#attackaed even..

[seilon]

ive been GOT

[transsexula]

Some extra details in the tags.

[pepprs]

yeah no im not going to lie to you gewls. the psychic damage of having to apply for the full-time version of my internship a year ago was kinda unbearable but like it made sense that i had to do that. but the psychic damage of having to apply for the literal EXACT same job that i am CURRENTLY IN just at a regular status with better benefits… is quite simply unspeakable. make it make sense.

[temeraire]

posts will be like "here is the solution to x worldwide problem!" "here is the best alternative to x morally questionable thing!" "here is the workaround to fix x issue easily!" and say "you have no excuse not to do this/use this!" and you look at it and its usa-only

[futurefind]

//Suddenly remembering how Sa's og powerset (besides nebulous magical creeture shapeshifting bc 6y.o w all dreams) included being able to make 'familiars' out of the elements she could bend

Like, I distinctly remembering her having wolf (ice/water) messengers and even a wholesale fucking dragon for transport/dmg (prolly Yes elements wise but also locked behind 4th bc iirc the size/complexity of 'familiars' was Also tied to level of activation)

I honestly have no fucking idea when or why it was dropped. I'm guessing due to making her a DGM-main n getting 90% of her dev from the brainworms abt that? And more specifically as a rp oc and thus being allergic to 'being op'?? But also I was eleven had no shame n straight up included a page dedicated to her Wouldve Been role in xyz canon events if ppl wanted to go along w it??????

Ig it could be used now as a ability of true mastery over her kit but also holy jesus biscuits the implications of that are So Fucking Much Truly esp depending on verse????

[euclydya]

favorite word?

Oh buddy you've opened the floodgates now. I've got like dozens of people yelling random words at the top of their lungs in here. I cannot actually make out any words in this cacophony so lemme ask our main fronters one by one:

Me: I've never put thought into this. But given source shit and how deranged I am over this one word, I will go with RESPONSIBILITY.

Curly: It's been having a bad day actually but seeing this question immediately cheered it up. I took one look at it and didn't even get the question out my mouth before it telepathically screamed FUCK at me.

Anya: Murder. She stared into my soul when she said this. I know exactly why. Friends and followers may know why. People familiar with our source may know why. Sorry ma'am. You should've been able to murder me I 100% agree.

Swansea: He just brandished his axe aat me???????????????? Curly asked instead and he squinted and also said murder. Okay. Understandable.

Daisuke: I just heard him scream "COFFEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" at the top of his lungs. Brother it is too early for coffee right now but noted.

Bill: Verbatim, He said: "MURDER—HAHAHAHAHAHAHA JUST KIDDING!!!! I DON'T THINK I HAVE A FAVOURITE WORD BUT I'M TEMPTED TO SAY FORD. IS THAT TOO ON THE NOSE."

Will: He gave me a short list. Sleep, Somnus, Insomnia, Sleepy, Tired... Then He went back to bed.

Ford: She mulled it over a bit. "Eureka!" She said after a little while. "But also shoutout to 'urethra,' because that meme is funny." Then she got lost in thought? "Y'know, I can't actually think of a word that's green right now. That would probably be my actual favourite word, but eureka is a close second." Synesthesia is a hell of its own design, I understand.

Stan: Couldn't even find him in-sys to ask before he bombarded my thoughts with CASH MONEY CASH MONEY CASH MONEY FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK BLOOD KILL ATTACKA DEATH DIE. So pick one from that list I guess.

Fids: He thought about it for a second and then laughed at himself. "You'd think my favourite would be connected to my source in some way like the others, but in fact, I'd have to say my favourite word is lavender. Funny, that." If you know you know.

Diamonds: It just stared at me bewildered. Didn't even say a word. After a few seconds, it said: "Perhaps storm, or spring? Maybe electric? Any word that is deep blue, really."

Spades: He let out a low whistle and a sigh before saying one word: Apathy.

Felidae: REPENT. Understandable.

Thank you for the question. I hope these answers suffice. -Jimmy

[goatpaste]

sometimes, i wonder what my biggest influence and thing im known for is to my followers

and i worry its my mario attack post lol

because i didnt even make the term attacka, i just drew mario over it lol

[artfightdramaconfessions]

this year ive been getting way way way more random attacks than usual and as an obligate revenger its killing me. for context i usually do around 50 attacks a year and i have around 200 in total but oh my god i have no idea what happened im having people absolutely run a train on me and i have no way of catching up. even when i draw a couple more revenges im still at least three or four behind being able to pursue my bookmarks or do chains ive pre-agreed upon. i know that its such a priveliged problem to be like 'waah waaaah too many people attacking meeeee' but as someone whos been on the other end of the 'i get no attacks' debacle it SUCKS!!!!!! it SUCKS SO BAD!!!!! i dont wanna let all these people down and all of their art is lovely but oh god theres all so very much to do and i simply wish i were able to attacka my friends.

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[izar-tarazed]

🌺 send this to ten muns you think are wonderful <3 🌺 HAHA ATTACKA YOU BAC - rotten-pest

@rotten-pest oh no, it’s a boomerang! <3

But seriously, thank you so much!! It has been (and is!) an absolute pleasure to write and plan with you and bring all kinds of misery down onto Cotesia, Izar and Ensha (cray! fish! violence!). Cotesia is such a unique character and I love not only how you write her with all her particularities, but also how you’re curating the aesthetics associated with her? At this point, when I see one of your reblogs on my dash, I usually know it’s yours before even glancing at the url or the tags.

Apologies for being a little slow with my replies currently, now that the holidays are over and I’m recovering from whatever-that-shit-was things should go more smoothly! Happy new year and I’m looking forward to more Cotesia shenanigans, art and aesthetics.

[frowningfox]

a very edgy 12 and 19 for the package deal of asim, yunuen, and daoinrai

It's my trio of boys! Time to get down and dirty with the rough stuff.

Let's define the boys real quick for the new people

Asim:

My main boy, longest had boy. He is an undead zaixaudai(dark elf/orc) pala-lock. As a child he was sent to a religious-military academy through a delinquent program and was taught that undeath is wrong and undead must be smited. Post-schooling, he was killed during his duties as a paladin, and became undead, which has given him considerable inner conflict.

Yunuen: Asim's "twin" that shares his body. He started his life as a stage persona, then took on his own life. He's not sure how he became his own person or when it happened.

how it happened: He is a fragment of a dairau[dark elf] mirror god who wished a chance to be their own person for once, instead of a reflection of others. They were given this chance by through sharing Asim's body and embodying his stage persona and gaining their own personhood from that starting point. Thus keeping an important aspect of their godhood while giving them their chance at personhood. To genuinely embrace their personhood, their memories of their life before and how they came to be in this form are forgotten for now.

He is very new to being a person and is still trying to figure things out. He has a suspicion that he is some sort of outer entity like a demon, possessing Asim, and that thought scares him.

Daoinrai:

Asim's Mewaikroi, his "Core"? His heart? He is the the culmination of all Asim's past lives, most strongly embodying his first life - the life of a wilbi[wood elf] prince- even taking the name of that life.

He is a 14?ft tall beast with two mouths, 2 torsos, 4 sets of arms. This is normal, and he's not at all bothered by this existence. Wilbi have a minor form of wild-shape, and at high levels gain the ability to turn into a "true form", a beast made up with their own imagination.

That wasn't as quick as I thought it would be... anyway. To the questions.

Is your OC self-destructive? In what ways?

Asim: To an extreme, but very private about it Yunuen: Also to an extreme, but with much less restraint and more showmanship Daoinrai: Not really, but there is a degree of risk taking which seems severe, but from his point of view - the POV of a huge size category beast - it's rather mild to him. That being said, his risk taking does have a mild lack of concern for his own wellbeing. And he HAS over-cast in very dangerous ways, but his belief in his ability to do it outweighed any sense of danger he had.

I will go more in depth and edgier under the cut, TW for lots of things when you get there.

How does your OC behave when enraged?

Might contain mildly triggering discussion, but it SHOULD be fine? We're just gonna be brushing up against sensitive topics here.

Asim: Asim's original channel divinity was a RAGE STATE. Attacka-attacka-attacka. He is calm until suddenly he is not. He lashes out. Even in interpersonal situations. He feels like shit afterwards, it's not necessarily intentional or even ON PURPOSE. It hurts him to be angry and he blindly lashes out on instinct. #autismfeels

It also comes out of nowhere because he had a lot of emotional repression taught to him in military academy. No expression shown until he breaks. He will do a Big Hit and he will hit over and over again. Fists or hammer. He will go to town. Some situations will help him hold back and catch himself after the first blow, but it's very hard for him and he'll often retreat to a private situation to self destruct over what he's done.

Yunuen: Yunuen.... has yet to figure out this whole emotions thing. And it's scary. He doesn't have the repression Asim does from military academy - he "remembers" being there but he acts as "what if" alternate outcome for asim where instead of being repressed, the academy just magnified his anger issues.

He shows VERY visible signs leading up to rage, often out proportion to the situation. His emotion is 100%, 100% of the time. And he shows very elven signs of emotion, which are often seen as "animalistic", especially when shown to the degree that Yunuen shows them. Teeth bared as far as the lip will curl, mouth opened to better show teeth, deep throaty rattling of his heartbone.

He is MUCH more likely to bite than Asim is when he's enraged. (Asim retains the repression of elven instinct and will stick to fists). And he will bite and tear or bite and hold on like a bulldog. Afterwards, glaring at you, with open bloody mouth, growling, on the ready to bite again if the situation continues.

Daoinrai: Daoinrai, in all his accumulated wisdom and power, is much more calculated, restrained, and scary about it. His rage won't often go beyond a threat display, both mouths open, all teeth at the ready, mane and dorsal fur lashing about like there's a raging wind even if the air is completely calm. hands and feet unwound into lashing tendrils and exposed bones. Openly growling while delivering a well worded threat.

Usually while pinning down the offending person with one hand.

Basically when enraged he tears people apart with words while making sure they really understand how he could tear them apart with more than words.

Noooow... we're gonna go back to the first question and it's gonna be a bit rough. Sensitive topics ahead

Is your OC self-destructive? In what ways?

Asim:

Asim is directly and physically self destructive.

He has severe problems with self harm and suicide. He has an idle habit of chewing on things, including himself, and when he's in great distress, guilt, conflict, or various other intense emotions, when he's alone, he will chomp on himself pretty bad on purpose.

He has made multiple attempts on his life, which has only gotten more frequent now that he's undead. He has stabbed himself through the chest, and he's torn out his own throat before.

Biting himself is most common, followed by hitting hard objects. Sharp tools or his own claws is next on his list.

He has thrown caution to the wind and over-cast spells before. He's a serial over-caster actually. Him casting speak-with-animals past his spell slot limits is actually the story reason he got the feat/invocation(i forgor which) that allows him to cast it at will when he leveled up once. Flavor-wise, it's just... always on. He has to actively repress it if he doesn't want to hear what animals have to say.

Yunuen:

Yunuen is a lot less direct, but just as harmful to himself.

In his stage shows, he puts himself in harms way on purpose to wow the crowd. He is painfully aware that one of the most exciting parts of his shows is the fact he might die and that the crowd is waiting with baited breath to see if it will happen.

He did attempt to take his life on purpose on stage to "make a point" to the crowd, but did not succeed. He had no idea what to do with himself so he just lay there in a pool of his own blood, bleeding out, as if he DID die, until one of Asim's loved ones broke through the crowd and forced him to drink a health potion(thinking he was Asim, no one is really aware about their split currently and think he's just a stage persona that Asim is VERY dedicated to).

He WILL bite himself and also has a chewing fixation like Asim, and is probably a bit worse about the idle chewing. He does not tend to bite himself consciously as self harm though, more as... the closest comforting chew toy.

Probably has over-cast spells before.

Daoinrai???

Still sitting at "He rushes into battle with gusto, and no thought of self preservation." But who can really blame him. He is ... well. Himself. And he has great confidence in that. Not much edginess to be had here ... mmm except for the fact that the First Life that he greatly embodies DID suicide-spell to end a battle. He was already bleeding out on the battle field and he created a combo "hallucinatory pattern"+"greater shatter" and channeled as much power he could into it, ending himself and disrupting the battle enough for the civilians he was protecting to escape.

[virdemption]

i don't mind the slow responses haha. another thought i had is if sonnja's fire changes color, depending on what she eats or whatever is in the air. reminds me how certain elements changes fire color (like copper turns fire green). i could see her eating blue takis, and it causes her to temporarily blow blue fire. oh, and of course she enjoys fireworks and probably would even set some off herself if she could. apparently throwing sugar in fire causes sparks, and throwing flour in fire causes flare up. how to really get sonnja going - just throw some flour at her. hey, you might even get raimond flared up too just for that.

also, i learned the other day that moons can get sunburns from solar winds. makes me wonder if brighton/sonnja have that kind of power to burn twila/raimond, albeit it would be done completely on accident.

now i'm imagining purple sonnja after she eats like a banana or pickle or something,, maybe raimond is alarmed at first remembering bizatch but it's ok it's just sonnja. yayyyy :D

*attacka u witha sugar and flour* what the heck man dzzztzdzzztdzzt also YES she loves fireworks/ YIPPEE

perhaps they get a little burnt but it can heal back after a little bit. and tbh i feel like raimond wouldn't mind as much if he got scarred because he can carry a bit of sonnja around with him wherever he wants.

[das-ist-nett]

for the a3 asks!!! uhhh 16, 33, 36 :] if it wasn't max of three you'd be fucking Attacka

omg hiiiii :D and thanks for sending an ask in!! ngl i almost added a tag saying more than 3 was fine... but you could always send another :3c /nf

16: Favorite Support Character

hands down it's August. he mmeans the world to me

33: Favorite Game CG

I honestly have no clue if it's okay to post the CGs online, but it's actually a three-way tie! there's the one from chapter 5 episode 29 "A Safe Place," from chapter 13 episode 28 "Welcome Home," and the one from this year's Tanabata event "Starry Tears on a Summer Night" (<-is that even a good TL for that title? i've been on the fence about that one sfsjdg but i digress). if you know the ones you'll see a pattern here afjsvd

36: Favorite Doodle

ohhh that's a tough one! they all have their own charms ,,, i think i have to go with Omi's, though. he baked a quiche!! :D

[mechanical-shark]

Drunk long ramble related to Jaws below, but i truly wanted to share so i hope this is somewhat interesting, despite the length!;

Okay so i won't make posts like this at all really, this is a one off. But I am legless drunk. Super drunk. More drunk than I've been in maybe ... lime a few years??? I do not often partake in alcohol and often get thoughtful when drunk. Point being that. .. while very drunk I thought 'okay I need to watch jaws right NOW'

And . Let me say. The first 5m 15s of Jaws hits very different when you're drunk! I first got like very invested in jaws a few months ago, and thought to myself 'wow these drunk people at the beginning, is so bizarre to me, how can you get so drunk to pass out on a beach with the waves lapping at your legs while another drunk person gets slowly and horrifically mauled to death. Can not relate. Odd and weird ' . And couldn't.... hmmm understand the horror of it all beyond the theoretic horror of someone dying by Shark alone and scared. It wasn't scary to me on a visceral level, just quaint (heh like Quint. I am so drunk sorry I love Quint ))) as in aww 70s horror was straight to the point and like Direct 'what if a Shark... Attacka!!' but i didn't feel afraid by the prologue.

And now. Being very drunk and squirmy. Abf seeing it while so drunk i can't sit upright. .......Omg. That lady was drunk when she died at the as beginning. This is horrifying and i felt myself just stop and go " Oh fuck. She was drunk and went swimming where she thought she was safe. She thought nothing bad could happen to her in that water. I am drunk now and would love to swim in the ocean if I had the chance and cool off because I'm overheating. And suddenly om remembering i had friends who would strip when drunk - and of course that's why she's doing so, when yohre drunk sometimes u cna feel that way.. and going Swimming with a stranger because obviously you're DRUNK and like it's like yeah this is a good idea!. And she didn't even know he had passed out. All she knew was sudden pain. And her immediate expression change was like . Oh. And being dragged under and dragged around. And clinging to that floating uhhh bobbing thing" and then pulled underneath a final time. Absolutely damn horrifying . Felt like a pit dropped in my stomach like - oh i can suddenly imagine myself not expecting danger in a common situation. Because surely they got drunk there ofyeb and iy was the young people drinking by rhe sea spot before the young lady died.. Too drunk yo explain but fuck i can relate. I fell off the sofa about an hour ago. I don't drink often. So didn't relate before . So it hit me hard!! Like. ....

(I've sobered up a bit since typing this an hour ago. But I'm choosing to preserve this post as is and just post it now because MAN this was a harrowing experience and made me see the beginning of Jaws in a different light. I couldn't relate at all, it felt dumb to get drunk near the ocean because of Course that's dangerous. As a landlubber I was like HUH who would drink on a beach. And now I'm like OH, where else do you go to drink at a coastal small town as a young adult?

Also I have to say, I'm a huge fan of horror, and Jaws reminds of the Texas chainsaw Massacre 1974, which I'm a bit fan of. And it's because of the sensibilities and filmmaking style of 1970s America clearly, there's gonna be similarly! And the beginning section where it's young people who are drinking/ perhaps some of them using drugs and unknowingly stumble into a unexpectedly dangerous situation. Big parallel! I've been thinking about this for a while, but failing to make it coherent. Obviously movies from different time periods will be influenced by this. But like. 70s movies hit different for me. And this is one of the reasons I love Jaws !!! And I stopped the movie at 5:32m seeing MARTIN Brody from the back and doggy in foreground becausr I am soon to fall asleep. But man. Tomorrow is time to rewatch Jaws when sober and please forgive me for my rambling! But it felt worth sharing idk. Life's too short to not share these odd moments

[aliettali]

attacka you.

Are you looking to pursue a career in art?

What is your favourite piece that you have done?

favorite piece -> last post 🔥

as for the career......yes absolutely!!! art is very important to me and i started drawing when i was very young so i grew up with it ... it is my favorite hobby and even if i get into slumps at some points i am always sure that it will come back eventually. right now i am thinking uhh. art commissions in my spare time + graphic designer + something related to stem . not sure

[bipolarmango]

I've been feeling like a fraud because I've got a panic disorder diagnosis but I haven't had a full-blown panic attack since 2022 when I often got stuck in supermarkets and had to stop the car on the side of a road. I'm still regularly having attacks where my chest hurts and my arms and legs start to go numb (my biggest telltale signs), accompanied, of course, by anxiety, but im not feeling like immediately dying. People don't have to come and collect me from places when I'm stuck and can't move. These attacka usually get tolerable when I max out (or even take too much of) my medications (Atarax and Lorazepam). Some days I go in haze as I immediately take more meds when I feel the effect dissipating and the telltale signs coming back.

Today I learnt that the reason why my doctor has kept me on the antidepressant I am on, even if it doesn't really help much with my depression, is that it's a rather strong anxiety medication and he has hoped it would allow me not to rely on Atarax and Lorazepam. All this time I've been taking a big daily dose of medication for my panic attacks WHILE taking two additional meds for them AND still having attacks YET still feeling like I'm a fraud because I haven't gotten stuck in the supermarket for a while.

[siofra-river]

Menace attacka me !!! I can’t even groove in the peace of my own room!!!