#anyways I don't know shit about this coworker whose name I got I've been here for a couple weeks and honestly I'd rather not spend money on

[marigoldenchrys]

the unexpected date

Let's call this guy I had a date with (in my dream), John. Oh wait, that's literally his second name but anyway, here I go.

Last Friday afternoon of August 11, I had a dream. It's not strange, it's not weird, not scary, and I can't also say happy(?) because although I was happy in that dream, I knew it doesn't feel like how it should feel in real life if I was on a date with John.

Who's John? He is a former coworker, a batchmate on my first ever job. He wasn't converted as a regular employee and I'm not sure why.

What was he like being a coworker? He's cool, one glance at him and you might think he's innocent because of his face but let him talk and you'll see. He ain't the angel you think he is. He smokes, he vapes, he drinks, (so do I) and one thing that I'll forever think about him is that he gossips like a woman. I hate that part of him. I don't know him that much or more like, I didn't get to know who he really is and what he does off work, when at home or whatsoever but I think he's a bit of a good man(?). I'm not 100% sure, really.

There was one time when some of my coworkers wanted to get some drinks, it was after our shift which was around 4am in the morning, yes, and then I was originally thinking of drinking alone because I thought it's better, just me, no noisy people beside me. Just soju and peace, ya' know? Lol. Anyway, they were able to convince me to join them. It was fun anyway. But on our way to where we're gonna get drinks, the rest of the group was ahead of us, by us I mean me and John. So we actually got to chitchat a bit. I remember him sharing that he got his own air conditioner for his room when we started receiving our salary. I may or may not have asked if he has some mixed race because of his eyes. I think he has a monolid eyes(?), not sure but you know, eyes like most Korean/Japanese/Chinese people. I don't remember if he said yes or no, but I think, not sure again, he mentioned having a neighbor whose Japanese(?). And other stuff I no longer remember. Honestly, it felt good talking to him that time because he seemed like a normal guy, like he's just tryna go with the flow of life or something. I wasn't uncomfortable. Wait, I just remembered haha! He also talked about college and studying, and abroad.

So that's John's introduction. Here's the dream I've been dying to share haha!

***

I think we all know that in our dreams the settings are freaking weird and the way it changes is crazy. So please don't mind if I suddenly mentioned that we're in some kind of magical paradise shit playing soccer in front of millions of people with the big aliens above us watching and eating some trees as if it was popcorn.

We were in a room full of ladies and gents. Inside the room there is a big rectangular table that almost consumes the entirety of the room. It didn't matter where you wanted to sit but we were all facing each other from across the table. Some men are on the right side, some women are on the left side and vice versa.

I didn't know what I was doing there. I didn't know what was the purpose of us gathering there inside the room. And so a flashback hit me. I was talking to a girl, a friend, and my words were..

"John? No. Never! I can't imagine dating a guy like him. He's obviously a playboy! He's not serious about relationships and you know me. I don't do games with love. So, nope! Not dating him. Won't ever imagine dating him. He's probably an asshole and would only treat me badly."

And there I was, standing right next to John, who has that very, very, nice smile on his face. So I was confused, but I said nothing. I looked around and was amazed by how beautiful the place we were surrounded with. Then our date started. We went from here and there, vendor to vendor, variety of stalls and all I could hear from him was:

"Do you like this? I'll buy it for you." , "This looks good on you. Let me get it for you." , "Are you hungry? I'll pay for your food." , "You wanna get some milktea? Go ahead, order some and I'll pay." , "Let me get some pictures of you here." , "You look so good in this picture."

All throughout our date, he was annoyingly nice and gentle and thoughtful and sweet and I felt happy, comfortable, special, so loved and cared for and I wanted it to not end. Just let it keep going. I still remember clinging on to his arms. Me smiling felt like it was never-ending. I was jumpy and so excited with every new activity we tried on.

The date was done and we were calming ourselves for all the fun we had. But we both still have that smile on our faces. I can see through his eyes the pure intention he only has for me. It was unusual. The date was unexpected. I was happy and was enjoying everything but deep inside my mind there was a voice that kept telling me, "This isn't how it should be. This is not the usual. It's not right."

I was about to ask him why. Why did he do this? Why is that all of a sudden he's so nice? Why is he in my dream? When I wasn't even thinking about him in real life. But my dream started glitching and then I-

***

My phone was ringing. Someone's calling but I know who it was so I just declined the call and couldn't get back to sleep.

My heart felt weird. I don't like him though.

this song might not fit the content but you get it haha!

[trifoliate-undergrowth]

today my manager walked up and informed me that since I’m a seasonal worker and I missed a time limit on packaging an order by 1 minute that 1 time, if I miss another then that will be my last day on the job adios. she then without the slightest pause made me take a name for secret santa and explained the rules to me. I’m standing there like how am i going to participate in secret santa if i’ve been fired 

later, a fellow seasonal worker suddenly said something along the lines of ‘let me offer you some advice, ok? these people act really nice and they’ll laugh and joke with you and you think they’re your friends but they’ll write you up over the smallest infraction and fire you without a moment’s notice. do not trust them.” and I was like. yeah. yeah

fortunately this job sucks so I’m not terribly upset about the possibility of losing it