#aot episode masterlist

[hash1ras]

okay (for my anime onlys) what did yalll think of the aot ending?? (im drunk n crying over levi)

[setsunasbabe]

Cuddling headcanons with the aot characters

masterlist

part 1 • part 2 (coming soon)

contains :

Mikasa, Eren, Armin, Jean, Sasha, Connie, Historia, Ymir

warnings: mention of a tarantula in Armin's, mention of food in Sasha's, curse words in Eren and Connie's, kisses in Historia and Ymir's, mention of the word 'perv' in Ymir's, I did not proofread ; otherwise it's completely sfw

Mikasa

She probably cuddles you whenever she's too stressed. Feeling like she's protecting you makes her relax.

She's big spoon most of the time. Again she loves feeling like she's protecting you in some way.

You're both laying on your sides and she's holding you from behind, her hands wrapped around your waist.

She also probably cuddles you more at night, when you're both really tired. Holding you to make you fall asleep more easily.

Maybe, really rarely, but maybe, she can be the little spoon. I mean if you ask her, obviously she's gonna oblige, but if she's really feeling bad and needs comfort she'll really appreciate you holding her.

What I mean is her breaking down in your arms and you soothing her to sleep while holding her. That's the type of comfort I'm talking about.

Eren

Okay, first things first, if anybody asks him, he's big spoon. But that's such a lie.

Eren is a big baby and wants needs to be held.

He's probably laying his head on your chest or in the crook of your neck while you're rubbing his back.

He also really likes when you talk to him while cuddling. It calms him, he really loves your voice, like way too much.

The best time to cuddle him is when he's having a jealous or possessive episode. This dude is going to be clinging onto you for dear life. Like closing any space between the two of you, to be in contact with you the best he can.

Cuddling Eren is always good. Except in summer. I mean he's all over you. And it's already hot. You don't NEED this weightened blanket. Trust me you don't.

And if you want him to be the big spoon, he'll act like he doesn't mind. But then he'll complain of having a sore arm or something. That bitch 😐.

Armin

Armin is baby. Please I love him so much. Sorry.

Armin prefers cuddling while facing each other. Weather he's holding you or the other way around. He likes having you close and being able to look at you.

Okay, he may have a preference for being held, but you didn't hear that from me.

He also likes talking to you or listening to you. Most of your cuddle sessions end up in discussions about the strangest things. Like you guys are just laying down and 20 minutes later you're asking yourselves 'do you think a tarantula can stay up on one leg?' or some shit like that.

Okay but study sessions with Armin ending in cuddle sessions. Like. Hear me out. You're just 'taking a break' and you're straddling Armin's lap (not like THAT) and he's holding you and you're just talking, your torso pressed against his, feeling each other's heartbeat. Like IMAGINE.

Jean

Honestly he's down to cuddle all. the. time. Like bruv, chill. But it's because he loves you too much, can you blame him? Jean is the biggest simp out there.

He likes to hold you as much as he likes to be held. But there are three cuddle positions that he loves most.

First, holding you close by your middle while your head is against his chest and you're both laying on your sides.

Second, classic big spoon. He holding you from behind by your waist. But it's not his favourite because he's not facing you.

Third (his favourite), he's laying on you, head pressed on your chest to hear your heartbeat or in the crook of your neck to feel your pulse.

Yes, Jean checks if you're alive all of the time. I mean it's not his fault you're so perfect he can't believe you're real?

Anyways. Jean also likes to cuddle you in public (read on Sasha's couch) to show you off to others (read to Eren).

Sasha

Prepare to a lot of post meal cuddles with Sasha. She's always sleepy after eating a lot. And Sasha does often eat a lot.

When Sasha is tired she giggles a lot. Like imagine you're laying comfortably and she just starts giggling? Like, Sasha, babe, wtf?

She prefers to be held. This had to be said. She likes when you're holding her and she's laying her head next to your heart.

She also cuddles you when she had a nightmare. She will literally sneak into your bed at night trying not to wake you up. But if she does wake you up, she'll just tell you that she had a nightmare, asking you to hold her.

But Sasha moves a lot in her sleep. You'll go to bed laying against each other and wake up with your limbs tangled in each other.

Also, being the menace she is, she will put her cold hands under your shirt with the excuse of them being cold and needing to heat up. She's lucky you love her...

Connie

Okay, I was talking about Sasha being a menace, but this little shit is another level.

He will literally poke you and pinch abruptly for no reason when you're cuddling.

No but honestly, he likes having you laying on top of him and hold you close. He's probably telling you the worst story of all time at the same moment but you both really enjoy the moment.

He likes to maintain eye contact while talking to you so your head is probably propped up on one of your arms.

He appreciates more cuddling in the late afternoon, while the sun goes down to see its rays fade on your face, or some sappy shit like that.

No but cuddling sessions with Connie can be really cool. He's a funny guy and he's very comforting.

And the hand placement!!! Like he has his hands on the small of your back, rubbing it soothingly. You're both having a really good time... And then he pokes you. 😐

Historia

Probably the cuddliest out of all of them.

Can and will cuddle you in any situation. She takes the occasion to cuddle you anytime she can.

'Hisu we can't cuddle while standing.' 'Why not?'

She doesn't care if she's big spoon or little spoon. She just enjoys basking in your presence so much.

She also likes to hug you from behind while you're cooking or doing something else while standing.

What I mean is, don't feel surprised when you feel hands snaking around your waist and see blond strands of hair on your shoulder from the corner of your eye.

She expects a lot of kisses from you while cuddling, I don't make the rules.

She often plays with your hair when you're both laying down or you're laying your head on her lap. She really likes soothing you to sleep with her nails gently scratching your scalp.

Ymir

She'll act like she hates cuddling you but she actually craves your physical affection.

You guys probably cuddle more in the morning when you just woke up. Mostly because Ymir is not awake enough to pretend to be annoyed.

She is big spoon all the way you can't change my mind. She likes to hold you while you're both laying on your sides.

Your face is often tucked under her chin so you can't see her smiling. Or she's holding it in her hands while cupping your cheeks (not THESE cheeks you perv) and gazing into your eyes lovingly.

She kisses you a lot when you cuddle. Most of the time out of nowhere. Like she's pouting and 2 seconds later she's kissing you.

The only times she'll cuddle you in public is if she's jealous to show the person who's been eyeing you up and down for the past minutes that you are hers.

[mdr-writings]

Masterlist:

TITAN TAPES (AOT BEHIND THE SCENES)

The Titan Tapes consists of a compilation of clips from interviews, cast social media, and behind the scene footage on set Of Attack On Titan.

Actor Au ------Actor!Eren x Actress!Reader

( In Progress)

A/n: I randomly got this idea to do a Aot behind the scene series after watching dangerous woman diaries ( iykyk). I was like, what if I do this for Aot, since people are literally still in shambles after the last episode, why not make it a actor au. I'm pretty sure actor au is basically canon by Isayama. Also, the chapters will be very short bc they are small events in each chapter.

s/w: suggestive language, ending spoilers

INTRO ~ 🎥

Auditon ~📃

Cast Read ~ 📖

Devil Invasion ~

Titan to Titan ~

Reunited ~

Guarded ~

[chryblossomjjk]

bts fic recommendations | 01.25.23

→ hi friends! this is a little segment i do every tuesday (reviewsday get it, aren’t i funny, pls tell me how funny i am) where i read and review two-three fics. as a content creator, i know how big of a role other creators play in your growth, therefore, i want to do my part in making sure everyone gets the recognition they deserve! so with that being said, please check out the amazing fics listed below. make sure to like, reblog, and leave feedback! ♡ #reviewsday #kikirecs

scent of eager suds - @rkivian (knj x reader | smut, angst, pwp, fluff)

summary: you missed each other, too fucking much. but your head had stayed down in futile hopes of remaining stubborn, forgetting that there is a wedding ring on that tricksy little finger of his for a reason.

so..... genuinely convinced you are the reincarnate of shakespeare babe bc like:

"He would spend a considerably scant amount of time on such a task, yet fulfil it so thoroughly that the constant aching between your legs seemed more equitable than you would like it to be."

LOOK WHAT YOU DO WITH WORDS!!! like everything is so precise. i can tell there's so much thought put into every single word of this piece and woah.. the writing is fucking stellar, seriously. like just the words you use throughout this displays how the reader feels about being vulnerable with joonie: cruel, vengeful, venomous. u put pwp but like you characterized the fuck out of this reader and it's so good...

also... this is thee kim namjoon. like as someone who is v much similar to the reader and self sabotages relationships, ppl who love you enough to recognize that trait and do their best to prove u wrong

AND YOU DID THAT ALL THROUGHOUT THE FLITHIEST NASTIEST SEXIEST SMUT EVER PLS HE'S SO HOT LIKE HE TRULY JUST WANTS TO MAKE HER FEEL GOOD INSIDE AND OUT AND IM GATEKEEPING HIM!!!! this was so so so beautiful and thank you for sharing with plebeians like me :') <3

the one where jin is drunk off his face and you get friend-zoned - @indgio (ksj x reader | fluff, crack)

saf everything you write just comforts my soul. it's missing jin hours around these parts and this is exactly want i needed. i don't know how to explain it but this gives me run episode vibes? like... this is legit kim seokjin. I COULD TOTALLY PICTURE HIM DOING SOME SHIT LIKE THIS LMAO WHAT A SWEET BABY!

also love this oc fr. like from the opening paragraph i could already tell she's the most adorable, most precious being, and you proved it throughout the rest :') <3 taking care of ur drunk partner trope will never not get me and you did it so splendidly ugh will definitely be coming back to this when im sad and 3am and missing my seokjin :'( thanks for this ily <3

"tell me more about this girlfriend of yours."

but jin looks at you with a frown, as he downs the water. "no. get your own."

^also for whatever reason this took me tf out lmao

the one where jungkook will always protect you, even from the fictional - @indgio (jjk x reader | fluff, humor)

bby istg your writing is so... refreshing? like i always think i need these super crazy, convoluted, heavy plots for my fics to be good, but your writing is proof that doesn't have to be the case. your writing is so effortless, yet so beautiful. like once again, genuine comfort content that i don't see too much of anymore. going through your masterlist has really inspired me to take a new avenue, because your fics are just so fucking addicting. i just love the slice of life vibes so much uGh okay enough nutting over u and onto the fic sehfbjsehbdhwb

pov ur saf in my brain BC THE AMOUNT OF TIMES IVE DAYDREAMED ABOUT THIS EXACT SCENARIO IS MENTAL ILLNESS (was just picturing binge watching AOT w him :'))

this jungkook is such a golden retriever ass boyfriend my heart can't take it. the banter ?? the protectiveness ?? THE BITING THE EAR ??? naur im in love it's settled. adding him to the list of fav jungkook portrayals on tumby. will be thinking about him when im bored in the back of my lecture tomorrow. thank you for daydream fuel &lt;3

stfu yes it's wednesday get off my back >:'( i posted this early last week and was just trying to even the timing out that's all... im lying. anyways, love u lmao

[urprinceoflove]

Caution is Key

Pairing: Erwin Smith x Female!Reader

Summary: Erwin comes home with a bruise which catches the reader's attention immediately. As reader tends to Erwin's bruise, it leads to something more...

Warnings: Slight angst, fluff

Word Count: 695

A/N: erwin got beat up in an AOT episode and i just wanted to comfort him-

Fandom Masterlist | Full Masterlist

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Y/N was busy cleaning the dishes, as she was just finishing up her last dish, she heard footsteps in her home. She turned slightly to the door and noticed that it was in fact Erwin. She smiled.

“Welcome home.” She said happily, turning off the sink faucet and grabbed a dish towel that was near her. She wiped the water off her hands. Erwin slumped on the couch, exhausted and unwillingly able to do anything else. The man closed his eyes and sighed.

Y/N’s face turned to concern as she realized that Erwin was not as himself tonight. She threw down the dish towel that was still in her hands and she moved across the kitchen and towards the living room where Erwin was.

Y/N instantly gasped.

“What happened? Where did you get that bruise?” Y/N asked. Erwin opened one of his eyes (specifically not the one that was bruised) looking at Y/N blankly. It seemed as though he forgot about the bruise on his left eye.

“It’s not that serious, Y/N, I–” Erwin started, but Y/N immediately cut him off by returning to the kitchen quickly and grabbing something from the freezer.

“I am sure a tough man like you can say that all you would like.” Y/N retorted. She took the ice pack that she retrieved and tore off a piece of a napkin on the roll. She wrapped the ice pack with the napkin and headed back towards Erwin.

Erwin simply sighed.

Y/N sat next to Erwin, the ice pack in one hand. As she was facing him, she grabbed his chin with her one free hand. She brought the ice pack close to Erwin’s eye. When it touched, the man flinched slightly at the cold.

“I wish you would be more careful.” Y/N said at last, she herself was flinching at having to hold the cold ice pack on the bruised eye. She knew it definitely hurt, but Erwin made it seem that it hadn’t hurt at all. “What happened last time…” Y/N’s voice trailed off as she looked to Erwin’s shoulder. His arm had been gone, bitten off by a Titan.

“I know.” Erwin placed his hand on Y/N’s. Y/N’s hand had been cold from the ice pack seeping through the napkin, but Erwin’s hands were warm and comforting.

“I worry about you… I worry about you all the time, Erwin.”

“I know, love.” Erwin said at last. The man brought Y/N’s hand away from his bruised eye. It had not been nearly enough time that he was supposed to keep the ice pack on him, but Y/N let him take it off at his will. “You mustn’t worry so much. It’s not good for your health.”

The man directed Y/N’s hand to his lap.

It was a moment of silence before anyone said anything. It was at that moment that Y/N’s eyes had flicked from Erwin’s piercing blue eyes to his lips. Erwin gave Y/N a knowing smile before bringing his hand to Y/N’s cheek. The two began to drift closer together and their lips came to a greeting. Erwin kept his hand on Y/N’s cheek, while Y/N’s hand instinctively moved to Erwin’s chest. Y/N did her best to keep up with Erwin’s kiss, but she pulled away, gasping for breath.

As Y/N breathed heavily from her position, Erwin watched closely.

“I should have known that would have got you worked up.” Erwin said at last.

“Oh, shut up.” Y/N rolled her eyes. She could not help, but smile as Erwin teased.

Erwin laid back on the couch cushions and let out yet another sigh. He put his arm over his head and closed his eyes.

Y/N placed the ice pack with a now wet napkin on the coffee table and curled up next to Erwin. Erwin once again opened one of his eyes to see Y/N laying on him. He smiled down at Y/N’s position.

The two laid there in silence until they managed to fall asleep from the day’s exhaustion.

[melishade]

Hello, I know what I'm going to ask is going to seem a little selfish, but could you please make two or three more chapters of What If Optimus Prime Appeared in the First Episode of Attack on Titan Instead of Episode Five? Because I'm really curious to know what happens after.What is Eren and the others' point of view on him after he saves them?

If you look through the tag: #what if optimus appeared in the first episode of aot instead of episode 5 on my tumblr, or just go through my masterlist, you'll find every question I've answered regarding the Episode 1 Timeline. It's not in full detail like the Pilot Episode. That was created because of a poll. But the Episode 1 timeline is expanded upon through that tag.

[shadyruinskryptonite]

Titan Bending Chapter 17 - The Beach

Warning: Violence consistent with cannon, NSFW so MDNI, language, major character death (both consistent with canon of both AOT and ATLA as well as diverging from canon), so much trauma literally everyone is so traumatized, very much slow burn, a little enemies to lovers, SO MUCH ANGST, hurt/comfort, hurt and delayed comfort, AFAB reader

Chapter Warnings: guns, loaded gun is pointed at y/n, wishing Flock was dead, threatening Flock’s life

A/N: Okay so listen, I know that in the show they wait a year after retaking Wall Maria to go to the sea but I had the timeline wrong in my head for, well, forever and didn’t realize that until doing my deep episode-by-episode analysis for this fic. It works much better in my self-created timeline for them to go right away so that’s what I’m doing. I know this diverges from canon but hey, the entire existence of y/n technically diverges from canon so it is what it is.

WC: 3202

Previous Chapter, Next Chapter

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Tags: @mochminnie @sseleniaa @naruwitch

A meeting to discuss the findings from the basement. A meeting to tell Historia and the heads of the military industrial complex that this slice of the world is, in fact, not all that remains of humanity. 

I obviously knew there were people outside of the walls since I myself wasn’t from their confines, however, even I was taken aback by the sheer amount of information about another country that I knew nothing about.

Just like Historia’s coronation, I had to be dressed appropriately so Hange let me wear one of her spare dress uniforms. 

After Levi and Hange got Eren and Mikasa out of their cells, we all went over to the meeting room together. In the front row, a chair was saved for Erwin out of respect. I noticed one lone seat at the back and took it. Levi gave me a strange look but there was no opportunity to question him about it.

It’s only right for me to sit at the back, I’m not even a real soldier.

The meeting was, all things considered, fairly uneventful. Everyone was stunned of course to find out that there was an entire world outside of this one and moreso that that world wanted us dead, but other than a brief disagreement about next steps that Historia quickly put an end to, there wasn’t much noteworthy that occurred. 

A date is set for the medal ceremony for everyone that fought in the recent battle, and Historia dismisses the meeting by instructing Premier Zachary to have 10 medals prepared.

10? But there’s only 9 soldiers. Are…are they counting me?

Before everyone can leave, I approach Historia. The guy from the previous meeting, Nile, immediately readies his weapon and points it at me. I’m unphased by this, but I seem to be the only one.

Over my shoulder, I hear Levi practically growl, “If you like having fingers to pull that trigger I suggest you lower your weapon.”

Hange slightly speaks over Levi and says “Nile what’s gotten into you?”

“With everything that’s come out I don’t trust that bitch! And then she has the audacity to approach the queen?!” Nile grits out.

I slowly turn towards him and as I move he takes the safety off of his firearm. I jump when Historia’s voice cuts through the tension.

Banging her hand on the table and standing up, she shrieks, “Commander Nile Dock, stand. Down.”

He looks at her dumbfounded, and begins to try to argue but she cuts him off. “Y/n is someone I’ve had the pleasure to work and fight alongside. I trust her as much as I trust any of my advisors. If you have a problem with her continued involvement both as a Scout and as my friend, feel free to dismiss yourself.”

Her massive blue eyes hold ice in them, challenging him to talk back. Defeated, he places the safety back on his weapon and sits down. Turning to me, still clearly aggravated but trying to get over it, Historia calmly says, “What is it, y/n?”

It takes me a moment to gather my thoughts, but when I do I say, “I think you made a mistake. You requested 10 medals and there’s only nine soldiers.”

She looks puzzled. “How do you figure?”

Now I’m confused as I say, “Well, Hange, Levi, Eren, Mikasa, Armin, Connie, Jean, Sasha, and Flock. That’s nine.”

A dazzling smile breaks across her face before she giggles a little bit. “You’re forgetting yourself.”

Now I’m completely stunned. “I…I thought I wouldn’t be eligible for anything like that. I’ve said 100 times that I’m not a soldier, I don’t just mean that when there’s things I don’t wanna do. Are…are you sure it would be fair to give me a medal?”

She continues to smile and pats my shoulder. “From what I’ve heard, you fought just as hard as everyone else. While you might not be a soldier, that doesn’t mean you did any less than your comrades.”

I smile a little, still in disbelief, as I thank her and turn to walk away.

As we all leave the conference room, Jean flicks the back of my head.

“Ow! What the hell was that for?!” I say.

“For being the only person stupid enough to try to get out of getting a royal medal.”

“Oh shut up, Horseface. I was just making sure there wasn’t a mistake.”

Hange laughs a little. “Looks like you’ll be borrowing my uniform for an extra event.” I smile in response and wait for the day to arrive, hiding the entire time just how excited I am.

Between that meeting and the day of the awards ceremony, the news broke to the public. Much to my surprise, when Hange and Levi had to meet with the press, they invited me to the meeting as well.

As the three of us walked through the barracks to the room where we were going to sit and chat, I finally said, “I’m happy to be here, but why exactly did you want me to tag along for this meeting? I feel like I won’t really have anything to add.”

“Well,” Hange starts. “We figured with the awards ceremony coming up it’s going to have a lot of coverage and your name is going to be put out there. Erwin soft-launched your, well, existence not too long ago and we thought now that there was proof that there is life outside the walls that we could finally tell people about you.”

The entire time Hange speaks, Levi looks straight ahead. He seems unhappy about the situation.

Is he mad that I’m joining? Especially after the last meeting where I bent?

We stop outside of the room and Hange softly says, “Are you okay with going public? We don’t have to if you don’t want to.”

I shake my head. “It’s not that I have a problem with it it’s just…aren’t you worried that there will be backlash? Especially this soon after we’ve just told the public everything we just learned?”

Before Hange can say anything, Levi answers with a very pointed, “Yes.” I turn to look at him but he doesn’t immediately clarify what he means. After a moment he says, “I raised exactly that concern but Hange doesn’t seem to think it will be a problem.”

She huffs, and I can tell they must have had a long conversation about this already. “It’s not that I don’t think it will be a problem,” she explains. “It’s that now that we’re dropping so much information this is the perfect time to slide in that y/n has been working with us and gloss over the fact that we’ve hidden it. If we wait it will only snowball out of control.”

“Like I said,” Levi responds, clearly sick of the conversation. “I don’t see a reason to make it public knowledge in the first place.” 

Then, they both look at me for an answer. “Frankly, I don’t know what’s best. But for all anyone knows I’m just another soldier, especially when I’m wearing your uniform. I don’t think it’s totally necessary to be completely public.”

Hange’s lips tighten but she gives a tight nod. “Very well then. I see no reason why you should have to sit through this then.” 

I’m taken aback but I nod and part ways. I’m gone so fast that I don’t overhear the conversation between Hange and Levi.

“There, are you happy? You got your way,” Hange says acridly.

“Why are you so hell-bent on making her go public anyway?”

Hange bites back, “I didn’t think it was a good idea to keep her a secret in the first place! If people find out the Scouts are hiding something this big they’re going to be outraged! Then, the violence you’re so worried about will happen ten fold!”

Levi, finally losing patience, says, “She was kept a secret to keep her to ourselves and to keep her safe. That still stands.”

“Why are you so worried about it anyway?” Hange asks. 

Levi quickly looks away, the tips of his ears suddenly pink telling Hange everything she needs to know. Before she can interrogate him, he mutters, “Let’s just get in there already.”

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We all gather in a beautiful grand hall in the palace for the award ceremony. There’s a bunch of people from the other branches there to watch. But, despite it being a monumental moment in these soldiers’ careers, no one is excited.

Standing with everyone before the ceremony begins, I recognize the girl that approaches us as Hitch, the girl that helped us in the woods when we were outlaws.

Before the mission, it was clear to everyone with eyes that Hitch had the hots for Marlow, the bowl-cut kid. Everyone except for Marlow, that is. Since Flock was in the group of recruits with Marlow, Jean suggests Flock talk about how brave he was in his final moments. He has really nice things to say, up until he ruins it at the end.

This kid has got to be one of the most annoying-

“Hey, why did you tell her that?!” Jean whisper yells at Flock.

With a pointed glare at Armin he says, “Because, somebody has to speak the truth around here.”

That’s enough to put me on the defensive, standing a little taller and moving more in between Armin and Flock.

Ever the empath, Armin tries to extend an olive branch by saying, “Listen, I heard about what you did, Flock. How hard you fought to ensure that Erwin would be revived-”

“That’s right!” Flock cuts him off. “You should be dead and Erwin should stand in your place. I’m not alone in thinking that. All of us do. Everyone that read that report had the same thought. Why wasn’t Erwin the one that was saved?”

Eren jumps in, “What do you know about Armin to justify saying that? Not a damn thing!”

With a smug look I want to smack right off, Flock says, “You’re right, I’m not a childhood friend of his. Hell, I’m not his friend at all! But I can tell you why he’s the one standing here right now. It’s because you two got emotional and Captain Levi did the same! You-”

“I didn’t get a chance to do that on the roof to shut you up, but I’ll be damned if I stand here and listen to you make a mockery of any of my squad!” I cut him off by freezing his spit and I now step fully in between him and Armin.

While he’s quiet before the ice melts, I forcefully say, “You were right talking to Hitch, you’re not a leader you’re a coward. All you’re able to do is hide behind someone better than you telling you every move you should make. You don’t understand the Captain’s choice because you don’t have enough foresight to take your head out of your ass, let alone make an important decision. Levi did exactly what Erwin would have wanted: he took a gamble that will pay off one day. I’ve said it to everyone that will listen at this point, but Erwin was the past and Armin will be the future. In case you didn’t notice, Erwin was deferring to Armin throughout the entire battle and even went so far as to leave him in charge of Levi’s squad. He’s got more leadership in his pinky finger than you do in your whole body.” I step in to get dangerously close. I want him to feel the venom dripping from my every word. “And if I ever hear you degrading Armin for a choice he played no part in or speaking ill towards the decision Captain Levi made - a choice you will never understand having to make - so help me, I’ll make you wish the Beast Titan obliterated your sorry ass.”

With a wave of my hand I melt the remainder of the ice in his mouth and he coughs for a moment before Levi appears around a pillar to call us all to line up. From where he appeared, I can tell that he must have heard my entire spiel but he doesn’t have time to say anything.

We line up and kneel down and I’m the first person in the back row, directly behind Hange. When Historia gets to Eren, there’s a horrific pause and I can’t see clearly but it looks like Eren makes a terrified face. It takes him a while to come to his senses but he quickly apologizes once he does and Historia moves on. But the entire situation was more than a little odd.

When Historia gets to me, she places the medal around my neck and tightens it, and when I go to kiss her hand I give it an extra little squeeze which she returns as the corners of her mouth twitch with a hidden smile.

After the ceremony, the rest of the day is filled with mostly nothing. Just lounging around and catching up on some much needed rest and relaxation. Especially considering that the following day we would be taking off to find the sea. 

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It was just Levi’s Squad and Hange that went on this bit of exploration, not that there really was anyone left to join us otherwise. 

We take off riding and go for what feels like forever. We don’t encounter a single titan for a very long time, and when we do it’s a pathetic little abnormal that can’t even really move. It came in handy though, because we could follow the trail that it clearly blazed years if not decades prior based on how overgrown it had become. We followed it until the grass turned to sand and it was at this point that I started to get excited.

Looking at the kids, there was wonder on everyones’ faces except for Eren. Something drastic has changed about him, even though I can’t quite place what it is. 

As we come around a large dune, I’m hit with the unmistakable scent of salt water and we’re faced with another wall. Eren calls out that he’s sure that’s what he remembers from his dad’s memories.

“If you take a deep breath, you can also smell the ocean!” I inform everyone.

It’s cute watching all of them breathe in after I say this, even Levi does it.

The wall isn’t very long, so we’re able to find the end fairly quickly and ride up a steep embankment. I race ahead, not because I want to beat everyone there, but because I want to make sure I’m in perfect position to see all of their faces.

And it’s a moment I’ll never forget. As each person finally crests the hill, the ocean breeze catches their hair and the look of pure amazement fills their faces. I wouldn’t trade being there for that moment for anything in the entire world.

No one knows what to do, and I think they’d be content to just look at it forever. I certainly wouldn’t be happy with just that though, so after taking it in for at least 10 minutes I finally say, “Well? Are we going to go down there and get in it or are we just going to stare at it forever!”

I lead the charge down, kicking my boots off as I practically run into the water. It’s crystal clear and a perfect temperature. As the waves gently crash across my feet and ankles, the sense of peace that washes over me is unlike anything I had ever felt.

I’m home.

The kids waste no time playing in the water. Sasha, Connie, and Jean immediately start horsing around and learn the hard way not to get salt water in your eyes. Armin finds a shell and I swear I saw the moment that he wanted to start collecting them. Hange doesn’t even know where to look and Levi keeps imploring her to be careful. 

Since I can dry myself off with a flick of my wrist, I start going deeper. From the shore, I hear Levi yell to me, “y/n! Don’t go so far!”

I turn and grin at him mischeviously. “I’m the only one here that knows anything about the ocean from experience, I’ll be fine!” 

Knowing it would freak him out and wanting to be cheeky, I jump up and fall backwards into the water, completely submerging myself. I make a little bubble of air and swim for a bit, admiring the fish and foliage that are still completely foreign to me.

When I come back up, Levi looks like he’s going to rip his hair out. I walk back to shore to give him some kind of reassurance.

I pat him on the shoulder before calling to everyone else. “If anyone would like to, I can make air pockets so that you can see the ocean floor and what it looks like underneath the water!”

Of course, everyone wants to but I tell them that they have to take turns because an air pocket wouldn’t hold enough oxygen for all of us at the same time. So one by one, I show everyone the ocean. The last person on the list being Levi, who wanted nothing to do with my little adventure but whom I forced to do it anyway.

Despite not being very interested on land, he clearly enjoyed himself once he got under water. I honestly didn’t even know his eyes could go that wide. 

That’s…cute.

While we’re in our literal own little bubble, he quietly says, “Is being back everything you had hoped it would be?”

I grin so hard it almost hurts. “And then some.”

When we reimerge, I notice everyone staring off into the distance. When I follow their gazes I see a white shape moving towards the horizon. Shielding my face from the sun, I shake my head after a moment of looking at it.

Hange inquires, “What is it y/n?”

I turn to look at her, kind of embarrassed. “Oh, it’s nothing. I guess being back at the ocean has made me a little homesick because I thought it looked like Appa.”

We keep an eye on the strange unidentified flying object, and I could swear it was getting closer. Even so, I couldn’t shake away the hope that maybe it was Appa. 

It’s a cloud, y/n. There’s no way or reason it would be Appa. What are the odds that anyone from the Gaang would come to find you the one time you’re at the beach, anyway?

Given the time of day, we all set our things down to get our pre-packed food out. While everyone sets up, I start drying off everyone that might need it. As I’m doing so, Levi suddenly yells “Y/n! Look out!” 

I turn around just as I’m clocked by something flying full speed at me. I stumble backwards. I’m dazed for a moment until I hear a familiar chittering sound.

“Momo?!” I exclaim.

In disbelief, I hear Jean say, “What the fuck.”

I turn again to see Aang gliding down.

So it was Appa!

[softxsuki]

i’d like a male jjk n/or aot matchup please🥹 thank you so much i’m SOOO excited

personality type: sag sun, leo rising, scorpio moon, isfp-t, introverted prefer hanging with people one on one, funny, caring. sentimental, romantic, i make art, jewelry, n clothes n sell them n am learning to tattoo, my love languages are gift giving n words of affirmation, i like driving around, reading, playing the drums, makeup, shopping; flowers, listening to music, journaling, cute plushies n stickers, i hate anxiety, bugs, bigotry, loud people, comedy movies, etc

in relationships i like reassurance without having to beg for it, being spoiled n doted upon, random gifts, giving love letters (i’ve never gotten one but i’d really love one!!), stealing hoodies, encouragement, consistency; someone trying to grow n better themselves, someone really understanding, matching anything, seeing each other often, petnames!!!, communication, i dislike the obvious things such as disloyalty, etc; i hate non chalant behavior, not keeping to their word, feeling like a bother, them not carrying their weight, someone too logical it’s dismissive, someone who isn’t romantic, someone following lots of girls on insta, etc (i’m insecure n have lots of trauma n triggers)

question heehee: how would they react to me being super drained n low energy? or what would they be attracted to in me? (whichever you like better)

1000 Follower Event Matchup #35

This event is CLOSED. The masterlist is here.

Note: Hope you enjoy :) sorry for the wait.

I match you with: ITADORI, JEAN

Runner-up: Yuuta, Armin

Itadori:

No because after the recent episode, I’m convinced he’s absolutely perfect

He’s so kind and respectful to everyone!!!! AHHHHH

Although he is an extrovert, I think sometimes introverts and extroverts can make a great match and they bring out qualities in each other that they wouldn’t have known about otherwise

He thinks it’s so cute that you make jewelry and clothes and is always telling everyone about your little business whenever he has the opportunity to

You’re learning to tattoo? He offers to be your test subject so you can do one on him one day for practice (he even tries dragging, Nobara, Megumi, and Gojo with him too lol)

Itadori is always spoiling you with physical gifts and words of affection/compliments; it just naturally comes out of him at this point since he cares for you so much

How does he react to you being super drained?

He worries for you, and tries to encourage you to take a break

Whenever you’re ready to talk about whatever has you this way, he’d be waiting to hear you out

In the meantime though, he just holds you close and cuddles with you, whispering sweet words in your ears in hopes that it helps in the meantime

Jean:

This was tricky, but I decided on Jean

Even though in the beginning he was someone who didn’t put his all into his work and was a bit of a coward, I feel like he grew a lot as a character and became someone that deserves respect and love

He’s loyal to his friends and even gave Eren the benefit of the doubt at times despite how much they didn’t get along, he was able to think rationally even when he lost one of his closest friends 

Jean would be very loving and caring to you as his lover, you’d become the only one he has eyes for and he’d do anything to make you happy

I imagine he’d be very romantic, picking flowers for you and surprising you with them on his way back from training, kissing the top of your hand as a greeting, romantic escapes at night to watch the stars or have a quiet, peaceful picnic together

It would be really cute

What about you is attractive to him?

Probably your ability to move forward and even give him a chance despite whatever you went through in the past

He admires your strength to keep pushing forward and strives to be the same so he can become a man you can truly rely on

Aside from that, he’s so in love with you that any little thing you do is attractive to him, even the things you hate about yourself

EVENT REQUESTS ARE CLOSED

REGULAR REQUESTS ARE OPEN

Posted: 9/6/2023

[humanitieswalkingredflag]

a o t [ attack on titan ] m a s t e r l i s t

this is the masterlist pertaining to the anime attack on titan (short: aot), which was first released as a manga in late 2009. the anime was released in 2013, and can be watched on netflix. it consists of 87 episodes as of early 2023, however the final part will be released some time this year.

[ levi ackerman ] -> nothing yet

[ erwin smith ] -> nothing yet

[ hange zoe ] -> nothing yet

[ mike zacharias ] -> nothing yet

[ eren yeager ] -> nothing yet

[ mikasa ackerman ] -> nothing yet

[ bertholdt hoover ] -> nothing yet

[ reiner braun ] -> nothing yet

[ jean kirstein ] -> nothing yet

[ ymir ] -> nothing yet

[ historia reiss ] -> nothing yet

[ zeke yeager ] -> nothing yet

[ kenny ackerman ] -> nothing yet

(its the daddy issues I am so sorry)

all content belongs to @humanitieswalkingredflagdflag save for the characters themselves - cr: @humanitieswalkingredflaglag 2022 - do not copy my work to any other websites

[alwaysrunningoutoftime]

Rivamika Content by Episode Masterlist

🖤 = Episode Containing Blessed Rivamika Moments

Episode Titles = Rivamika Content

Levi = Levi Specific

Mikasa = Mikasa Specific

🔆 = General AOT Content

(𝗍𝗈 𝗇𝗈𝗍𝖾: 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝗌𝗍 𝗂𝗌 𝗌𝗍𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝖺 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝗄 𝗂𝗇 𝗉𝗋𝗈𝗀𝗋𝖾𝗌𝗌. 𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗄𝗌 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝖻𝖾 𝖺𝖽𝖽𝖾𝖽. 𝗇𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗌𝖾 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖾. 𝖩𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗈𝗋𝗀𝖺𝗇𝗂𝗓𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝖿𝗂𝗇𝖽 𝗌𝗉𝖾𝖼𝗂𝖿𝗂𝖼𝗌 𝖾𝖺𝗌𝗂𝖾𝗋. 𝖨'𝗆 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝖻𝗋𝖺𝗋𝗂𝖺𝗇. 𝖨 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗄𝖾𝖾𝗉𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝗈𝗋𝗀𝖺𝗇𝗂𝗓𝖾𝖽 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖾𝖺𝗌𝗒 𝖿𝗂𝗇𝖽𝗂𝗇𝗀.)

Season 1 ➳ Levi | Mikasa | 🔆

(screencap above is from season 1, episode 21)

1. To You, in 2000 Years: The Fall of Shiganshina, Pt 1 ➳ 🔆

2. That Day: The Fall of Shiganshina, Pt 2 ➳ 🔆

3. A Dim Light Amid Despair: Humanity's Comeback, Pt 1

4. The Night of the Closing Ceremony: Humanity's Comeback, Pt 2

5. First Battle: The Struggle for Trost, Pt 1

6. The World the Girl Saw: The Struggle for Trost, Pt 2 ➳ Mikasa | 🔆

7. Small Blade: The Struggle for Trost, Pt 3

8. I Can Hear His Heartbeat: The Struggle for Trost, Pt 4

9. Whereabouts of His Left Arm: The Struggle for Trost, Pt 5 ➳ Levi | 🔆

10. Response: The Struggle for Trost, Pt 6

11. Idol: The Struggle for Trost, Pt 7

12. Wound: The Struggle for Trost, Pt 8

13. Primal Desire: The Struggle for Trost, Pt 9 ➳ Levi | Mikasa

14. 🖤 Can't Look into His Eyes Yet: Eve of the Counterattack, Pt 1 ➳ 🔆

15. Special Operations Squad: Eve of the Counterattack, Pt 2

16. 🖤 What Needs to be Done Now: Eve of the Counterattack, Pt 3

17. Female Titan: The 57th Exterior Scouting Mission, Pt 1

18. Forest of Giant Trees: The 57th Exterior Scouting Mission, Pt 2 ➳ Levi

19. Bite: The 57th Exterior Scouting Mission, Pt 3

20. Erwin Smith: The 57th Exterior Scouting Mission, Pt 4

21. 🖤 Crushing Blow: The 57th Exterior Scouting Mission, Pt 5 ➳ Mikasa | Levi

22. 🖤 The Defeated: The 57th Exterior Scouting Mission, Pt 6 🖤 ➳ 🔆

23. Smile: Assault on Stohess, Pt 1 ➳ Mikasa

24. Mercy: Assault on Stohess, Pt 2 ➳ 🔆

25. Wall: Assault on Stohess, Pt 3 ➳ Mikasa

Season 2 ➳ Levi | Mikasa | 🔆

(screencap above is from season 2, episode 28)

26. Beast Titan ➳ Levi

27. 🖤 I'm Home ➳ Levi | 🔆

28. 🖤 Southwestward

29. Soldier

30. Historia ➳ Mikasa

31. Warrior ➳ Mikasa | 🔆

32. Close Combat ➳ Mikasa

33. The Hunters ➳ Levi | Mikasa

34. Opening ➳ Mikasa

35. Children

36. Charge ➳ Mikasa | 🔆

37. Scream ➳ Levi | Mikasa | 🔆

🖤 Season 3 ➳ Levi | Mikasa | 🔆 🖤

(screencap above is from season 3, episode 38)

38. 🖤 Smoke Signal 🖤 ➳ Levi | Mikasa | 🔆

39. 🖤 Pain 🖤 ➳ Levi | Mikasa | 🔆

40. 🖤Old Story 🖤 ➳ 🔆

41. 🖤 Trust 🖤 ➳ Levi | 🔆

42. Reply

43. 🖤 Sin 🖤 ➳ Mikasa | 🔆 - AckerMOON talk

44.🖤 Wish 🖤➳ Levi | Mikasa | 🔆

45. 🖤Outside the Walls of Orvud District ➳ 🔆

46.🖤Ruler of the Walls ➳ 🔆

47. 🖤 Friends ➳ Levi | Mikasa | 🔆

48. Bystander

49. 🖤 Night of the Battle to Retake the Wall ➳ Mikasa | 🔆

Continue to Season 3 Part 2 and Season 4 ➳

[betbeton]

𓆱 Holy Size Kink, Batman!

Various HQ Men × Reader

Warnings - Various "Vanilla" Kinks

18 + Below Cut Minors DNI

· GN - Reader ·

· Twitter Request ·

· A/N - last twitter request, time to bust out my tumblr ones. sorry they're late babes ·

AoT Version

・❥・ Masterlist

⪧ Ushijima Wakatoshi

Despite the man above you being a gentle giant of sorts it was almost unnerving how silent he was while pumping his cock into your thoroughly sloppy hole. Sure his eyes were squinted, and his face was red from arousal and exertion, but his lack of vocal cues made it seem like he wasn't all that into the sex he had initiated mere moments ago. With these thoughts tumbling in your mind as your back arched when he hit that deviously sweet spot within your body, you were none the wiser to the large man's own internal hangups. As he laid there propped up above you on his elbows, large hands gently grasping your head to keep your cute face within his wavering vision, Ushijima couldn't help but feel conflicted over how much the fact he had to arch his back outward in order to gaze at your face when you were below him had him biting back filthy groans of pleasure. Sure the occasional groan slipped out, but it wasn't anything like what the flood gates of his tensed jaw were holding back. Though they say opposites attract you and the somewhat dense man were far too much alike in that heated moment, both gingerly attempting to hide the size kink that was painfully obvious even to people who hadn't spent a night with you two. As you two had crested your highs you groaning out obscenities laced with your partner's various nicknames, he dropped his head down onto your shoulder as his hips slammed into your own one last time as he emptied himself into your hole. A mumbled apology spilled from his lips only to be silenced by your almost manic giggles, the realization as to why your partner had been gazing at you like a serial killer hitting your fucked dumb brain like a ton of bricks. When you voiced the reason for your giggles after Ushjima mumbled into your sweat slicked skin in confusion, another fit of laughter wracked your body as he went as stiff as a corpse above you.

"We both have a size kink, eh?"

⪧ Aone Takanobu

Aone always loved to be under you, even if your head only reached his chest, he loved when you lazily rubbed your body against his while resting your chin on his chest with a lazy grin splitting your adorable face. It always made him unreasonably flustered even after you two had tied the knot, and not just because you had a tendency to edge the cute giant below you for an unreasonable amount of time. It had become routine for you two to have a nice warm soak after work and then spend at least the duration of an episode of whatever show was playing on the telly teasing each other. Only to end with Aone spread out oh so beautifully on your shared bed beneath you before the television even had time to cool, his thick length smashed between your thighs as your lazily rolled your hips teasing him. It was an open secret, his size kink, even if you didn't share it explicitly you did find immense sexual enjoyment from dishing out pleasure to the light haired man you loved. As your thigh muscles squished his cock for the final time when his own hips had jutted up to smash against your body, you let the fact his secret was open slip from your lips causing Aone to stop in the middle of moaning out your name, a look of horror gracing his handsome features. Though the fright was quelled when you hoisted yourself higher up his body and planted sugary sweet kisses on his red cheeks, praising him for being "Such a good boy" for you. In that moment he had debated the validity of his friends constant jokes of you being the death of him, surely such a sweet monster was going to devour him whole one day. And honestly as you placed soft kisses on his face, he would gladly face the day you decided to drain him dry . . . sexually of course.

"It's so cute that you have a size kink, a big strong person like you enjoying to be topped by someone smaller then them!"

⪧ Nishinoya Yuu

He hadn't pegged himself as someone with a size kink. Sure he was shorter than you by a significant amount and he adored to be able to manhandle someone larger than him, but that didn't mean he had a size kink right? Surely not! That only applied to people who liked to handle partners smaller then them . . . right? Oh gods, Nishinoya Yuu had a size kink! This Earth shattering realization happened when you two were sitting on your couch watching Love Island and talking about the trashy show. You had turned to ask him what was wrong when your short spitfire of a partner had practically tackled you onto the sofa, his horrified face gazing down at you as he sat on your stomach. Mouth having dropped open to ask what was going on you had been silenced by both his hands clasping on your face, his wide eyes darting from side to side before he leaned down to whisper his realization in your ear. Your arms had wrapped around him as muffled laughter shook your entire body, jostling the shorter man resulting in him tugging his hands off your mouth demanding an explanation. It came in the form of you sitting up caging the shorter man beneath your body, his hips hoisted into the air as his legs rested on your hips. Leaning down to whisper into his ear you spewed filth into the quickly flustering man's ear.

"Oh Noya, I already knew you had a size kink. After all who brags about being able to manhandle their tall partner when playing a video game, eh?"

Shifting your weight you dropped onto one elbow as a hand slid done his toned stomach grasping at the erection forming beneath his atrocious khaki shorts. Fingers deftly slipping below the waistband after you groped his length, fondling his cock as you spoke up again.

"Not to mention you also like when I take charge and show you how small you are compared to me."

[hash1ras]

ok (anime onlys) what did yall think of the aot finale??

[i-just-like-goats]

Can I get some angst request between Eren and the reader? Before they were close to their training years, Eren would put her in a heartbeat. They always got each other’s back, Eren and (y/n) like each other but are afraid to ruin their friendship.

The last new episode, where they went undercover in Marley. (Y/n) is the one who confessed to Eren that she likes him at the beginning. Eren kissed her and he did the thing that made him guilty.

He selflessly erased the kissing and confession memory from (y/n)’s mind. Because he knew, that he needs to continue the rumbling so that he can keep his people safe.

After he erased the memory, (y/n) was confused that she want to tell him something but can’t figure what it was and just went back to the others. Eren on the other hand feels bad about it.

Anon you genius. I am in love with this idea. Thanks for the request! Had so much fun writing it. That said, I hope I did it justice and it meets your expectations :)

Eren x Female Reader

Summary: in the ask

Warnings: spoilers for season 4. It’s AOT so some violence

WC: 1.5k

Main Masterlist

Part 2

Eren bore holes into you. All the chatter around him was blocked out by his fixation on your happy face.

You were a distraction...

You were strong. You were more than capable of protecting yourself. That was proven true from the countless times you saved Eren from the jaws of a titan. 

“Thanks Y/N,” 

You nodded at Eren with a smile as you jumped off the titan’s falling body. Your momentary distraction was sufficient enough for a titan to lunge for you. Eren sprang forward from his horse to push the titan’s face away from you, sacrificing his left arm in the process. From behind you, your horse ran and caught you on its back. The titan clamped down Eren’s arm. Your eyes widened in shock, then grabbed Eren’s outstretched right arm and hoisted him onto your horse. Once his right arm was secure around your waist, you spurred your horse to run to join everyone else.

“You idiot!”

“Only for you,”

“Eren! You could’ve been eaten!”

“But I wasn’t,”

“You shouldn’t be so reckless with your life,” you reprimanded.

“You’re safe though. That’s what’s important,”

“You have your priorities mixed up. Your life is more important than mine. I can be easily replaced. There’s always Levi and Mikasa if I die,”

At your words, Eren scrunched his face in dismay. Couldn’t you see that he didn’t want Mikasa? All he wanted was you. Sure Mikasa was as strong as you, likely even stronger, but she wasn’t you.

“Whatever. We’re both alive aren’t we?”

“I suppose, but don’t do that again,”

You felt Eren’s head move behind you, hoping that he was agreeing with you. 

“And thank you for saving my life,”

“No problem, what are friends for?”

“Right, friends,”

The ride back to the walls was a silent one after that. Neither of you acknowledged the sullen mood that was brought on after the affirmation of you being friends. Once you were inside the walls, Eren was reprimanded by Levi, the special operations squad, Mikasa and Armin. Despite the numerous scoldings he received, Eren smiled at the thought of everyone being worried for him.

“Eren?”

“Huh?”

Eren is snapped from his daydream. His eyes focus on your face. You’re too close. With a pinch of his arm, Eren shakes his head, he hadn’t realised that you moved closer to him while he was lost in your actions that never failed to captivate him, no matter how simple the action. 

“You looked a bit lost in your head. Anything troubling you?”

“I was simply thinking of the times when we were younger,”

“Dwelling on the past doesn’t seem like you. You’re more of a future thinker,”

“I was remembering the time I lost my left arm for you,”

“That was entirely your fault for being a reckless idiot,”

“True, but I wasn’t the one who fell on top of Jean and lost my first kiss to him. By accident,”

“Shut up!” You hid your reddening face from his view.

Even after all that has happened and what is to come, you still manage to make Eren chuckle and his heart race from your adorable actions.

“Eren. Not so loud, we don’t want to attract any unwanted attention,” Armin warned from in front of you.

You nod then get up to get off the boat with Eren. He quiets after what Armin said, and his previous stony look adorns his face. You pout at his expression, but continue to hold onto his left arm as you walk.

“If I remember correctly, you’re the one who punched Jean and yelled that he was a pervert, even though I fell on him by accident,”

Unable to reply, Eren shifts and coughs to avoid your teasing stare.

“I was a passionate kid and you were important to me,”

“Am I not important to you now?”

You stop walking, which forces Eren to look into your eyes as you stare at him. Everything around you blurs, and background noises are muted. It’s only the two of you.

“Y/N! Try this! It’s called ‘ice cream’! It’s super cold but so delicious,”

Sasha shoves some foreign food into your face, causing you to break eye contact with Eren. You smile at her and give a tentative lick, arm still clasping Eren’s.

“You’re right. It’s really sweet and cool on the tongue,”

“You can buy some over there!”

Sasha’s eyes light up and she points towards the general direction of where she bought the ‘ice cream’ from. The others similarly were fascinated and awed by the treat. During your moment of bliss, Eren slips his arm out of your grasp.

Later that evening Eren is nowhere to be found. Fortunately, Mikasa tracks him down to the young thief’s home, who you now know is named Ramzi. Mikasa walks towards you with a defeated look.

“Please talk to him Y/N,”

“But you’re both so close. I won’t be able to do anything,”

“He’s refusing to open up to me, so I figured that you could do something,”

“What? If even you can’t talk to him, what makes you think I can,”

“Because you have a bond with Eren. A special one. One that I can never have,”

“Mikasa what are you-”

“Quit being in denial and go talk to him!”

With that, Mikasa walks off to rejoin the rest of the group. Puzzled, but in fear of what Mikasa would do if you didn’t, you walk to meet Eren, who’s gazing at the land alone. The blank look is still on his face, but you can see despair plaguing him through his troubled eyes.

“Hey,”

“Hi,” he whispers back.

“What’s up?”

“Did Mikasa send you?”

“Yeah,”

“Sorry about her,”

“It’s fine,”

You smile hoping to ease him a little bit, before you stand next to him to gaze at the landscape.

“What am I to you Y/N?”

“Easy. My best friend,”

“Is that all I am to you? Am I nothing more?”

“I’m. I'm not sure what you mean,”

“Forget it,”

The small glimmer of something positive shining in Eren’s eyes disappears as quickly as it came. Silence chokes the air around you.

“You make my heart race with every little thing you do,” Eren starts.

“What?”

“You’re strong, you’re kind. You’re beautiful,”

“Eren,”

“And I love you. More than just a best friend. Do you love me too?”

“I’m not sure.” You stop looking into Eren’s eyes and focus your gaze on something - anything - else. “I’m honestly just confused because every time I see you smile with Mikasa, my heart clenches and I feel like I’m choking, but I’ve never been envious of her. If anything I have a deep respect for her,”

“I think you do love me too. That’s a relief,”

“I think. I think I love you too,”

You finally muster up the courage to meet Eren’s eyes again. He looks at you with a fond smile, and his eyes soften. Eren slowly moves his face towards you, and you move closer to him as well. Your eyes shut and you feel Eren’s lips meet yours in a kiss. You both break away after a few seconds with red faces. Neither of you make eye contact with the other. You blush and feel a tender warmth inside your body. Never had you imagined that you would kiss Eren, the boy you deeply loved.

Despite the joy that Eren felt from your shared kiss, the feelings of guilt overpowered his senses. His face hardened. You were a distraction. Left with no other choice, Eren erases the entire conversation. As much as he loves you, he can’t love you when the whole world is against Eldia. He has to continue his plan. For you. So you can have a long happy life with no fear of the outside, even if it means he won’t be there to enjoy your happiness.

“Hey,”

“Hi,” he replies back with a dry tone.

“What’s up?”

“Did Mikasa send you?”

“Yeah,”

“Sorry about her,”

“It’s fine,”

You smile hoping to ease him a little bit, before you stand next to him to gaze at the landscape.

“Strange. I feel like I was going to say something to you, but I can’t remember it at all,”

“You should go back. It’s pointless to talk to me. I want to be alone,”

“Alright. I’ll give you some space, and I’ll let the others know to leave you alone for a bit, but we do need to talk at some point. When you’re ready of course,”

Eren nodded absentmindedly so you wave goodbye and make your way back to the others.

“Any luck?” Mikasa asks anxiously.

“No, sorry. He just wants to be left alone right now,”

“It’s fine. At least you tried,”

Eren refuses to look at you as you walk back to the others. He knows that the sight of you will have him regretting what he did and he would end up restoring your memory just to be happy with you again. A lone tear slides down Eren’s face. He scoffs at the irony of it. A single tear making a quick descent. Just like him.

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Halloween special 2022 - Masterlist

A small collection of stories I will post during october.

Episode 1: Family chaos on Halloween season.

Starring Kenny, Uri and Levi with lots of family fluff and little Levi going trick or treating.

Episode 2: The Halloween bet.

A silly story with Jean, Connie and Sasha managing the many halloween bets they have going on.

Episode 3: The 104th squad's Halloween costumes.

Exactly what the title said. What costumes they would wear and how good or bad they can be.

Episode 4: Dear ghost.

Mikasa is house-sitting for Historia and ends up dealing with an uninvited and very much dead guest.

Episode 5: A halloween evening with the Yeagers and one Ackerman.

A request from AO3. Some family fluff with Carla, Eren and Mikasa.

Episode 6: The Scouts veterans' Halloween costumes.

How the oldies from AOT would dress up for Halloween, also a story of how Hange was able to blackmail, kidnapp and trick everyone to wear costumes.

Episode 7: You're haunting me.

Jean mourns the death of his beloved. He wants to see her one last time, when the veil is thinner, but is this a good idea?

Episode 8: Can't a demon have a break??

Eren is a demon who got summoned a little too often by stupid teenagers. See how that goes.

Episode 9: The Warrior's Halloween costumes.

What costumes would the warriors wear. Also, Porco Galliard is a menace to society.

Episode 10: My special one.

A request from AO3. Mikasa and Eren have a spontaneous outing and have a good time at a small fair.

Episode 11: Baptized brownies.

A sleep deprived Armin encounters a small tray of baptized brownies and chaos ensues later on.

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Acceptance - Jean Kirstien x Reader

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Warnings: Angst, Weapons, Season 4 spoilers

Requested by: Anonymous

Hi! Could you do a one-shot of Jean/Girlfriend. His lover drank the wine and turned into a Titan after Zeke screamed. Then could you show everyone’s reaction and what they decide to do. :D

A/N: Sorry this took a little bit, but I’m really happy with how this turned out! Also had to catch up on the last two episodes that came out (including the one today omg it was so good). I did take some liberties with the second part of your request, as I focused more on Jean’s reaction.  I hope you enjoy and thank you so much for your request!

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You weren’t one to enjoy alcohol. Usually, you would avoid having even a single glass of wine because you didn’t want to risk the possibility of you being drunk. The thought of being out of your own control in a world that was already so messed up plagued your mind enough to the point that when you and your buddies were passing around a bottle, you’d pass on the opportunity. Plus, the taste of it wasn’t fantastic enough to warrant you actively seeking a sip of the purpley-red liquid.

However, that one night where you wanted to just forget about the fact that your comrades, your family, and your closest friends were six feet under - and you were only nineteen yourself - you found yourself with a flush on your cheeks and a giggle in your throat. It felt so good at the moment, like you were flying in the sky. It was that same adrenaline and completely pleasant feeling that you remembered experiencing when you first mastered using ODM gear; playing hide and seek in the training forests with Connie, Jean, and Sasha. It made you feel like a fifteen year old again. You felt like your old self. Now, it just made you miserable.

The little armband that was affixed to your overcoat did nothing to weigh you down, but you felt like it was constricting your arm. It was hard to process what Commander Pyxis had told you - that the wine you had sipped from was contaminated with Zeke Yeager’s spinal fluid. That the one time, the one instance in which you had let yourself have a drink, it would be the biggest mistake of your life.

At the moment, you were stuck in a cell, swinging your feet on a little stool and trying not to think too hard about what was almost certainly to come within the next few days, maybe in the next few moments. The second that Zeke would yell, it would be over for you. You would transform into the very monster that you had been slaying for the last several years. But, could you really still call them monsters? They were people with lives who had been at the beck and call of Marley. They could have been someone’s Connie, someone’s Sasha. Someone’s Jean… oh god Jean. What would he say when he finds out? Would it be too late, would you have already transformed before you got the chance to say goodbye? And if that did happen, would he even be able to tell if you were a titan? You’d seen it happen before with Armin. A strange, mutated version of the human they once were is projected onto the titan’s face. You almost began to tear up at that possibility - that a gangly titan version of you had your Y/H/C hair, your Y/E/C eyes. A ‘you’ that was so deformed, but still held the characteristics that would prompt someone to say, ‘that’s Y/N’s titan.’

You felt sick. You leant to reach for a bucket, but the locked door that imprisoned you and several others swung open.

“Let’s go, come on. We need you all.” You didn’t bother to look up at the speaker. You were a soldier, and you knew how to follow orders, so you immediately fell into line. A gun was shoved into your hand and there was a pat to your back as you were ushered out of the building and into the usually busy cobblestone streets. A gasp fell from your lips as you looked around you. All over, Marlyeans and Eldians were battling, and in the center of it all, Eren’s titan. That short boy with the raven colored hair that you used to share jokes with and poke fun at, held a stance and stature that felt so wrong. But you didn’t have time to linger or hold onto that thought. Instead, the Beast titan made you freeze in your movements. You couldn’t move, you couldn’t breathe. And yes, while that was part of the titan’s power, this was purely your own body’s actions. An overwhelming fear struck through every one of your nerves that you didn’t notice a Marleyean take aim at you. However, someone else did. In a flurry of movements, Jean killed the man instantly and turned towards you, running as fast as he could. All you could do was watch him. Immediately, Jean gathered you into his arms, clutching and grasping at your arms, your clothes, your hair - like you were water slipping from his hands and he was doing everything he could to keep you there with him.

“Y/N, where the hell have you been, Armin and I have been trying to get everyone of our group back together and you have been the one person to be missing.” He says into your hair, breathing you in and tucking your face into his chest. Again, you find yourself not being able to do anything, so he pulls back to look at you from an arm’s length. “Y/N?”

Your gaze flickers down to your armband and then back to him, which he mimics. You find it truly impressive how many emotions his face shuffles through in one second. Confusion, denial, anger, sadness. He was just missing one to have gone through the whole cycle of grief. Instead, he shook his head.

“No, no. Tell me you didn’t, this has to be a mistake. You hate wine, you hate alcohol in general. It’s probably because you were just with them that they made you wear it.”

“Jean…” you finally croak out, giving him a sad smile and locking your eyes with his. “You… you should go. You need to get away from me. Please.” Pushing him away and backpedaling slowly, you don’t let him out of your sight. He takes a step forward, but your hand goes up. “I don’t want you to be here when this happens, and I don’t think you do either.” His head turns towards the floor, and you know you’ve won. “Hey Jean? Close your eyes for me?” You say, your voice quivering just a bit. He complies. “I love you.” You say, pressing a soft kiss to his lips. And with that, you’re gone, down the road and around the corner. And Zeke let's forth one hell of a scream.

He lets his feet carry him until he’s into a spring, finally moving to use his ODM gear. Jean finds himself on a rooftop with Armin, Mikasa, and Connie. The light explodes all over the crumbling city, and Jean clamps his hands over his ears. He doesn’t want this, he never wanted this. He wanted a life with you in a little cottage. He wanted to be reading a newspaper while your baby was asleep on his chest, their little hand gripping onto the cloth of his shirt. He won’t get that. He will never get that.

“Is that?” Connie exclaims, shock and sadness taking hold of his tone.

“O-oh my god.” Armin says, his hand moving to cover his dropped jaw.

“No…” Mikasa whispered, her eyes wide. Finally, Jean looks to what they had set their eyes on. A tall, strong looking titan. Y/H/C hair was whipping fiercely in the wind. Y/E/C eyes were buried deep in its face. And quickly, just like that kiss you had given him, a soldier had sliced its nape and it collapsed on the broken, cobble street. Jean let forth a breath. Acceptance.

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Titan Bending Chapter 9

Warning: Violence consistent with cannon, NSFW so MDNI, language, major character death (both consistent with canon of both AOT and ATLA as well as diverging from canon), so much trauma literally everyone is so traumatized, very much slow burn, a little enemies to lovers, SO MUCH ANGST, hurt/comfort, hurt and delayed comfort, AFAB reader

Chapter Warnings: Justification of “killing a few to save the many” (I’m not saying I think this way btw, just in the context of this chapter it’s to attempt to help them feel better), this is also taking place in the torture episode so while I don’t describe what’s happening it’s notable that it’s going on, super brief mention of reader being sexually active, talk of recurring nightmares

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It turns out, I didn’t have time to ruminate on the difficulty of the night, because our job wasn’t over yet.

After discussing where we’d meet Dimo Reeves and the members of the Interior Police, we head there immediately to ensure we’d beat them there since we had to move on foot.

Catching up with Levi, I whisper so as to not worry everyone else, but I have to air out my worries about this plan.

“Levi, do you really think this will work? We didn’t have to do anything to turn Reeves. How do we know he won’t run right to them, give up our location, and instead of a wagon with two Interior Police it’s an entire brigade?”

“We don’t know,” he deadpans. I stand there waiting for him to elaborate and after a beat, he does. “The only thing we have going for us is that the Interior Police coerced his cooperation. We brought it about through appealing to his humanity. I don’t often put my faith in humanity,” he pauses to glance at me and then quickly looks away again before finishing, “but I think I trust humanity more than the MPs.”

I nod, contemplative silence engulfs us.

“Levi?” I ask.

“What?” he responds, without the bite that his tone normally has towards me.

“...what’s the difference between MPs and the Interior Police? And…what does MP stand for?” I’ve learned a lot, but there are still things I can’t piece together with context clues alone.

He looks at me again, and this time I swear his face is softer, almost like he’s speaking to a child.

I don’t know what’s worse, being looked at like a child or being berated.

Much to my surprise, he explains what the Military Police are and how the Interior Police are a part of the larger group. Most importantly though, he explains why the MPs aren’t trustworthy.

“Glad to see that some things never change, regardless of culture or location,” I muse more to myself than to him.

“Human greed is one of the only guarantees in life,” Levi states as we arrive at our destination.

Did I just have a good, real conversation with Levi? I…I don’t think I can believe it.

Not long after we arrive at what looks like an old farmhouse, we hear a wagon coming over the hill. The stone is in place. All we can do is wait.

The sound of Reeves speaking with someone is slightly comforting, and as they begin to crest the hill I let out a breath I didn’t know I was holding at the sight of only one wagon.

So, he did help us. Damn y/n, maybe you should stop being so judgemental. First Levi, now this guy? Maybe everyone isn’t always a bad person…

I overhear Reeves speaking harshly with his son, something about smelling easy money and long-term profit.

Ah, nope, still a bad person. Just his greed lines up with the greater good for now. At least I’m founded in the way I see people.

The two members of the Interior Police are separated into different cells. What kind of farmhouse has cells? Levi bans us from coming down. Soon, the tell-tale sounds of violence can be heard, even with the door to the basement closed. After sitting there, listening in varying degrees of horror, Hange bursts into the house with Moblit not far behind. We make eye contact and I nonchalantly motion my head towards the door. Reclining in the dining chair, I mildly state, “follow the screams.” Not another word is said as they disappear downstairs to join Levi.

As the yelling intensifies, everyones’ stomachs turn. Even mine.

I know I’ve seen a lot in my day but, this…this is too much even for me. I don’t know how the kids are even upright.

I’m in my own world, disassociating. Everything is slightly blurry. Noises muffled. I haven’t visited this corner of my mind in a while, but I know it’s safe. It always has been and always will be.

When I realize I’m disassociating, I force myself back into reality.

This is a slippery slope for you y/n. Come on, pull it together. If not for you, for them.

When I tune back into the conversation, I hear Armin say, “...it’s just that their views are different. No, it’s just that they’re in a different group. And for that, we’ll take their lives.”

“Armin,” Mikasa tries to intervene.

“We’re not good people, not anymore at least.” As Armin finishes speaking, I can tell they’re all taking what he’s saying to heart.

I decide to break the silence before any of them are left alone with their own thoughts for too long. “Ya know, while I’m only barely older than each of you, I’ve seen a lot of life in my day. If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that there’s really no such thing as ‘good people’ or ‘bad people.’ People might choose to do good or bad things, but that’s not what makes them who they are.” I pause to look around, and it seems like only Armin is looking at me. Like he’s desperately searching for me to give him a way out of how he currently feels.

I continue, “Of course, there are exceptions to this concept, I would say anyone that finds joy in doing bad things is a bad person. But the harsh reality of the world is that the few bad people, force good people to do bad things. At the end of the day it’s kill or be killed.”

Mikasa bristles beside me and at this point, I know they’re all hearing me but I can’t tell if it’s helping. So, I switch tactics. “Think about it this way: we all believe that one way or another, Eren is going to be the key to finding new information and, hopefully, eliminating the titans, right?” I pause until I see them all nod. “We don’t know what these people have planned. Maybe they want to kill him. Maybe they just want to keep him locked away to prevent us from finding answers. Either way, their actions are directly preventing us from using the only tool at our disposal which in turn prevents us from saving humanity. If they aren’t stopped now, whatever beliefs they’re protecting could hurt the larger society. I know, it doesn’t make the idea or practice of taking out real people any more palatable, but that’s because all of you are good people.”

When I step down from my soap box, I can feel them all internalizing what I was talking about. Maybe I’m just gaslighting myself so that I can feel better, but looking at all of their faces it seems like what I said did end up helping. 

In the softest voice, Armin speaks up next to me and asks, “what about the torture though? It’s not ‘torture or be tortured.’”

As if to prove his point, another blood curdling cry can be heard ringing out and we all flinch. I turn back to him and, with a hand on his arm, I say the only thing I can think of. “If the day comes that one of us,” I motion to everyone at the table, “has to torture someone, then we’ll talk about it. But for now, let’s just cope knowing that we aren’t in that position.” 

Since no one was really in the mood to sleep, I suggested we all go outside and keep watch together. They liked that idea.

I stayed behind momentarily to make us all some tea, and it was as I strode across the kitchen that I heard the man in the basement berating Hange and Levi. It took every ounce of strength I had for me to not march down there like some entitled mother accosting their child’s bully. Luckily, I didn’t have to restrain myself for very long because Levi then quickly called a break.

When they came upstairs for a breather, I could tell how much the task weighed on them.

If there were another way, they’d have taken it. If there were another way, they’d have taken it. If there were another way, they’d have taken it.

As I repeat my little mantra to myself, I offer all of them, Moblit included, cups of tea.

“I’m making a big batch for the kids, would any of you like a cup? I had them go outside to ‘keep watch together’ since no one was tired, but I already figured I’d make enough for the three of you anyway.” I smile as kindly as I can at them.

They’re going through so much as well, they don’t have the luxury of going outside.

Hange begins to decline my offer saying, “Thanks b-”

“Sure, I’ll take a cup. It better not be shitty though,” Levi cuts her off.

I grin widely at them now and, while pouring three cups, say, “Zuko’s uncle that I traveled with now owns his own tea shop in Ba Sing Se’s version of the interior so you could say I learned from the best.”

Placing the cups in front of them, I accidentally bump Levi’s hand. Luckily he had taken his gloves off, but it still made me jump a little. Holding eye contact with just Levi, I say to the group, “you’ll have to give me a review once you try it.” I turn back around and start loading the six teacups for the kids and I onto a big plate I found to act as a tray.

Levi raises an eyebrow at me and says, “you sure you got that?”

I pick up the tray with ease and smirk at him, smugly saying, “I was a waitress in Uncle Iroh’s tea shop, I think I’ll manage.”

With that, I’m out the door to deliver tea and they’re off to continue what they’ve gotta do.

The six of us quietly look at the stars for a while and, disregarding the day’s events, it was almost peaceful. However, we’re not out there for 15 minutes before Moblit is coming to fetch us because they have information.

Once all of us have reentered the house, they waste no time in telling us that Historia is the rightful heir to the throne. Hange also tells us that she thinks if a mindless titan were to eat someone with abilities like Eren’s that they’d turn back into a human. And when she says there’s a chance the government has their OWN titan, Mikasa loses her shit.

I think Levi might be the only one strong enough to hold her back…when did I even get on board with this “Humanity’s Strongest” bullshit?

And so, the long night gets longer as we head to Reis’s estate. However, that wasn’t going to be a quick or easy trip, especially not without horses or wagons. So, camping in the woods became a necessity.

Living in the woods. Now we’re speaking my language.

We adopted a typical setup - someone kept watch while the others rested. Levi volunteered for the first watch and I volunteered for the second. Funny though, seeing as neither of us sleep very much, so we just sort of did both shifts together.

We sit on high alert, completely silent, for what feels like hours. It wasn’t until I assumed his shift was supposed to technically be ending that either one of us spoke.

“I’m not going to sleep any time soon, if you want I’ll just take your shift and you can get some rest,” Levi spoke softly in my direction.

I respond at the same volume, “If I thought I’d be able to sleep, I’d have done it hours ago. You’re welcome to join me for my shift, the company and the second set of eyes both greatly appreciated, but you certainly don’t have to. If you can sleep, I implore you to.”

Levi settles back in, and I’m assuming that will be the end of our conversation, but I’m surprised when he speaks again. “You don’t sleep much.”

I snort. “Was that a question or an observation?”

“Both.”

“In that case, I could ask you the same thing.”

We stare at each other for a moment. For the first time, I notice that he’s so pale that it looks like he’s almost glowing in the moonlight. His skin is in stark contrast to his dark hair, which if it weren’t for the shine, would disappear completely into the surroundings.

Yo, what the fuck dude? Why are you analyzing this little shit like this?

At my thoughts, I break eye contact and he finally says, “well, in that case, you’d be correct.” 

I have to strain to even remember what we were talking about in the first place.

Shit it’s been a long time since I got laid. I can’t believe a little eye contact with a man - with LEVI at that - has got my wires all crossed.

When I finally remember, I simply ask, “Why is that?”

Almost too quickly, he responds, “too much work to be done.”

“How many times have you rehearsed that line?”

I can feel him snap to look at me, but I keep staring into the distance. When he doesn’t respond, I chuckle to myself before following up by saying, “oh come on, you’ve seen nightmare inducing shit in the time I’ve known you. That’s not to mention whatever the hell you’ve seen that’s made your survival instincts so sharp.”

At this, I finally turn to him and I’m surprised by what I see. There’s shock on his face but something else entirely that I can’t quite place. Vulnerability, maybe? Whatever it is, this is the first time he doesn’t wipe his face clear of emotion the second someone looks at him. Realizing he won’t say anything of his own accord, I put my hand on his shoulder and smile empathetically. 

I say, “I have ‘em too, if that makes you feel better. I guessed you did because, from experience, no one chooses to get less than four hours of sleep a night.”

He looks away, and almost under his breath mumbles, “it doesn’t.”

I’m confused. “What doesn’t?”

“It doesn’t make me feel better that you have them too. I wouldn’t wish them on anyone, let alone…a comrade.”

His pause strikes me as odd, but I don’t think much about it. Instead I just reply, “yeah, I’m with ya there.”

Silence blankets us once again, but this time it feels different. Any tension, mistrust, or ill-will I previously harbored towards Levi seems to have mostly evaporated. Now, the silence is comfortable.

Again, I’m surprised when Levi speaks. This time, there’s a bit more authority to his voice when he asks, “so, can I anticipate you always being that reckless on missions or was today first-time-nerves?”

I raise an eyebrow. “Reckless? What did I do today that was reckless?”

He huffs. “It would be easier to tell you what wasn’t reckless.”

Now I’m downright indignant. “I still don’t understand. I didn’t get hurt, I didn’t get anyone else hurt. Honestly, I don’t see any instance where I was more reckless than you.”

He side eyes me, but this doesn’t seem to ruffle him as much as I had wanted it to. “Despite me specifically saying you were to stay with me, you intentionally left my side twice: once on the roof and once when we were using gear. Not to mention standing in between the shooter and Jean.”

All I can do is roll my eyes. “None of what you just said was reckless, I merely took some calculated risks. If I hadn’t gotten off that roof, Kenny at the very least would have seen me and then known he was looking for two people instead of just you. My ODM skills aren’t strong enough to out maneuver him. And on that same topic, that’s also the reason I split off from you later. I was already using ODM gear and I knew I had a better chance against anyone that wasn’t Kenny. And I was right. They weren’t able to harm a single hair on my head whereas I took out, like, four or five of them. Plus, if I had followed you, I would have been in your way. It’s hard enough to survive when you’re only looking out for yourself but if you had had to worry about me, too? It’s possible we wouldn’t even be having this conversation now. As for getting in front of Jean…” I stop.

Realistically, I know that it was a bit reckless to do that. But I’m not about to admit that to Levi.

“I knew I could disarm her better than Jean could. Especially given that he had just lost his weapon. Disarming her gave her enough pause that Armin could kill her. I also figured that if necessary, I’d have an easier time killing her than Jean since he had already hesitated once.” I got a lot quieter as I finished talking.

Levi contemplates what I said before saying, “I’ll give you that your reasoning was sound for separating. I still think it was dangerous and would have been safer if you had just stuck with me like I had told you,” I roll my eyes again, which he ignores, “but throwing yourself in front of a gun is still downright reckless. I can’t support that choice even though you may have thought it out.”

The mood is heavy but I just smile and shrug, hoping to lighten the mood by saying, “agree to disagree.”

He scoffs again, but clearly opts to not press the matter further. Perhaps it’s because the sun was rising and with it, everyone would be waking up soon.

Before everyone else wakes up, I decide to return the olive branch that he had extended to me by changing to a lighter topic. “You never told me how the tea was.” 

Truth be told, I was expecting a glowing review, even from him. So when he simply shrugs and says, “it was…fine,” I was more than a little offended.

“Fine?! I tasted that tea myself, it was better than fine.” I scoff and turn away from him, mumbling to myself, “and just when I was starting to think you were a halfway decent person.”

For the umpteenth time tonight, he surprises me, this time by chuckling. I snap my head back to look at him and find him already glancing in my direction. His eye contact mixed with his amusement and, dare I say, warmth made me feel…strange. Not bad, not uncomfortable. Just, strange.

Still looking at me, he explains, “it wasn’t bad, I just think your water wasn’t hot enough.”

I smirk at his words and decide to poke a little fun at him, “well, next time I make you tea I’ll make sure it’s so hot that it’ll melt the skin off your mouth. Maybe then you won’t be quite so annoying.”

His eyebrows shoot up, but he’s clearly not angry when he retorts, “Oh really now? I’m the annoying one?”

Before I have a chance to respond our attention is pulled away by the sound of some of the kids starting to stir. Sasha’s sleepy eyes suddenly make me very jealous of the rest she and the others got and if I had known what the coming days would hold, I might have tried harder to get some sleep.