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The LI's Sisters
I had this idea for a headcanon and can't stop thinking about it! If the LIs had a sister how would that sister interact with MC/you? I also came up with names for all of them just because I could!
Zayne: Zayne has a younger sister by about 2 years named Eviana who is just polar opposite of Zayne. Where he's sorta quiet and serious all the time Eviana is loud and high energy. You met Zayne and Eviana at the same time when you were kids. Eviana immediately called dibs on you as her best friend and would not let Zayne hang out with you two and whenever you did hang out with Zayne she was constantly blocking him from you. Then they moved away and you didn't see them again until you were adults. Eviana was the first to reach out and you got reacquainted with Zayne sorta through her and shortly after started dating him which kind annoyed Eviana. But in that way that your friend says she thinks your brother is hot and you look at him and see just an annoying creature.
"You're in love with my brother?"
"Yes."
"Really?
"Yes."
"Are you sure?"
"She's sure, Evi."
"No one's talking to you, best friend stealer!"
Xavier: Xavier and his sister are actually twins, his sister's name is Izarra. Now you met Izarra way before you met Xavier. You two went to the same university and met in class, became quick friends, you were also co-workers at this part time job at a little on campus cafe. She's a lot more bubbly and extroverted compared to Xavier. You knew that Izarra had a twin brother but you didn't really ever see pictures of him so you didn't know what he would look like outside of being a male version of Izarra. So when you met Xavier and started dating it wasn't until Izarra was trying to make birthday plans with you that you realized the boyfriend you had been telling her about is also her twin brother.
"What do you think of going to a club for my birthday?"
"Sounds fun! Wait, your birthday is the 16th, right?"
"Yeah. Why?"
"Dang it. That's my boyfriend's birthday too!"
"You're kidding. You know I've never actually met this super hot boyfriend of yours now that I think about it."
"Oh right, here's a picture of him. His name is Xavier."
"...that's my brother."
"What?!"
Rafayel: Rafayel has an older sister named Damita who is a lot like him, has a lot of sass to her, a bit dramatic, but is more mature in that way being the eldest sibling/sister makes you. You met Damita before Rafayel when she stepped in to scare off a creepy guy hitting on you at the bar. Damita actually introduced you to Rafayel because she thought you two would get along really well. Despite introducing you two and being happy that you are dating she likes ragging on Rafayel and finds it hilarious when she ends up cockblocking him.
"Dame! You cannot keep barging into my house whenever you want!"
"Oh? Because you're busy making your masterpieces or because you might be fucking?"
"Both!"
"Hey, be nice to your big sister."
"She is only 14 months older than me! We are practically the same age!"
"And yet the only way you got a girlfriend is because of me."
"I'm gonna come to your house in the middle of the night and steal your wi-fi router and all your towels. I swear to god I will do it!"
"For fuck's sake..."
Sylus: Sylus has an older sister that is like 5 or more years older than him named Juno. Juno is 5' 11" naturally but 6' 4" when in stilettos, basically a carbon copy of Sylus personality wise with a resting bitch face that is absolutely terrifying. You didn't even know Sylus had a sister until he was lying in bed with you and he got a text from his sister telling him she was dropping by for a visit. Honestly, that is the only time you saw Sylus get close to scared. Juno adores you, spoils you when she stops by for visits, even flirts with you and you're not sure if she's joking or legitimately trying to steal you from Sylus.
"This shade of lipstick is absolutely perfect on you, my darling. Makes it hard to resist such pretty lips."
"Thanks for buying it for me. I normally wouldn't pay that much for a single tube of lipstick--"
"Think nothing of it. A beautiful girl like you deserves to splurge. I mean, when was the last time you went bra shopping? I bet you're long overdue and I could come with--"
"Juno, stop hitting on my girlfriend right in front of me."
"I'm just offering to take her shopping. No need to be so defensive." leans in closer to you, "But if you ever do decide my baby brother isn't doing it for you--"
"Juno! Knock it off!"
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I Told You So, but Sabi is an itty-bitty baby when she gets stuck with Emmet.
Sabi: AAAAAA (screaming to get attention)
Emmet: You do not need to scream, I am right here
Lord Braviary: AAAAAAAAAAA
Emmet: Do not encourage her!
Sabi, very encouraged, backed up by a chorus of Rufflets: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
#i told you so au#warden sabi#subway boss emmet#lord braviary#submas#egginfroggintalkin#eggin's writings#if she gets a vision she goes silent and it's really freaky#then she tends to start screaming her poor little head off#emmet has learned that a quiet sabi is equivalent to the calm before a storm#and gets incredibly uneasy when she isn't making noise#at first it was annoying now it's terrifying
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happy new year! if you haven't filled it out yet, here's my interest tracker! now that i've gotten my drafts under wraps, i will be replying to everyone who filled this out & prioritizing plotting going forward!
i've found that plotting, even if in little bits has done wonders for my ability to write and overall generated more excitement when writing - plus i get to know so many of you more than i ever have and i'm so thankful to everyone i got to know so much more last year!
plotting does not have to be anything monumental, plotting is just talking about our muses and sharing in excitement, however small. it's an exchange of ideas!! if you feel scared or nervous about your plotting abilities, know that i'm right there with you, but we're here to make friends and to write so let's do that together! let's do it scared! throw me your thoughts, your ideas, a photo, a meme!
#whenever i think to myself am i being annoying? am i bothering someone? i now think about how happy it makes me when someone#interacts with me and sends me stuff and how it might brighten someones day to also get some of that#and now im thinking about the post that goes: in this terrifying world you continuously have the power to offer someone else a little relie#why would you withhold that. do you remember what a little relief feels like? it feels like a lot#do you remember what a little interaction feels like? excitement with a new friend over muses? it feels like a lot!!!#so genuinely: if youre worried or scared about talking to me or anyone else for the first time - do it anyways#and you also never owe anyone an explaination for taking a while or time. youre not bothering when you message me. im choosing my time#im making the time to talk to you and i understand youll also make the time for me when you have it#tldr: plotting can be simple. be kind. take care of your time. youre not annoying. you dont owe anyone anything. let's do some writing#ooc ⋆˙ mostly i want to be kind
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today just will not let me rest huh. reasons are in the tags but i get very emotional just be warned
#hush n shush wifi#just a tad sad#actually more like angry as shit#okay let me TELL YALL about my day#first: the annoying#i was going shopping at a grocery warehouse and you know how those parking lots are always super crowded?#well it was. there were no parking spots and there were so many cars and people trying to go everywhere#i scraped my wheels too which is fine but one of my relatives who likes cars acts like it's a sin#so that shook me up enough that i didn't go outside for the rest of the day#and THEN#OHHHH AND FUCKING THEN.#if anyone remembers the absolute ass of a person from last year who i thought was my friend but said horrible things to me out of the blue#WELL THEY CAME BACK#i never got a chance to block them initially because they blocked me first#BUT I GOT FUCKING MESSAGES FROM THEM TONIGHT#AND ALL THEY WERE SAYING WAS ESSENTIALLY THAT THEY MEANT WHAT THEY SAID#they said some bullshit about the execution being wrong and that their ex wrote it for them#which by the way is just scummy on its own#and that they get mad emotionally which is a horrible excuse#and had the AUDACITY TO ASK IF I HAD ANY QUESTIONS#IN WHAT DELUDED SELF CENTERED WORLD DO YOU HAVE TO LIVE IN TO THINK I WOULD EVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN#my trust is a VERY VERY FRAGILE THING#AND THIS IS A VERY LARGE CONTRIBUTOR TO IT#this isn't an apology. they regret none of it#this is a way for them to make themself feel better#the scariest part is that this person by now is almost/IS an adult#which is terrifying if that means there are more people like that out there#i try not to wish ill will but i genuinely hope no one ever has to suffer through being their 'friend' ever again#anyways they're blocked on all of my platforms now.#if the person is somehow reading this. hi! never talk to me again. you're a horrible human being with no consideration for other's feelings
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It's actually really appropriate that bsd happened to me because I learned about the Sengoku period of Japan from Samurai Warriors. I was moé Oichi in the very first dream in which I exercised volitional control over the dream narrative and environment.
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#samurai warriors#ive always exercised complete volitional control over myself/my dream character#but i had chronic and constant and sometimes recurring nightmares and couldnt control anything else#so i remember very fondly the first time i figured out how to adjust the narrative and environment#i was oichi on a vicious battlefield and i curled up on the ground crying because it was too chaotic and violent and terrifying#there were no clear “sides” — so there wasnt anywhere to go for safety. someone noticed me and raised their battle axe to kill me.#and while cowering on the ground all i wanted was an invisibility cloak to hide under#and got one! so from there i willed a proper fucking sword and horse#then i willed oichi's husband and saved him like a damsel in distress#first nightmare i ever turned into an adventure#now i have so much control over my dreams that i can run simulations of major decisions and can collapse the entire environment if i want to#but my dreams characters (which are just less conscious me) get annoyed if i break the dream without engaging with whatever it's processing#so i try not to.#also sometimes it's an interesting or exciting story and i want to see where it's going#or it's laden with imagery i want to unpack#or i forget it's a dream until the dream characters break the fourth wall at the end to deliver me the takeaway I need to remember#but none of this happened suddenly. it was a slow process that began out of my desperation to no longer be victimized by my own nightmares#and oichi was the turning point.#and also got me very into the sengoku period of japan from ages 9-15.#that abruptly ended because of a marijuana leaf#but that's a separate story#anyway#it just struck me that everything i know about japanese history. came to me first as gaggles of bishie japanese historical figures.#sorry japan but thank you bishie nobunaga and bishie dazai
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Aw HELL YEAH, BABYYY
#what I have learned from this whole process are the worst synthesis mats to grind#honorary mention to Mythril Shards from the sheer amount#3rd place - Mystery Goo (annoying back and forth- getting crits is hard even with divine rose - their stone form sucks and how they group)#2nd place - Serenity Power (just takes so many attempts and precision)#1st place - Power Stone (those monkeys terrify me)#this now makes 2/3 possession of the Ultima Weapon in the mainline games! :D#KH2 is the only one left- gives me an excuse to play it again hehehe#gonna try to beat up some of the superbosses in KH1 first though#I've only attempted Sephiroth and the clock tower guy#I was doing okay at Sephiroth until he did his weird insta death move and then I stared at the screen like a gaping fish#clock tower guy I know you're supposed to cast stop on the clock but I have no idea how to actually damage the guy fndksks#so yeah wahoo here we go#kh1#kingdom hearts
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#i think getting nearly firecracker-bombed the other evening affected me more than i realized at the time#because this has been by far the worst new year's ever for me#in the past i was never more than mildly annoyed by it and even enjoyed the midnight fireworks climax#but i think i might have actually gotten a bit traumatized by that experience two days ago#and hadn't acknowledged it to myself / processed it. as today/tonight has demonstrated#it's past 3 a.m. now and i'm still crying too hard to sleep#and my whole body has been shaky for the past... 10 hours. or so.#even though the fireworks at midnight weren't really that bad at all#not even close to being as terrifying as the three explosions earlier this evening#which in their turn were easily outdone by the street explosion on saturday night that deafened me#i think i may be having a legit delayed trauma response to that now#re-triggered every time a firework goes off near me#i've never been someone who feels much fear#i feel stress and anger and discomfort and i worry and overthink sometimes#i've done a lot of things in my life while thinking 'well. this might be about to kill me. but we all die someday'#and never till this weekend did i feel terror on this level#(a technically unjustified terror too. bc inside my flat i'm almost 100% safe. so that again suggests a trauma response)#i don't think i've ever cried from sheer fear for my safety before#and every post i see saying 'happy new year' makes me feel sick bc it reminds me of this horrible weekend#it's wild how my lifelong feelings about fireworks could change so completely in the course of just three days#for the first time in my life i feel the need for one of those drugs that blunts your emotions and helps relax you#what is that... xanax or something like that? how do you get it? do you need a prescription?#i feel like a doctor would just scoff if i told them that NYE fireworks traumatized me so bad i need medication now#i've been trembling for hours. i'm so tired. i wish i could sleep#*three days ago
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Starting demon slayer rewatch today AND I DIDNT KNOW THERE WAS A NEW SEASON
#NO SPOILERS PLEASE PLEASE#I haven’t read the manga im a viewer (?) only for now#so I’m terrified but also so excited#also remember nothing from this damn show so I’m practically watching it for the first time again to be fair#anyways… Will be proceeding to be annoying on here#star!watches<3kny
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nah the nightmare fuel pirate clown on the right side of my dash just crouching on a barrel sMiLiNg like he just consumed someone's soul and I'm next needs to disappear expeditiously
#STAFF THIS IS A CALL OUT POST#make the pirate clown go AWAY#I have things to do and he just chills on the side of the post box?#he stays there when you scroll?#first you change everything about the desktop#and now you bring THIS onto it?#I'm terrified of clowns and this makes me want to cry#THERE ISN'T EVEN AN 'X' TO MAKE THE AD GO AWAY#HE JUST STAYYYYYSSSSSSS THERE#straw hat pirates#trigger warning#clowns#the ads are usually annoying#but this?!#criminal
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it really does totally and utterly baffle me that people are so stuck in their own boring lives that any action deemed even vaguely out of the norm is *clearly* a desperate grab for clout and attention from people like them.
#it was annoying at first but now it's borderline hilarious#like. wow. you seriously can't comprehend of any way of living that isn't in the dichotomy of ::#'my way (the normal way' and 'poser'#you people live like this? so terrifyed to break for social norms that you instinctively kick out at people who do ?#what sad small boring lives you all lead. no wonder you're going fucking insane.
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shb is such a trying time for cori for many reasons obviously but especially for shtola reasons
#imagine your best friend passes out in front of you and you find out she’s been soul snatched#and you’re like oh this is extra terrifying for me bc i’m in love with her and only just realized#and then you go where her soul is and it’s been three years for her but only two weeks maybe for you#and you’re so happy to see her again but she has people on standby to kill you bc your soul is messed up and makes you look like the enemy#and one of those ppl on standby is a guy who is obviously in love with her#and she’s a lesbian so you’re not worried she returns the feelings but it is so annoying#bc he gets to be obvious and you have to keep it to yourself in case you ruin everything by saying it out loud#but then she almost dies and you’re like i can’t wait any longer i have to tell her#but first she tells you your soul is getting worse#and then you’re like well now i can’t tell her bc what if i do and then i turn into a sineater and she has to kill me#and so you walk to your potential demise knowing you love her and keeping it from her so that if she has to kill you it might be easier#(nvm that it could never be easy)#and this is all over the course of like a month#and this whole time shtola is like. dermot kennedy voice if she was in love she would have said it by now#working on various shb fics rn and feeling unhinged so. here we are#bye ahdhdjsk#shadowbringers spoilers#oc: corisande ymir
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also.. I've been thinking more about the fact that we'll be living with my in-laws again.
we lived with them before, for about 🤔 four years (I moved in after my dad died). and it was.... how do I put this. not the best time. they're nice, technically, but very distant and cold. so I'm kinda scared of interacting with them and mostly just... didn't.
so I'm probably going to be stuck in our bedroom there for the entire two months. with our two cats. without all my stuff. I love my stuff, I feel lost without it, so that's not great. I'll only be bringing what I absolutely need (and probably my painting supplies - I will go insane if I have nothing to do), so that's going to feel weird.
and I've been thinking about how annoying certain aspects of living there (again) will be. except more annoying now since I won't ever be fully alone. which. hm. I don't like it. (I love our cats and of course it's not the same as having humans around all the time but.. idk I just need my space sometimes 😭)
#and. I mean. certain aspects. of that. will be annoying#can't say because I can't talk about these things but. yeah. not great#annnyway#it's just two months. about 8 weeks. possibly a little less even.#that's doable#and let's be real this current phase (my obsession with a certain fictional guy) will probably be over soon bc that's how it usually#goes and then. well at least that one aspect won't be an issue 😬#that feels so tmi even though I didn't actually say anything wow I really have issues.#anyway I'll probably feel like shit for two months but then it'll be better after that! hopefully. in theory. maybe possibly who knows#I know I'd be terrified right now if I didn't have my anxiety meds. oh it was so bad before/during the first move especially#and last time it was awful because my health wasn't great#I think I feel okay-ish now mostly. so I hope that'll make it a bit easier#oof I really need to sleep#personal
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barely anyone follows me so this will get zero notes but i do not care i am so excited and need to share this somewhere
I GOT MY FIRST COLLEGE ACCEPTANCE LETTER!!!!! FOR THE UK!!!!! SO NO MATTER WHAT THE OTHERS SAY I HAVE A YES!!! AND IM SO EXCITED HOLY SHIT!!!! ITS ALL I WANTED!!!!!!
and i was so fucking scared especially with covid making my gap year long and making everything scarier but i did it and no matter what happens i have a place to go and things are finally moving forward again and holy fuvk i’m going to study illustration overseas like i wanted to before shit went BAD because OOF CLASS OF 2021 NOT A GOOD YEAR especially not a good year in the united states of america where they didnt do jack all to try and prevent it DEAR GOD !!!! bUT OH MY GOD!!!!!!!
usually i’d yell to my family but everyone is asleep oops because it’s almost 6 am my sleep schedule is WRECKED RN so nobody is awake and i did. text anyway cause it was big enough to do it anyways but i was still just yelling into the void so i’m yelling into the void here too
#anyway that’s all now i’ll go back to not making my own posts ever#my post#i’m so fucking happy i opened my email cause ever since i applied in june i developed a subconscious habit of just opening my email and#refreshing it whenever i run out of things to do#so i just occasionally idly refresh my inbox without even thinking#and i did the same like thirty minutes ago not expecting anything cause i wasn’t even thinking#and i was like huh. an email from zoom. that’s annoying and oH MY GOD WHAT IS UNDERNEATH IT#but i know it’s imposter syndrome but i was genuinely so fucking terrified id get five nos and be stuck#because you can’t apply again on the website till the next school year#so if i got five nos i genuinely wouldn’t be able to apply again for the full year#and i already will be 21 when i start which feels fucked even though i know logically that’s okay like calm down aging isn’t bad it’s okay#it’s okay and it’s understandable there was a fucking pandemic ofc the gap year went off#still wild that my sister started college a year before me cause it’s her first year this year and my first will be next year#but yeah#but i know it was the imposter syndrome but i was still so fuckin scared#so getting my first response and it being a yes genuinely brought me to tears#i should have kept writing the post this is all just the same flavor as the post was just in the tags instead
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well. i am rethinking the job offer GKDFJGD,,
#wl26#i cant actually refuse it now bc mom got super excited about it and i already arranged with the prof to meet up to register me and stuff#but this. will be my first time properly teaching people and im so fucking scared dkfjgndf#its literally my major but its the most terrifying thing in the world#i dont feel qualified at all i dont know anything kdjfgnd#ill have to write lesson plans do you have any idea how annoying that is. i hate lesson plans#guy who is so scared and really bad for the job#she said she remembers me as a creative and hardworking student but that was 5 years ago shes gonna be so disappointed in me kjgdfgd#bwagh
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i should do the fake it til you made it method more like
#ive been reading my old messages to a friend and like#i get why they told me i was annoying now damn i spammed so many messages im charles boyle holy shit#but also like#i didnt backtrack as much and went off whenever about whatever i liked and that looks freeing as hell#i thought ive been the silent and then 99+ messages person recently but no its been since i hd my first phone#but now even when im silent and back its because ive got a reminder somewhere whilst before it was just oh i want to hangout so ill be 100%#the whole time were together and then ill crawl back into my hole until next spring#now i muster up 40-60% and sprint to hangout but like after half of the time im tired and already mentally checked out#get that confidence back you!! -> to hoodie#screw being scared and terrified all the time no youre gonna be sure to explode#personal#ranbles#hoodie’s rambles#vent#?
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Day 3 of worrying myself sick with paranoia 🙃
#ywah so cool first I was terrified that people secretly hated me#and were making fun of me behind myback because of how into self shipping I am currently#and now I'm parnoid because I reblogged slmething from someone and they started vaguing about someone being annoying#and I instantly thiught Oh they're talking anout me#so now i'm paranoid that people think I'm annoying 👍#GOD can I go one day without this shit#can I go just one day with no paranoia at all????#it's been like 3 days in a row now#my stomach issues are all flaring up because of it#I've been sick for 3 days in a row because of my paranoia#I don't have any friends to talk to about it and J don't have a therapist anymore#so no one can help me. i'm just left to suffer like thid all alone
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