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Tease
Rating: Teen and and up, mild sexual content Pairing: Mac x gender neutral reader (at least I tried) Word count: 3692
You've been dancing around each other for years, time to shine now. I suck at summaries, if you hadn't noticed yet.
You two have been teasing each other forever. Okay, maybe not forever, but definitely since you've met for the first time. You've been recruited to CIA by Matty Webber straight from college and a couple of years later you were offered a job in Phoenix Foundation, where she had transferred earlier. Director Webber wanted to have you in her team, so it was obvious that sooner or later you were going to meet the other agents. Especially this particular agent, whose blue eyes and smug grin made your heart jump a little in a way you didn't like, and you didn't know whether you wanted to punch him or kiss him. Both were really tempting. None of you seemed to be aware of the fact, that you couldn't even talk like normal people. Every one of your conversations just had to become the aggressive flirting that you were oblivious of. Not even constant 'get a room!'s managed to give you a hint of what you were exactly doing. Well, there just had to come the time when things started to get out of the hand.
You loved missions which required wearing a formal dress, heavy make-up and attending a fancy party. You liked blending in, pretending to be someone else and having way more fun than you were supposed to. Currently you were sitting by the bar, sipping slowly some probably expensive drink, which you almost spat out when a man sat nearby. The characteristic smell of his cologne gave you goosebumps, made your knees weak and sent a strike of heat into your lower abdomen. You knew that scent very well, it was sandalwood. One of your big turn-ons. No one said it was going to be an easy mission. You tried to breathe, but it wasn't helping at all, luckily, the man hadn't stayed nearby for long. He ordered his drink and went away right after getting it, only then you could let out a sigh of relief. It'd be better to keep that secret. The universe, on the other hand, had different plans.
A few minutes later Mac and Jack identified the target of your mission. They've been chasing it currently and you'd gladly help if you wore some comfortable shoes. Or at least you could run more carelessly, without having to mind your steps. You joined them only when they lost the track of the target. You walked into the almost empty room and you felt the same feeling you had at the bar. That familiar scent again.
���Don't waste your time, (y/n), we already checked there” said Dalton, trying to hide how disappointed he was.
“Who do we even chase?” you asked. That couldn't be a coincidence that you smelled this cologne here.
“This man” Mac showed you a photo of the man you've seen earlier at the bar. Bingo! That's why you smelled his cologne.
“Well, then he has to be here” you entered the room and looked around. The faint scent seemed to be stronger by one of the walls. You looked closely and saw a narrow chink in the wall, hidden under the decorative wallpaper. Clever, Mr. Bad Guy, but not clever enough. “There. Something is here.”
The two agents exchanged a surprised look and approached to see what did you find. None of them could understand how did you do that.
“Not bad for you” Mac teased and started to work his magic to open whatever was in this wall.
A few hours later the mission was completed and you were on your way home.
“Hey, (y/n)” Jack spoke suddenly. “How did you find that dude?”
“My secret” you answered, not even opening your eyes you closed a few moments ago.
“Tell me” he pleaded like a kid.
“Fine. I smelled his cologne. It contained sandalwood and it's my favorite scent” you admitted, too tired to resist.
“Isn't it an aphrodisiac?” Riley asked, rising an eyebrow.
“What's that?” asked Jack.
“Basically you smell it and you get horny” explained Bozer, not bothering to be subtle.
“Well, it doesn't work on me this way. I just think it smells nice” you lied, trying to avoid comments. You started to worry that Mac wasn't saying anything, you hoped he was asleep or lost in thoughts, but it wasn't really possible. You bet he was up to something and you were sure you would find out what soon.
A couple of days later Matty called in the team. You were first in the war room, sitting on the armchair and checking something on your phone. You barely noticed the others coming in, except for one person. You first smelled, then felt his presence, finally seeing him. On the armrest of your chair was sitting your favorite blonde boy and he smelled like never before. You could easily identify sandalwood in his new cologne and it smelled so good on him, that you couldn't focus on anything else, feeling your arousal rising.
“(Y/n), are you alright?” you heard Matty's voice. “You seem distracted” she said and you could only imagine how big shit-eating grin Mac had to suppress.
“Sorry. I got a slight concussion on the last mission” you lied easily. “It must've impacted on me a little.”
“So that's how we call Mac from now on? A concussion?” Bozer muttered to Riley and they both chuckled quietly.
“I heard that” you said, sending them your best death glare.
“Girl, I'm just saying you look weird since he entered the room, it's not my fault I'm this observant” typical Boz tried to save his butt as usual.
“Can we focus on the debriefing, please?” you snapped angrily. “Having fun, Macgyver, aren't you?” you growled quietly, making sure he's the only one who heard it.
“You have no idea” he replied, very amused indeed.
After a few days you managed to get used to his new scent, especially after one situation. You were in the field, under the fire, waiting for a bomb to explode and therefore Mac's trap to work. When it went off, you two acted by a pure instinct, he pulled you into his chest and you clung to him, burying your face in his shirt. You regretted it immediately, he smelled like your favorite cologne and sweat with a faint tone of metal and chemicals, which was a surprisingly good mix. Of course you remembered enough biology to know it was no magic or silly love, but a chemical reaction. His pheromones just happened to be very compatible with your nose and brain, which was of course problematic, but not weird or something. And it was easier to tell yourself that, instead of admitting you were in love. Anyway, when you got used to this new scent, it was easier to stay focused. Although you were about to find out, that things were about to get worse. Or maybe better? Depends on the point of view.
It was just a regular celebration of Mac's birthday. Gifts, cake, party in his home. The usual. One thing that was different, was Jack, who made you all participate in a karaoke session. He obviously didn't take 'no' for an answer. The good part of it was that he let everyone pick their song, so you could sorta punish him.
“Come on, (y/n), your turn!” Dalton commanded. You typed the title in the searching bar and everyone groaned?
“Really, dude? Despacito? The most popular and annoying song no one knows lyrics of?” Bozer was clearly unamused.
“I know the lyrics and I think it's beautiful” you protested.
“Do you know it to the point to not watch the screen?” asked Jack and you knew he was up to something.
“I do. But I'm not going to dance, if that's what you're thinking about” you said, crossing your arms on your chest.
“How did you-”
“I just knew” you shrugged. “But I think I might have a little problem, since I don't know the original version, just a cover I adore. And it'll be hard to get an instrumental version for this cover.”
“Then pick a different one, come on, we don't have all night for this” Riley rushed you.
“But I want this one. To make sure Jack will never come up with such a terrible idea again.”
“I can always play for you” offered Mac and you all but Bozer looked at him surprised. “What? I'm not a pro, but I'm also not bad. Besides I think I know which song you have in mind” he said getting up and he took the guitar that was always in his house and everyone simply ignored it. You found the right chords for him and after a few moments Mac was ready.
He started very similarly to the original version, even playing a bit Latino way, pulling the strings separately, not in a classic way.
Comin' over in my direction So thankful for that, it's such a blessin', yeah Turn every situation into heaven, yeah Oh, you are My sunrise on the darkest day Got me feelin' some kind of way Make me wanna savor every moment slowly, slowly
You started with a shyness and hesitation, your cheeks blushed while singing, especially in English. When the Spanish lyrics started, you felt more confident. No one could understand you anyway.
¡Oh! Tú, tú eres el imán y yo soy el metal (You, you’re the magnet and I’m the metal) Me voy acercando y voy armando el plan (I’m getting closer and coming up with a plan) Solo con pensarlo se acelera el pulso (oh yeah) (Just thinking about it accelerates my pulse) Ya, ya me está gustando más de lo normal (I’m already enjoying it more than normal) Todos mis sentidos van pidiendo más (All of my senses are asking for more) Esto hay que tomarlo sin ningún apuro (This has to be done without a hurry)
Despacito (Slowly) Quiero respirar tu cuello despacito (I want to breathe your neck slowly) Deja que te diga cosas al oĂdo (Let me whisper things in your ear) Para que te acuerdes si no estás conmigo (That you’ll remember when you’re not with me) Despacito (Slowly) Quiero desnudarte a besos despacito (I want to undress you with kisses slowly) Firmo en las paredes de tu laberinto (Sign the walls of your labyrinth) Y hacer de tu cuerpo todo un manuscrito (And turn your body into a manuscript)
As the song continued, you couldn't tear your eyes off Mac. You knew you were singing for him, that your feelings were flowing through you. The second part of the song was different, however.
The club isn't the best place to find a lover So the bar is where I go Me and my friends at the table doing shots Drinking fast and then we talk slow (despacito) Over and start up a conversation with just me And trust me I'll give it a chance now Take my hand, stop, put Van the Man on the jukebox And then we start to dance, and now I'm singing like
Girl you know I want your love Your love was handmade for somebody like me Come on now follow my lead I may be queasy, don't let me see
Oh boy Ya no hablemos más (Let's not talk anymore) Toma mi cuerpo y frĂłtalo contra ti (Take my body and rub it against you) Ven y sĂgueme hasta el fin (Come and follow me to the end) Ven, ven y sĂgueme hasta el fin (Come, come and follow me to the end)
I'm in love with the shape of you We push and pull like a magnet do Although my heart is falling too I'm in love with your body Last night you were in my room And now my bed sheets smell like you Every day discovering something brand new I'm in love with your body
Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I I'm in love with your body Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I
Oh, despacito This is how we do it down in Puerto Rico I just wanna hear you screaming, "¡Ay, Bendito!" I can move forever cuando esté contigo (when you are with me) ¡Bailalo! (Dance!) Pasito a pasito, suave suavecito (Step by step, gentle gently) Nos vamos pegando, poquito a poquito (We’ll get closer, little by little) Cuando tú me besas con esa destreza (When you kiss me with that skill) Veo que eres malicia con delicadeza (I see that you are malice with delicacy)
This part was definitely about Mac, he was just the real life definition of "malicia con delicadeza". Well, you were ready to admit that maybe you would like to do all what the song was about and a lot of more. After this part, the end was just a formality, you didn't actually need it.
I'm in love with the shape of you We push and pull like a magnet do Although my heart is falling too I'm in love with your body Last night you were in my room And now my bed sheets smell like you Every day discovering something brand new I'm in love with your body
Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I Despacito Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I Come on, be my baby, oh yeah
You finished the song and finally looked at the others. They were genuinely impressed by either you, Mac or both. Jack was speechless and you thought it was the best thing that could ever happen, at least you could appreciate a few moments of silence before they started to talk. Bozer spoke first, complimenting both of you, the others joined him quickly.
After a few hours of having a good time it was time to say goodnight. Matty left first, then Bozer with Leanna, Riley, and Jack was the last one. You were supposed to leave either, but you wanted to stay and help with the cleaning. No one could convince you to not do that, because you were this type of a friend who would always clean up, even if you were a guest. Besides you felt in the house comfortable enough to not care and just casually start to wash the dishes.
“Are you doing that to spend more time with me?” Mac asked, when he finished his part of the cleaning. You were almost done either.
“Of course not. I really don't like to leave a mess, even if I'm a guest. Besides, I know it's easier to clean up together than on your own” you answered honestly, giving him a smile. You hadn't drunk much, but enough to feel his presence more intensively than usually.
“I appreciate that a lot” he said and started to do something around the kitchen while you finished your job. It was almost like he wanted to spend more time with you.
“You know, I've been thinking... maybe we should go out from time to time? Like... just the two of us” he said after a while.
“Are you asking me for a date?” you looked at him slightly surprised. Was that possible he felt about you the same way you felt about him?
“I guess I am” he looked at you with his adorable puppy expression and you couldn't help but giggle.
“Then I guess I say yes” you answered and before you thought, you quietly added in Spanish: “Besides, you're so cute it's hard to say no.”
“I bet not as cute as you singing that song and thinking no one understands you” he replied also in Spanish and you were grateful you finished washing the dishes, because you would certainly drop whatever was in your hands if they weren't empty. Your face paled, then reddened furiously.
“I... No... It's...” you tried to say something, but words didn't want to form in your head. How could you be naive enough to think he doesn't know Spanish? This golden boy obviously could do everything.
“Hey” he put his hand on yours, but you took it away.
“Stop before I'll do something I'm going to regret” you whispered, looking into his blue eyes.
“Let me do something first.”
“Okay.”
As soon as he heard your permission, Mac leaned down and pressed his lips to yours. That was certainly not something you expected, but you didn't waste your chance and kissed him back. You wanted to both stay and run away, torn between listening to your mind and heart.
“I should be going” you whispered finally between kisses, but clearly not wanting to let him go.
“Stay” Mac pleaded and his fingers ghosted over the skin under the hem of your t-shirt.
“I want to, but I really shouldn't.”
“Baby, it's cold outside” he purred, kissing your neck. You smiled widely but your breath hitched.
“Alright. So where would I sleep?” you asked teasingly, unbuttoning his shirt slowly.
“In my bed?” he followed the game, sliding his hands under your clothes.
“But I have no pj's” you smirked, exposing his chest which you traced gently with your fingertips.
“You won't need them” he kissed you hungrily and lifted you up, then carried you to the bedroom. Not that you minded.
When you woke up in the morning, you didn't actually know whether you were supposed to be happy or scared. Or maybe both. Last night was either making your dreams come true, or a total disaster and the end of your friendship. Everything depended on what Mac thought about it. But the blond agent was still asleep, so you got up silently, took his shirt and left the bedroom. You didn't take any of your things, in case Macgyver woke up. You didn't want him to think you vanished and left him all alone. And you were right, by the time you came back with breakfast, he was awake.
“You scared me” he said and yawned.
“Why?” you asked, putting the tray on the nightstand and sitting comfortably in bed before you put in on your lap.
“I woke up and you weren't there. I thought you left, but then I saw your clothes.”
“It would be difficult to go anywhere outside without them” you chuckled, cutting a bit of the pile of pancakes with a fork and then offering it to Mac. “Besides, I didn't even want to go. I was just hungry. And I wanted to think what to do next” you explained, taking another bit yourself.
“What do you mean?”
“I mean that we should talk about us. Without teasing and jokes, just seriously talk about our feelings and-”
“I love you.”
These three words silenced you for good. Jack told you once that you and Mac have too big brains for your own's sake and you tend to overanalyze simple stuff. While relationships, according to Dalton, were no quantum physics, these stuff were simple. Well, you could swear physics was more simple than dating. But apparently Mac listened to his friend and decided to think less, act more.
“I... totally didn't expect that” you admitted, still shocked.
“I thought it was obvious. All that flirting, teasing, your favorite cologne... Everyone knew. They told me last night” he said sheepishly.
“You know what they say, "love is blind"? I was so in love that I didn't see anything at all. I seriously want to laugh at my own stupidity” you giggled, trying your best to not spill the coffee. “I was sure that if you ever found out how I feel about you, it would ruin our friendship. I was too focused on hiding my own feelings that I didn't notice yours.”
“We would make a perfect couple” Mac chuckled and kissed you.
“We will make a perfect couple” you corrected him, breaking the kiss. “You don't really think I could give up now? I love you too, Macgyver, whether you like it or not.”
“Oh, I do” he smirked. “Let's eat and I'll show you how much I like it.”
“Sounds fair. Unless you tease me again.”
“I can start to. As soon as we finish” he took the fork you held and fed you with pancakes just like you did before. Once you finished, he unbuttoned his shirt you were wearing and kissed you.
Of course it was the perfect moment for Matty to call. You wanted to suggest he shouldn't answer, but you knew a little too well that she would kill you both.
“Hey, Matty, what's up” Mac answered the phone with a speaker, so you could hear the boss too. He used a very convincing sleepy voice.
“I'm sorry to wake you up, but there's an emergency. Get ready and better be in war room in an hour. Also, do you know anything about (Y/n)? Her phone is dead and she didn't reach her home last night.”
“I'm sure she's fine” he said as you literally held your breath.
“Mac, this is serious, if something happened to her, I will search the whole world until I find her.”
“I mean it, Matty. I assure you she's fine.”
“Do you happen to know something I don't?”
“Maybe...” he tried and you sighed. There was no point in trying to fool her.
“Just don't tell Jack, okay?” you spoke. “And Bozer or Riley.”
“I'll just say it's about time. In this case I guess I can give you two hours” Matty's voice sounded way more amused than you wanted her to be.
“It's fine, we were about to get up anyway” you said embarrassed.
“No, you weren't, don't try to fool me. I know you better than you think and Ican tell you counted on a lazy day in bed.”
“Okay, enough. See you in Phoenix” you said and Mac ended the call, agreeing with you.
“So, we have two hours. I suggest we should use them well” he smirked and for the first time you didn't have the dilemma whether you want to punch him or kiss him. You just leaned in and kissed him hard. These two hours were going to be the best used time in your life. You were sure of it.
A/N: Used song is obviously “Despacito x Shape of You” by my favorite Pentatonix
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