#❣ | out of cigarettes :: ooc |

[belovedcorvid]

Hello - I love you !

Sorry for disappearing, not because of sickness (this time) but mostly for cleaning adhdjska. Company is coming.

This time of year is really busy at home - all the garden plants have to get preserved and everyone in this house has a late in the year birthday so I've got things to make / knit with a deadline. I have memes to do and threads to answer though ! Thank you for your continued patience, and many apologies to new followers I am the slowest guy. OTL

Much love,

♡ Ro

[belovedcorvidarchive2024]

❣ | Out of Cigarettes :: OOC |

Before I do any more, I just wanted pause and quickly say thank you for writing stuff with me. I haven't written for a canon character in anything in approximately 1000 years because I get nervous and unconfident and I usually end up deleting before ever saying a word, but everyone's been super nice. You're all wildly talented, it's been fun to read and play along. I don't know, ignore me; I haven't slept in over 48 hours.

[belovedcorvid]

Modded a miniature kit today because these ones with the infinite liminal space trick remind me of my favourite game series. Any Submachine fans around here ?

[belovedcorvid]

Hello ! I know I haven't been especially busy lately, but that will continue into this weekend because it's Camp Weekend so I will be only somewhat reachable on mobile / disco. I'll probably post a little about some of the stuff I make, so if ooc about crafts isn't your thing you can block #rabbit made it to hide it ! I'm going to try and write a little / answer inboxes in my off hours, but I'm not sure when they will post because I'm not bringing the craptop.

Disco under the cut for mutuals - please tell me who you are !

[belovedcorvid]

aaaaAAAAA

Everybody is so nice in tags - arrows through the heart. I live in a really remote area and work / am sick a lot so I don't have very many IRL friends - I'm not used to it, and I didn't really think very many people would notice that I was gone. Thank you for being so nice, I'm really happy to see all of you now that I'm feeling a little better.

Much love, genuinely

♡ Ro

[belovedcorvid]

Have I finished making my ridiculous, gigantic thread tracker ? No.

Did I make a big portrayal notes post with my headcanons from my previous iteration of this blog like I wanted ? No, not yet.

But I did *mostly move my spooky boy over* to @malpractising if you're OC friendly and like creepier things please go visit him I'd love that very many -

[belovedcorvid]

I am a terrible baker anyway, but now we are doing gluten free dairy free baking. OTL 20 more minutes on my bread, we'll see ashdjka.

[belovedcorvid]

Drafts time ~

[belovedcorvid]

On this week's episode of ' Things that Aren't the Same as a Pre-Op Exam and Cardiac Clearance for Major Surgery '

' I saw my GP for gout yesterday '

' I'm at the WIC right now '

' I went to the dentist today and they took my blood pressure there '

' My CT says I need surgery '

' But I don't want to do a Pre-Op '

' I'm not worried about it, I'm very healthy '

[belovedcorvid]

♡ Hello I love you !

Sorry for disappearing, whenever I do an art project I am capable of dog-with-bone levels of intense focus, and I have a deadline of mid-november to get my scale model stuff off of the big table. OTL I plan on doing a bit of writing this weekend though ! I've got a couple inboxes to do yet and a bunch of replies to iron out, plus a couple of verses I haven't gotten to play with yet that I want to write out.

But ! If you'd ever like to reach me in a more immediate way you can add me on Disco - I'll throw my info under a cut. Love talking to mutuals, it just takes me a bit to get comfy and I disappear suddenly when patients require it.

[belovedcorvid]

Sometimes I think about inflicting sadness on the Laws I follow by having Eden tell him he can't figure out why he smells like old cigarettes and feathers.

[belovedcorvid]

I have a little irrational voice in my head and frequently it says ' put L.aw on his own blog and write him fully, on his own too. ' I used tell myself no because I was already always so slow but now that we're not worrying about speed ? Hmmmmmm

[belovedcorvid]

Saturday is always my running errands day. OTL I have inboxes to wrap up and replies to do and a charity auction knit to finish, but one thing I may try to write up is the modern AU I've workshopped with Wilder because I love it and want to start using it eventually.

In this one the bird is a former MP/Detective turned shitty PI following a severe injury that almost killed him and effectively ended his prior career. Volunteers time at a local hospital, in the process of adopting a kid - L.aw, 13, medically complicated. Now barely scraping by with extensive medical debt and forced to get back in contact with his more successful sibling for help. Drives an old motorcycle and should not. Lives on his shitty boat, probably.

[belovedcorvid]

 [ ✨positivity be upon ye✨]

　　   rory, 

　can’t believe when i first sent these notes a few months ago, my impression of you began & ended with “new friend i talk about the birds™ with. seems nice”.

seems nice? you’re one of the kindest people ever. i go crazy thinking about how kind you’ve been to me because i’m not sure i deserve it. honestly, if you didn’t send me that photo of you, i don’t think i’d believe you were real. 

you put up with so much from me: my weird questions, talking too much & busting into your dms with walls of text or 9000 thoughts, having a new hangup or crisis every other day because of where my life is at the moment — but you’re so patient with me every time. you make me feel like i’m normal & i’m allowed to feel upset about the things i’ve been through and never like i’m overreacting, or coping “wrong”, and from the perspective of someone who's been alone for a long time and spent a lot of my life being told the exact opposite, it’s genuinely changed my life. you’re an angel. i’m gonna wrap you in the coziest blanket to ever exist & shield you from all bad things forever (including your dentist, who i’m engaging in psychic combat at this very moment). 

with your schedule & health problems, your brain has to be mush most days and i’m sure i don’t help because i’m spiritually like a hamster running on a wheel who cannot shut up to save my life sometimes, which is why i wanna say thanks again. i’ll do something one day to show my gratitude in full because i don’t think my words are enough to explain how alone i felt before and how much your kindness has meant. enough to pave the roads by your house myself so you can skateboard again, for a start. 

when we first became mutuals, i was intimidated by you for maybe about two weeks (nothing you did, i just have “i’m self-conscious of cool people thinking i’m lame & annoying” disease) and i just feel so goofy about that because how on earth could i ever be intimidated by the human equivalent of a warm blanket? someone i have so much in common with, like medical things, and extremely specific feelings on haircuts and stairs? someone who will just get so absorbed in their craft projects, they’ll forget to eat sometimes? sunshine incarnate, mr. rory rabbit bnuuy last name? this guy? 

love you so very many. you’re so goofy, warm, and your soul probably feels like one of those fuzzy pom poms on winter hats. i’m gonna give you the biggest hug you’ve ever had in your life one day – and also cook you at least one meal that is both delicious and won’t make you wanna die for several weeks afterwards.

 i hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow and your bed is extra cozy so you have a wonderful night, too.

❣︎ | Unprompted :: Always Accepting |

aaaAAAAAAAAA Wilder I cannot handle how kind you are, and sometimes wonder how you're real because my brain just spins its wheels about it. I've been holding onto this for weeks now ( I think, time is messy ) trying to figure out a way to answer that will adequately communicate how much I appreciate you and love you and I'm not sure it'll work but I'm gonna try. OTL

When we first met I was scared of you, too, if it's any consolation because you seemed super comfortable and confident right away ( can't relate ) and your work is spectacular and I didn't think I'd be able to keep up. People, like many, many things in the universe are very scary to me and it's hard not to feel like an alien in a human disguise doing very poorly at appearing normal. But I'm so glad we started talking in notes and stuff because it was silly to be scared of someone that feels like the missing second half of my brain / heart / etc. Quantum entangled particles or some shit. I always look forward from hearing from you and your thoughts and ideas do not annoy me - in fact if I don't hear from you I get worried about the change in routine and miss you a bunch.

This isn't quite as powerful as I wanted / think you deserve, but despite the belief of some I'm not good at words. Love you very many, hope you're having a good day and I agree - one day I'm going to give you the biggest hug when we meet in person. Hopefully this event will not cause a tear in space-time or something.

Much love, ♡ Ro

[belovedcorvid]

Even though painting ( read: loss of control ) gives me anxiety I really like taking painting courses because I'm a nerd about instructional documents and I really like seeing people take the same set of steps but interpret them so differently. Mine's the curly one on the far right btw:

I also made a turned resin tumbler and this tiny punch needle furby and he turned out as wonky as I wanted him to be:

[belovedcorvid]

Very sad my trip is done, but feeling much more rested and relaxed despite all the hiking and climbing we did. Found a couple collection pieces during our travels:

Prescription bottle has a date of 1967; glass luer-lok hypodermic ca. 1930-1940 from what I can gather ( no sharps because they're a common trigger but tagging anyway ); not sure about the curved 11 snips.