#anyway im going insane
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the year is 2075. i own a house and have a family, maybe a couple of cats. i log onto my social media of choice and see yet another book about john lennon has been released. it too, includes a very gay quote about paul mccartney.
#this man has been dead longer than he was alive and yet#we still hear echoes of his gay yearning for his best friend#thats fucking commitment#anyway im going insane#the beatles#paul mccartney#john lennon#mclennon#skittles rambles
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okay but the fact that we hear all about kaveh's life post-fall out with alhaitham, the fact he graduated, worked at construction firms and continued taking on others' burdens, had a hard time finding solo work because of how arts are perceived in sumeru, that he went to his mother's wedding in fontaine, that he took a vacation from work because he was stifled by the environment and felt he had lost motivation and worth as an artist, was determined to complete the palace of alcazarzaray at the cost of everything he owned just to have a tangible object of his efforts and view of art only for its outcome to further emaciate him, until he meets alhaitham for the first time in years, is understood at once, has no need to don a front as he does for everyone else in his life, is listened to, is challenged once more and reinvigorated in his perception of his ideals, is offered a second chance, a home, and accepts it, although he cannot comprehend why alhaitham would offer such a thing and yet not ask anything of relevant substance in return, other than rent
all of this, and we hear virtually nothing of alhaitham's life post-fall out with kaveh, besides his graduation and his taking on the job of the scribe. his character stories omit this part of his life whereas kaveh's is full of detail and emotion, mostly suffering. the first instance we see of alhaitham in this time is from kaveh's perspective when the two meet again in the tavern, and in this alhaitham endeavours to understand kaveh once more, before offering his house - the research centre previously allocated to the both of them for the success of their joint thesis before they fell apart - to kaveh.
we don't know why alhaitham moved out of his grandmother's house and into the research centre, why he renovated it from a research centre into a livable home, only that he did so after kaveh informed alhaitham through a third party that he was not in need of a house, nor do we know his thought processes and emotions in the years spent apart - the years that are carefully documented in kaveh's character stories. the image we are presented with is that of stasis; alhaitham pursues no other close friendships, he works as the scribe, owns a nice house within sumeru, is financially secure, and functions within, and carries out, his own ideals - is content with this way of life. in this, from alhaitham's perspective, there are no details necessary to give from this time
but in inviting kaveh to live with him, his character stories tell us that what he gains by doing so is the mirror of himself, both in personality and scholarly thinking, and in this, he is able to gain an enhanced view of the world, which otherwise would be limited. with kaveh being present in alhaitham's life, alhaitham believes that his vision is perfected, whereas it could not be before, with kaveh's absence. it is in this that we hear what alhaitham has been missing in his life, and ultimately, it is kaveh, not just as a scholar, but as a person
what is omitted from alhaitham's character stories is provided in kaveh's character stories; where we hear about kaveh's struggles, we don't hear about alhaitham's. perhaps this is because alhaitham did not struggle as kaveh did in terms of realising and achieving his ideals, but instead his struggles were in silence, recognising that his vision, and himself, had been compromised because he had rejected the ideals that served to enhance his own vision, that he had inadvertently rejected, and thus had been rejected by, kaveh.
#basically alhaitham's silence of this time period is very telling#its giving that inazuman proverb#is it basically that kaveh wasnt in his life and everything stayed the same and therefore there was nothing to challenge him?#yeah basically? obviously im not whittling his character down to him solely revolving around kaveh#but that doesn't mean he can't do it to himself#youre not helping your case my guy#but seriously alhaithams character stories explain the differences between him and kaveh in terms of their views#on the talented and the collective which contextualises the cause of their argument#their character stories are intrinsically linked because mirrors#which is why it is so interesting to me that alhaitham basically gives no information about his life after kaveh#and any information he does give is to do with kaveh in terms of the house which kaveh also mentions#haikaveh#kaveh#kavetham#alhaitham#haikaveh meta#anyway IM GOING INSANE
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ARCANE SEASON 2 SPOILERS
I have many thoughts about this season but one thing that threw me for a loop is the fact that i shipped jayvik as a joke in season 1. I thought Jayce was as straight as a spaghetti noodle, but I forgot that means nothing when it gets wet.
”I will find you in every universe.”
INJECT THAT STRAIGHT INTO MY VEINS
In summary, jayvik is glorious and I’m sorry i ever doubted them
#i have more thoughts#but not enough brain cells right now to voice them#also i screamed when caitvi became canon#lesbian domination all the way gang#(cait lowkey looks like Hua Cheng with the eyepatch though)#(also i am crazy about the timeline stuff with jayvik)#(and right after finishing orv and i am still deep in joongdok trenches)#anyway im going insane#arcane season 2#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane spoilers#arcane#jayvik
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I want to yank miguel by his cross necklace that i know his catholic self wears, yell at him for bullying miles then kiss him like a mad woman
#miguel o'hara#this is where were at folks#oh miguel probably has catholic guilt?? so do i bitch!!!#he is so pathetic and i want him in a way that makes me pathetic#someone needs to write a miguel x reader where theyre both repressed as shit and then they hook up but feel so guilty after lol#anyway im going insane
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fucked up and made wayyyyy too much sugar cookie dough and spent like 3 hours baking 7 dozen cookies
#i also made 6 giant ones bc i wanted to see if i could use the big scooper#i could not#they were huge#anyway im going insane
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OK OK OK there’s this streamer who’s a therapist that plays video games and he’s playing Disco Elysium. His name is EuroBrady and this is what he had to say about this scene. Im paraphrasing ofc but,,
When we’re told something, it is very different than discovering it ourselves.
He’s basically saying that it is so so significant to really understand something rather than just hear it, especially when we’re the ones to figure it out. So he’s saying that because Kim knows that Harry grasp of reality is shaken, he is insecure, unsure, and scared (and if he’s super-star-cop he’s overcompensating for the insecurity) and knowing something, really knowing something, especially something as daunting as this is SO important for Harry right now.
Harry has been told about all these wild things he did while under the influence, and because he doesn’t remember, he has to just believe all of it or don’t. Either way it could lead to a lot of distrust in himself because he doesn’t remember any of it. So seeing the numbers on the Kineema, recognizing it, putting the pieces together, and solving a mystery of his own life in his amnesic state is vital.
Kim has never claimed to be the one who can explain the world to Harry. Harry has to learn like through other means most of the game and Kim can’t be his savior, his guidance, or his happiness. Kim has to let Harry find that on his own or their relationship wouldn’t be as strong as it is. Harry and Kim are equals, Kim is not above him, and Harry having the confidence to know that makes him a better detective, because when Kim trusts him, it’s not an act of pity it’s REAL.
I think realistically Harry would still deify Kim to an extent, but Kim’s actions have done so much to prevent that because he KNOWS people. Imagine if Kim didn’t do any of these things. If he held Harry’s hand the whole way through and became his only crutch. Imagine how Harry would’ve crumpled when coming back to the 41st. Kim made him strong. And this scene seems so simple but it’s one of those moments where he’s building him up and making sure he’s not his sole crutch, but he’ll be there for him anyway.
this was such a nice lil moment~ mannn the way Kim said he saw it when they first found the car and let him sit and wait to fine out himself... i guess he didn't want to be the one who broke it to him
#anyway im going insane#Kim is so kind#he’s so perceptive and aware of other people’s feelings#especially Harry’s#literally the perfect person to have met Harry after his blackout#disco elysium#kim kitsuragi#harry du bois#harrykim#kimharry
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had a category 5 lesbian moment looping midwest princess for the past couple hours so i drew some stills from this vid
#chappell roan#fanart#the rise and fall of a midwest princess#my kink is karma#eyestrain#illustration#live performances make me insane even if im not seeing them in person i still go insane#augh. anyways. hiii i got really into her recently by chance..#i should make a habit of just doing this more often for artists i like#id in alt text
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hiii everybody are you normal about Falin showing Laios the same little spell that Marcille showed her? are you normal about Falin remembering it fondly enough that it was one of the first things she showed her brother while trying to teach him magic?
#dungeon meshi#marcille donato#falin touden#laios touden#farcille#not really but im going to see it as that anyway#the way falin's love for marcille is always implicit and unspoken drives me insane forreal#marcille doesn't know how much falin loves her but laios does#because falin's always talking about her and thinking about her when she's not actually there and it's just laios seeing all of that#even the audience has to go hunt for it in the little details#and marcille doesn't even know!! of course she doesn't really care she expects nothing in return for her devotion to falin#but she doesn't even know that it's reciprocated!! she doesn't even know!!
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sometimes i randomly remember how insane maggie stiefvater was for making ronan lynch—a man that can create reality—a man of god, when he himself is a god of a man. then to take this man and have him be not only in love with, but a literal soulmate of a man named adam. parrish. adam parrish. who, mind you, lives above ronan's very own place of worship. and is the namesake of the first of mankind that the bible says god made from the literal dust of the ground (adam parrish: comes from nothing, hair "dusty" in color) and appoints him to care for the garden of eden (adam parrish: sacrifices himself to ronan's sentient forest). then has adam viewing ronan as a god and ronan saying "maybe he dreamt (created)" adam???? like who just fucking writes that and goes about their life?
#if i think about them too long i start going actually insane#maggie pay for my therapy bills please#me and my ignored religious trauma are literally have never been able to handle it#the raven cycle#pynch#ronan lynch#adam parrish#and the fact that i read the series pretty soon after i realized that pretending i believed in god was doing more harm than good and left#i was still a kid and had very bad undiagnosed ocd that made my implusive thoughts surrounding hell and eternal damnation and the end days#and it terrified me so much as a queer trans kid to realize i didnt believe but still had thoughts of that in my head and then to read this#series like a year or 2 later was brain altering for me#anyways where was i going with this#ahahahha#im having a moment#adam's last name is pretty self explanatory too like....miss girl
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spiraling
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#gojo satoru#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#the minute i realized how tg coded the composition n colours were i decided to turn it up to 11#i was racking my brain trying 2 figure out how to get the layered tissue paper look tht i talked abt ishida's cover art having#cycled through all my usual layer modes n nothing ws Quite right#until wouldnt u know it . divide n subtract!!!!! i NEVER use divide or subtract bc theyre impossible#but fr this??? its like they were made for it oh my god#it makes the greys look translucent n all my textures pop in a way that makes them appear splotchy n Bruised#which ws the whole point thts the Look god i am so PLEASED#when the layer modes tht notoriously get No love finally find their niche <33 peace and love <333#filing this away fr later i am going 2 have a lot of fun with this new information i think#im very happy w how the colours look n i dont think anything else wld have kept the right Mood#but i am always so >:/ when i have to use a palette tht forces me into giving megumi blue eyes#had to set aside th green eyed megu agenda fr the Aesthetic unfortunately#anyway i knew from the minute i saw it that i wanted to do smth involving the opening panel of 268#bc that panel is S tier#i figured tht if nothing came 2 me i wld just redraw it as-is bc it's alr so good but as i ws sketching i was like#u know what u havent done in a while? art tht looks like u r going Insane#art tht makes ur family ask whether everything is ok#so i once again tucked megumi's knees up 2 his chest and apologized insincerely to him fr making the third megumi angst piece in a row#:)
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Osamu Miya (23) owner of Onigiri Miya, your hand in marriage PLEASE
this tweet was the inspo btw:
#me: im artblocked :(#also me: suddenly sees a random tweet and does this drawing in like 30 minutes#im going insane#anyways#my art#fanart#haikyuu#miya osamu#inarizaki#onigiri miya#haikyuu time skip#redraw#anatomy#art#digital art#digital illustration#mlm#los onigiris están buenos pero el cocinero aún más#a shame if you dont know spanish sorry guys
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legend has it that the young witch circe and the once beautiful nymph scylla shared a complicated past...
#art#cirscylla#that's the ship name i like for them best anyway#circe#scylla#greek mythology#welcome to my greek mythos yuri#DOOMED YURI#circylla#epic the musical#do i even tag it as that? i think i should cuz epic is the reason im so into greek mythos#jorge said we might get a spinoff about their backstory and im insane over that#i know it's probably going to be about how circe loved that one guy but still a girl can dream#this is them but younger! before circe turns scylla into the horrific man-eating monster that even poseiden fears#there's just so much potential here#consider a younger and much warier circe landing on the island for the first time after being outcasted by her family for her magic#and she meets scylla there who back then is a much happier and playful person#enemies to lovers to enemies again#i don't know if they ever make it to lovers or if they were only an almost#they're about to have the worst breakup in greek history#im rambling in tags MY BAD
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1.05 / Battle of the Labyrinth
#I FEEL SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS#percy jackson#pjo tv show#percy jackson and the olympians#pjotv#percabeth#pjo#screaming crying#mine#100#500#1k#5k#im in the middle of packing and this sent me frantically looking for my copies of pjo#anyway#i feel so insane i feel like im gonna die can anyone hear me. CAN ANYONE HEAR ME#annabeth has been so disconnected from the mortal world and just so fundamentally unable to enjoy her childhood#it makes me want to sob like seriously#i hope her and percy go on so many movie dates. like#not even just her and percy i hope percy tells grover and word spreads around camp and movie nights just become a thing at camp#because all these babies deserve it#god im gonna die. im seriously gonna die#WE KNOW THERE'S AN ORIENTATION VIDEO#SO THEY HAVE A PROJECTOR AND A SCREEN#MOVIE NIGHTS COULD HAPPEN!!!#okay bye. i'm going to go scream about percabeth some more
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double victory, was it? (it doesn't feel like one)
i saw a post about 3L!Grian meeting SL!Scar, but since SL!scar never died i figured he can't see any of the winners nor join them before the next session, and they appear before him as shadows. also, i thought 3L!Grian would be really happy to see a scenario where scar didnt die by his hand and actually won.
❀ bonus sketch ☘
#someone has probably done this before but i. dont. care. i wanted to draw scarian angst anyway#i dont do well with lore but my braincells are trying their best#trafficshipping#scarian#desertduo#trafficblr#life series#grian#goodtimeswithscar#gtws#3rd life smp#third life#secret life#watcher grian#grian fanart#goodtimeswithscar fanart#mcyt#my art#also sorry. i rewatched grians finale ep and howd he go from TRAITOR! to oh no i cant kill you :(#how could you FOLD that QUICKLY . im baffled lol#also i just had to say secret life red life scar skin. so beautiful#and lilacs and poppies? i know theyre scarian flowers at this point but to me its very grian#like wearing that on your outfit... sir sl!scar do you even remember what those flowers mean. are you yearning for something u dont remembe#im going insane#and here I THOUGHT im not going to get into any ships. im a clown#AU - Shadow Winners
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@/coma_0423’s cursed cat alastor will bring you happiness ♥️
Lulu scolds the cat
#I could’ve sworn I posted this doodle#I took a break from drawing stuff to doodle this lol#I’m learning clip studio paint! it’s very exciting but challenging so things are moving slow#rn I’m working on the anthology comic#but then back to my bullshit#but school starts next week#hnggg#im sure I’ll find time to slack off tho and draw#also unrelated to that but related to this post#is it weird that it’s so important to me that everyone knows cursedcatalastor’s author#he really became a sensation#which is cool as hell#but idk I just like the thought that people know who designed this lil guy#ESPECIALLY WHEN PPL TRY TO MONETIZE UGH THAT MAKES ME SO UPSET#anyway lemme go make brekky sorry for rambling#tho if you’re reading this#why do u read all my tags im literally an insane person#okay gtg bye ily#hazbin hotel#my doods#hazbin hotel fanart#alastor#cursed cat alastor#liked by creator#forgot that one#lol it’s what reminded me to post this here in the first place
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pvp civ nation...... this aint much but pls take my contribution for this series bc im going insane i love hate this man so much get him out of my head
#senart#pvp civilization#pvp civ#I'LL MAKE A PROPER ONE I SWEARR I JUST NEED TO GET THIS OUT OF MYSYSTEM FIRST#if it turns out he gets a bad ending in ep 6 i dont think i'll be ok like#he deserves a good ending . or a villain arc at least. he deserves to go batshit crazy after how everyone treated him#ALSOO the chekovs gun video journal device thing?? The excessive 4th wall breaking?#Is it just me or does jt feel like evbo is gonna lose his memory/already lost his memory and was sent to the wood sword lvl with tabi#or like . Idk?? It feels kind of truman show ish. Well maybe not that but its just the vibe im getting w the way that everyone has their-#-own secrets. How the diamond swords seems to know who evbo n tabi is. How princezam knows about the diamond swords#and then theres also parrot whos just?? Weird overall?? Idk whats going on w him but i need to know his backstory wdym u think evbo will-#-hate you if he knows what you did??#ANYWAY BACK TO THE VIDEO JOURNAL AND POTENTIAL MEMORY LOSS.#I dont want jt to go that way (mostly bc i dont want to see evbo suffer more than he already did) but it rlly does seem like its heading to#that direction w the way that it also has become a way to narrate what he went through (ie when the ep shows his attempts to beat the-#gold sword lvl but hes narrating it from the future. from his video journal. where he already beat the lvl)#im going insane#Wait also what i meant by the truman show vibe in relation to the excessive 4th wall breaks it makes it sound like pvp civ is just a -#simulation#wait i just remembered its the matrix not that mb umm#anyways.#empty chattering
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