mommy Adnil has a money here and that is my fear as a leader of Avon... My fear the issue about her gay son killed her husband, what if the gay-son will visit here and hostage us coz of Mommy Adnil's wealth.

9:01 am

I need to be active again on radio angels... If I have money I'm planning to buy a radio, baofeng.

9:08 am

9:56 am

Kuya Eidor was the tricycle driver who brought me here this morning...

10:05 am

I still have the windblow trap and I hate that cult of ManaloZ...

I still hope & pray to buy starbucks everyday... Still, wishing to have my own life....I wanna join a dog show for my baby John.

I wanna do gluta shots and remove my varicose veins on both of my legs due to stress started this weird pandemic...

I wanna meet new upper bf's and friends where I can find my true beat... But meeting good people along the way,if they can offer a genuine friendship...I will be very,very,happy...

10:29 am

Uncle DD just gave me ring call....

10:34 am

Wanna be a Billionaire...

10:57 am

Beautiful Lawyer Sinclair is hiding at the back of the curtain... Always with her aristocrat dog, every trial and court she's been through and will have...

I saw her once on TV but I know she would never wanted to be famous here...But what a beautiful Sinclair, a sun I can say....

I'm trying to find the picture of Sinclair but for sure she would not love to be posted....A high-class lawyer....One of the true stars....

12:56 noon

Mommy Adnil's lunchie...

2:07 pm

The 3 eggs of eat bulagah having a links with here probably on Kuya OJ for that GR thingy...

Hmm....What about the fake Manaloz? I go for "sinclair" ... Why will they will request for a GR? What a thick-face group...

GR is a law in the Philippines where it is legal for that particular group to kill, having links with some police and most specially the personalities on TV like the Pepsi Paloma issue of tito,vic and Joey...

Will probably GR is "We believe that the accused is guilty of frustrated murder." Sample situation of GR such as of case here on Kuya OJ who wore his Pepsi Jacket twice and changing his facial expression into a monster...

Or was it coming from Boy Abunda and some ManaloZ? There is a flow of GR on TV and outside the TV... What about GR for Boy? If he is traitor?

I go for "Sinclair"....A real sun... A genuine beauty....Save me Sinclair....

7:55 pm

Thanks Kuya Eidor for fetching me tonight, this am and tonight...

He is the one who is having a heart disease... What am I gonna do? But to comfort him to pray for more life and help and miracle...

Kuya Salve called me but Kuya Eidor already fetched me...

Probably on Thursday but never Kuya OJ, coz Pepsi hint I take it seriously...

Kuya OJ has a printed name inside his tricycle named "Popoy"... as far as I can remember...

2 days ago or 3 days ago, I saw my dog had a strange behaviour... Whenever I go to my office-house work on Mommy Adnil, my baby dog the usual thing he is sleeping like a baby...

I saw my dog just sitting on my feet near me and under the table near me as if he was protecting me on something... It happened 2 consecutive days...The first one my baby dog went to me on the sofa and kissing me, but it was too early...I can sensed that there was a planned on me to be killed by that Kuya OJ... He wore the Pepsi twice on the 2nd time it was just weird. Kuya OJ face particularly his eyes were like monster.

I know Kuya OJ can read this ,this am he was there on the main road as well, looking at me... I need my angels,he sounds like a muslim...

2 days ago, John is crying while sleeping but this time differently...I felt that I'm a ghost and seeing my dog will cry and will be super lonely if I die...

10:50 pm

Probably will stream if I still have energy on Tagged...

I still have the windblow trap... I need new friends along the way and upper friends having good face that can help me to go back to my original beat and who can lift me... Having sanity and fair mindset... Religious but matured!

[ohimesama]

2.5.23 Sunday

5:39 am

Still have the windblow trap and I feel jealous... Suddenly I feel jealous of the life and my situation and I can't find my people...

When I was a child I always dream to have my own kingdom,angels and fall-in love with a King Or Prince...

I love the arab man....But I can't exist...

Frustrations and more frustration....Spinning me without a bottle and without direction...

I did let go of an another crown coz if he was playing never took me seriously, it was all a waste of time... If he take another and took someone and forgot me, at least I know that man doesn't worth my heart... Mostly FilipinoZ are fake men... Mostly,some....I didn't say all...

7:23 am

I feel bitter...My down there still itchy and dry... But it lessen by Betadine but still itchy, all of a sudden...I have vagina pimple... I feel bad, I need to do a flower therapy... It needs a derma just like my face before...

8:24 am

I feel bad,a creature that fuck unknown creature bit me on my legs....Weird!

I don't wanna be a church of christ! I want ManaloZ be dead for their cult...

10:03 am

Anid texted me for next week... Thanks Anid... Looking forward for fast recovery of Mommy Adnil...

But we are not partner's me and Anid, hmm... We are just linking professionally, there is a decent professional care on me as my classmate in Nightingale... Coz Anid knew that I needed that duty for my son-dog and my flower probably... I do have family providence but we are on a tight budgeting these days...

So, I just can't trust Anid that much on my safety but I know as a mature and considered adult, I'm no longer her responsibility but as a FRIEND... I just feel a decent connection, a professional connection...

But my main point as a FRIEND if Anid considered me one... I was expecting differently that she is supposed to give a big deal on this issue... I mean the crime issue of Mommy Adnil or probably a connivance on something...

If I were on her position, I would give a different reaction coz partner's should open their fears or whatever emotion they have... Partner's as even as FRIENDS... Backing-up each other...

I miss Mitch so much she was and still my real colleague in college way back in my Biology days in De La Salle... We moved as 1 but we have different strokes but in times of danger, we were together as 1...

10:38 pm

My other bro. is just somewhere I know....There was and are plastics coming from TV the 3 eggs, Pepsi issue.... Coz they are plastics! The 3 main old men... The facial expression of Kuya OJ changed into a monster...

Kuya OJ strange behaviour... He keeps on texting where am I, the tricycle driver in Lacub... But I already got Kuya Salve...

10:49 am

My baby dog knew if someone will kill me... My dog's behaviour is different for 2 days... He is always beside me early in the am that he wasn't like that...

I'm allowed to bring weapon sticks in public coz I was martial artist just for self-defense....My taekwondo and aikido... It is simply for self-defense.

Asking help from my fellow martial artist I have pelvic pain now...

I hate RC for just wanting of recognition...What a garbage jujitsu team! As a fellow martial artist it is our vow to help and use this skills of defense not to attack having a bad intention...

To be continued...

[ohimesama]

2.4.23 Saturday

6:55 am Punch-in but 7:13 am now:

I was with Kuya Salve....My service for today...

First routine angels on going...

7:41 am

Mommy Adnil still eating her breakfast & I'm drinking coffee..

10:43 pm

Done, shampooing and cleaning Mommy Adnil's flower...

What's the latest shout???

Awhile ago when I was cleaning her flower and I need to side Mommy Adnil's body to clean her butt bedsore...

Yesterday, I did the other position going to the right that I just crossed her right leg on a straight position and I was able to flip her without her commenting on me negatively or without negative reaction.

But our first original position when I need to flip her on her side, I lift her right leg on right angle if I want her to go on her left side, meaning I bend her right leg on right angle then push her gently as I can...

But today, when I was going to flip her going to her right side....Mommy Adnil is looking at me angels and suddenly shout...What are you doing Peachy? I said flipping you Mommy on the other side... Mommy Adnil said don't do that, lift my leg.... This technique is really for bedbound patient,angels.... But Mommy Adnil,will get mad at you if you do this...

Gets angels...

This an automatic bed...

11:28 am

Kinda early for 12 noon lunchie of Mommy Adnil.

12:45 noon

Done,eating....Mommy Adnil on channel 7,the 3 eggs are alive the Pepsi issue way back....The rape and killed by them, it was a big boom issue...

Me? Hmm... I still have the windblow trap cult of Manaloz? I still wanna buy starbucks everyday... Hoping 1 day will come I can leave the hometown for some good reason...

I'm thinking of money and I'm always out of place for 16 years since 2007...

3:01 pm

Something is weird on LJ here.... It seems putting a verdict on something... Putting some objects...Hmmm... Is it LJ?

Oh! I'm just here for Mommy and just working... Was it LJ the daughter of Ms Enaoj who was putting those objects around...

Awhile ago the room door upstairs was opened and I told Mommy Adnil that it was weirdly open and banging... So, Mommy just said close it and if the window is open close it...

The room door 3 upstairs was the one open and I went in, the size of the room was square and painted white and the window was slightly open. So, I closed it... But the lock of the room is on outside,meaning everyone can access the room 3?

If everyone can access the room 3, it is something positive...

4:07 pm

Hmm... Done,massaging the legs of Mommy Adnil....She can't accept the fact that when I incline and decline her bed, the underpads and the cloth underpads will be wrinkled and possible to go up... She said I'm always insisting that reason,but we tried and observed it... It really happened.... She will never accept it....

About LJ or Ms Enaoj if they are or were doing those objects here... Like the stopper on the stairs....The green hanger inside their extra room but you can't get the green hanger on the clothes hanger rack coz they put a wire, meaning the green hanger was trapped, just on the clothes hanger rack...

My point these are childish people but college graduate but bunches of childish people angels. If they are doing these objects symbolism without really explaining these things to a particular person.

Mommy Adnil wouldn't believe me that my lumbar support belt it is really for my pelvic pain, she keeps on telling that "you just want to trim your waistline, feeling mowdel"... I was laughing again and again, I told her no Mommy! It is really for my lumbar support...

8:32 pm

Thanks Kuya Salve for the genuine care...

[ohimesama]

2.3.23 Friday

6:55 am Punch-in! But 7am now :

Good Morning!

I was with kuya Jor... The pepsi guy was on the 2nd line Kuya OJ, I forgot to take our picture. Kuya OJ was wearing his Pepsi Jacket of "eat bulagah" the rapist issue act of the 3 eggs....

7:16 am

Morning routine on going...

8:27 am

Mommy Adnil still eating her breakfast and I texted Ms Enaoj if I can use their car here, that car here is just there most of the time in their garage...

I just texted her to ask a permission... Ms Enaoj told me it's the car of her brother Bojo. I said Bojo Molina the actor? Just a joke to relax the conversation...

I said it is ohkay Ms Enaoj,just asking and just a "harmless act".

Other employer they will give a car or let their extra car be used by their trusted caregiver... Most specially the upper family, I mean much more wealthier family. No malice, just explaining here...

Most specially their location it is kinda weird and far from the main gate...Other much more upper wealthier employer sometimes they will bring their caregiver on the main road...

Life is a case by case... It depends on the set-up and capacity of your employer or it depends on the deal. The freebies or good about being a caregiver.

10:35 am

Looking at Mommy Adnil's younger picture, she is petite but her face looks like a tall woman... She is really a teacher but her younger face looks like a "Flight Attendant'...

Let's wait for awhile angels, before I can post her pictures here... Hoping for her fast recovery...

12:14 noon

Lunch time... Done, doing her half-bath...

Mommy Adnil lunch meal for now...

12:50 noon

Done,eating lunch me and mommy Adnil...

I still have this fucking windblow cult of Manaloz...16 years!

This fucking cult made me feel jealous and I don't know if they will help me or just pulling me down since 2007...

I still have dream to buy starbucks everyday... Longing to have events in life... I wanna see donkey & camel...

I misses having attention....This windblow trap, what are their plan on me, since 2007...

I feel old, fat and ugly...I wanna meet good,upper people, people that can lift me...

1:30 pm

Probably you deserve this...

1:45 pm

In a lil while will feed the dogs...

It is reverse... :( Some lines are for you...Some lines are for me... Sometimes, love can't stay if you take so much more than I can give...

9:39 pm

I'm a good person and I'm really a concern citizen and I'm a good friend...

It is just really weird that I went to this Pal employer accidentally thru Anid...

Anid and I we went to the same caregiving school... It is just weird... I just hate being damaged on my professionalism and me as a concern citizen...

If I knew from the start that Ms Enaoj is working in PAL, I will never go in or will never go there...

But suddenly the care for Mommy Adnil it just flow naturally... We texted awhile ago me and Ms Enaoj and it sounds she didn't like my text...

Just for the record Mommy Adnil is still having awareness, no dementia! But seeing things lately it was a nature evil spirit and it is happening in this world as sign of warning...

As suma cumlaude of Nightingale Mommy Adnil doesn't have dementia. She is caring but sometimes full of spice... She is good-natured but if she is part of any movement or her way of protecting Ms Enaoj is just a sign of her being a mother...Like a mother hen... She can be evil as well...