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🎀 i ruin everything i touch 🎀
#girlblogging#girl tumblr#just girly things#this is a girlblog#i ruin everything i touch#teenage disaster#queen of disaster#girl things#girlhood#hell is a teenage girl#delulu#at least i’m self aware#self sabotage#messy girl#girl problems#female rage#female manipulator#female hysteria#girl interupted syndrome#im just mentally ill#human disaster#manic pixie nightmare#manic pixie dream girl#bed rotting#doomscrolling#im just a girl#im going insane#coquette#this is what makes us girls#crazy
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if you people will not request, I suppose I will just create
anyways here’s my idea: coriolanus snow x model reader
warnings: literally none. sfw. no use of y/n. female reader. let me know if you want this with gn reader or male reader. academy coriolanus.
enjoy :)
Most people your age would be heading to school about now, but not you. You were heading to Mrs. Cameron’s office, your boss who made sure your face got slapped on every advertisement. Didn’t matter what it was for. You’d been in posters and ads for foods, for clothing, once for the Games itself. As long as people saw your face, Mrs. Cameron got money, and if Mrs. Cameron got money, so did you.
You sit in the waiting room, an empty marble room that’s honestly intimidating even after going there for years. Then, Janet looks up from her spot at the counter. She’s Mrs. Cameron’s secretary, a fairly nice young woman whom you don’t often engage with.
“You can go home,” Janet says, not unkindly, but certainly not kindly. “Mrs. Cameron’s not here right now. She’s fallen ill.”
“Oh,” you say awkwardly. You’d never been turned away before. Even though Mrs. Cameron was the boss of most of the models in the Capitol, she always had time for you. “Well, send her wishes of a fast recovery.”
Janet nods, and you make your exit. As you step out the doors, you’re hit with a blast of cold air. You got up at the crack of dawn to eat breakfast and walk here, and you didn’t realize exactly how freezing it was. You were also caught right in the middle of what was practically a stampede of students heading to the Academy. The red uniforms flooded the small side street, like blood slowly spreading over a white snowflake.
As you make your way through the crowd, with lots of hurried saying of “Excuse me” and “Sorry,” you pause to see someone looking at you.
One of the students. He’s blonde, and he has very noticeable blue eyes. He says something, and it takes you a moment to realize he’s talking to you.
“You’re the girl from all those advertisements.”
“I-I am,” you reply, nodding. The student nods to the doors of the modeling agency you just walked out of. “Do you work there?”
“Yes.” “Are there…lots of clothes there?”
You’re slightly confused at these questions. You got a lot of weird questions when people found out you were a model, but no one ever asked if you had lots of clothes at your modeling agency.
“Yes, I guess so,” you hesitantly respond. Does he want to break in and steal them? “Why?”
He turns red and says, “It’s…well, my cousin-Tigris-her birthday is coming up, and she likes, well, fashion, so I thought I’d get her something nice, but….”
“Oh!” Well, that’s a lot nicer than breaking into a modeling agency and stealing all their clothes.
“I…work for Mrs. Cameron, you know. She leads most of the models in the Capitol.” You don’t know why you’re telling this to a stranger. “She normally doesn’t like us taking the dresses home, but she’s out sick, so…”
You don’t know why you’re offering this to a stranger. You’ve never broken a rule of Mrs. Cameron’s before. And here you are, willing to break her biggest one for a stranger who-for all you know-might not even have a cousin with a birthday coming up.
His eyes light up. “Could you get something? Maybe something nice. She likes pink.”
And then you remember it. The satin pink dress with the bow in the back that was rejected for you because Mrs. Cameron said it didn’t match your eyes. But it was comfortable, and beautiful, and perfect for a birthday gift. “I know exactly what to get,” you say. “I can probably get it to you this time tomorrow.”
He nods, and then says, “Coriolanus Snow,” and then walks away.
It takes you a few minutes to realize that was his name.
#lol this did NOT end up being about reader being a model#not my best work tbh#at least i’m self aware#coriolanus snow x reader#Coriolanus snow#the hunger games#tbosas#bosas#ballad of songbirds and snakes#Bro I’m so frickin tired right now#I just wanted to write 😭#part 2 if you want it but def not today
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The urge to do a Christmas/Winter layout already because unfortunately I grew up in a household that starts Christmas unbelievably early and it is a habit that will never leave my bones.
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paper cuts hurt, until they don’t.
boiling water hurts, until it doesn’t.
being numb hurts,
until you forget how to feel.
#sad boi poetry#shit sad boi poetry#at least i’m self aware#todays been shit#but i knew it would be#no i won’t elaborate#but unhappy anniversaries#that is all#sometimes it’s okay to not be okay#and that’s okay#nathara is active? what.
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Stuck in a constant trap of “would he say this” -> “he would not fucking say this” -> “fuck it the words are pretty”
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Some TWST ocs I have. They run a cafe and are basically the ohs of nrc. 👍
#twst#twst oc#twst fanart#idk how to tag#enjoy the boys ig#my three followers 💀#clown me if u want#at least I’m self aware
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I keep thinking I’m getting better, then another set back happens and I’m back to square one. I just want the old me back:/
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Constantly have this argument with myself like
Me: you should be in hell for the unforgivable crime of not being good enough at writing fanfiction
Me: that’s stupid no one cares
Me: you ruined everyone’s lives by being sub par at developing a story using an existing fictional universe okay? repent
Me: No fr I don’t think it actually matters that much
Me: ….fine then you should be in hell for the unforgivable crime of writing fanfiction that isn’t good enough to forever alter the course of anyone’s life
#ao3#fanfic writing#writing#jus talkin#sleepypost#I am so dramatic abt this sometimes it’s so silly#at least i’m self aware
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academic validation is for the ugly girlies with shitty personalities who only have one thing going for them (this is about me)
#just girly things#girlblogging#actually mentally ill#academic validation#high school#school#academic weapon#ugly#ugly girl problems#girl tumblr#girl thoughts#hell is a teenage girl#girlhood#femcel#i need validation#i crave validation#sweet sweet validation#give me validation#at least i’m self aware#i hate it here
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For Vincent, I think a series would be amazing and would give the opportunity to explore and develop the story and characters in a much better way. But you do what you can and prefer ❤
I always prefer a series but I fear that I’ll take forever to post it all, which is very on brand for me 🙈
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sucks that i’m not allowed to be more boy huh?
sucks that this is a totally real rule the universe put in place (sarcasm)
#shout out to my weird hang up#where i feel like i’m not allowed to be transgender#at least i’m self aware#sorry moopus#transmasc lesbian
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Idc anymore if this is cringey
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Woah i really am distancing myself huh
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Kdramas have me thinking the most sappy shit ever like why is this show making me want a cute boy to put a plaster on my imaginary scraped knee rn????????????
#I’m just in a MOOD#yes I’m on my period#I’m like pls take care of me 👉🏼👈🏼#god#at least i’m self aware#but also I’m just happy that my heart is like open to love again 💜💜💜💜💜💜#it feels nice to be able to like think about it and not want to put my head in a blender yk
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I only have Lovelink and LITG out of all these, but my phone looks pretty similar with all the interactive fiction games lmao!!
parents: fuck you my child is completely fine
the child:
#me as a teen mother of 28 years old#at least i’m self aware#love island the game#love island#lovelink
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Bitches will be like “No, I can’t get the 150 calorie per serving breakfast cereal I’ll get fat!” And then literally only drink soft drinks and not water.
I’m bitches…
#Chugging fanta w/ ibuprofen because I like the funny fizzy water they put in it >:(#relatable#at least i’m self aware#I do burn those calories at least#with beatsaber#(jkjk I go for walks too I touch grass)
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