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not to sound paranoid but who leaked moments in between in a discord chat bc why does that short have 800+ views and all other kofi shorts like 60 💀
#m.txt#I'm so confused#for a second I thought i made it public fr#anyways. I liked it better when I didn't know how many ppl looked at the wips and posts#but we move 🗣🗣
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𐔌 . ⋮ Izuku Midoriya .ᐟ ֹ ₊ ꒱
Headcanons: Childhood friends to lovers
Before dating...
You two either were inseparable during daycare or were neighbors and hung out together
Either way, you were one of Izukus few friends. And unlike Bakugo, you stayed with him despite him being quirkless
Due to how much of an asshole Bakugo was and is to Izuku, you bet you hate his guts despite all of Izuku's insistence on how not to hate him
If you two went to the same school, you would try to protect him as best as you could. If you didn't, you two always hung up after school. Either way very disapproving of Izuku not wanting to tell his mum of how ppl at Aldera were treating him, Izuku was grateful you didn't snitch despite your disdain
Izuku would try so hard to ignore his feelings for you since he felt guilty. You were such a good friend to him and he would ruin it all with his own selfish feelings
Would need a huge amount of work on your part to get together. Like he needed clear signals to even assume you might view him that way
"I like boys that are sensible, with curly green hair and freckles"
(He still might not get it btw)
Anyway, but after the constant guilt and one sided pinning and attempts for him to catch the hint you finally confess and you two began dating yay!
The most difficult part is over
In a relationship...
Izukus was already clingy before dating so imagine once you're in a romantic relationship together... Yeah he's not letting you go
High-key would have attachment issues cuz you're the only person since his childhood that has stayed and never looked at him differently due to his quirk situation
He's always researching your quirk and how it works, it's his love language
Also despite all of all mights warnings you bet he told you about how he got his quirk
How could he ever keep anything from you?? You would stay with him either way
Likes casual dates like going on a picnic or doing grocery runs together, just like a hang out. He feels like the formal dates are too much and he just wants to enjoy your company as he has been doing (but this time with kisses and extra cuddles)
We all know he has no preservation instinct right?? Yeah if that worries you and you tell him that man is gonna try to find a way to use his power without breaking his finger each time. Also impulsed him to think for himself and actually take care of himself lmfao
Notices sm about you and writes down stuff like what you mentioned once wanting for stuff like birthdays. Has a bunch of notes just regarding you, not just of your quirk
Quite confident in the relationship due to how long you two have known each other but then again he worries over anything so he would fret over having accidentally upset you when teasing you
Cuz we all know he would tease you. He gets sassy when he's comfortable ‼️
Would come back with a bunch of stuff for you as an apology for something that hadn't even upset you
If you were AFAB he would probably keep track of your period and have everything ready for whenever it's that time of the month. You're also the reason he's always carrying hair ties and pads despite not needing them. Specially if you're forgetful
Speaking of, you never have to worry about Izukus forgetting anything special like anniversary. That man is thinking about it months before. He does remember and you bet he would go all out.
Has so many photos with you hung around his walls and closet. Can see the two of you growing old. Probably stares at it whenever he feels down. You're his motivation to do better
Izukus gives me "walking heating pad" vibes, like he would always be warm to cling onto, if you get cold easily
Loves to put your hands on his jacket's pocket to hold them. Also loves intertwining hands and just about any physical contact
Forehead kisses and headpats def become frequent for him when he's at U.A
Wants to protect you and has his instincts act up fr
If you get hurt or need him?? He's right there before you know it. Even if it's due to something silly, that man would never get angry at you for needing him and asking for his help
Speaking of, so patient with you. If you were hesitant with intimacy of any sorts he would wait for as long as needed and never force you into anything, hell he would refrain from anything you want as long as that means he gets to keeps you by his side. Doesn't want to be the reason behind your discomfort
Izuku gets a bit shy with pda but he loves it. Makes him feel all warm and tingly to be so loved and have people knowing it
Definetly the kind of guy who doesn't stfu about how amazing you are and how much he loves you to his friends. It's like he has a crush on you forever despite having been dating for literal years
The only "arguments" if you that you and izuku have will probably most likely be related to all might. Like he loves you but superman is NOT better than all might thank you very much
He rambles so much to you, to the point where you've learnt to decipher his mumbles that seem to be more gibberish rather than language. It's your super power
Izuku is just happy to have you listen
Such a fast texter... Makes a lot of typos due to it. Occasionally used kaomojis when texting you. Some of his typos have become internal jokes between you two
Overall very sweet and attentive, would do anything for you <3


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☆ the wrong way to hard launch (8) | OP81
summary : oscar's girlfriend is a walking pr problem for literally everyone (including herself) social media au
pairing : oscar piastri x zhou!fem!singer!oc
a/n all aboard the speculation train
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↳ kayla @luna_apocolypse · 49m fork found in kitchen, we had to wait over three years for a sophomore album, we'll live ↳ kayla @luna_apocolypse · 47m but then again... no 'new' music makes me think that lina is being sneaky again
oscalina real ?! @ emptyginbottles · 28m too many people talking about the 'no new music' bit of the interview and not enough talking about how oscar's going to drive lina to florence after imola ↳ oscalina real ?! @ emptyginbottles · 27m i didn't think it would be possible, but i think i just heard this woman giggle over a man through my phone via a printed interview
amie <3 @mieflrs · 2h it's actually so insane how smoothly the empty bottles pr team buried all the tommy talk. i didn't even notice bc they moved so naturally to 'chris and eb reunion??' and then the rolling stones cover + interview like they just dropped us better things to talk about ↳ amie <3 @mieflrs · 2h slay empty bottles pr team, i really appreciate y'all 🫶
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r/EmptyBottles · Posted by u/luckyluna9364 5 hours ago Lina x Oscar Timeline
Has anyone worked out the relationship timeline for Lina and Oscar? I've been talking to some of my F1 friends, and there's so much confusion about how and when they met because these two people have barely been in the same country at the same time. This is, of course, if we go off the common perception that Zhou Guanyu was definitely the person who introduced them.
buisms84 · 4 hr. ago op i was literally just thinking about this!! lina's been pretty much stuck in california since the pandemic and oscar flies around for races all the time, it's pretty possible that they didn't meet first but rather started texting? but then when did they start going out because they clearly look familiar with each other. fantstic013 · 4 hr. ago streets are saying as early as silverstone 2023 👀 but we all know lina is super secretive about her current relationships (bar whatever mess thomas howard was)
summersweettea1389 · 3 hr. ago i think the confirmed timeline is what we've all been experiencing these past few months. like there seems to be no other indicator they were linked, even platonically, before that insane hard launch. luckyluna9364 OP · 3 hr. ago I know that Lina can be really sneaky but she also loves messing with us, so I'm convinced she was subtly soft-launching him and we all didn't notice. But you know what I found most strange? Right before the hard launch, a bunch of different new sites were publishing rumours, I'm not super online, but were there rumours earlier? whatthekermitdid · 3 hr. ago ur talking about the rumors of them over the holiday season when they both happened to be at the same party but that was debunked ages ago - they went with different ppl but they may have met there?
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piaa⁸¹ @ papayaeightyone · 5h no, i don't think u understand, i'm actually SCREECHING over oscar's answer to the 'texting the wrong person' question from the never have i ever video
↳ piaa⁸¹ @ papayaeightyone · 5h I'M SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM I SWEAR 🥹
↳ kayla @luna_apocolypse · 2h 'most awkward conversation of my life'??? 'not the best way to confess'??? SELINA WHAT DID U SAY TO THIS MAN 😭 ↳ pookie piastri @op81ln4 · 3h NO I NEEEED TO KNOW HOW SHE REACTED
lina !!! @EB_selina · 48m everyone keeps tagging/sending me the clip of oscar talking about accidentally texting me about me. guys, i was there, i know it happened, and i will be taking my reaction to the grave ↳ Oscar Piastri @ OscarPiastri · 12m She's embarrassed because she ghosted me for like a week ↳ lina !!! @EB_selina · 11m sir why are u lying???
june @linafesting · 2h finding out that oscalina's talking stage was oscar giggling and texting his friends how much he liked her and lina ghosting him after an accidental confession is pure comedy ↳ june @linafesting · 2h oscalina, the couple that keeps on giving us anything but photos together

↳ clovie @ luvyouvie · 57m wait where did lina mention oscar? ↳ li(n)a @meliabelrose · 44m rolling stone interview, she mentions him like 8 times
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r/EmptyBottles · Posted by u/luckyluna9364 3 days ago Lina x Oscar Timeline [read new comments]
whatthekermitdid · 5 hr. ago ok so my f1 friend just told me that the never have i ever video was filmed like in february (or earlier) which means that oscalina were going out since at least then BUT (and maybe i'm delulu) i couldn't help but notice that he's v calm about it like it happened a long time ago which is really no help to this timeline
niaphilia283 · 3 hr. ago not to sound clinically insane but have we considered that they've been together for a lot longer than we imagined? thinking logically, selina isn't the type of person to so publically acknowledge a new boyfriend - she didn't even mention tommy until like seven months - and judging by her recent behaviour (the hard launch, the dedicated performance, the birthday instagram post) she's either down so astronomically bad she'll never recover from it OR they've been together for at least two years luckyluna9364 OP · 3 hr. ago if they've been tgt for even longer than ONE year i'd actually lose it bc there's noooo way lina would be that quiet about it niaphilia283 · 3 hr. ago wait i just remembered that two years ago would be around when tommy got engaged and lina def would've made a big deal about any relationship my bad
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clara @ zgy24 · 2h these photoshoots have the same vibe and it was the first thing i thought of 😭
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↳ lina !!! @EB_selina · 1h what a copycat @ZhouGuanyu24 😒 ↳ 周冠宇 | Zhou Guanyu 🇨🇳 @ZhouGuanyu24 · 1h I did it better
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lina !!! @EB_selina · 2h been feeling mean lately, how much trouble should i cause? ↳ EB BAR @theemptybottlesbar · 2h selina pls have mercy MERCY I BEG
kayla @luna_apocolypse · 1h it's been an hour since that cryptic ass tweet, i'm shaking lina what do you have up your sleeve
piaa⁸¹ @ papayaeightyone · 32m OH MY GOD WHAT DID SHE JUST SAY????
EB BAR @theemptybottlesbar · 43m We'd like to extend our condolences to @ McLarenF1, we're working on getting her media training, but it doesn't seem to be working ↳ McLaren @ McLarenF1 · 39m We're all in this together 🥹 ↳ oscalina real ?! @ emptyginbottles · 42m WHAT DID SHE DO???? IS IT THE LIVE?? WHAT DID SHE SAY IM AT WORK SELINA HOW COULD U DO THIS TO ME
amie <3 @mieflrs · 29m i just know that pr team has being worked TO DEATH this past week like RIP
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r/EmptyBottles · Posted by u/luckyluna9364 6 days ago Lina x Oscar Timeline [read new comments]
luckyluna9364 OP · 1 hr. ago this thread is getting super active after lina's livestream so i'm doing my best to summarise what ppl are saying: - a much longer relationship than anticipated is highly possible; lina was still pretty vague with the timing all she really said was 'long enough' what long enough is to her is up to debate (most are keeping the benchmark at 7mo) - lina mentioned her aunt (zhou guanyu's mother) has invited them to have dinner in shanghai which means that not only has lina's family known and met oscar but also that lina is stopping over in shanghai for a bit before performing in shenzhen (exciting news for the oscalina stans) - her freezing up suggests that she and oscar were keeping a lot of the relationship private or even secret for a while and it was genuinely a mistaken slip that wasn't at all supposed to happen (one can only wonder how oscar reacted) - a couple people think that EB planned the tour schedule around the F1 calendar (there are quite a few overlaps in races and shows) which would mean that they were together BEFORE tour announcement which was back in november - one user is betting their life savings that they met before oscar's f1 debut, for that user's sake i hope it's true.
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I love how sakura and hinata fans say sns shippers are misogynists for not liking those girls and the ships when really I think me being a man-hating-radical-feminist is what makes me not like them lol. Like I have self respect which is why I don't like someone who's entire purpose is to be a man worshipping housewife from the 1950s with no backbone and doesn't stand up for herself at all (hinata) or someone who's pretty much a male in female form who mimics real creepy male behaviour to a T like constantly harassing someone and trying to force them to like you back despite constant rejects, treating them like a sexual object only, centering yourself around their life and not even actually caring about someone they claim to love (sakura). Also if you take it a step further, I can even say the reason sasuke's my favourite character is bc he's female-coded. Like almost every way he gets treated both by the narrative and by real fans is how a lot of ppl treat real women. (think they know better for him, hating him for being attractive and able to get anyone's attention, hating him for having agency and not caring what ppl think, not caring to follow paths others want him to follow, etc) these are all things that most women get hated on for irl. It also says a lot that most of his haters are male lol, while other male characters with the "coolness" factor like sasuke are still worshipped (like his own brother, kakashi, even naruto). Also gaara getting more popular after he started worshipping naruto and leaving his cool backstory and interesting character behind also proves my point. If sasuke just became a naruto fanboy halfway thru and didn't bother with his revenge and only started loving naruto (not romantically tho, ofc, bc that's gay and we're alpha males who fuck bitches only 😤) he prolly wouldn't be as hated. Just like if sakura switched her affections from sasuke to naruto halfway thru, the dudebros would stop hating her. It's all about naruto worship, and the characters who end up doing that always end up being the shell of the interesting characters they once were (like gaara, hinata was never an interesting character, she's the only one who was meant to be his cock worshipper since the beginning) and that's what makes me hate all dudebros and some female fans who think this too. Like sometimes I start hating naruto myself bc some of the sasuke only stans on tumblr make really good points about how naruto's basically a male power fantasy series. Almost everyone ends up worshipping him, and even sasuke (if you wanna see it that way) ends up doing that. I personally like equal power in relationships so I like to see them as equal in the end, but some ppl who only wanna see their self insert incel mc be worshipped, they can see it that way. Sometimes I only like naruto in sns and sasuke individually, and hate everything else about this series. Anyway that got kinda off topic but yeah.
Sakura also does not stand up for herself when it comes to Sasuke.
Hinata's body language is always timid, but Sakura's becomes one too in the presence of Sasuke. Because she tries to make Sasuke like her, but since she doesn't understand Sasuke she also doesn't understand this is not what Sasuke wants nor needs. Sasuke wouldn't like it either if Naruto acted this pathetic.
Hinata is literally a tradwife dream, she is docile, submissive, doting and her only goal in life is to support Naruto and become Naruto's girlfriend/wife and have his kids. She has no thoughts about anything else. This is what many men want from a woman. It's really pitiful to read/watch people try to come up with something in order to make Hinata look like a decent character. It all comes down to "she liked Naruto since the beginning", "she sacrificed herself for Naruto", "she has had more kids than the other female characters".
I don't know about the use of "female-coded" as a term (I talked about it at one point), I think it's the homoeroticism that largely contributes to this (especially how Sasuke is made to be desirable to both men and women). But I do see where you're coming from. Sasuke does piss off many men but a lot of it is due to incel mentality. Some of it is due to main character entitlement, as in Sasuke takes too big of a chunk out of the manga when it comes to screentime. Ironically, there are many of them who think Sasuke should have been a female character so Naruto's obsession with him wouldn't make them so uncomfortable.
I also find it annoying when so many Sakura videos I watch have men ranting about how Sakura still likes Sasuke despite the fact Naruto saved her. Like you can tell they think a man should be able to buy woman's sexual interest by making her owe them. But thankfully, I have come across also videos that make very good points about her character.
Naruto and Sasuke's fight (or more like the aftermath) annoyed some men because it was physically basically a draw and Naruto even said to Sasuke "this isn't about winning or losing". Sasuke lost to his feelings, basically him admitting defeat was him accepting to be loved by Naruto LMAO no wonder dudebros were mad. Many of them whined because they hated how Kishi had to make it so gay.
Shonen tends to be a male power fantasy. Luffy also gets everyone to fanboy/fangirl him. And shonen mcs usually have one of the worst stans for this reason. It's funny (or not) how the same pattern can be seen in every shonen fandom when it comes to the main character. There are men who self insert into them and act like everything needs to be about them, and bash other characters especially if they take even a little from their mc. Meanwhile there is a subset of women who create this yaoi harem shit around the mc, him as feminine uke bottom that every other guy just wants to rail. And they also might wrote posts on how other characters are irrelevant and boring compared to their beloved mc. It always happens. If it makes you feel better, Naruto always saw Sasuke and Iruka as different from the rest, because he didn't need to prove anything to them, they just cared for him even when he was a loser. And to Naruto, Sasuke is the best in the world. Even to Sarada he started ranting how Sasuke is hot and cool and the best shinobi in the world lol. But yes, I think Gaara and Neji lost some edge of their characters after they were saved by Naruto.
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*trying to understand WHY i feel like Vaggie would love having Susan around despite ppl hating her*
no see it's like this- there's a DIFFERENCE between someone like Susan and someone like Adam!!!
Susan, she's grumpy, stubborn, rude, insulting, BUT!!! If you give her a reason to think her criticisms weren't accurate or convince her she didn't have the full picture while making them, then she WILL change her mind!
She goes from booing Charlie's stammering speech to the Cannibals (and being all fuck you blue blood eat the rich which XD love it) pointing out how Charlie is NOT making anyone feel confident in her... but then once Charlie comes back with a rousing song, Susan listens. She chimes in just to clarify some things (if she fights for the hotel will she get to EAT PEOPLE) and once Charlie really gets into the whole fuck heaven it's time to fight back (lining up with Susan's eat the rich frame of mind) Susan switches around and NODS along with it! She changes her mind about Charlie! She follows Charlie back to the hotel and into war!
This old lady might be a piece of work but she's not an arrogant self-entitled one who won't give people a chance. She will let people try to convince her. She'll hear them out. She does change course once she feels she was wrong.
Compare THAT to an angel like Adam, who only listens so he can interrupt and laugh at Charlie. He's so convinced he CAN'T be wrong he'll scribble divine rules of getting into heaven on a sheet of paper on the fly and then act like they really ARE rules even though he clearly made them up on the spot- he submits them to court as EVIDENCE while IGNORING every other piece of contradicting evidence shown to him!
Adam isn't an asshole bc he's rude or mean, he's an ass bc he never thinks he might be wrong or should maybe change what he thinks or does. If it doesn't build him up then he won't listen to it. Arguing with him was useless- he wasn't ready to be convinced of anything he didn't already believe in.
So when Vaggie cheers for HIM dying, I think of Susan and how- to Vaggie- this old snarling cannibal lady would be like, the anti-Adam.
And the anti-Alastor too bc Susan glares and rudely lays out the truth as she knows it damn the consequences, instead of smiling while slipping lies by omission to ppl to get what she wants from them.
(a la Alastor in ep one trying turn helping out with the hotel advertisement into a favor, first by making a shitty one and then pressing Vaggie about not having anything better, until Vaggie points out that she KNOWs he'll get nothing out of the hotel if it fails anyway, meaning him helping it isn't some big gesture of trustworthiness it's literally just Alastor helping himself, dressed up to make Charlie and Vaggie feel grateful and indebted to him, which Vaggie at least has no patience for)
(add him not mentioning the dead angel thing until after he's gotten a deal with Charlie out of it, and of course miss hates-herself-Vaggie, who held back on her angel past for years to protect herself from more trauma would see too many similarities there)
(even tho one case was- as far as Vaggie can tell- a shameless power grab from Alastor taking advantage of Charlie being at her lowest, and the other was Vaggie being so ashamed of her past she couldn't stomach admitting to it)
Susan is NOT like that.
Sharp teeth is where her similarities with someone like Alastor ends. Surface level bluntness is also where her similarity with Vaggie might end too, for now
I look at Susan and see someone I think Vaggie wishes she could be.
Susan is someone who is honest. Someone who gives no fucks and isn't scared of being tossed aside (again) or being powerless
(like Vaggie and Alastor are scared)
Everyone in Cannibal town CRINGES when Susan shows up, no one looks or sounds HAPPY to see her or hear her speak up and does she seem to care? No. Do they all seem to also respect her and what she says...?
Yeah. They do. Susan is not talking out of her ass or being an ass. She's just sounding like one.
Vaggie miss "cut the crap" and "formerly an exorcist until she saw signs of how that might be wrong actually" would like having someone like that around, I think
(especially if it pissed off Alastor)
(Carmilla, who only keeps secrets to protect her family and seems to listen to advice even when she doesn't take it, would probably NOT like being challenged by a rude Susan either.... but Susan mainly just didn't want to blindly follow someone she didn't have confidence in, or fight without seeing what the reward for the risk would be. Carmilla would respect that, I think. Carmilla doesn't have time for bullshit either and also likes to cut right to the facts of a thing, as seen in her and Vaggie's meet up, so a Susan would be.... tolerable... in small doses. And worth having around. Occasionally)
(but only OCCASIONALLY, vaggie)
(charlie would probably also have to draw the line on ONLY inviting Susan over once a week or month or bi annually or so)
(it's a mental health issue and and a safety issue of Charlie not strangling Susan with her own dead fox boa when she gives an honest bad opinion of Vaggie's new wings or something)
(vaggie thinks it's hilarious)
(then again vaggie hates herself soooooo)
I headcanon Vaggie would love a Susan in her life but would need a Charlie around to balance it out~
GRANNY SUSAN! GRANNY SUSAN!!!!
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So okay there's some arguments i hear from people why Home x Wally is not valid ship, so i decided to explain these and try to counterargument them! If you have an argument of your own feel free to write it in the comments :3
1)"This is incest! They like father and son to each other"
Canon of the show is that Wally didn't know Home before the he moved into him and also he like. A Building. If we're going to build on the show's lore Its would be just popular headcanon. Just because you see them as parent and child doesn't meen everyone does くコ:彡
Some people are like to thing that Home is a creator of the show/his soul in there. I get it too, this theory KINDA makes sense, but still... We didn't see Wally acting like Home is his creator/getting revenge on Home for make their life hell (you can count worshiping as a sight but evidence is too weak), they are pretty chill with each other! Plus, it doesn't explain why Home is doesn't like humans, and from new update we learn that Welcome home is another world, so this theory is 99,99% is false i think
2) "Home is a building!"
Eah. LIVING building. With emotions and fears. Home is fully aware and sentient, it just so happened to have a different body then the rest of the puppets
3)"Home is abusive/evil!"
I understand why some people see them having Dynamic like this, but honestly I never saw it as inherently abusive? Maybe Wally is actually obsessed with Home, or maybe it’s the opposite, or they’re both crazy about each other, but it could also just that they act the way they do because of their self awareness. I do also think they’re overprotective of each other as well.
I just can’t see them *not* having any kind of close relationship, I mean Wally literally takes care of her, serenades him, and even blows them kisses and Home does similar gestures back at him! The feeling is mutual here.
3)"Wally is worshiping Home! Its unhealthy"
The only evidence of Home being worshiped by Wally is "so bellow" page.
I know technically it could’ve been used as evidence as Wally worshiping Home as a god but I think there are many other ways to interpret that drawing on the site… Like, I don’t think Wally is viewing her as some powerful entity, I think Wally is just obsessed with he. Not in a worshipping way but more like in a “you mean everything to me and I wouldn’t let anyone come between us” way. Also because of how Home’s eye’s are, the drawing could’ve easily been outside just as it could’ve been inside (we can’t really tell since it’s all black). And even if it was inside, I don’t think that means Wally can’t leave Home, honestly I don’t even think he’d want to anyway. They’re both mutually bonded to each other
3)"Wally/Barnaby is canon, so you can't ship Wally with Home"
First. Wally/Barnaby isn't confirmed canon. Yes, there have been many, and I mean MANY, hints at this ship. I personally think that in fact in near future it is going to be canon. Second. Im still allowed to do whatever i want with them. They are my comfort ship, they make me happy and it doesn't hurt anyone.
So, what's conclusion?
People like to think that their personal disliking of the ship is a valid point to bully shippers. They would make TONS AND TONS of excuses just to make others dislike it too. "They like son and father!", "They are abusive!", "This is proship, its gross!' despite not having evidence at all. Idk why ppl so scared to say "I don't personally like Home/Wally, its not for me" and go with their lifes. It much easier then to digging internet searching for art of them two and then show it to others saying: " LOOK HOW GROSS IT IS!!! SHIPPERS OF THIS SHIP IS TOTALLY UNHINGED!!!! How lucky we are not to be this stupid 😉😉😉"
It hurts. A little.
Life is so much better when you just not interact with things you don’t like, wish more people realised that tbh. Especially in fandom, because people get so mad over ships and headcanons when they could just…. Not interact? The more you seek out the content, the more it’ll appear in your feed because it’s how a for you page works. The algorithm shows you things it thinks you will like based off previous posts you’ve viewed……
Like I’m just shipping these silly little puppets together and making headcanons I’m not hurting anyone 😭
Thanks to @serillian for helping me with this one -ᄒᴥᄒ-
#proship please interact#proship#proship safe#wally x home#wally/home#welcome home wally darling#welcome home home#wh Home#welcome home#welcome home arg#GlassEyes#home welcome home
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There is no denying members like each other and are close to each other... But there are still these things they do that come off as rude there's no other way to see it. I already had a bitter feeling with "I did some lyrics" And "everyone is winning" comment right when jimin won something. But this time it's like there is no hiding for these ppl. I am side eyeing jin too at this moment. What's even more insane is that if rm really wanted to show how disappointed he is with the fandom that he didn't get billboard entry, he should have posted this when JK's never let go , a fan song debuted in hot 100 and not well promoted rm songs, but he decided to do it when jimin started breaking records. It's the same for seven release too, he had all good things to say about 7 when it was breaking records but "everyone is winning these days" when jimin won a music show. It's like when JK achieves something, it's inevitable and that's bound to happen, no questioning, but when it's jimin, starts guilt tripping the fandom lol. The translation tweets quotes are full of pity party as if armys don't usually do it whenever jimin songs do good, now members started adding fire to it.
“He did it on purpose, that man is active on every social network, he practically watches over them, it's obvious he knows what he can cause with his words, now I see how many are streaming out of pity, this harms him more than Jimin in my opinion. I don't think RM is bad, but he does feel envious of Jimin's achievements, I saw some asking why he doesn't do it when JK uploads something, but come on, what JK does is dirty unlike Jimin and that surely bothers him. I thought he was smarter, after all that Jimin did for him, he listens to him with the purest intentions and he pays him like this.” - #2 anon
I distinctinly remember him doing a live last year saying that he thought what JK was doing with his career was great (and this was after 7 dropped) Then again I don’t expect him to go on a rant condemning JK about the fraudulent activities surrounding his charting out loud so 🤷🏾♀️
But it is interesting how some of the members, armys and BH all have the same “chosen” view towards JK.
With him obviously going to Bang and demanding better promo and radio for RPWP, I’d say he just wants a chance at substantial commercial success and has blinders on for it. So Bang and Scooter gave him crumbs and he took it. And that’s why I don’t really think he cares about what’s “dirty” from what’s not or that he prizes Jimin’s means of success over JK’s. (Not that simple radio is in anyway dirty.) Now knowing that the image itself is from last year but he chose to post it now has me looking at him even more sideways though. Because he has consistently been online and the one time he posts during Jimin’s release is to moan about charting again. I don’t like that. And I’ve always said he’s justified in wanting his work to do well just like any other artist would, but again the timing was shitty. Cause armys are just using this to further their “Jimin is privileged” belief and to divert attention from his comeback to other members out of guilt and pity.
And the timing still would’ve been in bad taste had he done this post when NLG debuted on hot 100 though. Openly showing bitterness towards your team mates success like that especially when you’re the leader of the group would not be a good look at all.
Like OG anon there is love there and history, but with BTS there is such a frustrating lack of support and tact when it comes to certain things especially towards Jimin. It would take absolutely nothing out of any of them to write a simple “all the best” or w/e on weverse or a hype post on insta, but nothing. Even Jin gave the most indirect acknowledgment of MUSE with nothing else to follow. The only one who had any real type of well wishes was Hobi. And no one can tell me that Jimin asked them not to make a fuss cause he’s the type of person who loves praise and thoughtfulness from other people. It’s not about getting the validation either, like at bare minimum y’all are teammates. So the way the bulk of them act towards him just irks me.
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Regarding the 'did sauron make her armor or not drama on X:
It's not even really about canon vs fanon to these 'uM ACTualLY' canon police. They have this weird need to correct anything they see that doesn't fit into their idea of truth, so they have to remind everyone of it.
Regardless if he did or didn't do it, it makes sense in a many people's mind and that brings them fun and joy.
But y'know, we can't have fun and joy over a harmless detail that has no impact on the overall direction of the story. No, because we're little children that need to be sat down and spoonfed what's canon and not because we don't know any better.
They can't have us sharing this harmless idea around and fangirling over its possibility with other people, because for some reason it's like a pebble in their shoe so they HAVE to say something even though I trust that most people who didn't come in only watching the show know better, and even if they didn't and like the idea that he made her armor, there's ZERO harm in letting others have their fun and being considerate and smart enough to know when to stay in your own canon-ruled lane. It's like me telling my little cousin as she's giggling and opening her present that Santa is fake and just a lie made up. Like how is that so hard to understand?
And another thing is, I clearly want to know, if anyone wants to take this rant and tape it to the front of their cars: what sort of harmful or dangerous impact is there to real life if some fans accept this as their personal canon? Hmm? Is it going to make some impressionable minor more vulnerable to an abusive partner? Or not see a red flag in an unhealthy relationship? If the answer is no to either, then really, do better as person and learn to leave shippers alone. Or block something that they don't want to see. Not that hard.
Calling it now - these same canon police will jump to defend any 'fanon' headcanon or theory with celeborn as canon because in their narrow minds, the relationship isn't dark, so of course XYZ might as well have happened and be deemed canon! And trust me, if anyone dares say something to point out the fact that since there's no visual or literal confirmation over a HEADcanon, the same people will jump in and start going 'wELL, THAT'S WhAT wE CalL ImPLiCATiON, because even though we didn't see it happen, it wouldn't go against either character to say that it happened. There's no harm in saying that it's canon as long as the relationship isn't questionable or dark, guys~!
[If all these things are not shown then they are not part of the story] Alright, I'm not even going to go into this one that I saw so I'll let others have it.
Anyways, it's disgusting how some ppl in the fandom just can't let others have fun and feel like it's their moral purpose in life to be pedantic. Also apparently some ppl were acting like they just wasted half of their life thinking there's new info or retrograde confirmation over it bc it spread like wildfire (cause it made some people happy, go figure). Like sorry you were fooled ma'am, sorry you wasted 15 secs of your life for nothing.
Also, they need to look up what the definition of a headcanon is. It might blow their minds.
/micdrop
Ps, if we slap a blonde wig on Halbrand and call him Annatar can we call it a canon gift NOW? Pls O great gatekeepers of what's canon and not, here thy plea! /s
This. But it’s not even about canon, or fanon or harmless or all in good fun. We don’t have to justify diddly squat. It’s what happened! They’re wrong and can sit all the way down. It’s not “headcanon” to interpret with our own eyes the narrative the director, writers and ACTORS are telling us. Are we so cynical and literal that we cannot interpret what is visually implied or metaphorically shown? Everything has to be explicitly said or presented for it to be canon? Dude, what is the point of artistic expression? It’s not even someone’s ability to read the subtext or think abstractly. It’s simply being an intelligent viewer. And I’m not saying the antis are stupid but I think we can all agree that a satisfying interaction and consumption of art is when the artist and audience share the expectation that intelligent observation is required. The antis are biased as you have said and they’re really missing out when they shut themselves off to the deeper, richer thematic story being told.
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Hey :) this is a bit if a sensitive topic… but i got an idea for a request and i don’t know if you’d be willing to write it? I’ve been struggling with anorexia for a very long time and i’ve been thinking what if y/n was in the love band and she has an ed and body image issues and you know the outfit the band’s always wearing? For me personally, it’d be so triggering to wear because i know i’d feel so fat wearing it (don’t know why tbh)…Anyway, what if she hasn’t really told anyone about her struggle (maybe they saw signs but don’t know for sure) and she’d agreed to wear the outfit but then before a show she has a huge panic attack and Harry finds her crying backstage…
And also like i just want to say that there’s nothing wrong with being bigger and that "fat" is not a feeling but i just can’t help my brain 😣
Sorry for the long ask.. and I also hope you’ll feel better!!🙂
Hello friend! First off, thank you for sending this request and for trusting me and this online space to share your struggles. That can be really challenging, especially on the internet where you don't know how people will take things or react sometimes. Especially with eating disorders, there's so much guilt and shame that comes with this kind of mental illness to begin with and it can be a hard thing to admit to as well.
I will also share with you anon, that I've struggled with an ED for many years and was finally diagnosed with EDNOS in 2016. EDNOS stands for eating disorder not otherwise specified and you can receive that diagnosis for many reasons. I won't elaborate on my case in this post (I don't mind talking about it anymore so if ppl have questions you can ask), but anyway.... all this to say that I totally understand your struggle. And lately, I've been struggling to not fall back into those harmful ways after some comments my mom made a few weeks ago. It's been a tough few weeks for me for many reasons. But anyway, thank you so much again, for sending this request. Writing this is definitely going to be cathartic and therapeutic for me as well and I hope that it is for you too and anyone who struggles this way.
LAST THING! If you or anyone you know struggles with an eating disorder or shows concerning disordered eating patterns, please consider getting help. Some resources are linked HERE including helpline contact info.
And of course, the content below can be triggering for people who struggle with any E.D.
This was quite literally your dream come to life. You had been asked by Harry himself to join the Love Band in Ny-Oh's place for the final leg of Love On Tour. This all seemed insane and unreal as you thought about how you'd just met him around 2018. You'd been brought in as a session musician for Harry's last 2 albums and started a nice little friendship with him. But you didn't know that he considered you enough of a friend to ask you to join his live ensemble. Sure, you talked regularly enough and had graduated into hugs over fist bumps during the making of Harry's House, but still...it just seemed so insane. You were excited though, getting to see him perform every night knowing how hard he worked to make this music...it was like a full circle moment.
There'd been plenty you'd done in preparation for your travels. Including getting your measurements taken for the little love minion jumpsuits you'd be wearing every night. None of that really seemed to trigger you or your concerns over your weight and body image. You'd been doing so well, you'd been managing your eating disorder well the last few years without any major setbacks and you were proud that you were healthy enough to do this. Proud that you felt comfortable accepting this gig and knowing that you had the stamina and health to make it through the entire leg of the tour. It was huge! But none of that really seemed to matter when you got a look at your uniform hung up just a few inches away from you and felt this sudden rush of anxiety crawling through your body. Why did it look like it'd be so tight on you? The material obviously wasn't too stretchy so how was this supposed to fit on you? You weren't exactly sure what about the look of it suddenly had you feeling this way, but all you knew was that you didn't feel good about it.
The logical part of your brain reminded you that you got fitted for this - it was custom made to your measurements. And you tried to keep that in mind, but you soon realized that you had been fitted for this about four months ago. Maybe you'd gained tons of weight? Your days of obsessively weighing yourself were past you, so you had no idea if you had or hadn't. You had body dysmorphia so your mind wouldn't know the difference. And it was maddening to you that you had been feeling OK about yourself until you'd entered the little temporary changing room and saw the outfit on the hanger. Your heart started to beat a bit faster as your anxiety started to grow.
"30 minutes to show time!" you heard someone call as they walked down the corridor and then they shouted the same warning into the large dressing room a few of you shared and you just exhaled sharply and decided so just ignore this feeling and suck it up. If you didn't wear this what would you wear? You had no choice, you just had to get over it.
However, now that something about this outfit had triggered the obsessive and intrusive thoughts about your body image you started to feel uncomfortable looking at your reflection. You tried to avoid looking at yourself right now because you knew that you'd see things that weren't accurate. You tried to slow down your breathing as you turned away from the mirror in there and folded up your clothes before turning back around and looking at the outfit once again before taking it off the hanger. It felt suspenseful to undo all of the little buttons lining the seam to join the two sides together. But soon you were pulling it off the hanger and getting your legs into it and doing up the buttons, avoiding the mirror again until it was fully on so that you wouldn't freak out before you fully were dressed. Of course, you had no issues with getting it on, it felt just fine, a little loose if anything. But when you looked up the feeling of the fit didn't really matter. You had no idea if it was the cinched in waist that felt restrictive even if you had some wiggle room. Or maybe it was the way the fabric bulged a bit at your stomach and made you feel like you were carrying a lot more weight there than you realized before? But as you turned to the side to see how you looked from that angle your frown deepened as your fears rose tot he surface. It looked a little big on you and that somehow made you feel even worse because it wasn't like flattering/comfy baggy. This outfit somehow accentuated just how thin you actually were and then a new fear came into your brain: They're going to know I'm anorexic.
You felt that you did well enough to keep your eating disorder speculations at bay. People closest to you knew, but you were very private about it because like any illness, there is sometimes an element of shame involved. It wasn't something you advertised, especially as you recovered! But most people just knew you were into health and wellness, but they didn't know the dark side of it; that you struggled with obsessing over quantities and ingredients and portions because you were terrified to look bigger than you were, terrified to gain weight, terrified of feeling fat. You couldn't tell anyone why you felt that way, but you just did! And sure, you were a lot better now than you were years ago, but you had just been massively triggered that you looked sickly and that, that would arise suspicions of your health. The fans might start to say things and ask questions and if they noticed other people would too...the crew, the rest of the band...Harry...
As you stared at yourself for a bit more your eyes started to tear up and you silently fanned at your eyes to try and dissipate the tears, but your vision was only getting more and more blurry. You just needed some fresh air to calm down. You peeked out and saw that you were alone in the dressing room so you rushed out before anyone could stop you and you headed out back behind the stage. They were in the middle of changing the setup after the openers so the crew and roadies were closer to the structure helping change things out and unloading. You had the space and privacy to pace around and let your tears fall. But the audience was so loud...there would be so many people and they would look at you and see you in this outfit and just know that something was wrong with you. Obviously they would be scrutinizing you since you were the new person! And suddenly everything just built up inside of you and you started to panic.
You found a place to sit down when you felt your breathing catch in your throat. This couldn't be happening.... you were just minutes before the show! But you were hyperventilating now as your tears cascaded down your cheeks. You felt like you were going to crumble apart. This was a huge mistake... you should've said no...you weren't ready for this. There was no way you could do this. You were sat off to the side as you sobbed and tried everything you could to calm down and get through this panic attack so you didn't notice Harry's car pulling up across from you until you heard the stadium cheering loudly and when you glanced up you saw Harry wave quickly before he headed backstage. You didn't want anyone to see you like this so you stood up and went to hide behind one of the trailers, but you didn't notice that he'd seen you rush off.
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"Y/N!" Harry called after you but you didn't seem to hear him and he frowned a bit. He could've sworn you were crying...maybe you just got really nervous or maybe it just hit you now that you were on tour. It could be exciting but nerve-racking. So he decided to just check on you and maybe give you a little pep-talk. "Hey, I'll be right in, just gonna make sure she's OK." Harry said to Tommy and Brad.
"I've got it, H. You should really go get changed. You're on in 15." Tommy advised.
"It'll be quick. I'm sure she's just a little nervous." Harry said and they sighed as he jogged off to where you'd taken off. When he rounded the corner to where the trailers were he immediately frowned when he saw you gasping for air, choking on your tears as you sobbed uncontrollably. "Y/N, oh my god." he said as he hurried over to you.
You felt mortified as he rushed up to you and reached for your hands. You started to cry harder because this was so fucked up. You felt so stupid and ridiculous for crying over an outfit, but you just felt so awful. Worse than you had in a long time and it was scary to be triggered so intensely. When he wrapped you up in a big hug you started to calm down. His voice and touch and scent helped to ground you a bit, enough to help you breathe properly.
"What's the matter?" he asked you softly as you continued crying. You cough as you tried to answer him and he gently rubbed your back to help you out a bit.
"S'fine. I'm fine." you choked out and he sighed.
"How can I help if I don't know what the issue is?" he asked you and you sighed.
"You can't help Harry, this is me. This all me and I...I don't think I can do the show." you finally said and he pulled back with a big frown as he looked at you. You couldn't bear to see his disappointment for more than a second before you looked back at the ground.
"What do you mean? Are you nervous?" he asked you as he rubbed at your arms with his ring clad hands and you sighed.
"I-it's the outfit. I can't wear this outfit. Like...I'm not...able to wear this." you said to him and he looked a bit confused.
"Is something wrong with it?"
"Yes! I...don't know w-what it is..." you gasped through your sobs, "But I just...don't like how I look or feel in it." you explained.
"Love, you look great!" he said with a small smile and that made you feel worse because it was a testament to just how insane you actually were, "And well, I'm not really sure we can change the uniform at this point-"
"Exactly, this is my issue! So I can't go up there." you cried.
"Well what's the issue you're having? Maybe there's something we can do about it right now?" he asked and you bit your lip for a moment before looking into his eyes and then just turning your gaze away from him. You couldn't bear to see his face when you said this to him.
"I...I have an eating disorder." you said softly through your tears, "And something about this outfit has triggered me into this psychotic episode. I feel...really awful physically and in my head too...and I'm trying... I'm trying to get it together but I haven't felt like this in years and just one look at me in this and everyone's gonna know something's wrong with me because I look sick!" you sobbed, "And that's why I can't do this. I'm so sorry, Harry. I just can't do the show." you blubbered and his hands slid down your arms and grabbed your hands.
"I'm so sorry." he said softly and you sighed.
"It's not your fault...how were you supposed to know that this would trigger me? I didn't even know until I was staring at the fucking thing." you shook your head as you looked up at him again and he sighed.
"I mean, yeah but like I... I noticed stuff before, like when we first met that made me wonder if...maybe you were anorexic or struggled with something like this. So I'm sorry that I never checked on you." he said and you sighed.
"Well, it't not really something I like to talk about." you explained through a sniffle, "And I've been doing really well the last couple years, I swear I'm like eating regularly and stuff. I wouldn't have agreed to do this if I wasn't well enough to do it." you said quickly, "But something happened back there and for my own wellbeing I just feel like I can't go out there like this." you explained through your tears. "Like...at first I thought I looked fat or maybe the cinching made me feel really restricted....but like I had this...moment where when I looked at myself f-from the side I just...looked like a fucking Tim Burton character...." you chuckled through your tears, "and I just...know that people will notice that I'm anorexic. And the audience is gonna see and start saying things about me... and things are just going to get worse and I'm gonna lose control again! And I don't want to lose control again. I can't lose control again." you vented through your tears and he just listened attentively with a slight frown. When he saw you were finished he squeezed your hands gently.
"I get that. And I also want you to be healthy and feel healthy and to feel good about yourself." he assured you, "You being safe and healthy and happy, that's all I want for you! But you're also a fucking brilliant musician and friend and I don't want to do this without you." he said to you and you sniffled, "I'm willing to figure something out to make sure that you feel comfortable and confident enough to perform if you want. We can get with Harry real quick and see what we can come up with." he suggested.
"The show starts in a little bit...it's fine. We can work on it tomorrow. I can perform from backstage today or even just sit this one out." you said and he scoffed through a laugh.
"I'm not gonna make you perform from backstage! We're just gonna run a bit late, that's fine." he said to you and you shook your head.
"Seriously H, I don't mind it a-"
"Seriously, Y/N." He cut you off, "I don't want to hide any member of my team, ever. I want to work with you to figure this out, OK? You mean a lot to me, and having you up there with me and Mitch, like that's so huge! You've been there for a lot of the work on these songs...you brought my vision to life in the studio and now you're here, getting to see it play out! And you do not have my permission to experience this magnificent and magical moment for the first time from behind the stage, all alone. There's no fucking way." he said and you chuckled softly through your tears as he squeezed your hands reassuringly again. "You deserve this. Let's figure this out." he offered again and you sniffled and nodded.
"OK." you agreed softly and he smiled.
"Yeah?"
"Yes." you sniffled and smiled at him before he hugged you tight and you relaxed in his embrace.
"Perfect. Just gonna hold you for a bit, OK?" he said and you just hummed.
Your eating disorder had robbed you of tons of incredible experiences in your life. Either because you weren't well enough to show up or because you felt ashamed...but the buck stopped here. Not anymore. Harry was right, you deserved this and you wanted this, so you were gonna do it with his help and other Harry's help. After a few moments he let go of you and pulled back to wipe away the slightly smeared makeup beneath your eyes.
"If you don't mind not saying anything to Harry about why I-"
"Of course not." He said right away.
"Do you think the band'll mind that I might not be in the uniform?"
"I doubt it, but if someone has any issues I'll take care of it, OK?" he assured you and you nodded.
"Thank you, H."
"Course, love." He smiled kindly, "And I know that for now we might scramble a bit but what if we get you a tour shirt or sweater to wear on top and you can just tie the jumpsuit sleeves around you or something so that you just have the pants on?" he suggested.
"Yeah, I think that's good. I can't very well go out in my spandex shorts, that’s what I came in." you giggled and he chuckled.
"Yeah, sorry not happening. This is kind of about me so...." he joked and you laughed softly, "There she is." he said, his thumb swiped over your smile line for a moment before he pulled it away, "Sorry." he said softly.
"It's alright." you assured him and he smiled.
"Let's get this figured out then." he said and you nodded and headed back.
Of course, Harry had been right about not wanting you to miss the first show because you were hiding backstage. It had been one the best experiences of your life so far. The crowd were so loud and happy to be there. Hearing everyone sing the songs with you all, specially getting to sing Matilda and seeing how much it meant to everyone was amazing. It had been absolutely magical, you had even teared up. And when Harry spared you a glance at the end of the song and saw you wiping a tear he shot you a thumbs up and you returned the gesture. You guys started to wave at the fans at the barricade as you headed back to the main stage. You felt someone come up behind you and then Harry's arm draped over your shoulder.
"Alright, love?" he asked against your ear.
"Yeah, you were right though." you said to him, "I'm glad I'm not stuck in the back and missing this." you smiled up at him and he smiled.
"Me too." he assured you.
Of course, hundreds of fans had recorded this little interaction between the two of you and the only thing that people were obsessing over was how protective and soft Harry seemed to be with you and in turn it made the fans even more gentle towards you during the next shows. With each show the cheering for your introduction grew louder. By now you had talked to the other Harry and the band about what you were struggling with and they were all so kind and supportive. And now, each night when you were introduced you had that incredible support from the audience as well. No one was paying attention to your flaws or your issues or your body, they were just showing you the love and acceptance that you so often failed to give to yourself. Being built up that way gave you a new motivation to stay on track, to take care of yourself, and to keep getting better.
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Ok I have to be ask this especially after your most recent post on twitter:
As a Sonaze subscriber I often scroll through many posts of the ship, and while the comments on these posts are mostly positive, they are usually a couple that say stuff like “what about Amy” or “make this but with Silver”. I can’t be the only one who notices this and is bothered by it bc like…. How do ppl not realize how rude that is??
you're not the only one who knows this and it's bothered by it.
Sonic is not my main fandom I just had a lot of ideas from when I was a kid and they just kind of boiled over as I grew older and started learning how to write stories. By this point I am in three other different fandoms and it sucks cuz I never see this kind of behavior from fans of other media, not to this degree anyway
It's even weirder depending on which website you go to, I don't see this shit here but it runs rapid in places like tictok and Twitter
But to actually answer the question I just firmly believed at Sonic fans are idiots and they didn't learn a thing from kindergarten
treat others the way you'd want to be treated kinda shit
It's like all common sense leaves the window the second they end up on the internet and someone has an ⭐opinion⭐
It's like walking up to a chocolate ice cream fan club and you walk in and say "okay but whatever it was vanilla?" "why isn't there a vanilla ice cream club?"
you're going to get some looks like why are you here talking about vanilla when it's a CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM FANCLUB????
Sonic fans weren't bullied enough in school it seems /j
It sucks cuz there's a lot of Sonaze fans that do this and it's because of shit like this it made me have a mental breakdown over the sonaze Twitter community tab and which lead me to deleting it
That shit was making me look bad and shit was making the other sonaze fans of bed
It's okay to not like a ship but stop making it your entire personality on hating a rival ship and send your energy to create more content for your favorite ship since you're starving so much damn
Bitching and moaning about ships are so stupid and pointless stop complaining and just do something about it 😭
Block people, mute some words, surround yourself with shit that you actually like, you don't need to comment on it cuz all you're doing is spreading my influence that you seem to not like, you don't need to prove yourself that your ship is better than everyone else's cuz it's not no ship is better than the other, especially if they're not canon
I'm convinced a lot of people in the Sonaze's fandom on Twitter just hate my ass or are scared of me because of how I handle shit
I just have a zero tolerance for BS and I will be mean about it
A lot of my mutuals have deleted galleries, move on to the other fandoms and just stopped drawing Sonic altogether because of some jackass being and it sucks, but it's REASONABLE why they would do that. this fandom is awful, you'll be minding your own business and then you get crucified for an opinion
I'm not going to let that happen to myself especially not because some asshole I don't even know on Twitter hates my ass or something
I want more people to to see what it is that I am doing and stay motivated to draw the things that they like because it's fun and silly
And we stan having fun and being silly around here 💪
#mod nana#SORRY FOR YAPPING SO MUCH JESUS#I'm just a hater 😭 LMFAO#sorry for being overly vulgar too that's just who i am#tldr if you being an asshole I'm going to match your energy tenfold gtfo
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𝓡𝓮𝓭 𝓵𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽
Request; All I can think of is when Scaramouch becomes wanderer and remembers who he was and how he would react. I can just imagine him being absolutely horrified and better yet what would have happened to the winged reader?
Yan!Genshin x winged! Reader
Character; Wanderer, Xiao
Gene; Angst, Yandere
Au; Winged!reader, also implied black reader
Synopsis; being A winged creature of such purity, you'd expected to gain someones interest, but not like this, not in this horrific way.
An: I hope that you don't mind that I added some more ppl...
@owl-witch-prompts
Wanderer
•Scaramouche was obsessed with reaching God hood, it was all he really talked about. After so much time he just left...
•Not that you were complaining
•He went months without coming back, and in that time, you managed to escape. And once again you were free, as free as a bird
•Paranoia still was engraved in your bones, but you managed, living in a large tree, isolated from the world and you didn't even mind
•That was until you saw him
•And things got worse when he saw you
•Behind his eyes you could see something change, and that look so you deeply stained in your mind that instantly you ran. Your right wing was far from Healed, so that was all you could do
•And he chased you, calling out to you. Yelling something like an apology
•He tired convincing you that he'd change
•From that day he stayed close to you much to your oppose
•There wasn't a time when he wasn't around
•He stayed around, protecting you, buying things for you. He did his best you respect your boundaries, but he couldn't help it! he had to stay near you at all times! what if you got hurt? he has to be there to keep you safe
•soon you had no choice but to accept him, it's not like he would've given you that option anyway
•there were times where some of your friends just suddenly went missing however
•he claimed to have nothing to do with it but you know that hes hiding something
•he has helped you a lot, and with the help of Nahida, he healed your wing
•him being so nice to you was a hard concept to grasp but once you got used to it. that's just what it became
•it would still be best to stay cautious though
"i'm glad that you've grown to trust me, i don't know what i would've done if you didn't"
Xiao
•this man has been around for a long time, and he has met a lot of people, so when he saw you for the first time, he was surprised to find that he felt drawn to you
•whatever it was that you made him feel, he wanted more, he needed more
•you didn't meet him until after him knowing you for close to a year when you were attacked by a group of treasure hoarders
•and like the knight in shining amour he is, he came to your rescue
•he had known you for close to a year by then, but it was your first-time meeting or even acknowledging his existence
•it was like cupid had hit him with an arrow all over again. sure, he had seen you, but touching you? that was something else
•it didn't take long for the start of your relationship to start
•he'd protect you, while you provided him with your company
•when it came to you, there wasn't one foe he wouldn't kill, and to him everyone was a foe
•things between you both were great, and hiding things from you wasn't hard
•he had already kept his existence from you for about a year, so it wasn't hard to keep anything else from you
•the two of you became close, so close that you even trusted him to touch your wings, and once that happened his feeling for you could only grow
•whenever you gave him attention of any kind, he loved it
•he was so happy when you went crying to him about your friend dying after falling off one of the many cliffs of Liyue
•he helped you take care of your wings, and got you everything that you needed to keep them healthy
"i'm always going to provide for you and love you, no matter what"
#gn reader#genshin impact#reader insert#genshin headcanons#x reader#black reader#wanderer#yandere#yandere male#tw yandere#xiao x reader#genshin xiao#xiao x y/n#genshin#genshin wanderer#genshin scaramouche
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Masquerade
Pairing: Ellie Williams x Reader
Warnings: Homophobia and abuse. Lowkey wrote this bc some ppl in my family are pretty homophobic and I figured I'd try to write out how I feel and all that shit. Anyways, that's why this is how it is.
Summary: Reader runs into a stranger who makes the boring dance she's forced to attend slightly more tolerable.
* Not Proof Read * TLOU Masterlist
Idfk how royal shit works so that part of this might be bad. Just play along.
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I look around at the happy girls twirling around me. How the fuck are they so enthusiastic about being here? These shoes are killing me. This mask is itching my face. My clothes are irritating me. I want to go home.
I danced with one man already, can't that be enough to please my mother?
I can feel her frustrated gaze on the side of my face. All she wants is for me to marry a nice man. A nice rich man.
What she doesn't understand-what she refuses to understand, is that she'll never get that. No matter how many times I tell her, she seems to think one day the right man will come along and change my mind.
" I take it you're not a dancer? " A voice asks from my side.
" Quite the opposite. I like dancing. It's the people I hate. The parties. The drama. My mother. " I nod slightly in the direction of my mother. She's thankfully been roped into a conversation with another socialite. At least she's distracted.
" Parties are...draining. " The woman agrees.
I glance over at her, my posture quickly straightening. Even with the dark lacey mask that takes over majority of her face, I know exactly who it is. Her elegant dark blue suit is a stark contrast in outfit choices from many of the other guests, most opting for black or white.
" Princess Ellie. " I mutter while taking a deep curtsy. " I had no idea. I'm so sorry. "
Of course, only I'd be luck enough to shit talk a royal dance to the person who helped throw it.
" Oh please. Stand up. " Princess Ellie's voice is laced with annoyance.
Confused, I look up at the woman.
" It wasn't my idea for this stupid party. Sarah's been wanting to throw one for weeks. Of course I got roped into helping her. " Princess Ellie doesn't move from her spot against the wall. She takes a sip from her drink, eyeing me up.
I shift, slightly uncomfortable.
" You're welcome to lean back against the wall. " She nods to my previously taken spot. A glimmer of playfulness shines in her eyes. " I don't bite, I promise. "
Carefully, I take my spot back to the princess. " If you don't like parties, why did you come? " I ask curiously.
Princess Ellie shrugs, her shoulders brushing against mine. " Had nothing better to do. Figured I might as well find some pretty girls to talk to . " She grins slightly.
A feel a warm rush climb up my cheeks.
Of course I knew Princess Ellie was gay. Everyone and their mother knows. It caused quite the controversy when she was first caught making out with her now ex-girlfriend in front of thousands of people at her 17th birthday party.
I thought it was nice. I didn't feel so...alone. It was nice to feel normal, like my feelings were okay.
My mother didn't think so. She refuses to attend anything with Princess Ellie, insisting it'll 'ruin' me further.
" What's your name, pretty girl? " Princess Ellie asks, turning her body towards mine. She leans against her arm, cocking her head to the side. Her warm green eyes stare into mine, sending a hoard of butterflies tumbling through my chest.
" Y/N. " I manage to reply. " Y/N of Weston. "
" Well, Y/N of Weston, I'd love to take you- " Princess Ellie is interrupted.
" Y/N! " My mother shrieks. She roughly grabs my hand, pulling my away from the princess. She quickly curtsies and mumbles a polite 'your highness' before turning to me. " Apologies, Your highness but we have to go. "
" But mother-" I being to protest, trying to pull away. The tightness of her grip sends pain through my wrist. " Fuck, mom! " I yelp. I can already feel the bruise forming. My mother doesn't let up.
" Y/N no. " My mother's eyes are fierce, an anger I've never seen before flashing through them.
" Lessen your grip! " Princess Ellie orders, her voice laced with concern. " You're hurting them! "
The loud music has died down. All attention has turned to us. My mother, now clearly embarrassed from the situation, pulls me more urgently.
" What is going on here? " A voice asks. All chatter around the room quiets down.
The king.
My mother's eyes widen. " You're majesty! I'm so sorry. My daughter...she's not listening. You know, children. My husband...he's fallen ill. I'm merely trying to get her home. Our page just sent news. He's had a stroke. Forgive me for disturbing your dance. "
My heart drops. " What? "
My mother doesn't look at me. " Your father has had a stroke. "
Fear runs through my body. No! He can't be ill. He was doing just fine earlier. What happened?
King Joel scans over my expression, trying to decide what to do. " You may go. But release your daughter. "
My mother nods, letting go of my wrist. " Thank you, Your Majesty. Thank you. Come now, Y/N. We must go. "
I glance up at Ellie. Her face displays concern and disbelief. She quickly turns to her father, whispering something into his ear. He brushes it off, shaking his head.
My mother and I curtsy and quickly turn to leave. I numbly follow in her footsteps.
This doesn't make sense? How did the page get here so fast? Our home is hours away from the palace. How was he able to get here so quickly?
Once we're down the long row of stairs, my mother grabs onto my arm. " You know better than to fraternize with the princess. " She hisses, pushing me into our carriage.
Confusion fills my body. " What? We were just talking. "
My mother glares at me. " You don't talk to women like her. You know this, Y/N. "
A pit begins building in my stomach. " Dad didn't have a stroke, did he. "
My mother's gaze doesn't faulter. " No. You are no longer allowed to go to parties at the palace. If you can't find a suitor for yourself, I guess I'll have to take matters into my own hands. I'll be picking a suitor for you. I already have the perfect boy. You're to be married in 2 months. "
My heart drops. " Mother, no! "
" I tried, Y/N. I really did. " She shakes her head. " I tried to let you grow out of this faze. To let you find a good man. You leave me no choice. You'll learn to love him just as I learned to love your father. "
" Please mother, you can't do this. " My voice is filled with desperation. I don't want to get married to a stranger. All I did was talk to Princess Ellie! " Please. "
My mother doesn't crack. " You'll thank me later. "
#ellie williams x reader#fanfiction#fanfic#ellie the last of us#ellie williams x you#ellie x you#ellie williams#ellie williams tlou#ellie williams x female reader#ellie tlou#ellie williams drabble#ellie williams fanfic#ellie williams fanfiction#ellie williams x y/n#ellie x fem reader#ellie x reader#ellie x y/n
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HFDSUGH yes Leassa and Meiloa. I wanna know thingssss. Sorry I got excited. And I completely get it ppl asking me about my characters and shit makes my whole day. Also fun fact I happen to have a character with a very similar name to Leassa (Leusse)
OK SO. LEASSA KARNTI AND MEILOA ZARTAN. after quickly looking at my previous posts, you've asked about Ademie before, which is great cuz Ademie is very relevant to both Leassa and Meiloa.
discussions of abuse, infantilization, and sexualization of a minor by a minor under the cut
Meiloa initially grew up in one of the many breeding caverns on Beforus, which was attacked when she was 3 sweeps/7 years old. The attack resulted in the death of her lusus and multiple members of the community. Following the attack, it was determined that she should be culled to 'help her deal with the trauma'. Ademie believes that this was an excuse, but there is no way to prove the true intentions behind a particular culling decision. If Meiloa was traumatized and if her culling did have a therapeutic effect, any positive effect has been extremely outweighed by the stunting of her growth in just about every way except physical.
She has a severe lack of life experience that shows in her relentless and uninformed optimism and faith in both people and the future. Part of this is a coping mechanism. Grappling with the fact that she needs to now catch up on 8 or so years of stunted development, especially regarding the knowledge she's expected to have, is a major part of her arc. She's not stupid, she's inexperienced, and enthusiastic to learn.
Leassa is Ademie and Meiloa's culler. Not legally, that's restricted to adults, but his ancestor thrust the responsibilities of culling for Ademie and Meiloa onto his descendant that's around their age. It is important to understand that this has both fucked him up and is not an excuse for any of the abuse he's committed.
With Meiloa in particular, they had a much more 'normal' dynamic when they were little. Unfortunately, as time went on Leassa internalized hemoloyalty more, he craved control of other people more, and his treatment of her degraded. The most notable aspects are treating her like a servant (justified as her needing some sort of stimulation), infantilizing her, and subtly sexualizing her. It's not obvious if you aren't award of his... preferences, but dressing up the jade cullee in a maid dress that seems just a bit impractical is not an accident.
It's rather difficult for Meiloa to accept the reality that this situation was objectively horrendous - she still views Leassa as a friend, and she was culled for so much of her life that it has skewed her perception of normalcy. Even after Ademie was culled they became close, and Ademie was insistent on calling the spade a spade, she viewed Ademie as overly vigilant. In her defense, Ademie is overly vigilant, but Ademie was correct that it was an abusive situation.
Leassa is intent on seeming respectable. He frequently justifies his behavior, to others and himself. He has lines that he would not cross barring some sort of bizarre extreme situation, and as long as he keeps up those codes and justifications, he can still sleep easy at night.
Any physical pain he inflicts on Ademie doesn't leave a lasting mark or pain. He may confiscate Ademie's prosthetic leg for days at a time but that's only a particularly heavy punishment for when she's been particularly bad. He may fetishize Meiloa, but he would never actually touch her if she didn't want it. He doesn't allow Meiloa to have age-appropriate stimulation, or allow her to fucking read anything, but surely she wouldn't be able to handle it anyways! You know how cullees are.
...He's not beyond remorse. If he recognized the harm he's done, he could try to change for the better. The question is if he's capable of that recognition.
#asks#fracphan#fractured phantasms#meiloa zartan#leassa karnti#ademie nomtul#<<<since she's in here too#meiloa.pdf#leassa.pdf#aluria.pdf#is it really an MSPFA if you don't have a shitty violet :P#edit:#playdate.ship#dollhouse.ship
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Ok listen. After Plawan (Palwan?? But Palwan in my first language gives such a funny image i can't use ittt😭 ) and his Chef Oab get together, Plawan convinces Oab to store lube and condoms in various different places in the restaurant kitchen, to keep them handy in 'times of need'. (And there are many such times indeed)
But then the kitchen hands and other chefs start discovering them at random drawers. Oab is mortified but Plawan didn't care. He mentioned to convince chef that it's better to let ppl know they've been fucking in the kitchen than fucking raw in there, cause they don't be stopping anytime soon anyway, lube or no lube.
They also start stocking extra cleaning supplies, tissues, sanitizers with the lube and condoms.
(Plawan thinks it's adorable when they have sex in the kitchen counters Oab only cuddles him for 5 minutes before getting up and start cleaning the place. It should be unsexy af but Oab leaves little kisses all over his naked body as he cleans, and likes all sated and smile-y and happy. Sometimes they go for a second round and Oab grumbles a like as he cleans once more, but he never stops kissing Plawan. He looks so much like a cute grumpy cat. Plawan Plawan is in love.
So the others just learn to not be shocked when they discover half empty bottles of lube in random drawers. Or empty packs of condom in the trash. Or when the cleaning supplies' closet needs to be refilled every week instead of once a month like in pre-Plawan days.
It all works smoothly (with the exception of a few jokes and wiggly brows directed at the pair), till a food safety inspector from the hygiene and sanitation dept comes for a routine visit in the restaurant's kitchen and discovers condoms and lube stashed in the nook.
It all works out well for everyone involved, except Oab, who has to stutter out an explanation red faced about how he misplaced his things, and no, this isn't the norm, be m certainly not, they take sanitation very seriously here, would the officer like a look at their cleaning supplies? The cleaning supplies' closet, Airways will stocked thanks to chef and his bf's frequent kitchen escapades, impresses the inspector that all Oab gets is a laugh and a verbal warning to be more careful with his belongings next time, rather than actual serious troubles.
Oab makes up his mind to never do anything mildy pg-13 in the kitchen, not even Plawan is lying on the counters in lingerie and begging for Oab's touch. Nope. Never.
He lasts exactly 17 days. And there's not even any lingerie involved when he succumbs. Sadly, he has already gotten rid of the lube and condoms.
But when Plawan takes him in his mouth and sucks him off while he holds onto the counter for dear life, Oab didn't even have enough brain capacity left to be angry.
Later, after he's cummed down Plawan's mouth and has pulled the man up for a messy, messy kiss as he jerks him off, Oab thinks about the logistics of building a secret little drawer, his and Plawan's little secret, in the kitchen.
#the plot bunnies are esp energetic today#also pls excuse the grammar and spelling mistakes in this... I'm in class and wrote this very covertly#the prof didn't allow phone usage in his class rip 😭😭 (but feel free point out mistakes#this love doesn't have long beans#this love doesn’t have long beans#tldhlb#bl fanfic#umm yeah v rushed i couldn't stop myself lmao#oabplawan#oab x plawan
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All the munday asks bye
from this meme...
i will now quietly plot my vengeance as i copy & paste this shit & snack on gummies...
When did you start writing on Tumblr? 2012-ish.
Who was your first muse? danny desai from abc family's short-lived show, twisted.
Who are your longest rp friends? darls & des. tho darls i seldom talk to nowadays. but we keep up with each other via instagram. then, once every other full moon we coincide while online & we chat for a bit. it's always very pleasant.
Favourite thing about roleplaying? it's an incredibly therapeutic creative outlet.
Least favourite thing about roleplaying? writer's block & some ppl in the rpc.
OTP for your muse? riot's (YOUR) helena / @bornhngry.
NOTP for your muse? idk. don't have one yet.
What are some similarities between you and your muse/muses? shit. well. here's the thing. chris started off as a sort of therapy for me. using this character to explore things in my life i didn't want to touch. death of a parent, the shitstorm that came with that. finding yourself, many years later, mentally ill & having to deal with that & having to do it on your own bc you're also breaking a cycle in your family. facing personal demons, so to speak. of course, chris & myself became very different in a lot of ways once he began to gain a voice of his own. which he found pretty quickly (i'm very thankful for that too). but, at the core, there are some things we share. few.
What are some differences between you and your muse/muses? he was dealt a different hand in life than mine. in some ways better, in some ways worse. he has a very different perspective in life than i do, most times. i wanna shake some sense into him sometimes. he did one thing i will never do tho, make art my job. lol i don't think i could deal with that. it sounds terrible. as someone who likes to be creative, as he, i would suffer so much through a job like that. he somehow does it, i couldn't tell you.
Would you be friends with your muse if they were real? to be completely honest? no. lol he'd give me so much anxiety it's not even funny. he gets into some shit. nope.
Would you write with duplicate characters? How do you think your muse would react? i would if, and this is a very IF bc chris is an original character... IF my rp partner were writing some kind of entity (in chris' world, a "demon") which can take his form and fuck with him severely. that i would pay to see bc chris is smart, but his biggest fear is within himself (becoming like his father).
Have you any old muses that you’d love to bring back? there are a couple of them, yeah. but then i remember how poorly i was doing back then, mentally speaking, and lol i immediately pass on it. tho there is two or three who did lots for me as a writer, i would love to take on them again. just not right now. maybe later on. we'll see.
What’s one random headcanon about your muse that people mightn’t know? well, few people know the hc about how chris lost his virginity. which was essentially statutory r*pe (he was a minor, the other person wasn't). anyway, this headcanon i stole from a very famous author and one of his more infamous stories: rage by "richard bachman". charlie, the main character, loses his virginity this way. i simply modernized it a bit bc this story came out in the seventies. this boy holds his high school class at gun point and i think (it's been a while, let's ask alyssa @00sgoth, she used to write the guy - i was writing damien echols at the time lol) he shoots a teacher. so "richard bachman" (stephen king) decided to let the story die out and go out of print when school shootings began to occur more often. in the 90s, i believe. after kip kinkel.
Who is an author that inspires you? stephen king lol clearly.
What do you look for in a rp partner? someone who is willing to explore their muses. bc that's all i'm about with mine. exploration, getting to know them. and then putting them in different settings to discover new things.
i'm a firm believer that repetition kills creativity.
Favourite trope? the most innocent, endearing character can be the most dangerous in the room... thus, chris.
Least favourite trope? letting the hero become the villain. bc as fun as it is, in the end, what was the point of the story then?
Are there any AU’s you’d like to explore but haven’t had the chance to yet? yeah, but that's been my fault. lol i have yet to write out chris' alt. verses & how on earth am i to explore them with anyone if i don't even have them set to offer them?
Do you listen to music whilst writing? If so, what kind of music? well, chris has his playlist but it varies for me. lots of metal. a lot of sad songs. a lot of self aware songs.
How do you overcome writer’s block? i don't. like in therapy, i just i let it ride. let it happen. it'll pass, it's okay. then when it goes away i'm back on and writing. simple.
Are there certain characters that you gravitate towards? not really. or at least, not consciously. but i guess i do have a thing for the outcasts. lol
Short, medium, or long threads? see, i always say short or medium but end up writing fucken novellas here and there. so i guess i should say any length. lol
Do you ever get jealous when rping? How do you handle this? nope. i don't even get jealous of my partners when in a very real emotional relationship. lol i just can't.
What about your muse are you most proud of? that he's somehow defied all the odds and became his own self. i didn't mean for it to happen, it just sort of happened.
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speaking of psychosis- i wasn't speaking of it here but i was speaking of it- i've been trying to figure out what was up with the great psychotic episode of freshman year, because i had assumed it was a trauma-induced psychosis type of deal, but it occurred to me that i was definitely having sort of thought broadcasting types of beliefs, probably some other stuff but i can't remember atm and don't feel like digging thru my old vent account lol. (ramble continues under the cut this got VERY long)
(line with text so tumblr doesn't eat the image. idk if it still does that but better safe than sorry)
(the months with "2" are split into first and second half of the month bc it was relevant, couldnt figure out how else to signify that succinctly)
i cut out the labels of each belief for safety + in case that's triggering to ppl but each row is a different belief i had that in retrospect was probably some sort of delusion? top two are very similar but different enough i tracked them differently. bottom two might have just been anxiety+ptsd but i do really think they're connected to this
it was definitely at its worst mid nov-end of jan, but started in september and didn't really let up til like june
anyway like i said i had assumed it was a combination of trauma and being off my meds and isolation that made the perfect situation for me to go fucking crazy, but i hadn't really thought about it that hard . but now that i Am thinking about it, again, i was definitely having these kinds of beliefs before The Trauma
and in my past self's defense. one thing about my thought broadcasting beliefs specifically was that i was straight up being essentially cyberstalked at the time and didn't know, so i was completely right that certain people knew more about me than i had told them, but i was wrong about the reason why
anyway i was reading up on schizospec disorders for class (kind of. also just for fun) -- also important context schizophrenia does run in my family i think on both sides? but my parents are weird about talking about it. so that's part of this also.
but i noticed that of the three labels i was looking at- brief psychotic disorder, schizophreniform, and schizophrenia- (i didn't look into schizoaffective bc i dont think i have many bipolar symptoms, and didn't look into stpd bc i don't think it counts as a personality disorder if it lasts like 10 months lol, and delusional disorder because i do think i had some negative*&cognitive symptoms (*psych term meaning absence of things present in nonschizospec people, not literally just bad symptoms lol)-- though to be fair, that may have just been a combination of situational aspects & autism?)-- either way, it's not on this beautiful and awesome diagram in mspaint i made so i could illustrate the timeline aspect of the diagnostic criteria:
bc a diagnosis of brief psychotic disorder requires symptoms to only last a month, and schizophreniform for 1-6 months, whereas schizophrenia is lifelong .
basically the problem is- while the worst part of my psychotic(?) symptoms lasted ~4months, they were definitely there in some form for around 10 months, which is too long for a diagnosis of schizophreniform, but i don't feel comfortable just, assuming it's schizophrenia lol, especially when most of the symptoms i experienced dont affect my life anymore? it does make me nervous though that this happened right around the typical age of onset.
this might just be a problem with diagnoses being too specific to cover the entire spectrum of human experience, and i might just be outside of any area where a specific label could be applied . also, i know it's been written about but not become an actual diagnostic label- but there are places where ocd and psychosis can over lap, and schizo-obsessive disorder has been suggested as a diagnostic label, but not officially used anywhere afaik..
i think my main concern at this point is just, whether or not i should be concerned about it coming back. like, is it possible to be in various stages of active psychosis(?? it still feels very strange to refer to it that way but i guess that's what it was, so) for ~4-10 months, and then just be chilling after. or should i be worried. was this a one-time thing starting because i was off my meds and being worsened by isolation and trauma or is there a possibility of this happening again. and i think that's a question that can't be answered with any certainty, probably
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