#anyway what i'm saying is that if i ever win the lottery there will be signs and by that i mean i'll try to make this movie a reality

[offonaherosjourney]

The funniest BY FAR media mix-up I've ever had was that considerable period of time where Mad Max, RuPaul's Drag Race, and Priscilla Queen of the Desert were all somehow one and the same in my head.

I'd give ANYTHING for the luxury of being able to experience the narrative and worldbuilding my brain constructed with the scraps it had obtained via cultural osmosis.

And that is why I occasionally lie awake wishing that a movie about a drag queen competition in the form of a race across a post apocalyptic desert was something I could watch.

[majinbangus]

will johnny ever punish simon(and how) for playing too rough with you and accidentally hurt you (yk some dog just like that) or doesnt listen to reader or makes reader upset????

follow up question if simon and reader do something and it upset him how will he handle it???

im in LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEE with ur guard dog simon and owner johnny reader

i hope you have a good day and win the lottery ❤️

》 18+ i'm glad you're liking my guard dog!ghost series! sorry my answer got a little long but a short way of explaining Ghost's dynamic with reader when it comes to punishments is that he's technically submitting, but he's also not really submissive ygm? he'll go through his punishments, but energy is very much this post. that's what im tryna go for at least -> more here

Accidentally hurting you, Soap can forgive. Ghost is always extremely careful not to seriously hurt you. Yes, he'll be rough and leave you sore or with bruises sometimes, but he still behaves much like the scrupulous guard dog he is, listening to your every command and taking care to protect you from real harm.

As Soap likes too remind you, Ghost is very well trained already, and it's up to you to show him that you can take care of him just as Ghost takes care of you. In fact, Soap is a little harder on you if he catches you slacking, reminding you that a dog like Ghost deserves a responsible owner willing to take care of such a diligent dog.

However, in the rare event that Ghost doesn't do his duty as your guard dog and leaves your side, Soap will get upset, but he would actually leave the punishment up to you (since you're technically Ghost's primary owner. Soap is there to teach you how to be a good owner) and act as the enforcer for whatever punishment you see fit.

So if you wanna make Ghost sleep in a dog crate for a week, Soap will buy the crate and Ghost isn't allowed on the bed. If you want to keep Ghost on a leash until you regain trust in him, Soap is gonna do some leash training with Ghost.

For more sexual punishments, Ghost will be kept in a cock cage for a while so the most he can do is mindlessly rut against you, and Soap will be the one to hold the key to his cage. He'll only unlock Ghost if you say so, but he'll also encourage you to keep Ghost locked because he's a shit he wants you to be a firm dog owner and not give in to Ghost's dog brown eyes that you've developed a soft spot for. When that happens, Ghost might bare his teeth at Soap because he knows what he's doing, but won't do much more because he knows Soap would suggest a cock gag next, that fucker-

(also if you wanna spank Ghost, Soap is will enforce that too)

But these punishments are rare and far in between. Ghost is very disciplined, so they don't happen often, but when they do, Ghost will go through them like a good boy, knowing that he messed up. He'll regain your trust and be an even better dog for you.

Now if you and Simon do something that upset Soap, (like for example, exploring a dangerous alley willingly, even though Ghost told you not to go in, but went with you anyway because you told him the 'quiet' and 'heel' command) you'll get the brunt of the punishment since 'dog behavior is a reflection of your guidance, sweets.'

Ghost won't get a harsh punishment, but he'll have to stay leashed to his crate, watching Soap give you your punishment which could range from all sorts of things, but mostly, it'll be Soap treating you like a dog- a puppy- to show you how to be a good owner.

He'll make you wear a tail plug and have you crawl on all fours. Tell you commands like 'sit pretty' or 'bow' or 'come'. You're not allowed to talk, only bark, and If you can't follow his commands, the longer the punishment will go and the more intense it'll become. Hell, if he's feeling generous, he'll unleash Ghost and make him show you how to be a good dog, letting Ghost correct your behavior. They may even tag team you, and you'll be aching for days, but the lesson will definitely stick.

[just-a-jock]

Happy late Halloween. I hope you guys enjoy this Halloween special. Aaron miller is my favorite fitness influencer and always want to use him in story���s but always want to save him for something good. I ended up saying fuck it and writing the below. Let me know if you like it!

ROOMMATE CLONESTUME (Halloween Special)

You would think having a fitness influencer as a college roommate would be like winning the lottery. Being able to see pieces of eye candy almost every day, almost practically shirtless all the time, but it’s not all sunshine and rainbows. You see Aaron Miller was your typical douchebag straight jock bro behind the camera. Always calling me fag but always saying he’s just joking and I need to toughen up. Of course, you would never catch him like that on camera, always playing like the fun-loving jock goofball. Thankfully he’s leaving tonight to go to some stupid Halloween party at the frat house.

“Yo fag! How do I look” I hear his voice call from the living room

“Fucking hot right! All the chicks are gonna be all over me begging from some of this Miller cock” he said while smirking and flexing in front of the full-length mirror in the living room

“Yeah I’m sure they will Aaron” I reply while rolling my eyes and begging he would leave soon.

“You know some other frat across campus invited me to their Halloween but I already promised my bro I’m going to Alpha Omegas party. Feel free to accept my invite”

"I think I'm good, I got to finish my term paper but I guess thanks" I replied thinking it weird why he would think I would somehow fit in at a frat party

“Well, bro the invite is in my room and feel free to use last year's costume.. might be a bit big haha. Anyway gotta go before the good Pus gets taken” Aaron said taking one last pic for his IG story and heading out

“Thank god, I can finally work on my paper,” I said heading to my room. I walk by Aaron’s room and notice his door ever so slightly open. I ended up looking in and seeing a paper which I assumed was the invite lying on his messy bed next to what seemed to be the black Spiderman suit he wore last year for Halloween.

“Wow, did he really think I was gonna put that on” I say as I continue to walk further into the room the scent of stale gym clothes and musky axe cologne lingered in the air.

As I get closer to the bed I keep looking back and forth from the costume and the letter. I don’t know why but I ended up grabbing the costume something about it was calling me. The silky satin feeling of the spandex with the scent of stain sweat and beer, most likely from last year's party. “Maybe I should try it on” I whisper under my breath.

I start to undress myself in Aaron’s room until I’m standing in just my briefs. I look around feeling kinda risqué in his room half naked, but something felt right about putting this one. I slowly start to unzip the costume looking into the dark interior. As I started to put on the costume I could immediately tell it was quite a few sizes too big and especially since Aaron had worn it previously certain areas were stretched out more than usual. I slowly start to pull the costume up my body as I get halfway to putting it on something feels wrong

“No no why am I doing this I need to work on my paper” I say snapping out of the hazy confusion but as soon as I try to take off the suit I knew something was wrong

“What the fuck” The rest of the suit starts to climb up my slim body and sticking to any skin it touches. I tried to remove it, but the suit just snapped back almost like a second skin. “STOP” I scream as it continues to travel upwards my body covering all the way up until it reaches my neck. I soon hear the noise of a zipper closing and a cold feeling riding up my back. I immediately reached backwards trying to catch the self-moving zipper before it closed all the way, but I was too late as soon as I grabbed the zipper head I felt it disappear from my hand as the suit started to close up leaving no seam behind.

“What the fuck is this, how does this happen” I continue trying to take off the suit but it just gets tighter and tighter until a moment where I lose control. “What..” my body starts to move slowly by itself it feels like I lost control of anything the suit has encompassed. I start to move towards Aaron’s nightstand, grab the remote to his TV and turn it on. I was immediately blasted with the audio and imagined Aaron almost like he was starting off one of his annoying Instagram videos.

“What is going on PEEEOPLES! Or should I say fag” he said chuckling to himself at the uncreative nickname he has bestowed upon me.

“WHAT THE FUCK AARON WHAT IS THIS” I scream at the tv as my body stands still disobeying my mind.

“ you’re probably going “what the fuck Aaron?” or some shit like that but no bother bro, this is all recorded. No one to help you now haha. You see I was tired of having some fuck ass roommate that I couldn’t share anything with so I looked online and found this powder with some special powers. I sprinkled it on my old costume and all I had to do was wait for the next person to wear it. I knew you would be tempted. I mean who couldn’t” he says as he flexes his bicep.

“So anyways, I got invited to this banger party and said yes but some other frat also invited me to theirs and like fuck I couldn’t be in two places at once. So I thought and figure maybe you’ll like to go but couldn’t have some loser gay fag representing me so I decided you needed a small makeover. That special powder is gonna make you into me and you won’t even remember ever being your faggy little self. So hope you enjoy the party bro and remember the party is not complete till a girl gets bred.” And with that the TV shut off but before I could react something went over my head shutting my eyes

“Fuck fuck get this off of me” I say noticing that it was a mask probably to complete the stupid Spider-Man costume.

Soon the changes started to happen I felt the suit tighten but at the same time expand. It first started with my feet growing to a large size 14. The changes travelled upwards as my calfs and thighs started to expand giving me tree trunks for legs. I knew I wouldn’t be able to fit in any of my pants anymore. Soon I felt a pain in my stomach like I was kicked by a boxer

“UGH FUCK” I say as I fall on my knees. While I couldn’t see anything under the suit I knew abs started to form one by one leaving an impressive six-pack behind. As I looked down I started to see my chest push out. Creating a shelf right under my head. Two massive pecs now jutted out of my body and now I had to make an effort if I wanted to see any part of my body below my pecs.

The change travelled outwards as the suit forced me to do a double bicep pose typical of what I see Aaron do when he’s back from the gym. Soon my biceps and triceps started to expand like crazy. My muscles became sore as they grew to match his arms exactly.

Lastly, the feeling travelled up to my face and I felt the muscles crack inside my skull and the fat draining from my cheeks. I was screaming in agony until the pain suddenly left.

My body Finally fell down to the ground like a puppet dropped by its owner. I slowly get up and start to remove the mask and notice the zipper has reappeared. I zip the costume just until it hits my waist. My body was sweating from the changes and I needed to know what happened.

I knew Aaron had a mirror in his closet and ran to the door to open it. Nothing could have prepared me for what I was seeing…

An exact copy of him was standing right in the mirror.

“No no, this can’t be… I can’t be him” I say panicking not recognizing my own body in front of me. I tried to figure out what I could do to change back and started to run to my room, but as soon as I reached the door to exit, I came to a sudden halt.

I looked down which was difficult trying to see over these massive pecs and realised I still had the costume on. My eyes widened as my legs started to walk me back to his desk and force me to sit down. I tried to fight back but to no use. I was losing control… soon my arm started to move toward the computer and turning it on

“No wait, stop please” I scream at my unresponsive body but it continued to move on its own.

As the computer turns on a pre-loaded video comes along with it...

YOU ARE AARON MILLER

“NO NO STOP” I scream realizing it was hypnosis

Clips of Aaron flexing and pictures of his body invade the screen between phrases.

YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AARON

FLEX

JOCK

MUSCLE

My eyes started to become glued to the screen against my will. I tried to resist but I couldn’t. Soon I noticed my arms moving again. They move downwards and started to push the costume lower until *pop* my cock bounces out.

“No… please let me go,” I say as the arm reaches for my dick and starts to jack it off slowly at first.

JOCK

BRO

Soon the images changed. More of Aaron joking around with his friends, drinking, partying and working out. Videos of him fucking and breeding girls always started to appear. I knew some of them from school

BRO

DUDE

BREED

Soon the jacking off started to pick up speed as more and more of the hypnosis and reprogramming started to settle in. My brain was trying to fight a losing battle. I was able to gain a small amount of control to see my cock as I noticed it starting to expand. Slowly it lengthened from its original 5 inches hard …. 6…7….8 until I reached a mighty 9 inches. My hand started to lose grip as the girth also started to grow almost not allowing me to fully encompass the cock with one hand. Next, I felt my balls change they started to lower until they fell into a pouch inside the costume that no doubt used to be where the original Aaron had his. They grew larger as my moans started to overshadow the video. I felt a kick in the balls as I knew my old cum was being eaten by the new alpha cum Aaron produces

“Pls… uhhh… stop this” I say with the last residuals of will I had as my arm continued jacking my new cock until it reached near orgasm

“No….”

BREED

“Pls…”

JOCK

“I don’t”

YOU ARE

“Want thi….”

AARON MILLER

“FUUUUUUUCK”

I cum all over my body and my room as I snap out of the horny daze

“Fuck that was good. Now gotta get to that fucking party before someone takes all the good puss”

I get up from the desk and shuffle over to my closet to grab a used cum towel and wipe myself off.

I grab the costume from my waist and pull it all the way up zipping the costume as well. I smirk in the mirror knowing all the chicks are gonna want some of this Miller cock.

The original Aaron’s plan worked perfectly. He now had a complete copy of himself running around breeding and partying. He finally had someone he could share everything with, himself! Of course, people asked questions but he just said it was his twin brother.

[chiipay]

What if shidou was having a very bad day and the only thing he wanted was to stay in our presence or touch us in anyway

Just by seeing us, his nerves are calm? I don’t really know how to explain it

Uwohhh.. shidou request that's a first. I'm happy to know people do like him. I'll do my best to match his uhh vibe?.. idk

--

Ughhh it's happening again isn't it?

It's a shidou disaster. Is what you called it.

It's very very VERY normal to see another bickering shidou with another person. But DAMN it's too early for another fight he picked.

”...sorry about that, dude. I swear he normally wouldn't budge anyone at this hour-” you slightly bow in front of the French's stratum master, Julian Loki.

He's very polite and well-mannered for a guy...too good for a guy.

” it's fine. I'm surprised he suddenly acts like this at 3am..” he chuckled gorgeously- AHEM AHEM.

” shidou is in the training field. The Victor looking guy told us to locked him up there for a bit while waiting for you.” Charles Chevalier chipped in the conversation from behind making you shudder.

” oh- i see. Well if you excuse me, I'll be going now...to deal with the so-called demon.” you smile nervously before vanishing into the thin air.

As the small presence of you lingering around the hall, both the French duo look at your way.

”....i hope she won't get possessed by shidou-”

As you open the door, you meet with a pouty face of shidou who's sitting down on the grass field while the room is filled with balls lingering around like a mess.

” alright shidou, what the f-”

” i miss you. ”

”.....nuh uh- don't you use that excuse on me- NUH UH”

Shidou positions himself while sitting in front of you. Making some puppy face to ask for mercy makes you scrunch your face in disgust.

{a/n: I can't y'all I'm SoRrY-}

You look at his puppy face for a bit before sighing heavily making him grin a bit as if winning the lottery.

”....what do you want from me broo... I'm losing my shit just being here for 102935392735635 times because of you..." You covered your face with your hands making it look like you're in denial and you are.

” but that wouldn't be so fun if i tell you won't it?~~~” he smirked before patting his lap for you to sit on.

You sigh again for a tired of energy getting up at 3 am just to deal with him-

You sat down on the grass field but not for so long before shidou dragging you to sit on his lap. You ended up in a very uncomfortable position on his lap.

”.... I'm tired shidou... It's 3 in the morning... Why are you doing this? Did Rin annoy you or something? Neo league won't be too long before it ends y'know? wHy CaN't Y-” a big yawn escape from your mouth as you lean on shidou's shoulder.

He smells like shit.

But it's fine- you're too tired it makes sense while there's so many balls on the grass field. He probably got too bored getting locked up in here.

Shidou just hummed at everything questions you asked him while qooing you like a baby in his arms.

"just sleep my ever lasting star-”

" cringe.”

” the love of my life?”

” 2 × cringe.”

” my beloved, dear, sugar boo, pookie bear, bab-”

" stop it, I'm to die out of the cringiness you're making me. How did you come out with those nicknames.?"

”what can I say- you bring the best out of me, manager~”

”....cringe. no wonder why sae Itoshi ran away from you”

” ouch. but still love you tho.” he smug at you

”... thanks.”

[gravedwe11er]

The @keferon mecha AU texaid continues living rent-free in my head, and I just had to write more for them! It was very much unexpected, but I can't say I'm complaining. Timeline wise, it comes after the first half of part one

Cw: mostly just typical Vortex things

One day after his terrifying trip with Vortex, Felix has another encounter with the dangerous mech and a tentative accord is struck.

Felix walks out of the meeting room after three harrowing, shouting-filled hours, feeling hopeless, anxious, and more exhausted than he’s ever been before in his entire life. And what a feat that is, considering he went through medical school during an actual alien apocalypse, not to mention going on an involuntary joyride in a murderous mech just yesterday.

God dammit.

Leaning against the nearest wall, Felix puts his head in his hands and counts to ten.

He’s being reassigned – Felix Adler, newest member of the mecha pilot corps, effective immediately. Tomorrow, he’s to report to the base’s quartermaster at five am sharp, so he can get fitted for a pilot’s uniform and be shoved back into Vortex whenever the next attack comes. The thing’s longest surviving pilot he knows of lasted a whopping six weeks before bleeding out in her seat, courtesy of her severed hands – and that’s disregarding all the other injuries to mind and body he and his colleagues had to treat before her eventual death.

God fucking dammit.

Technically, he could just resign. Could always pack his bags and leave, but – the military paid for his med school. There’s a mandatory eight-year period of service or they’ll make him pay it all back, with an interest rate high enough to make even a loan shark stumble. Short of winning the lottery, there’s no way he’d be able to get his hands on that sort of money in his entire lifetime.

That aside, he wouldn’t be doing his life expectancy any favors by leaving anyway. Most hospitals these days are at least semi-mobile, which means hard cots, cold MRE’s and frequent shuffling around to various affected zones. Not to mention, as beastly as the quintessons look, they’re much smarter than any animal - meaning they’ve learned to recognize hospitals for the prime targets they are and attack accordingly.

Given his luck, he’d end up being flattened by a quint within the year, spending his last moments miserable, tired, and in more debt than gambling addict on a year-long losing streak. It’s the whole reason he fought so hard for this posting in the first place – if you’re going to be working in a medbay, might as well do so where there’s a whole hangar full of mecha to defend you when you need it.

Which leads him right back to where he started. No place to run. A likely death on the front lines, one way or another.

Well. At least the food here is warm.

With an odd numbness creeping into his fingertips, he slowly starts making his way to his quarters, only to remember- right, he doesn’t even get to keep that part of his previous life. He’s being moved in to where the other pilots live, much closer to the hangar than his previous little shoebox of a living space was. Wouldn’t want him to be late for his next date with the malicious death machine, apparently.

Turning on his heels, Felix only makes it a few more steps before something in his head just- snaps. Suddenly, the foggy emptiness of before is chased away by an angry sort of determination, and he changes course yet again, heading instead for the nearest sanitation closet. Grabbing his usual Vortex-duty cleaning supplies, he stomps his way to the hangar.

They want send him back into that thing? Fine. Fine, he’ll be command’s latest sacrificial lamb, but if he’s going to die in that cockpit, he refuses to do so while sitting in other people’s bodily fluids.

The thought buoys him for all of five minutes until he’s standing on the catwalk facing Vortex, at which all his previous bravado evaporates back into a familiar dread. A shiver passes over his skin, the cold lance of anxiety nearly freezing him in his tracks. Still, he breathes through it, forcing himself to take the final few steps needed to stand at the cockpit entrance.

His hand reaches for the opening button- which proves unnecessary, as the crimson glass immediately slides up of its own volition. Blinking, he slowly lowers his hand again.

Hm, he supposes that’s as much of an invitation as he’s going to get. Doesn’t mean he won’t be getting mauled if he goes in, but- it’s a good sign.

Last chance to back out.

“Just here to clean a bit,” he calls out into the cockpit, feeling incredibly stupid talking to empty air, before stepping cautiously inside. Nobody’s bothered to clean up since yesterday, which means the last dead pilot’s blood still stains the small space, turning the floor brown and crusty. The stale air reeks of iron and decay, mixed with the stench of bleach. The sharp, heavy gaze of Vortex’s internal cameras digs into his back, making his hair stand on ends.

All in all, not a very comforting atmosphere.

Felix flinches when the lights suddenly flicker on, bathing the cockpit in red as the screen closes behind him with a resounding click. “I’ll try to be quick about it,” he says, eyes flickering around the small space, “so please don’t-“

A flare of light from behind gives him pause, and Felix turns to find words now written across the mech’s main screen.

AW, WHY NOT STICK AROUND?

GOT SOMEWHERE MORE IMPORTANT TO BE?

Felix huffs, a bit of sharpness creeping into his words despite his racing heart. “I do, actually. Mostly because of you, if you have to know.” Getting to his knees, he puts down his cleaning bucket and starts pulling on a fresh pair of latex gloves, keeping an eye on the screen all the while.

DON’T SULK BABY, YOU KNOW YOU HAD FUN~

“Wh- fun?” he almost yells, indignant. “I don’t know what gave you that idea, but-“

YOU LIKED SEEING THEM TAKEN APART

GETTING TO DIG AROUND IN ALL THEIR SQUISHY INSIDES

Felix freezes at that, one hand halfway to the bucket, followed by a full-body flinch once he sees the next set of works that scroll across the crimson screen.

SO MUCH BETTER THAN THOSE SAD LITTLE SCRAPS IN THE LAB, YEAH?

What the- “How the hell do you know about that?” he wheezes out incredulously. While the medical team eventually found out about the incident that led to his vortex-duty punishment, he could have sworn that it hasn’t carried as far as the pilots. Then, how could he have-

WATCHED YOU ON THE CAMERAS : )

YOU FUCKING SUCK AT BEING SNEAKY, BY THE WAY

LIKE, WOW

Sitting down on the filthy floor with a grimace, Felix closes his eyes, suddenly feeling very, very tired. “Thanks. I’ve noticed,” he sighs out, giving himself a few moments to process.

Vortex is right, in a way. While the experience was mostly awful, what with him being pretty sure he would die that day, Felix has to admit that seeing the quints properly, getting even a glimpse of their physiology up close was horrifyingly fascinating. They’ve long been a mystery he wants desperately to solve, a puzzle to figure out - He wants to see them with his own eyes, to take them apart piece by piece until he knows everything there is to know.

And Vortex seems well aware of it, too, because of course he can mess with the cameras, why not. He’s known all along, apparently, and it had, what- caught his interest? Is that why he strongarmed Felix into ‘piloting’ him in the first place?

He raises his head, intending to ask about it, but his eye is caught by a new string of text across the glass before he can get the words out.

WE CAN BOTH GET WHAT WE WANT OUT OF THIS

Shelving the thought for a later date, he gives Vortex’s screen a considering look, heart racing in his chest. “I’m listening,” he says, cautious.

YOU WANNA DIG AROUND INSIDE THE SQUIDDIES

AND I WANT YOU

WIN-WIN

With a raised brow, Felix scoffs. “Right. And how do I know you’re telling the truth? How do I know you’re not just going to kill me the next time I put that helmet on?”

YOU DON’T

; )

God dammit. Well, he should have expected that, really.

Still, it’s something to work with. Vortex clearly wants him around, whether it be for his medical knowledge or just his entertainment value, which means that, at least for now, he wants Felix alive. There’s no guarantee he won’t change his mind in the future, and Felix is very much aware that alive is not the same as unharmed, but-

It’s a start.

He could still leave. Pack his bags, accept his dishonorable discharge and his mountain of debt, apply at the nearest hospital and never look back. He’d never have to step foot into Vortex again.

But he’d never get to see another quint up close, not unless it was seconds away from smashing him into paste. Never find out what the primary brain looks like, how the mechanical parts merge so seamlessly with alien flesh. Never get to splay one open and tear its secrets from its body, like muscle from bone.

“Alright then,” he finally answers, and fervently hopes it’s the right choice.

Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed! More coming soon! And huge thanks to @jayden-writes and @showstopper35 for their help and support!

[thinkingaboutbones]

dropout newsletter says we'll never be able to guess the new d20 season so here's me trying anyways:

whatever hank green's dimension 20 atoms folder was about

i'm hesitant about this one because they said we'll never guess but it could be a fakeout.

dimension 20 atoms thing with hank green AND tom scott is there

ever since sam posted a pic of him and tom together i've NEEDED to know what they were doing, my faves getting together fr. also i think he would fit well in a sciencey campaign with hank green. maybe set in the real world?

all dms

its brennan and matt and aabria and murph and idk other famous dms but im sure more exist. maybe they rotate dming? idk how that would work but.

murph dms

technically not a season idea but i want it to happen so. in my dreams its a whole season just like the naddpod donkey kong one-shots <3.

dimension 20 game changer style where the campaign changes every episode

some kind of bird campaign for brennan to flex his bird facts knowledge

return to unsleeping city but more about the grammarcy occult society

acofaf season 2

mice and murder season 2

those last ones are more random but i am Covering My Bases hopefully i will get Something right, like when you play the lottery and get one number right so you win just enough money to buy another lottery ticket.

[putschki1969]

Hello Sarah, I hope you are doing well! Since the time for the advance ticket sale is close, and this is my first ever attempt for a lottery ticket, I thought of asking. (Yes, I'm a complete noob when it comes to this, so seasoned fans out there, I hope you can bear with me). What is the usual procedure? I plan to try through Wakana's FC only, since the registration to Keiko's FC seems impossible 😩 (I can send you my experience for that if you want to know what happened, it may help other fans) Anyways, back to the questions! Are you expected to pay the price of the ticket in advance or only if you won? If you pay in advance, do you lose your money if you don't win? How can you claim the ticket? Email or physical? If it's only physical, can we collect it at the venue entrance? Tenso say it's a contraband item for them, so proxy service doesn't seem to handle them unless there is a loophole I'm not aware of. Any other tips will be greatly appreciated. 🙏 Apologies for the bazillion questions, and I look forward to your reply!

No worries.

Regarding your most recent issue with the Keiko FC application, I saw your comment about the Tenso address but I honestly have no idea why you are having trouble with it😔

As for your questions:

What is the usual procedure? Getting tickets for Japanese concerts is a challenge, especially for us overseas fans. It's an extremely complex matter for which there are no simple answers. Throughout the years, I've made countless posts describing the difficulties and hurdles of the ticket application process. Not sure if you've seen any of them but it should be common knowledge by now that it is anything but easy. Unfortunately, there's not ONE specific guideline you can follow since the procedure is very different depending on the ticket platform. I don't want to sound pessimistic but I think it might be a little too late to start dealing with all those things just now. It might honestly be too troublesome (if not to say impossible) for you to get everything you need for a variety of ticket platforms at such short notice.

Anyway, we don't know yet which ticket platform they will use for the lotteries (will make a detailed post once we have more infos) but my best guess is that they will rely on traditional services such as e+ or Lawson Ticket. Usually, you need a registered account to get tickets on those sites. That can be quite tricky since they require an SMS verification via a Japanese phone number. They also only accept Japanese credit cards or convenient store payments so you'll need someone in Japan to handle the payment for you. Sometimes, with FC lotteries, you don't need to use your own ticket platform account, for example, it wasn't necessary to use my Lawson account to apply for Kaji Fes. FC tickets last year. If you are lucky, it will be the same for the Kalafina live so at least the lottery application itself can be done without much trouble. With Wakana's FC, there's also a high chance that they will use SKIYAKI TICKET as platform which I already talked about HERE.

Are you expected to pay the price of the ticket in advance or only if you won?/If you pay in advance, do you lose your money if you don't win? Don't worry, you never pay anything in advance. You apply, wait for the results and if you win, you have a few days to make your payment. If the payment isn't registered in the system before the deadline, your ticket will automatically be canceled.

How can you claim the ticket? Email or physical? Depends on the ticket platform. Newer services such as SKIYAKI are completely digital so you claim your ticket as QR code in a dedicated app. For older services, it's usually an app or paper ticket. As far as I know, the dedicated apps for those platforms are not always available in foreign appstores (I know I struggled with the e+ app but I think the Lawson Ticket app is available) but I never use them so I have no idea how foreigner friendly they actually are. With paper tickets, you usually have to pick them up at the convenience store with your payment number.

Can we collect it at the venue entrance? No, this is only ever an option for on-the-day sales or special overseas ticket services. e+ sometimes offers tickets for overseas fans with very easy procedures so you can pick them up at the venue. However, as of right now, we do not know if they will have those overseas tickets available or not. Usually, the sale gets announced after the FC and general lotteries are over.

Tenso say it's a contraband item for them. Yes, that's true. Tenso has never been a suitable service for tickets. There are some proxy services though that might be able to help you get your hands on a ticket. For example, SOSJapan handles Fan Club and Ticketing Service for overseas fans. They can also respond to very specific requests which is quite conventient. Friends of mine have had good experiences with them so I can recommend the service.

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WRONG CROWD PREVIEW.

Lee Know x reader. (s,f)

Synopsis: You meet Minho again at the high school reunion, the kid who used to sleep in class turns a tattoo artist.

Preview under the cut!

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"Isn't this the Ms. Most Likely To Be President?" A voice says.

Your head turns to the side to find someone in a fitted suit and a face that seems so familiar but it's hard to recognize like trying to remember a song you listened to a year ago.

"I'm what the people voted as Most Likely To Win A Lottery and Lose The Ticket!" He gives you a hint with a sly smile.

It takes you a moment to fully recognize him from his sharp nose and the doe eyes, "Minho?"

"Ding! Ding! Ding!" He exclaims.

If it's isn't because of his hair that skipped months of haircut, the tattooed hands and his stance that oozes with confidence, you would have recognized him in an instant.

You pat the empty seat next to you for him to sit on, "Did you win the lottery though?"

"No luck!" He replies, proceeds to take a seat next to you then rests his back against the wall.

"What a shame!" You jokingly say with fake empathy.

Minho clinks his glass with you before sipping his drink in one go and puts it aside.

"Are you the president yet?"

"Sadly I'm not stupid rich and egomaniacal enough to be one," you answer.

"Am I addressing you right though? You're not married, are you?"

This is the umpteenth time someone asking whether you're married or not. Weirdly though, you don't feel offended at all when Minho asked you.

"Why does everyone keep thinking that I am not marriage material?" You ask with an annoyed groan.

"Oh, so you're married?" He asks with apparent disbelief in his eyes.

You look at him and narrow your eyes at him, "Bold of you to assume that I am married!"

He takes out something from his suit jacket while speaking, "Good! You're too cool to settle down anyway."

And somehow that feels like the highest compliment you ever got from someone.

The flask he takes out from the inner pocket of his suit jacket doesn't surprise you at all.

He uncaps the flask and holds it out at you, "ladies first!"

You might have unconsciously stared at the tattoos inked the back of his hand and fingers, quickly snapping yourself out of your daze.

You take a quick sniff and recognize it right away, a strong liquor that is exactly what you need at the moment. You take the flask from him and confidently take a small sip.

The alcohol burns down your throat as you swallow it and you wince at the bitter aftertaste.

"Bourbon?"

He smirks as he takes the flask from you and also takes a sip. As he tips his head upward, you can see tattoos peeking from the collar of his shirt, black against his honey skin tone.

"You're running out of paper to doodle on?" You playfully say as you fan yourself as your eyes get watery from drinking such strong liquor.

"Yeah, I doodled all over my body now," he playfully says back and hands you the flask.

All over his body? That gets your head drifting in the direction you're not supposed to be going.

You take a big gulp of bourbon and let out a breath after swallowing it down, it helps to diminish the aftertaste.

"If you're not the president then what are you?" He slumps a little on his seat with his legs spread, exposing the checkered socks he's wearing.

"I'm a lawyer," you reply.

He nods as he thinks of a response to your answer, "hot!"

You burst out laughing, not expecting to hear a comment like that about your profession.

"Hot?"

He turns his head at you while still nodding, "fight for justice in black suits, hot!"

Again, he gives only the best kind of compliments and ones that you didn't know you needed to hear from someone. What surprises you is it's coming from him!

He was this kid who used to sleep in class and if not sleeping, he sat in the back of the class doodling on his notebook.

The two of you got close in the last year of high school for an unfortunate reason. Minho failed most of his classes and you helped him study to earn enough credits to graduate.

Now that you got reminded of it, you're glad to know that he changed for the better but is still someone who's unapologetically himself.

"How about you?"

"I own a tattoo parlor in the city," he casually says as if he's not saying that he owns a business and it's not a big deal.

He takes something else from his suit jacket, a wallet then pulls out a card.

"Oh wow, you even have a business card!" You beam in awe.

That just made it official that he's the coolest person in this reunion.

"Let me know if you want to get inked or just want to hang out," he nonchalantly says.

"Sure, would love that!"

You take the business card your law firm provided for you and give it to him, "just in case you need legal support, I'd be ready!"

He takes the business card and studies it like it's a fascinating object.

"Side note: I charge more on someone I am well acquainted with," you joke.

He slips it into a compartment in his leather wallet and puts it back into the inner pocket of his suit jacket, "I hope we get to be more than just acquaintances then."

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Mischief / Episode 1

Characters: Rinne, HiMERU, Kohaku, Niki

"But it's kinda creepy... Bein' loved or hated by folks I don't even know, in places I ain't never heard of. Guess that's just what bein' an idol's all about, huh?"

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Season: Spring

Location: Café Cinnamon

Rinne: Yo, yo~♪

Still as cozy as ever, huh? You PBB lovebirds! Shoutout to the most lovey-dovey couple of the year! Gyahahahaha! ☆

HiMERU: It's really quite the talent how you've mastered the art of making others feel so uncomfortable the instant you open your mouth.

Rinne: Haah? I'm praising you, so rejoice, will ya? Thanks to you two, Crazy:B's having a once-in-a-lifetime jackpot streak!

C'mon, look at my phone! The notifications just won't stop dinging!

HiMERU: Is it because you're getting canceled again?

Rinne: No waaay, I've already been locked outta all my accounts 'cause I kept getting canceled.

These notifs? They're job offers for us.

People're begging for Crazy:B to show up on their shows, movies, interviews, photoshoots—

The offers are rollin' in like cha-ching, cha-ching, cha-chiiing!

Kohaku: Wow, sounds just like one of those pachinko machines.

Rinne: Pretty much what it feels like! It's not every day you get to cash in this big, right?

Though honestly, part of me's thinking, "What's goin' on all of a sudden? This is creepy as hell."

Not so long ago, everyone was like, "Crazy:B's gotta die!" Hated our guts, wouldn't give us any gigs—remember?

Niki: Nom, nom, nom... Maybe the public's finally recognizing all the hard work we put in last year?

Kohaku: I was wonderin' why you'd been so quiet after comin' in with Rinne-han. You're eatin' again, Niki-han...?

Niki: I've gotta eat all the time! Or I'll die!

Kohaku: So you've already got the lifestyle of an insect or somethin'.

Niki: Anyway, I don't really get it, but isn't more work a good thing? Maybe it's 'cause our latest Matrix got good reviews?

Rinne: They haven't even aired all the episodes yet. The reviews aren't bad, but y'know, people keep saying, "Well, considering it's Akan-san’s project..." It's basically just like that.

Niki: Hmm... We worked our butts off for that, so I hope it ends up with a good rep. It'd make our struggles feel a little more rewarded.

Rinne: Well, it's rare for stuff like karmic retribution to happen in society. It's always been the case that ill weeds grow apace, while good people get screwed over. Life's a piece of shit like that.

HiMERU: Those words carry a certain weight coming from you, Amagi.

Rinne: So yeah, this time around, it's best to think of it as just dumb luck.

HiMERU: Meaning?

Rinne: Meaning that it ain't like we worked our asses off, poured blood, sweat and tears into doing our best, and got rewarded for being earnest.

It's like tripping over a winning lottery ticket.

If you start seeing causality in that, next thing you know, you'll end up like me—acting all unnaturally nice to everyone before hitting the pachinko parlor, and creeping people out.

That's just me tryna stack up some good karma, hoping for a fat payoff in return.

It ain't like I got reincarnated as a kind-hearted, good person.

Niki: Wow, I don't get it when you use pachinko analogies! Sooo, toss in a food metaphor for me to chew on instead!

Rinne: Mm, but if we start on food, we'll get sidetracked. Y'know how when you're feeling happy, food often tastes better? There's a sort of cause-and-effect relationship, yeah?

HiMERU: —In short, what you're trying to say is, "this is just a fluke, so don't get too carried away."

Rinne: Yup, bingo! ♪ Maaan, it's always a relief how good at comprehension you are, Merumeru!

HiMERU: That's because there's always a very incomprehensible person nearby. Constantly.

However, it seems like this PBB thing really has become a big deal...

Since it's all happening online, it's easy to feel like it doesn't actually affect reality.

Rinne: Well, it ain't like the internet's some kinda isekai, y'know. It's connected to reality, no doubt about it.

And aren't there a lotta people these days who feel like the internet's more real than reality?

Kohaku: Uh. So, we're talkin' about how Crazy:B's gettin' a buncha jobs, and it's all 'cause of this PBB thing?

Rinne: I dunno what else could've caused it. All the requests are like, "we want HiMERU-kun and Oukawa-kun, the super popular PBB, on our show," and stuff like that.

Kohaku: We're really that popular... Me and HiMERU-han, huh...

Hmm, I guess that... I'm right pleased folks love me and all, but not knowin' why makes me kinda uneasy.

Niki: Not gonna lie, it's none of my business, so I don't really care~♪

Rinne: Me neither~♪

Kohaku: These guys... Well, I guess if we're gettin' more work and it's all good stuff, I don't really got any complaints.

But it's kinda creepy... Bein' loved or hated by folks I don't even know, in places I ain't never heard of.

Guess that's just what bein' an idol's all about, huh?

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Moments of ephemerality/permanence/YOLO/photography/voyeurism/control/hypocrisy/accountability etc. in Only Friends episode 11

we're in the home stretch now folks... look how far we've come

Ephemerality, YOLO, and permanence

QUITE a lot about ephemerality and permanence and the idea of "you only live once" this episode:

Sand tells Yo sometimes you have to take a risk in love, because maybe one day you will get really lucky and win the lottery -> YOLO

Top tells Mew that if Mew doesn't think he can forgive him it would be better to just end it, that living in uncertainty and fluctuating circumstances is painful -> the pain of ephemerality

As they discuss their fight from last episode, Sand says next time Ray should listen first before getting upset -> Ray (and other characters) are impulsive and don't reflect before acting or speaking

Boeing tells Mew "I'm not going to wish you luck. You aren't going to make it anyways" -> Boeing thinks Mew and Top's relationship is not permanent or lasting

Ray and Sand make future plans to go to a music festival together -> planning for the future, anticipating permanence

Top says it is obvious Mew will never get over or forget what Top and Boston did, so what is the point of getting back together (Top's actions are too permanent and lasting), Mew asks if they can start over -> Mew is trying to have an ephemeral point of view about Top and Boston but he is struggling, he wishes it was as simple as starting over (which he already asked Top to do way back in episode 2); Top doesn't believe Mew can be "ephemeral" about this and says he doesn't know if he wants this second chance (if Mew and him have a lasting future together)

Mew's mother says if Mew still cares for Top and wants a future with him he is going to have to forgive (but not forget), she points out that when Top and Mew fight in the future he can't bring up Top's old actions every time, that if Mew is giving Top a chance he needs to move on too -> again, the idea of being ephemeral and permanent (forgiving and moving past things, but not forgetting entirely)

Mew tells Top that he might bring up Top sleeping with Boston up in fights in the future, that he doesn't know if he can fully forgive, and Top says "let's just leave it to the future" -> both a bit of a YOLO mindset, but also with an eye towards permanency and having a future together

Boeing has applied to be a flight attendant -> a job that involves a lot of moving, not staying in the same place very much, etc.

Boeing strikes out with Mew and Top and immediately goes after Ray and Sand -> sowing chaos where ever and whenever, not tied to any particular couple/person or plan

Sand says he wants to be rich so "On a boring day, I would just go to the airport and pick where I want to go without caring about the cost" -> once again we see the idea that wealth allows you to live in the moment, to live ephemerally and without consequences, that boredom is an issue for the wealthy but it can be rectified easily by being spontaneous (and that wealthy people seek out spontaneity/live life with a YOLO mindset because they are frequently bored)

Ray sings aloud in the record store -> against social norms to do so and Sand is shocked and quickly goes to stop him, Ray (and wealthy people as a whole) don't think of consequences in the same way as others

Boston and Nick discuss relationships - that Boston hasn't been interested in relationships because he is moving to New York soon, that Nick might be an exception to this rule, then Boston proposes being boyfriends for the short time until he leaves, Nick questions what is the point of being boyfriends then, Boston says "I just want to spend the time I have left loving you" -> the ephemerality of Boston's relationships and time in Thailand and how that informs his YOLO approach to life, the permanency and steadfastness of Nick in Boston's life, Boston proposing a solid and definitive relationship (boyfriends) that is nonetheless quite ephemeral (it has a short time frame) while being conclusive (it has a defined time frame) and also a bit YOLO (even if it is short lived, it doesn't mean they shouldn't go for it - @lurkingshan talked about that here, as did @thatgirl4815 here)

Boston says what he likes about Nick is how Nick stands by him regardless of what he has done -> the permanence and constancy of Nick

Ray says "I collect a lot of details about you" to Sand -> the permanency of memory, collecting and archiving moments and details

Boeing appeals to Sand with concert tickets and reminiscing about visiting music festivals in the past together, but Sand doesn't take the opening to reminisce -> again, memories and the permanency of past and connection, but also the ephemerality of both things (Sand doesn't want to go down memory lane, people might forget things, etc.)

Sand says he doesn't want to swim with Ray and Boeing because he doesn't have any underwear -> Sand is not a YOLO guy in many ways, he's thinking about consequences

Change

I've been tracking changes in the characters as well as how the characters talk about change over the past many weeks (1, 2, 3, 4), and as we head into the home stretch of OF it's interesting to see where characters are landing:

Dan tells Nick "Whatever you want me to do or to be, just let me know" -> change is possible, Dan can change to be whatever Nick wants in a relationship

Mew has been a bit all over the place (he said was skeptical of Top's ability to change and repent, then he had hope and wanted to give Top a second chance, then the appearance of Boeing made him hesitate again, etc.) but his general stance seems to be that people are capable of change, it just takes a lot of time and effort -> this episode, Mew once again says he wants to give Top a second chance, but actually wonders more about his own ability to change (will he be able to move on from Top's actions?)

Boeing says Top will be doing stuff like sleeping with other people in the future too, so it would be better for Mew to be with someone else -> Boeing, like many others, says that Top can't change

Boston says he hasn't been interested in relationships but Nick might be an exception -> Boston acknowledges a change with in himself and his own approach to relationships, he isn't afraid of trying something new

Honesty

We've had a fair amount of honesty in the last couple of weeks (1, 2), and not just to cause as much drama and pain as possible, like Boston and Ray's outbursts in episodes 5 and 6, but honesty that goes hand in hand with communication, boundaries, and accountability.

Dan upfront tells Nick he wants to be his boyfriend and asks permission (consent!)

Nick tells Atom directly he wants to flirt with him (consent!)

Mew tells Top he doesn't think he can forgive what Top did, and that he might bring it up in fights in the future

Top tells Mew his feelings about Mew playing around with Boeing, and is upfront that if Mew doesn't think he can get over it they should just end their relationship now (and is honest that that would hurt him, even more than Boeing and Mew sleeping together)

Boston is honest with Nick about leaving for New York and the time frame of their relationship if they were to be boyfriends

Boundaries

Of course, I've also been tracking both the setting and crossing of boundaries in this show (1, 2, 3, 4). This episode:

Mew tells Top on the phone not to come with him and "Cheum" on their hangout, Top shows up to see Mew anyways

Dan asks Nick if he can be his boyfriend, he says he is worried he is putting too much pressure on Nick

Sand is not answering his phone so Ray goes to find him

Boeing tells Mew Top told him to leave Mew alone

When approaching Atom, Nick immediately establishes if Atom is available or not and asks for consent to flirt with him

Top shows up at Mew's mothers' home, they invited him and have been in contact with him without Mew knowing

Ray asks Sand if he should be jealous of Boeing and Sand says no so Ray says he won't be jealous (I mean, up to interpretation if you think Ray actually followed through on not being jealous but...)

Top says he doesn't want to force Mew to make a decision, that he will give him space

Photography and social media

More and more photography! voyeurism! surveillance! social media!

Boston takes photos of Atom and Nick together as proof against Atom's claims, he threatens to post the photos on social media

Boston makes reference to an anonymous account that Atom has been using to make accusations of Boston

Boston takes so many photos of Nick he fills an entire roll of film

Boston uses photography as a metaphor for exclusivity ("But from now on there will be only your photos. Because I will only sleep with you")

Comparison

Different type of comparisons happening this episode compared to other ones - it was more focused on drawing parallels between behaviours and feelings vs. comparing with the intention to put someone down:

Yo and Sand compares Yo to Plug in terms of relationships and life outlook

Nick draws parallels between him and Atom (both experiencing the pain of one sided love, etc.)

Boston draws parallels between what he does to Atom and what Atom did to him (threatening to expose Atom on social media)

Atom's words at the bar echos Nick's in the electronics store, that Atom just wants Boston to love him like Atom loves him

Consequences and accountability

The final topic I wanted to touch on here is the idea of consequences and accountability. In the past four weeks (1, 2, 3, 4) we've had a lot of apologies, some accountability for behaviour, a lot of talk about consequences: Top and Boston apologizing to Mew for sleeping together, Sand apologizing to Nick for stealing the sex tape, Top and Cheum worrying about long-term consequences for Mew's party boy stint, Ray and Mew coming clean about their attempted relationship, Nick apologizing to Boston for taping him, Sand and Ray's father talking to him about his alcoholism, Ray going to rehab and realizing what Sand has done for him, Boston reconciling with Nick, etc. We've also had the fallout from Top and Boston sleeping together, Nick recording the tape, Sand sharing the tape, Mew dating Ray to get back at Top, Ray's drunk driving, Atom accusing Boston of rape, and so on.

This episode we had more about consequences and accountability: Nick and Boston confronting Atom, Atom coming clean to Cheum, Top and Mew talking about Mew's revenge plans (and Mew giving them up), Sand and Ray reconciling, etc. But I wanted to talk about some themes and details I noticed about these moments in this episode.

Firstly, Nick tells Atom "Just because he doesn't want to sleep with you, you don't have to go this far. It can ruin your future". We've talked a lot about how these young [mostly wealthy] people are living a very ephemeral, YOLO life where they don't consider the consequences or impacts of their actions (see 1, 2 and links above). Here, Nick directly brings up the long term consequences of Atom's accusations, how serious they are. Boston's future could have been ruined: he could have faced criminal charges, his father's campaign could have been impacted, he would have been outed. It's interesting that it is Nick (and Boston) noting the serious and life-altering consequences - Nick, who could face criminal charges for his recorded sex tape; Boston, who famously sleeps with who he wants and says what he wants without considering how his friends will feel or react. It shows a real moment of growth, especially for Nick. Nick two episodes ago gave a heartfelt apology to Boston for what he did and took accountability for his actions (vowing to leave Boston alone). He experienced the consequences of his actions (the man he loved rejected him and was very angry with him, the tape also messed up the relationships of many other people). Nick learned regret, he learned how to consider consequences, and he learned the importance and benefits of sincere accountability - after his heartfelt apology and gesture, Boston let Nick back into his life. It seems Nick and Boston's confrontation spoke to Atom, as Atom then went to Cheum and admitted his lies.

And, as some other people like @starryalpacasstuff have pointed out, this confrontation with Atom serves as a way for Nick and Boston to reflect further on their own/each other's behaviour: Nick fell for someone after sleeping with them once/only a few times and Boston realizes this, Nick acknowledges that being rejected doesn't mean you need to try to ruin someone's life, Boston realizes the pain Nick has been in due to his unrequited love, Nick says not to fall for an asshole and Boston recognizes that asshole as himself. Self-recognition through the other.

This episode also explored revenge as a form of consequence. As retribution for his false accusations, Nick and Boston set Atom up to get photos of him they threaten to post on social media. As retribution for sleeping with Boston, Mew hangs out with Top's ex Boeing. In both these cases, the actions the person takes for revenge are the actions perpetrated against them. Atom has an anonymous account online where he is posting his accusations of Boston, so Boston threatens to expose him as he exposed Boston by posting the photos of Atom kissing a man on social media. Top slept with Boston, so Mew flirts with Top's ex Boeing. Boston and Mew are looking to punish Atom and Top, they want them to face consequences for their actions, and they decide to weaponize what was used against them to do it.

However, the episode also shows revenge is not necessarily the best way to receive accountability and resolve grievances. I used the word retribution a lot above - retribution is not exactly closure, or accountability, or healing. Atom does come clean about his lies (to Cheum at least), but Boston doesn't have to post the photos in order for him to do so. Top tells Mew, "One day you might want to get revenge on me again. You're paranoid, I'm paranoid. This cycle will never end" - they could be trapped in a cycle of distrust and pain if Mew doesn't stop seeing revenge as the only remedy for what Top did. Revenge is unsatisfying, it doesn't solve the problem or mend the hurt.

And along the same line, sometimes the retribution and consequences you'd want don't happen. Atom comes clean to Cheum but she doesn't say much about it (remains to be seen if Boston gets an apology from his former friends if he even wants it). Mew is struggling because he can't quite forgive Top but his plans of revenge aren't going the way he wants them to and there's no apology or remorse from Top that will let him forget what happened. Sometimes we can't get the catharsis we want or need in life.

I've also been playing with the idea of change and accountability: that accountability requires accepting what you did wrong and making amends (changes) to fix it, and that recognizing and accepting someone else taking accountability means believing others can change. To use an example, Mew needs to believe that Top can change (that he won't do the same thing again if given a second chance) if he is to believe Top's apologies and the action Top is doing to take accountability, and Mew needs to change a bit himself for them to move on (he needs to let the idea of revenge go, he needs to soften his pride, etc. if he wants what he wants [Top as a boyfriend]). Top tells Mew "I know what I did can't be undone. You want me to pay and take revenge on me. But I want you to know that you don't have to do anything. I've already suffered enough. I'm disgusted with myself already just thinking about not being able to hold you again one day". Top says he has changed, but Mew doesn't let himself see it so he continues to hurt them both by treading the same ground over and over. (we could also note that sometimes people create their own punishments for their actions which may be much more effective than anything an outsider could do to them... there's a lot of self-loathing and self-destructive behaviour on this show.)

We could even ask what the point of consequences are if not to inspire change?

I will finish this off with one last comment: there has been a lot of talk about the effects and impacts of alcohol this series - today we even had Sand's dad say "You're drinking? You're young, take care of your health". Sand once again talked to Ray about the impacts of drinking ("I don't want you to get drunk too much. I want you to get health check ups every year. I don't want you to drive drunk"). Finally, Sand wonders if Ray hanging out with kids for 6 hours has really made him learn/reflect on the consequences of drunk driving.

happy monday (or tuesday) ephemerality squad: @chickenstrangers, @clara-maybe-ontheroad, @colourme-feral, @distant-screaming, @lurkingshan, @neuroticbookworm, @rocketturtle4, @slayerkitty, @thatgirl4815, @twig-tea, @waitmyturtles, @wen-kexing-apologist

[turtle--soup]

Next Mutation ramblings under the cut:

Monkey Man is back

Episode 11 stream of consciousness liveblogging first...

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"Poof. No mowah dowah baws." Honestly I would kill to play one of these henchmen, they must have had the best time.

Oh, I see where this is going...

Mikey found a peanut. Cute that he's excited enough to sing a song about that

Is that Fruit Loops with Red Bull? Bro.

If I ever win the lottery I am also going to yell MEGA SHELLAAAAAGE. I do not play the lottery.

"It's really gross in heeyuh"

"I can buy a jet plane! I can buy TEN jet planes!" Bro gonna set up his own airline

"You're scaring our roaches" Finally a Raph who likes bugs!

Of course Raph would buy more motorbikes. But would they be as sexy and cool as the one he already has? I think every Raph should have a motorbike. I never ship Raph with anyone but I kinda ship NM Raph with his bike

FunKEE MunKEE

"Stop monkeyin' around" - of course, of course. The puns 👌

Yeah, stop calling him greenie. You can do better than that surely?

They have satin boxers? Yeesh. 🤢

"Muhayy name's not greenaaayyyy" Calm down Leo

I love the sad music in the background being overlaid with the cartoon 'boink!' 'splat!' sound effects

"I got beat by four guys with no pants!" Dude now you know why Shredder was so pissed off all the time

This Splinter is so crabby

I can't believe nobody is arguing that they should get the ticket back because

a) Silver might spend it on doing nefarious bad guy stuff, and/or

b) it belongs to an innocent person??

Bionic smoothophonic?????? Were the scriptwriters paid by how many words they could make up?

Groovalicious! Excellente!

GROOVY WOOVY BABY???!?! wtf Raph bro are you OK?

Ah, the bike. And the jeep. But mostly the cool bike. It's so cool. Look at it. It's so cool. LOOK. HE HAS A BIKE!

Yeah no seriously I get it but I am so confused that they're all 'yeah money though 🤑' like... completely. It seems so wrong for there to be such little push back. Venus kind of tried but... yeah, I expect there to be more moral undertone in my turtles - especially if it's going to be this cartoony.

His staff is a net launcher? Nice.

Love that the walls in Silver's hallway are climbing walls lol. Fair play to whoever thought of that

"I've never fought so many well dressed men" Venus buddy please use your eyes

She's so polite though

The scene transitions in this show really are something aren't they? Wow

"I know exactly what you're gonna say but we think you're wrong" Bro I don't think anyone's ever won an argument with their dad by starting off like that

Oh at least Splinter's actually suggested they should give the money to the guy it belongs to and chewed them out for being greedy finally

Lol they busted his legs

"I AM scary 😠😠😠"

That was the worst smoke bomb effect ever wow

...

I didn't make notes on episodes 9 & 10 of Next Mutation but the general overview is:

There's so much about Bonesteel that I love but I'm concerned that he's going to be completely pointless.

His design is top tier, I was convinced that either Kevin Eastman designed him or whoever did design him was very much taking notes from Kevin Eastman and lo and behold...

ALSO! I was wondering where I knew Bonesteel's actor from and he's frickin' Scott McNeil! How many other Transformers Beast Wars voice actors did they poach? Lol.

Anyway yeah love him.

Also Quease is really interesting. I want to believe that his relationship with Donnie will be developed on but I'm not going to hold my breath. Hopefully they do something interesting with them though.

[waffliesinyoface]

Re: that ask game post i just reblogged

under a readmore because it's gonna be long. it's about Hasami, obviously.

1: she does have a big one, but she can only sleep with it at home, because, you know. you can't really bring a big stuffed wolf plushie on a mission. (Yes, it's a wolf. She didn't buy it herself, it was a present when she was younger, because giving wolf-related items as presents to an inuzuka is just like. The thing to do. Obviously the wolf-clan girl likes dogs.)

2: plant: no. pet: yes, but only because most childhood chores were some variation of "go take care of puppies". child: absolutely not. please do not attempt to make her hold a baby.

3: this isn't a problem until she's been working as a ninja for several years but one day she realizes that the majority of her friends are incredibly strong, lethal women who are occasionally covered in sweat and blood, and now she has to be. normal. about this.

4: does red facepaint/magical seal tattoos count? if so, yes. if not... maybe? I'm not sure.

5: she's not exactly prone to giving speeches but also. she's based on me and I have exactly zero issues with public speaking, so. She could do it? It's just not exactly the kind of thing that comes up.

6: I'm not sure about who she'd take advice from, because like. It depends on the subject. But if her first impression of you is that you're annoying, she will probably never listen to anything you say, ever. If someone else comes along and agrees with them, she might listen. To them. But she won't be happy about it.

7: im not doing this one because i am incapable of being concise :)

8: Frustrate. She is. She can be smart. But also. She is mostly built for stabbing things. She tried to ask Tenten about fuinjutsu one (1) time to save money on exploding seals and the barest simplest most stripped down fuinjutsu felt like trying to do trigonometry without a calculator. Please do not give this girl a puzzle that cannot be solved with some form of violence.

9: Yes, because I do too. But it's not such a big deal to her because there's more important things, like not dying.

10: She's just fine at the age she is now.

11: Save most of it, but like. Maybe a couple impulse purchases. (Does konoha even HAVE a lottery? Also how would she win, she wouldn't buy a ticket.)

12: Give her a few years.

13: She gets taught lots of life skills, because Ninja Mom. But maybe the most important thing she learned is the fact that sometimes very scary things will just happen and it will be awful and people will lie to you and everyone will just treat it as completely normal!! Thanks!!

14: She would, but also, I haven't thought of any she has. Hrm.

15: Hates cleaning things because they're just going to get dirty again ANYWAYS.

16: I'm going to assume this is for like. Fancy occasion type stuff. Because ninja wear the cost is less important than "will this be a hindrance in a fight y/n". So for NON-mission related clothes. She would like to wear an extremely fancy layered kimono at some point.

17: She IS a children, but even so: not really!! Kids konohamaru's age and younger are mentally classified as "annoying brats"

18: Give her a few years.

19: Studying is hard but if you get good points on the practical that makes up for it!! Also what is a "job interview" she signed up to be a child soldier at age six, and as such never has to worry about them. Because she is already a tool of the state.

20: At some point on a C-rank her team is going to eat at a restaurant that sells food which is like. The naruto-equivalent of western food. Hasami is the ONLY person who likes it, and is SO ANNOYED that she can't get any in konoha. I would say something cheese-based, but I'm not sure if that's common in the elemental nations or not. I know they have cows. But I don't know if cheese is popular.

21: please stop asking about dating questions she is twelve and an idiot

22: no, they're LAME

23: Stability. Novelty is nice but she gets a lot of that in just normal missions. "Stability" is good, when your chosen profession is violence. Unfortunately she lives in konoha, and *looks at orochimaru. and pein. and obito.* uh oh!!!

24: Honesty. Yes she knows there's lots of lies involved in ninja society, but that does not mean she has to Like It.

25: She would probably prefer safety for some stuff, but also: sometimes it is literally not on the table. Unfortunately you do have to take risks as a ninja. A lot. All the time.

26: They are not mutually exclusive even talented people have to put in effort and even people who have to work hard are better at some things than others.

27: Vengeance : )

28: please stop asking about dating questions she is twelve and an idiot

29: She very occasionally dreams about non-narutoland stuff and it is frustrating because that's not her life anymore. Especially annoying when she dreams about traffic because not only should she not have to deal with that anymore, but: she can't even complain about it to other people.

30: The only people who she would care enough to want forgiveness from she wouldn't want to do anything bad to them. She would feel guilty!!! But also, like, she could kill an enemy ninja and Not Really Care because, uh. That's life!! She reincarnated just fine so really if death is the end for you thats a skill issue. Also edo tensei exists so there is SOME form of ninja heaven, clearly.

[stereax]

Send me a potential AU: In 2015 Connor McDavid is drafted by the Leafs

Okay so this is from a Very Old ask game where it's "give me an AU, I give you five things about it". I forgot to do this, predictably. So! Let's do it now.

Toronto must win the Draft Lottery here. This means the draft order is Toronto, Buffalo, Arizona, Edmonton for the first four. Toronto drafts McDavid, Buffalo drafts Eichel. These are easy picks. Arizona, obviously, still picks Strome. Now, I don't know if Edmonton picks Marner and preserves the draft. My hunch is they don't, and go for Noah Hanifin instead. This means Carolina... fuck I do NOT want them getting Marner... aha! Sources from the time say they were highly interested in Hanifin, Marner, and Lawson Crouse at 5. Crouse was also better ranked in the pre-draft rankings, and is notably larger than Marner, and we know how NHL GMs are about size. Let's give them Crouse. And New Jersey can have Marner at 6. Zacha drops to 11 and is taken by the Panthers. The rest of the draft can stay as it actually happened.

While I froth at the mouth imagining Marner on the Devils, let's focus on Edmonton and Toronto. Now, I'm not going to butterfly effect my way through nine seasons of NHL hockey and drafts, so let's say everything else stays constant enough. This means your Core Four are now McDavid, Matthews, Nylander, and Tavares. Draisaitl is your full time #1 center in Edmonton, and I suspect with Hanifin they don't go after Nurse.

That being said, Toronto is still cursed. McDavid centering Matthews is fucking electric. But that team still can't win a playoff round, no matter what they do. Edmonton, too, struggles a lot more - Nugent-Hopkins is a fine 2C, but definitely not the McDavid to Draisaitl. With Hanifin, the Larsson trade might not happen, and Hall could stay in Edmonton longer-term as well. Butterfly effect, though. (Hyman, of course, is unaffected and enjoys scoring goals in the blue paint as always.)

The media is fucking crazy in Toronto. It takes a special kind of person to live up to that. Nothing McDavid will do is ever good enough. Especially because he's seen as The Next One. If you thought the media around Matthews, Nylander, Marner is rough, put the spotlight on McDavid and crank it up to 12. Poor Davo.

But I think despite that, Willy Styles and AMatts would be good for Davo. Teach him to have a little fun. Get him out of his head and remind him there's more out there than just hockey. McDavid is characterized as a "hockey robot", and to some level, he doesn't seem to conceptualize there being more to life than a game he is simply very good at but perhaps doesn't enjoy as much as you'd expect. Willy and Auston would fix that, I think, and develop a personality in poor Davo. Plus, he might be better dressed, too. Anyways, Winger Auston Matthews being psychosexually obsessed with his ubertalented center Connie McDavid when?

That's all for this one, the worms are braining here! Hope this is what you wanted, anon!

[1eos]

The sweet sweet relief of never having to see the words "featuring redacted" ever again.... I don't even know what to do with myself this is so good. Anyway this is an excuse to ask you which persona game would you recommend to start with? I haven't played any of them but I know I'll love them but I'm not sure to start at the very first game, ty ♡

we might be free from barking...this is monumental. like i literally said may the music industry reject him when he gets out and it might happen. i need to start using my psychic powers to win the lottery.

anyways as for persona do NOT start at the very first game it will make u hate everything. since you know you'll like it/accustomed to jrpgs i'd say start with persona 4 golden. it's the most persona persona game to me but it takes abt an hour to get into gameplay so i don't recommend it for ppl new to jrps LOL. from 4 i say play 3 (fes is my favorite version bc of the epilogue but portable is also good) then p5 royal! and THEN once you're done with those try persona 1 then persona 2 but be warned persona 1 is fucking brutal. a slog to get thru but the story bangs. persona 2 actually has continuity with the first one so you'll benefit from playing that afterwards!

[idcrxsxs]

"So I'm standing there like an idiot telling these folks that there's nothing dangerous about the offices directly after Tau telling them about the bazooka that Bradley gave me and I failed to put out of sight before he - Tau - came to visit," Thursday chatters away in a torrent while she goes about baking little cakes in the Easy Bake Oven she gave to Eden. Tau, the young AI child who comes to visit her from the AI Sanctuary, and his two guardians Julia and Sal had stopped by a couple of days prior.

"I may as well have just been holding up a loaded gun and waving it around shouting 'Heyo, nothing dangerous here!' And of course that's nothing to say of the warehouse where, you know, there's a lift that goes across it without any railing so you could easily lose balance and fall off and die - not that that has ever happened to me - and- and- and all the ghosts, including the one that likes to start fires, and the staircases, and slasher zombies wandering around outside of the office, and the slasher serial killers living in the offices, and viruses, and- holy shit, what else is there around this place!? And of course they had to go and ask for a tour and I had to show them! I couldn't just sweep that under the rug, could I? Not after the bazooka. Not after the incident with the dinosaur. Did I tell you about that, by the way?"

Thursday pauses to look over at Eden and it is at this time she realizes how much she has spat out and how quickly she just spat it all out.

"Sorry, hahaha, just been a stressful week! But I'm sure it's been harder in here for you, you know, patching up the idiots who go around stabbing each other like it's gonna win them the lottery or something."

@parables-for-days

“My, sounds like it’s been lively out there with everyone, very dangerous, but, exciting and nonetheless. I can hardly say the same myself in here though. The crazy situation you guys seem to end up in are far harder than any procedure I've performed I can tell you that, haha. It's the uncertainty of it though, isn't as much you can fuck up when putting in a few stitches. " They chat away whilst removing the small cakes from the oven. However done they were only god knew, they did always follow the instructions but the easy bake oven was still more of an novelty at the end of the day. That didn't mean they adored it any less though. "Maybe someday when we figure out whats going on with me, I could join you guys in all these wacky shenanigans you get into, i've always wanted to go on crazy, spontaneous adventures with friends since I was a little one. Anyway, no I don't believe you've told me about the fabled 'dinosaur incident', but i'd love to hear! Spill as many details as you want you know i'm all ears for this."

[worrywrite]

I actually have an outline for a story about this.

A guy has this hobby of running a "time loop helpline." He has an extra phone and a large binder he carries with him at all times. People can find him through the phone book or his website. Every now and then he gets a phone call on that extra phone and all he ever remembers is that last phone call. Is usually goes something like "Hey, Phil, I'm on loop 4,068, we made it to part 4.c of the process. Keyword is spanakopita." And he goes to that part of the binder and reads out the next steps in the process. And Phil has never been in a time loop himself, but going by how many people have called him and somehow known what to say to get to specific instructions. But a few days after every last call he gets a gift of some kind, often money from lottery winnings. Sometimes these gifts arrive entirely randomly and Phil just sort of assumes that the last day of the loop didn't require a call but he had helped the person get there anyway. Besides, he's not doing it for the gifts.

And I'll be honest my outline kind of stops there. I do not yet know what kind of situation to put this man in... But I really do like this concept of just being the guy that helps people out of time loops because he figures if they're real the odds of there being a genuinely helpful person in the accessible radius of the time looped person is kind of low. I know having a character that is "just some guy" generally doesn't work, but I feel like it would work for this. Because time loop stories are absurd and often very painful narratives, and sometimes having there be just some guy that will listen helps.

[attempting to flirt] if i was stuck in a timeloop id desperately explain my situation to you every single reset