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oh-no-its-bird · 2 months ago

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On top of everything else that's happened in the last month or so

(girlfriend breaking up with me / me running off in the night w the friend I was supposed to be maid of honor with bc her (now ex) fiance came home drunk and scared us, while ofc we also both were in swimsuits and had like NO money or even shoes due to incredibly poor timing / Getting stuck in Dallas for TWO MONTHS longer than I meant to be due to bullshit work transfer systems (and admitedly my own inability to remember that deadlines exist) / that same friend going BACK to her shit boyfriend alone to a city 4 hours away from anyone she may call for help if things go wrong / me now no longer having a place in dallas to stay for these next 2 months bc I was SUPPOSED to stay with that friend but her bastard boyfriend doesn't want me in his house anymore bc he knows I'd tell his girlfriend to dump his ass)

I have now lost my fucking house keys.

Anyways I may or may not be way less active for a bit so this is the formal apology and explanation for that. Sorry guys, we are NOT going back to ur normally scheduled rapid fire ninja content as promised for like. A minute. Possibly. We'll see. Sometimes my own motivation wave surprises me.

Tbh it's my own fault for daring to become a fanfic author tbh. Should have known the "sorry I didn't update, my house burned down teehee <3" curse would come for my ass

#this blog will go bafk to normal eventually. as soon as I stop getting hit by bricks. and can think properly.#im going through a lot rn idk #no one look at me #chances are I will go back to normal soon but rn Im burnt out as hell and feeling it in my bones #the hyperfixation isnt healing me like it should #i wanna go back to chicago so bad oh my god #im staying in my parents house for now on my days off and it looks like ill have to do that for the next few months #but its the fucking worse bc that commute is like 2 fucking hours for me MINIMUM on a good day #Also I forgot how many fucking bugs live in this house and how much harder it is to convince myself to eat while living here #man.#sorry this has half turned into a vent post at this point #but also like. whatever. its my blog.#its also 1am and I get up to work in 3 hours. so.#yippie #the next 2 months are going to be wonderful for me.#im sure.#uhhhhh actual fic updates + my art commissions will probably continue as normal #mostly also bc I have hella shit half written already #i just may be quieter than usual on here / not post much au things #which have been slowing down anyways #coincidentally timing well with my girlfriend breaking up with me. but. yk.#happens to the best of us.#anyways stay tuned for fic updates but yeah fewer au posts and art probably #apology also to those sending me asks I really do want to answer #but fatigue and depression has placed its cold hands on the back of my neck which makes me hesitate to do much here #anyways.#birds rambles #should I tag this vent I feel like I should just in case someone has that tag blocked and wouldnt wanna see this #just in case #vent

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sukichuuv · 6 days ago

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Sorry for being kinda inactive I was fighting my demons (iwasfeelingdepressedhehehe)

Anyways, here's Pops Family, first we have my design/how I draw Anti-Pops, I like giving him the boots xD tell me which version do you like more: the one with black lineart or the one with white lineart

Now with Mr. and Mrs. Maellard, that's how I draw them :] it was fun drawing maellard and Pops mom, she's so pretty. Also I added tiny Pops and tiny Anti-Pops, I made two versions of Kid Anti-Pops so tell me which is your favorite ^-^

#•andy doodles•#regular show #un show más #pops maellard #anti pops #mr maellard #you can ask about this au #fun fact: pops mom is from lolliland actually >:D #also sorry again for not being active i was feeling kinda sad about something #i was thinking that my drawings aren't that good and are cringe like #i don't want to show lame drawings to people :'' and i think i was putting to much pressure on me hehehe #but anyways this blog was made to post my doodles of rs soooo #i dont like venting srry xD back to silly

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sockdooe · 1 month ago

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I fear my blog is turning to slop and my brain is becoming mush…. I’m sorry everyone 😔 I’ll do better soon !

#everyone is so smart but my brain it 📉#maybe it’s the sickness…#sorry to my mutuals 💔#😔#I need to stop doomscrolling it’s affecting my mental status #I need to experience joy and whimsy #and go outside #and not rot #I need to become one with nature #and read #ough #I also need to breathe through my nose but my congestion won’t let me #I also need to sleep help #anyway I just wanted to vent ig #sorry gang #I feel like I’ve been making A lot of these posts IM SORRY #wait this is my blog #and I run it #awesome sause

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animationismycomfort · 20 days ago

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I DESPISE MHA TODOROKI FAMILY REACTION VIDEOS like I love watching them but ffs THEY VILLAINIZE TOUYA AND VICTIMIZE ENJI

I CANNOT STAND IT ALL OF YOU STFU AND STOP DEFENDING YOUR PIECE OF SH-T DAD

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largemandrill · 9 months ago

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I desperately need people to stop saying afab when they just mean cis women. I also (for separate reasons) need them to stop saying “afab trans people” when they just mean trans men they don’t agree with.

#i hate agab language so much #It’s just tme/tmi discourse all over again #If the only way you know how to adress a man who is critical of your stance on HIS life #is to refer to him by what he was born with and not by what he is now #then you’re kinda missing the point of that language in the first place #Also I have never ONCE seen amab trans people used in the same way for transfemmes #at least not yet anyway (sorry if that’s a thing y’all have to deal with #hope my point comes across all the same)#And also sorry for venting like this #I’m just annoyed seeing casual transandrophobia from like random art blogs I follow

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march32nd · 2 months ago

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me when the girl i've been dating for two months tells me that she doesn't find me at all attractive and isn't attracted to me and doesn't know if she ever will be !!!!!

#aaand so i stay with her anyway???#because uhhh idk i'm fucking stupid i guess #also she said that a large part of the reason was that i “wasn't masc enough” or something #and like. if you are my mutual who is also my irl and is seeing this then hmmmm we have stuff to talk about i think #but also if you are one of my irls at all and you're seeing this then no you're not #anyway what do you think i should do [non rhetorical question] bc like uhhhh #and she was like ????? but i don't want to kiss someone who isn't attracted to me remotely #and like not to get into it too much but i have. already been in relationships where i was used for my body and for experimenting and stuff #and the idea of having to do that again makes me feel like i should die actually!!!#i mean the idea that apparently i've already been doing that again makes me feel so so disgusting and gross actually i don't fucking know??#but also i am a fucking idiot or something because i said that was fine and that i wouldn't go anywhere as long as she didn't want me to #ugh idk i try not to make a habit of venting on the internet but also like #half the problem is that i don't really have many friends here in real life at my college right and she was my closest friend before we #started seeing each other so that throws a major wrench in things and also means i don't really HAVE ppl i can vent to that aren't on the #internet so here you go i guess. whatever this is my blog anyway i can do what i want here #harperposting #sorry for yapping and sorry for dumping it all in the tags and ugh idk whatever but if one of you knows what i should be doing please lmk f #i am in fact soliciting advice

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deoidesign · 11 months ago

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I’m a trans man that recently got diagnosed with hyper mobile eds, so now seeing Steve makes me extra happy, because cool disabled ftm rep. Thanks for making the radical dude bro, he’s funky.

same disability (waving hand emoji)

Always extremely fulfilling to know my work makes people happy in some small way, it means a lot. Thank you for sharing with me

#I dont talk about having eds cause its not specifically really relevant to my work #been diagnosed with it since 17. woag 10 years next april...#anyways. yeah idk I like the blog to be about my art and I'm used to people asking me a LOT of questions about EDS or disability or canes #just a lot of stuff unrelated to my art. I'm happy to talk about it but I don't want it to be the focus of my blog!#So I've p much chosen to mostly just. not talk about it. even though I'm literally fine talking about it #it's just rarely relevant and no one needs to know LOL #but. I also know that EDS can feel very lonely #and that it's really nice to know other people out there have it #so. hi anon you're not alone #also just in case. literally don't feel bad about anything in the tags here LOL #mostly just like 'please people do not start sending me asks about whether or not you should go to the doctor'#or asks about ableist family members #or venting about pain...#just a lot of invasive and boundary crossing asks the more I talk about it hahahah #but I don't mind sharing at all.#sorry I think I lost the plot on this one #good luck on your journey. starting to accomodate yourself does wonders #and really just extremely happy my work could reach you in this way #sending you love #asks #anon

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spiraling-stardust · 4 months ago

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There is so much Mal du Pays on my dashboard tonight. We are thriving

#do I?#hmmmmm #sure #isat #also not gonna spoiler tag this because it’s just the name #game’s been out for more than a year so I think it’s okay #anyway yippee I love it when there’s a notable increase in mal posting #nice to have something good going after getting in a FUCKING CAR WRECK #I was the only one who wasn’t injured and I’m feeling really guilty about that #okay I need to maybe not vent on my isat blog #sorry about that #uhhh *rewind sfx* love it when mdp appears on my dashboard several times in a row #yay!!! yippee!!!#oh also #I noticed a pattern #mal du pays being my favorite was actually completely predictable #based on my history of beloved characters #I’ve been at this shit since elementary school lol #… yet I still fail to understand why they appeal to me. oh well

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linterteatime · 2 years ago

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Sorry for this, but people have been really fucking annoying on the comments of my posts lately that I'm really really considering privating the blog for some days or something bruh💀

#like cmon now the people on my instagram and my twitter have been behaving better that tumblr thats wild #like okay ppl aren't comenting anything like horrible but it's so stupid like-#logging into tumblr truly is something #i limited comments on the blog for only ppl that follow me for a while so if tomorrow i get anything stupid im just packing up #just for a couple of days dw #anyways sorry for venting or ranting idk what this is #but like!!! i always hear people say that tumblr is the most chill social media site and like thats not true for me bruh #well to be fair i did have some really really chill months for a while this year but i guess that's over now with october idk #anyways maybe i will post art later who knows #not art #delete later #maybe #also this is not about the people that say nice things on my posts don't worry guys this is not about them #sorry if someone thought that

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spotlightstudios · 2 months ago

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Hmm. I love not being allowed to react poorly to anything lest my family self-destruct.

#light's spot #i shortly vented about this on a side-blog but like fr.#i'm not coddling my parents after a fight They Caused and now it's all going to shit #apparently I can't be upset but I also can't react neutrally #both parties are at fault but guess what! because I'm not playing damage control things have spiralled out of control!!! i'm so sick of this #also #i got used as fodder for why the argument was really that bad. i got victimized and it wasn't even about me???#something something my mother will NEVER be wrong in her eyes and my father is always the one taking the blame #plans cancelled and divorce bells ringing in the distance ig #“Not your job to mediate” my ass! you two are shit at it!#we're all grown ass adults and you act like a toxic highschool couple jfc.#anyways is you made it this far into the tags dw about it #sorry to my folks who don't follow for personal posts lmao #shout-out to my friends who I just... love so so much... I don't have the energy to text but I'm 🫶🫶🫶 at u rn

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opidiod · 13 days ago

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the problem with using the same tumblr you've always used and never deleting photos is that sometimes you're just looking for a picture from a high school play and instead you come across an archive of the relationship you were in at sixteen and end up crying about it even though you're twenty five

#like!!! why am i crying ab a relationship that ended almost nine years ago #notably a relationship which I ENDED almost nine years ago #anyway uh charlie not that you'll see this but this is about you so proceed w caution i guess #i'm super ok w it if you read this but i also understand if you don't want to #the rest of you do what you want this is obviously personal venting but #i'd read it on someone else's blog bc i love mess and drama #so if that's you enjoy chronicles of my idiot teenage self i guess #anyway #i found screenshots of texts #and like. obviously on the one hand we were so so cringe #but also it just #made me sad #because i loved you so fucking much #and you loved me #and i'd sorta. forgotten i guess #it's been so long #and i guess i forgot how good you were to me #and it seems incredibly silly to be sitting in the backyard of my home that i own at the big age of 25 #crying about a high school relationship #but here we are #and i just want to say. thank you #thank you for loving me so well #and i'm so sorry #i was sixteen and scared and there was a lot going on in my head that i didn't really understand #and so i ran #and i'm sorry #like it probably wouldn't have worked out anyway but i'm still sorry #and i want you to know that i really did love you #and still have love for you #anyway and then when i was done w the texts i was stupid and looked at our egg tags

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seventh-district · 4 months ago

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#vent post #vent blogging #Seven’s Public Diary #motivating myself to study for my driver’s permit by thinking of the Freedom and independence a license would grant me? ❌ 1/10 ineffective #motivating myself to study for my driver’s permit by imagining all the new & different possible ways i could become injured in a car crash?#✅ 7/10 it just might fucking work!!!#the only true cure for OCD is to face one’s fears. but i just might be able to find a loophole via my ever-worsening mental health #because you don’t have to Face your fears if you don’t Have any fears #and in order to rid myself of my fears regarding harm coming to myself. i simply have to stop fearing being harmed #and what better way to stop fearing it than to actively crave it!#or at the very least become so overwhelmed that i lose the capacity to feel any particular way about it #i’ve found a new OCD cure everybody - Just Stop Caring™️ /sarc #well. sarcastic or joking for everyone else. but im serious when it applies to me #bc so much of my anxiety comes from feeling unsafe. so i just have to reach the point where i stop caring if im safe or not. easy peasy #like yes i know this is flawed and unhealthy logic but i’ve resisted more compulsions via this method lately than i have via anything else #and even outside of OCD stuff even just for all my other anxiety disorders it’s also worked. im actually making a modicum of progress now #need to make a scary phone call? just get into a 3-hour family argument and then you’ll be so upset that you don’t feel fear! :)#genuinely worked very well. scared of a home invasion? well at least it’d mean you’d have some different company for once!#you might make a new friend! or if they **** you at least you’d have some Real trauma for once. it’s a win-win honestly …/hj #so. scared to drive? well even if you Do crash at least it might lead to a hospital visit and then you’ll finally get that attention you-#-want so fucking badly! you’ll finally get a break from everything while you recover. or even if you don’t survive- well. i shan’t say.#anyways. the ‘you’ in those tags is me talking to myself for the record. i wouldn’t speak to anyone else like this. i just speak in the-#-wrong tense/person sometimes. don’t know what’s up with that. just another reason i need to stop speaking altogether. as i’ve learned #i’ve been trying So fucking hard to be nice lately. letting them walk all over me. and it’s still not enough. cause i’m always-#-‘using the wrong tone’ and ‘if all im gonna do is say smthn negative i just shouldn’t speak at all’ ..okay! gladly!!!#sorry for being autistic and unsocialized and under immense stress and being unable to keep my ‘tone’ under control. my bad.#i just need to get blackout drunk with Venti at Angel’s Share. that would fix me.#that or heading down to the bottom of the Fortress of Meropide and curl up like a dog under Wriothesley’s desk. head empty no thoughts #not sexually. just. in a pet-regression sense. i can’t stop thinking abt it. i wanna write a oneshot for it but i can’t focus these days #anyways. the delusional maladaptive daydream dissociation will continue until morale improves. and brother it’s only getting worse.

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v3il · 3 months ago

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does anyone when asked if they remember something horrible they did in their childhood just zone out in contemplation and say 'nope :)'

#my entire family thinks i remember nothing from before the age of 13 #and like. thats BASICALLY true. but also why would i say 'yeah lol i remember that!' about being a burden to deal with as a child.#i don't actually remember much specifically.#i just generally know that i was a horror as a child because of the undiagnosed + ignored autism #and that people would just overwhelm me for the hell of it #until i'd lash out #ANYWAY.#vent #<- i guess #i didnt expect to ramble about tjat #sorry for talking about trauma on my trauma disorder blog. it will happen again /silly #my poasts

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somekindofsentience · 3 months ago

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ahh yes, parties have the magical ability to trigger all of my anxiety at once.

#alcohol and creeps and dark places just fucking triggers everything.#i want to enjoy myself (kinda? at least i want to be able to go to parties without having a literal panic attack) but i just cant #also i love feeling useless and unable to help my siblings because i need to leave early. i love worrying. i love this.#vent ig #sorry #this blog isnt usually for this stuff but i have had a really really shit night #made me realise some stuff about my relationship with my mother and ehhhh #did not help that i was wearing the dress that makes me want to die the most. i hate not passing/being out.#anyway. need to just draw and have tea and try not to stress out

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iianian69 · 4 months ago

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sorry i havent been drawing tons ive kind of been in the trenches yesterday and the day before over something very minor that im still tryin to convince myself isnt that srs

(also my posts have kind of been flopping lately but i kinda attribute that to me posting more stuff that isnt tf2 stuff lately which i figured would happen tbf so i dont really care abt that)

(side tangeant for the above thing but if any of my followers want to chip in and just let me know like. should i just keep this a tf2 blog and maybe make a side blog for non-tf2 stuff(?) or do you guys not mind seeing it? also i know i got some pink city followers so for whatever thats worth idk)

aaanyway sorry if this came off as like borderlining on vent-ish tldr is i just havent been feelin great lately

#i would elaborate more cause i secretly wanna talk abt it with someone #but also it just wouldnt fit on my blog and also my followers probably dont realy wanna hear that lmfao #also it just feels awkward idk #anyway hopefully i'll be feeling better soon sorry this is liek bordering on a vent #bonus question in there i might just make a straight up poll for it later i'll see

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sleepy-harper · 6 months ago

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hey so like siper sorry I have . not made anything in a hot minute I'll lock in soon I'm just both contemplating on if I say eff it and make content anyways despite my requests & promised gifts or not + mental health stuff and reliving bad memori s a lot more recently so sorry again

#the polls will not be affected though !#harpy caws #cw vent #tw vent #venting in tags but anyways #tw abuse #cw abuse #but like lord ive been reliving memories a lot from when i was like 10 and not in any type of schooling and like the time during then was so #blurry for me. i dont remembwr what the years were. j just knew seasons passed and i didnt know anyone both irl and online. it was just me #abd my mom and my sisters and brother and my dad #and i remember all the fighting. and the domestic violence. and its been messing with me a lot lately #so again sorry for my laxk of posting and im also so sorry tor bringing mental health and my situation on here ahain #it might happen again unless i finally make that second side blog for my personal posting n vents . so sorry

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