#ayyeeeeeee

[regularbeans]

tlou spoilers ig idk issssmyopinion cause i cant tell linn about them cause she asked for no spoilers and i already yelled about it to sara and my sister and i dont know any more people.

i dont think there was anything i didnt like tbh. sarah was really gooddddd, the actor nailed that shit on the head. i like how they established more that tommy depends on joel, with the jail thing, and how they shared the job at the start, i think that was really good. there was more set up about the neighbours too, i just think all that was really cool.

none of the direct quotes from the game felt like pandering or fanservice, which i liked, all of them were really welcome for me. (Didnt think i would sob at hearing a teenage girl say "i sell hardcore drugs" as a joke but here we are.)

I liked that it was all from sarah's POV in the beginning. in the game one of the most poignant scenes is trying to escape in the car, how the adults are in the front seat making the calls and everything is happening around you and all you can do is turn the camera and watch. it was nice that you could like, see her interact with the world even if for a short bit. it didnt feel drawn out or unnecessary, it was sufficiently Paced.

none of the direct quotes from the game felt like pandering or fanservice, which i liked, all of them were really welcome for me. (Didnt think i would sob at hearing a teenage girl say "i sell hardcore drugs" as a joke but here we are.)

the worldbuilding was really nice, like im sure it couldve been done more extensively in the game as well, seeing the QZ and how it works and all that, not just through cutscenes but i do get why they wouldnt do it, they did, however, have time for it on the show, which i really liked. the whole circle of trades joel got through to get info on tommy. i love that tommy is more present from the beginning. like in the game we were looking for him when we find him but it comes up as an idea later in the game like "okay what now, ig lets go find tommy" but here he's already established to be. Out There. and something happened between him and joel that we dont know anything about yet.

i am wary of tess a liiiittle bit because annie wersching is just so fucking good. like when they said she walked into the audition As Tess, you just know they mean it. and i only ever saw anna torv as olivia in fringe and shes good in that but a part of her character is that she's a little grey and a little unnoticable and all that so. i was a little afraid. and sure she gives off a different vibe but she has that same gentleness juuust below the surface that game tess did, and i love that joel really is just the muscle, but tess is the brain and the authority in the pair.

so that was good.

marlene is 100%, i really loved her. i dont know why i thought seeing her wear the same simple clothes as game marlene did was such a huge deal that i had to hyperventilate, but you know. like dude, its a tank top, calm down.

anyway. i was fine with all of the changes, i dont think anything they changed took away anything from the characters. maybe i expected them to react to the fungi'd body a little differently. like the spores were already established and seeing a bitch like that should mean its about to start sporing but. maybe its just a detail that theyre. not. supposed to wear a gas mask at that point.

ig thats the one thing that made me go hOL'UP. but nothing else i can recall

the fireflies were alright, like we see the explosion from the game just somewhere else in the game so we see about as much of them in the show as in the game.

obviously, i think ellie's actor has the most to prove which, goddamn, thats gotta be Some pressure eh. but i think she did well. the few lines she had were well written, they got her character through well. but i also loved how once they were outside and in danger following tess and joel, she really was just a scared kid who's really just trying to Appear Big and scary by cursing and yelling and lashing out at new people and being a little brat.

i dont think i have any like, observations about her as of now. i liked her on screen, obviously shes never gonna be the same as ashley johnson ellie but i also dont want her to be? actually there were two lines where i felt like she was imitating game ellie (or it really just came across like that for my ears) and that actually bothered me more than when she was "different". which. she is, obviously x)

so yeah i really like her, to me it all hinges on her chemistry with joel. i think the actor will do a fine job if the dynamic is written well.

joel for now is kind of a blank slate i guess, classic hardened badass that he was in the game as well. so im excited for him to become a real character next to the cast of characters they'll meet along the way and as their relationship with ellie transforms.

for now, the show is really promising, it really got me hyped, i cried, i laughed, i literally screamed out loud when they mentioned riley x') so it had me in my tlou feels, definitely.

but im also wary because of the video game adaptation curse thats been going for centuries x) also for some reason adaptations often love to go tits up right before the ending? like they want to do something else something different and have their own moment. i expect and accept a lot more changes thats not the issue but just dont... steal the heart of the story, okay?

thank.

also i had no idea they kept gustavo for the music so i may have wept when i heard the theme song. i have sooOOO MANY fond memories of playing the game for the first time. it was such a special, special experience with giules in rome, playing a video game for the first time in my life, having so many great experiences just being with her family and all. listening to the OST on the beach together :")

ahh so good.

anyway, feels. yes. good. lets go. i have faith.

[scatterpatter]

Mikhail, Mikhail, watchu gonna do

Don't worry about it

[izloveshorses]

Why not all of them?

But just for starters, what about the one where they sneak around and fuck all summer? I think that's my favorite one of yours to read.

lol ayyeeeeeee i can work with that!!!

for clarification to those who missed, anon is asking for a director's cut commentary of this fic!

let's split this up section by section, bc it's a long fic 💀

section one:

we start us off with the classic post canon divergent "they missed each other on the bridge, so now anya is fully committed to being anastasia until one day dmitry strolls back into town" au. full disclosure i started this fic fully committed to not thinking too hard about very much ahdlksjf so dmitry literally strolls back into her life without any further explanation. in the fic before in this series, they obviously expressed some feelings ashldjkf but they didn't exactly Talk about any of it, so there's a lot left to be said here. but at the same time, once it's all out in the open-- that they simply miss each other-- they're on the same page and are able to start right where they left off, if that makes any sense.

idk how detailed you want me to be about the smut lol but in general i think anya is like always down to Jump him and dmitry has to catch up. and i think, based on descriptions of how the murder was executed (gunshots and bayonets to the chest) anya would have some pretty graphic scars that might cause some insecurity.

and when they're done, even tho they said they love each other, i think dmitry would still assume he wasn't welcome to stay the night/ that she didn't actually want him long term. which is dumb i know lol but he's an overthinker and has low self esteem, so can u blame him? so that moment towards the end of this section where anya asks him to stay was supposed to have a some emotional weight to it. and the line from the next morning, “I just really, really don’t want my second introduction with your grandmother to start with me buck naked in your bed," makes me laugh every time 🙈

section two:

this is how we go from just a silly night together to a ~pattern~. a habit. i like the bit with the tiara, this whole scene sort of spawned from that thought. i really really love writing pillow talk, which is this entire fic ahlskjdf so this scene they're just cuddling and chatting and i had a lot of fun <3 anya is sort of his common sense filter? she gives him very logical ideas of where to find a job and he's like oh i hadn't thought of that 🧐 it's just that they are both sort of lost at this point and they help each other find ways to ground themselves, reconcile the hardships they lived through with the lives they are living now, and get through the day, one step at a time.

section three:

montage moment! this scene was originally split into two or three and in different spots, but in order to fit everything we had to condense a bit. i knew we needed a moment with vlad, both to see how he's doing emotionally without his friend and bc it's funny to think about anya being a little flustered when the subject of dmitry comes up lol. the bit with the birthday gift was originally closer to the scene with the party/dancing/etc that dmitry gets invited to! but anya's birthday is in june so for the timeline to work out her birthday had to be earlier in the fic anyway. and i wanted the party to be later so their public reunion™ wouldn't raise too many questions yet, so the scene was split. it took me a long time to decide What the king of random gifts gives her, but i think a camera was perfect bc anastasia did carry one around a lot <3 nicholas was a big fan of photography and had all sorts of cameras laying around and was a fiend about documenting his family. so anya would have that muscle memory in her :)

this scene was also important to plant the seeds of how they aren't quite on the same page about the future. they're super into each other, obviously, but they haven't really talked about anything long term yet beyond tomorrow. anya wants something permanent but doesn't want to pop the happy bubble yet.

section four:

this might be my favorite part of the whole fic. i'm a simple girl, i love dmitry cooking and i love soft domesticity and (again) i love cuddling and pillow talk <33 this was meant to give them a taste (no pun intended) of what life could be like if she wasn't anastasia™, and it gives them a reason to be a little discontent with what's going on now. dmitry's work hours are Icky and anya doesn't really like her life as anastasia at all aslhkjdf but also they only have each other in a very limited way.

and again, they aren't on the same page in regards to the future, though they don't know it yet. again anya sort of tests the idea of marriage but dmitry still hasn't quite wrapped his head around the belief that he's actually enough for her. unlike his former conman lifestyle™ of reaching for things out of his reach, he thinks he needs to try to be content with what he has while he has it, because he's not used to people wanting him for more than a little fling. obviously anya is the love of his life and he's hers, but he doesn't really know how to believe that yet.

section five:

another montage moment! i wrote some of this very early on in the process <3 i really liked the part where they talk about their parents and how dmitry is a royalist now lol but i wasn't really sure where to put it in the fic 💀 but this is where it landed. and i also like anya telling him about the callers lined up for tomorrow, bc she finds it absolutely hilarious that anyone would even try to court her when her beautiful secret bf dmitry exists! and of course dmitry would just be sulky and jealous and sad at first. the man is too insecure. but she's like no mister this is supposed to be funny 😤 anyway yeah they are very cute to me 🙈

section six:

once again anya is always down to jump him 🌚 i knew there needed to be a moment where the dowager and anastasia would go out of town to visit relatives at some point, and who doesn't love good ol reunion sex lol. and i knew vlad would invite dmitry to a Function, and i knew there needed to be a bedroom eyes in a crowded room/ 'nobody knows we've been fucking this entire time tehe 👀'/ formal dress moment™ at Some point! they had to have a public 'reunion' late in the fic bc i didn't want other characters to start to get suspicious yet. originally this was supposed to be her birthday party but i already said why that wouldn't work. and as an echo of the previous section, dmitry would of course get a little too in his head about the whole thing and go scowl in a corner somewhere, unaware anya is ready to have him all to herself rn alhsjdkf. he's obviously jealous, but not in a possessive way, he's just discontent with the arrangement. they both are. and i needed them to dance for... reasons <33

idk about y'all, but i can never get enough of anya arguing about semantics (the bit where dmitry is like 'put me on the list') and dmitry finding it irritating and adorable at the same time <3

section seven:

originally anya's maid was supposed to be the one who catches them, she was gonna have a whole arc where she parallels the working class girl anya used to be and anya was gonna confide in her/ found her to be better company than the aristocrats she hangs out with, but i didn't feel like writing all that lhasdkf. and it makes more sense to use a character we already have than to come up with a whole new rando. and lily would be able to figure it out, too, since her love affair with vlad was meant to foil dimya.

section eight:

this fight was so hard to write 💀 i didn't want to over explain, but the whole reason why it escalated to a fight was really complicated; like yeah obviously they love each other and definitely want a future together, they just weren't on the same page as to what that would look like and they needed to hash it out. they certainly know how to make each other mad 💀

section nine:

i really wanted to write dimya in this dramatic jane austen period romance™ longing for one another in a parlor over tea™ needing to break apart when someone else enters the room™ situation... so that's the real reason why they had to fight asklhjdf so we could get them to do This and Feel Big Feelings across a room 😌 and in this fic the moment with anya and the dowager before the finale didn't happen yet, so it's happening here. 'dmitry refused the reward?' is now 'dmitry is coming to tea??' and i really love it when the dowager and dmitry get to interact in any fic. it's like candy to me. so deliciously tense and awkward. i also think their sense of humor is very Situational and Strange, especially in the eyes of a proper lady like marie, so having them commit to a bit as long as they can in front of someone else is funny to me lol. and i feel like while some nasty things were said in their fight, they reconcile pretty quickly bc they just want to figure it out and that's what matters <3 the musical has a lot to say about female agency, so i wanted to echo that theme here too.

section ten:

obligatory post-elopement epilogue <3 i cut this down a lot, mostly bc a lot of it was redundant and not really going anywhere productive and somewhat bc this document, combined with the fic before, was reaching 30k and i was ready for it to be over lol. but yeah. anya gave the grand duchess lifestyle a good try, but i think this was the best compromise for her. and now that they're married anya gets to call dmitry 'grand duke' which is a personal favorite of mine that hardly ever gets used alhskjdf. and i really liked the bit where she's like lets go! and he's like rome isn't going anywhere 😪 and she's like but our train will if u don't hurry up 😤 🙈

[space-beast9448]

AYYEEEEEEE MORE HATSUNE MIKU

Idk I'm bored

[colacorvus]

ghoulie and villain charlie au. also we’re friends now so

ayyeeeeeee

[the-text-doctor]

Ayyeeeeeee-

Remember me Screech?? I was that dorky girl who used to break the roof and the door to your house a few times in the past and cause trouble with the water gun, in case if you forgot- :D

<I've never forgotten....>

[roses-and-oceans]

5, 10, 16 for the fic writer ask! I’M IN YO BUSINESS

AYYEEEEEEE <33333 YOU ARE ALLOWED VIP ACCESS TO MY BUSINESS

I pulled out my laptop and hotspot, LESSGOOOO

Alrighty~

"5. what fic of yours won't you read?"

Either the "I'll Speak French Between Your Legs" because I'll bust up laughing at how ridiculous it is, or "Our Day Will Come" because that fic makes me feel insecure LMAOOO idk how HAHA

"10. How has writing positively impacted your mental health or overall mood?"

Oh my god, writing has saved me more times than i can count. After writing ffxv fics, i wrote with Gio, my partner after all this time. We we wrote about our two OCs falling in love and kid you not, we wrote like 10 chapters of story and about 15+ chapters of AU's and possibilities. We wrote their falling in love, fighting forces against them, rituals, and alot, alot, alot, alot of smut.... couldn't help it, we just love our characters so much and with in that, me and Gio bonded so deeply and fiercely. Never thought I would be able to share my world that I've been working on for 15 years and someone react so well to it that now...

It made a difference. I was able to bounce ideas and be able to work on something that brought me so much peace... I will always cherish writing.

"16. Do you re-read old fics? is there a time in your writing you won't go back to?"

I do, i re-read them, not as much as I used to. I re-read alot of both mine and other's work because you can tell how much care they put into their stories. Some is just so beautifully written it tugs at me. I try to appreciate every word, mine and yours and all the wonderfully talented beings <3

Also i cant think of what i'd never go back to. probably accepting nsfw prompts, i was heavily fucked up and my relationship w sex was noooot the best. But here i am years later, thotting about with thoughts of August Willenheim and trying to put it on docs.

I LOVE YOU HYPAAAAAA <33 BEECH AW SHIET this was so much fun!!! love you bb <3

[bambina-daydreamer]

AYYEEEEEEE let's see that powerplay work

[malka-lisitsa]

“If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself”.

"Woah ayye ayye ayyeeeeeee- watch the hair. I see someone summoned the mean Forbes-"

[adultfairy]

Okay so cbd is 🙌🏿

[wheredidalltheusersgo]

AYYEEEEEEE IT'S ME!!!!

KV Happily listening to Scribble( @wheredidalltheusersgo ) about Don's big naturals, not understanding a damn but happy to listen (Shes always listens to other people's interests and loves how people's faces light up when they see that someone is listening to them) .

[thundergrace]

I'm listening to an Issues album for the first time. And it is so goddamn good. Just a fucking great R&B infused rock album. And then all of a sudden, out of NOWHERE this song went

[savedbythenotepad]

alright, i’m gonna have a cookie and then write.

...because cookies are good.

[adragonsoulart-blog]

Ayyeeeeeee this was quite something to build haha! This is a VRChat like "hand puppet"? avatar that is attached to the hand of the player and the only visible part. Super fun to play with in VR, sadly means it does not work well at all on pc u-u I might make a pc version of it at some point (it would attach to the hand instead of the head) but it just wont have the same vibes. u-u anyways, this is a made from scratch worm on a string avatar with some very cursed features : ) While they were a pain in some spots to make they were also a huge blast, especially having such a fun and expressive avatar to play with afterwards <3 And yes, the wiggly eyes do wiggle!It has a bunch of fun emotes and such and does have lip-sync too, not very good tho sense I'm still learning that one heh

[wannabewritersposts]

جو دکھایا گیا، سو وہی دکھ تھا

گر جو دبایا گیا،سو سکھ کہلایا گیا

~کہ دِل آج اُداس بہت ہے

Ayyeeeeeee!!!😭✨ Pretty pretty writings which I can't even find a proper ans to!!!

Zalimo apni qismat p nazaan na ho, daur badle ga ye waqt ki baat hai

Wo yakeenan sunega duaen meri, kia tumhara khuda hai hamara nahi!

–unknown

[sleepytrolls]

random-trolls:

“Trying not to get recognized.” He was slumped against the wall, drinking vodka straight from the bottle. It’s a large bottle and he’s drained half of it already. “And you’re not exactly my cup of tea, of you catch my drift.” It could be worse: it could be a crazed fangirl trying to steal your hair or something.

[[​no sprites for this alcoholic pop star either]]

The Maroonblood took another swig and shrugged her shoulders.”Well I don’t know who you are so you’ve got one down there.” Another swig, two, three. Why was she trying so hard to drink? She was obviously a bit too young. “Good thing this is a bar and not a tea shop then. I’m not really looking for anything other than a conversation. If you aren’t into that though I’ll go don’t mind me.” She wasn’t actually planning on moving anywhere really. So instead she leaned onto a nearby wall. She needed to keep herself steady.