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exercised properly for the first time yesterday and it feels like death is coming for me today
#oh my GOD#im actually sore and i didnt even do that much how weak am i. 😭#but ik i have to in order to like stay healthy and shit#plus im so WEAK bhai like its not even funny cant continue like this#following random youtube tutorials 💪🏼#anyways will try and stick to it now
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Thinking about Eddie Munson who was complaining to the rest of the band about his shoulders and neck hurting post show. One of them convinces him to go for a massage.
Eddie shows up day of and is told to strip to level of comfort and get under the sheets laying on his back, his masseuse will knock before coming in. Eddie has not an ounce of care or shame, strips completely naked. Scars and tattoos on full display. He climbs between the sheets and waits. After knocking and hearing a "come in", his masseuse enters and-
The most handsome man he's ever seen walks in. A bit of stubble on his defined jaw, soft pale lips Eddie wants to kiss, big brown eyes Eddie wants to get lost in, slutty little waist and an ass Eddie could-
He introduces himself as Steve. Verifies where Eddie had said his tension was on the form he hastily filled out. Then it starts.
And maybe, maybe, Eddie is a bit touch starved. He could have anyone he wants, but they don't want him just his fame. Pushes them all away. Only gets close to his band, but they all are busy and have their own people outside of work.
And Steve is just touching him. Rubbing smooth circles into his temple, down his cheekbones towards his jaw. Pressing on parts of Eddie's face he didn't even realize were tense. It's relaxing.
And Eddie regrets not leaving at least his boxers on to help hide that he's becoming hard. Kind of embarrassing, which makes his dick harder- which, that's a lot to unpack right now-
"Hey, relax man," Steve says, laying a gentle hand on his shoulder. Eddie can see Steve's eyes dart towards the obvious situation," It's natural. Happens to the best of us." "Does it happen to you?" Eddie blurts out. Eddie wants to shove his face in one of these soft plush pillows and scream, but Steve just snorts a laugh and shakes his head at him. Doesn't even respond as he continues the massage.
Eddie tries to hold back his groans as Steve turns his head to the side and rubs his neck into his shoulders. He can feel the tension leave his body slowly. Feel the knots in his muscles release.
Eddie can't, however, hold back the noise he makes when Steve grabs a hold of his hair and tugs it. Eddie's eyes pop open and he stares into Steve's face, who has started blushing. Steve just clears his throat and let's Eddie's hair go before continuing the massage.
#Steve was just moving his hair and the intrusive thought won over and yanked Eddie's hair towards him#Eddie is waxing poetic in his head has already written a minimum of 3 songs about Steve and is now going to have Steve star in every fantas#Lol yall aren't gonna believe this i paused when typing 'Eddie is' and the suggested was to put 'Eddie is a gay disaster' asdhfdlsl#Anyways this was totally NOT inspired by me getting a massage (I've had many in the past) and this random masseuse grabbed all of my hair i#Their hand and then tugged it towards themselves which...has never happened before and I almost moaned so uh found something out about me#I was just like “OH???oh!” And then proceeded to melt into the table#That wasn't even the wildest massage experience I had...I've had a few which is why I know I should only stick with one person#Because I trust that masseuse but instead I was like “well let me try the stones they don't offer here” and went elsewhere#ANYWAYS I could see this happening to Eddie and went oh yeah...didn't mean to ramble but here ya go#Steve Harrington x Eddie Munson#Eddie Munson x Steve Harrington#Steddie#Steddie drabble#Jade is Talking
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the thing about being the highest-ranked and most-decorated officer in any GAR/Guard capacity, fox thinks, is that unsurprisingly nobody could give less of a shit or listen to anything he says. it’s not like he earned those medals and recognitions and perfect test scores or anything, now is it, kote?
or, after the zillo beast disaster, the coruscant guard medbay just so happens to be much closer than the GAR one, and surprise surprise, senators don’t want meatdroids to be treated in their facilities after they’ve just protected them with their lives. fox tries to reason against this. fox is unsuccessful, because no one listens to fox.
which is how he finds himself crammed into a corner along with cody, ponds, bly, rex and their jedi, looking out across a medbay which is quite frankly a goddamn disaster rivalling the fight with the zillo beast in proportions. skywalker tries to step out towards one of the medics, and has to be pulled back by the collar of his shirt by amidala, squawking loudly when he’s nearly rammed over by mauler, crucifix and a shrilly screaming crash cart.
it’s not like fox said this would be a bad idea or anything.
“um, vod”, cody begins, unsure, “what’s - is that guy sewing wooley up with thread?!”
meathook, who is in fact sewing wooley up with thread, and looks about as happy about it as his patient, and who fox honestly thought was going to cry when he announced the influx of patients about to descend on them, snaps something about triage over his shoulder at hound, whose arm is decidedly bent in a way it shouldn’t be, jerking his head to gesture at the rickety cot next to cody’s ARC. fox is pretty sure they salvaged the thing from a dumpster. he slaps a bandage on the stitches that fox fears might be from the same dumpster.
“putting those advanced reconnaissance training skills to use, kote”, says fox, who invariably turns into the worst possible version of himself whenever cody opens his mouth within a klick of his vicinity.
skywalker harrumphs, evidently at the end of his impressive patience. “well, why?! hey, trooper! these men need bacta!”
“do they, now? i’m sorry, i hadn’t noticed”, a low voice hisses angrily behind them, and fox is the only one who doesn’t jump on account of he’s too dead inside to be scared of his CMO anymore. a grave error, he’s sure. “i guess i’ll just go pull some out of my ass along with a tank and painkillers, then! hadn’t thought of that yet!”
warcrime, whose eye is twitching and who is holding a bloody saw in visible consideration of using it, pins skywalker with a look that has had shinies all over the guard peeing themselves. “we don’t have any fucking bacta, you absolute numbskull.”
“but that can’t be right”, cody pipes up again, next to a very troubled looking generals kenobi and windu. fox sympathises very much with the patented migraine-glare on windu’s face. “why do you not have any bacta?”
“because i like to smear meiloorun juice all over my patient’s stab wounds, commander”, warcrime says. “it’s a homeopathic medicine thing. because the chancellor refuses to give us any, genius.”
“what?!” skywalker says, bristling. “that can’t be true! he wouldn’t -“ he’s cut off by his comm pinging loudly over the moaning and crying in the medbay, and warcrime leaning close enough to be heard with a whisper.
“well, he would, and if you don’t believe me, there’s a holorecording of him telling marshal commander fox why biological weapons on the homefront have lower priority and therefore half rations of everything. now get out of my medbay or find out why they named me warcrime, sir.”
amidala, the collective braincell holder for both her husband and the senate combined (on occasion), tugs him out of the way of warcrime’s bonesaw and ire. fox, who very much enjoys not being the primary target of a medic for once, unfortunately also has to be the adult in the room. “sirs, a transfer to the GAR barracks medbay might be a preferable- AH, MOTHERFU-“
“get him, stabby!”, rabid whoops from where he’s resetting thire’s nose, who echoes a much more nasal and muffled, “go, ftabby!”
“get kriffing FUCKED, stabby, you absolute-“, fox seethes, trying to swipe for the medic’s head and nearly planting one on cody instead by accident, who unfortunately manages to evade the swing fox is admittedly projecting very obviously on account of the sedation hypo jammed into his flank.
“medbay rules, sir”, stabby calls, dancing away towards mauler and his crash cart, while someone bumps something solid and flat against the backs of fox’s thighs that he can’t help but tumble back on, already seeing two codys and blys dancing around his vision. “commander fox protocol dictates he is to be helped to sleep as often as possible, sir.”
“a desperate but well-founded measure, i’m sure”, kenobi of all people agrees, and fox waves an unsteady hand in what might be the general’s direction to the sound of cody’s scandalized gasp. “as you were, officer… stabby.”
“traitors”, fox slurs, just as his com-unit begins to ping with an urgent notification. before he can try and answer it, warcrime has ripped it off his arm and flung it somewhere out of his sight. eh, it probably wasn’t anything THAT important, fox thinks. and if he wakes up two days later to a near-hysteric meathook kissing the glass casing of the guard’s brand new bacta tank over and over again, he decides to just roll over and go back to sleep.
#commander fox#corrie guard deserves better#oc corrie guard medics my beloved#the com was in fact an emergency alert that the zillo beast wasn’t as dead as they thought it was and bit palpatine’s head off#‘oh no’ says fox ‘how horrible’#‘-anyways-‘#jedi order absolutely horrified at the state of things immediately begin to occupy guard headquarters#mace gives himself force exhaustion trying to heal troopers#he is not in fact a healer#kix who is horrified to hear all about this immediately puts in a temporary transfer notice along with a small army of medics#they come bearing all kinds of contraband once they find out about the lack of adequate food as well#it turns out murder and insults do in fact solve all of fox’s problems#stabby has to admit to a very concerned kix that he’s not actually medically sedating fox every other day#‘i only did that once out of desperation and ever since i’ve made a point of sticking him with an empty needle every now and then’ he sayd#‘poor thing’s so exhausted he keels over immediately’#fox gets his monthly eight hours and stabby gets to earn his dues: win win#kix is reluctantly impressed
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happy halloween! hope everyone watched a scary movie that'll keep you up tonight but was nonetheless enjoyable! i sure did!
#AHA! AHAHA I FINISHED IT! BEFORE! MIDNIGHT!#is it my best work? eh. then again i never do Fully Rendered Lil Scenes so!#technically! its my best work in this category!#im not used to lighting and shading and Placing and scribbling objects#its... not Not fun! i should try it more. i should branch out. i always say this tho#anyway for some reason this took me alllllll fucking day#i have a headache now! its worth it! im gonna go pass out#and hope that the details Stick!#my tablet displays color/details differently than my phone and laptop so idk how it looks to you all!#i hope not terrible!#scribble garnish#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#scopophobia#ok yes sleepytown time If My Brain Allows#and if my cat stops banging on cabinets!#technically all of the neighbors are in this. in candy form mostly#i tried to include only 70s candy but who knows if my research was accurate#i was delighted to see that pixy stix and necklace candy and ringpops are Older Than Expected!#all staple childhood candies imo#necklace candy my beloved... bottle caps my Beloved....#i havent had bottle caps in so many years. maybe when i go to a big store this weekend ill get myself some
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we talk all the time about how those characters would NOT be having well negotiated kinky sex, but i think of all the mxtx couples moshang would really benefit from a beginners course in bdsm or at the very least they should read a manuel and draw up a contract, like given their history, their communication styles, and their dynamic at the end of the novel, it would be a net positive for them
#im not say thing that they ARE i am saying that they SHOULD#i also this were they to do this#there is a high likelihood that they’d actually stick to it#like i think clearly stating boundaries and establishing safe words would obvs help#but also like i think sqh is genuinely fine with mbj roughing him up they just need it in writing that it’s like#fine now and that they’re both on board#so yeah i think they’d try it and they’d never go back they’re basically already in a D/s relationship in canon it’s just not negotiated#for the record i also think bingqiu would benefit greatly from the same classes + contract#but there’s no way sqq would sit thru the embarrassing process (it’s not embarrassing he just has a face of tissue paper)#and afterwards it wouldn’t matter bc they wouldn’t stick to it anyway (sqq’s fault mostly…)#anyways#svsss#moshang#shang qinghua#mobei jun
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wip X2
#i never post them but maybe it wouldn't be all that bad idk#still having some weird mental hurtles to traverse >_>#and explore#and learn from#kicking my perfectionism to the other edge of the universe would be step no 1#i used to be way less scared and going through my oooold stuff there's a sense of freedom i kind of like#and now i visibly lack it#SO MAYBE I WONT FIX THOSE WONKY SHOES WHEN RENDERING#WHO KNOWS#anyway#hello tumblr#I'll try not to be a coward and post something sometime#thanks for sticking around#sky 星を紡ぐ子どもたち#thatskygame#wip#skyblr#are these too many hashtags am i going to face THE CONSQUENCES is this instagram if you post more than x you PERISH ohnoohno
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How does one know about their sexuality? How do you figure it out?
#for years I've been struggling to find myself. I feel the pressure to put a label on it but none of them sit right#I don't think I am experiencing attraction the way other people do. it all sounds so weird#I think I might be asexual but that too feels wrong somehow#it's been years and I'm still searching. I'd love to see some representation for people like me in medica but I know I'm asking way too muc#but everyone seems to have figured things out already. I feel so lost. I'm no closer to figuring it out than when I was 16#for now I want to stick with the ace label but I don't want to rediscover myself later and realize I am something else#I feel like I'm trying to subconsciously trick people#and it would be unfair to misslabel myself because. I don't know#Anyway#art#traditional art#oc#original character#furry#asexual#lgbtq#personal tag#if I'm sure about something it's that I'm definitely not straight tho#arcane season 2 sent me into an existential crisis spiral again. alsi I feel I might be autistic but that's a thing to tackle another day
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I technically dont care of the new game but I NEED TO KNOW THAT HES NOT DEAD!
#the fact that the new game takes place in arkhamverse scares me#game I’m talking about:suicide squad kill the justice league#spoilers#right now#don’t continue reading if you don’t want to know#ok.#the fact that Arkhamverse tim is already dead and the possibilities of the other bats being dead#makes me really nervous since dick Barbara and Jason gets named dropped and it’s such an oh no#honestly I prefer them fighting for their lives than outright dying like Tim did#poor Tim gets the short end of the stick.#anyway kiteou is at it again with ship art#crack ship art but alas my mind will never let go of them.and honestly if Arkham jason was with sabo they’ll both stick together trying to#survive as much as they can#and poor Arkham Jason already endured enough at this point let him be happy#jason todd x sabo#sabo#jason todd#op#dc#one piece#crossover ship#crack ship#fanart#artwork#art#sason#papalote dice cosa
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Since atla is again having an extra surge of popularity, I'm shooting my shot:
[ID: (Rest of image description in alt). At the bottom of the image sits the text: "Zuko: Okay. Well, I can't remember how it starts, but the punchline is "leaf me alone, I'm bushed."" ID end].
Did we ever find out what the setup for this joke was? I feel kinda haunted by it. If not- anyone wanna make their best or worst guesses?
edit: I now know what "I'm bushed" mean, but go ahead anyway 👍
haunted thoughts in tags ↓
#atla#the way I was early out for this next surge in popularity 🤗 I was in a different phase by 2020#it's not like it haunts me day and night but it does bother me thinking back on it. please tell me I'm not the only one 🧍♂️#I'll have to reblog the 'closure is a myth' post jk#what kind... of joke is it? leaf pun on leave i get. I'm bushed however I dont get. it implies the punchline sayer is a bush at least I#think. but what prompts the 'i am bushed' I dont get. is it not contextual? is it a phrase ive not connected like 'leaf me alone'?#is there anotger layer between leaf and bush? again what kind of joke (social:joke purpose. what is funny? only pun?) + (in-joke set up)?#is it about the kind of bush it is? is it between two plants? the plant & someone picking on the plant like a teamaker collecting?#is it about a plant that has grown into bush and thus (somethingsomething)?? is it not a plant at all? other elements? iroh *what*.#if the creators actually had a setup in mind- I fear it will be lame. but yet I am haunted#it must have cracked someone up for him to try relay it. (set in term of endearment here) 🧍♂️👈 *poking him*#either way. me 🤝 zuko @ being bad at remembering & relaying jokes 😁👍#at least in that instance anyway#I mainly stick to irony & sarcasm. running along with an mistaken assumption or replying w something silly & blowing it out of proportions.#puns if I'm lucky. ect. fun when I can reference it later tho I try not to overdo it. not like I'll likely remember it for too long anyway#now to lay in wajt see if anything happens....#avatar the last airbender#zuko#atla zuko#a:tla#my rambles#its lie and not lay is it not.....
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#was trying to go more flat-color with this bc painting always feels incongruous with my lined style. alas.#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#chilchuck#chilchack#ghostart#sigh. i was already a chilchuck enthusiast before properly reading dunmeshi. i am worse now that i Have.#anyway. tried to stick to a color palette with this one Without having an established setting and colored light source.#+ been wanting to work with green more since i usually avoid it
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thinks about q!hgduo's final conversation before purgatory and how even though it ultimately changed nothing in the end it still said so much about how stubborn they both can be,,, and how little they value themselves alone despite how many people love and care for them... or maybe it's how willing they are to throw themselves into the flames for those exact people even if it's not what they'd want from them.
They both left that conversation shaken by what the other said yet with their resolve to stick to a of path of self-destruction strengthened... And those paths ended with Cellbit lost in purgatory for months under control of the watcher and Bad dying before reviving with no memories of his time on the island... and with the people they love most- their family- Cellbit's husband and Bad's children- suffering the worst- can anyone hear me-
#qsmp#badboyhalo#cellbit#hgduo#gossipduo#qmockingjays#it's still one of my favorite roleplay moments#I just think a lot about Bad's side in particular how he kept on trying to appeal to Cellbit#by reminding him that he has people who love and care for him who'd be devastated if they lost him and Cellbit#tuning him out and refusing to back down... Bad briefly realizing that the pain he felt watching Cellbit in that state#was the exact pain he was going to inflict on those who love him... but still sticking to his plan anyway o(-(#I'm not in the right place rn to fully word out my feelings but like... it's loving people to the point that you'd do anything for them#but really they just want you around :( they don't need you to destroy yourself for them... they just need you around.#anyway I'm going out for dinner now BYEEEEEEEEEEE!
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I've been messing around trying to figure out the best way to digitize my doodles, and... it's been a bit of a frustrating process ngl 😅 so I thought it might be fun to do a lil series of quick doodles starring my OCs, so I can experiment and get some practice with this new medium.
So here's the idea: I'm gonna go on my main tickling blog, close my eyes, give it a good swipe, and draw a quick messy shitty lil doodle based on whatever post I land on.
I don't wanna hijack the posts themselves, so I'm just gonna link to them and tag the OP (but @ OP, if you'd prefer I reblog it directly I can always repost that way!)
The first post I landed on was this one by @puppys-preytime:
So Gus (the lil dude on the left) is a mad scientist from a black-and-white horror film who accidentally drank a Jekyll-and-Hyde type potion at one point. As a result he occasionally has lil flashes of Evil™ that he needs to be snapped out of.
Luckily that's pretty easy to do, because he's very ticklish.
#ugh the image quality here is utter trash#really struggling with how to get my pencil sketches digitized#specifically since im working on a time crunch#tracing the pencil sketches in krita (or just drawing them there in the first place) looks the best#but i cant stare at the computer screen that long#gives me a migrane#so these are photos of my sketches after fooling around with the contrast & brightness & saturation etc.#BUT I think a lot of the issue is the type of paoer im using#because the pic of Bailey and Gus from last week was on paper designed for markers#so it was much smoother paper and the “scan” looked much cleaner#so I'm gonna try to stick with that instead of sketchbook paper from now on#hopefully the next set will be nicer 😅#i may do a redraw of this one at some point too#anyway just thinkin out loud here lol
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coloured some sketches :3
please ignore the fact that i got so many parts of their designs wrong lmao😭😭😭
#i plan on doing more soon but im trying to stick to a more SERIOUS schedule for stuff. so probably picking 18trip stuff up again next weeken#one day i will draw accurate 18trip i swear#anyways. 18trip fans if you see dis. suggest characters for me to draw. if you want. in my asks#18trip#18trip fanart#18trip art#what other tags do i use idk mayn#renga nishizono#yukikaze kamina#sheetzking#unculturedswine69#ill assume those are the tags for now
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[Start ID. A digital drawing of Minos Prime from Ultrakill, who's wearing a strapless slit dress and sandals of the same deep purple. He faces towards and slightly to the right of the camera, his head is tilted further right. With one hand he gestures in a vague pointing motion, his arm folded and held close to his body. There is nothing in the background, but bracing himself on one arm, Minos is implied to be leaning against something about the height of a countertop. The background is a blank purplish black, save for three diagonal stripes in the colors of the bisexual flag. End ID]
Shading study that quite literally came to me in a dream two weeks ago, after this post apparently beamed itself into my mind
(also a few edits below the cut! they're very slight but whatever :])
[Start ID. Three different versions of the previous drawing. The first changes the tone of the lighting from blue to pink, and similarly the shading from pink to blue. The second replaces the faint black border with pink, purple and blue, syncing with the stripes in the background. The third combines both these changes. End ID]
#the tags got NERFED so let's try this again.#peridots-art#minos prime ultrakill#ultrakill#ask to tag#organs#...? gore maybe? for the whole ''transparent chest/visible cardiovascular system'' thing. not very detailed/realistic though so#i don't think this has all of the same charm as i usually find in my posts. but i tried my best to make it work so i don't think it matters#also ''not too happy with how this turned out'' is something i've seen tacked onto posts worthy of being preserved in museums#i heard someone say his snakes should be ball pythons. i'm not autistic about snakes so i decided to listen to the masters#i still have seven levels to p-rank before i can meet this guy!! halfway there (lust/greed and 1-3 remaining) i've only had my own copy#of ultrakill for a week and i already have 33 hours in. anyway he's grown on me i think. absolute bi king and only monarch i respect <3#i think it's interesting how i now define my queerness by being gray-ace and trans when i first only identified with bisexual. it's still#an important part of me even if sometimes i forget. sorry that sounds completely unrelated but it's related to my feelings on this piece#anyway (i wonder how many ''anyway''s i've slapped on so far) i also find it interesting how often people draw him with this body type.#i think it's cool there's variety in how people draw the uk characters. it just kinda feels right here? i know i unfortunately don't draw#fat characters often at all (partially due to being a primarily fandom blog who likes to stick to canon designs. i wouldn't say i have#trouble with drawing a realistic amount of fat even on rather thin people though lol) but i try! also genuinely unsure what counts as like.#fat vs chubby? or whatever? i don't know exactly how the terminology works and a fair amount of minos' bulk is muscle anyway but. yeah 👍#men are pretty in dresses my final message. goodbye
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Maybe I’ll finally Wanze post soon
#as in a more official lore post like holt awol and sonderbar got#ALSO IM SO SO SORRY I STILL AM GONNA ANSWER THOSE INBOX ASKS J SWEAR#Wanze is on the mind there is bugs in my brain!!! wow just like holt huh#their relationship is wild to me they go from barely knowing each other (occasional hallway acquaintances)#to Wanze essentially having the equivalent of a bag of bricks dropped onto her head#which needs a little or a lot of patching up and Holt does that for her#actually hmmm I wonder if I should more visibly leave some marks of The Oopsie on her face#apart from the permanently broken biores crystals#gotta think on that…#anyway I was especially Thinkin about how Wanze really does resent Holt for a while#it’s complicated it’s not completely Holt’s fault#like she can’t control what happened she can’t bring back her bioresonance she’s a medical eule not a miracle worker#she’ll never really understand what it felt like to be part of that mind link#and that leads to some insensitivity on Holt’s part bc she’s really trying to keep Wanze from decommission here#and Wanze! why are you moping you gotta act normal!! Come on Wanze!#neither of them really get each other bc they’re both not stopping and listening like they need to#but they eventually do#also fun Wanze fact but post head trauma fixup she still has to/wants to go to the kolibri library#for stabilization yknow (she’s a nerdddd <3)#however it’s weird and she hates it bc her fellow kolibris are there.#she does not sing the same song anymore and sticks out like a sore thumb when they’re together now :(#she goes at really weird hours when no one else is there to make sure she doesn’t have to see them#Holt sometimes is able to get ahold of books for her#consider them cuddling together reading#that is all#blorbo tag#wanze#holt#Kolibug
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the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something
#WHAT AM I DOING!!!!#i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch#too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun#no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point#trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this#WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!!#there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time#my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me#my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job#i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time#i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again#and WHAT DO I WANT!#THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY!#I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!#anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed#delete later#i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious)#versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected)#i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want#ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you#i miss that i want that back#whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go
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