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i've been playing outer wilds and what a wild fucking game let me tell you
#i did not realize it was a time loop game until i got stranded in the middle of the solar system and closed the loop for the first time#like i thought i was gonna asphyxiate but NOPE#moment of silence for the time my ship got eaten by the sun because it was on the interloper#anyway i'm bad at video games#outer wilds
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posting this with absolutely no context
#am i a cryptid now? i log on like once in a blue moon to post cringe and then leave again#ace attorney#apollo justice#tikki#random stuff#my stuff#ooookay okay okay okay. anyone reading the tags can have a LITTLE context‚ as a treat#so. sitting on my ao3 currently is an unfinished fic with exactly this premise#i want to finish it so bad. it haunts me every day. people leave such nice comments and everything#but i just have no motivation. trust me i've tried#i thought that perhaps drawing it might finally kick my brain back into gear#i'm so sorry readers i'm sorry i WILL finish it i promise it's not abandoned#it was so much fuuuuun#tikki are you seeing this. cringefail author who keeps playing video games instead of writing lmao#anyway goodbye friends i am gone again. logging off once more
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I'm still seeing a lot of angry takes in the tags about how excessive Watcher's current costs are and how all fans really want, apparently, is "just shane and ryan sitting in a basement" back again. While I do think Watcher is probably spending over budget and that's a real issue, a lot of the takes I'm seeing show a fundamental misunderstanding of how video production works and where costs actually lie. So a few quick things that I just keep seeing that are bothering me:
It was never just Shane and Ryan in a basement. BFU did a great job selling that conceit and making sure you never saw anyone beyond them and maybe TJ, but they absolutely had other crew members with them on ghost hunts and they didn't do all the work on BFU themselves. This Q&A from Season 2 lists 36 people on staff for Buzzfeed Unsolved. It's fair to make arguments that Watcher may or may not need 25 people, but those arguments should not be coming from a place of "before it was just Shane and Ryan and nobody else."
If you don't know how many people are needed to make a professional video from a TV/film standpoint, you will not have a reasonable grasp of why Watcher wants to keep 25 people on staff. Sure, some YouTubers get by with a ring light and a contracted editor. The Watcher team have stated repeatedly that they do not want to work as just YouTubers and see themselves more as a production studio—so why do people keep referencing the YouTube model to understand their business? This is like asking the local shake shop why it doesn't function like the kids' lemonade stand down the block. The item category is similar but they're not trying for the same products or process.
The "gold dusted food" is not the big budget sink you think it is. On most TV shows I've worked on it's normal to partner with businesses that are shown onscreen and work out a deal where the price of the product (in this case the gold food) is reduced or eliminated in exchange for the free publicity. Watcher very likely made a deal with every restaurant it worked with to make the Korea trip affordable for the company. The real budget spends are on things you're probably not seeing but that still matter: camera and lighting equipment is expensive, insurance for that equipment is expensive, business overhead and paying your staff are expensive. So again—it's fine to critique Watcher for the streaming plan and the perceived budgetary issues, but go into this knowing the costs might not be coming from the things you see onscreen.
My source is that I work in TV and film and actually have a clue on how the industry functions. Again, 36 people worked on Unsolved (and those were the people mention in Season 2—who knows how big the team blew up past that in later seasons). Entertainment work is real work, and demands decent equipment, competent staff, and the same types of business and budget problems you'd find in any other business (overhead, staffing, etc.). Feel free to critique Watcher's business model, but first try to understand where that model is coming from and what goals it's attempting to serve.
#watcher#watcher entertainment#rant! sorry! couldn't see another take from someone who clearly thinks video work is just fun and games because “it's entertainment right”#funny how people expect normal business costs and problems for any other career but if it's involved with production they think everything#just magically happens and is made entirely by the onscreen talent. nutso#anyway i think watcher is probably trying its best; maybe got too overexcited; but cares about quality of life for its employees and#wants no one working to the bone. which is admirable! the streaming service was a bad idea but they're not the literal devil like some thin#they're 3 self described idiots doing this for the first time. they backpedaled. i don't see this as the death of the company & i'm gonna#keep supporting them :)
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his biggest sin was having blue hair and pronouns.
#artists on tumblr#digital art#illustration#art#faith#faith the unholy trinity#john ward#father john ward#hiii heyyy#watching videos abt this game got me out of some very bad mental state like wow#he's narratorcoded#bro is played by edward norton idc#anyways loved the game sm and I tried replicating the plai color on black style while maintaining my type of rendering#also I figured out thst adding additional lineart after the shading makes things kinda more organic#like it's not all a messy mix of colors#so proud of having done this in around an hour#also dw I'll still post fight club but I need to draw some other stuff as well or I'll get tired of drawing the same three prople all over#stage is going really well#feeling workercore workerpilled workercoded#huhu going to sleep cause I'm sealing my casket with this late hour stunt#bye bye <3#martyryo
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I watched a part of today's Nintendo Direct and RAMONA FRIGGIN' FLOWERS FROM SCOTT PILGRIM IS GOING TO BE A PLAYABLE CHARACTER IN THE NEW FUNKO FUSION GAME LET'S GOOOOO!!
Bonus: SCOTT, STEPHEN AND GIDEON ARE GONNA BE HERE TOO AAAA I'M DYING OF HAPPINESS
Bonus 2: two more Scott Pilgrims (the original and the back of his head for no reason)
Bonus 3 (6/19/24): I JUST NOTICED THAT THE FRIGGIN' KATAYANAGI TWINS STAGE FROM THE MOVIE IS IN THE GAME TOO GAAHH HOW DID I MISS THAT?!
And big dragon too...There they are if you want proof :) You can just see part of the twins' heads for now...time to update my tags 😅 Can't wait to see what Funko!Scott's world looks like!!
Just wanted to share them all because AAA SO EXCITING!! 😄
#emilylsart talk#scott pilgrim#scott pilgrim vs the world#ramona flowers#stephen stills#gideon graves#gordon goose#funko pop#funko fusion video game#nintendo direct#sorry for the poor quality on these screenshots these were all taken on my YouTube app lol#i don't know why there are two stephens in the third screenshot maybe he's an alt. skin/rare or something??#maybe if they announce a DLC they'll have more Scott Pilgrim movie characters?? ehh who knows?#anyways I'm glad the Scott Pilgrim movie is being appreciated more in video game form 😁#I actually LOVE collecting Pop figures ok?! I don't care what anyone says about them they're COOL and such#I know the video game may look bad but I HAVE to give it a try when it comes out#maybe. we'll see#oh the “great Scott” joke was kinda funny though#it shows Scott when the line is said and then “is that Marty McFly??” is said seconds before showing Marty lol#ok i'll stop talking now 😅#katayanagi twins#kyle katayanagi#ken katayanagi
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#impidimp#i've been finally giving skyward sword a proper playthrough recently#it's one of those games that i played a good amount as a kid but‚ crucially‚ was very bad at as a kid because i was not good at video games#which means i never really got very far into it. and so i've been giving it the proper time it deserves recently. and the faron woods ost#has been replaying in my head. over and over. and i'm listening to it as i do these this morning#anyway. more Tonguish angle under the cut
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Rain World is so cool i’d love to actually play it someday
#Rain World#looks to the moon#lttm#five pebbles#5p#looks to the moon rain world#five pebbles rain world#my art#i'm bad at games and i have no money i've been living vicariously through daszombes' videos#i love the iterators they're so funny#you meet a supercomputer the size of a province tasked with finding the menaing of life and they open their mouth and they're a reddit mod#anyway playing with the human-ish to mippy ratio
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i've seen the minecraft movie trailer
who was the writer that decided to make steve reference "the children yearn for the mines"
i just want to talk
no ignore the baseball bat in my hands
#ashton is talking#minecraft movie#everything else about the trailer sucks ass as well#'there are evil forces trying to destroy this world'#and they cut to the piglins#you know#the guys that just chill in the nether#and are relatively harmless so long as you're wearing gold/don't hurt/steal from them#yeah i'm#i'm sure they're a huge threat to the world#uh huh#god i already hate the iseki'd into a video game angle they're taking#but to then add a boring 'evil forces are destroying this world' angle on top that we've seen a million times?#i feel bad for any writers that had actually good ideas but were shot down for this cheap cash grab slop#god forbid we just use minecraft as a setting and make a story set in it a la minecraft: story mode!#anyways i'm so sorry msm i was too harsh to you#what's funny is so many youtubers with little to no budget have created FAR better stories just by playing minecraft#shoutout to my childhood that was the haunting of herobrine series#shame what's happened to it but that was far better story telling than a movie with probably millions of dollars behind it could make#although i do swear to the stars above if herobrine shows up in the movie SO HELP ME-
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took advantage of what may apparently be the last quiet qsmp night for a WHILE to watch through some day 1 vods, since i didn't hop on the train until mid april. holy SHIT there is gold in those metaphorical hills. one day i gotta make a compilation fr but it is so tedious the way i get clips.
anyway here's a collection of highlights:
#qsmp#block game brainrot#shut up vic#for those of you who might not have time to watch a million hours of livestreams lol#a few day 1 gems i haven't seen mentioned recently#can MAYBE find time stamps for those if requested#i was watching phil bad and foolish though i jumped around i didn't watch straight through#i have some time but i don't have 'catch up on qsmp' time#OTHERWISE MAYBE I'D WRITE THE GODDAMN SLIMERIANA TIME LOOP AU GRRRRRRRRR#my brain goes nuts over it constantly but grr grrrr grrrr i didn't see flippa live bc she was DEAD WHEN I ARRIVED#AND I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR MANY VODS SCREAMS.#AND!!! I DON'T!!!!! SPEAK SPANISH!!!!!!!!#anyway lol if anybody knows fast convenient ways to clip vods either on youtube or twitch but mostly youtube lmk#(and by clip i mean 'get video files' idk how clipping works on twitch bc literally qsmp is the only reason i'm on twitch)#anyway it's 4 am enjoy these unhinged tags goodnight 😴#bbh may have fixed his sleep schedule (allegedly) but balance must be restored to the universe apparently lol#long tags
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the problem with me is I really really love RPGs but I've only ever played like five that have actually been what I'm looking for (KotOR 1 & 2, DA:O, F:NV, and BG3). I keep trying new ones hoping I'll find more that match up, but they're all Just Okay (Outer Worlds), bad (Fallout 3), or just not what I'm after (my brief attempt at playing DA:2).
anyway after playing and enjoying BG3 so much, I bought the Divinity: Original Sin games and tried to play D:OS2. got bored after barely getting past the tutorial in my first attempt and went back and replayed BG3 instead. tried again after finishing that playthrough, got a little further and then got bored again. bought BG1 and tried to play that. accidentally shot a magic missile at one of the first guys I spoke to and killed him. pandemonium in the streets. quickly closed the game, still haven't gone back to it.
just bought Planescape Torment and started playing that. will this time be different? we'll see 👍
#I'm actually enjoying it a lot already so maybe#so far it's very funny at least#anyway I WILL try to finish all of these games eventually (and Fallout 1 which I got for free recently)#(and Jade Empire which I started ages ago and also lost interest in)#oh there was also The Witcher which I tried playing in 2020 but tbh I have no interest in finishing that#oh AND I was playing Dishonored awhile back but it also didn't grab me#I'm sorry I'm so bad at video games...#Ranger's gaming adventures
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Where's that one BTS video in which Ohm and Nanon are on a bed and Nanon is trying to give an interview and Ohm keeps poking at him the whole time while Nanon casually swipes his hand away?
#yes I'm aware they had a falling out#but it's a cute video and I want to show it to my roommate because it reminds me of that scene in ep 4 of BB#the one right before the game in which Pat keeps grabbing at Pran#besides my roommate doesn't know that they had a falling out and is unlikely to find out unless I tell them#which I see no reason to do#why must the fandom pain be shared#anyways#bad buddy#patpran#ohmnanon#pranpat
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Some important stuff in regards to the harassment of developers came from Bungie today. They won a lawsuit against a guy who repeatedly harassed a community manager and his family (not fully confirmed in the official document, but people are fairly certain this is about A_dmg and his family). This is a twitter thread from the lawyer who went into some details about the situation. The court document is also available to read (featuring some of the horrific harassment tactics that were motivated by racism and also used racism as part of the harassment so be advised if you want to read).
This isn't just a win for the individual community manager and Bungie, but also has potential to set a bigger precedent in the future. It's basically the first time this has been done to this extent and some ruling in this case made it clear that companies can pursue this sort of legal action in the future if their employees are harassed and threatened. This is HUGE because the protection of employees in the gaming industry has been abysmal otherwise. This case will allow for the company to file a lawsuit on behalf of their employees in cases of harassment.
Before I add some of the more heinous stuff about this situation below, I want to say that the majority of reactions to this are positive. People are happy that this happened as it did and a lot of people are excited about potential big influence this will have in the future to combatting harassment of this type in the gaming industry.
Extra details and thoughts below (racism tw):
This started because the community manager highlighted a black content creator, Uhmayyze, who is himself a victim of harassment more often than not (usually of racist nature). He is most often harassed because he is unapologetically positive for which people have continuously sent him awful shit and comments. Because he enjoys the game and isn't jumping on the hate train. Just recently he commended Bungie for a ban wave and had hundreds of people hound him on twitter for his comment, including Gladd who started it by specifically replying to Uhmayyze and putting him on blast (warning for a lot of gross comments, including photoshopped screenshots of fake discord texts to make Uhmayyze look bigoted, nsfw images, r slur, suicide baiting and so on). This is important because the incident of real life harassment was fuelled over a community manager highlighting a content creator that is himself being harassed and despised online for the crime of... being positive. And you know, for being black. This situation isn't an isolated incident. The community, including other content creators, are absolutely horrible towards this one person that they feel, I guess, does not follow the content creator NPC questline of hating Bungie and Destiny.
So of course, at some point, someone from that crowd will feel confident and justified taking things further. How dare Bungie promote this person they hate. How dare they focus on a positive creator. They're clearly biased and don't want to listen to criticism, only to "toxic positivity" streamer. How dare a community manager highlight this creator. It's a personal slight to them, and "proof" that Bungie is bad and evil and "ignoring criticism." There's someone out there (and probably not the only one) that hates this creator and the game so much they were willing to harass and threaten a community manager and his family in real life.
The community manager was first harassed by phone with text messages and voice mails featuring racist bile, including apparently a voice mail telling him to "convince Bungie to create options in its game in which only persons of color would be killed." This is the worst part for me and super concerning in general, as well as showing the dedication of this person to racism, motivated by his hatred of a black creator (which also, by proxy, technically makes the streamer being harassed as well). Absolutely ghoulish behaviour.
This escalated to also harassing the CM's wife and resulted in doxing them; the harasser somehow found their address. Most of the reports on this will say that the asshole "sent them pizza" which doesn't truly capture how horrific the incident was. First, it's a random guy who has your address which is concerning enough given that he harasses you by phone already. Apparently the pizza was made to be "inedible" and the delivery was instructed to bang loudly on the door upon arrival to maximise discomfort. The order was also deliberately made to be paid on delivery to create as much pain for the victims as possible. The harasser also kept track of the delivery and then called the family again when it was done to tell them to "enjoy the pizza." The family immediately contacted Bungie who contacted the police and provided the family with protection. There's no telling how this would've escalated had they not been in the position to call Bungie and had Bungie not reacted to them asking for help. It's absolutely crucial here that Bungie is the type of a company willing to immediately assist in this situation.
Immediately following that, Bungie organised a long and expensive manhunt to identify the harasser and bring them court. That's where most of the expenses went; finding the culprit and protecting the employee and his family. This is the money Bungie earned back by this court decision because they could prove that the expenses were caused by a person harassing and threatening their employee.
This is a big win overall for the whole industry. It's Bungie setting a precedent on how a company should protect its employees. No matter what people think about Bungie or big corporations or whatever, this is how you can use a lot of money and power to make sure that your workers have rights to decency and safety. That's huge for the rights of workers and worker protections. I hope it becomes a standard and that any future harassment is prevented altogether or at least punished accordingly.
Naturally, the commentary on the news from a big part of the community is super positive. Unfortunately, there's also a part of the community that has a lot of really awful shit to say about this. The comments on twitter are littered with people who are using THIS specific moment to yell about Bungie being a greedy corporation, how the money they won should be used to "fix the servers" and "make more pvp maps" or how Bungie will greedily put this money "into Eververse" or "into Marathon." There's comments about how time was uselessly spent protecting an employee who should expect harassment anyway, instead of working on "fixing the game."
This is what I mean when I talk about how impossible it is in the current situation to have a meaningful discussion about any sort of criticism or feedback. There's thousands of comments from people who think that this specific instance shows how Bungie is greedy. This is what I mean when I say that none of these people actually understand what they're talking about. You can't make proper criticism when you can't separate game development with a company's legal effort to stop an escalating harassment campaign of an employee. The majority of gamers are simply not fit to offer any criticism or feedback. The idea that we all have something useful to say and that employees at Bungie are obliged to give us their time of the day is simply incorrect.
I genuinely 100% stand by the claim that the recent barrage of content creators promoting the idea that Bungie is "the greediest company in the world that's scamming players and increasing costs out of greed" as well as the idea that Bungie is "abandoning Destiny for Marathon, isn't working on the game anymore and is deliberately ruining it" is the reason for these comments existing. If a big streamer said that Bungie is getting too much money but also not doing anything "good" with it, then any money that Bungie receives (including compensation for expenses they took to protect an employee from active harm) is a result of greed. The nuance of any situation is lost; when you only learn the mantra of "company has money therefore company bad" you WILL end up causing harm for people and you will most definitely not be an advocate of workers rights. That's where we're at right now.
The dehumanisation of people who work at Bungie (and the harassment itself) is a consequence of this crap and other similar crap that's been thrown into the ether for the past year, disguised as "we're just offering feedback." People heard that Bungie is a "microtransaction hell" and that Bungie is only investing in Eververse and Marathon and they feel like this story reflects that; they feel like an employee being harassed is not deserving of proper condemnation and that this isn't important enough and that Bungie is a greedy corpo anyway so who cares about that. They do not understand how companies work, how games are made, the state of the industry as a whole (or the world as a whole), the treatment of employees or workers' rights, and you cannot meaningfully critique a company's business practices without understanding that. And they don't because they think that legal expenses used to protect victims, finding a culprit and bringing their ass to court is money that is being used for game development and that Bungie receiving this money should result in... new pvp maps or "fixed servers."
And there's even seemingly good commentary where people recognise how this is good, but they initiate the comment with "As much as I hate Bungie and Destiny and I think they're awful and greedy and destroying gaming as a whole..." : that's not the time and place. You don't have to excuse your support of a big win for potential new employee protection policies just because those policies are done by a company. Of course it is. Companies are the only ones capable of pursuing this sort of legal action. It's one good way a big company can put their power and money into a good place to actually help people and bring forth positive change. And like, you don't have to tell us how much you despise Bungie before you're "allowed" to admit that this is good news. Sometimes companies do good stuff. It's literally not that complicated.
I hope that this situation will help other employees demand the same protection, that other companies will follow suit and that this will also make potential other harassers rethink whether or not they will engage in this or similar type of behaviour. In the meantime, know that the community is largely positive about this, but that there are still absolutely detestable human beings who should feel ashamed of their reaction to this. They shouldn't feel welcome here. And there's still people doing this to the devs and I hope Bungie takes their asses to court too.
#destiny 2#bungie#long post#this was a lot and i'm glad it had a happy ending#reading some of the comments unfortunately added to my depression tenfold#as usual the best thing to do if you feel strongly against a content creator or a video game is to leave#simply leaving would've stopped this whole thing#it's why that's my go to response to people who feel super strongly about how bungie is the worst#bro if bungie is the worst thing ever then your feedback will NOT change shit and you gotta go do something else#like if you still enjoy the game and have some criticism that's fine! i do too!#but if your entire online personality is criticism of bungie you gotta rethink your priorities#before you turn into this guy who will owe bungie 500k until the rest of his life#especially if you're a creator with a reach of tens of thousands of people or more. you gotta be careful with what you say#because your words WILL entice this behaviour. there is someone in your audience who will go too far#anyway. wanted this off my chest this whole situation has been super fucked up#and the brunt of it started around the time criticism started getting really bad last year#end of haunted-start of plunder + lightfall showcase which had massive harassment of trans employees online#we have not known peace since then and neither have bungie employees apparently#genuinely disheartening that people can act this way about a video game
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i don't think difficulty and challenge should be a litmus test for whether or not a game is "good"
first of all, how good a game is entirely depends on the person. like a game that one person hates might be a game that someone else loves
second of all, remember the animal crossing craze when acnh came out? i don't think that's an especially challenging game, but it's still beloved. games that aren't challenging can be beloved
third of all, maybe those of us who suck at games maybe want a game that's easy for once? 🤷🏼
#anyways saw a bad take dont want to mention what this is about specifically#i get judged whenever i tell people how long it takes me to beat games aodjeifjdkfjdjd#i just beat pikmin 1 last year and i grew up on those games (still havent beaten pikmin 2. or 3.)#i spent 2 HOURS on the totk ganondorf fight. i wish i was joking he kept beating my ass 😭😭😭#three YEARS to even make it to hades (and like 3 days to beat chronos. dont. dont ask.)#(i'm sooo inconsistent)#four years to beat oot too#unless i go deep into hyperfixation it can take anywhere between 6 months to 5 years to beat a video game#some games i just never finished sidjskdj. super paper mario i am always thinking about you#wind waker also stays in the 'never finished' category#(played it on emulator and i dont want to emulate on my current pc)#(it was given to me and i dont want to be like 'oh yeah btw i'm illegally playing wind waker on it lmao')#twilight princess as well because i just really hate chase sequences and never got past palace of twilight#so that also stays unfinished and has for the past 3 years#minish cap........ f in the chat for the shortest zelda game i have never finished
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I was enjoying Grimshire, but now that I'm seeing its "everything can and will die at some point, even cute things" philosophy- something I understand and absolutely respect- I'm having some second thoughts
#again I'm not saying its a bad thing- quite the opposite!#I think it's an aspect of ''cozy'' games that gets glossed over or ignored for the sake of the players' comfort#so Grimshire making it a core mechanic of its gameplay is new and interesting- at least for me#I'm just wondering if it's something I personally want to engage with#or if I just want to stick with Stardew and move on with my life#anyway#this is suddenly a video game blog#Grimshire
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probably late to the party; found a cute game called "slime rancher"~~
it's about exploring a planet 1,000 light years away from earth~~ and creatures known as slimes that you.... uh...... stick in corrals and farm.... hence the name~~~
should I try to be as efficient as possible? or just chill and enjoy the game?
I have this problem with cozy games like this; like sprout valley, I'll try to be efficient with it, or just go way too hard on the grinding and burn myself out~~~
which isn't what cozy style games are for I'll take it....
they're chill and supposed to be fun and relaxing~~~
so why am I like this with these games? why do I go so hard and then burn myself out? I'm not chill, but I want to be~~~ chill, calm, enjoy the slower pace of the game~~~
how would you play most efficiently anyway? I just started the game before attempting to go to bed, and ended up on tumblr instead, lol.
Is an adorably cozy game tho and the pink slime and art style are adorable~~~
is there lore? no spoilers please~~~
what happens if I just free range the chickens and don't set up a corral for them?
#personal#thoughts#thinking#text#text post#game#video game#nintendo switch#it's the switch version#slime rancher#cute slime game#cozy#cozy game#if it falls under that umbrella anyway#I'm not chill w cozy games#and have a tendency to grind and go way too hard#end up burning myself out after a while#why am I like this#did it with sprout valley#and don't want to do it here~~#seems like a fun and chill game#I hope I can actually chill and play it slowly#question#questions#I want a slime plush so bad they're so adorable
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I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent
#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little#bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the#very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the#house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks#Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a#gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a#treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of#color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration#like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a#auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies#so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk#and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver#but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and#sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an#active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have#been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start#to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've#done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!'#(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks#with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm#secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool#stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers#me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or#it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for#too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been#investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely#enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed#google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj#LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!
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