#anyway thats completely off topic which was would posting the badger thing be embarrassing like no one sees it anyway its literally all for | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

playingonedchess · 5 months ago

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i dont have any emotions. except being like annoyed that doesnt count. and bored. i feel bored and annoyed. thats my whole life theres nothing else. im bored with my life and annoyed at how rubbish i am. im boring and annoying. thats all i am in the world all there is to see and all anyone ever thinks of me. i appear as a person simply as bored and annoyed and boring and annoying and theres nothing else. its for the best anything else is too much effort and too embarrassing i coildnt do it. the more people are bored and annoyed by me and dismiss and ignore me the better its easier theres no effort and this way i dont care cause theres nothing there its all blank and nonexistent and meaningless so theres nothing to notice or even have an opinion on and its all no one nothing blank rubbish what was i even talking about

#this is just a thought experiment btw i was curious to see where it would go #though its true that theres nothing else to me as a person #i am capable of emotions though that bits more retorical anyway its not meant to ne literally true there #though the idea of denying you have emotions or personality meaning you dont express it so you really dont is surely true #though this isnt really about me actually #im just tired but its too bloody hot to sleep its ridiculous #so im just saying words seeing whete itd go evrn if it was a bit based on a thought i had about myself #not sure what thevpoint is of just sayinng random words its just rilubbish nothing real but im ibsesed with being dramatic #basically the unimaginitive version of making stuff up cause im bored only its boring stuff #at least the badgers gave me a good laugh #is it self plagarism if you send someone an ask they delete without reading them postbit on your blog #not like anyond know just makes me sound even lamer #even though literally the reason i send asks to that blog is i know theyll be ignored cause that persons already completely uninterested in #anything i have to say so i can say whatever rubbish i dont care even if it is read like if someonr aleady thinks im a loser i dont care #if they see more evidence of it and if theres total indifference even when i do say embarrassing rubbish then theres nothing there #but its still technically schrodingers interaction cause even though they would be read at all at this point the concrpt still exists #anyway thats completely off topic which was would posting the badger thing be embarrassing like no one sees it anyway its literally all for #my own sake

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