#are you speaking from personal experience here bb?

[mortalscience]

ten caps per episode - Law and Order Criminal Intent - s01e16 - Phantom

Goren: One thing this line of work teaches us is that guys will do anything for love. Eames: And money.

[scimagic]

☆ RTV!PUZZLEVISION TOUR [Part One] ☆

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───

Mischief is afoot with this group!

Featuring @michaelscorneroftheinternet (who made the drawing this time!) and @selfshippinglover, with small mentions to @vextheallay and @fenicearts420! <3

[ @rtv-puzzlevision-studios ]

As the tour participants vote for the starting department, Scripted and Sci turn to note the positions of the security team. Swag and Chris to the sides while Lucian takes charge of the back. Absolutely surrounded, as one should expect.

The Siren turns away and blows a quiet raspberry, crossing her arms as she begins to note everything and everyone else in the room with a nonchalant look. Some she recognized, some she did not. All possible opportunities for success or failure, as much as the Director thought they were all possible disasters waiting to happen.

Speaking of— Out of the corner of her eye, Sci notices a blonde person with a blue mark over their eye, blue wings and tail adorning their form while they stare at the bot beside her specifically.

Well they look mad.

Snickering, she turns to Scripted and bumps his elbow, making a small motion with her head to make him look over.

“Seems RTV isn't the only one with fans here, Director.”

Scripted furrows his eyebrows and cautiously glances over her shoulder, analyzing the person for a moment only to look away and murmur back to the Siren.

“Not a clue. They don't seem that interested but keep an eye out.”

Sci raises an eyebrow and scoffs, yet nods regardless. If it wasn't Scripted then it was Michael, but what the hell did Michael do? She didn't know he had enemies! Actually, she finds that very hard to believe. Michael? Having enemies? With THAT face? HAH!

Ah well.

Once the voting seemed to end, RTV spoke through the chatter once more, catching the trio's attention.

“THANK YOU ALL FOR VOTING! LOOKS LIKE WE WILL GO TO THE ART DEPARTMENT FIRST! IF YOU WOULD FOLLOW ME, PLEASE!”

An option they didn't choose but one they will have to reluctantly take. Save for BB, who's excited to see more of the facility and actually participate on the tour. As the tourists begin to ascend the stairs, Sci notices a dragon fly up to the rail and land close to RTV, causing her to scoff with an amused smile.

Bold move, Marie. But she garners the Siren's respect.

… And her attention away from the messed up stairs. Her foot gets stuck on the edge of the very last step, causing the fish to trip and stumble in her walk but she’s quick to regain her balance. Maybe looking like an absolute fool with her arms stretched out and her boss and co-worker looking back at her, but she’s fine nonetheless! The Siren stands back up straight after a pause and a nervous smile, puffing out her chest as she continues walking as if nothing had happened, “cool— cool— all cool, we’re chill.”

Scripted rolls his eyes and sighs, resuming their walk through the hallway as RTV led the tour group. He hums, quietly murmuring to his lackeys once more as they look around.

“Let's start falling back. BB, you can go ahead of us when we get to the art department, Sci and I will take care of Lucian.”

The bunny and fish nod, one with enthusiasm and the other not so much.

“Aye aye!”

“Roger.”

And as told, Bunnybot begins to step towards the front of the group while Scripted and Sci fall back, separating to keep their plans in motion as they get to the art department. The Director doesn’t pay much attention to the guide, the Siren, however, does as she multi-tasks keeping an eye out on possible useful things like her boss AND admiring the work of the production. She was an artist, damn it! She wanted to know more about the studio process too! Even if she had personal experience working for another Puzzlevision Studios. Sue her!

The duo continues to look around until a new employee is introduced.

“Oh, you’re already here! Oh sh-should I introduce myself?”

“Colores, head of our Art department and funny enough the younger SISTER of Lucian over there.”

The Siren’s fin flicks as she glances up at Colores, then glances over her shoulder at Lucian, watching as he waves and is painfully ignored. She winces, shooting a pitiful look at the neon sign head that probably doesn’t even notice amidst the crowd. Looking forward again, the fish looks down at the floor in thought, tuning out the rest of the talk as some memories pass through her mind.

She doesn’t even notice when the group begins to move again, not until Scripted lightly clears his throat and snaps her out of her thoughts. Sci glances over at the bot, who glances back with a raised eyebrow and an expectant look. The fish blinks and realizes it was time for the next part of the plan.

Her part.

She frowns at the Director, letting the other participants walk around them as they stood still for a moment. Scripted frowns back with a glare, the both of them having a quiet conversation with just their expressions until Sci lets out a silent resigned sigh. The duo begins walking again; this time, however, the fish and the bot separate. With Sci trailing behind everyone, she eventually becomes the very last person to rally up in the tour and the closest to Lucian.

God, she didn’t want to do this… I mean, she DID but starting conversations was never her strong suit. But she had to! For the sake of progressing and not getting Scripted on her ass yelling at her.

Actually she’d much rather take a lecture from him right about now—focus.

Taking a deep breath, the fish looks behind herself and steps next to the head of security, talking a bit quietly to not disturb the conversations happening up on the front or garner attention.

“Hey. Lucian, right?” The fish person meekly starts, looking up at the neon sign with a friendly smile. “I’m Sci, SciMagic.”

Lucian snapped out of his thoughts that he had temporarily lept into, before his sign head turned to look at Sci. He recognized her as the fish-person that had been hanging out with the doppelganger and the creepy glasses.

“That’s me”, he meant, putting one hand on his hip as his head started to spell out [Hi!]. “Though I will have to disappoint you, I’m afraid I don’t recognize people as well as my boss. What’s up?”

"Oh. Pssh," the fish flicks a wrist at Lucian, dismissing the disappointed claim. "Nah, don't worry about that, I don't think I'm uh— that interesting of a subject to be known by people. Let alone by your boss—"

She murmurs that last part with a raised eyebrow, but she shakes her head after.

"Anyway, I just wanted to chat a bit. You seemed like a cool guy."

Lucian seemed slightly surprised by that, giving the crowd around them a glance before making a gesture for Sci to continue. He supposed he could spare a few minutes, it wasn’t like much was happening right now.

“Thanks and sure.” He shrugged. “I’m guessing you have a few questions? Not sure I can answer them, but I will try my best.”

The fish smiles up at him with small delight, "thanks, 'ppreciate that."

Sci hums as she goes through the questions in her head. Definitely not a studio layout with secret parts included right off the bat.

"Mm, what's it like working here? Any fun?"

Almost immediately his sign head blanked out as he stopped it from accidentally displaying any of his actual thoughts. Happened a few times before and it wasn’t fun.

“Ah- the work? Well, I suppose it’s fine…” he replied, rubbing his neck as he tried to come up with something that sounded like he was somewhat enjoying his current occupation. “Sometimes it gets tough, security and all that, ya know? But the thrill of figuring out these difficult situations makes it fun again. Trust me though, the other departments? Way more enjoyable. Well, aside from the janitors I guess…”

The fish snickers lightly, "so I've heard..."

She shoves her hands in her pockets, casually leaning back as she continues to chat.

"And I hear ya, I'm— actually on the line of security too…! Tough job but I guess it's given to the toughest for a reason."

Lucian slightly perked up at that, his interest rising.

“Ya don’t say? What line exactly if I could ask?”

At her indirect compliment he simply huffed amused. Yeah, sure. RTV gave him this job because he wasn’t shy of hurting people, alright. Not exactly because he was careful.

"Personal bodyguard," Sci answers with a close-eyed smile, faltering almost immediately as she looks to the side with a bit of a grimace, "though— for the most stubborn person ever that doesn't know when not to get into fights..."

He couldn’t help but chuckle at that, making a vague gesture over to RTV.

“Feel ya there, sister. I also have to play that role sometimes when a certain someone decided to make public appearances. When your boss has a sharp tongue it never gets boring at least.”

Sci groans out loud and rolls her eyes, smiling with annoyance and also relief at the shared sentiment.

"Ugh! Tell me about it! It's like they have a knack for pissing off the people that CAN actually kill them! Talk about poking the belly of the beast."

”Yeah, sometimes you think they do it on purpose…”

He muttered, though the previous amusement had slipped from his voice as the word ‘kill’ came up. “‘suppose they just love hiding behind us. The strong muscle.”

"Mh-hm..."

Sci hums before she stays silent for a moment again, turning her gaze back to the front as she hears it’s time to participate in another group vote.

“Oh, and don’t think about SNATCHING something that belongs to the studio, as great as some of the artist tools and merch look. Camera sees ALL and that jazz.~”

Her eyes discreetly glance at said cameras, taking a quick look at them before diverting her gaze back to normal again. A bit of a twitch on her eyebrows as the vote begins once more.

She crosses her arms and glances off to the side, a hesitant look on her face as she begins talking to Lucian again.

"... Sometimes it's the dirty work that gets me, y'know? I can fight, sure, but what he asks of me..."

The fish frowns, fins falling slightly as she mutters.

"Can't exactly say 'no', though…”

Lucian listened for a second to what RTV was rambling before his attention was turned back to Sci. Ah, hilarious. Someone who was in the same situation as him? A funny coincidence…

“So your boss got ya on the hook too? Tough luck,” he sighed, stuffing his hands in his pockets. “I would love to tell you that you shouldn’t blame yourself, but well, a bit of humility never hurt anyone, right? Second you try to justify, you may have crossed the line completely.”

There was a sound akin to someone exhaling, before his voice slightly lowered.

“Patience is a virtue. You never know when your chance comes, so don’t give up.”

And there it is...

'Dirty work'.

Sci hums at his advice, her smile now completely fallen as she gets a more serious maybe even a bit saddened look. It was good advice... She appreciated it from someone she could relate to. But nevertheless, she got what she needed. Unfortunately.

The fish lightly scoffs, tone lowering as she gives a side eye to the object head.

"Hope you haven't given up yourself then."

She turns her body to Lucian, looking up at him with caution as she tries to turn her head away from the crowd’s eye. "I don't wanna get you in trouble... Ocean Gods know that's the last thing I wanna do to someone in the same situation as me. But your boss and mine aren't the best of buddies and I'd appreciate a little bit of help."

Sci shrugs, "you help us, you get that chance to bring down RTV."

”Never…”

He hummed. Last thing he was going to do was give the TV the satisfaction of breaking him.

The object head didn’t show a reaction at Sci’s offer, having kind of seen it coming. Someone trying to bond with him, with the same experiences, it seemed a little too perfect. Well, he couldn’t really bring up the energy to feel hurt.

“First of all I suggest you never mention all that again. It’s your one way ticket to disappearing..”, he replied, his tone a bit colder now. “I doubt you can achieve your goal, but who am I to not help out a participant?”

He now turned his back, shielding Sci and himself from the view of the camera. The same camera he now pointed at.

“I can’t move or the boss will come to drag me back personally. What I can do though is keep the eyes off you for a small time frame. Not forever though, the thing that’s watching ain’t stupid.”

The Siren gives him a sheepish smile, "had to get you in somehow. But fine,” she nods. "I can work with that. Thanks. I'll probably signal when we need it."

”Mh-hm.”

He just turns back again, ready to walk off now.

“Just warning you. When you get caught I ain’t bailing you out.”

"Naturally..." The fish sighs quietly, about to take a step away only to turn back with a final thing to say, looking up at Lucian with a guilty and hopeful look.

"Ah... Good talk... I really hope we can have more in the future. Preferably when we're not busy..."

... She really wanted that. Not be burdened with their jobs or plans, with the chains around their ankles from their TV headed superiors. Make an actual acquaintance for once. He seemed cool, after all…

“Maybe. We will see how it goes”, he muttered, before stepping away. He didn’t really have much hope for this to work out.

Sci’s face falls once Lucian steps away, fins laying flat as she gets lost in her emotions for a second or two. But once she snaps back to reality and remembers what she’s supposed to do, she lightly shakes her head, her eyebrows furrowing back to focus mode as she scans the crowd for her… boss.

She steps up next to Scripted once more, arms crossed as Sci looks off to the horizon, not even looking at the bot as she mutters her small success.

“No need for bargain… But we got it.”

The Director hums quietly, a small sly smile tugging at his lips. “Makes it easier for us then, good.” He glances over at the Siren, his smirk falling when she turns her head away from him. The bot silently scoffs, looking forward again and away from Sci too, unbothered to deal with her sentimentality.

[thelunarfairy]

Hey there! Am back :3

Chap 120 was uh...ow. AidaIro hurt my feelings to put it lightly.

Ahem- anyways.

I was thinking a lot about how in thos timeline, Tsukasa and Amane almost switched roles. I mean, Tsukasa is still infested with the entity, but Amane is the one doing the enitity's bidding this time. I know Hanako still had the entity in him in the normal timeline, but you het the point.

Anyway, I wanted to know your take on why Amane seems so out of control with the entity, and Tsukasa handles it better. Why Hanako needs a seal. I mean, Tsukasa does some pretty fucked up shit, sure, but he also doesn't try to kill everyone or sacrifice them (Sakura, Natsuhiko, etc). It's like Tsukasa and the entity have more of a partnership, while Amane is almost enslaved to it.

Now, I know memory also plays a part here, because he doesn't recognize Kou or Nene (at least not u til the split second when Nene screams for Hanako to help her) and it snaps him out of it. If he remembered them, would he able to hold back and not murder Kou and Mitsuba? Then again, can't exactly ignore all the murdering he's doing anyway. Besides that, Amane has always been known to have the kinder temperament. You can see it in his eyes versus Tsukasa's, and his personality in general.

I guess my curiosity stems from the fact that with the entity, Tsukasa never killed humans despite having the entity in him. He was probably hurting Amane, but it was because he WANTED to break Amane right? Wanted him to kill him. So why could Tsukasa grow up (before he was murdered obv) and not go on a murderous rampage, while Amane does? Amane is literally an adult too, and Tsukasa is still a child! Lil psychopathic bb.

Sorry if this is too long of an ask 😅 I really dont know how to stfu lol. Excited to see your take on this if you decide to!! No worries if not :)

Hello dear!!!!! welcome back!!!

That chapter made the fandom suffer XD

You answered your own question. Tsukasa has a special connection with the entity. Apparently he is the first one not to fear the entity, he taught it to speak and stayed with it daily for a while.

Tsukasa sacrificed himself willingly, he fulfilled the agreement, and he went alone, he didn't have to be forced to do it. So yes, he and the entity have a partnership.

Tsukasa does what the entity asks, which means that it doesn't need to control and order him, because he will do it.

And the entity "trusts" Tsukasa so much, that it allowed him to come back, and the one who asked it to come back with him was Tsukasa.

It wasn't the entity that said "you'll only come back if I go with you".

It was Tsukasa who said that the entity would go with him.

In the old reality, Tsukasa is committed to accomplishing some still mysterious things, his intelligence resonates with the entity. He can convince it to do certain things or stop it.

Like how he easily makes the house retreat when he sets it on fire.

Not because the house wouldn't listen if he asked, but because Tsukasa was pretending not to have a direct connection with the house to Kou and Nene, so that they wouldn't suspect.

He wouldn't say "stop it" in front of them, so he used another effective way without taking away the idea that he is trapped and is a victim of the house. Yes, he is a victim, but he was the one who chose to sacrifice himself, he wasn't forced to do it.

He talks casually with the entity, as if they were close friends. He isn't afraid of anything, so Tsukasa doesn't need to be manipulated or controlled, he does what he has to do.

Remember that I'm referring to Yorishiro and little Tsukasa from the old reality. It's still too early to conclude anything about Tsukasa of the new reality.

Amane from the old reality fears the entity, you can see the fear reflected in his eyes, he knows the danger that creature represents. Hanako doesn't like the entity and is forced to do the things it demands.

He doesn't like what he does and is against it, but it seems that he has too much experience and understands that fighting the entity is problematic. The entity will force him to do what it wants, as you saw, and since Hanako doesn't want to do what it asks, then the entity takes control over him.

This seems to be something that really happened in the old reality too, since he can only control himself if he is sealed.

In the new reality, Amane has no control at all, suddenly he is controlled and the entity does what it wants without even allowing Amane to have memories of it, so that he won't be able to try to get rid of it.

So in short, Tsukasa has a partnership with the entity, so it doesn't need to control Tsukasa at all. (in the old reality).

Hanako fears and is against the things the entity does, that's why he is possessed, to be forced to do what the entity wants.

Amane probably wouldn't kill Kou and Mitsuba if he were fully conscious, at least if it didn't have any direct objective.

For example, if he needed to sacrifice the two for someone he loves, he would do it. He already did. Hanako will always be Hanako, what changes are the circumstances. As much as he is kind, he still has the potential to be someone bad.

Tsukasa hurting Amane is an old theory, because the signs point to it, who would Amane forgive for hurting him like that?

Tsukasa, but Nene too.

Tsukasa can be aggressive and violent with people, but so far he has never been like that with Hanako. That must mean something. I once created a theory about Amane's injuries.

Now about Tsukasa, don't believe that he is a "psychopath".

We now understand how the entity works, in many moments we have clearly seen how the entity also influences Tsukasa's actions, just as Aidairo made it clear how the entity acts.

Amane is a serial killer now, but it is not exactly him. The boy is just a shell that is being controlled by the entity, it is the entity that wants the deaths.

You just said that Tsukasa does not kill humans, how would he be a psychopath if he does not kill humans?

Remember, the entity is still inside him.

Why is Tsukasa, who has always had the entity inside his body, still considered a "psychopath", and when Amane kills MANY people, he is just the boy who is being "controlled?".

Do you see the point here?

They both have this thing in their bodies, and they are both under its influence. Neither Amane nor Tsukasa want to kill anyone, in any reality.

The only psychopath that exists here is the entity.

Don't worry!!!!!!! Thank you!!

[gojonanami]

found out you were a lawyer and omg???

i’m still new to your page so I’ll probably look like a clueless baby lol. i LOVE your works though <3

as a current college student who is also considering law, what’s your experience with the field and such? i’m considering it but i have a tough time with public speaking and overall assertiveness. plus i heard the hours are crazy and a girl likes to rot from time to time.

you don’t have to answer if you prefer not to speak on your personal life. still sending love and appreciation for your writing <3

ahhh welcome!! glad you’re here friend :)

I don’t mind speaking to my own experience!! so there are options in law where you don’t have to public speak or be so aggressive, which is more on the corporate / in house side. that is more negotiations and contract review and working with clients rather than going to court and litigating (what you usually see on TV)

hours are def a lot sometimes especially if you go the big law route — which means a larger firm. but you can usually find more balance as you get more senior in your position and/or go in house (working for a company as counsel) or work at a smaller to mid size firm

I would say do some informational interviews (usually college alumni from your own school are a great place to start), shadow an attorney in a field you’re interested in or try to get an internship. those are the best ways to see if it’s for you!! good luck bb 💕

[grizzlyofthesea]

My FNAF Movie Experience

I was so excited to see the FNAF movie on opening night. I had my mom with me, we had our snacks, and of course, my costume:

I'd been waiting for this for over 8 years. The hype was real--and not just for me. I only saw one other person in full costume (dressed as Afton), but plenty of others brought their plushies and wore their best merch.

Did the movie live up to this massive anticipation?

For me, yes. It has flaws, but as a tribute to the FNAF fanbase, I adore it.

LOTS OF SPOILERS BELOW. PROCEED AT YOUR OWN RISK.

There were so many nods to the fandom. Here are the ones I can remember off the top of my head:

Dream Theory appearing as a book Mike reads

Chica's Magic Rainbow being the mascot/logo of an ice cream place at the mall

The Balloon Boy jumpscares. Annoying (but surprisingly effective) every time, just like the real BB.

Afton (as Steve) over the phone telling Mike, "See you on the flipside," referencing the "Phone Guy is Purple Guy" theory

Sparky/Fetch appearing as a spare suit

CoryxKenshin making a cameo as the taxi driver (My theater FREAKED OUT at this.)

Matpat making a cameo as the waiter at the diner, even saying his famous line, "But hey, that's just a theory." (Again, the audience was very pleased.)

The aforementioned diner being called Sparky's

TLT's FNAF song playing during the end credits

The animatronics were, of course, stunning. I mean, it's the Jim Henson company. Of course they were going to be awesome. (Oh, and Bonnie gets a plaid tie instead of just plain red. Adorable.) The actors inside the costumes did really well, too, mimicking their slow, deliberate, robotic movements. Except Foxy. He wasn't played by a suit actor at all, probably because of his skinny legs. So for that, massive props to the puppeteers. Oh, and his little "dum diddly dum" song? Kellen Goff sings it here. Amazing work from Mr. Goff as always.

I know some people were disappointed by the lack of on-screen gore, but honestly, I like how the violence was handled. FNAF has always been relatively blood-free, so it's only fitting. And honestly? That silhouette of Freddy biting Max in half was chilling, and I think it wouldn't have been nearly as good if we had seen it in full.

The horror as a whole was on the tame side, but it was still enough to spook my mom. Take that for what you will.

The Balloon Boy jumpscares were hilarious. So was Mr. Cupcake. The fact that Mr. Cupcake was the biggest threat out of the main animatronics was kind of awesome. Goofy? Heck yeah. But it's so silly that, at least for me, it loops back to being awesome.

Mike and Abby had an adorable sibling dynamic, and I am SO GLAD that Vanessa didn't end up as a love interest for Mike. Mike communicating with the children's spirits and taking damage from them through his dreams isn't something I expected, but I found it interesting. The Golden Freddy kid being the de facto leader of the missing children (and a manipulative little troll) was very fitting, too.

Art, specifically children's drawings, was a notable focus of the movie; the drawings seemed to symbolize communication, imagination, and escapism. I thought this was a creative way to incorporate the children's drawings that we've seen in the background since the first FNAF game.

Matthew Lillard as William Afton/Spring Bonnie/Springtrap doesn't get enough screentime, but he absolutely kills it when he's in the spotlight. I just wish there was more of him. Same goes for the animatronics.

Overall, while this isn't a perfect film, I love it so, so much. I can't wait to see what the future holds in terms of sequels, too; at the very end of the credits, "My Grandfather's Clock" plays, and a Speak 'n' Spell spells out "C O M E F I N D M E." FNAF 2 and the Puppet are at the very least being teased!

[electricbluebutterflies]

and if you felt like it, kiss in the rain for poe/rey!

PG-ish and also on ao3.

Rey is losing track of how many new experiences she’s had how quickly.

It’s a big world out there, it turns out now that she gets to experience more of it, and there are a lot of people who want to meet the girl who saved it, and-

She’s not sure who exactly calls a break from the whole victory-tour thing that may consume the next few years of her life, but she knows who figures out the details of said break and that’s enough information for her.

Really, if she’s followed the situation correctly, what’s happened is Poe hasn’t been home in years and there are some more personal oh-you’re-still-alive situations he needs to handle relatively soon, and somehow this gets spun into an indefinite several-week vacation, and-

Rey owes him. So, so much. She may just have to be more careful with their droid for a while. Maybe.

They have been here for nearly a week, on the greenest planet she’s ever seen and she can only imagine what it might be like to live a life here, and their group has spread out a little and the whole trip has been fantastically unorganized and more familiar and fun than the past year of her life combined, and-

She stands in an empty green space, overwhelmed. The air has a weight to it here, a signal that the skies above are about to open, and no one needs anything from her at all today and she has nothing to prove and-

She could stay, she thinks. She may have to stay. BB-8 likes her better, and she’s not sure she wants to figure out a custody arrangement for a high-personality droid, and it would be… easier if she lays her roots where her counterpart is most inclined to, and-

Oh, speak of the-

She hears that familiar chirping in the distance and coming her way, followed by an equally familiar human, and there’s just something delightful about it. Her world is bigger than this, her heart is bigger than this, but if she has to make choices, if she has to-

“Thought you’d be out here.”

“Is that a problem?”

He laughs, and there’s just something inherently comfortable about that man, something like sunlight, like warmth and-

“You, never.”

That may be a slight understatement, she thinks, but as long as she isn’t explaining that she didn’t tell their shared pet to follow her into possible peril…

“I see why you love it here.”

“You could… come back, if you wanted, when everything’s over, if you-“

She suspect he’s given the same offer to quite a few people and it doesn’t necessarily mean anything, but-

She can see outlines of a future in those eyes, a future where she’s safe and it’s quiet and maybe she gets time to decide how she feels about somebody touching her and maybe she gets to decide she likes it, maybe she gets a life where she isn’t so alone, maybe-

It’s a lot to hope for, and Rey is no daydreamer, but-

“You may be stuck with me forever if someone has any say.”

“Wouldn’t be the worst thing.”

Maybe there’s a life like this, she thinks, maybe-

She feels soft cool rain on her skin, and still she stands rooted in what feels like the middle of nowhere, just her in the middle of everything, and she could stay, and she could want that, and-

Something about her current situation feels electric, like anything could happen and maybe she can be impulsive for once like she never gets to be, maybe-

She’s kissed a lot of people, she reminds herself as she decides she might as well take the moment as it is. Doesn’t usually mean anything more than survival. This could, if she lets it, if she-

She’s never put her mouth on someone who didn’t ask for it or at least see it coming. She tastes the heartbeat of shock, and then something like delight, like-

“So I was wrong about you.”

“Oh?”

“Wasn’t sure you’d… done things like that before.”

“I survived,” she murmurs, rolling her eyes. “I’m good at that.” And if she ever says anything more about that, the people she loves may react a little too much, but-

“Was that-“

“That was because I wanted to.” A little flip of her hair, and there’s just something so light and calm about this, about-

“Okay.”

“Is it… okay if I want you?”

From her current position she can’t quite see the what-am-I-supposed-to-do-with-this look he still defaults to around her, but-

“If you can take your time with it…”

She takes another kiss, sweet, different kind of spark, different kind of-

Whatever happens to her otherwise, she thinks, is going to have to happen around this little crush or whatever it is. She is not coming back from what she’s just done the same person.

“I can try.”

“I’m not saying no, I’m saying… don’t do anything you’re not sure about, Rey. You don’t have to-“

“If I thought this was transactional, I would’ve jumped you a year ago.���

“And that is a mental image I do not-“

“Clearly I haven’t done that, so-“

“Warn me, if you start thinking-“

“I’m not sure if I want that. It would mean something, if I did, and… I want it to mean something, and-“

She’s gotten used to being held, at least, the caution of his hands on a very covered part of her back, and-

She’s laid her body down next to this man, gotten through nightmares no one else could ever understand with him, done some pretty incredible groundwork for something stable even ignoring the currently chirping ball of metal just out of her reach, and-

If this is what life is, Rey thinks, she could be alright.

“If you still want… next time we get this kind of a break, in a year or two if we’re lucky…”

“You’d make me wait that long?”

“Still a lot of galaxy you haven’t seen. Don’t want you settling for-“

“I don’t think I would. But if you need to wait…”

“Something like that?”

“I’ll live.”

[hayatoseyepatch]

SAM CONGRATS ON 500 WOOHOOO ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و here are some answers to your match up hehe :3

personality : im more reserved and closed off irl but once i get comfortable with someone i tend to yap yap yap !! my interests are writing, playing games, going to cafes and bookstores and watching movies and tv shows. i also love to cook especially if it’s something i’ve never tried or made before :D my prns are any but i lean more to she / her sometimes! umm .. i can also be very clingy and secretly jealous / possessive 🫣 and am a chronic overthinker yaaaay /lh (im also very indecisive and completely avoid confrontation if that means not hurting someone else’s feelings) however if someone is ever mean or rude to a person i care about then i have no problem speaking my mind ehuheue

fandoms : love and deepspace, wbk, jjk and genshin!

tropes : oh my oh my, i’m a sucker for best friend / childhood friends to lovers au. or meet cute moments.

what’s my type : i feel like my type is all over the place tbh, because i think the charas i fall for are all very different but i do look for someone who’s understanding and patient, but also has a great sense of humor. (esp dark humor bc that’s how i am lol) but also someone who is adventurous and helps me get out of my shell since im prone to sticking to my comfort zone T_T

favorites : sakura, suo and ume. gojo, choso and toji. sylus and xavier. ga ming, zhongli and kaeya.

icks : hmm, i can’t think of any rn tbh lol.

i thinkkk tht’s all 😮‍💨 once again congratulations it’s very much deserved 🤍🤍🤍

Whimsy bb oh my goodness I actually adore you please I’ll sob THANK YOU!! ٩(ˊᗜˋ)و ♡

I match you with Toji Fushiguro from JJK!

⤜♡→ Toji didn’t believe in love, not at first. Given he never received it from his family it was not a concept he understood or believed himself capable of. You changed his mind quicker than he cared to admit. It wasn’t long before you had him eating out of the palm of your hand and absolutely smitten with you.

⤜♡→ I HATE the mischaracterization that Toji is nothing more than a broke fuckboy I’m so sorry. Once he has someone who shows him the tender care and affection he is missing out on, he would do anything for them. He doesn’t mind being patient with you as you need to be just as patient as him, the both of you navigating through tumultuous waters, together.

⤜♡→ he loves your sense of humor, I feel like Toji uses humor as his own coping mechanism. So your dark humor has him splitting at the seams constantly, the both of you cracking jokes to each other. His favorite thing to do is see you smile and hear your laughter, so he’ll keep it up so long as he gets to experience your joy.

⤜♡→ Jealous and possessive are two of his character traits I’m so sorry!! So the both of you constantly have a need to have your hands on each other in public, a silent claim to the other. He loves seeing the way you blatantly claim that he’s taken to anyone who dares hit on him, there’s a warm pride that fills his chest that he cant explain.

Toji adores absolutely everything about you, from the cute way your eyes light up when talking about something you were passionate about, the way your hands feel so small in his own as you drag himself somewhere, the smell of returning to your cooking at the end of the day. He loved it all. Toji hadn’t expected to fall for you but he had. The cute girl who frequented the same coffee shop. Having caught you staring at him over the brim of your cook a few times. Relishing in the way your cheeks flushed when he smirked and winked at you as he caught you staring again. The next day he had gotten there early, pressing the barista for your usual order. He came here often enough to know when you also came into the café. S that day when you came in you saw the table already occupied, the guy who often sat across the café now at you table beckoning you over.

He smiled as you approached, pushing the cup toward you. “Hope you don’t mind some company.” The both of you had sat there for hours, just talking and relishing in the presence of the other. Toji wasn’t sure what had pulled him toward you but he was grateful it had. The months that followed filled with getting to know one another. He was endlessly grateful for your patience with him. His childhood with the Zenin’s wasn’t easy and into his adulthood he was more often used to people wanting him for his body and that was it. But not you. You showed him an affection he had never experienced, a love that he couldn’t let go of. You made him want to be a better person.

His cheeks flushed as you laughed at him, his large hands palming the pumpkin in his hands as he carved a face into it. “Toji, baby, what is that?” You said, giggles interrupting your sentence. He furrowed his brows, eyes narrowing at you playfully. “Oh yeah? Like yours is any better.” He grumbled, only for his eyes to widen at the cute face delicately carved into your pumpkin. “Alright whatever show of.” He laughs scooping you into his arms, pulling you onto his lap. He grins pressing kisses on the side of your face, lips unstopping as they began to trail down your neck. “Alright pumpkin, I got some other guts I think I need to scramble yeah?” He coos, lips pressed against your ear. He gives you one final kiss, smacking your ass playfully as he send you off to the bedroom telling you he’ll be in there in a moment. Looking down he sees his phone light up with a text from Shui as he was cleaning up the mess you both left behind, it was details of an upcoming job. He pockets his phone as he hears you calling out for him. Someone else could handle the star plasma vessel, he had everything he could ever want and more right here.

[freifraufischer]

Okay this interview with former Georgia now Egyptian gymnast Sandra Elsadek is such a train wreck that I need to share some quotes. But please please watch the interview, start at 5.33 in the video and... if you find yourself in the nightmare of her meandering through her travel home from African champs skip ahead...

For context her father is Egyptian and her mother is from Brazil. My comments are in [brackets]. I'm not going to quote the actual line but she appears not to know that there is a third Egyptian woman qualified to Worlds through the World Cups.

This interview is a TRAIN WRECK.

Elsadek: I just finished my fifth year of eligibility at Georgia and I was like hey Ryan if you find me another way to get me eligibility let me know. A joke obviously there is nothing left for me. He goes, 'Well do you have citizenship in another country and I was like yeah actually I do. And he was like oh well we could try that.' And I was like oh my gosh, thinking he was joking like he was just saying that. And then later that night he sends me a text and he's like if you're really serious about this competing for another country let me know we'll sit down and come up with a plan and I was like oh my gosh...

Elsadek: I found an email on the internet. I was just looking up Egyptian National Team and I found this email and I couldn't find any other email. And I'm like oh well I'll guess I'll try it who knows if it will work. I drafted an email and it had all my videos from my past year from all my events and I sent it over and I told them what my dream was and what I'd like to accomplish and like is there any way we can make it work."

[To be clear she only competed VT/BB/FX for Georgia, she had 3 weeks to come up with an elite bars routine. Her D score is a 2.7. But that's okay we'll find out later she doesn't know how elite scores work...]

Elsadek: I hadn't done bars in months and I have to do all around in this in this umum in this whole thing. We had three weeks to scrap a bars routine together basically which was crazy.

Elsadek: There were some minor mistakes here and there but it was my first time competing All Around in over a year. I was happy with it Ryan was really good at pushing me to be prepared. He's very big on being prepared and disciplined...

Elsadek: The transition of you have to put your foot up before pass like in the corner in elite. Oh my gosh I don't know why that tripped me up so much. Because my foot would lift up and I'd start on the wrong the wrong foot it took me a while to get that one.

[Katherine over here trying to figure out how that works with like... having a foot on the ground ...]

Gobourne: How does it feel like to compete for your home country and what does it mean to you personally. Elsadek: I mean I'd say it's a really big honor. I don't know it's something you can't really describe. But having my dad with me that first week when I was in Cairo he would come to my practices and just seeing how like the smile on his face because he's here showing me his country that I had never been to before.

Gobourne: Can you tell us about the support and the resources available to gymnasts in Egypt compared to your experiences in the United States? Elsadek: Honestly they have a really good support system. They have a trainer, they live at a village, it's like the Olympic training center for national teams and the girls live there. I mean the men's team the women's team, so many sports live at this village and then the gym is like 10 steps away. So it's really cool they have a whole set up you know they get fed there they have their trainer they're living all together. The gym's right across they have pits they really hae a great set up and the resources are awesome.

[So why do they need you.... Egypt has one of the largest women's programs in the world...]

Elsadek: The girls are really good at speaking English so when I first got there I was trying to make conversation because I didn't know them yet and they knew exactly what I was saying which was really great...

[In fairness she goes on to say that her worry that she wouldn't be able to communicate with them was her fault... because she doesn't speak Arabic.]

Elsadek: My goal going into this was to hit 4 for 4 and qualify for Worlds because that's how you keep the ball rolling with this journey. Thankfully I was able to hit 4 for 4 and qualify for Worlds. So the next step is to go to Worlds and hit 4 for 4 and also qualify hopefully for the Paris Olympics.

[... she didn't hit 4 for 4. She got a 9.966 bars score... I don't care if you didn't fall a sub 10 score in elite is not a hit...]

Elsadek: I don't understand the scoring, at all, like elite scoring. Ryan's been helping me with your D score and your execution and all this stuff. I don't really understand it so I think that helped a lot because I didn't know I was just going...

Elsadek: The dollar's worth a lot there. I was ubering, I was Talabat ... Talabat is like their ubereats and it was so fast and it was so cheap. It was like two dollars for a whole meal with a dessert...

[I guess she wasn't eating with the other Egyptian women despite living in their national team center where they were eating...]

Elsadek: I had my college floor routine. They had beautiful floor routines, all their floor routines tell stories. My routine is just like la da da and I'm just like dancing and I feel like they're all looking at me going who is this girl and where is her story? My floor music right now is Pepas. Like that fun party sound basically. Their music was all kind of like spanish-y, like Tango. I loved it, it was beautiful. Some of them were like darker, have a hard and that's when they'd really hit it was just so good to watch. I want that. I want what you guys have. I'm over here dancing like a fool because college is so different. College is so flashy and show off and Elite is so tell me a story and elegant. I'm so sorry guys.

[What they have Sandra, is dance training... but I'll give her this in this mess of an interview... she recognized that her floor is a problem.]

Elsadek: I went up and asked one of the people at the hotel that was also running the competition, do you guys have like an uber eats here? He looked at me and was like "What's wrong with you? Why do you speak good English?" And I'm like that's because I'm from America. "But you're competing for Egypt?" But it was funny because they're just like why do you speak good English. Well that's because it's all I speak.

[The moment that I can feel the dislike radiating off this South African meet volunteer even hearing her retelling of this story... which she has no clue about.]

[archangeldyke-all]

Hiii Angel. The truth is that I'm new to Tumblr, I focus on writing and such. It's very difficult for me to reach more people and that discourages me a little, in the end I go into an episode of demotivation and end up deleting everything I wrote. Any advice?

hi babe! my best advice us to just keep going! i've been writing short stories and such since i first learnt how to use a pencil, most of them never saw the light of day. practice will never make perfect, but it will make things a lot easier and better!

i totally get the urge to delete everything. but im here to tell you DONT DO THAT. in a year or two, you'll be DYING to read your old works, and you'll look back on them so fondly. if you feel bad about having them on tumblr with no notes, make a google doc and save them all there! i'm speaking from experience, when i was in highschool i did a total purge of every story id ever written, literally hundreds of stories deleted. id pay a million dollars to get them back and look back on them now.

i would also recommend reading! other peoples fics, fiction books, even non fiction can be inspiring! whatever your preferred reading media is, read it! or listen to it! audio books are amazing, they help you pick up on things you might not notice while reading :)

lastly, dont give up hope!!!!!!! i promise you that if you keep at it, you'll start getting the recognition you deserve! itll take some time, and you might feel like giving up along the way, but keep going! always remember that the person you are TRULY writing for is YOU. and if you like your work, that is all that matters! notes are secondary to your self expression , what matters most about writing is that you're writing what YOU want to write , not what other people think about it.

(also on tumblr, dont forget to tag your works so people can find them easier! the character's name, the fandom they come from, the type of pairing and the genre are great tags to add to get your work out there on people's FYP.)

i hope this helped bb! keep at it! i hope one day ill get the pleasure of reading one of your works :) <3

[askinkiskarma]

Baeee Help me pleassseee ! 😭😩😓

So for the context there is this guy. We met 2 months ago and since the start our relationship was confusing. We met on a dating app, but as first timers in all of that, from the start we never expressed the way we met and never put a point of clarity of like "are we doing this to be together at some ?"

One time I did and it ended up being same. There was a clarity, but in the end I didnt understand anything.

Like since 2 weeks, its hey and how are you and nothing really to "lets start being friends" as we agreed on. And I tried.. I guess ?

So I know I am not an option and I need things to BE clear, always. I decided to write him this message. I know he has a lot of shit with university entering and maybe I was getting to far with the text below, I hope nof. I just am not a "girl in the pocket for plan B". And this is THE thing I cant accept.

Here is my text message🥺🙄 :

Hi

I'm sending you this message to tell you that I'm having trouble seeing the point of all this.

Don't get me wrong, you're a very nice person. That's not the problem.

It's just that it's getting monotonous and the fact that there isn't really any effort made to become "friends" since we have met, if that's what I understood, bothers me a little.

We rarely exchange and it doesn't really make sense.

I understand that you have a lot of work to do and that I'm not the center of the world. But if there's one thing I've learned so far, it's that when you're not a decision, a choice, even for something as simple as friendship, you can't play the game.

I don't want to become an option because I respect myself enough. I'm not saying this with pride, but with a deep empathy for myself, which I feel is right.

I don't know if I'm setting the bar too high. I don't know if I'm used to more concrete things in relationships or if I'm impatient. What I do know is to trust my feelings.

I don't feel like you're putting any effort into it and that's okay. You don't owe me anything.

It would just be nice if you'd finally tell me and we could stop this never-ending drag.

All this may have no substance and may be stupid, but I'm an honest person and I don't like stagnant situations.

Thank you and have a nice night time :)

I hope my message isn't taken on the wrong note.

So yeah... Thanks bb with all of my heart if you answer this really 💗💕 Means a lot 🥰

Please be honest... did I fuck up ? Because he has seen in. Its been 2 hours. I know its late but sh*t 😂

He aint be the good one if he isnt getting the point... right ?

hi xx

so first of all, i do think especially us, as girls, we tend to overthink a lot of scenarios (i'm super guilty of this too). i used to do this all the time, and be very upset when someone wasn't giving me the attention i thought i deserved or that i was giving to them, but in time i've learnt that most times it truly isn't personal - people have a lot going on in their lives, and sometimes (again, speaking from experience) life can get so crazy even the thought of answering a message or seeing a friend is very overwhelming. it doesn't mean you don't love them or appreciate them or prioritise them, it sometimes just means you absolutely can't handle it at the moment. now i'm not saying that's what happened, but it is something to maybe keep in mind going forward.

now, i think you were very respectful in your message and at the end of the day, you deserve someone who is on the same wavelength as you. men are very simple creatures, and a lot of the times we want to overcomplicate them and make them more complex than they actually are hahahaah - oh, what did he mean by that, did he try to send me a message, was he being purposefully cryptic etc. that's not usually the case. men show you what they think and feel - if they're interested in you, you will know. if you say it's been two weeks of barely any interaction or barely any effort made on his part, that to me is answer enough.

but who knows? see what he says!

good luck and smooches x

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

Hi Rachel,

In some of my writing I’m beginning to notice more and more that certain characters (not all) remind me of myself lol. And I hate it, I go back and rewrite them. But I’m interested if you relate to any of your characters as well so—Out of the characters you’ve written (Lonan, Reeve, Harrison, etc..) who do you think is the most like you? And what’s your take on writers seeing themselves in some of their characters?

feel about seeing reflections

Hahaha I used to HATE writing characters that were like me, and it took a while to realize that actually, they ALL are me in some iteration. To answer your question about writers seeing themselves in their characters—if writing characters that are “self-inserts” makes you joyful, DO IT!!! If writing characters who aren’t self-inserts but have attributes to you makes you joyful, DO IT! Or if you’re not into it—that’s fine too! Life is too short! Have fun with what works for you!

My experience below, this gets kind of intense as a warning! CW: suicidal ideation, disocciation

Aligning myself with my characters has been an intensely life-saving experience. I’m not sure I’d be here if it were not for Lonan… 16-year-old Rachel WAS him, and also needed him because literally nobody else “understood” where I was at except for him (undiagnosed autism for BOTH OF US??).

There was a time of my life where I couldn’t emotionally regulate at all, and in moments of stress, would often dissociate and quite literally converse with this man (looking back now, this was just a coping mechanism—confirmed by my doctor btw!—but for a couple years he was a genuine part of my psyche, like moved out of just character territory). I think I talked about this years ago, but I have a really distinct memory of disconnecting so much I quite literally thought he was THERE next to me, which I needed—he really became an externalization of the things I couldn’t deal with (or didn’t understand how to deal with). I needed to see myself reflected in the eye of someone else and for a really long time that was Lonan for me. Actually screaming crying that’s so cute.

And Lonan is similar to me in a lot of ways! This is a side tangent but when I was first diagnosed as autistic it made me wonder if I’d inadvertently written any autistic characters & it struck me way back then that the person most similar to me (Lonan lol) is probably also autistic. I was like—sensory issues?? No emotional regulation?? Speaks a bit oddly?? We are THE SAME. Haven’t really confirmed this in canon lol but I’ve been thinking about it since 2021.

Funnily, now that I have that diagnosis, my life is a lot more stable so like… I’m not currently the most like Lonan lol. But me at 16-19??? Absolutely him.

Unfortunately, I am currently HARRISON, which isn’t ideal but just like he’s a 21-year-old experiencing horrors I’m a 21-year-old experiencing horrors (which is why BB is sometimes painful to write cuz I’m like oooooh I’m feeling this… too much). To be fair, I’ve always said I’m the introverted version of Harrison (because I am lol our personality types are the same, not that I believe in those but since I was like 13 I’ve said this). But just like Lonan, Harrison has helped me now process some tough things this year that I’m not sure how else I would’ve survived. It’s important to me that I have fictional vessels to explore my own life with because it can help me identify problems & then learn to empathize with myself by empathizing with a character first.

Of course they’re also separate from me—they absolutely didn’t start as ME but as time goes on I start seeing myself in them particularly (Reeve sometimes too—our kindred spirits with processing toxic relationships <3). Maybe it’s because I am autistic, but I find it useful to understand my experiences via someone else. I love seeing the ways we can inform each other.

My TL;DR is I’m Harrison if he was Lonan so I guess I’m BB Harrison. Love this for me so much. But also add autism. Which is probably already there because: Lonan. LMAO and a dash of Reeve’s compartmentalization skills. And we have me!

[jaegersmoon]

from one of your last sneak peaks you put a phrase i was planning on putting in my own fan fic😭💔

this isn’t meant to be negative in any way!!! i just don’t want to put the same thing and make it look like i’m copying off of your work.

do you have any tips for me to avoid feeling like this?? i plan on starting my fic once i’m a bit more confident in my writing but i have already started to plan it out.

ah, bb. i wouldn’t think that at all.

how i see it is if your idea is all yours and you know that, then it is an original because it is original to YOU. we all live in the same world, consume the same media, have the same thoughts, and sometimes get inspired by the same things without even knowing it. and because of this, similar ideas can and will clash from time to time. it’s inevitable, even in the world of creativity.

when writing, you can’t compare your work to others because it will heavily negatively impact you, and it will make you doubt yourself and your own ability in places where there shouldn’t be any doubt at all. it can make it hard to write because of the fluctuation of negative thoughts clouding your mind, giving you this kind of sinking feeling that constantly has you on edge. i am speaking on this from my personal experience. it can be tough, i struggle with it every single day, and sometimes my mental health will deteriorate because of my constant comparison and contrast to other writers who are not me. if you feel like this, take a step back and reassure yourself that your mind and the things you come up with are unique, even if they are similar to something you’ve seen before.

your book & the things crafted in it are original because it is yours and yours alone. you know your ideas are original to you and your work. that’s what matters here, not what others have done or what they might do. don't doubt yourself. you have what it takes. i hope this helps. or maybe i’m just speaking in tongues. anyways, best of luck on your writing journey <3

[liyazaki]

You angel. I'm sorry if my rec (sooner or later) added to your workload, I sent it as a y/n? What do you think? Most BB songs feel like VP songs. Casual emotional destruction and all that.

I do want to know what you think needs to happen for Pete to consider letting Vegas back in? What would satisfy you? Or is the whole thing too damned to hell?

don’t apologize; I did it to myself. I got way too many music asks to break down my thoughts on each one, so making little GIF + lyric ‘poems’ was just easier. plus, as a GIFFer (gross word), clearly I’m a ho for a visual. I enjoyed doing it 💖 (still far from done, actually, but it’s 3AM & that’s a ‘problem’ for tomorrow). couldn’t agree with you more about the BB song overlap- and oof, “casual emotional destruction”? poetic.

here’s the thing: for better or worse (and in this case, it’s really the worst), Vegas is already in. he’s beyond in, actually- he’s so far under Pete’s skin that he’s shattered him.

their connection is the kind that burns like a brand & leaves scars as proof it was there. Pete didn’t ask for this, but it’s here anyway. the most beautiful aspects of Pete- his unwavering compassion, his way of always, always seeing the good in people, despite every reason he has not to- opened the door that allowed Vegas in.

it’s no fault of Pete’s; it’s who he is- and can we really fault Vegas, either? he’s barely seen the depths of caring we know Pete is capable of within the extremely limited, charged context they’ve known each other in- and yet, that little sliver of hope has shaken the foundation of Vegas’s world. this is all new to him, and it’s got to feel like the emotional equivalent of a finding an oasis in the desert.

there’s no going back for either of them. this isn’t a typical relationship that functions in any kind of healthy way, so my usual answers wouldn’t apply here. in my opinion, it would take much more than one episode- all we have left, unless we get a S2- for their story to conclude in a healthy way.

which honestly, I’m OK with- because their story isn’t a healthy one. to borrow from another classic tragedy, “these violent delights have violent ends.” we aren’t attracted to these kind of romances because they make sense or are made to last- they can’t last.

speaking from personal experience, that kind of love often makes you forget you have agency to begin with. like a forest fire, it swallows you whole and you forget what life was like- what you were like- before it.

and just like a forest fire, we can’t look away, either. destruction can be gorgeous, and even feel like ecstasy- at first. many people would happily volunteer to go up in emotional flames if it meant they got to experience that deep of a mutual connection for themselves.

to get back to your original question: all it took was a couple sentences from Vegas to have Pete literally falling to his knees outside of that bar, reaching a hand out tenderly to stroke his face- the imprisonment, beatings and abuse be damned.

so for me, the question isn’t what Vegas would need to do for Pete to let him back in. it’s will he find a way to be worthy of him now that he so irrevocably is?

send me VP asks, song recs (no more please), etc.

[akkivee]

so bat and bb minus ichiro meeting up in arb!!!

saburo had called the mc to meet him and jiro in akihabara (a very popular place for anime/otaku culture and you should check it out if you manage to go to japan one day!!!) because he traced a lead on the whereabouts of the mc’s master to a maid cafe. bat coincidentally happened to be visiting the same cafe, even came in literal moments prior to 2️⃣3️⃣ coming in, because jyushi heard about maid cafes from his friends and wanted to check one out lol. jyushi kicks the whole thing off like this tho and it’s pretty much the whole mood of this entire maid cafe experience lmao

maid a: welcome in, master~~ kyun kyun⭐️

jyushi: *chuckles* i have been welcomed to this feast for survival with such hustling enthusiasm………

edgy speak tl: wow we just walked in here and i already want to leave

kuukou and hitoya fuss at jyushi for a bit and it’s so funny to watch jyushi doing his edgy speak but kuukou and hitoya are very obviously replying to the translated text underneath his strange statements lmao anyway 2️⃣3️⃣ walk in with mc just then and jiro gets pretty flustered over the maid greeting like the otaku he is lol. the mc then notices bat!!! the mc introduces them to 2️⃣3️⃣ as the ‘three nice guys who helped him out the other day’ and then they’re seated at their tables. jiro tried to talk to the maid that greeted 2️⃣3️⃣, asking for the person their lead tracked to but their lead turns out to be their maid for this trip, who promptly seated them. jiro and saburo very quickly catch on they aren’t going to get any information out of her unless they spend money in the cafe lol except

jiro: i guess let’s check out the menu then….. everything’s so expensive????

saburo: huh??? this is just some low end kitschy cafe there’s no way— why is this so expensive??????

they out here charging $30 for a rice omelette and $8-10 for condiments lol bat went through the same ‘hf this stuff is expensive’ crisis 2️⃣3️⃣ did and decided to order drinks and leave (coffee for hitoya, coke for kuukou and hot cocoa for jyushi.) 2️⃣3️⃣, watching them, immediately decide to order drinks as well since it’s the least expensive thing on the menu, at a whopping $15 lol 😭 (jiro got coke, saburo got iced tea and the mc nervously chose between their choices depending on what the player picked lol) on bat’s side we’re treated to some good old hitoya bitching lol

hitoya: there are two things i can’t stand: the first: restaurants that are obviously price gouging and the second: people who blindly step into such places

kuukou: well i gotta agree with you on that ………

they fuss at jyushi some more lol when the lights suddenly go out and a spotlight shines on the maid serving bat. she announces the start of “attack ⭐️ affection injection!! special love bazooka drink: chugging battle!!!!” the prize if they participate is to have their order for free!! it’s nice for sure but saburo doesn’t really see any point in participating…….. until their lead comes up and tells them she’ll tell them everything if they all participate. and so they do just that lol and bat were pretty much volun-told to do the event lmao but then they reveal the drink

everyone is disgusted lmao

saburo quits immediately lol, much to jiro’s indignation, and gives a long winded explanation why it really isn’t necessary to drink this which prompts hellion extraordinaire, harai kuukou, to laugh at them and mock them for giving up before it’s even started. jiro gets riled up and back talks kuukou’s smack talk which riles kuukou up and before you know it, they’re challenging each other to who can finish the drink fastest. it a ‘battle between men!!’ as jiro dubs it lol

and so it begins!!!!!

it is truly an awful drink lmao

but!!!! neither jiro nor kuukou can give up here!!!! and they start chugging the drink to the shock and horror of the others. jyushi and saburo can’t believe what they’re seeing. hitoya recognizes their pride is really carrying them right now. hitoya begs kuukou to think about his body as he begins to falter; he doesn’t have to do this!! saburo tries to reason with jiro; this is meaningless!!! if he goes down here ichi-nii will be devastated!!! but jiro perseveres, and tells saburo that he can count on to finish this, he’s his older brother after all. saburo mournfully calls out for his brother as he begins to chug the monstrous drink even faster. and then the maid starts the final countdown—!!!

kuukou finishes his drink with only two seconds to spare and jiro slams his empty cup in the final second. kuukou won the battle!!!!

he starts to flex his win but that drink instantly starts coming up lol and saburo rushes to jiro’s side, whose mourning his loss and can barely get the words out. saburo consoles him, and tearfully tells him he doesn’t have to say a word (lmao) kuukou walks up to jiro tho, to let him know he’s pretty amazing!!!! he’s already looking forward to their next battle and jiro vows that he’s not going to lose next time!!! 💪🔥

and so bad ass temple takes their leave and the battle draws to a close 😌

[messerkampf]

Aaa it's so nice to see other Shadowrun fans on here 🥺 I just recently returned to Tumblr and now my blog is turning into a shadowrun art blog. You seem like you know a lot about the Shadowrun games! I've never played them before actually! I've only played the Tabletop (and still am!) so I guess my question is, is it's worth getting into now? I've had Shadowrun HK in my steam library forever now admittedly. Is there a certain order I should play?

Aaaaa welcome back!

I’m basically the inverse of you— the games were my introduction and now I’m trying to plunge into the 5e books 👀 I bought a corebook and two additional ones and I’m slowly carving through it and I’m very excited :]

Oh absolutely the games are worth it— I’ve only played Dragonfall and Hong Kong and not Returns, so I can’t speak for Returns, but the writing on the other two have made them rank among my top favorite games. I think Hong Kong is my favorite of the two, but just barely, because both are very good.

It’s always going to be difficult to emulate a ttrpg experience, since games will lack the complete freedom of choice you get in person, but both games give you lots of choices both in missions, the main story (with multiple endings), your parties, and even your backstory. It gives you plenty of role play moments that both effect the story and moments that don’t, but give you input and personality anyway.

Missions never felt overtly linear to me— there’s lots of options based on who in the party you bring and your own stats, and combat is fun and has enjoyable strategy, but also avoidable on some missions.

I was always excited to come back from a mission because there would be new Shadownet BBS posts and new dialogue with the NPCs back at the hub, and all of it is rich in character and lore (especially Hong Kong, but Dragonfall is good for it too).

They just feel very rich in story and character and it’s a blast both to play and replay. I loved it enough to get a soundtrack on vinyl akabdksjsns

Hong Kong is a great one to start with— there can be some jank in any of the games sometimes around combat balance, but honestly it’s more of a nuisance than anything. HK has my favorite setting and incredible character interactions and stories, and I definitely recommend talking to everyone and always checking Shadownet after each outting.

I feel like Dragonfall is a bit shorter, and it came before HK, so HK ironed out a few more of the kinks in gameplay, but both are very darn good and I’d happily recommend them both :] they’re also pretty replayable IMO, which is a nice bonus!

I intend to go back and play Returns bc I’m hungry for more content, and it’s set in Seattle, but from what I’ve seen there isn’t a set party that you stick with, and it’s the first in the series of games, so it’s a bit different play wise, but I’ll get to it eventually aksbdjsjsj

[daylighteclipsed]

not sure if you’ve ever talked about this before, but what do you think about the theory that part of why Kairi acts so weird is because she’s a princess of heart and, because she has no darkness in her heart, she literally cannot feel negative emotions? I personally have never really believed it because A. I think that gives the writing staff too much credit for her terrible writing, B. She’s definitely shown to have some ugly emotions before and C. The other princesses in question definitely have negative traits but. I still find it really interesting as a concept at least; maybe not taken to the full extreme of “no negative emotions,” but the idea that something about her makes it difficult for her to express or identify those

I say nothing’s out of the question, but it does feel like we’re giving the writers too much credit here. Like you said, we’ve seen other Princesses of Heart feel and express negative emotions before.

I personally don’t subscribe to the idea that there are any hearts in the KH universe that are all light or all dark. I think that goes against one of the series major messages about the nature of people. Xehanort’s attempts to create a heart of pure light fail because it’s just not possible. A heart is both. It needs both. So. Until we get a canon explanation, I see PoH as either A. people with abnormally large amounts of light but no less darkness than the average person, or B. people with abnormally bright light making it seem as though there’s more light than darkness in their heart when they have the same ratio as everyone else. The light just shines so bright that it conceals some (or most) of the darkness.

B makes the most sense to me. It’s the only way Elsa can be a PoH despite her nearly falling to darkness. And it might give us some insight as to how the power of love works in the KH universe. “So love has filled both [Anna and Elsa’s] hearts with light.” I think it’s easier for a PoH to use the power of love to create miracles than the average person because they have this naturally bright light. But that power’s not inaccessible to everyday people, just harder to use. When a heart is full of love, when someone is wishing and believing with all their heart, for just a moment, their light shines as bright as a PoH, and they make the impossible possible.

That said, we can argue the brightness of the light may affect how a PoH processes their emotions because so much love and positivity is needed for a heart to shine so brightly for a moment, let alone all the time (generally speaking). So negative feelings are maybe less likely to impact a PoH as much as the everyday person. Maybe the PoH feels these emotions less, so it’s much harder for darkness to overwhelm them. The brightness of the heart’s light acts as a buffer for things like resentment or despair… It’s an interesting idea for sure.

But it doesn’t excuse Kairi having as much character as a piece of cardboard lol A girl less prone to negativity than her peers could be really interesting if anything was done with it. Especially because we know experiencing pain, negativity, helps us understand others better — that’s the lesson from ReCoded… Imagine having so much love and compassion for people but not being able to understand their feelings… Someone’s dog died a week ago and you don’t understand why they’re still crying because when your dog died you only felt sad for a day. You know what I’m saying?

When taken to an extreme, that’s what I imagine angels are like. These creatures that feel so much love for humanity but struggle to actually understand humans because they don’t experience negativity (or at least aren’t supposed to)… I think we see a little bit of that in the BBS-generation Keyblade wielders. They’re raised to love and champion everyone, but they don’t really understand people or themselves individually because darkness and negativity are so shamed and demonized. Aqua senses darkness coming from Cinderella’s step-mother and sisters and thinks breaking in to destroy them with her sword of light is an appropriate first course of action aghdheudhshs

Maybe that’s intentional. KH is rife with Christian mythology. Maybe that’s what the lights within the 7 PoH are supposed to be like: angels, hanging out in these hearts until it’s time to move on. Kairi’s got a bit of angel symbolism in her white-winged team attack with Sora…

You could also — at least with the first set of 7 princesses — see it as commentary on the portrayal of classic Disney princesses/women, like those from the 1940s and 50s, and how they weren’t allowed to be angry. They were certainly allowed to weep and despair (for a little bit, as long as it looked pretty), but they couldn’t yell, couldn’t rage, couldn’t hate. I’m thinking of Giselle from Enchanted being surprised (and excited) the first time she experiences anger lol Maybe the lack of anger in Kairi feels unnatural because it is unnatural; these princesses have angels hanging out in their hearts. Iirc, the first time we see Kairi angry is in MoM. The first time! It takes the death of Sora for Kairi to express something even close to hatred.

Do I think Kairi’s written like this on purpose? Because she’s a PoH? Probably not. She has such minimal screen time, it’s hard to say. But there’s a lot in canon to support such a theory.

Edit: I forgot Jasmine and Belle are part of the og 7 PoH. My bad