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[natsudragneelgf]

sorry sorry sorry SORRY I can't stand core 5 Riverdale content that doesn't include Toni like it's core 4 anyway why would you add one singular slot to include Cheryl but not Toni it pisses me off to noooooooo fucking end and I'm not willing to argue about it. Include Toni when you open the core 4 bracket or fucking perish very honestly

[clumsyclifford]

bella I would love a directors cut on literally any of the rilex you’ve written, but specifically it’s always her, and you, and me, or for these days you’ve been stuck in my brain 💙

OHHHHHH those are some CHOICESSSSSS lucy. fuck yeah. let’s get into it. ill link them both here but we’ll take em one at a time

it’s always her, and me, you

these days you’ve been stuck in my brain

here’s a cut for convenience cos i KNOW i’m gonna go long here.

okay! let’s start with the rilisex fic.

it’s always her, and me, and you

so like it says in the ao3 notes, this fic came from realizing just how frequently rian and alex kiss each other like, all the time? just? casually? for funsies? this was another one of those situations like i mentioned where the hook aka first line (“Rian's no expert, but he doesn't think normal friends kiss this much.”) just appeared in my head and i was like heyyy that’s a GOOD first line. i have to build from that line. that’s the hook, that’s the summary, that’s the core. 

something i discovered upon searching through the editing history of the doc: i had originally sort of intended to go a direction with this where in some other circumstance, rian would see alex giving jack a super casual friendly kiss and he’d get all sad/jealous and be like sure why SHOULDNT alex kiss jack after all its just a thing he does with his FRIENDS. but the fic ended up going a different way and honestly? im glad. i like this way better.

the role of singin in the rain in this fic actually has a HILARIOUS backstory because the night i originally wrote that conversation in the tour bus kitchen, i went into the club and said the following

and then. the next day. rian streamed with ricky, and i asked if he’d ever seen singin in the rain, and he ANSWERED ME and said he hadn’t. so first of all i had already written the scene and i then had to rewrite it to make it so rian wouldn’t have seen it but also!!! i literally asked rian fucking dawson if he’d seen a movie for the sole reason of using that information for fanfiction!!!! and he provided me with the information i needed!!!! whole thing is just fucking hysterical to me. ANYWAY.

ANYWAY, the other reason why sitr has such a big role in the fic is because megs and i watched the movie together while i was in the middle of working on the fic, so it was extremely fresh in my mind. in fact i can probably show you this: i had this comment left for myself when i was kind of trying to figure out if i could make a real metaphor of sorts with the sitr ot3 and the Big Three of this fic. some of this ended up in rian’s wild musings in the hotel scene but i did conclude that it wouldn’t really have worked and that was definitely true but anyway. fuck it, director’s cut, here’s the kind of shit i leave for myself to refer to

so that’s part of the reason why it became such a puzzle piece of this fic, but real talk, it’s also just because i love singin in the rain it’s one of my favorite movies lmao

briefly gonna also touch on lisa and why she’s in this fic because i realize that rian/alex/lisa is an interesting approach to rilex! first of all, i love lisa. i love alex and lisa. and it occurred to me that there was really no reason to split lisex up just to make rilex happen. plus there’s this tweet that really just pushed me over the edge of being like yeah, rilisex is extremely plausible. so that’s that on that.

as for the scene in the hotel room while they’re watching sitr, there is a small piece of that scene - from when alex starts kissing rian’s shoulders etc to “it would defy the laws of nature not to” - that i actually wrote before anything else in that scene. that small piece got stretched out and edited quite a bit from how it started but it did function as a sort of foundation around which i built the rest of the scene, because that small section sort of ~came to me~ absolutely out of nowhere, and i really liked the Vibe it had and i wanted to include it. i THINK that was the only piece of this fic that i wrote Out Of Order - for the most part this was written chronologically.

ALSO!!! omg this is exciting, this fic actually has a deleted scene!!!!!! i hate cutting scenes but i also hate having scenes that are less than 1k and this one didn’t really contribute much to the fic. i can probably share it here right? sure why not ! hopefully you can read this. it originally took place after the scene where alex and rian call lisa for the first time. the question of “what gets left into interview videos and what gets cut” is also just interesting to me as a (fic) concept in general so...eyes emoji, but here’s my mini-exploration that i cut from the original fic. enjoy lol it’s silly <3

oh! also one more thing!! the very final scene was included for two reasons. the first reason being that when i write getting-together fics, i really prefer to add on a scene After they Get Together because i love to write domestic established relationship stuff and i think that’s a satisfying reward for a reader who’s just slogged through all the mutual pining and bullshit to get the characters together. but the OTHER reason is that i got an anon (here it is!) and i read that ask and was immediately like well shit. now i have to fucking include this. for the anon and for myself. so you can thank that anon for that last scene. (also i wanted to include merrikat especially since i had to cut their little moment in the interview scene above.)

so....................whew. i think i’ve bled that fic dry. holy shit that’s a lot of Stuff. OKAY! let’s move on.

~

these days you’ve been stuck in my brain

so!!! THIS fic was the breakthrough after (what felt like) a long bout of writer’s block. long for me was maybe two weeks, but i am the kind of person who is always writing, and two weeks was a long time to go with little to no inspiration/motivation to write anything. i had also been in a weird narrative headspace because i’d been binge-watching disney shows (jessie > austin and ally > girl meets world) and i don’t know how well i can explain this but the way those shows are written is a lot snappier and cares way less for realistic and consistent character development or plots or relationships, and so i was stuck between caring a lot about including those things in my fics but also being unable to conceptualize them in writing because my brain was in Disney Writing Mode. does that make sense? this is rhetorical so let’s go with yes. so anyway. i was in a slump

actually what i ended up doing was basically googling something like “au prompts tumblr” or something and just scrolling through posts. i saw something about soulmate telepathy and i actually tried to write something totally different before i wrote this one, but the first attempt was a different concept and then the direction i took it was like......it wasn’t quite right and i realized that i was kind of writing dark disney style? there is really no way for me to explain what i mean by that because it seems really obvious to me but that’s just because i’m inside my own head so just take my word. 

anyway. attempt #1 of soulmate telepathy rilex went poorly, and this fic was attempt #2. i kinda took the soulmate telepathy thing and changed it as i saw fit and i also went back to skim helen’s telepathy fic because obviously she’s the pro and then i tried not to steal her ideas. and as i was writing it i kinda realized i was doing the whole quirky funny best friend character with jack and also doing the whole “somehow this not-very-dramatic situation with teenagers is treated as The Most Dramatic Thing Ever and that’s totally normal and nobody finds it strange” disney trope with rian and alex being soulmates and i was like (deep sigh) i have to accept that no matter how much i try to fight this, this fic is going to be tainted with disney. and that’s life

on top of that i will add that the real-life rilex were extremely inspiring during the two-day period during which i wrote this fic, because that was when the once in a lifetime video came out and in the brief pre-video livestream rilex were Beyond Married and that definitely helped in the writing of fic rilex!

hmmmm what can i tell you about this fic itself.................honestly, i don’t think there’s much to tell! rian is a band kid because in real life rian was a band kid and he’s staff manager at rita’s just like he was in real life. there is truthfully not a lot to unpack here that i can think of!

oh here’s something i guess: rian and alex go on a date in this fic! that is because watching So Much Disney made me realize that i often forget the fact that people just. go on dates. sometimes. look i clearly do not have an active romantic life but i also really liked the idea of alex and rian going on a date despite not knowing if they’d be soulmates or not and liking each other organically just by getting to know each other, rather than being victim to the whole soulmate thing. like i wanted them to build a connection so that they would want to be soulmates. and then the audience would want that for them too. stakes!! very important.

i can tell you i had a mild crisis over the title of the fic because i am not a fan of the word brain and i didnt wanna use that sticky lyric for the title when it had a word i hated but it was objectively a much better title option than the other one i had, which was “sticky just like the song in my head” but i obviously decided on the former and it has not upset me nearly as much as i expected it to so that was the right decision imo

so! i think that’s all on that! sorry (?) that it got so long although then again i don’t know what’s to be expected in a director’s cut for two long fics but thank you for asking me about these, i love them both so very much rilex is so supremely underrated but so very important

[jawnjendes]

the fog will clear up | shawn mendes

chapter 13/?, university au, shawn x goth oc

AN: sry its short and definitely a filler im sry its boring but it helps build up stuff thatll happen next ok ok im sry

*let me know if u wanna be added/removed from the taglist

masterlist | playlist

Annalise woke with a start. She was wide awake immediately. There was no room for sleepily rolling around the sheets, her eyes weren't heavy like always. She didn't know what dying and coming back to life felt like, but she was pretty sure it felt something like that. She had a weird urge to go for a jog.

Staring at the ceiling, Annalise reached towards the nightstand next to her, intending to grab her phone. Her hand touched the bottle, and she picked it up anyway, reading the prescription label.

Annalise Flores SERTRALINE 50MG TABLET Brand name: Zoloft

"You don't waste anytime, huh?" she murmured before setting it back down. Then, she grabbed her phone and checked the time.

8:47am. A new fucking record. Annalise rolled out of bed, unable to stay still.

In the 2 hours she had to kill before work, she tidied up the dorm, ate a decent breakfast, took a shower, and got started on the course work she had to make up. The energy levels were through the roof, she had never been so on edge and productive at the same time. Why wasn't she put on sertraline sooner? Sure, she felt hyperaware and borderline anxious, but that was apart of the process of getting on a new antidepressant. She was getting things done this way. Sure, she jumped when the lock on the door jiggled, but she was up and running anyway!

If she wasn't, she wouldn't have seen Stella entering the dorm. She was surprised to see Annalise on the couch, looking like a deer in headlights.

"Oh… I thought you were asleep. I'll, uh, I'll come back."

"No, wait!" Annalise sounded a little too frantic, but it did stop Stella from leaving. "Uh, come sit down! Please!"

Stella narrowed her eyes slightly as she went to the couch. At least she was willing to listen.

"I, uh, I'm sorry," Annalise began, rubbing the back of her neck. "I'm sorry for what I said. A stupid guy isn't the only good in my life. I have you. You matter to me, and I'm sorry for making you feel like you don't." She really couldn't stop herself from rambling. "I miss you. I miss seeing you here between classes, and I miss your optimism because a bitch could use some of that. And, and I'm sorry for the negativity I've brought in here. I'm working on it now, I swear. Just… come back. Come home… because bro, you're my wife, dude."

It could have been funny, but there was nothing funny about the way she said it. Her eyes were wide and pleading, and she was rubbing her hands together. Stella merely blinked her hazel eyes, nearly overwhelmed by that string of words.

"Look at you, expressing your emotions," she said after a while. "I can see why you hold it back."

Annalise nodded rapidly. "It's my first day on a new medication. Got me all sorts of hyped up, but I'll mellow out in a couple of weeks. And I'm taking therapy seriously again!"

Stella was surprised. "Oh, I see. Well… I've missed you too. Bro…"

"Bro?"

"I'll come home too. Camila's bed is too small for the two of us."

"Bro…"

"I know. I have to update you on all that."

"Br-"

"Okay!" Stella broke out a smile and stood up. "Dame un abrazo, puta."

That was much easier than Annalise had anticipated. She stood up and hugged her best friend, relieved. Stella wasn't one to hold a grudge, nor was she as stubborn as her roommate. It was another person to cross off the list.

~

Shawn had social media mainly to get his music out there. Yes, he interacted with his friends on Snapchat, and some fans on Twitter. Most of the time, Shawn just tweeted when he had new music coming out. He didn't check any of his social media very often, not even to stalk Ann's accounts because she was rarely on her's. He didn't even have his notifications on, purely to keep himself from the possibility of getting too attached to the opinions of random strangers online.

That was why he woke up that morning to a number of texts from Camila.

"SHAAWWNWNN"

"SHAWN IM LKTERSLLY BALD RN"

"CHEKC UR TWITTER RIGHT NOW!!!!!!"

"YOIR FOLLOWERS!!! AAHSKSKSK"

"SKSKSK SHAWNMM IM SCRAMING"

So to Twitter he went. Shawn rubbed sleep out of his eye as he went to his profile. He had around 10k to begin with, that he built up on his own over the last couple of years. He nearly dropped his phone on his face as he read the new number.

50.2k

"What… the fuck?" he breathed out as he sat up in his bed. He scrolled through the list, making sure this wasn't a series of spam bots.

His mentions were just as wild, and it explained the sudden blow up.

@hollaestor: @shawnmendes hiii bella told me to follow you

@samxriv: @shawnmendes i am free to hang out on tuesday to hang out when i am free

@gisellenjh: @shawnmendes bella sent me here and im glad she did! loving your music!

And there were plenty more like that. There were so many tweets, Shawn couldn't even get through all of them. It was making his head spin. There was only one Bella he knew about too… He just couldn't spell her last name. Thankfully, her handle was just @bellasanti, and it was the first one to pop up when he typed it in the search bar.

Right under Bella Santiago's name and the blue checkmark were the two little words: Follows you. Shawn refreshed the page ten times before it sank in. This YouTuber, who has over 2 million followers, somehow found Shawn's music… and she liked it. She liked it enough to tweet about it… 3 days ago.

@bellasanti: underrated spotify artists: @shawnmendes. give him a listen. send him some love. truly talented guy💖

Shawn had only overheard Bella's videos when Ann was watching them in the other room. He never really watched any of her content. But he wanted to pass out at the fact that she took the time to listen to his music and tweet about him. He wanted to jump on the bed. He wanted to call-

He texted Camila back. "Wtf why did no one tell me sooner?? This is so crazy!!!!!"

"We thought you knew and you were keeping it from us!! LMAO congrats rockstar!"

He couldn't believe it. His follower count was rising. He was getting emails from Spotify saying his songs were being added to many different playlists.

@shawnmendes: @bellasanti wow thank you so much! Love you bella❤

He deleted the last bit before tweeting it. Holy shit. Shawn lied back down on the mattress, completely breathless.

How does someone like Bella Santiago find Shawn out in cyberspace? What Spotify rabbit hole did she go down that led her to him? How many of his songs did she listen to? How many songs did she save to her library? How many of those playlist emails were from her? Shawn had so many questions.

~

There were two things Annalise noticed when she was out on the courtyard after Biology. The first thing was a table on the side of the walkway, with a handmade banner hanging off the front. It read in big letters: Shawn Mendes: Live at The Cameron House. Brian, Alessia. and Camila were all sat on the same side at this table, talking to a student who was interested in the little display.

"The lounge called back," Annalise muttered to herself.

The other thing Annalise noticed was Patrick sitting under a tree nearby, reading a book. She went to him first.

The last time she had spoken to Patrick was when they cut up flowers together. He was never one to explicitly state when something has upset him, and he has seen Annalise in a depressive episode before. Annalise knew him well. Patrick kept his distance because he didn't like the negativity around her, and he couldn't afford any more of it himself.

"Hey," she greeted.

His blue eyes tore away from his book to meet her gaze. "'Sup?"

"Trying to be less fucked in the head," she told him.

Patrick nodded in approval. "Cool."

That was all that was needed for the two of them. Content, Annalise turned and went for the table. A small line had formed when she wasn't looking, so she waited behind the last person. However, with three people running the thing, Annalise got to the front fairly quick.

"Oh, she actually showed up," Brian chimed, amused.

"Meaning?" Annalise asked.

"Thought you were too pissed at Shawn to care about his show, that's all."

She swallowed the pit of annoyance, discovering that even more people knew about that. Brian is his friend, though, of course he'd know.

"Selling tickets or something?" Annalise turned her attention to the two girls.

"Yeah! Ten dollars a piece!" Alessia explained.

"Cool, I'll take one."

Just as she opened the flap on her book bag, Camila spoke up.

"Wait. I'm pretty sure Shawn said he wanted to buy you your ticket himself."

Annalise rolled her eyes. "Well, he's not here and I can do things for myself." She pulled out her wallet and paid her own goddamn ticket.

Camila breathed out a laugh. "Are you ever gonna let him do anything nice for you?"

None of your fucking business.

A new thought occurred to Annalise. "Why are tickets being sold for this show? Aren't his gigs usually free?"

"There's more production going into this one," Brian told her. "The lounge gave him the option to make it a ticketed event, and we need to make back what we already put into it. So now, it won't be a performance, it'll be Shawn's performance."

Shawn already knew how to make an audience his bitch, but…

"Alright then." Annalise shrugged and then accepted her ticket and receipt from Alessia.

The ticket alone was already quite extravagant. There were little red roses designed around the edges. This boy really loved his fucking flowers.

"I'm guessing rose petals will fall from the ceiling or something?" she guessed with a chuckle.

"I was given strict orders to not spoil anything," Brian told her, folding his arms.

The two had a mini staredown until Annalise shrugged again. "Whatever."

Then, Camila piped up again, suddenly excited. "Ooh, Ann did you hear? Bella Santiago followed Shawn on Twitter!"

"She what?" Annalise stupidly replied.

Camila practically squealed. "She gave him a shoutout too! He's blowing up on Spotify! Isn't that awesome?"

Annalise wanted to say something, but her brain wasn't quite caught up yet. So she just walked away.

The other three students watched her leave. Needless to say, they were confused.

"Is she ever gonna be happy for him?" Alessia wondered.

"I think she was excited?" Camila said tilting her head.

"I can't believe Shawn is going through all this trouble for that," Brian said with a scoff.

"I can still hear you!" Annalise called over her shoulder as she kept walking.

All three of them went red in the face, embarrassed. Brian would have made a comment about her being a vampire with supersonic hearing, but he didn't want to be called out again.

_______

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[icharchivist]

Which are your favorite scenes from hxh (manga)? and the ones you don't like it? Do you have a favorite line?

Oooh heyo nonny!!

And… tricky question!! I have a lot of scenes I really love, I have different scenes depending on the characters, or the meaning, or the impact they had, or the planning, or even the framing. So it’s hard to pick one. 

I’ll try to answer as much as I can but I’ll go under the cut because it’ll get lengthy! (actually now i’m back to the top and yup i wrote about 5k that’s lengthy. I’m sorry I…. never know when to shut up.)

 Thanks for the question though ❤ Take care!

More under the cut!

Let’s start with the easy one to answer, I mostly love all of hxh, all of it. Begining to end, I really loved most of it.

But if I had to pick a scene I don’t like, it’ll be that weird bit of Leorio’s Prison Exam. This was a trainwreck, even in the manga, although at least in the manga they didn’t have… some stupid lines.

I hate this scene. The fact Leorio uses a slur, the fact he puts himself in a situation to touch Leroute… That was extremely uncomfortable to read and watch. I usually blame it on the fact it was 1997, that Togashi didn’t know any better, or even that it was an editor thing (since it was revealed recently that Togashi does the “let the Editors get what they want until you’re popular enough they can’t tell you anything anymore” - and the fact that when I see some anime art insisting on the gropping, it’s. probably something more insidious in the industry. Or so I hope since the rest of the manga isn’t like that).

To be fair both version of 1999 and 2011 changed this scene in 1999 a lot, in 2011 slightly. I’m not even touching 1999 since i hadn’t watched it and the few bits i’ve seen makes me “ehhh” but again, 2011 makes Leorio even more moronic in this scene. The line about Gon telling him to have her bet on his age and him yelling “it’s obvious i’m just a teenager” and her being surprised isn’t in the manga. I remember thinking “Leorio that’s stupid you know you can trick people with that you had that conversation earlier” and at first i laughed but when i realized it wasn’t in the manga and how much they removed of Leorio in the anime in order to make him complain more/be more idiot, it makes me really angry. Like the idea of the bet itself wouldn’t have been this bad if it wasn’t consistant with how much the 2011 anime shitted on Leorio.

Anyway, there’s still some pervy undertone of this scene and I just try to live with the knowledge this scene exists by thinking it was consensual and that she didn’t seem bothered at all by it, but guuuh.

I think this is the only real scene I have a complete reject of? It’s even worse since I love Leorio, I love his character in general and all of his scenes (that the anime deleted) so it pains me even more that this scene exists, and that this scene exists soon enough for the audience to get a bad idea of what Leorio’s character would be like.

Especially in the Prison Exam that is extremely forshadowing, and have a lot of character development. Imo it’s because this entiere exam is surrounding Leorio, outside of the actual fights. Because it’s all about, despite mistrusting Tonpa and having all the reasons to do it, he still wants to give him a chance, and that he’s angry that people would take this chance and turns it against him. It’s also a very important Leorio’s “mini arc” since every fights start and end with Leorio making comments about it, showing concerns for everyone, being ready to give up on his chance to become a hunter when he sees Killua is going after a killer. 

It was about his willingness to give people a chance (Tonpa), the fact he wanted to protect the others (Gon & Killua) to the point of giving up on his dream for now (to stop Killua from going after a killer because he’s worried for him (in the manga it’s even precised that the killer once tore apart the heart of an 11 years old with his bare hand - Killua going after him is supposed to be an irony (since he’s not 12 yet, he’s turning 12 in a few months, even if he mentions he is 12), since it’s something Leorio just told him*.), all while he has his ruthless moment exposed in that exams 

(his insistance for Kurapika to kill the guy which, imo is contrast for later with the whole “if you kill him i’ll kill you” when Kurapika is losing it toward Chrollo, and that Leorio starts to seriously worry about how Kurapika is reacting to actively killing and trying to kill people - since Leorio goes from “nah I’m sure he’s fine and he killed tons of spiders now” before hearing from him again, to realizing nothing is fine and he has misjudged the impact it would have on Kurapika. I will repeat, the Prison Exam was extremely forshadowing and that’s where Leorio’s forshadow was at: at his dynamic with people, not with the part with Leroute itself.)

ALL OF THAT TO SAY I’m still extremely upset at this scene because this Exam was set up to explore Leorio’s character, and yet the moment he had actual spotlight, while he showed his medecine wit (by almost killing Mitanji), and that he got caught up by how the fight was all about putting his trust into people in doubt, which is, again, like i was saying, the reccuring theme toward Leorio’s Prison Exam as a whole. And I think that “mistrusting this person’s gender” was going in that direction, but that was poorly done imo and it doesn’t excuse the slur nor how it got pervy. So I just. Really dislike how they went about all of this.

*ALSO IM COMING BACK ON THAT but there are like two major Killua & Leorio scenes that have been downplayed in the anime, this one and the one where Killua asks Leorio to do street auctions because Leorio is really good at it. If we’re going to talk about fav bits, i love those little moments. While they are probably the two characters of the main four who seems to get along the least (hell Killua didn’t even remember his name, but to be fair you’ll notice he barely remembers people’s name during the whole course of the manga. Even Wing, he barely ever called him by his real name, only nickname. I think it’s somethign that comes from isolation habits and the murders and all that kinda forced him to end up forgetting such things as names) they have such an amazing dynamic?

Leorio tries to protect everyone that’s a fact, but I love how in the Prison exam, when he explains why he wants to protect Killua from the killer, Killua goes against the killer by doing exactly what Leorio was saying. It’s not just him doing his family’s technique, it’s hearing Leorio go “This guy ripped hearts of kids” and Killua going “lmao okay watch this.” (this exam was also so great for Killua’s development since i’m p sure this is also where he realized he didn’t have to kill people after Kurapika insisted he didn’t want to but that’s another discussion).

Then in York New, we learn that Gon has no idea where they’re supposed to go and Killua mentions he’s the one in contact with Leorio because Gon doesn’t have a phone, which means him and Leorio had been talking for a while too. And again, later, Killua asks, with admiration and a smile, for Leorio to help with the auctions because he knows and values Leorio’s strength.

all i’m saying is that Leorio & Killua’s bond is criminally underrated.

So now more into the good stuff.

For most of the reasons I said earlier, I adore the Prison Exam. It’s full of forshadowing and it explains a lot about each characters when you know where to look. From the most obvious one being “we will face the spiders” to the least obvious ones with Gon using his wits against a guy who uses explosions’s techniques on candles and later the introduction of rock/paper/scissors, passing to everything that would have pushed Killua to end up moving out of the assassin’s life*, this was great.

*Also about that the common misconception is that it’s all about Gon and I kinda disagree? It’s a lot about Gon and Gon had a huge part to play don’t get me wrong, he’s like, 90% of it, but I think the anime changing the line from “Only 3 people can leave this place and I intend to be one of them” to “Only 3 people can leave this place, and Gon, I intend you and I to be two of them” was a serious issue because by the time of the prison exam, Killua isn’t settled over what he wants yet, and while he is attached to Gon, his first friend of his age, it’s not to that kind of devotion just yet.

which I think does a disservice to the scene where Gon gets tortured by Hanzo and Killua is barely reacting because he’s hurt in his ego. Killua realizes how much he cares and wants to care when he is distressed. Also i find it interesting because if Gon became his Goal at this moment, imo, it’s because the other two exposed all the ways that it was possible that makes Killua able to face it. From Kurapika refusing a fair kill that Killua wouldn’t have questioned, to Leorio’s caring that went as far as to yell at Illumi for Killua because he was telling him not only he could achieve his goal, but he already did and should screw anyone hwo would get into it.

Fuck i love those scenes Nonny what did you unleash. I’m just at the Hunter Exam and it’s not even when my favorite scenes happen.

It’s hard to really pick fav moments but it’s still clear to me, my fav arc is the York New Arc, so it’s ESPECIALLY in the York New arc that I have my favs moments.

Of course, there’s the soft moments: Kurapika’s smile and the “I have good friends” are excellent moments especially considering Kurapika’s minset about it. The smile happens when he feels like he lost all will to live, because the spiders died and he has no idea what to do with his life, he feels dead inside, he threw all his life out of the window for it, and seeing his friends again reminds him there is possibility for him to be happy. That he has a new family, that he can work on it, that all isn’t over. And it’s the feeling also with the “I have good friends”.

But the reasons I love those soft moment is also because of how much it comes back to bite him in the ass after.

I personally think that when he told Gon (and the other two) everything about his powers, and that Gon said that now he’s putting a lot of pressure on him, I think Kurapika’s intend was to make sure they won’t endanger themselves, especially Gon. Kurapika knows Gon really well, Gon was ready to climb up the walls of the Zoldyck and face Mike all alone, damn the consequences, because he didn’t care enough about his own life to protect a friend. It’s when he realized the guardian would be in danger that Gon backed off and found another solution. 

Kurapika was there when it happened and I think he was completely aware that this was the kind of shit Gon would be pulling. Hell, Gon kept provokating the Troupe, over and over again, because he knew they hurt his friend. 

Kurapika telling everything to Gon was for this precise intend. “If you get caught, you’ll put me in danger” is stronger to use against Gon than just “Be careful they would kill you.” The pressure Kurapika uses on them is directly to make sure that none of them will put themselves in danger, since they have Kurapika’s life in their hands.

Which is ironical because Kurapika throw his own life away all the time, so he’s barely using it as a pretext to make sure the others ones don’t hurt themselves in the way. 

Which to me leads to a scene I really love, once Gon and Killua are kidnapped. First of all, since we talked about fav lines, I adore the exchange between Gon and Chrollo. 

Chapter 111

I love this. Gon is still confrontional, but, while he is indeed hostile, his face is really soft still in the first panel? Gon still tries to understand others. And Chrollo’s answer is incredible because it’s a really perticular mindset that is really hard to comprehend imo.

But that’s not just why I love this scene, this is about the line, what I love and is overlooked, is the fact that right after that, Kurapika realizes where he fucked up.

Kurapika had a plan, and his plan involved making sure the other three will keep out of trouble by putting them under pressure to stay far from the Troupe. However, Kurapika’s impulsiveness got the best out of him and he rushed out, and Gon and Killua both sacrified themselves, knowing they wouldn’t be as hurt as if Kurapika was caught.

Kurapika fucked up so bad he is the reason why the plan went wrong, and he realizes that, he realizes that it’s his fault.

Chapter 111

Honestly just this explains everything about his current isolation and that’s something I love. No matter how Kurapika is trying to plan everything, to protect everyone, he ends up being the reason why it goes wrong. Suddenly all of his choices turned against him, and at this point, there’s nothing else he can do about it.

This is the turning point in Kurapika’s character that led to him handling everything on his own, so to me it’s such a key scene that I really like. Kurapika’s feeling of guilt, that he tries to never adress, seems like such an interesting concept to me, it’s such an interesting and important scene to me.

Chapter 117

Finally one of my favorite scene from this arc is when Pakunoda comes and accept all of Kurapika’s bargining about saving Chrollo. It throws Kurapika completely off the rail to realize that those people he always hated, who had no mercy torturing, killing, and selling the 128 people who were his entiere world, the people who went as far as to torture children to make sure to turn the parents’s eyes red, would feel that much self sacrifice and compassion toward each other. 

This is something that is reccuring with how Gon handles Pitou protecting Komugi later. Gon and Kurapika both were in a point where they completely demonized, for good reasons, the people who hurt them. There’s something when you only see them as monsters, it allows you to step out of it, to concentrate on wanting to kill them without remorse; The issue is when you consider that they can be as human as you, that they love people too. 

In York New, probably because his trauma was long lasting, Kurapika is extremely frustrated but he manages to work around it because of his guilt for putting his friends in this situation, and how much he doesn’t want to lose anyone ever again. Kurapika lost his entiere world to those people, and he’s about to lose the only part he managed to rebuild, so he sacrifices his own revenge to help his friends. 

But even there, he had to face the fact the Troupe were made of people who loved others, of people who would sacrifice everything for each other, the way Kurapika would sacrifice everything for his own. It’s so much easier when you’re facing a monster without emotions to take your pick, and I think that was the mistake with going for Uvogin first. 

While we, the audience, knows that Uvogin loved his own, that he was extremely close to Shalnark and Nobunaga, Kurapika didn’t know that. All he saw of Uvogin was this man, who behaved more like a monster than he did a human. A man he saw eat off the skull of another guy to use said skull as a weapon. A guy who had no memories of who he killed, a guy who outright told him he found it funny to kill people.

Ironically, Kurapika says it was perfect he could fight Uvogin first because of technicall reasons that are true : if he can use Chain Jail against Uvogin, he can use it against any member. But I find it extremely ironic that he says clearly that it’s perfect he could go against Uvogin first while Uvo was probably the one who acted the most like Kurapika expected the Troupe to be: Bloodthirsty, having fun killing people, laughing at the idea of massacre, never surrending. (the anime was… weird, idk if it was a mistranslation or something, but in the anime Uvo repeats “kill me” when Kurapika is attacking and asking questions, like begging for mercy, while in the manga it’s clear Uvo always replies “Go Die.” Even while dying, Uvogin behave with such pride that there’s no way for Kurapika to feel Pity for him, Uvogin didn’t beg for mercy.).

But if anything, Pakunoda was the complete opposite for Kurapika and it threw him off guard. I think if Phinks or Feitan would have done what they wanted to do (go after Kurapika and kill him for touching Chrollo) Kurapika would have been comforted in his idea that the Troupe was made of horrible people. But instead Pakunoda accepted the bargining and the fact she cared so much, and was even ready to help the kids as much as possible, and even came to Kurapika fully intending to give him back the kids, making sure the kids are okay - all of that was the worst case scenario for Kurapika. It humanized the Troupe much more than he wanted.

Even by identifying Uvogin as a monster, Kurapika still felt terrible killing him. Kurapika isn’t a killer, he doesn’t want to kill, and it was a blow for him. It has to be done, someone has to kill the troupe, and he knows he has the will to do it, but even there, he felt terrible. after Pakunoda though it was like “how dare they show humanity.” How dare people who knows love and care would actively destroy families and use the love the families have against each other? 

Which is why then Kurapika settles with Isolating Chrollo. Because if they are able of such selfless love and sacrifice for each other, this is what will hurt them. “Now you will know the feeling of being privated of everything you love”, Kurapika says. 

Because Kurapika is frustrated, shocked even, but the safety of his own is more important at this point, because he put them in this situation to start with, and he already lost everything and doesn’t want to lose anything ever again. And I think that’s the reason why he’s isolating himself now.

I’m not done yet, like I said, it’s also one of my fav because that’s exactly the same thing that happens when Gon meets Pitou, except that Gon reacts completely differently.

Kite was the one who kickstarted Gon’s goal, and he was someone that Gon held in high respect, and he feels responsible for his death - but Kite wasn’t his entiere world. So unlike Kurapika who felt the pain of losing everything and didn’t want to lose anything ever again, Gon went in the fight without even thinking about what else he could lose. He went in with pure fury.

The issue there is that the Ants are technically monsters, not metaphorical like the troupe. And they had to exterminate them, the whole mission was about that. During the full arc, people encouraged Gon to have this anger against Pitou, the adults even said that because of said anger, he was their best hopes. Some, like Shoot, was seeing that it was not a good idea, but they still left an unstable child on the battlefield.

And Killua who was there for Gon all along thought he could handle it, and didn’t know how to get Gon out of his denial: how could he? Gon is his light. (See also, one of my fav lines: the ‘you are light” monologue (and on that topic, the “I’m glad i met you” line))  And Killua never handled things like that before. Even when it was question of getting Kurapika out of his revenge, they did it behind Kurapika’s back, they only told to Pakunoda they didn’t want Kurapika to kill again, but they never outright told Kurapika to stop.

So we had Killua, also a child, unable to help, unable to know how to, and went with everything Gon wanted. And everyone around them were comforting them that it was the right thing to do: go against Pitou, not try to get why, and just kill them.

Hell, accidentally, that’s something Killua actually re-enforced: 

Chapter 230

This is a problem, Killua wanted to protect Gon and used as much as he could for it, but it pushed Gon to even more focus on Pitou to the point where stuff went all wrong.

And then meeting Pitou actually happened, with Pitou caring for Komugi and sacrificing themselves for her, for the King. (also, both Pitou and Pakunoda gets their arm broken during the events that will lead to both their confrontation to Gon and Kurapika). Just like Pakunoda, Pitou showed self sacrifice, showed humanity, showed pure caring and love for someone.

And that Gon couldn’t stand. For the same reasons as Kurapika did: it is easier to go against someone you consider a monster than someone who feel love the way you do. 

The problem is that, nothing prepared Gon for that, and for months he only focused on Pitou. Unlike Kurapika who lost everything and knew he wanted to protect what remained, Gon was just a lost kid. His anger that he focused on Pitou went all over the place, and eventually this is why he snapped at Killua when Killua tried to calm him down. Although Killua used Kite, Gon’s trigger, in order to do that. So while Killua did good, he used right the word that would get all of Gon’s anger attention and Gon ended up snapping at him.

It’s funny to me (ie super sad) that Kurapika is the character who’s entiere plot is about revenge, but yet he’s the one who’s able to work around it eventually when realizing he has to find another way. On the other, it consumed Gon. they both threw they life away for it, but Kurapika is doing it strategicly while Gon went all out about it.

This is so sad but that’s some of my fav scenes.

(so for short: Kurapika facing Pakunoda, Gon facing Pitou, Killua telling Gon to focus on Pitou and what it brought)

 Leading me to, especially the manga’s, I love how Gon’s breakdown is framed in the manga during the CA arc. This is such an intense scene in term of framing, and while the voice actor did an amazing job in the 2011 version, I still get chills over the manga panels:

Chapter 305

tHE FRAMING MAN.

The manga tried a lot to have an atmosphere, in fact, you do see a lot of the background during those scenes before it happens. But then, when the truth come out, everything is blank. It’s completely blank. The only things in Gon’s mind is him being helpless, Pitou, and Kite’s corpse, and those words he repeats and that takes the whole frame, that are slowly crumbling all over him. His word is crumbling, his denial is suddenly hitting him right in the face. It’s such a powerful scene.

Finally for the last huge scene I really love: 

Chapter 335

I already talked about it in length on others posts, so I won’t go as much in depth, but I love how Leorio opened up to the Hunter community all of the sudden. The Hunters tends to be extremely secret about their powers, and Leorio went on and showed them all when he punched Ging, because he reacted with his guts. Everytime Leorio talks in the Chairman Election arc, he is being more than honest, he always makes a point that he’s doing a selfish, honest thing. And everytime he does, it is because he cares too much about others.

I still laugh that Leorio saying why he’ll be Chairman was legit “if you elect me i’ll use the position for my own gain and my own gain is helping people.” Somehow Leorio believed it would make him unlikable, but instead, what he exposed was how devoted he was into helping others.

Ging mentions at some point that Hunters are really selfish by nature, and that’s something everyone kinda knows. But Leorio showed every sense of how much he was ready to do just to help others. He gives his everything for that.

I find it really appropriated too that it’s what had him join the Zodiacs, especially on the Boar position - since it’s also a quality that is supposed to be found with the Boar. While we could say it’s an improvement upon Ging, I wouldn’t agree completely because while Ging does everything he wants, Ging does all of it because he wants to see the people he works with being happy and therefore he doesn’t want to settle. 

There’s just a lot about it that I really love.

That’s about all for the Really Huge Scenes I love so i’ll move on to a few others scenes i like:

-Like i mentioned, Killua trusting Leorio with the auction, which is manga only, that I absolutly love because of how Leorio manipulates the guy, and also, ofc, Leorio’s arm whrestling contests. It shows a lot of how streetwise Leorio is. Of course he is, you’d tell me, he had to, but still i love how the manga shows it and it’s really, really nice scenes to see.

-Gon and Killua meeting up with Feitan and Phinks at the auction still makes me howl, I love it so damn much. I love how offended they were by it, and how they actually came at them to talk to them about why they’re not planning to go after Kurapika just yet, and how Phinks actually ended up liking them because of Pakunoda’s last memories. 

-Bisky revealing her true appearance.

-Every scenes between Meruem and Komugi

-The full Kurapika’s past chapters, all of it. Especially when he rides with Pairo, when they arrive the village and Kurapika gets so happy his eyes almost turn red, and the moments with his mom.

Fav lines in general:

“One could simply dodge the question with a plausible lie, but I consider lying a sin equal to greed, and as dishonorable.” - Kurapika

“I think maybe if i were here by myself that things probably wouldn’t go as smoothly…. But with Leorio here, I feel a lot better and at ease.” - Kurapika

“You should enjoy the little detours to the fullest. Because that’s where you’ll find the things more important than what you want.” - Ging

“Gon… you are Light. Sometimes you shine so bright I have to look away. Even so, is it okay if I stay by your side for a while?” - Killua

“Some people in the shadows deserve to be chained to hell”“Are you sure? It feels like you’re the one chaining yourself.” - Kurapika & Izunavi

… And because it’s me you’re asking:

-Every scenes between Kurapika and Leorio.

But now this is starting to get really long, I’ve been writting 4k  already and If i get in some of my favorite scenes for those two it’ll take hours. but so:

-Kurapika being taken aback when Leorio runs first to save the sailor man.

-I love the reccurance of Kurapika’s smiles about Leorio.

-Their conversation in the first exam -and the repercution it had on their storylines + more about their characters journey.

-Them meeting again in the DC arc. and some more DC arc stuff.

 -Leorio calming Kurapika down when facing Chrollo

 I’m trying not to ramble on repeating those because the post is already long enough but I have one tiny scene to talk about, and it’s to be understood I’m pretty sure i’m overreading it but I really love it, and it’s only a question of framing, ie, of up to interpretation. 

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Chapter 38

First this, after they all got their licence and are thinking about going after Killua, there’s those strange little moments where Leorio  looks directly at Kurapika, a little taken aback. He’s silent, and honestly those panels almost seems out of place. It gets explained a few chapters later though: 

Chapter 44

“it’s been a long time i wanted to ask” This seems to be the reason why Leorio was that insistant in the previous chapters, without actually saying anything about it. He knew something was of, and we was wondering about it. He was seriously worried.

BUT I’m here to nerd about the framing, excuse me two minutes: It might be because Leorio is indeed the tallest and doesn’t stand in the frame all the time,but notice how Leorio is barely in the frame?

Especially this panel

Here’s the thing though, framing wise, what it could say is that Leorio is actually going out of the limits that are imposed by the stories. On this panel especially, he’s looking right at Kurapika’s face, which is itself completely closed by the framing. The Frame is hiding Kurapika’s face and emotions, like a metaphorical wall hiding him, like he was setting them up. (which is consistant with Kurapika’s narrative.)

And Leorio gets off of this wall. Leorio is out of the frames, he’s actively looking out from it. Even on frames where he could have easily been put in, the framing of those pages always show him getting out of them, like going out of those walls set up by the narrative and trying to look past them, getting concerned, trying to understand what is out of his sight. 

One of the few times he’s actually in the frame is when he asks his question, the framing focusing on his eyes: an insert that would generally mean something more personal, something he’s trying to look out for. The focus is on how he’s trying to reach out and how he’s being serious about it.

And of course, more than just the framing, there’s what is being said. Leorio had been really harsh at times during the hunter exam, but here, he’s been worried for weeks at this point, and he’s been looking for the right moment to ask what’s going on. He gets gentle, understanding, there’s a moment of silence after Kurapika reveals what was said where Leorio looks at him with concern. He takes into account evrything he knows about Kurapika, and it’s shown that it’s sort of bothering him, that he feels like things are getting suddenly more serious, that it’s not just words.

This is really hard to exactly talk about and I know it sounds like shipper nonsense, but I always loved framing and even without the shipping conotation and just with what we know of both characters, I find it quite coherent with their characterizations. Don’t take my word on it though, but this is also why this is one of the scenes that I really love (and incidentally, the scene, once i read the manga, that made me seriously ship them, because framing manipulates me more than you may think).

SO YE THAT’S ABOUT IT and I’ll stop there before I start remembering scenes I’ll damn myself for not including.

So… ye that’s about it dkhfjdkfhdjkfhdf sorry for the very long answer, one day i’ll manage to shut up I swear. One day.

Have a nice day!