#at least with the ending i wont. who knows for the parts leading up to it hehehehe

[dekupalace]

Hi I'm the Anon from before where I said I was scared of the ending not being a happy one. And then you said it was going to be.

My newest prediction is that you're a liar and I don't believe you. Please prove me wrong. Don't make me sad :(

LMAO????? anoooon have some faith in me!!!!!

[twstfanblog]

Heyyyyy so uhhhhh…

What if the mc back in their world was a slave? Not servant like jamil, just, straight up slave where their opinion didn’t matter :( n they r female, afab, pronounce she/they? Hopefully nothing bad happened but people who get slaves r bad people so :((( overblot boys pls 🙏🥺

I feel like they would all threaten crowley to absolutely NOT look for a way to send mc home n to stop making her do his things cause that reminds her of back home in a very bad way :(

N then they comfort n hold the mc cause they r safe n wont have to be treated like shit anymore :(

They will punch anyone who treats em like shit

Which practically everyone in school did when they arrived at NRC, and they just thought ‘this is normal’. :(

Overblot Boys React to Slave Reader

Overblot Boys x Reader

Riddle

Lowkey saw you as an ideal student. Polite, respectful, and mindful of the rules. So he wouldn't notice anything past a few odd ticks that he himself wouldn't fully question since his own upbringing was shitty.

It takes him and Ace having an argument, Riddle brings up that Ace can learn a thing or two from you on being a respectful student. And Ace fires back on you being a SLAVE. Of course, his overbearing ass would love that. And Riddle has to really think about what kinda person that makes him that he didn't even notice.

He talks to you, wanting personal confirmation on what Ace had blurted out. Once he gets the confirmation, his attitude gets much softer. You don't get as harsh treatment for rule-breaking, but he's still stern about them.

End game, he makes up a secondary set of rules for you only. Rules like 'We say something if we are uncomfortable' or 'We are allowed to say No'. He just gets much softer but remains true on rules being important. He just also stresses that you should have your own personal rules now.

Leona

Clocked immediately you came from a background of servitude, though he wasn't aware how severe it was.

He didn't plan on getting invovled but his little bleeding heart took Ruggie under his wing for a reason. It was one part pity and mostly annoyance seeing you getting bullied by his dorm everyday.

You basically get 'Leona's Servant' boot camp with Ruggie suddenly. He teaches you how Leona likes his laundry tended to and what snack flavors he prefers. It's a smooth transition from slave to servant until Ruggie tells you it's free game to steal from Leona.

Leona never brings it up, but he knows your old home was not a good environment. He also knows he can't just fling you into a healthier dynamic with those around you, so he'll do it slowly and sneakily. Ruggie is the perfect one to bridge the gap for him to start spoiling you.

Azul

Knew something was off but had no real frame of reference. He would make little theories and try to figure out why you act the way you do. He only started thinking you had come from a background of servitude when you follow orders so quickly.

Honestly doesn't know how to feel because he did do slavery in tricking the contracted students into working at the lounge against their will. He's not entirely sure how to save face with you after he's come across as a cruel and unfair slaver. Lowkey uses his overblot aftermath as an excuse for a fresh start with you.

He starts treating you kinder, making sure to address you properly and showing that he respects you. People from his dorm follow his lead, at least. The Tweels are part-time bodyguards, making your old bullies more hesitant to start anything because an eel might slip out of a crack or something.

Azul is a sneaky one too, slowly helping you raise your standard of how you should be treated by others. If you get him blabbing long enough, he'll slip into just stating how precious you are to him.

Jamil

I'm sorry, even with the English sanitation, Jamil’s situation can only come across as slavery to me. He's a very well cared for slave because Kalim adores him, but a slave none the less.

It's a little jarring to him to see someone who really could understand. But he's so used to keeping himself guarded he never reached out in a friendly sense. Treating you more like a new coworker; helpful but distant. It wasn't until you accidently broke something in Scarabia and nearly had a panic attack when Kalim looked at you does he realize how severe punishment was back in your world.

Gets much softer to you. It's sad because he does love and care about you, but he would not allow you to be with him long term. You've managed to come to a new world where your old masters can't reach you, you're free. Don't waste it following him back into a life of servitude.

Jamil would understand you the best so he'd be the one to really push and guide you to trying new experiences with your freedom. Wants you to be selfish and use your friends' kindness to make your life better. If he never gets his dream of being able to travel the world he wants you to be able to.

(Should the miracle happen and he and Kalim have the conversation finally, Jamil would go globe trotting with you. He legit has thoughts of just not going back and disappearing with you.)

Vil

I don't think he'd mean anything malicious by it. But he would end up treating you like a purse dog for a while.

Vil has a strong and cemented personality and sense of worth. Dealing with someone as passive as an abused slave, he would easily bulldoze over them and not really notice. Because he'd basically have you on the 'Betterment Plan' he has Epel.

He saw the potential and just kept going because you never said stop. Lots of beauty routines, he picks outfits for you for outings, basically has you as his shadow before either Rook or Epel bring up how he's running you ragged.

Vil never dealt with someone who's come from the situation you did. The very idea that 'No' wasn't a boundary you were ever allowed horrified him for a bit. But like the queen he is, he doesn't try to defend his misstep and goes right into correcting his behavior. The introduction of choices was the best start, but you slowly start saying no to events and choices and Vil couldn't be more delighted.

Idia

Lowkey, I'm not sure if he'd notice in any capacity until you told him point-blank. Idia is the one of the boys who sticks mostly to himself and he'd avoid you if he saw you constantly being hounded by other students.

But, if you managed to get close enough to him, he'd question why you always freeze up when your bullies call you? Why running isn't an option you take? And then you'd tell him about where you came from and how running never ended well for you or the other slaves...

He's not one I think would actively try to curb your behaviors but it would effect his own. Now when he sees you being bullied there's a high chance he'll use what power he has a housewarden to get them to leave. When he's sneaking around, he'll catch your eye and give the mental offer to come hide out in his room with him. He becomes a legit safe space for you to just breath since no one but Ortho really enters his room.

He's had to stop you multiple times from cleaning his room. Yes, it's a mess. No, you don't have to thank him by cleaning. Yes, he's aware you can also keep his stuff organized for him while you clean. You don't have to clean, you aren't his maid. (He is terrified he will ruin your friendship the second you find anything embarrassing under his piles of junk. Like a body pillow, or a 18+ comic, or a stray love note he wrote you-)

Malleus

Adorable you think the bonds of slavery from an unknown world matter to him. Malleus is...a prince, a crown prince at that. I don't think he has 'slaves' but with servants of royalty, I'm never really sure. But anyhow, this boy hasn't been told no enough in his life and it shows.

So when you try to back away from the friendship a bit under the fact of you being a slave and not...worthy of his princely company. He just decides you aren't a slave anymore. Just wills and speaks it into existence. There, it's fixed. You can continue being his beloved child of man, now come. He has a new gargoyle he wants to show you.

Fae to me have favorites, and they love to keep an eye on them. So god help some poor schmuck who tries to bully you into doing their work after Malleus has decided you don't do that anymore... You start saying No and leaving the situation with much more effectiveness because the other choice is Malleus making some poor student drop out for fear of their life.

Malleus canonically ignores the autonomy of others for his own gain. So it would be a really weird balance of him simply stating that you are your own being capable of choice and that your old-world status as a slave doesn't matter here. But with that new free status, you are also his best friend, who will come on night walks with him, talk with him, and make friendship bracelets.

[marlshroom]

came to the fucked up realization after finishing gravity falls again last night the parallels of the dream bubble bill made for mabel and the literal state of delusion he keeps himself in.

in the book of bill on the page where bill cipher describes how he figured out a way to manipulate her into giving him the rift, it says:

"Summers ending, my guy. Ending to death, bro. She'd do anything to make it last just a day longer. Probably something RASH and OUT OF CHARACTER, even!"

as we know, mabel cannot handle the fact that she will be growing up. that the relationship with her brother is going to change. she is scared of high school.

bill then says "That was it. She'd never make a deal with me. But she'd make a deal with someone she believed could give her more time. The dream was done. I had her."

bill then creates the dream bubble for mabel, he makes every one of her dreams come true, a place where time is still and she can be a kid forever. a lie so great that she wont have to face the truth.

in journal 3 on one of the pages bill is writing in code, we see this:

[ID: "I ask you, why must[should] time only move forward? Why must cause preceded effect. Who voted on the law of physics."]

my friend helped me break down what bill means by this:

why can we only move forward in the 4th dimension of time. why does something have to make another thing happen, why must cause come before the effect. why cant you move backwards, in the other direction, change the decisions youve made.

how interpret this is bill asking why he is not able to back and stop what he did to his family. he says to ford that he tried and failed to undo the past.** why did him wanting people to acknowledge his advantages instead of suppress him lead to the destruction of his whole dimension?

**(i just want to point out that this is probably the time where bill is the MOST open to anybody, or at least the first. to his henchmaniacs he had been telling them that he liberated his dimension until the oracle discovered the truth. here, to ford, he got so much closer to telling the truth. he SHOWS ford the last atoms of his world. he says that it was destroyed by a monster, not that it was liberated! destroyed)

back to when bill says "I had her" about mabel, he had her cause he knew exactly what needed to happen to trap mabel in a delusion because it is exactly what he is doing to himself. creating a fake narrative of what happened to him, that he was vindicated in killing his whole dimension. only ever doing exactly what he wants because confronting the truth is too scary for him(good fucking lord). the morality page offers good insight into this too.

i am actually just going to quote the whole page and highlight the important part. it speaks for itself really

"THE POINT IS it's[morality] is a very flexible concept! But parents and presidents don't want you to know that, because then you might start asking other questions, like who put them in charge, anyway? So they cram your brain full of guilt and regrets for transgressing the laws that they just made up(the laws that they made to prevent the destruction of their dimension, regardless of if the law + the wrongful medication of a fucking baby triangle did any good to actually prevent it). Wouldn't it be nice if you could put all that baggage down? Quell the shame that follows you everywhere for a lifetime of crimes? MAKE THE SCREAMS FINALLY STOP? The good news is you CAN silence that annoying voice, and here's how!

DENIAL

Works 100% of the time in every situation. What you you mean there are people who disagree? I can confidently say there aren't!

RATIONALIZATION

If you can do it, you can justify it! "Truth" is open-source code and anyone can edit it anytime! Want to be like me? List 3 "evil" things and then 3 "reasons why they're actually good." You'll be rationalizing like Bill in no time!

DETACHMENT

Did you know 100% of your human cells die and are replaced every 7 years? That means that anything you did 7 years ago wasn't even you-it was some dead loser! You can't be held accountable for what a dead person did! What? You think this is just another form of rationalization? I DENY THAT!

THE BILL CIPHER DECISION METHOD!

Working over the eons, the voices in my head teamed up and worked out a foolproof method for making any decision in any situation.

DO WHATEVER I WANT."

ooooooooooooooooooh boy.

he is fully admitting here that he is living in a completely different really in order to justify doing whatever he wants. he gives mabel the tools to deny, to rationalize, to detach herself from the reality of it all. that time has to move forward. and he thinks it will work because it worked on himself.

but it doesn't work on mabel because she understands that she needs other people. shes vunerable, she lets people in, admits when shes wrong. and bill cant do that because it would destroy the fantasy he's created for himself.

[fallouthomestaedau]

fallout and the "tribal" problem

I've been working on this for a while and I finally feel content enough with my thoughts to talk about it, now for reference I'm mixed first nations and Ukrainian and believe that i am at least somewhat qualified to to talk on the topic

Firstly I will break down what I'm talking about through different paragraphs, primarily based on which game the tribe originates from, and secondly, I'm not an anthropologist or historian, but simply a fan disgruntled with representation of peoples in media

I also wont be speaking on Fallout 76 as I know precious little about it, and due to its shift in gameplay and narrative elements from the rest of the games

one thing of importance though, what is a tribal, and what constitutes a tribe?

now for reference, this will be in the context of the fallout universe, as within most tribes or tribals are too broad or vague to categorize within proper definition

within the games, tribals are mentioned many times, often denoting someone who isn't from or doesn't practice the (often) majority culture of the speaker, usually these people are part of or practice a culture or tradition specific to themselves and their community, that being said, the word tribal or its plural tribals, is often used as a stand-in for "savage" or "primitive", often used insultingly, that being said this broad definition really relies on assumption and stereotypes, as there are many groups who would otherwise be classed as a tribe, such as the new Vegas brotherhood of steel, yet due to being "advanced they are classed as more than a tribe

with that in mind, the definition of tribe is quite loosely defined, a tribe could be a raider gang, a small eccentric community, a religious order or an actual unique culture. this can lead to some reinforcement of stereotypes and harmful depictions however

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fallout 1

despite its age, Fallout has precious little in the way of harmful representation of tribes, there is some discourse on whether the people of shady sand would count as a tribe, or as "tribals", mostly due to Fallout's broad categorization of what counts as a tribe. otherwise, there's not much in the game, if anything in regards to tribals or tribes, at this point the Khans are still just a raider group, though they do take notions and snippets of historic Mongolian culture and tradition in their daily life.

fallout 2

its in 2 we begin to finally see tribes and tribals, with the protagonist specifically being from one of these tribes, the arroyo tribe, specifically descended from vault dwellers, they seem to have lost a great deal of modern ideals and information, though this does make some sense, they had to focus on survival in a harsh environment, you'll teach your children how to hunt and grow crops before small motor repair in a society without motors, that being said certain tropes can be somewhat outdated, such as the tribe building the whole temple section in regards to seemingly being an entirely sedentary culture who are also tent dwelling, which ties in with how seemingly primitive the tribe is as a whole, while some knowledge being lost makes sense, what would take generations of isolation and ack of any unique discovery to really achieve, along with some of the more mystical elements, the second part however can be somewhat forgiven as psychers and other "mystical" people do exist in canon, the mysticism plays heavily into the "indigenous people have magic" type trope. even Moreso they specifically chose to give up their culture in the end to join the ncr instead

there is also mentions of the unnamed "primitive tribe", a coastal tribe with many beliefs in regards to death and spirits throughout the world, while much of their story is cut you still meet one named tribe member and several random tribals, they are however not great examples of an actual culture, having a very cartoonish depiction and belief system, along with speaking broken English but no proper explanation of a tribe specific first language, there is however some redeeming facts as they are still looked at as people, poorly represented people

least unoffensive example however are the cave dwelling cannibal tribals, the name alone is already a mash of offensive stereotypes and depictions of indigenous people, which other tribes within the game are specifically designed to resemble, they are very unintelligent, lacking proper speech, yet are also quite strong and fast, they are every depiction of which "enemy natives" have been depicted as, making the arroyo come across as the "noble savages" in place

second to last we have the vipers, referred to as raiders, a tribe and a cult, within this iteration they worshiped mutant cave dwelling snakes, sacrificing passers by to them and welcoming in the survivors, they however did develop unique traditions and a culture surrounding the snakes before being chased from new california. its heavily unclear what a proper definition of what they are would be

lastly that brings us to the new khans, while not yet a tribe, they have changed much, keeping little in regards to khan tradition with a single leader, along with his personal guard and dog, leading to less loyalty and cohesion. at this time however the khans were fractured into many raiding bands, its actually the death of Darion that unites them once again

within 2 we also begin seeing other groups such as the shi and the yakuza, who represent real world cultures but more specifically the descendants of those cultures, which i am not knowledgeable enough to talk on

fallout 3

in 3, we don't see nearly any tribals in the base game, the treeminders are often referred to as a tribe yet they are in my opinion closer to a religious order with cultural elements, the specific titles and worship of bob and Harold are two of their defining traits at a glance, and are more reminiscent to religion in place of culture, they devote their lives to a "living god" responsible for regrowing nature in a secluded oasis, in truth the group is a cult (a mostly harmless one) and not really a tribe

another halfway example is the unnamed tribe in which the merchant crow was born to, they are specifically referred to as a tribe and have unique cultural beliefs, such as revering eyebots as wind spirits and that is all we know of them. there is literally nothing else to really say about them

finally we get to the point lookout tribals, a "tribe" of people who are sent out to find a seed pod that produces a hallucinogenic gas, to which the initiate is taken back to the tribe to be lobotomized, and in said state may be left unable to care for themselves properly, or worse, dead and those who aren't left vegetative are under the control and influence of a brain in a jar feuding with a ghoul while attempting global domination via telekinesis, as they believe he has ascended his material form and is guiding them to do so as well

not even counting the swampfolk who are somewhere between local cultists to a mutated subspecies of human, there is precious little in the way of positive tribal peoples, with an actual culture, instead getting vague and sometimes offensive examples

fallout 4

plain and simple there aren't any tribes or tribals, a fact which would ordinarily leave this section mostly blank, but i have a nitpick on that fact. my ancestors were originally from the region, the Abenaki, who were allied to other local tribes, and putting modern day tribal identity issues aside, the region had many native peoples, and there could have been an attempt at a positive depiction of a tribe, yet there's nothing, nothing throughout the base game, and all the DLC's, not even an attempt. and that frustrates me somewhat, as they could've shown indigenous people surviving and keeping their culture despite everything but instead did away with anything tribal related

fallout new Vegas

the tribes in new Vegas have such a wide array of representation, from good allegory to horrible caricatures, for instance, the tribe with the longest history in the series, the great khans, who were once the new khans, who originated from the khans. they have finally developed into a unique culture with a focus on personal freedom and and individual strength and yet also a people who believe in unity and cooperation, and they have even been given compelling motives, they are a raiding culture, people who take what they cannot find or make, similar to many real world cultures, they have a history of ethnobotany, something that was enough for the followers of the apocalypse to take notice, they had tradition and honours, and their plight is somewhat reflective of the real world, their non combatants and innocents, gunned down, and the survivors left to pick up the pieces, trying to handle their trauma from the experience, and turning to the substances they sell in order to numb the pain. the great khans aren't necessarily good people, but they are displayed as a genuine people, suffering from the actions of a colonizing power, and that is some of the best representation of native history in recent history.

the boomers are a tribe dedicated to personal security, taking the belief of right to bear arms as a cultural motto, thy originate from an armory vault, and completely shun the outside world. they refer to themselves as a tribe and have unique customs that have formed from their unique lifestyle, all things considered they make a good bit of logical sense in universe and in their formation. there isn't however much more to say on their existence as a tribe.

we even meet several new California raider tribes, the remnants of the vipers, pushed into the Mojave by ncr expansion, they've lost much of their culture, turning to chems and raiding, along with the jackals, they have been reduced to cannibalistic chem addicts, and in all honesty canon fodder, which does bother me slightly less, as theyre not the sole "tribes" within the game, i personally believe there couldve been some more done to show some of their history but they do fit the niche they were designed for

Honest hearts tribes are, rough to say the least, one descended of indigenous people with a unique culture and traditions, and another descended of children who may have been going to a residential school type institution (the lore is vague) who are origionally from a country who has been under the thumb of imperious countries for centuries, such as spain and the us, and yet what little culture they get is a mixture of hodgepodge words from several languages and just oddly spoken English (something historically done to mock native languages), the tribes don't have any real leadership outside of two Mormon missionaries, the two people, who could give us an example of the culture and values are devout followers of these Mormons, one who is being shown to be following in the footsteps of his hated enemy, this being Joshua graham, who is clearly a parallel to Caesar, making a peaceful people into his warriors, to deal a blow to the man who betrayed him, or Moreso a tribe who wish to follow Caesar, not for the safety and peace of the canyon system these people inhabit, but from vengeful hatred, using religion as an excuse to commit bloody war and Daniel, who spends his days infantilizing a culture and treating them as uninformed children, going as far as to hide the death of certain tribes members who had been evacuated from the area from their families and claiming a group of adults, who survive and thrive, being incapable of making their own decisions, as well as all that nonsense, the "good endings" involve fleeing their native lands and worshiping a Mormon missionary as a god, all that being said, the tribes are far from a good depiction. the khans are a much better example of native people than the tribes implied to be actual native peoples

the sorrows, a fitting name for the tribe, originating from a group of stranded children, they are a culture of pacifists who also hunt the largest mammalian carnivores in the region and are deemed "too innocent". the main member we meet near idolizes Daniel, the resident missionary, though this is somewhat understandable as he saved her life while in labour. this presents as a moral dilemma however as we are tasked with withholding the information of her murdered husband and her traumatized children from her, for the benefit of Daniel himself. the other major tribe member we meet is the shaman, who speaks next to nothing, sends us on a "vision quest" via hallucinogens where we fight a great evil being, and receive a marker of tribal status, the tribes primary defining symbol, a Yao guai gauntlet. the whole quest has bad vibes of white saviorism's, especially as if you rush through, you may not learn any actual meanings behind it. you may not even learn that the sorrows have domesticated gecko's. there is the basis for such a unique culture but everything is left so barebones, the tribe doesn't even have actual homes, the entire tribes clothing looks identical, and they have no clear leader, social hierarchy or even defined equality or individualism. there's no sense that they are anything more than a dozen people existing in the same place while ignoring one another. and the endings they get are either to leave, to stay and maybe learn mercy or become aggressive and warlike, all based on the actions of one person, who in their "naive" "innocent"z minds taught them their first act of violence, making them crave more

the dead horses irk me, they are implied to be descended of the Navajo, but aside from language hold no real ties. failed chances to represent native people as surviving cultures theres many things that irk me, they are named for the area in which they live, but hold precious little in regards to horses as a whole, an animal that had become important in their ancestors day to day, they are hunters and foragers, keeping an eye on local environments and the animals within, but have no cultural inclination to herding, something that was their ancestors lifeline, they have a language based on Navajo but next to no cultural identifiers, instead they are shown to tattoo themselves to mark special occasions and important moments in ones life, they have coming of age ceremonies and traditional weapons, personal and cultural taboo's and that's it, its not clear what their homes are like, what their day to day is, if they're agrarian or semi nomadic, they are designed to be the "brave warriors" to the sorrows "peaceful savage" trope, and the main warriors against the "evil tribe", its all face value

the white legs, the evil tribe who don't know how to craft, to farm, to build, a tribe whose sole survival supposedly hinges on the availability of raiding and killing, who are presented as too dimwitted and are offering themselves up to Caesar on a platter, they are the stereotypical enemy tribe, they are canon fodder for the courier to valiantly kill, and either doom them to death right away, or leave them to the mercy of another tribe, either way ending in death. their whole point was to be a culture wiped from the face of the earth

the 80's are a territorial tribe who we know nothing of, outside of their location near the salt flats of salt lake city, their whole existence was to destroy the last of the white legs. there is nothing else to them

in new vegas, we hear the names of many dead tribes, the hang dogs, the twisted hairs, the twin mothers, cultures wiped out and assimilated by the legion, as well as tribes pushed to extinction via people like prospectors, and land owners, killed for the local resources. these two examples are both instances id like to talk about in greater detail in their own post

new vegas tribes, the 4 tribes of new vegas themselves, the three families of the strip, and the kings, each group shedding tribal identity to relive old world "glory", the kings, worshipping a misunderstood depiction of elvis, and living by the rules of an impersonation school, which they turned into a "gang" identity, keeping order of the rabble and the unwanted. the white glove society, the omertas and the chairmen, all under the thumb of mr house, coerced or convinced to become the three families. we know very little of their original cultures, aside from a few names, they have wholly embraced a new identity, disposing of those who would otherwise choose the old ways

there are also cultural groups, such as the new Canaanites who aren't technically a tribe but still a different culture group to the majority culture

afterthoughts:

all in all, I find fallout has so far, had such few positive examples purposefully creating a tribal group or Indigenous allegory, the sole example is the Khans and much of the historical symbolism is lost to so many under the guise of moral vs immoral and general lack of knowledge

it is disheartening, in a world so chock full of symbolism and satire and synchronicity, that there's so little reference to how truly multicultural the world really is, of the hundreds of pre-war tribes and isolated settlements with unique traditions, there's so little within the games to acknowledge any of it

the majority of the tribes we meet are or can be canon fodder for the sole fact of padding enemy numbers, instead of deepening the narrative of old-world concepts returning to harm the present

[gatorbites-imagines]

Helloooo, I can request omega bakugou helping his mate/alpha ace reader with their rut? I thought it might be sfw since u don't feel like writing smut atp :3

Omega Katsuki Bakugou x Ace Alpha male reader

Headcanons

(aged up characters, obviously)

Seeing ace requests in my inbox always make my smile because, hey, that’s me. Where my ace homies at. I’ve very rarely written omegaverse before, but I got so much worldbuilding about it, if you guys are interested.

I have too much worldbuilding and ideas about Omegaverse, so this is a little out of the norm for your usual smut filled rut plot.

For omegaverse, I never imagine that heats or ruts turn you into a horny breeding crazed animal. Yes, with your mate you will feel a lot more arousal and might have moments where you become fueled by your desires, but the majority can still control themselves.

For you, who’s Ace as well, the breeding part isn’t present more than your bodies instincts, but its nothing extreme. It feels the same as when you are really hungry. Sure, the feeling is there, but you can easily go about your day and not let it bother you.

But ruts do more than just make you want to have a lot of pups and crawl all over your omega, even if your omega is as hot as Katsuki is. It tends to cause a lot of stress on the body, from cramping muscles to overheating, dehydration, pacing and other factors that could lead to stress.

So, in Katsuki’s situation, his job during your ruts is mainly to take care of you. To make sure you’re eating and drinking enough fluids. That you aren’t overheating by patting you down with a cold cloth or using ice packs, or even making you cold baths.

He treats it a lot like a very horribly cold for the most part. Sure, your scent also makes him slick up a little and makes his own scent sweeter and riper, but Katsuki is still clear headed and more focused on taking care of you. Especially when he knows you do the same for him when he has heats.

I imagine Katsuki is still his usual snappy growly self, but he doesn’t yell, since ruts also makes your hearing more sensitive. Instead, he just grumbles a lot. With a lot of insults that has no heat thrown in, just because its Katsuki.

As an alpha, you don’t really need a nest, but you bet your damn ass Katsuki makes you one. And only with the best rut materials out there. He won’t accept anything but the best, and Katsuki honestly stresses more about your rut nest than he does his own heat nest.

It reaches a point where, during the early stages of your rut, you just kinda have to thrown yourself in it and show him you like it and accept it.

I could imagine Katsuki worrying a lot, since he knows your ace and he doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable with his own scent. Does it bother you that he starts smelling like preheat? Does it make your rut worse? Better? Does he need to leave?

He would also fear crawling into the nest with you, at least in the beginning. After you pull him in multiple times, or tell him to get in, he starts to calm down. You can’t stop him from worrying though, it’s in his blood.

Being ace also doesn’t mean you don’t feel arousal and the like, so if you need to get off, he’s not gonna stop you, and wont touch you unless you want him too. Katsuki knows it won’t go farther than just some touching, if it even gets to that, and he’s more than satisfied.

Having and Ace partner honestly probably helps take some of the stress of his shoulders. He knows you won’t have the same expectations as some other alphas, that he needs to give up on his hero career and be a “good” omega.

Which is also why he’s ready to bend himself backwards to make sure you are comfortable during your rut. Even if staying nearby and taking as much care of you as possible pushes him into preheat, Katsuki is strong enough mentally to keep it bottled up until your rut it over.

This does mean you end up having to take care of him afterwards too, and you gotta call in favors with your friends to cover Katsuki’s patrols, since he didn’t expect to go into heat.

But all in all, ruts with Katsuki are a very planned out affair. Sure, you feel miserable and like you’re boiling on the inside, never able to find a comfortable sleeping position, and like you need to claw your own flesh off. But at least Katsuki is by your side the entire time, ready to hold your hand or hold you as a whole if you need too.

You do have to put up with his nagging though, but you know its just how he shows affection, so in the end it makes you purr at him. Which just gets Katsuki to get all flustered and pretty.

[weaselandfriends]

you gave pretty high grade to Dead Dead Demons on your MAL, I can see some bavitz-isms in the show and very much loved the manga, but it would be very interesting to know what you personally have to say about it

So in the years leading up to writing Cockatiel x Chameleon (2020 or 2021), I was in a group chat with an aromantic person who liked to post this out-of-context panel:

I had no idea what this panel was even from, but the quote stuck with me as an encapsulation of the contemporary mood, and so it wound up appearing three times in Cockatiel x Chameleon, first in Intermission A (the first letter from Mimmy's stalker):

real girls wont even look at me anyway so why not just beat it to drawn chicks rofl. just masturbate fearlessly to death lol.

Only a couple of chapters later, Gramme (as part of the doubling between him and Mimmy's hatemailer) echoes it in his footnote to the term "guro":

The Japanese porn game is too strong; although that hasn't helped their birthrates, which are below replacement. Why bother with other people when you have porn? Why not fearlessly masturbate to death?

Lastly, Harper -- remembering, at least subconsciously, more than she lets on -- says it during the climactic HELL OF SWALLOWED?! chapter:

Everyone else was dying too, the whole world; it was simply time to masturbate fearlessly to death.

Fast forward three years, to 2025. My webfic friend Lurina (read The Flower That Bloomed Nowhere!) has put up for a groupwatch the arcanely titled anime Dead Dead Demon's Dededede Destruction, which I have never heard of before. We start to watch, and after about five minutes a character appears who looks vaguely familiar. Black hair, thick eyebrows, twintails...

I realize it's the girl from the masturbate fearlessly to death panel. Immediately, I get excited.

And the anime did not disappoint. Dedede is perhaps the pop cultural work most befitting the current moment in history, dealing adroitly with mass media, the internet, misinformation, cultism, activism, cult activism, the complete impotence of all stations of authority against encroaching crisis, the fact that no matter how many crises seem to crop up life continues to trudge along with a shrug, war crimes, COVID, Trump, and the breakdown of interpersonal communication, among many other things. The story is maximalist in presentation, spanning a massive ensemble cast that covers every stratum of society, while also depicting quiet, interior, and deeply personal feelings of ennui and isolation. This, in my opinion, is what the great artistic works of today should strive to be, and what I tried to make Cockatiel x Chameleon be. Dedede puts a particularly anime twist on the idea, juxtaposing ordinary slice of life with the extraordinary apocalypse occurring around it, often to unsettling effect when these two worlds do collide.

Dedede also has some setpiece scenes of staggering artistic achievement on a purely aesthetic level. The scene that particularly stands out to me involves a commercial airliner flying past a UFO full of aliens that the Japanese government promptly guns down. There's an incredible shot as the airplane passengers stare out the window while hundreds if not thousands of alien bodies come tumbling out of the exploding craft into the water below, an image which ends with text that proclaims 30 DAYS UNTIL THE END OF THE WORLD.

I also appreciate the show's willingness to actually get dark and dirty with its characters. One character, initially presented as major, unceremoniously dies in an early episode. Another character puts a gun in his mouth and shoots himself dead on TV broadcast. Meanwhile, one of the two main characters is in a relationship with her teacher. A soldier grapples with the war crimes they automatically committed because they were ordered to. Politicians and low level staffers wonder how complicit they are in atrocities. Every character capable of acting seems to act badly, either by choice or because there is no other option; the only characters with clean hands are those who dwell in complete, almost superhuman ignorance of the annihilation slowly enveloping them.

There are a few missteps, though. There's a part of the story that's basically an edgy, adult take on Doraemon, where an alien gives a child charming gizmos which the child then uses, following an incredibly facile philosophy of justice, to enact Death Note style murders. I thought this idea was done a lot better in Death Note and was pretty limp here in comparison. Likewise, I have some issues with the ending. (Ending spoilers in the following paragraph.)

I could tell as soon as the timeline shifting technology was introduced that there would ultimately be a timeline shift out of the apocalypse. The reset timeline/universe has become a common tool in Japanese pop media that is otherwise actually willing to slaughter its cast en masse, a sort of having-your-cake-and-eating-it-too maneuver. When I first saw this done in Higurashi, I'd never seen anything like it and found it an incredible moment of catharsis. When I saw it in Mirai Nikki, not so much. (It's also, of course, a major aspect of PMMM, though at least PMMM has the decency to leave a good chunk of the cast dead/nonexistent after the reset, dodging the overly sentimental and happy tone these types of endings tend to engender. Rebellion goes a long way toward making the show's ending work for me.) I'm 50/50 on how it's handled in Dedede; there are aspects of the ending I like (we get a pretty extensive epilogue set post-apocalypse) but also a lot that feels cheap and perfunctory. There's a part of me that really, really wishes the show ended after Episode 16, with the final shot being the two leads watching as Tokyo -- and half the cast -- are wiped off the face of the planet, and the only mollifying conciliation being that due to some heroic efforts, this is only a partial apocalypse rather than a total one.

Ultimately, my immediate impression is that Dedede is my fourth favorite anime, behind PMMM, Blood-C, and School Days. It's not quite on the same level as Blood-C or School Days, but it feels a step above a lot of the other anime I like. It was certainly worthy of the multiple references to it I unknowingly put in Cockatiel x Chameleon.

[desire-mona]

this most definitely isnt an original thought and i've probably heard it on a podcast before but. i am so married to todd's sweaty tooth madman poem being a metaphor for not accepting being gay.

so here's me picking the whole thing apart (and not proofreading anything)

so starting with

the sweaty toothed madman of course being walt whitman, who we all know is (at least rumoured to be) gay. now the interpretation of whitman being a metaphor for todd's sexuality is nothing new, but i'd like to expand on it.

"i close my eyes and this image floats beside me"

i see this as any moment todd has to himself, no matter where he is, he is reminded whitman/ the fact that he's gay. the specific usage of closing your eyes to mean that the image/ reminder is always there, always following. i see the use of the words "beside me" in a couple different ways. either to suggest that the reminder is just out of view, being pushed away just enough to not be the main focus and more something you see in your peripheral, or in a 3rd person perspective, seeing todd and the imagery of walt beside eachother, coinciding with eachother. i could see both interpretations working equally as well, or even comined.

"the sweaty-toothed madman with a stare that pounds my brain"

THIS LINE. i loooove his use of sweaty toothed!!!!!

if you're not sure what sweaty toothed means, it just kinda means ur teeth r. wet. drooly mouth. i see this madman being sweaty toothed to mean that he's "hungry", not literally, but more desiring something. this being truth, which i'll get into later.

the stare that pounds my brain. oh man. ok so obviously this means that the image/ thought is intimidating, terrifying, threatening. the implication that todd being gay is as much of a threat to his life/ wellbeing as a madman that has it out for him, both ideas causing him an insane amount of stress.

this line is fairly simple to me, the reminder goes from something that terrifies you but ultimately can go unacknowledged, to a constant, overbearing thought that suffocates you enough that you HAVE to face it in some way or another. todd is facing it fearfully, letting it take control of him and how he acts rather than tackling the idea himself. he is defenseless against this part of him

truth (ur gay)

todd thinkin this truth will leave him unsatisfied in life :-( not only in the love sense tho! with his family too, if they find out god forbid, theyll surely view him differently and cast him off even farther than they already do. i also like to think this is him lowkey complaining that the blankets at welton are too small.

this also, devastatingly enough, reminds me of the bit from rocketman where elton comes out to his mom.

clip from rocketman (2019)

and he's mumbling. he's mumbling! this truth is still cloudy, not full realised, still being pushed away. whitman wants the truth, todd wants the truth, but he's still not ready, everything's still uncertain. this uncertain truth could also pertain to todd's feelings toward neil specifically, but i dont think that was the intention. todd does exist as his own person!

this ones simple again. you can fight off your feelings and sexuality all you want but it still wont really lead you anywhere you wanna be. you either end up marrying someone you dont love (women), or you end up alone. also the heavy emphasis on physical violence toward the Truth Blanket could be a metaphor for the physical danger todd would be in if anyone found out, but im not hellbent on that idea.

god. "from the moment we enter crying, to the moment we leave dying," is a BEAUTIFUL way to convey "your entire life" todd you have such a way with words. anyway. i take this as something like. this is something you're born with and cant change, todd was born gay, obviously, and it will never go away with any amount of effort. hence the wailing, crying, and screaming.

also i view the specific line of "it will just cover your face" in a couple different ways. either to mean this truth will suffocate you no matter what you do, or this truth will leave you needing to hide major parts of yourself from the world.

this got a bit repetitive, i apologise. but i still have more to say.

some parts of this poem i find to be a bit too wordy to have been come up with on the spot. do i think todd is talented enough to do so? absolutely! but i just dont think that's the case. i have no doubt in my mind that a LOT of what he said in front of the class was either already on his mind, or was written down beforehand but eventually scrapped.

specifics i have in mind are the concepts of a sweaty toothed madman and a blanket that leaves your feet cold. i dont think this sweaty toothed madman was written specifically with whitman in mind, i think it was just a vessel for his anxiety generally. but the blanket i just KNOW was thought out and written down with the intention to like. be a metaphor for being unsatisfied.

and that only makes the class laughing at that line that much worse, no wonder he wanted to stop! not only was todd incredibly brave for continuing after, but keating was unimaginably quick to get the focus back to the poem. he knew that metaphor meant something to todd, and choosing to expand on that was actually an amazing way to drive that home.

either way, todd's far more brave than i ever could be. i'd be shitting myself up there.

also if u disagree with any of these points are wanna add anything then TELL MEEEE!!! art is anything but subjective and i looove seeing how you guys view things like this.

[cowedeakamatsu]

THIS POST IS THE PART 2 OF THE REBELION ROUTE FOCUS I JUST POSTED (use the cowede talk about tag to find it easily) DO NOT CLICK UNLESS YOU CHECKED THE OTHER FIRST, SPOILERS

In ending 4, everything goes south after a very stupid decision from takumi escalates in 2 death that leads to a eternal war that is a hellscape for everyone, takumi too, who is now isolated, and just surviving to survive, without will. ending 5 has takumi take a selfish choice but not entirely bad, and while the world will be at war, its a bit bittersweet with showing that the sdu (or at least nozomi and takumi) didnt loose hope, and are trying to make it so peace can one day happen, with nozomi teaching to the new generation. And finally the Ending 6 has takumi make a huge personal saccrfifice, and work his ass of with the rebellion and the sdu for 15 years, never loosing sight of their objective, which leads to peace being achived between all of futurum, but also with mankind, which feels immensely right, as both sides have a VAST MAJORITY of civils who just want to leave peacefull life, the ending being not entirely happy since 1) obviosuly nozomi dies, and even 15 years later, takumi hasnt forgot this sacrifice, 2) It did took 15 years. (btw since i dont know where to say it, the white class uniform for taku and kamyuhn looks DOPE AF This to me, gives ending 6 a "worthy peace" Of course i'm still sad, and if you tell me theres a peace ending somewhere (but dont tell me if its the case) in which things end up as well, and nozomi or like, just a few of the dead ones from this route (darumi, kyoshika, kurara, eva) survive ? Ill be all for it, but i think this ending makes a lot of sense for this story, without being too depressive. it gives kind of kill la kill / guren lagann ending vibes if you get what i mean, its a happy ending, but with some losses that wont be able to just be forget (even if for kill la kill admitedly the point is to move up, check klk and guren if you havent, they are VERY good stories). + unlike 001, its actual peace, not just "war ended because 1 side won, but its the other side than usual"

Like I said though, the very positive fact that i found "my ending" comes with a bit of a dissapointement. its that, while i really like how the ending goes, and the dialog is pretty damn spot on for me to get into, and the cg is great it feels like... "wait thats it ?" not in terms of Thats it ? 15 years later they ended war ? that part is well enough explained and deserved, especially after playing so many route (even though im only at 33 endings, but like, one of the remaining routes gotta have like 30 endings or something, no way theres still twice as many routes as i did so far XD) Its totally fine having just a resume of what went through. No the issue is.. what about the SDU ? their dreams ? Is this really all we get ? one CG of takumi being emotionally conflicted and kamyuhn (in very very cool outfits, still) ? not even a word about the rest of them ? what about eito's book ? and kako, did she found her new dream ? and takemaru and tsubasa and moko ? or yugamu who wanted to become a doctor in the school nozomi was gonna create, we can assume they ended well and like, are all kinda heroes for the people, and all of them helped the rebellion til peace, with the class uniform (now white) being a symbol of the group and of peace. but like...really ? just one cg and them not even being mentioned ? and the photograph ? did they just set all of that for nothing ? i dunno, just a tiny bit of text, just a few line would have been enough, and dare i dream, a second cg, alternate of the first one of maybe takumi responding to the crowd, with a bit of a tear up but a smile, thinking about nozomi ? But i guess they really wanted to hammer in that this ending was like any other importance wide, so tt gets the same very low production that some, but like, several endings have multiple cgs, that THIS ONE in particular has this and ends so abruptly ? feels a bit exagerated, ITS PEACE, for f sake, its like, KIND OF A HUGE GOAL in this game, for the kodaka side of the story at least (i barely tackled the hiruko centric S.F / mystery uchikoshi focus side yet). But like i said, its a small dissapointement, it didnt change that i loved this ending and route, and consider it as my "canon ending" because of how positive it is for the overall verse, and even quite a few of our guys. Even if the game just forgot them lmao. Big shotout to the two writers of the route (who's names i sadly forgot) who arent kodaka or uchikoshi (and while im at it, big shotout to ALL the writers of this game.)

My next route will be the last possible in the "the cast know about their origin" side of the story, not let eito join the crew after he redempted, (day 82 of the Second scenario route) Which is i guess the "goodbye eito" route, in which there's 1 ending according to the list i have and credits, it should be short. then i'll tackle a few more route branching off the second scenario, and move back to the "kill eito at the very start" side or possibly the "g 'ie" / visitiors (that we know now to be takumi and hiruko leaping... unless ?) side of the game, i think our final route will be the hiruko leaping one, as it feels like its gonna be heavy, and connect to the other routes so we might want to see what happened in those first (we saw visitors in retsnom briefly and in slasher wayyyy more)

[rudzcrudz]

Do you have any tips on writing short stories my friend

I desperately need them

SORRY I ANSWERED SO LATE 😔 I like to hop on tumblr at 12-1 am,, 💔

Obviously, everyone has their own style of writing. Everyone thinks differently, everyone comes up with ideas differently, and everyone executes these ideas differently.. but! Here are some tips I've found useful for me personally (as someone who is very unmotivated and tired)

(Under the cut because I'm a yapping machine)

1. Starting out

Now, this is an obvious one, I know, but it really helps to have plot points ready for your story, or at least just a beginning and/or end. Starting the story (for me at least! Maybe not everyone) is the hardest part, especially when you know what's going to happen and you just want to get to the juicy part. Starting strong is usually a good idea, give the readers something they want to keep reading for, and this can also just be a title! Like, if I saw "Rian fights giant soitter at 3 AM challenge!!! (NOT CLICKBAIT!! GOT GROUNDED SO I WONT POST FOR A WHILE SORRY)" then I would totally read that, LMAO- and it doesn't even have to have a title! Starting with a story can also be a great idea, some people don't care about a foreword or a title, they just want to jump in to the story, so this is really just personal preference.

How do you start if you have no idea where/how to start?? Well, in this case (assuming you're writing about Rian LOL) you can start out somewhere calm, maybe a boring day at patrol that turns into a wild goose chase, a nice morning at home that leads to an arathim raid, really anything. (Quick note that I'm so sorry if this is bogus. I've been getting very bad sleep and it's 1 am rn 😔💔) Starting js always hard, so if you really can't think of anything, don't worry about it! Start at the point that's most interesting to you, you don't have to start from the beginning!

2. Keep it short!... or don't?

...Again, another obvious, but some people struggle with keeping short stories.. well, short. (Rian wouldn't have a problem with staying short Hahahhahahsahhaha... get it? Get it.. cause...... c-cause.... yeah.. I'll see myself out....) And honestly, why not leave it off on a cliffhanger? Even better for ig you want to write a part 2 because you didn't get to explore all your ideas! Cliffhangers-while annoying-are always (for the most part!) good. It lets the reader decide what they think happened, and really fills you with just a sense of "wow.."

Of course, you don't need cliffhangers! Just a suggestion, and really just a personal preference! Short stories are great, but if you're really struggling to keep it short, why not make it a long story? You could even make multiple "chapters" (posts)!

3. Starting out part 2: planning!

Planning/plot-pointing is a great way to start, getting your ideas out so you don't forget them! It can be in story format, (don't worry about grammar or sense! You can always fix it when you're finished!) in bullet points, whichever is easiest for you! You don't have to have everything planned out, either! It can just be the beginning, end, middle, or even something as simple as a character doing an action or thinking a thought. Writing is just like drawing, in the way that it takes creativity (which everyone has btw!!! You're not "uncreative," you just think differently and have a different sense of art, and that's okay! That's what makes all writers + artists unique!) and practice, and just like drawing, I find the easiest way to start is to just sit down and do it, don't even think about it. Just have an idea, no matter how vague, and start at it!

Sorry if I'm just literally spitting nonsense here 😭😭 again.. super late for me rn but I hope this helps!!

[thequietkid-moonie]

Darling has a really bad memory

[ HEADCANONS ] [ Yukito Tsukishiro ]

[ Card Captor Sakura ]

⚠️ Yandere, I don't support nor try to romanticize this toxic behaivor, is just for entretaiment

Requested by my dear friend @ladyel1x1r3l0p3r

My first time writing for a yandere ccs character and I have to admit that i love it completely!

I have to write more often for ccs!!! Is literally one of my favorites mangas ever!!! I'll try to write more, I promise

Yukito is the kind of person who despite his love being too intense it can go unoticed easily by how kind and gentle he is with everyone, is quite obvious the lovestruck for his darling but is easily brush off. Also, Yukito may not be the smartest person but somehow he always has an idea of whats going with his darling, if Yukito loves someone then Yue does it too, and even if he haven't being able to fully awake due his new master weakness that doesn't stop him to lead Yukito to pay close attention to his darling

For Yukito is so easy to get close to his darling that it just feels so natural for him to get into every aspect of his darling's life, anything that is important or brings you troubles then is now important and his trouble too, he invades your privacy and even gainins more and more control over your life but since he does it with gentleness it becomes easy to fall into his charms. Despite the fact that Yukito doesn't really intent to be posesive and manipulative over his darling deep down is what he wants and he is following his heart (being also Yue's influence)

Despite how concerning can be his darling's bad memory Yukito will never see it as something bad, even if you have troubles remembering simple things like your own name is fine, what if you have to take a few minutes to try to remember his name? is fine, he will wait with a smile until you remember, what if you forget escential things or take too much time to do things because you can't fully remember? don't worry, he can be at your side at all times to help you remember!

Yukito will never be bothered nor mad at you for not being able to remember some things, and honestly he is indirectly taking this oportunity to make you dependent of him, don't worry your pretty head because he can be at your side to guide you through your day, being there to fill in the gaps in your memory with his words and instructions, he doesn't mind at all if he has to spend the rest of his life at your side helping you remember simple things, its fine, he gladly do so

As much as Yukito doesn't mind your problems with your memory Yue does, not that he blames you but he just gets worried sick everytime you forget something important, what if one of these days you forget how get back to home or forget something that can end up truly harm you? everytime something happens to you, even the smallest thing, Yue has the impulse to come out and hold you close, even if he has to force Yukito to transform and hurt him in the process he doesn't care, as long as he can make sure he is there to protect you and that you wont leave him like his previous master then is fine, he doesn't care about anything else when it comes to your safety

Yukito and Yue indirectly agreed that he most never leave your side to ensure your safety, but Touya is the one who can see through Yukito's kindness and try to talk him out, letting him know how unhealthy this relationship can get since it will become of dependence for both parts, but no matter how much Touya tries to reason with him Yukito never listen (and Yue gets defensive, so is not of help neither), so at the end Touya decides to just leave him be and try to help him with helping you remember as much as posible, at least to assure you wont harm yourself (and approve school, he can see your and Yukito's frustration when you aren't being able to retain information when studying)

Despite having so bad memory the fact that you are able to still remember things of your daily basis like your friends and family it bring him some relief, he feels happy for you and even more by the fact that you can actually remember him, and he gets incredibly flattered by the simple fact that you can remember things that has to be with him, something like saying his name without having to take too long can make him feel so much emotion that just end up feeding his love and dependence, so if you remember more things about him, like his birthday (or even anniversary if you two are together) it makes him feel more and more possessive

Once Yue can finally take his own form and use Yukito's body it wont take him long before make himself present to you, it doesn't even matter for him if he is being risky or even end up introducing himself to you before to his new master, with the problems you constantly are in he need to let you know that he will protect you as soon as posible, and this is a situation a little tricky because if you don't remember him Yue will be mad and even offended but if you remember him he will feel incredibly flustered and his possessive attitude will only grow, leading Yukito to also be more and more possessive with you

[santae-salt]

Thank you to the anon who sent these copy-pastes - I wont be posting them as asks because then I cant add a cut and theyre a lot to scroll through. Ill paste them into posts here.

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Here is Haven's post that was deleted, while the thread was kept up.

Constructive Feedback From My Time Here: Haven Feb 2025 02:38

Hi! I know this probably won't last long, but I also know that I'm on my way out of Santae, so I figured I'd throw one last hail mary.

I've been here for a bit now and I think l've gotten a pretty good handle on what Santae has to offer thus far. I actually tried to type out one of these threads ages ago but as anyone who has seen my big posts can probably guess. I don't have the most organized mind. I tend to let it spill out and then repeat myself ten times to make sure l've been understood. So please, bear with me. As per the new rules, I'll try to keep this feedback constructive with actionable ideas, though I feel like short of laying out a step-by-step process I've always done that.

Site Layout

Alright, so the site has never felt... living to me. The kickstarter sells Santae as this diverse, wild world full of lycans and fairies but when you go to the website itself, it's on the more utility side of things. There is literally nothing short of shop pcs that sells this being a world of diverse cultures or a fantasy game. I previously was part of the "It's beta" crowd, but the more I've gone on the more I do think this is the intended site look. I would love if at the very least Cj. you would consider a more earthy or natural color pallet to try to capture the vibes of your story. I know you keep saying this is an rpg, but it doesnt read or play as one and I feel like this simple change could do well to set the mood.

Pet Pages

Now this is one I've actually suggested before and danced around the issue, so I'll be a little more direct this time while still providing actionable feedback. The pet directory that shows all the pets and colors is not good. It actually very messy and not helpful. My good friend Jakdacrowe said they spoke to you in early alpha about doing something like they do for their pet directories. Jakdacrowe has worked for numerous pet sites for over a decade and actually hosts her own version of a Santae directory here. Even if you don't want to copy her style of it directly, I think there are some great things here that you could utilize so she doesn't feel like she has to keep up with this for everyone who uses her site instead of the on-site directory. From what l've been told it's actually a lot of effort on her end to do. I would love to see on species and color pages an area that tells us how to obtain those species and colors and maybe a link to the important locations. That would be awesome and great for accessibility!

Navigation

Yes, I know I've done this twice, but to my credit this is one of my few suggestions where you have listened and changed things, so kudos! I'm glad you took my concerns to heart, but I do feel like we've missed out on the basis of my navigation concerns and that's that the site has no real visible direction. Currently we have features being released but still no idea of what these places are, who these people are, what is going on! I may be a comp sci college drop out, but I (humble brag coming up) won a thing once for website design and the only thing I remember at all is that site navigation is the backbone of your website. It's how people interact with your site and can really be used to tell a story in how you lead them through the pages. Rather than have individual pages linked wily nilly, I would love if going forward we could get some real lore and impact on how these things are presented to us.

Rather than slapping it on the navigation and calling it good, really think hard about how you want us(everyone else, not me) to view these features. Now I know, not really actionable steps, but I feel like I really laid all my cards on the table on this topic in my last post about navigation. I was going to link it, but I got lazy. It's somewhere.

News Posts/RPGs

I know you're proud of your news posts Cj. I get that, but you can't hide behind the idea that "it's an rpg!" every time someone asks for them to be made smaller or to not have all the colors or to be done differently. That isn't what an rpg is bud. It just isn't. That's what a book is. Rpgs are roleplay games. Hello, hi, forever-dm of .... 7? years now. Yeesh, I'm getting old. But what I'm saying is that if your players are reading about what is happening in the world and not interacting in it or feeling like they have a ROLE to PLAY, then it isn't an rpg. r/dmhorrorstories is full of players complaining of dm's telling a story at them in the rpg rather than letting them affect it. So here's my question to you Cj, honest. well intentioned, no snark.

Are you okay with your players having some control over your game? Can they affect this story? How will you allow them to do that?

Because if this is just your world and we're playing in it, then that's fine. Most pet sites are like that. But let's be perfectly honest with ourselves and agree that isn't an rpg.

And maybe there is no branching path narrative that the players can feel like they have say in (though that would be a cool game idea, please someone do that! I was going to once and it never happened!), but what about rpg mechanics? You've promised them in kickstarter and as l've said before, coding takes an age. I'm not expecting Baldurs Gate in beta. But until those rpg features pop up. why are you defending things by saying the game is an rpg? Pawborough is literally three mechanics tied together with a glue stick and it has more rpg features than Santae does. Now, hold up a moment, I know that sounds like I'm dissing you. Keep reading.

I'm not saying this to tell you that you're doing a terrible job, only to remind you that you aren't done yet and we have a long road to go (well not me) till Santae is finished, so rather than beat your users over the head that this is an rpg game, maybe have some grace. Explain to them what you want to accomplish with the news posts. Work on adding features that make the news posts more accessible like a search function or an archive that sums everything up before linking to the full post. And please. PLEASE. Stop doing the random colors. I know you want to make each npc stand out, but for the love of all things we do not know who these people are. No amount of purple letters will make me remember that pcs name if you don't give us a reason to remember it!

Cash Shop

I've had a crazy conspiracy theory for a while now and recently I feel like I saw it in action. It feels like whenever there is a controversy that drives users off the site, something big happens to bring users back. Every time something bad happens I watch my fellow Santae buds say they are cancelling their bmac or not buying from the cash shop, and then shiny, distraction tempts them back... and then that got me thinking that it's kinda crazy just how much focus is on the cash shop. I don't think I've seen a beta site really put so much into it until now, especially with the crazy kickstarter ya'll had. Do you guys rely on cash shop proceeds to

keep going? Are you that hurt for money? Where is it going?

I'm not going to say to stop making cash shop items or to slow down, that's been said before by better users than me. What I am going to suggest is transparency with how the money is distributed. This isn't a crazy ask. plenty of people do it. Just a bit that shows how much is going where so we (well the people still playing, not me) can see where our money is going. Cause the thing is

Cj. you do have a lot of loyal users who want this site to succeed and it isn't just about us(again, not me) wanting to buy shiny bears and new clothes. Reward that faith in you with some transparency and not high value gifting sprees is all I'm suggesting here.

Games

Look, l've made little jokes about checkers but the reality is that Santae's checkers is my favorite aspect of this website. I love the checkers. I wish more levels had been put out before I left. I wish checkers had been there from the beginning. So, and maybe this is more for Ember (I've never talked to you Ember, but hello!) but please keep doing more of that! Having a solid games room will carry Santae through beta. I promise you. Why did Neopets last through decades of mess? Because people liked the games and when Flash went out neo took the biggest hit and had to scramble to try to fix what they could. Your users a burnt out. I know you don't want to hear about it. but throwing presents with weird parasocial quotes isn't fixing that. Have small features like a flourishing game room will. It gives players something fun to do in between timers and a way to make money that isnt refreshing a quest page.

If mining is work, games are downtime. Please. Next two week stint where you do smaller updates, give the people games. Heck. give them some rpg games. Make a CYOA- OH! Allow players to make some CYOA. Put that pong game in the game room.

Anything. Just no more ing games.

Pet Art

Thave heard through the grape vine that pet art is okayed by you(cj) and the head artist. Now, in my experience working in pet sites, this does bring up an issue. Namely, the very first pet site I ever worked on was a site called Majista (never got off the ground) and the owner was a passionate person named Lizzie who had a vision but no skills outside of writing. She hired her favorite artist from another pet site named Lucifer along with a user on here called Headphones (hi bby, you're awesome). I was hired as a writer and manager for the item art side of things while she handled the pet art. What ended up happening was Lucifer ran the show. Lizzie had no eye or experience in art so everything looked perfect to her. She was just excited to have art, and Lucifer isn't a bad artist by any means, but with Lucifer pretty much having full control, little mistakes were slipping into the pet art. Makes sense, right? If an artist sees a problem, they fix it, so these weren't things Lucifer was seeing or seeing as an issue. Meanwhile Headphones was being ran ragged trying to keep up with this other artist and their vision, not being listened to when they voiced a concern. Finally I ended up seeing a WIP with a weird spot on it and rather than go through Lizzie like I had always done. I said something directly.

The artist did not handle it well. Everyone was agoq. It was a mess. Turns out Lizzie was not relaying my previous comments at all'

ended up seeing a wip with a weird spot on it and rather than go through Lizzle like Thad always done. I said something directly.

The artist did not handle it well Everyone was agog. It was a mess. Turns out Lizzie was not relaying my previous comments at all and nobody had ever challenged this artist whatsoever, leading to a culture where we were all divided and never allowed to offer critique.

What my story is meant to emphasize here is that we can all be blind sometimes and when staff are structured to not have much input outside their area then problems that could have been caught early end up not getting caught. We all know the xyren has a wonky foot and wing, the ursosos fin is funky, the ra-er... the trex guy has a midale tooth, the valentine color uses copy and pasted roses flips and rotated, etc. Why do we know this? because when hundreds of eyes are looking at the same thing, at least a handful of people are going to spot an issue. Imagine if that could happen BEFORE the pet art goes live?

Now my favorite work environments just mixed us all together and we were all allowed to comment on each other's work, but other ideas could be allowing BMAC to comment on WIPs and point out issues or hiring a real manager who has an eye for art or experience in art to okay any art before passing it on to you Cj.

Staff

funny.

We're nearing the end of my feedback thread. Not because I don't have more to say, but because my carpal tunnel is making this really, really hurt, in fact I shouldn't have typed out that extra really or this whole bit, but I wanted to prove my point and I think I'm

Cj... you make me uncomfortable. The way you have talked to me and others makes me resistant and indignant. The whole things yesterday made me think I was being lovebombed and that triggered some minor ptsa anxiety. It lights a fire in my belly to push back and I know that isn't always a healthy response and doesn't lead to level headed discussion. But the thing is, I am and was always open to having a discussion with you if you felt like my critique wasn't phrased in a helpful way. I think everyone here is for the most part, but rather than seeing us as people with ideas and feedback you label us as opposition, negative, and unwanted. Cj. opinions ARE feedback. I said it in my other thread, but you're saying the quiet part out loud that most leaders don't. Don't tell us our opinions are unwanted or bad, don't tell us to be quiet, don't tell us to not feel certain ways about your actions and decisions. You can't stop that. You can only censor it. And I see you've chosen the censor route, that's fine. It's your site. I've always said so. Just be aware that it's not a good look and you are not helping yourself by being very vocal about your distaste for it. Also, totally unrelated, out my little brother's name is Cj and we don't talk much, so that one time you messaged me directly on discord about a bug l experienced I had a full on panic attack and that's why I never messaged back. Not your fault but hey... why not say it now. It's crazy now little things like that can make us feel strong emotions, isn't it?

As for the rest of the staff, you're mostly pretty okay. Bastet and Ave are my favorites I think. They've always been professional and helpful. Absolute pillars of the community. I hope you guys can continue doing that. Bas, I adore that you have Bastet now, I'm glad ! was able to give them to you. Hmu if you ever just want to chat. I think you're pretty cool and I'm awkward as heck. Ave, I always breath a sigh of relief when you respond to suggestions because you rock at making us feel heard with how you recite back what part of the suggestion you're adding to the list. Please keep doing that, it's so nice.

Ember, I've never talked to you, but I like your work. I heard you've been getting some flak recently. That's not okay. Unfortunately these seem to be the burdens of public positions and a big reason why I fear ever trying to make something more of myself with my writing or ideas. I hope you can power through it or turn it into something constructive.

Anyone who I haven't mentioned is either because I haven't interacted with you or I have nothing constructive or positive to say off the top of my head.

So that's it. All I have the pain tolerance for. This post will probably be deleted and in my head it will be just as gloriously dramatic as I'm feeling right now at 2 am. And you can ban me if you like, though if you do, I would like to send my pets off. I'm holding a lot of names for different people lol... so that would be cool. If I don't get banned, I'll just do that on my own in my time but otherwise no longer interact or play on this site.

I really wish you would see how great an opportunity this is Cj and I really wish you would realize how many users adore this site without feeling like they need to praise you 24/7. It won't always be a community for every player, for some it will just be a game and those people are just as valid. So don't squander your 8000+ beta users from sending people to spam forums, give them a game worth playing. And stop hiding problems, they always come out sooner or later. If you face them head on with maturity and professionalism, your users will respect you much more for it than needing to have the info dragged out of you just for you to hide it again later.

My final message is for the people who will feel a gut reaction to defend Santae. I'm not an enemy to be stoned guys. I was here to play and help build Santae up just like you. My way of doing that was providing suggestions and feedback because when I see a problem, I want to help fix it. I'm not the emotional support person or the person who says half-hearted praise and motivational quotes. I'm the person who will sit there for three hours googling a problem to offer a solution. So when you see other people providing "negative' feedback like mine, just remember that maybe they are trying to be helpful in their own way, and just like you can ask them to be less negative, you can do the same by giving them grace and the benefit of the doubt. If they re breaking Santae down, maybe it's because that part is built on something unstable and it needs to happen to build it into something better. If they aren't offering actionable feedback, maybe help them out and give your own ideas. That's what a community is for.

That's all. I'm done. If anyone is on PB. I'm Haven on there too, same with FR. Hoping to try PixelCatsEnd during the next registration window and will hopefully be that there too, if not I'll use my discord un Wandervenn.

Good luck Santae.

/throws a smoke bomb and then runs out in the least stealthy way possible.

[wordsofvelvet]

TPHBC Deleted Scene Chapter 1.5:

Okay, i want you guys to know i am very impatient with my plots and so the Chapter Bluey was *NOT* supposed to be how it happened. I had plans of things I cant mention because Im still going to incorporate them but basically Red and Chloe were supposed to establish a solid friendship with a slowburn on feelings and then Red was going to freak out worried that Chloe was going to hate her for lying about a huge part of herself and be all weirded out but also she couldnt let things progress in good conscience so then *thing I wont spoil* happens which leads to Chloe finding out and it was just going to be this huge thing

BUT i swear almost every chapter I was wanting to just have it happen because I am just as impatient in my big space as I am in my little space, so Im kinda proud about how far I *did* make it.

Anyway, to prove my impatience, here's a deleted scene that was literally a continuation of the first chapter.

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Red was feeling beyond sleepy as she watched her show. The girl hadn’t slept a wink in the past couple days because it’d been far too cold to settle down anywhere. Sometimes she’d get lucky and find a shop or a car that had forgotten to lock their doors and she’d get a small reprieve from the blistering cold, but she hadn’t had much luck as of late. 

She had thought her luck turned around a couple weeks back when she was given a day pass for the bus and she had been quick to use it intending to just ride around town and bask in the heated space, but she’d ended up falling asleep and woken up to find herself in a new city entirely with no way back to her usual haunts. 

It had taken her a rather long while to hike her way back, often having to step into gas stations to ask for directions and basically beg for food or change near any busy looking roads. But she was thankful to be back and incredibly relieved she’d made it back without slipping. 

The streets felt scary enough in her big headspace, being in Littlespace made everything seem astronomically worse. 

But now she was in a warm shop, her tummy wasn’t aching for any last morsel she could find, and she had someone that was going to ensure that she was safe. 

So why wasn’t she able to fall asleep?

For once the Little actually wasn’t fighting it, not intentionally anyway, the pure exhaustion she was feeling was enough to actually make her pro nap for at least today, but even absentmindedly watching her favorite show in Littlespace while being all safe and tucked in wasn’t enough for her to drift off. 

She fidgeted in place for a bit and couldn’t help the small whines of frustration that escaped her before she decided she didn’t want to stay still any longer. 

The Little climbed down from the cot and started making her way towards the kitchen to find something new to entertain her, and if that something ended up being BB, well that was just BB’s self appointed job!

She had made it to the doorway when she stopped in her tracks at hearing an unfamiliar voice.

“Like this?” Red ran and hid behind one of the kitchen counters before poking her head up to look at the girl who had spoken. 

She was standing beside BB with vibrant blue curly hair that was currently pulled back into a tight bun and she was wearing one of the pink and white aprons her BB always wore, with the fabric already being covered in spots of flour.

They were standing over a large bowl while the new person whisked away at whatever was inside and Red pouted sadly at realizing that she couldn’t bug BB. 

She was about to just turn back and head back to the office to wait for BB to come check on her like she normally did when her eyes caught sight of a bag shaped like a kitty lying on the counter by the register in the front room of the cafe. 

It looked so soft! Just like a real kitty! So of course she had to go and pet it!

The problem was, when she pulled at it to pick it up, it ended up being far heavier than the Little was expecting so with a loud thud, it fell to the ground and a bunch of stuff spilled out rolling across the floor. 

Oopsie… 

“What was that!? Oh my Gods, is someone breaking in?” Chloe had frozen and was looking through the door that led to the front of the store, but Luckily with the angle she was at, she wasn’t able to see where the noise had come from.

Bridget silently cursed herself for not checking in on the Little sooner. She had been under the assumption the girl had simply fallen asleep and thought she wouldn’t need to check in as frequently.

Apparently she was wrong. 

“No!, no, everything’s alright, I uh, I just happen to have my… niece here today. I had her set up for a nap in my office, but it sounds like she must have woken up. I’ll just go and see if I can’t get her back down. Why don’t you finish off this batter and get started on the next one, I’ll try and be quick!” 

“Awe, how old’s your niece?” The bluenette asked curiously. 

“She’s Three.” Bridget told her and Chloe’s eyes practically sparkled. 

“Oh how precious! Well if you need any help, I love kids, and I’m actually pretty decent at babysitting. I was actually part of this babysitter’s club in middle school and part of high school, my friends often told me I was something of a kid whisperer.” Bridget glanced away nervously. 

“Oh cool, I uh, I will keep that in mind!” Bridget offered her an apologetic grin before darting off toward where the sounds had come from. 

She sighed exasperatedly when she spotted Chloe’s bag on the ground with random items sitting around it obviously having fallen out. She glanced around the room for any sign of the toddler she knew to be responsible.

“Red sweetie, I know you’re in here. You wanna come on out and tell BB why you left the office? You know better than to wander the shop on your own Little Miss.” 

Hesitantly, Red raised her head just over the service counter she had ducked behind and Bridget could see the fear in her eyes as the girl trembled slightly. 

Bridget took a calming breath and softened her features. 

“It’s okay Sweetheart, I won’t hurt you, I promise. I just wanna know what happened. Are you hurt, Little One?” Bridget moved around the counter and Red flinched lightly as she got closer but didn’t move aside from that as the woman gave her a quick once over to scan for any new injuries. 

She thanked her lucky stars when she found the girl to be unharmed. 

“Wan pet kitty.” The Little spoke softly in a teary voice as she was still obviously scared that she was about to be punished. 

“Kitty?” Bridget looked back to the bag and realized it was cat themed with ears, whiskers and a face. 

“Oh Honey, of course you did. But why were you out and about in the first place? Did your show stop playing?” Red shook her head. 

“No seep.” Bridget arched her brow.

“I didn’t say you had to sleep, Little girl.” But Red shook her head and whined sadly as she rubbed her eyes tiredly. 

“Nooo, wan seep! Wan seep n no seep”

“Ooh, you couldn’t sleep?” A nod. 

“Okay, well let’s see what we can do about that.” She took Red’s hand and led her back to her office where she sat her back on the cot. 

“You stay there, alright? I mean it, Red. No leaving.”

She grabbed the girl’s sippy cup and went back into the kitchen to wash it real quick. 

“Everything good?” Chloe asked when she walked by. 

“Yup, I’m thinking I’ll just give her some warm milk and she’ll probably be out like a light in no time.” 

“Yeah that usually seems to do the trick, doesn’t it?”

[rikomoriyama01]

I want to know about all the rps except mukade becuz I'm frightened of bugs so I'm scared what might be revealed to me 😭😭

honestly yeah you DO NOT want to know that one lemme pick few 4 you Two Raven Kings one of my personal favourites actually it's aftg/TRC crossover instead of shooting riko ichirou sends him to study in hendrietta, away from exy and everything that was making riko's world *his*- as we find out later this is the school he himself attended riko is looked after by assistant named Taki (my li love note to ao3 fanfic Brothers 🥺), meets kavinsky and blueballs him because the man looks too much like kevin and Riko decide he will avoid all kevin looking ginger looking and blond looking men which leads him to meet Declan Lynch (and will carry bad consequences) - riko kind of replaced blue the boys still go to the house for some tarot readings - riko tries to get private reading to talk to his dead mother but when he reveals that his question is "did she loved me " the women shot him down and tell him to just go home. - riko shows those lacrosse bitches how it's done sorry cant say more just know that declan spend at least 1 week thinking he hooked up with guy who killed someone in prizon because Declan thought the 1 under his eyes was like tear tattoo Two of Them Riko has twin brother who spend his life living in one room of moriyama mansion kept there specifically as organ donor for ichirou and kengo , after ichirou causes kengo's death to help his brother , the Riko2 who is also called Riko because this family doe snot care to let people be people tells him to fuck off and goes to meet Riko1 feeling entitled to his attention and relationship as his twin, he end sup meeting foxes who inform him that riko1 (already part of fox lineup in this au) is currently on suicide watch in psyh ward and spend few days with this absolute oddity (kevin and riko2 nearly get into a fight 3 times over the title of riko's brother) The biggest fan Riko and Kevin get kidnapped right before the final game in TKM and driven fuck knows where where they get locked in basement of some ultra rich man who wants to keep them as collectors merchandise, they have underground apartment all for themselves with room service and all their needs meet. Riko realises in that moment that this is how heaven feels like , nobody beats him here there is no pressure here , it's his ticket to chocolate factory - kevin is with him too and he can not leave him ever again. Kevin though been out of nest for 2 years now he wants to see his father and his friends again and if he wont convince riko to get out of this mess he will ave to work against not only the kidnapper but his brother too.

[thewriterwithsnakes]

Alea Iacta Est- The Die Is Cast: Part 3

Part 1

Part 2

A vigilante is on the loose, the BAU must scramble to find them before things escalate further. They have orders to take you in, the public riots against this, dividing friend from foe. Aaron Hotchner desperately tries juggling raising his son and catching this elusive killer, but one question haunts him. Who are you? And what do you have to do with his daughters disappearance all those years ago?

⚠️Warnings: Violence, language, sexual content, trigger warnings for like everything, what you read is your responsibility, criminal minds as it's own warning, morally gray fem! reader.

Lexington, South Carolina

The past few days were disturbing to say the least. Every message to that predator, every photo he sent. Everytime you had to reply with faux-intrigue made you sick. Another piece of you gone each time you clicked send. Tomorrow was the day it ended. You'd stalked his house, learned his routines. You also had to be quick. Somehow, the BAU had tracked you to Lexington, and getting caught meant worse than just a jail cell. It meant having to look your father in the eyes.

Lexington Police Station, South Carolina

"We know you molested these girls." Hotchner says, slamming images down on the table as Rossi stares at the man with a raised eyebrow. "We have enough evidence to jail you right now. And you know what happens to men like you in jail..." Rossi trails off, face mostly blank with slightly smug undertones to his voice.

"Im not telling you shit. If you have so much evidence, then arrest me" The man replies with a challenging glare. Rossi is quick to respond. "Oh don't you worry, we plan on it. But you have had contact with someone we are looking for" Rossi replies.

"Look, I dont know who you think I am but I dont know anybody" He replies gruffly. "Oh you do, you just dont know it" Rossi replies before Hotch cuts in. "You are having online conversations with someone we know to be a vigilante, hunting the likes of you. So, if you value your life, I suggest you start talking and maybe we will consider keeping your charges under wraps from the prisoners." Hotch says, threat clear despite his stern and monotone voice.

"What the hell are you talking about?!" The man replies incredulously. He knows, he just can't quite believe it. "You mean I was being hunted?!" He asks like that is the important thing right now. Hotch simply nods and gives him a glare that says 'start talking'.

"Okay okay, just swear that you wont let anyone find out about this. I can't die" The man says, when they don't respond he continues. "We were supposed to meet tomorrow at 5pm sharp. The old trail in the woods by that abandoned baseball field." He says, Rossi and Hotch exchange a look before beginning to leave.

"Wait, you're not going to say anything, right?" The guy asks hopefully, a poor attempt at a convincing smile on his face. They walk out of the interrogation room without a response. They send him home at his expected time he usually arrives after work to avoid suspicion, keeping a close eye on him as they plan for tomorrow. The first genuine lead they've had on this case in months.

Lexington, South Carolina: The Next Day

With an axe tucked snug into the holder on your belt, you began to drive. You hadn't risked the location and time being discussed over text, instead mailing him physical letter under the guise of not wanting parents to catch you. He ate it up. You parked your beat up truck at the head of the trail you agreed on. A secluded and mostly unused place that had seen better days. His car was already there. You grinned and headed in. Dark hoodie pulled over your head, two sizes too big to suggest the possibility of a small girl instead of a young adult woman. The back of your neck prickles in warning but you shake it off as anticipation. When you step into the meeting spot, you see him, exactly like he looked when you stalked him. He gives you a wide-eyed and frightened gaze that immediately tells you something is wrong. He should be grinning and trying to grab at you, at the least giving a vulgar comment. He knows. Which means this is a setup. You barely have the time to turn around when you hear it.

"Put your hands in the air, above your head!" You recognize the voice immediately, the same one that used to gently tell you how to adjust form and grip to catch a football. Derek. You comply slowly, head still down and stomach turning with something you weren't prepared to face. You hear more voices you recognize, shouting orders to turn around, no sudden movements. Its your father, Spencer, Emily too. You don't move, hands still frozen in the air, everything sounding underwater as you realize this is it. Its time to see your family again.

[urfavoritedcwhore]

the Russian boy//part three

warnings: swearing, alcohol use

not proof read!

lowercase intended

part one and two on my page.

part three: the pool

i let go of boris's hand and watch as he jumps in the deepest end of the pool. i make my way over to the steps leading into the pool, and go down them, making sure to stay in the shallow end. i definitely do not want to drown with two boys i only met today. and wow this water is cold as fuck. my nips are positivity hard as diamonds right now. boris swims over to me and picks me up, "let's go i told you i wouldn't let you drown.", he says carrying my to the deep end, which isn't deep for boris at all considering how tall he is. i hold on to his shoulders as he holds on right below my ass to keep me balanced on him. "no funny business, those hands better not move up.", i say giving him a half joking, half serious smile. "i wouldn't dream of it new girl", he looks at me with a grin and pulls me closer, "i'm a gentleman, remember?", he whispers in my ear. THIS FUCKING KID. woah, calm down lucy, calm down. ok he knows exactly what he's doing, so it's time for me to play his game back. "oh i can promise you, you'll definitely be dreaming of it.", i whisper in his ear, leaving his red as a tomato and at a loss for words. i guess he's not used to girls matching his energy. lucky for him, he's met his match, and he has her in his arms right now. theo, who's floating on his back with his eyes closed, begins talking to boris. "can i stay here tonight?", he slurs, "im too drunk to walk home.". boris looks and him and lets out a chuckle, " you always stay here, why you ask all the sudden?", boris asks. it's very apparent to me that theo is just as drunk as i am, which is why im not surprised he says what he says next. "i dont know, maybe you wanna be aloneeee with lucy.", he says, still floating on his back and now making kissy noises.

"shut it potter.", boris says seriously, "both of you can stay if you want, i dont mind.", boris says looking at me. i mean my mom wont be home..i guess it wouldn't hurt staying. but seriously, i just met these fuckers today, maybe i'll tease boris a little but im no slut. i'm not gonna let anything happen yet. also, it's a good thing theo notices this sexual tension too right? i mean at least im not imagining things. "i can stay," i look at boris, "there's not gonna be any," i let out exaggerated kissy noises, "tonight. im just staying cause im having fun and going home this drunk seems not very fun.", i say half truthfully. i mean maybe if i stay i can keep actually talking and bonding with boris. i want to get to know him, i don't want to rush anything. "sure new girl.", boris says nodding. theo pops up and swims towards us, "can you seriously not swim?", he says nodding towards me. i look back at him, "not at all. honestly this is scaring the shit outta me, but i'm too drunk to care.", i say which makes both boys laugh. that's the genuine truth, swimming would usually be a no go, but for some strange reason i trust these boys to not let anything happen to me. it's weird how you can meet people you instantly trust and click with. i truly hope they feel the same way about me.

my thoughts are interrupted by a small bark and scratch on the patio door. i look over to see popchyk scratching the door from inside. "fuck. we can't leave him like this, he's sad. he wants his ..how do you say? ah daddy, yes he wants his daddy. i'm coming popchyk!", boris says pointing to the dog. this fucking man did not just call himself daddy. holding back tonight is gonna be harder then expected, especially considering that fact i haven't gotten any action in months. boris carries me back to the shallow end and puts me down as he runs inside, soaking wet, and picks up popchyk. i look at theo, "are you as fucked up as i am right now?" i say probably slurring. he grabs me by my shoulders, "my friend, i'm so drunk i can barely see.", he says slurring. we both burst out in laughter and sway around holding on to eachother trying not to fall. we eventually get our footing and catch our breath..until we look at eachother again, which results in another round of hysterical laughter. this kid is so fucking funny. there's just something about him that i absolutely love. "you know lucy,", he says as we catch our breath once again, "you are like my number two best friend, you just like are cool you know?", he says pointing at me with wide eyes and slurring every word. ok this kid is plastered and i'm loving drunk theo. "RIGHT? we're like platonic soulmates theooo, we just like,", i motion to my head with my finger then to his head, "we just get eachother my dude.", i say wrapping my arm around his shoulder. ah yes, there's no friendship realer than confessing your drunken platonic love for someone you met less than 24 hours ago. we laugh again then stumble out of the pool and make our way inside. i walk into the kitchen and get myself a glass of tap water, which i immediately chug. fuck i didn't realize how thirsty i was. i go into the living room to see theo laying on the floor (absolutely and positively passed out on top of my clothes), and boris on the couch, now in boxers and a tshirt 2 sizes too big, holding popchyk and watching some movies that i think is in russian. "ah fuck he got my clothes wet.", i say nudging theo lightly with my foot. "he won't wake up, once potters sleeps, he won't wake till it is morning.", boris says with an amused expression on his face. "well shit, i'll probably just go stay at my house since i'll have to go over there to get dry clothes anyway.", i say walking to the door. boris gets up and walks in front of me, "new girl,", he looks me up and down, " you're in your bra and underwear. don't walk to your house right now, your drunk and will get cold.", he says looking at me like i'm crazy. what's the big deal? i mean i'll admit, i did forget i'm literally in my undergarments, but my house is a 10 second walk, and i was just outside and not cold at all until i hopped in the pool. it’s not like the air is cold, we’re in las Vegas for fucks sake. "i'm fine boris, i'll be okay.", i say smiling a drunken smile, but he doesn't move. "ha! is okay, i will just give you my clothes to sleep in, eh? i have extra things, come.", he says taking my hand and leading me upstairs. since he's already taking me to get clothes i don't bother arguing, i gotta say though, i'm a little excited to wear his clothes. I KNOW I KNOW ITS WEIRD OK? but come onnnnn, who wouldn't wanna wear a sexy man's clothes. you would do it too, don't lie. we walk into his room and he pulls out a huge sweater and a pair of boxers from his dresser. "here, my favorite sweater, is very comfortable. i sleep in all the time.", he says handing them  over to me. "thank you.", i say taking the clothes. "is no problem, i don't want you to go home, am having fun with you new girl.", he says with a slight smile. "i go downstairs, come down and watch movie with me when your dressed, yes?", he says going out the bedroom door and closing it behind him. i throw on the sweater and squeeze into the small boxers. the sweater is big and comfy, but the boxers are nowhere near my size. they're definitely tight, but not too uncomfortable.

i hang up my wet bra and underwear on the shower rod of the bathroom in his room and head down stairs. when i'm back in the living room boris pats the side of the small sofa that's open. i walk over, and plop on the couch. boris changed the channel while i was gone o suppose, cause now instead of the russian movie that was on earlier, there's a shitty cable cowboy movie on. no complaints though, i love shitty cable movies. i begin to watch, and boris tosses his blanket over, so it can drape around both of us. i look over to theo, who's still sound asleep on the floor, now with a fresh towel over him, which i assume boris put there as a substitute for a blanket. i guess me and boris are sleeping on the couch and sharing a blanket. nothing special i suppose, but still, it makes me happy to think about sleeping so close to him. this night is going great, but it also feels like it's just started.

authors note: sorry for a semi short chapter, wrote this in like 30 minutes and it's currently 2am. chapter four out soon!

[fratboykate]

ok ok ok I know everyone might be tempted to immediately throw tomatoes at Kate. And you probably would be mostly right.

but

Let's be honest, being an actor/actress staring in a romcom while having a spouse is probably a weird grey area. Not that I would know personally but it seems that way. Hollywood as a concept just seems messy and morally ambiguous at times. Let's also be honest, even though they looked like that had a lot of shit figured out in the first part, their wedding proved they literally didn't. There was probably some problems building up that we didn't see and such. I mean usually people don't cheat when they're in a completely satisfactory relationship. Usually. That's not to say that it was only one person's fault. I mean in the end Kate did seem to know that making out with Eli was wrong and would hurt Yelena, so technically that was on her. But. Things were probably not as hunky-dory as they looked on the surface. What it does mean is that they should have gone to therapy and sorted some shit out a long long time ago.

But also if i found my wife in that position I probably would have had the same reaction. I mean, I'm a lot mad at kate, I just don't blame her entirely. I like to think that she would have stopped before went farther but 👀👀👀. please tell me she would have

Also she's human. people say they want more morally grey woman and they can't even handle Chappell Roan and her takes about politics.

🖕🖕I do fully blame Eli Bradley though. fuck him. 🖕🖕 literally everytime he's been brought up in a bishova fic he's a thorn in my side. get out of here with that fucking smirk. I also can't stand that Kate got with him afterward. Like come on Kate, have a little dignity. At least she dumps him at some point

I don't suppose you could tell us how they made the steps to reconciliation 👉👈👉👈🥺🥺? also how long did that take? actually 10 years? or was that just how long it took to visit her on a film set again

lol wait a minute why do you guys keep thinking eli was the one in the romcom? you're the like second or third person to bring it up. 1) kate said her love interest in the film was a hot woman 2) it literally says in this chunk that this is an action flick she's been shooting lol. this is after the romcom. there's a decent chunk of time between the first part of the chapter and the second part. he is her love interest/co-lead in this movie tho. but its NOT the romcom lol.

id also think a lot of the previous chapters (like the wedding) show their relationship wasnt as perfect as it should've been. they def had cracks and they just started to balloon in size during this hell of a production for many reasons.

yeah........kate not only like fully dating him but getting engaged to him is like...A STINGER for yelena. she dates him for AGESSSSSSS. like five years??? because kate had JUST broken up with him when her stalker breaks in and im pretty sure that's five years down the line. that whole thing and how public the whole relationship is really fucking does a number on the tiny one. genuinely eats at her. as much as she likes to pretend it doesnt.

come back as ask me for more later. if you distract me now i wont finish the baby nat kyau chapter and then im the one who is going to get tomatoes thrown at her if i dont post this today after saying i would. but you guy shave seen that it does take ten years in other chapters???? lol. they live a lot of life and do a lot of shit before reconciliation. like i think in one of the previous chapters (isnt it the same one where her stalker breaks into the house?) its made clear that yelena didn't even step foot back in their house for like five years. and that's just when they sorta start being civil again. kinda. doesn't lead to immediate rekindling because yelena is also in a serious thing with monica.