#assassiffrin au

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i don't think siffrin in the assassiffrin au would be as open & excited about their favorite food, especially this close to their first time facing the king since they changed sides

but like. do yall ever think about how siffrin makes a face every time someone goes to touch him, even when he's trying not to, even when he actively wants to be touched, that makes isabeau go "right! touch aversion! i'll back off! sorry!!"

do you ever think about the physical evidence siffrin has that they were, at some point, loved - but without any memory of it, and without any context that would give meaning to it? do you ever wonder if bonnie is the first person they can remember hugging them, or making their favorite food? or to even know that it's a food they like, let alone their favorite?

do you think the malanga fritters would hit different, in a world where he was more aware what he'd lost? in a world where he'd been trying and failing for months to not get attached to his party? if he tasted those fritters and thought, "i don't remember being loved, but i remember what being loved feels like, and it feels like this!"

"these are the first people i can remember who have really, truly cared about me..."

"...and they're going to hate me in a few minutes"

[quantumfeat72]

so... au where odile was right about siffrin being an assassin hired by the king to kill mirabelle? is this anything? too late i'm doing it

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assassiffrin au beginning talks!

the other major early-game difference here is that, in the week or two before the loops, siffrin's guilt and dread have been building to the point where everyone kinda knows they're not okay

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assassiffrin's loop! the relationship between these two is a tad more volatile than in canon, at least in the beginning

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(assassinfrin au exposition monologue!)

[quantumfeat72]

ok, on the subject of "what if siffrin really was an assassin." i feel like this siffrin wouldn't make the same wish as canon siffrin, for a few reasons:

while in canon, "i love my friends" is an easy-to-acknowledge fact about themself and "i sometimes wish time would just stop and we could live like this forever" is a selfish, shameful thing they try not to think about, in this au it's very much the other way around. (isn't it selfish, to think of someone you initially intended to kill, and the people who risked everything to support her, as your friends?)

also unlike canon siffrin, he doesn't even consider at this point that continuing to travel with his friends is a possibility (after all, they're going to find out tomorrow why he first approached the group. he'll be lucky if they're still speaking to him after that)

they don't have canon siffrin's thought that there's no need to add another "save vaugarde" wish to the pile, because a. this siffrin is already aware that wish craft is a thing, so it stands to reason that another wish could strengthen it, b. they know roughly how powerful the king is and that any edge they can get might make a difference, and c. the way they see it at this point, freezing vaugarde would save it

which is also why he doesn't wish for victory, or to stop the king. he's willing to acknowledge that part of him doesn't want that. he's convinced that the king is correct - the universe led him on this path, so it must be what the universe wants. so instead of going for a small, reasonable wish, he asks the universe to change course and listen to the vaugardians' wishes

but, i hear you ask, isn't this wish actually fulfilled by the king dying? where are the horrors?? and to that i say no, it comes back to the fact that siffrin is specifically thinking of what their friends want - for mirabelle and the others to get the futures they've been fighting for - under the assumption that it doesn't overlap much with what siffrin wants

and it's a bit more complicated, here, but his friends still want to keep him in their lives