#anyway. i was so super anxious today i was able to finish this wow! love my life
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cordiallyfuturedwight · 4 months ago
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bangtan boys in turtlenecks (15/??) cr. 0613data, namuspromised
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coridallasmultipass · 2 years ago
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Finished crocheting my first sweater ever! Also, I'm 29 now. (Yikes.) 🌸🌸🌸🌸 I started this sweater on the 23rd and finished it today on the 29th (7 days wow!) I'm still going to add pockets to it, but I definitely don't feel like doing that yet because it means sewing fabric onto yarn, and I'm TIRED. I stayed up till 4am last night trying to finish this thing for my birthday lmao. 🌸 But yeah, I didn't follow any pattern, just made it up as I went along and measured as I went along and just hoped it would all fall together nicely, and it did! The fit is perfect. It's also weird having the holey stripes, because I can feel the cool air gushing in through there, but because the yarn is warm, it's just weird? Like being hot and cold at the same time. 🌸 The yarn is Loops & Threads Flecks and I LOVE IT SOOOO MUCH. It only took 2 skeins of each pink colour to do the main body of the sweater! (And 1.5 of the Dollar Tree Premier yarn for the black trim.) Which, just blows my mind, because you look up a pattern for a sweater and it's always like "10 skeins of yarn required" like who tf can find 10 skeins of the same colour yarn in a store?? Anyway, I love the yarn and it's soo soft and gentle against my skin. Also. Thumb holes. 👍👍 My birthday was meh. Got to go out for a coffee and muffin. But that's okay, because I was extremely depressed and anxious anyway, so anything more than that would have probably been too much for me to do. Right now, I'm starting up Cyberpunk 2077 again since it's been a hot minute since I played last, but I have to try and sleep earlier tonight because I have to walk to my therapy appointment tomorrow morning ughh. While I currently have a back spasm going on. Dunno if I'll be able to make it there, but I'm going to try. It's super painful to walk faster than a snail's pace. Dunno how it happened, but that's my life. 🤕🌸🤕🌸 #me #selfie #crochet #crocheting #pink #pinklyfe #crochetsweater #loopsandthreads #loopsandthreadsflecks #yarn #yarnaddict #fiberart #handmade #homemade #freestylecrochet #patternlesscrochet #birthday #29thbirthday #29 #bday https://www.instagram.com/p/Clk2rMXuzJz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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toosweetfiddlesticks · 4 years ago
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Can I request something with Mirio Togata x male intimidating reader? So like the reader is really tall and scary looking but is a totally sweetheart when you actually talk to him. So even Mirio was a little wary at first but as soon as they actually talk he immediately falls for him.
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Paring: Mirio x Male! Intimidating! reader
Summary: Mirio’s usual friendly demeanor was tarnish by the freakishly tall y/n. He always seem to be a bit solemn and cold. But, with just one little introduction, Y/N’s sweet and warm personality caught Mirio by surprise and his heart.
Side note: tysm for the request, I really appreciate it! 💕
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Mirio’s eyes hastily glanced away from the lingering and spine-chilling stare of Y/N. Now, Mirio wasn’t the type to hesitate in social interactions. His many classmates could agree that he had a bright and sunny personality. He could talk to the most awkward, weirdest, grumpiest person in the world and crack at least a smile on their face. He was friendly and socialized with everyone.
But when Y/N came into the classroom, Mirio would feel a bit daunted from his mere presence.  
He almost resembled a giant, towering over all his other classmates and colleagues. And his face was devoided of humor. Mirio would say he’s was quite dignifying, if it weren’t for the chilling stare he gave people almost if not all the time. But besides the chilling eerie expression, Mirio would have to admit that Y/N was a good looking guy. Y/N has stolen a couple of Mirio’s glances, peeks, or stares. He just seemed a little...ya know, scary. 
Once class was over, Mirio caught another peek of Y/N once again before focusing back on packing his bag once Y/N glanced his way. Mirio hummed a little as the quick taps of Nejire’s shoes and the dragging feet of Tamaki came towards him. Nejire’s long light blue hair pushing and rubbing around the anxious boy’s flustered cheeks and eye. A broad smile wore on her face.
“Mirio!” She waved a hand towards Mirio, catching his attention. His face had the iconic Mirio smile painted all over it as Tamaki struggled to pull Nejire’s hair out of his face. He felt his cheeks burn from embarrassment as people were already staring at the two cause of her call towards Mirio. “You doing anything today?” Nejire asked. Mirio rubbed his thumb and pointer finger against his chin in thought. Besides some studying, he’s schedule for the complete day was empty.
“Nothing besides studying to night.” Nejire smiled and clapped her hands together at Mirio’s reply. The two completely ignoring the still struggling Tamaki.
“Great!” She cheered, “Y/N-” Tamaki, who was able to swim and free himself from the sea of Nejire’s hair, cut Nejire off before she could finish. He eyes staring intensely at the enormous student leaning on the wall through window.
“Is scary.” Tamaki remarks, making Mirio nod in agreement. 
“No silly!” Tamaki winced at the loud laugh that bubbled up in Nejire’s voice. “Wanted to know if he could hangout with us today at the mall.” She explained, “He’s been really wanting to talk to you guys.” The boys reaction made it seem like she was talking about cannibalism. Their eyes nearly bludged out of their skulls, earning a small look of puzzlement at the two.
Y/N, the guy that gives the most deadliest death stares...Wanted to hang out with us?
“Come on guys, he’s super nice once you give him a chance.” Mirio internally questioned her statement. Super nice? Maybe he was being a little too judgmental. “Mirio, you always love meeting new people.” Mirio couldn’t argue with that. 
“You do have a point.” Tamaki concerningly stares at Mirio and worries at his words. But no matter how much he wanted to protest, the two had their minds made up. He mumbled a few words along the lines of agreement, his hand clinching the arm of his other.
“As long as he is as nice as you say..” Mirio heard mutttered under Tamaki’s breath. Seconded that.
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Nejire cheerfully hopped along to Y/N with the other two weary behind her. Y/N’s back leaned on the exposed brick wall, his expression the usual blankness besides the cold stare he was giving his phone. As the other two behind her were a bit confused on why Y/N was giving his phone the death stare, Nejire swung her hands high in air as the reached him closer, catching his attention. She chirped up, yelling his name with a smile.
“Y/N!” she yelled. While Nejire jogged over to Y/N, Tamaki and Mirio’s pace only seemed to increase by alittle. A shiver were crawling down both of their spines. Wow, how is he able to be leaning against a wall look intimidating, pretty impressive, scary, but impressive.
The more they got closer, the more of the sense of anxiousness snaked around Mirio. He looked at Nejire, she was excited to see him. And she really wanted them to meet Y/N. It would be mean to hurt Nejire’s feelings Mirio swallowed his anxiety.
With a determined look in his eyes, Mirio began to walk more proudly and with confidence. Ok then!, Mirio internally exclaimed, Y/N’s a nice guy, and wants to be friends. It’s time to make a friend.
Mirio gave his most friendliest smile and locked eyes with the taller boy. But unlike the intimidating stern Y/N usually give people, his eyes enlighten with a spark of surprise and happiness just like the rest of his face. It seemed so much brighter than his usual blank expression. Did Mirio see a look of... excitement? Y/N cheeks rised like the sun, his smile being even brighter. With a small laugh, he broke eye contact to hug Nejire and a shocked Tamaki.
“Hi! I hope I didn’t ruin any plans for you guys or anything.” He spoke with cheerfulness. “I don’t really have many friends and you guys seemed friendly.” Nejire waved him off and gave his cheek a soft pinch with a smile as his scratched the back of his head. He turns his attention back to Mirio again, “Hug?” Mirio’s felt a sense of a indescribable feeling in his chest.
“Of course!” Mirio replied. There as no longer a feeling of weary or hesitation, expect embracement. The feeling of Y/N’s hands closing in around Mirio’s shoulders was, warm and soft. His breathing was slow and he squeeze tight, embracing Mirio as much as he could. The feeling was like hugging a big soft teddy bear.
Woah
Y/N and Mirio thought. Mirio’s smile was so sweet and his ocean blue eyes were as deep as the seas. He’s touch opened a cage of buttflies in Y/N stomach, swirling around up to his heart
Y/N’s warm touch made Mirio’s heart jump in excitement. His smile shined as bright at the other.Their touches to on another, felt like electricity on each other skins. Their hug lasted longer than it should have, but it didn’t bother each other. (But Nejire and Tamaki was lowkey confused)
Y/N finally let go, with a feeling of warmth on his cheeks.
“They have ice cream that’s really good.” He words were almost fumbled, “Wanna go get some guys, I can pay if you want!”
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“You sure you don’t want me to drop you two off?” Y/N concernly ask. Him and Mirio sitting on the sidewalk, finishing up their second ice cream of the day. With bags of clothing in one hand and Tamaki’s hand in another, Neijire waved Y/N’s concerned look.
“Don’t worry.” Her brigths reassurance calmed Y/N worries down a little. “Tamaki and I live close together anyway!” And with that, Tamaki and Nejire began to walk away, Nejire skipping happily off with Takami being pulled along. She waved at them with her bag filled hand once again before skipping away. “Bye!”
“Bye!” Comfortable silence consumed the two boys after waving to Nejire back.
As the sun began to slowly creep away, Mirio’s eyes casually examined his friend. Even now he was surprised at how open and friendly Y/N is. He guessed he never noticed Y/N bright e/c (eye color) eyes with that soft look in it. It always seemed to be so intimidating from far away. Either way, the intimidation is in the past and he’s happy to say that Y/N was his friend now.
Once the sun was completely gone, the boys were about to go separate ways...
Until
“Y’know,” Y/N spoke, “I was always kinda of intimidated by you.” Y/N looked back to see Mirio’s widened eyes with honest ones. His hands shoved down into his pocket as Mirio looked at home with puzzlement. His eyebrows furrowed and his eyes squinted, wondering if he was serious.
“Really?” As mirio approached closer to Y/N again, Y/N in confirmation.
“Yep.” Y/N answered. Sighs left his mouth as he looked at the now appearing stars. He watched them sparkle and gleam back down at him. “You’re strong and you have such a powerful quirk.” He continued. “On top of that, you were always so kind to people. I guess you can say I was kinda jealous of you and the people around you.” He looked back down at Mirio, his head tilted at the h/c (hair color) boy.
“Jealous?” He asked. ”Why jealous?” Y/N approached Mirio closer as he continued, “I mean you have any amazing quirk yourself?” He countered but was only left with a chuckle.
“I wasn’t jealous of your quirk.” Y/N replied, “I was jealous of the people that got to see your beautiful smile, Mirio.”
Y/N smirked at Mirio slowly began to notice how close they were. His high cheeks were began to pour with pink, and his face began to warm. Y/N’s chest filled with a feeling of fuzzy warmness as their noses seemed to almost touch. Their eyes were glued on each other’s lips.
“Y/N..” Mirio slowly said. “Can...” Y/N’s nostrils flared as Mirio inhaled. He mentally prepared himself for this, “can I kiss you?”
Silence engulfed each other. The stars watched the two stand in the thick air of tension. Y/N almost couldn’t even find the words he was looking for cause of excitement. Passionately, he spoke.
“...yes.”
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auramindedd · 4 years ago
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I Like You - SMAU*
Part 10
CorpseHusband x FemReader - Y/N
warnings: cussing
notes: uhhh,, idk where to take this series, but ima just go w the flow igs 😭 also,, i completely give up on adding the small details like the likes, comments, replies, and the times on tweets so i’m super sorry if it bothers you lmao
it’s also pretty long,, mostly writing rather than the smau, butttt i really like this one 🥺
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“When’s Rae gonna be home?” Corpse asks, playing with his hands.
“She’ll be home tonight, I just don’t know at what time. Why?”
“Uh... I- I just... I don’t know? I’m kind of nervous?”
“Corpse, Rae is your friend. But if you don’t feel comfortable, I can get a hotel room for you not too far away from here?” You suggest, 100% willing to pay for a hotel room for him if he wouldn’t feel comfortable being here with Rae here.
“I wanna stay here- with you... If that’s okay with you, of course.” There’s a slight blush on his face, it makes you smile a bit.
“Yes, I want you to stay here, too. You can take my bed, I’ll sleep on the couch.” You grab his plate, stacking his on top of yours, taking them to the sink.
“No, no. I can be on the couch tonight, I don’t sleep anyway.”
“Corpse, I’m not gonna have you sleep on that uncomfortable ass couch. Come on, we’ll figure something out. Wanna watch a movie?” He nods his head. You grab his hand, or more so his fingers, leading him to your room.
You turn the lights off, turning your fairy lights on instead. You tell Corpse to get comfortable, fluffing pillows for him, letting him lay back.
You know Corpse would be a bit anxious and nervous, not something you’d ever blame him for. You’re surprised you’re not being awkward or nervous. You’ve been trying your best to keep Corpse comfortable here, making sure he isn’t getting too nervous.
“Can we watch High School Musical? I have the stupid ass songs stuck in my head, childish me is coming...” You ask, not wanting to torture him with such a movie. Well, it’s not a bad movie, but you’d understand if anyone’d want to shoot themselves in the head while watching.
“Of course, baby.” You can’t help the butterflies that erupt in your stomach from the nickname. You sit closer to the TV, wanting Corpse to be comfortable rather than you.
Suddenly, you feel a hand around your waist. Corpse pulls you to him, letting you lay next to him. He looks at you, smiling. You smile back.
“Corpse, can I ask you a question?” He hums, indicating for you to go on. “That one time, you didn’t answer me for two days... You told me it had been because I was too ‘pretty.’ I didn’t believe you, and I still don’t. Why didn’t you answer me, like for real?” You don’t ask this in a bad way either, you’re just genuinely curious.
“I- uh... I’m going to be 100% honest, Y/N, but I don’t wanna scare you away.” He says cautiously, hesitating to go on.
“Corpse, you could never. I’m too attached already.” He chuckles, letting out a sigh.
“I like you. Like, like like you... I liked you before even seeing your face, but after, wow.” Silence. Deafening silence. But honestly, you can hear your fucking smile. You don’t think you’ve ever smiled so hard in your life. “Y/N, baby, say something, please.”
“Corpse,” You look up at him, probably scaring him with your smile. “I like you, too. Like, like like you.” He chuckles, but it’s more of a chuckle of relief. If that’s a thing?
He pulls you close to him, letting your head rest on his chest. You listen to his heartbeat, his breathing, trying to match yours with his. You slowly drift off, your eyelids getting too heavy to keep open.
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You wake up in Corpse’s arms. He’s gently stroking your side, looking down at you with a small smile.
“Good morning,” His voice is raspier and deeper than it already is. You didn’t know that was possible.
“Good morning,” You say, yawning softly. You bury your face deeper into his chest, snuggling closer to him.
“So fucking cute.” He mumbles, softly chuckling.
After a while of just laying there in Corpse’s arms, you decide to check social media and your messages. Already, Twitter is going crazy, assuming quickly that you and Corpse are dating. It’s not anything you didn’t expect, but it’d be nice if people didn’t jump to conclusions.
You decide to tweet a good morning, feeling good about today. And sadly, very unfortunately, you decide to text back the group chat - something you’ve been dreading to do.
Corpse is there, reading the messages, but you don’t mind.
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You kind of, accidentally, and very stupidly put yourself out, but it’s all good, nobody said anything besides Brooke. You all have a drunk Among Us lobby to get to.
After getting ready, Corpse getting his laptop and mic ready in another room, you join the Discord call. Corpse joins quickly after. Surprisingly, nobody says anything about you two being in the same apartment while greeting each other. You don’t doubt that someone will say something soon.
“Let’s all take a drink - to Corpse and Y/N holding hands!” Alex exclaims, clinking his glass on his mic. The rest cheer, pretending to clink their glasses as well. You sigh and laugh a bit, but nonetheless, you’re gulping down a glass of champagne.
“Alex,” You say, catching his attention.
“Yeah?”
“Fuck you!”
“Hey, hey, hey. No fucking.” Karl says, and you can hear him slap his hand to his mouth after realizing what he just said. The lobby bursts into fits of laughter, but the one you’re trying to listen for, Corpse’s. It’s silent on his end.
“Karl, how much have you had to drink?” Dream asks, slurring his words. Didn’t this game just start?
“I had like 3 beers?”
“You fucking lightweight.” You tease. “Dream, you’ve been drinking too...”
“Yeah, we might’ve pregamed an Among Us game.” He admits shamefully.
“Didn’t expect less from you two,” Rae says, adding a disappointing tone to her voice for effect. She starts the game, despite the sad protests from Karl and Dream.
Crewmate.
You pout, wanting so badly to be Imposter. You’re a good liar to say the least, and people easily fall for your sweet, innocent voice. It’s funny, pathetic even, which is why you want at least one good Imposter round.
“Whaddup, baby,” Corpse greets you in Nav. Dream follows behind him, Karl coming in shortly after.
“Hey, my beautiful alcoholics!” You greet cheerfully, earning groans from them both. Oh, how fun it’s going to be teasing them.
“At least she called us beautiful.” Karl says, walking out of Nav with Dream, leaving you and Corpse alone again. You get back to doing your task, connecting the ship with the dotted lines and whatnot.
“Am I beautiful?” You can hear the pout in his voice, it’s cute.
“Gorgeous, stunning even.” You say before walking out of Nav, smiling to yourself.
This round is pretty uneventful, along with the next few. But after about five rounds, you’re all incredibly drunk after playing some drinking games.
“No balls,” Rae dares. You’re Imposter this round, and Rae’s made you her personal hitman. She’s telling you to kill Karl, but he’s innocently doing his tasks.
“I have three actually.” You defend yourself, not making any sense at all.
“Three what?” Sykkuno comes in.
“Three balls,” Rae answers.
“Okayyy then...” Sykkuno drawls, leaving you two alone. Corpse comes along, the second Imposter. Oh, how convenient.
“Hey, Corpseee,” You greet, making it so fucking obvious.
“Oh my God!” Rae exclaims. You sigh, facepalming yourself. “Corpse kill Karl, Y/N kill Sykkuno.”
“Woah, since when did we become your hitmen?” Corpse backs his astronaut up.
“I’m not killing Syk!” You whisper-yell.
“Okay, then you kill Karl and Corpse can kill Sykkuno.” You can hear her shrugging as if it’s no big deal, but literally, Karl and Sykkuno are the sweetest people to you.
“No, I’m not doing it, Rae...” Corpse still hasn’t said anything. He’s watching you and Rae go back and forth, whisper-yelling even though anyone would be able to hear you.
“I’ll call you two out.”
“You’d never,”
“The emergency meeting button is looking real sexy right now.” Ugh, fuck the stupid smirk you can just hear in her voice.
“Fine, we’ll do it.” Corpse says. He goes and kills Sykkuno. You hesitate killing Karl, but he already watched Corpse kill Sykkuno so, unfortunately, you have to.
You and Corpse run away, leaving Rae to report the bodies.
After you and Corpse vouching for each other the whole round, nobody putting sus on you two because well, you sound so innocent and sweet even while being shitface drunk, you two win, earning groans from everyone in the lobby except from Rae.
“To be fucking fair, Rae had me and Corpse be her hitmen sooo, you can blame her if you died.” The lobby starts yelling playfully at Rae.
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After finally finishing streaming, Corpse comes into your room, plopping down onto your bed.
“Gosh, I’m gonna have the worst fucking hangover tomorrow.” He murmurs into your pillow, hugging it close to him. You jump onto the bed, sitting next to him, playing with his hair. He doesn’t mind, or you don’t think he does.
“It was fun,” You say, smiling to yourself. You love spending time with your friends. You can’t imagine how much fun it’d be if all of you got together in real life.
“It was,” Corpse yawns, looking up at you, smiling as you keep playing with his hair. He gets up, settling himself into your bed again, pulling you into him, letting you rest your head on his chest. You wrap an arm around him, snuggling yourself closer to him.
“We should probably eat something... And get ourselves some water.” You say, knowing that tomorrow’s hangover is going to be a bitch.
“I don’t wanna let go of you.” Corpse whines. You try getting up, but he almost throws a fucking tantrum. Quickly, you get out of his arms, running out of your room, giggling like a fucking maniac.
“Y/N! Please!” He shouts softly, trying not to wake Rae. He runs after you, following you into the kitchen. You run to the other side of the counter. He goes left, you go right - vice versa.
“Corpse, we need food and water.” You say, trying to grab pans out of the cupboards while he’s trying to get you. You can’t help yourself from giggling. Rae will kill you if you two wake her up.
“I wanna hold you,” Corpse pouts. Gosh, he’s going to be the death of you.
“In a sec, I can make us something real quick.” Drunk Corpse obviously equals Clingy Corpse.
“Fine,” He sighs dramatically, sitting on a stool. You grab pans from underneath the cupboards, pulling out some bread and cheese. Grilled cheese is easiest and it’ll take the least amount of time.
As you’re plopping bread into the toaster, Corpse snakes his arms around your waist, snuggling his face into your neck. There’s the slightest stubble, making you giggle.
“Corpse, I can’t cook with you on me.”
“Yes you can, I’ll help.” So stubborn...
You take the bread out of the toaster before it gets too toasted, putting it on the buttered pan.
It was a mission to finish the food to say the least. Corpse demands you eat in your room that way he can hold you. You put on The Promised Neverland, watching the TV as Corpse watches you. But honestly, you don’t mind.
You two fall asleep in each other’s arms again. And you don’t think you’d ever be able to fall asleep without being in his arms again.
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pigeonp0st · 4 years ago
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Since I loved your one shot about Lena, I'm requesting another one! Reader is a single mom and is afraid to tell Lena about her child cause she thinks Lena isn't going to take it well, but in the end Lena loves her child.
Lena Luthor x Reader #2
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Thank you for requesting! If you’d like me to change the name of the kid (or the gender) feel free to say so. Also...sorry if you were expecting more of Lena. I realized at the end that there might not have been enough (Sorry for spelling mistakes too).
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Miles, your eight year old son, has started to pretend he’s a psychologist. He’ll sit you down, with your head in his small lap (which isn’t very ethical), and ask you about your life problems.
Usually, you’ll make up funny nonsense that he’ll struggle to find the solution to...but today a very real problem has arrived, and you know you shouldn’t be trying to confide in your little boy about this, yet you decide to anyway.
He knows about you and Lena, though Lena doesn’t know about him. He saw her on TV once, was awestruck by her “smartness”, and you let slip that she’s the woman you’ve been dating.
Dating used as a loose term, because you and Lena haven’t actually become anything official. It’s...weird. Made even more so by the fact that she doesn’t know about the most important person in your life.
You tell Miles as much in today’s session. He beams down at you, happy that you’re finally starting to take his sessions seriously, and then taps his finger against his lip, thinking. “You should just tell her,” he finally concludes after a long pause.
You narrow your eyes up at him suspiciously, and wonder if you should just pretend to take his advice and move on. You don’t. “People usually don’t want to get involved with single moms.”
His eyes furrow at that, clearly upset, so you rush on. “If someone doesn’t want to be involved with you, none of me longs to be involved with them,” then, you pause, “I just want to want to be involved with Lena.”
“So this stems from past trauma?” Miles asks, and you gape at him, shocked.
“Where the f—when did you learn any of those words, honey?”
He grins at you again, clearly proud of himself, and then schools his face into an attempt of looking professional. It’s humorous. “Psy- Psych—”
“Psychology.”
“Yes, that. It says that our fears usually come for childhood trauma.”
“I’m not scared,” but even as you say that you know it’s not true. You make a mental note to watch over whatever the hell Miles is listening to, to make sure it’s age appropriate. “Even if I am, it’s definitely not from childhood trauma.”
“From relationship trauma then?”
You let out a shocked laugh, completely stumped. “Baby, your eight. If you keep saying smart things you’re going to start scaring me.”
“Let's talk about your fears,” He suggests. Clearly wanting to move on he gestures for you to sit up. Once you do, he hops up from the couch, grabs his clipboard from the coffee table, and starts scribbling down things you aren’t able to see.
“Okay,” you hesitantly agree. “I’m scared Lena will want nothing to do with me.”
“Why is that something you're scared of?”
You give him a confused look that he pays no attention to. “Obviously I like her...I also fear that you won’t.”
He nods, finally looking up from his clipboard. “And what happens if I hate her, and she hates me, so she leaves and you never speak to her again?”
You choke on absolutely nothing.
“What will you do then?” Miles asks, and you have no response for him. He doesn’t seem to want one. “You’ll deal with it, like you always have. So stop worrying until it comes. If it comes.”
You’re equal parts extremely proud of him, and extremely concerned as you think over what he’s said.
Then, as if he’s tired of being the smartest eight year old alive, he hands you the paper he was working on for half of your ‘session’. The paper is full of sharp lines that get more curvy and tangled the closer they get to what appears to be the middle.
“This,” he says, “is how you’re feeling.”
And you believe him.
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It takes you a week to build up the courage to tell Lena about Miles. He surprisingly helped you come to the realization that holding off on telling Lena the truth won’t change the outcome.
In fact...it would probably make things more complicated. Even now, she deserved to know sooner than this.
It’s too late, of course. There’s no point in wishing you had done differently.
“Are you okay?” Lena asks through the phone, sounding so beautifully concerned over the fact that you haven’t spoken for awhile. God, you're whipped for this world-saving genius.
“Yeah,” you say, “just...you know how I said I had something to talk to you about?” You don’t wait for her to confirm, because of course she remembers, she’s looked scared because of it all day. “I sort of have to show you...so would you mind coming over?”
Yes, you’re a coward that’s hoping Lena seeing Miles for herself, instead of you telling her about him, will make her more accepting. Miles has a very convincing charm.
“You want me to go to your place?” Lena sputters, clearly shocked.
In an instant you regret the decision you were so sure about before. Maybe Lena isn’t ready. You should tell her before she comes, so she isn’t shocked out of her mind when she sees him.
You should—
“Okay,” Lena says, determined. You hadn’t even responded to her before. “I’ll be there soon.” And then she hangs up the phone before you manage to say anything, leaving you wondering what the fuck you’re doing.
You could call her back.
...you’re not going to. You’re too scared.
——
Miles waits by the door, dressed in his best suit. He knows how anxious you are about this, despite how hard you’ve been trying to hide it since your weird ‘session’, so he says he’s going to try and be the best him he can be.
You tell him that all he needs to be is his normal self and everything will be alright, but he admits to being nervous to meet Lena too, because she’s super smart. (He’s been watching anything he can find of her on the internet)
Thus, the two of you wait together impatiently, trying not to descend into madness.
——
At some point Miles starts making and handing you scribbles of how you feel, and you start making and handing them back.
It’s while you’re handing Miles your next piece that the doorbell rings.
He doesn’t look to be that nervous anymore, just excited, so he follows you on your track to answer the door, and with each step you contemplate your entire existence beyond Miles.
Then…Then you open the door.
Miles is hiding behind your leg, looking up at Lena with hesitant hopefulness and uncertainty, it’s the exact match of the way you’re looking at her, and Lena is looking at him with wide eyes.
Because you’re sure you’re about to die from the silence, you croak out a wobbly and quiet; “hi,” at the same time Mile’s sticks out his hands and says his own charming greeting.
“Hello, doctor Y/L/N here. Nice to meet you.”
“Lena Luthor.” As if on autopilot Lena shakes his hand. “You’re a doctor?” She asks, smiling the smallest of smiles at him.
He nods his head eagerly, glad she’s smiling. “Yeah! Of—of psy- psych...”
“Psychology,” You finish. Lena’s gaze switches to you. It’s the moment you think you’re gonna die, but her gaze is concerned instead of disappointed.
“He’s older than the photo on your wallpaper suggested,” Lena says.
Oh.
Oh…
You’re an idiot.
Then, Lena smiles—wider this time because of your dumbstruck expression—and looks at Miles. “To be a doctor you have to be pretty smart.”
He nods, his eyes practically full of stars.
“That’s how I know you and I are going to get along great.”
Miles grins madly, pushes you a bit to the side so Lena can come in, and says, eager, “can I show you my work, please?”
And Lena looks from you, to him, laughs a laugh full of amusement and endearment, and agrees gracefully. “I’d love it if you would.”
———
Lena adores Miles.
Around him she almost seems, impossibly, like a child herself. She so obviously and beautifully wants him to like her, and all the while Miles is almost exactly the same around her.
They’re both complete dorks trying to subtly get each other's attention and all you want to do is watch the two of them interact for ages.
They both were two separate parts of your life, and now they’re merged better than you ever expected them to.
It’s great. Absolutely great. But whenever they turn their twin gazes on you you’re sure you’re going to melt into a puddle of adoration.
Wow.
“What is it?” You ask them, after they’ve both looked at you for too long without saying anything.
Lena tilts her head, her smile concerned again, “you look like you’re about to cry.”
Miles nods his agreement. “What’s wrong mom? Does whatever bothering you stem from childhood trauma?” He asks, and at Lena’s ‘the fuck’ face you burst out into a fit of laughter, that quickly turns into tears of absolute love.
Both Miles and Lena looked at you with alarm because they don’t realize this is the happiest you’ve been in a while. It is though. It is.
“Not childhood trauma,” you assure them both, and before Miles can suggest it you add; “not past relationship trauma either, it’s happy tears.”
“Oh,” Lena stutters, “good.”
“Oh,” Miles repeats, sounding relieved and a tad bit disappointed. “I haven’t learned how to deal with those tears yet.”
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Hey guys! So this is a one shot story request by @whitecatindisguise of Varian and Selena (My OC) spending the day together. I know this is super late but I finally got inspired to write again, thank you so much for your patience I hope you enjoy/like it. Comments, feedbacks, and constructive criticism is welcome Enjoy!
Alchemy 101
It was a beautiful day in Corona, Varian had just finished helping his dad with the farming work. Varian was rushing to get everything done because a friend he hasn’t seen in awhile was visiting Corona and he was exited to spend the day and show her around Corona.
“Hey Dad, I finished all my chores is there anything else you need help with before I go to the castle?” Varian asked. Quirin looks around and sees everything done, he was surprised at how fast his son did the work.
“Everything looks great son, I think I can handle the rest. I know how anxious you are to get to the castle, I know your friend is visiting today.” Quirin stated.
“Yes she is, her name Is Selena she is a princess from the kingdom Agave, She was the one that gave me the box of chocolates I let you try. I’m going to show her all of Corona since she wasn’t able to see it the first time she came heh. Varian mind flashed back to the time Lady Cain tried to steal the castle Jewels and blame Selena and her family, not to mention being kidnapped as well. Varian snapped himself out of his thoughts, “I’m going to show her how nice Corona is, and how friendly the people are.” Varian said.
Quirin smiled, he was happy his so finally had a friend, He knew Varian didn’t have many friends other than the Princess and Eugene. “ That’s great son, you can leave I can do the rest of the work just be careful okay” Quirin said.
“Thanks Dad I will.” Varian answered waving goodbye to his father. A few minutes passed and Varian finally made it to the castle, as soon as he entered the castle he saw Rapunzel and Eugene standing in the entrance waiting for Selena and her Family to arrive. “Hey Eugene! Hello Princess! I’m not late am I?” Varian asked.
“Hey Varian! No your just In time, Selena and her family should be arriving any minute” Rapunzel answered giving Varian a hug. Varian smiled and hugged back, he knew Rapunzel loved giving hugs and no matter how many times she gave him a hug he still wasn’t used to it, not yet anyway.
“Thank you Rapunzel.” Varian said with a smile. Varian turned around as he heard the couch approach, he saw one of the guards open the carriage door and allowed the royal family to walk out.
“Welcome back to Corona its so lovely to see you all again!” Rapunzel said greeting them with a bow.
Selena was the first one to walk up to Rapunzel and hug her. “Hello Princess it’s so great to see you again too!” Selena said hugging her. Rapunzel smiled and returned the hug, “It’s great to see you too Selena! I’m so happy your family decided to come back and visit us after the last visit”. Rapunzel said with a small chuckle.
“Yes that was quiet an adventure”. Selena said with a small laugh. Selena turned to where Varian was standing and walked over to him, “Hi Varian! It’s nice to see you again.” Selena said with a hint of nervousness in her voice.
“Hey Selena, it’s nice to see you too. I’m glad you and your family decided to come back and give Corona another chance heh” Varian said sheepishly.
“Why don’t you all come inside, and we can talk about the trading with each others kingdoms. I know Corona could use some of the products you have and we are more than happy to share some of our stuff with the kingdom of Agave.” Rapunzel said with a smile.
“Thank you Princess Rapunzel, we are honored to be trading with Corona. After all the hospitality and welcome you showed us the first time we came, we knew Corona was the place we wanted to trade with.” Queen Luisa stated with smile.
“Aww thank you Queen Luisa that’s very sweet of you to say. I am personally am excited to be trading with you, I love your desserts and I know once Corona tastes them it will be a new favorite amongst the people of Corona.” Rapunzel said.
Selena was standing beside her parents and smiled at Rapunzel statement. “Thank you Rapunzel! I’m really excited too, because now we can come visit more than once a year.” Selena said with a smile.
“Thank you Selena, I’m so happy you like Corona. We would love to have you visit more often, your always welcomed.” Rapunzel said smiling softly.
“Thank you Princess Rapunzel” Selena said giving Rapunzel a hug.
Rapunzel smiles and returns the hug, “How about you and Varian spend the day together while your parents and I sign this treaty, what do you say?” Rapunzel asked giving her a encouraging look.
Selena smiled and looked over to Varian “I would like that, only if Varian wants to of course?” Selena asked with a small smile.
“Of course, i could give you a tour of Corona because you didn’t get a chance too the first time you came heh.” Varian answered with a sheepish smile.
“I would like that Thank you Varian” Selena answered with a soft smile.
“Great! Why don’t you two get going and will see you later, and be careful.” Rapunzel said.
“Thank you Princess we will.” Varian said with a nod.
Rapunzel smiled and nods with agreement, Rapunzel, Eugene, Luisa,and Antonio began walking away to the throne room leaving the two kids behind. Varian and Selena stayed awkwardly quiet for a few moments until Selena made the first comment. “So where should we go first?” Selena asked.
“Well we could start with the market, i need to buy some alchemical supplies that I’m missing heh” Varian said rubbing the back of his neck.
“Alchemical Supplies? You mean the stuff you use to make those cool bombs that we used to stop Lady Cain and her gang?” Selena asked.
“Yes I need certain chemicals and supplies to make them and replace the ones we use heh” Varian answer with a small chuckle.
“Varian umm, do you think you could show me how you make your alchemy balls? I am actually learning how to use alchemy back home, and since your an expert I thought i could ask you for some pointers and maybe show me how to make certain bombs?..” Selena asked nervously gazing around.
“Ooh your learning Alchemy? That’s Awesome Selena, sure i could teach you a few things. I know how it can be when you’re barley starting to use Alchemy heh.” Varian said with a small chuckle as he remembers all the times he caused explosions in his house.
“Thank you Varian, with you teaching me i know I’ll get the hang of this Alchemy.” Selena said elbowing him playfully.
Varian chuckled rubbing his arm,“Your welcome, Will head to the market and show you around Corona. Then we could head back to my lab and teach you some of my Alchemical solution heh.” Varian said proudly.
Selena stifled a laugh, “Okay sounds great! Lead the way Alchemist” Selena said with a small laugh. Varian chuckled at Selena statement and started walking out of the castle Selena walking right behind him.
“The town and market place are not that far, it just takes us a couple of minutes to walk there.” Varian said turning to Selena.
“Cool I don’t mind walking, Back home we don’t have a lot of transportation like you guys do so most of us just walk to get to the places we need to go.” Selena said walking right beside him.
“Ooh really? Heh well I prefer walking too. I usually walk from old Corona where i live with my dad, to the Corona marketplace to get my supplies. Sometimes when you just want to clear your head, walking is better than taking a carriage or riding a horse heh.” Varian said.
“Yeah i know what you mean, sometimes being a princess can be overwhelming back home so i like to take long walks to a nearby garden and just clear my head from all the royal duties I’m going to have to do when I’m Queen.” Selena said with a sigh.
Varian noticed something was bothering Selena, he was not great at comforting but Selena was his friend and he wanted to help as best he could. “Selena is something wrong?” Varian asked.
“I’m okay, its just my mom and dad are the Queen and King of my kingdom and they do so much to keep our kingdom and our people safe. Everyone loves my Mom and Dad and how they rule our kingdom, I’m just worried that i wont be as good of a ruler like them.. i just want to make them proud..”Selena said with a sad tone.
Varian didn’t know what to say, he didn’t have experience with what Selena was going through. He knew Rapunzel was probably the best person to give advice about the princess things, but he knew how it felt to want to make your parents proud. He did and still does everything he can to make his dad proud.
“Selena i know how it feels to want to make your parents proud. Ever since i was a kid all I wanted to do was make my Father proud of me, i still do.” Varian said putting a hand on her shoulder. “Selena I don’t know your parents very well but i know that they are proud of you, and i know you’ll be a great ruler just like your parents.” Varian said with a soft smile.
“Thank you Varian.” Selena said with a soft smile.
“Your welcome, what are friends for heh.” Varian said with a small chuckle.
Selena smiled, she was glad to have Varian as a friend, even if they rarely saw each other she felt like she could be herself around him and not feel judged. Selena snapped herself from her thoughts when Varian spoke.
“This is the town of Corona, and the market where i buy my Alchemy stuff is right Over there.” Varian said pointing to a small store on the corner.
“Wow Varian I didn’t think Corona was this beautiful, i love the colors, Everyone seem nice and happy.” Selena said looking around the town.
“Heh yeah everyone Is nice, some people say that Corona is the nicest kingdom to visit heh.” Varian said with a small chuckle.
Selena gave a small laugh, “Well it certainly looks that way, everyone has been so welcoming. I’m sure it’s normal when you have Rapunzel as their princess.” Selena said with a smile.
“Yes Rapunzel has really changed Corona when she became Princess, she has made Corona a better place you could say heh.” Varian said seeing Monty and Atilla sweet shop.
“Hey Selena, you have to try some of Montey and Atilla desserts. This is my favorite place besides the store that sells my Alchemy supplies heh.” Varian said stopping in front of the sweet shop.
“I have heard that Monty and Atilla make the best sweets in Corona. I would love to try one of their desserts.” Selena stated.
“Great! ill buy this time, since you gave me those box of chocolate heh.” Varian said opening the door for Selena.
“Thank you Varian, I’m glad you liked them.” Selena said with a smile walking inside.
Varian walked inside right behind Selena, They began to look around. Selena was in awe at all the amazing desserts and sweets that were on display, there were cakes that looked like the Castle. Cookies that had the Corona symbol on them, and cupcakes that had the Corona colors and flag. She saw a short man with a white Apron on and a welcoming smile approach them, “Hello Children! Welcome to Monty’s and Atilla’s Sweet Shop, is there anything i can get for you two?” Monty asked.
“Hey Uncle Monty! This is my friend Selena, this is her first time here.” Varian said introducing her.
“What a pleasure to meet you Selena! Well since its your first time here, i suggest you try our best seller on me.” Monty said with a smile.
“This is our famous strawberry and chocolate Lollipop.” Monty said grabbing the pop and handing it to her.
“Thank you Monty! This looks delicious!” Selena said licking it.
“Wow this is really good! Strawberry and Chocolate are my favorite, Thank you Monty!” Selena said taking a few more licks.
“I’m glad you liked it, Varian I’m guessing you want your usual?” Monty asked Varian.
“Yes please Uncle Monty.” Varian answered.
Monty grabbed a rainbow swirly pop from a jar and handed it to varian. “Here you go Kiddo, One Rainbow swirly pop.” Monty stated with a smile.
“Thank you Uncle Monty.” Varian said taking a few licks.
“You like swirly pops too?” Selena asked Varian.
“Yes, they have always been my favorite since i was a kid heh.” Varian answered.
Selena smiled and continued to finish her lollipop, “Thank you Monty your desserts are amazing!” Selena said thanking him.
“Yes thank you Uncle Monty.” Varian said.
“Well we better head out if we want you to finish the tour.” Varian suggested.
Selena agreed and waved goodbye to Monty. Varian gave a thankful goodby wave and both kids walked out happily eating their lollipops.
After a few minutes of walking they finally made it to the market that had all the alchemy supplies. Selena and Varian walk in and see the owner of the shop organizing a shelf with merchandise. “Hey Ben! I wanted to introduce to you my friend Selena, she is from another kingdom. We came to buy some alchemy supplies,” Varian stated.
Ben turns around and sees his favorite customer, “Varian its great to see you! Back so soon Eh?.” Ben said with a smile.
“Heh yea, i need some chemical solutions and a few other things.” Varian answered.
“Well i have all your usual chemicals and materials you always use right over here.” Ben said signaling them to follow him.
Varian and Selena follow him to a shelf that was full of different Chemicals and ingredients to make different types of solutions. “Here you are, we also have a few new compounds that i think you would like Varian.” Ben said.
“Thank you Ben, my friend Selena is learning alchemy too heh.” Varian said with a smile.
“That’s great! Hello Selena, my name is Ben its a pleasure to meet you.” Ben said shaking her hand.
“Thank you, its nice to meet you too.” Selena said with a smile.
“Since you are starting to learn alchemy for the first time i have a special kit that can help you. I give this to every new person that is trying to learn alchemy.” Ben said grabbing a alchemy kit.
“This is a beginners kit, it has everything you need to start learning alchemy.” Ben stated adding the box to Selena.
Selena grabs the box and analyzes it, she sees that the kit came with a pair of goggles, a few beakers, a dropper, gloves, and a few chemicals that are used to make a bath bomb. “Thank you Ben!.” Selena said enthusiastically.
“Your welcome! I believe you will be a pro alchemist in no time, especially if you have Varian teaching you. He is the only one in Corona that knows more about alchemy than anyone else here.” Ben said.
Varian chuckles sheepishly at the compliment, “Thank you Ben, but I’m not an expert just yet heh.” Varian said with a flattered smile.
“Varian i think your a great alchemist, you saved Corona lots of times using alchemy. You used it to help stop Lady Cain and her gang, you cleaned the castle faster than anyone else using your alchemy. I saw how well you work with alchemy and what it can do, it inspired me to want to learn alchemy too.” Selena said with a smile.
Varian tried his best not to look flustered at Selena compliment “Thank you Selena, I’m glad i inspired you to learn alchemy heh.” Varian said with a small smile.
Varian began grabbing a few chemicals and compounds and other materials he needed and added them to a box. Varian began to show Selena what compounds he would use and what they were used for. Once Varian had everything he needed, he went to the register and paid for the stuff. “Thank you Ben, ill be back next week.” Varian said waving goodbye before grabbing the box of materials.
“I’m glad i could help, Good luck with your alchemy lessons Selena.” Ben said waving goodbye to Varian and Selena.
“Thank you Ben!” Selena said waving goodbye.
“I think we got everything we needed to make a few alchemy balls heh.” Varian said.
“Great! I can’t wait to start working!,” Selena said with excitement.
Varian smiled, he didn’t think anyone would get excited as he did when he was learning and doing alchemy. “We have to head back to the castle because that’s where my lab is heh.” Varian said turning to the direction the castle was.
“Cool! It’s amazing that Rapunzel gave you your own personal lab inside the castle. My parents tell me to do my alchemy experiments outside because they always explode making a huge mess in the castle.” Selena said with a small laugh.
“Oh yeah Ive been there heh, I’ve blown up a lot of things in my village when i was working with alchemy heh.” Varian said with a chuckle remembering all the times he blew up and caused damage to his village.
“Really? You blew up things too?” Selena asked.
“Yes many times, I wasn’t an expert at alchemy when i was barely starting. I made lots of mistakes and blew up a lot of things heh.” Varian answered.
“Wow did you ever get discouraged when your solutions didn’t work? I get mad when my solutions don’t work.” Selena stated.
“Well yes i did get discouraged many times, back then no one supported me doing alchemy, especially you father. It was hard at times because I didn’t have support from anyone, well except Ruddiger. He has been with me all the time, he even helps me make the compounds and solutions heh.” Varian said.
“Who’s Ruddiger? I didn’t know you had an assistant?” Selena asked confused..
“Oh right you haven’t met my pet Raccoon/assistant Ruddiger yet. He’s usually eating or sleeping inside my lab heh, you can meet him once we get to my lab.” Varian stated.
After a few more steps they had arrived to the castle, Varian and Selena made their way to the corridor where his lab was located. Varian put the box down and opened the door to his lab, “This is my Lab heh” Varian said moving to the side so Selena could go in first. Varian put the box down on the table, Selena kept walking her eyes darting to everywhere.
“Wow Varian this is a really cool Lab, its way bigger than the one i have.” Selena said in awe.
“Thank you! Rapunzel and Eugene gave it to me since the lab i have at home is to small heh.” Varian said unpacking the box.
As Selena was about to make her way to the table she saw a gray furry animal zoom by her feet and jump on the table where Varian was. “Selena this is Ruddiger my pet/assistant. He is the one that helps me, and i taught him how to make the best hot cocoa.” Varian said petting the Raccoon on the head.
“Aww Varian he’s so cute!” Selena said petting Ruddiger.
Ruddiger gave a smile to Selena and scampered around Varian neck, “Thanks! So you ready to learn how to make your first alchemy bomb?” Varian asked with a small smile.
“Yes i am” Selena said pulling out her goggles and gloves from the kit Ben gave her.
“Great so the first one we are going to make is a smoke bomb, first you grab the potassium nitrate and add 3 spoons into the bleaker. Then we add 2 spoons of polysaccharides in as well, then we turn up the heat the and mix it until the ingredients melt. Once the chemicals are melted you pour it into a glass ball and close it up and there you have your smoke bomb heh.” Varian said showing the smoke bomb he had in his hand to Selena.
“Wow Varian you make it look so easy.” Selena said.
“That’s because it is easy, now It’s your turn to try.” Varian said handing the materials to Selena.
Selena took a deep breath and followed the same steps she saw Varian do, “Okay so i add 3 spoons of potassium nitrate into the bleaker, then i add 2 spoons of polysaccharides, then i turn up the heat and mix it until the chemicals melt.” Selena recited to Varian as she began to put in the ingredients.
Varian gave her a thumbs up telling her she was correct. Selena kept mixing the solution till the ingredients melted, she then grabbed a alchemy ball and carefully poured the solution inside and closed the lid. Selena put her goggles on top of her head to get a better look at the smoke bomb she made. “Did i do it right?” Selena asked Varian.
“Yes you did it perfectly Selena, great Job!” Varian complimented her.
“Yay thank you Varian! So whats next?” Selena asked excitedly.
“Well now we can do a trap bomb, its the one i used on Rapunzel and Cassandra the first time i met them heh.”Varian said sheepishly at the memory.
“You trapped Princess Rapunzel and her Lady in Waiting?” Selena asked,
“Well it wasn’t on purpose it was more so to keep intruders out like Ruddiger, because he kept stealing things right buddy?.” Varian said looking at Ruddiger.
Ruddiger gave a sheepish smile, He knew Varian and him had come a long way since the first time they met.
“I see, well I’m sure this trap bomb will certainly come in handy for me.” Selena said with a soft chuckle.
“Heh yeah it certainly does help you in some difficult situations heh.” Varian said with a small laugh.
Selena put the smoke bomb down on the side of the table getting ready to make her next alchemy bomb. “Okay to make a sticky trap bomb first we use- Varian stopped mid sentence when he saw Selena smoke bomb begin to roll and fall on the floor. “Selena look out!” Varian said trying to grab the smoke bomb before it fell to the floor.
Varian wasn’t fast enough and the bomb hit the floor covering the entire lab with white smoke, Selena and Varian began to cough and shut their eyes unable to see with all the smoke surrounding the room. After a few moments the smoke began to reside, “Selena you okay?” Varian asked shooing away the rest of the smoke.
“Yes I’m fine, are you okay?” Selena asked letting out a cough.
“Yes I’m fine.” Varian answered.
Once Selena could and she opened her eyes she couldn’t help but stifle a laugh when she saw Varian’s Hair completely puffed up and frizzed, Varian gave Selena a puzzled look as to why she was laughing.
“Selena what’s so funny?” Varian asked confused.
“I’m sorry Varian I don’t mean to laugh but you hair its..” Selena stopped mid sentence letting out a soft laugh.
varian turned to the Mirror he had and saw his hair was super puffed up and frizzy as if a storm has just hit his hair. Varian slowly began to let out a small laugh when he saw how silly his hair looked. “Heh i guess i can see why your laughing, my hair looks like it went through a storm heh.” Varian said letting out a laugh.
“I’m sorry Varian, I didn’t think a smoke bomb could have done that to someone hair.” Selena said composing herself.
“I didn’t either, that was a new effect. I wonder why though?..” Varian said pondering.
“Well I guess we can figure it out later, how about we continue our lessons heh.” Varian said with a slight chuckle.
Selena nodded in agreement. “To make a sticky trap bomb first you need 5 spoonfuls of Mucilage, 1/2 cup of water, and 1/2 cup of baking soda. We add all the ingredients into a beaker and turn up the heat and let it infuse with each other, once its infused you grab an alchemy ball and poor the solution in and close the lid.” Varian explained showing Selena the sticky trap bomb.
“Wow that amazing!” Selena said enthusiastically.
“Now you try.” Varian said.
Selena grabbed the materials she needed and began the same process Varian did. “I add 5 spoonfuls of Mucilage, 1/2 cups of water, and 1/2 cup of baking soda. Then i pour them into the beaker and turn up the heat, then let it infuse with each other. Once it’s infused I grab the alchemy ball and pour the solution inside.” Selena recited as she began to put the ingredients in. Once the ingredients were infused she grabbed the alchemy ball and poured the solution inside and closed the lid.
“Like this Varian?” Selena asked showing the bomb to Varian.
“That looks right Selena, Great Job!” Varian said giving her a thumbs up.
“Selena check this out.” Varian said grabbing his stick trap bomb.
Varian began to toss it up in the air, he dribble the bomb up and down around his legs and feet. Until the bomb finally exploded when it slipped from his hands trapping his feet in purple goop. “Guess that wasn’t such a great idea heh” Varian said embarrassed.
Selena giggled as she saw Varian trapped in his own sticky trap, “Did you want me to get you out?” Selena asked with a small laugh.
“Yes please heh, the solution is right over there in my bag.” Varian said pointing to where the cure was.
Selena grabbed the alchemy ball and tossed it on his feet freeing him. “Thank you Selena.” Varian said super embarrassed.
“Your welcome, I have to admit those moved were pretty cool.” Selena said elbowing him playfully.
“Heh thanks, but remind me next time to not do that heh.” Varian said with a soft laugh.
“Shall we continue?” Selena asked.
“Of course, just wait till I show you the next one we’re making.”Varian said grabbing some more materials.
Selena and Varian continued to make a variety of alchemy bombs, some exploded causing them to get stuck, have different colored hair, their face being pained different colors. Selena and Varian continued to make alchemy balls till the day was over.
“This was fun! thank you for teaching me how to make alchemy bombs, now that I’m more familiar with the chemicals and compounds I’ll be able to do them at home.” Selena said with a smile.
“Yes this was fun heh, I’m glad i was able to help you. I know you’ll be a great alchemist one day heh.” Varian said with a encouraging smile.
“Thank you Varian,I couldn’t have done it without you.” Selena said giving Varian a hug.
Varian was stunned at the surprised, “Your welcome heh, that’s what friends are fire heh.” Varian said sheepishly returning the hug.
Selena smiled gently pulled away from the hug, “Well we better get going, I’m sure my parents and Rapunzel have signed the papers already. They wanted us to meet them in the throne room.” Selena said with a smile.
“Your right the did, they will be worried if they think we’re still outside. Selena why don’t you go to the throne room so your parents don’t get worried, I’m going to put my alchemy stuff away then I’ll meet you there.” Varian said.
“Okay I’ll see you later then.”Selena said waving goodbye.
Varian waved back and began to put his alchemy stuff away, it was a full day and he was tired but he enjoyed spending the day with Selena. “Well buddy today was certainly a day to remember heh. I’m glad we got to show Selena Corona and spend the day with her. She will make a great alchemist.”Varian said petting his pet raccoon.
Varian finished putting his stuff away, and made his way to the throne room to meet everyone. Surely this was a day Varian and Selena would remember.
The End
I really hope you enjoyed reading this heh, I stayed up till 3:00am for 3 whole days writing this because that’s when my brain gets ideas lol 😅 you comments, feedback, reblogs, constructive criticism is all most welcome. It lets us Fanfic writes who put a lot of effort into our stories know that are hard work, effort ( late nights😅) make a difference. We write so our readers can enjoy them, so please make sure to remember to always thank the writer of whatever story you read, you don’t know how much it would make the writers day heh💛 Thank you all who stayed and read this story all the way to the end💖
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Kiss Me: Logan x Reader
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Request: Hmmm. So from the prompt list, maybe number 7 (“If you don’t kiss me right this second I swear I’ll strangle you”) with childhood best friends to lovers logan x reader? Thank you!
Summary: You have a summer party with the sides and come to terms with your feelings for Logan.
Words: 2100+                                        
Warnings: swears, some kissy kissy
Author’s Notes: I got a little carried away with this one XD This is probably the longest one shot I’ve ever written lol, hope y’all like it!
Taglist: @luluwinchester​ @nerve-ous-love​ @zarieslayer​ @amayaisokay​
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“Food’s ready everyone!” Patton calls, sliding the last burger onto the serving plate. He’s always been fantastic on the grill, and today he made pretty much everything he knows how. He made burgers, veggie burgers, hot dogs, kabobs, and everything in between.
It’s been a while since you’ve had a fun gathering with the sides, so when he suggested having a summer party in the backyard you all were ecstatic. You’ve all been friends for years, but sadly life gets in the way sometimes and you don’t get to hang out as much anymore.
As much as you’re happy to see everyone there, you can’t help but be extra excited to see Logan. He’s your best friend, and has been through thick and thin. He’s always the first to check in on you and help you out whenever you need it and you truly feel like you can be yourself around him. He lifts you up yet isn’t afraid to be honest with you. He balances you out perfectly.
“Hey guys!” you wave.
“Y/N! So glad you could make it!” Patton runs over and gives you a hug.
Virgil and Janus wave back and Roman and Remus greet you as well.
“Hello,” Logan nods with a smile.
You skip to him as your grin brightens, “Hello,”
“It’s very nice to see you,”
“Of course it is,” you laugh. “It’s nice to see you too. How’ve you been?”
“Very well. Everything appears to be working smoothly. You?”
“I’ve been alright,”
If you’re not mistaken, he’s gotten even more handsome since the last time you saw him. Is that possible?
Wait, what are you thinking?
No, no, it’s fine. It’s totally normal to find your friends attractive, right? You’re sure he’d say the same about you, and it wouldn’t be weird at all.
But damn does his smile make your heart flutter, and the way his slightly grown out bangs fall around his forehead gives you an irresistible urge to touch it. As you grab your food together his hand brushes against yours just for a moment, but it sends shivers down your spine for several more. He makes you laugh whether or not he’s trying to and fascinates you with his extensive knowledge on various topics. He makes you happier than anyone on the planet.
But of course none of that really means anything, right? Never mind the fact that since seeing him today you haven’t been able to get the thought of kissing him out of your head, how badly you want to just whisk him away to the side of the house, grab his shirt and make out with him ‘til you can’t breathe.
Alright, maybe that’s not normal.
It’s not like it would ever happen anyway, you’re sure he sees you as just a friend and you’re honestly fine with that. You’d never want to lose your best friend simply because you caught feelings.
As everyone finishes up their meal, you notice Remus running to the porch and shuffling around in a trash bag.
You turn to Logan, “What’s he doing?”
“I’ve found it’s best not to wonder,” he rolls his eyes. “It’s probably nothing of importance…NO WAIT WATCH OUT!”
Before you know it, you’re completely soaked head to toe and swivel around to see Remus pointing a huge water gun directly at you.
“WATER FIGHT!!” he screeches, pulling out more guns from the bag and tossing them to everyone.
Logan got a bit wet too, but not nearly as much as you, “Oh, Y/N, I’m so sorry, allow me to grab you some towels-“
“No, no, it’s fine, it’s just water,” you glare at Remus. “Hopefully,”
“Neither the color or smell indicate that it’s not,”
You chuckle, grabbing a squirter from the ground, “Come on, help me get back at him,”
“I really shouldn’t, I would prefer to stay as dry as possible,”
“Come on,” you grab his hand and pull him up. “Please?”
He stares at you helplessly, searching for an excuse but unable to resist, “Alright,”
You smile, grabbing him another gun and racing across the yard.
Patton starts filling up some water balloons while Roman flings them around, no one can tell whose side he’s on because he’s barely hitting anything. Janus is taking advantage of his extra arms by having a super soaker in each and aiming at literally everyone. Virgil has teamed up with you and Logan and focuses everything he’s got on Remus.
“Roman I must say, your aim is absolutely preposterous,” Logan comments.
“Oh, would you like to try it? I highly doubt you could do any better,”
“Actually, yes,” he grins, taking a water balloon and throwing it directly at Remus’s face.
Everyone’s mouth falls open.
“Where’d you learn how to do that?” Roman gasps, completely baffled.
“It’s not too difficult, just a few physics calculations and some practice,”
“Can you show me?” you ask, taking another balloon and squinting your eye towards Remus.
“Of course,” he places his hands on your shoulders and straightens out your stance. You desperately hope he doesn’t notice you stiffening and holding your breath from his touch. “The key is to have your arm in line with your eyesight. Even when you pull it back, if you’re not focused the follow through won’t work,”
You nod, gulping a bit and trying not to shake.
“Okay, now try it. It’s alright if you don’t hit him immediately,” his palm stays on your back as you throw it, hitting Remus’s leg.
“I hit him!” you squeal.
“Wonderful! Now we just have to work on aiming a bit higher-“ he steps in front of you as Remus darts a balloon back in your direction. His shirt gets drenched and Remus cackles.
“Oh no, Logan-“
His expression isn’t angry surprisingly. Instead, there’s a fire in his eyes that you’ve never seen before, the face of someone genuinely having fun.
He smirks at you, the way he always does when the gears are turning in his brain.
“Patton, can I see that?” he points towards the hose he’s been using to fill the balloons. Patton nods and Logan gets to work, using all your water guns to build a big canon and positioning it towards Remus. He turns it up to the highest pressure possible and blasts him.
It doesn’t hurt him of course, and even if it did he probably wouldn’t care. He merely falls back laughing, rolling around on the ground and covering himself with dirt and grass.
“Wow,” you sigh, eyes wide.
“You did ask me to help you get back at him, did you not?”
“I most certainly did,”
“Well,” he sets everything down. “I hope I delivered,”
“You did…” your gaze is locked on him. Who knew such a silly water war could make you so much more in love with him, especially with the way his wet shirt clings to him and the droplets on his glasses-
“Are you quite alright?” Logan inquires, concerned.
“Mhmmm,”
“Who wants to make some s’mores?” Patton calls, snatching some firewood. Everyone agrees so he gets it started, wanting to give it time to turn into hot coals. He grabs some crackers, chocolate, and marshmallows from inside and some sticks.
Logan gets towels for everyone and tenderly wraps one around your shoulders. The dampness is still cold, but the sweet gesture warms you up a bit.
Would it be crazy if you told him how you’ve been feeling tonight? Would it be completely irresponsible to flirt with him a bit? It feels wrong, but it feels more right than wrong. You just know he’s the one you’re meant to be with. You can’t imagine yourself with anyone else. He’s your best friend after all, and you’re sure any future partner you could ever have would be threatened by how close you are anyway. If you simply dated each other that wouldn’t be a problem.
But you’re terrified. You can feel your heart pulsing through your fingertips as you hold the marshmallow over the coals. The hot flames make your face burn and you can’t tell the difference between your sweat and the water covering you from earlier. You grow quiet, and Logan notices.
“Is there something wrong?”
Thankfully the other sides are engaged in their own conversation, so they don’t put any attention on you.
“I’m fine, just a bit tired,” you say, pulling your marshmallow away and squishing it between your graham crackers and chocolate.
“Did I mention that you look exquisite today?”
You almost choke on your sandwich, “What?”
“And I assure you our little water detour didn’t change that,”
“Oh, um,” you wipe your mouth with a napkin. “Thank you. You look really good too,”
“I hope that’s alright for me to say, please forgive me if I’ve crossed a line,”
“No!” you shake your head a bit too hard. “I mean, it’s fine. You can say that as much as you want, if that is what you want. Of course you don’t have to,”
Shit.
A smile tugs at his lips, as if he’s actually charmed by your bumbling, “Would you care to go inside? I believe Patton has quite a few card and board games if you’re interested,”
You nod. It’s getting a bit chilly outside anyway, and maybe being alone with him will settle your nerves a bit. Your newly discovered feelings for him aside, he’s always the one person who makes you most comfortable.
He grabs the checkers and sets it up on the table next to the couch, “You can go first,”
You move your first piece and the game begins. He doesn’t hold back of course, he’s not the type to let anyone win on purpose, but he doesn’t rub it in your face either. He makes you smile the entire time and you almost forget how anxious you were before.
That is, until the game finishes and it all comes rushing back. He won, and he looks absolutely adorable. Your stomach is in knots and you just want to look at him this satisfied forever.
“Hey, Logan?”
“Yes?”
“Do you ever wonder if we’d work well in a relationship? Like a romantic one?”
“I…” he considers it, his cheeks flushing a deep pink. “I can’t say I’ve never contemplated the idea. Why do you ask?”
“I was just wondering,” you shrug it off, assuming he’ll want to move on from the topic.
“I think we would,” he says confidently, yet still not able to meet your eyes. “If I’m being completely honest, which I assure you I am, I’ve thought about it many times,”
Your heart pounds in your chest.
“You’re wonderful, Y/N. I admire everything about you. You’re everything I want and value in both a friend and a partner, and I daresay even more. If you ever wanted to escalate our relationship to a deeper level, I would oblige immediately. I truly would,”
You don’t really know what to say. He just confessed his affections for you better than you ever could’ve, and quite frankly you don’t think you could top it. It feels like your heart is beating faster and slower at the same time, the relief of knowing and the panic of what happens next. Obviously he wants you to say yes, right?
But all you can think about is how much you want his lips on yours.
You meet his gaze, “If you don’t kiss me right this second I swear I’ll strangle you,”
“I’m sorry?”
“I love you. It took me a long time to realize, but I know it now. I love you,” you release all the nervous energy. “Now please just kiss me,”
“I…I love you too,” his eyes dart around your face and his grin lights up. It’s as if he can’t take you all in not matter how hard he tries. Nothing in the universe could ever compare to you or what he feels for you.
He kisses you gently at first, resting his hand on your neck. His lips taste like chocolate from the s’mores and they’re perfectly warm.
He pulls away, “Is this okay? Is this what you want?”
“Oh my gosh yes please don’t stop,” you pull him back to you, wrapping your arms around him and kissing him harder. He becomes more self-assured as you go, running his fingers through your hair and holding your waist to bring you closer.
He apologizes when his glasses hit you, but you don’t care. All you can focus on is the fact that his body is on yours and you’re finally kissing the love of your life.
After a while you fall back on the cushions breathless. Logan props himself up on his elbows and grasps your hands, holding them to his cheeks. You smile up at him, giggling a bit.
“I can’t believe we waited so long to do this,” he says, kissing your palm.
You smirk, “Well let’s not wait to do it again,”
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let me be your guarantee
by airauralintensity (aka me, jasonbehrs!)
"You could stand to be a bit more selfish, you know."
"You could stand to be a bit more courteous in general, so I guess we both have things we need to work on."
fandom: kpop, super junior characters: ryeowook, kyuhyun ship: kyuwook genre: friendship, romance themes: genderbent, rule 63, high school, a day in the life, fluff (arguable) word count: 5.2k
read it below or on ffnet, wattpad, aff, or (new!) ao3
A/N (8.27.2021): I have no heterosexual explanation for the effects Ryeowook and Kyuhyun in drag have on me (or my creative process, evidently).
Rating for mildly suggestive language and graphic depictions of geometry. Title comes from Poster Girl by the Backstreet Boys. Cover art made by me. Thanks to Amy for the beta! (Even though you're already so over high school, haha.)
Uploading this as part of kyuwook month on twitter! I actually was gonna publish it wayyy back on July 21, but I waited so I could participate in ryeonamickyuo's #kyuwooksaturdays event on twitter lol. #marketing
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A soothing chime alarm wakes Ryeowook up before dawn. She lets herself stretch in bed, enjoying the warm comfort of her blankets for a moment longer before getting up for a shower. She changes into the outfit she had prepared the night before: a sparkly white sweater and a pink skirt fluffed with tulle, and she painstakingly dries and curls her long lavender hair just the way she likes it before applying some light makeup. After scrutinising her appearance for another minute, she decides to add a small braid to her hair for fun.
With ease and minimal noise, Ryeowook flits through the kitchen to make enough breakfast for her and her parents. She's feeling like sweet potatoes and tofu this morning. She leaves her parents' portions in the oven to stay warm before serving herself, and she mentally checks through yesterday's to-do list to make sure she's all set for today while she chews.
Her homework is printed and neatly filed in their own plastic sleeves as a sustainable alternative to staples.
The cinnamon rolls she made the night before, with a small batch of gluten-free versions set aside, are individually packed in a tin waiting in the fridge.
After she brushes her teeth and puts on her silver flats, she'll be all ready for the walk to school.
Satisfied with her preparations, Ryeowook hums softly to herself as she washes the dishes after eating. With the sink by the kitchen window, she is able to catch the first rays of sunlight streak across the brightening sky, and she smiles. Today is going to be a good day.
~~~
Today is already a shit day.
The alarm blares once again after snoozing it for the third time just as someone bangs on her door, and the annoying sunlight shining through her bedroom window manages to directly hit her eyes. Kyuhyun frowns into her pillow. She was having an excellent dream about kimchi ramen that is already slipping out of her grasp the more she joins the land of the conscious.
She spares a second to flip the bird in Ahra's direction, knowing full well her older sister won't see it through the closed door, before rummaging through her unruly closet for whatever passes the sniff test. She changes into a pleather bodycon skirt (just long enough to meet the school's dress code, but no longer) and a long-sleeve red crop top in a half-awake daze.
Kyuhyun offhandedly recalls she left her homework in the printer last night. Hopefully she remembers to stuff that in her bag before she leaves.
Not one for morning showers, she simply runs a brush through her silky blonde hair a few times just to get the birds' nests out, wipes the oil off her face, and swipes on a thick cat eye to complete her look.
At the breakfast table, Kyuhyun eats in silence while ignoring the looks her dad gives her, no doubt at her mildly revealing outfit. She gives him a side hug anyway before leaving her dishes in the sink for later. She finishes her morning routine, grabs her keys and homework, and shuts the door behind her when she leaves for school.
~~~
Ryeowook cheerily pushes open the school doors with plenty of time left before the first bell. Instead of her locker, she walks purposefully through the hallways for the principal's office.
"Good morning, Ryeowook!" the matronly receptionist-cum-secretary greets when she sees Ryeowook sweep in.
"Good morning, Mrs. Oh!" Ryeowook chirps. "How has your hypoglycemia been treating you?" she asks as she gathers the paperwork she needs for her homeroom duties.
"Probably better if I remembered to eat breakfast in the mornings," Mrs. Oh responds with good humour, pushing her butterfly-themed sunglasses further up the bridge of her nose.
"I thought you might say that," Ryeowook says while rummaging through her bag. "Here, I made these last night. It's gluten-free, and you can't even tell!" She offers a cinnamon roll from her tin, and she smiles at the way Mrs. Oh lights up at the sight.
"Oh, Ryeowook! You're such a dear!" Mrs. Oh effuses.
Ryeowook bows in acknowledgement and waves goodbye, the papers for homeroom loose in her hand. She finally makes her way to her locker—the inside decorated with magnets, pictures, and a helpful calendar—so that she can get the books she'll need for all her pre-lunch classes.
In the hallways, she is greeted at every turn.
"Hey, Ryeowook! I hope you had a great weekend!" "I did, thanks! Happy Monday!"
"Oh my god, your outfit is completely adorable. It really brings out the lavender of your hair." "Wow, you think? I'll invest in more pink then~"
"Thanks so much for helping with the banner last week! It was a hit at our event; everyone wanted a photo with it." "No problem; I'm so glad to hear that! Like I always say, there's no such thing as too much glitter!"
These microtransactions of joy she gets while walking through the halls energise her like nothing else. She loves being helpful and knowing people care about her enough to say hi. It makes her life as a member of the school's community and as a student leader so fulfilling.
She makes it into homeroom with a minute to spare, sets her stuff at her desk, then places the tin of cinnamon rolls on the teachers' desk for everyone's enjoyment.
The bell rings, and the wattage turns up on her smile. "Good morning!" she calls out, easily cutting through the chatter with her high and bright voice. "There are cinnamon rolls at the front for everyone. Feel free to grab some while I take attendance. The ones swirled in a clockwise pattern are gluten free, so please save them for those with that dietary restriction!"
The typical gratitudes spill out—"Oh my god, these taste amazing." "You're so thoughtful, Ryeowook!" "Please marry me."—and she preens at the praise as she goes down the list in her hand.
It isn't until she gets to a specific name near the top, until she doesn't hear the typical 'Present!' that should follow, that she gives her first frown of the day.
She quickly shakes it off and finishes up, returning to her seat with every intention to rehearse her presentation one more time before the bell ending homeroom rings.
~~~
Kyuhyun steps into school right after the warning bell for first period rings, and she seamlessly joins the throngs of people hustling to their first class.
Well, she would join them, if there were throngs to join. Students stop in their tracks and fall silent as soon as they sense her presence, causing nearby students to quiet in confusion then in understanding such that a bubble of non-motion and non-noise follows her as she walks. The typical morning chatter resumes at a lowered volume from a safe distance of six feet behind her, and she is vain enough to presume at least 40% of those conversations are about her.
The stares go unacknowledged of course. So do the hapless love declarations from desperate freshmen and presumptive date offers from cocky upperclassmen. They might as well have said, "Kyuhyun, I bet you don't have better things to do with your time than stroke my ego and go dutch on an oily dinner at a chain restaurant after school." As if.
While leaving another potential suitor in the dust, a janitor accidentally turns on an industrial fan facing her direction just as she takes off her sunglasses. Coupled with the paused state of her classmates, her languid pace through the hall looks like a slow-motion runway walk that even Naomi Campbell in her prime would envy.
Kyuhyun's locker is empty save for the jacket she just shoved into it, then she goes straight to her first class of the day. She slides into her seat—not all the way in the back; cliche, much?—and, as if on cue, the whispers start.
"Do you think her hair is natural?' "Of course not, look at her eyebrows." "She could be dyeing her eyebrows!"
"I heard she drives to school? I thought only third-years and up were allowed to do that!" "I don't think allowances are all it takes to stop someone like her."
"Cho Kyuhyun in red should be one of the seven deadly sins." "That sin already exists, and it's called 'lust,' bro." "No no no no no. There's lust, and there's Cho Kyuhyun in red."
Strangers referring to you by your full name in some sort of layman's equivalent of a celebrity mononym has such a satisfying, powerful feel to it. Alas, save for a sly smirk, these too are ignored.
The smirk is promptly wiped off her face as soon as the teacher walks in, as if their life's greatest joy is teaching 16 year-olds about Korean peninsular history at 8:30 in the morning, and Kyuhyun already lolls her head back in disinterest.
~~~
Ryeowook snaps her hand up, a lone beacon of preparedness in a sea of bored or anxious faces.
"Thanks for volunteering, Ryeowook! Whenever you're ready." The teacher gestures to the podium with a sweep of their hands, pleased with the student's enthusiasm.
Ryeowook flounces out of her seat to the front of the classroom and loads up her presentation on the laptop hooked up to the projector. "S.E.S. as a Pop Culture Juggernaut" appears on screen in bold letters, and the subtle sounds of rustling fill the classroom as students sit up in interest.
"Good morning, everyone! Today I'm going to present on the seminal idol girl group S.E.S. Through interdisciplinary and anthropological analysis, I will illustrate how the mark they've left on Korean culture at the time of their debut carries ripple effects on the entertainment industry that can be observed to this day."
She takes a moment to look over the surprised and interested faces of her classmates and teacher, then smiles internally. She's going to crush this.
She clicks to the next slide. "S.E.S. is a girl group that debuted in 1997 under SM Entertainment. That may seem like a fairly innocuous sentence on its own; in which case, I'll inform you that they are the first girl group ever debuted in K-pop history…"
When the class learned their Forensics and Communication midterm assignment would be free-form, many of her classmates asked if she'd partner with them for a debate. Their topics were interesting enough. She would have customarily had little problem arguing on the cost-benefit analysis of a college education or the validity of prison sentences served overseas (to name a few).
But she graciously turned them all down. In her heart, she knew she'd simply enjoy it more if she gave a presentation on something more personal… and studies show passion for your work drives results. She expects nothing less than an A+.
Thanks to the confident excitement lacing her voice and a powerpoint that took her two weeks to perfect, she handily grabs the interest and attention of every student in the class, even the ones typically uninterested in idol culture. She winds up leading the class in a discussion on the inherent greater interest the Korean general public reserves for girl groups in contrast to the supersaturated boy band market, and the teacher has to regretfully cut them short to allow for the other midterm assignments that had to be seen that day.
"Thanks again, Ryeowook, for that illuminating and impassioned presentation! Why don't we keep that energy going, hmm? I know it may seem like a tough act to follow, but who's ready to present next?"
Expecting the worst, the teacher is pleasantly surprised when a majority of the class raises their hands to volunteer. The teacher looks over at Ryeowook and sends a quick wink in thanks, and Ryeowook gives a thumbs up in acknowledgement.
~~~
Kyuhyun clicks 'downvote' on a thread in the r/poppunk subreddit. As if Retrieve Me the Skyline has anything on Querying Quinn.
Just then, she senses a presence walk up to her desk. She lifts her eyes up from her phone—hidden behind an obviously strategically upright notebook in a semblance of respect for the teacher—to find said teacher looking at her disapprovingly. She sighs without remorse and puts her cellphone away, not one to fight once she's caught red-handed.
"Thank you, Ms. Cho. Now, as I was saying: Just like how Korean borrows from Chinese and English words, English borrows words from many other cultures. This is part of why their grammar rules are so inconsistent. Therefore, it may be helpful to learn the etymology of certain words to reinforce these rules. For example, 'geese' is the plural form of 'goose' because 'goose' was borrowed from German, and Proto-Germanic grammar does allow for plural forms for their nouns. On the other hand, 'moose' does not pluralise to 'meese' because it was borrowed from an Indigenous American language which did not pluralise their nouns."
Kyuhyun barely has the presence of mind to suppress a groan. If this is supposed to be an English class, why is the teacher talking about German all of a sudden? She isn't gaining any more while paying attention as she was while scrolling on her phone! This is why she doesn't bother. It would take her less time and less effort to simply read the textbook.
Honestly, that's how she usually spends her classes. She's not against learning necessarily—if she has to be here, she might as well—but she is against the fluff shit that most teachers feel the need to sprinkle in to keep people's attention or reinforce learning. If it's not going to be on the national exam at the end of the year, it's just a waste of time.
It doesn't help that Kyuhyun's a whole league above the mouthbreathers in this high school anyway. What other people need several hours of studying to understand sinks in for her after a single lecture. She has the makings to be every teacher's dream student, but she's made it very clear: Don't make her participate in class, and she won't eviscerate their self-esteem in exchange. It's an elegant system with an 87.5% success rate.
As her schedule has it, the only class where it doesn't work is her next one. The phys ed grade is almost entirely predicated on participation; and unfortunately for her, the venn diagram of men who have already had their insecurities abused to the point of desensitisation by their superiors during conscription and men who decide to become high school PE teachers seems to be a circle.
Her solution for this class is admittedly less elegant.
Even as the next period is just about to begin and the halls thin out, Kyuhyun still manages to easily breeze past the bumbling office receptionist trying to prevent her from leaving the grounds during school hours.
(Hey, she's gonna get a 0 for participation whether she's wasting time sitting on the bleachers and bored out of her mind or whether she's going to the mall to grab the new Napping with Nixies album. Might as well do the fun one. Bonus: instead of paying the Korean public school system for the rehydrated prison rations they consider 'food,' she can grab lunch at the foodcourt!)
~~~
Ryeowook spends her lunch period like a jetsetting CEO, the precious few minutes taken up by meetings with various teachers, students, and—today—even an administrator.
"Thanks so much for taking the time to meet with me, Ryeowook."
"Of course, Mr. Park! I'm happy to represent the needs of my class. Let me know if I can help with this initiative again later once it gains more momentum."
"I certainly will. Have a good rest of your day, Ms. Kim," Mr. Park replies warmly, his deep voice and barrel-chested physique radiating authority and paternity.
The administrator walks her out of his office, and they bow to each other at the door. The clock in the hallway tells her there is barely any time to make it to the cafeteria and eat a meal, so she sighs and resignedly walks back to her locker to exchange her books with the ones she'd need for her post-lunch classes.
She remembers there is a vending machine along the way to her next classroom, so she pivots her route slightly so that she can pick up a granola bar and a bottle of water. They'll be easy to finish before class starts.
"You know, you'd have time to eat a real lunch and attend your precious meetings if they just expanded our lunch hour to be an actual hour," a voice says from behind her just as she feeds a paper bill into the machine.
"I don't mind. It means we have more time spent in our classes."
She bends at the knee to retrieve her purchases then gracefully hops back up to twirl on her heel, steadfastly ignoring the other's presence as she continues on her way.
"I think we can definitely stand to spend less time in class. Come on; we already sacrifice the most formative years of our lives confined to these 'hallowed halls,' and they can't even let us digest our meals properly?" her nuisance heckles as Ryeowook is followed.
"I bet the Student Council would love to have an impassioned, opinionated person such as yourself on the panel. If you have ideas for change, you're free to share them with people who are empowered to do something about it," Ryeowook comments mildly, gaze trained forward even as the other pulls up beside her.
"The student council is a mockery of democracy and only serves as a mere figurehead for the students' collective political and bartering power to the school administration, and you know it."
Finally, Ryeowook stops. She squares her shoulders and looks her antagoniser in the eye. "I'd appreciate it if you didn't mock an extracurricular about which I'm very passionate to my face, Kyuhyun-ssi."
The taller smirks. "As much as you'd appreciate time to sit and eat lunch with your friends for once?"
They are not alone in the hallway they've entered into. With an almost imperceptible turn of her head, Ryeowook can even see some students eavesdropping on their conversation, eager to hypothesise with their friends what the two most popular girls in school yet for completely opposite reasons are doing talking to each other.
"Hey, isn't that Kim Ryeowook?" "Talking to Cho Kyuhyun?" "Hold up, they know each other?"
If she could hear them, then they could certainly hear her, and that reminder is enough to reign in her annoyance. She allows herself ten seconds to collect her composure.
When she speaks again, her voice is airy and pleasant. "Well, if that's all, I have to go and spend what's left of my lunch period doing something a little more constructive than arguing with someone who'd rather complain than make the best of a situation. If you'll excuse me."
"You should have gotten fig newtons!" Kyuhyun calls as Ryeowook moves around her. Ryeowook counts it as a small blessing that the other does not follow. "They're easier to eat in class! Less noisy."
"You're not allowed to eat food in class," Ryeowook retorts plainly without even turning her head.
She can feel the other's eyes on her as she walks away, but she ignores it as she takes a swig of her water.
(She finishes her bar before crossing the threshold of the classroom, arriving before even the teacher does and finding a half of a sandwich wrap from the deli across the street waiting on her desk.)
~~~
The surface of Kyuhyun's desk is empty save for her arms and elbows organised to support her languid daydreaming. Outside the window, she watches as three red cars pass by.
More so than her other subjects, math just makes sense to her without even trying. There's less up for interpretation, there are consistent and logical rules, and patterns are clearer with numbers.
If she doesn't need to try, then why would she? So she hands in passable attempts at homework, texts throughout lecture, and is generally unresponsive during the class. Ms. Kang would love nothing more than to suspend her for insubordination and churlishness; but Kyuhyun is her best student by far, and they both know it.
"If the altitude of right triangle ABC intersects with the hypotenuse at D, what equation is always true?"
In fact, Kyuhyun would want to skip this class too, but there's just something about its specific learning environment that keeps her attending lesson after lesson.
In her periphery, the student in front of her and one row over hurriedly draws out the question in her notebook to analyse it. She raises her hand in excitement a moment later.
"Yes, Ryeowook?" "AD over AC is equal to AC over BD!"
Kyuhyun suppresses a scoff. The teacher smiles sympathetically, knowing that Ryeowook is doing her best, and says, "Sorry, but no."
Ryeowook pouts. "Aigoooo," she intones as she looks back at her drawing, no doubt trying to understand where she went wrong.
Encouraged by Ryeowook's attempt, more students try their hand at the problem.
"AC over AD equals BD over BC?" "Nope."
"AD over CD equals DB over CD!" "If you bothered to write that down, you'd immediately see why that cannot possibly be the correct answer."
The class lapses into silence, and Ms. Kang begins calling out desperately. "Anyone? Anyone else?" When it was apparent no one else knew the answer, she sighs. "Kyuhyun?"
"AD over AC is equal to CD over BC," she recites boredly, gaze still trained beyond the window. Forget being capable of immediately answering a direct question; if anyone had been observing her during this lesson, they would have thought she wasn't even paying attention at all.
"That is correct," the teacher admits begrudgingly. "Remember class, due to the AA Similarity Postulate…"
Kyuhyun lets the teacher's words drift in one ear and out the other, heeding no further sounds until the bell rings.
The end of the school day is finally upon them.
As much as she looks forward to this point every day, she sits in her chair and lets every other student file out first before packing her things. She's in no rush.
Kyuhyun drops her bookbag off at her locker and wanders the halls aimlessly instead, spending extra time in the art corridor to see the latest student works. The freshmen are working on watercolours, apparently.
After an unfortunate encounter in the bathroom, she beelines for the cafeteria, which happens to be in a completely other building, and runs into the second-to-last person she wants to see right now.
"What are you still doing here, Ms. Cho?" Mr. Park asks with suspicion.
"Just hanging out," she says with a shrug.
"I know you refuse to partake in any of our extracurriculars, but don't you have something better to do than loiter? I'm sure you have homework or some such."
"Maybe if this school started offering a curriculum that actually required me to reinforce what I learned at home, I would."
Mr. Park's eyes narrow in contempt. "Whatever delinquent nonsense you're up to, do it outside of my high school!" he bellows.
Kyuhyun's phone buzzes in her hand just then, and she uses the same hand to offer a sarcastic salute. "Your wish, Mr. Park," she offers in parting before rushing as fast as she can to her locker. She can't wait to get home.
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When her home's doorbell rings its seasonal chime, Ryeowook is several pages deep into her biology packet. She begrudgingly sets down her work and gets up to look out the window.
Her view is exasperating.
"You weren't in homeroom this morning… again," she says in lieu of a greeting, walking back to where she was doing homework in the living room after letting in the guest.
"Babe, don't be like that," the guest whines while she takes off her shoes. "You know that homeroom is a gigantic waste of time. It's just Big Academia's way of—"
"—'Training students to get used to being herded like cattle,' yeah yeah. Tell it to someone who cares."
"Oh? This isn't a suggestion I should take to your precious student council?"
"I don't have time for you right now. I have a whole biology packet to complete before I can start baking," Ryeowook says as she waves said packet in the air for emphasis.
Kyuhyun pouts with her whole face. "Why bother letting me over if you're not even going to pay attention to me!"
Ryeowook sighs and repositions her laptop to rest on the arm of the couch, invitation unspoken. Kyuhyun drops her petulant act immediately and happily trods over to stretch out on the couch and rest her head on her girlfriend's lap. She wiggles in place to get comfortable and pulls out her phone. Ryeowook's typing provides a light, inconsistent soundtrack to her mindless scrolling; and it feels nice.
"How'd your presentation go?" she asks after a while.
"I almost accidentally commandeered the whole period because people were so excited about my topic." Ryeowook tried going for deadpan, but the pride in her voice was unmistakable.
"Well, duh. No one can listen to you talk about something you're interested in and stay indifferent."
"Yeah, it's cool how emotions are infectious," Ryeowook comments offhandedly.
"Sure, but I meant specifically you. You're, like, the most passionate person I know. I bet you had the best topic out of anyone there, anyway."
Ryeowook doesn't reply, but Kyuhyun cranes her neck just enough to watch a grateful and pleased smile cross the other's face.
Satisfied with how awesome of a girlfriend she is, she keeps going. "Did you like the wrap?"
Kyuhyun can somehow feel the change a split-second before she hears it. "It was delicious; thank you; and never do it again," Ryeowook responds with a clipped tone.
Kyuhyun rolls her eyes. "Stop sacrificing your lunch time for things that can be handled over email, and maybe I will."
"I meant skipping class; and don't even try to deny it!" Ryeowook adds as soon as she hears Kyuhyun's sharp intake of breath in preparation for a non-sequitur argument. "I know you. You thought to do it only because you passed by the deli on your way back from wherever truant kids spend their time."
"Napping with Nixies released a new album," Kyuhyun defends.
"And the store would have still had copies for you to buy during the weekend," Ryeowook retorts.
"First day sales are important, Ryeowook!"
"So is your education, Kyuhyun!" Ryeowook parrots back in the same whining tone.
"Spoken like a true cog in Big Academia's machine."
"This sentence probably won't make sense to a self-inflicted lone wolf, but collaboration happens best in person. And I prefer a small lunch anyway." Ryeowook tacks on that last bit like an afterthought. Kyuhyun might have believed her, except she's seen the way Ryeowook packs for picnic dates and knows that statement to be patently untrue.
"You could stand to be a bit more selfish with your time, you know."
"You could stand to be a bit more courteous in general, so I guess we both have things we need to work on," Ryeowook fires back easily.
Kyuhyun strikes the couch with her arms in offense. "I'm plenty courteous! I bought you lunch 'cause I knew you wouldn't have had a real meal otherwise!"
"I meant to people that aren't me!" Ryeowook clarifies exasperatedly.
"Hmph. People that aren't you don't deserve it. It's like Kanye-sunbaenim says: 'Asshole to the world but never to your girl.'"
"… I don't know what's worse: that I'm dating a girl that gets her love advice from Kanye West or the fact that I had to hear the phrase 'Kanye-sunbaenim' with my own two ears."
"Well, what if I told you I also get my life advice from Kimmy K-unnie? That way it counts as women empowerment. Don't you like that kind of stuff?"
Ryeowook finally tears her focus away from her work to eye Kyuhyun incredulously.
Kyuhyun innocently looks up through her eyelashes to meet the other's gaze. "Well if you're not into what I'm posting, don't look."
Mercilessly, Ryeowook shoves Kyuhyun off her lap. "Goodbye," she says as she places her laptop back on her folded legs.
Kyuhyun scrambles up from the floor and looks at the laptop with thinly veiled disdain and jealousy. "Let me back!"
"Not until you're nicer to people."
"I'm nice to people! Today, I heard Yom Syejin gossipping in the bathroom that the only way I could have avoided detention this year is by blowing Mr. Park, and I managed to walk away without dunking her head in the toilet. That seems plenty nice to me."
"Excuse me, Yom Syejin said what?!"
Ah shit, Kyuhyun knew she shouldn't have said anything. This is what she gets for thinking humourous delivery is enough to mask unfortunate content.
"Really, it's not a big deal. I handled it," Kyuhyun maintains.
"I'm sure you did, honey. Come on, help me bake some snickerdoodles," Ryeowook says as she immediately heads into the kitchen.
This would be an excellent idea, except that Kyuhyun can clearly see Ryeowook's biology packet is still unfinished and that Ryeowook's tone of voice sounded disingenuously peppy.
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Ryeowook makes it into homeroom the next day with a minute to spare, sets her stuff at her desk, then places a tin of snickerdoodles on the teachers' desk for everyone's enjoyment.
The bell rings, and the wattage turns up on her smile. "Good morning!" she calls out, easily cutting through the chatter with her high and bright voice. "There are snickerdoodles at the front for everyone. Feel free to grab some while I take attendance. I didn't have time last night to make as many as I wanted to, so I evenly divided the batch into goodie bags for you all! I wrote your names on them too, so please only take one. I'll know if you don't," she faux-threatens with a cute wink.
The typical gratitudes spill out—"You're the best!" "Thanks, Ryeowook!" "Please marry me?"—and she preens at the praise as she goes down the list in her hand.
It isn't until she notices one person in particular eagerly grabbing her designated bag that Ryeowook lets a private smile cross her face.
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from: Kyuhyun-ssi (Geometry) oh my god yom skank-jin just bolted out of my english class like the new galaxy was on sale tf?
from: wookie💜 Maybe if you bothered attending homeroom this morning, you'd have an answer to your crudely-phrased question.
from: Kyuhyun-ssi (Geometry) oh my god what did you do
from: wookie💜 Did you know Syejinnie's favourite cookies are snickerdoodles?
from: Kyuhyun-ssi (Geometry) OH MY GOD WHAT DID YOU DO
from: wookie💜 Bathrooms are for shitting, not shit-talking.
from: Kyuhyun-ssi (Geometry) i am madly in love with you
from: wookie💜 Stop texting me and pay attention in class!
from: wookie💜 And I love you too 💛
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A/N (8.27.2021): Thanks for reading! To prove my thanks, here is fanart that almost made it into the cover photo.
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A Test of Courage
A Test of Courage
A Banri x Kat fanfic
This is a self ship fic, uwa. Hope you like it! qwq
Focus was drawn to the tv screen as the competition occupies his attention. Well, most of it anyway. Banri’s brow furrowed, his eyes narrowing with a frustrated growl. Itaru on the other hand had a completely stone faced expression, magenta irises honed in on the fight as he won the match once again. The younger man let out a sigh of defeat, rubbing his temples in small circles.
“Dammit…” He muttered. Banri’s skills were rusted. Though they shouldn’t have been; he practiced fighting the character Itaru was good at with her, after all. What was causing him to feel so distracted? His mind was drifting all over the place to so many different thoughts, but it always went back to those smoky blue eyes - that rosy cheeked smile - and those wavy blond locks. The image left a lasting imprint, one that was shaking him to the core. 
“Wow, your game was off today,” Of course Itaru noticed. “Alright, spill it. What’s going on?” And go figure he would want to know what’s on Banri's mind. This made the Autumn Troupe leader groan as he was trying to find good wording.
“It’s nothin’. Must be an off day for me.” Yeah, no kidding. He was just reiterating Itaru’s point. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to talk, it’s just that the words were escaping him. He didn’t wanna sound like a fool that wasn’t making any sense. Though right now, it felt like nothing was making sense to him. Why did he feel this way again?
“You like Kat a lot, don’t you?”
“Huh?” The brunette took a glance at the man sitting next to him.
“I think it’s pretty obvious at this point that you like her in a romantic sense. Your expressions seem so much more soft and doting around her. Plus, Kazunari said you two eat lunch together more often at class now.”
Shit. Banri’s cover was blown. Light brown strands were slicked back through his fingers as he tried not to keel over from the blatantly humiliating callout from Itaru. Now he remembered why he was so off today. It was Kat; She was all Banri could think about right now. He thought about playing it cool, feigning ignorance, but that wouldn't work. Not when Itaru knew him well enough to pick up on his mood just from his performance when gaming. A disgruntled sigh left slightly chapped lips, and Banri rested his chin in the palm of his hand.
"I don't know what it is about her, but-" He paused. "Whenever I'm near her lately, I kinda freeze up and I can feel my face getting warmer." Honestly, it pissed him off a little. He thought he sounded so stupid; getting this flustered around a girl he'd known for about a year now made him feel like some sort of protagonist from a romance anime. Even now, he felt his face rise in temperature, and he could deduce that his cheeks were definitely flushed. God, he felt so hopeless.
"Wow." A reaction that caught the young man off guard.
"The hell do you mean by that?" The question caused Itaru to chuckle, a smile decorating his face with mischief.
"Sounds to me like your life's not in super ultra easy mode anymore, am I right?"
The worst part was that Banri couldn't disagree.
"Ha ha, very funny Itaru," He replied in a mocking tone. "Though, I ain't gonna say that you're wrong. Cuz you're not."
"Well, if I'm not wrong, what's stopping you? Are you scared of rejection?"
"Ha! Scared of rejection? I'm Banri goddamn Settsu," He said that with a smile that so painfully indicated he was scared. "I can bet if I confessed to her right now, she'd be-"
"Banri, I know you're lying." That sentence… Why did it cut so deep? It shouldn't. It was true, of course, but the fact he wasn't able to get away with it made him feel like a deer in the headlights. An anxious pang in his chest only grew as Itaru continued.
"Just like always, you're afraid of losing. Typical Banri mannerisms for you, I guess." 
"A'ight, ya don't have to rub it in, bastard…" Both men let out soft laughter. Though Banri's was born out of fear. It pulsed in his heart, every scenario in his head playing out with the worst possible outcome. These feelings of longing- of teenage anxiety- of a racing heartbeat and lovesick laughter- all of it was so foreign. So exciting. Yet all the same, incredibly terrifying.
"It's just… she's such a cool person, y'feel me?" Banri started. "I mean, she's smart, she's kind, and so freaking talented on stage. And whenever I see her smile and gush over something she loves, her face lights up and it's just so fuckin' cute." At that moment, he snickered, looking at Itaru eye to eye for the first time in that conversation. "And, shit, don't get me started on how her occasional moments where she gets a bit flighty and airheaded make me so damn happy. Like, she can be so mature and caring, but also a bit of a klutz who doesn't always think things through, but also super passionate and energetic, just-"
"Your perfect girl, right?" Banri nodded in agreement with Itaru's statement. In all senses, to Banri, Kat was perfect. Even with all the little flaws and quirks, like her occasional bursts of temper, the way her face flushed tomato red when embarrassed, it was all lovely to him. The two of them got along so well, but he remembered that it’d be likely she’d just like to be friends. 
“I wanna tell her. I want her to know how much she makes me smile, man. I want her to know how god damn beautiful she is. But I don’t wanna make things awkward between us either, y’know?” This elicited a tired look from Itaru.
“Dude, it’s gonna be awkward within the first stages of dating anyhow. Better to tell her and at least get your feelings out and face rejection rather than keep going down this back and forth with yourself.”
“Well how the hell am I supposed to do that?!” The blonde shrugged.
“Meh, I dunno. Never dated anyone so I’m useless in that department.” That just turned Banri’s frustration into desperation.
“At least give me something, dude!” An eye roll from Itaru.
“Look, the best advice I can give is ask to talk to her and see where things go from there. Tell her how you feel about her. Y’know, regular confession stuff.”
“Guess that’s a start…” That unfortunately didn’t do much to settle the nerves from the realization that- oh no- he had to confess to the woman he’s slowly grown to pine for this past year and a half. This wasn’t going to be easy, he knew that for sure.
The next morning makes itself known to Banri from the sun’s rays tickling his face, and the absence of Juza’s snoring. It was the weekend, so he didn’t really have anything to do. Accept… he DID have something to do. Something he desperately didn’t want to do, but wanted to do at the exact same time. He could smell breakfast from his room. Pancakes and bacon. It distracted him from the nervous sensation in his stomach.
After a quick shower, he walks down the stairs, sleep still leaving him in a daze as he reaches the dining room. Pretty much everyone was here, save for Itaru and Masumi who were sleeping in. Kat was on the couch, sketchbook in her hands as she waited for Omi to finish breakfast. She looked up from the paper in Banri’s direction, and gave him a soft smile that melts him into a puddle of happiness.
“Morning, BanBan.” BanBan. A nickname she gave him that she used for some lighthearted fun. It caught him off guard, and he thought it was silly, but after a while, he really grew to love it. It was a nice little term of endearment to the both of them. Though mainly, she was too cute to say no to. Her laughter whenever she used it was enough to get him to laugh along from how infectious it was. Banri sat next to his fellow classmate, and gave a half smile in return.
“Mornin’ Kat. Good to see your face. Always brightens my mood.” A light giggle and a faint hint of blush on those already rosy red cheeks caught Banri’s attention. 
“Aww, look at you being all sweet and charming today. Who are you, and what have you done with Banri?”
“Pfft, wow, rude.” The two of them laughed quietly so as to not disturb everyone else. Lord knows Sakyo would be up their asses for it later if they were too loud. “For the record, I’m nice and charming all the time. I’m Banri Settsu after all.” That got Kat to snort.
“Oh my god, that’s so corny, I love it.” Banri chuckled at that. 
“Yeah, it was, my bad.” Then the fear returned. He could hear his heart beating like a hammer, and his hands quivered ever so slightly. “Hey uh… after breakfast, could I tell you somethin’ at the park?” Kat raised her brows inquisitively.
“Huh? Oh, sure!” On cue, Omi called everyone to the dining room. Breakfast was ready. Kat set down her drawing supplies, and made her way to the table, Banri following suit behind her. Today’s breakfast was simple, pancakes, bacon and hard boiled eggs. Kat smiled happily; they were some of her favorite things to eat for breakfast.  Banri sat across from her, the both of them eating in silence aside from occasionally joining in for small talk with others at the table. Though Banri had a hard time eating at all. The anxiety from what he would have to do later made his appetite seem smaller today. He excused himself after only finishing about half his plate, which surprised everyone at the table. He gave a quick tap to the young woman’s shoulder. 
“Just meet me there, ok?” A nod accompanied by a hum of confirmation from Kat was Banri’s cue to leave. His shoulders tensed up as he left, putting on his shoes before starting a jog to the park. The whole time he ran, he could feel his resolve waver more than it already was. ‘What if it isn’t worth it? What if she’ll feel uncomfortable?’
‘What if we’ll never be the same after this?’
It scared him so bad. And it manifested into tears threatening to spill and pour down his cheeks. His mouth felt dry, his breath laboured as he sprinted frantically to the park, stopping in his tracks at the park’s fountain before it all broke loose. Choked sobs left him as he tried to catch his breath. His lip quivered as tears rolled down his cheeks. Banri tried to collect himself, wiping his eyes and nose, and steadying his shaky breath. This break in confidence made him feel so stupid. He felt ashamed for being so afraid. He felt even more stupid because he knew Kat would ask what’s wrong. He didn’t want her to worry. He wasn’t used to it. His parents never paid much attention; he was perfect at everything. Right now though, he was far from that supposed perfect man he was. He was vulnerable; he was second guessing himself. If Kat saw him like this - all clumsy and anxious over a confession - what would she think of him? 
“Banri?” That voice made his heart sink. He felt like he was in such deep shit right now. His blood ran cold, but his face was red from crying.
“Banri, are okay? Oh god, were you crying?” Her worried tone made Banri feel so secure, but it was so odd to him. The young man wanted to brush it off, say it was nothing, but that was a lie he knew she’d see through. ‘Fuck it,’ He thought. ‘Might as well follow through on what you told yourself you were gonna do Banri.’
“Yeah, uh… I was.”
“What’s wrong? Did something happen?”
“Nah, nah. Well, I mean- I guess? I just- I dunno, I kinda got something on my mind and it’s really stressin’ me out.” A hand came to Banri’s back; a reassuring touch to let him know he was ok. 
“Do you wanna talk about it? I’m always here for you, BanBan.” That smile that followed her words felt so warm and welcoming. And the way she said ‘BanBan’ was so different from any other time she said it. In most instances, it was used to joke around with him when they were messing around being idiots together. Here, it was affectionate, and born of concern for her friend’s well being. Somewhere in his heart, Banri felt it wasn’t ok to be open with her despite her reassuring he could tell her. But right now, he didn’t care about his worries. His brain was silently screaming at him right now to get it out, to just go for it even if you two just stay friends. That was ok with him. It may be a bit awkward for a while if she doesn’t reciprocate, but that wouldn’t change how much he liked spending time with her as a friend to begin with. Worries be damned, he supposed it was at least worth a shot.
“Yeah, thanks.” Deep breaths. In and out. “So, I’ve kinda debated back and forth since the last week or so whether or not I should tell you this, cuz I didn’t want to ruin our friendship. But I wanted to tell you how I feel about you, cuz I have a lot on my mind about a lot of stuff. Ever since we started hanging out over the past year, I’ve kinda started to feel really anxious around you. My heart races, my face gets all red and shit, and I start losing my words.  I really don’t wanna beat around the bush with this but I- I really like you. Like, romantically.”
Silence. It hung over for about a couple seconds, but to Banri it felt like a fucking eternity. At this point one could drop a pin and it would be heard that was how silent it was at that moment. But shock filled the young man’s sapphire eyes when Kat took his hand and held it. She cast a little glance, before looking away with a timid smile. She looked like a blushing bride. Banri didn’t know what to do he was so nauseous from the anxiety, but somehow, gently reciprocating the touch felt so natural and normal. Their eyes finally met, and Kat had a really goofy smile. It was lopsided, and one could tell she was happy but also really nervous. Her face was red, which was unsurprising given she’d get like that when she’d be caught singing by the other company members.
“Y’know, I uh… I’ve kinda wanted to tell you the exact same thing so I’m like, really happy right now.”
“Wait, really?” Kat nodded fervently.
“Yes! Y-Yes I- God, I’ve felt so scared too cuz I really didn’t wanna make things awkward between us if you didn’t feel the same way, But you’re just really fun to be around, you’re really handsome, and I love watching you act cuz you try super hard, and it makes me wanna try just as hard too! A-And I really wanna make you as happy as you make me, so… um…! Yeah, I-I really like you, like, a whole lot!”
Banri’s eyes widened in awe. Was this real? Was this a dream? He wasn’t sure, but a big smile spread across his face, and he started to laugh in relief.
“Holy shit, can I hug you please?” She nodded, and Banri hugged her so tight. He felt so happy. It may have been silly of him to cry tears of joy, but nonetheless he did. Just when he thought the tears had dried up, the euphoria made all the emotions rise up to the surface again. He pulled back to look at Kat, and she was crying too. Looks like she was just as scared as well. It made him feel a little better about everything. Banri tenderly brushed his thumb across her cheek, wiping away her tears.
“God, I knew you were adorable, but do you have to have such a cute smile?”
“What can I say? I guess I’m like your little ball of sunshine.”
“You’re damn right about that,” Banri placed a featherlight peck on the cheek. “I love you so much, Kat.”
“Love you too, Banri.”
Those words made him happy. So, so happy. Right now, time stood still. He wanted to stay like this. To stay close, in a warm embrace, pressing gentle, nervous kisses to each other’s lips. And right now, in this little moment, they would stay like this for at least half an hour. Banri vowed to himself, as they both stayed comfortable in that blanket of love, that he would make her so damn happy. Lucky for him, he was already well on his way.
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evabellasworld · 4 years ago
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Young Soul
For Star Wars POC Week 2020
Day 5: Family
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Summary: After 8 years, Ava Lira and Eva Bella Young has reunited with their mother, Kaia Young on Chandrila and learned about their deceased father.
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“Come on, Lira,” Eva groaned as she knocked on her door, clinching both her dolls. “We don’t want to miss the first bus.”
“Hold your horses, Evie,” Lira talked back. “I’m trying to pack up.”
“Well, you should have done that yesterday when I got back from Mortis.”
“Ugh, stop nagging me. You’re annoying.”
She took a deep breath and crossed her arms as she was about to step inside her room when Lira popped out, with her backpack and her extra slingbag, which carried her gadgets and gizmos that she made out of trash. “Now I’m ready.”
“You took too long,” Eva slapped her arms. “Do you know how long it will take from the Jedi Temple to the cargo bay?”
“It takes twenty minutes, Evie,” Lira rolled her eyes as they both walked on the empty corridor, with no one up early in the morning, except for a few, who were too tired to even care about where the twins were even going in the first place. “I’ve read the map like fifty times.”
“If you read the map fifty times, then why do you have to be super slow in preparing yourself?”
“I prepare myself. I just forgot a couple of things, that’s all.”
“That could have been prevented if you prepared yourself earlier on.”
Lira let out a groan of frustration. “Whatever, you sound just like Obi-Wan sometimes.”
“Well, maybe it’s for the best.”
As they finished their conversations, the identical twins with red hair and almond-shaped eyes stepped outside the Temple, where they were greeted by Commander Tori, who only had her bottom half of her clone commander on, along with her black top. “So, where are you girls heading today?”
“Just take us to the cargo bay,” Lira answered, grabbing the backseat. “We need to fly out of Coruscant as soon as possible.”
“And why is that?” Tori raised her eyebrows. “Are you guys meeting someone important?”
“It’s our mother,” Eva spoke, with a frown. “We haven’t seen her since we were three years old and it is urgent that we have to get to Chandrila.”
Being a clone trooper, Tori doesn’t know about being separated from a parent from a young age, but one thing she understood is family and bonding. Being close to Rex, Cody, Mayyah, and Minnie, who were her siblings, not being able to see them for a long period makes her anxious and depressed, and it is what the twins are currently experiencing right now.
“Of course, girls,” she gave a nod, driving off from the Temple. “But do your masters know about this?”
“They’re at the battlefield, again,” Lira said, glancing at the dark, morning sky, with the sun not rising from the horizon and the cool wind blowing in their surroundings. 
Tori sighed. It’s been a year since the Clone Wars had begun and day by day, she noticed that the relationship between the girls and their Jedi Masters had slowly dwindled, without both of them realizing it. Lira and Eva loved their masters, obviously, but most of the time, they found themselves closer to Tori than they thought.
Arriving at the cargo bay, Tori escorted both of them inside and stepped inside the ship, sitting beside them. If the girls had to see their mother, she won’t let them go by themselves, with the danger of the outside world much worse than what they watched on cartoons every Saturday morning.
“So,” Tori breaks the awkward silence between them. “Does your mother know that you both are visiting her today?”
Eva nodded. “Yes, Tori. We managed to find her phone number in the yellow page and commed her immediately. She’s very nervous to see us both.”
“Oh, well, that’s good to hear. Now tell me, what does your mother work as?”
“She worked at The Angel Inn,” Lira informed, showing her the pages that she found the other day. “It only opens at night, so we have ample time for Evie and me to spend time with her.”
She read Kaia Young’s comm and noticed the place was listed down as a brothel on Chandrila, making her cheeks turn hot. Should I tell them the place where her mother worked, or should I just keep quiet and let their mother come clean about her job?
She heard about her brothers and sisters visiting brothels on Coruscant, and getting kicked out of the place when they realize that their service isn’t free at all. Choerry was a fine example of a clone trooper who was banned from a brothel. Tori could only grumble, but at the same time, it amuses her as well.
“Oh, that’s fascinating to hear, girls,” she smiled. “I can’t wait to meet your mother as well, even though I don’t know much about her.”
“She’ll love you, Tori,” Lira cuddled next to her. “Trust me, I told her about you and she’s excited to see you as well.”
A civilian excited to see a clone like me? Well, that’s unexpected. “Oh, I’m sure she’s a kind lady like the both of you.”
“She is.”
After a few hours on board, the ship jumped out of hyperspace and landed on the planet’s surface. The Chandrilan skies were coloured with sapphire, with the golden, glistening sun shining above the white clouds. Despite that, the natives, which was ninety-six per cent of humans, didn’t feel too hot or too cold and were enjoying the weather.
The three of them emerged from the station with their bags when they noticed a woman in her 30s, with jet black hair and almond-shaped, dark honey eyes, along with fair skin and bow-shaped lips, which shared similar facial features as the twins. Eva, who recognized her, ran up to her and wrapped her arms around her torso. “Mama!”
“Evie, is that you?” her mother spoke, recognizing her 11 years old daughter. “Look how big you’ve grown. The last time I remember you, you were so tiny.”
“Mama!” Lira called her, hugging her as well. “We miss you so much.”
“Well, I miss you both as well,” she grinned, kissing their foreheads. She stood up and noticed Tori’s presence, and offered to shake hands with her. “And you must be Tori. The girls have said nothing but good things about you.”
“They always say good things about everyone,” Tori shook her hands. “The girls have told me about you. It’s a pleasure to meet you, Mrs Young.”
Kaia let out a chortle. “Oh, no, Tori. I’m not even married at all. You can call me Kaia or miss, whatever makes you comfortable?”
The first-name basis, eh? Now I know where the girls got it from. “Alright then, Kaia. It’s great to meet you, again. Sorry, it’s quite-”
“Awkward?” Kaia finished her sentence, laughing. “Don’t worry about it, Tori. I don’t bite unless you want me to.”
Her eyes widened as her face flushed. “Actually, Kaia, I’m an ace.”
“Tori, I’m just joking with you.”
Wow, she has a sense of humour, just like Lira.
“Anyways, we should head back to my apartment,” suggested Kaia, holding the twin’s hands. “I made something special for the three of you.”
They arrived at her small but cosy apartment, which was filled with potted plants everywhere and vines growing on the grille of the window. A shoe rack was placed beside the door, with the walls painted in mint green, which gave the whole house a calming effect towards the host and their guests. 
Lira, Eva and Tori took off their boots and placed their backpacks on a tiny, wooden bench that Kaia found at the garbage disposal and repainted them to make them presentable. The identical twins sat on the brown couch, along with a few tie-dye pillows. 
Tori checked out the bookshelf that was leaning against the wall, and found herself picking a book from its place, titled ‘Tales of Handmaids.’ For Tori, it was surprising that a prostitute like Kaia would have a decent place, not too lavish nor seedy. Chandrila isn’t like Coruscant, where people like her would rot in a dangerous alley. Instead, they fared better, even though there are flaws. 
“So,” Kaia walked out of the kitchen, carrying a tray of glasses, which were filled with iced lemonades. “How long did it take you from Coruscant?”
“A few hours,” Lira told her, as she took a sip of her drink. 
“Huh, that long, eh?”
“Yup,” Tori nodded. “Do you live alone, Kaia?”
“Yeah, it’s just me and all my plants, in my boxed-sized apartment. No one is there to look after yourself, and that is the harsh reality, unfortunately.”
“Isn’t it lonely?” Eva asked. “Living all by yourself.”
“Sometimes, it does, sweetie,” Kaia sat between them, wrapping her arms around their shoulder. “But at the same time, I enjoy the silence once in a while, you know.”
“Don’t you have any friends, or maybe a lover?”
Her mother let out a snort. “I see you know a lot about love, Evie.”
“They know a lot about love and sex,” Tori spoke. “They heard about them from my troops, and even some Jedi.”
“A Jedi having sex?” her eyes widened. “Why am I not surprised? Who told you about the birds and the bees anyway?”
“A friend told us,” Lira replied. “Eva and I accidentally caught him doing the deed with a Senator, so he had to explain everything about it. It was disgusting.”
“Well, I’m sorry that you girls had to see that," mused Kaia. "But at least it's better for you girls to know, rather than being ignorant and making the same mistake that I did when I was younger."
“Oh?” Tori raised her eyebrows. “What about that?”
“Well, it’s too disturbing for the three of you so consider yourselves warned but when I was 16, I was violated by an adult man, and that adult man was a friend of my parents. Instead of believing me, they denounced me and kicked me out of their home.”
“But they’re your family. Why would a family cast out one another? Don’t you guys share the same blood?”
Kaia shook her head. “Tori, your brothers and sisters aren’t the same as mine. Your siblings care for one another and look out for each other, but my family cares only about two things, which are money and ego. My aunts and uncles, my siblings, my parents, fight like vultures when they see gold. They don’t care about your well-being at all. They only know how to back-stab you, that's all."
"That sounds like the Separatist more than a family."
"Indeed, though the Republic has its flaws as well, especially recruiting kids to lead an entire army."
"If I have to be honest," Eva raised her hands. "I don't even know why we are fighting in the first place."
"We were told by the Kaminoans that it's for peace, but I could hardly believe that statement anymore."
"It seems like the people of the Outer Rim are growing unsatisfied towards the government," Kaia sighed, finishing her drink. "Honestly, I won't be surprised if there is a rebellion against them."
Lira and Eva exchanged glances of surprise before their mother cleared her throat. "So, anyone up for a movie?"
"Yes, please," Lira bobbed her head. "Can we watch Rowling's Castle?"
"Of course, sweetie."
As night came, both Lira and Eva were cuddled next to their mother as Tori slept in the right corner of the bed, laying beside the younger twin. The stars above Chandrila were shining as bright as jewellery as the moon above the sky illuminated. “Kinda rare to see this many stars in the city,” Tori commented, counting each one of them with her fingers. “We never get this much on Coruscant.”
“People here value nature,” Kaia told her. “It’s the basis of life. Without nature, we have nothing. No food, no water, no air, just torture and pain.”
“That explains why you have so many plants around your house.”
“Greenery is good for your mental health. Makes you feel calm, especially for a soldier like you.”
Maybe I should follow Daisy’s advice and get myself a potted plant in my barrack then.
“Hey Mama,” Eva called her. “There’s something I need to ask you about and it’s really important.”
“What is it, baby?”
“The other day, my master and I stumbled upon a planet called Mortis, and when I was there, I saw a man with a Jedi robe and long hair. He spoke to me about how I shouldn’t trust too freely and be more cautious with my surroundings. I told my master about him, and he said that he knew who the man was?”
“Okay, what did your master say?”
 “He told me that he was his mentor, Qui-Gon Jinn. Do you know who Qui-Gon Jinn was, Mama?”
The name that her daughter mentioned made her heart smile and sorrow at the same time. She reached for the drawers beside her bed and grabbed a flimsi of her and Qui-Gon together, holding each other’s hand. 
“You know him, mom?” Lira gasped as she saw the flimsi.
“I knew him well,” she gleamed. “He was my lover. I met him while I was exploring the forest, searching for wild berries and mushrooms. He was meditating by the river when he noticed me with a basket and a straw hat. After we got to know each other, he would visit me every weekend and slowly, we fell in love.”
“Is Qui-Gon our father?” Eva guessed.
Kaia curved her lips upwards. “Yeah, he was your father. When I got pregnant with the both of you, he was ecstatic and he couldn’t even wait to meet you both.”
Tori’s smile disappeared. She was told that Kaia lived by herself, and she could tell that something happened to him. “There’s no happy ending, isn’t it?”
Kaia shook her head. “Three months before you girls were born, I saw him in an obituary. I was heartbroken that he was gone so soon. I never get to say goodbye to him.”
“Then what happened?” Lira raised her question. “Why did you give us away to the Jedi?”
“It was difficult for me to raise you and Eva, especially with the Child Protection Service chasing after me. I had to choose between losing my job and losing both of you. I wanted both of you to have a better life than I did, so I decided to let the Jedi adopt you both.”
The twins wanted to yell at her for leaving, but at the same time, she had a point. Had their mother continued to raise them, they would have ended up in a broken, foster home, like all the other children. 
“I understand, mom,” Eva nodded, letting out a yawn. “We should head to bed.”
“Alright then,” she kissed both Lira and Eva on the forehead. “Goodnight, my love.”
Tori fell asleep as well, knowing that the twins are safe and sound in their mother’s loving embrace.
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rightsockjin · 5 years ago
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flight to Paris
Description: You and Namjoon get into a fight after you overheard something you weren't meant to hear and things head for the worst. 
 warnings: 
ANGST! you have been warned
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Normally we weren’t the type to fight, or argue, or raise our voices at each other, but today seemed to be different. I went to his studio after work as per usual, taking with me our dinner and a drink so that Namjoon didn’t have to worry about getting fed. Since their new album was coming out soon he had been extremely busy, most of his time was spent in his studio and the dorms, which I didn’t mind because it was his job and his passion, so I took it upon myself to make him more comfortable with whatever he was doing. I would make sure he drank water, made sure he was eating, that his back wouldn’t stay tense, that he was getting enough sleep and countless other things to care for him, because I knew he wouldn’t do it himself. 
Finally, I get to the lobby of the building that houses his creativity and use a special badge he gave to me to be able to reach his studio. I take the elevator and scan my badge which takes me to the hallway where the guys and him make music. I knock gently and slowly start to open the door knowing that he probably wouldn’t hear me even if I did knock any louder. I heard his voice and what sounds like Yoongi and Hoseok, on the other side of the door. Their tone made it seem like they were talking about something important, so I stayed frozen behind the door which was ajar. Namjoon pov “I don’t know man, there is something about her, she beautiful, and confident, she’s funny and smart, but she’s been so clingy lately. I need to work, so I can finish this. She comes everyday and she’s always asking me if I’ve eaten or slept but it’s getting annoying, like yeah cool I get she’s trying to take care of me… but I know what I’m doing. Skipping a meal or two won’t hurt me. As long as I don’t make it a habit you know.” I say with an exasperated sigh “I know her heart is in the right place, but I need my space.” I look at the guys for confirmation, but they don’t seem to want to give me their opinion. Yoongi opens his mouth as is if to speak but closes it again rethinking what he was about to say. “I get what you mean, but I think you’re taking it a bit far man, like yeah she’s gonna be like that because she cares. Don’t take advantage of that. It probably feels so great to be taken care of. I wish I had someone to care for me like she does for you.” He looks at me his eyebrows are furrowed, and he seems like he’s slightly upset. He was right she cared, and I loved that about her, and I was just being a jerk and I wasn’t appreciating her. “Damn-” the door to my studio slams shut. Confused, I walk to see who was outside. I open the door and to find the hallway empty. I walk back to my chair and finish my thought. “You’re right Yoongi, I’m just being an ass.” y/n pov Annoying. He thought I was… annoying? I didn’t know that loving him and caring for him was “annoying”. I stay by the door my thoughts drown out everything. Their words sound muddled. Tears well up in my eyes. This was one of my biggest insecurities. Ever since I was little people would say I was “annoying” so as I grew up, I tried to keep quiet and out of people's way. Trying my best to not be obnoxious, but no matter what I did I was always that girl. Always. I reground myself and notice I’m still standing by the open door. ‘I’ll give him what he wants then, ill give him his space.’ I thought. I slam the door and run back to the elevator. I step in quickly and repeatedly hit the close door button, through the slit between the elevator doors I see him walk out of the room and look around. The doors close before he’s able to notice me. I breathe deeply to try and undo the knot in my throat. I quickly shuffle out of the lobby and rush to my car. There I can finally let my emotions out, I let myself cry. Sobs fill my car, nobody notices, but then again nobody ever does. Namjoon pov Its been a few hours since the chat I had with the guys and I’m sitting alone in my studio. I feel off like something was missing, then I check the time 8:07 pm It was late I was starting to get worried. She hadn’t come to visit me, my stomach growled, and I looked at my phone. Sent: 4:31                                                                                                                                                                    Princess: Hey Love I just got out of work I'll be on my way soon I am going to pick up some food for both of us. Love you see you in a bit. ‘Shit. Was she the one who slammed the door? I should call her?’ I click her icon and press the call button; it rings twice, and I get sent to voicemail. “Hey, princess why didn’t you come by the studio today? I missed you, honestly, I’m a little anxious I just want to know that you’re okay. Uh… I love you… so much… please know that. Please call me back.” Worried I stare at my phone for a while hoping to get some reply from her. I tap my pen against the table and wait. I wait, and I wait, and I wait for what feels like forever. Yet, my phone doesn’t ring. Quickly I save my progress and pack my things. I walk out of my studio and rush back to our apartment. I run about twenty minutes until I reached our quaint flat. I get to the lobby and jam my finger into the up button for the elevator. I wait a few seconds for the door to open, but in my anxious state, I decide to take the stairs. Finally, I make it to our door and take the keys out of my bag, adrenaline was coursing through my veins which caused my hands to shake. I unlock the door, and I notice the apartment feels much cooler than normal, all the lights are off, and the house was eerily quiet. Did something happen to her? Did she get hurt on the way to meet me? Oh my God, she’s hurt. I look at my phone and check for her location, thank God we decided to get the locations tracking app. My mind tracks back to that day. That day had been terrible, everything was going wrong. It had rained and I forgot my umbrella, then the lights in the studio had gone out and my work hadn’t been saved so I lost all my progress, then I lost my card in my lightless studio, my phone was on the verge of death, and to top it all of my home the car I decided to take had broken down. It was 2 in the morning when I finally got home. I had decided to walk all the way back after the incident with the car. Finally, when I got to the apartment, I hear her sobbing in our room. I rush to her, ignoring my sore limbs and kneel next to her side of the bed. she had just moved to Korea and was stress about the change of setting. Her phone was in front of her, she was on a facetime call with her younger sister. She was wearing my favorite yellow sweater. “Hey, what’s wrong?” she refused to look at me and I took her phone and talked to her sister. She explained that she was stressed and that she was just feeling useless amongst other self-deprecating things. I calm her down and I get her to talk to me. “Honestly, I thought you left, I didn’t think you were coming back, or that something had happened to you. I was scared that you got hurt.” She lets out a few other concerns from her quivering pout and my heart broke. “First and foremost, I would never leave you. Ever. You mean the world to me, and there is noting that can make me think otherwise. And two, the car I took home had broken down, so I walked the rest of the way home and my phone was about to die so I decided to not use it, in case I absolutely needed it. I should have told you anyway, I’m sorry gorgeous.” I wipe a stray tear from her cheek. “Okay well I don’t want to sound super controlling or anything but when I was younger my parents had this app that would track my location in case something happened to me and my sister. I think it’s a good idea to maybe get it in case something like this happens again. Yeah?” I smiled at her worry and agreed to get the app… I check her location on my phone and notice that she isn’t too far away from our loft, so all an uber and head down again, this time taking the elevator. I stand outside the lobby and find my ride. It’s about a ten-minute ride. I recognize the building as we used to come here often. Her sister was living in some dorms while she studied with an exchange program at the university. She must have come here. I pay the driver and walk to the building. I go to the elevator and click the floor number and anxiously ascend to her dorm. Y/N pov I walk up to apartment 512 and use my key to get in, even though I had been here often it still seemed very foreign. I had texted my sister after I calmed down in my car, she told me she was free all day and that wed have a girls’ day so we could talk. I had briefly explained what had happened and what I had heard. I walk into her small apartment and throw myself onto her couch with an exasperated sigh. She walked out of her restroom with some fuzzy socks, a headband, and a matching robe, I smiled at her she responded with an apathetic smile. “you wanna talk about it or do you want me to distract you?” she hands me the fuzzy clothing. She’s not usually the type to be sympathetic, but she had a soft spot for me. I didn’t answer, but she knew what that meant. “Okay, so I got us face mask, ice cream, and other American snack you probably miss.” She quickly skips to the kitchen and walks back out excitedly holding something behind her back. I raise an eyebrow at her she smiles and pulls out a large Dr. Pepper. I smile at her and take the large bottle. We settle in and watch Friends on Netflix. Time goes by quickly and we decide to order some food. It's around seven when we finally began to talk, I had told her that I had overheard that Namjoon was getting annoyed of me, that he thought I was clingy and that he said he needed space. “He said he needed space? Hmm wow, what an ass but okay.” I vented to her for a bit even though I had talked to her about this insecurity before she was attentive. “How about you give him space? I have a week off school, all my professors are going to some convention… how about we go to Paris?” I looked up at her in disbelief. I had always wanted to go but I had never had the opportunity due to my, and Namjoon’s, busy schedule Paris had seemed like just a dream. “How are you gonna pay? Do you have enough to get a ticket and hotel fair?” She gave me a smug smile “I have my ways” she answered “don’t ask questions” she added quickly after. Her small feet patted at the wooden floor as she ran to her room to get her computer. She came back setting the laptop in front of us, she looked for tickets from Seoul to Paris, we decided on one and started to input our information. We were giddy and excited talking about all we could do together amongst other things when there was a knock at my door. “Yay! I think that’s the food.” Excitedly she runs to the door to grab our food. I was too engrossed in our planning to pay it any mind. Namjoon pov As I walked into their hall, I saw a guy stand outside of their door, I noticed his hands were full of food and paid him and took the food from him. I knocked on the door, anxiously I waited for it to open. I hear a high-pitched noise come from the other side and smile hoping it was my girl. I was slightly disappointed when her sister opened the door, she seemed bothered at the sight of me. She pushed me away from the door gently and closed the door behind her. “What did you do?” she whisper yelled at me “ she called me crying, what the hell did you say? You of all people know that being called annoying is one of her biggest insecurities, even if you didn’t think she would hear you, you shouldn’t have said that. She loves you so damn much…way too much for you to say shit like that.” I looked down at the ground, I was embarrassed at my behavior. I really was being an ass. “She doesn’t need another man-baby in her life if you can’t see that…” I interrupt her. “I love her, I realized that a while back, and I’ve been meaning to tell her, I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I don’t want her to think that I don’t appreciate her, or that I don’t love her, because I truly believe she’s my soulmate.” She looked at me with wide eyes, a small smile graced her lips. “Fine… go talk to her,” she said with a roll of her eyes. We walk into the apartment I kept my head down, and my steps light. “Someone is looking for you” her sister takes the food from my hand and took it to the kitchen. I saw her look at me then back at her computer she clicked a few buttons and returned to me. “What are you doing here?” her voice was like ice, it came to me like daggers, her words were harshly articulated, her normally smooth intonation was gone. She stood and walked towards me. I reciprocated her actions and took a step towards her but she took a step back. She looked like she was afraid of me, what had I done? The blood in my body drained to my feet, my heart ached. It suddenly felt like there was an invisible wall between us and no matter how hard I tried to break it, it stayed and persisted. “I thought you needed space? That’s what you told Hoseok and Yoongi. That I was getting too clingy,” she said nonchalantly, “I’ll stop doing that, don’t worry.” Her voice steadily grew in volume, she had never yelled at me. She was always soft-spoken and preferred to talk to defuse a situation. For her to raise her voice at me, I must have really hurt her. I knew that denying what I said would just make it worse. “Oh… so you heard that-“ she cut off my sentence with a loud sigh I decided it was better for me not to say anymore before I knew she calmed down. She took a deep breath so I continued. “I regret saying that, Yoongi pointed out that I was lucky enough to have a girl who really cared about me, and cared for me… because of all the stress… the new album brought… I didn’t even pay attention to all you’ve been doing for me… f-for us…” my voice came out weak and pathetic, I tried to swallow the knot that was logged in my throat but to no avail, the pain it caused lingered “I… can’t thank you enough… for all you do for me, and for us. You mean the universe to me. You are my universe, p..please” I fell on to my knees into a deep bow “forgive me, please.” My words stumble out of my mouth, my breathing was shaky, and you could hear it as I spoke, for once my voice betrayed me, cracking in unusual places making me seem even more pathetic than I was already feeling. I couldn’t bear to look at her, I wasn’t good enough to look at her. This was worse than any pain or worry that was caused by my job. She was my life, and I might have just messed it up. I could feel the tension building as if I was watching a movie and this was the part where the audience rooted for the girl to dump the guy. I was usually among those people but now that I am on the other side, I understand the difficulties. “I’m almost done with the album, all the time after that will be dedicated to you. I’ll reflect on what I did, and… and learn to appreciate you… because…because you’re not expandable” my voice calmed a bit. I hear her shuffle down to the ground, she kneeled next to me and grabbed my chin with her perfect delicate hands. She, even in my state of duress, still brought me immense comfort. She raised my head to look at her. Even with black circles under eyes, and with her unruly blond curls, she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen, I looked at her eyes, the honey color now seemed dark and cold, pain lied behind her pupils, and I was the cause of that. A single tear streaked down her face and I saw more tears building in her doe eyes. I could see myself reflected in the pools, but I was disgusted. Was I really so ungrateful that I was willing to sacrifice the single best thing in my life? “I think…” her voice was quiet, she spoke to me, in the same manner, one would speak to a crying child, “I think I need a little bit of time, for… for myself. What you said really hurt, and I need a bit of time to think things through. Just because you’re stressed doesn’t mean you can take that out on me. I just got some tickets for us to go to Paris for a few days.” She pointed at her sister and herself. “ I need some time to breathe and when I get back we can talk, okay?” her beautiful full pout was downturned, oh how I missed her smile. It always warmed me up after a long day and now I only felt cold. “I’m not mad… I’m not mad at you, but right now…” she breathed “know that I love you, and that hasn’t changed, but I don’t like you right now, you really hurt me. You may not have meant for me to hear that, or even meant what you said but…I can’t right now.” Pain ran through my body, I fucked everything up, my whole world was crashing down, I sobbed into my palms and broken apologies escaped my mouth I broke down in front of her. My body seemed to revolt with the pain of what she was saying. It felt like I was running a fever and no medicine could stop it. No, while she was away from me. Her sister walked back into the room she handed us both a bottle of water and some toilet paper to clean ourselves up. I shakily took what she handed me but couldn’t make myself take a sip of the water. I only clutched the bottle to my chest as I struggled to stop embarrassing myself further. “I uh… called Yoongi to pick you up Joon, we’ll be here if anything happens.” She said awkwardly then left to her room. There was a knock at the door, as the love of my life walked to it and let Yoongi come in. He pulled me from the floor with a heavy sigh, wrapping an arm around me for support. He walked me to the door and closed it behind us. “It's all going to work out” he reassured patting my head affectionately which made me think that maybe it wouldn’t be okay. It was very out of character for him and this was a rare side to him. At that moment, I knew that however long it took, I would wait for my princess.
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“Uh, hey… someone is looking for you.” She walks back into the room and behind her stood Namjoon, he was caring what seemed like our food. I looked at him then back at the computer I clicked the check out button and quickly paid for the tickets. “What are you doing here.” All my pent-up anger had finally come out of me. He said he wanted space so why was he here? Did he come to rub it in my face, and lie to me? Had he been lying to me this whole time? Did he even like me? He walked towards me and I took a step back. “ I thought you wanted space? That what you told Hoseok and Yoongi. That I was getting too clingy. I'll stop doing that don’t worry.” My voice was in a steady crescendo, my initially calm tone had grown into a more aggressive, and assertive one. “ Oh… so you heard that?” he looked down at his feet and scratched the back of his neck. My heart sank, he didn’t even deny it. I look around to see my sister she gave me a steady nod and raised her arms as if to tell me to breathe. I did as she told me and took a deep breath. “I regret saying that, yoongi pointed out that I was lucky enough to have a girl who really cared about me, and cared for me because of all the stress the new album was causing I wasn’t even paying attention to all the effort you put into us and…” his voice wavered and he swallowed the knot in his throat “I can't thank you enough for all you do for me, and for us. You mean the universe to me. You are my universe, p…please” he fell onto his knees “forgive me, please.” He says, his usually smooth voice was given a slight vibrato, it cracked and his breathing became labored. I looked down at him, his crestfallen demeanor hurt me. I hated seeing him in any type of pain, and this opened my eyes. “I’m… I’m almost done with the album, all the time after that will be dedicated to you. I'll reflect on what I did and learn to appreciate you because you aren’t expandable.” His voice seemed a bit calmer, and he looked up to me, his eyes were swollen, and his nose was red. I knelt down to his level and grabbed his chin. “I think…” my voice cracked, “I think I need a little bit of time… for myself. What you said really hurt, and I need a bit to get over it. Just because you’re stressed doesn’t mean you can take that out on me. I just got some tickets for us to go to Paris for a few days.” I pointed at my sister and me “ I need some time to breathe and when I get back we can talk, okay?” I sent him a frown “I’m not mad… I’m not mad at you, but right now…” I paused “know that I love you, but I don’t like you right now, you really hurt me. You may not have meant for me to hear that, or even meant what you said but…I can’t right now.” He apologized between broken sobs. My sister came into the room with some water for us, and a roll of toilet paper for our runny noses. “I uh… called Yoongi to pick you up Joon, well be here if anything happens.” She said awkwardly then left to her room. There was a knock at the door, I walked to it and let Yoongi come in. he took Namjoon from the floor and walked out the door. After I heard the door close I feel once again to my knees.
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starting-now · 5 years ago
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Finals Week (Barry x Reader x Sally)
Word Count: 1922
Warnings: none
Request by Anonymous: okay feel free to totally say no to this cuz wow self-projection whoops, but uh. sally and barry helping university student reader unwind 👀 after the stress of final exams hits? 👀👀
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A/N: Hope you guys enjoy this fic about finals week! I wanted to go super wholesome with this prompt so I hope thats okay with you! This whole last month of the semester has been kicking my ass school-wise and writing this definitely made me feel a bit better. So I hope reading it does the same for you! Good luck to anyone still in school! Love you guys!
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You had been sitting in your apartment for what felt like days, studying what felt like the same material but for different classes, writing the same essay but about different topics, and in general cramming an endless amount of work into a single week. It seemed like just a few weeks ago you were breezing through the semester, not a care in the world, and all of a sudden, all these assignments were hitting you like a freight train. Were there assignments you knew about in advance? Sure. Could you have been working on them for basically the whole semester? Absolutely. But did you? No. No you did not. And now, just like every semester, you were paying the price.
You sighed deeply and let your head fall against the keys of your laptop, typing nonsense into the body of your essay, which honestly seemed better than whatever your brain was coming up with. You had been held up in your apartment working for the better part of three days whenever you weren’t at work or in class.
Your phone buzzed on the side table. You glanced over and saw a text from Sally light up the screen. Without opening your phone, you could see it was a picture of her and Barry. She had been asking the past week when you were free to go out with them, and when you weren’t available Barry and Sally went out without you. This wasn’t unusual. It was pretty normal for you all to go on dates with whoever was available at the time. And you certainly didn’t expect them to put their lives on hold just because you were busy. But these past few days, you’d been feeling guilty that you hadn’t gotten to see them, and insecure that they were growing apart from you because of your absence. You insecurities were getting the better of you, and the lack of sleep didn’t help rationalize your thoughts.
You sighed and turned your phone over, deciding to switch from working on your essay to studying from your textbooks. You moved from your seat at the kitchen table to your couch, as if moving locations would make this week less unbearable. Luckily it was almost over, but at the moment it felt like it would never end. You grabbed a bottle of aspirin on your way to the table, hoping to soothe the throbbing headache that'd been plaguing you the last few days.
The day went on like this, moving from place to place in your apartment, trying to ignore Sally’s texts and attempting to study, keyword attempting. It felt impossible to focus. You found yourself reading the same sentence over and over. You found yourself reading the same sentence over and over.
Your phone lit up once again on the side table, buzzing longer this time. Sally was calling you. You sighed in frustration and ignored the call, returning your eyes to your book. You tried to read a few sentences as anxious thoughts buzzed around your mind. You hated to push them away, but you were too busy for this. And you knew if you picked up that phone you were only going to feel jealous that they got to see each other but you didn’t get to see them. Your phone buzzed again. You sighed heavily and begrudgingly answered the call.
“Hey Sally, I don’t really have time right now.” you said, wincing after hearing the hostility in your own voice.
“Oh, um, I’m sorry. I was just checking in, haven’t heard from you in a while.” she said, concern lacing her voice.
“I’m fine.” you lied. Sally sensed how your voice faltered.
“You sure? We can come over if you want.” she offered.
“We? You’re still with Barry?” you asked, trying to hide how much you missed them.
“Oh yeah we’ve been together all day. We were actually calling to see if you’re free at all?” she asked hopefully. You sighed and propped up your head in your free hand.
“I have so much on my plate right now. You guys go ahead without me, I’m sorry. Love you.” you said quickly and hung up before she could protest.
You set your phone down and took a shaky breath. You buried your face in your hands and broke down crying, you body heaving with sobs. It wasn’t just your distance from Sally and Barry making you sad. This whole week had been an absolutely nightmare of stress and isolation. You felt regret for your attitude on the phone. If you weren’t pushing them away before, you definitely felt like you were now.
You spent a while feeling guilty, attempting to study but not being able to focus yet again. A knock at your door jolted you out of your sad state. You quickly wiped at your eyes with your sleeve and walked to your door, opening it to Sally and Barry. As upset as you were, you couldn’t help but feel relieved and happy to see the people you love. Sally came in first, closing the distance between you and wrapping her arms around you in a tight hug. As she leaned away she pressed a soft kiss to your cheek. Her hands cupped your cheeks and you leaned into her touch as her thumbs swiped at any remaining tears.
“I know you said not to come, but we couldn’t help ourselves.” she said guiltily. Your eyes welled up with tears, happier this time, and you covered her hands with yours.
“Thank you.” you whispered. She must have known on the phone how much you wanted  to see them. She could always see right through you, and today you were grateful for that. Sally smiled knowingly, nodding and walking further into your apartment.
Barry still stood in your doorway.  He smiled sweetly and held up the large paper bag in his hand.
“We brought Chinese food!” he said happily, setting it down and pulling you in for a hug. You rested your head against his chest and snaked your arms around his waist. He pressed a kiss to the top of your forehead and pulled away from the hug to set up the food.
“Guys, I’m so glad you’re here, I just have so much stuff to do. It feels like I’m drowning in assignments. I don’t know if I have the time.” you said nervously. You wanted them to stay but the stress was creeping up on you again.
“Babe, you’ve been working nonstop for the past three days. Would you even be productive if you kept going?” Sally asked. You blinked, feeling called out but knowing she was right. These past couple hours of study had been completely useless anyways. You smiled, deciding you deserved some time off with the people you love.
“...You guys didn’t have to do all this for me.” you said, feeling guilty that they went through the trouble.
“Of course we did! We’re your partners we’re gonna be here for you.” Sally piped up, walking out from the kitchen with plates and napkins.
“You’d do the same for us.” Barry added as he took the various take-out boxes out of the bag and setting them on the coffee table. You smiled and sat down on the couch as they prepared everything. The negative thoughts about your relationship were definitely dampened, but they were still floating around your brain. You rubbed your palms together nervously and took a deep breath.
“Can I ask you guys a stupid question?” you asked. Sally and Barry slowed their movements down and turned their gaze towards you, sitting on either side of you.
“If it’s making you upset it’s not stupid.” Sally assured, resting a hand on your thigh. Barry nodded in agreement.
“Is...everything okay with us? I mean, I’ve been busy and you guys have been hanging out a lot. And I’m fine with that I really am. I guess I’m just worried you don’t...need me?” you confessed, fighting the lump in your throat that threatened more tears.
“Okay you were right, that was stupid.” she said offhandedly and you laughed humorlessly at her response. She perked up, realizing what she said and her hands flew over yours.
“I’m sorry, that...that came out wrong. I just mean, we love you so much. And I hate that you think of yourself like that. I don’t think me or Barry would know what to do without you.” she said, gesturing to Barry, who nodded in return with a tight lipped smile. You furrowed your brow and Sally pressed a soft kiss to your cheek, jumping up from the couch and patting her legs.
“How about I get you some tea? I’m gonna get you some tea.” she said quickly, turning on her heel and walking into the kitchen. When she was out of the room Barry took a deep breath and turned his eyes towards you.
“It’s not stupid.” Barry assured. You turned your gaze towards him. “I feel like that sometimes too, like I’m not needed or important. And Sally does too even if she doesn’t talk about it. I know you’ve been stressed lately, but I just want you to know that...I mean, me and Sally are so proud of you. And when we go out without you? You’re basically all we talk about.” he finished, a small smile on his face as he recalled the memory.
“Really?” you asked hopefully. Barry nodded.
“Yeah, it’s, uh, kind of pathetic actually. We’re crazy about you. We love you so much, and I never want you to feel like we don’t love having you in our lives. And...I’m so grateful I get to be in yours.” he said, taking a deep breath to stop his own tears from welling up.
You leaned over and wrapped your arms around Barry. He didn’t respond at first, not expecting the contact, but quickly melted into your touch. He ran his fingers soothingly through your hair, relishing being close to you after what felt like so long apart. You squeezed him a little tighter and he chuckled and returned the gesture.
Sally walked back into the living room with a mug of tea and smiled at you two.
“Am I missing a group hug?” she asked playfully. You nodded into Barry’s shoulder.
“Mhm.” you said.
Sally set the mug down on the coffee table and wrapped her arms around you and Barry. Their familiar smells mingled in the air. Sally’s sweet, flowery perfume, and Barry’s cologne, scented like eucalyptus mint. You knew you had missed them, but now that they were here you realized just how much you relied on them.
“I love you guys so much.” you said softly.
“Love you too.” Sally and Barry responded in kind. Sally pulled away from the hug and you followed suit. She handed you a paper plate.
“Go ahead and grab some food. I bet you haven’t even eaten today.” she said knowingly and you stuck your tongue out at her.
“You guys wanna watch Back to the Future?” Barry suggested, covering you three in a large blanket. You nodded enthusiastically.
You sat back with your plate of food and snuggled up between your partners. Sally leaned over and pressed a kiss to your cheek, earning a giggle out of you. You leaned your head on Barry’s shoulder and took a bite of food as the movie started.
Finals week might suck, but this would definitely help you get through it.
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renjunvinates · 6 years ago
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Dead Daisies
Guys, I haven’t wrote a got7 scenario in sooooo long, like that’s wild but I'm back with a got7 scenario. Anyways this one is real sad,,, but I hope you like 
Characters: You x Park Jinyoung
Genre: Angsty angst...
Warning: Hanahaki Disease AU, Alexithymia AU
Length: 1647
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“Do you believe in love?” I asked Jinyoung.
“No, not really, I’m not interested in dating, or more ever, I don’t understand love,” he replied.
“What do you mean by that?”
“Alexithymia,” 
“You’re joking right..?”
“I wish I was, I wondering what it’s like being in love also,” he smiled faintly.
Park Jinyoung, he was my best friend, but he never told me that he suffered from Alexithymia, I guess he didn’t want to be treated differently, but I was shocked, because I was in love with him. I guess he would never be in love with me, or feel love with me, which broke my heart. We have been best friends for a while, and so hearing this shattered my heart. There goes my chances with him.
“What about you? Do you believe in love?” He asked.
“I like to think that there is love for me,” I replied.
He patted my head and messed with my hair.
“Don’t worry, he’s out there somewhere,” He smiled.
“I don’t think so, but hopefully,” I laughed.
We continued to walk down the sidewalk and talk about random things, complaining about the smallest things because that’s just how we were. We talk, laugh, and rant, that’s how we were connected. The both of us live fairly close, we were a few blocks away from each other.
“Look at those daisies,” He said.
“Wow they’re so pretty,” I smiled.
“They’re one of my favorite flowers,”
“Daisies have my two favorite colors, yellow and white,”
“Did you know they mean true love?” He said.
“Hmm?” I questioned.
“I can’t seem to feel or express love or even understand love, but at least I can see the symbolism that comes with the words,”
“Is that why they’re your favorite?” I asked.
“I would like to know maybe one day what it’s like to feel love or to be loved,” He replied.
“I hope so too,” I smiled.
Jinyoung walked me home and waved goodbye to me, I waved back and smiled at him, as soon as I stepped in my house and closed my front door, my smile turned into tears and and frowned, my smile turned upside down, just like my world. I spent the next hour crying my eyes out, knowing Jinyoung and I were never going to happen or be together. After an hour of crying, I felt something stuck in my lungs, I tried coughing but it hurt to cough all of sudden, and with one more cough, I hacked out a bunch of petals that were covered in blood. I repeatedly said to myself, “No, this can’t be,”. I didn’t want to believe what I thought it was. I grabbed my laptop frantically and searched it up on the web. In the bolded letters “Hanahaki Disease” this was the disease where you are suffering a one-sided love, and the only way to cure this disease was to have the person return their feelings back. I looked at my screen in disbelief, the word came out of my mouth, “impossible,”. There was no way Jinyoung would return my feelings, he wouldn't and he couldn’t understand my feelings.
The whole night, I kept barfing petals that were covered in blood, my time was coming and I wasn’t ready. I didn’t care if Jinyoung loved me or not, I didn’t care if he wasn’t going to be my boyfriend. All I cared was being by his side and being alive just to grow with him. I cried, I cried so many times thinking about not knowing when I would die, not being able to see Jinyoung anymore, and the more I thought about it the more I thought about the day I would die, I would be covered in flowers and no one would know where I went off too.
The next day, you could tell I cried a shit ton, my eyes were puffy and red from the quiet sobs at night. I looked like shit, and I felt like shit. I tried putting on makeup in the attempt of not looking that gross and shit, it kind of worked but when I walked out the door I saw Jinyoung waiting for me outside. He waved and smiled at me, my heart broke, and I could feel the lungs getting full with petals again. I waved back and formed a fake smile, I felt the cough coming. I tried to close my mouth while coughing and I could feel the petals in my mouth, I tried to swallow it back, and let me tell you. It tasted nasty and it hurt like a bitch.
I walked towards Jinyoung and he looked at me, with concern.
“Are you okay? You don’t look so well,” He asked.
“I’m fine, just bad sleep, that’s all,” I replied.
“Alright, well would you like to ditch class today then?”
“Depends, what do you have in mind?”
“Let’s go to a garden and walk around and look at the clouds?”
A garden… bittersweet
“Wow, it’s like you know me,” I laughed.
“Soo?”
“Let’s do it,” I smiled.
We both walked around in the garden and looked at the sky, it was pretty, although looking at the flowers made me feel disgusted and anxious, being around Jinyoung calmed me down a bit.
“Jinyoung, let’s go to prom,” I said.
“I thought you didn't want to go?” He asked.
“It’s our last year, let’s try to have fun and live our highschool years,” I suggested.
It might be my last time being with you.
“I mean if you’re going then i’ll go,” He replied.
“Then it’s settle, we’re going to prom,” I laughed.
“You’re so silly,” He smiled.
The lungs were filled again, I almost let out a cough but I stopped myself, and swallowed hard again. His smile, was so warm and sincere. I wish I could live longer to see this.
“Okay then, let’s go get you a dress, because knowing you (y/n), you don’t have a dress so let's get you one,” He said.
I gasped at him and acted dramatically.
“How dare you,” I laughed.
He chuckled and the both of us went to the store to go look for dress and for him a suit. I chose a pastel yellow dress Floor-Length A-Line/Princess V-neck Sleeveless Chiffon Dress, and of course Jinyoung went with a black suit. After shopping, we went to go eat and then headed home for the day. There were times I felt the strong pain in my lungs and stomach, because I kept swallowing those dumb petals.
After Jinyoung walked me home, I waved goodbye to him. He smiled and waved back. As the door closed, I rushed towards the bathroom door and barfed out all the blood petals that had stacked up in my stomach. There was a lot of bloody petals everywhere, I kept telling myself to hang in there, and stay alive until prom was done. Prom was tomorrow, so if I could just fight for another night that would be great. This night was worse, I kept barfing and I wouldn’t stop, I absolutely felt like my body wanted to give up on me.
The next day was prom day, I sat there in bed feeling dead inside and gross, my garbage was filled with bloody petals, my room smelled like dead daisies. I spent the whole morning cleaning up my room, and trying super hard to get rid of the scent and cleaned up the bloody stains on my floor, sheets, and blankets. After that I rested for a bit and then started  prepping to do my makeup and my hair. It didn’t take a while, and it’s just because I don’t like to wear heavy makeup, nor do I like to have so any curls in my hair. I liked natural look, it suited me better anyways. After I finished my makeup I put on dress, I looked at the mirror and I smiled brightly, until I felt my lungs feel heavy again. This time they weren’t bloody petals, they were yellow and white petals, the time was coming. No, no no, this couldn’t be prom hasn’t even started… I was walking around frantically in my room, and as time kept passing, I was sobbing and barfing colored petals, my makeup was a mess but that was the least of my worries. My barfing wouldn’t stop, I could feel my lungs getting full, and I could feel the branches and stem piercing in my body. I laid down in my bed to try to ease the pain, I grabbed a small piece of paper I wrote to Jinyoung and held on to it tight. I laid there trying to close my eyes, but before I knew it I barfed one last time, feeling the pain in my body everywhere, and my eyes slowly closed and everything went black and I left.
It was almost time for prom, Jinyoung waited outside, but soon after he questioned why I took so long, he walked towards my door and knocked on the door, and there was no reply. He grabbed the spare key under the mat and opened the door. He walked towards my room calling out my name, but when he entered the room his eyes widened. He saw my body covered in beautiful white daisies, but the room smelled like dead daisies. He looked at me in disbelief, he shook my body many times calling out my name, but then he saw my hand holding onto something tight. It was the note.
“Hey, I don’t think I’ll make it. I know you can’t feel, express or understand the feelings of love, but I have always loved you. Sorry, I let you down,” - (y/n).
That was the first time he ever felt an emotion trigger, but instead of love it was sadness.
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finn-nelson-for-the-win · 6 years ago
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The Good Life: Chapter 6
Hello, my lovelies! I procrastinated writing this chapter even though I knew that I had plans for this week/weekend, so alas...here I am posting this week’s chapter at the last second to stay more or less on schedule for posting haha.
Need to get caught up? The Good Life: Ch1, Ch2, Ch3, Ch4 , Ch5
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The Good Life: Chapter 6
Rae moved things around haphazardly on her desk trying to find the source of the loud ringing that had interrupted the music that had been playing through the wireless speakers on Rae’s desk.
“Hello!” Rae said when she found her phone and answered it moments before it would have automatically gone to voicemail.
“There you are, Rae-Rae! I wasn’t sure that you were gonna pick up the phone,” Chloe replied on the other end of the phone call.
“Sorry, I’ve been unpacking the last couple boxes in my bedroom all day since I got back from work this morning and I guess my phone got lost on my desk during the process.”
“No need to apologize! It’s just been a while since I’ve heard from you and I wanted to know if you were free to video chat? If my memory serves me right, you still owe me a brief tour of your apartment!”
“Yeah, now’s a good time for me. I’ll go ahead and end this call and you can video call me and I’ll answer on my laptop.”
Rae and Chloe each ended the call on their side and Rae walked over to her bed to unplug her laptop and get ready to answer the video call from Chloe.
After a few minutes, a shrill ringing sound came through the speakers on Rae’s laptop and Chloe’s contact picture appeared on the screen with the option to accept or deny the video call.
“Hiya Chloe!” Rae said cheerfully as she answered the video call and saw her best mate appear on the screen.
“Hey babes! How are you today? You look exhausted!”
“Wow, thanks Chloe,” Rae replied with an eye roll, “I am pretty tired. Work today was really long and boring. Moving and unpacking and whatnot has also been really tiring. I turned in my keys to my old apartment on Friday, so I’m officially completely moved out of that apartment, but going back and forth between the two different places for the last week or two has been super hectic.”
“I can definitely understand that, but at least you’re done now! You mentioned that you finished unpacking all your boxes here at the new place though, right?
“Yeah, just before you called me. I’m still trying to figure out where exactly to put some of the stuff, but at least I have space to walk around my bedroom without all these boxes in the way.”
“So, what do you say? Can I get the unofficial grand tour of the place or what?”
“Yeah, of course!” Rae replied with a chuckle as she picked up her laptop and walked out of her bedroom, “I’ll start by our front door and then I’ll end back in my bedroom again.”
Rae walked through each room of the apartment, stopping to angle her laptop camera at specific things that she wanted Chloe to see and telling Chloe about what they intend to put in each room if they had not already. Rae paid special attention to showing Chloe how nice the kitchen was and how spacious their balcony was, hoping that her best mate would like her new apartment as much as she did.
“So here in the living room we have the couch we bought together and the TV from my old apartment. It still works fine, so Finn and I decided that we might as well keep it out here,” Rae explained as she walked around the room, “And here we have one of my other favorite things about this apartment...the fireplace!”
“You guys have a fireplace? That’s gonna be so nice when it gets cold in the evenings in a few months!”
“I know! I don’t know how to use it yet, because it’s electric, but I’m excited to figure it out so then we can use it!”
Rae walked back to her bedroom to conclude the brief apartment tour and took a seat on her bed with her back against the wall.
“So, what do you think of the apartment?”
“I love it! It looks really nice and I think it’s going to be really good for you and Finn,” Rae hummed her agreement and Chloe continued, “Speaking of, how are things going between you and Finn so far? Is the whole ‘roommates’ thing working out for you two?”
“It’s been great so far. He’s been a lot of help with unpacking and we’ve done a lot of shopping for things in the common rooms together. It’s been a lot of fun to just hang out and bond as roommates as we get into the groove of living with each other too.”
“Oh, come on, Rae! There has to be something about him that you’re realizing is annoying about Finn now that you’re living with him. Does he snore? Is he shit about cleaning his dishes? There has to be something!”
“Uh, I dunno...he leaves the air on really cold sometimes so at night I need extra blankets or I get too cold.”
“That’s it?”
“I suppose so, or at least I can’t think of anything else right now,” Rae added with a shrug, “We’ve been getting along pretty well so far and haven’t really run into any issues thus far.”
“Well, just keep an eye on him and let me know if he gives you any trouble and if he does, I’m gonna make his life a living hell.”
“I appreciate that Chloe, but I wouldn’t hold my breath waiting for him to slip up!”
“Anyways...are you both still on for the pub on Friday night? All of the gang has been anxious to hear more about how the apartment is working out and to see how the both of you are adjusting to roommate life.”
“Yeah, we should both be able to make it, I think!”
“Alright well, I guess I’ll let you go now. I’ll talk to you la—”
The sound of the front door of the apartment unlocking and opening pulled both Rae and Chloe away from their conversation.
Finn stepped through the front door of the apartment and hung his keys on the hook on the wall and walked down the hallway.
“Hiya!” Rae called to him through the open door of her bedroom.
“Honey, I’m home!” Finn sing-songed as he leaned against the frame of Rae’s door and gave her a wide grin.
“Ugh stop,” Rae balked in fake disgust.
“You know you loved it,” Finn replied with a chuckle, “Sorry, I’ve always seen people do that in shows and movies and I’ve secretly always wanted to do it too.”
“Was it as much fun as all the old shows make it seem?”
“It kind of was.”
“Well, I’m glad. I was just finishing up a video call with Chloe! Say ‘hi’, Chloe!” Rae said as she angled her laptop screen towards Finn so Chloe could see him.
“Oh! Hey Chloe!”
“Hi Finn!”
“I’ll just let you two get back to your conversation now. Sorry for interrupting!” Finn replied as he walked away from Rae’s open door and walked into his bedroom across the hall.
“Rae, is Finn gone now?”
“Er, yeah…”
“Good...what the fuck was that?” Chloe whisper-yelled.
“Oh, are ya talking about Finn’s greeting? That was just a joke.”
“Are ya sure?”
“Yes, I’m sure, Chloe. I have to go now and I’m sure you have better things to do than over-analyze every silly thing Finn says, so I’ll talk to you later, alright?”
Chloe was still talking when Rae laughed and ended the video call with an eye roll.
“Knock-knock,” Finn said as he tapped lightly on Rae’s bedroom door with his fist.
“What’s up, Finnley?”
“I just wanted to see if you were still talking to Chloe or not.”
“Nope! I just ended the call. Why?” Rae replied as she set her laptop down on the bed beside her and stood up, stretching slightly after sitting in an odd position for too long.
“Are we still on for Thai takeaway and shitty scary movies tonight?”
“Obviously! It is Thai food Thursday, after all,” Rae replied with smirk as she looked on her desk for the list she had made of low-budget horror movies they wanted to check out this week.
“Perfect, I’ll call in the order!” Finn replied with a wide smile as he turned away from Rae’s room and walked down the hallway.
A/N: At the end of the last chapter I said I was going to move away from dialogue-heavy chapters a bit, but I completely lied lol. I didn’t mean to lie, but this chapter came along pretty easily and just so happened to be pretty dialogue-heavy, so oops ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I guess we’ll just have to wait and see what the next few chapters have in store for us! Until next time: Stay awesome, my friends!
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tangerinewrites · 4 years ago
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DAY 18-19: MINA
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11/18-19/2020
WC: 1616
note: this is what i get for missing one day 
The last few days of March prove to be exciting for her as she goes through Sphere’s Twitter account. It was hard not to be anxious of her reveal. After an entire month and more of preparations for her debut, she was going to be able to see the results soon. She would see her appearance for her music video as well as how the company envisioned the song. Not only that, but she was also excited to see everyone else’s reactions to her two hair color concept. She was just so curious as to how people would react to… HEARTZ’S MIAE!
She wasn’t sure what to think of the stagename when she first heard it, but she feels as if she’d grow to love it eventually. It definitely wasn’t something she’d think was cringey. And it also had a part of her name in it, which she could give points for.
Today was the day that her music video would release. After having endless support from her friends and family about the debut, she made sure to let them know about when the music video was going to be up and where to watch it. Was she exactly fond over the fact that the music video would come out at midnight when she, Heejin, Eunji, and Yurim had a schedule the next day? Not exactly. But everyone in the dorm was enthusiastic enough to want to watch the video with her! They had done this in the past few months as well whenever someone who was already in the dorm debuted. So having all twelve of them together to watch Mina- Miae’s debut for the first time with her was exciting. It was especially more entertaining with the fact that, with how large HEARTZ’s fanbase was, that she was not the only one.
“Are you ready for this?” Chungha asks her curiously as they prep themselves, just two minutes before the release of the video.
“Honestly, I don’t even know!” Mina answers her with a little laugh. “I think I’m really just nervous to see how other people will think about it.”
“They’ll love you, Mina! Don’t worry too much about it!” Yurim says as a way to comfort the girl. “You looked super adorable when you were on set! I’m sure you’ll look even more amazing in the video.”
All the other girls continue giving her support and she has no choice but to smile and be touched by their comments. As soon as that one minute passes, Mina gets a few texts at 11:59. Curious to see who had messaged her, she quickly opens her phone to see messages from none other than her favorite boy sending her messages. Perhaps it was obvious who she was getting messages from, though. Not long after she pulls up the app to type something, she hears the usual teasing.
“Ooh! Are you texting that boy you’ve been talking to?” Jieon is the first one to start it.
“Is he excited to see you debut?” Seungah’s the next one.
“Take a picture and tell him we said hi!” Eunbi giggles.
Mina wants to roll her eyes at everyone teasing her as she looks over the messages, smiling at Soobin’s excitement through his messages. From when her teaser pictures got out up until this point it feels as if he was being the person showing supreme excitement for her. Not like she minded too much. She was glad to know she had a fan.
Suddenly, the clock strikes twelve and she looks up from her phone immediately. “Refresh the page! Refresh the page!” she shouts excitedly.
They quickly do as she requests and right on the top of Sphere’s YouTube channel was the video in all of it’s glory, titled “[MV] 하르츠/미애 (HEARTZ/Mi Ae) “One&Only”’.
“Click on it! Click on it!” Mina squeals.
And with just a click, they begin to watch the video.
On top of helping Yurim out with her own debut music video (even if she appears for just a millisecond compared to Eunji and Chungha), the girls also had to prepare for their own subunit’s debut. She liked how she and Yurim were considered the main rappers of the subunit, considering the fact that the both of them had trained together to improve on their rapping skills. So when called in to record their first single album, Mina was ecstatic to record some lines for the songs.
She never discussed it with the other members, but if she had to choose a favorite song of hers, it’d probably their b-side “Frozen”. She liked her lines in “love4eva”, especially considering the fact that the song sounded an awful lot like ChiChi’s “Gee”. But “Frozen” felt like a magical song for a magical girl. With Mina being a fan of the magical girl anime genre, she practically fell in love with this song while recording it.
To top it off, her rap in the song sounded just as magical. Sure, it was more speaking than it was rapping, but she still thoroughly enjoyed it.
With it being the last day of recording, the producer was able to show the other girls the finished, mixed results of what they all recorded. The producer plays through each song for Eunji, Heejin, Yurim, and her to hear and as they listened to it all, they couldn’t help but smile.
“Wow! It feels weird to hear us all together studio-wise,” she says with a smile. “I mean, I heard myself sing with Yurimmie and Heejin. But this is just so cool!”
“I can’t wait for everyone else to hear it!” Eunji adds on, getting nods of agreement from everyone else.
The producer is shy from the compliments. “Thank you so much! I’m glad you all enjoyed the songs as much as you do,” they say with a big smile. “I think, besides ‘love4eva’, you girls would also be able to perform ‘Frozen’. That’s what I heard from your managers, anyway.”
Mina’s eyes light up. “Yes!” she shouts excitedly, gaining laughter from everyone around her who heard her.
Having to fly out to Europe was a little extra, if she had to say so herself. Of course, she understood why Sphere made them do that. But the only reason why she had her reservations about that was because of how she would have to be cautious whenever she was FaceTiming Soobin now. No longer would she able to call him in the peace of her dorm. Instead, she’d have to be extra cautious about telling him where they were, as well as making sure her managers didn’t snitch. The other girls were kind enough to have her back, but she still couldn’t but be a little apprehensive at times, especially when she didn’t need to be.
However, she will admit that the scenery for the music video was absolutely delightful. Never did she think she’d be able to record in a place as extravagant as this. The mansion that they had to record their “school” scenes in was enormous and exploring all the rooms that they were allowed to go in made her feel as if she was apart of royalty. She’s pretty sure she’s told all the other girls about how she felt fancier than she did back at home. “I wish our music video was just us being princesses!” she said with a cheeky laugh. “I don’t really want to pretend I’m in school.”
The woman who was their “teacher” was nice as well. Whenever the woman wanted to talk to the other girls, they made sure to use Mina as their helper. It’s the perks of being bilingual, after all. She feels as if her father was aware of what she was doing, he’d be proud of her. All in all, the four girls had a pleasant time recording in such a place, even if the theme of their music video was supposed to be much darker than the song’s atmosphere.
Though she loved the outfits that the stylists gave to them for their video, she hated dancing in them. Who thought that dancing in a pencil skirt with suspenders was a good idea? Definitely not Mina. Every time they cut the video, she found herself having to readjust the skirt every now and then. And though she complained to the other members about them, she never did it in front of the producers or stylists. She’d look like a brat if she did and she didn’t want to leave that impression on them. They worked hard on this, after all.
As for the yellow plaid outfit, she didn’t seem to mind it too much. In fact, she’s made a few jokes about how it looked good on both Heejin and Eunji: Heejin because her stage name is Cher, and Eunji because of her blonde hair that resembled Clueless’s Cher! Not as to say she and Yoorim didn’t look good in them, because she was very confident in her appearance with the outfit. It’s just little things Mina wanted to be able to joke about to get everyone (and her own) nerves away.
It feels as if they have this song engrained in their brains as they dance to the difficult, high-energy choreography in the uncomfortable outfits. And though Mina was excited to be able to perform on stage once this song debuts, she knew that she would not be able to enjoy every single performance if they had to go through this experience as a result. Thankfully, the filming ends before they know it and after hearing the director’s announcement, Mina finds herself walking off the set hurriedly before shouting in celebration.
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8circles · 7 years ago
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i finally got to see the national live!!
so after 6 years of falling in love with the national, i finally got to see them live yesterday!! this is gonna be super long lmao
since the national never come to my home country during tour, when they announced their tour i booked the tickets without even knowing whether i was returning to manchester or even the uk. so when i got my offer to return i was relieved af lmao. a once in a lifetime opportunity was worth the risk and anxious waiting LOL
anyway
seeing them live was like a whole new world for me. when bryce came out to perform with the opening act (who were very good!) i was so overwhelmed. this guy, part of the band i love so much, was right in front of my face!
(like literally, cause i ran in after getting my merch and managed to snag a place right at the barrier!)
ive watched tonnes of their live performances on video, but nothing prepared me for how great they were. since bryce was right in front of me i ended up paying most attention to him.. but then when hed play the piano aaron took his place and id end up paying attention to aaron... sorry matt, scott and bryan!!!!
of course matt is such a character that hed command your attention some way or another. i did make myself look at scott and bryan at points in time bc i love all of them! i found it super cute how scott and bryan (and at one point bryce) would hold like a shaker instrument and use it when theyre not playing their own instrument. its like theyre always gonna be involved somehow lmao.
at the beginning it felt a little detached compared to the bastille show i went to last year. but i dont blame them or think its bad, cause at bastille’s dan would stand close to the stage while matt prefers to hang about with the band. its just two different performers. it kind of made me think that i was watching the national perform in their own world.. until matt stopped midway through empire line and asked security to help someone.
at that point it kind of hit me that wow, actually we're in the same space! like im not actually watching them in their own world, like im there too! and theyre not in their own space either, theyre watching us too! and of course, how nice of matt to stop because someone wasnt okay 😭 he started all over again once he made sure they were okay. by the end he said "just some problems with dehydration. stay cool!"
and he threw a plastic pint across the theatre and i got some white wine on me. LOL. at another point he threw a red solo cup so hard i think it hit the opposite wall cause there was a super loud sound. then he went on to say "...one day..." during the last song he brought out a bottle of white wine or prosecco on stage but said he said couldn’t open it because it was corked and it was hard to open those on stage with his teeth(!!!) he asked for another bottle and smashed the corked one on the ground. i love drunk matt so much.
bryce is so interesting to watch tbh. he keeps changing guitars lmao. i got so excited every time he brought out the blue one, bc i had a super clear view of his bow hanging from his mic stand and i was like "vanderlyle?????"
in the end they didnt play it, but no matter! they played so many good songs that i cant complain. my jaw hit the floor when they played hard to find cause i wasnt expecting that at all! i kept saying "oh my god" when i heard the chords lmao. it was so beautiful. i remembered the interview where one of the twins said they think hard to find is one of the most beautiful songs theyve ever written. i felt so honoured that i could listen to it live! they also played this is the last time - my favourite off twfm! i think a lot of people in the theatre love that song too! we were all shouting “it takes a lot of pain to pick me up” together. 
of course they played standard classics too. it felt so good to sing along to bloodbuzz and i need my girl. i kind of expected they were gonna play england since it was their first show in england for this tour so when aaron started playing the chords i was super happy. mr november was the best in terms of crowd involvement, you could hear everyone shouting I WONT FUCK US OVER together. conversation 16, too.. everyone screaming "CAUSE IIIIMM EEEVILLLL" was so much fun. slow show and apartment story were so great live as well. singing “SO WORRY NOT ALL THINGS ARE WELL” was so wonderful. during fake empire the twins did the guitar thing as they always do. i was so happy! 
tbh when i was there i mostly felt out of place since most of the people there were white hipsters and they came with their friends/partners so i barely talked to anyone, but singing all the classics live made me forget all of that awkwardness.
the new album was good live too. carin at the liquor store is my fave off the album and it sounded so beautiful live. matt went one octave higher during turtleneck and he sounded so clear. i was actually so surprised at how clear and almost rasp-free he sounded! we shouted “great uncle valentine jester” during day i die, it was so great!  they dedicated apartment story and born to beg to a lady who took care of them while they were in manchester. the opening act luluc came out and sang with them during born to beg. it was beautiful and perfect! ive been falling in love more and more with born to beg with each listen, and the live performance really sealed the deal with how much i love it.
terrible love was the last song off the setlist and it’s my first favourite song from the national so listening to it live was like coming full circle of some sort. during that song (and mr. november) matt went out and leaned over the barriers so that people could reach out and hug him. during terrible love he was super close to me, but i was too scared to touch him cause so many people were clinging onto him already but he was literally right there! he also stood at the edge pretending to fall from the other side. a member of the audience hugged his knees to stop him from falling!
bryce kind of smiled at my general direction at one point when he was setting up his guitar. the girl next to me blew kisses at him, i wish i did or said something too, but honestly i just stood there and melted into a puddle. during fake empire bryce went to play the piano so aaron was on my side of the stage and he waved at my general direction when they finished. a double whammy! matt came over to our side of the stage during turtleneck and screamed the chorus at us. it was so surreal. waiting for two hours outside in the cold and rain was definitely worth the place right in the front.
of course i have a soft spot for the twins, so seeing them live was the best part of my night. bryce (and at some points aaron) being in front of me was a dream come true. it’s no doubt that bryce is fantastic at guitar, but hearing him live and actually picking up the way he plays with my own ears was really something else. not only his playing, but also how he was using all the different guitars and using the mics on them and all the different pedals - it was all like a work of genius. i didn’t really get to see aaron’s artistry since his stuff was on the opposite side of the stage and he played more piano (which was on his side of the stage) but i could clearly see him playing when matt stepped back and let the twins perform guitar together. i caught him smirking at bryce on multiple occasions. i ascended each time. 
it was obvious that bryce was the more shimmery, flashy player when it came to guitar, so i tried to distinguish their styles of piano too! maybe it’s just me, but i think aaron has a deeper sound and bryce has a sharper sound! maybe that’s why they take turns for specific songs. regardless, they were so great, playing together and separately. i admire them greatly since they have so many projects and interests and even though their musical interests differ, they end up intertwining. seeing them live really showed that tbh!
it was the best night of my life. i wish i could be going to today’s show as well, but unfortunately i don’t have the money for that! anyway, everything ive always dreamed of already came true when i managed to stand right in the front and watch the national in all their glory perform live. i never expected to be right in the front - literally at the barrier - but i was! and it was worth the two hour wait in the cold without any food (this was my fault for forgetting to eat before coming, but it was worth it tbh!). hopefully i’ll be able to go for another concert if possible because that was probably the best experience ive ever had.
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