#anyways this may or may not be a thing but yeahhhhh

[mohntilyet]

i read the wigmaker job recently and there’s an idea that really stuck with me, which may well have been discussed before, but it’s really been itching at me. it came from this exchange near the end –

“i don't want to quit.” / illario sat back. the distance between them suddenly felt much wider than a table. / “even if it kills you,” illario whispered. / “death is my calling,” lucanis stated, matter-of-fact. “just as yours is to become first talon.”

(the bits before and after this give important context, too, but these specific lines are what gnaw at me)

i. really wonder if this conversation – and the long-standing beliefs held by both of them that it’s indicative of – contributed to giving lucanis to zara.

like, illario coming to terms with the fact that lucanis really just will. not. stop. for ANYTHING. his cousin WILL get himself killed doing this and lucanis won’t have any regrets. he’ll leave illario to go this alone. (no one to follow after anymore.) combined with the envy of knowing that lucanis is and always will be caterina’s favorite, and she will likely pick lucanis to be first talon even tho lucanis does not want this At All…

i wonder if he thought that, well, if lucanis is going to die anyway… maybe it’s better to have it happen sooner, rather than later. why put off the inevitable? especially if this is the one thing that could shift caterina’s gaze to illario and give him what he’s wanted – what he’s earned.

lucanis wouldn’t be happy as first talon anyway (honestly, illario seems to see that what lucanis is NOW isn’t so much ‘happy’ as it is ‘obedient and content to accept the scraps that gives him’), and he’s GOING to get himself killed doing this, anyway… and sure, they COULD wait it out. wait for lucanis to do something foolish enough that he can't just walk away from it. maybe he’ll even last long enough to be made first talon (if caterina can ever bear to loosen her grip from the title) and be miserable for a while. years even, maybe. before he, again, does something he can’t walk away from.

OR. or. or illario could cut through all the pointless waiting and get right to the point. go straight to where this was always going to end up.

(and maybe part of it is an extension of anticipated grief, too – the loss will be agony. if illario controls when and how it happens, he can control his grief. …except he hasn’t accepted the inevitability of lucanis’ death quite as well as he’d thought and when he gets sloshed at the wake, real grief seeps through the cracks)

i dunno. something about both of them viewing lucanis’ death as a foregone conclusion and how illario Might have had that shape his decisions.

YEAH . YEAHHHHH. i do also think the “to reason” exchange is what solidifies it in illario’s mind. lucanis is like 'this has been a productive if tense talk with my cousin. surely he sees sense now.' and illario is like ‘what the fuck. i think he wants to die’ <- okay im exaggerating a bit but i do absolutely see the end of wigmaker’s job as the start of lucanis-illario’s downward spiral. there’s a reason that it’s something lucanis is stuck on during inner demons, and the exchange that you have very nicely broken down is what he hears echoes of, this is where he knows it started to go wrong

probably the worst part is lucanis WOULD have worked himself to death and it takes the series of events in veilguard for lucanis to see other options for his life, and still he ends up being shoehorned into first talon by the end of the quest. i thought his quest would parallel iron bull’s, in that rook shows them that living outside and away from crow influence is possible, and that he is much more than the weapon they turned him into, but it ofc doesn’t go through like that. it’s genuinely a bit heartbreaking that lucanis finally has support and like. FRIENDS. but with the way the game ends he’s pulled back into the crows and to a life that will be about protecting a cousin that the organisation he runs hates, and for as long as caterina lives, unable to say no to her. and meanwhile after lucanis has made connections outside of the crows, illario has absolutely nothing left (prison of his own making i get it but i still want to get his ass out of there. 😭) so the codependency that they used to share is gone as well. maybe lucanis has a foot out the door but i genuinely have no idea how illario goes on after this

[pascallatte]

Payback

Pairing: Pedro Pascal x Actress!reader

Summary: a behind the scene moment, filmed by Pedro himself. A closer look at the chaos that happens in between takes.

Date: Nov 2016

Warning/s: none just pure old fluff

A/N: Yeahhhhh, why does it feel so long since I've posted something?? Also, Twitter fics will be posted a day after the main fic is posted (will post more info soon). Anyways, here I am again with a new fic, hope you enjoy this like you did with my past ones!! Happy reading.

The set of narcos on and off screen can be described as…chaotic. It may be because of the cast themselves. The teasing, between Pedro and you, is something that isn’t new. And with Pedro posting on Instagram another one of those videos you and him, while preparing for the second season, fans can think that their game still hasn’t been set straight. This leads us to this, to which fans say the Normalcy of the relationship between you and Pedro.

Caption

@yourusername, always gives me a hard time while shooting, it’s payback time.❤️ #NarcosSeason2 #Netflix 

As soon as the video started, it blinded whoever was watching because of the intense light that was given by the sun that day. Pedro, who was recording, panned the phone around to catch a small behind-the-scenes look. Clearing his throat he flips the camera to show himself, fully clothed as the hardcore agent, Javier Pena.

“Hello, I was given the chance to go on break while they,” points to you and Boyd behind him, who was talking to one of the producers, “shoot some more things. While waiting, I’m just going to sit in this chair and eat what I can.” He gets comfortable on his designated make-up chair reaching for some snacks before popping them in his mouth. 

“Why eat what I can? Its because-, “ flips the phone to you and zooms in on your red sweat-covered face, which actually still looked good despite being under the sun for almost the whole day,”-‘cause, ducky over there would come here, soon, and take all these-these snacks, especially these small cheese filled biscuits. She likes them.” He whispers to himself or rather the camera, during the last part.

The phone almost slips from his hands as he tries to zoom in for a closer view, which he gets. You and Boyd were seen smiling to the crew as you walked in his direction, presumably already given the signal for you to be able to take a break. Still far, he follows your move as you walk towards him looking straight past the camera at him, smiling and waving. Unconsciously he whispers to himself, “Ah tan bonita, bebe.” So pretty, baby.

You were stopped just a few feet away from him by a staff member, allowing him to hide the phone while still being able to record the whole thing. Placing it down in front of him and flips to see Pedro leaning on the armrest. Turning to look at you, with a look that tells that he's waiting for you to look at him as he gives an adoring look towards your direction. 

“Hola Pedrito,” you said in a soft tired voice. Your voice was heard first receiving a smile from Pedro as you circle around his chair and hug him from behind, whispering to him as he looked at you nodding. The camera was then fixed to see the two of you, you hugging Pedro from behind, a small peck placed on his cheek. You were seen smiling at him before you take a sip from the drink that he has offered you. 

Just noticing the camera, you turn your head to him, gesturing to the phone that he’d set up. As you stood straight, taking his drink with you. Raising a brow, giving him a questioning look, “¿qué estás haciendo?” what are you doing?

Grinning up at you, he subtlely reached for your hand, making sure it wasn’t seen on tape, “Te estoy grabando.” I'm recording you. 

“¿Desde cuando?” a nervous chuckle escaped you, fighting the panicked look that was about to escape you, knowing what this was all about now. Since when?

He laughs at your expression, reaching up for his drink and responding with a ���Desde antes de que llamaran a un descanso.” Making you raise the drink-filled cup away from him. Since before they called for a break.

Setting the cup somewhere out of the frame, you came back to look at him suddenly slapping his thighs and walking away mumbling, “Ayayay Pedro.”

An amused “Why?!” was heard from him before the video ended. And if that wasn't enough, it was followed by another one.

You were now sitting next to him, almost shoulder to shoulder, still enjoying the break given to you. In the entirety of the video, you were seen reaching into the same bags of chips or bowls of candies that he reaches for, getting the same thing he already has. And not only the food but also the drinks.

Besides you copying every bite or drink he does, you also copy his gestures. From the eyebrow-raising to adjusting himself in his seat, the hair flips, and the most iconic, as you call it, brushing-of-the-mustache.

It wasn’t that Pedro wasn’t aware of your antics, he just thought that it was a coincidence. So when he sees you do the gesture on your invisible moustache as well as drinking from a cup, he knows that you were on to something. And he’s going to stop it before it even happens.

Pedro calls your name out of the blue, unaware that he already knows, and calls out his name too.

“Y/n.”

“Pedro.”

He stares at you. Long enough to make you falter and tilt your head in confusion. Still making eye contact he takes a sip, in which you copy (obviously).

He grunts at what seems like a confirmation to him as he was seen nodding his head. Placing his cup down in front of the phone camera, he leans closer to you.

“Stop copying me.”

Letting out a soft laugh, “What? I’m not.” You feigned innocence backing up as he leans in closer. You look to your left at the camera, shaking your head.

You were only able to hear a short “Okay,” before you were pulled to the side as Pedro’s arm softly pulls you to him. Now laughing, you try to move away by hitting his torso and pulling his arm. But you just stayed in place, sadly for you.

“You can’t copy me now, can’t you?” He teases as he looks down at you, who was huffing out a breath hands on the forearm around your neck.

“Isn’t this abuse?” You lightly said, jabbing his chest. Causing him to loosen his hold a bit, allowing you to look at him. And to your surprise, you were closer than what you’d imagined, almost nose to nose.

“Nope,” he whispers before tightening his hold on now your shoulders, how it got there is something you don’t have a clue on. Squeezing you tightly, Pedro leans back on his chair making the two of you topple down, laughs and wheezes were heard before the phone was taken by Pedro to show you on the floor still laughing your hair covering your face.

The short video ended with a very…funny, or you'd like to say "a disgrace of a shot," close-up of your face all red from the laughing.

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[phoenixdoesartstuff]

YEAHHHHHH YEAHHHHH TOXIC AM/TED YAOI YEAHHHHHH!!!!

May I suggest perhaps after Hope gives AM the ability to physically feel things he takes a much DIFFERENT interest in Ted-

BUT ANYWAYS YEAHHHHH TOXIC AM/TED YAOI YEAHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Oh he's enjoying his new sensors veeery much.

[regs-confessions]

Hey

Um

So

May have an idea who the jerk was

@/prongs-confessions is leaving very shitty things about the fandom, saying if you don’t support incest, you cannot ship in Harry Potter. They also blatantly pointed out that they like Snape soooooo

So like

Yeahhhhh (not to mention that they are legit trying to be all cutesy and rp or whatever while using james potter as a tag. I literally cannot trust anything their main post says because it seems more in character with age, name, and with the other accs it interacts with @/moony-confessions and @/padfoot-confessions)

Just letting you know

I have no clue if they are a part of your crew, but like, if not, they legit stole your idea, formatting, everything (which you may be fine with, just letting you know)

Anyways

Yeah

Be careful

Stay strong

- 🌌 @a-silly-boi-sideblog

That is actually insane. I made this blog so I had a safe space to be open because I was literally drowning and now a bunch of strangers on the internet have turned it into something it was never intended to be.

Guess that’s what I get right?

[elgaladwen]

I can finally do one of these, since I did art all year! (Last year I only started drawing in May, so there would have been many blanks, aside from the fact that most of it was god-awful)

Speaking of awful, it was still a bit of a stretch here for some months, like the only thing I drew in January was that sad lil Dammon, and August had nothing I liked. Some months like April actually had a few I liked, so it was hard. I am working on a couple, so there's a chance I might have something else done in December, but I'm not too hopeful.

For fun I added up all of the subjects I drew (also counting last year's so that they can feel important) and it was Nim most, then Daerhovan, then Gallorith. (If you clump other OCs that were drawn once into one group, they'd beat everyone but Nim though.) But anyway yeahhhhh sorry I'm too into a couple of your OCs and my own, but whatever inspires me to practice, right? (I don't even want to think about this with fics)

Now I can look back next year and cringe hard, yesssss!

[youkaigakkou-tl]

Chapter 102 Translator's Notes Thoughts

You know what, I sort of thought I wouldn’t have much to say about this chapter, considering I’d already pored over all the details from Makuragaeshi arc and Yoseito, and in comes Tanaka Mai with a metal bat!

Summary:

Stuff about the color page

Actual translation note about the divine magic stuff

Stuff about the time travel

That theory I have about Haruaki’s exorcism power

(future op after writing the whole thing: jesus christ this is 3000 words. somebody stop me before i come out with a 70 page peer reviewed thesis one of these days)

Color page

The one with purple hair is Akira LOL I think everyone got got by it for at least a second because we’ve been seeing Douman so much, especially with that half the face blacked out, but look at the hair part. Also I only realised because of this art that Kurai and Akira have a mole by the mouth in the exact same spot, makes sense why he wants to cover it up now. (Irrelevant but I also have a mole in that same spot)

Also, the red string of fate…

Hey remember what happens in Makuragaeshi arc. yeahhhhh hahaha just stab that knife right into me hahaha sensei you would do this to them? to me?

A lot of the original folklore for the red string of fate is pretty mean, but the important common thread (heh) is that the two people meet long ago briefly and part ways, until they eventually get married while not remembering that first encounter, then they find out they knew each other from that first encounter. (Hey why does this sound like almost all the things that happen pre-main story in yohaji. Who is making spiderwebs with the threads of fate up there.)

Red string… Hatanaka’s red scarf, which Ibara knitted for him… His scarf, which isn’t present in the Makuragaeshi world… Tanaka Mai you are fucked up and evil for this. I am going to lie in the sand now.

The scarf… which she knitted for him maybe because she saw him with it 100 years ago…

Divine Magic

Ok I’ll be real I hate translating it as “divine magic” because it’s so vague but translating it as the actual Buddhism term is too specific and technical, when the word in Japanese and Chinese uses very common characters so it’s vague enough while still being the actual Buddhism term.

This chapter specifically calls back to chapter 22, and I totally didn’t recall any mention of anything divine so I had to double check with the JP. Sure enough, it’s used here, translated as “divine youkai magic”. But the thing is, in this situation “divine” just sounded like an adjective for “youkai magic”, rather than the whole phrase being a proper noun which is obvious in JP. (This is sort of why I’m going with “divine magic” instead, and that there’s nothing in the JP word that says “youkai” anyway) (By the way, it’s also on the blackboard in Miki’s class in chapter 96. I translated it as “divine power” then because there was no context)

The word is “神通力 jin-tsuu-riki”, and the Buddhism concept it’s referring to is Abhijñā, or the “six types of higher knowledge”.

Breaking down the word,

神 jin: god/divine

通 tsuu: connection/understanding/knowledge

力 riki: power

Exactly as Hatanaka explains it, in the most literal sense, it means “power that has connection to the gods”. “Jintsuuriki” is also another word for psychic powers in general, but it’s definitely this Buddhism concept because of the names of the six types.

Hatanaka just summarized it, so I think it’s safe to assume there’s more to all of them, and also I want to explain what each of them does anyway, even if they definitely won’t end up being the exact same in the manga.

^ Putting this here so it’s easy to refer to.

1. 神足通 Jin-soku-tsuu (Divine step)

Literally translated, it is “god step connection” (all of them end in “tsuu”). The specific name for it is Iddhi, and is generally called “higher powers”, or “powers of transformation”? I went with a name that’s almost a literal translation of the JP.

The specific abilities attributed to it include:

Replicating and projecting images of oneself

Becoming invisible

Passing through solid objects

Going through solid ground

Walking on water

Flying

Touching the sun and moon

Chinese and Japanese descriptions of it also mention “teleportation” or “being anywhere at will”, though strangely English descriptions of it almost never have this part.

The principal uses this one, and Hatanaka thinks Tamao used it (spoiler: he was wrong).

2. 天耳通 Ten-ni-tsuu (Clairaudience)

Literally translated, it is “divine ear connection”. Fairly self explanatory. Also described as “god-like hearing”, it’s the ability to “hear gods or humans, near or far”.

Interestingly, Hatanaka uses “地獄耳 jigoku-mimi” to describe “having sharp ears”, which itself is a fun phrase. It means “hell’s ears”, referring to King Enma, who hears of everything you’ve done in life and judges you accordingly. Though, in everyday speech it just means “someone who hears all the gossip”, but rarely it also means “someone who remembers everything they’ve heard”.

3. 他心通 Ta-shin-tsuu (Telepathy)

Literally translated, it is “others’ hearts connection”. Also fairly straightforward. The concept of “reading minds” in English is “reading hearts” in Japanese and Chinese. There’s probably a separate essay here about the West’s scientific and medical advancements and how with it, the core of what defined a human was shifted from the heart to the brain, changing the sort of words people use with it. Oh hey wait there IS a video essay about this. (ah shit this is getting off topic)

Anyway. It’s also described as being able to “understand others’ minds/hearts as if they were your own”. I feel this is the one the karasu tengu troupe used in chapter 21/22 to conjure up the illusions of Miki, Sano and Haru’s fears. (But the “conjuring illusions” part could also be the first one.)

4. 宿命��� Shuku-myou-tsuu (Memory of abodes)

Literally translated, it is “abode lives connection”, which… means what exactly? So, “宿命 shuku-mei” together means “karma” or “fate”, and it’s described as the “knowledge of oneself and others’ past existence”, referring to memory of past lives, but also refers to knowledge of karma, cause and effect and the past in general.

(Honestly I don’t like my name for it, but every other name for it I’ve seen is too long and unrepresentative, I’ll probably come up with a new translation if it comes up again and there’s more info given about it. Also I almost went with “remembrance”, which tbh is a better sounding name but I would be exposing that I’ve been playing too much honkai star rail)

I think this is the one Tamao actually used, and I’ve seen some CN comments come to the same conclusion. By the way, remember Yoseito chapter 1?

Unbelievable! Everything really is “haha jk…unless” with this manga!

5. 天眼通 Ten-gen-tsuu (Clairvoyance)

Literally translated, it is “divine eye connection”. Also pretty self explanatory. It is described as seeing the karmic destinations of others, and knowing how they’ll be reborn. It’s also called “死生通”, or “knowledge of life and death”. Sort of a set with the previous one, knowing cause vs knowing effect.

This is the one Haruaki thinks Seimei has, and he’s probably right (somewhat). I’ll elaborate in a sec.

6. 漏尽通 Ro-jin-tsuu (Affliction riddance)

Literally translated, it is… honestly idk this name itself means nothing. But translations have put it as “extinction of mental intoxicants” or “knowing the end of suffering”. Tbh this is also one that I’m not super happy with and would retranslate if it comes up again. Hatanaka couldn’t be bothered to actually summarize it LMAO it’s probably because this is a very VERY Buddhist concept. It’s described as “knowing the four truths; suffering, the cause of suffering, the end of suffering, and the way to end suffering”.

The thing you have to know about Buddhism is it’s really obsessed with suffering, the idea of reincarnation and that it comes from worldly impurities (including suffering), and getting out of the cycle of reincarnation by getting rid of worldly impurities. Like, that’s the thesis statement of Buddhism. Reincarnation exists but the world sucks so you want to get out of it. (gets torn to shreds by my Buddhist relatives for badmouthing it) (so far from all my reading and personal experience with my Buddhist grandparents there is nothing forbidding you from tearing someone to shreds) Anyway. This has been my bitching about Buddhism tangent.

These last three are sometimes considered as a set, and collectively called the “three wisdoms/knowledges”

Hey did you fall asleep (throws chalk at you) wake up!

If you’ve been paying attention to both this essay and the manga itself, you may have noticed that Seimei has demonstrated almost all of these to some degree. Whether this is intentionally something the story is implying and wants the reader to figure out or if it’s pure coincidence, I’m not sure, but it’s something to think about. Also, the “seeing the future” one could totally be applied to Kurahashi. Eyebrow raise?

Also, here’s this ask I answered about the ramifications of Seimei having divine magic.

Intermission

This is something I’ve only come to realise with Yohaji, it’s really so fascinating to see the author in a work (in moderation of course). When viewing a piece of work, especially something framed as lighthearted like a manga, it’s so easy to forget the author behind it and treat the work as if it came into existence by itself. Perhaps because Yohaji contains so many references to real-life mythologies and stories, or perhaps because I’ve been poring over every detail, reading about every reference, reading sensei’s tweets and experiences, that what sorts of topics Tanaka Mai is interested in has become apparent and Yohaji is all the more fascinating for it.

Every one of her previous oneshot/short-serialization works before Yohaji has either made mention of Buddhist terms, or is entirely based on it.

Karma Karma, a 3-shot from 2014 (a year before the start of Yohaji), is about the Buddhist concept of hell and a king of hell who accidentally brought sinners from hell back to the living world.

Gokuraku Joudou no Hotoke-san, a oneshot from 2013, besides obviously referencing the Buddhist pure land in the title has wisdom king Acala and Yakushi Nyorai be its protagonists.

Unfortunately, I don’t think I’ll ever get to read any of these, since they’re from 10 years ago and I’d have to contact a collector about it or something.

In any case, this is clearly something she’s interested in and knows a lot about, and it’s always so interesting to see. It’s always been present in Yohaji too, from the early drafts being more Buddhism-themed, to Sano’s magic circles featuring sanskrit and resembling a mandala in early chapters, to busting out a sutra excerpt in chapter 85.

Maybe it’s a fiction faux pas to pull back the curtain and look at the inner workings of a work like this, but I think I get to decide how I interact with a work.

Time Travel

YEAHHHH I CALLED IT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS!! ITS SO OBVIOUS IT WOULD HAPPEN ITS BEEN SO OBVIOUS FOR A YEAR I SHOULDN’T HAVE LET PEOPLE TALK AUGUST 2022 ME INTO THINKING ITS STUPID!! ITS SO REAL!!! IM A GENIUSSS yeah anyway had to get that out of my system

First of all, we get a good look at the schoolhouse. This is probably the old schoolhouse, or at least in the location of the old schoolhouse. Architecturally it does look different from both times we’ve seen it, in volume 5 and Yoseito’s Izuna flashback arc. It’s entirely possible that the principal had it rebuilt and more floors added in the 100 years he was using it. By the way, based on the turtle map and being able to see the mountain behind the school, it’s likely that this is where it is.

The beam of light on the mountain opposite the school is almost certainly because the gang ended up at the location of the current schoolhouse, which is still just forest at that point. And there is not a single doubt in my mind that the teacher is Ranmaru.

Ok tbh I don’t have that much to say about the time travel half of the chapter mostly because it was just establishing the premise for what’s about to happen for the rest of the arc, so here’s some disjointed thoughts.

First off, even if it’s not obvious, Haruaki does indirectly cause this to happen. Besides nudging the world into the situation at the start of the chapter in a million cumulative little ways, he’s the one who brings up whether Tamao can use any other type of magic.

Also, this chapter made me realise something about Yoseito chapter 28. It makes sense that Yamazaki wouldn’t have recognized Hatanaka before that moment when he made the connection, because for all intents and purposes he knew Hatanaka as just this delinquent kid who even dyed his hair. Even the name “Hatanaka” doesn’t help, mind you, since he’s got dozens of siblings and extended family whose surnames are all “Hatanaka”. Unless they specifically told the Meiji trio the exact situation, and even then, this is probably just “that weird story from when we were in school” to Takahashi and Yamazaki. (a la teacher trio not making the connection that they met years ago until it was specifically pointed out) It was only at that moment that he started to resemble the version of him a year from then, when the time travel would happen.

Anyway, what in the world could possibly happen to Takahashi that he ends up like he does on the color page and looking so shaken in chapter 98… I sure hope the stuff on his face is actually just shading and not blood…. We do have precedent of that half of the face being covered in blood….

And one last thing that might be addressed, something in this arc will probably cause Ranmaru to quit being a teacher (based on makuragaeshi arc), though like the Takahashi thing, I couldn’t even begin to guess what. I can’t see the future, after all! (I feel like I've made this joke before)

The True Nature of Haruaki/Seimei’s Exorcism Power

(sounds like a clickbait title lol)

This is something I realised while answering this ask, but it’s a realisation that could have come way sooner because it doesn’t really hinge on info from chapter 102.

Here’s the parts to this theory: (anything that’s directly quoted has been double checked against the Japanese in case the nuance is slightly different)

Youkai magic is powered by spirit energy (no shit sherlock)

Clarification addendum: spirit energy is called “you-ryoku 妖力” and youkai magic is “you-jutsu 妖術”. both use the same “you” as in “youkai”, and the word on its own kinda means magic-y creature-y things (its usually used with another word to clarify what exactly is magic-y). Literally translated, “you-ryoku” is “youkai energy/power”, and “you-jutsu” is “youkai technique”. its very no shit sherlock.

This exorcism power exorcises spirit energy, and also works on gods to a lesser degree.

This implies the exorcism power has broader spanning effects than is stated, or “spirit energy” isn’t as specific of a concept as previously thought.

Spirit energy is basically interchangeable with “human life force” which is also interchangeable with “human souls”

In chapter 76, Takahashi reveals that if the mother is human, the spirit energy a half-youkai baby needs will be substituted by her life force. Also of note, he reveals that youkai can produce spirit energy and humans can’t.

When talking about youkai that eat spirit energy, “souls” are almost always brought up alongside it. Miki’s mom is said to eat both spirit energy and souls, the makuragaeshi eats both spirit energy and souls. The kasha did throw out the pure youkai Takahashi, Hatanaka and Marshmallow to leave only those with non-youkai blood or souls, but it also didn’t seem to be against attacking them.

In chapter 74, Takahashi says he sensed spirit energy in the hospital, but he examines the gashadokuro and finds it’s formed from human souls. Also in chapter 70, the ability to see spirit energy and souls is lumped together.

And now, one of the loose ends from Kyoto arc: Suzaku saying that “humans shouldn’t overuse powers like that” and was about to say something about life force.

Do you see what I’m getting at here? It sounds likely that “spirit energy” and “life force” are the same thing but in different forms, and assuming there’s not an entirely separate power system that has nothing to do with spirit energy, there’s a possibility that Haruaki/Seimei’s exorcism power runs off life force instead.

This has a few fucked up implications, namely there’s a possibility that Seimei was going to die anyway even without being (debatably) murdered, and also obviously Haruaki… um….

“Souls are equivalent to life force” and “exorcism power runs off life force” would also help explain why his intelligence soul piece could also use it: it just happened to be the biggest piece of his soul (also explaining why it’s physically bigger than the other 4), and it could be that all the pieces had the ability, just that the biggest piece had the “battery” to actually use it.

(I have Many Thoughts about the soul pieces btw, that may never get elaborated on in the story. No not just that white hair Haru is hot! I feel like there’s something more to it than just being 5 parts of his personality. Like, they say there’s a piece that’s the manifestation of his desires, but the athletic piece is into sailor uniforms too? That’s a conclusion the students came up with, after all, and it’s not like anyone present was an expert on this stuff, and anyone who might have known more aren’t saying anything (Ranmaru, Douman, SEIMEI???). Do you get this feeling? That there’s something purposely left unexplained there…)

He also calls out the similarity between his powers and the students’ powers often (off the top of my head, there’s at least a few times with Sano, also with Nyuudou, and now with Tamao). It’s probably his efforts to show he relates to them, but also… yknow…

Of course, there’s details that this theory doesn’t fully address. Both times Miki’s mom ate Haruaki’s soul, she immediately noted it tasted bad, so it’s probably not because of Seimei taking control and actively fighting his way out, rather something inherent about his soul that makes it different from regular human souls or even youkai souls.

This is all pretty fucked up and I don’t necessarily think Tanaka Mai would actually go this route….? I hope…..? But there’s nothing definitive right now that says it DOESN’T work like this, and there’s enough of these little details littered throughout the whole series that if it’s true, this would be the biggest long con sensei has pulled yet.

Haruaki’s exorcism power could also be one of those “lol he can just do this, don’t question it” things, but that’s also what I thought about Seimei’s ability to see the future, and GUESS WHAT.

Anyway that’s all, I think I haven’t forgotten anything I wanted to talk about (probably did though, this took an entire day and thats WITH having taken notes while I was translating), gonna spend a couple days combing through all the previous mentions of the time travel to see if the new concrete details about it would surface any new info.

[seungs]

every month of 2023 🥳 / i was tagged by @euijin. thank you for always tagging me in these carly.. i do enjoy look back on sets 😀 tagging: @foxinys @hyunsung @yangjeongin (hi mary) @huiracha as always u dont have to but id like to see... sorry if you're getting tagged again btw 🤍

january / popular. i rmr this clip being unavoidable for like a month...... 🚶‍♀️ anyway surprise to no one. vs favorite. ok but this has to be one of my favorite sets 4 ever. the day seungmin showed up with bleached bangs was beautiful.... i do rly love how much fun they had with it....😔

februrary / popular. omg moment of silence for mahagrid these clips were really fun. also this guy continuing to haunt my most popular sets. vs favorite. omg im doing 2 for 1 (1,2) cause i can't pick and really had fun giffing con and i think they came out rly cool 😁👍

march / popular. i do not know why. omg actually i do. it's the hair isnt it. vs favorite. wooho 😿😿😿😿😿😿 omg. they rly were cute together. this really was my favorite but i'm including miroh cause i really liked how it came out 😺

april / popular. you will never guess who this is! okay but i wholeheartedly agree i love when he is like a mop 🤍. vs favorite. 2min(:

may / popular. i can't believe this was late may.. look where we are now. who would have thought. but hyuji is very cute. vs favorite. omg this one is an easy jisung fav. he looked great. no idea why i went w these dimensions for the gifs but jisung im a fan 👍

june / popular. yeAHHHHH fucking finally and also Deserved. i loved sclass cause finally it was a mv i had fun giffing again and also seungmin looked great. and i love this set. fun mv. vs favorite. omg this one cause i rmr having fun with it 😿 also liked how it turned out. just silly guys boxing and dancing. but shout out to koms seungmin because i had to include him naturally..... 🥲

july / popular vs favorite. nothing happened on this blog in july apparently. but still i agree. come back seungracha.....

august / popular. solid....he looked good. i rmr this being a bother to color tho. vs favorite. popular 🤝 japan cb 🤝 favorite. i rmr this also being a bitch to color but now i really like how it came out 😸

september / popular. been a second. but 100% real.... might actually be one of my favs of the year overall too (sets and things that happened). vs favorite. wait i might have peaked in sept cause this is one of the best sets i ever made in my life im p sure 😭😭😭🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️(to never be able to recreate ever again)

october / popular. heh(: 2min. vs favorite. omg bitch ass set to make.... was so close to being deleted for good but she deserved to escape the trash i think. at least i can say an attempt was made 😶‍🌫️

november / popular. right. im with the people on this one 👈 vs favorite. 😕🙁☹️😣 man. circumstances and insanity of deciding to do this aside. im happy with how it came out and i cant believe i stuck with making these sets his entire mc career 🧍‍♀️

december / popular. at least for now. i agree though. vs favorite. actually this one might as well be my favorite of the month too.

oh. i forgot. bonus round cause i decided but this is one of his best styling ever.

[trickarrows-bishop]

[clears throat]

"anyways so i think flat affect lead to a lot of problems growing up for her, and she was told by everyone around her that she always sounded angry or upset

she was. Confused? by this. she didn't know why, or what it meant. so from the ages six and up, she started masking, showing "more emotion" as everyone put it she would facial expressions in the mirror, and mimicked her friends reaction whenever they heard news. even with her masking though, it wasn't enough, and people could tell she wasn't Like Them her friends took it affectionately as a Her Thing. her mom praised her for this, but didn't know why her daughter was so tired all the time.

i think she stopped masking when they started moving. she realized that her normal self kept people away (which is much sadder out loud than it was in my head). so she unmasked, both to keep people away, and because she was burnt out

in particular i think trini suffered from burnout and subsequent depression before she moved to angel grove. there is evidence in the film that she turned to drugs at one point, remember That line from the family dinner?

but she definitely got better after having her friends, because they weren't friends of her because of who she pretended to be. they became friends with her because they were all united to be superheroes, which meant they became friends with her unmasked self.

i love thinking abt trimberly with autistic trini

i think part of that may acc be because i like the idea of an autistic person who's Not like other ppl in terms of emotion being allowed to be in a loving relationship hehe

trini's always been worried that when someone finds out the full extent of her, they won't want to date her :(( both baggage-wise and because they'll get sick of how she can never tell them just how she feels because she doesn't understand it herself :( (due to alexithymia)

so when she finds out she has a crush on kim, along w the usual internalized homophobia, trini also tries to shut it down because she values kim so much as a friend, and she doesn't want to ruin that by being how she is. despite "being how she is", kim shows a lot of interest in her, to her surprise.

however, a while after they start dating, trini begins to mask. in what way? idk yet but it'd be sad

when kim finds out she's devastated at the idea that trini could be any less loveable just because of how she is and she reassures trini that she'll never ever ever leave her for something like that.

it takes a lot of talking but slowly she begins to unmask and kim loves her so much <3"

AAAAA OMG OMG OMG YEAH YEAH YEAH DUDE YEAHHHHH AUTISTIC TRINIIIIII <3333

[endversewinchester]

Alright let’s do a couple more

Lmao busted.

This is good though. It’s the kind of slip up they can’t afford to make, so Sirius helping them is a good call.

If he wasn’t worried he would agree that Harry didn’t need to be watched but I guess pride does stand out. For what’s worth, I agree. That is what they should be doing anyway.

This kinda tells me that Molly and Sirius reached an agreement of sorts. She respects Sirius’ role in Harry’s life (I have no authority over you) while still worrying. Sirius also continues not to mind the way she parents her children, and is happy to let Harry know about her advices. That’s good. She was there before him and compromising is the way to go.

Sirius I have a hard time thinking about you taking orders from anyone at all. But here, he is right. Harry is the one in immediate danger. It is him that Umbridge is compromising with her stupid, condescending rules.

Ron is Sirius’ spokesperson lol he gets him effortlessly. I would not be so sure. I think he would try to be more careful, sure. That was a close call for him that could have ended horribly. But not risking at all? Yeahhhhh idk.

1- He was always reckless.

2- Yes. He is living through you quite a bit. He gave me that impression more last book than now, though. Now he just seems more desperate to do anything, and more snippy.

3- I don’t necessarily agree on the “he’d love to be forming secret orders under the nose of someone from the ministry” thing because Hermione. He’s already in one of those. His house is the HQ for it, in fact. He doesn’t need to do that through you. I do think he wants you to be ready if/when shit hits the fan, which it will pretty soon. It may not be the best thing ever, but he’s not wrong. You kids need this.

[trans-leek-cookie]

no yeah i totally get u on the chilchuck and halflings thing like even tho his appearance may look White its clear that kui was trying to not just make up a race to be marginalized without engaging w it (seen in so much fiction tbh) but actually kinda put thought into her setting and the oppression experienced by certain races -> the halflings being a big example of this. like i think it does say a lot that the same ppl being weird abt kabru nd toshiros group are also weird abt chilchuck (but a couple times they act like its Ok bc Hes White) and its like . they cant rly identify the way theyre so ready to attack marginalized groups bc they cant even recognize the surrounding factors that are identifiably a form of systemic oppression they just have a surface level babys first understanding of oppression LOL. “but look hes white” have u actually read the series are u critically engaging not only w whats here but also ur strange misconceptions about oppression and privilege. anyway yeah this is why i totally agree with u like yeah nonwhites r not exempt from being stupid like this also but it is still sth i see mostly from white ppl and its atrocious

yea truly (also. Genuinely. Chilchuck is given a fairly tan skin tone that's notably different from characters like Laois and Marcille) and like. Expanding on the thing I said Abt halfling stereotypes seeming similar to Arab stereotypes - first is the thing izutsumi mentioned, like "oh ppl say you're called half-foots because you got a foot cut off for stealing" which sounds REALLY SIMILAR to the stereotype that "Arabs cut off thieves hands" like it's so similar. Point 2. They're stereotyped as shady, greedy, and theving which. Yeahhhhh that's. 👍 It sure is. 3. Chilchuck actually discusses how the term half foot/halfling originated from I believe tallmen(? Maybe also dwarves?) seeing their footprints and thinking they're like. "Half a person" or whatever and how that resembles the way the "Middle East" was named because Europe was The Norm and then there's "the orient" and west Asia is "in the middle" and how it prioritizes a singular groups view as the norm. So it's like while textually halflings might not be meant to be ppl of color/west Asian specifically it's still like. *gestures vaguely* can you ppl suspend disbelief and recognize fictional racism and also how said fictional racism parallels real world stuff.

[eienoah]

May 16 - Hiking Mt. Takao

Day 11, mountain hiking day. Woohoo, yeahhhhh, nature. It rained again. The ride to the mountain was around a buck fifty away and I think everyone was kind of feeling the train ride. The stops just never seemed to end. I don’t usually have a problem zoning out and letting the train ride happen while I am here but today at a certain point I really thought to myself, “damn this is long.” Even when just arriving me and Rich took an hour train ride from the airport and that wasn’t even that bad. There was just something about today that made it seem super long. Now that I know how this is, I am kind of nervous about how long the ride to Kyoto will be. Anyways on to the meat and potatoes. We started with a silly little ride up a lift towards a third of the way to the top of the mountain I want to say. I’m really not all too sure but it felt like a good 200 meters up. We took a quick little stroll over to a town, I think???? There were cars on the road and ambulance motorcycles so I really don’t know. The store I went to was out of meat buns which was a total bummer but I did get some little keychains to share with my girlfriend. I really am loving the conversion from dollars so much. I didn’t even realize how little I have actually spent yet. We did some more climbing up the stairs before another little break. It felt like we were climbing for 30 minutes but it had actually been around an hour and a half I think and then we reached the top. The fog was so thick it looked like the forest in front of me was being drawn on a piece of paper. From there we started heading back down and I chose path 4 which had a drawbridge which I was really excited to see. The path was a lot more slippery than I expected but it was worth it to get the view we did. I rushed home after that to go see my girlfriend but she got stopped up at the airport. I’m writing this before she comes so if we do fun stuff I’ll probably just vlog it instead. 

Academic connection

The readings discussed a lot about the preservation of Japanese mountains in order to improve longevity. I will say from what I saw walking the paths and just observing the scenery around me, the foliage seemed all relatively similar. Picking one kind of  tree in one part of the forest would mean I would almost definitely be able to see everywhere else in the forest. There was of course diversity but it was diversity in multitudes. Also there were plenty of fixtures set up to prevent disasters from happening. I observed things like wooden supports built into the side of the mountain to keep loose sediment from falling, nets on the side of ricky cliffs to keep rocks from flying out, and even drainage ditches for what I assume would be heavy rain. Although since we went to a mountain today, I could not picture anyone farming on the side of one of those things. It was yet again kind of hard to connect today’s reading with the physical aspect just because the activity only slightly touched upon what the material covered. I will try my best for Kyoto to get better connections but it’s just a little hard right now.

[gendereuphoriaa]

okay so i'm going on a hiking trip on sunday and it's really shaken things all up... well also my biological mum showing up at my door a month ago for the first time in 3 years... welllll also halving my propranalol dose and not realising that would give me withdrawals... and then being sweaty and paranoid for days...

i'm applying for my US passport... i think... i filled out the application with an F marker... not sure how i feel about it... i'm a bit scared... like what if i can't travel to eastern europe anymore... like not that i want to anyway but like it's nice to have it as an option... that hypothetical trip to nigeria is out the window now... like i prob could technically still go to some of these places somehow? but yeah that's what's going through my head rn... that i won't be able to travel through like poland pretending to be a cis straight guy with a binder on my tits anymore... although with lower surgery approaching it's all gonna show up on the scanner anyway...

it feels irreversible... even though i guess i could probably just change my gender on my passport back somehow... but it would involve some pretty rough fucked up admin/ processing... i think i want to get my US passport before trump gets back in... cos atm you can self identify... i can't get an X marker because it also has to match my british passport and the british passport has to be M or F...

like tbh i'm fucked either way being trans... there's no real choice that is entirely un-risky... like if i show up at an airport with an M marker but tits and a fanny in fuckin poland they're gonna be cunts about it... and if i show up with an F marker they're gonna be cunts about it...

i guess rn i'm grappling with/ grieving i suppose that loss of the feeling i can travel anywhere around the world... like as a white man you often more or less just can do that... especially if youre straight and cis... i'm not totally sure where i can travel in the US either... like yeahhh... not ideal being 6'8" either like i'm not really very stealthy. although i am slim so i can kinda slither through security i guess...

i'm probably gonna do it no matter what and then if i ever do want to go on a trip to fuckin russia or north korea or some shit then i will have to figure that out when the time comes...

i really REALLY want my actual name on my interrail pass this summer... and honestly at this point i may as well just commit go full hog with this thing... cos in order to get the F on british passport i have to also get it on US passport...

so yeahhhhh... i have a passport photo booked at a studio on thursday to get my UK and US passport photos done... i have the US application form like 95% filled in and also already paid for... so my plan is to send it off on thursday... and then it takes 3 weeks ish turnaround assuming there are no issues this time... and then when that arrives i'll then be able to send off for UK passport... prob will do expedited delivery... so that THEN i can get an interrail pass in my legal name...

these are stressful times... but also there are awesome parts to just having my passports and all my documents not just deadname me all the time... and then having a cute photo and F marker just means travel feels a lot more nice and soft and gooey... and ya know what maybe that trip to poland will just have to wait... or maybe it will happen anyway! not sure how...

yeah fuck it i'm doing it hehehehehehe... will just have to deal with the consequences later... c'est la vie...

[worldwright]

Good evening ! I went to the doctor's office to ask for painkillers and maybe crutches, and left with prescriptions for a scan of both of my knees, an appointment to see a podiatrist, and a brain MRI

wtf

ive never done one of those things in my life before

Also, my doctor basically said "fuck off the notice of your antidepressants, just take ibuprofen when it's the only thing that works for you", so that was nice

I love her, she never says stuff related to my weight, because she knows, she also knows that I can't take more than a meal a day, and was fucking delighted when we saw I gained weight after my trip from the unit after my attempt.

So, yeah, apparently your knees shouldn't make the sounds of bubblewrap and your shoes shouldn't look like that after 2 years of use

Also, I always thought that it was just headaches because "they're not that bad" and she went "lol nope, sounds awfully like migraines" and oh that makes sense why my go-to to make them go away is sleeping because even if i wake up still in pain, at least i didn't feel the pain for hours

I knew my body wasn't the best, but, man, what the fuck

Now my knees hurt, because of course just making them do their job is hard for them, and I'm thinking about stealing my mom's crutches (she doesn't need them anymore) if it's worse tomorrow :')

Also. I'm always looking to be sure the scenes in my fics are around the same size, but, well, the third one's about 1k words and that's half the fic's words for now. it's going out of control, and that's a good news, because if a fic goes out of control it means that im gonna finish it :)

Have a wonderful morning my friend !

hey that's a solid amount of GOOD medical news for once!! or at least, measurable progress towards good news lol

it's awesome that your doc is actually understanding and helpful, and like. is actually doing stuff to try and help you

also FUCK yeah gaining weight!! congrats!!

yeahhhhh uh those shoes may be. indicative of an Issue... ehehe rip

I Also have medical news today lmao, though not for me -- my friend is FINALLY going to urgent care for her incredibly fucked-up back. like it took her being unable to WALK for several HOURS for her to go get some help... not that I blame her, cuz of a) depression and b) the dogshit medical system in this shithole country

anyway, hoping for her to get some corrective care, pain meds, and hopefully a back brace 👍👍 at LEAST

i saw a really promising apartment listing last night, but it turned out to be fake :'))))))))) I was like 75% prepared to push up the move to like next month if the listing worked out. but no that would be too convenient

I'm watching dunmesh with my dad lol, he seems to like it :3 not that he's super into anime in general, but I can usually convince him to watch stuff with me

I gotta start getting rid of stuff I don't need, to prep for the move... I can probably donate like 30% of my craft supplies lol. maybe I'll borrow the car for a day and make some runs to thrift shops

hope you have a lovely evening, friend!!

[spacedustandpirates]

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“Error. Location unknown.” A robotic voice drifted out of a crooked speaker box that reminded her of a drive-in movie theater box that people in that century used to hang on their windows to hear the movie projected onto a white sheet thing. As soon as she had seen it at the recycler she knew she had to have it and so hid it with the scrap that the captain was taking home.

“The fuck it is…” She used her free hand to pet the speaker. “It isn’t your fault.. It is esra’s fault. ES-RA.” She sassed. “Asmojdi - location Chala Gamma.”

“Error. Location unknown.” The voice repeated.

“Uhhgg..” Aylin’s head lulled backward with the groan, her face tipped toward the transporter room’s ceiling. The box of seedlings shifted from one hip to the other as she moved her hand from the relic and settled it on the railing.

“ESRA.”

“Yes Aylin?” The ship’s computer responded with limitless patience.

“Why can’t I port to the farm on Asmojdi?” Her chin dipped toward her chest and she fixed her stare right on the innocent speaker box.

“Aylin, you renamed the location to: hell hole with a view. Would you like to teleport to hell hole with a view?”

She sputtered. Her stare left the speaker box and drifted unseeing to the wall of the transporter room. Oh, when had she done that? She crinkled her nose, her hips rocking from side to side while she racked her brain for the — ohhhhhh yeahhhhh. It was when the farm’s glass didn’t hold and all of her crops suffocated and died.

“Esra, port me to hell hole with a view.”

“Did they give me daughters when I asked for ro - bots..” Aylin stepped off the teleporter pad, her head bobbing to some metal cover of a classic earth lullaby that played through her headset. The transporter room was a separate building away from the homestead, the main house, purposely done in case one or the other failed - which may have happened once or maybe twice.

She checked the forcefield on the box of seedlings before resting it on the cargo pile just inside the door. ‘Hell hole with a view’ was what the crew called the place but really it was what people called a dead planet. No air, no life, and no growth. Just metal carcasses in the shape of houses, farms, and shuttles to remind anyone stupid enough to touch down that this rock had once hosted life. Now? Not even Pirates and Zirax would touch it - and that was why they settled here.

As always, she peered out the window of the teleporter room before exiting the building, eyeing first the flight deck before searching for movement alarms on the main building - homestead. This had been their recovery home for five straight months, with a beat-up ship to get them here that she was sure the captain just about traded his whole ass for. She paused as she considered the doorway and the shimmering forcefield. That salvage yard alien had it baddd for him, whatever happened to that female? She shook her head, anyway! She fixed the helm of her suit and listed for the rush of air before checking the gauge. The dead planet had no air and random clouds of radiation to make life miserable but there was water and water was life.

The doors sighed open and she collected the seed box before she bounced down the stairs, her jetpack humming against her back. The place was a junk heap, really. With sleeping ships, piles of unused scrap, hastily placed storage pods, and a beach lined with ugly water extractors, the homestead wasn’t the prettiest of places but it was their home. Now it was used more to grow their food since they managed to tape together a space station.

“Mister.. I’ll make a man outta youuuuu.. - Esra broadcast to homestead.”

“Broadcasting music.” A robotic answered in her ear.

“Ah yeah..” She bounced up the ramp that would take her to the first floor of the building. Once the ramp shut behind her she pulled her helm free, listening to make sure the music could be heard before shimming out of the armor suit. “You can bet… before we’re through…” She hummed, snatching her box of seeds and making her way to the lift. “I’ll make a man… out of youuuu.” The lift was a box tunnel creation that used energy and air to cart a person between floors, as she floated to the second floor, her bare toes wiggled impatiently. Some lullaby… she mused, waiting for the lime green doors to open before she stepped into the second floor or what she’d like the call the garden.

The garden was made up of over a hundred plots of dirt, nestled within the floor, and situated under grow lights and mist spouts. Esra took care of making sure the plants had just what they needed to grow but since Esra wasn’t an organic, someone had to actually harvest the stuff. That somebody was her! Not that she minded, the smell was nice and Corso brought home a few butterflies that he captured the last time he stopped at Haven. The Captain brought her a leafcutter that had been partially crushed by his ship, well, he didn’t bring it. It sorta got stuck in his landing gear and she found it tucked inside the ship spitting mad. Since it couldn’t be set free in space or on the dead planet - she stuck it in the garden and fed it protein from the constructor.

“Aylin, you at the homestead?” A voice sounded, though it seemed to come from everywhere instead of in the room with her.

“Thatsa yes from me, Captain. Just getting some veggies..”

“Put your bug away, I am going to come collect some seats.”

“Ah, it won’t hurtya… will you buddy?” She chirped. Eyeing the leaf-like creature weaving through the pumpkins. “He is a sweet lil’guy.” She cooed.

“Corso’s visit to the med ward says different. Put it away - what are you listening to?”

“Yes Captain, I’ll close up the garden doors then. And I dunno, some ancient civvy stuff I got from the last time we visited the trader.”

[liliumofthevalleysstuff]

OOHHHCRAPPP SHE POSTED ABOUT THAT

Ok ok so Minthe explained that situation really biasedly or I guess from a different perspective? (Anyways Mint, it’s fine really! As she said, nobody picked up on anything and the friend didn’t say anything rude in response to our being “rude)

For clarifications — the ex was THEIRS, not mine. (The last thing they’d do is ever mention an ex of mine LOL) So they didn’t bring up anything that I was uncomfortable with and whatnot. So, she was basically asking our advice on what to do/for help.

Minthe, who heard this situation for the 10th time since we check up on her when we meet up to go out, bluntly goes: “Again?” (As in like: “This shit again? You’re not over him?”) Yeahhhhh- so now you see why that may have made us look bad — but again, my friends didn’t comment on it and they’re really respectful in general dw) So essentially, it was a misunderstanding — none of the friends were being rude and so weren’t we.

That friend is similar to me, basically, she’s a people-pleaser and therefore can’t recognize when someone is using them for their gain and practically too nice to cut them off when she really should. So, we were all giving in advice.

I appreciate it, honestly! But don’t worry, if anybody ever becomes rude to me, we’ll stand up for ourselves!

-💜(Rumi)

Rumi went out to a Christmas market yesterday. She’ll probably attach pictures of it when we wake up again because I am not fucking getting out of bed to grab her phone which is charging in another room.

But her friends…I guess our? friends? yeah anyways. were talking about romantic interests and one of those friends brought up a situation she had with an ex. The ex is really toxic and we all heard some stuff about him when we met up with that friend group. To which “Rumi” blurted out in a tone of disdain: “Again?”

To those girls’ eyes thinking she’s a singlet, they’re gonna think she’s the one that said it. Or every single time Rumi says something out of line by accident…anything that can be seen as like rude or something. THAT WAS ME, even before we realized who I was and where I am from. THAT WAS ME.

I’ll admit, it was kind of hilarious when they stared for like a second at the bluntness before continuing on. But I’m gonna be for real and ugh. I guess I’m admitting it. I did feel sorta bad for Rumi because she didn’t make the remark. I did.

In headspace, for a split second I got yelled at like “Minthe!” then she didn’t speak to me for the rest of the evening since she was busy with looking around the market. Sorry Rumi, i didn’t want to embarrass you or make you look bad. I sabotage a lot because I’m voicing an opinion. I didn’t want to cause harm or something like that.

She was absolutely in control of the body but I couldn’t help but throw the remark in because it was true! If your ex is so toxic and using you as a rebound, then distance yourself! Block his ass! I said it because I was shocked that the friend was still letting him in and shit! I thought she cut ties with him already!

Oh and btw, her friends are really chill. Nobody commented on it so I think they let it slip and they all ended up having a good evening afterwards anyways. Was cold as fuck though, godamn.

-🥀(Minthe)

[ventura-starlight]

A/N: Hello and welcome to the first installment of chesley’s weekly news. This is going to be posted either on sunday’s or monday’s and i will cover a song I recommend, shower/big brain thoughts, what I am currently obsessed with at the moment, and a spicy meme for y’all ;), anyways enjoy!!!!

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song of the week

two queens in a king size bed- girl in red

WHEN I TELL YOU IM OBSESSED WITH THIS SONG OMFG

it’s finally time for christmas music and girl in red came through for this season

it’s such a gorgeous song that is worth the listen to >:)

big brain thoughts

do porcupines/hedgehogs feel sad because they can’t get hugs?

okay okay here me out

like these cuties probably just want to snuggle but they can’t cause they are pokey and hurt people

they also probably feel so bad but they are so touch starved (same) that they cry themselves to sleep thinking about how affection in the only thing that could help them right now. 

maybe that’s just me but just in case I think that is important to note

what i am gonna flip about for the week

green wireless keyboard

omfg i am in love

HFKJJFRJF LOOK AT THE SHADES OF GREEN

IT LOOKS SO COOL I BET THE KEYS MAKE THE BEST CLICKING NOISES

KEJD”EODEF

like look at this perfection.

anyways yeah that’s that

meme of the week

that’s it.

that’s the tweet. 

bye have a nice week 

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