#anyway its 3am goodnight yall

[crescentmoonrider]

to anyone who wanted to ask for a valentines event kiss drawing but didnt

im closing up shop now

better luck next year. or whenever i decide to do this again

[epictay]

teirlist of all the ii cast and episodes

all the characters, now imma try and keep this very brief but tissues is my favourite character no I'm not kidding I love this man so much yes I voted for him in 2021 yes I screamed and cried at his death no I won't say why I love him so much that's lore for later, the characters that are just like me fr fr should just tell you who i am as a person fan is literally just me im autistic and brain has said that he is at this point hell I have a replie from him years ago that says so, mephone 4... that's personal but his protrale really makes me think, apple is me fr fr to because I'm awful at spelling, same reason I like fan is the same for lightbulb and the floor, goo is just me all the time, bot is just me so badly, the characters I adore I still love these guys they just aren't me sadly rip 4s I cried when he appearing in the finally of season 3, no I'm still not over his death ii crew bring him back please I'm on my hands and nees the rest are self explanatory I've never really liked marshmallow she's fine I don't like oj no I'm not explaining why he knows what he did... never liked cabby and fuck silver spoon I hate him so much he gets his own teir because no words can describe how much i hate him when he appeared in episodec 17 I screamed fuck em

NOW here me out, some of seaosn 1 is ok in my books the first half is awful unwatchable for frame of reference I first watched ii at 3am 4 years ago, would not recommend it is a trip in a half episode 12 is a weird favourite of mine.. don't ask why same with 14 now season 2 there is no questioning what's the best like you would have to be insane to not put anything after 10 high, episode 8 is a personal favourite it makes me laugh so hard it's the funniest to me and it always will, episode 11 will never be topped in my opinion it is legendary and that elimation, its just chefs kiss like they can never top it again season 3, most of the episodes I hate have silver as the main focus, may I say more I've made my views on him very clear, episode 3 is my absolute favourite it's so funny and yall are sleeping on it it's the funniest thing ever made for ii anyways for the recorder these are my opinions and ye (: goodnight

[echo-ethe]

Can people please learn the difference between "major character death" and "reader death." I dont want to be reading something and then all of a sudden I die. Also, on like a03, the people who put hurt/comfort as one tag and then hurt/nocomfort as another tag are demon spawn.

[hrina]

i hope i come across as a nice person on here 😔

[galaxiuu]

woah

ref+stills under the cut

[ot9lovebot]

uh honestly the only ones that talk about yixing christmas album r the 10 xingmis on tumblr dot com like ............... yall remember he exists right

[godisaknife]

goodnight iyall!!

[mycuppuffedhedraws]

ok call me cheesy, but i’m so excited that when gmm uploads in 3 more hours, i’ll finally be able to talk to people about them and the recent episodes!!!! i already feel so at home here and i can’t believe i waited this long to make a tumblr LOL its 3am and im gonna cry!!!! i love this fandom so much and i’m so thankful for rhett and link and the whole mythical crew!!!!

anyways i love yall-- sending big love and smooches, goodnight!!! 💖

[aleclightofmylifewoodbane]

yall i love dave for so many reasons but what i really love is how he too really didnt realize his situation was abusive and not normal, and it took him so long to finally step away from it all and actually let himself admit it

even now that im older and know a hell of a lot more than I used to, it still feels incredibly weird to take a step away from the shit thats happened and is happening and compare my life to others to realize “It’s not fucking normal.” And that most kids didn’t grow up like that and in that environment. Or at least they shouldn’t. Even now I will just pause and all the shit kinda hits me like a fucking bus and I have to think about yet again i in fact do not lead whats considered a “normal life” i guess and most of my irls and online friends cant sympathize

because youre conditioned to think its normal when it literally couldnt be farther from the truth

anyways i just love dave goodnight its 3am

[monohart]

stardust. (idol!au)

ft. huang renjun, failure and a secret relationship.

i’m back after a long break, haha. this was an old writing that had been sitting up in my drafts for a while... happy 2019! please spend this year showing more love to renjun. :)

thank you, and enjoy!

when you were cut from the line up for sm’s new group renjun was 100 times more devastated then u were

u were like hey rj cmon don’t worry i’ll be fine??? i’m sure i can audition for another company or smth?? or wait for the next unit debut??

u even jokingly said maybe u could debut in an nct unit but he couldn’t bring himself to smile

and your chest :(( hurt :(( from seeing him so hurt ;;;

ofc for as long as you remember y’all had been talking about both debuting under sm at the same time so y’all could be chasing your dreams and not be too far away from each other

but that plan failed when renjun debuted first with nct dream and had his schedule Packed w nct promotions and concerts and stuff

he and the other nct guys would sometimes let u sit behind the camera in vlives

this one time omg

(( ok so refer to this for a visual :) ))

u sat behind the camera in the chenle jaemin renjun react to baby don’t stop vlive

even though u were hella scared to be kicked out chenle was like HEY DW I’LL FIGHT ANYONE WHO THINKS YOU’RE NOT ALLOWED TO BE THERE OKAY

so u snuck out of your practice session slightly earlier to watch them

renjun was so excited u were there but obvs he had to keep it together for the live

then!! lolololol rip your manager found out u snuck out of practice and found u in the room and pulled u out of the room

(u kno that moment when they all looked behind the camera and then turned down the music.. yeah issa bc ur crazy manager almoST ruined the mood)

manager scolded u outside the room for a good few minutes and then told u to get yourself together

and u stood outside the room for a bit longer after manager left

and u were literally about to leave but then guess who u ran into!!!

chittaphon knew about u and rj since the day he met u and him both

it was kinda funny really bc u and rj stood rly awkwardly next to each other at this company event a few years ago and y’all were standing around the other dreamies and some other trainees and suddenly renjun’s hand brushed the side of your leg and u glance at him and he smiles at u and u look away smiling

AND chittaphon, who happens to be taking a nice long sip of his soda SEES THIS and spits his soda out

accidentally sprays soda onto jeffery’s back

but yeah thats another story

anyway!!!!

ten sees u sulking outside the door and peers in and sees renjun and hears bds

u know that smile smirk ten does when he knows whats Up™.

yeah he does that and be like

“eyy why don’t u go in???”

then u give him a breakdown of what happened with skipping practice and being caught by the manager

and hes like :o

but chittaphon is chittaphon so he grabs you by the wrist and pulls you back into the practice room and hides you in a corner just out of view

and then he sneaks onto them!!

then jaemin... quick-eyed, lovely doe-eyed jaemin... sees u hiding and nudges renjun ever so slightly

he sees u and before he gets flustered ten’s all over him asking how the mv was and flustered rj tries to keep his cool while showering chittaphon w compliments

and u know how ten looks at him like That :^)

and jaemin keeps peeking over their shoulders

yeah :))

OK I SPENT TOO LONG DESCRIBING THIS

but anyway, on that night u were cut from the line up

after the news got to him he sits down and was just like

:(

because he knew how much debuting meant to u and

and... YOUR DREAMS TO BE TOGETHER :(( debuting together and always being close to each other

and u mentioned before that if u dont debut in the next five years u prolly would quit the entertainment industry

maybe go back to school and study some or idk work in a less chaotic industry

in that moment he remembered what u said and was a little heartbroken too

he tried to find you in your usual practice room but u weren’t there and he shouldn’t be loitering around so he gave up and let you have some space

bet u he sulked all the way home

you had travelled back to your dorm because u needed some time alone oof

it took u a good few hours to deal with the news and when u were ready to talk about it again, it was like 3am but u still gave his mobile a call

he picked up on the second ring and said to meet him outside your dorm in a few mins and y’all can go take a walk or smth for some fresh air

so u guys go to the park for a nice quiet walk in the dead of night hhh

u had so many things to say but mostly u were worried with your relationship w him and how y’all were supposed to balance that out given his priorities with nct and you as... just a trainee...

u didnt have to explain anything or other bc he suddenly goes

“what if we went public with our relationship?”

u look up at his face that was hidden behind a mask and his glasses

u deadass thought he was kidding but his that look in his eyes were like hella serious

“just think about it for a second. maybe we don’t have to bring it to the fans, but at least let the company know”

and u were like no way they’ll just do anything to keep yall apart

he didnt answer after that and not too long later yall started heading back to your dorm

it was almost 5am and the streets were still dark and renjun had an arm around your waist and you leant against him and yall walked slowly bc honestly u guys haven’t slept a wink and its been a Really Long day

your dorm was a street away from his

actually he stops about a street or two away from your dorm bc another idol group also lived in the same building as u and there were always sasaengs and people w cameras outside your dorm

u were a trainee so it didnt bother u but renjun was renjun :,)

plus he actually wanted sum privacy so he could kiss u.. so...

hsaksdnd

there was a narrow alley just around the back of the apartment block next to yours

u would never go there alone kasdnj it was scary at any time of the day

tbh

u wouldn’t go even if someone was there with u

maybe it was the heat of the moment or u were just so down that day

it didn’t rly bother u when renjun gently backed u up against the wall and hugged u n took off his mask n buried his face in the crook of ur neck

and that immediately put a smile on your face ur like baby wyd its 5am

hes looks at u like :(( and says “i miss u” in a quiet quiet voice & in his mother tongue

u knew what it meant and hearing him say it in chinese made you uwu to mars

then he showers u with like tiny tiny butterfly kisses and he wraps his arms around u to make u feel safe and warm

which u do!!

he holds u up too when ur knees buckle a bit but then just continues kissing u hehehe

its all sweet and innocent but his kisses last just a tiny bit longer each time, as if hes scared that you’d run away

after he finishes kissing u he meets your eyes and u literally watch his orbs go all soft and he hides his face in your neck again while u mutter about how much of a big baby he is

the goodnight was!!!

the hardest thing y’all had to do omg

he literally didnt want to let u go

and when he did and when u started walking toward ur building u kept looking back, wanting him to head off but he didnt and stood there waiting for u to go in

and u didnt want to go in without knowing he was on his way home and was safe on the walk back wdf it was almost 6am

then when u were almost at the door u saw he hadn’t moved an inch

so u run back to him

he was still standing at the spot where y’all parted - which was a few streets down and out of sight

he scolds u for running back out but he smiles when doing so and u snap his mask back onto his face and kisses him over the mask like 200 times and u couldnt see but hes like dying from the giggles

anyway eventually y’all go home :,) it just took forever :,)

the next day u head to the building in the afternoon to catch up on some sleep

u were a bit guilty to find out renjun went back to work at 7am which meant he practically didnt get any sleep

y’all brush shoulders in the cafeteria but he was walking w hyuck and his manager so u couldn’t stop and chat

tho u couldn’t help but notice his manager steal a glance at u when u walked by and he had this really weird smile on his lips

made u go like huh.,, maybe he recognises me from the many Brief encounters yall had before

anyway u were doing some vocal and keyboard practice later in the afternoon when the door to the private training suite opened and two loud boys stumbled in

made u rly surprised bc u never expected it to be them??

it was taeyong and winwin??

they were both looking at u like :))) as if they did something great :))

taeyong introduces himself formally but you’re like ,, um u know we’ve met before at this function and hes like OH,,, sorry

anyway they were there to tell u how renjun couldn’t shut up about u since he went back to the dorm last night and now all of nct knows about everything to know about u and him (if they hadn’t already)

you’re just like .,, oof what embarrassing stuff did he say

they’re like NO ALL NICE STUFF,, a bit cringey at times

but !! nct wanted to help u

so earlier today

johnny and jaehyun spoke to their managers and night night producers and asked if they could hire a third radio dj - yknow someone who also speaks english and is really nice and entertaining and funny and cool like u are!!

that idea is now In The Talks

winwin brought up a variety thing china line and their managers had been thinking about for a while and also asked if they could consider u

nct managers be like ok so who actually is this trainee and why are all 18 boys obsessively asking to include her in nct activities

later that day when u see renjun again he was just heading off but he came around your practice room to see u before he left

thankfully u were the only one left at practice as the others were away busy preparing for their debut or smth :,)

u didnt hear him come in bc u were sitting in the middle of the room on the floor scrolling replying to week old texts oop hehe

renjun sneaks up behind u and hugs u from behind and kisses your cheek

he got a bit scared when u didn’t respond as explosively as he thought... for a second he thought he got the wrong person poor bean he was so nervous hhh

you chuck your phone aside and tackle him and he falls onto his back and yall kinda lay there on the ground for a bit

and you told him about taeyong and winwin visiting u and he just smiles

“you inspire me.”

“me? inspire you? you’re huang freakin’ renjun, and i, of all people, inspire you?”

“yeah”

“don’t understand u sometimes”

he turns his head to look at u and u turn to look at him and he kinda just admires you for a while then reach over and touches your cheek

it wasnt even a sweet caress or anything he literally just

touched

your cheek

“renjun what the heck”

then he laughs and u laugh and u snuggle against him and for the first time that week both of u feel completely at ease bc even though the dream u guys shared at the beginning was completely shattered,

y’all would still find a way around it

and knowing so many people around u still supported u guys meant so much

especially to renjun bc u were his everything and he’d do anything for u

and i mean it!!!

[deadgrantaires]

ah fuck ok u know what it jsut doesnt matter. i fucked off hw today and its uhhh 3am and thats jsut life. honeslyt its a waste of energy to beat myself up over it at this poitn PLUS its like?? finals?? like this is Absolutley the time im gonna be fuckign up the most its expected

anyway within a week i will be home w my cat and sleeping So Much... i can just stay in bed all day for a day like... no one can stop me.... itll be great

anyway goodnight i love yall and i hate school

[buckys-stripper-splits]

welp yall wanted to read this dumpster fire of a fic so here we go lmaoo

(TW!! alcohol mention, marijuana mention, im a sad drunk but its also funny)

Summary: i am a lightweight ass bitch and had like one single solo cup of alcohol and now we have this also im like knly like 21 words in and its alwadu a strugfle. half the typis arent becaose im drunk but because i have phat ass thumbs

Warning: ass, this is ass, literally leave, dont read, its prolly gay

Song: one ditect

*•*•*

Bucky dink's (WHO IS DINK) his teeth into Steve's nwck as he plows into jom, grunting and cursing against his sweaty neck.

"Fuck. God, baby," Steve grunts, and buvky tightens up around him out of habbit. Bucky mosns, puttong on a show as he arches his back, eyes hooded, just how steve likes.

"Yea," he mewls, lacing his velvety voice with enough chocolate to make steve shudder. "Cmon stevie fuck me. I know you got more than what youre govin me. Cmon baby, yea."

Steves hips crash against buckys and he fists a gandful of his soft brown lovks before tugging him back, so his back is at his fromt. The new angel allows steve to fuck rigjt up ahaing buckys prostate Nd it makes me sob, opened mouthed.

"Fuck, stevie yes! More, harder!"

(Brothers listen ion even know what im doing ok im so fucking tored at this point and ik im gonna regret even makong this because nothing about this os sexy. im just drink ankd alone in my fcking room at like 2:40 am ok this shit is sad. goodnight. im prolly atill gonna post this because i try and fings joy in my immemse pain. goodnight.

its a wonder i have peiple who follow me. ylla prolly gonna ungollow me after thisbshit lmao. im a sloppy drhnk km so sorry like i swear this shit is getting worse. Id rather be high. goodnight. dont drink or do drugs. drugs bad. Goodnight.

if i theow up tomorrow im actually gonna cry i havent thrown up in hears but then again i never gets hangovers so ha. ok goodnight. i hiccuped and almost puked. sorry goodnight i have ADD. goodnight fuck me im annoyong im so sorry) BUCKU IS A BOTTOM woe my ADD gets worse when im inebriated (i had to voice spell that cos im not smart) ok goodnight if i think of more shit oll prolly write it tbh because im lonely and sad HA buttercup baby is a good aong wow wtf is it calked? fuckin "build me ip buytercup" long ass name headass. still good.

SHIT WAS LOUD AS FUCK I TURNED ON BUTTERCUP BUT I HAD MY VOLUME UP COS I WAS LISTENING TO A PODFIC HOLY FUCK I FEEL SOBET

im happy. i haventbeen happy in a hot monute. anyway i turned off my autocorrect just to capture just how fucked i am lmaon. i hate that im most happy when im fucked ip like that shit aint healthy font do this shit kiddos seek therapy.

imiss my dog. i wanna do afupid shit now but i cant physicalky get jp also i have no weed. when i say stupid ahit i mean one of two thinsh: self destruct or weed. Or both. oo chile that would be awful lmao. ok goodnight deadass this tike. im gonna listent to a podfic. goodnigjt. its almost 3am. i love h mwah mwah

BITCH WAIT ok i love feminatiahipn and i blame literally all of fucking rumblr. fuck yall i love hall wow. ok. nigjt no mlre. im forcing muself to piblish this tm or shot maybe even now but isk yet. ok goodnight. Fr this tome) see i added the paraghesiss so now o camt add mlre ha.

(aaaaand imma tag @that-damn-girl cos they asked so very nicely💗🥰💗!! i hope yall enjoy lmao)

so a few months ago i attempted to write some smut while Extremely Drunk™️ and reading it back is the funniest fucking thing ive seen in a hot minute so would yall want me to post it? its only like 500 words and the majority of it makes no fucking sense

idk dudes let me know if yall wanna see it ig

[01chae]

two.

little things i love; part 1

his lil mole on the left side of his bottom lip… ah omg every time i can actually see it in pictures my heart grows 10 sizes… also,, im love his lips too?? i mean who doesn’t? they’re so thicc and soft and kissable ugh im emo stfu @ me :(

on that topic… when he freaking does ‘the pout’??? and also the duck lips?? HOW ARE YOU SO FREAKING ADORABLE PLEASE STPoOp 😭 i would post the pics here but im on mobile omg ill prob make compilations of 'hyungwon things’ anyways bc im extra and i love him so agsjaj well yeah uh,, anyways.

&& when he bites and licks his bottom lips when he’s 'angry’ omg akgshs it’s highkey really hot but actually so fucking cute?? like yall see when he pretends to be mad and yells UGH its THE CUTEST FUCKING THING EVER DONT @ ME!!!!! MY SWEET HONEY BUNS I LOWKEY WANT TO SEE HIM ACTUALLY MAD Umm,, sign me up?? um THE iconic no mercy ep?? um not to be that stan but he can curse me out and slander me anyday with that handsome face and amazing voice of his:// big nut tbh,,,

this is really weird but,,,,/ the way he dabs?? it’s really smooth and idk but theres something about the way he does it so majestically like wtf,, how does one look this good dabbing wow i once saw a dab so beauitful,,,,

hyungwon is actually a super clingy person?? like even though he doesnt say much/express his feelings a lot, he’s really the type to show and not tell, even when he doesnt realize it. hyungwon is actually so fucking sweet and caring and loving and overall an amazing fucking being. he cares about the rest of mx so much, and he doesn’t have to express it in words all the time. okay eyaubthi this is off topic im gonna stop before i go off on a 18373 paragraph tangent.. ok so back to him being clingy; hyungwon literally always has his arms around someone, like always?? i find it so fcuking cute?? like he loves the contact and the assurance and closeness he probably feels with everyone. he does this especially with changkyun, probably with a sense of protectiveness or doting, because he’s just so loving:(( and also him and changkyun are definitely really close and that makes me even softer because i love my babies so much?? and every time he has his arms around someone he always has a bright smile on his face and it makes my heart hurt and bust 50 nuts because he’s really fcukifn cute 🤧🤧✨

/wtf im so extra but i dont even care i just really need to vent my feelings for him ok its 3am i need to sleep my eyes are ¾ closed and im about to go numb thinkign about chae but im prob gonna be emo again once i wake up so;;; ugh.. anyways goodnight i love one man./