#anyways cause of that i watched the mv and was like damn this slaps i must know more

[wc-confessions]

re: WC misogyny

This is solely to get my thoughts out abt this bc I’m probably not gonna be able to articulate this to the best of my ability but I feel like it’s incredibly important to say that these books are pretty damn misogynistic and so was the fanbase for the longest time.

Not saying that to be "throwing the word around without knowing what the word means", because misogyny is defined as a dislike/contempt against women. This can also absolutely be an unconscious bias (which is primarily what I see anyway!) I've seen far more people dismiss these characters while holding up male ones that do similar/worse things (i.e. Thistleclaw primarily but a lot of the MV characters to an extent)

The reason why discussion about sexism usually ends up against cats like Mapleshade, Squirrelflight, Frecklewish, and Nightcloud is primarily due to how the universe of the books is written to chastise these characters while their male counterparts go thru barely half of the shit thrown onto the girls.

Mapleshade gets her kids and herself exiled for breaking the code while Appledusk literally gets a slap on the wrist for breaking the same code she did? The Riverclan leader just tells him "well, you'll not do it again so you don't need to be punished" while Mapleshade doesn't even get to bury her kits. Even if she's the Warrior Cats evil woman that's still really fucked up!? And this goes to Frecklewish as well, who does not watch them drown oh my god. The flood that kills Maple's kits is incredibly loud--saying Freckle would have been able to do anything else OTHER than watch dismisses the fact going to the flooded stones was an idea doomed to fail (of which Mapleshade has a lot of in MV specifically.)

Frecklewish absolutely ended up in the Dark Forest over Oakstar or Ravenwing (who both condemned the kittens to their fate instead of?? idk punishing Maple and not the kits who didn't even know they were half clan?) because of the way the fandom perceived her at the time. Freckle's a lot like Squirrelflight where fandom opinion only recently shifted to people defending those characters--she's pretty awful for calling the same kits she doted on half-clan creatures! But I don't think she deserved to go to cat hell forever when the cat who actually caused those kittens to end up dead (and every other cat in MV!) ends up in Starclan without even so much of a trial.

Speaking of trials--Squirrelflight and Leafpool literally end up almost being sent to CAT HELL for following Starclan's orders. Leafpool ends up having forbidden kits but Starclan goes "it's okay!" until it isn't. Brambleclaw almost being involved in Firestar's fox trap murder never gets mentioned or brought up while both of the girls are questioned about if they even belong in Starclan because they "broke the code and lied"?? There's a pretty damn big bias towards the toms for doing bad/worse actions but Bramble never went to Starclan and had his ticket for heaven almost revoked. Oakstar didn't get put in the Dark Forest because he exiled 3 innocent kits.

I think it's important to note the fandom has a lot of say over how characters like these get interpreted (which is why Nightcloud ended up being hated a lot despite the fact Crowfeather is just. actually abusive to Breezepelt.) That's why I brought up unconscious biases, because I think generally a lot of WC content creators tend to stick to presenting the stories in a more radical/black and white way.

I think the discussion really should be that the books and the stories ARE pretty misogynistic but unconsciously so? A lot of the story beats I mentioned weren't written by just one person, and the Erins have different opinions on these cats than the fans do. That's not me stating an opinion, that's just me saying recognizing that it's very male-oriented IS an issue these books have.

Anyways this got way too wordy, Ashfur is one of my favorite villains so I don't even know why I typed all of this up /j.

[suyunsgf]

SF9?? 👀👀

 ooo~ i barely know them tbh i just started liking them this comeback so all i know is this album

Group: SF9

First Bias: The only one i knew before like a month ago was inseong but hes cool 

Current Bias: The only ones i know now are inseong and chani lmao so i wouldnt really say i have a bias rn

Fave Song: I really like dance with us but stop it now and shh are also really good (and good guy obviously)

Fave MV: Ive literally only seen good guy BUT it is Super Good

[insufferablelust]

small blurb about wrestling with mgg and it getting steamy 🥺 (love your writing btw)

YAY FIRST OFFICIAL BLURB REQ FOR OUR VERY OWN— ‘HOT THOUGHTS FRIDAY’ LMAO, enjoy! and wear your mask!

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Oh but imagine he just wrapped up the moonlight mv production, so the very next day— he spent all day with you going to the local libraries, cafes, and walk around the park. You were absolutely gorgeous in your sundress, that he had to stop and stare a few times whilst you were reading your books or like right now,

As your head perched beautifully on his lap, with his fingers stroking your hair and the cool breeze of the park just washing over the both of you. You and Matthew— but you specifically has been cooped up inside your house for weeks, and this was your very first time going out again, and enjoying the nature.

Matthew smiled as he leaned on his palm, on the small tapestry you both laid out to sit on— he admired how your face scrunches at the heavy wind, how your eyes fluttering open and shut because it makes you sleepy— Matthew can’t get enough of you that it seems like it went straight to how the bulge on his crotch formed.

You didn’t noticed at first, how could you? you were just laying there innocently— enjoying the breeze with your boyfriend of 2 years, but the minute you do, your eyes snapped open and locked with his— flickering your gaze between the tent on his jeans and the grins on his face as you sat up abruptly,

“Oh my god, Matthew we’re in a public place!” You giggled as you look around and slapped his arms, before wrapping your arms around yourself. “What?! you can’t blame me, you’re the one who’s just that gorgeous that i can’t— help but to get excited.” he scoffed, lips twitch into a smirk slightly.

You rolled your eyes before crawling up to straddle his lap, caused him to look around and gripped your hips tightly, “Baby we can’t— there might be—“ His words were cut off as you press a soft lingering kiss onto his lips, and huffed out a small, “Shut up”

“Y/N, Behave.” He said sternly, his eyebrows furrowed, and the tent grew impossibly much more noticeable.

“I said— shut up.” You whispered as you trailed your fingers up and down his sides, to his inner thighs. Matthew looked around in panic, not only that you were in a public place but he’s a celebrity for god’s sake, his publicist would be furious if they knew he was getting a damn hand job in a public place during covid-19.

You tried your best not to giggle as you watched him get so riled up— over nothing really, you knew you were evil, but the burn on your ass from yesterday’s rough play-time has convinced yourself that you would get your damn revenge today. So when he half expects you to open his zipper, your nimble fingers ran up his sides instead and before he noticed, you went to tickle his sides and laughed loudly,

“Y/N! oh you’re in fucking trouble now!” He exclaimed as he quickly overpowered you, tackling you to the ground, but you weren’t going to get beaten so easily so that resulted in you both wrestling on a public park— surely drawing attention to everybody that walks by.

You were panting and smiling as you tackled him to the ground once more— well more like he’s letting you tackled him to the ground, quickly announcing your victory, “Look at that gubler! i’m in charge now!” He watched you with amusement in his eyes, cocking his head to the side and displayed a faux pout, “You sure about that, princess?”

“About what?”

“That you’re in charge?” That caused you to scoff greatly,

“Well look who’s under me— you are, so that means you’re my bitch.” You threw your head back as you giggled— which was a big mistake, considering how quickly his palm wrapped itself on your neck, squeezing a tiny bit before carefuly flipping the both of you over, with him on top of you— and you, well you’re gasping, and slightly whimpering at the sudden chance on the domineering atmosphere.

He chuckled as he rolled his eyes condescendingly, “Seems like you always managed to forget who owns you, i’m not surprised though— considering how much of a brat you are.”

“Matthew—“ He groaned before tightening his palm on your pulse,

“Shh shut up— you’re my bitch now, we’re going home because it seems like someone needs their goddamn nap. So stand the fuck up right now and wear your damn mask. If you so much as to think of disobeying me, i’ll whip your ass right here for everyone to fucking see.”

Oh, The car ride home would be really really interesting.

~

That is cute sghsjs istg im in the middle of a damn exam whilst writing this lmao, anyways thank you for reading, requesting and supporting! Blurb reqs are always open, just send in your asks!

[dream-a-little-bigger-x]

I Can Make You Feel Like A King | Calum Hood

@loaahossam requested: Idk if you’re taking requests atm or even doing smuts, but I have this idea of Calum’s gf being a singer and had this song from David Guetta’s new album : “She Knows How To Love Me” & it’s all unusually sexy and stuff cause she’s always shy and sweet and maybe the MV is released while they’re on tour or you’re watching it with them waiting for Calum’s reaction or even preforming it in a award show or something and Calum’s reaction is everything and maybe you can take it further the way you like!

A/N: damn, good song! I’ve had this request in my inbox for a while, sorry for the wait, love! 

Pairing: Singer!reader x Calum Hood

Words: 1873

Warnings: mild smut

Summary: You and Calum attend the same award show as you and the band were both nominated for an award and you had to perform your hit single with David Guetta. And someone might like it a little more than anyone else... 

To say I was excited is an understatement. I am going to perform at the Brit awards. A dream of mine since this career of mine really started taking off. The fact that my boyfriend and his band were going to be attending the award show made everything ten times better. And both being nominated for a couple of awards was the cherry on top of the already quite perfect cake.  “You ready, baby?” Calum asks as I’m about to get out of the car. I came with the boys in the same car. It would be stupid to take another car when I pretty much came from the same place as the boys. Sierra and Crystal came too as Michael’s and Luke’s +1′s. We’d probably get pictures all together for the press, some of me and Calum - as the paps have been following our every move since we were first seen together - and some of me by myself probably too. I think that’s what my manager told me would happen anyway.  “You look damn gorgeous,” Calum whispers in my ear as he holds onto my waist as we pose for some pictures. I smile a little and look at the floor to check if my long dress still looked okay. After photos, the seven of us head inside with our management and go to our designated seats. They had seated me with the boys, which I was thankful for. It made the experience twice as nice and made me a little less nervous for the performance. I needed to remember lyrics, choreography and I needed to be backstage in time for my dress change.  “Y/N, it’s time,” my manager tells me.  “Good luck, baby,” Calum tells me, and a chorus of good lucks sounds from the other boys and girlfriends too. I give them a smile before following my manager backstage. I get dressed quickly and my hair gets done. The tech guy hands me my microphone and attaches my pack to my clothes. I put the in-ears in and take a couple deep breaths.  “Put your hands together for the amazing Y/N performing her hit single She Knows How to Love Me,” the presenter introduces me and the music starts. That’s my cue to head onto the stage with my background dancers. The first few moves are quite innocent and almost 50′s-like, until I start singing and that’s when the choreography gets a little more rowdy too. “I know how to make you feel like a king I know how to be your everything I love how you do, got nowhere to run” I give my everything during the performance, trying not to look into the crowd too much as that would distract me and it would make me mess up. But I can’t help but glance over at Calum. I give him a quick wink before turning around, snapping my head back to look back at the crowd and shake my ass that little bit more, just to tease Calum. And because it’s kind of part of the choreography.  I finish up the performance, posing with the sexiest pose I can muster, the dancers all behind me. I feel a rush of power going through me as the entire crowd applauses and I hear some whistling and screaming too, most of that comes from where the boys are seated.  “Thank you!” I say into the microphone before walking off stage. I hand the crew my microphone back and my pack too before heading to the dressing room and getting back into my long dress that makes me feel like a princess. I drink from my water as I’ve never been this thirsty, and before I can properly leave my dressing room to go back to my seats where the boys are, I’m stopped by someone who harshly pushes me further into the room. It startles me a little, but when I feel a pair of warm lips on mine with a familiar taste, I know I shouldn’t panic. I hear the door shut and feel a pair of hands on my ass.  “What are you doing, Cal?” I ask, mumbling against his lips.  “You totally turned me on with that performance, baby girl,” he explains to me as he lifts me on the makeup table.  “And you really couldn’t wait until we got home?” I ask, giggling a little. A part of me is glad that it turned him on as I myself got turned on by the way he looked tonight. That prince Charming jacket looks way too good on him and I wish I could just rip it off him.  “Not at all,” he groans a little, turning me on even more. I can feel him struggling to get my dress up, which makes me laugh a little.  “Should I take my dress off?” I ask, still not really breaking the kiss.  “No, it’s fine,” he says, and just when those words leave his mouth, I feel a warm finger slip inside me. Without warning, just surprised me. “I know how to make  you feel like a queen too, baby,” he then tells me as he speeds up and slides in a second finger as well. I moan a little, making sure it’s not too loud. Not everyone needed to know we were having sex in the dressing room.  His pace quickens as he feels up my insides, hitting me right where I need it. I’m close and I can feel myself clenching around him.  “Let go, princess. Let go,” he orders sternly while placing kisses on my neck. I let go, letting myself cum on his fingers. He retracts his fingers and licks both of them off whilst looking at me with arousal and lust in his eyes. I pull him closer by his shirt and start unbuttoning it only to start kissing his chest. I kiss both his tattoos, then go down to his nipples and further to his abs. I jump off the table and begin working his belt. He cups my face and kisses me hard again. Our tongues twirling around one another. His penis springs free when I take his boxers off, standing proudly upwards. Someone is hard for me.  “I know how to make you feel like a king,” I sing again before taking his cock in my mouth and starting to pump up and down, deepthroating as far as my gag-reflex can go. The room fills up with Calum’s moans, turning me on even more than I already was. I quicken the pace, Calum gripping my hair tightly as he thrusts into me, trying to chase his high.  “Fuck, princess. Fuck,” he moans loudly. When I look up at him, one hand is tangled in my hair, the other is behind him, holding onto the makeup table. His eyes are shut, pleasure and arousal on his face. I slow down a little, causing him to groan even louder, his voice trembling a little even. He comes inside my mouth, and without hesitation, I swallow. “I love you so much,” he then whispers as he kisses me again. The both of us get dressed and I check the mirror real quick to check if my makeup is still in tact and my hair doesn’t look like someone has tugged on it. Just when Calum is zipping his pants, my manager storms in the dressing room. Her eyes widen as she notices what she had just walked into.  “I-just... Uhm... You’ve just won an award, girl. Get your ass up on stage!” my eyes widen this time as the words hit me. I won an award? Seriously?  “Go!” Calum tells me, slapping my ass. I follow my manager to the stage where I get my award from the girls from Little Mix.  “Uhm... I... Wow, what?” I mumble into the mic once I’ve hugged each member and they’ve stepped aside to give me some space for a speech. I see Calum walk back to his spot, a proud smile on his face. “Thank you all so much for this award! I don’t even know what to say! Jesus, okay. I would like to thank my management for believing in me in the first place. Thanks to David Guetta too for making such a bomb track and thank you for including me on it. Thank you to Y/M/N and Y/D/N, my dear parents, whom I’ve wouldn’t have been here in the first place. And thanks David and Joy for bringing my one true love to this planet. And thanks to that one true love for always being there for me on bad days and on the good ones. Thank you for always giving your honest opinion on my new work and for helping me when I’m stuck with something,” I say as I look directly to my boyfriend, who looks a little surprised I’m thanking him. Tears start welling up in my eyes. “Damn, I didn’t want to cry. You’re making me cry, Calum Hood. Thank you so much for being my rock, the line of my kite to keep me grounded. Thanks for being the best boyfriend in the world. And lastly, thank you to my fans who support me and the art you allow me to make. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’d like to go back to my dressing room and cry a little over this glorious award. I love you, thank you!” I finally conclude my long-ass speech, holding the award up a little higher as everyone applauds. Me and the girls of Little Mix exit the stage, careful not to fall with our heels.  “Aw, your speech was so cute!” says Leigh-Anne as we all walk towards my dressing room. Jade has her hand on my back, rubbing it in a soothing way as I’m still sobbing over my speech.  “Why didn’t you come from the crowd?” Perrie then questions. I blush a little thinking of what had happened before in the dressing room.  “Because I was in my dressing room... With my boyfriend...” I tell them, chuckling a little through the tears. The four girls start laughing loudly, knowing exactly what had happened in there.  “That’s amazing!” exclaims Perrie, still in fits of laughter.  “I’m not sure how I still look presentable, to be fair,” I laugh too, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. I hand the trophy to one of the crew members before getting back to my seat, Little Mix doing the exact same thing.  “I’m so damn proud of you, baby,” Calum tells me and kisses my cheek when I’m sat down again. I give him a smile and see some smudged red lipstick on the corner of his mouth. With my thumb, I carefully wipe it away.  “Thank you, gorgeous,” I say back with the most thankful smile ever. My heart is full and I don’t think I have ever been happier. This is the most perfect night ever, especially with our little rendez-vous in the dressing room. But even if that hadn’t happened, it would’ve been perfect. Because I’m here with the love of my life and the best friends one could ever ask for. I love my life.  

[drunkelfanastasia]

K-pop/khh 2018 favourites

I’ve already had several playlist posts here so I figured why not make a 2018 kpop/khh favourites one heh

They are in no particular order btw

Imfact – The Light

Track that made me stan Imfact completely and make them my second ultimate bias group. Honestly the best thing I’ve encountered in 2018 and I was lucky enough to see this one performed live.

Monsta X – Jealousy

My babes made a bop of 2018 once again huh? Sexy, powerful, aesthetical, with nice visuals, strong vocals and impactful choreography. Changkyun and Jooheon’s rap cured my acne tbh *whispers: jealousy baby jealousy*

Woodie Gochild – Muse (feat. Jay Park, Sik-K)

Another new artist coming into my life, thank god for Jay who finds all these gems like Woojae. The pigeon boi from SMTM6 became the light of my life with his crooked teeth and weird voice.

Sik-K – Fire

THE MOST POWERFUL SONG EVER MADE DON’T @ ME

I love how Minsik and bois from Groovy made most non-hiphop thing ever and nailed it anyways hdfhdjh

Drug Restaurant – 403

I love jamming out to this in the darkness with wine, that’s just the mood of the song.  Luring voice and the weirdest in the best way English lyrics, I stan!!

The Rose – Baby

STAN THE ROSE FFS Once again I had huge luck to see my babes live and let me tell you, this song sounds even better in person! This one gets The Most Iconic Drop award from me.

Big Bang – Flower Road

Is it emo hours already? Cause I miss my oldies goldies and their group music. Flower Road makes me think of summer and spending time in the countryside with your friends and running to the river.

Day6 – Headache

Listen, the theory about Day6 not having bad songs is not a theory, it’s a pure fact. It was so hard to choose on song from all their releases and I’m still battled between Headache and 121U because they both slap hard :/

Mino – Fiancé

This man is my king and I even have bleached brows/hair look inspired by him now, it’s no surprise I added his solo debut to the list. Again, his whole album is a huge bop, Rocket and UM are my faves apart from Fiancé.

Jung Jinwoo – She’s Got Everything

Artists from PLT released so many amazing tracks this year it’s insane! I realized I have three in here and I could’ve added even more sjhdjhf Jinwoo is so multitalented and underrated, it hurts.

Bloo – I’m The One

If you ever want to travel to another world while listening to someone’s voice – just open this link and get started with it. Heartbreak anthems from Daniel are nice but love anthems are even better.

ATEEZ – Treasure

Even if I’m a fan of funky and upbeat songs like Pirate King, Treasure still owns my heart being a little calmer and acing the vocals. Honestly, the MV is also extremely magical?? ATEEZ are a huge stanning material, don’t hesitate and become an Atiny.

kuzi – Badmind

Almost NO ONE knows who Kuzi is but I’m happy that I got to find out about him. He’s a nice young boy from Dickids and went by Hot Kuzi before and you should listen to his whole mixtape if you like hip-hop and trap.

PLT – Hocus Pocus

Another PLT track, are you even surprised? Hocus Pocus is something really precious to my heart as even my parents love it and it made me discover artists apart from my sweet Gaho.

Jay Park – V

The king has come to my list everybody! Such a lovey-dovey song this one is~~ Jaebum dropped bop after bop, Sexy 4Eva, Millions, one hundred features and he’s also a CEO? Get me a mans like him.

pH-1 – Cupid

*winking at @chaoticvamp * Harry is a precious baby and such a powerful musician, I’m shook. I remember not even looking at him at first bc I thought he isn’t worth my attention OH BOY WAS I WRONG sjdsjdhs Another song about love here… what’s wrong with me pls

South Club – Outcast

Listen, Taehyun was a huge mess after leaving Winner but look at him now! The punk spirit in his songs always inspires me to be myself.

Vinxen – How Do You Feel

A super emotional but calm track with intimate lyrics. TW for self-harm. It’s the best when you walk home in the evening and look around at people; start feeling like they don’t really exist and everything is a movie.

Snuper – Tulips

Started stanning this fab group after went to the Korean festival and saw them live, Snuper are xtremely underrated and even this comeback is not really popular even though the song is amazing and catchy L

NCT U – Boss

The country I live in, Ukraine had an honor to welcome NCT U into its arms where they filmed Boss and Baby Don’t Stop so it had a huge meaning to me + we also got introduced to Lucas and Jungwoo.

Got7 – Thank You

Yes I’m boasting about seeing another kpop group live again please excuse me I’m just happy—Anyways, I cried when they sang this song during the concert.

Ilhoon – She’s Gone

I WAS SO SHOCKED BY ILHOON DAMN BOI I didn’t really get into his album because other tracks didn’t get enough of my attention but She’s Gone called me her bitch, I’m a sucker for this badass song.

RM – Seoul

RM’s mixtape is a masterpiece in its best. I’ve never thought he’d produce something like that and its difference had me lured in quickly… Such a chill album that got goosebumps crawling down my spine, I fell in love with it and I’m honestly questioning my bias list after it.

Lee Sang – Repetition

My underrated babies Imfact are here one more time, this time with Sang and his self-written song that made my heart bleed. His beautiful vocals complete the mood of it so perfectly; it makes me miss someone who doesn’t exist.

Sam Kim – Make Up (feat. Crush)

Something that made the end of 2018 awesome for me is this collab and Sam Kim’s perfect voice. This has a catchy tune and it got stuck in my head for a while.

Villain – Manitto

My mom said that Villain is the coolest in PLT the first thing when she saw them all in one MV and told me he needs to be my favourite so here we are I guess hdfdfhfj I know I said it about lots of tracks before but that’s such a bop please give it a listen!!

Flowsik & Jessi – Wet

The most badass release of 2018? I think so. Jessi is a queen and a girl crush and just someone I look up to quite a lot, her rap is very well complimented by Flowsik and his raspy voice. (also Jessi is slapping bois butts in the MV, go watch it)

Dean – Instagram

Even though some fans were upset that that’s not Dean’s style I don’t agree. Dean’s style is whatever Dean decides to be his style, okay? Instagram is amazing and it has an amazing message to it.

Jonghyun – Take The Dive

The whole album was hard to listen to; I think we can all agree with it. Yet, it’s very beautiful and is always worth a listen when you feel like giving up. Our moon is always looking over us.

All these tracks are also in a YouTube playlist here :’)

[utopianvoices]

one and only | l.minho

↭ genre: relationship au; angst, fluff

↭ word count: 2.2k

↭ a/n: big big shoutout to @chanrismatic for giving me basically the whole plot idea!

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you and minho were no doubt a really busy couple

you were busy with your uni and he was busy with his idol career 

but that didn’t stop ya’ll from seeing each other as often as ya’ll could

which was really often

because you two always found time for each other 

he was your pillar of support when you were going through tough times in uni and you were his when he was going through all the stress of idol life

well it’s pretty funny how ya’ll met

because lo and behold

you were jisung’s sister

one day when you go and visit your brother at the dorm because who else are you gonna annoy other than your twin brother

this amazingly handsome and hot and pretty and cute boy opened the door you were knocking on incessantly 

“yea yea i’m coming calm yourself wo-”

he just stopped mid sentence and stared at you 

and you stared at him

and you probably would have continued staring if it wasn’t for him shouting for jisung

“JISUNG WHY IS THERE A GIRL WHO LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE YOU AT OUR DOORSTEP”

but what you didn’t hear because of how distracted you were by the loud clashing noises coming from the dorm is the “but the cuter and prettier version of you” that minho uttered underneath his breath

before you could say anything

a wild jisung catapults straight into your arms and squeezes the life out of you

“OMG IT’S THE UGLY TWIN!!! I’VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH!!!!”

“jisung i saw your ugly ass two days ago”

“so???? i still miss you”

yep ya’ll were a cute pair of twins

so you were just spending the day with jisung when you ask the question that’s been on your mind since the moment the door to the dorm opened

“hey poop, who’s the guy that opened the door for me? you know the one who wasn’t very good looking or anything”

clearly you were amazing at being subtle

jisung gives you the side eyes and just goes “hmMMHmm” in his head

“that’s minho hyung. he’s the dancer in our team, born in 1998 and will probably date you”

you did a double take and just put on your innocent face like nOoooooO you totally didn’t want to date him

but you end up dating him anyway 

end of flashback and back to the present

you were done with your classes pretty early that day because one of your professors called in sick

and it just so happened to be your last class

so you messaged your boyfriend asking him if he was free for lunch

and perfectly, he was out and about with the rest of the boys filming the street mv for their song “rock” 

and he was clear from schedules for the rest of the day

so replies to your message saying that they were just done with filming and that he will meet you at the starbucks with the rest of the boys

and adds a lot of fluffly and cringey emojis

which makes your heart go baduMP BADUMP

you leave your campus with a smile on your face and make your way to the starbucks

the boys were already at said starbucks fighting over who was gonna pay for the drink we all know its gonna be chan in the end

when minho feels someone tapping his shoulder

he turns around to see his childhood girl best friend

he smiles the widest smile because he hadn’t seen her for years after she moved away from seoul

and grabs her in a hug

“omG i haven’t seen you for so long!!!! it’s been years, (f/n)!”

“tell me about it!!! my my look at you minho you haven’t changed one bit” his friend teased him

while all this was going on, the boys were gaping at the both of them

before jisung let out a really exaggerated cough and gave minho a pointed look that screamed “please explain as to why you’re fucking clinging onto this girl”

but minho doesn’t catch onto it because of how excited he was to see his best friend

“guys this is my childhood best friend, f/n!!! we grew up together since our diaper days and i haven’t seen her in years!”

jisung, clearly not pleased about it, mutters a “right” and turns towards the rest of the group who were clearly tensed up

minho, forgetting about the rest of his friends, grabs his friend’s hand and leads her to a table, where they sit and catch up on all the years they had missed

and while all these eventful things had been happening, it totally slipped minho’s mind that his girlfriend was on his way to the starbucks, excited to see him after a good week of hardly any time spent together

you walk into the starbucks and spot the boys first, but finding it odd that minho wasn’t with them

but you still walk over to them and greet them with a hug

“hey guys where’s minho?”

“umMMmm well you see he-”

and before chan could explain the situation to you, you hear the voice of your boyfriend that you would recognise anywhere 

accompanied by a girl’s voice

you whip your head around just to see the girl grab minho’s hand and say the words that made your whole world come crashing down around you in a split second

“i can’t believe i’m doing this now but i’m in love with you minho. since we were kids. but i was too scared to tell you because i was convinced you were going to reject me and we would lose our friendship. but over the years my feelings just got stronger and here i am pouring everything to you”

you immediately turn around on your heels and leave before the tears start falling because you hated crying in front of people

minho looks at his friend shocked not knowing what to reply, when he hears a door slam

he turns around just to catch a glimpse of your furious silhouette leaving the starbucks

what the fuck did he just do

he was about to get up and go after you but jisung who had, together with the rest of the boys, witnessed everything stopped him with a glare

“don’t” was the only thing he mutters before running after you

minho can only stand there shocked as the sight of his love leaving the store with anger, frustration and hurt, drives daggers into his heart 

that’s when he remembers that his friend is still sitting there, watching the whole scene unfold with an open mouth

“i’m sorry f/n but i already have a girlfriend who i really love more than anything. and i don’t know what i’ll do if i lose her”

the thought of losing you was enough to cause the tears to well up in his eyes

f/n nods and shoots him a sad but understanding smile, knowing that she had no chance with him because he was clearly with someone who made him happy

“it’s alright minho. i’m just glad i got it out of my system because it’s been eating my alive, not knowing what you were thinking. i’m really sorry for causing all this trouble....” she trailed off, looking at the door uncertainly

“it’s fine, really. you couldn’t have known” minho mumbled, still unable to concentrate fully when his thoughts kept wondering back to you

“can we..... can we still be friends?” 

minho shoots her a small but genuine smile and replies with a “best friends forever”

the two friends smile at each other and she encourages him with a “go get your girl”

that’s all he needed to scramble up to his feet and make his way towards the door

the rest of the boys who had been looking at the whole scene unfold, rushed towards him once they realised he had sorted things out with his friend

they shoot her an apologetic smile and leave the starbucks in a hurry, clearly wanting to help their teammate get his girl back

you, on the other hand, were in your and minho’s shared apartment, bawling your eyes out into your pillow

the rational part of your brain was telling you that you probably shouldn’t have jumped to a conclusion and left without an explanation

but 99% of your brain was ruled by irrationality at that point

you heard your brother’s voice float through the apartment, seemingly sounding closer and closer as he walked towards where you were

you felt the bed sink as he sat at the edge, rubbing your back and whispering for you to calm down

soon you calmed down, hiccupping here and there as you crawled into your brother’s arms 

“you know he loves you a lot right? i want to tell you that maybe you should have listened to him but i don’t think that’s what you need now”

“you literally just told me dipshit”

“oops i guess it was meant to be jammed into your brain”

you smacked your annoying but loving brother and sighed

“do you think it’s too late if i go back and ask for an explanation now?”

jisung just turned and looked at you like you were dumb

which you kinda were, at that point of time

“y/n, my sweet sweet dumb sister, even if you were to hit him i’m sure he couldn’t get mad at you. have u seen the disgusting googly eyes he has whenever he sees you?”

and following this statement, jisung fake gagged, earning a light slap from you

you looked at him with determination in your eyes and got up, ready to call your boyfriend when the door to your apartment burst open, with 8 boys falling in one after another

but one stood out to you; he always did 

ya’ll just stared at each other, unsure of what to say, when the rest of the boys took the hint and left the apartment

“so ummm...” you trail off, not knowing what to say now that you were cooled down with 99% of your brain back to rationality

but before you could start overthinking, minho interrupts and just starts off ranting

“im so sorry baby i swear i didn’t know she felt that way about me and also i didn’t mean to forget about you it’s just that i hadn’t seen her in a long time and she was my best friend since i was a kid and i really feel like i’ve ruined things but like i really don’t want you to leave me and-”

this boy wasn’t stopping even for a damn breath

so you did the first thing that came to your mind

you smacked his head 

i bet yall thought i was gonna say kiss him but nAh fam 

he let out a small ‘ouch’ but it got him to shut up 

“i understand now.... i’m really sorry for leaving without listening to your explanation. and don’t be silly i’ll never hate you. you provide me with way too much entertainment” you say and shoot him a cheeky smile

he rolls his eyes and crushes you in a hug, relieved that you will still remain his 

just then he realised something

“did you just smack my head to get me to shut up”

you laugh nervously and slowly try to get away from his grip when his hands shoot to your sides and start tickling you

you scream-laugh and try to get away from him but somehow you just end up dragging him onto the floor 

he was hovering above you still tickling you when you grabbed his hands to stop him

both of ya’ll breathing heavily from laughing too hard 

and he just stares at you with this soft smile because he still can’t believe how he scored someone like you

cue the same thoughts racing through your head

and this is where he actually leans in and kisses you softly because why not

ya’ll were really the cutest couple out there

the boys slowly open the apartment door, afraid that you had killed minho or something because you were known for your scariness when you were angry

and they see ya’ll having this soft moment and they just have different reactions in general

most of them either aww-ed or gagged

but jisung, being an idiot, walked over and kicked minho off of you and shot him the best brotherly glare he could muster 

which wasn’t really a glare 

was more like a squirrel trying to look upset

which is really cute

but anyways yes

“you pull this shit one more time and i’m gonna...i’m gonna...uhm.. idK what i’ll do but you watch your back” he said as he narrows his eyes and shows minho a ‘i’m watching you’ sign with his fingers

you stare at jisung and wonder how you were related to that... thing that clearly had no more than one brain cell

minho pretended to be scared to humour jisung and raised both his hands in surrender

“yes boss”

and that’s how you and minho have a prospering relationship, with more understanding, lesser fights, and 8 other third-wheels (or eight-wheels)

∞ end ∞

[asyouwish-jkjm]

I’ve been getting on Twitter a lot lately. That place can be either really lovely or a complete hellpit. I’ve seen a bunch of support for Bts but I’ve also seen a lot hate, especially towards a certain member( jimin). Antis, solo stans, evil demons in disguise. Whatever you want to call them. I’m new to this Army. I became an Army a few months ago. I never experienced this love of an artist before. I was a fan but never did I anticipate any release, I never stayed up until 4am to watch a mv. I never watched, researched lyric meanings or translations. I love music. Every kind really, I gravitate towards R&b but I have favorites in every genre. I went back to Bts first albums, I loved them, I read through lyrics and they hit me in my damn soul. I became obsessed, I was scheduled a vacation from work and had no plans. So i watched every run episode, bangtan bomb, rookie king, AHL, etc. I could find. I fell in love with artist for the first time in my 26 years. That feels so damn cringey to write. But it’s true. Not just with their personalities, but with their camaraderie, their brotherhood. They are a family. Not to mention their music, dance, and performances. I’m constantly awed by their performances. This is becoming a novel, but since this is my post, and i don’t know if anyone will even read this, I’m going all in. I’m a little rusty with writing. I used to write stories and poems when I was younger, but stopped because I lost inspiration and became depressed. This a love post for Ot7. So just fair warning if you don’t like ot7, I don’t really care.

•Namjoon - LEADER EXTRAORDINAIRE. His mind amazes me. Every time he opens his mouth I anticipate his words. I’ve heard people say he’s their future president. I would vote for him without hesitation. I envy the way expresses himself with both words and music. Bonus: he nearly ended me with his part in idol. I’m too embarrassed to admit how many times I replayed that scene.

•JIN- FIRST OF ALL I LOVE HIS VOICE. Epiphany slapped me in the face. His humor and his heart come next.His looks are far down the line of why I like him. He is so damn loyal. His dad jokes, are mostly lost in translation but he makes me laugh anyways. I could go on and on about him. His windshield wiper laugh. The way he loves and takes care of all his babies.

•YOONGI- HE IS A FUCKING GENIUS. He is the first member I felt a true connection to. I saw him on Ellen, he was so damn chill when she tried to scare them. I was impressed. I looked him up. I watched videos of him on YouTube. And then I started listening to his mixtape and reading the lyrics. Let just say THE LAST, fucked me up. He understood depression. He understood, what no one else had understood about me. He understood because he felt it himself. I was hooked.

•HOSEOK- SUNSHINE MADE MANIFEST. He is a joy to watch. Whether he dancing, rapping, laughing, or even screaming. Every time I watch anything Bts related, I’m always filled with happiness just watching anything he does. I respect the hell out of him, he is such a professional. He puts on amazing performances. Can I also add that, the man is damn fine. He is so underrated in the looks department that its almost criminal. Omg! I almost forgot his mixtape. Happiness. That’s what I feel when I hear his voice.

•JIMIN- LITERAL ANGEL/FAIRY. The first thought that came to mind was sex on a stick, but he’s so much more than that. He loves and cares for his people, it really touches me that he really tries not let anyone go unnoticed. His dancing. Sigh. Beautiful. His singing. Sigh. Angelic. His gaze. Gulp.Mesmerizing. Seriously that’s what he reduces me too. Moving on because I could talk about him forever.

•TAEHYUNG- FASCINATING CONUNDRUM. I will admit Tae puzzles the most out of all the members, maybe it’s because of the blank face he does so well. His voice captivated me. Both the deep and high notes that he does. Singularity was wonderful, I didn’t want it to end. Also his dancing is underrated, I love him especially in spring day. He really does remind of my little brothers. One second I want to give him a neck, the next I just want to cuddle him. Why I have no clue. I also loved Hwarang and cried when his character died.

•JUNGKOOK- GOLDEN MAKNAE/BUNNY.

This man is multi-talented. His voice is my favorite I’ll admit. He can sing anything and I’ll sit and listen. He whispers at me with his voice and I shudder. I love the swag he has when he dances. The videos and photos he’s released as part GCF, are freaking awesome. I love his competitiveness. I love how fucking fearless he is. But I also love that he’s an introvert, because I can relate. I love his nose and the way he scrunches it. But I’ll stop, cause I’ll keep going and get more cringey.

Overall I think I wrote too damn much and also not enough. I know there are many things I didn’t include, I also know there are also many things we all will never know about them. I just wanted to write about the many reasons I love them. Send some love and good energy to them. I think they get enough hate as it is. I also was inspired by a post on Twitter, it literally made me sick and fucking angry. It was post bashing one of the members. It inspired me because I wanted to fight that person but I knew there was no point. So instead of filling the world with more hate I wanted to write something good. Hopefully I succeed.

Also Note: the thing about giving tae a neck. Please read what I said before that carefully. I wrote that he reminds me of my younger brothers( who I would literally die for) so don’t get anything twisted.

[thegirlwiththedorkydad]

Bruised Hearts and Bloody Knuckles

Collab with the incredibly awesome @texting-bangtanbts

Y/N Pov

Sweat dripped off your face, occasionally mingling with a tear as the two droplets mixed together and left tracks on your face. The gym was essentially empty, especially considering it was almost midnight, aside from the employees and the one middle aged man on the opposite side of the room. You were lucky that this particular gym stayed open until midnight on the weekends. Lena cast a concerned glance your way every ten minutes or so, or rather whenever she looked up from her paperwork at the front desk. You had been there for several hours, stopping only when you absolutely needed water or a rest, and the young woman was beginning to worry for you. The music was turned down low, a soft hum, overpowered by the satisfying thud of your gloves against the leather bag hanging in front of you. Jab, cross, uppercut, hook, hook, uppercut. You chanted in your head repeatedly, your body following through the motions as you repeatedly punched the bag in front of you. The massive black bag swung slightly from the power with which you hit it, and you became so focused on beating the shit out of it that you stopped paying attention to anyone and anything around you. 

How could you be so stupid? Jab, cross, uppercut, hook, hook, uppercut. How could he be so stupid? Jab, cross, uppercut, hook, hook, uppercut. The events from earlier that day flashed and swirled behind your eyes, reminding you of the text messages that started it all. The way that he had completely disregarded how you would feel. Gritting your teeth, you swung at the bag harder, panting with effort. With a jolt, the bag swung backwards from the force of your hit, and you reached forward to grab it, resting your sweaty forehead against the leather and closing your eyes to take a breath. You took several shallow breaths, swallowing thickly to take in more air. There was absolutely no point in being angry. Even after years of being friends, Taehyung still couldn’t figure out that you liked him. You thought that by this point it would be obvious, considering every time he went on a date or talked about another girl you got a bit jealous. It was childish yes, but you couldn’t believe he still hadn’t figured it out.

A fresh wave of anger rolled over you as you remembered what he had said this time. “Princess syndrome” he had called it. Ignoring the protests from your legs and arms, you let go of the bag and sank back into your stance, rolling your neck and shoulders as you got ready to start your next round of punches. You took a deep breath before resuming your assault of the leather bag in front of you, brows furrowing in concentration, knuckles rubbing against the insides of the gloves despite wearing wraps.

“I didn’t know you boxed.” A deep voice spoke, startling you slightly as you went to deliver a cross. You chuckled dryly at his comment.

“I guess there’s a lot you don’t know about me Taehyung.” You replied, a hint of bitterness lacing your words. If he noticed it, he didn’t say anything. Out of the corner of your eye you could see him standing there, arms crossed as he watched you. Damn him. Why the hell did he always have to look so fucking attractive? You were supposed to be mad at him and then he shows up looking like a damn model. Shaking your head at your own thoughts, you delivered a particularly strong hook to the punching bag in front of you, the sound music to your ears. “How’d you find me anyway? I doubt you did it by yourself.”

Taehyung clenched his jaw ignoring the obvious jab at him, gritting his teeth before answering.

“Jimin.” Was all the boy said, his eyes locked on your figure as you landed blow after blow on the bag in front of you. You looked tired, not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. He could see it by the way your shoulders seemed to sag more and more after each punch.

“Bastard.” You muttered, cursing your other best friend under your breath between pants.

“Why did he know and not me?” Taehyung asked, failing to hide the slight edge in his voice. As if he realized how his question sounded he added quickly, “Or the rest of the boys for that matter.” You grinned to yourself, recalling how Jimin had discovered that you were a boxer. Grabbing the swinging leather bag, you smirked at the boy beside you.

“Who else do you think taught him?” You quirked your eyebrow teasingly, momentarily forgetting you were mad at the boy next to you. Taehyung’s eyebrows raised in surprise, recalling how Jimin had decided to try boxing before their Danger MV. Something about a more accurate portrayal. Even after the video was done, he had kept up with it. The others had always assumed it was simply because he liked it, but now Taehyung realized that it was because of you. It was simply a bonding activity with one of your best friends.

Staring at the boy in front of you, you finally took a moment to really take in his appearance. He was wearing a beanie, something that you felt should be illegal, and was dressed in his usual model-esque fashion. Clenching your jaw, you stopped yourself. You were mad at him, you reminded yourself. Eyes hardening, you angled your body back toward the bag and were readying yourself to punch again when a large hand grabbed your wrist stopping the motion of your arm. Your eyes trailed from the soft hand that had your wrist firmly in its grip, up to the brown eyes you had come to care for so much. Your lips parted slightly in shock at the situation you had found yourself in.

“Can we talk?” He asked you sincerely, his eyes searching yours for answers. You bit the inside of your cheek before you pulled your wrist from his hold, him easily letting you go.

“What’s there to talk about Tae?” You asked him, not meeting his eyes as you undid removed your hand from his grip, pulling your arms into your chest.

“Y/N, come on. We need to talk about what happened in the Group Chat today.” Taehyung said, making no move to stop you again as you returned to your punching combination.

“There’s nothing to talk about.” You replied shrugging at his words as you delivered a solid right hook to the bag.

“You blowing up at me is nothing to you?” Taehyung scoffed in disbelief. You tensed and shot him a glare.

“That’s not what I said.” You grit out, eyes blazing as fresh waves of anger and jealousy rolled over you. Taehyung scoffed again, crossing his arms and raising an eyebrow at you.

“Oh really? Because that’s what it sounds like you said.” His words snapped something inside of you. With a frustrated and guttural groan, you slammed your fist into the bag in front of you. Taehyung stiffened in surprise at your actions, you had never seemed this angry, or violent for that matter, before.

“That’s just it! You never fucking hear what I say!” You glared at the boy in front of you, your E/C eyes meeting his warm brown ones, the fire slowly freezing over and turning your glare cold. Not waiting for a reply you spun on your heel and stalked over to the bench where your bag sat, unstrapping the leather boxing gloves and throwing them on the ground.

“What the hell are you talking about?” Taehyung threw his hands in the air exasperated, following you over to the bench, an irritated expression gracing his usually jubilant features. You rolled your eyes at his ignorance.

“Oh! And let’s not forget what you said to me. ‘Princess syndrome’ I believe is what you called it, oh and petty and stupid too.” You sneered, reaching down to grab your previously discarded gloves and throw them inside your gym bag.

“Hey! You blew up at me for no reason first. Remember?” Taehyung retorted, his deep voice not holding any of its usual warmth. You froze at his words. Did he really have no idea why you reacted the way that you did?

“You really don’t get it… do you.” You mumbled, the break in your voice barely audible as you gingerly ran your fingers over your raw and reddened knuckles, turning to face him. Despite being wrapped, your several hour-long stint with the punching bag had left the tops of your knuckles red and raw, and a few of them were bleeding slightly. In hind sight, you probably shouldn’t have spent the first half an hour with the bag sans gloves, but you were in such an emotional rage that you didn’t care at the time.

“Damn it Y/N!” Taehyung slapped his hand against the wall next to him, causing you to jump slightly. He looked down at you, his height advantage, although small, making him even more intimidating. His eyes were blazing in anger and annoyance, but upon seeing you flinch they immediately softened. Dropping his hand, he followed your eyes to your knuckles, swearing under his breath. He reached for your hand slowly, but you drew your hands back into your chest.

“Don’t.” You told him softly, still not meeting his eyes as you slowly began to unwrap your fists. The anger he had felt previously now mingled with the feeling of hurt that had blossomed inside of him. First you hadn’t told him about what was obviously a large part of your life, and now you wouldn’t even let him help you.

“Why? What the hell did I do? Huh Y/N? What did I do?” Taehyung fired off his questions at you, his voice rising with each statement. You glared at him eyes blazing.

“You really don’t know?” You asked him, your voice barely a whisper. Although if you listened closely, you would be able to hear the note of sorrow that was buried beneath your words. Taehyung looked at you bewildered.

“If I knew, we wouldn’t be having this conversation!” He exclaimed, running his hand through his light brown hair in frustration. You looked at the boy in front of you. Even when he was angry he was undeniably beautiful. From his hair to his boxy smile that you adored so much. To the times that the two of you sat on the couch for hours binge-watching Anime. To the times that he had come to tell you all about a date that he went on. He was clueless about how much you cared about him. He had no idea how much it hurt when he ranted and raved about a date, how whenever he talked about how hot a girl was you would look her up on social media and compare yourself. How it felt like a knife in your chest whenever he came home from a date with a huge smile on his face.

“Why did I have to fall in love with an idiot?” You mumbled to yourself, not noticing the way that Taehyung’s shoulders tensed at your words. As soon as you realized that you had said your thoughts out loud your fingers stopped idly unwrapping your wrists and your eyes snapped up to meet his. The two of you stood wide-eyed and frozen for a moment before anyone spoke.

“What did you say?” Tae stuttered, his husky voice wavering in shock. You shook your head rapidly.

“I’m sorry. I just can’t get hurt anymore. I fucking can’t Tae.” You responded, tears pricking at the corners of your eyes. He knew. He fucking knew. Your friendship was over. The two of you stood staring at each other for a moment in silence before Taehyung turned around and walked away. Your eyes glazed over in tears and you sank down to the floor, forgetting about the rawness of your knuckles and your half-undone wraps, drawing your knees to your chest and wrapping your arms around them. You took shaky breaths as you sat on the gym floor. Your skin was salty with dried sweat and your face was now streaked with tears as your shoulders shook, heaving with each sob.

Without warning, someone gently took your half-unwrapped fist in their hand and continued to unwrap it. At first you assumed it was Lena, but the hands were too large, and far too warm to belong to your friend. Your spine stiffened and you slowly removed your head from its place nestled between your knees. Taehyung was crouched in front of you, gingerly unwrapping your fist, his gaze trained intently on your raw knuckles. As the wrap dropped to the floor, you watched mesmerized as the boy in front of you reached beside him to grab the wet towel he had brought over and sat on the bench, using it to dab softly at the raw skin.

The two of you sat in silence as he cleaned and wrapped your knuckles with a roll of gauze he must have gotten from the front desk. After securing the wrapping on your right fist he brought your hand up to his lips and pressed a gentle kiss to the top of your hand. You stared at Taehyung, your mouth dropping open slightly. He smiled his boxy smile, the one that you loved so much, at your expression.

“Why did I have to fall in love with an idiot?” He asked you softly glancing down at your now bandaged fists pointedly. You opened and closed your mouth at his words, as Taehyung’s eyes were trained on you.

“I…” You trailed off, “I thought you left.” You admitted pulling your hand up to wipe the streaks of tears from your cheek. Taehyung softly grabbed your hand, moving it to the side before he used his large hand to cup the side of your face, thumb wiping away a stray tear.

“I’m sorry for what I said.” He muttered softly to you as you unconsciously leaned into his palm. You gave him a half smile.

“I’m sorry I blew up at you…” Your voice trailed off as you bit your lip trying to regain control of your emotions. Taking a shaky breath, you looked over Taehyung’s shoulder, focusing your gaze on the one of the punching bags suspended over the gym floor. “Every time you talk about a date, or a girl, it felt like someone was punching me in the chest. I would compare myself every chance I got, trying to understand what was so great about them.” You chucked dryly, shaking your head at yourself, “I know its petty and stupid.”

“Y/N, I’m so sorry that I didn’t say anything to you earlier. Fuck, I’m sorry that I didn’t notice how upset you got whenever I talked about a date.” The deep voice of the boy in front of you drew your eyes back to him. He glanced down at your hands shaking his head in disappointment and disgust. “And now you’re hurt because I was a dick and you decided to take out all of your emotions on a punching bag.” You quirked the corner of your lips at his words.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you that I box.” You said sheepishly. Tae looked at you in disbelief, your eyes widening as he threw back his head and laughed.

“How about we make it up to each other.” He suggested, a soft smile overtaking his features, watching you intently as he spoke, “Over dinner? Tonight?” You bit your lip as you stared at the boy you loved, his smile growing at your answer.

           “It’s a date.”

So this is the first imagine that I’ve ever written and posted somewhere so I hope you all enjoy it. And a huge huge thank you to the talented @texting-bangtanbts for making the awesome texts!

[hyunniebyuns21]

Things I've said that are proven to be iconic idc (pt.1)

[About Ariana Grande] She owns my ass 😔 Like crack that whip mami, in those stilettos show em who's boSS

Sippity sippity its time for tea tippity

This is a dAb fReE hOuSeHoLd

Why shitting c r a y o n s

I will shove that liquid soap down your throat, don't fUckIn tEsT mE

*gets in car crash at 16* I told you gays can't fuckin drive, now I'm dead

Don't brUh mE. This ain't no bro cult

You rotten shaved coconut, get out from under the tree!

I don't dance on command, excuse you

How are we doing on this depressed, homosexual afternoon?

What the flip flop

*gay subby screaming*

DID Y'ALL FUCK IN THE BATHTUB WITH THE BLUE JUICE

Bold of you to assume you're married

Tell me all about it though cause I could use some fresh, gay tea

wE dOnT sIsTeR sTaN cUbE

Imma bitch slap you with some kimchi

I'm sorry, but what in the 50 sHadEs oF fUckEry iS tHis!?

Richard is always a c u n t

WE DON'T NEED NO MORE CRISPS RICHARD DAMN

I aInT pLaYiN tHeSe hEt aSs gAmEs

All I'm saying is...REDDIE IS ENDGAME AND THAT'S THAT

Maybe I should open my own store for cum saturated products

Meanwhile I spent what felt like 20 minutes in the bathroom trying to figure out how to put on a choker :)

If you wish to skip survey, too fucking bad fill it out anyways

At this point, no one is okay

"tik tok" oh, you mean cancer?

34 dAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS AND YOU KNOW WHAT MAKES FESTIVITIES MORE FESTIVE? SOME GAY ASS CHRISTMAS THEMED FANFICTIONS

*eats hersheys* I don't even like hersheys, I'm just eating away my nonexistent will to live

*watching Mexican MV* it's not even ten seconds in and I want some chips and salsa

Skidaddle skidoodle I don't want your noodle

*drinks apple juice* it's the fetuses alcohol

Bold of you to assume I'm straight, jULIE

My desire to be with guys is like the desire to be like my mom; there is no desire

Child Chill - the artificial pill for your child to chill the fuck out :)

I am going to throw my solo cup of chocolate milk at your sTuPidLy aTtrActiVe face!

The best excuses are made by those who have the capability to do it, but just seek their way out.

Confidentiality doesn't make you any less of who you actually are.

Whenever my gaydar goes off, it plays Applause by Lady Gaga

....congratulations, the risk of me committing something dangerous and self deprecating has increased by 20% :)

He's on his period. His MANstrual cycle!

I wonder what these [the egg dyes] would taste like. Especially the pink one, it looks like a very dark colored margarita.

Hickity heckity I want death

[jungkooknope]

My BTS The Wings Tour Experience

I wanted to officially post my rant about my first BTS concert ever, so here you go.

May 6, 2017 The BTS Wings Tour in Manila happened. Okay, so I’ve been in to like 2 concerts before BTS in my whole life, and every time: the members would be incomplete. I was cautious when I finally bought my ticket, because I’ve been rejoicing about the fact that I’d finally see a concert with ALL the members present, but I was still cautious.

Anyway, I left my home at around quarter to 9AM because I waited for my friend to get at my house before leaving. I also had a few friends who was going to sell on the venue, so we basically walked around the venue selling things, there was a total of 7 of us. After walking around, we went through the same place we’ve gone through. We passed through a pedestrian lane, when suddenly a white van and an ambulance came through right in front of us. We stopped and let them pass through, without knowing that it was actually them inside!!! How did we know, here’s how it went. After letting those vehicle through, we crossed the lane and went back to the building of the venue itself ((we went to a coffee shop before, it’s like our headquarters lol)) We passed through it again, with the sea of people present; sweaty and screaming. I turned a bit claustrophobic after that. While selling things, a few girls approached to buy from us, and they were freaking out. I asked them what happened because I needed to be filled in too. I’m a fan that cares~ So this tall girl explained everything how they just arrive with the ambulance. She mentioned Jungkook being so tall, Jimin being flawless, and I believe she mentioned Yoongi being pale as f, but that was all that I was able to get from her — The main thing was they were very tall and handsome.

After that, we became grumpy and hungry for walking around for so long — especially me, since I didn’t eat my breakfast. We have like 7 hours more to go before the actual concert but we were grumpy, annoyed, and tired. We ate at a cheap fast food place, that would satisfy our appetite + would offer us seats. We all ate quietly until we all started to talk about one of the best of BTS’s performance: Rainism, Best Man, 말하자면, and etc. so after that we all turned sunshines glowing with happiness again. The shift of our mood was honestly fast and hilarious.

We left the place to go back to our headquarters - the coffee shop, since our friend treated us with free coffee. I have a low tolerance for caffeine so I was ready to get hyped after drinking one. I bought some goods from a Jimin fansite, and then we all left to line up for the entering of venue. That nice friend who treated us with drinks, had a bunch of Jimin photo cards, that caused an uproar to us - thus causing a few head turns from the other people. It was funny because people actually approached our circle asking for some freebies, thinking that my friend did the “find me on the venue and you’ll get something something”.

Now, after this something terrible happened. I’m not going deep into it, but it ruined the Pre Concert mood for me. So, there we go. We lined up, and at the 1st phase there was this herd of people sharing sweats and breaths just to get in — again activating my anxiety. We finally got through that, and the 2nd phase was to line up in a snake pattern, which wasn’t so bad since the 1st phase was honestly the worst. We got our bags checked, then we got inside. We needed to go up though because our seats are above the VIP sections. I changed clothes since I was walking around all day, sweaty and stuff.

We finally went inside the venue, and went in looking for our seats. We were at the very side, wherein we could move a few steps to the unoccupied seats to see the backstage. We probably had one of the worst seats, but I was thankful enough that I got a ticket. Of course, they had their MVs playing but no one was really singing during this time since the place wasn’t even halfly packed. But, my friends and I were really singing it all out even though we didn’t know the lyrics, and people were starting to look at us. The crowed became packed just in time, and when BST was playing on the screen; I was surprised that everyone started to do the fan chant: “Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung, Jeon Jungkook, BTS!” And everyone was singing too! We had a fan project dedicated with this song, and everyone just started to chant the fan project — it was like our practice, per say. Spring Day then played, and everyone went nuts, we chanted their names and sang the whole song. I was expecting Not Today MV to play since it hasn’t been played yet, and we were at the most recent MVs part already BUT!!!! The Spring Day ended, they shut the lights off and the fREAKING VCR STARTED. The LED TVs were freaking tilted way to much that we couldn’t even have a good time watching it, since we were seated at the MOST side of the venue. We all turned nuts over the crappy seats but we all eventually calmed down, NOT UNTIL WE SAW THEM BEHIND THE CURTAIN. Guys, I was seating at the farthest part of the venue, I see the front part of the main stage and that’s where they were. Then, BAM! Curtain’s down and NOT TODAY started. We were going all gaga and continued screaming for the whole 1st verse, and we all tried to sing along after calming ourselves.

Their concert was really lit, they started off hard. Like they were no joke ((which they aren’t)) but then they started to go smooth as they reach the end. They spoke my language during their ments, and they were so adorable — especially Jimin who was being all fluffly during the ments.

So, my bias is Jungkook — still is. The thing is I SWERVED WAY TOO MUCH. I accept the fact that Jimin is my bias wrecker, but the whole group. Honestly, they were too freaking hot on stage.

Let’s skip some stuff. Okay, Baepsae performance. I swerved and did not stay on my lane. JIMIN. FREAKING. PARK. JIMIN. I would look at my bias, but Jimin wouldn’t let me, it’s like he’s telling me that “Oh no no, you can’t. When I’m right here.” He was so hot on Baepsae that I did let my eyes linger on him for a few minutes, he dances so smooth, honestly. Silks have nothing to say when it comes to Park Jimin. My bias, Kookie, killed me with those hip thrusts. Honestly, he was pulling his butt out just to give everyone that— okay, let’s stop now.

DOPE came on, and of course we sang this song, and Yoongi’s part was done as well, the “energy energy energy~” and “enemy enemy enemy~”. It was soo lit.

Now, the solo stages. Jungkook started with Begin. This isn’t one of my fave songs in the album even though it’s my bias who wrote and produced that song but I felt that “I finally have my bias on stage on his own.” This was the only stage that I never watched on YT during their concert outside my country, but really I kind of turned emotional. He grew so much, his presence on stage is different, and his voice gahd. But of course, since I fell inlove with Jungkook again my bias wrecker had to swoop in. Jimin appeared on stage with the dancers, and I just knew it was going to be Lie. This was one of my fave solos ever and the choreography was so on point. Anyway, he broke the bias list again. First Love came in, but Yoongi stayed on the back part of the main stage; WHEREIN I COULDN’T SEE A SINGLE THING. :—( it was sad. The same thing happened with Stigma, Reflection, and Awake — we sang the whole song with Jin btw, it was beautiful. The crowd was beautiful. DURING MAMA though, can we please talk about Hobi. This performance was one of the best I’ve seen and it honestly have something to do with his stage presence and charisma. Because he woosh-ed himself to the top, trying to get Jungkook’s position on my list.

Lost. This song slapped me on the face, it was the song that made me realize that I am seeing them live!! Now, their outfits for this song… I love them, I have nothing to say but simply: I love it soo much. They look so fluffy. Taehyung had this striped one, wherein he was showing more skin than he should be. I can see his collarbones and the skin on his back, honestly it made his shoulder look huge. But I am not complaining! During SAVE ME, we all sang Namjoon’s part: the one with “Thank you -Korean Korean-”. Yup, and he gave us a cute smile with dimples and a thumbs up. During I Need U, the best thing that happened was Jimin didn’t sing his part on the last chorus but he let us sing his part while they danced~~~ I’m soft for this fluffy Jimin~~

I was losing my voice at this point, and it just had to keep on breaking just when Cypher pt. 4 came on. This stage was so lit. Hobi looked so good wearing those damn shades, but Yoongi will be my forever bias whenever it came to Cyphers. Okay, for sure everyone sang the first part of Namjoon’s with his “sorry bae” and the English part. The annoying thing was I memorized Yoongi’s part but it’s not a fancy quality upload because my voice sucks, okay bye.

The Medley thing… It was awesome, Namjoon and Jimin kept gaining my attention but I always push myself to look at Jungkook, it was hard. The temptation was everywhere. During Danger though, Taehyung was drinking his water bottle while calmly dancing and I was expecting him to throw his water so I had my cam out but he simply placed his bottle back on stage, and left the fans hanging. Damn tease.

Boy Meets Evil. Now, this was the moment I was waiting for because I’ve played the dance practice a hundred times!! BUT, my favorite part was cut off. You know the part of “Too bad~ But it’s too sweet” they cut that off. In the video that I took you can honestly hear a clear “What the hell??” Hobi, you’re beautiful. You’re the sunlight falling through trees, you are the laughter that breaks through sadness, you are the clarity in the midst of confusion. ((10 points to those who can get where I got this from))

BST. Since this was included in our fan project, the crowd sang the whole  damn song. Yoongi’s first part was sung by us not Yoongi, actually. Yoongi simply raised his mic up and let us sing. On the 2nd chorus, Hobi didn’t sing his part anymore too, and he let us sing. “Wonhae Manhi Manhi (L)a~” It sounded so nice.

OUTRO: Wings. We had a fan project here, again. Which was to raise the banner that had Namjoon’s line from RUN on it. As you can see from the photo, I’d say it was a success since they took a picture with the banner!~~

2! 3!. This song was an emotional one since it’s favorite after Spring Day, no I did not cry. But, it was beautiful because we all calmed down to sing with them. My friends and I wanted to continue singing until the end, just like the one in Seoul and I was happy that it happened. It was beautiful I’ll never forget that moment. Our purple ocean for this song didn’t look visible but when the lights turned off for Spring Day, it became more visible.

Spring Day. My fave song. Again, a fan project: pink and green ocean. Since I sang ’til the last of 2! 3! I wasn’t able to change the plastic, thus allowing me to miss Jimin’s dance on the instrumental part of the song. Which sucked but, there we had the iconic “bogoshipda~” EVERYONE WAS SINGING, I kinda freaked out since the crowd sounded so beautiful then we all just continued singing until the end. I was actually expecting people to go nuts and scream at Tae’s part, the “You know it all, you’re my best friend~” but everyone sang so loud on that part, I wish they heard us. Everyone screamed when the lights turned off and they were taking off their oversized polos, until the first notes of Spring Day on the piano played. We sang the “oooh woaah~~” continuously. 

Again, another beautiful moment: The boys bowing as a thanks and we singing as a thanks.

It was one of the best concerts, and I swear to myself that I’d go back to see them again. I love you Bangtan! Fly high this 2017~~~