#anyway this si so stupid and bad but i wanted to post something and this was sitting in my drafts

[with-my-calamitous-love]

I FEEL SO HIGH SCHOOL

shinso x reader

angst, breakup, jealousy, general heartbreak sadness, smau

its been a month since you called it quits, and shinso goes through your instagram late at night.

a/n: keeping tabs on him is what made me feel sane, to be honest. this one is a hugeeee vent and i hope you enjoy <3

a/n: TORTURED POETSSSSSSSS

1:02 am

he knew that realistically, he’d only hurt himself. social media doesn’t snitch on you when you stalk your ex, not unless your stupid or desperate enough to like an old post or hit ‘message’. and he knew you two weren’t talking right now.

it was a messy, messy breakup. to be fair, no breakups are seamless and fair. but yours was beyond just plain messy. feelings were unorganized, old sweaters tossed all over the floor in despair, and both your accounts were completely cleaned out online. he hated deleting his posts for you. but he only did it after he saw you do it first.

shinso was starting to hate his phone. mostly because so much of it was haunted by you. old texts, albums made for you, playlists of your songs together, but there was something about his and your instagram accounts that made it so hard. it was probably because social media is the place to share tidbits of your life- and a year of his life had been with you. but its over now. now what?

he couldn’t sleep tonight. he wanted to hear your voice. he called you twice and no answer. he knew deep down you were asleep, that you didn’t like staying up as late as he did. he wondered if you were dreaming about him.

he missed sleeping with you, so much. he missed getting to snuggle up next to you and drift off in your warmth, begging you to stay in bed with him the next morning. you were always an early riser. even on days you were apart, he missed calling you late at night. he missed falling asleep on the phone with you, not caring how bad it was for his battery life to do so.

he just fucking missed you.

he wondered if you missed him too.

after hearing your voicemail play out, basking in the sound of your voice apologizing for not picking up- knowing that that apology wasn’t meant for him anyway- he clicked instagram. his friends were up and active, spamming texts into the groupchat he was smart enough to mute. he knew they meant well, asking him for the details of your split and offering to spend time with him, but shinso preferred to hurt alone. maybe its because he knew that none of the people that cared about him could be you.

[y/n]_username: smileyy

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xx_yaomomo: CUTEEEE

alienqueen: HAIRCUT REVEAL??

heartz4uraraka: BABYYYY

he scrolled through your posts, looking at the comments your friends left for you. you got your haircut, something that shocked him. you always loved your long hair. you always loved him. thats two things gone.

[y/n]_username: on the edge

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xx_yaomomo: had so much fun w u <3

dkkknari: PHOTO CREDITS RNNN

ejk1rishima: yall [y/n] would not stop slipping 😭

[y/n]_username: @ejk1rishima SHUT UP

he knew his friends were your friends too. it was unfair of him to expect them all to suddenly drop you the way he did, but he never expected it to sting this much.

shinso knew that rooftop. it was the roof of your parents apartment complex. you used to take him and him alone there, claiming it was a spot you only wanted to spend with the people you love. he knew all the little stories, like when you were eight and you threw up over the edge of the building after eating too much ice cream, or when you had your first kiss with him at 2am.

it was a spot just for you two. at least, thats what you told him.

that spot was now filled with other people you loved. he knew it was selfish of him to hope that that place in your heart remains for him and only him, but he also knew it was wrong.

he wanted to be selfish so fucking bad.

[y/n]_username: <3

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shotdrki: beautiful <3

shinso turned off his phone.

he felt a knot form in his chest at the sight. he could put two and two together, seeing you with flowers, your favourite flowers, and someone else calling you what you are. someone that wasn’t him.

shinso knew why he had to end the relationship. he needed to focus on himself, on his hero career and he knew he couldn’t love you under those conditions. it broke his heart knowing he broke yours, knowing this was what he had to do in order for you to be better off.

she deserves better. he thought.

but it also drove him insane thinking about you being with another guy. it drove him crazy wondering who out there was going to be with you. who out there is telling you they love you, who’s holding you and fucking holding your hand.

it just couldn’t be him.

he couldn’t help himself, unlocking his phone and opening your messages. he removed the heart next to your name, only so that when he would call he wouldn’t be tricked into thinking you were still together. god knows he can’t go through that heartbreak again.

[y/n]: i wanna be yours forever

[y/n]: i love you ♥️

shinso felt the memory of your love roll down his cheeks.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - May 22

curious anon (new), grounded anon, trans teacher anon (new), galaxy anon, big sis anon (new)

curious anon

HI CAS

I liked this girl until last year (I liked her for around a year and a half) (but she has been my most intense crush ever and I think I may have been in love with her) and part of me thinks I still like her at least a little bit?

Idk i just find myself staring at her and thinking about how beautiful she is and how nice she is and everything like that. And I’ve also thought about how nice of a girlfriend she would be, ect ect

ALSO for that year and a half she liked me back, but we were both way too awkward to do anything about it so we didn’t date or anything

Oh also she has a girlfriend as of around two weeks ago

I’m not really overly jealous of her girlfriend, It’s just the thought of “what does she see in her that she doesn’t see in me?”

I’m also really curious as to why she stopped liking me. I know that (at least for me in this case) people can just slowly stop liking someone but still I don’t know it just bothers me

Obviously I would never bring this up. I know she likes her girlfriend a lot and I’m not trying to make things complicated or make her feel uncomfortable around me. We’re not as close as we used to be, but we’re certainly friends and I don’t want to have her think we can’t be. It’s more that I’m mad at these feelings for existing, because they feel so wrong.

Hi!

Honestly feelings aren't always easily explainable. Like SHE might not even be able to explain why her feelings changed overtime, you know? Sometimes feelings just...change.

But remember, she DID like you at one point. So it's not that she sees something in her girlfriend that she never saw in you. It's that you two didn't end up dating, so she found someone different (not someone better).

Sometimes trying to figure out feelings just makes them even more frustrating. It's easier to just...feel them.

Sending you love <3

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grounded anon

Okay so you remember my little crush?

It exploded into a big, fat, gwy panic inducing crush. Like Sirius black levels of pining.

The main incident: so basically, me and her were sitting next to eachither in class. Knees pressed together, and she was drawing on my arm (normal shit for us) and she made this adorable little frustrated noise and you know what thus beautiful human said? She sad this exactly: "Do you ever just get cuteness sgression? Like your just filled with affection for someone randomly?"

LIKE PLS KISS ME ALREADY OMGG

Also, we say I love you to wacother, right? Normal friend shit. But, my stupid little gay bran has decided that everytime we end a phone call with 'I love you' it decides to have a code 5 MSS GAY PANIC as soon as we hang up. I'm talking jumping around my room and whisper screaming.

Also she has started to BRAID MY HAIR. Like, she loves braiding my hair. Anytime there's like a lull in class she'll ask 'can I braid your hair?' LIKE YES PLEASE BRAID MY HAIR AND ALSO MARRY ME AD AJDNFNDDN

*sigh* so, I ask this: is this platonic behavior? Am I just gaslighting myself to make me feel more wanted?

Anyway, thanks for answering my asks. Your so awesome sauce

-grounded anon

(Ps, ses barely on tumbkr ad not in the Marauders fandom. Plus these posts don't get very many like notes so you don't have to remove the words. I cat remember what I say anymore😭😭😭)

Hi!

oooo you have it bad lol.

Honestly, to ME, those don't seem like platonic things to do. But I'm also older than you and when I was a kid, we didn't act as touchy with our friends. Like I've noticed kids and teenagers now are much flirtier with their friends than they used to be. So braiding hair and saying I love you is a lot more normalized.

I feel like the cuteness aggression thing though...that seems like a good sign! Like I don't think you're gaslighting yourself, there's definitely signs, at least.

Sending love!

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trans teacher anon

Hi Cas!! I hope you're doing amazing and well, and a big THANK YOU for answering these asks 🤎

So, there's this teacher at my 9yo sibling's school (my mum also teaches there) and she's trans. In India, trans women are pretty common but EXTREMELY rare in work places (the bias is still there), so neither of them knew how to act, so I did tell them to accept her for who she is. And they respected it for a month or so, before a transphobic teacher at school planted seeds of doubt in their brains -_-

My mum's pretty open minded, but she said that she can't accept the teacher as a woman as "he's a male on documents" (which I tried my best to explain that it's very likely cuz it takes forever to change any document) and "has a wife and a child" (I told her about trans lesbians). So, whenever I refer to the teacher as a woman, she keeps saying that I shouldn't do it cuz it's "confusing".

My sister does refer to her as "ma'am" in school but due to my mother, she calls her "sir" at home, and I don't know how to make them respect the teacher's identity.

I've been wanting to talk to someone about this for ages but my brain kept saying that it wasn't their burden to bear, so I just wanna say: I just need your opinion cuz I'm CLUELESS at this point ;-;

Hi!

It's so kind of you to want to educate your mom and sister <3 As a trans teacher myself, it's people like you who make me feel so much safer being myself in a professional field.

Would your mom be open-minded enough to read about or listen to the opinions and experiences of trans people? I ask because there are a lot of writings and lectures made my trans people discussing the harm in deadnaming/misgendering, and maybe if you give something to your mom to listen to or read about, she'd be willing to listen and learn? I think sometimes people don't realize how harmful it is when they misgender, and once they hear the statistics of SH/SI rates in people who are misgendered, they find it simpler to gender people correctly, you know?

Let me know what you think!

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galaxy anon

Hi Cas, it's galaxy anon!

I'm doing better at the moment. As I've said before, I keep having these huge mood swings, and the last asks I sent you were an example of when I'm not doing too great.

But you'll be pleased to know that I'm better again now. I've found that most of my exams so far seem to be going pretty well, so that's a bonus too.

I've spoken to M (my best friend) about what I was experiencing before, and we had a nice long chat about it... she pretty much said that she also gets really overwhelmed during exam season, and she gave me a few tips to help me out. She also has a therapist now, so she let me know that I can always go with her to one of her sessions if I need to :)

I still haven't talked much to my parents, though... I think they know that I'm overwhelmed because they keep offering to help me out, so that's good, but I'm still not sure I'm really ready to have a proper conversation about it. AND I can't even talk to my teachers anymore because I'm on study leave :(

But yeah. Your kind words have really helped me out a lot, so thank you for all your advice so far. I'll keep updating you when and if things change.

Have a great day!!

Hi!

I'm so glad you're feeling better and exams are going well! I'm SO proud of you for talking to your friend, too! That makes me so happy! And the fact that she was so supportive is wonderful. I'm so glad she's willing to help you with therapy, too, that must make you feel cared about. I'm also happy to hear your parents are offering their help, even if you don't want to talk to them yet. It's good to know you have multiple people looking out for you, you know?

My inbox is open if you need to talk/vent, but I hope things continue to go well! <3

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big sis anon

Hi, my sister (i'll call her E) was dating this girl (B) and she seemed so excited about it and they were dating for about a month and then earlier this week she told me that B said they weren't dating and that she was dating their mutual friend (R) (that my sister introduced B to) and E seemed really upset and I felt horrible but she didn't want to confront B because apparently B didn't know they were dating (even though B was the one to ask E to be her girlfriend) so then a few days later E was just acting like it never happened and was saying that they were best friends, which they were before but I just don't want E to compromise her own feelings to keep being friends with B (which I know she's done before). And E said that she just didn't want to talk about it anymore so I don't know what to do? I don't want to leave it alone and her sacrifice her own feelings for her friendship with B and not feel like she can talk to me about it but I also don't want to overstep.

Also your work is so inspiring thank you for writing and sharing! (Can I be big sis anon?)

Ugh this is the WORST thing to deal with- watching someone you love compromise themselves for someone else. I think everyone had had to or will have to do that at some point, and it's such a tricky thing because you don't want to get TOO mad and push them farther toward the icky person, but you also don't just want to let them make shit decisions.

There's not a perfect answer, but for me, I think it's important to remind them of the things you said. Say things like "Remember, your feelings are important" and "Remember, good friends will take your feelings into account" and "Remember, I care about you and I support you and I'm here to talk." Don't completely badmouth B, but don't say you love her, either. Like...walk the line, if that makes sense?

It's HARD to do. I'm sorry that you're dealing with this <3

[kiefbowl]

not to be like parasocial or something but i am just turned 25 and i have been rotting for a year (literally a year as of last week) because i got laid off from my job. only TODAY have i received an acceptance letter from an amazing job i really knew i was qualified for but thought i'd fucked completely. and i had to send in some background check stuff and sent the wrong stuff in and have been losing my mind about it all day even though, obviously, it is fine. and seeing your post just made me feel so much better about it all because i have also been doing nothing but getting high and sitting on tumblr and occasionally freelancing at a stupid ass company that like sucks the life from my soul til it's left a husk or whatever. it somehow feels really meaningful that you'd post something like that and i'm really glad you did because i've felt really stupid and bad about my situation for so long. anyway sorry for telling you all this! you are not my therapist of course. but sometimes it really feels like you're the only person in the world experiencing something like that and that can make it feel like the biggest hurdle imaginable that you'll never ever get over until... you do!

Sis, I love reading shit like this, don't apologize!! You're going to be FINE, which you already know :o)

Here's some advice that is the closest to a universal truth as death&taxes and I want you to remember this for me while you live the rest of your twenties:

"Almost nothing isn't fixable." -kiefbowl

tattoo that on your brain. when you think you've fucked up be like "almost nothing isn't fixable, kiefbowl taught me that." it's true, even for things you think aren't fixable, they probably are. like you sent the wrong documents, no problemo they let you know you sent them the right ones.

I think you're gonna have a really nice life, I just feel the vibes. You've got that good brain, that right attitude. keep thriving sis <3

[loaksky]

what school do you think powder/jinx is going to go to when she graduates? when do you think reader is going to meet her? also, are their parents/vander alive?

hmmm, immediately i thought of ivy league or near ivy league like MIT or carnegie mellon! also, vi deserves all the happy endings so unless it’s for the plot, i imagine felicia and vander (even though vander’s not her bio dad) to always be alive LOL

ok WARNING! i’m thoughtdumping:

i could definitely see powder visiting campus to tour + surprise vi, but also because she wants to meet this person her older sister never shuts up about over the phone. reader’s kinda an enigma to everyone who doesn’t experience vi in person because i could definitely see vi not really being active on social media / only using it to lurk + dm her plug lmaooo, so when she soft launches reader after not posting in like two years, everyone back home is like uhh side eye, especially if the caption is something goofy / stupid as fuck like “sorry i haven’t posted, i was shitting + falling in love”

ANYWAYS, powder’s super smart and lowkey a detective (vi tagged reader in her post lol) so she dm’s reader to introduce herself and asks if she’d be willing to help surprise vi.

powder + vi share locations so i could definitely see powder disabling her sharing and vi happening to check in on her little sister + immediately facetiming her when she realizes that she can’t see it. reader takes vi to valentino’s & so as soon as powder gets on campus, she’s hightailing it over + sneaks up on reader and vi having dinner while vi is venting about how she’s concerned that her lil sis is up to no good.

“oh always,” powder would probably say and reader would be smiling ear to ear because she’s heard all about powder + vi cries bc she misses her lil booger! operation surprise big sis is a success and powder joins the two lovebirds for dinner + comes to find out for herself why vi is so down bad for reader :']

[honeyjars-sims]

2.2 Cool Girl

Johnny: What’s going on? You seem a little stressed.

Chantal: I’m itching. It’s that stupid lube.

Johnny: Uh, ok, that’s a little more information than I needed.

Chantal: I didn’t put it there. I had to write some reviews for some of SNOOT’s sexual health products, so I tested one of the lubes on my wrist to see if it seemed ok. But now my skin is all inflamed.

Johnny: Gross, are you allergic to it or something?

Chantal: I don’t know. I don’t usually have sensitive skin, and this seems different somehow. It’s almost like a burn.

Johnny: Weird! What’s in that stuff anyway?

Chantal: Here’s the bottle. I should’ve known Ambrose would be putting weird shit in her products.

Johnny: [reading on his phone] Uh oh. Looks like you’re not the only one having this problem. Listen to this review: “They should call this Satan’s Lube because my cooch is burning like hellfire.”

Chantal: Are you serious? Let me see! Oh, God. [reading] “This stuff gave me a bad chemical burn. My sex life is ruined!” What the hell? This is terrible! I can’t put my name on a positive review of something like this. I’ve gotta call my boss.

Johnny: Did they post your review already? 

Chantal: No, I sent it in for approval a little bit ago. Hopefully he sees where I’m coming from.

Johnny: Writing reviews for the company you work for seems sketchy anyhow. Have you asked your boss about doing something different?

Chantal: Not yet. He’s been pretty receptive to my ideas so far, but I don’t want to be too pushy.

Johnny: You don’t want to be pushy? You spent our entire childhood telling all of our teachers that their classroom management skills sucked and explaining how to run their classrooms for maximum efficiency.

Chantal: Well, this is different. If I play my cards right, I could be at this company for a long time. I want to make an impression, but I also have to know my place.

Johnny: Wait, your boss isn’t the guy that you have a thing with, right?

Chantal: I don't have a thing with him. We’re keeping it professional. Why does that matter anyway?

Johnny: I don’t know. I just hope you’re not doing the “cool girl” thing where you’re being overly agreeable so a guy will like you. That’s some dumb shit that Mom would tell you to do.

Chantal: That’s not what I’m doing. I just want to be a good employee. Besides, I don’t think being agreeable is a bad thing. A lot of guys get intimidated when they see how driven I am. Maybe I need a softer approach.

Johnny: That’s because those guys think they’re “alphas” and can’t stand the idea of a woman being independent and successful. You don't want that type of guy anyway.

Chantal: Oh, I didn’t realize I was talking to the World’s Best Male Feminist. You’re reading way too much into this. All I’m saying is it’s good to have a little balance. Why don't you go hang out with your girlfriend or something?

Johnny: Ok, I’ll go see my girlfriend that I respect as my equal. I hope playing it cool with your very professional boss works out for you.

Chantal: Oh, don’t worry, it will. Jackass!

Johnny: Love you, sis!

Chantal: Love you more, bubs!

[Chantal calls Nico]

Chantal: Hi Nico, I’m sorry to bother you, but I need to talk about my latest review.

Nico: Sure, Chantal. I just got it approved for publishing. What’s up?

Chantal: Well, I and a lot of other people experienced some unpleasant skin issues after using the Come Together couples lube set. I just figured Ambrose would want to look into the issue before any positive reviews are published. It wouldn’t be a good look for the company if something turns out to be wrong with the product, you know?

Nico: You’re right about that! Thanks for letting me know, Chantal. I’ll reach out to Ambrose so she can find out what’s going on and I’ll make sure the review doesn’t get published. Good looking out!

Chantal: Anytime!

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[eyesorefortheblind]

Hey so I do have a strawpage that I made for answering questions about my OCs/ UltraMoon Shipping (OC x Canon) OR there's my blog ask so if you wanna use that I love to ramble. 👉👈 (Will be tagged "strawpage ask" or "eyesore answers")

HEHE THANKS FOR ASKING - SO Eclipse and Guz are actually an AU to her story!! The Guzma/Eclipse ship started as a joke but it went downhill from there, little context.

Originally after ending up in the human world (she's from the PMD world), she was rescued by Sona, a trainer originally from Sinnoh who was traveling through Alola at the time. At the time of Eclipse's arrival, she was pretty injured. Sona found her, helped her, the two had a sort of FWB thing for a couple months. But a fear of Sona getting caught up into trouble had her running off. And when she ran off, she found herself at the doors of Po Town. No rhyme or reason really. But a walled, run down town with a bunch of misfits that no one wanted to associate with? It sounded like the perfect place.

Initially the grunts started heckling her (while she's in human illusion, of course), aking why she's there, trying to square up, until they notice she's some sopping wet chick with no Pokémon. Who does that - come to Team Skull's terf without even a single Pokémon on their belt?? They think it's funny and she's pretty stupid. So they take her in to show off to the boss or big sis that they caught some dumb Rattata skulking around. Maybe she was spying or something?? (Honestly Eclipse just wanted out of the rain at this point) But they bring her in and Guzma isn't exactly impressed by someone's poking around Po Town.

Little more context - AU takes place post game but also Team Skull didn't disband. Thought that was stupid. They're still together, but they're pretty much serving community service time and trying to tidy up a bit. They don't bother trial goers anymore and still live in Po Town.

Eclipse is currently keeping her tail out of the grasp of the Aether Foundation who *absolutely* caught wind of Eclipse's arrival to Alola. Girl came out of a hole in the sky, no doubt someone saw that and she set off some sort of energy signals or SOMETHING.

Anyways Guz and Plumes seem skeptical when Eclipse says she wants to join the ranks. She doesn't have a place to call home and she certainly doesn't fit in with the people of Alola. The two pull her off for some questions, she gets to spend the night as a sort of test.

And then the next day Guz REALLY tests her. He said she could join if she could beat him in a game of tag - but it boiled down more to "don't get Poison Jabbed by my Golisopod within 5 minutes" and it got close a few times and ended up with Guz taking a Poison Jab to the gut from his own 'mon OOPS. Eclipse certainly has not let him live that down ever since. She had pecha berries though, all good. Girl managed to get out of the way and poor Golisopod couldn't stop in time big boy still feels bad for that one.

[blairdii]

carlos' heart was breaking. his heart was breaking right in front of him, and he didn't know how to help him.

they were hidden in lando's driver room. lando, sat on the small sofa, clutching carlos, who was standing in between his heart's legs. his sobs were killing him, his driver suit was wet with tears, lando's nails were digging in his back. he didn't care. he wanted his heart to be okay. was that so much to ask?

"carino, please don't cry,"

"i'm such a shit driver, carlos. i'm such a fucking idiot,"

"don't say that, please-"

"it's true! such a rookie fucking mistake i made. it was so stupid. what's wrong with me?"

"nothing's wrong with you, mi amor. please, you have to listen. you're such a good driver-"

"i'm not. if i was, i would've won every race so far. i would've been as good as max. but i'm not. i'm shit. the championship is going to slip away again-"

"it won't-"

"and that's fine because i don't deserve it anyway. oscar is a better driver than me. george is a better driver than me. max is a better driver than me. they can keep it."

"you're going to win it, lan-"

"i'm not, i'm fucking useless. i'm so fucking useless-" he broke out in sobs. loud, painful sobs that felt like a knife going through carlos' chest. hell, maybe a knife in his chest would have hurt less than this.

"mi vida, you're not useless, please don't say that." carlos ran his fingers through his heart's curls. there was something wet on his own cheeks, maybe his own tears. there was no other explanation for it, really.

he crouched down, forcing lando to look at him. carlos sat on his knees in front of his heart, holding his face in his hands. his eyes were red and swollen, his nose was sniffing, and the tears wouldn't stop falling.

"mi amor, mi vida, mi corazón. listen to me very carefully, yes?" his eyes were tortured and grey, and carlos wanted the colours back. carlos wanted the blues and greens back.

"you are so talented. you are so good. you won four races in the same year as your first win. you have so many pole positions. you brought back real f1, the f1 that has fights and rivalries, yes? you love your team, and it shows. and they fuck you over, but you still stay, carino. you've stayed for so long.

"you are not a bad driver. you are lando norris, the tiny boy who had to be velcro stuck to a kart, the boy who won so many different championships, the boy who had everyone impressed as soon as you entered formula 1.

"you have beaten every driver on this grid multiple times, mi vida, and someone who is shit could never do that. si?"

lando nodded, hesitantly, and carlos wrapped his finger around a stray curl before he leant in and pressed a soft kiss to his heart's forehead.

lando wrapped his arms around carlos' shoulders, pulling him in to wrap his legs around his waist as well. effortlessly, carlos pulled lando on his lap as he settled on the floor. he rocked his heart back and forth, softly singing a lullaby that his mother used to sing to him and his siblings when they were young.

carlos stayed even after his heart had fallen asleep. he stayed even when oscar, jon, andrea, zak, kyle, they call came to check on him.

carlos would stay for his heart through everything.

haha, a little shitty something because i've cried way too many times today, and its only 3pm here. im so fucking exhausted, dee.

OMG PLEASE POST THIS YOURSELF ITS SO HEARTBREAKING 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[lascapigliata]

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wasted all my time in therapy talking about how bad i am at therapy then did my stupid yoga class and cried at the end bc like an idiot i was like trying to Connect To My Body, awful idea, remembered to take my stupid New meds because i fucked myself up by being so noncompliant, then managed to get a little work done, and just as i was thinking maybe i'll actually go to sleep early or something i saw another FUCKING BUG one of those house centipedes that i KNOW are pretty isolated i KNOW only feed on other bugs i KNOW won't hurt me and it doesn't matter at all bc i kill everything and so now it's dead but it was on the door to my laundry machine and then crawled to thE OTHER SIDE OF THE DOOR so i opened it and killed it but like idk why it never occurred to me that things could cross that door!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have to do laundry tomorrow, how am i going to go in there????

i have always said that when i'm not otherwise depressed the phobia is the worst thing for my SI and here we go again. i don't see a way out of this. if one (1) incident with ants can send me into such a spiral that i'm literally acting like i did back in boston at my worst and forcing myself to stay awake and being too afraid to go in my room because i think there must be bugs there because i haven't been there in a few days like what was the point of any of this and what IS the point of any of this. NOT ONLY do i feel like there's no escape here but i also wasted a year and a half and tons of money and time and everything just to sink back into one of the more humiliating times of my life. i don't want to say i want to die but like i do i can't keep doing This and i don't want to do yet more exposure therapy i did SOmu ch and i worked SO hard even if it was all, apparently, a total waste

and i just have no idea how i'm going to sleep tonight, anywhere. here or in my bed. like i just want to procrastinate sleeping, which has been part of the problem this whole time, bc i'm scared of nightmares et al and if i just force myself to stay awake then i'll pass out at 5 and be really tired and hopefully jsut not dream, which is a decent method except it probably is exacerbating the anxiety and this is what i mean it's just a cycle

and this is something that i should be putting in my jounral anyway bc i keep saying to post this super personal stuff here less so i don't add the layer of needing validation to these breakdowns but something about the idea of writing this down feels even more humiliating somehow probably bc i WON'T get any validation except like, i know if i press post and like two (wonderful, i appreciate you) people like it it won't feel satisfying either bc the ONLy thing that will just feels like having this NOT HAPPEN IN THE FIRST PLACE and i don't know how to do that because I THOUGHT I ALREADY DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[lenteur]

random thoughts about strong girl nam soon, episode five (pt 1)

(read more because i always get carried away lol and this post might contain spoilers)

hopefully nam soon will be more efficient at being discreet. Even though i don't count on it

i just realized there are eleven episodes left after i finish this one so i kind of understand why it took some time to introduce the villain and develop the story.

I still can't believe the chief of the diu team put the dr*g in his mouth. I think the writers decided to do that because when the chief d1es, the charges against doogo will be heavier and he'll be incriminated for longer. But anyway, it still doesn't make sense that someone who's worked for such a long time in a diu team went and made a rookie mistake, especially given the fact that the whole team saw the effects it had on the two victims of said dr*g. Talk about lack of creativity. I would've understood if he went to the hospital to, let's say, visit a family member and then they gave him the fatal mask. That would have made a lot more sense a lot but no, they chose something so stupid even a rookie would have thought before doing such a thing. Oh and let's not forget how hee sik told him SECONDS BEFORE how the drug works. Talk about impulsive thoughts.

Sorry i'm very disappointed by such reckless behaviour from someone who should know better.

I know i've said nam soon is doing a terrible job at laying on the down low but i do appreciate her enthusiasm. She has lead a pure life, rid of bad intentions so she is adamant on catching the villain and stopping the k1lling of so many victims.

Hee sik being stunned by her super powers is hilarious. He's seen it before but he doesn't know the extent of it. By the end of the drama, he'll just be so impressed he'll become numb to it.

The bells ringing whenever his heart flutters over nam soon.

Nam soon running with hee sik in her arms adds a lot of fun to this moment. He's already become numb to it.

The veins on the ryu si o's arms and back. He's the first experiment of his own drug. I don't know how the makeup/vfx artists did it but it's a really good job. The veins don't look fake.

I'm sorry but hwang geum ju is so badass and elegant at the same time. How does she do that? And the fact she's riding a motorcycle? She's catwoman!!!

who's following hwang geum ju? It's the guy who gave her the opulentia card.

I'm wondering why she revealed her identity so quickly. I mean it could have been dangerous. But we don't know if she gave her identity when signing up to the opulentia site. Or did she need to create an account? Anyway if I were her, I would've kept my helmet on. Would have worked better for the undercover mission.

The vice chairman of opulentia, i wonder if it's his real voice because it sounds like one of those voices you hear when taking a TOEIC exam for example. It just threw me off. Also it looks like they asked him to speak very slowly and to articulate every word when talking in english. I don't know but it's weird. It doesn't sound natural is what I'm trying to say. If that's really how the man speaks, i would like to apologize.

Hwang geum ju's smile when she understood she shares the same goals as the opulentia vc. She finally found someone of "elite" status who wants to do good and not just keep earning money and keeping it to themselves. And i think that's a very beautiful thing to see that she's no longer alone in her quest to make the world a better place. She really found someone she wants to associate herself with.

Cute! They're now officially a team.

Hee sik using any excuse to be with nam soon. We know what you're trying to do. I just appreciate all the little details the show gives us to drop hints that they're going to be a couple by the end of the drama.

Talking about hwang geum dong, they chose the perfect actor to play him because he has this tired look on his face already and he mastered the art of using it to his advantage.

Ever since she literally fell on top of hee sik, nam soon's heart doesn't have as much space for her kpop idols. Accurate representation of kpop stans when they get a real life partner lmao

[garbage--account]

Bestie,

Don't worry about the signification of "bad/worst hc". I meant by that heacannons you have, you don't know why you ended thinking that (according to cannon, characterization, ....), but it lives rent free in your head anyway. So you answered perfectly to my question 😊😇

Don't worry about context either : it is part of the fun to discover very original/weird/out of pocket hc, so we can either agree, relate, debate or just have a good laugh 🤣 As long as the fandom lives. Each person = different lore.

I imagine a interview where Gouenji only has to answer by yes or no to very specific questions, and press must make an article with the few they got from scratch and Gouenji's like "but i didn't say that"

As promised, i have the honor to present you my worst headcanons :

TW : novel-lenght post in a language that is not my mother's

Haru : since VR's not out yet 😡 we can only imagine what it would be about, and boy do my brain is going wild🤯 (see on my blog, it's funny). "Worst" hc 'cause the chances of me being wrong are great.

He has a big sis, that i have imagined all his life and daily life, the chaotic dynamic with Haru, friends she hangs out with and activities and that i ship with those. Basically a headcanon on a character that we don't know anything became an oc that have its own headcanons, as more ocs goes with it, it suddenly became its own spinoff, so i can ship oc without another oc, and suddenly we are beyond the original media. Fantastic (might post it about it later)

He is often compared of his father, because they look so much like each other and both plays soccer and are passionate about it. It sets him off because he is not his father and people expect of him to follow the same path. He wants to be his own person doin' his own shit and people are like "your father would have never done that" or "i didn't knew Endou was okay with that" or "your dad would be ashamed of you if he knew you did that". And Haru's like "can i live my life pls? Can i be not the same as him? Can i not be my dad? What do you know about him?".

Even tho he has the same blood and passion for soccer that Endou, he has a much different personality : calm, studious, sometimes cold, ambitious, he uses his leadership and emotional intelligence to achieve his goal to be greater that his dad (so people could at last leave him be). He is not a tactician tho. However, he can get angry easily and is downright scary when lashing out (nicknamed the "monster" for this reason)

His personality makes him to be percieved as a villain. However, we can often see him having beef with his sis in the most stupid ways possible, doing the most stupid shits, and it is often because of fighting over food. He is actually very immature and silly but rivals doesn't necessarily know it. He can lead well his team because he almost loses every arguments with her, so he prepare better to face others.

Childhood friend with Unmei (obviously) but in a cold term with him nowadays. He didn't apologies for smth and now Unmei hates him. Haru says it is part because/thanks of him he became smarter (since his sis is pretty silly too)

The most chaotic family ever, it gave Natsumi wrinckles. Ever dad can't keep up lol

Has other interests than football (like it is not a hyperfixation what), thanks to his sis that never played it and changes hobby every new moon.

Probably associated with [main villain]

Plays as a libero : didn't wanted to be a gk like his dad. Irony is Endou also played as a libero

Unmei :

Had this "always sick kid" childhood. At first, he could play soccer, but something happened one match. Since then, he didn't manage to be able to play again.

Turns out it is his mom who is purposely ruining his health this whole time, through food poisoning most of the time. (I think it is called munchausen by proxy syndrom)

Mom was the dad side-chick btw

It was only recently that he figured out what his mom was doing to him : one day, his stepsiblings met him and told him about the dad worries and atempt to have the custody (he wasn't legally allowed to contact or be in his presence). Since then, he pretends to eat the poisoned food and to be still sickly so his mom doesn't know he knows

Was always kinda jaleous of Haru's : the fact that Haru never apologized for what he done is just an excuse to not see him again

In the past, Haru would often eat at Unmei's flat and eat dinner with them. He noticed the thing but the mom noticed he noticed, so mom didn't want Unmei to see Haru anymore

Unmei can be so manipulative omg

Nagumohara as a soccer team :

After a drama with the goalie , Shisendo decided he had enough of that team and enrolled in their next opponent. Needing a goalie asap, they purchased a love doll, they named it Ai and made it stand in the goal post. Shisendo didn't liked that.... After the match, drama is cleared, Shisendo joined again Nagumohara and kept Ai in the team. Shinohara sleeps with her in her bed, often have girls night and her parents doesn't know at this point how to react with this. She becomes more and more ratchet along the soccer team's misadventures and is giving weird barbie vibes at the end.

Constant bickering

They learned soon that Unmei was quite manipulative and mischievous and so they would not trust him when they had to

Shinohara and Sakurazaki = besties 🤩

Kyushu city (where VR will happen, YES I HAVE HEADCANONS ON LOCATIONS AND I AM AS FLABERGASTED AS YOU, it is a fictional city btw) : Population = 55 % of monks and nuns (because they all wanted to escape the police or the FBI or smth). Sakka isn't welcomed 'cause hissatsus/kenshin/souls = dark magic = haram. Tenma and Shinsuke are among them and the first started a cult while supposed to serve his god so he can speak to sakka and make profit lmao

Costail (Little gigantes's country) : basically floptropica 💅🤩😻🏝 For the FFI in liocott, they broadcast an ad for tourist to come visit the country LET'S GAURR (the result looks like a youtube poop).

Aphrodi (oh boi Level 5 did a serious mistake not givin him backstory 💀💀💀) : when he was a baby, the nanny got distracted for 2 seconds and the infant was stolen. Got stuck for years in human trafficking. The traffickers posted videos of children they captured on the dark web and ppl payed. Police eventually catched the traffick and put the kids in hospital. Since he's fucked up and hospital treated him well while never been before, he somehow thought that he ascended to godhood (the god aqua Kageyama discretly injected to him didn't helped). Btw the rest of Zeus team was also from the human traffick. Before police could find their original family, they were abduced by Kageyama to continue the Project Z. By the time of the final, Police found the family and dragged them to the match. Once it ended, Aphrodi collapsed and was brought again to hospital. There he could meet his family for the first time, but didn't recognize them and screamed that it was impossible that he has a family 'cause he's a god and gods aren't birthed like humans (he believes he spawned in existence at some point). Since then, he must live with a family that are strangers to him and feels like being held in hostage.

I'll stop here for today. What do you think?

Btw, tell me about you bestie💅💅💅

Bestieeeeee 😻,

What is your worst IE headcannons?

I'll tell mine back 💅💅💅

I may be too out-of-touch from the fandom to know what people would consider bad and worst but I do have some that others may have an issue with! AND I WAS JUST ABOUT TO ASK YOU ABOUT HEADCANONS TOO, BUT YOU GOT ME FIRST! AND I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW YOURS VERY MUCH!! (although I haven't watched most of ares and orion so i may not understand some for now, I would love to hear them still!!)

This ended up a long post, I'm making this cut...

I'll start with a tame one (may also be really boring), but this one needs my other hcs for anyone to understand the actual one I want to share. Here's a "brief" list of the others (happened between og series and inago):

Gouenji has unparallel knowledge of ALL Disney, Pixar, Dreamworks, and Ghibli movies and will defend the female characters with his life. (This is why I thought he probably knows MLP as I said on the last ask)

He's not a fan of social media and does not use anything outside of inalink and private messaging. Not bcs he's cool, he just doesn't understand them. Much like in honosuto with the laptop, initially with inatube, and him always forgetting his useless phone.

Yuuka convinced him to make an inatter (twitter) and inagram account bcs she does not want anyone to steal the @ and that she also wants to be able to tag him on her posts (and of his teammates/friends) so they can keep the memories. He saves all the pictures he gets tagged in and sometimes prints them out to keep in an album he designed (he's very good w crafts). I still can't believe honosuto came up with those social media names (except for inagram)

He only cared about the bare minimum use of social media so he only ever retweets in inatter (never made his own tweet ever; but he does reply on some that addresses him) and only posts his creations on inagram with no caption or a few words about what he made (made takoyaki, felted a bunny, crocheted a penguin, made cupcakes, etc.).

He only has three kinds of inatter rts: about soccer, about making art, and tweets of his friends and family. Yuuka made his bio in both of them. He also became good at taking pictures of his creations thanks to Yuuka.

However, he is mildly updated with internet language bcs that's all he hears from his sister and her friends and from his own friends in the group chat that he only talks in when he's mentioned. He assimilated most of the phrases they use in chats.

Having said all this, he almost has no social media presence. You're lucky to see his page updated after two weeks. He doesn't reply with strangers either unless it's a kid who loves or interested in soccer.

He also doesn't share much in interviews. Very bare minimum of answering questions and always answers in short sentences and just poses for the camera shortly before he bounces. His favorite answer to questions is "oh that's private" not bcs it's private but bcs he doesn't want to talk that long unless youre asking him about his opinion on human rights-- something that his agent and/or soccer club prevented the press from ever asking him again (an hc drop another time). But anyway, he always had strong opinions and doesnt hold back in expressing them (og series and inago) and that's trouble for the club sponsors so they make a lot of effort on stopping anybody from having the opportunity of asking him anything outside of his personal and athlete life.

And the last context here is that Gouenji is autistic, but we already know that.

Okay so now time for the actual bad HC I want to share... which is how Gouenji came out as bisexual to the public

This started with an inatter thread of a person criticizing Anna (Frozen) for her actions in the first movie that reached Gouenji's timeline. Gouenji answers with 7 tweets worth of respectful paragraph of why Anna shouldn't be criticized bcs of how she was brought up, bcs of her isolation, and bcs of her grief, etc. So, everybody lost their mind, etc etc. AND NOW, at the midst of all this, a soccer fan asked him the question below that he answered without thinking much about:

This blew up and his notifications gets flooded with questions about his sexuality and questionable taste that he really didn't mind answering if it wasn't blowing up his phone.

He was out with everyone in his circle that he forgot the world didn't know he's bi. So, he fixed that by tweeting "yes, im bisexual" on his timeline. He logs out and then decided to wait a few months before logging in again.

This didn't sound as fun as I amped it up to be but I think it's a terribly bland HC that I find kind of funny

BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT ASK!! I VERY MUCH WANT TO HEAR YOURS!!!

[taintedcigs]

don't mind me i'm just thinking about eddie who woke up in the middle of the night as soon as he felt you leaving his side, his hands frantically searching for you on the other side of the bed, a groan leaving his lips as his fingertips meet with the coldness of the once warm sheets. he quickly drags himself out of bed, pouting like a child, stumbling into the kitchen. the dimly lit lights make him groan again as he falters his way towards you, a smile creeping upon his lips as he sees you leaning against the counter, spoon in hand, devouring a pint of ice cream.

'honey...' he lowly calls out for you, making you jump, 'you scared the shit outta me, eds.' you murmur, giving him a warm chuckle. he doesn't hesitate as he hurries toward you, pulling you into a tight embrace as a squeak escapes your lips, your touch alone engulfing him in warmth and he sighs contently, worries fading away now that he has you in his arms. 'what are you doing up?' you ask, head pressing against his chest. 'my personal heater went away.' he pouts smothering you with kisses.

[tressasinterlude]

𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐓 #𝟑: Female Public Figures Dating Men with Questionable Views That Contradict Their Image & Alleged Politics

𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗖𝗟𝗔𝗜𝗠𝗘����: These rant blog posts are really just reflective of my thoughts at the time that I make them and are posted here because I need an outlet to release all of this shit I have going on my busy ass mind. That’s it and that’s all. Now let’s get into it..

This rant was greatly inspired by none other than Ms. Robyn Rihanna “Tell Your Faves To Pull Up [in regards to social injustices directly affecting black people]” Fenty and her openly colorist boyfriend, A$AP Rocky. Aside from the fact that Rihanna tends to slip under the radar and is never held accountable for her problematic ways due to her conventional beauty (i.e. Her heavy usage of anti-Asian slurs, particularly targeted towards Chris Brown’s ex gf, Karrueche), it’s very alarming that a woman who has an entire makeup brand with a campaign based around the inclusivity of ALL black women is publicly flaunting a beau who once said that DSBW do not look good with red lipstick.

And yes, I’m very much aware that Rakim said this tasteless comment over 8 years ago but from the looks of it, not much has really changed with him. Don’t @ me about it neither because I don’t care.

Also peep how he compares a hypothetical darkskinned woman to a man (Wesley Snipes) while trying to explain how his antiblackness isn’t wrong because he said something about white women as well. Gaslighting at its finest. Don’t you just love it! 😀

Furthermore, you would think that somebody of Rihanna’s level of stature would know not to associate themselves with someone as messy as A$AP Rocky but... Stupid is what stupid does, I guess! I can’t even begin to place the blame on him anymore because he’s revealed his true colors and we all have made the deliberate choice to either accept it or don’t and have discontinued all support for him. Unfortunately, misogynoir is never the dealbreaker for most people and the hatred for [dark-skinned] black women is so engrained in society that it’s frowned upon when we publicly speak out against it. Very ass backwards if you ask me but that’s society for you. Now, enough about that. Let’s focus back on Ms. Vita La Coco.

As a woman who claims to be a girl’s girl and is always presenting herself to be someone who is the epitome of a pro-black feminist bad ass, it just makes her alleged activism come off so disingenuous when she’s also laying down with the same man that actively attacks the demographic she’s supposed to be standing in solidarity with. It’s “Black Lives Matter” on the IG posts but your vagina is getting moist for a man who openly stated he doesn’t relate to what goes on in Ferguson because he lives in Soho & Beverly Hills. Ferguson being the exact place where a 17-year-old black boy’s lifeless corpse laid on the hot concrete for FOUR hours after he was murdered by a police officer. He couldn’t 'relate' to the fate of so many black men, women, and children who are murdered or seriously injured from state-sanctioned violence because they’re poor and he is not or so he thought.

But then again, what can I really expect from a woman who identified as being “biracial” until as recent as roughly 6 years ago? What can I really expect from a woman who called Rachel Dolezal a ‘hero’ for cosplaying as a black woman? I’d be lying if I said my expectations for her were high in this regard because sis has always shown us she was lacking in this department. And just for the record, this is not a personal attack on Rihanna at all for the die-hard Navy stans in the back. I admire her latest fashions and bop my head to her music just like the next person but she’s getting the side-eye from me on this one.

Trust and believe me though, she’s not the only woman who I can call out for being a hypocrite. Of course not! This stone can be cast at a few others. So without further ado, why don’t we bring Ms. Kehlani Parrish to the front of the congregation? Prior to Kehlani’s recent declaration of identifying as a lesbian, her last public relationship with a man was with YG. Yes, the same YG who felt it was necessary to say him & Nipsey had ‘pretty light-skinned’ daughters to raise in the middle of his deceased friend’s memorial. By the way, Nipsey’s daughter is not even light (or at least not in my book anyways.) She’s a very deep caramel tone just like her father which makes what he said even more moronic. Yes, the same YG who thought it was clever idea to use slavery as an aesthetic for a music video to a diss track about 6ix9ine. And yes, also the same YG who has derogatory lyrics targeted at bisexual women. Just to end up sweating the red carpets with one. I swear the jokes just continue to write themselves.

This raises the question once more; How high of a pedestal can I really put a multiracial woman who has a song titled ‘N*ggas’ and when received backlash for the song in question, she used the ultimate ‘I’m mixed’ copout while not having a visibly black parent in sight?

It’s also kind of suspicious to me that many were not privy to Kehlani’s secret romance with Victoria Monét (pictured bottom right) until Victoria did an interview with Gay Times revealing she fell in love with a girl but they subsequently broke up because Victoria had a boyfriend and that girl was pregnant in a polyamorous relationship. Fans began to speculate because both Victoria & Kehlani previously candidly spoke about their sexual orientations, Kehlani had just had Adeya and they both were seemingly close. Their short-lived fling would later be confirmed when Victoria released the song ‘Touch Me’ on her last project and Kehlani hopped on the remix. Meanwhile, Kehlani’s relationship with Shaina (pictured bottom left) was very overt and all over her Instagram feed from my recollection. And as you can see, Shaina looks absolutely nothing like Victoria. They look like the complete opposite of eachother in every aspect which is kind of alarming(?) to say the least because why is it that the women she proudly claims as her partners tend to have a very racially ambiguous look such as herself but her ‘sneaky links’ on the other hand are undoubtedly black women? Again, it could just be me jumping conclusions. You know, I’m kinda good for that however something tells me I’m not. Y’all be the judge of the material though.

Last but not least, I’d like to touch on Ms. Raven Tracy very briefly. I was very weary about even including in this segment and if I should just put her in a entirely separate blog post with other women who openly date abusers despite their checkered past (alongside Nicki Minaj & her r*pist murderer of a husband, India Love & Sheck Wes etc.) being this particular blog post was based around the theme of lightskinned/mixed women dating men with extremely problematic views about DSBW. Raven obviously isn’t lightskinned or mixed however I refused to ignore how contradictory her [former] relationship with an alleged (I used this word very loosely and mainly for legality purposes.) serial r*pist while promoting a brand that is all about feminism & body positivity. This also traces back to A$AP Rocky by default being that Ian Connor is his very close friend and he came to Connor’s defense when several women came forward detailing accounts of Connor allegedly s*xually assaulting them. (I wish I could place the actual video of what A$AP Rocky said verbatim but Tumblr only allows one video per blog post. 🙄)

Back in June of this year, Ian & Raven had a back & forth on Twitter after Ian tweeted about Raven “fucking everybody” behind his back. I can only assume that he was alluding to Tori Brixx posting a video of her ex, Rich the Kid & Raven kissing on her story. Disgusted is not even the word to describe my feeling when she admitted she stuck by Ian despite of his many allegations of s*xual abuse because she loved him and her being a empath causes her to want to help everybody. Imagine aiding and abetting a predator and even paying for his bail & legal fees just to turn around and expect sympathy because this same individual cheated on you and exploited you all over Twitter for the public to see. The same man that you would get back with not even a WEEK after the fact & turn off your IG comments because it isn’t our “business” after making it our business...

That being said, I just genuinely want to know: Why do these women completely go against what they stand for in regards to these men? Maybe it was never genuine from jump street and if that’s the case, why jump on the bandwagon of performative activism? Is it because it’s profitable right now? Is it because disrespecting black women is not an immediate death sentence to your careers and more often than not actually helps you advance even further? I guess that’s the billion dollar question that’ll never truly be answered. I just want the world to stop using black women as their stepping stool to get to where they need to go and then discarding of us when we’re no longer beneficial. Support us all the way or don’t support us at all. We deal with enough disrespect as is so we’d appreciate if y’all would stop straddling the fence and partake in your misogynoir out loud if that’s what you choose to do. We have no use for fake allyship and quite frankly, it’s doing more harm for us than good. Please and thank you!

Sincerely,

- 𝙼𝙸𝚂𝚂 𝙴𝙳𝙶𝙰𝚁 𝙰𝙻𝙻𝙴𝙽 𝙷𝙾𝙴. 💋

[nadisabug]

Take On Me

Pairing: Steve Harrington x Henderson! reader

Warnings: terribly written, I apologize, cannon divergence (smol divergence), song fic?????

Summary: Y/n won’t believe that The Steve ‘The Hair’ Harrington likes her. 

A/N: aaahhhhh okay so I woke up at seven am and this song was playing and I had a fever dream idea for a fic so it’s terrible no beta we die like men

"Wanna go to the movies sometime?"

I was mid-bite in my ice cream when Steve "The Hair" Harrington popped the question. I slowly backed away from the ice cream and stared at him dumbfoundedly.

He was leaning on the register, his bicep prominent and flexed. He had lost the cap he usually wore, and even though he had probably been wearing it all day, his hair still looked good. He was flashing me a drop dead gorgeous smile and his eyes were almost sparkling.

Gods I was fucked.

This wasn't the first time he had asked me out by any means. He had been hinting at it every time we saw each other for the past half year. This was the first time he was so up front about it, though. Usually I could act stupid and brush it off.

I hid the heat creeping up on my cheeks by digging in my purse. I grabbed a wad of bills and slapped them on the counter.

"Sorry, I got to go pick up Dusty from AV club," I smiled tightly, lying through my clenched teeth. "Keep the change." And with that, I nearly ran from Scoops Ahoy ice cream. I left so quickly that i didn't see Dustin, my brother, popping out from behind the counter.

"Dude, sorry. You'll get her next time," Dusty sighed.

"Next time?" Steve scoffed. "Buddy, there will be no next time."

"Come on, she likes you I swear," Dusty pleaded.

"Sure didn't look like it," Robin piped in. She was sitting on the passway holding a white board that said 'Steve Sucks' with 17 check marks below it and 'Y/n said yes' with no check marks below it. "I think that one counted for two," she announced, adding two check marks to the 17.

"Shut up Robin," Dusty snapped. He turned back to Steve. "Please Steve you gotta believe me!"

"Okay, okay, fine Henderson," Steve sighed collapsing on the ice cream counter. "Then why does she keep blowing me off?"

Dusty smiled. "For that, we do some recon."

~~~~~~~

I was laying on my bed when I heard a knock on my door. I looked up from the book I was reading.

"Momma?" I called curiously.

"No! It's your favorite brother," Dusty announced, throwing open the door. I smiled and put my book on the night stand.

"Indeed it is. To what do I owe this pleasure," I sat up and patted the bed next to me.

Dusty graciously threw himself into the bed and smiled up at me. "A brother can't want to talk to his only sister who he loves?"

I raised an eyebrow at that. Dusty was always so bad at lying. "Spill, now," I ordered.

Dusty sighed and slumped down. He cursed under his breath - which I chose to ignore under the circumstances- and then looked up at me again.

"Steve told me he likes you. Like a lot."

At that confession, I hopped off the bed, turning away to hide my blush. I had just blown Steve off now here Dusty was telling me Steve likes me? Something was off.

"Since when did Steve trust you enough to tell you that kind of stuff?" I questioned, towering over Dusty who was still sitting on the bed.

"Well we've been hanging out." Dusty couldn't even maintain eye contact with me. He was hiding something.

"Where were you today after school?"

"AV clu-"

"Oh my gods you were at Scoops Ahoy." I slapped my hands over my face and turned around to hide my shame.

"No I wasn't!" Dusty tried to cover his tracks, but it was already too late.

"Dusty, there is no AV club today." The pieces clicked together in my mind. "Oh my gods Steve knows I lied to him."

"Yeah! Which really hurt him because he likes you!"

"No he doesn't Dusty!" I threw myself face first onto the bed and screamed.

"Yes he does! He's literally asked you out so many times."

I twisted, propping myself up on my elbow so that I could look at Dusty. "That does not mean he likes me."

"How so?" Dusty huffed and folded his arms.

"Because, Dusty, he's Steve 'The Hair' Harrington, he probably just wants to get back at Nancy for ditching him for Will's brother."

"What? No," Dusty scoffed.

"Yeah," I nodded. "She left him for The Freak so he's going to date The Psycho Bitch."

Dusty got a soft look of his face for a moment. "Is that what they call you?"

"Doesn't matter Dusty. What matters is that Steve doesn't actually like me. He just thinks he does because he's torn up about Nancy."

Dusty thought for a second. "What if he proved it to you?"

I looked at Dusty. "What do you mean?"

"What if he actually proved to you that he really did like you?"

I shrugged. "Then I'd date him and losing Dart won't come and bite us in the butt."

"Really sis you had to bring that up?"

"He ate Mews," I whisper yelled, careful in case Mom heard.

"About that, we finished translating the message, come on," he rolled off the bed, grabbing my arm and pulling me over in the process.

"Ow! No I can't!"

"Why not?"

"I can't see Steve after lying to him like that!"

"Oh just come on, he'll forgive you. He's madly in love with you."

I doubted that but I went with Dusty anyway.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

After everything we went through, we had a moment to pretend like everything was okay. The middle school dance.

I was upset that Dusty insisted that Steve take him to the dance and not me, but I knew they had something like a brother bond so I wan't too upset. I volunteered to be one of the high schooler chaperones, mainly under Joyce's wishes. She wanted at least someone there to watch Will like a hawk. Or two.

So Nancy and I were here. At the punch table.

"So, how's college going," Nancy piped up.

I had to be honest, I didn't really like her. Not with the way she broke Steve's heart. But I had to remain cordial. I guess.

"Good."

"I heard you got scholarships."

"It was the only way I could go."

"Yeah. With the.... deaths..." she said carefully, "at the Hawkins Post, they're hiring again. So Jonathan and I got our jobs back."

"That's great." I paused. "Not the deaths, the getting jobs back."

"Yeah."

We lapsed into silence after that.

I scanned the room to see that the boys had split off to dance. Some girl was dancing with Will, Mike was dancing with El, and Lucas was with Max.

Dusty wasn't with them though.

I looked around the room to see him sitting on the bleachers holding back tears. My heart lurched at the sight.

"I'm going to go dance with him," Nancy announced. I was about to let her when I saw something out of the corner of my eye. I grabbed Nancy's arm.

"Wait," I ordered. I saw a girl with visible braces wearing a baby blue dress approach Dusty. He immediately perked up and held out his hand for her. She took it and they walked to the dance floor.

"Nice call," Nancy smiled.

I just dropped her arm, nodded, and turned away to watch them.

After a couple of hours, the kids started leaving one by one. Around the time we were at half capacity, Dusty came up to me.

"May I have this dance?" He awkwardly bowed with his hand outstretched. I had to stifle a giggle.

I looked at Nancy. She waved me off. "Go ahead, I can serve punch."

"Of course, mi' Lord," I giggled and took his hand.

He dragged me all the way to the middle of the dance floor and began to dance with me.

"Sure Suzie won't be jealous about baby blue dancing with you?"

"She knows I only have eyes for her," Dusty rolled his eyes at the notion that she could possibly be jealous.

"Turn around," I began in a sing songy voice. "Look at what you see!"

"Oh shut up," Dusty growled and shoved me.

I laughed but kept dancing with him.

At that moment the song changed, and Dusty smiled. My back was to the stage so I couldn't see what was going on, but I assumed it was just the band preparing.

As soon as I heard the signature synth, I squealed.

"I love this song, Dusty did you request it?"

"Sorta," he grinned.

Then I heard his voice.

"Ba ba-ba ba. We're talking away, I don't know what I'm to say, I'll say it anyway. Today's another day to find you shying away."

I dropped Dusty's shoudlers and turned around. When I did I saw Steve "The Hair" Harrington on the stage, mic in hand, singing.

Then he pointed straight at me.

"I'll be coming for your love, okay?"

"No fucking way," I whispered.

"Hell fucking yeah, get it Harrington!" Dusty cheered behind me.

"Take on me, take me on, I'll be gone in a day or two," he sang, the last word high and pitchy. It was so bad. So awfully terrible. He was making a complete fool of himself.

But I couldn't tear my eyes away.

"So needless to say, of odds and ends, but I'll be stumbling away slowly learning that life is okay. Say after me, it's no better to be safe than sorry."

It was only then that I noticed that the middle schoolers around me had parted to make a huge circle, with me at the center.

"Take on me, take me on, I'll be gone in a day or two," Steve sang even worse than the first time. Then he tossed the mic into the crowd and jumped off the stage. Then he began to dance, horribly. He did the running man, switching to the sprinkler, which then phased into a Charleston. It was so horrible but I couldn't help but smile. After the dance break, he turned to the crowd with his hand out. Miraculously, someone handed him the microphone.

"Oh, the things that you say, yeah is it life or just to play my worries way? You're all the things I've got to remember," he sang and walked towards me. I tried to take a couple steps back, but someone - most likely my beloved Dusty - shoved me forward. Hard. I stumbled and fell into Steve, who caught me.

"You're shying away, I'll be coming for you anyway." Steve clicked the microphone off and held it out to the crowd. Someone took it quickly and he brought his other arm around me. I would like to say that I tried to stand up away from him, but I didn't. I just let Steve hold me.

"Take on me..." Steve sang to me and only me. With each word he pulled my arms up and wrapped them around his neck. He then began to sway softly with the music, dancing with me. We danced as the crowd around us reformed, the middle schoolers going back to dancing. It was almost like nothing happened.

But to me everything thing did.

"Are you su-"

"Yes," he whispered.

I smiled.

"Wanna go to the movies sometime?"

Sorry not sorry Dusty deserved some one to dance with I don’t make the rules

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Alrighhhht @nirikeehan​ let's goooo (full sith warrior and imperial agent class story spoilers below)

Pravin:

2. What is your muse’s kill count?

This is a really interesting question, actually, because I see it as considerably less than ingame. Pravin's ex-navy but I don't think he killed anyone during his naval service (he wasn't a fighter pilot; he flew recon and transport missions) and while I actually think he does more years of service in Imperial Intelligence than the class story represents, he spent most of that time on covert/undercover work--more social engineering, less murder. There's a line Keeper says about the Hutta mission that's like "you used violence as a tool, not a crutch" and yeah--Pravin can and will kill when he feels he needs to, but he usually has better, less drastic methods at his disposal.

(I have a headcanon as well that ImpInt would poach a lot of military SpecOps folks to handle wetwork; Pravin went with some on the mission to the Star Cabal's headquarters. These partnerships worked fine for the most part, but there was also a fair amount of jurisdictional bullshittery on the part of the military COs who'd see it as overriding their chain of command.)

Anyway, here's some people who I do see Pravin having killed in his class story (and why):

The Red Blade (self-defense)

Three or four terrorists on Nar Shaddaa (self-defense when his cover was blown, then he killed the one that was a young recruit to keep news of his movements from getting out and felt bad about that)

Watcher X (Pravin tried to arrest him, they had a 'I'm not going back to jail' confrontation, he killed him in self-defense)

Kaliyo (executed her after he found out she'd sold information to criminals and endangered him; he'd clocked her type pretty much immediately and was more disappointed that she was stupid enough to try and get that over on him than anything. Standard punishment for treason in the Empire is death, so...)

Two assassins on Tattooine (self-defense; I see him as having snuck/manipulated his way through most of this assignment)

Kothe, Saber and Wheel on Quesh (pure fucking vengeance and the reason why he's on the SIS' most wanted list; he actually saved Chance to try and stay on the SIS' good side since he hadn't broken out of the restraints yet at that point)

Three or four folks Hunter sent after him (self-defense)

Two or three Cabal members (following orders while with a group of infiltrators)

Hunter (VEGENANCE. My headcanon of how this scene went was Hunter doing the 'let me show you one last thing' line, Pravin shooting him in the head, and then going "no" to his corpse. He was so fucking done at that point, oh man.)

Post-class story and before the start of my fic, Pravin also assassinates a few former Cabal members for personal vengeance/vigilantism reasons.

So yeah, his kill count is probably in the 20-30 range. He's not like, proud of that total; most of it was just a matter of survival. (He's a little proud of getting the better of Hunter and the Cabal members, though, not gonna lie.)

5. What is your muse’s biggest regret?

His life was so shaped by his time in ImpInt that it's difficult for him to imagine it taking another course, but he regrets not having the courage to see if he could've made it as an actor. He shelved that idea because his parents found it disreputable--the only performing art they might've been okay with would've been opera, and he didn't have the voice for that. It certainly would've been far less traumatic than what he wound up doing for a living, and it's a path that's closed to him now that he has to keep a low profile.

9. What is one thing that would break your muse?

Gonna pick something he's worried about in my fic: Shara telling him she's disgusted by the life he's leading now and not wanting anything to do with him.

Pravin has some serious baggage in general around the prospect of people seeing him as a disappointment--as a kid growing up in a wealthy family, he was simultaneously emotionally neglected and given the whole 'don't you dare embarrass us' treatment. He's spent much of his life putting up faces and swallowing feelings others might find unpleasant, seeking validation while avoiding the mortifying ordeal of being known, and while the mind control thing gave him the courage to pull a 'yes I'm angry, fuck you, and I deserve to live life on my own terms', he still isn't actually...dealing with the trauma that left behind. He's kind of having a midlife crisis and refusing to acknowledge it for what it is.

He's in love with Shara and she's always been good at seeing through his bullshit, so he's afraid that she'll pick up on all the messiness of his drug addiction, loneliness and lack of a real career plan and find him too changed, too unlikeable, too pathetic. If this brilliant woman who's been to hell and back with him sees him that way, well--maybe he is objectively unlikeable and pathetic.

So yeah, that would wreck him.

Isra:

3. What is your muse’s biggest fear?

The people she cares about dying because of her--because she's not strong enough or quick enough or smart enough, because she makes a mistake that puts them in danger. Much like Marr, Isra is very much a proponent of 'with strength comes responsibility'--she believes her job in the natural order of things is to protect and defend her country and its citizens. Failing to do that would thus not just be a personal tragedy, but her own failure to be worthy of her titles and fame, which she's worked for years to earn. In spite of all her apparent confidence, she still deals with that nagging fear that she's not quite as strong and talented as she needs to be, as well as the deep-seated dread of an orphan who always felt a bit out of place--that the family she's chosen for herself isn't something she'll be able to keep.

Because of this, I headcanon that when Draahg attacked her crew, she brutally murdered him outright in the spaceport, ending their duel by bashing his face in with the hilt of her saber. (The scene's depicted in this fic, and it's one of the few times Quinn sees her go absolutely apeshit on an opponent.)

14. What was the most traumatic moment in your muse’s life?

Baras trying to crush her to death in that mine.

It was legitimately an instance where she thought she was going to die--not on a battlefield taking out enemies of the Empire, but at the hands of her piece of shit master who didn't even have the courtesy to face her. Not after reaching the peak of her career and powers, but while still stuck doing the dirty work of said Piece of Shit, all because she was too good at her job. Isra, who'd done her utmost to prove herself in a society that hadn't even admitted her species to their academies for years, who had cut her way through swaths of soldiers while male officers questioned the idea of her even having a place in combat--this was how she was bound to go out?

She saved herself--and Pierce, who jumped on her to try and shield her--by holding the tunnel's walls and roof in place with the Force but went into her wound points strained herself so badly in the process that she lost consciousness and wound up bedridden for days. While most of the relatively horrible stuff she'd see in battle didn't mess with her mental health because the euphoria of the dark side kept her brain from processing it as traumatic, she does have some PTSD from this incident. Explosive blasts can trigger her a bit (though she usually encounters them in the context of using dark side powers and can kind of channel the fear off that way) and she struggles with claustrophobia, both in legitimately cramped spaces or very dark rooms where she can't get an easy sense of scale.

16. If your muse could talk to one person they’ve lost, who would it be?

Her mother.

Isra lost her mom when she was around five or six years old--old enough that she can kind of remember her. She was a zabrak woman who had been a merchant crewman and wound up stuck on Bothawui when the war interrupted trade; she turned to sex work to make a living and conceived Isra as a result.

Isra wound up spending much of her life in the care of adoptive sith parents who genuinely loved her but also strove to dissuade her from looking too alien--an impulse that came from a place of valid concern in a speciesist empire, but that also made her feel ashamed and unworthy. She started deconstructing that after bonding with a zabrak teacher at the boarding school she attended as a teen and eventually took steps to reclaim her heritage, getting traditional tattoos, building on the zabraki that she'd barely spoken since childhood, and no longer hiding her horns in her hair. She also began going by her mother's surname, Taluwe, in social settings, rather than her legal surname Hyrak (the name of her adoptive parents.)

She doesn't know that much about her mother beyond her general circumstances, but she knows she was loved--she's always been able to sense emotions, after all, and aside from the intangible, there's documentation related to her adoption where other refugees attested to how she was raised and protected. Given the choice, she'd want to talk to her, to tell her that her unapologetically zabrak daughter got the name Taluwe lauded by the Dark Council. To tell her that her husband, brought up in a venerable old Imperial family, asked to take her name as his own. To tell her that her life is good and full, even though it came about out of hardship.

[novemberandmay]

Fireworks

Warning: Mentions Character death, mourning, and I insult the world for a second or two. If you do not like any of the topics above or would prefer avoiding said topics, please scroll past this. You have been warned.

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Marinette Dupain-Cheng

A daughter, a leader, a lover

The sweetest rose, the kindest hand

May she rest in piece, because god does she deserve it.

Damian met the girl who would haunt his dreams for eternity on January 1st, XXXX. For a year, she would never leave his mind.

For a year she would stay right beside him.

For a year, he would learn to smile.

For a year, he would know only happiness.

But only for a year...

“Hi! My name’s Marinette, what’s yours?”

She was the sweetest little thing, always bearing the brightest smile. She changed everyone’s hearts for the better, leaving the town with a small bit of light. But...

“WHY HER? OF EVERYONE HERE? WHY TAKE HER?! If there’s a god out there, please... please give her back...Give me my happiness back...give me Marinette back.”

The girl helped everyone she could, never leaving a mouth unfed. She baked for animal rights protests and made full blown meals for the homeless. She saw a problem and she resolved it. When a kid came to her saying his ma’ kept hittin’ his lil’ sis for na’ reason, she got the kids out of her care. She did everything she could for everyone that would let her. She solved any problem in anyone’s way. So god, let me ask you.. Why her? Why did you let her die? OUT OF EVERYONE ON THIS SICKENING PLANET, WHY DID YOU KILL HER?!?! Because you wanted your Angel back? Because it was her time? Because SHE LIVED THROUGH IT ALL?!

Why...

WHY

WHY?!

Marinette Dupain-Cheng died on January 1st, 12:00, as the last firework went off. She watched it all out the window of her hospital room, giving the world one last smile. Her muscles could barely move under the strain, almost shutting down immediately, but she still did it. She still gave the stupid world around her, the ignorant pieces of trash around her, a small, sad smile. And when she did so, the man next to her felt his heart break. He felt his world collapse. He felt every bad emotion in the book. He cursed the sky, and groveled next to her body. Damian held her hand, her small, frail hand, and cried. He sobbed, his knees collapsing onto the ground.

While others were celebrating the new year, Damian was mourning his first and only love.

Marinette Dupain-Cheng, the girl who flew without wings-

The one who was let go too soon.

May she forever rest in piece.

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Notes: Hi! Sorry it’s so short! I tried to put a bit of raw emotion in there, but I’m not sure it turned out well! Haha! But anyways, I wrote this while listening to “Sad Song” by We The Kings. I thought that since I missed a lot of the days, I should atleast do the last one on time. Should I finish off the days (I missed a lot of them) still? If so, i’ll be posting them in November, and might try to just write them all (when I can) and post them all at once or something? If I do, I’ll prolly just try to make master list and post all the days there so you can access them! Anyways, have a good day/night y’all! ‘Cus you definitely deserve it! Till Next time!

It is unedited for the most part.

-November

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Being a role model SUCKS (Inuyasha)

Spending time in the future was usually fun and a break from the stress that the feudal era gave out but the bucketful. Usually but not this visit. Inuyasha should of known something was up when Kagome A) kept talking about how upset and babyish Souta felt needing bedtime diapers as of late (and some day time pull ups, there had been little leaks) but also B) was giving Inuyasha all the instant ramen noodles he could handle and more.

Sadly, nothing quite clicked till they had arrived and then he'd been cornered not only by Kagome, but her mother as well while Souta was playing out behind the house.. and from there everything had gone downhill.

After a long talk (Well the women had talked, Inuyasha had argued but they seemed to ignore any points he made) Inuyasha found himself making a deal that he would give Souta the confidence boost he needed by having someone bigger then him be more BABYISH then him.. and in return Inuyasha got whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted it next time he visited.

"And let me tell you right here and now, My list of demands are gonna be HUGE!" Inuyasha growled.

Kagome however just smiled and patted his head like he was already just a huffy baby and had lead him off to get dressed for the part.

Souta huffed as he kicked the soccer ball at the goal post, catching it and kicking it back over and over. It just wasn't fair that his bladder was betraying him like this when he was -9- years old! without a doubt in his mind, he was the biggest diaper baby in the whole town, heck maybe even the whole freaking country!

That thought was interrupted as he heard a LOUD crinkling noise and turned to see what it was.. and his ball hit his shin as his jaw almost hit the ground.

Waddling out behind behind Kagome dressed in a red onesie that did NOTHING to hide the thick, massive diaper(s) he was wearing and a pair of sandal's was Inuyasha!

The Half demon was beet red and seemed to be tugging on Kagome's arm, making it clear he'd rather go back inside even as he looked this way and that until, heh, she stopped and gave him a swat on his padded backside and shook a finger at him, talking clearly.

"No Inuyasha, you've been hiding inside for 2 weeks now, you need some fresh air and that's why we're in the future." She scolded.

"But..but.." Inuyasha whined.

"It's ok Inuyasha, I'm sure Souta won't tease you just because you can't control yourself right now." Kagome said in a motherly tone, then turned back to Souta. "Isn't that right Little guy?"

"heh..hehehehe yeah no, I won't at all Little yasha!" Souta said, a big silly grin breaking out on his face now."What even happened though?" he asked, coming over to the pair.

Kagome let go of Inuyasha's hand though gave him a look and the huffing diapered half demon plopped his butt onto the soft dirt of the back yard.

"Oh, we got attacked by a crazy priest who figured the only way to redeem demons was to teach them humility." Kagome started, a well practiced lie. "Basically Poor little Inuyasha, heh, or yasha as you called him..I like that! Anyways, he lost a lot of power and well control of his tinkles and uh-oh's for 3 weeks.Not to mention he's become a lot more..childish as you might of noticed." As Kagome said that with her back to the half demon Inuyasha stuck his tongue out at her and Souta covered his mouth to keep from giggling. Kagome turned to see what was so funny but Inuyasha had stopped JUST in time and was looking away, trying and failing to whistle. "...Anyways..I've been trying to deal with it in the past but frankly he's been stinking up his cabin and I'm sick of washing his diapers. figured why not let him spend the last week of it here and enjoy the freedom to play outside AND the wonders of disposable diapers." she finished.

"oh well, shucks , Little yasha could of came here sooner! I would of helped look after him!" Souta said, swelling with big boy pride since heck he was just in a nice and slim pull-up AND he didn't stink up his diapers! "If you wanna take a little break I'll even watch him for you right now." Souta added.

"Will you? that'd be great!" Kagome gushed and ruffled his hair. "Oh, one thing, with Inuyasha starting to get his control back, you'll have to keep asking him every so often if he need to potty or needs a diaper change. about once a hour. I'd worry more on the diaper change though myself."

the fact that Souta was suppose to be doing a potty check himself once a hour flew right over his head and the little 9 year old nodded and gave a thumbs up.

"Don't worry sis, I got this!"

Inuyasha was mentally adding heaps on his list of demands as his new nick name caught on and Kagome went out of her way to make him seem even more helpless.

with his 'darling' girlfriend retreating inside, Souta came over to him and smiled, then bent down and sniffed, confusing Inuyasha for a second.

"Hmm, you SMELL clean for the moment at least." Souta said and then patted Inuyasha's head. "Good boy!"

If he made it thought the week without having to kill someone Inuyasha wanted all the good damn treats.. but knowing the role he was SUPPOSE to play he gave a silly grin (And the heat pats kinda sorta maybe felt nice too.)

"Well little yasha, what do you wanna do? I was playing some soccer but if your muscle control and stuff is all messed up I don't think that's a good idea. sides you likely can't move too fast in your diapies." Souta said.

'So nice but still being a jerk..it must run in the fucking family.' Inuyasha thought then put a thoughtful look on his face. "Ummm we could play hide n seek!" Inuyasha offered up, putting a doopy childish twinge to his voice.

"ok, You hide and I'll seek. I'll give you to the count of 20." Souta said and went to cover his eyes when Inuyasha tugged at his shorts. "Hmm? what's wrong?"

"How many is 20?" Inuyasha asked, rubbing the back of his head sheepishly, not having to force a blush as the pure humiliation of this all was taking care of it for him.

A big grin broke out on Souta's face and he bent down and took Inuyasha's hands in his.

"20 is this many.. and then" and Souta let go of Inuyasha's hands and tapped a finger on the exposed toes since Inuyasha had gone sockless in the sandals. "and this many. Can you keep track of that?"

"Ummm I think so!" Inuyasha said and nodded his head, having to admit that was all sorts of cute.

"Ok then, when I hit 20 you'll hear me say, ready or not, here I come anyways in case you lose count." Souta said and with a last head pat, he stood up and closed his eyes, starting to count.

Of course Inuyasha could of scaled a tree or taken to the roof top even with the bulky diapers he had on, he decided to play fair and also, knew it would ruin the whole plan and he hadn't of put up with it THIS far just to fuck it up now.

He needed what would seem like a good hiding spot to a toddler but clearly wouldn't work for him and now up on his feet he scanned the yard.

"One...two...three...four.."

Jesus, this wasn't like a life or death battle but for Inuyasha he found himself frozen on the spot, trying to figure out what would work, his natural instinct to win was messing up his need to lose!

"Five...six..seven.."

ok this was just getting stupid! he fought the urge to face palm and then spotted a narrow opening under the steps to the back porch, it would hide him from Souta's direct line of sight but would of gotten him caught as soon as the little guy came close.

"Eight...nine...ten, That's half the count yasha!" Souta called.

'heh, he really is a fair sport.' Inuyasha thought, then as stealthy as he could (read, not at all) waddled his way over to his chosen hiding spot even as his tummy started to feel a little bit weird.

'Must be that glass of icky juice they insisted I drink before coming out so I don't get dehydrated.' Inuyasha thought, crinkling loudly and having to speed up.

"Fourteen...fifteen...sixteen..." Souta called out, a big goofy grin on his face.

Waddling with all the speed he muster and keep up the lie, Inuyasha drove to get into the hole.. and found out that while he had been right he could of squeezed in there normally.. he hadn't taken into account the triple diapers. His upper half was in, but his padd butt and legs stuck out and he knew if he tried to force himself in,he'd end up losing them.

'fuck my life..'

"seventeen, eighteen..nineteen...twenty! Ready or not here I ..pffft.. come..heh. Did you get stuck little yasha?"

Inuyasha had been about to push himself back out but with Souta's suggestion, figured that worked and started to give out a sheepish yes, but his tummy cramped and it came out much more panicked.

"Yeah! Uh.. Please help me git out!" he said, one hand keeping him from going into the dead leaves and the like under the step but the other was on his tummy, and he kicked his legs a little more to try and work out the cramp.

"hey, it's ok! don't worry! I'm coming over, though you have to stop kicking your legs. I'm gonna grab you at the waist and pull you back, so watch your head!" Souta called, and Inuyasha could hear him running over.

"O-Ok." The half demon whimpered, the cramps were getting worst and he semi pushed back a little giving Souta a better place to grip though he didn't take into account with the building cramps he might not want someone wrenching on his midsection.

'oh god, this feels like that time I ate those clam's that had gone bad right before I..I..Oh those fucking bitches!' Inuyasha thought, cluing in to why the ladies of the house had grinned so big when Inuyasha had downed his drink to get the icky tasting thing over and done with.

he had a brief second to think about just calling this off, he'd get himself out and whine to Souta that his tummy hurt and try and shit himself somewhere private, but by then it was far, far too late.

Souta's little arms and hands were trying to pull him out and the extra force on his tummy tum meant that while he did get free, pushing himself back to make it look like it was all Souta, he banged his head on the step knocking him loopy for a split second and also started to filled his diapers.

As he loudly farted and giggled, he wore a blissful stupid derp face.

Souta was shocked at just how strong he was as he freed the poor trapped little guy, though it was soon replaced with amusement and disgust as Inuyasha started to let out massive wet fart and then more then that, a stupid look on his face.

"Uhhh yasha, are you going boom boom?" Souta asked, holding his nose. it was rhetorical question at this point as the diaper was starting to swell, so Souta didn't figure he was gonna need to do a sniff check.

"Hehehe Ya! Going PBBBBBBTTTT!" Inuyasha giggled and stuck his tongue out, blowing a raspberry.

"heh, you surrrre are buddy. but it's ok. You uh.. stay here and finish up and I'll go get Kagome ok?" He said/asked, coming over and patting Inuyasha's head.

"OOOOOOTAYYYY!" the diaper pooping derp coo'ed.

"heh..wish Kagome would of worked me you went all derp when you unload. kinda cute." Souta giggled, then dashed up the step's to stick his head in the back door.

"Kagome! You need to come and get your boyfriend, he's pooping himself silly, Literally!" Souta called.

Yeah, wearing pull-ups sucked, but as Souta pulled his head back out of the back door and looked down at Inuyasha, at least he was a stinky diaper derp.

The end..for now