#anyway noel is gay as fuck

[noel-levine-fan]

i decided to draw that actually. ngl there's probably some kind of canon scene where noel finds out sirius's name that contradicts the first drawing (i dont remember all the scenes i know im a fake fan) but the point is less the introduction and more noel's internal panic so it doesn't matter

this is the day he turned gay

i posted about this on my old blog before but just to make sure my current followers know:

sirius is the name of a star located in the constellation canis major (greater dog). it also just so happens to be the brightest star in our sky. you know, besides the sun.

like. we have a man fixated on stars and a man who is named after the brightest star and that is actually insane

i imagine when noel first learned sirius's name he started ABSOLUTELY FREAKING OUT inside but pretended he wasn't and has just been very insane about that fact ever since

[1racoon7trenchcoats]

On today's episode of 'what did I put in my notes at 3 am': rtc and video games!

Ocean hates horror games (and horror in general)

Girl will straight up piss herself

She used to play those math racing games and printed out the certificates

I don't think she was allowed to play games at home so all she knew for a long time was school-promoted games

She likes puzzle games but gets frustrated at them and complains when there's leaps in logic

Ricky loved newgrounds

Riddle school was his shit

Constance and Noel both have neon cat ear headphones

Constance used to play girlgogames and stuff even though she hated them because that's what the popular girls did

That was fully projection btw

Ricky is a beast at guitar hero

Mischa will freestyle while he does

He also likes the drumset

Ricky also likes dating sims

He likes the alien girls from Pico Sim date and mr massagy

You know the girl from Mr massagy that's just immediately like 'have my babies'

Yeah

They all play the Sims

They play wildly differently though

Ocean just tries to work her way to the top of every job and max out every skill

I feel like a vampire would get her and she cries that her life is over

She forgets to save often

Constance just tries to live a nice lil life

Probable marry a neighbor and max out cooking

Has far too many mods

Would make Sims of her and her crush

And her friends and their crushes

Noel never gets to the actual game because he spends so long on the character creator

He will then go through the community made stuff and roast it

He has absolutely crashed his PC trying to get custom content

Everyone thinks Mischa is going to be a menace but he ends up making him and talia and just woo-hoo constantly

He accidentally hit try for baby once and just sat there with a blank stare for ten minutes

He snapped out of it when the name your baby thing popped up

He calls talia after that

Penny does the relatable thing and just drowns everyone

Especially if Ezra is involved

They will try to find the weirdest ways to kill them

She loves the cow plants

She tries to get all the collectible things

Like the frogs she loves the frogs

She has them all presented in her home

The Sim is just randomized

Or she let Noel do it

Ricky tries to test how long he can go without eating or pissing

He tries to max out the weirdest things

Like he'll be going for fishing, violin, and mischief all at the same time

Ocean is upset at all of them

"Why would you spend your life on that???"

"Its a game, you up-tight fuck"

A lot of people say this but it's a fact ricky was/is a fnaf kid

He makes jokes about it all the time but no one else understands them

He tries to introduce it to everyone

Ocean is terrified and just. So confused.

Ricky will try to explain the lore and she will just sit there like 😥👍

Mischa wants to fight back

Especially if they're doing vr

Boy is swinging

Noel is scared but tries to play it off

At one point he gets super tense it's like 4am (probably both irl and in game)

Penny lies back and accidentally brushes his back with her foot

He fucking squeals

Ricky played poptropica when he was younger

Constance still plays all the papa's restaurant games

Noel tried to get a boyfriend on club penguin

Ricky has an atari

He also likes speedrunning

Do yall remember Marvel Super Hero Squad Online? Ricky played that.

Also mischa Is weirdly good at claw games

Ik that's not a video game but I wanted it to be said

[beababoobies]

I saw a post that was talking about how we “ignore” Oceans ableism and it made me go insane because I’ve not seen a single person who SAW her ableism and ACKNOWLEDGED it and didn’t make sure that they drew her character in a much more welcoming and inviting light…. Yes she’s ableist. Every fucking popular white kid in southern Canada is, sorry. SHE’S A CARICATURE. OF ANNOYING POPULAR WHITE KIDS. SHES ALSO SO WEIRD ABOUT MISCHA BEING UKRAINIAN. SHES WEIRD ABOUT CONSTANCE BEING PLUS SIZE. SHES A CARICATURE OF AWFUL POPULAR KIDS.

sorry I genuinely feel like I’m going insane by saying this but I feel like the fandom has completely acknowledged this and understands this this like. Shouldn’t be controversial. Like all these other characters suck too by some standard if you want to stretch it that way; Noel romanticizing sexual assault, STDs, ect ! Constance’s insane sexualization of gay men ! Ricky… no actually? Ricky is perfect. But all these characters are AWFUL by some sort of far-fetched standard and it’s so weird to try and ‘call out’ a fandom for just?? enjoying the characters and blatant face value. anyways, rant over. guess who’s back to being controversial in the rtc fandom YIPPEE ! Media literacy is very dead !

[mickeym4ndy]

idk if controversial bc seems like popular opinion but I just finished shameless for the first time and wtf were the last seasons?? omg, makes me need to rantttt

Like, gallavich was the only saving grace but.... barely. so much of the bickering couple which would be fine if they balanced it with the batshit obsessive behaviour from earlier?? where is 'you're under my fucking skin' and where is ian emptying his entire savings to run off with mickey like omg I do not care about their pool and the pilates like pls let them do their murder thing

(tbh hate trope of the crime fam or couple etc going 'straight' like, even if they aren't the best citizens, could've let them be way more feral)

Yea I feel like this is generally the view people have of the last few seasons!

Obviously it was great to have Mickey and gallavich back and some parts were great. But in general yea it was mid. The constant bickering about stupid shit - “who’s the man in our relationship?” I mean wtf??

I’ve talked about this before but the way it seemed Ian kinda stopped understanding Mickey the way he used to and the way Mickey and Ian were written in general kinda annoyed me. I don’t believe Mickey was dumbed down to the extent some others do bc some of it is understandable to me anyway, but he definitely was to an extent. It often felt like the writing was for a random gay couple and not Ian and Mickey.

Really I think it comes down to 2 things -

1). they wanted more awards so they leaned more into the comedic side of the show, making things that were supposed to be serious more unserious (Mickey after Terrys death and Ian’s reaction to it definitely suffered because of this).

2). In my opinion, In s5 the writers were carving out a storyline for s6 that involved Mickey having more character development around Yevgeny and Svetlana, and Ian’s would’ve been largely the same as it was. They both would’ve had development away from each other. Then Noel left and when he got back Svetlana and Yevgeny were gone. Everything they had planned for Mickey to move forward was gone and his own development then was halted because of that. I don’t think they knew what to do with him. But they knew the fans wanted him back, so they just wrapped his character entirely around Ian and sorta made Mickey revolve around Ian. On top of that, Ian had all this development in s6-9, but Mickey didn’t get that.

Which is… fine. There were some sweet moments. And it wasn’t terrible. And I know some people love that Mickey basically revolves around Ian, but I don’t love it personally. I think it would’ve been better if they had the chance to live outside of each other, mainly because I genuinely think that’s where the series was going before Noel left so then the only way they could think to bring him back was to make everything about him revolve around Ian. I get it he was a secondary character but yea.

About your last point, I think Ian’s desire to “normal” kinda explains why they were trying to go straight but yea I agree it would’ve been fun to see them be a bit more feral lol. (I acc think this would’ve been addressed in like season 7 had Mickey not been written out tbh).

Thanks for sending this!

[piningpercussionist]

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Movie: Least favorite Scott/iteration in general; fuck does it have some good lines though. Damnit. (I really do like a lot of aspects of it, but it IS my least favorite.)

Comics: 2 rereads down, favorite version; currently collecting panels for those with requests or questions relative to them (Starting 6 soon)

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[milkovichrules]

sorry to come into your ask box but i just rewatched mickey’s coming out scene and i just… i get choked up every time. i love ian but i also feel like he pressured mickey into coming out. of course he had to set his own boundaries but he KNEW how badly mickey was treated when it came to his sexuality, it’s almost seemed cruel to give him that ultimatum in some way. but then mickey comes out and all he could do was look at ian and ask if he was happy!!!! like i cant even explain all the emotions noel was able to put into his voice in that moment, it literally break me just thinking about it! he knew what was coming and he still only wanted ian to be happy.. thats really just something. i dont even have words for it but i wanna let out the loudest scream about it

hello sweet thing!! you're always welcome here💕

tbh the coming out scene always reminds me of noel's fucking beautiful ig post about Ian's character but especially 'the truly remarkable thing about Ian's inner courage is that it's infectious. to put it simply, he's brave and an undeniable reminder to those around him; they can be brave too.'

I used to absolutely not be at all but I am definitely an Ian defender about this to a certain extent.

like do we enjoy ultimatums? fuck no. it's a shitty way to go about it. BUT I have to think about what's probably going through Ian's head, right? keeping in mind he's in/just coming down from what we can only assume is his first ever manic episode.

mickey came to find him, literally carried him home and protected him from creeps. gave him a place to stay and didn't just plonk him on the Gallagher's doorstep, actively chose him over his marriage. went to the Gallagher's when Svetlana kicked him out and asked him to come back, agreed to do whatever he wanted to get him to stay with him. slept next to his tiny bed on the floor.

mickey kissed him, full on made out with him in public!! that's so huge!! he accepted an invitation to a little gay party with ian's new friends. he slept in the same bed with him without fear in a house full of strangers!! he doesn't even know that mickey told that guy that they were together 😭

we all know mickey is an acts of service girlie but Ian is the kind of person that needs to hear it too. and when Ian DOES ask it's 'of course we are'. like it's a given. mickey doesn't need to have the conversation, but Ian does. and as far as mickey's concerned 'it's working out so far so good' to be a couple that hides.

there's a million reasons mickey might want to still keep them a bit of a secret (though its a pretty open secret at that point). sure I think some of it is to protect his reputation, to not have any sort of weakness, and to some extent I think he feels a lot of pressure in protecting the reputation of the Milkovich name, no matter how infamous it is. maybe because of how infamous it is.

but I also think it's because what he has with Ian is theirs. and its something in both of their lives that's genuinely really beautiful.

like not to bring up 3x666 but that's obviously the moment that the bubble really burst. he had built up this little secret life with Ian behind closed doors and he was opening up! he was falling in love! and once people (Terry) found out it was just ripped open completely. ruined. I think there's some element of mickey wanting them to be back at that place before it all went to shit. which of course, they never can be.

just like when Ian starts heading for the door in the alibi. he doesn't think mickey's going to do it. Ian's going to walk out and not see Mickey for a while and then in a few weeks it'll be 'just cuz I've got a wife and kid doesn't mean we can't still bang' like it was back then.

but now mickey knows what it's like to lose him and he doesn't ever want to do it again (which 🥲 but anyway)

the fact that when Ian tells mickey he's sick of living a lie mickey's immediate response is 'I'm not lying to you' somebody fucking sedate me

and of course Ian wants mickey to come out so that they can be together but 'you're not free' absolutely kills me because he just wants mickey to be okay with being himself openly. and 'what you and I have makes me free' and ian's FAAAACE but then Terry shows up and he has to watch mickey tear himself away and go straight back in the cage and it hurts. of course it hurts.

so Ian drinks a little and lets himself stew and shoves mickey toward the edge of the cliff.

mickey's voice when Ian tells him not to bother coming back and he says 'what the fuck are you talking about?' breaks my heart every time because they're fine, aren't they? they just have to get through this bad thing and then they can go back to their little bubble.

mickey's always in survival mode, just varying degrees of severity. you can see him, literally see it on his face, weighing the options.

what's gonna happen if he does nothing? he's going to watch Ian leave. again. he's going to get blackout drunk and go home with his wife and his son and his fucking dad and wake up like that every morning for however long he can stand it. he's going to be walking on the eggshells of his own broken heart.

what's gonna happen if he says something? he's going to be physically hurt. he's going to bleed. he's going to have to bite and scratch his way out of that bar unless he's arrested or knocked out first. there's hopefully enough people around to keep Terry from straight up killing him. and what else? Ian stays. Ian stays and they get to go home together. take care of each other. sickness, health, all that shit.

so he does it. he shouts and he bangs on that table and he says it and hes fucking brave!! because he might think he's fucked for life but he has one beautiful thing that's worth fighting for!!

oh my god and him asking 'you happy now?' I fucking knooowwwwww honestly it makes me a little bit? insane? there is SO much going on there.

fucking getting everyone's attention to announce he's fucking gay and 'I just thought everyone should know that' and then looking at the only other openly gay person in the room and going 'you happy now?' jEEEEEsus like?????????

the eyebrow raise as well like 'you know exactly what's gonna happen now' and of course it does.

but Ian absolutely no hesitation gets stuck right into the fight!! and he says 'I've wanted to do this forever' which, same babe. I too would take a chair to the back wrestlemania style to defend mickey milkovich.

all my blorbos shitty dads I would be in your walls but you're all dead so✌️

[ask-the-cyclone]

Penny, what happened during the sleepover?

*whispers* Hehehehehehehehe… we have to wait till they leave

*whispers back* on it *does something to get Mischa and Noel to leave the room*

*still hyped on redbull* WHOO gossip sesh

[not if you’re yelling it to the rooftops]

Sorryyyyyyy

Anyway, we usually go over to Noel’s for movie night, and last week was his turn to pick too

He picked Night at the Museum

[we all know he didn’t do it for the plot, he did it for Jedidiah and Octavius]

Awww I love those little gay dudes!

*COUGH*

Oh yeah, well anyway we were almost done with the movie, and Ocean and Connie were already zonked out-

Heyyyy!!

[its true! What was the sleepover setup again?]

I remember! It was you and Penny on opposite ends of the couch, I was in the armchair, Connie was on the floor in front of me, and Noel and Mischa were taking up the rest of the floor space.

Could you let me finish? Well, it ends, and I turn it off, and Ricky’s pointing to the floor. So I look over, and Mischa’s all asleep and snuggled up to Noel, and he’s asleep too!!!

[barely. Mischa fell asleep first and I had to try and get Noel to stop freaking the fuck out]

Obviously that’s as far from straight as you can get, at least in Mischa’s case. I told him about it and he was absolutely mortified.

He denies it ever happened

[Well I have picture proof!]

WHAT?! Really?!? Send them now!!

[no! What good is blackmail if I share it with everyone?]

(Sorry another long one, I had wayyyyy too much fun (someone stop me I’m obsessed with nischa))

[bigstupid69]

constance hcs if u don't mind? sorry for asking (did i already ask like,, 5 minutes ago i cant remember shit)

I had to copy them down, and definitely add more stuff to some of them so I apologize for the late response.

Constance headcanons below the cut

I think she's like surprisingly strong. I had after school activity headcanons for all of the choir and I put her on the swim team and also rugby apparently?? I think that was just me being a lesbian, but anyway. I put her on the swim team since that is literally the only sport I could think of where like the literal sweetest people are at least in my school, I also just like making Ocean's assumptions about everyone really wrong. That punch in the boob must've really fucking hurt and honestly deserved.

On the note of extra curriculars, she is definitely a band kid and plays the flute in band to reflect the sugar cloud recorder solo. She's probably forced to join every club Ocean signs up for and doesn't really enjoy being there, but she took a creative writing class with Ricky and Noel and did actually really like that.

Speaking of which she has definitely written fanfics on AO3, she seems like the type to be writing a 50k slow burn romance of two like background characters in a show or movie and then never update it ever again until she comes back and writes a completely different fanfic.

I made every member of the choir autistic regardless but I believe she has persistent depressive disorder, which is just chronic depression in much simpler terms, it's not fun.

She dyed her hair different colors constantly, not just purple; she just happened to die with the purple dye. She also is just the choir's hairdresser at points, and has dyed every choir member's hair at least once except Ocean because she's Ocean and doesn't want to experience joy. Mischa went with some like awful neon blue and despite Constance knowing how awful that would turn out he was now cursed with having blue raspberry slurpee hair for a week.

She does Kandi and makes bracelets for all the choir members, as well as super intricate designs like the animal beads and stuff like that. She also did rainbow loom so much, just has so many bracelets made stashed away in her drawers.

She unironically takes BuzzFeed quizzes and makes the whole choir do them with her; she'd genuinely redirect Mischa to those "Am I gay" quizzes when he questioned his sexuality.

She seems like she's the only one in the choir with a good sleep schedule but she's just amazing at hiding her depression and declining mental health since she's been doing it ever since she was in middle school.

She definitely had a small crush on Penny when she was first introduced to the choir, because of the mysterious attitude. But the trance would immediately get wiped away as she witnesses Penny just fall down the stairs tripping over nothing.

The only ships I heavily ship with Constance is candyrapper and sugarspace, and y'know in some universe of my art she is definitely in a poly relationship with them AND Talia, and I just want the world to know my vision. (Actually this idea is now haunting me and I might literally draw this crack ship I just made up uhm-)

Gets along the most with literally everyone but Ocean. They used to have a genuine non toxic relationship in elementary school, but she was probably just looking at the relationship through rose-colored glasses since she was just a kid…

[rtc-confessions]

Shout-out to @pennylambchops who actually made an argument against me, instead of just telling me I'm wrong! I appreciate it.

Anyway, let's get into it, shall we?

“he is explicitly SAID to be gay. yes, gay doesn’t only mean mlm/nwlnw in some cases but in noels IT DOES.” Yeah, that's fair. I've nothing to say in my defense on that one, it was one of my weaker points tbf.

“fanon very rarely affects canon” FINALLY someone who recognises that I don't think mspec Noel is canon! Thank you!

“i feel like we should still base what we do and what we say about characters a little bit off of canon.” Very fair. I mean, if we just start doing anything we want with characters, we might as well just write an original work. But in this hypothetical case, I'd only be changing his sexuality from gay/mlm to somewhere else on the queer spectrum, it's not like I would drastically change who he is as a person (or maybe I would; with Noel being a very stereotypical gay man, having him be some other label of queer might be detrimental to his character. But imo, that is a problem on Richmond and/or Maxwell's end for making him a walking stereotype and not mine for wanting to mess with it)

“but you choose to ship the gay character with woman.” No I don't! Nowhere in any confession I made did I say *I* ship Noel with any of the women in RTC. I am in fact a Nischa shipper 100%. I just said you could, if you wanted to and if you wrote it well enough that it could be explained (not that it necessarily has to fit in with canon if you don't want it to)

“if you like a dynamic so much between noel and a woman you could maybe idk, make platonic content for it since platonic love is just as important as romantic love” That is exactly what I'm doing. In fact, I think we need more platonic Noel and Constance stuff, because the few moments they share in the musical are actually so sweet and I feel like no one appreciates that enough.

“using sexuality is fluid is also a dumb excuse for making him not gay. because not everyones sexuality is fluid, some people are simply just attracted to gender and that doesn’t change ever.” You're correct, some people's sexualities don't change. And the same could apply for Noel, but it might not. His sexuality might be fluid, or it might not. It's up to the writer, really.

“dont start a hissy fit when people get upset over you taking away their representation.” I'm not taking away anyone's representation. Mostly because I don't actually ship what we are discussing, but even if I did, that hypothetical fanfic would be in my tiny corner of the internet, and if people think my singular, hypothetical work in about 3,000 fics across ao3 and fanfiction.net would affect anything, then I'm fucking honoured that I'm though of so highly in this fandom /s

- Lesboy

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[real-total-drama-takes]

https://www.tumblr.com/real-total-drama-takes/731464074454597632/im-sick-of-ride-the-cyclone-aus-that-cast-noah-as

I don’t want to extensively rant about AUs on here but I’m sure there’s a big enough intersection between TD fans and RTC fans right. Anyway yeah this take is pretty true sorry sugdbdbjshdjdsjb but there’s reasons for it being a constant

In seriousness, I’m trying to think of who in gen 1 (or even anyone in TD?) would fit as Noel, bc Noel has a very specific character niche even if he just seems like The Gay One. He romanticizes nihilism to a comical extent where his dream is to like, die alone in a French alley from typhoid fever. Like that’s appealing to him. Who the fuck would want to do that ever.

Noah works best for the silly one liner insults Noel does (I also think ‘you challenged my notion that all gay dudes are fun to be around’ would be like the best way to describe him) but I’m genuinely lost here lmfao. Izzy is actually pretty into acting and being dramatic and probably would fantasize about living some kind of insane life like that, but that’s stretching one part of her character to an extreme. I think it could work if you played your cards right though. That’s all I’ve got there bud, hope you find your dream AU one day and if I read any more Noah-centric takes my brain will explode into mush

My second take here is that I would keep Courtney as Constance and have Gwen be Constance, bc while the personalities of Gwen and Constance are 100% different, a) Constance and Ocean’s dynamic isn’t going to click if it’s just like. Fuckin Beth or something? And b) Gwen would totally have that moment that is Jawbreaker, cuz she’s The Loner, her whole life she’s probably been avoiding getting attached to people or things or even just like letting herself let loose and enjoy life, and I think her death being what opens her eyes to the world around her would be fucking awesome

Harold is literally just Ricky in a past life or something though if you choose anyone else you’re kidding yourself

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[jaggedwolf]

pll rewatch 2x17

Emily (and even her phone) are dragged into being secretaries for her friends’ heterosexual dramas :/ 

Emily literally does not have her own plotline this episode, she just gets absorbed into the Spoby drama. Don’t get me wrong, there’s stuff I love here, like Emily’s comically bad “Spencer is unable to come to the phone right now”

But I am pretty meh on Emily not getting her own stuff to do, and the way the disparity between f/f and f/m relationships on the show feels starker in S2

It’s good/convenient that Caleb is a newcomer to Rosewood, so that when he hacks these videos of a bunch of weirdos hanging out in Ali’s room, it’s not like he has any prior beef or knowledge that would skew his efforts

The girls all think Holden is gay because he’s never tried to kiss Aria. Aria, the one true test for any boy’s heterosexuality apparently. 

Do enjoy Emily looking a little smug as she explains what a beard is, even though everyone clearly knows.

My notes: “I’m so bored of Ezria.” Indeed.

We get another glimpse of Halloween 2008 when the girls find the threatening notes A sent Ali, which is a nice connection that episode. Ali really was experiencing it all that night huh.

Toby gets injured via the wobbliest scaffolding sabotage. A really does not want Spoby to date, is extra invested in it, and I’m unclear why. 

I mean, A threatened Ezria with reveals before but A saved Ezria via framing Noel and A has never put Ezra’s life in danger.

I wonder if it’s because Toby seems like the SO most likely to be told about A, given that he was investigating Ali’s murder with Spencer back in S1.

Most likely until Spencer’s protective instincts are kicked into overdrive here.

Toby gets to wake up to Jenna giving him all the standard abuser lines blah blah you can’t trust anyone but me blah blah no one is going to care about you like I do blah blah 

Complete with creepy leg touch that makes Toby flinch

About Spencer, Jenna says “She’s haunted”. Not that Spencer is dangerous to Toby, but that Spencer is in danger, and by extension Toby’s in range to get hurt

Again, the girls really should tell Caleb, he’s already in danger if A can see someone is hacking into their phone. A’s not gonna be like wow, I bet Aria picked up Hacking For Dummies at the Rosewood Library and is the one exfiltrating my shit

Caleb confidently saying “I can protect you” to Hanna is very funny and very dude though, like bro you don’t even know what it is, and this angle of unearned confidence will only make Hanna more certain you won’t take the threat seriously

So Hanna destroys the thumbdrive in the blender. And later throws the blender in the trash can.

Hanna commits so much waste in this kitchen y’all. She’s thrown away a blender, just opened yogurt cups, uneaten takeout, my wallet winces at all of this. 

Jenna is so fucking weird to Emily. Why does Jenna always talk to Emily as if Emily ever wanted to fuck Toby. She’s gay, Jenna. Like here’s their dialogue.

Emily: How dare you come here.

Jenna: Emily? I’d ask you the same thing.

Emily: I’m Toby’s friend.

Jenna: Well, there was a time you wanted to be more than that. Good thing he didn't feel the same way, or things would be awfully confusing with Maya, wouldn't they?

Emily: You're lucky I don't take that stick—

Jenna: Mm, careful, Emily. Misplaced anger can be dangerous.

Is Jenna just sooo distracted by her own rapey ways that she thinks everyone wants to fuck Toby. Maybe so.

Still enjoy Emily being terrible to the blind girl, always the liar most pissed at her somehow.

Oh so now Ella knows about Toby, where was this back when she thought Ezra/Spencer was a thing. Wait, didn’t Toby even come yelling in the police station about how much he loves Spencer too, while the other parents were there? Did Ella just assume Spencer was two-timing? Damn Ella

Anyway the Montgomerys are super into the Holden solution for their daughter, because they remain the silliest parents of the lot.

Spencer is so guilt-wridden about Toby. She stares through the window at his injured body instead of entering the room to sit by him. I very much enjoy how much the show has her brood, Spencer at heart should be a noir detective brooding through rainy windows

Spencer: Jenna's right. I'm putting Toby in danger, and I've always known it.

Emily: We've always done everything we can.

Spencer: It's not enough. It'll never be enough. I need you to do me a favor.

Emily: Anything.

As kicked puppy as Toby is this episode, I obviously care more about the Spemily angle here, where Emily agrees immediately even though she knows how deranged Spencer can get and does ultimately go through with the plan.

And the genre gender inversion of sorts, where Spencer, Emily, and Jenna are the actors upon Toby, while he is the acted upon, the one that is protected or hurt or violated

I like Emily’s little vest in the hospital scenes

I...have nothing to say about Ezra getting inspired by this random-ass student that we’ll never see again, other than I hate him. Not just for Ezria, but also because he stops his car in the middle of the road while it is raining to make out with Aria, thus blocking traffic. Park your damn car.

Got distracted wondering if the Hastings move when your daughter is dating an authority figure you don’t like is to hire a PI to follow him specifically to snag a photo of them kissing so that you can get him super fired and blacklisted everywhere.

Fields move would be police police police, Marin move would be to go :/ :/ but not actually do anything about it

While Toby and Wren talk I wonder if the show ever passes the reverse Bechdel test. I hope not.

Caleb goes to Spencer and Emily to offer his hacking services. They really are the investigative ringleaders this season, and Caleb once more proves himself to be the most integrated SO

Spencer discloses to Caleb that Jenna is trying to frame them, Garrett is helping her, and that Ian’s confession likely isn’t the full story. 

Not a bad set of facts, but it does overstate their certainty on the Jenna question, which will lead Caleb to focus on her

[jamies-rambles]

Finding Noel

Noel, canon divergence, trans Noel, angst, dysphoria, mentions of suicidal thoughts, Jamie, flowershop, Tobi

1800 words

Author’s note: Noel pls don’t have an identity crisis. I just started writing this as a joke but then I was projecting a tiny little bit.

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It was a warm summer night on Coastle, the gay bar was bustling with life. Noel, drunk and silly, had climbed on the stage, everyone looking at him with annoyance. “Women are stupid!” he yelled. “And fat people are gross!” Everyone groaned, used to his antics and wishing he would shut up. Tobi sprung into action, his tail fluttering behind him as he got up on the stage and snatched the mic from Noel’s hand. “Thank you Noel, now get the fuck off my stage. Next up are the Mushy Boys with Cool Like That!”

He guided Noel off the stage into a backroom, where Jamie was doing some writing. They preferred the relative quiet over the suffocating loudness of the bar, and it was the perfect spot to work on their next story. He sighed when Noel and Tobi came in. “You’re here to annoy me now, Noel?” he scoffed. Noel ignored them and plunged himself down in a cozy chair in the corner. “Why are you always so hateful?” Jamie asked. “Am not!” Noel protested childishly. “You’re always so mean to everyone though. Why can’t you be nicer?” Tobi nodded in agreement. “You even made Synker destroy my cat room! Where are my cats meant to live now?” “Yeah!” Jamie continued. “Do you have hatred in your heart, Noel? Where is that coming from? Maybe you need to do some soul searching!”

Noel thought on this for a second. Maybe he was acting out of insecurity. Did he really know who he was? “I’m sorry, guys,” he said. “I know I’m horrible. I should just go.” Jamie, too kind for their own good, couldn’t help but feel empathatic towards the sad drunk boy in the corner. “It’s okay, Noel, it’s not too late to change. If you need someone to talk to I’m here for you.” Noel smiled, thankful that he had such a good friend. “Thanks. I just feel like I’m wrong in some way, like there’s a piece of me that doesn’t fit. Maybe that’s why I lash out so much.” Jamie nodded understandigly. Tobi rolled his eyes, muttered about not wanting to hear this cheesy shit and made his way back to the bar. Jamie was generally more patient and deciced to hear Noel out.

“Do you ever feel you don’t know who you really are?” Noel asked. Jamie chuckled. “Do I? That’s been my entire life.” “No, I mean, when you feel like people don’t see you for who you really are but you couldn’t describe what that would be anyway,” Noel continued, sounding frustrated. “I just feel so unsure about everything, I can’t trust any thought I have. Maybe that’s why I like making strong statements, it gives some amount of clarity.”

Jamie sighs. “Identity can be complicated,” he says. “It’s perfectly normal to feel unsure. I can’t give you any magical answers, other than trying to figure out what seems right for you and going from there.” After a moment of contemplative silence, they continued: “I went through a similar thing a few years ago. I’m not saying you’re the same, I don’t know how you feel, but I can certainly understand the pain that comes with constant doubt. I wanted to die every day. But if you can embrace the doubt and are open to the possibilities, you might just find a whole new side of yourself.”

Noel stared into the night sky, thinking about Jamie’s words. How was he supposed to embrace the thing that was causing him so much pain? It felt much safer to stay where he was. Being completely open meant abandoning everything he thought was true about himself, and he wasn’t sure he could handle that. “I’m just tired,” he mumbled. “I want to stop thinking forever.”

Jamie nodded, seeing the exhaustion on Noel’s face. “Come, I’ll take you home.” Noel made a dissaproving sound, but got up anyway. Jamie guided the dazed Noel through the gay bar, out the door and back to their tree house in the South. “Forgot I owned this place,” Noel mumbled. It was true Noel hadn’t spent even one night in his house since Jamie built it for him. He even had a bed here, which was unusual for him. Jamie wished him goodnight, leaving Noel alone with his thoughts.

After an hour of tossing and turning he finally managed to fall asleep. It was not a restful sleep, his subconscious mind still trying to process his conflicting thoughts. He dreamt he was on a train, watching the rain flow down the windows. The conductor asked to see is trainpass, adressing him as a woman. Wait, was she? Noel showed her pass, after which she returned to staring out the window. It was dark outside, and she could clearly see her reflection when she focused on it. Soft features stared back at her, and she felt a sense of peace and clarity. She was a woman, of course, how had she ever doubted it.

Noel woke up with a strange sensation, the remnants of the dream lingering in his mind like a dark cloud. He sat up in bed, his breath coming in shallow, ragged gasps as he tried to shake off the unsettling feeling that had settled over him. He reached his trembling hand up to his face, which was still as it had always been. He felt a pang of disappointment, followed by immediate guilt for entertaining the idea. He was a boy, a man, and the thought of him being anything else was completely ridiculous. There was a pit in his stomach that seemed to be getting worse. Tears welled in his eyes as he found himself wishing he could just be normal. He’d had these kind of dreams before, and he was able to shake them off at first, but the more they occurred the more real they felt. He didn’t want to feel this way, he wanted it to just stop.

Noel spent many weeks trying as hard as he could to distract himself from thinking about it again. He found people to talk to, play games with and even when he was alone he made sure that his mind was always occupied, just so he didn’t have to endure the doubt again. But his efforts were futile. Late at night in bed they would return, and the pit in his stomach never went away. He knew he couldn’t go on like this. Remembering his conversation with Jamie weeks ago, he decided with much resistance that it might be worth being more open to the possibilities. Was he supposed to just become a woman now? Would that solve all his problems?

Frustrated and tired, he decided to explore the option. Standing in front of the mirror, he stared at his face, trying to find some sort of hint of what he was supposed to be. Did he really see himself as a man? Was that how he truly felt or was he just so used to it because it was expected of him? Could he see himself as a woman? Looking at their face with different eyes, Noel felt a sense of recognition. They remembered times as a kid when they had dressed up in their sister’s clothes, going out to play with other kids hoping to be seen as a girl. They also remembered the disappointment they felt upon being gendered as a boy by his peers. It was a long time ago, and they hadn’t really thought of it again until now. Did it mean something? Was it a sign all along, or were they just overthinking it?

They needed to talk to someone, figuring this out on their own seemed impossible. Tobi was a good friend, but he surely wasn’t very good with advice. Binero would just call him crazy. Jamie was the obvious choice, but what if he thought they were just faking it? Maybe they shouldn’t tell anyone until they were absolutely sure, otherwise people would surely think they were crazy or just following a trend. Oh no, were they? Did someone push them into feeling this way? Noel felt like they were going crazy. They needed to talk to someone before they went truly mad.

Jamie was hard at work in the flower shop when Noel walked in. “Hello Noel, how can I help you?” he asked with a friendly smile. “I need advice,” Noel said. “Hold that thought. What flowers can I get you? Some nice sunflowers?” Jamie walked to the back. “Actually,” Noel started, “I need to talk to you about… gender?” Jamie raised an eyebrow, putting back the sunflowers. “Maybe some lilies then? You know, they are often associated with femininity.” Noel looked around nervously, making sure nobody had heard what they just said. Luckily there was nobody around. They knew that Binero would never let them hear the end of it.

“I think I might be a woman,” they blurted out. Jamie paused, his expression softening with understanding as he turned back to face Noel. “Sit down, let’s talk,” they said, gently guiding Noel to a table in the back of the shop. Noel sank into the chair, their nerves buzzing with a mixture of anxiety and relief at finally voicing their thoughts aloud. "I don't know what's happening to me," they admitted, their voice barely above a whisper. "I've been having these... thoughts, these feelings, and I don't know what to do."

Jamie took a seat opposite Noel, his eyes filled with empathy as he listened intently. "It's okay, Noel," he reassured him. "You're not alone in this. Gender is a complex and deeply personal journey, and it's perfectly normal to feel confused or uncertain." Noel nodded, a tear slipping down their cheek as they struggled to put their feelings into words. "I just... I've spent my whole life trying to fit into this... this box of masculinity," they admitted, their voice thick with emotion. "But lately, I've been feeling like maybe that's not who I am."

Jamie nodded in understanding, his gaze filled with warmth and acceptance. "It's okay to explore different aspects of your identity," he said softly. "You don't need to have all the answers right now, or ever really. Just take things one step at a time. Discover what feels right to you.” Noel nodded, feeling reassured by Jamie’s words.

Noel felt much lighter, and without the pressure of trying to find the answer, a sudden clarity befell her. “I am a woman,” she mumbled to herself, a smile tugging at the corner of her lips. And then louder she proclaimed: “Ik ben een vrouw.” And for the first time in a long while, she felt truly whole herself, embracing every facet of her being.

[chibo-beebo]

anyways! random songs from will wood's album "In case I make it," that i think rtc characters would like

noel - he would DIE hearing "vampire reference in a minor key" he getting down to that. he wishes someone would sing it to him so he could live out that gay vampire love story

ocean - SHE RELATES TO "HALF DECADE HANGOVER" OKAY. but she also likes "the main character", not because of how it sounds but because of the Themes bro

ricky - "white noise" :) he likes the message and he definitely likes to sing it i can see it here and now

constance - she fucking adores "becoming the lastnames" and also cries to it

ILL DO MORE WHEN THE COME TO ME

[soul-wanderer]

The Noel Diary (a brief and belated review) (okay, we all know this won’t be brief, because these reviews are not ever brief)

The Good:

- Barrett being her usual cute self and a literal light in the darkness of this season

- Barrett singing, incredible as usual

- A cute dog, can’t ever go wrong with that

- Small town christmas vibes, kinda cute, even if it’s also kitschy

- The neighbour lady and her date/boyfriend, 10/10 would ship it again

- “If you said there was only one room left, this would be like a rom-com” was, again, kitschy, but given the tone of this movie I’ll allow it and give it a brief chuckle

- For half of this movie, Barrett’s (aka Rachel’s) outfits and hair were on point (you guess where you will find the other half of the movie)

- The overall somewhat diversity in this movie. I say that in direct comparison to Hallmark movies, because this movie definitely fits the Hallmark stereotype, even though it’s produced by Netflix, hence the attempt at diversity (hello menorah in the hospital and random gay folks and PoC)

The Not So Good:

- Why did he get the fireplace started that probably hasn’t been cleaned in forever

- How was that piano sounding so good? Mum was a hoarder and I assure you that piano hasn’t been professionally tuned in what? 20 years? Yeah, there’s no way that piano still played a single straight note

- I cannot officially criticise the stereotypes/clichés in a Netflix Hallmark movies, but if I could: goddamnit, they really shoved a lot of those down their viewer’s throats (white shirt in the rain, impromptu jam session, woman choosing the wrong guy, lonely writer, suddenly being alone at a public event, only one bedroom left, father and son reconnecting in an awkward manner, dude randomly showing up at her house and looking up at the window, and so on)

- Dude really needs a leash for his dog

- Why did Dude and father leave Rachel waiting in the cold car for so long? And how did they survive sleeping in a cold af car?

- Who messed up Barrett’s hair and outfits in the second half of the movie?! Choices were made and they were not good choices, at all

The Bad:

- His weird stalking when she accidentally left the connecting door of their hotel rooms ajar. Seriously, wtf

- Dude looking for/meeting up with Rachel’s biological mother?! That looked a lot like overstepping boundaries, what was he trying to achieve anyway?

- We see him meeting her bio mum but not her?! Which makes this extra strange

- I don’t want to make assumptions here, but I feel like the bio mum was miscast looks wise (not acting wise, the acting was great) and I have a thought or two about the process

- Dude showing up at her house on christmas day/eve, despite fucking knowing that she’s still engaged. It might have been cute if she had been single, but she wasn’t. What was he trying to achieve there? Yeah, she cheated on her fiance and they were obviously trying to reconcile, but even if she chose the safe option over the “being happy” option, it wasn’t his place to insert himself into their relationship like that. That’s not cool, guys (gender neutral), so please don’t ever do that. Write a letter, for what it’s worth, but don’t basically stalk an engaged person

- The final parts seemed rushed, mostly because they spent too much time fulfilling clichés, but I wasn’t expecting a cinematic masterpiece anyway

In Conclusion:

It’s a Hallmark movie, only it is not because it’s produced by Netflix. But don’t be fooled, it’s still very much a Hallmark movie. Watch it if you generally like Hallmark movies but are fed up with the overall whiteness and lack of diversity of Hallmark movies. Or watch it if you generally hate Hallmark movies but are willing to watch some kitsch for the holidays (or any other day of the year). Don’t expect too much plot wise but other than that it does have it’s sweet/cute/funny moments and Barrett’s performance is a solid 9/10, but that’s due to the fact that no one can genuinely portray that many clichés without it looking a little, well, cliché. Overall it’s an easy watch and despite hating Christmas and Hallmark movies (I know, I know), I did not have a terrible time watching this, so that probably speaks for itself

[lacefuneral]

i think one of the funniest, most insignificant pieces of Jay Lore, is that i have had a bottle of perfume (cologne? fragrance?) since i was a teenager because i went to some sort of vendors fair in california and my sister (who was a fragrance enthusiast and had disposable income) knew that i liked the small sample bottle i got, and decided to get me a huge bottle

i used to wear it a lot, not so much anymore because i spend most of my time indoors, but every once in a while i'll use a bit.

as a young twenty something, i remember furiously googling what colognes gay men wear. how do you get men do notice you? and reading deeply on (in hindsight, what i'm assuming is pseudoscience) different fragrance notes

i remember i ended up in a subreddit and i saw that someone had recommended a very expensive cologne that was vanilla and sugar and wood and smoke and such. and i bookmarked it. and then one day it hit me, when reading over the notes again, that it is more or less identical to the cologne i already have.

that was such a silly realization. according to fragrance pseudoscience i have The Fuck Perfume. i've never attracted a man once with it. at least, not any that would admit it.

anyway, it (Memoirs of A Traveler) is one of my favorite scents, along with the MUCH CHEAPER Vanilla Bean Noel

also i love how gay the bottle is.

and ofc, vanilla bean noel my beloved (i looked for the exact bottle i have on google images)

by the way? do you want to guess what the expensive Fuck Perfume was called???? do you???????

Snake Oil. i can't make this shit up.

[purpleplaid17]

Jess Watches // Mon 25 Mar // Day 180 Synopses & Favourite Scenes & Poll

The Newsreader (with mum) 2x01 Decision 87

It's one year on and Helen and Dale are now established as 'The Golden Couple of News'. It's Election Night 1987 - Hawke vs Howard. Competitor Geoff Walters is also making a comeback on a rival network.

The rampant sexism and expected submissiveness of women throughout was infuriating, but it makes very compelling tv. I just want to protect Helen and Noels from all the misogynist aresholes. I hope Dale and Robbo prove their love and loyalty to them.

The Patient (with mum) 1x03 Issues

Sam's desire to find a therapeutic solution grows as his inner struggle intensifies. Dr. Strauss brings a new variable into their sessions.

Why can't women sing at Jewish weddings? She had a lovely voice. And using Sam's mum to try and get him to stop murdering people would be an effective method on me because I'd do anything to help protect my mum. Not that I'd ever need a serial killer intervention. Not yet anyway. 👀🔪

Buffy the Vampire Slayer (rw) 3x15 Consequences

A homicide detective closes in on Buffy and Faith as he investigates the deputy mayor's death.

The gay goggles were ON this ep:

Buffy having a dream about Faith pushing her head down.

Cordelia bristling at Buffy calling her just a 'friend'.

Faith touching B's shoulder to guide her out of the library into an empty classroom in which they lock the door to talk.

"I know what you're feeling because I'm feeling it, too."

Them telling different stories about their night in Faith's apartment.

Buffy crying to Willow that Faith doesn't even care about what happened between them.

Buffy fumbling over her words as she comes out to Giles.

Buffy not wanting to hear how Xander slept with Faith.

Faith using Xander as a substitute for Buffy.

"Yeah, because you and me are such solid buds, right?"

"You can't handle watching me living my own way, having a blast, because it tempts you! You know it could be you!"

The heavy breathing and prolonged staring after Faith saves B's life.

Six Feet Under (rw) 2x01 In the Game

A drug-addicted actress dies from a cocaine overdose and leaves her fellow cast and crew members to set up the funeral.

Ruth trying to communicate better with her gay and lesbian (looks at Claire 👀) children is so endearing. She really is trying her best. And I knew it was only a matter of time before Nate unknowingly took the hidden ecstasy pill from the aspirin bottle. He was so tactile with everyone around him. To get to talk to his dad again and see Life and Death fuck nasty was a lot to process. For him and for me.