#anyway!! i'm stoked. :) are you stoked?? i'm stoked. you guys are gonna hate me <3 you can choose your reasons why

[partyinthemysterymachine]

so i finished the rough draft of ch 66, started in on 67 while i had Ideas Going™️, and Realized:

tell me, my dear silent hill GOOMT readers: does this strike fear into ur hearts or do i have to work harder on that <3

[bones-mccoy-turned-me-bi]

Ok so last night I had a dream about startrek, it started during amok time pretty much going the same way except, T'pring didn't do the challenge they got married.

Only remember bits and pieces during this point but Kirk is heartbroken, he's not letting Spock know (duh) which isn't a problem because Spock is oblivious about Kirk's feelings for him.

I forgot to mention that Spock does have feelings for him and didn't want to marry T'pring but he was convinced that Kirk doesn't love him,whilst also doing this whole "It's Vulcan way" so he decided to just do it.

Anyways he went through Pon Farr with T'pring and ended up getting her pregnant

This is another point where memory doesn't like me, but anyway they have a son (his name was changing like every half a second but ima call him Telek since that's one of the only ones I remember)

ANYWAYS this child just sorta exists in the back of Kirk's mind for like 2-3 years till T'pring's work (I forget what she does but it's like similar circumstances to her being on the enterprise in snw) lines up with the enterprise, and she brought Telek with her.

So they meet the kid

Kirk is trying so hard rn but it's like that's Spock's child with the wife he didn't know he had so he's struggling.

Mccoy likes the kid and is doing a way better job of being normal towards him and T'pring ( whilst also comforting Kirk which I thought was really cute )

Anyways another time jump

T'pring dies.

This isn't even that much later cause Telek looked like 4.

I have no idea how she dies but she did, Spock is hurt but not like extremely?

Like he did care about her but he never really loved her and when they spoke it was really just him asking about Telek.

Anyways Kirk is like kinda happy about this but also very mad that he is happy about this because Spock's wife died and that's horrible so he's like trying to comfort Spock but it's kinda awkward because Kirk hated T'pring and they both know he hates her.

Anyways Kirk is like well he's not married anymore maybe nows my chance and Mccoy is like "She just died dude at least give the guy some time to grieve "

So Kirk does but like only for a month or so

and he's back to trying to court Spock, but Spock is still oblivious and thinks Kirk is just still trying to comfort him so it's not working that well. At some point Kirk decides fuck it I'll just tell him.

So Kirk invites Spock over for chess and partway through like thier second game ( gotta give him some time to work up the nerve) Kirk blurts it out.

And like at first Spock doesn't react so Kirk's like freaking out like "omg I just ruined our entire friendship " " why did I say that" " holy shit he hates me now doesn't he?? " all the while Spock is like fucking buffering because the guy he's been in love with for years just admitted loving him since like the first day they met and like ????? Holy shit?????.

Anyways Kirk started like apologizing to Spock which kinda snaps him out of his little trance and Spock is now the one freaking out cause he took to long to answer so he kinda panics and just like

leans over the chess board and like fuckin kisses him.

Anyways they're together (they also find out they are T'hy'la and it's really sweet)

And at some point ( not that much later come on its Spock and Kirk and they've been in love for years ) they get married and it's very sweet and they are both Telek's dads now and stuff and Mccoy is doing his whole " took you two long enough Jesus " but he's secretly stoked and not hiding it well.

Um anyways this is about were I woke up.

Its the most coherent dream (am I saying that right? ) I've ever had

Idk if you wanna make a fic about it please do and post the link when you reblog it cause I'm not gonna find it otherwise 👍

[blindrapture]

so, djay update. what have I been up to since I last checked in.

been watching documentaries with ellie. also the bee movie. I'd never seen the bee movie before.

I found my old Introduction to Music textbook (david d. boyden, published in like the 1950s, this is a second edition from the 70s, it's a Faber paperback!) and am back to trying to study that.

new albums I have now listened to: Camel: Mirage Fear Factory: Mechanize Phil Collins: Both Sides, No Jacket Required

stuff I had heard before but am trying to pay more attention to now: Anna Meredith: Varmints, Fibs Black Sabbath's.. everything Boards of Canada's everything before Tomorrow's Harvest Pole's everything, but I'm starting with Fading

stuff I haven't gotten to yet but keep forgetting that I haven't gotten to, therefore I need to get to: Haken: Fauna King Crimson: everything after Larks' Tongues in Aspic Liquid Tension Experiment: LTE3 disc 2. a night at the improv or whatever. Mastodon: Once More Around The Sun, Emperor of Sand, Hushed & Grim Mogwai: Come On Die Young, Rock Action, Every Country's Sun Trivium: I dunno, I have this Trivium CD that I bought several years ago and never even touched it. Ascendancy. okay but what about not music. there are things in this world that aren't music. like there's video games!

I picked up Skyrim VR when it was on sale. I'm a little shocked that all the bad reviews were exaggerating. it's literally fine. it's just Skyrim. it's got the same amount of jank that Skyrim always had. I also picked up Fallout 4 (regular fallout 4) because it was also on sale. had a good 8 hours of that, then I ran into a bug that I've gotta find a way to work around. it involves the goddamn dog. why did they add the dog? or, like, whatever, fine, add the dog, but why did they make the dog so obviously a big deal, like near the start of the game it's like "HEY HERE'S THE DOG, YOU LOVE THE DOG, HAVE THE DOG WITH YOU" and I just immediately dismiss the dog the first chance I get because I don't want to fucking play fallout with a fucking dog. anyway.

I picked up quite a few games because that steam winter sale was kinda amazing. got the Resident Evil 1 remake for some reason, got it more because it was a gamecube game I haven't played rather than anything else. and also there's this game called, what's it called, In Sound Mind? that was made by the creators of Nightmare House, and Portal: The Flash Version. I love those guys, hell yeah I want to play a new game of theirs. didn't even know it existed.

I tried Knights of the Old Republic last night. bought it years and years ago, kept meaning to get to it. I got through the very beginning, got off the spaceship, and then uninstalled the game. that gameplay is rough, and the writing... holy shit, that's what passed as Really Good Game Writing back in the day... "wow you must have hit your head on something! so my name is dave, I've been your roommate for the last two weeks, this lady here is your mother, she's known you your entire life, and here, let me give you a tutorial on how to wipe your ass and open doors." just, I'm not gonna be able to make it through an entire complex RPG with that. plus I hate the controls anyway. and I don't even like star wars!

what else.

I got back to GTA 3. the definitive edition got a pretty good update recently, the visuals look a lot nicer now. I mean, my copy's on the switch, so it's not gonna look like PS5 shit, but that's better here, GTA 3 shouldn't even try to look like that. GTA 3 looks about right on the switch. but so, I hunkered down and did a bunch of missions, and I've finally unlocked the final island now, thus opening up the whole map. I've never gotten far enough in a PS2-era GTA to open up the whole map before. really stoked about it. but uh those missions are painful. I'm following a fucking walkthrough and the missions are painful, because there's only so much a walkthrough can really prepare you for. I might stop with the campaign and just enjoy roaming the map now. and then eventually I'll give Vice City a try.

I can't really try to speak with distance on GTA, because I did literally grow up with these games. I remember when the first one was new. I was like 3. my brother got it on PS1. we liked GTA 2 a lot more. and I grew up usually watching my brothers play them, but when GTA 3 came out it was a big fucking deal. I remember we loved the radio stations so much, we'd use my brother's computer and a microphone and record our own little radio station stuff, little inserts and call-ins and advertisements. Vice City was a refinement of how good that felt, and the music was nice, and the game looked pretty, yes! but Vice City was always the least-special of the three PS2 games for me, it's the one I'm the least attached to. San Andreas was the greatest game ever. it had fucking 2-player free roam. I don't see anybody talking about that anymore, but, it did!! go to idlewood, there's a little housing unit, and in the middle of it is an icon, you walk into the middle of that icon, then press a button on a second controller, and voila! you could just roam the whole fucking map with a friend, goof off, drive cars, it was the best!!! did Vice City have that? did Vice City have fucking multiplayer??? no!!! did Vice City have three fucking cities??? and countryside??? no!!! did Vice City have Faith No More??? what did Vice City have? fucking Ray Liotta!!! who gives a shit about Ray Liotta and his robotic laugh-face!!! I rest my case!

so!

actually trying to play through the PS2 GTA games is like unfinished business for me. I want to unlock the whole maps so I can earn my goofing off.

what.. what else.

I played through Half-Life Alyx. this was my first time actually playing it through by myself, no dev commentary, and no brother rushing me through the puzzles and spoiling my time. just me and City 17. giving me time to enjoy the game, and interpret it in new ways. I found some parallels with the Inferno this time. there's even a fucking Beatrice, who isn't even there, just like in the Inferno. and a satan chained up in the deepest pits of hell. and Portal 2 had the whole Prometheus allegory going on, so Valve have done that kind of thing before. I think Alyx is an Inferno thing. Russel is your Virgil. the headcrab zombies are lost souls suffering twisted torture. even the combine soldiers are lost souls in a way. Half-Life Alyx is a very very good game. kinda one of the best games ever made, and I think it'll only age gracefully.

yeah.

let's end it here.

[sytokun]

Introducing my super cool RWBY rewrite that is definitely better than literally anything

Hey guys, this is my RWBY fanfiction universe. All ideas are mine, I just think... I dunno, RWBY kinda sucks so I'm making my own, better version. I'll call it... RWBY: Rescued or some other vaguely pretentious title, idk. Hey, John and Jane RWBYson! Thanks for subscribing to my project! Or anonymously stalking it? It's hard to tell sometimes.

Now I know I already introduced Team RWBY, and everyone loves them, I'm happy! I'm just gonna add a little dude here, no it's fine! He's like a side character, nothing more. Like an ally, Ruby's first friend, he leads the other team, it'll be really cool I promise. His name is Jaune btw, no, NO big deal. Just trust me on this. I'm the superior writer, remember?

...

Um... sorry guys. Over the weekend I just got a really big spark of inspiration, like... the Muses struck me from the heavens above. So I'm sorry, but... I'm going to make a quarter of the first Volume entirely focused on Jaune, the Volume that is crucially formative to the cast and entire series, which will cause a ripple effect so bad that a consistently large number of fans dislike him in my series 10 years later, but also find it hard to imagine the story without him at this point, like a lukewarm relationship you don't know how to feel about.

But it's fine! The show is still called RWBY and I plan to deliver on that, not like those hacks at Rooster Teeth stepping on Monty's vision. That's the rhetoric I'm supposed to use, right? To make you hate me? To make me into an easy strawman to hate and dismiss? GOT IT, just making sure, lol

I'm going to voice act as him too, btw. No big deal, I'm sure this won't affect my treatment of him whatsoever. Oh, but here's Neptune. He's voiced by the other dude writing this, and we're gonna write a love triangle between the characters we voice and Weiss, one of the main leads. That counts as a character arc for her, right? Right, glad you understand. Oh, Neptune? You actually liked him and wanted him around? What are you, fucking sexist? God. Make sure to tell your friends how cool my story is

Next, I'm going to have Pyrrha's entire screentime devoted around Jaune, and even after she dies, only Jaune is allowed to process his emotions regarding her death while Ren, an Asian dude, and Nora, another girl, prop him up. I'm also going to bring her death up every two years like 2-3 times to really milk that man pain. What does Ruby the main character feel about this? Oh don't worry, she'll talk about it with another character I'll add in. I'll even have her say Keep Moving Forward™ to really sell the audience's Ruby's pain and really stoke and stir your anguish. Her anguish. Moving on.

Eh, something feels off, there's not enough conflict... Let's have Cinder run Weiss through with a spear, for funsies ig, because I have this post-it note on my monitor saying Jaune's Semblance and this is the perfect moment. I'm also gonna give Jaune this whole ass emotional outburst, 1-on-1 fight and confrontation with Cinder since she killed Pyrrha and awakened all his angst.

Ruby? Uh... yeah, she can stand there I guess. I need to remind the goddamn audience that YES, I still remember silver eyes exist, gawd. I have to do it every few Volumes or I can sometimes forget the protagonist in my female-led story exists - man what a pain, I bet I'm gonna be pressured into creating an old lady to teach her or some shit in the Volume right after this one. Whatever, I'll have her disappear in 2 years, they'll never know she left. Anyway OOPS Emerald knocked Ruby out, thank god she's out of the way so I can squeeze in a shot of Cinder stepping on Jaune and really rub that pain in. God, Jaune really needed this, so glad I did that

Fuck it, Jaune kills Penny too. I dunno, it just feels right, y'know? Nah... I don't think Ruby or anyone is the right person for this, and I don't think we've really, one hundred percent explored just how deeply Jaune can angst over dead women; women who could have grown into full, complex people with rich arcs and relationships using all the screentime I parasitically extracted from them via sudden, unwarranted death. Penny, like, she really needs to fuckin' die for this. Her death is worth having to retread this same tired fucking emotional arc if it's for my boy, know what I'm sayin'? Good, glad you understand

Alright, it's the Volume finale. Team RWBY and Neo are falling into the next story arc. Great, people really wanted this - an entire Volume just focused on the title characters together. The fans have been on my ass asking for this since Volume fucking Four. It's alright, I GOT THIS. I FUCKING GOT THIS! It's simple! This is perfect. But... I mean, I shouldn't... but I really... SDGDSGDED FUCK IT, fuck you, Jaune falls in with them too

John and Jane RWBYson: "God, this is why I hate rewriters who think they can write a good story with RWBY. They love making white men the focus of their self insert fantasies while shoving female characters into the fridge and off to the side, all while using Monty's name to rile people into brainlessly supporting it. I hope they fucking disappear"

Wait. John. Jane. Did I say my RWBY fanfiction universe?

Oh. Oh god.