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iturbide · 11 days ago

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12 & 13?

12. Any books that disappointed you?

Unfortunately I had a string of them of the four debuts I read over the summer, it was a 50-50 split of delightful and deplorable. While Voyage of the Damned and So Let Them Burn were both absolute delights, To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods and The Poisons We Drink were incredibly frustrating reads -- interestingly in very similar ways, despite being written by very different authors. Both of them sounded really interesting, too, which makes it even more disappointing that they felt so poorly written and edited.

13. What were your least favorite books of the year?

Foxglove King and Hemlock Queen by Hannah Whitten, hands down the worst books I read this year. Foxglove King I technically read last year, but it incensed me so much with how promising it seemed and how it proceeded to squander its whole premise that I had to subject it to two of my best friends (misery loves company and all). And then as payback I was forced to read the sequel, which was somehow even worse than the first one which is so frustrating because these books sound like they should be fucking catnip to me. Reading them makes me want to scream. yes I am going to subject at least one of those same friends to the torment of that one, too

📕 End-of-Year Book Asks 📕

#answered #dithorba #i will not shut up about how much i hate those books #i am seriously dreading the final book in the trilogy #because it sounds like they're going tv handmaid's tale #i stopped watching that for a reason #now my penance for these godsawful books #is to read it anyway #at least i will not suffer alone

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tea-cat-arts · 8 months ago

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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

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manderleyfire · 1 year ago

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“Myself. I killed the old me so I could come with you.” She plucked the splinter free. “There. Well, I hope old you doesn’t haunt new you. We’ve already got enough ghosts us.”

"Haunt Me" from There Is No Death, There Are No Dead by Gemma Files // "Killing the Love" from The Divorce Papers by Anne Sexton // "The Valley Song (Zoo Lullaby)" from The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes by Lucy Gray Baird Suzanne Collins // "Wuthering Heights" by Emily Brontë // "Herakles" by Euripides (Anne Carson's translation) // "The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes" by Suzanne Collins // "A Game of Thrones" by George R. R. Martin // "Crime and Punishment" by Fyodor Dostoevsky.

#thgedit #tbosasedit #snowbaird #coriolanus x lucy gray #coriolanus snow #lucy gray baird #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #shitty things i do for love #in closing i need to write down two more quotes because they're matchless #*but they didn't quite match THE haunting x doomed theme unfortunately*#when zamyatin said 'she is like a bee: both a sting and honey are inside her'#and when margaret atwood said 'both dark and light like snow'#i mean??????? whaaaat????? that's exactly my lucy gray and that's exactly my coryo #last but not least: god bless maiah wynne for recording every single lg's song #tbosas movie had let me down when i needed it most *the valley song*#and god bless marg for not leaving me alone in this world of suffering #uwuwuwuwwuwu

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ugartecoco · 5 days ago

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totally unheard of

#he is so????#very uwu im shy 👉🏼👈🏼 of him #sorry this man again #ruben amorim #manchester united #also the way he said the players are too anxious and afraid to play football like i imagine him trying to coax these wounded animals onto #the pitch by leaving a trail of treats and pspspspspsing them it must be hard work #but at least his family has finally moved in lmao no more suffering alone in the hotel no wonder he looks happier sdldsjkd #+

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alienoresimagines · 8 months ago

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*Before the Műnster mission*

Crank : Remember when you didn't try to solve all your problems with war crimes?

Bucky : Stop romanticizing the past.

#listen crank i get where you're coming from #but bucky has been a war widow for one day and he isn't taking it well #and sadly for you buck didn't left a manual on how to handle a drunk bucky let alone a grieving one #hey at least he slayed during his war widow era #the only things that suffered from it were his morals not his looks #bucky egan #clegan #john egan #charles cruikshank #mota #masters of the air #mota incorrect quotes

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hanzajesthanza · 2 months ago

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a book with geralt 😃

a book with geralt without ciri 😐

a book with geralt without yennefer 😔

a book with geralt without dandelion 💀

#he is going to be going THROUGH IT #he is going to get up to some absolutely poetless behavior #and by that i’m expecting at least one suicide attempt from him #maybe it’s just me and my ‘suffered socially in middle school’ type of memories #but being alone is so soooo painful and going back to that geralt before his best friend and his wife and his child is going to be like #remember when geralt didn’t have much reason to live remember that time in his life #geralt as a near-middle age adult: oh my god this guy is so sad #geralt as a young adult: 😶💀 [speechless at the suffering]#unless dandelion does show up in this somehow but that would pose more logistical questions #imagine we see posada and they meet then and it’s revealed that edge of the world actually takes place with them like 19 and 26 or some #unexpected consideration like… reading eotw back i’m going to be like wait… how old WERE you two here how long ago WAS this #because characters unlike people are immortal because they are ideas #so when you imagine geralt and dandelion even ‘a long time ago’ i just imagine them slightly younger #whatever is done dandelion’s age will never make sense because count 38 and subtract 15. this is his age when ciri was born.#and yet he is hanging out with geralt here in his 30s because friendship is so eternal it slipped the author’s mind to change them #unlike in-universe netwitcher headcanons about jaskier being immortal i believe dandelion is immortal in a meta sense of his presence is so #necessary for geralt’s character that despite logic he must be there for him in the same form no matter the circumstances #geralt and dandelion meeting as young men: [each thinking to himself] ‘huh this guy is stupid and looks gay’#and then an epic best friendship was formed forever. i love you ❤️#the elbow-high diaries

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distant-velleity · 5 months ago

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WOOOOO okay so school starts in a few days and i wont have time to make proper cards BUT—- i did some silly doodles for my ocs in @ashipiko ‘s SUPER FUN summer event bc i love them dearly and they need a break from the nonstop angst i put them through <3333

for the uninitiated, img1: chrysos and santiago img2: davis and ruixing img3: florian img4: yuhua

more thoughts if you’re interested and taglist under the cut!!!

chrysos and santiago would be so invested in the water balloon fight, they are THE MOST competitive and most athletic of all my twst ocs so 😭😭😭🙏🏼 really sorry to anyone who tries to take either of them on

although i think they’d be too busy targeting each other. ahh to be young and in love

look at davis being a mom friend even now <3

he’s honestly not that energetic so he’ll probably be chilling and talking with the few friends he’s made

ruixing was not built for long days under the sun LMAO he’s wearing one of those thin sun protector jackets. hydrate this birb 🙏🏼

florian is SO SHY help he almost didn’t show up but here he is… probably will enjoy a pawpsicle or something but he’s happy enough just being a part of it all actually

i drew yuhua in his post-ob look bc this look is peak whimsy and class. even though he normally wears muted/greyscale colors. he’s having so much fun and he quite likes this energy <3 whether it’s chattin with friends or getting SOAKED during the good ol water balloon fight

also yeah. basically everyone here has had minor adjustments to their hair, mostly getting it out of their faces some LOL. figured it's about time they get even just a bit of variation hehehehe

if you read this far thank you <3 i havent drawn some of these guys in. Too long now haha they need some love again 💖💖

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art taglist (ask to be added or removed): @thehollowwriter @theleechyskrunkly @elenauaurs @casp1an-sea @nahelenia

@skriblee-ksk @boopshoops @scint1llat3 @nyx-of-night @nemisisnemi

@the-banana-0verlord @beneathsakurashade @kathxrat-01 @ramcatshackle

#my art #twst oc #HOOO boy here it comes #chrysos pendentif #santiago parro #davis jayme #feng ruixing #florian verwandlung #yuusona #my goofy sillies all here ahhhhhh #this is like. a wonderful break from all the stuff ive put yuhua alone through #he suffers in every single au ive been doing on discord but at least he's happy in canon <3333 #so yeah i LOVE silly events with happiness and laughter and genuine joy #this whole thing is so fresh and fun teehee

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trensu · 1 year ago

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Have an itty bitty tiny piece of stasis in darkness, just so you all have an idea of where the story is going after the godly reveal. and also have proof that i am, in fact, still toiling away at this (as well as hawkins halfway house.)

A week and a half later, Steve entered a town he’d never seen before. He wore simple traveling clothes and carried no weapons aside from a couple of carefully hidden knives. He’d left his armor and shield behind. His satchel held only the essentials one needed for travel and a single stone as large as his fist. The stone was wrapped in layers of cloth to keep it safe during the journey.

I need you to find someone.

He felt very bare but he hadn’t been given much of a choice. Speed was of the essence for his quest, and little no-name towns tended to be wary of strangers in plain clothes, even more so around strangers decked out for battle. Steve wasn’t sure this place could be called a town. It was so small it hadn’t been on any official map. It didn’t even have an inn. Hopefully, Steve wouldn’t be needing an inn once he found who he was looking for.

He’s too far from me to reach.

He asked around, laying on the charm generously. He explained he had been a friend of a friend and had been trusted to deliver something. Eventually, he was told where to go. The house he found far beyond the village’s boundary was small. It looked like it had once been well cared for but it was old and had fallen to disrepair. Steve took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

A sallow old man opened the door. He was bald but had some scruff on his face still. His shoulders, stooped from age, trembled. His eyes were bloodshot. He looked so tired.

He’s my very last worshiper in all the world.

“Wayne Munson?�� Steve asked.

“Who wants to know?” The man’s voice was phlegmy and rough. He coughed into the crook of his elbow almost before he could finish speaking.

“I’m Steve. Ser Steve Harrington, pledged to the Lord of Night.”

Wayne’s eyes widened. His grip on the open door weakened and slipped. Steve caught the door before it could hit Wayne.

“He sent me to you,” Steve explained. “May I come in?”

yep, that's it for now. i told you it was small. i'm not even gonna bother with a read-more here.

#trensu tells stories #stasis in darkness #i technically have another 4.5k words written already #but it is very much still a rough draft #it's all clunky chunks of stone with all that i want to happen but has not been carved and smoothed out properly yet #also i have decided to include at least a couple of prayers #because i hate myself apparently and want to make myself suffer #a poet i am not #and i haven't stepped in a church or said prayers in literal decades #well #that's a lie #i did attend ONE mass in that time only because my mom asked me so she wouldn't have to go alone #the priest went off on the queers during his sermon and my mom never asked me to go with her again lol #so i remember none of the prayers #and even if i did #i learned all my prayers in spanish #i have no idea how they go in english #ughhhhhh why do i do these things to myself

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tls123 · 11 months ago

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han sooyoung 1863 (and her specifically) offering eternal sleep to yoo joonghyuk is an act of mercy and.... and, god, it was kindness

#orv spoilers #your god (who does not yet know she's your god) looks at you and goes #sacrifice your connections to all of these people #suffer alone for so long you become a shell of a man #and at the end i promise i'll make this world (which you love so so much) as safe as it can be #not as safe as we would want it. we cannot save it in that way #but we can hit pause and at least stop it from getting any worse #this is the best peace i can offer it and you #and then. then you can go to sleep. you can stop.#i've made you walk for so long now just a few more steps and i'll let you rest #orv #han sooyoung #yoo joonghyuk #orv.txt #fra.txt #yoohan #their dynamic in 1863 makes me insane in hindsight #and she doesn't know she made him but the fact that she alone was able to offer this to him........#of course. of course it was her. it couldn't be anyone but.

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pixelatedraindrops · 8 months ago

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Yuma Month: Day 25: Broken

Night terrors, burning body temperature, delirious hallucinations, and glassy faded vision…

Helpless and afraid, he calls out for his caretaker…but he’s not there…

He’s all alone now…with no one to help…

Completely broken.

#Yuma Month 2024 #I put a preview just as a warning of what you'll get into #whumpcode #rain code #master detective archives: rain code #yuma kokohead #illness whump #fever whump #pixeldoodles #my art #the only way I know how to truly break a character #this is post game yuma who has fallen ill on one of his cases #pushing himself too hard despite his failing health #now he’s worse and while his fever rises after a nightmare #he suffers from ragged breathing hallucinations and delirium #rendering him back to his amnesia personality #scared helpless and wanting support #he briefly remembers his caretaker from the NDA #he calls his name but there’s no answer #its dark and scary and he doesn't know where he is #he wants someone anyone to be with him #but he’s all alone now…and very ill with no one to aid him #this is what can happen when you fly solo yuma ;-;#this might be the worst I’ve ever done to him... ^^;#is there a good ending here? I'll leave that to your head.#I think I got carpel tunnel from drawing this... ORZ #karma ig 😅 anyway tomorrow's will be non whump #i just went a little crazy w this one... XD #art is a mess but at least it looks ragged & dark as I intended it to #definitley more detailed than the others tho lol

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numbmontezuma · 2 years ago

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This probably the most emotionaly exausted denji has been since the end of part 1, life really gives him so little and it continues to take alway so much more.

#this chapter was nothing but denji suffering fujimoto leave my baby boy alone #but i hope at least denji comes out of it with a more concrete goal in life #csm spoilers #csm 134 #chainsaw man #chainsaw man spoilers

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scentofpines · 5 months ago

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please dont reblog "cute" or "funny" videos/pictures of animals when it takes like 0.5 seconds and a quarter ounce of empathy to tell that the animal is kept under bad conditions and/or distressed and/or abused. have some empathy and respect for other creatures my god

#every now and then posts cross my dash where i just feel sad bc at the very least the vid/pic of the animal is ambiguous but im often pretty #sure that its straight up mistreatment if not abuse #like (more or less) harmlessly teasing in animal until it snaps is not funny #emptying a box of balls on a staircase behind a deaf ferret is not funny just bc the ferret goes :O bc it got scared #a ray in a teeny tiny aquarium is not funny #a couple years ago there was this gif of a dog going around and the dog was CLEARLY suffering an epileptic seizure and it had like 100k+#notes of ppl being like “haha so funny”#i hate you #its not even that these ppl who think these are funny are all animal abusers but i just dont get how you dont question posts like that #ppl thinking its oh so cute and funny how a budgie that is kept ALONE in a tiny cage is interacting with a mirror #just pls question what you see #dogs that are so inbred they cant see/walk/breathe properly arent cute either btw they deserve love and kindness but by god stop breeding #them or i will come for you with a knife #personal

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spacedlexi · 1 year ago

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when u want to like a character so so bad but theyre a cop so its impossible