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realcowboysdrinkjuice · 1 year ago

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barely anyone follows me so this will get zero notes but i do not care i am so excited and need to share this somewhere

I GOT MY FIRST COLLEGE ACCEPTANCE LETTER!!!!! FOR THE UK!!!!! SO NO MATTER WHAT THE OTHERS SAY I HAVE A YES!!! AND IM SO EXCITED HOLY SHIT!!!! ITS ALL I WANTED!!!!!!

and i was so fucking scared especially with covid making my gap year long and making everything scarier but i did it and no matter what happens i have a place to go and things are finally moving forward again and holy fuvk i’m going to study illustration overseas like i wanted to before shit went BAD because OOF CLASS OF 2021 NOT A GOOD YEAR especially not a good year in the united states of america where they didnt do jack all to try and prevent it DEAR GOD !!!! bUT OH MY GOD!!!!!!!

usually i’d yell to my family but everyone is asleep oops because it’s almost 6 am my sleep schedule is WRECKED RN so nobody is awake and i did. text anyway cause it was big enough to do it anyways but i was still just yelling into the void so i’m yelling into the void here too

#anyway that’s all now i’ll go back to not making my own posts ever #my post #i’m so fucking happy i opened my email cause ever since i applied in june i developed a subconscious habit of just opening my email and #refreshing it whenever i run out of things to do #so i just occasionally idly refresh my inbox without even thinking #and i did the same like thirty minutes ago not expecting anything cause i wasn’t even thinking #and i was like huh. an email from zoom. that’s annoying and oH MY GOD WHAT IS UNDERNEATH IT #but i know it’s imposter syndrome but i was genuinely so fucking terrified id get five nos and be stuck #because you can’t apply again on the website till the next school year #so if i got five nos i genuinely wouldn’t be able to apply again for the full year #and i already will be 21 when i start which feels fucked even though i know logically that’s okay like calm down aging isn’t bad it’s okay #it’s okay and it’s understandable there was a fucking pandemic ofc the gap year went off #still wild that my sister started college a year before me cause it’s her first year this year and my first will be next year #but yeah #but i know it was the imposter syndrome but i was still so fuckin scared #so getting my first response and it being a yes genuinely brought me to tears #i should have kept writing the post this is all just the same flavor as the post was just in the tags instead

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