#anyways. could say more but i feel like this is the most i have rambled on here in a bit. so.

[ghouljams]

Idk honestly I could probably write a really in depth analysis on the prevalence of the blue/brown eyed Ghost debate, and what it means in terms of fandom politics especially when coupled with whether Ghost is a natural blond or a brunet, but I doubt anyone wants to hear about the political implications of people pushing most popular character in the series as aryan...

well, i for one would absolutely love to hear about it, but to be fair my degree is in media studies so fork found in kitchen

but tbh is it surprising that this kind of discourse (along with the whole Gaz “not being interesting enough” bs) is a prevalent discussion in a military propaganda game fandom? probably not lol

i also agree with your take that his eyes are brown as part of his character development and that it feeds into the complexity of the dynamics between them

anyway, don’t feel pressured to talk more about it if you don’t feel like it, just wanted to let you know that at least one person would read all of it lol

Much love!!

- Morph

Ghoul thoughts under the cut because I love media analysis and rambling

You hit the nail on the head by bringing up the Gaz "not being interesting" bullshit in relation to this entire thing because I absolutely see the crux of the brown vs blue eyed Ghost debate being a debate over which eye color is "better" which has inherently racist roots.

And as an immediate disclaimer: I am not saying that headcanoning Ghost with blue eyes makes you racist, I am not saying that headcanoning Ghost as blond makes you racist. I am simply pointing out that the way we view certain traits has been and will be filtered through a lens which requires an examination of our own values/beliefs.

It is so intensely interesting to me that in a fandom with a history of racial exclusion, for a media property that upholds whiteness as the pinnacle of virtue, that upholds western ideals and values as the height of moral purity, that places the good guys in a position where they can do NO WRONG despite having a higher torture rate than the bad guys, that a faceless character would be arbitrarily assigned blue eyes and blond hair despite textual/in game evidence to the contrary (yes there is evidence).

Now maybe I am just sensitive to certain things because I paid attention in school and know what a dog whistle sounds like, maybe that's all this is. However, within a fandom that seems to cater so hard to white women and has racist bullshit popping up every other week, I think... maybe we should examine why we want Ghost to have blue eyes.

I find that with faceless characters headcanons always exist within the hopes of making them more attractive. The idea that they would be ugly under the mask is antithetical to the wish fulfilment of fandom, so it makes sense that people would come up with a face for them. But then why are so many faceless characters made into skinny white blonds? Surely people would want some diversity- oh no, wait...

So we make Ghost blond. Alright, I mean he was a brunet in the comics and in the one scene where we see him take his mask off he's got dark hair, but I guess there were too many people with dark hair on the 141 already, so we gotta mix in a blond. But then why the blue eyes? He has blue eyes in the '09 comic, but in every cutscene we see in the '22 remake his eyes are brown. There's already two members of the 141 with blue eyes, so we don't need another one for diversity. So then why give Ghost blue eyes? If you want him to be closer to the '09 version why make him blond as well?

It's because people want to make him attractive, and in the dominant racial zeitgeist blue eyes are attractive. Which... I mean do I need to ask why? It's because they're a white european trait and people still hold white features as the attractive ones. Same with the blond hair. That's why WW2 Germany designated Blond hair and Blue eyes as the "true German" traits and created a whole class for them "aryan."

So what are the political implications of creating an aryan character out of the most popular character in the series (one who has minimal voice lines and minimal canon backstory in the reboot) within a fandom that regularly disregards/ignores the main black character? It's the continued upholding of whiteness and a specific kind of whiteness as more valuable than others. I'm not even going to say more valuable than blackness, I would say more valuable than other white traits. Why are blue eyes more attractive than brown eyes? Because they're more "white." Why is blond hair more attractive than brown? Because it's more "white." Why is a blond haired blue eyed Ghost such a popular headcanon despite evidence to the contrary? Because he's more white that way.

Now I like blond haired Ghost. I think it's an interesting addition to the color pallet of the team, and I like that it makes him look more like a ghost to be so washed out. But I think fandom has a habit of following what becomes popular within head canon spaces and making it fandom canon, and so many of us don't examine why a headcanon might pop up. Where did Ghost having blond hair come from? When did we all decide that was what we were going with? Why is it even a debate whether or not he has blue or brown eyes, and why does it matter?

If I said right now that Ghost 100% in canon of the '22 game has brown hair and brown eyes, would people get mad at me? And why? Why would it matter if he had brown hair and brown eyes? Does that make him less attractive? Why? Why does it matter? Why do you want him to have blond hair and blue eyes? Why do you care? What is the difference between blue and brown that makes it so important? For God's sake look at the societal conditioning that you've been put through! Why does it "make more sense" for him to have blue eyes if he's blond? Why?

Every single idea we have of what is and isn't attractive has been designed for us by the society we live in. Consider what ideals are being upheld when deciding that the "hot" character is blond and blue eyed while also discarding the black character. Being anti-racist and dismantling your own racial biases is a long and constant process, but it is so vitally important. And once we start examining those biases all sorts of shit starts popping up.

And before someone comes in and tells me it isn't that deep: maybe you should look at why you need it to not be that deep, does it make you uncomfortable to think that you might be feeding into these biases without realizing? And who does it benefit to have it not be "that deep" is there perhaps a group of people that would want you to not examine your preference for blue eyes and blond hair? Some sort of brotherhood perhaps...

[vickylq31]

Good day, I am here to continue my headcanon again 😈. Most of these are angst so..

-whenever fire spirit made a mistake or does something risky, wind archer always pointed it out and told him to be more careful only for fs to brush it off like “yeah yeah whatever” which sparks an argument afterwards.

-deep down, I think fire spirit is lonely and yearn for connection while also mask it with a cocky attitude just so that people dont view him as weak. He probably buried his past deep inside (before he became fire spirit) dude even change his name I imagine. (I mean aint no mortal cookie got the name fire spirit)

-Wind archer cookie is literally the big brother to all forest critters, you can see it through the way he view the critters as his little brother and sister.

-When the tree got cursed, wind archer lost his ways, thinking that he failed to protect millennial tree and just trying to hold himself together to protect what is left in the forest.

-ALSO I LIKE TO THINK THAT THEY BOTH BOOST EACH OTHER IDK. Like through fire spirit relationships chart in crob. He did say that fire only gets stronger in the wind, so whenever he’s near wind archer or some wind blowing at him, he just felt more stronger than before. But wind doesn’t need fire, nah. BUT, whenever wind archer is nearby fire spirit, he felt more motivated or fired up (ykwim) whenever he does something (especially when in combat). So basically WA boost FS physically and FS boost WA mentally.

-whenever it’s raining, wind archer would use his wind power to cover fire spirit from rain. AND Fire spirit would turn up his heat so wind archer wouldn’t feel cold.

-when someone is feeling down or going through a hard time- Fire spirit would be so awkward and try to cheer the other (even though he sucks at it). For wind archer, he would speak gently and listen to their worries (also try his best to comfort). I got this hc for WA after listening to those affection dialogue (he sounds so gentle). THEY WILL BE THERE WHEN OTHERS NEED THEM BUT NEVER WILL NEVER THINK OF THEIR WELLBEING. So if FS or WA trying to communicate others about their wellbeing , it would def be a rollercoaster. (i think I mentioned their miscommunication in my last ask. I forgot 💔)

-When fire spirit turn into a ball, wind archer would probably think he’s dead at first and try not to panic (makes it worse if fs would prank him by being silence).

-IF they both have feelings for each other, they would be in denial at first but then slowly accept it. Actually it’s gonna take years for them to confess (OR NEVER) since either one of them want to be vulnerable for once and only admire their love one from far.

-FS DEF THE ONE WHO ALWAYS YAP AND WA IS THE ONE WHO LISTENS.

-When WA still got trauma from when he got corrupted as night raven and it always haunts him. Just makes him even more restless thinking that night raven might come back or take over when he’s asleep so he try to stay awake as much as he can 💔💔💔

anyway I got more, but dont wanna write too long 🙏🙏🙏

Bad day actually, thanks to you. /j

I wrote a lot on this one holy shit I am so sorry (also I am super tired these days because I am moving so if you see anything wrong please inform me)

Fire Spirit is well known for being a talker, he talks a lot and will gladly speak for HOURS if there is someone to listen (normally the victim is Wind Archer, but he already got used to listening to Fire Spirit talk while he’s running around the forest). Still, whenever Fire Spirit does something stupid, WA starts rambling about how he wasn’t careful and how he should take his job more seriously. Fire Spirit could listen to Wind Archer’s voice all day… but he is a very prideful man, and he doesn’t really like to being told what to do, so he will just sound disinterested in whatever WA is saying, which makes Wind Archer pissed. In the end, they would have kinda of a big and (one of the only) serious fight. Both think they are in the right so they will not apologize right away… but they wouldn’t handle spend so long without each other, so they get there eventually.

Speaking of Fire Spirit, that guy is completely sad, poor man. I believe he does like his life right now even if he has some duties that he does not like to fulfill, but sometimes he probably just… misses the old simple times. I think he forgot most of his past life, I mean it’s been more than centuries, one can not remember everything after so long, but sometimes he will just have dreams about his past. (I hc Fire Spirit as a old hollyberian, so imagine the pain FS would feel just listening to Pitaya talking about the Hollyberry Kingdom)

Wind Archer is such a softie I love him. When I first read his relationship charts and saw his relationship with the Cookiemals and Blue Slushy I just KDJSKDHKSJ

But when I saw Millennial Tree and Wind Archer’s relationship charts I immediately thought that Wind Archer definitely blames himself for a bunch of stuff. Wind Archer’s mission is to protect and defend, and when the tree got cursed, even if it wasn’t his fault, he feels like he failed, and he blames himself everyday for it and it doesn’t matter how many times Millennial Tree has to reassure him that it wasn’t his fault. When that whole Night Raven thing happened it just got worst. He caused a bunch of damage and he will carry that trauma forever, because even if Night Raven couldn’t remember the memories of Wind Archer, Wind Archer remembers every one of Night Raven’s memories, and he would rather die than become that creature posed by the darkness again, so he works extra hard because he needs to show he is really sorry for everything and he refuses to allow himself any breaks because one second Wind Archer would be resting, the other could be Night Raven waking up.

I don’t really have a lot to say about the Boost each other hc because its so cute and I thought of this for a while and I love it so much 😭 like Fire needs Wind and Wind wants Fire. I love the gays ❤️

Once oomf @skrunklie told me about their hc where Fire Spirit turned into his orb form and rolled himself over to WA thinking it was like “giving a gift” only for Wind Archer to start panicking, and I can totally see that. Fire Spirit first thought it was a funny prank just to see how Windy would react but it backfired when Wind Archer just started crying. Every time Fire Spirit happened to turn into his orb form, Wind Archer would get super worried and think he was about to die and almost lose his shit, but after something happening to many times you just get used to it, so it’s completely normal to see Wind Archer carrying a orb around the forest with so much care because even if he doesn’t panic anymore as he used to, he still thinks Fire Spirit is more vulnerable in that state so he protects it just to make sure nothing happens, and if Fire Spirit suddenly feels a thumb gently caressing him while he is in his orb form, he never said anything.

I really like the whole “Firewind suck at showing emotions” because while Fire Spirit is the one to SHOW emotions more easily (just positive emotions, he will NOT let you know when he is sad), he is a big loser with helping others when the subject is feelings, while Wind Archer, even if he is more closed off, he is a big sweetheart and tries his best to help the other person with whatever he can, and I just love this contrast. Also, the fact both of them hate to show vulnerability fuck every dreams they have of being together, so they will just stare at the other while they yearn like two losers.

The first time Fire Spirit caught a rain while in the forest with Wind Archer, he almost lost his mind. He was ready to say goodbye to his long time lover and accept his fate when he just feels the wind shifting around him. When he notices what happens, he immediately looks at Wind Archer just to see him just walking in the rain, like the cold water falling from the sky isn’t affecting him, like changing the way of the breeze was nothing, and Fire Spirit is just so in love with this man holy shit. So he does the only thing he can think of to show his gratitude and love, he holds Wind Archer close, getting him out of the rain and heating him up with his own body heat just to make sure he doesn’t get sick, not even caring if WA was a bit wet for standing in the rain for a bit. Now, Wind Archer is the definition of wind, he is literally the breeze concealed onto a body, so the cold doesn’t affect him at all since he is always cold, but whenever he is close to Fire Spirit he feels himself warming up, like when it’s summer and the breeze is burning hot instead of the chilling cold you would feel in the winter, so even if he knows he will not get sick at all, he just snuggles closer to Fire Spirit because this warming feelings is good, and he would not trade it for anything else.

[turtleblogatlast]

Thinking about the Don Suave scene and what it means in terms of LGBTQ+ representation because my brain does nothing if not torment me with random topics to ramble about on the regular.

Anyway, I just wanted to ramble about why I like the scene but to get it out of the way - the scene can very easily be interpreted in so many different ways, and all of them are valid. I personally see it as Leo having at least some attraction to a man. And the following is an explanation of my own interpretation and thoughts on it and what it means especially for Leo’s portrayal in the grand scheme of things.

Long-winded interpretation under the cut!

Now, to start with, it’s important to me that in the scene Leo looks at Don Suave in the very beginning and then for the entirety of the rest of the time the man is on screen, Leo’s eyes are closed. Yet, in the end, he is still visibly enamored with Don Suave, happily cuddling up to him as he’s being carried away.

You can very easily interpret this as Leo being spellbound and that’s honestly super valid and I believe he likely was at least somewhat in the beginning, but considering how fast he looked away and how he never looked again, I personally think it makes more sense to read it as Leo just finding the man attractive, at least somewhat. (For the record, I personally headcanon Rise Leo as bisexual with a heavy preference for men, but I want to be blunt when I say that any interpretation is valid. Literally any. Ace, pan, gay, bi, none of the above or a mixture of something new literally all of it is more than okay and fair. Hell you could even interpret this entire scene as more romantic attraction than physical and it would still work. Anything goes!! Don’t bother people, guys, really.)

The main reason I take this scene to be at the very least LGBTQ+ adjacent isn’t just because of how it’s portrayed, but because of who Leonardo is. Not in terms of Rise of the TMNT, but in terms of the entire Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles™️ franchise.

Leo’s a character who, while changing with each iteration, has still at his core been around for decades upon decades as “the blue one”. One fourth of the team. He’s the one most are going to look at as the Leader, and oftentimes he is the one closest to having the title of Main Character. Not to say the others aren’t just as important, but Leo’s presence in the A plots of basically all TMNT media is often something very main character-esque.

And that’s very, very important to note. Here we have a Main Character of a prolific and decades long-running franchise distributed by a children’s television network. You can play around with his and his brothers’ characters all you like, but there is always going to be challenges to dodge around, especially since this was still in 2018-2019.

For example, you can play around with their designs so long as they’re color coded turtles, but their sexualities? Now that’s tricky.

“But what about Hypno and Warren?” Not main characters and also they’re Rise originals. They have a lot more room to play around with than a character like Leo does. But even talking about main characters in the franchise, you could arguably have an easier time playing around with Donnie or Mikey’s sexualities than Leo or even Raph, as (unfortunately) the former two tend to get more B plots, so they’d likely have had a little more leeway (still not a lot though.)

So, where does this leave us?

It leaves us in a place where outright stating and/or showing undeniable proof of Leo’s attraction to men is very, very difficult. So, workarounds!

Workarounds like the entire Don Suave situation.

To be honest, as left up to interpretation and lowkey and deniable as it is, this whole scene means a lot to me because of who Leo is as a character. It’s just nice when we get so see even the bare bones of representation with characters that have been such a large part of pop culture for decades, y’know? Even if more would be so much nicer, this is better than I thought we’d ever get for these boys.

And, again, literally nothing I’ve said is the only way to interpret it, I’m more than happy when people interpret media on their own honestly, it’s just something I’ve been thinking of lately and I was wondering if others felt the same way.

Whatever you think when you interpret this scene or Rise Leo as a whole, I just thought this would be interesting to think about, even if it was ramble-y, haha.

[meteor-moon]

there was a boy with stars in his eyes

[welcometogrouchland]

I miss them so bad (Dick and Damian)

[understandably-odd]

i feel like rachel dare is hated a lot because she “gets in the way of percabeth.” but in reality she was just a fifteen year old girl who liked a guy. like she was never an anti-annabeth or willfully stopping percy from being with annabeth (in fact she actually does encourage percy to go after annabeth). she, similar to calypso, just fell for percy, understood he did not reciprocate her feelings, and let him go. and that’s not even the whole of her story! like so much of what is said about rachel is just relating to percy, but she herself is such a cool character. like she led percy and annabeth through the labyrinth, something that nobody else was able to navigate. she hit kronos in the eye with a hairbrush, and though she didn’t know who he was at first, she knew he was dangerous. she literally became the oracle! like rachel dare is such a cool, incredible character and she is always watered down to an obstacle in the percabeth relationship, which she never was.

[ninkaku]

i could talk all day about mori's treatment of dazai and the way he abused his power over him but i'd rather talk about the ways in which he is still doing it, despite dazai having left the mafia. as we know, dazai left the mafia under oda's instruction, a promise he made to his dying friend in which he said he would become a good person, and be on the side that saves people. oda said, the sides make no difference to you, so he knows for a fact that dazai has no reason to do these things, when good and evil are mere concepts for him and not something he feels drawn to either way. a take i've seen often and one that i quite like is not only did mori have oda killed for the mafia's own personal gain (the deal struck so that they could operate under legal means), but it falls back on mori grooming dazai to one day take his seat. up until this point, dazai has never had anything worth protecting, has never lost anything, has never grieved anything and never experienced the emotional call to despair.

odasaku's death and thus dazai's push into the light, which ends up being with the ada, is the final piece that mori needed to solidify that dazai would one day be able to take his place. they talk about it, dazai says you were afraid of me, weren't you? and in more ways than one, the statement is true. mori had always known that he would and always wanted for dazai to surpass him, but the husk that dazai had become by never wanting anything, never protecting anything scared him if dazai was to dispose of him and assume his seat, because although dazai is a genius, he was callous and didn't value anything. he wouldn't value the mafia like mori does, he wouldn't protect yokohama like mori does. during the guild arc, mori says if dazai was still my right-hand man, the guild would stand no chance. dazai inside of the mafia and outside of it exists as a powerful adversary to whomever he stands against, and i think this is one of many reasons why the ada and the port mafia exist somewhat in tandem. the port mafia and the ada overstep their boundaries from time to time with each other, but the truth lies in mori knowing that dazai could ruin them if he intended to.

in something of a tldr mori aims to push dazai out of the mafia just as much as he intends to keep him within it. he needs dazai to experience loss, needs him to experience what it feels like to protect something, what it feels like to want to protect something. the fact that after dazai left, mori has not replaced his seat as an executive. has not replaced dazai as his right-hand with someone else, continuously offers him his position back means he fully intends to have him back under his wing again, someday. means he fully expects, once dazai has experienced what he needs him to, that he will take over his position, and he will drive dazai back to him. yosano and dazai serve as two prizes that mori currently does not have on his mantle, and in the deal struck with the president of the agency, those are the two he is most likely to pluck out of their ranks to put right back into his own.

[arolesbianism]

GUYS.

New dupe real! Also new pod????? Olivia is that you girlie speak to me

[lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar]

i will always think of myself as the one who brought russ fully into your life via argent and it makes me feel like i've done something good!

SOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOD omg, honestly this was the best thing that has happened to me within probably in the last decade, i am always forever grateful to you for this. i rank it up there with other important lifechanging events like when i stopped living with my dad.

whenever i think of the ways russ has really helped me and continues to help me, i also think about you. if you hadn't shown me argent, none of this would be a thing, at least not to this extent. i don't know how this year would have gone without him, but i'm positive it wouldn't have been anywhere near as good for me as it has been, thanks to you.

plus with this happening, it helps me remember that people sharing things they like with other people is a good thing, whether it's hit or miss, they like it or not, doesn't matter, because something like this can happen and change somebody's whole world around. all it could take is one link sent to the right person. and even if it doesn't do that, it's just fun to share things if they're interested in exploring it because i know it's fun for me when i'm sent stuff.

still trying to get through my problem of feeling like i can't talk about my interests much or at all in direct conversations, but thinking about all of this helps.

[bunnyboy-juice]

i guess this is a vent? idk I'm talk to myself some is all

the thing ab CAB is she will literally experience us having coughing fits every couple of hours overnight, waking up drowsy and dizzy with a sore throat, clutching her stomach as the sick affects the tummy and also the pre-existing GI issues, and brain empty bc sick brain fog + grief brain fog + already have brain problems. and her ass will still try to take over and be like NO WE'RE OKAY EVERYTHINGS OKAY LETS GO TO WORK OKIE DOKIE LETS GO YOU'RE LETTING EVERYONE DOWN (< who i have no idea btw. everyone in my life is telling me to stay home & rest. probably dad cus he doesnt believe in covid but he also doesnt mean shit anymore in our lives bby I promise) LETS GO. like girl. we literally cant even stand without getting dizzy and we got terrible sleep last night AND our boss is letting us "wfh" instead of exhausting our eto. could you be any more .... oh god word dont elude me now ..... whatever. anyway. CAB shut the fuck up challenge

[hana-bobo-finch]

jørgan clan my beloved. you guys are so messed up

[designernishiki]

brings me great joy to remember the fact that (aside from serena) the main bar kiryu frequents is a queer bar hosted by drag queens and run by a trans lady. like legit that fact sounds too good to be canon but it literally is

[fabdante]

For the Spotify wrapped 1-100 ask: 2, 8, 39, 44, 99! :D

spotify wrapped is HERE! send me a number 1-100 and I’ll tell you the song it corresponds with on my top 100 playlist

2) Sleep Patterns by Merchant Ships! Congratulations you won!

8) Earth Death by Baths (this is an EXCELLENT vergil song)

39) Flashlight by the Front Bottoms

44) Maps by the Front Bottoms

99) The Ex by Billy Talent (sasha and august type of song)

[qbebou]

ok not to be like he’s just like me fr…. but chayanne is just like me fr…..

i’m also the oldest child with one younger sibling who needed a lot more care when we were kids and therefore was deprived of certain needs in favor of my brother. i also had a parent that was missing a lot and depended almost solely on my dad. obviously tallulah needs more help than chay, with her asthma and lesser fighting skills, not to mention she had only been playing minecraft for like a month? or two before wilbur found her. and chay knows that! he knows that she needs more help than he does he knows he’ll do anything for her he knows he has to be the strongest to protect her. my brother and i are only a year apart but i was forced to grow up very very quickly bc i was on my own a lot as a kid while my brother was sick. phil doesn’t worry abt chay when he runs off bc he doesn’t need to, chay can take care of himself. hell, he took care of all the eggs when they first left. but at the same time, it’s comforting to know ur parent is looking out for u even when u don’t need it. phil’s not a smothering parent, he’s attentive, but not smothering. but let’s be real he can also be emotionally constipated LMAO but that leads to situations like the argument and frustration between chay and tallulah when dapper was kidnapped. in his defense, he’s never been a parent before and had 2 children thrust upon him to raise on his own. he didn’t have a lot of time to adjust to parenthood like ppl in real life do, he suddenly had 2 children who had their own thoughts and opinions and emotional needs, he didn’t get the time it takes to LEARN abt how to provide that specific care and while some ppl have that innate knowledge there is a lot of learning and navigating when it comes to emotional vulnerability and regulation esp when it comes to children who are figuring it out as well. i feel for chay when he thinks he needs to be the strongest. i feel for chay when he had to make the decision to gather the eggs and leave. i feel for chay when he had to take blame for bad things happening. and i feel for chay when he realized tallulah doesn’t need him as much anymore. my brother and i are both adults now and we had a …… tumultuous relationship as teenagers for reasons that were both our own and caused by problems outside our control. but i still remember exactly how devastating it was the moment i realized that he was fine on his own. that he didn’t need me anymore. and it caused a rift between us; on my end bc i was frustrated and felt tossed aside and on his end bc he NEEDED to be independent to keep growing. i see so much of myself in chay and i desperately wish he and tallulah had a better mediator for their argument, or at least someone who could truly understand why they were so upset. i don’t think phil clocked that tallulah was so upset and adamant abt looking for dapper bc it was just her dapper and ramon surviving on their own. just bc phil didn’t witness it doesn’t mean it didn’t happen and it doesn’t mean that they don’t have a much tighter relationship than they had before purgatory. and when chayanne said everyone was blaming him for the decisions he made phil was quick to tell him that no one was blaming him but also phil doesn’t know that! he doesn’t know if any blame was put on chayanne when it was just the eggs together. chayanne made the decision for the eggs to run and they trusted him bc he’s the oldest and he’s strong and he can be a leader but by running he also put the eggs thru a lot of pain and fear that they may not have gone thru if they stayed with their parents. and even if the eggs didn’t explicitly say that they blamed chayanne im sure he blamed himself for every little thing that went wrong. we’ve already seen him open up a tiny bit abt how he was questioning his decision to leave. but phil told him that chay made the best decision he could have given the information he had at the time which is true! but when ur the oldest and everyone is looking to u, all of the responsibility lies on ur shoulders. chayanne has been carrying SO much weight on his shoulders for so long it breaks my heart.

[welcometoteyvat]

 xingqiu, gold accents, ginkgo leaves, the light golden color tea gets in sunlight

hu tao, also gold accents, mahogany wood, smoky things, spider lilies unfurling in the dark. but it would be cool to edit her art so it’s more high contrast (darker outfit and hair) with stark black plum branches against winter snow 

chongyun, white, clouds, wisps of chill wind. fluffy things and a big fur coat

majority red palette ningguang would also be cool

and of course, zhongli with gold orange. old man can’t beat the geo lord cor lapis soulmates (ambiguous relationship) with azhdaha allegations

[assumedcryptid]

literally why the hell am i always so anxious to call out of work