#aurumverse

[starmonsterrr]

[ * I figured out i eventually would need to make AUV!Error so wahoo !!!!!!!!!! here's some silly meow meow with a totally original name (guys i actually struggled with this one) ]

[ * I have yet to come up with some sort of lore or whatever, they're just a guy ]

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@starmonsterrr Sorry I couldn't finish your birthday gift in time, life happened. I hope you like it anyway! When I get more energy and clear my other projects, I plan to finish it :D

Your sona is wagging your tail in the picture, by the way! I just forgot to add motion lines ^^;

[Also, their eyes are closed and happy, but I forgot to make them visible against the dark colors.]

[blackholeyokaiii]

CW: [ * bright colors (mainly red), me being an 3rr0r1nk hater (as customary for this blog /silly) ]

[greenhousetiger]

The A

I don't know what I was thinking those days, my brain was super muddled. Between some therapy and school work, I was doing my best to keep up with the world, but sometimes...well, a lot of the time it was hard. It was hard to still go to school, even if I did have the backdrop of winning the basketball tourney with the remainder of "the guys", it always was accompanied by "yeah but did you hear she, er, 'scuse me, "he" got raped?" when I would walk down the halls. It was a bit sombering, considering the fact that I would always hear gossip over the fact that I was fucked up, but nothing about the people who fucked me up. Well, as messed up as it all was, I thought "good, I don't wanna hear about them."

I'd have thoughts. They didn't get life when they were sentenced. They deserved it, of course, but that never seems to happen with rapists and the like. Sometimes I'd think, hey, thats ok. Even if they didn't get life, I'll just take their lives away if I ever see them again! How dare they. How dare they do that to me over something...or some things, that were petty as fuck. Hell, the moment I see them, even if it's just one, I'm gunna fuck 'em up.

Other days I'd mess myself up over missing them. I'd lay down and abuse myself over even wanting any of them back in my life, except not perpetrators of violence against me. I'd lay down, I'd go to sleep. I'd see dreams, visions, of where everything was alright. None of it ever happened. They got to be normal people. I was still chatting happily with David and telling him to do his best when dealing with his family, giving him the support I could. Advising him to do this and that with his boy crush, and having him bug me about who I liked.

I was making bets with Carter not over if Ruuben would get angry at something, but specific details like how and when. We'd exchange jokes, and he'd maybe offer me some weed but I'd say no and to give it to Vinne who could probably give him something worthwile in exchange. I'd go see Jamie and listen to him play guitar, and tell him that he was doing great and maybe even dance to what he was doing a little.

Then there was Jacob and our little secret book exchange of varying material, and hey sometimes I'd end up with something really good, and sometimes he'd give me something particularly crappy (or maybe slightly pornographic) just to fuck around with me. I did the same thing. But now, the only books I read are assigned in school.

People with messy hair make me uncomfortable just by looking at them. It doesn't matter if they're boys, girls, or other folk. That's all I have to say about Felix, but I think I miss his shitty jokes and shitty accent, and it rips me apart to think I even miss a goddamn thing of him, but hey, I hate him too.

I'm fucking killing him first.

Leave a dead body for someone to fuck behind.

Needless to say, nightclubs and certain music remind me of Nick and his black hole stomach. But mostly his black hole heart for doing what he did to me. I'll kill him after felix, just to fuck with David. I won't kill David. I'd never kill "bestie", but I'll watch "bestie" suffer. Haha listen to me go on like this, I'm a bit sadistic aren't I? Well, that side of me always develops more and more the more I think about things and people that hurt me.

"Dont fight fire with fire"

Are you kidding me? If I had an interest in fire, I'd burn this entire fucking town down. But eh, I know what sorta magic I can do if I try. I don't have fire, I have aquatics and ice. Why watch them burn?

I can drown them, and pike them on blades of ice.

I remember dissociating when they were wrecking me. Though, it still hurt, so I gave off a reaction, even in dim form. I heard them wonder why it was getting so cold, so icy. I should have ended them right then and there, let the "magic police" come get me for murdering them. But I remembered what grandma said:

"No matter what, keep it inside of you. Your fear and anger will destroy you and others around you. There's no telling what could happen if you use any of your power at this point. I know you showed a snowflake to your friend when you were younger... but things are different now. Show a snowflake, You'll show a blizzard with it. Show a raindrop, torrents may come.

...

But if you have to fight, use your fists and give a good beatdown for me that that way, eh sweetie?"

Oh grandma, you're gone now, but by god, I wish I could have. But what was I to do, all bound up and set up for getting finned for soup? Then tossed back into the ocean to bleed to death and die. That's what I did. I listened to you, but at what cost? Could I really have plunged the city into an icy vortex just by killing those assaulting me? I was too afraid of potentially killing...people I cared about. God, but the people fucking me up WERE people I cared about, or at least...a part of that fucking mess.

I dunno. Some days I just want to end myself. Those thoughts though, they're scary. They're not like me. I'm not the chronically depressed twin.

Nah, I'm the violent twin. The diiiirty one, the one that gets all fucking creepy the moment you do nasty shit to me.

Nooooo.

I don't want that.

I wanna be pretty and sweet. Call me a pretty boy, make me the prettiest boy in town.

...

I dunno anymore. It's one of those days that I feel violent, and everyone notices it's colder.

I'm sorry grandma, if those people you warned me about find me.

I'm so sorry.

I don't want them to find me, but I can't conceal my feelings. Heaven know's I tried.

You were like me, weren't you? That's why you seemed so worried, so concerned.

I wish you were here.

...

I wish a lot of things were still here.

[rosesarecrimson]

I have never felt more accomplished in my life.

[starmonsterrr]

[ * Juno's pronouns ]

[ * i.... forgot the bone patterns in the last panel......... Still looks good though ]

[starmonsterrr]

[ * them ,, ]

[ * A tiny bit messy but I think this turned out really good (particularly proud of the background!!!!) ]

[ * also got silly with Juno's tail because why not !! ]

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[ * HOW did I actually do this . What . ]

[ * so anyways queers (I wanted to test cat face I've been seeing around a bit) (it spiraled out of control) (I don't think I'll ever reach such an artistic peak ever again /j) ]

Edit: [ * PLEASE CLICK IMAGE Tumblr killed quality ]

[starmonsterrr]

[ * Perks of being a shapeshifter :33333 ]

[ * I could've done better with the rendering but I think it's pretty good ]

[ * So anyway purrs at them purrs at them purrs at them purrs- ]

[starmonsterrr]

[ * I think he would like butterflies (i finally have this DONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE) ]

[starmonsterrr]

[ * Hi guys i'm still cringe btw. Me and the boyfriend and husband (gender neutral) (yes he is both at the same time) :3 ]

[starmonsterrr]

[ * Aurumverse Stars!! ]

[ * I also like to call them the Constellation! i speedran these designs throughout the weekend, and it was worth it! I think they turned out really nice! ]

[ * Dream is nicknamed Sol, Ink is nicknamed Juno, and Blueberror is nicknamed Voyager ]

[ * I especially had a fun time with the lineart and colors... yeah my artstyle is being funky ]

[ * Io (UTMV sona, thang on PFP) is also part of the team but I decided to cut it from the full picture bcs time. But it's still getting a mini-ref and perhaps will get into an alternative version of this! ]

[ * anyway YAY THIS IS DONE!! (⁠☆⁠▽⁠☆⁠) ]

[starmonsterrr]

[ * I COOKED UP A DECENT ANIMATION LET'S GOOOOOOOO ]

[ * Kinda venty kinda me trying to show off kinda trying to make something to post on you tubere ]

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[ * done ...... ]

[starmonsterrr]

cw: [ * bright colors (mainly red) ]

[starmonsterrr]

✦ IN THE BLUE STARLIGHT

BREAK AWAY THE DAY

AND BRING TO ME THE NIGHT

IF I SHOULD REST

BEFORE THIS ENDS

BREAK THE CLOUDS,

MAKE THEM TURN TO SAND

✦— – - ·

[ * Artist's notes and such below the cut! ]

[ * WOAH THIS IS DONE ]

[ * I got the idea for this a few days ago and could NOT get it out of my head, so .... Here!!!! ]

[ * The lyrics I put there are just because while I was close to finishing this, a variant made by the same artist came up on the playlist, and I liked the lyrics, so I searched for the original song, and I liked it, so I just Ctrl C + Ctrl V'ed ]

[ * also I did a bit of cheating here because I misheard them a bit (it's actually amber starlight but shhhh) ]

[ * The concept going on here is that y'know how in Undertale, us Players have the yellow star and when interacting with it, we are filled with determination ]

[ * From there I started thinking.... A lot.... Very much.... And well, here we are! ]

[ * What about Creators, then? Creators are more of a fan concept thing I'm grabbing for the sake of this though but anyways. I interpret them to be a counterpart to the Players. So one day when I was bored I just took the color yellow and used a hue filter thing to make it the opposite color and I got blue (...neat! Io, my UTMV sona, has a blue and yellow color combo.) ]

[ * Blue star → Creator → “You are overflowing of IMAGINATION” ]

[ * Yellow star → Player → “You are filled with DETERMINATION.” ]

[ * The silly fox creature is Aurum by the way, my sona for the UTMV Meta. It creates stuff for the UTMV pretty much ]

[ * I still have yet to make a proper ref... ]

[ * bonus thing: the sketch I made for this! ]