#anyways time for bfast

[whimsicalcotton]

me: i filled up on my love for you 🥰🥰😘😘💕💕

her: that seems irrational. and indicative of a larger issue. and gay

[lookwhatyoumademelou]

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[xoshepard]

man i ordered groceries for 7am so i got my ass outta the bed at 6:45 just to realize that ig they had no time slots for today or i didn't notice that i had sunday selected and so i went to the fuckin grocery at 7 for no reason and i have no eggs so i had to go in and buy some anyway

the reason i got such an early pickup time is that i had a virtual tour w the apartment i wanna move into at 8 this morning, and that went really well. the dude was super chill and has lived in the area for many years and grew up not too far from the area so he pulled up google maps and showed me a bunch of really cool shops and whatnot in the area so now im hype to move there

im fuckin starving tho, the whole point of going to the grocery at 7 was to make sure i had time to make breakfast before the tour but by the time i got home it was too late smh

[starot]

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[cloud-acee]

[ breakfast bunch ]

office crush to lovers. wotakoi inspired. wc: 2757

the city was bustling with busy as per a usual weekday. heels clacked and leather shoes hurried on the sidewalks, navigating their way to work. that wasn’t the case for you. today was a day off work because of some event in another department that did not concern yours and sunwoo’s, allowing a day of rest.

it was past 9 am and you have just woken up feeling quite a bit mislaid, not knowing what to do. usually around this time you’d be in front of your computer, typing away your work reports while taking bites out of the breakfast sandwich sunwoo always got you.

not having the energy to figure out what to spend today for, you mindlessly scrolled through tiktok curled up in your bed until a message dinged your phone.

nunu: morning

nunu: u up?

two messages sent after the other popped into your screen and you immediately clicked on it, not quite eager, but excited to know whatever sunwoo has planned for the day just so you could join in. hence, you responded and exchanged messages after so.

y/n: yea why

nunu: bfast?

y/n: let usssss

y/n: but where?

nunu: hb that sandwich place where i buy our usual?

y/n: oooh bet i’ve always wanted to try dining there

nunu: aightt, you know my place just message me when ure near so i can wait by the bus stop

y/n: got it 🤝

y/n: i’ll get ready now bye bye

nunu: you be careful, see u !!

acknowledging his last message with a heart reaction, you locked and threw your phone to the bed as you stood up to get ready, your face planted with an unconscious smile. you didn’t really know if you were happy with the idea that you won’t be couch potatoing for the day, or because you get to see sunwoo.

he’s part of your everyday now, not only on work days but even on weekends where you usually meet out to eat and hang, having been alone in each of your apartments. the friendly company of each other brought you both comfort. at work you got to play adults, but outside work you both get to act like teenagers with your endless playful bickering, midnight ice cream runs, and tv marathons whether it's an anime or movies or series. you loved being with sunwoo.

not further delaying your movements, you hopped into the shower preparing for whatever is to come today.

sunwoo, on the other hand, was all dressed already. he opted to message you after he's ready to go out just to avoid the possibility of you arriving in the meeting place earlier than him, not that it was a chance at all, but he wanted to make sure anyway just so he knows you wouldn't be waiting all alone. he meant to ask you to breakfast last night but argued within himself, not wanting to appear too clingy. sunwoo has always been careful about how you might see him. he wanted to be around you, but not always, not too pushy to scare you away. he didn't want to be too obvious, especially not when he's had some feelings he himself is yet to confront.

he saw you as a colleague at first, he respected you as a workmate. sunwoo saw your brilliance and wit, and he found you admirable. he didn't even notice when he started to feel.. things, he thought for sometime he just saw the good things in you, not realizing it's past mere compliments about you that he kept himself. the man was falling, oh he fell quicker than he could keep track of his feelings.

but he would never admit them. not even to himself, perhaps to sunwoo, acknowleding the heart is followed by rejection. and he enjoyed being with you too much to waste the bond, so he settles with your friendship. not that he was complaining, if anything, he was grateful to even be close to you, and much happier that you two were the closest among your workmates. sunwoo was contented but he'd be lying if he says he wouldn't want anything more.

the walk down the bus stop didn't take long enough for the thoughts that preoccupied his head. anyway, sunwoo already got to the meeting place just before you messaged to tell him you were around 5 minutes away.

basking in the morning air, sunwoo was glad the traffic had died down, allowing him to enjoy watching the vehicles that drove by. each one of them dropping and picking up new passengers, until it was you coming out of the bus.

sunwoo stood up with a small smile as soon as he saw you and you shoot him a smile back as you observed his clothing, he was dressed in a hoodie and jeans, just as you expected.

"do you even wash that hoodie? didn't you wear that last week?" you asked teasingly as soon as you were in front of him. the small smile on his face that welcomed you fell into a playful annoyed face, “at least i wash my hair everyday.”

he likes teasing like this, “hey, you’re not supposed to wash your hair everyday because it’s going to keep the natural oil and stuff,” you huffed as you followed him walking. “so you’re supposed to stink?” he joked even more.

“no i do not stink!” you said loudly laughing in between. “you have got to stop believing everything you see on tiktok,” sunwoo exclaimed laughing along with you.

the teasing and the tiktok banter kept going until you were a crossroad away from the small sandwich shop marked with a logo familiar to you.

as soon as you entered the sandwich shop, you heard the old lady stood behind the counter chirp a greeting to the man who held the door before you, “oh sunwoo, good morning!”

sunwoo kept his hand on the door as you took your steps but his eyes immediately went to the old lady, greeting back to her with another “good morning” paired with a gentle smile.

she had went back to cutting the ingredients as you walked towards the counter with sunwoo, checking on the menu. you observed the store and it felt like a subway but homey, maybe because of the seats and tables that are not too fancy but neat and pretty in color. seeing the freshly cut vegetables reminded you of your hunger and the smell of the sizzling meat didn’t help either. you continued scanning the menu when a conversation between the two started.

“are you getting your usual?” asked the lady as she looked at sunwoo. “yes but i’ll be dining here this time, you don’t need to rush preparing it,” sunwoo answered in a chuckle. apparently, sunwoo’s habit was no different to yours, always rushing in the morning.

the lady took note of sunwoo’s additional coffee order before turning her head towards you, “how about your order, dear?” she was sweet. you felt no pressure choosing a sandwich for breakfast but you didn’t feel adventurous today so you went with the order sunwoo always brought you.

“i’ll just have the regular sandwich with mayo, onions, and cheese, but without the pickles and tomato please,” you answered politely as you pulled your wallet out of your bag to prepare payment. just before you looked back up at the lady, you added, “i’ll also have the same coffee sunwoo’s having.”

this time you looked at her and she had this quizzed look on her face, as if solving a math equation stamped on your face. you only looked at her with both your eyebrows raised, mirroring the same look of confusion as you wait for a response.

“oh it’s her!” she exclaimed with her face lit up. you couldn’t understand what she meant but sunwoo seemed to get it when his eyes squinted then grew bigger as soon as the thought registered. “you’re sunwoo’s girlfriend aren’t you!? the one he always buys this breakfast sandwich for!” the lady said excitedly, wrinkling the corners of her eyes.

sunwoo looked as speechless as you did, perhaps you were as red as each other too.

the lady smiled so big you didn’t have it in you to burst her bubble, so you just pulled your lips in a warm smile as you bobbed your head slightly. “he always did get me my breakfast sandwich,” you responded as an agreement to the sandwich part, glossing over the girlfriend bit.

“what a sweetheart you have here, kindness in love goes a long way!” she said with the same level of excitement as she turned to sunwoo and talking once more, “and you have got a girl so pretty! how did a clumsy sunwoo score such a lady!?”

sunwoo only laughed in embarrassment as he scratched the back of his head. the mood was lighter and you laughed with him too. he didn’t look at you but he played along ignoring the statement that made him blush, instead clearing his throat before speaking to you, “you can take a sit now i’ll take care of it.”

not wanting to protest, you only nodded your head and smiled once more at the lady before pulling yourself out of the counter. you chose a table just next to the window and settled your bag on it, with sunwoo following not so long after.

he slipped into the chair opposite to yours quietly but spoke eventually, “i’m sorry about that,” he chuckled awkwardly. “i knew her since i moved here for work and she suspected the extra sandwich i was buying with my usual order was for a girl,” sunwoo laughed at the memory.

rushing through the streets, sunwoo held his leather bag in his left hand before he got to the front of the sandwich shop near the corner of his apartment, pushing the door with his right hand. the old lady recognized him, he’s been a regular since around three months ago— right when he moved to the area.

just as sunwoo approached the counter, the lady beat her to it and asked, “your usual in 5 minutes?”

he laughed lightly answering, “yes, please. but with the regular sandwich too minus the pickles and tomato.” he says as he pulls some cash out of his wallet. this was when the lady noticed it, of the three months sunwoo’s been a regular, the last three weeks of his order included an extra sandwich on some days.

she couldn’t stop her tongue when she asked, “so your girlfriend doesn’t like pickles and tomatoes?” sunwoo was quite shocked, but he liked what he heard.

you were both new to the company but you came a bit later, resulting in the two of you working on some stuff together and sticking together during lunch breaks, having not much friends from the older employees. sunwoo found you so easy to be with. and quite frankly, you could say the same. you talked about a lot of things, especially anime. but besides your similar interests, sunwoo also learned about the absence of breakfast in your daily routine having such a shit sleep schedule that you wake up late and miss the time to prepare or buy anything to eat most days, if not every single day.

so one morning when he was getting his sandwich, he decides to buy two to give you the other one. he ‘accidentally’ ordered two so you got to eat it now because one was enough for him and it would’ve gotten stale if he keeps it for lunch. you do anyway, but you fish out the pickles and tomatoes before doing so. sunwoo mentally took note of the abandoned bits of vegetables and ordered one without them the following day.

you didn’t really think much of it then, just glad sunwoo was generous enough to share his food with you. sunwoo, on the other hand, was relieved. he wouldn’t really know how to explain if you ask him why he gets you breakfast.

claiming the paperbag containing the sandwiches, sunwoo thanked the old lady for always getting them done in 5 minutes. “oh don’t worry there’s not much customers anyway. you go now, you lovebirds have a nice day,” she grinned warmly.

it has become his routine since then, the lady’s too, that he had completely forgotten about the assumption she made months ago.

you intently watched sunwoo as he spoke of the memory so fondly. “i would’ve warned you about it but it slipped my mind, i didn’t really explain anything to her and just let her think of it like that, i’m so sorry,” he finished.

“no, no problem at all, it’s fine!” you answered wavering your hand in quite a panic, not wanting to make sunwoo feel bad.

you really didn’t want to sadden that lady with the information that you two, in fact, were not dating. but admittedly, being called that made your heart flutter. oh, who were you kidding? anything sunwoo did— anything related to sunwoo, made your heart flutter.

the lady was right, he was such a sweetheart. always so mindful when he was teaching you about the work stuff he learned about some months earlier than you, accompanying you to non-work events (who knew sunwoo would join you to a sticker convention), sending you tiktok edits of your favorite movies, looking after sickly you in your apartment, making sure he's got an extra hair tie in case you lose yours— the list could go on but it’s that sandwich that you look forward to most days.

upon having this surge of realization, you felt your cheeks heat up as you spoke shyly, “i mean, it wouldn’t be so bad, would it?”

sunwoo only looked at you surprisingly with his eyes looking even bigger than they already do, but he also looked confused as his brows raised and furrowed quickly as if he was figuring a puzzle out. his head jumbled with words to form whatever question was meant to be asked in a situation as such, which he had never been in. did you mean what you said? did it mean you felt the same way he did?

his brain was racked with so much thoughts that before he got to ask what you meant, the old lady had already dinged the bell, calling for sunwoo’s name instead of his order number. blinking away the moment, "hold on," sunwoo said as he quickly stood from his seat quite wobbly before approaching the counter.

you would’ve laughed at his clumsiness but you had to mentally scold yourself first, what did you just say? were you even ready for this? well, you’ll never be ready to face something this big anyway, not something as big as your feelings that caught you in those moments with sunwoo you wished would last a bit— a lot, longer. they crept up the very first time sunwoo bursted out laughing at a joke you made, it was this warmth that spread across your chest that made you realize that besides seeing him happy, you also liked making him happy.

oh this isn’t good. what a waste of friendship would it be if sunwoo found your feelings ridiculous, you would much rather choke to death instead of being rejected and having your friendship ruined.

maybe you’re over reacting, but what’s a girl got to do when she accidentally confesses?

you were so into your own thoughts that you didn’t realize sunwoo was slowing his walking still trying to absrob what you said. did you mean, it wouldn’t be.. so bad.. being his? sunwoo has always been gentle with you when talking about things in a serious light, but he didn’t find this time a good time to be slow, maybe he should just go for it?

you felt like you held your breathe until sunwoo came back, carefully placing your coffee and sandwich in front of you and his meal on his side. sunwoo's sat in front of you again wiping the pair of fork and bread knife with a napkin before handing them to you. you only quietly said "thank you," as you reached for them when he spoke.

"so you liked that, huh?"

looking up with your mouth agape, you were horrified. sunwoo had a smirk and his eyes twinkled with something that tells you this day was going to be about more than a friendly breakfast date, this one was a hole you both have been digging.

[sunb0rn]

HAPPY SECOND ROOMIE ANNIVERSARY!!

I will always cherish (understatement yan but..) this adulting journey, especially pag ttry na mag luto, with you 🥹. To more "Happiest" breakfast, iextend na din to lunch and dinner.

skl context ng happiest bfast: gumawa ako first time ever ng mac and cheese kahapon from our left over spiral noodles na ginamit sa sopas. super happy nya at happiest breakfast nya daw ksi fave nya talaga yun + masarap daw talaga.

anyway, yung luto din nya ng first adobo last thursday ang hinahanap ko na lasa. ✨

late greet kasi dat July 10 at late post nitong gifs (from your bday celeb) na matagal na resting sa drafts ko.

[thewulf]

So everyone rags on Steve for being stupid right so here’s the idea the reader who is pretty smart acts clueless about a lot of things and asks Steve for help because they don’t like the way the others jokingly call him stupid all the time. And then Steve knows but he does it because he thinks it’s cute and he likes her but eventually like Robin or Dustin points it out to the both of them and then is like maybe y’all should talk about a few things and so they get to talking and La Di Da fall in love heheh. It’s kinda like when I just read where Steve was the one that exclude us but I don’t want him to get clueless because everyone rags on him for being stupid anyways so I want the reader to be the one to at clueless and maybe she’s related to Dustin

Aww stop I love this so much! Reader is Dustin's hella protective older sister teaches everything she knows to Dusty boy. They're super close so she starts seeing Steve around the house more and more as Dustin and Steve's relationship grows.

One morning at bfast your and Dustin's mom comments on how she doesn't like Dusty hanging with the Harrington kid. You're quick to defend Steve after she makes a comment about his work ethics or something. Dustin notices and the plan is set in place!! Ahh so cute.

[brennacedria]

UGH got to work too early. I used to go inside anyway and just eat bfast and stuff before clocking in, but I was asked not to come in before clocking in anymore bc liability and stuff. ☹️

Whatever, maybe I'll post some of my commissions to discord or something to pass time

[thoughts-onmars]

Hello Werld

Hello,

I have some energy to write out a blog. It has been years since I have wrote a post and well maybe now it's time to start fresh. I need to get back to this and journaling. Sometimes maybe this is better because my hands don't get as tired and I just get better and faster at typing.

Anyway, a little upset bc the dab rig broke and now I am debating whether I am going to just take another hit like that or eat an edible. I will probably eat an eddy though bc I will just heat something in the fridge and have it with my bfast.

I am feeling a little delusional these days. My mental health is slowly declining if I am being honest but not in a depressive state more like a stand still. I have made some short term goals to get momentum going but sometimes I feel like I need more. I just have way too much energy sometimes but I don't use it to exercise like I used to.

I also don't have little kids around me for me to get rid of this excess energy lol. When I go to work, I think i overuse the energy and at the end of the day, I end up feeling exhausted.

I already feel better just typing all of this out. I don't want to get too personal yet because this is posted online and people could find me that know me IRL but then again it is kinda whatever. Like I said, I am delusional lately and so narcissistic that I kinda want people to find it because I know eventually I might become an influencer :P hehe.

Maybe that attention would hurt me more mentally thought just because lately I have been more aggressive towards my lover and I regret it every time but I can't help but think he is a trigger sometimes. Or maybe I just have mental issues but sometimes the way he speaks just doesn't sound like him, it more like he's trying to be someone else. I want him to open his mind and heart more and he is stubborn in the fact that he can change and be a better person too.

Today I will try to be the bigger person in whatever comes my way. I am just a person with thoughts and feelings like everyone else. I do my best with the resources I am given. I show up and I am consistent. Today will be a great day because I will connect with someone, I will laugh with someone, I will cheer someone up. I have the power to do that, we all have the power to change someones day. Make it a great one!!!

Take up space, be loud and be bold, Or just listen more than you speak. Listen with an open mind and an open heart.

I just finished a kdrama and this song has been stuck in my head ever since. Like I normally do, I googled the artist only to find out he took his life when he was only 20. A mf baby. And with a strong emotional voice like that. It's so upsetting that the culture from even the 90s and now is about the same in terms of mental health and the struggle of trying to surpass your own personal achievements can be too much for the mind and body. I hope wherever this artist is today he is at peace and that his voice is still amazing all these years later.

[webslingingslasher]

ALSO while i’m feeling chatty already, let me just share :>>

it was around 2 months ago i think and my best friend had gotten called in for the randomized drug testing our uni does which was the absolute worst timing because she happened to smoke weed with the guy she was seeing the night before and when i saw her message asking me to pee in a cup for her i had just gone and was all emptied out and i was already heading to campus. i sat with her while she was stalling for time and drank a lot of water with her so that i could still attempt to pee for her BUT THE THING IS i had woken up late and didn’t get to ear bfast before leaving and the water the staff offered was cold and it was hurting my head drinking more without any food in my body so we had conspired with another friend who had another friend that could give his pee for her but every part of the plan kept going wrong and in the end she just had to do it and hope for the best

coincidentally enough, it was around the time an anon was asking you for advice on whether or not they’d be fine smoking weed esp when they had work the next day and i remember relaying some of the things you had said to anon to my best friend and it calmed her down a bit

anyway, she’s fine HFJFKG she never heard back from the uni so we assumed they didn’t find anything in her test, but it was truly an experience to be in. her bf was also super guilty and apologized profusely to her and me (bc he thought i would be angry at him as her best friend) but i had assured them both they couldn’t have known and that it all worked out anyway 🙏

yeah if she hasn't smoked weed in a long time doing it once the night before a test 9.5/10 wont show up. let her know that if she's active ie. works out or plays a sport, she's at a better advantage cause THC sticks to your fat cells.

but anyways- BOO YAH! WE LOVE PASSING A DRUG TEST!

[unproduciblesmackdown]

in yet more The Total Not Inherent Violence of beautiful real natural inevitable lest corrupted & hindered Gender like it's misgendering time trying to take a piss unless there's a nongendered / any & all & none genders facility & back-to-back today i try for one & get blasted with OH THE WRONG BATHROOOM only for the followup Oh Sorry to be "defused" with "don't sue me 😂" like yeah im menacing you here. better yet was the very next Piss Attempt after a train ride ft delays & not getting motion sick but rather a headache, preferable i guess, anyway finally i have to guess if the rando yelling UH-UH UH-UH UH-UH is glottal stopping at me bc wouldn't it be nice if they glottal stopped. then Once Again the "correction" is being misgendered again from the front where your body can be scrutinized through the process of [WOman?? BEASTS???] so that whoever im being accosted by can assuage themself through the fine art of Assigning Sex....this time it was the heroics of a subway cop too im pretty sure who then is done Accosting to halfheartedly mumble a Oh Sorry & have fled the spot by the time i got out. the first person at least stuck it out for a moment's beloved phatic talk at the sink (all of them pwned by the Good Interaction in between: No Words At All communication & camaraderie on the train that got me a palmful of salted almonds (better yet after having missed bfast & lunch))

[beholdimhisbeloved]

Good morning! Quick kwento lang sa buhay ko for the past 9 months — hindi ako pinermanent ng offshore client ko for some reason na hindi magmake sense sa akin. Idk siguro dahil magaling ako at ayaw niya lang talaga sakin charot or talagang inalis lang ako ni Lord sa micro managing at stressful type of work dahil may sakit ako at bawal akong mastress. Hahaha. I was struggling a lot the past few months kasi hindi ako sanay nang pinagmumukha akong underperforming when all I do is put my heart into my job and excel. Anyways, fast forward, normally dapat tineterminate na ko cause the client no longer wants to work with me — but the Company saw may potential so hindi ako tinanggal. Siguro kung hindi ako CPA, they wouldn’t bother keeping me so I’m grateful for the title lmao. Going back, I was transferred to a different client but extended ang probationary period ko to 3 more months. Enough to belittle me and lose my confidence. From 7am-4pm shift na pinagdasal ko kasi morning person akong tao and I work productively during these hours, nalipat ako sa 10am-7pm shift. I got separated from my sub team and work friends — forced to be isolated. Gulong gulo ako haha, di ko maintindihan ang plano ng Lord sakin. Kumbaga, I was thinking na grabe naman Lord, trials after trials after trials? Can I please have a break?

Fast forward today, I’m already permanent at work — praise God! But still, nahihirapan padin ako mag adjust cause hindi para sa akin ang midshift at nalulungkot padin ako sa idea na mag isa ako. My usual routine before was to wake up at 5am, meditate & read books at mag luto ng breakfast ang gawain ko before ako mag dig in sa work. Now, I can’t even get up at 8am kasi tamad na tamad ako. Sounds like not even a problem pero idk why hirap na hirap at nadodown ako.

To sum it up, I miss the old times na feeling ko ang galing lang at pabor sakin ang lahat. Bakit ko naalala? Pinipilit ko kasing bumalik sa dati, so I tried to wake up early today. Gusto ko maging productive pero hindi ko magawa. I haven’t cooked my bfast for a while — so nagluto ako today. Ang dami kong sinabi but ang realization ko lang naman ay i’m taking small steps into regaining my old self, yung best version ko. And I trust that I will get there, maybe not now but soon.

Back to work :)

[cntngclrs]

didn’t go to gym today bc my period came and it was the worst it’s been in a long time. literally thought I might die lol. also had a bigger appetite due to that 😭 I hate being a woman. anyway had protein pancakes for bfast, mango smoothie for lunch, and dinner was …. 😭 shhhhh also had ice cream but whatever I had a horrible day so I won’t be too harsh

[abrahamshipwreck]

OKAY SO I AM BACK ON MY SHIT

My cooking shit.

So Walmart sells a Breakfast Pizza that I LOVE the concept of BUUUUUUT it has pork sausage on it. It is insanely hard to find vegetarian/semi-Allowed savory breakfast options you can heat and eat (I managed to ONCE find breakfast burritos with cheese, egg and potato and thats it but it got discontinued) so most of the time I have to do without.

I want to try and dupe the Walmart Bfast Pizza in accordance with not eating pork. Ive found some recipes I could try that also have a biscuit crust and I can just leave out the pork product (or do turkey bacon if I need to)

Anyway I just get frustrated that its already hard enough to find Halal options (or even Kosher to do the HalalHack) but its even harder to find decent vegetarian options for a lot of things. Im just complaining and no one cares but yeah

[brennacedria]

Doc appointment today. Apparently this new doc does actual wellness checkups at either 6 or 12 months, depending on how the last checkup went. I'm not so thrilled with paying another copay, but to be fair I have to do a follow up on my labs from last week. The appt isn't until 10 tho, so while I can't go to work, leave, and go back, I at least can take my time this morning. That meant techno, longer workout, AND the massage bed at the gym, then bfast at home (same oatmeal, but I can sit and eat instead of potentially having to eat as I work).

Unfortunately, this also means showering at home instead of with the awesome gym showers. Seriously, those things are worth the flip flops and no privacy.

Anyway, I'll still have at least an hour to fill. I guess I'll play Animal Crossing or something? I need to sell my turnips.

[thoughts-onmars]

morning

Hello

Good morning Mars. Just another self care day. I love typing on this computer tbh and I love having this space. I really did this. We really did this. Sometimes I am like wow I really live in this state.

When we went to the rockies, it was soooo mf beautiful. How would it be living in a small mountain town I wonder. I would need to get my money up or have a business. I wonder how much it takes to run a business. Just a small 10K loan lol probably even more. I would say I have ideas but I should be doing more than just thinking about opening a business. I need to create a menu and find out about all the licensing it requires.

There are cute concepts of like smaller owned coffee/bfast on-the-go business' that I have seen on youtube. It's cute bc its like a bike and it opens up to a coffee place. So simple and it works. Is it successful? I mean it is on youtube. It creates the aesthetic. Maybe I should buy a camera? Like a camcorder and start recording my life and my hikes and what we do and just upload them.

Anyway back to the Rockies, it was SOO beautiful. So stunning. I am grateful now as an adult that I was exposed to altitude and hiking at such a young age and now as an adult it really is part of my life. I enjoy dedicating a day that is spent outside, breathing in the clean cold air and taking in all the sights. Just a lucky gurl, but not really because I had ambitions of a life like this <3

I still want to maybe move one more time but after being in the Rockies, that place placed a spell on me and I don't want to move away from CO. JP did mention moving more up north and I think I would be down. I would just have to transfer to the newer building that is up there because I am pretty sure he would just stay in Superior.

This work week was super lame. I have been feeling frustrated because I feel like I am the only one that cares about my job on the team I am in. Because of this I almost have felt like crying because there is no effort given by those around me and it effects me in that way. I am just an emotional bishhh lol like I am so annoyed and bothered that I feel like crying at work sometimes. Then I just breathe to try and relax and regulate and that helps. Since I have been missing my family also, when kids come around in their cute soccer uniforms, I get a little sad because I miss soccer saturdays way back way when Alice would have early saturday games and then sometimes we would go to the store with my parents or we would just to my crib or I would go to work. Sheesh that was in 2017.

I have plans to go home for Thanksgiving and it would be my 3rd time coming home this year. I feel like I already typed this. A lot of my thoughts are the same thoughts or maybe I am typing too often. Who knows and who cares bc it is me and my thoughts hehehehe. Flights are super pricy though, like 300 almost 400. The other day they were around 140 and I thought that was too much. I do want to go home because I do want to see all my nieces and I haven't even met my nephew and he is already 2! I need to hold a baby!!!!

Thats it for today. I already broke sober october but I nEED to remind myself how awful I feel the next day that I drink and how I have disrupted sleep when I drink. Last night I didn't sleep that well and I KNOW it's because I drank more like 3 beers lol like 4 or 4.5. I NEED TO DO BETTER. DO BETTER MARS!! Just finish the beers in the fridge today so that there are no temptations later in the week lol mary logic. okay PEACEEEE