#anyways random but i have a hair appointment tomorrow at like 8 something am and its like 1:00am rn haha

[quackarooz]

Reading beast for the first time and-

Okay, I think I've read enough for now. Time to sleep 🛌💤

[timehealsfanfictionbka]

Time Heals.....Chapter Six

“Mama J, are you sure you’re ok with watching them?”

“Robyn, how many times do I have to tell you it’s fine? I love spending time with them besides I’m glad you and Chris have come to an understanding.”

Robyn shrugged, “I guess.”

“You’re not excited?”

“Mama, this isn’t like we’re back in high school and I’m finally getting to hang out without my mother breathing down my back.”

Joyce laughed.

“There isn’t really anything to be excited about. If I make it through the night without snapping on your son then we’ll call a success.”

“Come on Robyn, he’s trying.”

“I know and I do appreciate it.”

“You think you’d ever become friends with him like before?”

“Not possible.”

“Was it really that bad?”

“No, it’s just we’re adults now. We’ve both grown up, had different experiences, we’re not the same kids we were 8 years ago.”

“Well I would hope not.”

Robyn chuckled as she finger-combed her hair, “I’m gonna try and give it a chance though.”

                                           ~~~~~~

“You know if you were gonna look like that, you could’ve stayed home.”

“Huh?” Robyn looked up at the sound of Chris’ voice. Chris shook his head as he slid the money across the counter to the cashier of the bowling alley, “I thought we came to have fun and you’re ignoring the hell out of me.”

“I’m not ignoring you besides we just got here.”

“You’ve been on the phone ever since you got in the car and barely said anything to me.”

Robyn rolled her eyes as she put her phone in her pocket, “when’d you become such a whiner?”

“I am not whining. I’m just saying.”

Robyn arched her brow as they grabbed their bowling shoes from the attendant, “Uh huh, whatever you say. Which lane you wanna play in?”

Chris looked over and started walking towards the farthest lane in the alley. Robyn sat down and dropped her bowling shoes in front of her on the floor. Chris sat down with an empty seat between them. He glanced over at her and Robyn was typing away in her phone. He groaned before reaching over and taking her phone.

“What the fuck?”

“Seriously, you could’ve stayed at home if you were gonna ignore me all night.”

“I have a life to conduct and children to check on. I need my phone.”

Chris raised his brow as he looked over at the screen, “considering your daughters are with my mother, who is Camille?”

Robyn rolled her eyes, “one of my co-workers and get out my phone.” She reached to grab it and Chris moved it to his other hand so it was out of her reach.

“Chris, stop playing.”

“I’m not playing. What are you talking about?”

“Gimme my phone.”

“No.”

“Christopher Maurice Brown.”

Chris took her phone and tucked into his front pants pocket, “we should probably start bowling.”

“Chris, I swear to God, I will choke you out if you don’t give me my phone.”

“Choke me out? I mean you tall but I still got you beat by like half a foot almost.”

“You really wanna find out how I can do it?”

Chris looked at the glare in her eye and toyed with the idea of messing with her. Did he really wanna chance this just to aggravate her? He went to reach in his pocket for the phone then changed his mind, “I’ll give it to you under one condition.”

“What’s that?”

“You can’t use it for the next two hours.”

“What?”

“I set this up for us to have fun and be friends again, that can’t happen if you’re in your phone finding ways to avoid talking to me. If you don’t wanna be here, I can take you home but if you’re gonna be here, I would appreciate a little cooperation.”

“This isn’t a business meeting.”

“Clearly.”

Robyn rolled her eyes, “fine.”

“You promise?”

“I promise.”

“Pinky swear.”

“Chris, are you serious?”

“So serious.”

Robyn rolled her eyes and held out her pinky as Chris did the same. They interlocked fingers for a few moments then she stepped back with her hand out, “now can I have my phone?”

“I’ma put it in your purse.”

“Chris.”

“You don’t need it on your person if you aren’t gonna be using it.”

“Ugh...I can’t stand you.”

“You love me.”

“Keep thinking that.”

Chris frowned as he handed her the phone and turned to the scoreboard computer, “we should start bowling.

“Wait, what just happened?”

“Nothing. What are you talking about?”

“It’s like your whole mood just changed. What happened?”

“Nothing. What name you want up there?”

“Chris.”

“I’ma just put in Robyn, wanna go first or second?” Chris continued talking as if she didn’t say anything.

“Chris, don’t ignore me.”

“I’m not. You’re not answering my question, first or second?”

“If that's the way you want it, ok. I’ll go first.”

Chris nodded his head in agreement as she walked up to the ball dispenser.  Grabbing a black bowling ball, she walked up to the lane and got into position. As the pin holder pulled back, she swung her arm back then forward, releasing the ball. She waited as it swerved right then left before hitting two pins on the left side and falling through the back of the lane. She frowned as she turned around, “eh, that sucked.”

Chris chuckled, “give it some time, you’ll do better. Two is good for a start.”

“Whatever. Your turn.”

Robyn watched as Chris walked toward the ball dispenser then her mind drifted to his face a little earlier. Why’d his mood change so quickly and why was he so worried about them actually spending time together? It was strange.

                                           ~~~~~~

Chris sighed as he pulled into his mother’s driveway, “Guess this is it.”

Robyn looked over him and smiled, “you make it sound so final. I’m not dying or anything.”

“I know but who knows when we’ll be able to do this again.”

“Whoever decides to ask.”

Chris held his hand out and Robyn placed hers in it, “thanks for humoring me, you really didn’t have to.”

“If I didn’t want to, I wouldn’t have agreed. You’re not some charity case, stop acting like it.”

Chris shrugged his shoulders, “well I gotta get home, Tiana gets fussy about being in that big house by herself.”

“Children could help with that.”

“I don’t think I can take anymore rejection right now so I’ll leave that topic alone.”

Robyn shrugged, “I guess.”

Chris released her hand and climbed out of the driver’s seat. He went over and opened the passenger door to help Robyn out, “tell the girls I said hi and I’ll see them later.”

“At least come in and say bye to them, they’d appreciate seeing their new best friend.”

Chris chuckled, “are you trying to make me feel better?”

“Maybe. I mean you did take me out for some fun, the least I can do is send you home with somewhat of a smile on your face.”

“Why would I not have a smile on my face? I got to hang out with my best friend.”

Robyn rolled her eyes, “don’t patronize me.”

“I am not patronizing you.”

“You haven’t smiled since we left the bowling alley.”

“Because I’m sad that we can’t hangout more.”

Robyn pouted as she playfully pinched his cheek, “Aww...the poor baby.”

Chris lightly smacked her hand, “don’t do that.”

Robyn chuckled, “at least say goodnight to the twins and your mom then you can go.”

“Because you were nice to me today, I’ll listen to you.”

“And if I wasn’t nice?”

“I’d be gone by now.”

“Considering Mama J has been peeking out the front window staring at us for last few minutes, she’d probably call you before you even pulled out the driveway.”

“What?”

Chris looked up at the front door and saw as the front blinds swung closed, “why is that woman so damn nosy?”

Robyn laughed, “she loves you, that’s all. Come on so we get the interrogation over with.”

They linked arms and started walking to the house. The front door swung open before they even touched the first step. Joyce had the biggest smile on her face as Chris and Robyn looked at each other and rolled their eyes.

                                        ~~~~~~~

Tiana needed to get to know Robyn. She wasn’t sure why she felt so urgent about this but as she watched Chris’s face as he spoke to her on the phone, she felt like something was up. He hadn’t spoken to or even mentioned Robyn after their wedding eight years ago and suddenly he couldn’t stop talking about her. It drove her crazy.

“Come on Robs, you can’t make one simple detour after the girls’ dance class,” Chris said as he shifted himself in his seat.

“Chris, I have to work tomorrow.”

“Tomorrow is Saturday.”

“I know but I’m going into my office for a while.”

“You taking them with you?”

“I might have to.”

“You coming this way after work?”

“I might.”

“Leave them with me.”

“What?”

“Let me babysit. I can take them around and we can just find some random stuff to do. You know I’m like a big kid sometimes.”

“All the time but I don’t know, Chris.”

“What’s the harm?”

“I do not want them getting too attached to you.”

“Why not? We’re friends. They’re gonna be around me anyway.”

“Chris, you don’t have kids, you dont understand.”

“Robyn, I know you are making this a bigger deal than it needs to be. What’s the difference between me babysitting and my mother babysitting?”

“I don’t know but-”

“But nothing. Do you trust me?”

“Yea.”

“So let me babysit, I promise to return your children to you the same way you gave them to me.”

“Why do you wanna do this so bad?”

“You know why.”

“Chris, I really think you should talk to-”

“No.”

“Babysitting is not gonna get rid of the fever.”

“It’ll calm it for now. Please?” Chris replied with a pout. Robyn sighed and ran her hand through her hair. Chris smiled wide because he knew she was gonna say yes.

“Ok. It’ll only be for two or three hours.”

“That’s fine. What time you want me to pick them up?”

“Uh, around 11 would be fine.”

“Cool. We can have lunch then run around for the rest of the day.”

“You almost sound like I’m doing you a favor instead of you doing me a favor.”

“It’s equal. We both get a chance to do stuff we wanna do. You not gonna be working all day are you?”

“Oh God no.”

Chris leaned his head back and laughed just as Tiana walked up behind the couch, hitting her on the thigh. Chris smiled, “Sorry Babe, I didn’t see you there.

Tiana smiled down at him, “you almost done?”

“In a few minutes. Robyn’s gonna let me babysit this weekend.”

“Chris, we have an appointment this weekend.”

“For what?”

“With the travel agent. We’re planning a vacation for my parents’ anniversary, remember?”

“What time is that?”

“At 3.”

“I’ll be dropping the girls off with their mom by then, we’re fine.”

“Chris.”

“What?”

“You- nevermind.”

Tiana walked over and Chris returned his attention to his phone.

“What?” He asked as he noticed Robyn shaking her head.

“You still have that bad habit, huh?”

“What?”

“Making plans and not asking first. Chris, the girls can come to my office with me. You need to worry about your wife.”

“What is there to worry about? I’ll have them back to you by time the appointment comes.”

“That’s not the point, Christopher. You’re being inconsiderate.”

“How? I’m not missing anything or rescheduling it. What’s the problem?”

“I’ma let you go. You need to go talk to your wife before you end up sleeping on the couch.”

“I will not.”

“How much you wanna bet?”

“$200.”

“You sure?”

“Positive.”

“Alright. $200 it is. See you tomorrow.”

“Call me when the twins come home. I got something I wanna show y’all.”

“Chris, what did you get now? You are about as bad as your mother.”

Chris laughed, “I’ll show you later. Bye Bajan Girl.”

“Bye Virginia Boy.”

They hung up.

[2pirates-blog]

Daily diary #15 (8.15.2018)

Late yet again. I wanted to write this down but it was already past midnight and I go to sleep at that time cuz I can’t sleep past 7 AM.

Anyways, the 15th of August: I stayed in bed for like an hour and a half after waking up at 6:30 AM just so I can get the extra 7-8 hours of sleep even though I wasn’t actually sleeping, just kept my eyes closed.

I talked to my friend who had dyed her hair in the past and she advised me not to do it cuz she had to cut her hair after the color faded. So right now dying my hair is not my primary thought anymore. I went to the gym and did my regular shit but I stayed there for an hour and a half, a bit too long.

My mom is on her night shift so it was the perfect opportunity for me to light my joint at any time of the day but I did it at 10 PM.

I was bored af again and I didn’t want to watch any shows cuz they’d just remind me of how lonely I am. I played video games to compensate for that till 5 PM. At that time I went out to have a walk in the city and I chilled at my weed spot. I was laying on the bench for an hour while looking at my screen. There’s wi-fi in that place and a lot of nature, so it’s gorgeous. The nature around me helped me calm my worries and to just objectively reflect on my current problems. I didn’t come to any conclusion but to one; that I value some things way too high in order for myself to be happy. I always thought a fulfilling romantic relationship or a long-lasting friendship would make me happy but considering the fact I had none of those (except for a friend who I hung out with for 9 years but he forgot about me in the last 3) was making me very uneasy. So I figured I’d have to chase something else which would give me the same satisfaction. I immediately thought of renting my own apartment and living on my own but I don’t see how that helps the problem but push it away into the future. So I got tired of trying to think out solutions for my issues so I contacted this psychologist that I met the other day and made an appointment for tomorrow, the 16th. We’ll see how that goes. Also, I feel very uncomfortable when people or hot women look at me because I immediately tend to be at my “coolest” behaviour even though nobody is actually looking at me. I guess that’s just a thing I’ll have to fix with time and practice.

It’s 10 PM, my dad went out and I lit a joint in my room. I love smoking in my room cuz it’s my most comfortable place in the world. Nobody looking at me and I have all the electronics I need. I didn’t give in to the munchies this time which made me really proud. Also, I decided to smoke today because yesterday I realized once I stop smoking for a few days and then light up some weed, I get a terrible headache so I wanted to smoke that last joint I had ASAP. At that point I was just listening to a shit ton of music and watching random Youtube videos.

Oh, and as for the people I’ve chatted with today; they were my crush, my 2 friends from high school and ofc my friend from another city. Let’s call one of my high school friends Lilly and the other one (I don’t know her from my previous high school, I met her at a comic book art gallery, she had her own pictures there and I’ve known her for like a year now) Nancy. Lilly is one of those people who you really like talking to but you haven’t seen them in such a long time so you don’t want to disappoint them subconsciously but she accepted my mental problems with welcoming hands so I really appreciate that.

And yeah, I went to bed at midnight and that’s it.

See ya later!

[yagurlmads-blog]

THREE

Do you know anyone who should not wear tight clothes?

I'm sure, I don't care though.

Are you chewing anything right now?

Nope.

What’s the title of the nearest book to you?

Messages From Heaven.

Do you tend to do obnoxious things, such as belching really loud?

Nah.

Are you at your house?

Yes.

What are you wearing right now?

Christmas jammies.

Do you respect your parents as much as you should?

I do.

Has an adult ever allowed you to smoke a cigarette?

Yes.

What’s your favorite number?

Seven.

What’s your favorite color? Why is that?

Blue, and I'm not sure, it always has been though.

Have you ever skipped school to catch up on things that may not seem that important to others?

Yes.

Are you wearing any make-up right now?

Barely.

Are there any dishes on your desk?

Yes.

How tall are you?

Five foot nothing, lol.

Do you believe everything that the media says?

No, not really.

Have you ever been in a mosh pit?

Nope.

Did you know that Michael Jackson wore eyeliner?

Yes.

Do you doodle during class? If so,which class(es)?

I'm not in school.

Does your favorite band lip-sync?

No.

Do you head-bang a lot?

Nah.

Have you ever thrown a sharp object across a room?

Not sure.

Do you have a garage?

Nope.

Do you participate in P.E even though you dislike the activity?

No.

Do you wear loose shirts or body-flattering shirts?

Both.

Have you ever stolen something from a grocery store?

Yes.

Are you excited that you’re going to die in about 70 years?

Not really bothered.

Run your tongue over your teeth. What do they feel like?

Like teeth.

When you stand up, do you get light-headed?

Sometimes.

Do any bones pop when you stand up?

Sometimes.

Can you type without looking at the keyboard?

Yes.

Do you enjoy decorating?

Depends.

About how old is your house?

It's old.

Do you have friendly neighbors?

They’re alright.

Does the English language sometimes confuse you?

Sometimes, yes.

If you could bring back ONE dead celebrity, who would it be?

John Lennon.

Does crying mean that you’re weak or you’re just expressing grief?

Expressing grief.

What’s your favorite song by My Chemical Romance?

I don’t really know.

What’s your opinion on having 9 people in one band? *cough* SlipKnoT *cough*

I have no opinion on that.

Sniff your shirt. What does it smell like?

Laundry detergent.

Now just sniff the air. What does it smell like?

Normal.

Have you ever fallen off of a bridge?

I don't think so.

How long can you hold your breath?

Not sure.

Have you ever cussed someone out?

Yes.

Do you walk around town a lot?

Yes.

Is there anything silver around you?

Yes.

Do you think it’s smexxy or gross when two guys kiss?

It's cute.

Do you use your middle finger a lot for particular reasons?

Sometimes.

What’s your favorite flavor of cake?

Chocolate.

Can you make something from scratch?

Usually no.

When’s the last time you twisted your ankle?

Earlier.

How many cars are in your driveway?

One.

How are you feeling today?

Salty.

Are you attracted to the last person that kissed you?

Yes.

What were you doing an hour ago?

Laying in bed.

If you could seek revenge on someone would you?

Not even worth it.

Does any part of your body hurt right now?

Sort of.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone?

Right now.

Are you happy with the way things are going?

Yeah, sure.

Would you ever get a tattoo?

I have one, would love another.

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?

I’d like to think so.

Has a friendship ended recently that you wish had not?

Nah.

Ever given your ALL to someone who walked away?

Yes.

Do you and your last ex hate each other?

We just don't talk.

What are you afraid of?

Lots.

Are you one of those people who are always cold?

Yes.

Where are your biological parents?

Mom is downstairs.

Do you tend to waste a lot of money?

Yes.

Last thing that you said out loud?

Not sure.

Do you have trust issues?

I do.

Do you think this year is better than the last?

Yes.

Do you still talk to the last person you kissed?

Yep.

Are you frustrated with anyone right now?

Slightly.

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex

Yeah.

Who’s the last person that said I Love You to you? When?

I'm not sure.

Have you ever liked anyone that was in a relationship with someone else?

Yeah.

Have you ever cried cause you missed someone so much?

Yes.

Do people ever compliment your eyes?

Yes.

When is the last time you saw one of your ex’s?

Friday night.

Who was the last person you hung out with?

Kennedy.

Have you talked to a complete asshole today?

I did.

Have any of your ex’s ever given you roses?

Yep.

Who is the last person you went to the movies with?

Mom and Emma.

Do you think your last ex ever thinks about you?

Probably, not gonna lie.

Would you ever take any of your ex’s back?

Nope.

How many people do you trust one hundred percent?

Like two.

Have you hugged anyone in the past week?

Yeah.

Do you wish things were different with someone?

Yes.

When will your next kiss happen?

I'm not sure.

Have you spoken to your last ex at all this week?

Nope.

Do you have a crush on the last person that had their arms around you?

Yes.

The last person you kissed bumped into you at school, what would you say?

We don't go to school, lol.

Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?

Yes.

Is drinking 8 glasses of water a day really necessary?

Nope.

When was the last time a picture of you was taken?

Saturday.

How does it feel to be heart broken?

It literally kills.

What’s up for tomorrow?

Work 1-8.

Do you currently have a hickey?

Nope.

Do you think you will ever be married?

No, probably not.

You’re crying at 12 at night, you call?

No one.

Do you hate when people call you when you’re sleeping?

No one ever does.

Do you believe ex’s can be friends?

Yeah.

Is there someone you don’t ever want to be out of your life?

Yes.

Are you wearing shorts, pants, sweats, or pajama pants?

Jammies.

Do you like to be called baby?

Yeah.

Last person you held hands with?

Maddy.

Have you ever in anyway been betrayed by someone you trust?

Yes.

Look to your left, what do you see?

The door.

What’s the first thing you look for in a girl/guy?

A sense of humor.

Do you play video games? If so, which is your fave game?

Nope.

Name someone who can always makes you smile.

Courtney.

What were you doing at 10:00 this morning?

At an appointment.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

Was on the phone with Luke.

What did you do last night?

Nothing too exciting.

Do you watch the Super Bowl?

No.

Explain why you last threw up?

Incredibly intoxicated.

What color is your hair brush?

Blue.

What cell phone company do you use?

Fido.

Have you text voted for an American Idol?

Nope.

Have you ever run out of gas?

Nah.

What was the weather like today?

Sunny.

Where did your last hug take place?

Kennedy's room.

What are you excited for?

Friday, lol.

Whose your last text from?

Kennedy.

Closet thing to you that is green?

Bra.

Last person you spoke to?

Emma.

Are you very random?

I can be.

Do you want to get your hair cut?

Nope.

Are you over the age of 25?

Nope.

Do you talk a lot?

Sometimes.

Does your screen name have an x in it?

No.

Do you know anyone named Stephanie?

Yes.

Do you make up your own words?

Not usually.

Are you ticklish?

Yeah.

Do you own rollerblades?

Nope.

Are your ears pierced?

Yes I do.

Bar soap or body wash?

Body wash.

Are you a jealous person?

I am.

What brand of shampoo do you use?

Few different kinds.

Do you chew on your straws?

Yeah sometimes.

Do you have curly hair?

Not really, wavy.

What is the next concert you are going to?

No idea.

Where did you go today?

My appointment and then to work.

What 1 item do you always pick up at the grocery store?

Diet coke.

What is something you say a lot?

"I don’t know."

Last time you wore panty hose?

Years ago.

Red or White Wine?

I’m not a fan of wine.

Do you think you are pretty?

Not really.

What are you doing tonight?

Finishing this, watching Netflix and then sleeping.

What was your last missed call?

Khalida.

What should you be doing right now?

If anything, cleaning up my room.

Do you have a nickname?

Maddy, Mads.

Are you a heavy sleeper?

Yes.

What are you listening to?

Closer - The Chainsmokers.

What is the best movie you have seen in the past two weeks?

He's Just Not That Into You.

Is there anyone you like right now?

Yes.

When was the last time you did the dishes?

A week or so ago.

Did you cry today?

No.

Do you like Chinese food?

Sometimes.

How big is your bed?

Double.

If something was wrong, who is the first guy you would go to?

Kennedy.

Do you care what people think about you?

Sometimes.

Would you ever camp out on a beach, under the stars?

I would love to do that.

Do you think its bad for teenage girls to get on birth control?

Nope.

Is it usually easy for someone to make you smile?

Yes.

Do you fall for guys easily?

I used to think so, but really - I don't. It's lust.

Do you think you’ve changed over the past year?

A little.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Sure do.

Think a lot before you fall asleep?

Yes.

Do you miss the way things used to be?

Some things.

Describe how you feel right now in one word?

Frustrated.

Are you scared of anything?

Yes.

What are your plans for the summer holidays?

Still months away.

Are you drunk?

Nope.

When is the next time you will see any of your siblings?

Tomorrow.

Have you found someone you can trust?

Yes.

Do you own a lighter?

I do.

You’ve locked yourself outside and no one will be home for a few hours, you…

Go for a walk.

Have you ever punched a wall, door, etc?

Yes.

Do you like eating chocolate covered cherries or strawberries?

Not my favourite.

What does your 9th text say in your outbox?

"I'm sad."

Would you rather have salad or french fries for a side dish?

French fries.

Ever been to California? Did you like it?

Never been.

What’s your favorite thing about the town you live in?

It's small.

Are your boobs real?

Of course.

What was the last thing you did before doing this survey?

Talked to mom.

Ever purposely broken your iPod/phone just for a new one?

No.

Ever kissed a green eyed person?

Yes.

What was the last thing that made you laugh?

Luke and I wrote a poem.

Do you get over people easily?

Depends.

Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?

Yes.

Would you get into a car with someone who was drunk if it was your only way?

Nope.

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?

No, just drunk.

When was the last time you were sick?

Friday night.

Do you think this year will be better than the last?

So far it is.

What were you doing at 3am?

Sleeping.

Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad?

Yes.

The past 72 hours have you been under the influence?

Yes.

Have you ever had a really bad fight with a best friend?

Meh

Do you know any songs by Katy Perry? Do you like her music?

Yes and some.

Which number: 5 or 19?

Nineteen.

How many times have you went to the bathroom today?

A few.

 What do you like better: sour or sweet candy?

Sweet.