#anyway food for thought cause

[ponuchuu]

ngl but i thought about how niko's arrest might have actually helped him somewhat

if it weren't for his arrest, he probably would have continued with his crime and in the process got corrupted by it. you can only preach to do bad for good until it entirely consumed your own twisted sense of moral

how long would it be before he realised sometimes bad people can get away scott free ? how long would he realized no matter how good you contributed to the world, it would not guaranteed you a good ending ? how long would it take for him to take the initial to get rid of all these people he deemed not worthy of life ?

in a while his mind was near ruined, rejecting a part of his human due to grief and it lead him to do bad thing while preaching the name of good, and even if while during the time he was active he did do good to a few, how long would it take him to succumbed to the harsh reality of the world ?

it could even be seen with what i have for his story quest 1, where he was closed to killing the detective causing his ruins in the first place, ultimately decided he's not who he used to be anymore and anything he was planning to do would deemed him no better than the man in front of him

being arrested and put on trial is scary, frightening but not all blessing comes in pretty

[clouvu]

Cooking up an older Clervie outfit design so I don't have to keep drawing her looking like her child self but Long

[starry-bi-sky]

how do you clone a fey? that's trick question; and fey love those!

@the-navistar-carol (<333) brought up a good point while I was talking about my changeling danny au with her -- Dani! How would she exist in this au? Danny's a changeling - a fae. How would Dani, a clone of him, be created? How do you make a fey? Not through any means that Vlad is doing; you can't make a fey through unnatural means, considering the Fair Folk are nature. And Vlad's not a fey himself -- he's a halfa, even if he could make a fey, it's not in his best interest too. He's a powerful ghost, but even the weakest fae can overpower the strongest ghost. He won't want a clone of Daniel to be more powerful than him.

(In a three tier hierarchy it goes Ancients -> Fae/Mythos -> Ghosts. They all live in the Infinite Realms, but on different Planes. The fae live above the Ghost Zone in the Fey Wild, while the Mythos live beside the Wilds or down in the ghost zone depending on where they are. Places like the Frozone, the Athens Acropolis, and other such large islands climb throughout all three Planes.)

(While Ghosts can travel into the Fey Wild, its generally advised against as the ectoplasm tends to manifest differently there due to close contact magic. It can make it rather disorientating for a ghost, and as human spirits, the Fae living there would jump them faster than they could blink. So unless you're willing to play mind games with 'steal thy name eat thy face' fae, most ghosts keep out of the way of the Wilds. Fey can travel down into the Ghost Zone, they just don't bother.)

That's of course, not taking into account if Vlad even knows Danny's a fae himself. Vlad doesn't ring me as someone who really cares much about ghost culture or the going ons of the GZ. He might be aware that fae exist, but the moment he realizes he can't use them for personal gain he just doesn't bother with them. The risk is greater than the reward, and he'd rather not get eaten. But lets assume he's aware by now that Danny is fey, and has to take that into account while cloning him.

So, how does Dani exist? Good question! Honestly; i'm not sure. She might not exist at all, or if she does, she's more halfa than fey. Vlad would need a lot of human dna and ectoplasm to balance out all that fae magic. He manages to steal DNA from Jack and Maddie to do it, and since Jack's fey ancestry is very dormant its much easier to use alongside Danny's DNA.

In turn, it results in a little girl whose more human-ghost hybrid than clone. With that little extra boost in fey magic making her not a fey, but still relatively powerful. Dani is less of a clone and more of a lab-grown little sister. It's a rather tedious, complex process that has Vlad tearing his hair out trying to figure out. But he does eventually figure it out.

[fatedroses]

Finally I draw the flipside of the scary adventuring duo that is estinien and zenos. aka one man using the other as a third eye blindfold and the other being absolutely dead to the world because cozy (until he overheats in two hours and is unable to escape).

[basslinegrave]

whatchu thinking about. nothing? just the changes to garys design and his character evolution and growth and everything. 24/7. you know. and the fact that even if he changed, hes still the same at his core!

[emily-mooon]

Noticed there wasn’t a ton of photocheer fanart and I wanted to change that (which why isn’t there more these two dorks are so cute together!!!!)

[alexalblondo]

disordered eating but in a late diagnosed ADHD way where you used food to self medicate growing up and also regulate your emotions leading to a super duper unhealthy relationship with food and taking away your natural ability to read your bodies needs so you work hard to separate your emotions from food except you overcorrect and now you are unable to eat when there’s an emotion and also you tend to ignore your bodies needs cause it’s nice when you don’t feel like your whole life is controlled by every lil basic need you could feel except it’s an overcorrection and food no longer gives you pleasure and is just this huge thing that needs way too much effort and time that you hate a lot so you ignore your body when you can which gives you new health issues which makes food even less fun which puts you into this vicious cycle of food in fact being the enemy

[ghostbeam]

Fwb with Oliver who expects he’ll have to break things off once you get too attached but it’s worth it for a little fun except u never get too attached in fact ur the one who has to tell him it’s over bc he’s gotten too clingy

[moe-broey]

Men only want ONE THING and it's DISGUSTING (Guy who's uour best friend who's always happy to see you who visibly lights up and sparkles when you enter the room who's comstantly looking out for you and doting on yiu just a little bit and making sure you're taken care of and who you trust so mucj so completely that you can share a bath and sleep side by side amd you'rw. Best Friwneds...)

AND YET. AND YET. Moe has something Worse than self-loathing going on. Like this is just denial at this point. And for WHAT (PSYCHOLOGICAL REASONS. IT'S SO DIRE)

[one-vivid-judgment]

Fuck it, we making BeerKluen be absolutely and disgustingly in love to the point TanFang's spot as the most ridiculously whipped couple in existence is actually threatened, simply cause no one can stop me and I know Beer would treat him right.

[chiistarri]

if i had a more fem face it would be over for all yall 🙄

[empresskadia]

You know what's a crazy concept to me now that I think about

That people actually read my tags???

Like all my unhinged simping, thoughts, and absolute filth that goes through my brain go there and people read that....

Yes, I'm delusional as hell, and yes, my coworker tells me I need professional help 😌

[agendratum]

here's a little thing i wrote on subway rides after my night shifts inspired by the tags on this post and by this post.

"did you ever..." porsche trailed off without finishing his words.

pete looked up at him, confused. they were taking a break together after one of the jobs went less than smoothly. smoking quietly, resemblance of comfort in each other's presence. that wasn't the kind of comfort, if that could be an applicable word here, pete got around vegas in these situations, but it was still nice. besides, today vegas wasn't with them. pete thought it might have been a part of the problem.

porsche exhaled a puff of smoke.

"i mean you and vegas are kinda alike in these ways, right? but it must have started before him. remember that first job i followed you to? you were really calm about the whole thing back then. it was different, right? i mean, he was just some guy after all.. and i know kinn doesn't stomach these things quite like that too so-"

pete was desperately trying to follow porsche's extremely awkward train of thought. the straight-forward guy that he usually was, sometimes he really could not get to the point. coincidentally most of these times were related to "the ways pete and vegas were kinda alike".

"porsche, what the fuck are you talking about?"

pete tapped the ash off his cigarette. pete wasn't sure he wanted to answer whatever porsche was trying to ask.

"sorry, you know how i get when we have to do this shit. feels weird."

"still not used to it."

that pete could understand. porsche was porsche, and porsche wasn't of this world and sometimes pete wished back then, before everything had gone too far, given the chance, porsche would have agreed to leave. it would have been better for porsche, he knew. but pete tried not to linger too long on all the could have beens.

"yeah..." porsche laughed awkwardly. "just one more reason for vegas to hate me even more for taking this place."

pete frowned, pursing his lips.

"are you trying to tell me you care about vegas' approval in any of this?"

porsche huffed.

"no, no, that's not what i mean. it's just- it's not like he didn't know what he was doing. pete, you also- i think you also knew what you were doing."

pete was getting more confused and concerned by the second.

"what i'm trying to say is - did you ever got answers out of anyone in that way. not the brutal kind of way, the methodical one."

ah. here it is.

"like the way vegas did it?" he prompted, as calm as ever. took another long drag.

he knew porsche was uncomfortable. pete? wasn't really feeling either way. he could feel the skin tight around his body. he blinked, he knew how to do that.

"not quite like vegas."

he knew how his fingers were supposed to hold the cigarette so it looked natural. so no one could tell he had to move them manually. how to take another drag like other people did it. let the smoke out of the body, aware of how it moves inside of it. the body was a simple thing to control.

"and you're right, kinn didn't really stomach it that well."

pete really didn't feel much about the whole thing. he just had to move his eyelids cause his eyes, just like every other person's eyes, needed moisture. shift his legs, cause people get tired sitting in the same position. natural. like every other human did. pete just really didn't want to make porsche upset.

he wished vegas was with them tonight. if he was there, they wouldn't have been having this conversation. if he was there, pete wouldn't have to hold his skin so tightly around himself. they would have already been home by this time probably. taking it off.

he indeed wasn't quite like vegas when it came down to it. vegas in his futile attempts to make himself feel better about his miserable existence tried turning torture into an art form. everything was a performance, so was taking apart someone's body till they didn't have it in them to refuse him any longer. and then he would go on for some more. everything he did had to be perfect, so the art had to be complete. pete in his futile attempts to not care about turning his existence into less than human wrote everything off as his job description. which meant minimum effort for maximum results. where he just had to be efficient, vegas, if he had to he honest, and he tried to be when it came to everything vegas, was elegant. watching him pete could almost hear music.

he of course was not going to tell porsche about the music. after all, he didn't want to make porsche upset.

"a couple of times."

not like he actually counted.

"shit..."

porsche was honest in his reactions. pete envied him sometimes.

his skin was getting a bit too tight for the bones now. he wanted to drop his cigarette, but couldn't. wouldn't know where to put his hands then, what to do with fingers.

easier when the fingers are somebody else's. don't have to think too much. minimum efforts - maximum results.

not what porsche wanted to hear.

"it was just work, porsche. don't overthink it."

that was what made porsche look at him finally, with one of these stares of his that made pete want to crawl away. the side of porsche that he was not letting pete see glancing at the side of pete he was not letting porsche see. not recognition, but something just a bit too knowing. a reminder that pete willingly let porsche see a bit too much and there was no going back from it.

not that he wanted to go back. it was nice, the familiar feeling porsche gave him. it was nicer on the better days. still, for a second, pete imagined the world in which porsche never showed up in the doorway of his room. would have been pretty fucking lonely, he thought.

so pete held porsche's gaze. smiled with one corner of his mouth.

"i'm serious. i never did more than i had to. as simple as that."

porsche nodded, glancing intently at pete for a moment longer before throwing his head back and taking another drag.

actually there was one time pete did more than he had to. only once. but that was before theerapanyakuls entered his life. porsche didn't need to know about that time.

"sorry. feels kinda stupid worrying about this shit when i'm already so far in."

pete chuckled. his skin was tingling. stupid.

"you aren't stupid. well, sometimes you're, but-"

"pete!"

porsche kicked his leg, putting on a highly offended look. pete smiled, this time the smile reaching his eyes.

if porsche asked, pete would probably help him with it. he would do the dirtier of work for him, if only cause porsche wouldn't be good at it, not as good as pete would be anyway.

and maybe to not mess any further with already pretty muddy waters that was the section of pete's brain responsible for this kind of dirty work. he didn't want to add porsche to the mix. there was only one person pete wanted to keep in close proximity of the idea of cutting someone's flesh open. carving something hidden away, tucked deep inside. he would help porsche gladly, if only for the sake of keeping it that way.

[kyistell]

Wow me, drawing Jersey? Craazzzyyyyy

Anyway, I had an original design for this type of look on the Ipad, ended up not looking at it once since I apparently have memory. Kinda glad I didn't since I could go just by memory and figure it out as I went along ya know. (ps, for those who don't normally read tags just like, please do, i put so many lil things in there lolz)

Okay SO, I have this lil headcanon, nothin big, that Jersey didn't used to wear shorts until like 2000 or something, maybe a bit before then. This is because he has some scars on his legs, just from over the years, and wearing shorts not only shows those but also make it easier for him to get scrapes and such.

He was fine wearing shorts around NY, Del, and Rhode, occasionally Mass as well if he happened to be around at the time. He couldn't wear them around anyone else for a long time, some scars had Memories(tm) attached to them, some good most bad, so he just never wore shorts.

He's gotten a lot more comfortable wearing them around the other states over the years, mainly because of Covid where Mass unfortunately wouldn't let him keep wearing the same two pairs of pants. So he's fine now, if still a lil uncomfortable around some states (the west mainly), you just won't see him wearing them until it's the first day over 60 in state.

Anyway I love NJ but this isn't surprising, I live here. I am NOT a simp for this bitch, he's my state, I have to like him, 'sides who else would I attach to? Pennsylvania? Florida? Or god forbid NEW YORK!? Absolutely not, that's sacrilegious that is.

[listenupcupcakes]

soldier what is your opinion on mayonnaise

MAYONAISE IS JUST EGGS AND OIL

I CAN MIX EGGS AND OIL MYSELF

IT IS ONLY GOOD WHEN MIXED WITH OTHER CONDIMENTS. LIKE KETCHUP.

[boopboops22]

Went to the flea market :-)