#anyway raise your hand if you also ugly cried throughout the entire ova

[morsking]

god, i just really love how initium iter portrayed romani’s journey as a person. he was a being who was denied humanity from the very start traveling the world to finally experience it having lived as a tool for something far above him. romani worked and studied and volunteered and in all those moments he witnessed humanity’s joys and wonders and losses and tragedies. 

and while he did, he was in a hurry to do so being aware of what mankind’s destiny would be, he was a man running his way through his growth, rushing through so much of life in a short amount of time never really stopping to enjoy it, desperate to understand life because maybe, just maybe, if he did he’d be able to save the lives of the world he was now a part of. but he was so deathly afraid of the destruction that would come about, a destruction he wholeheartedly believed he was responsible for, that in running to save mankind it seemed like he was running away from its destruction, running away from finding out what about him and his actions would end up causing the greatest final catastrophe of mankind. 

it makes the events of solomon so much more meaningful and severe, the quote “life is a pilgrimage in which we stockpile suffering. however that is by no means a tale of death and partings.” comes to mind in particular. romani would know this better than anyone despite having lived so shortly, because he experienced all that life had to offer with what little time he had. it’s blessings, it’s burdens, all a literal pilgrimage that etched its events into his soul, a journey in physicality intrinsically tied to spirituality. 

and at the end of that journey romani decided to stop running away, to confront the creation that stole away the future of mankind and stand his ground and, accept the consequences of things he could and could not control and give his life to entrust mankind with its own future as a heroic spirit should, as an existence that had lived its life, with the only thing left to give being the gentleness in his heart, a gentleness that fostered and raised a life that like him knew nothing and wanted nothing but could know everything and receive everything because she deserved it despite having little time to life herself. 

romani was so insecure about whether or not he was actually human, calling himself a fledgling and comparing himself to that life that knew nothing and had nothing, despite her looking up to him as the most human existence she had ever known, because of all he decided to share with and teach her about not in spite of his own inexperience but because of it. because he tried his best to carry himself as an example to her flawed and uncertain though he was.