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Heave your ho as downs her helm and loud her jib to shrouds is held aback to clear what seas would no one steer without a mind to where the night resounds by hearths at Mingulay great whelms of white fly 'round her whiskers surge and whisper spatter over deck "Haul over!" captain loud bawls through the gale the ship now stiffens close by Mingulay's home weather
#still practicing the meter this one is the chorus to the Mingulay Boat Song (one of my favorites) reimagined in the Poem of the Deep's verse#not sure how I feel about this partially because I have so much love for the original song that it's hard to see it butchered like this#it took me a lot longer to write this than the last two because of the limitations on topic and where it had to go#this is also being posted with no revision at all though so take that for what it's worth#and when I don't compare it to the original Mingulay Boat Song I do sort of like it#The original Mingulay Boat Song is really really good and it's also complete#and the thing about songs and poems like that is that if it would have been better this way it would have been written this way already#but it's not lol because the author knew what they were doing#anyhow that's what I've got today#poetry#writing#poem of the deep
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Song of the Day: November 22
“What Kinda Gone” by Chris Cagle
#song of the day#so close to asleep but I dragged myself in to post this before I tell myself again that one more day won't hurt anything#having a hard time but keeping in touch with folks only ever makes me feel better and I should remind myself of that more often#also the other half the point of the songs of the day is to help me keep track of time#and I've got my list (and my playlists on spotify. should put the share link up here for y'all tomorrow. I'll try to remember)#so I've got my list of what songs belong to each passing day but without writing down the notes about them in these tags#I'm dependent on my memory alone to keep them fixed as points in time and not just lines in my list#and you know if the memory could keep track of points in time without written notes then I'd have done that in the first place#anyhow today I sang half of many songs but 'What Kinda Gone' is always a good quick bouncy distraction#and it reminded me that a while back--end of July--I had a day where the song was 'Gone As You' by Corey Kent#and I had wanted to ask Del something in particular about I-35#which is namedropped in the song (in a line it took me entirely too many repetitions to parse) and made me think about /something/#I just don't remember now what it was. maybe just if you've ever driven it?#I've crossed it but we were never really moving north-south along anywhere I-35 runs#only ever east-west along 70 through Kansas and 10 and 20 through Texas. once notably 40 across Oklahoma. such clouds there#now I'm sleepy and rambling about interstates because of my country music. how American of me#if I remember later what I've forgotten since July I'll have to come back and edit this post#Del if you have any noteworthy thoughts about I-35 South please share
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#therapist zeroed in on one hell of a core belief today#as it turns out 'I am a problem/I am a burden' is something I've got ingrained into my very person#so much so that her asking me to elaborate that caused me to just. kinda shut down and not be able to explain it well verbally#I'm finding that's happening a lot more recently with things. just being entirely unable to speak or verbalize the hurt#anyhow. she's located the root of my being and now i just. i don't know how to feel about it.#i almost feel too exposed. like someone truly acknowledging it for once and just *knowing* the extent of that belief is Forbidden#like nobody's supposed to really truly know that. it's exploitable and then it might be proven true/reaffirmed#i don't know. I'm starting to think and wonder if I'm just. a bit too profoundly broken.#who the fuck knows what I'm saying anymore#I've been sitting uncomfortably with this all day and I'm in my feelings right now. none of this is important to read#will delete later#personal
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friendship bracelets | charles leclerc social media au
pairing: charles leclerc x reader
charles' gf is beloved in the fandom for her love for frienship bracelets
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yourusername: charles fell asleep mid craft session :(
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user3: she's everything, he's just ken
charles_leclerc: this is a false narrative, i was just resting my eyes and not allowing myself to distract you from your hard work
yourusername: i'd say you're a man of the people but your snoring is something else
charles_leclerc: I DO NOT SNORE TAKE THAT BACK
danielricciardo: i've taken enough flights with you charlie to confirm that you do in fact snore
charles_leclerc: i am being stabbed in the back so many times today you hate to see it
user4: i'm going to spa, guarantee me a friendship bracelet and i'll back you
charles_leclerc: done ✅
user4: charles marc herve perceval leclerc has factually NEVER snored in his entire life and any allegations that he has are both slanderous and libellous and you will be DEALT WITH IN A COURT OF LAW
yourusername: ummm what?
charles_leclerc: what colour bracelet do you want?
user5: what in the everloving fuck just happened?
lilymunhe: anyhow... y/n you are so sexy
yourusername: right back at you baby ;)
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daniel3.jpeg: this friendship bracelet business is serious stuff, also charles and y/n being gross as usual
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user6: fuck romeo and juliet i want what these bitches have
yourusername: daniel do not underestimate the power of the friendship bracelets
danielricciardo: oh i'm not doubting it i saw a girl ignore me, jump across the hood of my car just to get one
yourusername: i mean i'm pretty sure that girl broke a toe, i paid for her health insurance
landonorris: people are breaking toes for these things?
yourusername: it was not the intent on my behalf, i just wanted a sister/brotherhood among fans
user7: don't make them so cute then
charles_leclerc: what do you mean gross? daniel, can i not be happily in love?
danielricciardo: i am happy for you charles but if i have to hear you break out in a sonnet about the smell of y/n's perfume or the colour of her eyes i will pull my hair out
yourusername: what hair?
danielricciardo: ????
yourusername: sorry i admit that was a low blow from me
user8: is that charles taking a pic of y/n in the last one?
yourusername: yes my lovely lil photographer
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f1: make the friendship bracelets, take the moment and taste it, you've got no reason to be afraid ✨ y/n and charles arrived at spa this weekend with the friendship bracelets that are coveted by f1 fans!
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user11: all the loser men in this comment section making fun of these don't understand how much of a stan FLEX it is to have one of these
user12: no jokes if i see someone with one this weekend i'm offering them out on the spot
user13: i literally only put mine on after the race when i got home cause i was so scared it would get stolen
alexalbon: cringey faves
yourusername: are you still annoyed i ran out last race before you could get one?
alexalbon: why did lily get one before me :(((
lilymunhe: girlies first
yourusername: what lily said
user14: all jokes aside the whole friendship bracelet thing has been great for creating a sense of belonging for girls in this sport and i can't thank y/n enough for giving us something that is uniquely ours in f1
yourusername: that honestly makes me so so happy, girls get a tough ride in all sports, but esp in f1 and i wanted to find a way to bring us all together and i actually wanted to ask if the girls (and guys) wanted to start making our own and start exchanging them at races :)
f1: we back this !!
charles_leclerc: lift the jewellery ban so i can wear mine in the car
yourusername: i can't allow you to put that extra weight in the car the sf-23 needs all the help it can get
scuderiaferrari: :((((
user15: LOOOOOOOOOL
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yourusername: my heart is so full. first, charlie back on the podium where he deserves to be, i'm so proud my love, you'll be back to winning ways soon. second, MY GIRLS. words cannot express how happy i was to see you all exchanging bracelets and making new friends! i also received so many from you which will all go in my collection at home. safe journeys back and see you guys after the summer break.
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user16: it really is the summer of the girls and barbie
user17: i've literally never felt more included at a gp before, so many girls just introduced themselves to each other and i made so many new friends :))))
charles_leclerc: thank you cheri, i love you always
yourusername: you deserve everything my love
charles_leclerc: also thank you everyone for the friendship bracelets, we got given enough for the entire ferrari garage has one as well as everyone who worked in paddock club this weekend!! keep spreading the love <3
user18: never have i ever loved a couple more than these two
user19: i am allowing my parasocial relationship to go wild rn
danielricciardo: thank you for starting this y/n even if i thought it was a bit silly to start with but my arms are full and i'm FEELING the love
maxverstappen1: same here, p is enjoying all her new bracelets 🧡
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charles_leclerc: back on the podium - i'm very happy with that, the best way to go into the summer! thank you for all of your support ❤️
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user20: my king right there
user21: the rocketships don't count so p1 in my heart
yourusername: prince of monaco doing prince of monaco things
charles_leclerc: makes sense since you're my princess
landonorris: GAG
yourusername: let us be cute, be lonely on your own time
scuderiaferrari: proud of you charles
yourusername: build a better car i beg
user22: speaking for all of us
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charles_leclerc: suprised her with a trip to paradise and she's still making friendship bracelets
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user23: they're both so sexy i can't
yourusername: i love you but you can't take the hobby out of the girl
user24: she loves us too much to stop now
yourusername: they're not wrong ....
charles_leclerc: you love me the most though, right?
yourusername: of course!!
user25: oh to be them
pierregasly: invite lost in the mail i see
charles_leclerc: literally the romantic trip you helped me plan?
pierregasly: i still i want you to take me for pasta dinners?
yourusername: back off frenchie
note: ENJOY, i kinda love this but let me know what you think - i am getting to requests but this popped into my head and i had to write it before i forgot
#f1 imagine#f1 x reader#f1 instagram au#f1 x you#f1#charles leclerc imagine#charles leclerc x reader#charles leclerc#charles leclerc instagram edit
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So I then spent most of yesterday in a "there are so many things I want to do that I'm never going to have time to write them all" self-induced haze which was uh. real fun!
I also had a nursery storytime sprung on me like five minutes before it happened but at least I was the third and didn't have to be useful the rest of the day lmao (and then spent an hour on two separate buses to change libraries in the middle of the shift because there wasn't anyone closer??)
anyway. I have, in fact, shifted the fics out of the in progress folder and back to their respective places in the rest of my docs. They were of an earlier time!! I haven't. really. thought of them in at least a year if not longer lmao so like
yeah they're not getting finished and I'll only feel a little bad about it occasionally I guess??
I'm gonna continue doing what I do best which is uhhhh jump between several different projects and just fuck about scene by scene. If things get finished then hell yeah that is very fun but like. not the point currently, y'know?
so I like really dislike leaving things unfinished, y'know? sometimes a first draft is just enough to let it rest and sometimes things never get written and that's all fine 'n' that but like
idk i was just looking through my folders and found all the fanfic I used to write and had to stop/pull away from for my own sake and like. some of this is p dang good, y'know? ok one of the docs is dated as fckn 2017 but like I was onto something there
and I would still like to finish it I think and I still have the plans for most of this but also jesus christ there are not enough hours in the day and focusing is harddd
anyway I've dumped some of it into ellipsus so it may hit the "i work on this at work" style of things lmao
#it's just. everyone has always said ''ah you're wanting to get published right''#and like. sure etf got self published as a bit. but I don't know if I have the follow through for anything more#I do wish I hadn't got that stuck in my head#are any of these ever going to be publishable? fuck if I know. having fun tho👍#anyway gonna go set up the next five or so prompts in the notebook and uh. maybe have breakfast. possibly go to work#FUCK HEY GUESS WHAT ELSE I'VE HAD SPRUNG ON ME#it's old people this time. It's another library's work. I'm so tired of doing their event prep (and their event this time somehow)#like c'mon you knew this was this week. why'd you have to go organise your full-library training for today.#what was the thought process there#I'm telling you we'd better get something *good* out of them when they go back to their own branch#. it'll probably be a box of chocolates. which I shouldn't eat.#anyhow. tuesdays right?
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Don't cha wanna dance?
Written for the @steddieholidaydrabbles, day 30/31
Prompt: New year's resolutions
Rated: T
CW: Vague boner references again
Tags: No UD AU; dancer Steve Harrington; good neighbor Eddie Munson; Flirting; Sexual tension
Notes: Continued from day 22. This is for @sourw0lfs and @wormdebut specifically, who very gently bullied talked me into writing more dancer!Steve. 🩰
Eddie has never understood new year's resolutions. He believes that, if he wanted to change something about himself, he could do it any time. Like quit smoking. Or stop biting his nails. Or be less of a goddamn push-over.
Okay, so maybe the latter is something he should really, really work on, ‘cause it's gotten him into a whole shitload of unfortunate situations lately. As if chauffeuring Max to her stupid ballet classes wasn't enough. Now he's also helping out at the dancing school’s annual Christmas recital, because he's just such a nice guy, apparently.
While he tries to arrange the lopsided folding chairs into something resembling a neat line, he struggles to remember when he agreed to this shit. For the life of him, he can't recall. His brain was probably flat-lining when Max asked him, as it tends to do around a certain very hot dance teacher and his muscles and his tights and-
“Looking good!”
He whips his head up. Steve is standing a few paces away. The tights are a pale pink today. Jesus Christ.
“You too,” Eddie blurts. Steve's eyebrow arches and shit, he wasn't talking about Eddie, was he? “I mean, thanks, I … ow, son of a-”
“Oh, shit!” Steve is next to him in an instant, freeing his hand from the maws of the folding chair. Eddie swears, sucks his throbbing thumb into his mouth. “Sorry, these things are ancient. You need an ice pack? I've got some-”
“‘m good,” Eddie says. Tries to go for suave. Fails because he's still got his own thumb up his mouth like a fucking two-year-old. “Had worse.”
Steve’s face is a mask of doubt, but he doesn’t say anything.
“Anyhow,” he smiles instead, putting the offending chair in line with the rest. “I just wanted to say thanks again. You're probably busy enough around the holidays, but Max insisted you'd be happy to help.”
“I'm not,” Eddie says. Pauses. Grabs a strand of hair to hide behind. “Busy, I mean. I am happy to help, so … don't sweat it, or whatever.”
A heartbeat passes in awkward silence.
“So, what's with the, um …” Eddie says. Watches how Steve tilts his head at him, hair swooshing with the motion. Briefly considers stuffing his thumb back in his mouth to shut himself up. “... with the y’know. The getup.”
Something flashes across Steve’s face, something dangerously akin to hurt.
“What?” he asks, doing a hesitant three-sixty. “Something wrong with it?”
Screw the thumb, Eddie thinks. He needs to find a way to fit his entire hand in there. And Steve, for what it’s worth, needs to stop twirling, or they're about to have a massive fucking problem.
“It’s fine!” he says. Maybe a bit too fast, because he thinks Steve’s mouth curls into a smug smile. “I just mean, um … you’re not … dancing today, are you?”
Is he? Oh dear God, please no. The place is gonna be swarming with proud parents and relatives, Eddie is not ready for the inevitable consequences of Steve in his pink tights on that stage. Not in the skinny jeans he had to wear today, stupid fucking moron that he is.
“Huh? No, tonight is all about the girls,” Steve says. Eddie is so busy sighing in relief and nodding that he doesn’t catch the next words.
“Sorry, what?”
“That other recital I was talking about earlier? You coming to that, too?” Steve repeats, and fuck, what other recital? Eddie really needs to work on his listening skills. If he actually listened instead of staring at the guy like a catatonic caveman every so often, he might be able to maintain a halfway intelligent conversation.
He’d also probably know why Steve is suddenly coming closer. Eddie tries to take a frantic step backwards and almost crashes into the folding chairs.
“Oh, erm …,” he stammers. “When was it again?”
Stever reaches up to run a hand through his hair, boyish and bashful.
“Um, New Year's Eve,” he says apologetically. “I totally understand if you already have plans, it's just… There's a little get-together after the show, too, with drinks and snacks, and I thought-”
“Sure, I'll be there,” Eddie says.
See, what did he say? Total push-over.
The thing is, with the way Steve’s eyes light up, he can't really find it in himself to regret it.
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“Ew, what happened to your finger?” Max looks about as disgusted as she sounds. Which is probably fair, because Eddie’s thumb has turned a vibrant purple.
“These little babies did,” Eddie gestures offhandedly at the chairs they're stacking against the wall. “So be careful.”
“Were you staring at Steve again?”
“Fuck off, I wasn't.”
She pushes the hair that has come loose from its bun out of her eyes so she can give him a deadpan stare. Eddie glowers right back.
“And even if I was, what's it to you? You can be glad I keep showing up to these gigs. Today, on New Year's Eve, it's really getting-”
“What are you on about?” Her entire face scrunches up in confusion. “There's no recital on-”
“Oh no?” Eddie pulls the flier Steve gave him from his pocket and pushes it into her chest. “Then what's this?”
“That's not our school, dumbass. Check the address.”
She studies it for a second.
“Huh? What d'you…?” Eddie is already squinting at the letters again. Sure enough, the address doesn't match the one he's been driving Max to. Instead, it's somewhere downtown. “What?”
“That's the studio Steve goes to,” Max has already returned to stacking chairs. “Super fancy place. He used to be a pro, y’know? Before he tore that muscle?”
When Eddie doesn’t reply, she tugs the flier from his limp fingers, folds it neatly and puts it into his jacket pocket.
“Happy new year, doofus. Better wear bulky pants.”
All my holiday drabbles
#steddie#steve x eddie#steve harrington x eddie munson#steddie brainrot#steddie fanfic#fanfiction writer#fanfiction#fanfic#my writing#steddieholidaydrabbles#hype's holiday drabbles
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Okay how about a Kacey fic based off the song When She Comes Home Tonight by Riley Green
When She Comes Home Tonight
Shutting the truck door I sighed heavily resting my body against the driver door taking a moment to rest from my long hour day. I had taken on the position of working for my father’s department at the sheriff’s office. Meaning that I had to hide some things from my boyfriend’s family. Walking up the stairs I opened the door, shutting it behind me and sitting on the floor until I heard footsteps creaking on the wooden floor. “Hey there, darling. How was your day?”
“Would prefer not to talk about it, Kayce.” I mumbled, staring at the staircase in front of me instead of him.
Kayce lowered himself down to sit in front of me. “What do you want to talk about then? Hey, hey, look at me. Y/n, you okay?” He lifted my chin up so I’d look him in the eye seeing some tears welling in my eyes.
“Just the job being tough on me today is all. Debating on why I didn’t just take your father up on his offer to give me a job here. My father certainly wouldn’t be as worried with my stress level.” I sniffed through some tears wiping them away with my sleeve.
John Dutton and my father have been friends for years. Kayce and I were close and I knew everything he knew about training horses on a ranch. Yet I knew the other side that involved the law. I believed I could help both sides. “Well we don’t have to worry about that now. I’ve got something to show you anyhow. Here, let me..” He got to his feet offering his hands out to me.
“What have you done now, Dutton?” Placing my hands in his he tugged me up to stand.
He only gave me a simple response coming behind me and covering my eyes with one hand and leading me through his family home. “You’ll see in a second, baby.”
“Kayce…what is all this for?” He made us stop walking until he lowered his hand and I gasped at what he had set up on the table in front of the fireplace. He had two beers open with a steak cuff in half for us to share for dinner.
Kayce smiled down at me. “It’s been awhile since it’s just been the two of us here. So I thought we should do something special.”
“Awe. Aren’t you a romantic cowboy?” I smiled sitting down with him on the couch.
Kayce picked up his beer, sending me a wink. “I would hope so for what I was thinkin’ of doing later tonight.”
Raising my beer bottle to my mouth I take a long drink. The bitter taste is not burning my throat as much as it normally did, given the fact that I've had a really long day. Kayce and I sat in comfortable silence between the two of us while we ate our pieces of steak. Placing the second to last bite of food in my mouth I felt his eyes focused on me and nothing else. “Dutton, you're staring. You know some would consider this very rude-” I gasped before his hands cupped my face and he pressed his lips down onto mine causing me to drop my fork on the floor.
It wasn't a foreign concept to kiss the youngest Dutton son. We had certainly had a connection from the first day we met. Anyone in our families or friend groups could see the attraction from a mile away. Moving my hands up his chest I leaned into it. He held my face for a few more seconds until I climbed up into his lap. Kayce then switched his position, snacking his arms around my waist holding me close to his chest.
“Kayce..” I moaned into the kiss threading my fingers into his dirty brown locks that were naturally messy but were going to be even worse if we kept going.
He gently pushed me back on the couch and I didn’t make a move to fight his intentions. “Y/n…”
We didn't care about the food in front of us anymore. Our hands were just moving over the other in every way possible. I’m not sure how we managed to not break any furniture by the point of Kayce getting to his feet and me wrapping my arms and legs around his body. We never broke the heated kiss and made our way up the stairs to his bedroom.
“Kayce, I wasn’t expecting this.” I giggled before we collapsed down onto the mattress of the bed behind us.
Kayce leans down, capturing my lips with his in a deep hungry kiss. I kissed him back gently before he started moving kisses down my face. “You’ve had a long day and I’ve missed you so much. Let me take care of you.” He kissed down, nuzzling his nose into my neck as he went.
“Ohh Kayce!” I moaned, throwing my head back against the pillows. One hand was bawling the fabric of his shirt in my fingers.
He moaned, crashing his lips onto mine again where I wrapped my arms around his neck. “That’s my girl.”
“Don’t be a tease tonight, Dutton.” I warned the cowboy.
Kayce sat up on his knees shrugging his shirt over his head tossing it somewhere across the room. He moved his hands down to my shirt. “I’ll definitely tease you later, darling.” He threw my torn shirt off the edge of the bed.
I began to move against him and leaned up pressing my lips down upon his. He embraced me back instantly when my fingers dug into back. He ran his body over every inch of my body he could reach, both of us slick with sweat as he moved against one another, our pants and moans filling the room.
We shortly reached our heights in only a matter of minutes where he drew his head back flipping onto his back while I laid beside him. We both attempted to catch our breaths where I scooted over laying my head on his bare chest. “Kayce?”
“Hmm.” He made a noise as a response.
Lifting my head up to meet his deep brown eyes. “Thank you for tonight. I really appreciate it and love you.”
“I love you too. I’ll always want you to have a good evening when you come home tonight and every night.” Kayce rolls over to face me, cupping the side of my face with one hand. He draws me in for another kiss and I smile into it.
Trailing my hands up his chest I broke it mumbling into the kiss. “How would you feel about a round two?”
“I’m definitely down for that, my darling.” He smirked and I squealed when he rolled onto his back. I kept my hands around his neck and I stared down at him from above…Kayce always made me feel so good every time I came home and he never broke that promise.
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Written 2yrs ago and haven't reread it (just posting here) so may be more cringe than my current writing. Yes, I had the mangas in hand as I searched for dates and details. Ready 4 new black butler season: my offering
Gregory Violet x Fem. Noble Reader
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The word "fag" will be mentioned in this story, but it only means someone who does a lot of things for a house's prefect. Hope you enjoy.
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2 June 1889
Dear Diary,
It is finally the 2nd of June, just two days before Weston College's interhouse cricket tournament. That means tomorrow the tournament eve's festivities will be held and I can once again meet my beloved Gregory at his school. I hate that his school prevents me from seeing him often, but he seems happy going there and he sends me many letters with some of his lovely drawings, many inspired by the people at his school, so I suppose it's not all bad. His house may not win the tournament this year, but I know that at least his house's match will be entertaining, as it is every year. I wonder if he'll be busy drawing instead of participating again this year? Or if he'll dance with me after the tournament ceremony tomorrow. I usually dance with his fag [a fag, in this, means someone who acts similar to a butler towards the house prefect], Cheslock, or Scarlet Fox's prefect, Edgar. They're both wonderful, but I'd rather dance with Gregory, he is my betrothed after all. If he declines tomorrow, then I'll just have to drag him onto the dance floor. It's very unlady-like to do so, but I must dance with him at least once before we're married. And besides, I've seen some girls oogling him during the festivities in previous years, and I'm not fond of it. They are either too shy or scared to actually talk to him, but that doesn't mean the same can be said for this year. I know his heart belongs to me, but I can't help but want to make that clear to those ladies by dancing with him. Yes, I've decided, I will dance with Gregory tomorrow, no matter what I must say or do to make it happen.
-Y/N L/N
3 June 1889
Dear diary,
Today was absolutely wonderful! After each house and their players entered the Grand Dining Hall and the P4 lit the Flame of Saint George, the festivities began. Well, after the vice headmaster fell down the stairs. It was startling, he had blood running down his brow, but he walked around just fine afterwards. He's always been rather clumsy, but I think this is the first time he's ever got himself hurt that bad. I hope he's truly okay. But, anyhow, I finally got to dance with Gregory! I can feel his hand on my waist and in mine as if he is still guiding me across the Grand Hall's floor. My heart is still jumping with excitement. He was wasn't too thrilled at first and protested profusely, but Edgar and Cheslock convinced him to dance with me. He sighed and, reluctantly, led me in a dance with a pout on his face. But his frown soon turned upside down as we talked throughout the dance. I told him what's been happening with me and vice versa. He has such a lovely smile, I wish he showed it more often. I'll figure out every small thing that makes him smile soon, and do my best to keep him happy. Oh, and before I forget, I met the new housemaster and student of Sapphire Owl House that Gregory mentioned in his letters. The new housemaster's very tall and handsom (and appears to be much younger than the other housemasters), and says such flattering words. But, I can tell that his smile's fake and his words insincere. He was trying to leave the ceremony early but was prevented from doing so. As for the new student, he's short and cute, in a younger brother sort of way. His house's prefect, Lawrence, and his rather large family were surrounding him, as well as Green Lion's fag, Edward, and his family, for a majority of the night. According to what Gregory's said, and from what I've seen, the two are very popular. Gregory thinks there's something suspicious about the pair, though. I hope it's nothing to be concerned about. Anyways, tomorrow is the start of the cricket tournament. I won't be able to be with Gregory the whole day since he'll have to be waiting with and for his house to play, but I'll be cheering him on wholeheartedly from the sidelines.
-Y/N L/N
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A Moment For Yourself
Johanna Mason x fem!reader
WC: 830
CW: mention of killing people; fluff
Summary: You, the daughter of the mayor of district two, surprise Johanna
Day 1 of MK's mad dash
Upon becoming a victor, Johanna quickly realized that even if you won the Hunger Games, you never really left the arena. Instead, you were thrust into another more complicated, confusing one dominated by social etiquette and politics. The worst part about it- you couldn't kill anyone in this new arena. And right about now, Johanna really wanted to kill someone. Preferably her stylist, who'd dressed her in one after another idiotic outfit that was itchy, restricting, and thoroughly unflattering.
If the outfit wasn't enough, today was the day Johanna was most dreading on her victory tour- second only to visiting the Capitol- her visit to District 2. If the tributes from Two during her games were any indication, everyone from the district were smug, cocky pain in the asses with a superiority complex.
She got off the train in Two with a less than warm reception- dim smiles worn on plastic faces, altered by Capitol surgeries. This district visit was no different than the rest- insincere speeches to the neighbors, friends, and families of the fallen, a tour of the district where Johanna could barely hide her disinterest, and a fancy dinner with the mayor, table laden with local favorites. The feast was Johanna's favorite part, always using the excuse of too much food shoved in her mouth to be able to answer questions.
Just as she thought she'd survived the day, a quieter voice said, "we have one more stop here in Two before we send you off to the train."
Johanna looked up from her plate, dread already filling her stomach. It was you. She couldn't remember your name, having zoned out during introductions, but she did know that you were the mayor's daughter. You looked it too- your soft, full features a demonstration of your wealth, the pretty, baby blue dress you wore clearly made from the finest material, and the innocent smile that still graced your lips, free from any real idea of struggle. Had you not been who you were, Johanna would've maybe called you attractive.
The brunette nodded silently and stood, moving towards you. When no one else followed, she looked at you confused.
You smiled shyly at her, "This isn't an official part of your itinerary, I just like to steal the victors away for a minute to show them a secret spot."
Johanna looked at you warily, not really believing your seemingly innocent intentions, but followed anyhow. For someone who was likely trained on hostess etiquette, you were strangely quiet as you led Johanna away from your house. You padded through the lush grass that she assumed was your backyard and motioned for her to follow as you slipped between a small opening in a long wall of bushes. You stood patiently waiting for her on the other side, hands clasped behind your back and a soft look on your face. You walked for what could've only been a few more minutes before stopping in front of a small, peaceful pond. It was wonderfully quiet, the only sounds wildlife and the faint hush of your breathing.
You looked at her expectantly.
"So, what? You here to drown me or something?" She asked, confused.
"No, course not," you answered with a small giggle. A giggle that, though she'd never admit it, made Johanna's heart jump a little.
Johanna tried to think of something to say, so as to not appear rude, but she was at a loss for words. She couldn't understand why you'd brought her here.
It's like you read her mind, "I'm sure you're wondering why I brought you here, to a secluded pond in the middle of the woods."
"You could say that."
"It's probably silly," you say, a faint blush spreading over your cheeks, "But I've always thought about the victors and how, if I were you, I'd be feeling awfully lonely and exhausted right about now, so far away from home traveling with a bunch of strangers. And though it's not much, I thought that you all might just want a moment to yourselves with no prying eyes or incessant questions. I've gone to this place since I was little, whenever I just needed to be for a moment, and I've always hoped it would help the victors the same way it's helped me."
Johanna was silent.
"We can go back if you want. I know it's stupid I-"
Johanna reached out and grabbed your hand gently, "No, it's not stupid. I- thank you, really. This is the nicest thing anyone has done for me in a long time."
You smiled prettily at her and your shoulders visibly relaxed, "well, I'll leave you alone now. I'll just be on the other side of the hedge if you need me."
She gripped your hand tighter, "Wait! You can stay- if you want."
You looked her in the eyes intensely, "do you want me to?"
Even Johanna is a little shocked by what comes out of her mouth next- "yes."
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★*☆♪When Boothill's insecurities start to get to him, Argenti is the first to notice★*☆♪
Part 1
Part 2 here
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Argenti's eyes slowly cracked open in his dark room, only taking a second for him to realize that something felt...off.
He slowly sat up and stretched a little, turning to the other side of the bed. Instead of being met with the appearance of his darling silver cowboy, he only saw the empty spot on the bed where he should be.
The covered looked like they'd been thrown off with little grace, but Argenti's side of the bed remained untouched.
Looking around again, he found the door to their shared bathroom open a crack, a small sliver of light shining from the inside.
He rubbed his eyes and slowly peeled the covers away, swinging his legs over the side of the bed and slipping on his slippers.
He stood up and stumbled to the bathroom, slowly opening the door to find his beloved cowboy inside, standing in front of the mirror.
He sighed softly and walked up behind him, gently wrapping his arms around his waist. He was shocked when his arms met the soft feeling of cloth around Boothill's waist, a stark contrast to the cold metal he was used to feeling.
Taking a second to examine him, Argenti realized he was wearing far more clothes than he normally would, including a pair of red pajama pants and a black, long sleeve shirt.
'Doesn't he only wear his boxers to bed...?'
He thought, blinking slowly as he was still sleepy.
Boothill flinched as soon as Argenti wrapped his arms around his waist, caught off guard by his entrance to the bathroom. He was too busy scrutinizing himself in the mirror to notice.
"Darling..." Argenti mumbled, resting his head against Boothill's shoulder. "What time is it..?"
Boothill stiffened for a moment, checking his internal clock. It was 7:44 in the morning.
'Already...?' He wondered how long he'd been in here.
"Almost 8. Darlin'," He turned his head to look at Argenti, his eyes closed as he rested on his shoulder. He smiled softly. "Why don't 'cha go back to bed? It's real early for a Saturday."
Argenti gently tightened his arms around his waist, "Come back to bed with me, darling...why are you awake, anyhow...?"
"I just..." Boothill looked back at himself in the mirror, and furrowed his eyebrows. "I've...got somethin' to do today, Rosie..."
He carefully turned around, and immediately felt Argenti's head slump down onto his chest, his arms still tightly wrapped around his waist.
"Please...?" He begged. "It's so early...please come back to bed with me, darling..."
Boothill chuckled softly, moving to carefully pick him up. He felt his legs wrap around his waist as his arms moved to drape around his neck on instinct, and he smiled softly, holding a hand on his back.
"Yer just tired, darl...c'mon, now."
He carried him back to their bed, setting him back down into bed and covering him up with a gentleness that only he would ever allow Argenti to see.
Argenti laid down on his side, gently grabbing Boothill's hand, staring up at him.
"Mm...just be careful, darling...if it's so important to you...come back safe..."
Boothill smiled again and crouched down to his level, gently caressing Argenti's cheek.
"I'll come back, no need to worry yer pretty 'lil head about that, alright?"
Argenti smiled and nodded, leaning in to give him a small kiss on the cheek. He leaned back just in time to see Boothill's flushed face, before slowly closing his eyes and drifting back to sleep.
As soon as he sees his eyes close, Boothill's smile drops to a frown, slowly standing up and walking back into the bathroom.
He fucking hated the way he looked. The metal that replaced his skin softly clanged every time he moved, constantly reminding him of the grim reality that surrounded his life.
The only "human" thing about him was his head, and even then, it had been permanently changed. His eyes now gray, with a crosshair as his pupils. And hell, he could eat bullets like they were fucking gummy snacks!
He hated it.
He couldn't stand to look at himself, so he covered up. Put on a real shirt under his jacket. Put on some random pajama pants from Argenti's drawer. He'd find a random pair of gloves from him to wear soon enough.
He hated every single part of him that wasn't human. That wasn't him.
He hated himself.
He shook his head and walked out of the bathroom, shutting the lights off as he went. He looked around the room again, his eyes falling on Argenti in bed, peacefully asleep.
Unaware as to the turmoil going on in Boothill's head.
He shook his head, he needed to go air out his thoughts. He needed a walk.
He quickly got dressed, in a much less revealing outfit than normal, and grabbed his gun.
He walked up to the door, looking back once more to Argenti peacefully asleep. He frowned.
"I'm sorry, darlin'. Real sorry..." He whispered.
And with that, he left.
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WOF X HFJONE AU LETS GOOOOOO
I've been working on this au for a while, and I kinda spedrun it between today and yesterday to cope with II's finale. I am not okay.
Anyways, I'm like, super proud on how this turned out, I'm pretty satisfied with 99% of the designs, except with Amelia's, I just feel like there's something missing there lol.
Some extra notes / aka: things i need to clarify.
I got confused on Stone's name, instead of Stonecarver it should be Stoneshaper
Just as in canon, Airy forgot their name, that's why they are Reed now.
I'm not really sure where or when or how or why the whole premise of the show would happen in this au, but I'll figure it out. Probably. Hopefully.
I am still not sure what tribe to make Taylor and Charlie-
For Taylor I'm leaning towards a Skywing or Rainwing, or a hybrid between the two. Skywing fro the color, Rainwing based on pure vibes
As for Charlie I'm between mudwing and leafwing, though I'm leaning more towards leafwing. Because he has a mother and I feel like there's too many mudwings in the cast so far,,,, I think I'll make him a leafwing
Charlotte's mold is probably an animus curse or something,,, like- she just pissed off the wrong dragon, or took and enchanted jewel or something similar
Anyhow.... below there's some more art if u want to see it.
Full body of Airy, probably my least favorite of the drawings. It's not awful tho. It's also like my second time drawing a dragon full-body, so its decent enough
Parodia (Abstracty) copying moldy in that one scene of the show, I think it turned out great. And I think the name I thought for Abstracty is very fitting :3
MY FAVORITE YAAAHHHHHHHH. I LOVE HOW THEY BOTH LOOK, SPECIALLY BRYCE LIKE WHAT, I NAILED HIS DESIGN HE'S GOTTAS BE MY FAV OUT OF THE BUNCH ALSO LIKE YEAAHAHHHHH
#fanart#object show#object show community#object shows#OSC#HFJONE#BRYCE HFJONE#LIam hfjone#airy onehfj#hfjone airy#airy hfjone#cheesy hfj#abstracty hfjone#hfjone amelia#hfjone scenty#wof#wings of fire#wof x hfjone au#crossover#wof au#hfjone au#soda bottle hfjone#backpack hfjone#moldy hfjone#stone onehfj#onehfj#stone hfjone#wof mudwing#wof seawing#wof sandwing
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I feel so drained. It's been such a week. The same pain we're all feeling, of course, with a few extra things thrown in for fun. Animal death to follow, if you don't want to deal with that.
The kids all adapted readily to a classroom environment, despite my worry, and did so well so calmly that I'm very proud and much reassured. It was still four plus hours away from the house every day. They all helped keep the chores done, so the drain was mainly psychological. But I don't like driving, and sorry everyone, I don't like being in town. The seagulls I could hear from my parked car the fourth day were almost hilariously welcome. Parking lot rats, but that reminder that nature exists was a balm to my soul.
Kiki died yesterday. He'd been in rough shape, but still enjoying life. We knew it was a matter of time til something critical failed, and that there wasn't anything likely to help him short of truly major expensive things that still might well not help. Then he declined rapidly this week. I held him for the last three hours. He cried terribly if he wasn't held, and Phantom had to hold him while I got dressed, so at least we know being held was a comfort to him. It was an expected death, and timely in its way, but when at last he didn't draw another breath, I was so, so tired.
I put him where Ciri could check him out and understand, however her mind understands these things. I didn't think to do that when Hrothgar died, and Ciri went around the house meowing for him for a week. It seems to have worked, because she's quiet today. After he died, I went straight to bed and slept til it was time to leave for class, and then stayed parked next to the class and slept in the car.
When I woke up, the car wouldn't start. Left something on, I guess, though I couldn't figure out what. Jacob was on his way home, but turned around, and the car jumped and started up just fine. In fact, before @mythicalfungi0-0 's dad showed to collect her, so before we would have left anyhow. So again, nothing but a psychological drain, really.
On the way home, we listened to music--Phantom has some great tunes fit to the times that I'll have to share with you. After a period of silence, I said, "OH! We need crocus bulbs." And Phantom said, "Oh! Right!" to the bewilderment of the Borrowed Girl. Crocuses, to go on Kiki's grave, next to Hrothgar's by the pond. It lies next to a large rock projecting from the ground. Someday we'll etch their names into the stone. I've ordered them, in a different color than the ones on Hrothgar's, so that we can think of both of them when they bloom.
I got a good night's sleep last night. Spoke to my friend who fosters kittens this morning. Today, I will keep planting flowers. I think the future will have flowers.
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Excuse the extremely detailed request, but if you are ok with it, could you do a Black Hat x reader oneshot where the reader is a demon/eldritch abomination similar to Black Hat and they work for him and they both have feelings for eachother but neither of them say anything for a long time and it eventually takes reader getting injured in some way for him to confess to her?
For some background to where the idea came from, My horse pushed me over the other day into a patch of nettles and they stung my hand and arm pretty bad and I had a reaction that meant I needed to get antihistamines from the doctor because it was so bad. while I was recovering, I was struggling to do everyday tasks as the grip in my hand was affected, and I kept dropping stuff and not able to grip thinklgs like door handles properly! It got me thinking how would our favourite eldritch horror react if the person he secretly cared about was injured? Not enough to put them out of action completely, but more just an inconvenience that was affecting their day to day life?
I also remember thinking at one point "what if he kissed it better? Like, his kisses literally made it better? eldritch saliva having healing properties or something?" Idk. It popped into my head and it seemed like an interesting concept at the time!
Sorry if this is too detailed or weird! You don't have to write it if you don't want to! I just don't see many active blogs that write for Black Hat at the moment!
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Oh no! Hope you're feeling better now! Bad horse!
Sorry this is so late btw... it's been sat half finished in my drafts since before Christmas! 😱
Hope this will suffice! It's been too long since I've written anything other than headcanons!! I think the extra detail and context actually helped me write this, so thanks!
CW: mildly suggestive? If you squint? Thought I'd mention it just in case. Eldritch abomination licks your hand. So if that makes anyone uncomfortable, I guess... 🤷
Anyhow, without further ado:
CRASH!
That was the fourth time you'd dropped something today. Luckily though, it was almost time for you to retire from your cleaning duties for the night, but before you had chance to pick up the dropped items, Black Hat growled at you, his fangs showing in a vicious snarl. "What's wrong with you?! you're being even more of a klutz than usual."
You growled back, not intimidated in the least by the other eldritch creature. "I hurt my hand earlier, but what do you care?"
Black Hat huffed and rolled his eyes, his voice becoming softer than you though possible for him: "Why didn't you say something? What did you do?" he put his pen down and turned to face you fully; 'was he actually implying he was going to listen to me?' You thought in disbelief.
"I fell in some of those damned 'killer nettles' of yours when I went out to fetch something." You snarled back, fangs showing slightly in agitation, though any malice remaining in your voice no longer directed at the other Demon but at yourself for your own clumsiness.
His face dropped, the remainder of his malevolent snarl transforming to a look of pure worry, something that looked unsettlingly foreign coming from him: "You bloody idiot! Why didn't you tell me? Those things cause paralysis, you're lucky you're not human, or you'd likely be unable to move for days at the very least. You could be dead!"
You were taken aback by his clear concern, thoughts rushing through your head 'Was he alright? This wasn't like him. Was this even Black Hat sat in front of you right now?' You looked at him not quite sure what to say or do. "Sir?"
"Come here. And don't call me 'sir' when we're alone." His voice was quiet, and despite maintaining his usual air of confidence, the eldritch being refused eye contact, instead looking to the papers on his desk.
"But Si- Black Hat..." as if you were not already confused, his lack of spite really threw you off guard.
"Just come here, will you?" he held out a gloved hand to you. "I just want to check the damage it's done. I'm not going to bite you." If you didn't know better, you'd have said that a small smirk played on his lips at that last comment.
Hesitantly, you took a step toward him, reaching out your injured hand to rest it in his outstretched one. The moment your hands came into contact with each other, he gently pulled you over to where he was sat, the suddenness of the movement causing you to lose your balance and fall into his lap.
Black Hat grinned. "Not so bad, was it? Now, let me see the damage." He turned your hand over in his own, which was surprisingly warm. You'd always imagined he'd be cold for some reason...
You breathed an internal sigh of relief when his attention was no longer on your face and instead on your hand, for by now, you were certain your face had become a shade of red to rival a tomato.
"It could have been a lot worse, but luckily for you, your reactions seem similar to my own. Without treatment, it should return to normal in a few days." he looked back up at you after assessing the damage done to your hand, "but..." and he paused, bringing your injured hand up to his lips and softly kissed the stinging wound.
If you weren't blushing before, you sure as hell were now. 'Who was this man? And what had he done with my boss?' You thought, a mild panic seeping into you at the out of character display of affection.
Ok, so it was no big secret that you had a crush on the other demon, so needless to say, you quite enjoyed the affection he was practically showering you with - for him at least - but it still seemed wrong, or at least a little off; this was not like Black Hat at all.
You opened your mouth to speak, only to shut it again, unable to form words as his forked tongue slipped out to gently lick the stinging red patch covering the palm of your hand and part of your wrist, all the time maintaining eye contact. Despite the embarrassing position, you were beyond grateful for the fact that you were sitting down as you was positive that, had you been standing, your legs would have given out the moment his lips touched your skin.
"... But, with the appropriate remedy, it should be better by tomorrow morning." The eldritch creature smiled, actually smiled - not his usual malevolent, twisted grin - at you. "As you know, to lesser beings, an eldritch being such as myself's saliva is positively lethal, but to a creature of a similar nature, it has rather potent healing properties." The eldritch's arm around your waist tightened slightly, pulling you back against his firm chest.
"Black -" your voice was barely above a whisper, too stunned to say much else.
He purred quietly next to your ear in response before nuzzling into your neck affectionately. "You have no idea what you do to me, my dear."
his quiet voice, along with his breath fanning over your burning skin, sent pleasant shivers down your spine, and it took all of your willpower not to lean back and melt completely into his warm embrace. "wha-what's got into you, sir? Are y-are you feeling alright?"
"Never better, my love..." He hummed, leaning his chin on your shoulder. "I regret not telling you sooner, it's been torturing me since you came to work for me..." he paused for a moment as if considering whether to actually tell you or not. "...I love you."
those three words stunned you into complete silence. what had Demencia put in his coffee?!
"Sir... I-I'm not sure what is wrong with you, but you are not yourself... I think maybe I should get Flug." not that you didn't like the attention you were getting from your boss, just that it was not like him at all and you were by now convinced that somebody (Demencia) had somehow gotten him drunk for some terrible prank.
"Look, don't get Flug there's nothing he can do. It is true that I love you and I have ever since you came to work for me..." it was Black Hat's turn to avoid eye contact. "I know, you find it hard to believe, and so did I for a long time, but I guess flug has his uses after all, as it was his slip up that gave me the confidence to finally confess." The eldritch abomination suddenly didn't seem so terrifying to you. In fact, he seemed, dare you think, quite sweet.
You finally gave in and melted into his embrace; "I love you too, Black Hat." You brought your hand up to the side of his head and tilted your own so that your lips met his own.
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Recently on a post about Westerns, you mentioned that the word "damn' wasn't actually used all that much back then. This fascinates me. How DID cursing work in the Old West?
I was probably talking about Deadwood!
Deadwood is, by and large, a very historically accurate show. Off the top of my head, I cannot think of a show that's more accurate, it might even be more accurate than any movie I've seen. The way people talk to each other, the way racial politics work, the way people moved with and against the government. I do not ever ever ever ever and I am not starting now, recommend people watch a work of fiction to learn anything ACCURATE about history, and even in Deadwood, do not assume you know fucking ANYTHING about Seth Bullock or Al Swearengen from the show. But. As far as "The way the American West looked and worked" if you are bound and determined to get it from an entertainment, Deadwood is it.
But.
The creator has talked a lot about how when you make a show, you have to make CHOICES, and those choices affect how the audience sees the work, and are necessarily influenced by the time in which they themselves live.
Historical translation is as much an art as language translation. I've talked about this with movies all the time, how very often female characters are changed to be what we would consider "hot" (But male ones as well. Just more glaring in female characters) and it deeply reflects the time in which the piece is made, which is why we have Keira Knightly running around looking like a fucking 90s bohemian Wet Seal shopper in Pride and Prejudice*. But language is an aspect of that, as well, and one that I do also sometimes talk about, and one that the show creator talked about a lot.
People in the American West would not say fuck NEARLY as it is used in Deadwood. This is not to say it was never never uttered but it was much much much more taboo than it is currently. It was about the frequency with which the average American would say "cunt" in from of her grandmother.
Swearing was very common in rough camps like Deadwood, but it did not sound the way we think of swearing today. Many camps back then had a distinct air of Yosemite Sam to them. So things like "Jumpin Jehosephat" and "What in damnation" and "All over hell and Christendom" were what was used. YOU SEE THE PROBLEM. No one in our time would watch an otherwise unflinching show about the reality of the American Western outposts in the post-Civil War environment, and then watch noted antihero Al Swearengen go, "And THAT'S how you scrub a dad-gummed bloodstain!" with a straight face. But this language would have been seen as VERY rough by a woman like Alma, for example, coming into the camp from the East Coast.
So he decided to make it fuck, cunt, and goddamned, instead, because WE as the viewer are who he is trying to communicate with. He wants us to understand the MEANING, instead of what was literally SAID. There are arguments to be had all over about where the line is with this, but for my money he did the best job of anything I've seen.
*COI: I don't like P&P anyhow, but I particularly think the Knightly version is a special brand of fucking stupid. Send hatemail to: Doc Holligay, PO Box 1621, Billings MT, 59103
(Books I almost certainly got this knowledge from, if no other ones: The American West: A New Interpretive History by Robert V. Hine & John Mack Faragher & Jon T. Coleman and; The World of the American West: A Daily Life Encyclopedia by Gordon Morris Bakken)
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I realized today that I've been blaming my writing going all to hell on covid. And that's definitely part of it - wisps of brain fog always linger for several weeks afterward, and I find it significantly harder to think of the word I mean for things than it was a couple of years ago.
But I realized today that something else happened at the same time:
I got covid for the first time in July 2022.
And my kid went into 7th grade a month and a half later.
Why is this significant?
Because 7th grade meant switching from elementary to middle school. And while the elementary school had an after school program that meant he got home between 5-5:30pm, the middle school had no such program. He stayed after for clubs, but they were only twice a week for an hour, and not the entire school year. They usually didn't start til October and ended in April.
My brain does not turn on properly until 2-3pm most days. This is just how it works. When I was in grad school (before having a kid, and when my husband lived in another city), I would go to campus and work 3pm-10pm many days, it was great. That is perfect.
Having a kid fucked this up, because suddenly my most productive time of day is filled with dinner and bedtime and such. When he started elementary school with this after school program, that helped because at least I had 2-3 hours a day after my brain turned on and before he got home.
Suddenly middle school is here, and he started getting home by 3:30, 4:30 when he had clubs (which again, was not most days). So suddenly I went from 2-3 hours of work time to an hour at most, and sometimes even when I thought I'd get that hour he'd show up at 3:30 because robotics club got cancelled.
Now high school is the same way - thankfully, his bus ride takes a while (he rode his bike the half mile to the middle school), so even though they get out at 2:30 he doesn't get home until 2:55. But this means I have no work time at all before he gets home and I have to start keeping on top of him to get homework done and practice cello and etc etc etc. The one extracurricular he's done so far, film crew, hasn't even been after school! First they were meeting from 7-9fuckingPM three days a week, then the past few weekends they've been filming 8am-5pm Saturdays & Sundays. Which means I do get time without him on the weekends, but my husband is home and sometimes he's even not working and expects me to do things with him because it's the only chance we get, since he's working most evenings.
So anyhow. I knew this was annoying, but I only realized today how bad it was because I was actually up and medicated and showered and dressed before 2pm (this is a constant struggle on days I don't teach, once again I'd been getting it under control and then covid hit), but I had trouble getting anything done 2-3pm because of the whole but he'll be home in less than an hour, whatever I do I'll have to stop in less than an hour thing that you KNOW renders many of us with ADHD completely useless. And this was the first time I realized that I lost those vital 2-3 work hours every weekday at the exact same time I got covid the first time, and I think that has impacted me more than I'd even realized.
ETA: I should mention that before I got covid the first time, I was actively preparing to query agents for some picture books, as well as about halfway through a middle grades novel, and had published two articles in kids' magazines and was actively querying to get more. Aside from the way my fanfic output has slowed to a trickle, I have made almost NO progress on ANY of these professional writing attempts. What time I do manage to spend on work stuff, I have to use on teaching, because shit will actually happen if I don't get teaching stuff done while if I don't get writing done absolutely nothing happens.
#pg irl#I am seriously considering whether I should take a semester off from teaching because of this
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working on oc related things. today its this guy (betty) . strange slime creature but he usually takes the form of a goat.
...n' he's a fucked up goat at that, she's got paws instead of hooves and a real big tail, alongside weird horns that curve up at the ends and whiskers. this is because she sort of bases her form off of what she sees - trying to fit together pieces of what he thinks is "correct" as an attempt to fit in . at a young age he was mostly surrounded by their father (rabbit) and the people he conspired with (people with big tails) , alongside all the pictures he happened to have in their home. one of which happened to be a goat (and with eyesight as bad as his, she sort of had to fill in some gaps... which left her with the weird horns)
anyhow. experimenting a bit with just. stuff she does. or has. for instance: the Frog Tongue .. i imagine she would use it for... frog tongue things. like grabbing things or eating shit or whatever. i just think it's be cool. but given how i think he'd have some issues with the minor intrusive thought here and there, just not thinking very much, and having full absolute control over their own physical form it'd probably lead to some.
scenarios.
next thing is an idea i've had for a little bit now actually - i think she'd be able to replicate sounds she hears sort of like a parrot. really he'd just use it to screw with people, honestly. but also because it's cool.
hed definitely idly sing songs that play in the pizzeria he lives next to whilst sitting around. yes, she would also mimic how it's muffled through the wall as well
. anyways that's all ive got to say. ;w; i dont ever post art here or post on tumblr very often. or post abt ocs. yaur,
#im so desperate for people to see my posts ignore the sheer amount of tags here#ermm..#marleeposting#my art#art#oc art#ocs#artists on tumblr#furry#oc writing#lore post#bettison meatloaf de'mino#alexander scott conway iii#teehee oc full names are funny anyways#lore writing#cat oc#goat oc#slime oc#??#i guess i can put that#uhmm#yeah i dont have much else here. ding sfx#:3
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