#anyways i think thats enough rambling for today on my end

[energeticpoltergeist]

Part 1: Mad King's War

Prologue: Diverged History(pages 1-4)

[thinkinpoink]

Guess who finally did their taxes!!!!

[bcdluckstumblcd]

//aite gonne bury myself in asks and drafts. I'll post those starters from the other day too! I'm online though so absolutely feel free to hmu, plot, scream idcidk. Discord ( #arsoncourtjester) preferably but 🤷🏾

//me sitting here, feeling excited to be off work, feeling creative

[thebe4ulog]

You’re into theme parks? Oh boy my best mate would love you he’s mad about them. I know so much about U.K. theme parks and it’s all against my will. Worth noting I have a crippling fear of rollercoasters so I have no idea how we somehow ended up together 💀 but the technical knowledge is really impressive!

Feel free to use this ask as a free space if you want to yap about theme parks. (Favourite park, favourite ride… idk, whatever questions I should be asking lol) :)

the thoosies are everywhere..

NO GENUINELY THOUGH @afriendofblahaj is gonna be the same in no time LOL

ramblings on an insane girl below

i'm assuming he's talked about the state of merlin at the moment? it's horrendous, entertainment is VITAL to a theme park, it's part of what makes it a complete themed experience and not just a park with rides in it, to think all that streetmosphere and those actors (namely at alton towers) that have just pushed my day there to be that much better have lost their jobs, the park is gonna feel empty.. coasters i dont know quite as much on but i know all you'd expect - your intamins from your macks your GCIs from your RMCs. id say mack is my favourite manufacturer, i love their innovation and variety. if walt disney were alive today i honestly think hed be inclined to work for them/europa park, also my favourite park in the world i cant wait to go back <3 i realise im kind of answering all these questions but i appreciate it :)

i think id have to say hyperia is my favourite coaster, although i do really adore shambhala, it's between them. okay i dont have a favourite but i have a top three: hyperia, shambhala and velocicoaster. i think thats a kind of basic bitch answer but oh well, they're all amazing :) honestly i feel like i underrate velocicoaster, i remember going on it for the first time and that second launch hit me like a TRUCK. oh my GOD you don't see it coming, it's already intense then BAM. and that mosasaurus roll.. oh my god i've never felt G Forces quite like it. i'd love to get back on. hyperia's much closer to home, we're so lucky to have such a marvel in our country. the feeling of gliding is phenomenal and for me can only be compared to shambhala, but i'd say hyperia tops it because of those inversions. there's such a weightlessness yet simultaneous weight it's amazing?? i do wish it were longer but it's a fantastic ride. all 3 of these make AMAZING night rides and the ones i've had on all three have turned out to make incredible memories. another i'm quite a fan of is WODAN. now this one is ROUGH but oh my days i love it, it's a similar feeling to velocicoaster where its pace just doesn't slow and it pulls you around every turn and drop with such an intense force. i'm not usually a fan of woodies but i just adore that one, i think it has fairly stellar theming too. i can't wait to get on stardust racers some day, i think that's probably gonna make my favourites because it looks PHENOMENAL. the duelling too UGH. universal TAKE MY MONEY!! make a wicked land pretty please. with a cherry on top. shiz university i beg, i see mostly people suggesting emerald city but imagine SHIZ. boat ride NOW. "uhh bit its for 8 year old girls" AND THE 8 YEAR OLD GIRLS WOULD BE PAYING UP!! ITS ME, IM THE ONE YOU WANT, ITS ME!!! IM THE 8 YEAR OLD GIRLS!!! also no, a defying gravity roller coaster would be dog shit, like theyre just not going to do that are they? this is an ip that appeals mostly to children, theyre just not gonna build a massive roller coaster for it are they? its probably gonna be a show an e ticket and a flat ride or two with some streetmosphere and themed food and probably meet and greets as we've already seen with the experiences. i think wicked has been successful enough and universal seem to be considering it, quote "this needs to be a theme park". although, it wouldn't be a theme park it'd be a theme park land. i feel like the gp really need to brush up on their terminology it bothers me. anyway back to favourite rides, like i have favourite coasters but rides? god. oaky i'm tempted to say it's a small world purely for nostalgia factor. i'm stumped on a favourite ride, it'd probably just be my favourite coasters again. navi river journey is another one, i really like slow moving boat dark rides i dont know if you can tell. i feel at peace in the nature and i NEED a similar attraction for wicked. maybe i'm crazy but i think hagrid's is overrated but that's definitely up there. i dont know it just didnt really wow me as much as it did for other people, although i did have a meltdown in the queue so that probably didn't help. hm, i guess hagrid's yeah! i honestly think it'd probably be a ride either in fantasy springs or epic if i could get to them. i'm tempted to say monsters unchained would be my fav. battle at the ministry maybe or hell even mario kart!! people shit on MK WAY too much!! it's a GOOD ride and the AR is fine imo

anyways i need to shut up LOL

don't worry about rollercoasters too much, work your way up! i imagine your friend would be happy to go on a day trip to thorpe or alton or whichever park is local to you! start small and go up, sure they look scary but they're not too bad when you're on them! just let go and trust the ride, it will be okay. if you do this you'll probably just end up having a ton of fun :) it's all just about trust

[crguang]

ahajsksbywpqp sat guess who has 2 tests in the same week in the same class next week. Not very fun for me. anyway I was think abt Kafka (honestly when am I not is the real question). See if it wasn’t Kafka in ur au and I was r I would definitely turn her in for the money, but I unfortunately think I might like Kafka just like a little bit ig so I don’t think k would be able to do that .

Reread part 3 today is her fingers twitching bc she wants to shoot something or is it just bc Kafka and her fingers. Ok thats not what I meant but also…what I meant was that she works with her fingers a lot I wish she used them on me instrument, guns, etc. we still haven’t gotten an in game Kafka appearance w an actual violin, it probably won’t happen but I’m still holding out. And she’s the highest threat level possible for a criminal but she STILL commits petty theft. She is so I saw someone say that the stellaron hunters were all siblings, Kafka and blade are like the older siblings that have to drive/pay for everything, silver wolf is the gamer (so original) and firefly is the youngest. Wish they had more in game interactions, or like they had synergy, meta wise, since canonically they’re one of the most tight knit groups.

oh also your inbox must be full as fuck so it’s fine if you don’t reply to everything, esp bc you answer a lot of stuff, and even tho someone already said this ur rlly great to talk to ur thoughts are always more coherent than mine. And we all get to simp over hot fictional women together.

ngl I might start playing ptn, like I’ve been seeing screenshots and…wow, I don’t think I have enough storage tho. I think the two types of characters I usually like are tiny mentally ill ones and hot evil women, so…

im so sorry my messages are always so long btw, I keep rambling 😭

-🌠

aaaa study well and good luck for your tests!!! hope you get a good grade and if u dint i will hack i to your prof’s computer and change it for you

im with you entirely, if it was anyone else in that story i wouldve already called the cops LMFAOOO kafka gets privileges because shes hot and my fav unfortunately… for the finger thing, i think its just one of her quirks! in her idle she mimics playing the violin and like you said she has very dexterous hands (even mentions it in a voice line) so i think she’d absentmindedly move them around when her mind is elsewhere. this is the kind of overthinking i was talking about, when i map out a character in my head i think about the most irrelevant stuff that dont matter😭 but imo they add to her charm a little and make her a rounder character, idk. AND YES i love that her crimes go from suicide inducement to petty theft shes so ridiculous hfjfhdhfj that time in her character story where she just walked in a store and took clothes off the rack then left in front of everyone… shes funny as hell😭

i see the SH as family too! silver wolf and firefly are sisters to me, and both of them are def kafka’s little sisters. i think silver wolf is the youngest though, she even gives off sassy youngest child vibes. i wish they could work together too, having them all in one team would be so nice. but it’s also cool that each of them has a speciality, it makes sense for the work they do

my inbox is full i think i have around 70 asks rn…😭 but to be fair a lot of them are veryyy old i just havent gotten around to cleaning up my blog yet, i’ll do it at the same time i change my masterlist and actually make it pretty to look at. i usually try to click on notifs as soon as i see them but like i said, i just forget to type my answers </3

and omg. anon. if your type is mentally ill and hot evil women ptn is literally the game for you. there is an abundance of mentally ill women in there, trust me… like there’s every kind of character you could want in that game— you could give me a specific type and i could find you a character that matches it, you should definitely play. and if you do, do it before the second anniversary ends (starts around mid/late-october) bc trust me you are gonna be upset if you miss shalom :/

dont worry abt ramblingggg i love talking to u and answering every point it’s really nice!!

[volturiprincess]

I have something to share with the class😅. Sometimes I hate my mind but love it at the same time. After I posted the "Mate who doesn't enjoy romantic gestures", I was already getting ready for bed and about to sleep when a new idea for a series came to mind😐. It was just going to be simple one post thing but after thinking about for days, last night I basically wrote out what each chapter would be.

So after looking at it again today with fresh eyes, I grew more excited with it. So its going to be a Volturi guard + Caius x reader, they will all end up being readers mate. So now I have two series in my mind now, but heres the thing I want to work on this new idea first before I get into the other one because I have a more solid plan and its not overly complicated. So here's my plan, this is my last week until I go on my trip this Friday, Ill work on request that I have started on and throw in a much waited one-shot (or even some more wip I have started on).

Anyways thats all, enough ramble for now😁.

[digiblueslush]

yall my health insurance wont stop MOCKING ME

for context, in june 2024, I had a pretty significant medical event for lack of better terms. I had a weird, almost stroke like thing happen, and i wasn't able to really walk properly for about 5 months (i still could walk but my gait and stride were VERY fucked up and i had so much pain in my knees) it wasn't actually a stroke so I played doctor ping pong and hoped someone would tell me anything more than "your just stressed". It ended up being a very easy but pretty rare vitamin deficiency but nobody tested me for that vitamin until i started having GI issues.

I had a lot of imaging done just making sure nothing was wrong brain neck spine wise, but 2 of my images were sent (without my knowledge) to a different clinic to have them interpreted. I wasn't informed that insurance didn't cover the costs until they went into collections.

We filed an appeal, they said you gotta have this this and this and denied the inital appeal, then we appealed again after THEY gave us access to some of the forms they needed. last week they sent my mom (i am under her insurance but I'm 19 so i am the guarantor i think thats the word) a letter about the appeal UNDER MY SISTERS NAME, DENYING THE CLAIM ON MY NAME BECAUSE WE TOOK TO LONG. LIKE GIRL YOU JUST CHARGED ME FOR SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED WELL OVER A YEAR AGO, IT TAKES A WHOLE 8 HOUR WORK DAY TO GET "TRANSFERED" TO SOMEONE WHO JUST HANGS UP, 3 MONTHS FROM THE INITIAL FILE DAY IS FUCKING NOTHING.

anyways, heres the mockery if that wasn't enough. I have hypermobile ehlers danlos syndrome (among several other things), which causes me significant joint pain, but I can't get in to see someone who can actually diagnose it (even though its just a fucking checklist of things i've already had confirmed) meaning I can't get into management programs because "its not medically necessary" without the official diagnosis.

I got a PROMOTIONAL (how fucking sick is that in the bad way that is wrong on so many levels) THAT THEY COULD OFFER A $20 A WEEK 12 WEEK PODCAST FOR BACK AND JOINT PAIN. THAT MOSTLY CONSISTS OF DIETARY CHANGES (BAD FOR ME) AND TRADITIONAL EXCERCISE (ALSO USUALLY BAD FOR ME)

like why complain about me being dysfunctional in a society that won't allow me to be functional? I get systemic power, but what is the point of putting so many barriers to disabled people being able to manage their conditions better and just live life if you want more people working? you can't complain about disabled people wasting your tax money when A. theyre not and B. there would be a significant increase in how many disabled people work IF TREATMENT AND MANAGEMENT WASN'T A LUXURY THAT WE'RE PURPOSEFULLY LEFT TOO BROKE TOO AFFORD JUST FROM SOCIAL SECURITY

I am in quite the rambly mood today, so I'm sure theres a few parts where my words aren't accurate to what I mean but yeah. Fuck health insurance.

[adacatlovelace]

Fuck it, edibles are kicking in and I need to vent. Do not join the fucking military. This is from a veteran. This is me opening up my closet to reveal my long abandoned clown outfit to tell you why you should not join the circus. If you are on tumblr dot com, regardless of your politics, and are thinking of joining the US military, you need to hear this. (I cant speak personally for other militaries, but I would not be surprised if many of these things ring true for them as well)

First off, built in class system! If you dont know, from the very beginning, there have always been a divide between "Officers" and "Enlisted." Officers are your Ensigns, Lieutenants, Captains, Commanders, Colonels, Generals and Admirals. They are staffed by the wealthy. Plain and simple, and this is how its been since the start. Today this is enforced through requiring a college diploma. What kind? Any kind. Its a common joke that you can have a degree in Underwater Basket Weaving. It simply exists so all those poor people who need the military for the GI bill are barred from leadership positions. Yes, there are a few Enlisted to officer paths, but best case scenario you are so far behind Ensign John "I got a college education but was still stupid/evil enough to join the military" Fuckface that you will never catch up and you'll be the old person fighting against a bunch of young right wing white dudes for promotions. As a super cool gamer bonus, theres a class system within that class system. You have the normal stinky college graduates who usually get in through the ROTC program and the academy graduates. With few exceptions, they are the ones who become Admirals and Generals.

Then you have your enlisted. These are your privates, seaman (heehee), airman, sergeants, petty officers, corporals, sergeants, petty officers, Chiefs, Master Chiefs, Gunnery Sergeants, etc. They are, by and large, the poor. Dont worry, theres more class divide here too. To give this incoherent rambling some semblance of structure I will be taking you through explaining the naval enlisted experience.

So first off, it begins with you taking your ASVAB. This determines what jobs will be available to you. Do well enough, one of those cool tech jobs thats been pushed on you. Did you not receive a good education? Is english maybe your second language and you struggle with it? Well, you'll end up as a cook, gunners mate, boatsmans mate. Jobs or "Rates" or "MOS"s that have two things in common: whole lotta grunt work, not a lot of advancement.

So then its off to visit MEPS.

What is supposed to be a government oversight system is really just your first step into dehumanization. Are you one of the people who are barred from military duty due to health reasons? Well, guess what? Your recruiter will be super helpful in getting you in anyway. You'll likely be coached on keeping your mouth shut, and the only way you get caught is if you break and tell someone about your disabilities. Or you die. More on that later!

The military is unofficially heavily pushed on people who have autism. People on the autism spectrum often have difficulty adjusting to adult life, and the narrative that is given is "The added structure of a military life can be helpful to people who have autism."

However, with good reason, it is ILLEGAL to recruit people with certain disorders due to the intense trauma and stress associated with being in the military, especially during a time where military members are overworked, underpaid, and are constantly having to fight tooth and nail to get the benefits they were promised.

Now, dont get me wrong, this isn't me disparaging the abilities of neuroatypical people, some do find their niche working in the imperial war machine, but what often happens is the things they struggle with get amplified and made the target for harassment and threats of violence. That, combined with the fact that people on the autistic spectrum usually score well on the ASVAB, means a lot of them are pushed towards Nuclear engineering on subs. The jobs that happen to have nearly the highest suicide rate in the navy.

So lets say you have something like asthma. By all means you should not join because recruits die in basic training and die often. About once a month, theres another recruit who falls down dead and leadership throws there hands in the air like "ohhhh how could we see this happening AGAIN, its all those recruits faults for lying on their enlistment" never asking the actual question of how its so easily and unofficially encouraged to lie to MEPS.

So you go to meps, or more specifically, you go to a hotel overnight and go to MEPS early as possible. There you will be poked prodded, and forced to strip down into your underwear with over a dozen other recruits and made to do various humiliating things like the "duck walk" to prove your joints work or something. Then afterwards you meet with with a usually 80 year old doctor who looks at your butthole (to check for hemorrhoids) and will limp wristedly grill you to find out if theres anything . You'll also pee with a stranger staring directly at your genitals, which will be the first of many urinalysis you will be taking in your military career. Your recruiter will likely make a big deal about not saying anything during the "Moment of Truth" where you are promised amnesty for lying (there wont be) but really it will likely be someone say "Anyone lie? Nows your chance to come forward. No? Okay"

So, lets say you are one of those unlucky people who do badly on the ASVAB. You'll usually be pushed towards the PACT jobs, which is "Undesignated Seaman/Airman/Fireman" depending on if you go Surface, Air or Engineering. Your recruiter will likely tell you that this is program meant to let you explore career options and if you cant get the job you want, its a good way to get that job. This is a lie. Not only can you just straight up NOT get certain jobs through the PACT program, but the jobs that will be available (Upon completing two years in the program) will be basically the same ones you were offered by your recruiter. Your life for the next two years will be working long hours in the hot sun and being treated like the lowest of the low.

So say you are lucky enough to score high on one of those tech jobs you think are so cool. Well, the schooling for them is incredibly long so you gotta sign a 2 year extension (regardless if your school actually takes that long or not)

So its off to bootcamp for you. Its designed to suck and boy howdy does it suck. So best case scenario you go through 2 months of hell, getting so little sleep you will find yourself falling asleep while standing up. Between the intensive activities and other recruits who drank too much of the koolaid trying to screw your over for their own personal sense of "integrity" aka "I dont want to get yelled at for your mistakes" it will bring out the absolute worst in you. Oh and just because you are still getting too much sleep, you'll also need to stand watch for 4 hours during the day or 2 hours at night. Have fun with that!

If you fail to meet certain metrics, you will be held back a week or two in training. At this point, you'll be made to call your parents, say "I am being held back in training, my new graduation date is ____" and then immediately hang up. You'll then be taken from your division and any friends you've made and put into a new one. Dont worry though, your new drill instructor will know you've been held back and will immediately put you on their shitlist.

Worst case scenario, you get injured. This happens A LOT. The sheer amount of physical excersize you will do can wreck havoc on your body and if you are unlucky enough to not know how to safely run or what have you, you'll might just end up with a stress fracture, shin splints, torn ACL, or worse. At this point, you need to make a decision: You can either hide your injury and make it out of bootcamp before getting treated, or you go to medical and, if they dont just give you ibuprofen without actually looking at whats going on, you'll end up with an early separation. You spend several months in holding before you get seperated without receiving any of the benefits you were promised and a brand new health problem that you likely dont have insurance to cover.

So you make it out of bootcamp, then its off to A school (Unless you went PACT, in which case you get a 1 week course and then go directly to a ship). Almost without exception, A school commands can be the most miserable places to be in the military. Especially the longer ones. Between sharing a room with up to five people, inspected by someone who failed out of drill instructor school and ended up with a babysitting job and they are 100% gonna make your problem, the miserable schooling, its no wonder that this is where many sailors start their lifelong nicotine addiction and alcohol abuse (Those that dont just kill themselves at least. Every week you'll likely see an ambulance outside a barracks.) Imagine the workload of college without the resources afforded to you by colleges. Thats what some of these schools are like, and they will take no time in reminding you just how much you should be thanking your lucky stars to be being dehumanized in school before you are further. Did you miss standing watch in bootcamp? Well dont you worry, there are plenty (completely and utterly pointless) watches you will be spending hours upon hours of your time standing (sometimes literally!) watches that are completely useless for security, but is meant to teach you how to stand watch. Like you did in bootcamp. Except watches in the fleet are completely different.

Then its off to the fleet! Say you joined to see Japan. Thats great! The navy wants you in japan! You can go to japan if you want to! They wont tell you the reason they want you in japan is that no one wants to be in japan. You'll likely see very little of the actual Japan, between being out to see for months at a time and being too exhausted to go out during the week or two you have in port, you'll likely spend your time either in your barracks, or getting drunk at The Honch.

Okay so say you want to go to places like Rota, Spain. Good luck with that! You'll get a wishlist of places you want to go but its basically just toilet paper. Enjoy Norfolk Virginia, where you will hate life.

So you're on your ship and ready to start applying those skills you picked up during your schooling. Well, just hold your horses buster, it would be too logical to let you start your on the job training with the information from school still fresh in your mind. Instead you get to participate in one of the navy's oldest traditions, Cranking.

So the military doesn't want to assign more people to cooking for and feeding the crew. Thats where you as a fresh faced boot come in. For three months, you will be a "Food Service Attendant" and have the honor of working from hard from as early as 4am to as late as 9pm. Dont worry about falling behind on your qualifications you need to complete, your still expected to do them on top of your duties as an FSA. So time to sleep, socialize, and otherwise decompress is a precious commodity.

After this, and another 4 years of hating your life, you can get out and start using those benefits you were promised. Use them while you can, because as much as politicians love courting veteran votes, they love slashing benefits for veterans even more.

So, say you stay in. You play the game and make it to that senior enlisted position. You get to join The Chiefs Mess, one of the oldest good ol boys clubs in existence. Complete with a cult like indoctrination program! (Search up "Chief season" for some truly WACKY stories) At which point, you are pretty much set for life as the Chiefs look out for each other. On a semi-related note, what do you consider it to be when a Chief has sex with a junoir enlisted, whos lives and career they have almost complete control of. Many people would describe that as rape. Not the navy though! They call that "Fraternization" and the victim is made to be even more at fault than the Chief who should "know better" Fun fact! The results of every Captains Mast/ Non-judicial punishment are published for all to see every month and almost without fail theres "Fraternization between E-7 and E-3" where the E-3 victim is slapped with 45 days restriction and 45 days half pay with a reduction in rank, while the E-7 gets a "Letter of Reprimand" which everyone acts like is a massive career ender, but many simply go to a differant command and still climb the ladder, and worst case, they simply retire with all the benefits and acclaim that they've "earned"

Now that I've taken you through your experience as an enlisted, lets end things on a cool fun gamer bonus fact: The US military doesn't allow beards. Now this may seem reasonable, but you look at other militarys and see they have beards and you ask "why cant we have them" and the answer you will get is "They interfere with SCBA masks ability to form a seal" which has something that has been completely disprove multiple times, and seems at odds with the fact that they still grant religious exceptions.

Now there was a time, pre-2016 where this wasn't so big of a deal. Yeah it sucked, but it was pretty easy to get a no-shave chit to be allowed to have a beard. This changed to only allow people with a medical (or religious exemption) to have a beard. No big deal, go to medical, get a no shave chit for your razor bumps, and your set. Except no, that changed too recently. Now if you have a medical reason to not shave, you can only have a no-shave chit for so long before you either have to go back to shaving and getting ingrown hairs, or get laser hair removal.

Now, to an outsider, this may not seem like so big a deal. Beards aren't really that important are they? Surely its just something the enlisted side has latched onto to bitch about right? Well, only by experiencing the military do you realize just how much emphasis they put in being clean shaven. If you fail to shave or dont shave well enough, you WILL get hassled by someone. Not shaving its the quickest way to get known as a "shitbag" and be treated as such.

Now to show why this is a problem and not just baseless complaining about having to put work into appearing "Professional" like its made out to be, we need to talk Pseudofolliculitis Barbae, aka "Ingrown hairs from shaving" This is something that affects many, many people, but mostly affects black men. A LOT of black men. So for no valid reason, if you suffer from this, your choices are to continue getting ingrown hairs or to have completely unnecessary surgery. Put two and two together for why this beard policy still exists.

Fuck the military, fuck what it does, fuck how it kills to promote american imperialism, fuck what it does to people, fuck how it much it sits on its hands and lets horrible shit happen. I didn't even go into how much bigotry still flourishes despite the constant lip service. Fuck how many times I had to hear "Male or female.. or whatever you identify as" in a tone like they just through up in their mouth a little bit from senior enlisted. Fuck how they treat people and fuck how they continue to turn a blind eye to death and abuse so that the rich can get richer.

DO

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MILITARY

[mekatrio]

I ITA'D MY BAG!!!!! 😱😚😏😎

i got this on the 15th but only had time to finish decorating it today LOL (😭) and im veryy happy w it.. the measurements are accurate and true meaning that it Does fit my essentials which is great, cuz ive been meaning to get a bigger bag for a while now so i love that i can actually fit all my things in such a cute bag 💚

anyways rambling abt the decorating process yayy

but yeah omg decorating this was actually way harder than i thought itd be cuz like, ive been looking at loads of other ppls ita bags for inspiration and was thinking 'why are so many of these kinda ugly 😕' as in their keychains/pins are blocking each other or theyre placed awkwardly etc, but i Fucking Get It Now and its bc these are kind of a fucking PAIN to decorate.. like omg to run thru the process; first of all i had to spend a good while marking up the outline w some hairclips like so

in order to indicate what part of the mesh would be covered up by the border like this:

and then w that out of the way i spent a While figuring out a layout... and i came up with a few:

until i made the terrible terrible realization that Fuck putting keychains up on these is kind of a bitch to do. like i thought i could maybe just hang them onto the mesh net tht this bag came w but noo it does not fit. so i searched it up and theres like various methods to hang them up, ive seen some people use pins or paper fasteners and the sorts, and i ended up opting for the common method of hanging them at the back of my pins/badges. so i Finally decide on a layout that takes that into account and jeez that also took a while to do but yeah it looked like this:

so once im pleased with that i start the job of actually pinning them onto the mesh and i quickly run into my first hurdle which is that ugh the nail/needle whatever it is at the back of my badges is not long enough to fasten the keychains.. meaning if i tried to hang my keychains from them i could not fasten the badges which is not awesome cuz then theyd fall out + scratch the fabric 😑 which suckss cuz i was planning to hang my ene keychain from my hollow knight badge and i tried and tried and triedddd to make it work but it wouldnt 😑 so in the end i hanged a paperclip behind that pancake pin and hung the ene keychain there. but that messed up the spacing that i had planned out which was.. eh... but yeah i kept working on it and JEEZ pinning shit up is Hard like this mesh board is not very penetrable and i had to bend it a lot to put up the pins and i had to constantly pin and repin to move them around and the keychainsssss kept jangling around so i ingeniously came up w using blutack on them to keep them in place which worked great! but everytime i bended the board the tack would come loose so that was a pain and that mahiru pin u can actually see the hair clip its attached to sob i thought itd be hidden by the border but it WASNT. but whatever.. but yes it was a struggle. but anyways the planned layout (left) vs how it actually ended up looking (right):

but overall im happyyyy w it ^_^ the whole decorating process took at least an hour maybe even two hour thats how much of a hassle it was >_> but WHATEVER i have a cute fucking bag now!!! i think ill go out w it either this weekend or sometime next week to test its durability and hopefully it holds 🤞

[melissa-titanium]

hrng. the bane of my existence is decidijgnbetween drawing n slightly shorter than v OR slightly taller. i tjink J is the shortest so shes out of the question but making n tall is cliche BUT making v tall to me is like making myself short and i cannot be short. i cant be short id aftually rather get hit by a truck. v taller is funnier but n taller is Good for my brain + also works eith how i draw him. v is more stout and square while n is gangly as fuck and uzi is a happy medium being kind of short but SHARP with lots of tendrils/longer bits. also i feel loke as ive drawn doll & realized she looks like a twilight sparkle gijinka ive actually started to fall hard into that which is Undesirable. if shes a gijinka of anyone it better be maud pie on steroids. rules for my doll design; square. well kept enough that you aren't immediately weirded out but not well kept enough that suspicions dont start to arise when you look a little closer. doesn't smile enough for her teeth to poke out, but theyre longer than uzi's; she never had correction like uzi did. wearing a headband to be remniscent of dds. all her outfits are off-shoulder bcos she will overheat if not. two lines down her cheeks to look like "doll cheeks"??? cyn also has these but theyre meant to be more puppetlike. i usually try to dapple in lore elements in designs but thats just cosmetic. um. what else. AH OK. scarcely expressive, but when she is its ALL OUT. this is kinda canon actually. every time we see her express save for two instances that i can think of. shes totally deranged. killing the student @ the start of promening. fucking wit v. running away in dead end. like in every other instance sjes either :| or >:| but then when she ACTUALLY expresses shes like HHRHAHAHRRHWGWEORORWGGER. RABID ANIMALEWOROORIEUWWYGWG. hrng but then againnthis is a lot to think about when im. judt drawing & doodling. i need to find a good middleground between doodling and looking decent. NO I JUDT NEED TO FIND OUT HOW TO DRAW FASTER. i think too much WHEN im drawing but i ened to be doing the thinking BEFORE i draw. ugh i dont even know if this is artblock or not i think its my depression OK WOW majorly offtopic. i know ep 7 will make me insanely diseased 2morro so ill be good. dpring break too WOOHOO!!! i ended up clearing some dms today because. its. been lokg enough. but also i honestly dunnou if i will be checking shit during spring break. homework. maybe summer? not 2 far away. but then again thats when i will be taking drivers ed. hrrng. what EVAR. ill figuer it out :) i think im done. my head is most active when im forced to sleep so i need to ramble or ill go crauzysauce!!!!!! 2 say i am not a morning dragon would be tha understatement of the century. what 14 years of a sporadic peeper schedule and 2 years of no school does 2 a mfucker

ok anyways. ep seven. smile

[violet-amet]

owl house spoilers, and thinking back on what could had been. so yeah. rambling again. but, i will say, i loved it, and it left me an emotional mess. not as much as ffxiv's shadowbringers and endwalker, but still p good without comparison.

i enjoyed the ending tbh. i love titan-luz esp. there was a lot of things i found interesting in the world building, that i wish that if the series wasnt cancelled, could had been properly explored with time, and king can unite with his father, but unfortunately... yeah. but you know, despite all the good, i do feel that having the big bad have so much mystery, but no time to explore makes his death a bit weak.

like it feels good to have him beaten down as he was, and killed straight up, but i wish i could had learned more about his backstory. his reason to be there. yes luz caused him to get where he is, but like, thats only one piece to a bigger puzzle that is the big bad's story.

i wish i could had learn more about the collector's kind. what really happened to them and what happened to the titans. i wish we could had learned more about the collector as well, because giving just three episodes to the other big "bad" isnt enough, imo, to grown attached to him. but i do think he is adorable. just a kid with too much power and too little guidance. its a shame really.

thing is, im just a viewer, not a writer, and so idk what happened or what the creators were thinking to make what they did, but i still enjoyed it. there was too much that disney missed out on, and honestly, i wish the owl house existed when i was a kid. it would make me feel proud to not only be hispanic, like i always wanted a hispanic heroine, but also glad to be weird and different. im glad that this show exists for kids that exist today.

but it is what it is. im not angry at the mouse, im more angry at the people who direct the mouse. the mouse isnt to be blamed here.

anyway thats just summoning up my thoughts on it, and i nearly did cry at the end, to see a proper happy ending after so long. i havent finished steven universe, because i heard that the ending for that is p bad, and like, honestly, i just watched a few episodes of future, and felt content with just finishing it off pre-movie. but i know that even su suffered a lot from corp meddling. it sucks.

still, despite corp nonsense, im glad these shows are being made today, and for future gens to enjoy. i hope to see more shows like these continue to be made, despite corp nonsense. i want to see more good stories.

[make-it-mavis]

Hey! I've got some more questions! I'm on a roll lol! Thank you so so much for answering the last one!

This ones more of a what if. But I just got to randomly thinking, what if Litwak kept Turbotime instead of scraping it for parts, and then he went "you know what? This game was a real gem of its time, let's see if I can get it fixed and back up and running." And the game ended up working just fine and he put it BACK in the arcade years later? I read somewhere that if a game cabinet ends up getting plugged back in the characters within it respawn. But they don't remember anything about their lives before getting unplugged. So if it were to happen, Turbo wouldn't remember committing any of his grisly crimes, or even Mavis. Also I wonder how the arcade as a whole would take to the most feared criminal in their history literally coming back from the dead. I just was curious about your outlook. :)

This next question is about Mavis, you kind of alluded in Tightrope that Mavis was presumed dead like Turbo in that conversation with Felix and Ralph. So did she fake her own death to be able to go with him to take over Sugarush? If she did, how did she pull that off?

Thats all I got for today, I'm sorry for the long winded questions! I get to thinking sometimes, then I fall right down into a rabbit hole. I know that the chances of Turbotime ever getting plugged in again are absolutely zero. Litwak more than likely had it scrapped for parts, or just downright had it taken to the junkyard to rot. Which is so heartbreaking to even think about. But I just want him back man! He was such an excellent and formidable villain. Probably the very last great Disney villain, especially in recent years. Their writing has just been so lazy and lackluster recently. Disappointing. (*cough cough*, that sorry excuse of a sequel that is just downright insulting to the first wreck it Ralph movie). He was hands down one of the best parts of the first movie. And of course it doesn't help that I have it down bad for him now thanks to you!! I was terrified of him as a kid, but you somehow managed to make me have the hots for him?! Like HOW?! Thank you for tolerating my rambling lol. It's so good to hear from you again!:)

First off, I will say again, every time I can make someone hot for that little grey bean I gain a year on my life

ANYWAY

1. Huh! I never actually considered that as a possibility. I guess somehow it didn't occur to me to think about how a game being plugged back in would work, but it happens in RBTI. PERSONALLY... I feel like there would not be any reset on the characters' minds, especially if they weren't in the game when it happened. If we're assuming the cabinets have memory storage, unplugging them wouldn't erase that. But maybe having the game boot up again would physically summon Turbo back into Turbo Time, and he'd have a lot to answer for. Unless the actual game's memory unit was replaced, I don't think the characters would have any reason to forget, but even if it was, I think the game would spawn new versions of the characters. So there would be a New Turbo strutting around, but the Old Turbo would still be alive and hiding. Which would do great for his psyche I'm sure.

2. Yup, after Sugar Rush was plugged in and the plan to usurp the throne was concocted, Mavis knew that in order to live her life as Pyrite unquestioned, the arcade would have to believe she was dead. I never fully figured out how she would go about faking her death though. She definitely would not have stuck around long enough after to see Felix mourn.

Thank you for the asks and little thought exercises! Always fun to muse

[coolocgod]

Ya know what time for me rambling cues i have alot on my mind today

Okay so 1 i got an allergy test today and turns out im allergic to nothing(not food wise cues they couldn't do a food test), EXPECT FOR DUSTMITES??, WHICH ARE WEIRD BUG THINGS THAT ARE VERY RARE WERE I AM CUES IT DOESNT GET HUMID ENOUGH FOR THEM TO APPAER, so uh yeah that's weird, anyways 2 i dont post about shorts wars on here but imma ramble about it, so me and unknown like to discuss stuff about shorts wars on discord mainly theories, and i never make those theories public cues im anxious and most of the theories people didnt 100% agree with at the time and i wasnt about to get insulted on tumblr, so me and unknown kept those theories private, but i realized me and unknown usually predicted the sibling parts of the series, like johnny and the boss being brothers, and slightly recently despite not 100% being confirmed(yet atleast) clone riggy and normal riggy being brothers, tbh for me that theory was more of "hey they act alot like siblings" and now THEIR ACTING EVEN MORE LIKE BROTHERS SOO IDK IF I SHOULD USE THAT AS PROOF OR NOT, and now i guess this goes into point 3 but i've somehow predicted alot of things, like idk if anyone remembers this but awhile back when i was really into watching the sun and moon show, when earth was introduced everyone insulted her, while my first thought was "earth and lunar show?" i think i worded it different tho like lunar and earth show but, a couple months later THAT BECAME AN ACTUAL CHANNEL, I ENDED UP PREDICTING A WHOLE NEW CHANNEL, LIKE W H A T, i havent predicted anything else yet but if i do then uhh, idk actually maybe i'll just say im a psychic or something, anyways thats mainly it this ramble is way longer then usual XD

[livecharliereaction]

longer ramble (post tsumihoroboshi part 5)

enough higuing today OK: im rly liking the different protags btw meakashi shion pov and now the rena bits it works VERY WELL! But it also rly makes sense that the first 3 had to be keiichi because to understand renas/shions/rly anyone elses thoughts you have to understand some things about hinamizawa itself so making us play from the pov of a guy who just got here? its kinda the only option. I think those last tips r from the "evil rika" by the way so like demon allegations never stop with her + sonozakis. which of course makes SENSE three families n all that. i think satokos outbursts seem sort of normal for a traumatized child and as i said before; rena can do ANYTHING and ill forever just be able to brush it off with a "ohh shes a weird girl i guess :P" and now that she killed 2 people again i am not changing this statement in the slightest. She can just do that. Let her do whatever the hell she wants ETC. But clearly not a demon from three families with how she describes it all.

In shion pov she did actually call this "evil rika" a demon too so calling her that suffices for now. They do keep saying that the elderly think of rika as a reincarnation of oyashiro. i mean i dont think id be too off the mark to just call that "evil rika" oyashiro but i think its a term made up by the villagers instead of her REAL name so im just gonna call her "evil rika" until they provide me a better way to call her.

I also think that she will be the way this ties into umineko. I know a few facts... 1. theres a character with the same voice casting i dont remembr her name but u know the one who kinda looks like her anyways 2. the playing order should be higurashi first if at all and then umineko because theres characters who will refer to something that happened in higurashi/something youll understand if you have played higurashi... But like even aside from this kinda meta information i know theres a girl who looks like rika a lil too much. OH IDEA? Its just another oyashiro reincarnation 8 generations before or 8 generations after higurashi. Ok that might be jumping to conclusions a little but just something to state so itll be funny to look back at either if that happens OR its actually super false as hell

...as a matter of fact I used to think the other umineko character looked a LOT like satoko but i saw her on the tl the other day i think n i dont think so anymore. Color palettes more similar to miyo takano if i HAD to choose n that seems like a stretch too. OK but i need to mute the wtc tags though because were in peak spoiler territory i feel... Ok.

Also last thing: that time of rena stating she wants to go back in time immediately cut to all of the guys having a nice time without a single mention of the people rena killed (ofc - keiichi pov) but in a way RIGHT NOW? its kinda out in the open if that DID happen until we get rena pov again which i find a little fun.

Oh but one thing does still bother me to no end... Renas mentions of seeing oyashiro before makes literally no sense with the information we have so far. BUT ONCE AGAIN. renas just kinda weird. Maybe thats a conclusion she made because well shes a little weird and also mentioned to be like actually mentally ill. Man how did they write a character like that where shes my absolute #1 favorite no shot but then i trust literally nothing she says??? So funny. Love her

stopping for today though i mean i want to continue but we have to have SOME self discipline left so it all doesnt end in like a week:P ok bye

[blackvail22]

9/24/23 — 1:10am

theres a lot that happened within the past two days its insane. on the 22nd, i had to train this new associate for the whole day. he's rlly nice, and he's fun to talk to. he caught on really quick! im excited to work with him

also, that same day, i got back with my ex!!! it could be a dumb decision (because this is the 3rd time) but i really want things to work out. again, no one is going to know besides you... and... my coworkers, but thats different

the coworker that gave me his number, he gave me a note at work that says "im awkward so i dont know how to say this out loud, but i like you" and then taped a soda tab on it (it was the "hug" meaning one, which... i dont like but could be worse). so! ive told the new associate i have a boyfriend. im going to tell them i have a boyfriend, but im telling those im closest to at work that its because i dont want my worker to hit on me anymore

if he keeps going after that, i have to report him. im not letting someone get away with that, not this time.

i have to start standing up for myself... im just scared because of that teenager who got killed because she rejected her (adult) co-worker, im afraid its going to be me. this is the reason i dont like hearing abt death.

on another note, back to abt my boyfriend....

im writing this as soon as i ended the call with him. i miss him already. i wonder how and why my brain changes how i react to things because of a label. i feel so clingy. i want to talk to him more. he does make me happy, and i hope i make him happy too

oh, i also bought this candle... its supposed to "smell like london" and it says the scent is "afternoon biscuits and tea" so thats nice. i bought it to think of you, nd its nice that the color of the candle matches my room

oh last thing ! i took my permit drivers test and i passed it! feels so surreal because i never thought i was ever gonna end up driving but here we are lol

anyways i like this song

6:06am —

dude i couldnt fall asleep until like 4:30am and my mom woke me up at 5:30, screaming at me to find something i didnt have!!! i found it! and it was in her bag, a place she didnt look (because she only looked one place!!!!!!) at least i can sleep now, but idek if i can do that because i feel awake now. im going to sob. FUVKKK I HAVE A HEADACHE AND SINUS PAIN NOW IM GOING TO CRY DUDE. and the fact that she walked up the stairs to scream at me (she never walks up the stairs)???? ooo. im so mad bro! like im going to wake up whenever i have my alarms set and im going to punch a wall because i cant sleep without getting interrupted. IM PISSED TF OFF NOW bevause i havent had adequate sleep since my last off day (a week ago) and i dont have a lot of sleep for tomorrow because i have to wake up at 6am for an appointment thats 2hrs away. sure, ill sleep in the car, but with my mom? she wont let it happen. and i dont have another off day untl thursday, and i cant sleep in for that one either becahse i have another goddamn appointment in the morning. like, is this what being an adult is? being harrassed by coworkers, never having enough sleep, never able to fall asleep.... it cant be cause those all haopened when i was a teenager too. stuck in that cycle, though, and i cant wait for that cycle to finally end.

bad things always tend to happen to me. is it because i bring bad energy? AHHHHHHH i just need to scream cry

i am going to try to sleep now. I've rambled on for way too long

11:17pm

been incredibly sad today. i think it was my lack of sleep, or maybe it was my mom yelling at me and waking me up. still, my heart feels so ... heavy. i cant help but feel bad for people who love me. if i was them, i would choose anyone else to love endlessly. im undeserving of it all, anyway. i dont feel happy tonight. i hope tomorrow's better. i dont know what changed and made me feel this way because when i woke up and went to work, everything was fine until half way through my shift. it didnt really effect me, but them saying "oh, fun's over.. [my name]'s in a bad mood again.. everyone get away" keeps playing in my mind. it didnt affect me then, so i dont know why i keep thinking about it

i just want to fit on my roof and look at the moon, but its been rising really early so i dont think ill be able to see it now. ill watch some livestreams from space of the earth/the moon instead. something to comfort me while listening to music. i havent been able to watch any videos all the way through recently.. havent even been able to watch those gaming streams i like. hopefully ill feel better before i go to sleep

[bubsub69]

Entry 2

14/05/2023 22:47

Well might as well start all entries with how my sleep schedule is, i had an afternoon nap so i might not sleep enough tonight but better than being up at 4am because i tried going to sleep at like 11pm and it went horribly wrong.

Reason for writing today? well while before looking at cute couple stuff like hugging and cuddling would make me cry now a porn video that wasnt even my first time watching made me cry because the couple seemed really happy and having a good time even though the girl was probably laughing cause she ruined the dudes orgasm on his face (video: https://www.redgifs.com/watch/quaintelderlyvireo#rel=tag%3Aruined-orgasm%2Cchastity%2Ca;order=trending)

I guess i should start with yesterday, with the blessing of the folders/briefcases whatever, it was as bad as expected so at least not worse than expectations, a very late start as a lot of people expected followed by a walk a queue to sit down, a small sermon and then speeches from each course. The worst part honestly might have just been the sun, it was blazing hot and i think i got sick from it, my nose was extremely fucked last night and still kinda is. After that we went to have lunch at a crisp 3pm and the food arrived at like 4, thank god my body has a high hunger resistance or i mightve killed someone, i spent a lot of time at the restaurant but at least i got to be with my cousin so it was actually pleasant, at the end we went to the lake garden to take some pictures for some reason and then went home (the for some reason comes from the fact we already had like 40 photos on the camera alone and went to take more).

idk why i wanted to write down what happened yesterday this was supposed to be more about emotions than story but oh well who can stop an autist from rambling.

But going to aforementioned (wow that was the word whos spelling i really had to look up, why am i spellchecking a personal diary? cause fuck you i want to, anyway another autistic rambling aside) emotions, those ribbons made me feel kinda weird when i reread them cause everyone was saying congrats on the hard work and for beating this challenge but i feel like its undeserved cause its not like i put a huge amount of effort studying, i barely passed some stuff which is definetly something im not proud of but yeah i feel like i slacked off most of the year even though ive never missed classes or failed to deliver a project, i guess im just associated with the studying part of school instead of this which is better honestly, even if i get stressed like now where i have a shit ton of stuff to do and am over procastinating as usual, but yeah, a lot of good jobs for a meh performance feels kinda weird.

But enough about school heres an update on D, today is sunday which matches the same day as the day of the call so how was her availability? well she gave me a maybe and then said that apparently her visa is expiring and shes super stressed out, well that seems like something way too complex for an excuse/lie so i believe her more but yeah her moving again is definetely going to make her busy again so i guess no calls for me.

Really feeling like a piece of shit that thats all the care i can muster for it, shes like about to get formally deported and im out here complaining shes too busy for me, and the worst is i decided to get a keyholder on chaster just to satisfy me, it feels like cheating i dont know why, we had some mild texting and a call and ive already like fallen in love and feel like a traitor, but i guess im tired of waiting and it might be for the best to move on if she just wants to stay an acquaintance (well new record for biggest spelling blunder), but yeah i feel like im giving up too soon cause i really liked her and just moving on feels really bad but what can i do when she doesnt show any interest, i mean not only does she not text back she also hasnt asked anything about me, which i guess is kinda fair for most boring person in the world whos hobbies are gaming and youtube, yippy, i guess ill wait again, this time im gonna do a week of no texting to see if she ever sends me something, she will be busy with the moving so she probably wont but oh well whatcha gonna do, not like shed say yes to a call in these circumstances either, i still wish i could help her but i dont think i can just ask dad if he has a contact with the visa man to hurry her process, but i did imagine that cenario

I guess switching to a different type of emotion to put some variety in this yesterday i fucked up the gamepads usb port out of anger but i think i tricked my parents by saying i saved the computer from falling, and on other hardware problem news theres a screw that i think broke the plastic around it so know the case keeps disconnecting from the rest. This was a shitty story but at least its not all about being sad and lonely

Well a bit of a blunder of an ending but oh well heres entry two, if the lady i messaged to be my keyholder replies the update will be here: