#apologize and you just kept going?? like hhhh I don’t get it

[tiredsadpeach]

Man I just do not understand

[yoshkeii]

"𝙰 𝚜𝚑𝚢 𝚌𝚛𝚞𝚜𝚑"

࿐ character(s): Ushijima Wakatoshi, Daichi Sawamura, Kuroo Tetsurou

࿐ genre: sfw, soft/fluff, comfort, tiny angst if you squint

࿐ type: headcanons (hcs)? / imagine

࿐ requested by: @dumpsterfireinc 

⌦  shymale!reader (he/him)

⌦ ‘if I can request comfort hcs for Ushijima, Daichi, Kuroo, and Oikawa who have a crush on as shy male!reader who thinks the boys should be with a girl and not him.’

A/N: i had to drop oikawa on this one since i cant seem to get his personality out?? i- uh-. i apologize- also my way of writing hcs is weird? idk why i like writing like that, but eventually they’ll shift- somehow- (i’ll probably make a proper hcs post if you want-)

1-16-2021: sorry in advanced if this took waaay to long. im doubting my writings. kinda shit but im just burnt out.

𝚄𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚓𝚒𝚖𝚊:

❀ Ushijima had a crush on you. of course he would, someone so soft, gentle, and shy. he actually found it cute you having those aspects. even though not a lot of people would enjoy such an introverted person at times.

❀ being shy would fit well together with his own personality generally. like being stoic and quiet himself. at some points he genuinely thought you and him were perfect. just two puzzle pieces that could fit together.

❀ he doesn’t know when he had a crush on you till Tendou or someone would bring it up. cause he always somehow had his eyes on you in the halls, classes, etc. 

❀ adding on to his personality, he is very blunt and straightforward with his words. and when you heard those three words from the intimidating captain. made your heart skip a beat, muscles tense, and mind race.

❀ “..y-you.. like me??” the softened tone in your voice echoed within the empty afterschool halls.

❀ “Yes. I just stated that.”

❀ “..I heard you.. you dummy..” you muttered the last words softly. fiddling with your fingers nervously, he always found you fidgeting with something whenever you were nervous or put on the spot. your gaze kept low.

❀ the silence only just settled. making Ushijima await another word from your smaller figure.

❀ but he didn’t expect those words to slip out of your mouth. he never did.

❀ “Why.. Why would you want to be with me.. instead.” your voice still kept your softened tone, but it had a faint hint of sadness. the slight wavering of your voice gave way.

❀ “..isn’t it better to be.. with a girl instead? t-they’re better options. pretty. talented. i-i don’t.. have any of those.”

❀ Ushijima just stared, unsure on what to do. no one told him this would be a scenario or a possibility. thought it was simply just a yes or no to a confession, something quick.

❀ “You also won’t l-look.. weird.. o-odd.. with-” your voice cracked, tears gathered in your eyes. quickly wiping them away with a sniff.

❀ “F-fuck I’m sorry.. for c-crying..” softly cursing as you nervously laughed.

❀ “y/n,” Ushijima lifted your head gently with his hand making sure your eyes looked up at him, “..I don’t care, if people will look at us weirdly. I don’t care if they all knew or not.”

❀ he wiped the tears dripping from your eyes as you stared at him with disbelief.

❀ “I like you. No- I love you. That’s that. I love y/n, and nothing will stop that.”

❀ shortly, tears poured from your eyes from his words. softly murmuring apologizes for crying over this accompanied w/ a smile on your face. Ushijima just wiping your tears away for you, seeing how your face just melts in his hand in comfort. regaining composure after a couple of reassurances from him.

❀ “I-I.. I love you.. t-too.. Wakatoshi..” 

𝙳𝚊𝚒𝚌𝚑𝚒:

❀ mans had a big crush on you ever since you both had multiple shared classes. especially same homeroom.

❀ Daichi and you had an decent relationship, it wasn’t as close like he has with Sugawara or Asahi. having the same homeroom, he always found you alone and minding your own business a desk or two behind him in the back.

❀ sometimes exchanging the simple hellos and small talk whenever Suga and/or Asahi dared him to. knowing how his eyes occasionally drifts towards your direction of the room.

❀ for someone so quiet.. he didn’t know it could be a cute feature. an adorable one if he would say so himself. just seems too s o f t .

❀ your gentle voice always made his heart skip a beat, it was so calming. a remedy to his ears. after a few small talks and interactions, you both managed to hang out a little more often. being invited on study dates sessions since you were also pretty smart in the academics (brownie points!) 

❀ as of right now, his eyes were simply glued on you. just watching you talk about whatever subject. he really wasn’t paying attention... or at all. admiring your features from across the small table on the floor that was littered with notebooks, textbooks, papers and pens.

❀ he knew you were shy so he often kept things low and safe for you whenever you both hung out once in awhile. sometimes exchanging little sticky notes with each other to limit talking.

❀ once he confessed to you, through the last sticky note of his. not a manly way to really confess but he couldn’t figure anything else out for you. didnt want to scare you away.

❀ you stared up at the captain in slight doubt, going back to the note to reread the words written. ‘would you like to go out with me?’ tiny hearts here and there on the note.

❀ looking back up at him, you noticed the slight blush across his face. you realized he was serious.

❀ “..why would you want to go out with me?” your grip on the note slightly tightened, as thoughts began to flood your mind. “wouldn’t it be better- be better with a girl?? a-and.. not me.” you began to slip on your words, gaze slipping down to avoid his eyes as you noticed him looking up at you now.

❀ “..with.. a girl?” Daichi mustered out.

❀ “or.. anyone but... me. I’m not.. popular. I’m not.. p-pretty, c-cute.. handsome.. s-smart either...”  you began to ramble, negative thoughts after another.

❀ “H-hey y/n. y/n..!” Daichi was closer to you now, his hands on your shoulders hoping to get you out of your negative trance.

❀ it successfully worked, making you stop but your gaze still remain low. hearing a sigh from Daichi made you tensed, you liked him too. you loved him. but you don’t know if it was best for him to date you. or be in a relationship in that matter.

❀ Daichi wrapped his arms around you, “Don’t be so harsh to yourself. I denied most of the confessions... j-just.. to ask you out one day you know. I’m confident I want you more than any girl.” he muttered.

❀ noticing you relaxing in his arms made him slightly smile, feeling you hug back. your hands grasping the back of his gakuran, mustering the urge to cry you hid your face on his shoulders. eventually muffling out your soft sobs and various ‘i love you too’

𝙺𝚞𝚛𝚘𝚘:

𝚊/𝚗: 𝚐𝚘𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚐𝚒𝚏 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚖𝚎 𝚚𝚞𝚊𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐.

❀ it was obvious Kuroo was crushing on someone. and that someone was you. being one of the assistances, or at this point the team would’ve eventually called you their manager. often there to aid and help whenever needed so you stumbled by the gym many times to either drop something off for one of the members or coaches.

❀ always teasing and flirting with you, which wasn’t such an out-of-character of him. knowing him to be the master of provocation. but often when you weren’t there, he would start talking about you. unconsciously sometimes.

❀ which gave a big sign of his feelings, especially through Kenma. it wasn’t so hard to see, but you were dense and oblivious over it.

❀ he knew you liked him back eventually, seeing how you haven’t turned him down with any of his teases accompanied with the slight blush on your face each time. you were just too shy to say anything about it.

❀ he was aware that you were very shy and introverted. always seeing you staying back or infront of crowds in the hallway and avoided them at all costs. being observant he took note of it.

❀ always managing to catch you away from people or just a little people in the area, he used that time to talk to you more privately.

❀ you both began to get to know each other pretty well each time.

❀ exchanging interests and moments you’ve had in your life. often making you giggle at his silly retorts and remarks, funny moments of his teams and others. he was genuinely seeing a new side of you.

❀ never really seeing you smile brightly and laugh without holding back. it felt surreal and a literal dream.

❀ “Hey, y/n, have you dated anyone yet?” Kuroo looked over at you, eyes staring in curiosity with his common sly smirk.

❀ “I-.. uhh.. n-not yet?” you nervously laughed, messing with the sleeve of your nekoma track jacket.

❀ “Well then.. do you have a crush?” he continued on. 

❀ “O-oh.. Ye-yeah! He probably won’t like me b-back though..” you murmured.

❀ “Wait- He!?”

❀ “H-hey,, Kuroo! Keep y-your voice down please..!!” you playfully punched his shoulder in return he faked an ‘ow’ “..b-but.. yes.. i like a guy.. h-he’s popular so i doubt he would like me b-back.” you looked up at him with a weak smile, hoping to not seemed phased by it.

❀ “Ahhh.. why’s that then.” his curious tone turned stern, tilting his head into his palm so it rested comfortably. “hmmm~?”

❀ “Oh.. w-well.. he’s popular with the girls.. a lot of them a-actually. I bet he l-likes them more than me.. girls are b-better for him anyways...”

❀ “What if they weren’t? He could be gay.. or bisexual... or pan and all that jazz y’know y/n?”

❀ “Thats true.. what about you kuroo-san?” you took a sip of water from your bottle aside of your thigh. 

❀ “I have a crush too of course. And its actually you.”

❀ you choked on the water, coughing out a reply, “w-wait you.. you like me.. me- back?!” you only looked at him with disbelief, coughing slightly still.

❀ Kuroo only laughed at your off-guard reaction, “K-kuroo!! I-it’s not funnyyy..!” you whined, covering your face with your jacket. “hhhh.. g-god damnit..”

❀ after a few moments it went silently, peeking your eyes out from your hidden position Kuroo pecked your forehead. Suddenly aside of you, entwining his hand with yours.

❀ “Of course I like you back~ I want you to be my boyfriend you softie.” 

[normal-thoughts-official]

Izzy and alec sibs headcanon if you have any and have an amazing day

no anon, YOU have an amazing day! dxuhaisdha

ok idk about headcanons because i think it's more that i appreciate their relationship in canon than that i have headcanons? like i said a few asks ago though there is a lot more id like to see explored in their relationship, particularly them figuring out their miscommunications and acting-in-the-name-of-each-other issues

so yeah i like to think that they eventually have a talk about that? even if it's like a few years later that it finally comes up. because while i think izzy kind of realized how much alec was shielding him from the lightwood's expectations i don't think alec ever figured out that izzy kept trying to rebel so alec could see that he could, too, and how she just wanted him to accept himself, basically

so it would be nice to see this talk happening and these things actually being said and the both of them realizing that if they had just communicated and worked together the whole time instead of assuming what the other needed and trying to take these stereotypical roles for them they would have probably gotten somewhere a lot faster and hurt each other a lot less lol. also like, alec really has to learn how to work with the people he loves instead of in their name, so i think he’d benefit a lot from this talk

other than that uhhh

i think part of the reason izzy misunderstood alec's struggle with coming out so much (i.e. thinking that he was in denial) was because she was projecting, lol. and when like after years and years izzy realized that all her comments about girls and her lowkey over-the-top investment in alec's love life/having alec accept himself were really not as straight as she thought, she is like. ah shit. so I was the one in denial the whole time? and alec just smiles and pats her shoulders like "glad you caught up, iz"

she never hears the end of it. The Revenge Of Alec. literally getting on her ass all damn day throwing in jokes about accepting herself and "being open" and all and she's like "OKAY alec i get it i'm sorry!!"

in all seriousness though, i like to think that they actually talked about all the s1 shit. kinda similar to that other talk about acting in the name of each other (honestly i think it's hard to talk about one without talking about the other) and izzy saying that she thought alec was a denial case and alec saying that he felt like izzy was trying to force him to come out when he COULDN'T and it made him feel kind of terrified. and izzy apologizing for making him feel like that, you know?

alec eventually starts going with her to her narcotics anonymous meetings. not all the time ofc because izzy needs to be able to have her own space where she can talk without the presence of anyone she knows, but sometimes. so alec can get educated and on days when it's particularly hard for her. having the support of her big brother always helps

for so long izzy was the only source of like... actual good touch and warmth and just affection, you know? and i think they are very tactile. we did get to see some of that in the show (name ONE other person alec has hugged. other than magnus who is his literal boyfriend/husband, and even then i think they might have hugged less than alec and izzy did) but i think they are actually even more tactile when there are no eyes on them. izzy comes visit alec in the loft and magnus goes to the living room to find alec and izzy full on spooning, alec carressing izzy's hair like it's the most normal thing in the world

they are used to having to stop when other ppl come, particulalrly family, tho (remember when maryse caught izzy and max playing and acted like it was a crime?) so like they are a little jumpy. but with parents who denied them affection (or had it be conditional to them doing shit they wanted, in alec's case) and sh's gross no-touching culture, they needed each other for that and they always could get comfort in each other

i mentioned max and i just ugh i loved izzy so much in her scenes with him and i think alec would be so proud of what a good big sister she is?? and she's like "i'm just trying to be like you" and he's like "shut up" but pulls her into a hug

not really a headcanon but we overlook the fact that with their height difference alec can rest his chin on the top of her head (if she's in heels LMAOOOO)?????? like dude. dude. D U EDE

part of the reason izzy wears heels all the time is because she just can't stand her and alec's height difference. WHY did he hoard all the tall??? it's humiliating enough when she's in heels but without heels she's like hitting his navel or some shit and she will NOT! PUT UP! WITH THIS! so she wears heels all the time and if she could she would walk around in those giant wooden sticks clowns use sometimes, you know the ones

every once in a while izzy gets back on her Teaching Alec How To Dance project and every time it is a nightmare

the +1 is when alec asks her for help to teach him how to dance for his wedding. please iz for the love of god no crazy stuff we're not gonna salsa just teach me how not to step on his feet all the time

when she stops trying to make the impossible happen she's actually a pretty good teacher

alec has a lot more fun with it than he lets on

alec's never paid a lot of attention to izzy's flings cuz they're, you know... flings for the most part, but when she starts to actually date (polycule? polycule) he becomes insufferably protective. ESPECIALLY when it comes to clary

*sits clary down for a lesson called "how to care about people other than yourself: a simple guide to not being a selfish bitch with my sister". it features a slideshow. with animation*

once izzy officially comes out as bi it's pretty hard and emotional for her and alec hugs her and she's all "i couldn't have done it without you. thank you for being so strong" and aaaaa

they used to wrestle a lot when they were kids and izzy would kick his ass every time

ok i think that's all i've got for now but hhhh there is plenty of other stuff tbh i just no thoughts head empty

[peanut-in-the-goal]

Would love to read the longer insecure Leo fic day if you feel like finishing it. If not it’s totally cool no pressure or anything. 🙂 I love your writing and all the o’knutzy feels!

hhhh so I wrote this so long ago tbh I don’t think I’m going to finish it

If someone actually wants me to finish it just send in an ask and I’ll try to but as of right now this is about as good as it’s going to get okay? (it could just be the fact that it’s 2am and I don’t wanna hurt leo rn lol) This is just like a v long wip that serves no real purpose. as also characters belong to @lumosinlove 

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Leo woke up to a cold bed. He sat up, yawning. Blearily he looked around, raising his hands to attempt to rub some of the sleep from his eyes. He leaned over, grabbing his phone from the nightstand, checking for any unread messages from either Logan or Finn. The time read 8:12, far too early for Logan to be awake. Finn, maybe. 

He glanced up, hearing the distinct sound of the toilet flushing before a very tired Logan stumbled out. He laughed, his voice rough with sleep, as Logan came back, falling onto the bed. His hair splayed across his pillow, and his eyes looked up to meet Leo’s.

He raised his arm, grabbing onto Leo’s sleeve, trying to tug him back to bed, lightly. Leo went willingly, curling himself around Logan, who had his head buried in Leo’s chest.

“Mph, stay,” Logan muttered, his eyes already slipping closed, content on sleeping their day away. Leo smiled, placing a soft kiss on the top of Logan’s head. 

“D’accord.” He whispered, they’d find Finn later. It wasn’t unusual for him to go for a run in the morning anyways. Leo laid there, toying with Logan’s hair as he felt him relax completely, soft snores coming from the boy.

He smiled as Logan shifted again, subconsciously pushing himself further into Leo. 

The next time Leo woke up, it was to the front door closing. Logan whined in his sleep, shifting slightly, when the noise woke him. He kept his eyes closed, shuffling closer to Leo and pushing his head further into his pillow. Leo shushes him quietly, waiting for him to go back to sleep. After a moment, he heard Logan’s breath even out again and he sighed in relief. 

He felt someone watching them, looking up, he saw Finn standing in the doorway with a soft smile playing at his lips. Leo beckoned him over, silently telling him to come back to the bed, with a small nod with his head. Finn smiled but shook his head.

 “I’m all sweaty,” he whispered. Which was true, it was evident he had just come back from his morning run. “I’m going to go shower.” He spoke softly, mostly not to wake Logan, and removed his airpods. 

Leo nodded, glancing at the clock, 8:56 am, before burying his face back into Logan’s hair. He closed his eyes, taking a deep breath. Once again, he lets the sleep take over, relaxing them as they waste their day away.

It’s not long before he feels the bed dip behind him, and Finn’s warm body and wet hair lay along his back. His smile lingered on his lips, turning to kiss Finn softly, before finally letting the sleep take over, knowing his two boys were safe, there with him.

Nothing. Honestly, nothing happened. He was fine, the day had gone perfect. He didn’t have practice and got to spend the day sleeping with his boys. He was happy, he was so so happy. 

But why was that familiar dread settling in his chest? Why did he feel like it was wrong, everything he was doing was wrong with that nagging feeling telling him he wasn’t good enough? He shifted, which made Logan stir and look up at him with his wide green eyes blinking up blearily at him.

Leo tried to shush him and get him to go back to sleep, but Logan had seen his sad face, and before he knew it Logan was sitting up, looking at him concerned. 

“Peanut? Vas tu bien?” he asks, searching Leo’s face for something that tells him what’s wrong. Leo opened and closed his mouth, before taking a shaky breath.

“Je vais bien, C’est bon.” He hates the way his voice wavered at the end, cracking slightly. Logan’s eyes softened, taking Leo’s face into his hands.

“Knutty,” he mumbled. He placed a soft kiss to his forehead, then his nose, then both his cheeks before finally landing one on his lips. Leo tried to smile, he really did, but he couldn’t keep it up for long. 

Logan stretched out his arms, letting Leo lean into him as he hugged him close.

This time a small smile actually did ghost Leo’s lips. Logan and Finn always knew how to help him, even if they didn’t use words to communicate. He doesn’t know how long they sat there, with Logan holding him as he tried to ignore the voices in his head nagging at him. Telling him he wasn’t good enough, that he didn’t deserve their love. 

He isn’t even sure when the tears started slipping down his cheeks, but they must have because he felt Logan hugging him tighter. Leo goes to apologize, for being such a mess and for crying. But he can’t even get the words out before he feels a warm weight fall against his back and a pair of strong arms wrapping around his shoulders.

“Mph,” Finn mutters, his voice groggy and rough with sleep as he buries his face in Leo’s neck. Leo sniffs, trying to stop his tears before Finn notices. But Finn hears with his head being so close to Leo’s and his head snaps up. He takes in the tear stains on his cheeks and the damp spot on Logan’s shirt.

And it happens so quickly, where Finn has climbed off his back and is sitting in front of him, raking his finger through Leo’s hair.

“Baby?” He asks, not exactly knowing what's going on, but was definitely not expecting to wake up to Leo crying. “What’s wrong, what happened? Are you okay, are you hurt? Did we do something? Are you...” He trailed off, watching Leo shake his head frantically instead of answering his questions.

Finn quietens down, letting Leo get his thoughts into words, to explain what's wrong so Finn can hold him, and take care of him, because he loves him so, so much and it kills him a little more when Leo starts to slip. He’s right there, he's right there, but he seems so far away. It feels like Leo is slipping through his fingers, and Finn is so scared that one day he won’t be able to grasp on and pull him back in.

That he’ll lose the funny and smart man, that he’ll let the depression take over. He’s scared he’ll stop fighting it and he’ll drift. He’ll drift and become a shell, and he can’t count how many times he’s fallen asleep crying into Logan's arms because he doesn’t want to lose him.

He can’t lose him. 

And he barely hears the muttered apology escape from Leo’s lips, and he would have if he weren’t so hyper-aware of everything Leo was doing. Waiting for the hitched breath that showed he couldn’t hold it back anymore, and Finn could pull him into his arms until he cried himself back to sleep, and Logan went to make some tea and order take out.

Because everyone knows that they can’t cook, and they don’t need to add to Leo’s stress by making him help clean it up. He just needs them by his side, ready to help him, to show him the love that brought him together.

And Finn hates that Leo feels this way, that he isn’t good enough. He hates that Leo tries to push them away, that he thinks he’s a burden and a nuisance. They’ve learned the best way to help him over the past few months have caught up to him. 

The recent news of his father's sickness, with playoffs right around the corner. Loops pulling Kasey from the next couple of games for the pulled hamstring. It was too much, it proved too much when it started pushing Leo.

They could see it happening, Leo waking up earlier to hit the gym before practice, staying late after to add in some more training. The need that he had to feel good enough, to feel like he had to prove something because of his age. That broke both Logans and Finn's heart watching him work and work and work. Draining himself, when he couldn’t see how good he really was.

Leo was fidgeting with the duvet on the bed, pulling at the loose, frayed string on the end. He sniffed, once, then twice, before the dam broke. He angrily tried to wipe away at the tears rolling down his cheeks, biting his lip to try and clench the sobs that were bubbling up. But he couldn’t, he was fighting a losing battle and was giving in. 

They acted on instinct, Finn catching Leo as he fell into his chest, the heart wrenching sobs ripping themselves from his throat. Finn embraced him, holding him tightly, never going to be ready to let go. Logan moved to his side, rubbing his back, placing a kiss to his temple and his cheek every few minutes. 

“Désolé, Je suis désolé, I’m sorry,” Leo sobbed. 

He hates being like this, feeling useless, so utterly vulnerable. The way he was falling apart, with too many thoughts rushing through his head. His heart was beating erratically, his breaths uneven and shallow. He grasped onto Finn’s shirt, knuckles turning white as his hands shook with the material in between his fingers. His lips trembled, the oxygen seemingly impossible to get to his lungs.

Finn hugged tighter, whispering in his ear.

“Baby, don’t apologize. Never apologize for this. I just want to be there for you, we both do. Let us be there for you. Knutty, baby, we’d cross oceans for you.” 

Logan nodded in agreement, delivering another kiss into his blonde curls. Leo let it sink it, not exactly believing it, but hoping that maybe, it could be true. 

He fell asleep there, the tears track drying on his cheeks.

That last thing he heard was Logans whispered, “I love you,” before he let the darkness take over.

Leo could feel his breath picking up, the inward panic settling in his chest. He wasn’t sure why this affected him so much. He huffed, wiping at his eyes angrily where he could feel the tears forming. 

“Baby?” He heard the door creak open, Finn’s voice calling over all the voices in his head. He wasn’t sure why it was hitting him so hard right now. He knew he had depression, he had it since he was young. He would scoff at himself when he let it win, feeling utterly useless, and wanting to do better.

He felt like nothing he did was enough. Not enough for him, or his parents, or for Finn and Logan. 

The bed dipped beside him, feeling Finn’s warm hand cupping his cheeks, and turning his face towards him. Finn made a confused noise, whipping at the tears rolling down Leo’s cheeks.

He hadn’t even realized they fell. He just felt so numb.

“I brought you some food,” he said softly, like if he said it any louder it would’ve broken him. And quite honestly, it probably would have. Days like this, it made him feel horrible when Finn and Logan had to bring him food, or water, or do anything for him that he should be able to do himself. 

He gave Finn a wavering smile in return, which slipped off his face as quickly as it appeared. Gosh, why did he feel like such a fuck up? He took the plate from Finn, placing it in front of him on the bed. 

Finn and Logan knew he wouldn’t be able to stomach anything rich right now. Even then, the toast on the plate seemed absolutely revolting right now, just the thought of food made him nauseous.

[summoner-chan]

It's always kind of hard to identify what makes one's style different huh, but if I had to say what I most like about yours is the way you draw your complex lines without losing any readability, its most clear when you draw long flowing hair and in your OC's arm as well!

I totally get what you mean with coloring digitally, coloring is one of the main reasons I haven't done traditional art in a looong while.

From your Question Game: Sitri, Aizen

I think those haven't been asked yet?

I mean, I DO have a tendency to do complex things and make my life harder by making those lines for the hair 😂😂 but it makes me satisfied looking at them in the end so it'd a give and take situation

No doubt, what said made me realize it's one of the prominent features I have in every artwork skskksksks

Okay but for real, I was SO confused on what you mean by my OC's arm and thinking SO SO HARD on what was so complex on my Summoner's arm until then. I realized. You were referring Darius 😂😂

Maybe my art style is overcomplicating lines or just over detailed line works skksksksk (also please excuse the cake she has in that one picture- I swear the main focus was her tattoos and the dragon which was cropped off and not her asscheeks 😂-)

I rarely do coloured traditional artwork because they end up looking not as good as the sketch so it pains me hhhh (´;︵;`) but yeah, I really like sketching in traditional because it feels much more natural(? I have no idea but this is what I feel, like nyoom nyoom my hand go brrr- oh no I smudged a line FUCK- that sort of thing 😂)

Also time for the Housamo Ask Game!~✨✨

Note, this is going to get pretty lengthy so I apologize for that (｡•́︿•̀｡)

[Sitri]

Someone who I look up to when I was younger? Hmmmmm, hard to say because I admired a LOT of people when I was younger, even if it was the most simplest of things. For example, someone being able to cook a certain dish, someone who can tackle on multiple tasks and etc etc. 😂 I was a kid that get excited at almost everything so I tend to try to do what everyone does. You're cooking? Well, I'm gonna cook too!! (A 6 year old little girl who couldn't even reached the sink yet-)

Fun fact, I started drawing because my second sister watched anime and started to draw so me being the a mazed little sister I am, I quickly followed in her footsteps. Usually siblings would bond over that kind of thing but unfortunately not for me and my sister 😂

She absolutely hated my guts that time and she hated me even more once I started to follow what she was doing. Basically calling me a impersonator/copy cat and she would throw a fit if I was drawing anywhere near her when she was drawing.

Though along the way, she eventually stopped drawing when she had reached high school while young me continued to draw anyway. At first, the reason why I wanted to draw was because that I wanted to get praises from my sisters since during my childhood, they would shoo me off and they would play only between themselves, making me having to play with my mom most of the time or just plain watch the tv the entire day.

I was constantly drawing something everyday and every moment I had the chance, simply because I wanted to get better so that my second sis would acknowledge me. This lead up to being the hobby of drawing ingrained into me, the simply hobby now fully a part of me and my childhood.

I vividly remembered where during in primary school, we were having an art test where we would have to draw a flamingo and of course since I was the quiet art kid in class, some of the popular young girls begged me to draw the flamingos for them which I then profusely refused since cheating was a bad thing. Though I'd wish that young me wouldn't have been so easily scared by the threat of them not being friends with me anymore ( ；∀；)

In the end, I ended up drawing for half of the class in secret and got scolded by the teacher for drawing for them (she said something along the lines of 'You can't help other people! They should do their own!' like Miss, why are you getting angry at me :( I was 6 + this wasn't the first time the popular girls cheated, it also happened during English test and they kept bothering me about the answers, same threat btw)

Now that I'm older, I don't have anyone specific that I look up to but I look up to anyone in general. Like, I'd admire someone who takes up their courage to do things they were scared of doing or someone who's confident in their abilities when they're usually so shy like yeah!! I admire you so much!!! It maybe insignificant but to me it might have been the most extraordinary thing!

[Aizen]

What ticks me off but not for others? Hard question 😂

I don't get mad easily but when I do, it's just a short while before I go back to normal, the only thing you're going to witness me being angry is just not talking to you for a certain amount of time, completely avoiding you and staying in another different room 😂 then once I cool off, I'm back to being to a annoying rat skskksskks

Though, if I were to really answer this properly, I think what ticks me off the most when someone just cuts me off while I'm talking and tells me that I'm being too loud. I know that this thing would probably tick anyone off if they can't help controlling their voice volume-

I can make my voice really loud when I want it to be without even straining my throat 😂 One time, I was calling out to my fellow art members who was across the field which in turn I had to make my voice a bit louder.

This caused one of the passing group students (they're somewhat troublemakers sksksks) following suite of trying to call them (they were mocking me) and this whole shouting thing made one of the disciplinary teachers come out of her office and yelled at the group of students, telling them they were being too loud and they were causing a ruckus (ngl I was scared shitless but like internal happy dance because I didn't get scolded by her 😂 Still feel bit bad tho for them)

Eventually, the fellow art members saw and heard us from a distance and came right over, promptly saying that my voice could be hear across the field (they can also hear my voice from the 2nd floor too)

Thank you for sending an ask in!! Another thing is that, so sorry for talking too much- I tend to get carried away with these kinds of things since I'm too much of a chatterbox and open person myself-

Feel free to send in more by the way! (人*´∀｀)｡*ﾟ+

[wwheeljack]

Helloooo! It’s been a minute, my bad.

I apologize for the spam of likes after not rly being on tumblr for a week. I was on vacation visiting family and friends and then on the last two days I got rly sick with a sinus infection and a cold. Thankfully tho nobody else got sick, and I’m pretty sure it was just my body giving out on me and burning out after going, going, going for two weeks straight with hardly any sleep. But I am back and on the mend of getting better (slowly but surely).

I am about halfway through your latest fic, the one with imperial Tech, and so far I’m so invested! I’m going to finish it today and then leave a comment on my thoughts! Again I apologize for taking so longneck to get through it! I’ve also finally caught up on the last two season finale episodes of Bad Batch and CURSE YOU DAVE FILONI! WHY CANT WE JUST HAVE A NICE HAPPY REUNITED FAMILY?!?! Is that so much to ask?! Urgh!!! God damnit. I both loved the season finale and was so frustrated with it at the same time.

Anyways, how have you been? Do you have any other comments or thoughts on the season finale? Any works in the making? Or ideas? I’m actually finally in the process of finishing one of my Bad Batch fics and am hoping to post it sometime this weekend. :)

I hope you’re doing well and I look forward to keeping up with your AMAZING blog and fics! :))

No need to apologize!

I hope you had a good vacation and are feeling better now, though!

Oh, I'm glad to hear you are liking my Imperial!Tech fic so far! That one's a tough one for me, especially since I was writing it in a poor mood, so I am always relieved to see people say that they liked that fic.

I was pretty underwhelmed by the finale (and show in general), truthfully, though I am glad that none of the boys died! I kept thinking something would happen to one of the boys, but am glad nothing of that nature happened to the boys.

I am working on a cadet!Cross fic... and have been for weeks now. Very, very slow going on him, but I do know the entire plot for once and I hope I'll finish it eventually. Other than him, I don't have any other ideas at the moment.

Oh, nice! I look forward to seeing what you wrote!

I am doing alright, and hhhh, thank you!!

[dra-and-sdra2-imagine-writer]

Hmmm so how about the SDRA2 guys w/ a S/O who does not show much emotion (stotic) but when they get more close to each other, they open up more! Like smiling more, receiving more affection, stuff like that!

“ 

Wooo! I’m on the second to last request,, anyway! I gotcha, anon! I hope you enjoy! Hhhh- this was late, and I apologize,,

Hajime 

- S/o let out a small gulp, as you made your way over towards Hajime. “H..hey, Hajime. Do you want to train together?” The boxer stopped what he was doing and turned to look at you with an at first a surprised look, then smiled. 

- “Sure, let’s do it S/o! First, we’re going to do a lap around the island!” The boxer said with a smirk, while you on the hand, already knew this wasn’t going to go so well. But, if it made him happy you were more then willing to try it can’t be that bad, right? 

- It started out pretty good, the occasional conversation as you both started. The weather was just right, clouds in the sky, along with the bright sun shining within the bright sky.  The thing was, that you were slowly falling behind Hajime, as much as you attempted to keep up with him you just couldn’t. This wasn’t in your element. 

- Hajime seemed to notice this and slowed down soon coming to a complete halt. “S/o, are you alright? Do you need to sit down for a moment?” S/o waved their hand as they attempted to speak, but it came out as a wheeze. “You need to rest, I’ll take you back to the monocruise.” With that, Hajime gently picked up his S/o and started to head back to the cruise. “Thank you, for doing this with me, S/o.” He said with a happy smile, which you did your best to return. 

Mikado

- Mikado was trying to make his s/o laugh by doing different tricks though, the blank expression remained on their face. 

- Then, he attempted to try and do a larger trick, but it turned out that it backfired and it turned Mikado was coated in a coat of black smoke. “Tada…?” A few snickers escaped from your lips before you busted out into full laughter. 

- S/O clutched her sides as she laughed, nearly falling down from how hard she was laughing. At least Mikado was successful? He got his S/o to laugh, so it was a plus. It made the magician laugh a bit, as he stood up gently pulling his S/o up as well. 

- Slowly, they started to calm down and they wiped a few tears from their eyes. “Come on, let’s get you cleaned up.” Chuckled softly, they gently grabbing his hand and started to head back towards the cruise ship with a bright smile on their face. 

Nikei

- As usual, Nikei was running at twenty-four miles per hour with talking about his scoops to his s/o. He had grown used to you being so silent and looking uninterested when you spoke about them, that when you decided to speak this time it threw him off. 

- “E-eh? Was that you, s/o?!” He exclaimed astonish before the bright twinkle appeared in his eyes. Nodding, you’d smile slightly why not change things up for a bit? Nikei really seemed to enjoy it, so it wouldn’t hurt just this once. 

- “It was, I was just curious to know how you managed to interview the person if they were..ya know. Locked up..” A small shiver ran up your spine at the thought, but it didn’t stop your curiosity. 

- Nikei grinned, as he flipped his hair in a dramatic manner. “I don’t think you realized who you’re talking to. I am the Ultimate Journalist!” He grinned brightly, as he started explaining with a gleam. S/o smiled softly as she started to listen to him explain. 

Shinji

- The firefighter was carrying you on his back since you had accidentally hurt yourself while you were jogging. You weren’t paying attention and tripped in a pothole.

- “You don’t have to do this, Shinji..” You mumbled while propping your chin on his shoulder. “Of course I do, S/o! You’re important to me! So, I have to do everything it takes to keep you safe!” He beamed while you softly giggled and hugged him from behind which made him turn into a bright shade of red.

- “S-s/o..?”

- The smile on your face just turned brighter and brighter. “You’re the best..I don’t know what I would do without you.” Closing your eyes you go quiet to a similar fashion before you started to drift off asleep. Shinji turned into a bright shade of red, but he continued walking. “I..don’t know what I would without you either, s/o..”

Syobai

- ”What to do..what do you..” You mumbled as you stared up at the clouds with a bored expression, until a person blocked your view. That person being significant other, Syobai. “Syobai? What are you doing?”

- “Just curious of something.” He said in response, before holding a hand out in which you took and he pulled you up. You went to speak once more, but he just tugged you along.

- Confused, you followed as you picked up his pace to walk beside him and glanced over at him for a moment.

- “Syobai..?” You said softly, looking at the broker with a confused expression. “Hm?” He replied, as he continued walking, slowing his pace down for a moment. “Thank you.” You smiled slightly and leaned your head onto his arm.

Teryua

- It really did surprise you when Teruya had just suddenly burst into your room looking for you. “S/o! There you are! I’ve been looking for you everywhere!”

- Taking a moment to blink, you stared at the green haired male for a moment. “Looking for me? For what?” Teruya put a hand behind his head and smiled sheepishly, “Err, I was wondering if you wanted to do something together.” With a smile, you nodded and exited the bed, going over to him and gently grabbed his hand. “Lead the way, okay?”

- His sheepish smile turned into a bright one as he quickly pulled you along. A small giggle escaping your lips as you followed, doing your best to keep up with him. He was something else, that’s for sure, but you wouldn’t want to have it any other way.

- “Just where are we going, Teruya?” You’d ask causing him to slow down enough and look back at you. With a bright gleam in his eyes, he stated, “I don’t know!” Wait, what? He didn’t know where you both were going? That could only lead to one thing, and that was trouble.

Yuki

- “Yuki, do you mind if we..hold hands?” Your tone was quiet when you asked, is that you were rather bashful to ask such a thing. And judging by Yuki’s expression, he wasn’t ready for you to ask him something like that. “W-we don’t have t-” Yuki was quick to interrupt you. “No! I m-mean, I would love too, s/o.” A small smile made way onto your face as you reached out and gently grabbed his hand and intertwined both of your fingers together.

- Walking alongside Yuki, hands intertwined just calmed your racing heart. It was peaceful, enjoying the bliss that surrounded the both of you as you began to swing both of your hands back and forth. Until Yuki started to speak, “S..S/o? If you don’t mind me asking, how come..you decided to do this? N-not that I mind! I was just wondering..since you haven’t done something like this before..”

- Your expression faltered slightly as your gaze dropped down onto the ground for a moment. “Well, it’s just..I’m not use to showing affection, but I wanted to try for you, since you deserve it, Yuki.”

- Yuki’s eyes widened, before he gently squeezed your hand, “S/o, you don’t have to do something like that for me, I-I love you..just the way you are..” That caused you to stop and turn to face Yuki with a small twinkle in your eyes. That touched your heart and caused you to fall in love with the ginger even more than you already did.

Yuri

- At first, Yuri wasn’t sure how you both became a couple since your personalities contrasted with each other. While you were just about silent, kept to yourself and often unresponsive, he was more outgoing in comparison. But, it all changed one fateful evening, when he walked into your dorm room slightly tired, but just wanting to spend time with you. Despite it not going to well all the other times he’s attempted this before. Opening the door, he was greeted by a slightly smiling s/o. “It’s.. good to see you, love.” Yuri was taken aback by just that.

- Was this really his s/o?! What happened in the span of a few hours? Seeing him not respond made you worry a bit so you carefully had gotten out of your bed and gently walked over to him. “Are you alright, Yuri?” You asked in a soft tone, waving a hand in front of his face. Letting out a small squeak in surprise when you were suddenly hugged. You slowly returned the embrace through this just confused you more and more.

- At this point, you just didn’t question it, whenever Yuri had looked up at you and you saw those bright twinkling eyes. It didn’t take to long to figure out what Yuri was so happy about. “Is it that..I’m showing more emotions than usual?” An excited nod was the response, “It’s not just that, I’m just happy to see this side of you. It makes me, happy.”

He replied with a bright smile that just made your heart melt. Aw, he’s an adorable bab. You honestly felt bad for not showing more affection sooner, but you planned to from now on. That’s a promise, for sure that bright smile was something you wanted to see all the time.

[planetkookie]

How To Get A Date: Movie Edition (Step Three: The Arrival)

Summary:  Getting to the theater, Patton figured it would be easy to pretend it wasn't a date. That's turning out to be harder than he expected.

Warnings: Deceit, swearing 

Notes: Again, it’s a little short. Sorry! But! I hope you guys enjoy chapter three!

Link to ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/18735910 

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*Pawton is typing in a private group chat with Princey, Emo 3000, Starbucks, Doctor Cartoon, Snake, and The Gayest of Them All…*

Pawton: Holy shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit it’s happeniiiiiiiiiiing guys hellpppppppp

Princey: Wow, it must be serious if you’re swearing, Pops The Gayest of Them All: Pat, you’ve got this! Logan doesn’t even know it’s a date so just act like you’re hanging out like normal :D

Pawton: Good point,,, I’m just nervous,,,,

Emo 3000: I would be too.. What if he figures it out?!

Starbucks: Wow you really are true to your screen name

Emo 3000: Thanks.

Pawton: GUYS I DON’T WANT HIM TO FIND OUT WHY OWULDYOUSYATHAT

Snake: Sorry what was that?

Pawton: HHHHHHHH

Doctor Cartoon: Patton, just take some deep breaths. But make them inconspicuous. Try and talk to him! It’ll be okay. He probably won’t find out anyways, we all know that Lo is awful with feelings.

Princey: There’s the tea

The Gayest of Them All: True

Emo 3000: It’s ridiculous how oblivious he is with feelings. And I’m the one who has to deal with it cause I ROOM with him.

Starbucks: Oh go cry me a river.

Snake: Lol

Emo 3000: >:(

Princey: Lol

*Multiple people are typing in a private chat with Princey, Emo 3000, Starbucks, Doctor Cartoon, Snake, and The Gayest of Them All…*

*Notifications for the private chat with Princey, Emo 3000, Starbucks, Doctor Cartoon, Snake, and The Gayest of Them All was turned off*

Patton shut off his phone and shoved it into his sweatshirt pocket. Leaning his head back so it touched the seat, he took a deep breath and spared a glance over at Logan. The man was focused on the road, a neutral expression on his face. That was normal a normal expression for him, his face void of any emotion. If anyone had looked at him now, they would probably have thought he was a robot. Though, if you really knew Logan, you would know that he was extremely focused. You’d see his hands gripping the wheel as he stared out the windshield. But that was the joy of being Logan’s friend. You got the privilege of knowing all of his different sides and feelings. You got the privilege of knowing who he was. The privilege of learning each and every of his different habits and expressions. Patton remembered first meeting Logan, how closed off he was then. And he thought of now, how open Logan was able to be with their friends, how he wasn’t afraid to share how he felt with them now, how he was able to say any random fact that popped into his head without shame or fear that they would think he was annoying. He smiled softly and turned to look out the window. His thoughts drifted away for the millionth time that day.

The jerk of the car as it came to a stop jolted Patton out of the comfortable chaos of his mind. He flushed, realizing he didn’t say anything to Logan the entire ride, and as he fumbled with the seat belt, his mouth stuttered out an apology. Finally making it out of the car, he turned towards Logan with a sheepish expression on his face. But Logan, calm and neutral as ever (which both aggravated Patton and calmed him at the same time), just smiled and promised that it was fine. That he didn’t mind, and that it was a comfortable quiet.

The nerves came back full swing as they walked into the movie theater together. He knew he had meant for this to be a date, he was fully allowing himself to admit that now after earlier’s panic, but he was extremely aware that he and Logan probably looked like a couple. What made it worse was that he knew that Logan probably didn’t even think of that when he slipped his hand into Patton’s to lead them into line. He probably didn’t think of that even when Patton unconsciously didn’t let go. Which he did now, slipping the hand into his pocket. The butterflies were rampant.

Thankfully he had pre-ordered the tickets. They had gotten to the front of the line and Logan had opened his mouth to offer to pay for the tickets. He had taken them out of his pocket and handed them to the lady at the counter, feeling the powerful feeling of Logan’s grumpy face burning into the back of his head. He smiled sweetly, turning back to his friend, and led them into the snack line. Mentally he kept note of what snacks Logan had wanted as they talked in line, but once they got to the front, Logan pushed in front of him and ordered for the both of them. His heart pounded, sounding like thunder inside of his body, but he put on a fake pout to mask it. Or at least try.

Logan slipped his hand back into Patton’s as they walked into the theater, but he knew it was to only bring them to their seats. Mentally sighing, he sat down and steeled himself. He could do this.

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[atinyhours]

reaction to their idol!datemate having a dating rumor

anon: may I request an ateez reaction to dating rumors that include u and another idol (ur an idol too hhhh)

i hope you like it 💕💕

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Hongjoong:

Hongjoong would be a little confused as to why your name was trending, but when he clicked on the link and saw that a certain company had posted an article claiming you were dating another idol he would be pissed. He knew it wasn’t true, but next time you’d see him he’d ask what happened just so he could figure out the situation even though he couldn’t do anything about it. 

“I just think it’s funny that they think that they’re your type ya know. Also, why don’t they suspect we’re dating? Do they not think we’d be cute together?”

Seonghwa:

Seonghwa answered your call and listened to you rant about the rumor. He’d encourage you to brush it off, he knew it wasn’t true and so did you. Your biggest worry was that because you already had dating rumors then people would be watching more carefully, and maybe they’d catch you and Seonghwa. He understood, but tried his best to calm you down.

“You know how careful we are. Nothing bad is going to happen. I promise you baby.”

Yunho:

Yunho giggled when he saw the headline. He sent you the article with the laughing crying emoji and a text that read at least they haven’t caught onto us yet. He would joke about it the whole time. You’d get a call and Yunho would immediately say, “Well looks like you got another boyfriend waiting. Don’t worry I won’t hold you up.” He’d be so carefree about the incident and tease you about having another boyfriend.

“Oh, my times almost up babe. You should go meet up with your other boyfriend soon. He probably misses you.”

Yeosang:

He became very anxious and panicky when he first heard about it. He was worried he wasn’t the only one you loved, and probably would avoid talking to you for a couple days before you’d call him up. You’d explain what had happened, you were recording an OST with another idol and got caught together on a coffee run. Yeosang would require extra cuddles and kisses that night to feel secure and loved again.

“I was just so worried I wasn’t the only one, but I kept trying to remember how the media can twist things. My brain got the best of me.”

San:

He hadn’t even heard the rumor before you began texting him apologizing. You explained what had happened, and while San was a little upset that the magazine thought you were dating someone else, he realized it was just a rumor and he was the one you loved so dearly. San called you over the night, just to remind you how much he loved you, maybe with an alternative motive to get cuddles so he’d feel better about the situation too.

“I can’t believe they thought you were dating him. I’m also surprised they haven’t caught us though.”

Mingi:

Mingi felt his heart sink when he saw the article circulating through his timeline. It felt like everyone else had already seen the rumor and believed it. He would call you with tears in his eyes and a light stuffiness to his voice. You’d answer all his questions, explaining the situation to the detail to let him know it was just a rumor and you loved him so much.

“I was so scared. I saw all the comments and tweets about how you two would make a good couple and it hurt me so bad babe.”

Wooyoung:

Wooyoung saw the headline and laughed to himself. This couldn’t be true.. right? He tried to justify the photos and incidences outlined in the article, but they made sense in his mind. You were dating another person. He paced around his room until you entered, San letting you into the dorm. You cleared up the situation for him, stopping his mind from wandering.

“I didn’t want to believe it, but everything lined up so well. I really was believing the conspiracy. That website has some good researchers!”

Jongho:

Jongho was already struggling to remain secure in the relationship. He was new to dating and being an idol, and this rumor really rocked his boat. He tried really hard to ignore it, or rationalize why it just couldn’t be true, but he was very insecure. He called you shaking, waiting for you to answer, and he told you everything on his mind revealing his soul. You rushed over to the dorms to comfort him and ease his mind.

“I’m sorry. I know I shouldn’t have believed it, but sometimes I feel I’m not right for you, or I’m not good enough to be with someone so incredible.”

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[pollyperks]

(1/5)

i feel like there was supposed to be something here RIP your wonderful thoughts at 3am BUT

(2/5) like you said, there just wasn't time, and by the time there was, everything had already settled on terribly destabilized foundations. and yeah, honestly, by the end of it in the canon novel their resolution is both jc and wwx letting go. wwx having spent his whole life expecting to be jc's right hand and support, and then All That, and jc having spent 13 years after wwx's death gripping tight to that rage/grief to kill every demonic cultivator he could find without truly accepting (3/5) wwx's death (he MUST still be around). and at the very end they're both just. exhausted. tapped out. they're both so much older now, and they'd lost everything, and now that they've confronted each other they've also kind of acknowledged that they lost each other a long time ago. in that time they've built totally different lives for themselves. wwx lets go and finds a new home and a new direction in life and starts to live and love and value HIS life, and HIS love (which!!!! good!!!) (4/5) jc watches them walk away and the line that you quoted, "there's nothing to say" - i don't know if he was necessarily going to say anything about the core, or being captured by the wens, but whatever it was (an apology, a request to talk, anything) would be a call to ask/tie wwx back (to him, to his past). and instead jc watches him go and finally starts to let go, and maybe for the first time really let himself feel that his brother wwx is gone. (5/5) it's bittersweet but it's one of those things like... they've got the chance to truly let each other go, build their own lives, heal, and maybe one day in the very far future, they'll meet each other as new, healthier and happier people, and they'll be able to start something new, if they want to. anyway. i don't know if any of that made any sense (it's 3 am and i am,, this close to oblivion) but thank you again for indulging me with this stuff!!! love u, hope u have a great day

god i love you too you must have brought me good fortune because i got offered a manager’s job today so <33333333 that was at least 32% you wishing me a great day BUT RUDE “jc watches him go and finally starts to let go, and maybe for the first time really let himself feel that his brother wwx is gone” like go hop in a lake honestly and i can’t think of anything more to add really!!! jc and wwx are a tragedy of people who loved each other, who wanted to keep loving each other, and probably won’t ever completely stop feeling like they should still love each other how they used to, but time has passed and things will never be the same, never can be, and never should be, not with all they’ve done to each other. in the future i imagine they will be given the chance to build something new altogether—probably because of jin ling—but what that relationship is like will be entirely up to them. but i guess i just don’t ever see them having comradery again, wwx can’t feel like he can joke around and jc can’t feel like he can chastise/play the straight man so it’ll just...be friendly respect at most. 

((((also hhhh i know in radio interviews lwj talked about getting around this somehow but wwx doesn’t have a golden core. he can’t be an immortal. he’s going to die, and age way quicker too. imagine jiang cheng hearing about how his estranged brother is aging and knowing that the force that would have kept him strong is seated in his own chest AHHH imagine getting the letter one day informing everyone that the yiling patriarch has passed imagine jc alone in his chamber crumpling the announcement in his hand and gritting his teeth as he closes his eyes and sets his forehead against the wall, thumps the hand holding the crumpled note against the wall and lets his arm rest there, grasps at his robes with his free and because all of a sudden his chest feels so tight and this wasn’t supposed to hurt anymore. how much does he have to lose before it doesn’t hurt like this? trying to breathe because he can’t let anyone know how much he mourns because not only is there his pride to consider but other people have much more right to mourn than him. 

BUT THAT WON’T HAPPEN because lwj will find a way to make up for the golden core thing and happy endings all around!!!))))

[hoodiehan]

(The angst isn’t negotiable, it has already been written. Well, when you added onto the ask of Jeongin, the siren fighter with a scream of a thousand dolphins, I had to accept that as part of his backstory.) (1/11) Just a few months after Jeongin was born, his mother had left him on the shore of a beach, pain clear in her eyes. She apologized to him as she set him down on the sand, then she was quick to leave. His mom had no other choice if she wanted him to have a chance of living.-Boat

The island had been invaded and most of the villagers were gathered, while those who couldn’t pull their own weight were killed, including children. The smell of blood and the screams of pain caught the attention of sirens, but any plans that they had disappeared at the sight of an infant on the shore. “It’s a child, his mom must have left him here when the attack started.” one of them spoke.

“If he doesn’t get killed, he’ll die if nobody is here to take care of him. Bring him to our island.” said the siren that seemed to be the leader of that group, the infant was too charming for them to leave behind or hurt. For once, the sirens didn’t fully submerge into the water; if humans couldn’t breathe underwater as adults, it was safe to say that their children wouldn’t be able to either.

Years had passed and Jeongin had learned things like how to hold his breath for extended periods of time, how to swim, and how to sing with the same enchanting voice as the sirens. They never fed him his own species, they treated him kindly. However, they also kept him close to the island, even making sure somebody watched him when the others left to hunt.

Finally, when he was 13, nobody stayed behind to keep an eye on him. Jeongin followed the sirens from a distance, it was the only chance he had to venture out and see what they did. As they moved further from the island, dark clouds started to cover the sky and rain began to fall as thunder was heard. His eyes landed on a ship and he was in awe, it was something that he had only ever been told about.

The ocean turned harsh, waves crashing against the side of the ship and voices he was familiar with began to sing a song he was unfamiliar with. Through the rain, thunder, and singing, Jeongin was barely able to make out an unfamiliar voice shout “Dad, what are you doing?!”. A man jumped off the boat and into the water, but Jeongin came to the conclusion that the sirens would help him, they always told him stories about how they saved pirates.

‘They lied to me, they’re not helping him.’ he thought as he covered his mouth with one of his hands, his eyes wide as he saw the man get ripped apart. He tried to hold in his tears, he knew that the sirens would notice him if he made a noise. Jeongin turned around and swam as fast as he could, away from the ship and the island he spent his life on.

His mind was racing and he was barely able to notice an unfamiliar island. “Jeongin!” a voice called out, causing the male to turn around in shock. A few sirens had found him and he didn’t know if they were searching for him because he wasn’t on the island or if they knew what he saw. “I’m not going back! You told me that you made people happy, but you were killing pirates!” he cried, moving to turn around and head towards the new island. He hissed in pain as they grabbed his arm.

‘Catch them off guard, make a noise that they don’t like.’ he thought before he let out a dolphin scream, the sirens letting go and covering their ears in response. This was his chance, he had to use the small amount of energy he had left to swim to that island. He managed to get there and he knew that he had to continue a little more, he couldn’t be at the shore, they would easily grab him. His legs carried him until he was away from the shore.

His vision was blurry, but he could see that there was somebody just a few feet away from him. “Help.” Jeongin croaked. The person rushed to him, catching him when his legs gave out and he began to lose consciousness. “How are you doing?” Hyunjin asked once Jeongin opened his eyes. The younger male took a moment to try to clear his head and take in his surroundings. “I’m alright.” he paused, “Thanks for catching me before I passed out.”.

He smiled in reply, “It’s no problem. It’s a good thing that Woojin was here to patch you up, people here want nothing to do with pirates or anyone they come in contact with. Mind telling me what happened?”. “I-my family hurt me, so I ran away.” it wasn’t a lie, it just wasn’t everything. “My captain is looking for more crew members. You can join us if you’d like.” Hyunjin suggested. Jeongin smiled at the chance at a fresh start, “I will. My name’s Jeongin.”.

WAIT. THE CLIFFHANGER. THE CLIFFHANGER THAT THIS PART WAS LEFT OFF ON BECAUSE PART 11/11 WAS NEVER SENT HHHH ALSO I WROTE IN JEONGIN’S PART AS A JOKE BUT THE WAY YOU CREATED IT AND DEVELOPED HIS BACKGROUND EVEN MORE …. DANG that was so GOOD. Poor Jeongin though :( Wait does this mean that he’s only 13 when he joined Chan and the boys? :oo AW THat’s so young :(( The boys better take care of him or else i will FIGhT. Sigh… Poor baby Jeongin though. :( Im really hung up on that lmao 

Edit: PART 11 HAS JUST BEEN ADDED AND askgjlh ... jeongin’s family ;-; omg no im so so sad the poor little boy hhHHGH. :( It’s okay Jeongin.. These boys will be your new family now :’) wow im so sad for jeongin what the heck i just want to hold him and ;-; wrap him up and take care of him. Maybe feed him some hot grass jelly :’(

[heytozier]

lover (reddie)

in which stan, bill, eddie and richie are all best friends still, even throughout high school, but when it’s just eddie and richie; that’s an entirely different story

pairings: reddie, stenbrough (side pairing)

note: just warning you all this is horrible and i hate it but yup and they are aged up in this! (17/18) 

First period was just about to start when Richie sat in his seat next to Eddie, stan, and bill. everyone took their seats and listened to the boring ass teacher talk for 40 minutes straight. richie sat with his feet on the desk in front of him, laying back while chewing strawberry-flavored gum. eddie took notes for himself and Richie; mostly because Richie was never the one to take notes. it’s not like Richie asked him to do it, Eddie just wanted him to actually graduate with him next year.

“psst, wanna skip gym first period tomorrow?” Richie whispered to Eddie, who simply nodded yes and shrugged. “excuse me Richard please get your legs off the desk.” the teacher said loudly, bringing all the attention to him and him only.

“yeah as soon as you give me a decent grade.” he popped his gum loudly, making the entire class laugh quietly, Richie was one of those students who was over all of the teachers shit, he loved to piss this teacher off the most though.

“Mr. Tozier, now or go to the office.” the teacher said sternly and the class all went ‘oooo’ loudly.

“Okie dokie! to the office, i go!” Richie said and sighed, handing a note to Eddie.

richie walked out with a wave and a wink directed to Eddie, who simply blushed and covered his face with his notebook as the class all tried not to laugh as the teacher tried to teach the lesson again. eddie sighed and opened the note, which read in messy handwriting,

'meet me in the bathroom, like, now <3 ur fav     -richie’

eddie quickly rose his hand and asked for the restroom, the teacher excused him and he walked to the bathroom rather quickly, to see Richie sitting on the counter, staring at him.

“Richie what do you need, I am taking notes for the both of us you know and I don’t need the-” Richie walked over to him and hugged him, shushing him quickly.

“don’t worry about it babe, we can get the notes from stan or bill later, okay?” he kissed Eddie softly on the forehead and the smaller boy sighed while looking up at the taller one.

“I love you but we can’t keep doing this here Richie..we could get caught or-” Eddie was cut off by a small peck.

“what did i just say? it will be okay eds” he lifted the smaller boy up onto the counter and chuckled at his boyfriend’s flushed face.

“Jesus Richie, you sure do know how to talk, would you shut it and kiss me already?” Eddie said sarcastically as he pulled his boyfriend closer, kissing him. richie’s hands went straight to eddies face and deepened the kiss, whilst softly gliding his tongue along Eddie’s bottom lip; and right as things were about to get heated, the door creaked open slowly and the boys had to act quickly.

“do you ever just leave me alone-" 

"Yeah well, maybe you shouldn’t be such a pussy and stand up for yourself” Richie softly grabbed the smaller one’s throat and threatened to squeeze. the door then opened and the two kept up their act, the boy walking in apologized and ran out.

“fuck baby I’m so sorry-” Richie said quietly when he realized Eddie was actually crying. he quickly wiped the tears away with his thumb and Eddie started to laugh.

“why are you laughing?” he said quickly and looked at his boyfriend, who just wiped his face and stopped crying.

“man am i a good actor or what-” he was cut off by a pair of lips on his, rough and chapped, possibly bleeding from Richie biting them all the time.

“you little bitch you fucking scared me eds! I thought I hurt you!”

“Rich, I need to get back to class, i’ll meet you at the car after school okay?” he pecked the dark-haired males cheek and rushed out. richie just smiled to himself and looked at himself in the mirror, no big blocky glasses he only wears those at night now, he had gotten contacts now and his mess of a mop he called hair was longer and more curly. but he liked it like that. he was much taller and was a total sucker for the grungy look-

when high school came around, everyone sorta. split. the only people he hung out with now were Eddie, stan and bill, that and no one knew about him and Eddie, everyone just thought that Richie was the dickhead bully who was always teasing Eddie but somehow managed to get into the small friend group of three, which is not the case.

the bell rang loudly signaling school was out, Richie started for his locker to get his things, then for his car.

“he better not be late.” Richie laughed lightly to himself and waited for the small boy.

i hated this please don’t like @ me if it’s bad i know it’s bad hhhh anygays

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[justkpopjokes]

Vampire!Mingyu Part 3

Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3 || Part 4

Ft. Mingyu death

For: @sunnysidewrites @justsomekpopstuff @kkwonsoonyoung @cipheress-to-k-pop @xeniatan @aesthedick-minmin

A/N: Ohmygod why did this take so long Tagging people who commented/reblogged w/words on the other parts, or people who are just hyped so that they see this!

kind of rushed at the end but I don’t think I can take another part hhhh

That morning, when all the vampires were asleep, you woke Mingyu who was on the couch in the guest bedroom

He could’ve slept with you but he still doesn’t feel right touching you

Istg boi there was already a make-out session tho??

You both snuck out to the gate at the edge of the front garden

But you stop when you heard footsteps and someone clearing their throat

It’s Prince Jun and a posse of purebloods

Jun couldn’t let you leave

He just couldn’t

The second you stepped off the grounds, Mingyu could teleport you anywhere

And he needed you to stay

But as he advanced forward, Gyu pulled you back through the gate

Seconds after hearing “STOP!” you were someplace else

And you were holding Mingyu’s hand :)

He let go bc he was still… iffy about touching you

But you just grabbed his hand again and dragged him out of the alley you were in

Turns out, you were right where you needed to be:

You: “Target!”

Gyu: “Yes you’re a target, I just said that!”

You: “No, Target. It’s a store”

Gyu: “Store?”

You: “We can buy food in there. Do you have any money?”

Gyu: “Buy—?”

Cue you pulling him into Target

If you were going to have a vampire staying with you, you needed to stock up on stuff

How about pizza?

You went over to the freezer section

When suddenly Mingyu stopped in his tracks to stare at everything

“Huh? Something wrong, Gyu?”

His gaze kind of faltered at the nickname, but he still looked at you in disbelief

“These things are… frozen… how do you eat it?”

“Um… when were you bitten?”

“When I was a young child. Why?”

Explains why he doesn’t know much about human stuff

“…Nevermind. You heat the food up”

Gyu: “So… you’d heat that up?”

You: “What, frozen pizza? Yeah.”

Gyu: “Frozen…what”

You: “Pizza? Bread with like cheese and meat and tomato sauce—”

Gyu: *hugs freezer*

You:

Gyu:

You:

Gyu:

Gyu: “…pizza”

People were staring so you pulled him off the freezer

But aw

He likes pizza

So yes you bought a ton of pizza but also veggies bc he needed to be a healthy boi (stay away from the garlic tho)

And after some quick shopping—

Nah we know he’d stop at everything interesting; it took a while

So after a while of shopping

You brought him to your home to relax with some pizza

Ok but cuRIOUS VAMP GYU

WATCHING THE MICROWAVE INTENSELY WITH WIDE EYES

Meanwhile, you were working on what happened when you were gone

You weren’t gone long enough for anyone to worry, and luckily for you, it was the weekend, so you didn’t miss work

Mingyu sat next to you on the couch and you asked him about the other vampires

“So basically… they… want to extend the bloodline. The more human the blood, the more they fit in. The end goal is to be able to blend in with humans while still retaining vampire traits.”

But as Mingyu told you more, you sensed the lie in his voice

You didn’t say anything for now

Ok there’s more plot to this buT VAMPIRE GYU GETTING INTRODUCED TO HUMAN TRADITIONS

AND HUMAN FOOD

AND PIZZA

He just happily munched away at all your cooking

Learned a thing or two

He’s nice company

And he started to warm up to you!!!

That night, he was about to fall asleep staring at the washing machine from the couch when you pulled him up

Cue whiny Gyu wanting to stay on the sofa

You dragged him to your bed and he plops down immediately

You lay down next to him and his arms instinctively wrapped around your body

I’m soft

The next day, you decided to bring Mingyu somewhere to have some fun

Park? Yes.

First, we gotta deal with his clothes

Yeah um no one wears a cape and frilly shirt to a park

Unless it’s Halloween

Which fun fact in this au it’s banned to dress up as a vampire bc of dangers of real vampires

So you gave him some clothes you bought at Target: some sweatpants and a t-shirt

While he was changing in your room, he called you in to ask about something

You assumed it’s about what socks are or smth lmao

But then you walk in and this boi is shiRTLESS and staring at the closet

1st reaction: oHmYGOd his chest is so wide wtf

2nd reaction: okAY PLS PUT ON A SHIRT NOW

But you noticed he was staring at your scarf on the closet door

“What is that?“

“Scarf. For your neck when it’s cold”

“You should wear it. It’s cold outside”

So he tugged the scarf off of the door and pulled it around your neck snugly

“There. You’ll be warm now”

“I don’t think I need this, Gyu”

“Why not?”

“I have you”

At first he’s like wut

And then

Ohhhh ~hugs~

But he also noticed something else…

Your pendant was lightly glowing again

He didn’t say anything.

He finally put on a shirt and a jacket

And you walked to the park!

Gyu at the park man

He saw a dog and—

Wait where’d Mingyu go

2 seconds later he was 10 feet away petting the dog

And he was like “Y/N? Can we get a dog?” while that dog was licking his face like there was no tomorrow

Vampire + puppy = SOFT GYU

You just sighed and laughed at this puppy magnet

You went back home tiredly and looked up dog shelters

Over the next few weeks, you spend your days and nights with Gyu, learning about him and watching movies together whenever you weren’t at work

It was peaceful and you got along well despite him being a fanged creature LOL

Y’all even found some alternatives to blood that kept him healthy!

Tho he still had to drink some animal blood for the first few days which creeped you out a little

One night, Gyu was munching on chips when you confronted him about his honesty about the other vampires

He looked down before sighing and putting the chip bag down

Finally, he told you the truth

“They won’t kill you.”

“Why’d you lie?”

He stays silent.

“Mingyu—”

“The pureblood… your mate… would be your husband. Your love. They would love you. And I… I…”

“You what? Why do you care?!”

You’re just angry now

“I just ran away with you! I could’ve helped them. Not all vampires are bad, and I should get to help! Mingyu why did you take me away—”

“I don’t want you to love someone else! I love you, okay?!?! I want… to be with you. I could never be your soulmate though… I’m not pureblood. I have no chance, but I thought… if you never knew the truth…I’d still have one.”

You fall silent

And think.

Just think and stare at Mingyu

“How could you—how could you be that selfish?” you asked whilst trying not to cry

“My entire life I was treated like an outcast, but when I met you, I finally felt... wanted." It was getting really hard to keep from crying, so you only listen as Mingyu finished speaking

"It was a mistake. I regret it. I’m sorry.”

As you tried to calm down, Mingyu stood up and held out his hand

“If you want to help so badly… I’ll bring you back. But I’m a traitor now, I’ll have to go into hiding. You won’t see me again, Y/N.”

You just nodded, trying to hold back tears

You both have already been through a lot together in the short time you’ve known each other including some intimate things

You slowly grew close to Mingyu

And now he was saying he won’t ever see you again

But you stood up and take his hand

Seconds later, you were back at the gate

Jun was waiting with other purebloods

You reluctantly let go of Mingyu’s hand and gave him one last hug

He just looked into your eyes and smiled

“Remember I love you”

The moment you let go, he was gone

You couldn’t help but choke back tears

You left the garden and went with Jun, who wanted to talk to you

Not any of the other heirs, just you

You went into a room with him alone and had tea while you talked

Jun brought up your little outburst trying to protect Mingyu, and then him taking you away

He appreciated your decision to come back to help and led you back to the rose garden, where the 4 remaining heirs were waiting

Some were kind of upset you left but nevertheless were glad to have you back

So for the next few hours, purebloods from all over the world would take turns standing in the middle of the garden with you all

If one section of coloured roses stopped glowing, that heir would have found their match

Eventually, it was just you left

Everyone went through, and yet no one made the roses stop glowing

Soon the only pureblood who hadn’t tried was Jun

You were kind of scared...

It was going to be him

He was the only one left

It was why he couldn’t let you leave

You looked down to your white roses and wished Mingyu was there with you

The only guy here you were ever really close to

The only guy you really wanted to be your match

Well shoot, time to accept your fate

Then, after a few shouts and gasps, you saw the roses suddenly stop glowing

You quickly looked up, ready to lock eyes with Jun

Jun wasn’t standing next to you

Then you turned around

Mingyu’s hand was inches from your shoulder

He had stepped into the center with you

He was standing there, stunned

All you did was cup his face with your hands and give him a kiss

“You came back! But why?! You said—”

“I thought about what you said, ‘not all vampires are bad.’ Maybe it meant I wasn’t bad, and I had a chance to at least apologize and not be an outcast. I came back to see you—”

Cue Gyu getting interrupted with another kiss

So.

Turns out the non-pureblood vampire is your soulmate

Who would’ve thought?

Well I mean

The make-out session was a dead giveaway

Speaking of make-out sessions…

Since Mingyu wasn’t a pureblood, your role wasn’t important anymore

Jun gave you permission to let Mingyu go home with you

So the make-out session may have resumed at your place 😉

But most importantly…

One night, Mingyu was home learning to cook ramen

When you came home from work

“Babe? You’re late, I got worried—”

He turned around to find you holding a smol puppy that is desperately trying to leap out of your arms and run over to Mingyu

Gyu accepts the kisses from both you and his new puppy-child

YOU GUYS KNOW I AM 100% READY TO WRITE DOMESTIC LIFE WITH VAMPIRE!GYU IF SOMEONE REQUESTS

But until then

This life you had now…

Started all because you were stupid enough to go into a dark alley and get attacked

And now you were raising a puppy with your attacker

Who would’ve thought?

The make-out session was a dead giveaway

“I am never leaving you again”

[hxveidoneenough]

Reader in labor HC with Sincerely Three!

I’ve never done HC’s before so I apologize if this is crap but this is my first ever request!!! SO lets get started

Lets start with the meme boy Jared

- ok so jared n u have been together since ur senior year of high school

- you now live together in a cute little apartment

- I feel like jared would be the funny guy in an office job so that’s what he does

- he works in an office and you don’t work right now because YOURE REALLY PREGNANT

- As the days get closer to ur due date, Jared is like ’ hhhh maybe I should stay home with you today babe what if u go into labor AND IM NOT HERE’

- u make him go anyways

- but one day this actually happens n you go into labor while Jared is at work lke 30 minutes away so you call his mom first to have her come get you

- she rushes you to the hospital and once youre there, you finally call Jared and are like ‘ so uh remember how I kept telling you I wasn’t going to go into labor while u were at work? Sike, got u.”

- Jared FREAKS OUT

- ‘waIT WHAT?!’ he screams so loudly his mom can faintly hear it across the room like this boy has a loud voice anyway but holy hell when he yells

- ‘ I TOLD YOU I FUCKING TOLD YOU DIDNT I FUCKING TELL YOU’ Jared screamed and you could basically hear him running out of the office until he gets stopped by the lady at the front desk 

- ‘no i have to leave my partner is pushing a CHILD out right now. well Brenda i don’t care if ur son fell and broke his arm, my child is being BIRTHED.’

- even though he was 30 minutes away, he got to u in record time

- he basically kicked the door open and jumped into the room

- he is def doing a super man pose and winks at you

- you threaten to throw him out of the room before hes even sat down

- fast forward a little bit n your contractions have gotten pretty bad and youre laying on your side with your eyes closed, your hand gripping on the side of the bed so hard jared think you might break it

- ‘ babe ur joking to she hulk the bed and I CANNOT AFFORD THAT’

- you flip him off but go back to aggressively squeezing the bed until this contraction passed for a few moments and you were able to release the bed

- BUT LIKE TW MINUTES LATER THEY WERE BACK AND YOU WENT TO REACH FOR JAREDS HAND INSTEAD OF THE HOSPITAL BED AND HE LIKE PULLS HIS HAND BACK FROM YOU

- ‘youll break  my hand are you crazy I NEED THIS HAND TO DEFEAT ZOMBIES’

- you grab his hand anyways and squeeze it even harder than you had been the bed jut out of spite

- ‘OW OW OW YOU BITCH OH GOD MY HAND’

- u look up at him with these deadly eyes and he instantly shuts up and is just like ‘ i love u (y/n) ‘

- a few hours later and it was time to push so u make sure that Jared’s hand is laced with yours and you squeeze it every time

- hes trying to say encouraging words but its more like ‘wow babe - ow - you’re doing so - fucking ow - wonderful - god my hand is going numb - just keep going babe!!!’

- about an hour later the doctor places a baby boy on your stomach and Jared literally fucking cheers

- the doctor has jared cut the chord and after that they take your son off to clean him up n stuff but the whole time jared sits by your side with that big goofy smile on his face as he tells you that he loves you

OK NOW THE LEGS CONNOR MURPHY

- Connor and u were sitting at home when you went into labor bc it was late at night

- ur watching some movie and u glanced up at connor and are like ‘ hhh either i just peed myself or my water just broke’

- the boy literally JUMPS up from where he was sitting and glances at you before he grabs your hands and pulls you up

-he tells you to go out to the ca so you do that while he gathers the bags that you two had spent the time making up in the previous weeks

-he walks outie trying to be as calm as he can but once he gets in the car he just glances over at you and says ‘holy fuck’ before he starts off towards the hospital

-at this point your contractions aren’t close together but when they do hit they fucking hurt like nothing you have ever experienced before so when the first big one hits you groan in pain and COnnor looks over at you all worried and is lik e

- ‘is everything ok, goddammit I’m going as fast as i can without being pulled over but all this fuCKING traffic is making it hard to get FUCKING anywhere.’

- you put your hand on his leg and are just like ‘connor stfu its fine i was having a contraction buts its passed right now so its fine ok’

- he eventually gets you to the hospital and you get into the bed with all the chords attached to your stomach

- i feel like connor has been super nervous for this because hes so scared that hes gonna be a bad dad that when he sits down next to you he just kind of like shuts down and starts to completely doubt himself

- but ofc you know whats going on so you just grab his hand and tell him its all gonna be ok bc obviously neither f you have any real idea how to be a parent yet and youll figure it out together

- he looks at you with those super pretty eyes and u just smile at him

- he loves u so much and he feels so lucky to have someone  like you who makes him feel like this is all going to be ok instead of the way his father had been making him feel by like teling him hes gonna be a bad dad

- a few hours later and its finally time to push and Connor lets you hold his hand the entire time and hes just completely ignoring the fact that youre basically breaking his hand and he just keeps telling u how great youre doing

- ‘youre doing great (y/n), squeeze my hand all you want. Take all the fucking anger out on my hand its fine’

- the doctor puts a little girl on your chest and you tear up as u look at her

- and so does connor because ike ffuck he has a daughter and someone who is going to love him and that he already loves so much?? like he didn’t think he could love anything this much other than u until he saw his daughter

- the doctor has connor cut the chord and he does it really slowly before the little girl is taken away to get cleaned up.

- connor sits down beside of you and he rubs your hair out of your face and kisses your forehead gently

- that boy loves u and his little family so much and he swears that he is going be ten times better than his family ever was to him

OK NOW EVAN

- SO LIKE- Evan and you go over to Heidi’s every Tuesday for taco Tuesday and game night right??

- so you guys are sitting there eating and playing uno when suddenly you have this weird pain in your stomach and it’s not at all like when the baby kick so you just kind of pause and it’s your turn so Heidi and Evan both give you a confused look- ’ uh (y/n) are you ok?’

- you just nod your head and shrug your shoulders b are like ya just a pain but it’s gone now- so you start playing again

- Until the pain comes back and it’s worst that before so you once again take a deep breath and just sit there for a moment and this is when evan starts like getting really nervous and yoy can tell because his starting to pull on the corner of his cards- Heidi asks you if you’re sure you’re ok and you just nod your head

- until ur water breaks and ur just sitting a small puddle of water in your seat-u don’t wanna freak out evan so u ask him to go get you a drink from the kitchen and once he leaves, u whisper to Heidi that u think ur water broke

- AND SHE LIKE SQUEALS- Evan comes back in when he hears the squeal and is like ???? what??? -AND HEIDI IS LIKE “(Y/N) THINKS THEIR WATER BROKE”

-and evan drops the glass of water he had in his hands and it goes everywhere and u snicker- ‘now Evans water has broken’ and Evans eyes go wider than before

- ‘this is uh no times for jokes!! we gotta go!!’ Evan says and you nod your head and get up-Heidi drives u to the hospital and drops you and evan off before she goes back to the your and Evans house to get the bags you had packed

- the doctor gets you all situated and checks you and is like ???- had u waited any longer to come in yoy might have been having the baby at home because you were like 8cm

- ur like ??? I barely feel anything what the fuck-the doctor shrugs and chuckled

-evan is sitting by your bed and he’s obviously an anxious mess

- his leg is bouncing and his face is all red and his fidgeting with the bed sheets- bc like what if the baby doesn’t end up liking him and what if he’s a bad dad and messes up when it comes to taking care of the baby and goodness the boy is just a mess

- but u just smile at him and place hand on his and just whisper calming words to him- Heidi shows up with the bags you had packed and she just smiles at the scene of her son and the person he loves all lovey dovey and about to be parents

-the doctor comes in like 20 minutes later and tells u that it’s time to push so you get all situated-evan grabs your hand and is squeezing it WAY tighter than you’re squeezing his and you can’t help but laugh

-it takes like 3-5 pushes and the doctor puts a little girl on your stomach and asks evan if he wants to cut the chord and he nods-but when the doctor puts the scissors in his hands and they’re shaking like crazy and he takes one step into doing it before

- he passes out-like he drops to the floor and you burst out laughing because you knew he was nervous but not that nervous

-Heidi laughs and helps evan up and he cuts the chord with her help and he just keeps staring at the baby and he just can’t comprehend that he made that- he just loves you and his baby so much snd he’s so excited to be a dad now

[crying-saeyoung]

Hey there! Is it okay if I request the RFA + Saeran reacting to a autistic MC who gets sensory overload from being in public places, like stadiums or musicals? I love your head canons so much, especially the one with Saeran and Saeyoung being autistic. Love you and your blog!! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

if anyone wants to request some more saeyoung and saeran autistic requests, feel free cause I’m totally for getting deep into that (the last headcanon it really was just barely touched)! For this imagine, Saeyoung isn’t autistic because of the given situation I wrote, but Saeran is! None of the other members are autistic, either, just Saeran in this specific headcanon. -Green

Yoosung:

-oh b o y

-you guys don’t go out that often, but there was one movie you went to go see at the theater, Ghost in the Shell (i went to see this movie recently and I strongly recommend that if you’re autistic to be wary of this film)

-right away wam bam no thank you mam . there was a bunch of heavy flashes, and you just couldn’t take it. not really sensory overload but stick with me

-you had to excuse yourself from the theater room and get yourself something to drink and close your eyes, take a few deep breathes because the flashes just kept repeating in your head and it really really hurt your eyes and gave you the worst headache

-thankfully Yoosung figured it out pretty quick that the lights were too much for you and came to your side  

-he was actually kind of mad because he asked the ticket seller if it had too many flashing lights and he said no, but here you were in pain

-so he chewed the guy out and demanded for a refund and tickets to a new movie

-he apologized to you a lot, but by the time the Trolls title came down all you could do was laugh and kiss him

Saeyoung:

-a aa

-it really sucked because it happened in your own god damn home

-Saeyoung, while ignoring you hahaha, had music literally blasting all through the apartment, enough to have it shake

-he thought he plugged in his headphones and actually didn’t realize they were unplugged so he was acting like everything was normal

-unknown to him wow, you were sobbing on the floor and rocking yourself back and forth because you couldn’t even speak enough to tell Saeyoung to stop the music!! ! wow!!!

-the pressure of the loud music and the floors shaking made you feel like you were being torn apart and you just wanted to run out of the house but you felt like you couldn’t move

-the only reason he heard you sobbing was because his headphones were UNPLUGGED!!! W O W !

-saeyoung oh my GO D

-he takes off his headphones in worry like “wow why are you crying???” but then he understands when he. fuck i ng  takes off his headphones.

- WO WOWW!!!! AmaZING how that works…

- “OH SHIT I’M SO SORRY”

-apologies don’t stop coming out of his mouth as he quickly turns off the music

-he has no idea what to doooo

-he tries to distract you???

-tells you a bunch of depressing jokes and gets some stuffed animals and starts to start a little skit with them

-it does manage to calm you down, but now you’re laughing and sobbing

-then you just sob and stop looking at him at all 

-because the situation your in is depressing and you hate it. you hate it so much, and so does he.

-so for now, he holds you. and he wants to promise he’ll never let you go, but right now, he can’t.

-you two sob together and there’s really no happy ending here.

-wow

Jumin:

-you got a sensory overload when you were on vacation with Jumin

-Jumin had left your side at one of the parties you two were at, and it was really for a just a few minutes

-but when he left that’s when the band decided to come out and just blast music and shine neon lights from every corner in the damn room 

-you didn’t have Jumin by your side to help you or distract you, so you had nothing else to do but look for somewhere to hide

-you were shaking and crying as you decided to hide under a dinner table and rock yourself while just trying to block out the noise and hide in your legs from the flashing lights 

-you didn’t even notice how loud you yourself were being because you were so focused on trying to get all the noise ou t

-the reason Jumin found you so fast was because he heard your yelling and sobbing 

-he didn’t even think of trying to get you out from under the table. instead he crawls under and joins you, shoving you into his chest, holding you so tight and rubbing your back and hair until you calm down 

-he lets you shake and blubber around all you need, and he gets your chewlery out from your personal pocket in Jumins coat aww you fill it with all your small toys for situations like this, he always has it on him isn’t that cuute

-after you calm down a bit, he refuses to leave under the table until his guards shove the band off the stage and make the lights mellow and soft for you again 

-and he will glare at literally everyone around the table who didn’t help you and threaten to sue them 

-jumin my love no plz no  

Jaehee:

- :(

-it happens in the coffee shop

-it was just a really really busy day for you two and was really just too much for only two baristas

-Jaehee enjoys it because she thinks that the place is becoming more popular! 

-you would like to enjoy it , ,, because you are happy you two are getting popular !

-but serving the dishes and getting around all the people and all their talking is proving to be way too much for you

-what happened to the comfortable, homey atmosphere? the regulars and a few strangers sprinkled here and there?

-now there were strangers everywhere 

-you were barely able to sit the last plate down before you rushed out of the shop, running right by a regular who you knew rather well

-you actually ran a lot farther then you were intending to,, you ran all the way to the public park 

-which was a lot less public today. it was quiet and calm and let you just breathe 

-you had no idea how long you were out there, just sitting all by yourself and holding yourself before you heard a familiar little pit pat of heels 

-next thing you knew you were surrounded by a hug from Jaehee who was sobbing 

- “Babe?? omg?? are u okay?!!” 

-she was so wo r r i e d and she felt so BAD,,, 

-Jaehee actually closed the store just so she could find you after the regular told her you ran out 

-aww BABE,, you felt so bad but so special??? you knew how much those customers meant for the expansion your company 

-she reassured you that now she would open up hiring so you can relax during the busy days and never have this happen again

-and the rest of the afternoon is spent cuddling on the park bench <3

Zen:

-lets face it, it ain’t that hard to get a sensory overload with this guy,,,

-the crowds surrounding you because of his popularity…

-the flashes of cameras from those crowds…

-the musicals…

-to be fair, since dating you Zen has acted more mellow and less intense or light savvy musicals. He always asks the director what he plans for sounds and effects before participating in a play

-bc?? what is the point?? of acting in a musical his darling cannot watch?

-there is no point

-but the one time he doesn’t ask because he was just so excited about the role… hhhh 

-it was a live performance, so there was a lot of people there. Though you always got the special seat away from everyone else and practically just the best seat in the theater because you deserve only the best

-there’s a very dramatic part right before the intermission where Zen and another character fall to the ground, seemingly dying or smth 

-but the lights are very BAM BAM BAM!!! the white lights in the dark theater flashing so fast, people who weren’t autistic would get a headache 

-and the music… it was all made to be dramatic so there was such a heavy BOOM in it all that you could feel thunder in your chest and pulse inside you 

-Zen is actually thinking of you the whole time this is happening because you’re the closest to the stage, you would get the worst of this and oh my g o d he’s never ran so fast 

-as soon as the intermission is announced he actually jumps off the stage and runs to you to make sure you are okay 

-you’re shaking quite a bit, and once he comes near you, you push and shove at him to get away because you’re freaked out from the sudden hit of everything

-god, it feels like you can’t even see. it was such a horrible experience you can’t even cry or yell, you just need to move and run and get out

-Zen does calm you down, eventually. the intermission is a little longer than planned because Zen’s whole break was spent holding you and calming you down

-he gets pretty mad at the director for not telling him about this, or warning the audience, because that was seizure worthy. 

-when the two of you get home, expect lots of kisses and stims to be played with!!

Saeran:

-awww dang guys 

-he wanted to bring you to one of his favorite parks as a lil cute date, but it was occupied by a huge farmers market. 

-you’re already flapping your hands dude but you try to keep it at a minimum for your babe

-little do you know he’s EXACTLY the same omg you nerds

-why are you even GOING IN THE MARKET it’s such a bad idea but you two just want to have a good ti mee,,, is that too much to ask 

-i cry

-you guys are experiencing it in different ways. Saeran surprisingly isn’t having that rough of a time because he has you as a distraction from all the people and noise. 

-but u ain’t. you are crumbling apart and you’re only still on your feet because of your grip on your boyfriends hand 

-EVENTUALLY he asks “hey, how are you doing?” and you’re just kinda like “you know, not that?/? great???”

-first he thinks that it’s because of him and his heart almost BREAKS but then,,, he sees you flapping your only free hand and Saeran is just like OH BABE NO

-legit picks you up and runs out of the market 

-only stops when you tell him that OMG that’s far enough Saeran !! Aaa!?? where ARE WE,?? 

-Saeran really doesn’t care because he loves you so much and just holds your hands because he’s too scared to hug you or kiss you 

-the two of you get really quiet after that and eventually you two spend the whole day laying down in the sun in the middle of nowhere in the city , just staring at each other and giving each other hand kisses every now and then

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Safe Arms (HANBIN college!au Fluff)

iKON’s B.I / Kim Hanbin       x       Reader

Fluff and lil smutty

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You are a normal student in one of Korea’s top university and this is your fourth semester. On your free time all you do is write write and write, well yes you’re a well-known young writer that has been published five books about romance and daily life. You’re a bright playful yet mature person. Your friends always lean on you, they always talk to you about their hard times, they always ask you for advice, and some boys on your class even falling in love with your personality. But they can’t even touch you, they don’t even have a courage because…. Kim Hanbin always stick beside you.

Yes, that Kim Hanbin.

Yes, B.I.

Yes, iKON.

Yes, leader.

Yes, Kim Hanbin the student or B.I the iKON’s leader.

Girls from other department were jealous of you. You’re not that smart, you’re not that good at grades, but why did Kim Hanbin stay beside you? He can’t even help him or he can’t EVEN USE you for his grades? The last time a girl bluntly asked him and Hanbin’s answer was,

“Because she’s real.”

You can’t help but laugh after he got back from those girls.

“So they’re fake?” You laughed, clapping your hands.

“They’re not sincere.”

You just showed him your warm smile and he smiled to you in return.

Today, you saw a preview of Hanbin from fansite at japan airport, they were heading to Korea.

You smiled, “He’s back again.”

You finally took the bus and sit on your chair. You sent him a message, 

   Poor him, he can’t even take a rest. He’s here back in Korea and he should study at class, with me. He can’t even had a proper meal.

You get off from the bus and buy his favourite snacks and stuffing them on your bag. Then you went to class but he wasn’t there. But you decided to keep joining the clas becau—

“I’m sorry, I’m late. Proffesor. I’m sorry I’m late.”

Mrs. Chae smiled brightly and let him in.

“It’s okay Hanbin-ah, I understand you.”

Him, with his hoodie, his airport style, his nike shoes, and mask. But his face doesn’t look so good.  He was searching for you as you cover your face with a book, then he immediately ran to you.

He was smiling so bright, 

“Do you miss me?”

“No. Please go back to Japan as fast as you could.”

“Alright, I miss you too.” He laughed at your behavior.

“By the way.” He took something from his bag. Your eyes quietly followed him.

“I bought so many chocolate for you in a bag—“ Said Hanbin with his puppy eyes.

“But you accidentaly put the bag on Bobby’s luggage so you didn’t bring it. It’s okay, you’re going to Japan again anyway.”

Hanbin looked at you with his surprised look, “HOW COULD YOU KNOW?!”

“That’s a thing about me, isn’t it?” You laughed, “It’s okay anyway. Pay attention to this class.”

“Sooooo I bought you this.” He act like a cute 5 years old kid while giving you chocolate from KOREA’s MINIMARKET. Not JAPAN.

“Thanks I appreciate that.”

“How could you be so cold. You didn’t even know what I’ve been through to get this chocolate.”

“You just go ask you manager to buy it for you, right?” You looked at his eyes, something’s wrong.

“No.” Hanbin looks disappointed.

After the class, Hanbin put all of his undercover kit so the people won’t recognize him. He followed you, and sometimes he stop following you because students from other department asking for your signature and photo because they claimed that they just bought your fourth book. You laughed. You have this B.I cool leader behind you but you were the only one that they want to take photo with. You still found it funny. Until they disappeared you felt Hanbin is still following you.

You looked behind with your warm smile, “Why are you being like that? Come here walk next to me..”

“I’m mad at you but I’m going to your house because it’s been a while since we spent our time together.”

“But you won’t even talk to me?” You put a sad face in front of him.

“Aish, okay, I’m going to talk to you.” He put his arms on your shoulder. Yet, something is off. He usually put his right arm. Why did he put his left arm right now?

You keep smiling, as if nothing happened.

You two finally arrived at your apartement. “What do you want? There’s choco cone on the fridge or let me cook for you.”

“I’m not hungry.” He sat on your sofa.

THAT IS THE MOST IMPOSSIBLE THING ON EARTH, KIM HANBIN, NOT HUNGRY, EVEN THERE’S CHOCO CONE ON YOUR FRIDGE. SOMETHING IS REALLY REALLY WRONG.

You changed your clothes and brought grapes to eat while watching tv in the sofa with him. Sudenly, he put his head gently at your lap.

“Let me sleep for a second.”

You were very startled by his action. Skinship never went this far, skinship never went this intimate.

“O.. o.. Okay, sleep.” You finally stroking his hair softly and he smiled,

“I feel okay again.”

He was not okay from the moment he went into the class.

You keep staring at him and playing with his hair while watching TV and stuffing yourself with grapes. After one hour, you finally get a cramped muscle and he woke up. He went to the kitchen, drinking a cold water without saying a thing and you move to the floor and let your legs spread to stop the cramped.

He went to the floor with his still-not-okay look. He sat beside you silently. You’ve never been in silence like this with him. You usually fight or listening to his worries or even doing silly things together. After all the cramp disappeared, you finally turn your sitting position, now looking at Hanbin’s serious face at the TV, meanwhile his mind  is somewhere else. You can’t be more sure than this. You finally asked him about his Japan tour.

He immediately smile and talking about iKONICS who were very excited and made him happy.

So, this isn’t the problem.

And you asked more about his flight, he drank 3 bottle of orange juice.

This isn’t the problem too. So what’s the problem….

He began to talk,

“I wen’t to the convenience store after I forgot about the plastic bag. And,”

Yes, tell me what’s wrong Hanbin..

You looked at him in his eyes.

“Someone called me Emblezzer’s son. He shouted it. And the others began to recogni—“

You pulled him close and hug him, stroking his hair as you feel his tears on your thin clothes.

“Recognize me as emblezzer’s son not iKON’s leader. They mock my father in front of me, they said I will never succeed in life. Karma will hit me.”

“Hanbin-ah…” You keep stroking his black hair, and you let him go but he insisted.  He kept you on his arms.

“I’m just scared, I’m hurt, I don’t know what to do in life. There’s nothing I can do properly.”

You let him go and wiped his tears away. When you were going to grab the tissue, you touched his right arm and he shouted in pain.

“Hanbin-ah, what’s wrong?”

“No..nothing.”

You looked at him with your suspicious look.

“Open that hoodie for me.”

He looked at you with his teary eyes, “I’m really okay.”

“I said open it.” You helped him took off his hoodie. A big and purple but still red from blood bruise appeared.

You can feel your eyes get wet and you cried as you took the medicine.

“Why are you crying? You’re a strong girl this is the first time I saw you cry…. Like this…..” Hanbin looked at you, puzzled.

You quietly put the medicine and wrap him with gauze. Slowly, lovingly, you felt your heart hurt so bad.

“First of all, you’re not what others tell you. It’s your Dad’s past, people made mistakes. That’s life. Your family apologized, those people should receive it though.”

“Second, you’re an amazing human being. I cannot describe it because it’ll take forever to explain how amazing and wonderful you are. Kim Hanbin.”

“Third,” He wipe your tears from your cheeks.

“Please don’t get hurt.” You touched his face.

“I don’t know this feeling. But I’m 1000000% sure that I can’t live without you.” Hanbin said to you as he held your hands.

“You’re the reason why I feel so energized and happy yet safe every single day. To go to college, I feel like I have my number one fan and I SHOULD make her proud because she’s amazing.”

“But what do I do? I’m just a failure, I have nothing to be proud about. And look at you, look at how perfect you are with that brain of yours that can write a book that inspired me so much and—“

You kissed him to stop him from talking.

You told him, “Even when karma ever being a total bitch and hits you, I’m going to be there for you. I’m going to stay beside you. We’re going through that thing together. I swear to God.”

Hanbin can’t keep his tears at his eyes, “Even when I have nothing?”

“Even when you’re being the stupid Kim Hanbin, even when you’re nothing. This is a promise.” You played with his hair as you put your legs inside Hanbin’s and he continue to stroking your thigh.

“You made me feel safe, you made me feel amazing.”

“Because you really are amazing, you stupid.” You slapped him and kissed him.

“I love you when you’re being like this. Fuck the company. I love you, I’ll protect you til the end of my life. Please wait for me.”

“Hhhh, this cheesy stupid romancisct.” He began to kiss your neck and…

Yeah.