#around her for any ammount of time all i think about is how much i wanna kivk her teeth in. she sucksssssss

[ostendird-oddie]

Hoffrig: the guide to an underutilized ship

Hoffrig has a wierd placement in the fandom. Despite the pair getting pretty much a whole movie dedicated to their relationship, the ship stays relatively obscure, so it is my task today to bring it to light:

*History and Prelude*

These two have known eachother for some time now, most likely since the beginning. Mark is shown to care about Daniel, moreso than most people. He is worried about Rigg getting hurt. Even if his concern is a little backhanded, he sticks up for Rigg more than once and even attempts to comfort him somewhat (poorly of course, it's still Hoffman we're talking about)

*Compatibility*

Rigg is a much better person than Hoffman, no doubt, but Rigg was chosen for his game for a reason. He has a strong saviour complex (which they share with Mark, tho Mark's saviour complex takes on a much more horrifying form). Rigg is not afraid of getting his hands dirty when he believes the other person was let off too lightly (wife beater, Ivan, when Eric is beating up John etc). Mark sees that in him and believes that they are alike, so he tries to radicalise Rigg the only way he knows how to

*The wife shaped elephant in the room (and Eric Matthews)*

Daniel wouldn't cheat on Tracy. That's out of the question. He loves his wife, tho she suffers from saw typical hysterical unreasonable lady disease, where she has a valid point but delivers it in the worst way possible. Rigg takes his job very seriously. He truly believes himself to be a good cop. A man that helps people. Therefore he's moreso married to his job, then his actual wife. And being a SWAT guy... He probably doesn't have much time to have relationships outside of his job, so when he looses all his friends one by one his job wins the tug-of-war and tracy can't stand this anymore. I think user fate-motif put it best "i tend not to rock with rigg cheating on his wife but i think something people rarely discuss is that he's totally neglecting her emotionally already and even though he loves her the man is dropping the ball on his relationship and hoffman is the perfect embodiment of that neglect (he is both the missing cop he has to rescue and he is jigsaw)"

Rigg cares about Eric Matthews more than about Hoffman and arguably more than even about his wife. They are best friends so Hoffman kept him around as a sort of leverage over Dan. If he's not coming to save Hoffman, he's coming to save Matthews. And even before that Hoffman took up on the mission of filling the eric shaped hole in Daniels life to... Well. Mediocre success. Matthews for all his brooding and bad deeds is not an antisocial wierdo. He actually has friends and relationships outside of Rigg. There's a lot to explore in that dynamic but I won't be dipping into headcanons in this post (at least I'll try)

*Trial*

In order to become a jigsaw apprentice one must be tested. Amanda had the bear trap and arguably the uh... well we've all seen Saw 2 (the ammounts of anguish this poor gal had to go through) and Lawrence with his foot. Both were left in shambles and John put them back together haphazardly. But not Mark. Mark's trial was very milktoast. John basically let him go with a slap on the wrist. So he decided he could be more lenient towards Rigg. At least in terms of physical torment. There were no people who could put Rigg in any significant danger as a buff experienced SWAT guy. An argument could be made for the first woman but she was already bleeding out and in too much pain to think straight to think straight. Providing her with a knife was just to futher emphasize the point that she deserved what happened to her. Ivan is an obese bumbling coward. He didn't even try to fight back. I wont even explain the last pair because duh. Also a thing to note is that all of these games had something to do with sex or relationships in them. Very smooth Hoffman 😒

Ultimately Rigg not listening to Hoffman's earlier advise is what lead to his demise. And Mark put the gun in the hands of Matthews to absolve himself of the blame for Rigg's pain. Rigg wasn't indoctrinated and obedient at the end, so Mark left him to die. To be the fall guy. That leads me into my next bullet point-

*Peter Straham*

Ok im not a coffinshipper. At least not as of now and not a true one. I see hoffstraham as a logical continuation of hoffrig. Hoffman pulls almost the same tactics on Peter but instead of "reassurance" he uses intimidation and brute force. Straham is the manifestation of "Keep your friends close but your enemies closer. Mark settles for him as plan B because everyone he cared about are dead now. I don't believe mark tried to pull Straham into his murder cult out of any sense of affection or admiration for the guy. It all comes down to control again, something he is constantly fighting for. He doesn't like Straham but if he can't kill the bastard he'll find another way to shut him up.

I believe the glass coffin was originally intended for Rigg, in case he survived his trial, but Hoffman reused it for Peter in a last ditch effort to flex on the guy.

So uh ... I don't know how to end this post other than PLEASE ASK ME ABOUT THEM OMG I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS THAT I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO FIT IN HERE 😭

[class-1b-bull]

Got any hcs of these goofy goobers embarrassing themselves in front of their class?

Not proofread we die like men

Awase - ive mentioned before that awase triped and fell down a staircase in front of komori but what i didnt mention is he has actually done this multiple times in front of different classmates (all on accident)

Sen - i think if he did do something embarrassing in public hed be the type to act like he ment to do it. And everyone just plays along. (Him falling face first into a thorn bush was strategic)

Kamakiri - when he was walking out of class too fast his school jacket got caught on something. He struggled to get it off without ripping the jacket for a few minutes before he just took off his jacket and left without it

Kuroiro - he keeps to himself because every time he opens his mouth there is a good chance he will say something embarrassing as hell. He has no filter when it comes to things like that lmao

Kendo - she once went to school with a really bad cold and ended up sleeping through most of her classes. It wouldn't have been that bad if she didn't scold rin for comming to class when he was sick the day before...

Kodai - if she did something embarrassing it would probably be small and simple like stumbling over her own feet or almost knocking something over or something like that.

Komori - she tried to show some of the girls an outfit she was working on but when they walked into her dorm room to see it on the mannequin, it fell apart completely because it wasn't secure enough. It was embarrassing because of how highly she spoke of her faulty dress

Shiozaki - there is no way she hasent gotten her hair tangled with something. Ya know when youre headphone wire gets caught on a door handle and it sends you flying backwards? She has done that with her hair more times than I can count.

Shishida - one time in chemistry class he mixed the wrong chemicals and made a massive explosion that made everyone in the school have to evacuate. (Only his lab partner knew it was him that did it and he wants things to stay that way.)

Shoda - every time he opens his mouth when talking to someone new he embarrasses himself. He will trip over his own words, say things he didnt mean to say and overall just word things terribly when meeting someone for the first time. (Its kinda sad to watch honestly)

Pony - as much as I love her she isn't the brightest, but she is confident. She has confidently shouted a completely wrong answer in class multiple times. It wouldent be that bad if she was only a little off but she has genuinely said that 27 was an answer to a history question.

Tsubaraba - he does so many embarrassing things in front of his class everyday so its impossible to list them all. Of of the classes personal favorites though is when he bit into a cattail (the water weed) and learned the seeds expand rapidly when touched the hard way.

Tetsutetsu - it was embarrassing for him to trip and fall flat on his face while running to class but it was even more embarrassing for him to start doing push ups to 'play it off' while his nose was bleeding.

Tokage - shes overall a pretty confident person, especially when she speaks. She was even confident when she horribly mispronounced a common word when talking with her classmates.

Manga - ya know that meme of the burger king employee doing the fnaf dance but getting cut off because someone walked it? Its essentially that. He was doing something stupid and embarrassing cuz he thought he was alone but when he turned around he saw some of his classmates just staring at him

Honenuki - he wasent embarrassed about falling asleep in class but he was embarrassed about the insane ammounts of drool that got all over his desk and himself

Bondo - i like to imagine he has an embarrassing laugh/ scream or something like that. Like his scream is hella high pitched compared to his deeper voice or when he laughs he snorts a lot or smthn like that. (Another reason hes so reserved is to avoid laughing/ screaming)

Monoma - he is a walking talking embarrassment for everyone around him yet he himself can not get embarrassed. No matter what he does I dont think he can get embarrassed (its kinda impressive honestly) however when he does something embarrassing (like the multiple times he teases class A) its always the rest of the class that suffers.

Reiko - ive mentioned that she uses her quirk to scare her classmates every now and then but she had to stop when she accidentally sent an object flying straight into vlad kings face. She was pretty embarrassed (especially since manga and Monoma couldn't stop snickering)

Rin - during the colder months he has to bring multiple jackets to class. When he doesn't he has to rely on his classmates waking him up from his hibernation every 5 minutes (which monoma and the others obviously tease him about, making the embarrassment a little worse)

Gif anime - neon genesis evangelion

[eatmyassssssssz]

THE 141 BOYS AND WHAT GETS THEM GOING!

— the cod 141 men ; what gets them 'motivated'

— warnings : a list of kinky things, smut, nsfw.

— characters : simon riley / ghost , john mactavish / soap , alejando vargas , könig .

— a / n : i hope this is good, was sorta rushed, made this sort of for @lillianastuff , so enjoy bestie !

— simon 'ghost' riley .

i see him as a serious person during sex and a relatively hardcore person at that. these will be the most hard-core out of the boys!

how you get him rowdy

hes easy to wind up, i feel. after years of not being around any woman that could actually have sex with him without him and her both getting discharged, hes had a long time of just jerking off silently in a dark room with the door locked, bored and not fully into it, as he pumped lazily into his hand, craving any sort of release and needing, no, requiring some sort of sexual happiness.

so, when he meets you on leave, hes uncontrollable after you both become comfortable enough with eachother. one wrong move with him, one wrong nudge, one wrong little brush against him and it can send him animalistic. hes like a horny teenager, but instead hes a 32 year old man with the same ammount of sexual desire to just shove it somewhere or in something as a teen boy going through puberty.

so, no, hes not a hard one to get obsessed over your body and hes, at least for the first while of your relationship, practically addicted to having sex with you.

what is a main kink?

again, si will go for about any hole he can go for and anything that will get him off, so really anything. but once the animalistic effect of getting stimuli from anywhere other than his own hand again has worn off, he begins to get his preferences back.

i personally believe this man is an ass man, so, as much as he loves all and every opening he can manage himself to go in, he loves going up ya backdoor.

hes a rough houser, so, expect to have to hide hickies and have hand shaped slap marks on your body, especially your ass.

if hes being a little softer, he'll constantly be running his hands up your sides and tracing any curves he can find and just admiring you.

however, with the whole 'hand tracing your sides' thing, if he isnt going soft on you, get ready to have bruises from where hes gripped your hips / sides ect. while thrusting in you.

— johnny ' soap ' mactavish .

i see johnny as a little more vanilla than everyone else, he's had his go with quite a few people, yes, but he hasnt quite been able to discover what he's most interested in.

how you get him rowdy

hes a sucker for cumplay. in my mind, seeing you with his cum on your face, body or self makes him an animal. hes a massive fan of colouring you in white, to put it lightly.

so, you can get him to cum on your body all day long, no matter how overdone he gets.

what is a main kink?

johnny, i think loves cum play, as mentioned already, but he also obsesses over making you overestimated. he will push you to your limits, with your consent - of course.

he loves teasing and poking and proding and just making sure you know that youre not stopping any time soon. he will push every button, go right up to the limit line, and then, right where youre about to go over the edge, stop. just to tease you and make you beg for more and beg for him.

— alejandro vargas .

i personally believe that alejandro is a pretty vanilla guy with a few quirks and things he does. he likes pet names and speaking to you in spanish then explaining his words to you when you shoot him a confused look.

how to get him rowdy

he's a hard ass shell but in reality, hes quite soft on you. he loves speaking spanish with you and listening to your slurred words. he's a sweetheart inside with just a more protected outershell. he doesnt believe you could ever learn spanish, even with a coach as amazing as himself. to prove to this helpless romantic that, infact, you could learn spanish, you end up taking lessons.

next time he's going down on you, you have him a little surprise. you begin to whisper sweet nothings in his ear and he looks up at you and begins questioning where you learnt those words. You whisper "No te preocupes por eso, Al, solo fóllame fuerte, cariño." in his ear, which, loosely translates too 'Don't worry about it, Al, just fuck me hard, sweetheart.'

Speak to this man in his own language, trust me.

what is a main kink?

he loves seeing you in the morning, all achey, after a night with him. he loves waking up next to you all whiney in the morning and mumbly. he'll draw you a bath and then give you an 'apology' with his fingers.

i, personally, fully think that this man gets off to fingering you and making you feel good. he loves it. he loves how your hips splutter and your head spins and how you whine and how you beg for more because "come on, al, please, this isnt enough- good god..more, damnit...this isnt teasing, i thought this was an apology!"

— konig .

hes a thigh man. this man LOVES your thighs. seriously. hes. obsessed.

how to get him rowdy

thighs. one word. thighs. if its concerning your thighs, one wrong move, one wrong shuffle, one wrong brush against him, infact, just wearing the right pair of shorts can make his head wrong and clouded.

especially if you're wearing his shorts. They're massive on you, but you wear them to just lounge about in, so its not a problem. The first time he saw you in them, he nearly came in his boxers.

His fixation on your thighs is as massive as he is, in both height ways and...other ways. (this man is packing an absolute HORSE)

what is a main kink?

we know he likes your thighs, but he loves satisfying you as well. he loves you sitting on his face, him hearing your breath hitch and your voice going up several pitches and his tongue hits your soft spots.

he will most probably end up humping against his hand as he does this because one simple reason. "goddd...i have to, its not my fault my girlfriends so beautiful and is sitting on me..okay, the sitting on me thing is my fault, but not my fault youre perfect.". to his reason, you respond by rolling your eyes and just putting yourself on him more to, quote yourself, shut him up and make sure he doesnt end up just rambling himself into a coma.

[c0rinarii]

Gonna recompile some thoughts about the 13SAR characters now that im past midpoint!

Juro: Oh its getting juicy.... unfortunately my boy is still as intresting as a plank of sheet wood but im intrested to see if his character goes anywhere outside of the Kyuta stuff going on. Im also sorry i ever suggested to u to make out with Kyuta.

Iori: SHE'S SO FUNNY.... I aspire to have even an inch of her whimsy and dedication to being so #normal. I too would like to confess to my weird as hell crush disregarding the fact he's a dangerous fugitive. Girl of All Time

Shuu: Frat bot facade is slowly starting to crumble and im here to see it. Uncover the truth, gayboy‼️

Megumi: I FEEL SO SORRY FOR U GIRL.... 😭 May you find peace in the future but its an overall shitty situation to be in. truly have her in my thoughts and prayers

Natsuno: I WAS SO HEARTBROKEN TO SEE HER WHIMSY FADE AWAY ONCE SHE FOUND OUT ABOUT THE TRUE NATURE OF THE KAIJU 😭😭 I love that she managed to maintain her optimism despite the awful situation she's been put in though. Still a joy to see pop up on the screen

Keitaro: HE REALLY IS A GOOD BOY... He's just trying his best and i love him for that. You'll save everyone you care about i promise [IMPERIALISM IS LYING TO U AND TAKATOSHI!! I SWEAR]

Takatoshi: Boys be fighting demons and demons is bisexuality. I enjoy him a Regular amount and i appreciate seeing his himboisms so much in the game. I never want to seem him That sad again [IMPERIALISM IS LYING TO U AND KEITARO!! I SWEAR]

Okino:

Yuki: MY PRINCE.... MY SHINING STUD‼️‼️ I love her a very normal ammount and seeing her slowly uncover the truth is nice to see. Definetily much smarter than she think she is.

Gouto: The fact that he is ong for real Ryoko's government assigned boyfriend is the funniest thing to come out of the game so far. He's still gated behind a huge completion milestone but so far i feel like he's trying to make sense of the situation the best he can. Unlike Tomi though, he's very scared of the circumstances of if he disobeys orders, i think.

Ryoko: She's been such a mood so far that i now think of her with her hands on her head when i stress about my uni deadlines. Im so sorry for Ida being anywhere near her life. She should get a wife to kiss and heal her. I give her full permission to kill anyone who breaks her heart. My snarky queen

Ei: HE ACTUALLY GREW ON ME I CANT BELIEVE IT. He really reminds me if the cool rivals with a soft spot you'd see in shonen anime and I cant be too mad at that. I enjoy how taciturn he can be too.

Nenji: HE'S ACTUALLY SUCH A SWEETHEART... knowing that he was childhood friends with Miwako really made me like him more (esp with how he treats her!) Loveable idiot.

Tomi: MY MUTUAL... OOMF IN ARMS... #GIRL IN LAW. Literally love how's she's written her personality is so so colorful. She has definitely said some out of pocket shit on twitter before and ill defend her with my life.

Miwako: I WILL WRITE YOU INTO RELEVANCY MYSELF‼️‼️There is so much oppurtunity to write her as one of the 15. LET THEM BE 16‼️‼️ HER "easy to develop crushes" SELF CAN BE MADE INTO SOMETHING MUCH BIGGER TO THE NARRATIVE RAUGHHH

Chihiro: I can see she's really trying her best to save everyone from the kaiju and seems to resort to any means neccesary to do so... i appreciate the effort despite the uh. [gestures] unethical treatment towards minors ig

Ida: EVERYTHING IS LITERALLY UR FAULT. I CANT BELIEVE IT. This would be half the disaster if you learnt how to sod it with ur selfish desires i swear.

Kyuta, Not-Tamao, 426, Izumi: I CLOCKED UR SHIT, SNEAKY BITCH. I dont trust a word you say. """"Means well"""" in the end i think but has way more messed up ways to go around it compared to Morimura

Miyuki: So far looking like the only person willing to help these kids in a way that would not give them severe trauma. Rooting for u girl.

[No thoughts on Tamao since i consider Erika as 426]

[julie-su]

VOTE HERE!

Zara-Ra, who is entered into the @sonic-oc-showdown ! I saw the rest of the bumblefolks filling out this OC Q&A that dear @bunnymajo had brought to our attention - and I had to have a go ~

"Zara-Ra has Guardian blood flowing in their veins. Due to her granddfather Knuckles being subjected to a great dose of Chaos Energy in his egg many years prior, Zara-Ra has heightened chaos powers, worked through their lineage. With training from their mother, Lara-Su, they were able to get a small ammount of it under her control. Their name, which they chose for themself, is inspired by her ancestor, Sonji-Ra, who had transitioned in the same sense that Zara-Ra had."

Zara-Ra's Page on Toyhou.se

Q&A under the cut -

✨- How did you come up with the OC’s name? … Don’t laugh — I was lounging on the setee at my parents’ place, rolling names around in my head. My eldest sister was catching up on our favourite Soap Opera, BBC Doctors (.. No, not Doctor Who.) and lo and behold.. The character Zara Carmichael is the focus of this episode, I believe it’s about a resort, but I don’t much remember. Zara.. Zara-Ra. It just sort of, stuck. … I cannot stand Zara Carmichael.

🌼 - How old are they? (Or approximate age range) Zara-Ra is the same age as me - 23! And soon, he might be 24.

🌺- Do they have any love interest(s)? My partner’s character, Tara-Ka, was made at the same time for us to roleplay together - of course they are madly, deeply in love! -Cheesy- They live together in a small apartment in Echidnaopolis. They are deeply, madly in love!

🍕 - What is their favorite food? … Mobini Ants. Though, he’ll substitute for raisins. And grapes! Archimedes is alarmed; he’s told it’s only mobini ants, but he remembers the first time he met Zara’s grandfather.

💼 - What do they do for a living? Nothing; money doesn’t exist! Hey— HEY! WHAT’S ESPIO DOING WITH THOSE QUARTERS?! AIIIEEE!! … Zara-Ra is the current backup Guardian, though, it’s .. Unclear if he’s doing a good job. -thinks about Dark Mobius, sweats- I’m sure it’ll be FIIIIINE. Other than that, she keeps The Chaotix alive with Tara-Ka; Tara-Ka’s life-long obsession has always been the tales of the Chaotix. It was pure coincidence that their life partner would happen to be within such close proximity!

🎹 - Do they have any hobbies? Ant farmer… NO. I’M KIDDING! Zara-Ra has an extensive secret model city under the floorboards of her and Ed’s childhood bedroom, named ‘OuiOui Land’ - full of thousands of delicate models. He may not live there anymore, but he’s always in the area… They wonder what he’s doing all of the time. It’s OuiOui Land.

🎯 -What do they do best? He’s … Kind of a Rich Failson, without the ‘Rich’ part. A nepotism baby. Not for lack of trying - he was supposed to become the one to become a guardian, only to get cold feet. Ed tried to lead by example to encourage him, only to be lifted up as a ‘better choice’. The thing Zara-Ra does best, is… Be himself. He’s not disappointed in the missed oppertunities, and he’s happy that he is exactly where he needs to be.

He CAN do it all as Enerjak, where he's unimpeded by his thoughts and feelings - but he also… Well, loses everything that makes him… Him! He becomes this soulless machine line of output; all it really does is burn through his power and energy. And suddenly, everybody close to him realises that 'sometimes' being able to reach his full potential, is better than her reaching full potential all of the time - in the short bursts, he covers more ground than most others could do in the same time he spent sat around doing nothing. It's kind of frustrating for him sometimes when it comes in bursts like that, because it can be really close to the line… But after coming down from power like that, he realises that he just works differently to others.. And that's okay!

🥊 -What do they love to do? What do they hate to do? Zara-Ra’s absolute favourite thing in this world is any important outing that is done either alongside his brother, Ed, or alongside his partner, Tara-Ka. Ed will often take him out on excursions to do with protecting the island, whilst Tara-Ka will bring him along for any odd job that they can find under The Chaotix. As long as he’s got a purpose and a clear instruction, he’s having the time of his life.He hates any job that he has to do on his lonesome. He is not a leader-type, and cannot take charge. He over-stresses over every minute detail, ending up in an internal stalemate for even the simplest of tasks.

❤️ - What is one of your OC’s best memories? Meeting Tara-Ka. They met on the outskirts of New Albion; Zara-Ra was out scouring for leads; they had heard it from the grapevine that the Dark Presence was still in operation on the outskirts of the city, deep into the desert. Here, he ran into one lonesome Tara-Ka - an echidna with such cybernetic enhancements that had not been seen for decades. Sure, cosmetic and medical cybernetics had been adopted by the masses - but these were cybernetics built for violence.… Tara-Ka was a runaway from a branch of the Dark Presence deep in the desert, and -all- they wanted to know was… “Can you take me to The Chaotix? They’re all I’ve ever dreamed of meeting”.How could you not oblige?! They’re the buggers who had sent him out here in the first place!

✂️ - What is one of your OC’s worst memories? Becoming posessed by Enerjak… It was incredibly traumatic; though, he did not get violent; he had his mothers’ knack for resisting the dark whispers. He did, however, forfeit all emotions; the unlocking of ultimate power had driven it all out. What hurts the most, is that many people felt that this beast of apathy and pure drone work ethic is much prefferable to his usual state.

🧊 - Is their current design the first one? Nohoho. Zara-Ra’s first design is waaay different! For starters, he wasn’t even originally a guardian! Yes, he wasn’t created as Lara-Su and Argyle’s child.. That came later! I was on a long coach trip with a lot of paper, and no plug for my laptop.. Go figure.

🍀 - What originally inspired the OC? Archie Sonic.. I wanted an Archie echidna! I played around for a while, making an avatar in this game, hot pink… And I sort of, fell in love. His first iteration was of a zonehopper, to fit in with the game; but as he outgrew it, I worked him more and more into the Archie Sonic comics lore.

🌂 - What genre do they belong in? Probably.. Dark Comedy. Yup. That happens to be the tone of just about every single piece of prose that contains Zara-Ra!

💚 - What is your OC’s gender identity and sexuality? There are not enough words in any spoken or written language, alive or dead, to even begin to explain Zara-Ra’s connection to gender and sexuality. For whom it concerns… Zara-Ra was born ‘Jamie-Su’. He’s on testosterone, and has had top surgery; he has little tufts of sticky-uppy fur on either side of his chest. The planning to keep his guardian crest intact was a -nightmare-. This has -nothing- to do with gender identity, really; it’s moreso a medical history. But it felt as if it were fitting to put ^^

🙌 - How many sibling does your OC have? Just the one - Edmund II! Yes, -that- Edmund II. .. Why are you looking at me like that?! You know Ed! You don’t?! He’s that old codger from the Archie Sonic arc, Silver Saga - issues #25 to #28; son of Lara-Su and Argyle (well - if you read between the lines!)

🍎 - What is the OC’s relationship w/their parents like? Zara-Ra has an incredible relationship with her parents. The only point of contemption is Zara’s ant addiction. “It’s normal, we’re echidnas!” — “THAT IS NOT NORMAL!”

🧠 - What do you like most about the OC? Swag :3… I love the way he dresses, the way I style his hair -he’s based on me, down to the same glasses, to the little stupid puffer body jackets I wear. Bangles… I love making him wear outfits I do. Big baggy tripp/parachute pants… My self-insert, Puggle, also scratches this itch. I did, at one point, have my hair hot pink with black raccoon-tail stripes down the side, just like Zara :P

✏️ - How often do you draw/write about the OC? It’s got to be daily, at this point. If I’m not drawing, I’m roleplaying, or crafting the narrative! If you told me that I have one drawing for every day of the year, I would laugh, and wonder why it wasn’t two for every day XD

💎 - Do you ever see yourself killing off the OC? …. I hope not! O_O it would get awful boring around here!In all seriousness.. There is the fact that dear old Ed seems to be quite on his own, as the sole echidna.. Eeeee. Not lookin’ good for ole’ Zra.

💀 - Does your OC have any phobias? He’s terrified of forgetting things; he wakes up in a sweat in the middle of the night, after an in-depth dream where he had forgotten that his own brother had passed away, asking where he is. He sits up, now awake, and calls his brother; sighing in relief. It was all a dream… He wonders if he ever would forget something like that. It gnaws at his mind.

🍩 -Who is your OC’s arch-nemesis or rival? Antoine. He knows what he did. Old Bastard.

🎓 - How long have you had the OC? … I’ve lost track!

[toffy-up]

I have enaugh. I cant anymore.

Look i write my dreams down and slowly. Slowly i get to my limit with the newest. I will pos a few here now. Maybe then i can stop thinking about them.

1.I was in my old house in the basement. I watched Tv in the hobbyroom. We never spend much time there tho, except for me i was there a whole summer. I dont know why anyomre. Anyways, I watched Tv and informt myself about a horror cosplayer. Suddenly there were a demon face, a woman crawling without a head, in the TV, and other completly terrifying stuff. I ran upstairs but before i did, i wanted some proof and started to film from between the stairs, like there were gaps, but i think it already stopped from happen. Then i got up and didnt found anyone. So i ran to the next floor were my grandma was sitting with her back to me watching TV with my uncle. My uncle asked me "How does living with your grandma is going. I was confused, i dont life with my grandma, anymore at least. Also i was so scarred still but i knew they wouldnt belive me, so i just stand the and answerd what i thought he wanna hear. I said "Yeah its fine right Grandma?". She didnt turned around to me, but she said something i cant remember. I got back down and found my boyfriend sleepin on the couch. Completly coverd in a blanket. So i woke him still pretty scarred and nervous. We went into my REALLY little room and i told him what i saw. I whisperd "i saw it! That demon. And hes strong." I think he belived me, because we wanted to get out of this house. There were a bibel and a cross on the window still. My boyfriend got out of the room and i heard my mum say to him "Hey Tom, you can get out of the hospital when you smoke. So you can smoke nothing will happen" Because my Aunt said that to her, my mum was on the phone with her. I opend a drawer and saw to alexas. (Oh a detail i remeberd was that when i ran from the basment, there wasnt a door its an open stair case. I looked at the corner where my dad had always his computers and i thought "mh thats weird why arent they there?".) And uhm maybe some information that helps is that, my mum and dad divorced when i was pretty young, but my dad stayed in the house not my mum

2. I was in a playgriund as an adult. Its a place i knew from my childhood, its a big hall with massive ammount of playthings, trampolins, slides, jungle gyms. Stuff like that. Its was for kids between the age of 6 to 12 i would say. There also was a kids corner, were i always was to old for, in the dream too. But they could draw there play wirh more little things. In the dream i went inside with my boyfriend, there werent any minni humans anymore. We looked around the little kids drawing untill i noticed. Wait, thats my drawings, my darker ones to be specific. They looked like a kid had redraw them. I was confused i said to Tom. "Honey? There are my drawings" He didnt really belived me, even tho he should know my pictures. Then a woman came in, one of the caretakers. She was confused why we are there and i imeadiatly asked her who draw them. And now now it gets weird. She said ow a girl blahblahblah. I looked at the drawing and notices a sign there stand Lilith. But that wasnt all. As i went outside again, my boyfriend already by the car. 2 staff members came to me and talked to me in a closed room. They said weird thing going on and then they eaid like a spell. And i...i was blocked out of my own dream only black. Untill i got back out off the room. And went ouzside with some salt they had seemed to give me

3. I was back in my old hometown. Like i was travelt thru time. I noticed pretty fast, because of the shopping mile i was it there were shops that didnt excist anymore. The first thought was my grandpa. He died and back in time i would be able to see him again. So i started ranning too my old house, my grandpa was at work his car wasnt there. But i didnt think that tru. So i stood there infront of the house and i think i saw myself as a baby, my mother was carrying me. She looked young again. She saw me but didnt reconize me. I was pretty unsure because of time and i didnt wanted to mess things up. So i started to ran away. And she followed me asking if i was my dads new girlfriend. The one who he cheated on her with. I said no and ran away again. It was all very real feeling. Like i was back in time

4. Now one of the most intense one. I was somewehere and waited for Tom (My boyfriend) to pick me up. He did and on the right his friend called him. In the call he had on speakers, it came out he had been in an amusement park with his friend, his girlfriend and another girl. The girl said how much she had missed him and i was angry, so i went out of the car. And then oh boy....i started walking home myself but when i got in my old hometown, this wasnt my own hometown. It was a weird place. There were doors, everywhere, like colourful buildings door on door and open rooms. Like a setup were you could look in. And that was when i realized i was dreaming. So i opend a door scarred. A man sat in there on a chair, he had gray hair a gray light beard. A normal middle aged man. It was like a futuristic room. Nothing much there. I knew we talked, i dont know what anymore but, a voice told me, that i would told him im dreaming something terrible would happen. So i didnt. He wanted to make a picture or i wanted to make a picture. I dont know what i know was. There was this voice again. Telling me, if i wouldnt wake up now, i never will. I started trying to wake up. I needed more then 5 times before i was able to wake up fully. Like i blinked i was still there, it was like someone helped me pulling me out of it

5. I was at home, i dont remember what exactly happend in my home anymore. But this why i stargtwriting down my dreams. So i was at home and looked to clock who spinning increadibly fast. And in that second i knew i was dreaming. The floor under me cracked and the wall behind me dissapeared. I was floating around in the universe. The diffrent colours the stars. I just remember floating around.

So uhm its from new to old. I have a lot more. Some scarry some really....weird. buts always my old house and the basment there. It was a big old house. The basment was also really big. I had always been terrefyed of it. It was a lot of rooms and doors. And lets say, there happend some weirs things. It was never really dangerous but the vibe of it? Was at least scarry, damn even right now i get goosebumbs talking about it....

[im-a-shitpost-god]

It's my dad's birthday today and for the first time in the 22 years I've been alive for I haven't wished him a nice day or another happy year. It made me feel really guilty of course, but I don't think he deserves it. Almost four whole months of not talking to him have gone by, and he has asked around about how I've been and what I've been doing. He's not been brave enough to ask me though. Four months and he hasn't asked why I don't speak to him either. I assume he thinks it's because I'm ungrateful and greedy, interested only in his money. It's hard when it's the only thing someone has to offer you and no matter how many times you try to explain and how you fade away over the years and how they stop knowing you completely. The worst is the extent you can pull yourself from someone's life without them trying to stop you or wanting to know why. So I haven't wished him a happy birthday and I feel horrible about it but I have enough self respect for myself to not do it.

Two weeks ago I got a bus ticket going to work, because I didn't have enough money to get one. I've had to miss doctor's appointments and reschedule therapy for weeks because I can't cover it and the guilt I feel for my mum having to go back and forth angry texting my dad to give her 30 pounds is worse than missing it. We've only been able to get groceries once the past three weeks because she can't cover it more often than that and I've been scrapping together dinners and lunches for work with whatever we would have on hand. I have debts I haven't been able to pay off in months and things I've needed for weeks I keep pushing off because I can bearely find enough money for food let alone stupid shit I can stretch without for a little while longer. The ammount of work one has to put into something as stupid as not starving lays heavy on my heart on the bus ride home from work. I stare out of the window as it's pouring outside, the window foggy from the heat of the bus and the people inside it. It's the only moment of my day I have enough time to consider how I'm feeling and I'm not feeling well. I feel like my heart's growing heavier with each year of my life and I yearn for the times where I worried about my friends and my grades and how other people saw me and how sad I would feel and I had enough time and friends and people around to worry about.

I digress, my dad's birthday is today and soon I'm suing him for aliments. It's not a pleasant thought and not a pleasant thing to do and not something I want to do at all if I had any other choices. I feel guilty for it, but even more guilty for my mum who is left arguing with my dad and worrying about how she will pay for our house bills. My dad seems like he doesn't have money to cover any of this, judging by how angry he gets about these things, or how he used to make me beg and plead for him to help me pay for groceries in uni. My sister, in the same position but with perhaps less quiet anger and pride bubbling up inside her broke off her silence after months to beg and plead. When she talks to me about what she has to say and do to get 40 pounds for petrol and a doctor's appointment I feel sick and all the more I feel my silence is okay. I am not like her and have never been like her. I'm not one to scream and yell and storm off and ignore someone for months out of anger. My anger always feels like it's brewing quietly for weeks, months and years before I get so fed up I up and leave. I don't ever explain why, to anybody. So, my dad has so much money. I grew up more well-off than any of my friends, never even looked at the prizes of things in stores, never wondered if we would go on holidays to someplace fancy and never wondered if I asked for something if my parents would decline. I had private tutors, expensive shoes and money-consuming hobbies. Dad didn't blink twice sending me off to America in highschool, spending enough money on it to buy a brand new car. So yeah, inviting me to his new house last year, staring at his imported from Britain wallpaper that cost more than my life had the past 6 months and at his designer fucking frigde that cost more than my life had in the past year and a half? The quiet rage kept growing and growing, every time he would yell at me asking where my money had gone studying abroad that month because food isn't that expensive and I have to be lying to him.

So, no happy birthday.

I feel like I am drowning in on myself, always have been that kind of person. I have suprisingly always been well-liked, well-known, like the kind of person that managed to be recognized by most people I passed. A smile always plastered on my face, teasing and talkative. Engaged into everyone I turned my attention to as if we were the best of friends. First time I walked away from someone was from my first friend group in highschool. They were all nice kids, way more quiet than me and consistent in their presence. But I've always been loud and a bit annoying and really too trusting and too honest. And I had like a fucked up situation happen there and I promise as selfish as I am, that was not my fault. I got semi-dropped but I earned back my way into that group and then fucked it all up again only a couple months after for this girl I was really in love with. My best friend had feelings for her and confessed all this shit to me when I was away in America and it obviously didn't go all that well. I dropped the poor girl before I left, but for some reason things between us always have been this way like a slow magnetic pull always. And so I tried to ditch her to save my friendship with this person I really loved and cared about. But then shit happened and I got pulled back in and then again stupidly promised I wouldn't see her because I loved my friend that much. Despite how earnest I was to do this I obviously didn't last all that long and two months passed and we were stuck at each other's hip again. Kept being blown off by my friends who seemed to have moved on from me to some extent and it hurt me a lot so I dropped them completely. I was depressed for months but moved on later, whatever. Similar thing with the next friends I made. I don't confront people about things. I quietly hope they will shake themselves and realise they are being assholes. So again, I wasn't treated the best. I pulled away. Some people would try to come back into my life but I wouldn't let them. Gave them a chance once, which they fucked up so badly I refrained from doing that ever again.

I used to be really trusting, overly so. People would take advantage as people do. I don't like to trust people now. I have friends but kept at arms length, ones I've known for years who I am not close enough with for them to fuck me over too bad. I have other friends, in countries I don't live in anymore, who I wish I got to see but can't. I am a really lonely person. I yearn to have people I can rely on but I also like to push people away. So when I'm on the bus staring out at the route I've taken since I was thirteen, so familiar to me, I wish I had someone close. I am not interested in surface level friends like I used to be. That came after losing the first real friends I had. I don't know. Many times I've found out my closest friends would call me annoying and too much behind closed doors. I can honestly see what they meant but the diluted version of me that exists now makes me sick to my stomach. I used to be just as happy and excited and loud as I used to be sad but it was a whole me. Now I feel like a fructured mess of nothing and nothing to offer and nothing to want or need. Last time I made friends was maybe three years ago and since then I'v e felt less and less like myself.

So, anyways, off topic a bit. Sometimes walking through a busy street, on a train getting home and in a pasta aisle of a grocery store I want to start screaming and not stop. Start sobbing my heart out and have people look at me weird and pull their children away and call the security. I want to finally break and do something so crazy that at least somebody will look at me. I just still feel like that about everything- like a slow slow light and gentle brewing anger, non-spilling and not hot. Just bearely there if you don't look at it right or close enough. I don't know. When I was younger I used to think that if I killed myself then at least people would notice. I don't think I was that far off

[nysus-temple]

So I finally played it last night due to an impulse after I finished studying and organizing some stuff, and all I can say is: this is my new guilty pleasure. So why not rambling about it a bit even if it's past midnight around here, am i right.

I didn't expect to like this design for Penelope that much, but here we are. Not the first time that I've seen a blonde one, tho.

The duck details and jokes were pretty nice and cute, actually ! I thought that I wouldn't enjoy them as much knowing how biased I am towards the ethymology of names lmao

And man, what can I say about those mythological references, the swan one with context is just really funny to me.

I ADORE when Penelope covers herself with the veil, people tend to forget veils were a thing 💀

I'm still not used to see people drawing Odysseus without a beard, but I'll tolerate it since he looks nice in any case ! And they're supposed to be young, after all. Can't say no to Penelope being able to comunicate with ducks either HAH

This small random jokes towards other media were also a very curious and fun part of it as well. I had just finished reading JJBA's Part 7 before playing this game, so

Odysseus being kind of mean towards the rest was actually, not out of character, you see. Because he is, in fact, mean and cruel. He's selfish and a trickster who will cheat to get what he wants, so it's not surprise that he would talk in such a tone towards other heroes we know.

Ajax did, in fact, stay angry with him after dying, am I right 😶

Whenever people show me that Odysseus is only shown to be vulnerable towards Penelope, I explode, remembering the ending of the Odyssey in which she tricks him to prove that it's truly him. No one except her can trick the king of tricksters... AND THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME YOUR HONOR

I actually haven't played an otome in my entire life, this has been my first one. And I still don't think I would play others, but this one? The ammount of replayability it has since I wanted to see all of the art... You see. There's nowhere else to find them, so I replayed this for an hour like an idiot.

This moment is my personal favourite, since I didn't expect it and I loved Penelope in it. She already knows him, she can read his face, she knows how he is and that's just not gonna work on her.

Gotta love that she only gets his intentions after he screams at the top of his lungs "WILL YOU MARRY ME". Since I can just imagine in the original Trojan Cycle for her to be confused about the whole asking-her-hand thingy since, you know, Helen's there.

And Odysseus didn't even stay in Sparta, it's Penelope the one to went to Ithaka. To a small place, in peace.

Icarius trying to understand Odysseus is a CIRCUS because he really is incapable of understanding what's going on in that guy's mind.

Odysseus is a criminal bastard but that's why we and Penelope love him very dearly and very much !! Gotta like the detail of people throwing shit at Odysseus just how he throws it at them.

Gotta say I didn't expect to get a good ending in the first playthrough, but I did, the second one. Finding everything was such a nice experience and I wish I could play it for the first time again, ngl

Gotta say I'm physically incapable of accepting the friendship endings LOL instead of Penelope I just saw Helen. It's a guilty pleasure of mine to view Helen as Odysseus' bestie when we have very few sources about them, and who is even able to see Odysseus and Penelope without romantic background.

The race part was SO FUN. But I couldn't help but laugh at the fact that the Roman Coliseum was used as a background LMAO that made me mad for a second, won't deny it xD

Besides that detail, this is a cute adaptation overall of what their encounter could have been. We know little, and the sources are almost nonexisten, but we know Odysseus choosed Penelope over everyone else, so that's already a very important reason of why we remember them with such a warm feeling despite the centuries that have already passed since they came to our world.

In conclusion: play Pre-Odyssey ! It's free ! I'm gonna donate a bit to its creator myself tho, it has a lot of love put on it and it deserves it, doing this stuff that we play in a little time takes a lot of effort, so of course it deserves a reward.

It was cute, fun, and it also included a little reference to the Iliad and the Odyssey in the extras ! So I hope whenever people play it, they feel like reading the actual epics as well !

I don't have much to say, but someone being devoted enought to such an... Old, literally old couple, to the point of making a game about them... That's very admirable, indeed.

It might have been just a point&click and the only otome i'll ever play in my entire life, since it's not my type of game, but I will forever keep Pre-Odyssey in somewhere to play it whenever I feel down. Odysseus and Penelope make me smile regardless of where and how I'm seeing them, been 8 years like that, still ongoing.

I knew the artstyle was familiar, tho, I saw an animatic with Epic: The Musical before with it

Pre-Odyssey: Odysseus, Penelope and Her Ducks [Otome]~Development Blog~

NaNoRenO 2023 is around the corner… and I couldn’t participate this year- but I did participate last year with Pre-Odyssey: Odysseus, Penelope & Her Ducks, an otome game from Penelope’s POV, with of course, one love interest, Odysseus.

If you’re interested, you can play it here: https://ant-san.itch.io/preodyssey

I got a few questions about this title from first impressions… why ducks? To which I’d answer: it’s a spoiler :) But if you know, you know ;) The game has two main romance endings, but the trickier to get is the one I consider as the ‘true ending‘.

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[foxmenbetter]

a crash

A/n i needed more tears of themis angst so i made some, enjoy, my fellow angst lover, there are some spoilers in the warnings

warnings: unrequited love, reader is not rosa, rosa and vyn have a 'thing', bad grammar and not proof read or looked over, reader an attorney, timeline around the start of story 5th story , the NXX know of reader, abuse of authority in a workplace, a car crash, blood, police, ambulance, not for the faint of heart

I'd like to think of myself as a competent person and someone everyone can rely on. I can deal with my own issues easily but i just seem to be stuck on this cruel feeling of jelousy towards someone i respect so much.. But why do you look at her like that? We're quite close too but you never looked at me like that.. was I just never worthy of your attention? Did I missinterpret your words this entire time? We're you always just tollerating me?

I could never seem to wrap my head around on how much I actually like you until you had someone else with you. But I cant seem to want to break your relationship, i could never do that! You two look so happy together! I can't come out with my feelings now, i'll just ruin everything for you..

I wonder why i didn't find out about my feelings before you found her, and she was better then me.. I mean, she always was! Even at the university, even if I was 2 years older she still shined brighter then me. But I respect her too much to say anything about how utterly jelous i always was of her. She had everything,perfect physical and mental health, while i had to do the most ammount of overtime in our team, i'm almost never home and always working on something.

Today was no exception i woke up at 6am got ready and went to work from 9am to 10pm only to have to still finish my paperwork at home because the janitor has to practically force me to get out of the building so he can close up while i still have others unfinished work that i still can't say no to because they always treat me so kindly, how could i posssibly refuse to take on a little more work because they have kids at home and have to be there to know they're safe. While i have nobody, no warm bed in the winter or a refreshing drink in the summer. No time to drink any hot chocolate and lazy around because 'i still have that one file to finish uo before my deadline is over' and who knows what will happen if i miss the deadline??? Well, probably nothing because they will just push it back if i give a viable excuse on why i couldn't finish it, but i'm still a goody two shoes who want to get everything done on time, hahhhh..

Once again i am stuck in my office with a m*c-meal i got at last minute before they closed and a small amount of paperwork, its the weekend already- since it's past midnight and i am almost dine with all of my paperwork so i can relax alllll weekend because i dont work on weekends! Never.

And after half an hour, i am finnaly done. Saving the last file i turn off the computer, take all of my stuff and finnaly start to leave the law firm when i see Artem talking on his phone with someone, 'i might as well drop by and say goodbye to him..'. I walk towards his office and lightly knock on the door before letting myself in when he aknowledges my exsistance and signs for me to get in. "Hello Mr. Artem! I just finished all my work for the week and wanteddrop by to say goodbye when i saw you in your office." I said almost forcfully smiling at him, instantly regretting my choice to come here because i know he was going to intorrigate me on what i was doing here so late and yadda yadda yadda... all the boring stuff i get everytime from him- but this time, there was none of that insted he calmly said to whoever he was talking to to wait and turned to me to say goodnight and wish me a safe trip home I thanked him and quickly skurried out of his office before he could say anything else.

When i got to the bus station i was just in time for my 1 am bus back home and there i saw some strange looking men in masks? 'Did everyone just catch a flu?' I thought to myself before taking out my own mask in fear of spending my precious work free weekend sick in bed and quickly grabbed one of the bars hanging from the roof of the bus to stabilize myself and started feeling extremly tired but i held on until we came to my stop, i got off the bus and started walking to my apartment. When i got close to my apartment building i was about to cross the road to the building but i was suddenly greeted with a car passing full speed right at me, i would have usually noticed a car coming towards me but my building is right next to a turn and cars tend to come quite unexpectedly but nothing ever happanned to me so i didn't even think about moving! Well now i have all the time to think about while the car- after flying me like 20 meters away from it- swerwes to the right and hits a lamp post while the police that we're chasing it rush to the car take out the seemengly uninjured man and put him in handcuffs while the other policeman in the car call an ambulance for me. One of the policeman seem to be Mr. Morgan so i call out for him and try to go stand up only to feel such an intense feeling of pain in my head that i can't help but lay back down on the, now damp with my blood, piece of asphalt in the road. Despite the massive pain in my head telling me everything will hurt less if i just close my eyes i keep them open for the sake of Mr. Morgan who's shouting at me to not even try to close my eyes, luckily not even a few minutes of this pass and the ambulamce arrive, while one of the peramedics keeps asking me questions that i try to keep up with while a bunch of others so thigs such as put light gauze on the back of my head, wrap some around my arms, put a neck brace on me and put me on an ambulance bed. Quickly i was rushed to the hospital in that state and kept my eyes barely open the entire time. From the time when i was rushed in through the hospital doors and put onto the the operating table felt like a split second because i had blacked out and i relised that from the releived looks on the doctors faces when they saw i had woken up. Without further annalasys of me i was put to sleep once again and woke up once again, but not on the operating table but on a hospital bed surrounded by 'get well soon' cards, ballons and my favorite flowers..

Part 2? Also vyn or artem or no happy endings :)? Also this was kinda shitty but i hope you liked it <3

[sunflowers-on-fire]

ARCANE ACT 3 SPOILERS

Just some of my thoughts on Cait/Vi in the finale, please skip this if you haven't seen the eps yet

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Possibly an unpopular opinion, but I actually think it's better if they didn't kiss yet, with everything going on it would've been rushed and kinda out of place (ok maybe it could work in that scene where they're in Caitlyn's room, but tbh I'd prefer it to happen in some big moment rather than just get thrown in there just so that it happens). Pretty sure this is the first time I'm actually perfectly happy with the gays not kissing in a show because, for once, it's impossible to pass this off as a queerbait. It's so clear that they're in love, it's even a major plot point (the whole thing with Jinx feeling like Vi abandoned her for Caitlyn). And don't even get me started on all the soft moments between them, the face touches, the conversation in Caitlyn's room, the rain scene (still sobbing over that), holding hands for reassurance when they're in front of the council, Vi hugging Caitlyn and saying that 'it's been real' when they are about to say goodbye... Honestly, I'll take that over a single kiss that's thrown in there just to appease us anytime, it does a way better job showing how much they love each other. Tbh I don't think I've seen any show so far that did it this way, basically making a queer relationship this obvious without having to add in a kiss early on, and I think that in itself is a move in the right direction. Also let's not forget that they've known each other for, what, 2 days at this point? Not to mention that they have a lot of other things to worry about. The development between them we got in such a short ammount of time is already huge, anything more would've been rushing it imo. It feels very real and natural this way, and I absolutely adore their dynamic. That said, I'm definitely expecting a kiss in s2. Possibly more to make up for that Jayce scene in ep 5 because I'm still trying to unsee :''D Also lemme just say I appreciate Jinx referring to Caitlyn as Vi's girlfriend and Vi not objecting to that, I feel like this was added just to make it clear for the straights that they're a thing haha Pretty sure some people will still try to dance around that and refuse to see it but oh well, it's more than enough for me, for now at least XD

[morgue-xiiv]

John Darnielle confuses the fuck out of me. He will write a book about disabled play-by-mail rpg game designer... WITH A MOTHERFUKCING FRITZ LEIBER REFERENCE!!!! Just fucking shouting out a The Grey Mouser book like it's the most normal thing in the world!, casual mentions of an IBM Selectric. Like legitimately this book is like it was written specifically to appeal to me. Like someone sat down and asked me WHY I love Koji Suzuki and tried to cram the maximum ammount of references to other stuff I love into a book themed around my answer, then smeared it all over Joey Comeu because I'll claim I like his books out of ASW love, but I actually find them a liiiittle bit pretentious and boring (bear in mind how excited I was about that Grey Mouser ref? I'm married to Swords and Sorcery). With maybe a dash of what I like about Scarlett Thomas before I say her books are uhhhh also "too literary for my tastes" (I remembered the politically correct way to say pretentious and boring just in time there, Sorry Comeau, you juuuust missed it) I mean fuck I think his other book is about video tapes and shit?

Then, he also makes... uh. music. Yeah. It's definitely music alright. Loads of people I really really respect as writers and human beings adore his music. And it is, I cannot emphasize this enough *the music I hate most in the world*. If someone even mentions the name of the band or any of the songs it RUINS at least the next 2 hours of my day. His music is this perfect combination of vile to listen to and *incredibly catchy*. Every song seems to be a pointed combination of the most unpleasant sounds, combined with lyrics created to either make me angry or make my mental health significantly worse with absolutely SURGICAL precision, and then the lyrics are incredibly repetitive and the hooks just stick in your brain really deep so that if it was possible to dig them out of your mind with an actual hook that would seem proportionate. There's actually this one song of theirs I really really like but I never listen to it because bringing it up *would remind me the band exists* and that would upset/anger me.

As a kid I was obsessed with the Sisters of Mercy and looked up what music Andrew Eldritch said HE liked. And I was dissapointed to find that just cos I loved eldritch's music didn't mean the music he listened to would be whata I liked at all. I makes sense as an adult that people build on what they like and can't truly create a piece that follows what they love becaue you can't make what you love, or from then on, you only see the blueprints. So it makes sense the opposite must exist: dude with similar taste to me whose work I loathe. I definitely never looked for that dude, but perhaps I found him in recommendations from Joseph Fink... Anyway I'm gonna take the time to listen to no children a bit because I do find it soothing and I am thinking about how much I hate that band anyway so I might as well take advantage of that.

but it is... so weird. The contrast of feelings this one guy provokes in me, of feeling seen but also really fucking disgusted.

Maybe I'll hate the book soon too.

That would really even things out for me.

[zmayadw]

Evening to all :)

Allright, so after two days of terrible headache, one sleepless night, lots and lots of coffee, and constant tweeks of what I already had written, its time to continue with the story. Lets have some fun at the Aurora :)

Wish you all a nice evening :)

CALL OF THE RAVEN

PART 8

We left the restauran and drove to Aurora. It was saturday night, but the bar wasnt that much filled with people yet. The Aurora was like most of the bars : booths wer on each side, tables towards the middle, but still leaving enough room for people to dance. The bar was on the opposite from the entrance with barstools arround it, a smaller stage and karaoke machine on the left, basement/storage entrance on the right, with big TV above it. Since Jessy's brother Phil was the owner of Aurora, we had a booth waitng for us. We settled at our booth, and i got up to get us drinks, since they refused to let me chip in for the dinner. Dan decided its still too early for whiskey, but emphasised that at some point in the evening we're having it. Jessy just groaned at that, and i chuckled going to the bar ordering us beers. As i was waitig, a guy appeared behind the bar „Put this on the house, Dave. Cant let her pay for her first drink here.“  As i turned ,he winked at me, setteling down a box with bottles on the counter. „Hello, Phil.“ I smiled at him „And thansk for the drinks.“ He extended his hand towards me, and i did the same. He took it, moved it towards his lips, giving me one of those cavalier kiss on it „Hello, Maya, nice to finaly meet you.“ I felt a little heat coming to my cheeks. Phil really was a charmer, as i was told, especially from Jessy, but i must admit he wasnt bad looking. He had a long brown hair, mostly worn in a tail. His eyes wer dark brown, and he was tall and muscaline. He was wearing a white shirt with the Aurora written on it, wich just made his tattoos more noticable. I was a sucker for tattoos. „Do all girls get such a charming 'hello' from you here?“ i asked teasingly. He grinned devilishly „Just the special ones.“ „I got warned about you, trying to sweet talk me.“ I grinned back.  „Can you blame me? I'm a sucker for a beautifull woman.“ I felt even more heat coming to my cheeks, and was greatfull the light wernt that bright, so noone would notice, especialy Phil. It felt good, being flirted like this, but i didnt want to give Phil any wrong ideas. I knew from Jessy that he was interested in me, and to be honest, if Jake was out of the picture, it might be different. „Thanks for the compliment! But, i have to warn you, i might not be a good choice.“ I said, making a serious face, leaning a bit closer towards him over the bar, wich made him do the same. „I was told i was reckles and out of control, kinda hard to handle, stressing people too much.“ He looked at me, that devilish spark in his eyes intensifieing „Well, Maya, maybe you just havent met your match..yet.“ „Maybe.“ I replied, leaning back, smile forming at the corner of my mouth. We just stared at eachother like that for a while, Phils gaze intensifing with each moment. I felt my heart starting to beat faster, and i was really confused about it. What was happening here? Ok, Phil was good looking, but Jake was the one i was longing for. Wasnt he? „Well, as much as i'm enjoying talking to you, i better get those beers over to my friends.“ He glanced towards our booth „You just might need some more beer.“ I turned to see what was it that he refered to, and saw the whole gang showed up while we wer talking. Including Jake. I was glad to see him, i didnt really think this was a place he would feel comfortable being at, but i supposed Hannah made him come. I heard from Jessy they wer spending much time together, the three of them, wich wasnt to be unexpected. He was their halfbrother after all, they wanted to get to know eacother better. And Hannah made him stay at her appartment since he came to Duskwood.  And then i noticed Jake staring, but it wasnt me he was staring at, but Phil. Oh boy, i tought, can my life be simple for just one evening. I turned to Phil, sighing „I guess your right.“ I took the beers, slowely moving from the bar, walking backwards. „Oh, and i have a feeling i might need something stronger soon, so keep a glass close for me.“ I said skeptical, but Phil just grined and winked „I'll be right here with that glass ready.“

As i neared the booth, putting on my best smile, they all stood up cheering. I settled the beers on the table, Hannah embracing me in a tight hug, with Thomas grining behind her. „Its so good to finaly do this.“ She said. „Its good to see you , Hannah.“ I said, hugging her back. Hannah let go of me, and now it was Cleo's turn. „Dont you scare us like that anymore, you hear me!“ she scolded me before smiling „I promise.“ She let go of me, and they all sat back. I grabbe myself a chair from the table near us, since the booth was full now. As i sat down, i glanced at Jake. He smiled and nooded at me, and i smiled back. Lily was just siting there, barely sparing me a look. I tried not to take it too personal, from the begining she wasnt that much fond of me, and the feeling is mutual. „So, how are you feeling?“ Hannah asked me. „Oh, im much better, thanks for asking. Few more days and i'll be back to my old self.“ I told her, as a waiter, Dave , came to our booth, bringing five more beers. I turned towards the bar. Phil just winked at me, and continued about his business. I noticed Jake saw that also, his body tensing a bit. „Thats good to hear.“ Hannah siad, and Dan chimed in „I'll drink to that!“ raising his glass towards me. I got my glass and added cheerfuly to him „Me too!“ Now Lily finaly spoke „Good thing it ended as it did, we could all be drinking our sorrow instead.“ I tensed at her words, a bit of rage forming in me, but Hannah jumped in before i could say anything. „Lily, stop it. We are all aware of how things might ended, no need to emphasising it anymore.“ She sounded tired saying it, i got a feeling this wasnt the first time the two of them had a similar conversation. „Im sorry, Hannah“ Lily continued „but you know how i feel. Maya's actions could have terrible consequencess, and i dont see what is there to celebrate.“ „How about me being here, Lily? Is that good enough reason for you?“ Hannah asked, but Lily just sat there silently. I couldnt be quiet anymore. „Im sorry you feel that way Lily.“ I started. „I expected you to be more happy now that Hannah is back. Yes, i made some mistakes, i know. But we all do mistakes, Lily, you should know it all too well.“ She shot me such a angry look when i said it. It wasnt my intention to start a fight with her or anything, i knew all too well how badly all of it could have ended, but i was also tired of it being dragged out constantly. „My sister could have died!“ Lily basicly screamed, wich made few people arround us turn to see what was happening. „Lily, enough!“ Hannah started, but i really had enough, and my head started to hurt a bit now. „Your sister could have died eitherway, Lily“ i said basicly hissing at her „No matter what i might have or might have not done. At least i had the guts to act, and would do the same all over again if i had to, gladly. Luckily, things turned out for the better. You should be happy about it, and stop dwelling on the 'what if's'. If you cant do that, to just be happy you got your sister back, then for fuck sake i dont know what more to say to you.“ As i finished, you could feel the tension gathering around. „Sorry all, but i need something stronger to drink.“ I stood up going for the bar.

Phil came as i sat on one of the stools, rasing his eyebrow  „My, my, you wernt wrong about needing that drink. So, whats your poison?“ he asked me grining. „Oh, whatever you grab first, as long as it washes the bitternes out.“ I said, feeling that rage not setteling, and my head throbing some more. He grabbed two shot glasses, pouring both with whiskey. „Dont mind if i join you.“ He said, rising one of the glasses. I grinned, taking my glass knocking it at his „Its no fun drinking alone, anyway!“ „Bottoms up!“ he chimed, and we exed our gasses. „One more, please, the bitter taste is still not washed completly.“  „Comming right up!“ he said cheerfuly, filled both again, and we drank those too. Someone patted me on my shoulder, and i turned to see Dan standing next to me. „Aww, Maya, you started without me.“ He said, being dramatic and acting hurt. „Aww, sorry Dan“ i said making a sad face „You cant really blame me, after all that just happened back there.“ „Point taken“ he said, sitting next to me. I turned towards the booth. Jessy, Cleo, Thomas and Hannah wer still there. I could see they didnt seem much affected by any of what just happened. But Lily was gone. And so was Jake. Great, i tought. The night began so nicely, i guess it was too good to last. „Well, Dan, feel free to join us now. The more, the merrier.“ I turned to Phil. „Barkeep, antoher glass for my 'nonjudgemental' friend here, please.“ Phil grinned, taking one more glass and filling them all again „The lady commands, the lady gets!“ Now the three of us chinned our glasses, and drank up. „Phil, i think you and I will be very good friends.“ I started „Since i assume you are not theirs most likable person of all time.“ i waved my hand towards the booth. „And i suppose as of now, i might join that club, too.“ Phil looked at me, a bit sirious  „I told you once before, Maya. Everyone gets the exactly right ammount of respect from me as deserved. I dont bother with the tought if im 'likable' to someone or not. You dont mess with me, and i dont mess with you, its simple as that.“ „Amen to that!“ It was Dan, and both Phil and me looked at him, not really expecting it. I started laughing so hard „Oh, Dan, thanks, i needed this.“ „What?“ Dan looked at me, question marks written all over his face. Phil just shook his head, lowering it down, hiding himself smiling too, filling our glasses again, and drinking his up. „If you two would excuse me, i actually have some work to do.“ He winked at me as he left. „Be careful Maya, Phil is a player.“ Dan told me a bit serious. „Dont worry, Dan, i'm a big girl, i can take care of myself. So, tell me, how much am i hated at the moment amongst the others?“ i asked him. „Dont worry, Maya, nobody hates you, trust me. But you gotta understand Lily. She really was scared for Hannah, and she tought she was doing her best.“ He paused for a while before adding  „Just like you did.“ I looked at Dan, and tought 'shit, he has a point there'. „Ah, crap, Dan, why you have to be so 'smartypants' all of a sudden?!“ He chuckled at me „Look, both of you did what you did, and it ended how it did. Even if you dont see it, you both expected the same result. Just your ways of trying to acomplish it wer totaly different. And thats where all hell broke loose.“ I knew Dan was right, but i tought Lily would be at least a bit happier for having Hannah back, and not to be all bitchy about it, clinging so tightly on all the things that could go wrong. „All right, enough with this serious talk. I tought we came here to drink.“ I started, but added quickly so Dan dont feel me being ungrateful „But, thanks Dan. I understand what you wanted to say to me. I will keep it in mind,  for the next time.“ Dan smiled and noded at me. I took a sip of my whiskey, when there was another tap on my shoulder. It was Hannah „Hey, just wanted to say we're leaving. It was really nice seeing you, we should definatly do this again.“ She said, adding „When things cool down a bit.“ She gave me an appologetic look, „Yeah, definatly! And it was really nice seeing you two, Hannah.“ She hugged me „And dont take Lily by the heart, please. I know she can overreact sometimes, but she means well.“ „Dont worry, Hannah,  i understand, its all good. Hope i wasnt too forward myself.“ Now i looked at her appologeticly. „Everything is good.“ She smiled „Take care, Maya, see you later.“ „Laters you two.“ I waved at Hannah and Thomas as they left. Cleao and Jessy joined us at the bar. „Uhh, that was fun.“ Cleo said. „Indeed. Not really my definition of a 'fun night' i expected.“ „Dont worry, Maya. Lily is just a hard person sometimes, a bit overprotective, too. She will calm down, eventualy.“ Cleo told me, to wich I replied a bit skeptical „ So everyone tells me.“ Phil came to us, taking two new glasses „C'mon you sad lot, enough with it. I tought we wer celebrating a 'new girl in town'!“ he said cheerfuly, winking at me, filling all the glasses up, handing one for Jessy and Cleo. Jessy groaned at it, scolding Phil „Ohh, dont encourage this two, Phil“ she said, pointing at Dan and me „I'm the one who will have to endure them for the rest of our evening, with all that whiskey in them. And we all know Dan and whiskey doesnt end well.“ „Hey babe, dont be like that!“ Dan said to her, in that dramatical and hurt way he does, making Cleo and me laugh. „See, it already started.“ Jessy said, leaning her elbovs on the bar, sighing sadly, now she trying to be dramatic. „Awwww babe, i promise i'll behave.“ Dan said, pecking her on the cheek. „You better behave..remember, im the one you're going home with.“ She told him, giving him one of her serious looks. Phil was just taking a sip of his drink, and hearing Jessy say it laughed so hard that he spat his drink out. Cleo and me laughed with him, but Dan looked at Jessy all pale„Yes, ma'am!“. I took my glass, raising it „Last one? Then we get beer again.“ Jessy looked at me „Deal!“, the rest of them taking their glasses and we drank. „That's it for me“ Cleo said „I'll be going now. Have to be early at the Gates of Hope tomorrow. And you all know how my mother can be if its not her way.“ She said shuddering a bit at it. „Ohh, we dont want to get Miranda cross at you, or any of us.“ Jessy said, giving Cleo a look of symphaty. Cleo hugged me „It was nice seeing you, Maya. We should definatly do this again, soon. And i promise i wont leave so early next time.“ „No worrys, Cleo, thanks for coming anyway.“ I said, smiling back at her. She waved us goodby and left. We ordered some beer then, as i promised Jessy no more whiskey. „Sorry, Maya, i really didnt think this will go so badly.“ Jessy looked at me appologeticaly. „Oh, dont sweat it, Jessy“ i grinned at her „Im having more fun with just the two of you, anyway.“ She grinned back, when Phil looked at me, making a sad face, mimicing Dan's hurt gesture „Awww, and what about me, i dont belong in this 'fun club'?“ I looked at him and winked „We have our special 'secret club', remember?“ That made Jessy switch her look from Phil too me, all puzzled, but Phil just grined devilishly at me, winking „We sure do.“ Jessy turned to Phil now, making a serious face, waving her finger at him „Phil, you better behave! Maya is not a 'toy' to play with and throw away after it.“ I jumped in, before Phil could say anything „Oh, dont worry, Jessy. Phil was nothing but a gentelmen towards me.“ Phil grined at her, makeing an aureola sign above his head with his hands, sugesting him being an angel. Jessy just snorted „Yeah, yeah, more like a 'devil in disguise'.“ „Im not sure who's the 'devil in disguise' here actualy.“ Phil said looking at me intensely, my cheeks flushing again.

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[thegame-r-boy]

A New World Awaits: A Short Review Of The Commercial Success, Called PlayStation Virtual Reality (or PSVR)

As many as you know, Virtual Reality (or VR in short) had it’s hayday in the middle of the 90’s of the previous century. It was tried out by many companies, but it failed very miserable - I’m talking about you, Virtual Boy! It gave you serious headaches and nausea when you were using your VR for a longer time. Hence, therefore came the saying “Don’t play too long or you will strain your eyes!” Yeah, right ...

It took us almost more than two decades to wait before companies tried it for a second time with VR. Occulus, Microsoft and Sony. These three companies are the first that come to my mind when I’m talking about something that is not real. The Sony PS VR came out in 2016 and was sold for about 400 $. It wasn’t cheap for the time, nor it is today, in 2021, but in the store where I got mine (it’s the same store I’ve got my Nintendo Switch in 2017!) it was selled for roughly 300 €. That’s almost as much as my PS4 Pro costed me in 2020. I’m going to tell you how I got this device and review it for you, so you get a feeling of if it’s worth it or not.

So on Saturday, the 24th of April 2021, my and my GF @aquamoon33 went from here living place in southern part of Slovenia to our capital, Ljubljana or specifacally the industrial zone, near BTC. First, we went to IKEA, were there was a lot of things to see, and then we went further to the Big Bang store.

We first got our eyes on the new PlayStation 5. It looked absolutely massive! But unfortunately, we had no clue on how to use this kind of device. We were playing the new Astro Robot game on it, and after almost 10 minutes found out, that you have use your motion skills to actually move your character! Can you believe it?! I felt so ashamed, almost like a boomer or such. But after that, we went further to the PS4 stand, where there was a VR machine on it.

My gf was brave enough to use it first. There was a game, called Drive Club VR and the game was quite fast. You have to make fast turns from left to right. Before there was a huge right turn, she did not only used here hands, BUT also her body, which would’ve meant she would have to fall directly down, on the floor - if it wasn’t for me, who stood directly by her side, so I could block her fall before she even touched the ground.

She looks like a movie prop from a music spot, where Daft Punk is playing xD

After she was finished, I’ve put the glasses on. And OH MY GOD - WHAT A RELIEF! First, I was a bit “woody” while playing Drive Club VR, but after a while, when I got the hang of it, I was quite good. Indeed good! Okay, I wasn’t first, but still, I felt WIDELY awake from that moment on. In contrast to my girlfriend @aquamoon33 , I had no headaches, nausea or other akward feelings. Keep in mind that a night before our trip, I had a hard time falling asleep, just because the matress had a big hole in it (her brother, who was quite fat for thath time period, made it’s tool I guess). Because of that sensation, I was immidiately so impressed, that I just had to buy it! I know, It was an impulse buy, which doesn’t happen often in my life, but still, it was definetely worth it!

Fast forward to two/three days later, and I’m telling you, how this system looks like. I’ve bought it in separated cash, costed me almost as much as my PS4 Pro, but still, every cent was definitely worth it. When I got home at the end of the weekend, I wanted to connect it to my PS4 Pro and TV. And that was the time I wasn’t thinking so much about. There are exactly 12 cables around my devices. That’s is A LOT! But on the other hand you have to understand that this device was made in 2016, when cables were something more common than by todays standards. Here’s what I got:

The whole package

Picture taken from top (it was from a dusty warehouse, therefor don’t mind the scuffs and dust)

What the headset looked like

And how it looked like from the front.

This is how I managed to stick that little device for the VR set onto my PS4 Pro. Great, isn’t it?

And this is the bill I had to make - luckily I’ve bought it in times of Spring Sale - in order to get the 6 games for this device (Superhot VR, Gran Turismo VR, Dirt Rally VR, Resident Evil 7: Biohazard, Tetris Effect and Job Simulator). I’ve also got a PlayStation VR Worlds digital bundle included, but apart from the game London Heist, there is really nothing special to it. That’s how less of a price I’ve paid:

This is all I had to pay. Quite cheap, ain’t it?

The first game I started on my PS4 Pro was Farpoint, which I got for free on a Playstation Now subscription service and - OH MY GOD, IT BLEW ME AWAY!! It didn’t take that long, but after about 5 minutes while I was playing, my hands started to sweat. Really sweat! Now I know exactly how @aquamoon33 must’ve felt when she’s nervous while gaming. The graphics are really impressive. And the planet you are onto is just gorgeous!

In fact, I got a bit carried away - and inspectively ANALysed too much! xD

But when it came to combat, there was no time for having fun! In fact, I shrieked a bit when the first “headcrab” got onto me! :S

And then I’ve played some London Heist and had some fun with my brothers, who are not gay or they just don’t like my cigarrette! xD

I’ve also played with some Dirt Rally VR, which is BY MY FAVOURITE GAME OF THIS YEAR SO FAR!

Here is a glimpse of my second, more serious playthrough:

Overall, I’m quite happy with the PS VR that I’ve bought. Nevertheless, the PS4 (Pro’s) aren’t current gen anymore, so to find peripherals that’s aren’t as common as they were in the time when this system was current gen (this is the PS5 by now). I was literally over-the-roof- excited to try this thing out. And my expectations were met. Some, at least. Okay, the graphics aren’s as sharp as they are with the Occulus Rift, there are quite a bit of cables laying around, the headset could be tirring at time. But the fact that you feel like you are directly in the game, the quite reasonable price and the ammount of fun you get by playing a huge selection of games you have on offer (they’re still making games for this system, today!) are worth IMO.

Virtual Reality is a good thing to get to know better. It’s a gateway of finding your true inner feelings and conceptions. And for a long time, I’m just really greatful to be a part of it.

9.0 / 10

The Good:

- Reasonable price

- A huge selection of games to play

- Some exclusives (Resident Evil 7: Biohazard, Astro Bot, etc.)

- If you are like me and don’t feel any nausea, headaches, etc.

- A new way of playing your favourite games

- A good device to expand and forfill your driving skills

The Bad:

- Quite a lot (twelve, to be exactly!) of cables laying around your PS4 (Pro)

- Isn’t that cheap as it could be

- Not so great graphics

- Get’s kind of sweaty after some playing time

[ask-fantasy-sanders-sides]

Oh god im so confused, i dont have time to stay up to date considering the ammount of asks you get and answer (and honestly it's impressive, kuddos to you for replying to so many and kuddos to the fans for interacting sm), so I was wondering (assuming it's not too early) if we could get a quick recap? Also I used to be on the tag list but I haven't been tagged in forever and I was wondering if you still used to tag list or nah, since i havent seen it pop up in a while? Thx for ur time!!!!

    (The posts tagged with “#tsrpgau recap” summarize the events of the comic and asks, and lore that has been revealed thus far!)

inter-comic recaps: First  /   Prev  /   Next  /   All.

Contains:  (Recap #16) Ask 69 (hehe); Logan’s backstory (part 1); and Amaryllis’s secret (part 2); Roman’s True Form

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Patton and Logan sit up front as they re-do the day’s events but more prepared this time, driving past the Perytons!

Virgil is asleep in the back, much deeper than you’ve seen him asleep before...

It seems to be going smoothly! It’s been a few hours since the Perytons attacked the first time, and they haven’t shown their faces yet.

...But now, of course, there are other pressing problems coming out of the woodwork...

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Among them are...

Some Fairies -- which Logan identifies as Dragonfly Peri (1) (2) -- are following them around from the treeline! (which might further explain why the Perytons aren’t showing up, honestly)

Their Mistress, what appears to be a Water Nymph Child of some kind, is injured, and calling out for help from “The Man With Healing Hands” (1) (2) (3) (4) (5) 

(the translations are in the tags dont worry)

You assume this means Roman, with his Healing Hands Aasimar ability, though some of you think she’s confusing him for Remus.

...And then, there’s the creatures that supposedly attacked her

Logan, Roman, and Patton are warned about the situation, and just as some of you come to realize how shady the entire situation is, they’ve already made up their minds about helping the possibly injured girl

...Meanwhile, Virgil is having some very upsetting nightmares (1) (2), and is at risk of something worse (1) (2) (3) if he is woken up prematurely...

And, according to Janus, remaining asleep only makes it easier for any nearby Meenlocks to attack him.

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In other news...

Roman and Logan argue about a book (1) (2) (3) (4)

Roman reveals he hasn’t painted anything in a long time, and regrets that he dropped the creative hobby

Roman is asked to describe his companions as Love Interest Troupes (and gets a very flattering response)

You ask about what would happen to everyone in the afterlife if they were to pass on as they are now (1) (2) (3) (4) (5) (6) (7) (8)

(You tell Patton about Virgil’s current fated afterlife, and he threatens to fight the Spider Goddess if she dares hurt his friend. It is very sweet of him)

Logan is asked to assess the attractiveness of his party members (1) (2)

Roman talks about how he literally hung out with some gods when he was younger! (1) (2) (3)

You get a Bond Update!

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You unlocked a bit of Logan’s tragic Backstory!

Logan reveals he is a Noble!

Logan talks about unsolved mysteries, and how they are connected to his parents (1) (2) (3) (4)

His explosive temper and magic ability clashed a bit violently when he was young, (2) (3)

And he was a bit of an outcast (1) (2) (3) (4) (5)

Which wasn’t really helped by his family’s general absence (1)

(Logan insists they have since rectified the situation with some therapy and open communication, and he, his Father, and his brother are good now, but obviously some of it has irreparably shaped him as a person)

Patton seems aware of this tragic backstory information, and defends Logan

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You found out that Roman isn’t actually an Aasimar...

He’s an Empyrean, also known as a Titan! 

The child of two gods, Sune and Lathander

The form he takes now is simply an Avatar of his True Form (which is resting in Sune’s garden in Ysguard, the Domain of Heroes) (art! and height comparison)

Amaryllis knows this, but never got the chance to tell him (yet)

You can assume what his Avatar’s purpose is, from all this new info

Lathander seems to be a cool guy, fond of both Remus and Roman (1) (2) (3)

Roman explains a bit about Avatars (1) (2) and Aspects

You learn that only one form can be Active at a time, and while Titan Roman retains both his own memories and the memories of any life he lives through an Avatar, the Avatars (until he becomes more powerful) will be created without memories of their Titan self or previous lives...

Marissa hints that she is an Avatar as well -- possibly even the one Roman was made to thwart -- and hints that Dee and Horace might be Avatars as well

You ask Janus about the situation, and he is cryptic and sassy as always (2)

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Which leads to some more questions about Followers and Purposes...

Questions about Remus’s purpose (1)

And how Roman was able to fall if he’s a Titan?

Questions about how to become a follower of Roman (1) (2)

And how he already has one, though neither of them know it, and Roman doesn’t seem to want to talk about it (1) (2)

What IS a soul, exactly?

[defenestrate-ing]

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I dreamed about you and your mom. But you and your mom were inside me, like I could feel her and I could feel you, we were three souls in one body.

I dreamed I was the shortest of four sisters, sisters successful, so I had no importance in that family.. there was a pool inside this room where we swam but it was not deep enough, I wet myself and got out, because I was the outcast they asked me to leave the room, but I had you, so I didn't care, you weren't there at the moment in a physical way but I felt your love go through me so I knew I wasn't alone, I wasn't happy in that family but I had you. I came out of that room and started wandering alone.

I dreamed about my father's house. I dreamed that there was water on earth so much the earth was moist, and you could feel the life emanating from it. I dreamed that the music was loud at my father's garage so I went outside with my cat. I had my cat on my lap and one of my sisters was outside sitting down when I showed up, it was the youngest one, she saw me with my cat peacefully on my lap, as I pet her softly, it calms my soul. She asked me how am I so drawn to animals and how they can listen to me so much. Then something happened, I saw electricity go through the outside of the house, burning whatever it touched, I went under a roof where there was no metal things to keep me guard as my sister ran to my grandma and asked her for help, I stayed there alone and saw the electricity surrounding me, as I looked up, I saw smoke coming from a light switch so I ran towards it and turned it off, all the electricity left the house and the music stopped. I went inside after that and there was someone I could not make out who it was in her phone, I tried getting her attention but I felt invisible there, no one cares, so i hid under this big barbacue my father has built inside his garage, I hid where all the wood was and looked at the little rocks on the ground where I found a very small turtle, I felt her. I identified myself with her, she was lost and I grabbed her, and talked to her in my mind, then suddenly I wasn't at my father's house anymore. She walked me into this huge space, it looked like a paradise, an oasis, it was inside the depths of a cave where there was a small port to get out of the water and outside said cave. I went into the water with her, what I saw was incredible, there were others like her, but she was the smallest one, I was just watching, I was watching and admiring the ammount of creatures down there, despite me being under water, I couldn't breathe any better. Under that water, different size creatures ate each other sometimes, I understood that's the nature of the world but I wanted to protect my new friend, as that thought went through my mind I saw a flash of you, you were holding this small finger size fish tank where my new friend was, and where I was in currently, I don't know why I was so small, but it was like you were holding my paradise, and you were looking in, as I swam with the creatures I found.

There was bad in there too, I found out after a while of hanging out in there, pirates, they came in and looked inside the place from the port, this paradise was hidden from everyone so I didn't imagine there was gonna be evil in there. We heard the pirates so we all hid under that port they were standing on, they saw nothing, and they heard nothing so they started leaving, but as they were leaving I saw a light right next to the port on the water the pirate looked closer because he saw it too, so he looked behind him, now he could see under the port he was standing on, we hid underwater now so we wouldn't be seen but I was looking through the distortion, then as he didn't see us, he turned back around and grabbed whatever was glowing aparently other people got here before me and they were looking for something they didnt find, and that light meant something, fixating my eyes on it, that light, it looked like a scanner with the number 75 flashing on it, I think it had to do with the paradise and how to find something that was hidden there, but then a growl was heard and the pirate kicked it ayway towards us, towards the water.. we moved away from it , careful to not be seen if that light gets near us we would be exposed and it sank to the bottom.

Once the pirates went away, I looked down to the device, the light emanating from it illuminated the bottom of this huge pond and i saw a leather bag, I swam towards it and grabbed it, it was half open so I looked into it, what was inside it was your mom's, your mom had written a lot of letters and a lot of things to you over the years that you didn't know about, and somehow this became the treasure the bad people wanted to find but never could, I read them a little bit and then you appeared next to me, you grabbed the letters and looked at me, I nodded letting you know it's ok, that I'm there for you and that you will be ok, because I love you and I would hold you through the bad, so you proceeded to read whatever was written there.

I felt your pain as you read her and miss her but I felt your mom too, it was like I could feel you both and I was the connection between you and her, I was helping you communicate with her, you cried while reading those underwater but just as me, you couldn't breathe any better. My heart was broken for you as you read those letters but you found something under those waters, something really important, it felt as if you were looking for it all this time and you finally found it. I don't know why but at that moment I knew it was your father the one that threw all that away for you to not find..

Now woken up, I'm looking at you sleeping, and im thinking, what if all this is a metaphor? because you are my paradise, because I'm getting to know you more every moment that passes and I get to swim in the waters of your heart and mind, because I feel you and I feel your mom, somehow I feel your mom with me very often.. I feel her right now and I don't know what this is or what it means but I love you, I love her, and she loves you. That is why I love her, because even though she isnt with us, and I never met her.. and i can never really meet her like I wish I could, I know she loves you and I know she wants me to protect you, and I know she's with you.

This dream felt so real.. and I felt so much while dreaming it, because I was feeling me, you and your mom.. us three were inside me, like we are one, and I don't know what this means but i feel closer to you than ever right now.

[o-w-quinlan]

Digimon Adventure 2020, episode 18 reaction (and over-analysis)

I didn’t like this.

Character-wise, this episode was a big ball of nothing. Taichi and Yamato showcase nothing other than determination, which in a fighting story is a dime a dozen. The other 4 are basically window-dressing, and I can believe that Mimi, Jou and Koushiro would be too scared to do anything, but Sora as a character has been defined in this show by her fearlessness and her desire to do whatever it takes to protect those around her. Why isn’t she fighting too? I could believe that she saw Piyomon exhausted by her previous fights and relented, but show it to me. Don’t just have her act blatantly out-of-character to give the golden boys more screentime and expect me not to notice. Nidhoggmon had one moment where it seemed like it’d be an actual character, its hacking of Koushiro’s laptop to introduce itself being amusing and threatening, but it proceeded to show absolutely nothing of a personality after that, so that brief moment ends up looking like it just taking the reins of the exposition role from Koushiro for a few seconds. Hikari is back to her mysterious self. Takeru? The boy has said 3 lines during the past 2 episodes, all of them just “Onii-chan” with the exact same emotion behind it, and per both the ending and the fact that he glitched in this episode, it seems he’ll now be in the Digital World. Really? This is the best introduction to a character the writers could think of?

Action-wise, it’s the worst episode of the series so far. Oh sure, episode 4 had a terrible static fight, and episode 11 ended on a boring curb-stomp battle, but at least there was more going on in those. Here, it’s just Omegamon defending himself with his cape, blasting Nidhoggmon, defending himself again and slashing Nidhoggmon, killing it. I won’t compare it to the fight in episode 3 because that one had more budget, but how is it that the big climatic fight of your entire first arc, the one that properly introduces the Ultimate level to the audience, is far more boring than the ones in the previous two episodes against weaker enemies? How is it that after two episodes of teamwork being the key to defeat an impossible enemy, now it’s suddenly just the two leads on what ammounts to a 1-on-1 fight?

Plot-wise? There’s slightly more going on here, but not really enough to make me like this. The appearence of a mysterious larva entity (I assume a reincarnation of Deathmon) that’s being fed by Nidhoggmon’s energy is great, and combined with Devimon’s line of humans being food for the darkness it explains both Algomon’s and Nidhoggmon’s actions, and it may be foreshadowing the cause of the ancient conflict. Takeru’s warping to the digital world was well done, although the whole thing still fails because of what I said about Takeru before. As for Omegamon appearing again... I wasn’t one of the people who said that his appearence in episode 3 destroyed the stakes of the series, but his appearence in this one? Oh yes, it does. When what was previously portrayed as a miracle happens once again the very next time they have to face an Ultimate-level digimon, the stakes simply don’t exist anymore. Not in any believable way. And it cheapens Omegamon, because when before he was this awe-inspiring entity arriving to help them in their time of need before disappearing, now he’s just another power-up granted by the siblings. It cheapens the Ultimate-level digimon, because both times we’ve seen them now have been them getting stomped by the power-up. It’s just a terrible narrative choice that’s executed terribly.

In fact, nearly everything in this episode was a terrible idea executed terribly, only the brief appearence of the villains being actually good. Oh, and before I forget, we never got an explanation for how Yamato, Sora and Jou arrived at the fake Tokyo, and I don’t expect to get it in the future. I don’t expect much of anything from this show anymore. I refuse to get hyped for anything other than a Mimi-centric or Jou-centric episode, because those are the only characters the writers have proven they can consistently write well.

Next episode is going to introduce Leomon’s resistance army, and the non-protagonist children are going to end up back in the Human World. Both plots with lots of potential for great stuff. Let’s see what they end up doing.