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[botanikos]

Stolas knew what he wanted from / with Blitzø, not solely because he was horny and deprived. . . .

After the blunder in which many valuables were stolen from the Goetia mansion, most of the staff were replaced save for a select 2-3 imps who received the "grandfather" privilege for various reasons, but namely, due to the length of servitude already provided.

That being said, visitors were far and few succeeding the events, especially where imps were concerned. Thus continued Stolas' near isolation. While he was thrust into social gatherings with other Goetia and demons of nobility as he grew, Stolas felt very few genuine connections. All of his interactions, in fact, paled in comparison to the time spent with Blitz. In hindsight, the prince understands he was tricked and Blitz might not have been a real friend to him provided the means in which they were brought together. . . . but he still regards their time spent with one another fondly. He had fun. They played games, laughed, Stolas read to him, Blitz listened to the best of his ability until he'd grow bored or impatient, or frustrated not understanding the big words Stolas would use. They teased one another, shared snacks, sat beneath a tree and shared their dreams and aspirations. Stolas CONNECTED with Blitz in that short amount of time. Regardless of how it panned out, what it was built on, that singular day spent with Blitzø is a CORE memory.

Older, engaged, but not yet married. . . . Stolas desperately sought to meet Blitzø again under whatever circumstances possible. He could not, of course, ask for help with this. It didn't happen right away, and there were many, many failed attempts. But eventually, somewhere along the way, Stolas managed to score a few close encounters. They didn't actually get to spend any time together, but it felt all the same for Stolas to simply be in the same vicinity.

Stolas would go on to see several more of Blitz's performances in his family's circus, albeit, never seated in the front row like their first meeting. Instead, the prince always opted for the furthest seat away to make his presence less noticeable. On most occasions, Stolas would leave promptly after Blitz's performance was finished.

There were a few close-calls where he almost sought Blitzø after the shows, but ultimately, he could not bring himself to approach him. Not because of sour feelings, but due to his own nervousness and the understanding that his time had been bought. So the prince worked under the assumption of Blitz remembering him or even wanting to see him, would be next to none. Throughout all of this, Stolas developed a crush on Blitz.

Eventually, however, his studies and responsibilities overtook both time and freedom, and Stolas could no longer chase the circus to its locations, or pursue the distant friendship he once knew.

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Stolas never forgot Blitzø, and the romantically inclined feelings for him never faded. Only, now, as an adult, they were more sexually inclined. With Blitz having had the Grimoire for some time, and Stolas needing it back to perform certain responsibilities, he offered an arrangement that seemed beneficial to them both at the time. A passionate night spent with his first friend and the very person he's had a crush on for years, once a month (sometimes two), in exchange for letting Blitz continue to use the book to obtain hits for his job. Which, mind you, likely made Stolas' desire for him skyrocket. Though it isn't a circus like Blitz mentioned as a kid, it's still HIS company making that dream a reality. Something Stolas can admire and envy, and crave to be a part of.

His feelings for Blitz were never NEW. But with age, and time, and the moments shared - quick or otherwise - they grew into something deeper. Eventually, Stolas understood his feelings to be rooted in something more than lust or a simple craving, but failed to properly communicate them. When he presents Blitz with the Asmodean Crystal, he sees it as an offering with two meanings [ this is the simplest way I can put it ]:

a) I want you to be with me, but without any pretenses, without feelings trapped or coerced. I do not wish for you ONLY be with me for the Grimoire! Here is the surety of such for the both of us! Will you accept and do you want to be with me?

b) I have done wrong, and even if you do not want me, I want you to have this. This is what you actually need and want. Please accept this gift as an apology for my poor decisions and behaviors.