#at least I did get new ones OTL

[summonerresort]

[zoekrystall]

Hello hello excuse me why the absolute fuck can you not mute words on bluesky I am going to combust that is such a basic thing?? What the fuck?? I might not use it until they implement that bc what is this. I just tried to mute bc I glanced at my timeline and read bg3 and remembered oh. Right. The thing that makes me avoid all streams rn. (good game, specific character brings bad thoughts up, don't ask, twt is already agony since but not anyone's fault the mute function there sucks). Also like me and a lot of other people got more standard bad stuff they don't wanna see and don't want to start muting whole accs we follow??? There is a free extension I need to figure out how to get on mobile (shouldn't be too hard for me) but I shouldn't need to do that for such a basic and no brainer function. Idc if it comes later stuff like that should be there from day 1. Like even if no-one would post abt the most standard triggering topics literally everything can be a potential trigger for someone even the most harmless stuff.

[hana-no-seiiki]

Good news. Did some decent progress on What’s Up Danger so you guys will finally get fed this Wednesday! Bad news, the quality might not be the best since I’m fasting while writing it oTL

Anyways, here are some Batfam w/ Cat Villain! Reader moments/snippets.

TW YANDERE AND MENTION OF NONCON/SOMNO

Both Jason and Reader’s first words to each other were, “What the fuck.”

Reader referring to Jason being a giant, and violent asf esp in comparison to Dick. While Jason was confused at his heart beating so fast and mildly crushing on you while you were fighting.

Bonus points: You guys did the spiderman point meme.

You have the biggest age gap with Dick. I headcannon the boys to be close in age so there wouldn’t be any not so good implications when it comes to relationships, but it’s almost unavoidable unless Batman switches sidekicks every year or so. (You are younger than Jason but older than Tim)

But that is also another reason why you two didn’t click as well as you did with Jason

You’d often make jokes or use slang and Dick would just be “???” He tried his best though.

On the reverse side of things, and like I mention before Tim and you got along too well as friends. He’s one of the few people you could gush to about literally any fandom and he somehow (through stalking your searches and literally every gadget/appliance you owned) knew everything about it already.

You two have written several theses on fellow vigilantes and villains (mostly ‘dumb’ ones like who has the best cake based on so and so criteria)

Damian is the best when it comes to bantering with you mid-fight. It’s the combined years of sass and assassin training. Went from plain insults to whole ass (not so) subtly being horny when you beat each other down.

He’s also the worst (best?) when it comes to your nicknames. He insists that you two use it on each other. Some exclusive while others he’s usually fine hearing from other mouths.

There was one point in time where you were called Kitten while the boys forced/bribed you to call them Daddy

Tim and Jason have tattoos of you/related to you.

For Jason it’s your name with a few paw prints, and for Tim it’s when he first fought you (and got his ass whooped)

After Jason came back and revealed himself to you, he tattooed the scratch marks you left him on his back after doing the deed.

Damian secretly practices doing henna so he can draw on you during your “wedding” since he doesn’t want anyone touching you. Sort of defeats the purpose, but go off king.

Being the thorough guy he is, he uses lab equipment to make his own blends.

Bruce? Bruce hates your ass. Sometimes it’s in a hatefuckey way but most of the time he blames you for corrupting his kids.

So he corrupted you in turn.

I feel like he gets off to cucking them honestly (blame that one comic) but if Reader is AFAB I wouldn’t be surprised if he impregnated them.

He’s a softie at heart when it comes to you though, courtesy of your similarities with Selina.

Speaking of, Talia adores you.

Like if there was anyone she would want with her son it was you.

She thinks the fact that you haven’t been put behind bars is a testament to your skill, and after getting over your similarity to her “rival in love” she would actively get you to be with her son.

Eventually she realizes she loves you more than Bruce and well, that’s a story for another fic.

You have at least a dozen trackers on you at all times.

Most of them you’ve ingested and pooped out.

It’s mostly Tim of course. But the duty of actually feeding you that stuff usually goes to Dick.

Dick has uh- somnophillia’ed you a fair bit after the break up.

He really, and I mean really likes to watch you sleep.

It reminds him of those ‘catnaps’ you’d take while watching over the Titans.

There would be times where he’d just be in a daze/in autopilot for hours reminiscing about your past together

His favorite memories to go back to were your first fight together, first kiss, and times under the sheets, and a date you guys had before in a festival/circus.

He never takes the antidote for Poison Ivy’s sex pollen and always comes to you for it, regardless of his or your relationship status.

Tim has at least a million typewritten chats with AI you, and around a few hundred hours of voice chats.

You did eventually take his virginity.

He came as soon as he was inside you/you were inside him.

You have been offered to be a part of the bat crew or a vigilante. But,

you massacred many after Jason’s supposed death and feel too guilty to call yourself anything other than a villain.

Chokers with bells. It’s a popular gift to give you. Especially ones that are custom made with expensive ass materials and engraving.

Sometimes Tim just gives you weapons.

Alfred is your best source of blackmail material.

You’ve actively tried cursing him (with immortality). You love the man.

He’s secretly the president of your official fanclub/fansite but you didn’t hear that from me.

You fight a lot with Damian’s pets. Like in a way that you turn into a literal cat and hiss at them.

And last but not least, you’re vv close with every member of the Teen Titans (besties with Rachel and Garfield)

NOT PROOFREAD!!!

@sophiethewitch1

[feroluce]

So I've already seen this one pointed out, but in the new CG, Boothill's older human form doesn't really match what people thought it should. Of course it could just be neglect on Hoyo's part like I've seen speculated, but personally? With the other lore we got from this patch, combined with some of the stuff we already had, I'd love to think there is a possibility that is way, WAY more fun.

(fun for me and all the other whump enjoyers, anyway, RIP Boothill fjkasjkdj)

In Boothill's lc, we see him in the middle of his surgery where he threw away his flesh and bone body for steel and cybernetics. We know it was The Big Surgery and not just like some sort of tune up or modification because of the description attached to the lc:

Which is where a lot of the dissonance comes in, because in this lc, Boothill's hair is much, much longer than in the cg.

And as someone who also has super long hair, I can tell you that it would take like. Multiple years to grow it out to this length.

There's also the fact that these cybernetic arms don't even match, the lc is the one that looks like our Boothill does now. And there's no reason for Boothill's shirt to be ripped up and in tatters like that; it even states he takes off his clothes before the lc surgery. If it were a matter of Hoyo needing to censor nudity, there were plenty of other methods they could have used that would make more sense, like a hospital gown, a blanket, surgical partition, etc

When will I get to see Boothill with all his scars, Hoyo, when, quit cockblocking me!!! OTL

But there was also another piece of new lore this patch that hit me like a fuckin' brick- the fact that Boothill was tortured by the IPC.

He just drops this out of nowhere! Just says it and then moves right along!! BABY, PLEASE. I WANNA KNOW MORE SO GODDAMN BAD.

But anyway as Hydrachea pointed out to me, this means the torture definitely had to happen before the lc surgery, because being whipped with a belt soaked in saltwater (fucking OUCH) wouldn't work on someone with metal skin.

So, we know that the IPC did, at some point, capture Boothill. And this is reaching further back to previous patches, but we also know from the Luminary Wardance event in 2.5 that the IPC also dabbles in cybernetic arms, because of the one they foisted on Luka.

The model there is a new one they're debuting, but we see in a flashback sequence that the IPC has been part of the cybernetics game for at least 700-800 years, because they also manipulated Igor into getting one too, and this could have only happened before the Eternal Freeze on Jarilo-VI.

It's never stated just how old Boothill is, or how long ago the genocide on Aeragan-Epharshel took place.

But I doubt it was more than 700-800 years ago.

I really don't think Boothill is that old, or has been doing this for that long. So he definitely would have been captured at a point that the IPC was manufacturing cybernetic arms, and had a known history of amputating perfectly healthy patients to use them.

I wonder if all their test subjects were willing.

(This part is entirely unnecessary for the new cg showing Boothill being a forced lab rat as part of the IPC torturing him. But it is a fun, delightful, bloodily gruesome twist of the knife nonetheless.

Boothill was also betrayed by his own brothers-in-arms on Aeragan-Epharshel. For the IPC. Just saying.)

[justcallme-ange]

Happy 1 Year Little Comforts!! <3

Give or take a couple days - oops ^^;

One of the longest projects I've done to date!! <3 <3 <3 Thank you all so much for the support, as well as all the comments and tags! I love going through them and reading all the lovely messages. They're a great pick-me-up whenever I'm feeling demotivated. So thank you again <3

So for the anniversary I wanted to do a little thing where I point out some details in the comic I'm very proud of XD (Yes I'm tooting my own horn - shhh)

Three Wishes Dream asks Techno to promise him something 3 times. And only on the third one does Techno agree. I tried to frame it as both Techno being cautious about agreeing to things Dream proposes (a la favor) but also as Techno finally agreeing when everything was laid out and there was nothing Dream had left to hide. (It's like a fairytale trial - 3 challenges with the last having a great reward.) Forget-me-(k)not I don't know how prevalent they are now a days, but growing up I was a really forgetful child, and learned somewhere that by tying a knot on your finger when you need to remember something supposedly helps in you actually remembering. Which idk if true, it didn't really work on me, but the knot itself actually stuck, so in this case I used it for 3 things: A reminder that Dream was stuck in prison and needed help, a reminder that Phil needed to get Techno out of prison (eventually), and a reminder that Techno promised Dream he would free him. Scars So all the scars that I drew Dream with all actually have canonical reasons. So in order - the one across his nose was from Techno during their duel, the ones on his neck and chest were from Tommy taking two canon lives, the one on his lips were from Sam after first being detained, and the last on his chin (and arms) are from Quackity. Continuity The armor that Phil is wearing at the end is a reference to another illustration I did of the Doomsday Trio. It's post prison break so maybe it's a sequel? (This is less a detail and more just a personal thing - but my favorite page has to be page 7 - where Dream's image crumbles. It usually takes me at least 2 tries to get the look I want - this was one and done ^^) More behind the scenes - this comic (final version) started with the hug. I said initially the comic was supposed to be 6 pages at most, but I wanted to make the hug work so bad that I literally rewrote the comic. Only the first two pages are part of the original draft. Everything else was new. My brother literally sat with me for days going over each scene and making edits. OTL There were so many iterations - in the end I think there are at least 7 drafts of this comic. Cut Content Bonus: Unlike my other comic where the vision was there from the beginning, Little Comforts had some growing pains, and a few scenes had to be cut for it to work. So here ya go!

This was cut in favor of the shaking scene, some levity was needed to let the scene breathe, plus quoting my brother "It's more Techno".

Also wanted another hug, but editor and I felt that it took away from the pay off in the end.

Alternate version of 'he's a child' - originally it was supposed to go at the end of the comic, as an epilogue. Timing wise it ended up not working, which ended up with an even better gut punch so I'm not too upset. I may still render this....

[professorsparklepants]

Spotify | Youtube (lyricless) | Youtube (with translated lyrics)*

a voice came to me in a dream saying that i could make a life and death companions playlists using only kpop songs. and that voice? was kim dokja.

*flashing warning for Killing Me

TRACKLIST BELOW THE CUT

Illusion | aespa

Follow me, come and get illusion Swallow it all at once, delicious Irresistible bait, hook up Feeding on attention and growing up

Did I pick this song just because it had the word dokkaebi in it? Maybe. But you can't deny it's a starstream bop.

Deep | Hyo

Hiding sharp teeth, tension with you I predict eyes to eyes, explore it with you Oh you can take it? Won't be easy, you'll see Like the waves I'll hit you, whip up the water, deeper into me

This was the last song I added, but "two sharks circling each other in the water as a metaphor for a relationship" is SO early joongdok.

Camo | BoA

Hey baby, in the darkness with all the lights off I've hidden my shadow, I can't be tied down To some place tonight, my face has changed My heart is moving, but my camouflage will hide it I still don't know, yeah, my own heart The thick colors of the camouflage cover up the new world that'll surprise me

The dowager queen of kpop delivers a Kim Dokja song through and through.

Drunk-Dazed | ENHYPEN

I feel it, my head's in a daze daze daze I'm addicted, I replay-play-play The way you want it, go as far as you can to reach it Trapped in the carnival wow wow

[slaps Yoo Joonghyuk] this boy can fit so much timeloop trauma inside him

Want | Taemin

(Hot, Hot) Teasing you slowly (Hot, hot) Making you fall for me without limit (Hot, hot) Waking you up from the silence underneath your deep sea (Hot, hot) Will leave you wanting more, thirsting for more

I can't do a kpop themed shipping playlist and NOT include the King of Hoe Anthems himself.

Devil By the Window | TXT

Waste, waste away in the gutter with me No, I can't tell what is fake in my reality I see the waves, see the waves wash over me Oh, stay, you can stay when you're tempted to leave

Deja Vu | Dreamcatcher

Me deleting Lucifer by SHINee from the playlist because the lyrics don't fit: OTL

Me when I find another kpop song about Devils that's also way gayer: 😈

So now, I'm holding this pain Like you, who has thrown everything away Each day gets clearer Endlessly before me, oh deja vu Oh deja vu, oh deja vu, Oh deja vu, so I've fallen now Till the day I run out of breath, I can't let you go again Because we'll spend every moment together Don't get any further away from me

This is the only surviving entry from when this was 100% a joke playlist and not partially serious.

Psycho | Red Velvet

You got me feeling like a psycho, psycho People keep telling us As we fight like it's our last but then we get along They don't get it, it's so funny

Dysfunctional relationship anthem.

Killing Me | Chungha

Forgotten again these days The time has stopped When does it end? Try to pretend I'm used to it by now Something just fell apart What fell is the broken heart Future is trapped and has collapsed Everything is because of you

Is is really a joongdok playlist without at least one depressed breakup song?

Fiction | Highlight (formerly Beast)

Like this again (fiction in fiction) I can't end it (fiction in fiction) I am writing the story that will never end in my heart I will hold onto you (fiction in fiction) I won't let you go (fiction in fiction) I'm in the story of you and i that hasn't ended still, even today in fiction

I know Kim Dokja is the reader and not the writer but I couldn't NOT.

Heroine | Sunmi

In this drama of just us two The true hero was you, baby Yeah today you're being you Like a brilliant hero Just do as you have always done Even if that's playing the villain Even if that makes me sad You've got to be yourself Even if that hurts me, even if it's a sad ending The show must go on

This is the first song I added, honestly. Perfect for them.

What Can I Do | Day6

What am I to you? Do you even have feelings for me? Every time I meet you, you change Feels like I know you, but then I don't You meet all the people in the world but you have no time to give me? You're too much, why do you drive me so crazy?

I found this on a list of the gayest kpop songs.

Star | Loona

You're in my mind when I'm asleep I'm seeing stars sink in these dreams I don't wanna spend these hours with nobody else I'm in your mind, you're my dreams I'm freaking out I don't wanna leave But so selfishly I want you and nobody else

I debated between Voice (Korean version) and Star (English version) but then I realized Star has lines that can be read as the possession thing so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

Untouchable | Everglow

Tell me now, tell me now you want me Your feeling can be seen clearly like mine You and I are like one, we're so alike Talk about, talk about us, I want you My feeling can be seen clearly like yours Whatever people say, we're untouchable

Battle couple anthem.

Feel Special | Twice

You make me feel special No matter how the world brings me down Even when hurtful words stab me I smile again cause you're there That's what you do One moment I feel like I'm nothing at all Like no one would notice if I were gone But then when I hear you calling me, I feel loved I feel so special

When I realized I could put this song on this playlist I cackled.

Fairy of Shampoo | TXT

I don't feel lonely when I see you Even if I'm with my sad heart It just disappears far away Dear, you are my fairy of shampoo From this moment on, I will love you

This song is so fucking funny. Me and the woman from a shampoo commercial I have a parasocial relationship with.

Survive the Night | The Boyz

A crying child pouring starlight I got lost in the night I'm still lost there Though I realize it all I have to get out of here, warning warning warning Towards you running running running Small fragments and intersecting sensations only faint traces remember you I endure the dawn without you again, oh yeah

[pours one out for Kim Dokja's entire personal timeline]

Into the New World | Girls Generation

I love you, just like this The longed end of wandering I leave behind this world's unending sadness In the many unknowable paths I follow a dim light It's something we'll do together to the end Into my new world

Joongdok can have a protest song about reaching the end of the scenarios together. As a treat.

[glambots]

Heyo! I noticed requests were open, so I'll give them a go!

Can I get some HCS for DJMM, Roxy, and Chica with a reader who LOVES Halloween? Like, they're coming to work dressed up, with a bag of candy, and a HUGE FRICKING SMILE on their face. It's Spooky Month‼️‼️, ya know? (Pls follow up if you need more clarification, ty!)

Happy SPOOKY MONTH (please ignore that this was sent October of last year I am So Sorry OTL OTL OTL)!!!

🍕Glamrock Chica + "SPOOKY MONTH" HCs:🍕

🎃Chica loves Halloween too! Well, she loves most holidays. They give her the chance to go all out with decorating! She is super stoked to help you with anything you want--putting up decorations, helping you choose a costume, doing your makeup, making treats--especially that last part. Pumpkin is one of her favorite flavors!

🎃Just make sure to keep an eye on your candy stash, because the second it leaves your line of sight, she's going to be digging through it. She just can't help it! Halloween candy is the best kind of candy! (Along with Valentine's candy, Easter candy, Christmas candy...and most other kinds of candy, really.)

🎃Her favorite part is probably the trick-or-treaters, though. The kids always dress up in the cutest costumes, and she gets to hand out candy when they come by to take a picture with her! She'll take one with you too, if you want. And you get your own little bag of candy, handmade and decorated by Chica, herself!

🐺Roxanne Wolf + "SPOOKY MONTH" HCs:🐺

🎃There's really one thing that Roxanne likes about Halloween, and it's the costumes! She usually starts planning her costumes about a month in advance, and tends to cycle through at least 3-5 top picks before she finally settles on her Favorite. And even then, she keeps going back to try out new looks up until the day of.

🎃Roxy's not that big on the candy aspect, she's more here for the Aesthetics. She is NOT here for the horror. You can keep your fake blood and gooey, gory prosthetics a million miles away from her, and god forbid you get any of it her hair, because she will raise hell about it. (Less hell if it's an accident or a kid's fault, But Still.)

🎃She gets really choked up when she sees kids who've dressed up like her. And if you did it, she might explode from sheer happiness. Or maybe she'll just wait to cry happy tears in her green room after the PizzaPlex closes. Whichever happens first. You better not make her mess up her make-up...!

🎧DJ Music Man + "SPOOKY MONTH" HCs:🎧

🎃You wouldn't expect it, but the DJ actually loves Halloween. It's one of the few days he can actually be scary--on purpose. (Which isn't really that hard, considering what he looks like, and how big he is, and all that.) He's not as excited as you might be, but he's still happy to see you happy.

🎃Plus, he can help put up the decorations, easy-peasy! Cobwebs and garlands everywhere! Plus, the dance-floor gets decked out to look like a giant spider-web. He even gets to wear a special pair of pumpkin-shaped sunglasses! He can't get a full costume, because of his size, but he still gets to dress-up in little ways.

🎃His favorite part--aside from manning the booth during the obligatory Halloween parties--would probably be the Photo Ops/Trick-or-Treating events. It's one of the few times the kids actually want to be up close-and-personal with him. Plus, he gets to have the Mini-DJs help him hand out candy bags to the visitors--and, of course, you get one too!

[fangirltothefullest]

Hi!! I love ur art sm and was wondering if you ever considered opening like a redbubble or etsy shop?? I would totally buy a sticker from you! <3

So once upon a time, I did actually have a redbubble. But it never made much money, and I closed it. You wouldn't get paid by Redbubble until you made $20 and if you didn't you'd get a one time payment at the end of the year. Apparenbtly they also updated their terms and now people have to pay to use it? I don't know if that's real but I did hear from buddies that their new policy was shitty for sellers. The stickers had to be priced stupidly high, too while I was using it, and even then I would get like cents in return even for people buying quite a few.

I HAVE thought about maybe in the future trying to make my own stickers, but if I'm going to try to make an etsy for it, I'll need to be like monetarily settled? Or at least more stable?

I have also thought about trying to make my own colouring books... but I', also very ADHD and I never finish anything OTL

[copperdaisy]

Still idly poking around at the idea of joining another Pern game. I'm still too shy to commit to anything yet. But, I have at least started the process of going through my list of potential basic character ideas. I don't necessarily want to reuse characters from my last game; some of them are so hyper specific to the last setting that they'd be next to impossible to adapt to another Pern game. But I could make others work. Even if I have to nix the mutations on the dragonkin I'd feel comfortable just keeping their personality the same.

Mostly talking about Leksasha and Otachith, here. Sure I'd miss the sheer monstrosity that Ota was in her last game in terms of size and other mutations, but she would be the same Ota at her core. A terror of a green that operates by her own set of morals that you really want on your side in a fight. Pretty sure she had a Lawful Evil alignment; her rider was Chaotic Neutral. I think. Need to doublecheck the old profile. (And yes, they were a pair loosely based on Sasha Kaidanovsky and Otachi from Pacific Rim.) Might just change her name to Otath since the full one is a bit of a mouthful, or pick a new name entirely... hm.

But I also have dragon and rider pairs that are literally just names. A list I saved from all of the hatching boards I did on Neopets back in the day. And candidate ideas that I never used on any site. Just need to expand on those ideas.

Just... need to get over my shyness and join a game. OTL

[belovedcorvid]

 [ ✨positivity be upon ye✨]

　　   rory, 

　can’t believe when i first sent these notes a few months ago, my impression of you began & ended with “new friend i talk about the birds™ with. seems nice”.

seems nice? you’re one of the kindest people ever. i go crazy thinking about how kind you’ve been to me because i’m not sure i deserve it. honestly, if you didn’t send me that photo of you, i don’t think i’d believe you were real. 

you put up with so much from me: my weird questions, talking too much & busting into your dms with walls of text or 9000 thoughts, having a new hangup or crisis every other day because of where my life is at the moment — but you’re so patient with me every time. you make me feel like i’m normal & i’m allowed to feel upset about the things i’ve been through and never like i’m overreacting, or coping “wrong”, and from the perspective of someone who's been alone for a long time and spent a lot of my life being told the exact opposite, it’s genuinely changed my life. you’re an angel. i’m gonna wrap you in the coziest blanket to ever exist & shield you from all bad things forever (including your dentist, who i’m engaging in psychic combat at this very moment). 

with your schedule & health problems, your brain has to be mush most days and i’m sure i don’t help because i’m spiritually like a hamster running on a wheel who cannot shut up to save my life sometimes, which is why i wanna say thanks again. i’ll do something one day to show my gratitude in full because i don’t think my words are enough to explain how alone i felt before and how much your kindness has meant. enough to pave the roads by your house myself so you can skateboard again, for a start. 

when we first became mutuals, i was intimidated by you for maybe about two weeks (nothing you did, i just have “i’m self-conscious of cool people thinking i’m lame & annoying” disease) and i just feel so goofy about that because how on earth could i ever be intimidated by the human equivalent of a warm blanket? someone i have so much in common with, like medical things, and extremely specific feelings on haircuts and stairs? someone who will just get so absorbed in their craft projects, they’ll forget to eat sometimes? sunshine incarnate, mr. rory rabbit bnuuy last name? this guy? 

love you so very many. you’re so goofy, warm, and your soul probably feels like one of those fuzzy pom poms on winter hats. i’m gonna give you the biggest hug you’ve ever had in your life one day – and also cook you at least one meal that is both delicious and won’t make you wanna die for several weeks afterwards.

 i hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow and your bed is extra cozy so you have a wonderful night, too.

❣︎ | Unprompted :: Always Accepting |

aaaAAAAAAAAA Wilder I cannot handle how kind you are, and sometimes wonder how you're real because my brain just spins its wheels about it. I've been holding onto this for weeks now ( I think, time is messy ) trying to figure out a way to answer that will adequately communicate how much I appreciate you and love you and I'm not sure it'll work but I'm gonna try. OTL

When we first met I was scared of you, too, if it's any consolation because you seemed super comfortable and confident right away ( can't relate ) and your work is spectacular and I didn't think I'd be able to keep up. People, like many, many things in the universe are very scary to me and it's hard not to feel like an alien in a human disguise doing very poorly at appearing normal. But I'm so glad we started talking in notes and stuff because it was silly to be scared of someone that feels like the missing second half of my brain / heart / etc. Quantum entangled particles or some shit. I always look forward from hearing from you and your thoughts and ideas do not annoy me - in fact if I don't hear from you I get worried about the change in routine and miss you a bunch.

This isn't quite as powerful as I wanted / think you deserve, but despite the belief of some I'm not good at words. Love you very many, hope you're having a good day and I agree - one day I'm going to give you the biggest hug when we meet in person. Hopefully this event will not cause a tear in space-time or something.

Much love, ♡ Ro

[heartfluttered]

interview with the writer ♡♡♡

thank you so much for tagging me, @forget-me-maybe !! i don't have any mutuals who haven't been tagged yet... OTL so i'm assigning this to anyone who wants to do it!!

when did you start writing?

i wrote a couple of one shot fics on fanfiction.net and an artemis fowl fic that i only ever got to the third chapter of at age 11! i dropped fic writing for drawing digital fanart for the next 7 years, but BG3 got me so emotionally engrossed (and so horny OTL) that i started writing again, and i made new mutuals and actually talked to them!! ૮₍ˆ꜆ . ̫ .₎ა♡

are there different themes or genres you enjoy reading than what you write?

i like reading fairy tales a lot! wouldn't want to write my own, though— i'd worry too much about the specifics ( ඉ_ඉ )

is there a writer you want to emulate or get compared to often?

i don't get compared to them, but i'm really engrossed with the way 'prime' by caoilinn hughes is written. it's unlike anything i've ever read, and took me 4 rereads to start understanding the actual details. i don't want to copy the writing style persay, but i would love to make something that gives someone the same unease that this short story gave me!!

can you tell me a bit about your writing space?

before i moved into my college dorm, i wrote at my desk in my bedroom! the dorm's chair is too short for me and my elbows rest on the desk uncomfortably... these days i write on my bed. .. (｡× ̫×) only time can tell if its effective...

what's your most effective way to muster up a muse?

i typically start with with a canon character that i want to write about! say, rolan BG3. from there, i think: what kind of character would bring out the most interesting dynamic in their relationship? and then i make that character! from there on, i think about scenarios between the two characters, how they talk to each other, how they mesh (or don't) etc!

in the apprentice's affections, said character is 'the reader', sure, but she has a personality of her own, and i wrote her the way i did because i thought she would bring out a cute/interesting side of rolan, and vice versa! TLDR: i make ocs >:3

are there any recurring themes in your writing? do they surprise you?

haven't written enough to see recurring themes! i have the one fic that i'm determined to finish before i start publishing others, because i'm worried i'll never finish my current... here's said fic!

what is your reason for writing?

i wanted to be a fic writer! that's.. literally it!! it sounds kind of shallow, but i was curious, and genuinely just wanted to see what i would do with fandom popular tropes like '5+1', 'hanahaki disease', 'red string of fate' etc ( . ̫.)

i've only written and published one fic thus far, but i literally have a bingo list that upon completion, i could choose to . stop writing fic entirely if i wanted to LMAO ig i'll see if writing fic is something i actually like!

is there any specific comment or type of comment you find particularly motivating?

oh, i love all my comments so far; everyone's been so lovely!! i find that comments that delve into what the reader liked specifically / excitement & anticipation over what comes next especially motivates me, though!

how do you want to be thought about by your readers?

i'm not sure! friendly and genuine, i suppose! i use a lot of kaomojis that look cute in my authors notes because i want to give off a friendlier vibe, and i hope it doesn't come off as shallow / insincere / faking it... i just like cute things ♡♡♡

what do you feel is your greatest strength as a writer?

don't want to seem like i'm fishing for reassurance, but i genuinely don't think i have any? at least, not yet! there's much for me to learn as a writer since i'm a beginner.. that said, i intend on doing my best to actually build writing strengths i can be proud of!! ೕ(•̀ᴗ•́)

how do you feel about your own writing?

highly insecure, if i'm being honest! i spend a lot of time mulling over chapters and going 'is this good? this reads like garbage! i wish there was a more interesting way for me to describe this. i wish i knew how to ____' etc, etc...

again, i hope to hone my skills until i'm comfortable saying 'i'm an okay writer!!' and actually believe it when i say it, the same way i'm comfortable saying "i'm an okay illustrator!" i'll do my best *⋆˚꒰ˊૢᵕˋૢෆ꒱

[poupeesdecirque]

Travel Blog: Leipzig Bookfair Sunday

or: Merch, improvising and Good Byes

4th and last day of the fair. I have to say the last two days went by so fast it's kind of sad how fast. The 4th day was premiering the Ch 249 outfit but as i forgot half of it at home I had to improvise... like doll bag, breakfast jar for Tim, different pants. At least my Road Plushy was with me.

The day started with sadly one of my friends still being sick, we had to left her behind for the day :C I'm still sad about this.

Other than that... if you saw an Allen Walker loading their car that was me lol.

At least it was not raining that day and we were able to get inside pretty quick.

Schu told me he had seen a booth with a box of D.Ggray-man Merch and I checked it out as soon as the vendor hall opened and ...

Con prices are horrible but I needed them. I later swapped the Lavi though as I looked up photos and noticed I already had this variant, I now have a different one (con haul pic at the end of the entry).

The whole day was running around trying to find my DGM Mutuals as they wanted to see the blue coat, it took us a while but we found them. I managed to ... not take any photos with them. :') just one super quick one with Alice but they were very busy with filming stuff, that's alright, it's so nice to see people loving cosplay and having fun.

We took a ton of photos that day, the light was awful on some locations, but there are some very pretty shots! Also featuring the shirt I made as I love the poofy sleeves.

The day ended around 4 this time as my friends went back to their place to pick up the sick friend and leave on time and I had to travel back home as well.

No DGM Cosplayers I found that day but I was told several times that it's great to see DGM Cosplayer around and I was complimented for the amount of details I put into my costumes and props ;w;

But I have to say I somehow did not manage to see the whole fair this time?! Like I didn't get to visit the children's book department, I didn't check for new books there, the fantasy one was a very brief visit, we didn't came to the vintage book museum, the cook book isle was just mere 20 minutes and wow q_q how can 4 days pass so darn fast?! I already miss it.

Here is my Convention haul, mostly DGM, I am surprised! Also the sadness my new bowls are... I am aiming to fix the bigger one later on with a gold repair kit.

The new figurines moved into the cabinet the day after.

AND I HANGED THE PANTS TO THE COAT. Same for the bag. And put the jar of Tim into my make up bag as I don't want to forget the half of a costume again OTL

I really enjoyed the convention, I missed attending them. I'm glad the break is over now and I will hopefully see my friends more often again.

The next event I will attend will be a concert though. Then the Burgfest will follow, another concert and mid May a new Convention is on the list. A smaller one.

There is overall 1500 photos (incl photo snaps) I have to get through, i sorted out a bunch while I looked up photos to feature in the blog entries as this was my priority. I hope to narrow them down, edit and put them into the queue later this week. And then to put them into a photobook before I jump at working on the next project.

[ethtyn]

ll2 liveblog: etho's pov

love the way he just throws us into the action with "you have 24 hours to live, good luck," everybody scatters. you're so right king the rest of the rules are totally unnecessary <3

fucking. then he makes skizz explain the rules. girlboss behaviour tbh (LOVE that we get the boogeyman back !!!!!!)

"(keeping all of the moss) is what i wanted to do too, but i didn't want to get blamed for it, is pretty much what it boils down to" me as fuck. also, second of the three G's (gatekeep).

MARTYN ASKING WHAT THEIR IDEAL FINAL MEAL WOULD BE AND SKIZZ'S ACCIDENTAL PAUSE AFTER "MY WIFE"

pLEASE THERE'S SO MUCH MARTYN IN THIS EPISODE ALREADY. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD IF THEY DON'T TEAM

like. look at them.

PLEASE PEOPLE STILL THINK ETHO HAS A BOOGEYMAN TEXT DELAY 😭😭😭 aaaaand that makes all three Gs, LET'S HEAR IT FOR GASLIGHT.

i know it's like asking a fish to breathe normal air but Etho please i am trying to manifest a Martho (Etyn?) team up PLEASE stop making him think you're boogeying 😖😖

(i'm five minutes into the episode btw aren't u so glad i haven't been doing individual posts this whole time)

NAURRRRRR NOT SKIZZ ALREADY 😭😭😭 Grian's "i see the rules don't apply to you?" lmfao

BRO ANOTHER BOOGEY IN 7 MINUTES OF VIDEO? please. my heart

HELLO?????? SKIZZ AGAIN???????? SKIZZ STOP BEING ALONE I'M BEGGING YOU DUDE

WAIT i didn't even realize this breaks timmy's curse, at least for first green death of the server. n*ce

Scar with the fall damage 💀 ppl are dropping like flies LOL

bro the fact that Etho's stuck with Martyn this long. i am going to THROW UP. pleasepleasepleasepleasePLEASEPLEASEPLEASE...

"i'll give you some wood as a...as a reward" ayo ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

it's actually really interesting seeing exactly how much video is being cut out. we're 11 minutes into the video but 30 minutes have already gone by in the session. i don't remember exactly but aren't sessions 2-3 hours? cutting that down to 44 minutes is fuckin impressive in that case actually

"okay so we've proven that none of us are the boogeyman right now" HAVE WE GRIAN?? because i heard Tango super unconvincingly say he wasn't and NO ONE ELSE.

"did you flinch? did that freak you out?" you little freak. i love you and am kissing you on the mouth

KCMXKFKD Grian buying Etho's loyalty with a diamond sword..."i will serve you however you wish"...GRITHO ENJOYERS WINNING

I'M CRYING i paused to write that last point and then IMMEDIATELY upon unpausing Grian's like "good, now kill Martyn 😈" and Etho's like. "actually? 🤔 Martyn wya 👀" STOP IT. STOP KILLING MY MARTHO DREAMS.

aaaaand they left him in the Nether. i hate it here OTL

i was so focused on Skizz whispering sweet nothings into Etho's ear (giving him a lovely compliment) that i didn't even notice Jimmy and Joel dying in lava until Martyn asked if it was a boogey kill LMFAO helpppp

WAIT STOP. EVERYBODY SHUT UP.

"CAN'T BELIEVE YOU REPLACED ME WITH A COW, ETHO"

"HE KEEPS ME COMPANY AT LEAST"

I HATE THEM.

"oh, so you're gonna make a boat with a new friend, hey Joel?" [Bdubs voice] ETHO STOP IT.

Jimmy's "sorry Rancher 🥺" after Joel kills the cow 🥴🥴🥴

wait where tf is the enchanter this season? did Grian finally get a clue and use spawn protection if they did a single enchanter again?

hello again Martyn 👀

"can i buy your silence about this spot." "i guess so. you got any diamonds?" "how 'bout wood, you want some wood?" Etho stop trying to give Martyn your wood 😩

oh RIP Cleo, they really are playing on hard mode from the first episode this season

Scarcledubs teamup? 👀👀👀

the way Etho looks at Bdubs after he says the breed stock comment. the dismissive "i'm not interested". i need to lie down (is already lying down)

THE WAY HE INSTANTLY TRIES TO YOINK BDUBS WHEN CLEO ASKS IF HE HAS ROOM ON HIS TEAM (she is so Tired lmaoooo)

I JUST REALIZED THERE'S NO REN THIS SEASON....DEVASTATING

i am so sorry 👇🏻

"do you wanna be our dad?" "...i don't think i could handle it."

👆🏻 sorry again.

this bit is going weirder places than i just took it tbqh

Etho confirmed not 43 (yet)

Pearl & BigB teamup??? also Pearl double-fisting diamond hoes on the serial killer server is objectively so funny

Etho sowing discord and distrust wherever he goes my beloved <3

HELLO AGAIN MARTYN...BELOVED...PLEASE STAY. look Etho is even setting up by himself... there's room for you too...

SKIZZ AGAIN I'M FUCKING LAUGHINGGGGGG (also RIP impulse)

"got me...got me excited" ETHO I AM BEGGING YOU.

Martyn accidentally killing their last cow with the fucking lava bucket 😭😭 you can tell he's genuinely sorry too JFNFJCKFKF

SOMEONE DROPPING A FUCKING LIT BLOCK OF TNT DOWN A HOLE AND PRAYING IS SO FUCKING FUNNY. no way that was a Martyn boogey attempt he's so much more calculated than that?????

it's so endearing to me that Etho's first instinct is to call people by a nickname out of their usernames (that isn't what everyone else calls them) unless they're a closer friend (Littlewood, Skizzle, etc). also RIP BigB (it was Martyn, turns out 😩)

this whole negotiation with Cleo. "Cleo let me steal your cows 🥺" "no." "🙄🙄🙄🙄 FIIIIIIIIINE" god the POUT. obsessed. also SO proud of him for getting over his fear of Cleo one attempt at stealing her cows at a time <3

i haven't watched Martyn's POV yet but if he fucking fell down one of Etho's holes to his death i am going to CACKLE WILDLY especially considering Etho made a comment about it TO HIM (i think) earlier in the session. "i've done this in every smp i've ever joined and people fall down them and get mad at me" LMAOOOOOOO

we got a "take care, bye-bye" 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖💖💖

[kazumahashimoto]

my xander review this episode

i won't rag on his vocal performance TOO hard cos he hasn't played xander in like. christ. five years? shit's crazy. and i definitely remember howard wang's learning curve with wakiya so i'll let him live. i do of course miss the over the top Bro voice we got from andrew francis but oh well. though i kinda wish his new voice actor made his voice a little deeper? maybe add a bit of texture too? he's kinda missing that rough and tumble charm which is unfortunate. but i am not fucking immune bro the scene of xander and valt talking about how long it's been fucking got me. like auuyughghuhghg and i'm getting that same feeling i get whenever wakiya comes back where you see the characters doing all their classic poses and stuff like xander always having his hands on his hips and his big laugh and that one smile he always does. like aauuughhjyugh oTL i definitely still find it funny how much they debuffed him too like. i can't entirely put my finger on why they did that. the characters talk about how Big he is and how he's a Monster but i will be so honest it kinda doesn't hit as hard when he's barely fucking big at all?! at least in comparison to how insanely buff they made him in turbo. and since most of the cast is relatively medium height xander isn't actually coming across as being that Big or Scary like

one of these is outrageously and comically big and one is a little awkwardly lanky. oh and another thing xander like specifically said ranzo's full name acknowledging that he's a kiyama and he didn't say anything about rantaro?? i was kind of hoping he would since this season has had pretty decent continuity but oh well i guess. if xander ever slaps ranzo across the room i'll count that as a reference. but anyway. i'm sooooooo happy to see him again all the same i've missed heem so dearly. my fucking boy. awauygh.

[virtual-minotaur]

FNAF MOVIE WAS SO BAD. OTL

i went very quickly from "having fun" to "actually angry"

so um spoilers for it ? if you care ?

(pre script: anatomy of a fall (which was a movie i saw just before fnaf) was very good! if you like courtroom dramas + thriller i definitely recommend it)

who was this movie even for ?

in general, the "lore"/story it presented was pretty "entry-level fnaf lore" approachable, but either contradicted the canon of the games or focused on the wrong aspects of the horror.

but i dont think its for newbies of fnaf, as it also gave TONS of details on old fnaf lore (especially community jokes and theories) such as : sparky (sparky's diner, sparky himself being a broken down animatronic (at least i think it was sparky. it was definitely a dog.)), matpat (he does actually say "its just a theory" in the movie. to my dismay), "dream theory", and many other jokes or one liners that youre meant to point at and notice.

so... it gives you elements for new fans, and elements for old fans...... but completely fails to make it a unified experience. how are you meant to understand sparky's appearance if you only know the basics of fnaf? and how are you meant to take the story it presents as an experienced viewer when it contradicts every game's instalment?

it makes the mistake of trying to mix elements from newer gen fnaf (ar, vr, security breach) with older gen fnaf (fnaf 1, 2, 3 +), when they do not actually mesh well very much, as they're trying to tell different stories. vanessa (god bless i could fix her writing) did not belong with mike's story, they come from two very distinct stories in the fnaf universe, and only connected through william.

as i said, the horror completely fails. well, there really... isnt much horror to speak of (what did i expect from a pg-13 movie??). a few very weak jumpscares (unlike fnaf 1, which as a lot of very well built jumpscares, or sister location!), and lots of "dead kids ghosts are scary" moments. however, that has (TO ME) never ever been the core horror of fnaf. william is scary not just because he is a child murderer, but because he's in a position of power at the company, because so little is known about him, because he is driven by hate, because he "always comes back" to hurt, even when his victims have tried relentlessly to drive him away and kill him. THAT'S the horror in fnaf's core story, THAT'S what makes it scary. instead, blumhouse takes the brave route of saying "well maybe william was right to be scared of the ghosts!". william isnt scary because he's strong in his springtrap suit. get real.

and foxy gets his little pirate song twice? thrice? and freddy gets NOTHING . no "circus" no "toreador march". NOTHING. he has a silly little music box and you wont even give him that.

at least tlt fnaf song was in there. i fucking guess.

[catgirlcrisis]

OKAY so I love giving people the opportunity to talk about their interests and I know NOTHING about Arknights (apart from it being probably post apocalyptic. But I could be wrong!)

So! Tell me about what Arknights is about! What do you like about it? What turned it into one of your interests (if you know why)?

YIPPEEE!!! this might be a long one so ill throw in a readmore if it gets too lengthy. (FUTURE warning: it did become extremely lengthy, so i am putting it under a readmore. its a gigantic wall of several paragraphs of text, so proceed with caution, or don't proceed at all. its very spooky down there.)

the basic gist of arknights is that it is a mobile tower defense gacha. the story is about a post-apocalyptic, dystopian world full of several different races which all boil down to "Human, But With [animal trait]" and it gets a tad more complex than that, because in-universe gods and youkai and such exist (as do angels! and...whatever sarkaz classify as, but include demon-like characters and vampires??). also, there is rock cancer! it's called oripathy, named after some Real Mineral Rock known as originium (in-universe, its not real in Real Life!) that people use all the time. its a 1:1 to energy sources we use in the real world, like coal or oil: efficient, dependable, but not very "clean" and can make people very sick.

also, it grows. the rock cancer is a sentient, living thing. it's a blood infection, so it works sort of like HIV/AIDS does; as the disease progresses, the patient's life quality generally worsens (without treatment), there's no cure, the only treatments slow it or consist of supportive care, and it's terminal. oripathy is also an intended 1:1 metaphor - or rather, the patients who have oripathy are intended as a metaphor for...well, it's not very clear what, specifically. generally, individuals with oripathy (referred to as "Infected") substitute in marginalized groups of all kinds. and the disease itself isn't an exact 1:1 with HIV/AIDS, since it spreads through inhalation of contaminated airspace, and anyone who dies with it kinda...explodes? not really, somewhat, their corpses disperse oripathy "spores" into the air. it's implied that just being in a space where originium is present already poses a risk for air contamination and oripathy spread (since Franka, after having broken air filtration gear, managed to catch oripathy. it comes up in the BSW manga as a flashback for why she's infected in the first place).

while arknights is a fun tower defense game that's also just a biiiit predatory on the side (gotta make money somehow, i guess, and also its Technically The Most Generous Predator But A Wolf Is Still A Wolf, Right?), it's also a geopolitical commentary on several happenings in real life, sort of. arknights makes a lot of takes about colonialism and imperialism, and their lasting effects on generations of families; e.g., Blue Poision talks to Indigo about how her family suffered from being caught and enslaved for their inherent trait of having poisonous saliva, there was an entire new event about the Aegir (a race of lovecraftian-ish seafolk that live underwater, or are supposed to, but some live on land) being continuously hunted by the Spanish Inquisition (since that's Lumen's backstory, sorta, i didnt finish the event OTL), there's the entire country of Kazdel, populated by the Sarkaz - a species who is most susceptible to oripathy - which has a tumultuous history and the Angel country of Laterano is at least partially responsible for constantly undermining its ability to grow or move forward, etc. there was a pretty blatant line about colonialism in the event Under Tides, actually. arknights does not fuck around when it comes to making critical commentary!

it also criticizes capitalism. like, a lot. pretty blatantly. there's three entire events that take place in Kazimierz (equivalent of Poland - put a pin in this, i'll get back to it in a second), which is a country seemingly ruled by its chamber of commerce. besides a lot of the characters in the Kazimierz events (Maria Nearl, Pinus Sylvestris, and Near Light) going "it's really weird that the chamber of commerce appears to be in charge of making a lot of federal decisions around here!", there's constant undertones of how capitalistic greed survives off of punishing working class folk and how deeply it can permeate society. in those events, we learn about Kazimierz's biggest Tradition known as the Major. it's a competition where a bunch of people get together and fight each other for knighthood; the sole winner gets an actual title ("The ____ Knight" - canon examples include the Blood Knight, the Candle Knight, etc, and titles typically reference the champion's abilities and such), its all the craze, etc. except that the chamber of commerce oversees the event and is fucking hellbent on following a very specific method: introduce a new winner, let them win maybe 1-2 more times, then cycle them out. keep the hype fresh, encourage your populace to continuously produce ridiculous merch or gamble on their favorites winning, score! everybody wins! usually the champions will give up on re-entering the major for Brand Deals, but if they don't, then the chamber of commerce intervenes. By Force. like, Lethal Force. like, "Alright, buddy, we've had enough. Now we're employing our mega assassins to go after you. Fuck you."

the chamber even does this to discourage certain people from winning, it seems, and that's not even touching on how hard they've tried to gatekeep infected people from entering; maria nearl, in her event, and her sister margaret nearl, are both hunted down and nearly killed in the arena for their respective competitions. it's Fucked Up. Isn't that fucked up? Doesn't capitalism make us do crazy fucked up things, like kill people? Yeah it does. anyway, wanna buy some stuff for our game? :D

oh yeah. people also have magic in this universe. its called Arts! a lot of people can have Arts, but not everyone has Arts. there's no specific terminology for who does/doesn't have arts; either you do or you don't. not everyone can wield it without some sort of aid, though, so some people (typically non-infected people) use what are called arts casting devices or arts units to use ~Their Magic~. these can really be anything; they don't necessarily have to be staffs or wands. infected people have an increased aptitude for arts, though, in that they can practice their Magick without any sort of need for a casting unit and their magic is usually stronger, enhanced by their infection. the downside is that the more they use arts, the worse the progression of the disease gets, so using it too much or too frequently can wear out a user and worsen the severity of their oripathy. the magick is also susceptible to being influenced by emotion (Ifrit is a notable example of this - she's an infected kid who has anger issues, and has fire-based arts, and you can imagine where this is going. also, her oripathy is extremely advanced since she was like, a human test subject, so her arts unit is a Fucking Flamethrower!).

digressing here to make a note about weaponry: do guns exist in arknights? yes, sort of. they don't use gunpowder and instead contain a mini arts unit that can fire bullets, so using guns = using magic, and not everyone can do that either. the most skilled at using guns are, ironically, the angel race Sankta, and they are absolute gun fanatics. nobody really knows why (yet), but their religion says its okay. what is NOT okay is for them to shoot, injure, or kill each other with their state-sanctioned guns, and doing so will cause you to become a fallen angel, and blah blah blah. guns are also weaker than the preferred ranged weapon: crossbows! its implied that those who typically use guns and are also the best at it are sankta, so everyone just kinda leaves them be, but the best gun is inferior to the best crossbow. its weird to think about...

oh yeah, about the Kazimierz-Poland thing: arknights has earth-equivalent countries in its own universe, sort of. heres a map! the uncolored space is not water; only the dark blue is.

rapid fire: -Bolivar is...latin-america. like, all together. (sigh) -Iberia is spain! -Sargon is a mishmash of SWANA countries, and just a general "Africa." (sigh) -Rim Billiton is australia -Victoria is England, with no separation of North Ireland. sorry irish people -Kjerag is... um... Scandinavia? i think. -Leithanien is supposed to be a austria-hungary counterpart specifically, with switzerland mixed in, or like, some german states or something. -ursus is GREAT MOTHERLAND RUSSIA -yen is China! its notable setting is the city-state of Lungmen, where a lot of the story takes place, and Lungmen itself is thought to be a Hong Kong equivalent. -higashi, likewise, is japan! -columbia is supposed to be a US standin -Siracusa is ITALIA -Kazdel.... according to gamepress, is modelled off of the War of the Austrian Succession. some people say its the balkan countries equivalent of terra. -Laterano is the vatican city! the pope lives there. -Minos is Greece, that's easy. -Sami....is something we know almost nothing about. seemingly based off the Scandivanian Sami population, its really cold, and thats it. -Honestly i have no fucking idea what siesta is. i think it's just a siracusan island and gets its own designation because one of the first arknights events took place there. there's a nifty video that delves more into specifics here! anyway, we would be here all week if i talked any more about arknights, so i'll cut myself off there for now. i'll be happy to field any further questions (if you're interested). do i recommend playing it? no; i don't feel it's in good faith to recommend anyone a gacha game, no matter how F2P friendly it is. but is it good? yeah. without flaws, no, but nothing is. it's more diverse than genshin impact, so... anyway, thanks for indulging me :3