#anyway battery rot is setting in on my heart and its getting harder to ignore | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

i-am-simply-here · 4 months ago

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My chest pain is driving me crazy because I've gone to the Dr and I've gone to the hospital and I know its nothing (????) but its still fucking there and it comes and goes.

Its like. If I sit in a certain way for too long my chest turns solid. Like, you know, when a character gets crystalized in a movie or show and its a slow creep of the material hardening around them. Except that's happening inside my chest. And then when I move it hurts but I have to move and crack my chest so the hardened material will falls off my chest. And pieces stick so its still often hurts my chest to move. and it isn't just when I sit still too long but that's when its the worst.

Its so hard to explain the sensation to a Dr bc they're like "oh chest pain, is it sharp, or burning?" And I have to be like uh its like when you feel like you need to crack a bone except idek what that feels like bc I've never felt the need to crack a bone until now. And even then I know its not a bone??? What am I even cracking????

#anyway battery rot is setting in on my heart and its getting harder to ignore #sometimes it burns? after i crack it #but overall idk what this actually feels like #sometimes moving wont crack it and im just sitting there in pain #and cracking it does hurt #and doesnt usually immediately get rid of the pain but it helps #i had a Dr suggest it was acid reflux #but that was bc i mentioned neck pain with it and she incorrectly remembered me saying the throat pain was a burning pain #but no i told her it was like there was a hand around my throat #that was just that time tho #anyway #chronically ill #chronic illness #chronic pain #fibromyalgia #fibro #wtf is this??#ACTUALLY this kind of sensation does happen with my joints sometimes if I keep them still too long #but its not exactly the same

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