#at least im aware most of that comes from wanting physical stimulus

[facelessfractal]

Keep forgetting to journel, maybe posting it will help i dont know.

Morning kicked off with sharp feelings of blurriness, Alice is getting on Okay's nerves because the job they're doing isnt like. A real job and Okay doesnt really care that its not real and if Alice wants to help then she needs to be doing what she's supposed to.

General concensus is nobody is super thrilled about the new buddy system we've sort of put in place until we can sort of exactly how to handle the new girl. Nobody is explicitly *not* using the buddy system, though, so its working out well so far in a way.

Im a little afraid because something feels different and theres already been a lot of splitting just. I think from sitting in our current situation for so long and i think some of it is literally just to give our brain something to focus on so i dont have an actual mental break, because i know ive been close several times now.

Things have been feeling more dreamlike, ive been feeling very fatigued in general but reality is hard to gauge.

Also a bit worried because last time we felt like this/were under this kind of stress for this long our system ended up sort of half purged either with several alters going dorment or a lot of fusion happening at one time. I just know some of us are losing our grip on things.