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Day 16 | Effect

Hey you get a haircut or something hun? Forget to put on some sunscreen….?

[skeelly]

MUTUAL APPRECIATION POST

my first moots :)

@swiftieannah @igave-so-manysigns @alltoounwell1989 @ava-taylors-version @theywillholdontoyou @evermore-4-life @fushiguroshotwife @literally-maria @swifitelover22 even though we barely interact with one another, i love you <33

just my beloved moots

@silly-goose-beans @urgirlielexa @almaaas-stuff @bookscorpion73 @yourinterruptingmyreading @reyna-obsessed @stars-over-ice-cream @lovestrucklovelorn @sluttycaseyjones @swans-chirping-in-the-distance @isitoversnowtvs @berryzxx @suburbanlegnd @funfeons @vibestillaxxx @shefollowedthestars sorry to the rest, im too lazy and need to mention so much more people, but i love you all and im willing to pay for your therapy. literally don't know how you guys keep up with me.

NOW FOR MY VERYY VERY VERY SPECIAL MOOTY WOOTIES (yuckk)

@mqstermindswift you already know i love you to death <3

@coco6420 HI COCO, I LOVE YOU. YOURE THE BEST

@glitterfuturisticmortally sending lots of love. you're awesome! ilysm

@nqds you already know i love youuu lmfao. i love your blog sm and you're low-key my intimidating mutual i look up to so you best believe i flip (figuratively and literally) when you interact with me

@stvrlighhttt should have put you higher but this is in no particular order. ANYWAYS, ILY AND THANKS FOR HELPING WITH LITERALLY EVERYTHING.

@starchasers-stuff hii, ilysm! you're like my older sister on here ngl. goodluck with uni, i wish you absolutely nothing but the best! (ps: how's italian going?)

@urgirlnextdoorr HI, YOURE SO COOL! ily to bitss (pls tell me you remember lol)! <33

@blocked-zombieartist hellloo :))). ilyy, thanks for being my mutual. you're awesomeeeee

@reminiscentreader ilyyyyyy and your blogggg and your nameeee and your personalityyyy and everything about youuuu

@not-nomi although it's kinda weird to say this, cause you're a male, ILY! you're the first guy who's my friend on this app lol

@letmeseeallthefrogsinthecity HIII, IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!! CONGRATS AGAIN AND ILYSM

@urbanflorals you're so amazing, i wish i was more like you. ilyy

@cc-horan HII AHHAAH. you're so cool and thanks for being my mutual and friend :)

@niallermybabe you're funny and wholesome af, i love you

@mickeywheeler HIII FINN! ILY AND ALWAYS REMEMBER IM HERE TO SUPPORT YOU. hopefully your problems are all solved now :)

@remingtonreputation13 HI! CANT FORGET YOU, YOURE SO COOL AND PERFECT! ILY <33

@what-about-wendy hiiiiii, you're also low-key like my sister. ilysm and just remember that im always here for you :))

@svnflowermoon you have the coolest blog in the world. ily

@lucinda-008 holaaaaaaa te amo. no sé si te das cuenta, pero HE ESTADO APRENDIENDO ESPAÑOL y no sé si la gramática es correcta. sorry that's cringe, just wanted to show you :))

@dandelions-fly-in-summer-skies hi, ily! you're so awesome

@dumbass-lesbian hii. although we don't really talk anymore, i love you sm

@astraeasparrow ily. i find you so cool

@silly-mirrorball HIHI, YOURE JUST SPECIAL, OK? LIKE I CANT EXPLAIN IT. YOURE JUST PERFECTION. ILY

@atwtmvftvtvsgavralpss you spam me like, every day and i love you for that!

@holdmyteaplease we don't talk anymore, like at all, but i still love you and unfortunately, i can't find my wip i was meant to send you 😔😔

[random-aphmau-questions]

Which character do you think goes all out for Halloween?

[chaoticcutiewhirl]

New Intro 3.0

We have been putting this off for a long while now but now its time to do this, and simply to say, we are a plural system that uses the collective name of "The Whirl Production House", Ava, or Whirl, and if you know us you know there is a tendency for us to be quite nerdy or atleast a collection of dorks obessed with more artistic endeavors. If you want to find us elsewhere here is our linktree:

Also before you look, to note is that we do have commissions, and before the link tree here is the comms sheet and feel free to message me if you want to possible support a disabled Transwoman

And beyond this it should be noted we are mostly a grouping of differing levels of otherkin sort of deals ranging between those of us who are fictives to those who are kins with very little shifting beyond that if at all. Mentioning that we should probably shift into introductions of individual members of our collective. I will say individual members because we are more so at the multiple end of the plural spectrum of things where its kinda easy to tell there are several of us up here, without bleed-through unless we are feeling blendy/foggy on who is fronting.

Also something to note, we gernally do not fall into Plural related labels and are still early in the processes of System stuff even though its been a few months since syscovery. Part of the reason is because the only ones of us that care about assigning labels feel we do not know enough to label everything, only using labels we do have an idea of working as apart of our system. Will those labels be disclosed? Not in this post atleast.

A Quick Rundown

We are the Whirl Production House system or Whirlproductions, a system to which is still figuring shit out who has an open mind to things so to get syscourse out of the way we are Pro Endo. I will say I am not afraid of blocking people as we generally do not care what you think but if you are annoying there is a way to make you shut up on our feed or notifs. Beyond that we generally face things with caution and are still learning about many things, we have a few ideas on who is what kind of roles but I will not share them and for origins I will say its either unknown or a mixture of several probably, with stress being a detriment at times and is part of the reason why we are not out publically about the Trans stuff alone IRL. We stress easily and have chronic illness (Some form of lung related thing as well as Fatigue) so if we are slow on the uptick please keep that in mind.

Headmates

Sylvia

Art by @/BunBunTushie on Twitter

Name: Sylvia S. / Sylvia Drake

Pronouns: She/Her

Sexuality: Demisexual-Lesbian

Kins: Mojave Sidewinder Rattlesnake, Sylvia Drake [Mice Tea]

Noting about Kins for Sylvia is that both are practically just who she is, as there are very few shifts out and when there is, it usually during hours of blurriness or questioning that leads to her questioning more of who she is, but being Sylvia Drake is basically the summary of her being

Age: Early to Mid-20s (Bodily we are 20 tho)

Likes: Writing, Looking at pretty art, doing research, music, Science Fiction (There is a lot), Westerns, TTRPGs, and Entertaining others

Dislikes: All Medical situations, Stress, People our body is related too by blood for the most part, Getting Yelled at, How the US Schooling system is set up

Tag: 🐍 Sylvia

Lucinda

Art by @observerkaine (Found you >:3)

Name: Lucinda

Pronouns: She/Her

Sexuality: Lesbian

Kins: Desert Hare, maybe Burnice White (ZZZ)

Age: Early 20s (Most coincides with the body's Age)

Likes: Art, Talking, Silly demeanors, Comedy, and Color theory

Dislikes: Loud noises, too many things to do, Time, and those who domineer a situation without consideration for others whether its through emotional or physical means, Awkward silence

Tag: 🌵Lucinda

Rowan

Art by @guacheenim (Oh Hey you are on here, hiya again.)

Name: Rowan

Pronouns: She/They/Xe

Sexuality: Asexual

Kins: Spider (Unspecified), Drider/Rachnae-like creatures

Age: Range of around the 30s

Likes: Quietness, Reading, Baking, Solitude, Safety and relaxation for all of us

Dislikes: Percieved threats, Stressors, People getting hurt, feeling useless

Tag: 🕸️Rowan

Kade

Art by @/D3monicY33n on Twitter

Name: Kade

Pronouns: He/She/They (Genderfluid)

Sexuality: Likes men and sometimes butch women

Kins: Carpet Shark

Age: Early 20s (Unconfirmed but lines up most with Lucinda in matching the Body

Likes: Being flamboyant, Piercings, Punk Subculture related music, 18+ stuff is especially tied to them

Dislikes: Feeling restricted, Fronting (Could be related to the first part),

Tag: 🦈Kade

Avarstia

Art by us... (May be replaced by digital art at some point tho lol)

Name: Avarstia Furhenbrook

Pronouns: She/Her

Sexuality: Lesbian

Kins*: Not actually a kin, she is a fictive of an OC we have of the same name and is legitimately said character and has helped greatly write the books she is involved with. In other words she is a Half-Demon, Goddess of Death, Winter, and Time who just somehow ended up here

Age: Given what is said above would it be surprising to say she is somewhere in her 700s on the mental side

Likes: Reading, Talking, Philosophy, Thought Expirementation, Writing, Observing, Storytelling

Dislikes: TTRPGs (She finds them boring), Menial tasks, Repetition, Staying in a single place for too long, Ideas of immortality or preventing decay,

Tag: 💀Avarstia

Fionn / Yang Xiao Long

Official Render from the Volume 8 episode of RWBY, "Refuge" (Will say there is divergence from canon in how she looks however)

Name: Yang Xiao Long

Aliases: Fionn

Pronouns: She/They

Sexuality: Lesbian

Kins*: Again as the shift with Avarstia shows, she is again falls under the aspect of being a Fictive in our system, she diverges from canon in the aspect that she is atleast blind in one eye in headspace as well as having a couple of Faunus features being her ears and tail, being a sort of draconic Faunus. Also Dragon Kin

Age: Early to mid 20s (Notably younger than Sylvia when we feel numbers are accurate)

Likes: Engineering, mechanics, learning about weapons and historical combat, comedy, Energetic music (Mostly rock and punk), helping others in any sense really

Dislikes: Feeling powerless, being Frontstuck (Its been almost 800 days by the time of drafting this), Biological family, others feeling bad, being objectified.

Tag: 🐲 Yang / Fionn

🐉 is also sometimes used as apart of her tag

Dendro

Art by Miranda Mundt, within the webtoon "Muted" (Again may update this when we have art on hand that is more to our preference)

Name: Dendrobrium, Dendro

Alias: Delphi

Pronouns: She/It

Sexuality: Demisexual-Lesbian

Kins*: She is again a Fictive of the character of Dendro from the webtoon Muted, with the main change between her appearance there and what is in our headspace being that she is more of a combination of Desert flora

Age: 300s, again like Avarstia she is a bit older but Dendro did mention it is an estimate given the time difference between Trea and Earth, but will say in source that is not a detail stated.

Likes: Plants, Gardening, Staying Healthy, existing beyond the confines of the place we live, being around people, learning

Dislikes: The body's Chronic Illness, the Desert Heat, and generally the urban areas of Arizona being the way they are.

Tag: 🌸 Dendro

Ceroba Ketsukane

Art by us but will note you can find Ceroba when she uses Tumblr on @kitsunetragedy

Name: Ceroba Ketsukane

Pronouns: She/her

Sexuality: Bi with a femme lean

Kins*: Again she is basically just a fictive of Ceroba from Undertale Yellow, with the only difference being that she has two tails

Age: Older than Rowan, younger by far than Dendro, Monsters age slower than humans just an exact age is not really set mentally but she is older.

Likes: Thrillers and Romance, Art of her source, Cuddlable things, Older music (50s-70s), Calm and quiet situations

Dislikes: Abrasive clothing, People who are quite rude, Failure

Tag: 🦊Ceroba

Note: Ceroba does not front much and is at moment of writing the newest member of our system so this will likely be updated at some point

Members who will not be given great detail

This section is mainly here because of system members who have either been identified or appeared once and haven't been active at really all and we do not know if they are apart of our system still or if their existence is confirmed outside of small blips:

Duana - Moth monstergirl who kinda was the main one angry at everything and was the host for a bit before Sylvia and Lucinda took the reigns, was noted as a member pre-syscovery by those who knew the system was a thing sort of passively back then and she hasn't reappeared in a long time.

Aria - Robot girl who appeared once for like half a day before disappearing into the ether of our brain, do not know if she was a fragment with more of a sense of self or if she is a headmate but she is logged on our SimplyPlural

Clémente Dearworth - Yaelokre Fictive, who appeared in our system very recently and is a middle

Nicole Demara - ZZZ Fictive, who also appeared in our system very recently. And is active, this may get updated again to add her to the main list of things. 🩷

??? - A third pressence of recent editions is known but is unknown.

Questioning on if they are Kins or Members of our System

Mentzelia Laev (OC), its less so feeling like we get too into the mindset of the character, its generally an aspect closer to Clemmie where I feel there is a potential Kin but its more further back, or maybe being someone who is currently not active in the system. Either way Bug Lady had a specific sense of self that has not changed much and would explain the like autumn we were obsessed with blacksmithing and medieval weapons.

Lethica Nightborne (Legends of Avantris, Edge of Midnight), This one is more of a situation where I do not know but suspect she could potentially be like one my brain has picked up upon in a similar sense to Avarstia, Ceroba, and Dendro, a character who is more of a comforting pressence than similar tracks of trauma.

Vash the Stampede (Trigun), this one I think is or will be a kin, I do not see the aspect of them as a headmate being likely given the difference in thoughts but I feel atleast someone in our system will be a kin of Vash... Just has those vibes.

Falin or Marcille (Dungeon Meshi), Again I feel its more of a kin but its somewhere as it was a moment months ago admist the whole identity crisis of syscovery, that I ended up going on a spree and you can check my Tumblr back in April to see it, we were still figuring things out so I have no clue who it would have been. Either way, I feel it may come back again when Dungeon Meshi season 2 drops given the more laxed nature of it all atm.

Burnice White (Zenless Zone Zero), a new one and is the first documented adition. There has been a back and forth between her being a kin or the budding of a headmate, but either way, one tie to Lucinda.

In other words do not be surprised if we update this post to mention them beyond this section, whether as a offhanded mention of a Kin or as apart of our system full on. This section may be updated or maybe not I will say though.

Other Information

Honestly I do not really know what else to add for y'all to know but if you wish to ask anything I may add tags or whatnot down here to give you all an idea of what we do such as possibly using the same tag we use on Bluesky and Twitter for art being:

#AvarstiaArt - Art posts by us

Beyond factors such as that feel free to send in asks and one of us may respond with an answer or whatnot.

[televinita]

Reading Triage

I'm in a bit of a reading slump at the moment (a word which here means: I have only finished 4 books in 2 weeks), so what better way to fix it than by chucking back all my library books, picking out a brand-new set and/or placing holds, and then talking out the options!

CURRENTLY READING / LISTENING

1. A Study in Drowning - Ava Reid: this was all the rage last fall and I shrugged it off as "fantasy, not my thing," but fantasy IS kind of turning out to be my thing this year. So when I saw the new special edition w/ stenciled edges (featuring shelves of old books) in a Goodreads giveaway, I immediately investigated it further and oh, we're starting in dark academia, in an architectural college?? There's a house design contest?? Well that sounds great! So I'm giving it a go; got about 40 pages in last night.

2. The Spellshop - Sarah Beth Durst: this is my 2nd time around with it, because I wanted to hear the audiobook version. About 90 minutes left, and I better hop-to because it's due in 2 days.

3. One Of Our Own - Lucinda Berry: this is a just-under-4-hours audio exclusive thriller (is thriller the right word, it seems like a pretty domestic mystery), and I am literally only here because it's dual narration and the main narrator is A.J. Cook. The plot looks bland and unpleasant and after only 8% in I can all but guarantee it would be a 2-star in print, but I might give it 3 because listening to her voice is a treat.

AVAILABLE NOW

4. Legends & Lattes - Travis Baldree: attempt #2 to salvage the cozy coffee shop vibes out of an otherwise uninteresting story, now that the temps are finally about to drop down into at least the 50s, and if it doesn't work this time I quit forever because I have better fantasy places to be (but I really do wanna savor the romanticizing of coffee + baked goods).

5. Strongheart, Wonder Dog of the Silver Screen - Candace Fleming: I didn't buy it, but I am now more motivated than ever to read this. It's actually much shorter than I thought, being about 50% illustration, and I want to dive right in. Might even do so as soon as I post this, tbh.

6. Passenger Princess - Morgan Elizabeth: I feel honor-bound by winning it to read enough to offer a review. Honestly, the first chapter was quite fun, so if I just go in with determination to skip straight over the porn and judge the rest of the story on its own merit, I might enjoy it. (I will of course be judging more harshly for its Goodreads rating)

7. In The Shadow of Lakecrest - Elizabeth Blackwell: a 1920s Rebecca-esque novel that I own and have been meaning to read for 2 years now. I got so close to cracking it open this time...and I still might, but more likely the other books on this list will take priority.

8. Final Girls and/or The Last Time I Lied - Riley Sager: the references in Middle of the Night finally got me interested in these 2 I skipped the first time around, but it's still just...so hard to convince myself to try them, even when I crave a guaranteed good thriller. There's a reason I skipped over them the first time around, and that reason is they just look and sound generic as hell.

9. The Book of Cold Cases and/or Murder Road - Simone St. James: I spent literally the entire month of October a) not reading any ghost stories for lack of good options and being sad about it, and b) forgetting about this author literally every time I went to the library until the 28th. But now they're here! So...maybe! (more than likely pushed off til next year though. I don't feel particularly excited when I look at them, even though the first book at least has been on my TBR since its release)

10. The Widow of Rose House - Diana Biller: almost forgot one of the few remaining from my last round! A random checkout because it looks like an unusual sort of historical romance with like seven different appealing elements; lemme just copy the summary:

It's 1875, and Alva Webster has perfected her stiff upper lip after three years of being pilloried in the presses of two continents over fleeing her abusive husband. Now his sudden death allows her to return to New York to make a fresh start, restoring Liefdehuis, a dilapidated Hyde Park mansion, and hopefully her reputation at the same time. However, fresh starts aren't as easy as they seem, as Alva discovers when stories of a haunting at Liefdehuis begin to reach her. But Alva doesn't believe in ghosts. So when the eccentric and brilliant professor Samuel Moore appears and informs her that he can get to the bottom of the mystery that surrounds Liefdehuis, she turns him down flat. She doesn't need any more complications in her life--especially not a handsome, convention-flouting, scandal-raising one like Sam. Unfortunately, though Alva is loath to admit it, Sam, a pioneer in electric lighting and a member of the nationally-adored Moore family of scientists, is the only one who can help. Together, the two delve into the tragic secrets wreathing Alva's new home while Sam attempts to unlock Alva's history--and her heart

COMING SOON

11. Tracker's Canyon - Pam Withers: a YA novel about a teen using his outdoor/trailing skills to find his dad and evade people who may want to harm his dad (or him). It's been on my Goodreads TBR for 5+ years, picked when I was scrolling through looking for I.L.L. options. Looks fun and also relatively short, under 200 pages. Should be here in a week or two at the most.

12. A Wizard's Guide to Defensive Baking - T. Kingfisher: library doesn't have a physical copy so waiting on the e-book, estimated 3 weeks. I haven't read her before but I kept seeing this on BookTube and its title and cover looked so fun and cute. Probably a 3-star time but I still want in.

13. Piranesi - Susanna Clarke: this was on my original fall TBR at the beginning of September, and I've been slowly making my way towards it. No promises I'll read it this year, but if I don't get too distracted by the new shinies, the fact that this is much shorter than I thought has made me more willing to listen to its many rave reviews. Currently on a waitlist; "my" copy is due back on Halloween but I of course have zero faith in the people of this county at this point, so I'm going to bet more realistically on the second week of November (next copy is due back 11/9).

14. Before We Were Us - Denise Hunter: romance about an engaged woman who develops amnesia, not only forgetting her (relatively new) relationship but still viewing her middle-of-nowhere job at his family resort as a pit stop and ready to get the hell outta dodge; he must convince her to fall in love with him again. I WILL be going full Chuck/Sarah with this. Currently on-order at the library and I am first in line.

15. Beyond Ivy Walls - Rachel Fordham: This whole summary just sounds Immediately Great and like the kind of historical (1903) romance I love; wish I had access to a physical copy but waiting on the audiobook instead, estimated time 3 weeks. Love 2 have everything come crashing in at once!

All of Monticello believes Otis Taylor has been away fostering his musical genius. But the truth is that his father exiled him long ago, rejecting Otis's appearance and the scars that came with it. . . . At twenty-three years old, Sadie West left her family farm and found employment at the Hoag feather duster factory. Desperate to save money and help her family make ends meet, she trespasses and finds shelter in an abandoned building--and is thrown in the path of the town's mysterious bachelor. Otis's wounds are deep, but as Sadie's friendship with him grows, she begins to fall for the man beneath the mask

COMING EVENTUALLY!

16. Graveyard Shift - M.L. Rio: the reviews are so middling and I am also sure it will be a 3-star at best, but damn it, I got excited about this one months ago and now I HAVE TO KNOW (this is why knowing about new releases sucks! don't do it!). Waiting on an ebook copy because the library doesn't have a physical one. It is an absurdly long wait for such a short book (14 weeks?! i am PRAYING for a physical copy to be ordered soon).

17. Games Untold - Jennifer Lynn Barnes: on the other hand I am first in line when this releases in a couple weeks. Beyond excited for a collection of short stories and novellas aka BONUS SCENES for The Inheritance Games. (sometimes knowing about new releases doesn't suck)

18. 26 Ways To Come Home For the Holidays - Jennifer Joy: a "Thanksgiving to Christmas" novella romance about a department store in the 1940s. I have been excitedly waiting for it to be seasonally appropriate (for maximal impact) since spring. I still gotta give it 3 or 4 weeks though.

19. What Does It Feel Like? - Sophie Kinsella: 12th in line for 8 copies, at the library that doesn't show due dates so I'm guessing this may not arrive until December, at which point I might roll it over to the new year. Still, if it comes sooner, interested in this novella mirroring her real-life health crisis.

[maelihi]

lana del rey

people who i think are lana:

dottie

melissa

rachel

lucinda

maria

diana

kiki

michi

sasha

nicole?

vylad

zane?

aaron.

laurence

brenden

dante.

kim

ava

lorelei

inspo from stupid capcut template.

[the-martyrfication-of-the-matron]

Tribute list please? Please please please

Of course!

Everyone’s districts is included (remember this was all voted on, bad pairings are not my fault)

District one, luxury goods: Ein and Aphmau (siblings)

District two, masonry: Gene and Ava

District three, technology: Blaze and Sasha

District four, fishing: Laurence and Cadenza (siblings)

District five, power: Daniel and Lillian

District six, transport: Travis and Michi

District seven, lumber: Vylad and Katelyn

District eight, textiles: Aaron and Lily

District nine, grain: Pierce and Nicole

District ten, livestock: Zenix and Lucinda

District eleven, agriculture: Rhys and Donna

District twelve, coal mining: Brendan and Alex

I’m thinking of creating a Masterpost for all of the Aphverse hungergames stuff so everything is easy to find but… idk

[pastel-sorrow]

Aftermath

The creative writing assignment i promised.

A retelling of Aphmau's years in a bit more critical of a lens.

Aphmau is Ava

Zane is Zarian

Garroth is Garent

Lucinda is Lilliana

Aaron is Adrian

TW/CW: themes of self-hatred/self-destruction, mentions of death, insinuations of eating disorders, and brainwashing

It had been a little less than a month since the incident at the Viridian Lodge. The event replayed in the minds of the few forced to live it. Ava, Lilliana, and Zarian were subject to one of the most painful things imaginable; being trapped in your own body, watching as it hurt the people you cared about most. They could still remember the cold, how it burned their fingers to the bone, the wind blisteringly harsh against their cheeks. The snow that glistened a beautiful powder-white when they arrived, stained crimson just hours before they left. There was a look that Garent held any time he looked at them, somewhere between pity and fear. Not of them, but for them. He had prided himself on being able to protect his brothers and his friends, and he felt that he had failed them.

The car ride back to their quaint little neighborhood was so strained for joy, so deafeningly silent, that they could all still hear Ava’s blood-curdling scream from the top of the mountain ring through their ears. The week, after they had gotten home, was uneasy, to say the least. There was a palpable anxiety that filled the group as they settled their luggage in their separate homes. For some they were welcomed home by caring roommates and loving partners, for Ava, however, she was met with only the clatter of suitcase wheels hitting hardwood echoing through her previously warm and inviting home.

There was a week where Ava attempted to return to normalcy. Go out with her friends who hadn’t gone on the trip, tell them about how lovely it was, that Adrian wouldn’t be back for a few months because he was helping with the family business; pretend like the whole ordeal had never happened. That week was short-lived and Adrian wasn’t helping with the family business. She found every outing more draining than the last, no matter where she went or who she was with she was filled by a constant state of paranoia. She loved her brother dearly, had you asked her who her favorite person was a few weeks prior she would’ve excitedly responded “Evan, I got a baby brother for my second birthday and he was the best gift I could’ve got.” She adored him their whole childhood, spent all of high school watching out for him, and every free day in college hanging out with him, she even had him move in with her while he was getting his degree so he wouldn’t have to stay in a dorm or rent an apartment. However, now when she thought of her dear little brother all she felt was a sickening pit of anxiety deep in her stomach, a violent need to lock herself inside, scrub her skin of the blood that was no longer there. If it wasn’t enough that she now feared her first true friend, every time she looked in the mirror she saw a monster. She stopped going out, she stopped responding to her friends, she even stopped taking care of herself. All she wanted was to wither away in her bed which now felt too big and too empty for just her.

There was a gentle pounding on Ava’s front door that echoed through the house. She had been rotting in her bed for days, only getting up to occasionally eat and use the bathroom. She took note of the weight of the knocking and the pattern; it was on the softer side and in three knock intervals, Zarian no doubt. She was sure by now her best friend was worried but she could barely muster the energy to drag her body the few feet to the bathroom, let alone downstairs to talk to him. It was when she started to move her lead-filled limbs that she heard her front door open, she had forgotten that he had a key from when she and Adrian went on vacation so he could house-sit. She had lied back down when she heard the door close, “Ava, it’s Zare and Gar we wanted to check up on you!” the familiar voice of her best friend. “I’m in my room…”, her voice was hoarse from crying and not talking for weeks, but she was heard in the front entrance where Zarian and his brother stood. Heavy, socked feet and the click of crutches were heard up against the hardwood until they stopped in her doorway. The tall blonde’s eyebrows were knitted together, the worry and anxiety oozing from him. He cleared his throat and questioned softly in his thick English accent, “Ava, when’s the last time you showered or ate?” The air was stale and thick as they waited for her reply. “I ate a granola bar like two days ago, haven’t showered since we left though.” Zarian made his way over to her bed laying down his elbow crutches before lying down next to her, Garnet remained stiff in the doorway. He reached out to hold her hand but she recoiled, “Why haven’t you showered yet?” She stared past him as she spoke, “I know I’m gross and dirty from general dirt, but if I shower I will never feel clean. I still feel like his blood is caked under my nails, there are scars and bruises all over my body and I can’t bare the sight of them.” Ava looked him dead in the eyes as tears rolled down her face, “I almost killed him and everyone’s acting like nothing happened. How are you both so ok?” it was a question she didn’t expect to be answered, but it was. Garnet offered a shaky response from his spot in the doorway, “We’re not, Zarian has been having nightmares every night since we got back and I can’t even sleep.” His brother nodded in agreement. Something about his response made her angry, irrationally so. They didn’t understand, they couldn’t understand what she had gone through, her own brother had brainwashed her and had forced her to nearly kill her own boyfriend. “You don’t get it.” it was angry and full of venom. Zare was shocked “How could we not get it?”, there was barely a pause before she responded, “You just don’t… get out” She had rolled over and coiled in on herself so she could not longer see them. There wasn’t a response just footsteps descending and the opening and closing of her front door, she cried alone in her room.

It had been a few days since Zarian and Garent had visited. Ava had made an attempt at showering and eating, despite struggling with both she still made her way outside and over to Lilliana’s house. She knocked gently, when Lilliana opened the door she was greeted by her usually bubbly friend looking run down in her boyfriend’s clothes and matted hair. “Hey Lilly, you think we can hang out today?” Truth be told Lilliana was on her way out to meet up with her boyfriend, “Yeah, come in Ava.”, he would understand. The two girls made their way through some small talk and pleasantries. “Do you think you can help with my hair?”, it wasn’t an unusual request for Ava, she grew up with a busy mom and found it hard to learn certain hygiene skills, brushing her hair was one of them and that was only exacerbated by recent events. Lilly of course agreed, Ava sat on the floor of the kind witch’s living room. “I know your busy and I’ve been kinda MIA but do you think you can teach me some magicks, just healing and protection stuff? I think it might help me get back to normal to know how to keep myself safe and help Adrian when he gets back.” Lilly tied Ava’s hair into low pigtails as she responded, “I think that’s a great idea, I’d be happy to teach you some stuff.”

Every day over the next week and a half Ava would make her way across the street to Lilly’s house around noon. Lilly introduced Ava to the basics, what ingredients to use in certain potions, how to harness magick without going overboard, and how to connect to her patron saint. Ava would fill the silence between instructions by trying to unravel her feelings about the lodge, aside from Lilly chiming in with what to do next Ava spent their entire lessons talking. It was good for her, but it was hard for Lilly to endure. She knew that Ava had struggled the most with what happened, but it was isolating to have to listen to one of her friends act as though she was the only person who experienced that trauma. She was proud of Ava for coming so far but she was also frustrated. Ava hadn’t spoken to Zarian and Garent, they told her that themselves, and she hadn’t once in all of their lessons and conversations asked how Lilly was doing. 

Their lesson had gone on the same way it had been for the last few days. Ava would get to Lilly’s house where she had already set up the tools for that day's lesson, she would start to talk about something that happened at the lodge like Lilly wasn’t there, but Lilliana’s reaction today was different. “Ava shut up!” Three words cut sharply through Ava’s train of thought, “What?” she was stunned. “You have spent the last month acting like you were the only person at the lodge. Like you were the only person Evan brainwashed. Me and Zarian were too, we were also prisoners to our bodies, he tried to get us to kill people we cared about too. We have all been patient and understanding because we know that it was way more personal for you. But you haven’t once asked any of us how we’re doing, you’ve just been pushing people away and reaching out when you need something to help you,” Lilly took a moment to breathe, “You’re being selfish Ava.”

Ava didn’t respond, she put down the book they were using for that lesson and stormed out. She couldn’t believe Lilly, how was she being selfish? They had all moved on and forgotten about how she was feeling, how hurt she was, and how much she was struggling. As she stomped home she called Garent, it was the first time in weeks she had bothered to actually call anyone so of course he answered within the first ring. “Ava, how are you?!” he had stuttered part way through the sentence, an anxious habit he hadn’t dealt with since high school. “So I’ve been spending like the last week with Lilly and she was teaching me magicks and she had the audacity to say I’ve been selfish, can you believe that?!” She was fuming, angry enough that she was struggling with her keys because she was talking with her hands so much. Gar took a moment to gather his thoughts before he responded, “Well did she say why she thought you were being selfish?” Ava was taken aback at the fact that he didn’t immediately side with her, “Something about not asking how she was doing and only reaching out when I needed something.” She had finally got the door unlocked. “ Lilly’s right then Ava,” he paused expecting her to get angry at him too but he only heard the door shut, “This is the first time you’ve called any of us since we’ve gotten back. You completely dismissed me and Zare when we tried to empathize with you. We love you and we tried to be there for you but you made it hard, just think about it, Ava.” she was furious, she was ready to fly off the handle screaming but the call had disconnected. She was alone in her house again.

She had already spent weeks in that house by herself, stewing in her own silence, how was this any different? Because this time she wasn’t there because she wanted to be alone and rot, she wanted to feel normal and hang out with her friends but Ava of all people knew she couldn’t do that till she took a long hard look in the mirror. Ava had grown to hate her own reflection long before her fight with Lilly, but she knew the only way she’d seriously internalize any self-reflecting she’d have to actually look at herself. So after days upon days of pacing between her kitchen and living room, sitting on the couch only to get up and do it again, she stood up full of rage and self-hatred and marched herself to the bathroom. She had covered the mirror with an old t-shirt so she would actually be able to use the room without spiraling into a panic attack after the first couple of times it had happened. She stared blankly at the t-shirt, she waited for something to happen, praying to the gods that she wouldn’t have to move, her arms felt like lead and her eyes were starting to burn. In a brief moment of raw frustration, she ripped the shirt off the mirror and for the first time in over a month she was met with herself. If you could look past the scars, matted hair, and rapid weight loss; there was Avalynn. Golden eyes, birthmarks, and grown-out white roots that she had forgotten about. Her reflection was no longer a stranger, it was simply a different version of herself, she had changed and in that change, she’d forgotten how to be a good friend.

The next morning she took a real shower, ate a real meal, and went outside. She made the brisk walk to Garent and Zarian’s house and knocked. She wanted to do better and that started with apologizing. Their roommate Lars answered the doors, “Oh hey Ava, what’s a pretty girl like you doing here so early?” the flirting was a joke by now they both knew that, nevertheless she rolled her eyes. “Are Zare and Gar here?” he nodded and pointed her to the living room. They were arguing about something meaningless, but the commotion stopped when she walked in. “Ava, what’re you doing here?” Garent asked, breaking through the awkward silence. Ava felt a spotlight shining down on her, “I wanted to apologize. I’ve been a bad friend recently, I’ve been so focused on how I’ve been feeling and hurting that I forgot that people I cared about were hurting too. I don’t think I’m a hundred percent yet or that I’m totally ready to be on the receiving end of heavy conversations about the lodge yet but I do want to make an attempt at being here for you guys.” The two brothers looked at each other and then back at Ava. They had had each other to talk to when they got back, they were still hurting but they knew it was a lot less than their friend had been. Zarian hugged her first, something none of them had expected due to his aversion to large amounts of physical touch. They all heard the tears in his voice, that they elected to ignore, “I just wanted my best friend back.” She settled into the hug, even after Garent had joined. The three of them enjoyed the long tender moment until she had to break it. “I need to go talk to Lilly.” They let her go and walked her and watched as she made her way a few houses down the block.

She can’t say the moment was anywhere near as sweet between her and Lilliana. As she expected Lilly was less than keen to talk to her. Even so, Ava was invited in and was allowed to talk, to apologize. Ava stumbled through an apology, struggling to find the words that conveyed just how sorry she was for putting Lilly through her constant venting. By the end Ava was hiccupping and gasping through sobs, she was angry that herself for crying and tried desperately to stop it to no avail. “I don’t forgive you, but I appreciate the apology. I’m glad you’re trying to do better but I want to see that change before I allow myself to stop being upset at the situation.” Lilly hugged her, despite everything she did still love and care for her friend and she wanted to help her get better.

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August Reading Wrap Up

August was a good reading month for me. I read 15 books and most of those were 4 star reads. Out of those 15 I read 4 Netgalley arc. My top 4/5 star reads are listed below: ✨The Spare by Ava Rani ✨Planes, Trains, and All the Feels by Livy Hart ✨Keep Your Friends Close by Lucinda Berry(out Nov 7th 2023) ✨Hook Shot by Kennedy Ryan ✨Done and Dusted by Lyla Sage ✨What My Bones Know: A Memoir…

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Welcome to ravens borough episode 8

Somewhere in the unheard of town of Raven's Borough…

The contents of this story are nsfw therefore not for children

Ameila's hand landed on the counter of her empty bar as she shook her hips and sang to herself "🎶I'm only happy when I'm on the run.. I break a million hearts just for fu uh uh un.. I don't belong to anyyyy..one🎶" she took her red rag over the counter cleaning it and making it shine

"🎶I guess you could say that my life's a mess🎶" she sang doing a twirl

"🎶But I'm still looking pretty in this dre eh eh ss🎶"

'ring ring' the rotary phone rang beside her.

"Dammit I thought I changed the line." Ameila said.

"You did. That's not me. Probably Ava checking in on you." Rob said, walking over to the bar.

"Can't be never told her the new number." Ameila said picking up the phone "Thank you for calling the hearts of steel blah blah your one stop shop for all the paranormal and unexplainable shenanigans. This is Ameila speaking." She said into the phone.

"Then I have no idea. I guess I'll just tell her whatever pertinent information she needs to hear." Rob said.

She looked into the phone a little confused as she pulled it away all that could be heard was a creepy buzzer noise that repeated over and over.

"...interesting" she said.

"Concerning more like." Rob said

"Sounds like morse but I don't have that on me sooo.." Ameila said, slamming the phone down without a care.

"Well that's definitely interesting. But we'll worry about that later. So how ya been jailbird?" Rob said with a warm smile.

"You and your damn nicknames you and Katelyn are perfect for each other." Ameila said.

"Heh, I'd politely disagree. I just call you that cause it's just been that for quite some time." Rob said.

"One day you're the jailbird. Then you call yourself the full metal alchemist.. now you're the queen bee" Ameila said tapping her fingers on the counter to the beat of the music.

"Jailbird and full metal alchemist fit you the best. Drink mixing is basically a type of alchemy." Rob said.

"I know that's why I gave it to myself." Ameila said, reaching under the counter and pulling out the drink mixer.

"Anyway, back to the question. How're things?" Rob said.

"Well." Ameila said, sliding over a glass.

"I took Ava on a field trip the other day to see the property my parents left for me over in Ravenclaw." she said, grabbing mixers off the wall.

"It's a three bedroom two bathroom house, up on six twenty eight darkwatterton road." she added.

"Ooh, sounds like you got plans for that property." Rob said.

"The property needs a lot of work done to it. After Lucinda died Nana kinda let the place go." Ameila said, grabbing the photo off the shelf behind her which depicted her mom's standing In front of a beautiful white house and sat it down in front of him.

"Yeah that definitely doesn't sound great. If you need help with it, or anything really, you can count on me. And Eva too of course." Rob said.

"Ava wants kids. She's always wanted kids and I don't really wanna deny the woman kids. considering I would also like to have at least one child in life so the bloodline doesn't end with me. So I think that house is the best option" Ameila said

"Yeah, that's understandable. This place, despite the slogan, isn't exactly too family friendly as of late." Rob said.

"One point five oz. CÎROC Passion. she said pouring some in one oz. … hmm point seventy five oz Hibiscus syrup seventy five oz Lemon juice. And topped off with..." Ameila said, finishing his drink and sliding it towards him.

"One the house but No place is truly family friendly" Ameila said.

"True. True. Might have to actually see about a place in raven's claw when Eva and I are ready to properly settle down and start a family." Rob said.

"Don't know about that one Ravens claw is worse than a Ravens borough especially after the events at starlight high and Starlight university." Ameila said

"Good point. Though this place ain't great either. Weird fog, whatever that fuckin buzzer was a minute ago, the amount of criminals." Rob said.

"At least no one goes around saying the schools were attacked by quote on quote mechanical aliens from another planet." Ameila said.

"Good point. Though Raven's Claw has that steakhouse

"Which is now it's number one attraction it's got the weird gas station called the twin point gas the ranger station up in the mountains.. anything else?" Ameila thought.

"I know because it mysteriously caught on fire and was destroyed asides from a few pieces which they bulldozed back in twenty fifteen." Ameila said.

"It is a good idea. Though, I'm sure you could come up with even better. You always did have great ideas growing up." Rob said.

"Alright ass kisser, I already told you the drink was on the house." Ameila said.

"Not exactly why I said that. I mean it." Rob said sipping his drink.

"Then you don't truly remember our childhood because ninety percent of my 'ideas' ended horribly with someone getting hurt or breaking a bone." Amelia said.

"Ah. But that last ten percent, the ones that worked out, were great. Not to mention you got this place, which is a great idea. The fact that you're here about eighty percent of the time is definitely not great but who am I to judge. My office and home are like twenty feet a part." Rob said

"Mate.. I bought the hearts of steel for shits and giggles. And if you knew how much I bought this place for you'd have a heart attack in your stool. Because I could have put that money into a savings account and retired really early." Ameila said.

"Fair. Still, it's a nice enough place." Rob said.

"It's a nice place. You haven't even gone downstairs yet. But it's a very nice place, definitely not worth what I paid for it though." Ameila said.

"Probably not." Rob said.

"Yup." Ameila said as the phone rang again.

"Should definitely just remove the phone entirely." Amelia said

"I don't even know why you have a phone older than this building." Rob said, taking a sip from his drink.

"It's a long story but.. I told you before that it was owned by a crime boss. Well that was back in the forties. Before it was passed to his only daughter Mary Kurr, under the name the enchanted seductress; she owned it for about eighty years after that and it was passed down through the family going by a few different names.. until nineteen ninty. Where it was gutted and renovated with a second floor added under it. And the neon look of the eighties re named to the empire of crime. It stayed that way till it was dubbed the hearts of steel by Markus kurr and I bought it. Which leads us till now. In conclusion that's why there's a rotary phone next to me

" Amelia said, gesturing to it.

"All that to simply say the building is old as fuck. No wonder we're friends." Rob said with a smile.

"It's also just because it's more Interesting to know the lore behind the bar. Then to just tell you the bar is around seventy years old and the phone is like sixty." Ameila explained.

"The fact that you have a phone that old is odd, but you've seen my car so I can't judge." Rob said.

"Look buddy it looks cool alright sure it may clash with the whole eighties neon aesthetic but it looks cool dammit." Ameila said, gesturing to it.

"That's exactly what I needed to hear. All that matters is that you like it and you don't let anyone tell you otherwise." Rob said.

"Plus from my understanding it's made from a one hundred year old redwood tree. So like.. sue me for thinking it's irreplaceable." Ameila said.

"It definitely is unique." Rob said.

"Damn straight" Ameila said

"Anyway, what the hell are you doing at this bar at four am alone?" She added

"Couldn't sleep again. Wanted to check on you." Rob said.

"We both know that last one is a lie." Ameila said.

"It's really not. I've been thinking about you lately and worried about you." Rob said.

"I went to prison. I think I can protect myself." Ameila said

"Not exactly what I meant. You might be able to handle problems yourself but I meant more mental stuff. You don't need to shut others out." Rob said.

"What are you on about now?" Ameila said

"I'm just saying you don't just have to always lean on Ava for support. I'm here for you. And Eva too." Rob said as Ameila raised her eyebrow.

"I just wanna close this distance that's been between us alright." Rob admitted.

"Ah… Rob, it's not that simple." Ameila said

"Do tell." Rob said.

"It's.. not something I can just explain to you because there are things you won't understand because you're not me.. you haven't been through what I've been through.. you haven't seen what I've seen. What I saw.. what I went through before I came back.. changed me" Ameila said.

"I see. Well, that's kinda what I figured. And why I keep pestering you from time to time. Just want to reinforce that we're here for you, whatever you need. Always." Rob said.

"I will be fine." Ameila said as the phone rang again.

".. excuse me for a second." Ameila said picking it up.

"This should be interesting." Rob said. As Ameila picked up the phone

"Thank you for calling the hearts of steel your one stop shop for all the paranormal and unexplainable shenanigans. This is Ameila speaking." She said into the phone as the neon lights flashed around her

"🎶When the sun goes down and the lights burn out. Then it's time for you to shine.. brighter than a shooting star…. So shine no matter where you are. Fill the darkest night with a brilliant light because it's time for you to shine brighter than a shooting star.. so shine no matter where you are 🎶" a voice sang from the speakers blocking out her voice.

"What in the hell?" Rob said, sipping his drink.

"Enjoying your jailbirds nuisance?" Ameila said coming back over.

"It's interesting to say the least." Rob said.

"🎶A thousand heartbeats beating time, and makes this dark planet come alive. So when the lights flicker out tonight.. you gotta shine 🎶" the song sang over the speaker as bright neon lights filled the room.

"I'm either gonna go blind.. or I'ma know every single song in this bar by age thirty. Neither of which are good." Ameila said as the lights flickered above them.

"Huh.. that's new" she said.

"Pretty sure we're haunted." Rob said.

"Can't be while fights and shootouts have happened in this bar no one ever actually died.. I'ma go check the breaker." Ameila said walking off.

"Fair enough." Rob said, taking a sip from his drink as he heard an all too familiar whistle.

"Oh good." Rob said.

"γεια γεια" a female voice said

"What?" Rob said.

"I said hello hello" the voice said

"Hello." Rob said, looking around. He saw the fabled white haired assistant mayor chilling in a booth at the back of the bar.

"Oh hey Athena, what're you doing here?" Rob asked.

"I just wanted to scare you into thinking I was Samera, we both know you based her off me." Athena said.

"What on earth are you talking about?" Rob asked, confused.

"Death.." Athena said

"And I don't mean it metaphorically or rhetorically." she said with a massive eye roll.

"or poetically or theoretically.. I am legitimately death." she said.

"Well alright then." Rob said immediately going back to looking at the bar.

"Yeah you ain't escaping that easily." Athena said walking around the front of the bar

"I told you we'd meet again and we'll here I am" she said.

"Oh good." Rob said.

"Wow not even a nice to see you again. I see how it is" Athena said

"Well I'm freaked out right now. Cause I have no idea what the hell you're on about." Rob said.

"Think back to your days in Archdale." Athena said grabbing a drink from the back of the bar

"Ah a hallucination. The fuck is in this drink, that shouldn't happen." Rob said.

"Hah hallucination.. funny guy right here." Athena said.

"Well that's the only explanation I got about you knowing things about a dream I hate while drunk on a plane." Rob said.

"I'm the devil, I know everything." Athena said as the bar's power went out leaving only her glowing red eyes.

"What do you want?" Rob asked.

"To remind you that there is nowhere you can hide that I won't find" Athena said pouring him another glass.

"Right." Rob said.

With a clack the lights came back on as she was gone. But his drink was full.

"What." Rob said as Ameila came back out now that the lights had stopped flickering.

"See told you it was the braker this bar isn't haunted." she said.

"Yeah, old building I guess, wiring might need checking." Rob said.

"Wiring hasn't been touched since the ninety's when they overhauled it so I wouldn't be surprised." Amelia said.

"Exactly." Rob said.

"However that'd cost a lot of money around about four, five grand so I'ma just let it go till I absolutely need to." Amelia said.

"Makes sense." Rob said.

"Yep." Amelia said

"Had an idea. Automatic, mobile, bartender." Rob said.

"Huh I think my uncle had one of them. He called it the automatic mobility bar or something like that. However I enjoy making drinks" Ameila said

"What about a robot chef?" Rob said.

"Actually I have one of them in the kitchen, it is one of the only OKS products I have." Amelia sai

"Interesting." Rob said

"I was gonna buy one of them giant replicas of myself for nefarious purposes but I could never save up the scratch" Amelia said with a sigh

"Of course you did." Rob said.

"Yep…" Amelia said

"Robo you. That's a thought." Rob said.

"Not really a thought because they existed at one point." Ameila said

"True, if you had one you could have her run the bar when you're not here and have more time off." Rob said.

"But I like running the bar" Ameila said

"Yeah I know. But, at the same time you'd be able to take days off, and have it be 24 hours." Rob said.

"Not really robo me was limited to what she could do. She was better at lifting then making drinks and cooking" Ameila said

"Fair enough." Rob said.

"Uhuh though I'd custom order it to have a pussy and an ass for.. nefarious reasons" Ameila said

"You'd wanna fuck yourself huh? Yeah, Eva would probably want to do the same with a clone of herself too. Which would be fun." Rob said.

"Among other things" Ameila said

"Though I'd probably get tired of hearing the preset telemarketer voice lines after a month." Ameila added

"Fair." Rob said.

"Thank you for contacting okami kinetic solutions we are currently unavailable. please try again later" Ameila said in a derpy voice

"Yeah, that'd get annoying quickly." Rob said.

"Actually I think the twin point gas and go is run by them I could be wrong though" Ameila said

"Interesting." Rob said.

"Daaaamn now you got me missing my other half" Ameila said placing a picture of Ava next to her on the counter as she glanced at the phone

"Well it is getting to the point where we both should get home." Rob said.

"Yeah probably." Ameila said

"Then it's probably best we head out." Rob said.

"I think i'll stay a little longer just Incase." Ameila said

"Alright then, I'll see you later. Stay safe. Actually…" Rob said standing up.

"Hmmm?" Ameila said turning away from the phone

"Gimme a hug." Rob said.

"A.. Hug?" Ameila asked clearly forgetting those existed

"A hug!" Rob said moving around the bar and wrapping his arms around her.

"You clearly needed one." Rob said.

"Thank you." Ameila said waving him off

"Does Ava not hug you?" Rob asked, letting go.

"Of course" Ameila said

"Just from behind" Ameila said with a grin

"Eva does that too. Though usually in bed. With all her limbs around me." Rob said.

"Anyway you should probably get back" Ameila said.

"Yeah, I should. I'll see you later. It's good to be able to talk with you again." Rob said.

"Yeah." Ameila said waving him off

"So dismissive." Rob said.

"Come on scatt." Ameila said with a laugh

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@crysten is my second acc that i has no value and use. if you know me irl, i suggest you just stop looking at my blog :)

: ̗̀➛ things about me: my name is kristen. i go by she/her. im from the philippines. im a capricorn. intp-t. its hard for me not to make typos cause i send messages without thinking twice. i hate school. if we don't count online friends then im practically friendless. im in a science curriculum but can't understand physics. i love writing. i can fluently speak 3 languages but i want to speak more. i look like an absolute mess no matter the time. im 100000% ambivert. i don't like people who can't work the same pace as me (i know that's toxic, i swear im trying to fix it). my birthday is after christmas. i embarrass myself in ways not even god thought would be possible. im a confusing little biatch so im sorry. OBVIOUSLY, i live off of pinterest and i guess tumblr. proper grammar = non existent. i will give you anything you want, just give me a horse and grayson hawthorne. i love making friends so please don't feel shy to interact with me and i am a minor so please don't be weird <3

i reblog my posts to my other acc because im funny and yes, i keep adding to this intro because i find this thing fun and im kinda bad at keeping up with posts im mentioned in, so im sorry if i dont reply. oh and this intro is heavily inspired by @svnflowermoon & @stvrlighhttt <3

: ̗̀➛ some special people:

@mqstermindswift @stvrlighhttt @remingtonreputation13 @what-about-wendy @dumbass-lesbian @themidnightarcher @astraeasparrow @dandelions-fly-in-summer-skies @lucinda-008 @niallermybabe @coco6420 @atwtmvftvtvsgavralpss @swiftieannah @reminiscentreader @hathorneheiress @xyzinthearea-1 @glitterfuturisticmortally @blocked-zombieartist @philomenacunkstan1 @real-human-shana-nicole @newromanticslut @holdmyteaplease @my-mind-is-frozen @zuzanna-jadw1ga @starchasers-stuff @chilipowder9 @iwanttomarrynoahshaw @evermore-4-life @lovliestars @urbanflorals @sl33py-angel @antlerbullets @rohza-is-a-bit-gay @mickeywheeler @reyna-obsessed @13callisto @nqds @maketheshadowsfearyou @crowgenius @in-a-state-of-crisis @cc-horan @bookishswiftie1989 @ava-taylors-version @pranav03 @thislifeissweeterthanfiction @mickeywheeler @waiting-down-the-hall-for-me (apparently i reached the max ments on a post)

SERIOUSLY, IF YOU KNOW ME IRL, STOP LOOKING AT ME BLOG.

: ̗̀➛ dni: racists//homophobes//proshippers//does not stand with palestine//over 30 (respectfully)

[chaoticcutiewhirl]

So Aphmau posted something related to Mystreet aka something related to my childhood lol. Aka she posted something related to her story stuff, it may not be Diaries but I am excited nonetheless, and the trailer for it basically confirms its a final season and that it will be animated, but there is a small gripe. It is using that Minecraft Cinematic style when I feel because of how long it has been she could reasonably seperate it from Minecraft and do a whole new animation style for the project but her team likely it's still used to this as they do it for her main channel's thumbnails, so she likely did not want to hire a whole new team for an indie animation when I think the writing for Diaries and Mystreet shows she could reasonably do that and have success.

Overall I am excited though and all I can hope is Aphmau returns to storytelling even if it was the more soap opera style of that one with the demon boys, My Inner Demons I believe its called.

Also fun fact: the name Lucinda came from Aphmau's content but our system's Lucinda is not an introject and I, Sylvia / Ava was almost Katelyn XD. Either way neither of us Introjects but as a system thing I hope if there were introjects while watching... they either reveal themselves fully or don't lol, preferably don't as 7 is enough of a hassle to keep track while constantly physically ill. Either way excited for Mystreet One Last Time lol

[melodicwitchlight]

haruto has brown hair ;; cropped haircut, and is wielding a sword 🗡 as he fights the chocolate and caramel dragon in the sugar falls event. raphael and some other friends were fighting alongside him.

he holds the sword in his white paw ;; light rainbow swirling within.

I. Digis Site hosting ran out.

II. Centrally reformed in the Underground : Digis Discord.

III. Bat said forums and profiles are still here, in response to my evaluation article : Underground General. She showed screenshots of the site in Announcements. Pinned post in General.

IV. Evaluation Article of Site / Presence Retained in Launch: Profile (Dark #3076), Pet, Gingerbread Cottage, Inventory, Roleplay. Forums : Present Community Threads, Roleplay sub-forums : Past + Current, Art.

V. Digis : Pets. Characters' Stories and Biographies : Andy, Valerie, Haruto, Lucinda, Marissa James, Corentin, Candace, Nimueh, Akiko, Ava, Alan, Ozera, Spiral, Siberian Husky, Keandra, Celina, Alysanne, Sefa, Draegan, Cinaed, Draegan, Minyup, Cinaed.

VI. Threads. Valentine.

VII. Can write drabbles here or sanctificetur.

VIII. Forums + official site (digistoo.com) re-launching in near future : Underground acknowledgement. See: Point IV when looking around the site.

IX. Digis community having storage channels for their characters and roleplaying and chatting in external platform and harmonising a continued beautiful love and hope. They also talk about creating stories for nibbles they do not have on their profile too, the dress up option broadening one's creativity.

X. My nibbles are portrayed in their beautiful familial wholeness, and some other random ones that agonistically rubble piled on my nibble personality not being heard and loved as they are, I judged for myself and deleted.

XI. I kept the Digis Community's Skypes word document only in LP4, not in cloud in the mountains, for when I actually want to friend request one or some or all.

XII. Cloud In The Mountains : Gingerbread Cottage Trainer Introduction + Profile.

it was a long fight, they fighting in the caves, having made it through the insidious licorice swamp ( where they met marissa ), and through the waterfall.

[teonys-jf]

if youve assigned characters new names or have made some new charas, pls drop their names. with the new charas, pls tell what their roles are/who they are?

oh i’d love to!! this is perfect :)

i’ll put the aphmau’s up here ^v^

alice -- heart point, arica -- a royal tale, jackie -- mod mod, jack -- void paradox, jay -- mystreet, ava is staying ava lol

mcd

nicole von rosenburg -- neala ‘nicole’ rosetti

valkrum -- vernon

garroth ro’meave -- garroth ro’mae

zvahl -- zielinski

emma -- elele

mathilda -- matilda

menphia -- teine

lycan -- dunn

glenda/luna uses both names, luna is a nickname given to those she trusts {haydens personal guard, remember her? i do :) she got mad at jess for taking a sword lol}

róisín {kenmur’s parental figure, was the guard standing outside of their house in meteli}

bailey {zoey’s son with gabriel}

zianna maetson

megan rosetti {neala’s older sister, who if she had time, would find her sister much easier than the scaleswing guards. was supposed to marry garroth ro’mae, but he had passed away before that had happened}

ken the steel shield {kims older brother, works alongside her in the jury}

mys

xavier -- xander

hayden, kam, kari, karson flume {katelyn/kaycee’s siblings {there’s an ongoing joke about hayden’s name being kayden}}

ichi, ni, san, yo, go, roku, hachi, kyu, ju, ju-ichi, ju-ni {nana’s siblings}

su-ji and josu ashida {nana’s parents}

viola {human who plays the violin and drums, chill leader of violet menace {consists of sasha, viola, and benny}

benny {fel’ine who plays the piano and saxophone, because of an accident at the hairdressers they had one of her ears almost completely buzzed off. ben has welcomed this and has made it a thing for vm}

mmd

prince reese von toot-cinnamon III-- prince reece von-oot III

prince marsh von toot -- prince marshal von-toot II

queen candy -- queen pixy von-toot III

king kat von-toot V

prin coco von-toot I {oldest von-toot offspring}

princess anise von-toot I {second oldest von-toot offspring}

princess ruth von-toot II

prin ike von-toot IV

kenzie {polly’s second oldest sister}

zena

glory

judy

art

garroth -- garrett cha’le

travis -- trule

katelyn -- kassandra rosume

anna -- hanna frowne

jenny -- juniper scen

nana -- shichi kyo

gene -- grant alejandro

zane -- zachery cha’le

aaron -- aren fal’caw

sasha -- seni dow’pur

lucinda -- lucy dow’pur {took seni’s last name}

dottie -- danielle ‘danny’

ivy -- daisy vitae

amber -- jade

boss -- katherine

megan -- mattias rosetti

teony -- thea las’il

luka -- lenorre ‘leo’

cadenza -- cadance emmeson

laurence -- landon emmeson

diana -- dylan

cathy -- princess claire zensun

betty -- brianna ‘bri’

daniel -- jacob

rylan -- rylie

zuri {leo’s daughter, friends with cadence, likes to spend time with trule amongst mortals}

[deliahscrush2003]

My OC Masterlist

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AGENTS OF FATE || FANDOM: FAIRY TAIL ||

Kindred Blanche *

Seiren Blanche

Tora Blanche

AS THE WORLD CAVES IN || FANDOM: MY HERO ACADEMIA ||

Nakao Nakano - Profile Unavailable

Sachiko Yoshinaga - Profile Unavailable

Kai Kaneki - Profile Unavailable

Ren Mitsugi - Profile Unavailable

Sora Sakurai - Profile Unavailable

Ryota Oba - Profile Unavailable

Mai Endo - Profile Unavailable

BREATHE FOR ME || FANDOM: TEEN WOLF ||

Vanessa O'Connor *

Claire Rhodes - Profile Unavailable

Phoebe Mason - Profile Unavailable

Tatianna Valerio - Profile Unavailable

Tristan Dufort - Profile Unavailable

Lyra Vega - Profile Unavailable

Leo Vega - Profile Unavailable

BORN IN A THUNDERSTORM || FANDOM: ATTACK ON TITAN ||

Carina Gunner *

Else Gunner - Profile Unavailable

Brie Gunner - Profile Unavailable

CHILDRE OF PROPHERCY || FANDOM: HARRY POTTER ||

Cecilia "Cecily" Malfoy

Ariel McKinnon

Sapphire Etoile

Bethany Meadowes

Lucinda Lestrange - Profile Unavailable

FARREN THE VAMPIRE SLAYER || FANDOM: BTVS ||

Farren Emerson - Profile Unavailable

MINDS OF THE DAMNED || FANDOM: CRIMINAL MINDS ||

Persephone Shaw

MYRIAD OF SCARS || FANDOM: WOLFBLOOD ||

Niamh O'Connor *

Avery Jameson

ONCE A KING OR QUEEN OF NARNIA || FANDOM: NARNIA ||

Sylvia of Narnia *

Layla of Calormen - Profile Unavailable

Callis of Archenland - Profile Unavailable

Janus of Archenland - Profile Unavailable

SHE WAS THE FIRST || FANDOM: THE MAZE RUNNER ||

Ada *

Angelo

THE BLOOPERVERSE || FANDOM: X-MEN (MOVIES) ||

Louise "Lou" Hammond *

Johanna "Jo" Ferguson

Casey Cassidy

THE BABYSITTER CLUB || FANDOM: STRANGER THINGS ||

Michelle "Shelly" Hargrove - Profile Unavailable

Stephanie "Steph" Harrington - Profile Unavailable

THE CHAOS THEORY || FANDOM: JURASSIC PARK ||

Julia Simmons

THE SEDA SERIES || FANDOM: STAR WARS ||

Serina Seda *

Rivin Nox

THE SURVIVORS SERIES || FANDOM: RESIDENT EVIL ||

Kylie Pryce - Profile Unavailable

THE TWIN RANGERS || FANDOM: POWER RANGERS ||

Tamsin "Tammy" Oliver *

TRUE BLUE || FANDOM: PACIFIC RIM ||

Indianna "Indy" Taylor *

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FANDOM: CURSED.

Reagan of Cinder *

FANDOM: FEAR/ THE WALKING DEAD.

Raine Campbell *

FANDOM: HUNGER GAMES.

Dyanna Faustus

Hugo Havillard

FANDOM: PERCY JACKSON.

Leah Castor *

Bright Riddlan

FANDOM: PRETTY LITTLE LIARS.

Lauren "Lori" Dolian *

FANDOM: THE VAMPIRE DIARIES/ THE ORIGINALS.

Fiona Reyne *

Ava Reyne.

Kenna Reyne.

Elide Reyne.

Augustus Reyne.

Hugh Reyne.

Bellamy Delacorix

Marion Delacroix

Killian Whelan.

Thea Whelan.

Carter Ryan.

[ [ Curious? Don't be afraid to let me know ] ]

[wickedinwindale]

Females

Wisteria

Jordin

Elle

Suzie

Lucinda

Josslyn

Jennifer

Sybil

Alison

Alice

Kelsie

Lynette

Kelly

Raine

Lilian

Ava

Katrina

Delilah

Xana

Rosa

Anna