#another post where the one like is going to be Lana 😭

[granitxhka]

hector slayed i know that’s right

[olivianyx]

A FEW UPDATES ON MY JOURNEY 🎀

Sooooo there's still more I've manifested!

🎀 money, money, money, must be funny in a rich mans world~ lmaoo just more and more money everyday!

🎀 I stopped listening to subliminals for a while and I saw major results like my hair growing over an inch, my lashes getting longer and prettier, my weight going down, and I grew an inch again y'all 😭 I'm 173cm rn 😩 I wanna be tall as my boyfriend gojo hehe 🦋🦋 but not exactly tall as him but a lil shorter lol then I can't wear heels 😭 or my boy be looking like my son instead of my bf lmaoo

🎀 minimalist skincare products!

🎀 my skin tone lightening up a bit 🍃 like I didn't notice it until my family members and peers complimented me.

🎀 my grades going high again!

🎀 okay this one's a bit personal, but lemme get this straight. I mentioned in my last success story post that I got closer to crush... When in fact I wasn't even in love with her 😭 that was just admiration, not love. I realised my worth, and I stopped putting efforts, now the ship has sunk. She isn't bothered anymore, and me too since I was the only one obsessed. No offence but she wasn't worth my time. So I decided to spend it on satoru instead 🎀🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

🎀 my parents becoming more lenient nowadays 🙌

🎀 I've been getting more free foods and snacks! People love to hang out more with me! 🤍

🎀 my singing skills improving! I wanted to sound like lana, it's not exactly like hers but I'm getting there!

🎀 there's still more I'm just lazy to type lol

MY RESPAWN JOURNEY

So I haven't yet respawned yet since I'm too attached to this reality. I'm still scripting a custom dr that I wanna respawn and also my jjk dr too. So when I finish (idk myself when I'm gonna finish lol) I will surely respawn.

But don't worry! This account will be run by another consciousness that I replace. I know I manifested stuffs here, I enjoy and all, but deep deep down I realised that I never wanna be here. I belong to the lands somewhere far away, not in this city 😭 I'm just too attached to this reality that's making me feel guilty to leave.

I'm working on it tho. I mean I deserve everything, why would I feel guilty for having what I want, right? I've encountered the worst traumas and situations here, yet something inside me is telling me not to leave this reality, while also feeling that I don't deserve to be here, and somewhere better where I have everything I want.

I remember bawling my eyes out cus I don't wanna be here anymore, yet feeling guilty to leave. Everyone has a journey, so do I. I know this ain't gonna be longer and ik it's already done, I'll respawn once my script is done. Keeping this in my mind, I'm spending my last few days here being happy and I'm doing everything I want so I don't feel something irrelevant while I leave. I wanna leave this place in peace.

With that being said, y'all deserve everything too! Don't hold yourself back, sometimes the ego holds us back, but don't let it take control and keep going! You're the God of your reality. So why not take that chance and stop being lazy? I mean it's the life of your dreams and some of y'all aren't even putting 0.000000001% effort? It's not the physical effort but the mental work, everything is the mental work and you don't even need to lift a finger. I mean it's not that hard focusing on your 4d. I agree for some people that have mental health issues like adhd, aphantasia, anxiety, and all. Even I had them too! I had avpd, anxiety, low self esteem, depression, maladaptive daydreaming, and ptsd, but still I did it while staying with a toxic narcissistic family that cares only about themselves! They who were constantly nagging me every 5 mins, now are quiet and unbothered. Why? Because I changed the version of me who was thinking that they were toxic, and I assumed they were lenient, and now they are. Honey, it's not hard at all. You're making it hard for yourself. So just stop with the bullshit and go live your dream life!

- Olivia 🎀

[wutheringmights]

Has anyone asked for the writer's commentary yet for the latest CTB chapter? I love those 😭

Both of these asks came in today, so I guess we'll have to do director's commentary now.

As I mentioned in the author's notes, the entire flashback was written the day of posting. If I was in a better state, I would have taken the time to sit on the draft before going in to expand on some of the scenes, but I was at the end of my rope with the chapter and wanted the whole thing over with

All that to say that I don't really remember writing the flashback. My brain was pretty hazy

When I wrote that Mask's hair was cut, I felt like it was important but I really didn't know why. It wasn't until like a day later that I realized that Link was so bugged by the child's hair being cut because it was a loss of autonomy-- not for the child, but for Link. In Link's mind, he has final say on what the child does with his body, not anyone else

I would like to thank me for rehearsing the dialogue for Link and the engineer's argument in my car during my commute. If I didn't have that shit memorized, there would be no way that I would have been able to write that in, like, an hour

Onto the present day, which was 30k of the 35k chapter

I originally wrote Legend's story from his point of view before remembering my rule about limiting the POV to Warriors/Link exclusively; I might post that draft some day

In my draft, I was going to have everyone insist that Sky, Warriors, and Linkle couldn't come along to the rescue due to their injuries/being too young. About five minutes after they all left, Sky and Linkle were immediately going to start gearing up, with Sky turning to Warriors like "Well? You're coming or not?" This idea was cut as a space-saving measure

I felt like there are a lot of characters I wanted to put a spotlight on before the action got heavy, including Sky, Four, Lana, and Proxi. But I only had enough space for one. I ended up giving that space to Sky since he had the more pressing trauma, while also splicing in some Proxi for good measure.

Lincoln's departure desperately needed a rewrite. I had a note in bold at the bottom of the WIP constantly reminding me to go back to it, but I ran out of fucks. I apologize to any and all Lincoln stans out there

Another space-saving method was summarizing how they stole the horses and uniforms. I could have written more, but again. Space.

I desperately wanted part of Warriors's infiltration plan to involve Hyrule entering the camp on his own to befriend a bunch of soldiers, but it didn't make logical sense

If Sky, Linkle, and Warriors had gone off on their own, there would have been a scene where they snuck through the medical tent and saw the gas burn victims there

Originally, Twilight was going to be with the troops heading out but I moved him to be with Midna to save space

Impa and the generals were also going to be physically there and active characters in the tent scene, but their presence would have made the scene 10 times longer, so I had to find a way to put them in a box

(Are you noticing a trend here?)

I used to exclusively write ensemble stories with 20 different POV characters because I felt like I couldn't let characters do significant things off screen without it feeling shoehorned in. CTB has been a good exercise for me in regards to forcing me to embrace a single perspective. But, boy did everything with Midna and Twilight made me wish this was an ensemble story

The "battlefield run" plot point where Warriors and co need to run across an active battlefield to rescue someone was directly inspired by the movie 1917

When I was reading "The Dragon Republic" by RF Kuang, I fell in love with this description of a river filled with dead bodies that I knew I wanted to include somewhere in CTB, though I was worried it was too dark

The decapitated dead in the river is meant to be Uri, Warriors's friend from training who died in the first battle

I always meant for Uri to be this shrouded figure in Warriors's past where the reader can tell how deeply affected Warriors was by his death by how little he had to say about it; it took until this chapter for me to realize what exactly Warriors was trying to not remember

The fingering joke made it to the final cut exclusively because I did not have any energy to think of a new bit

My justification for Faovarians having white freckles is that Hylians are just humans with pointed ears, which highly suggests to me that there are other human cultural groups in the LOZ universe with their own fantastical physical features

The muskets were originally going to be muzzle loading muskets circa 1770s, but I upgraded them solely because I did not want to have to describe the process of reloading one

If I had stuck to the muzzle-loading muskets, Warriors's inference that Faovarians just had gunpowder lying around would be more plausible, as the gunpowder is not in the musket balls; with the change, his plan for Arlo is a bit more far-fetched

The ganons got named exclusively because I got sick of having to refer to them as "the giant machines" or other vague terms

This didn't come up in story, but the reason why there's so many dead animals around is because they were killed by poisonous gas

The Faovarians have this giant magical wall because I needed to make it really hard to infiltrate Faovarian territory, and you will find out eventually why I needed to do that

While writing this chapter, I realized that I could have cut out Whitestone and given his speech about lambs and stuff to Impa, which would help to give her more pull in the narrative

That being said, I really hoped that by name dropping Whitestone, I could quickly paint a picture of what the past few weeks had been like for Wind

Deepest apologies to Wind, but it had to be done rip

So I always knew that Twilight was going to be captured, which makes his re-entering only to get carried off again REALLY funny

There is a very specific plan I have for the trio of characters I refer to in my notes as the House of Nephus, though you aren't going to realize what it is until Nephus himself finally comes into the story

Speaking of which, I was going to provide his little brother's name but it never came up (mostly because the only one who knew it was Icarius, who can't talk)

So as a reward for reading this far into my commentary, I will tell you that the little brother's name is Philo

I would like to take a moment to thank Lincoln for being so killable that no one noticed that I explicitly outlined last chapter everything needed to kill Proxi

Which is also the reason why I was so pressed about making the audience care about her last chapter

As someone who knows her full history with Warriors, her death is significant to me, but when I planned the story, it didn't occur to me that the flashback would not have gotten to Proxi by the time she dies in the present

To help make up for the audience not caring about her as deeply as I do, I tried to linger as long as possible in Warriors's misery so that the reader can at least feel her death through him

I did have to cut an idea I was in love with: while waiting for help, a group of soldiers come upon Warriors, and when they find out that someone is stuck under the rubble, they ignore orders to dig Wind out because they're good people

I cut it because I needed Warriors to feel no amount of hope as he crashed into rock bottom

This is rock bottom because his fears of his friends going through terrible things because of him had finally come true. From the start, he had promised to put them over himself. Losing his arm put that to the test, and he mostly passed. But in the end, nothing he did actually protected Twilight or Wind

This chapter contains a reference to something that is also a final bit of foreshadowing for the scene I wrote this whole story for. I wonder if anyone can find it and if they know what it means...

[choerrypuffs]

WHATS THIS,,,, MORE DEMIGOD FICS? BLESS YOU LANA ND YOUR MARVELOUS WRITING SKILLS NAD YOUR AMAZING BIG BRAIN THESE PLOTS SOUND SO GOOD IM SO READY TAKE AS MUCH TIME AS YOU NEED QUEEN I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING!!!!!

my exams!!! are over!!!! and hmm no, the try outs weren't gonna go in officially (THANK GOD ?! MY RESULTS WERE SO ASS) and the sem is almost over!!!!!! i've got like 2 more assignments to do (also thankful for because i swear i had more than like . 10 missing assignments last semester </3)

and ooo!!! i don't see the shoes but they already seem so nice and pretty if you're already obsessed with them :0000

super excited now because i have 2 weeks + of free days before i have a trip with my friends ^^ despite it being like a month away i am . so ready i have my bags packed my activities planned + my fits MUAHAHAHA

but before that i plan to work out a little and get into shape you knwo LMAO steal all them eyes >:) (not like i'd have a crush on anyone other than hyuck </3) SPEAKING OF HYUCK UHH GOING BACK TO THE DEMIGODS SEQUELS??? ISTG THERE'S ANOTHER TRAITOR???

i cannot trust anyone after jaehyun's incident like . it could be ANYONE . main character?? some random kid ??? im not having any of it >:(

anw, how are you today :0 or this week, really, because you didn't reply (which is totally fine, just wanna hear about how you're doing ^^)

-ccsa anon!!!!

JDFSKJKDSA THANK YOU SO MUCHHHHHHHH 🥺💖 i have them all planned out and i just need to write but i've had zero energy the past couple of weeks hence this extremely late response i'm sorry 🤧 i've just been binging pokemon and fueling my brainrot 😩

omg that's good that the try outs don't count against you!! i'm sure everyone did poorly on them so it wouldn't have looked good for the school anyways 😤 and yay!!! when does your semester end? wait doesn't your summer break last like a month before you have to go back though ?? i think i remember you mentioning before how short your breaks are 😭

ahhh thank you, my love!!! i didn't put a pic of the shoes bc the only one i have are of me wearing them and i'm not about to post my feet pics on the internet for free 😜

OMGGG TRAVELING WITH FRIENDS SOUNDS SO FUN !!!! 🤩🤩🤩 where are you guys going if you don't mind me asking? i'm like that too LMAOOO i pack enough clothes for a month bc i might change my mind on my outfits while i'm there or the weather might be different 😌

YESSSS our lord and savior megan thee stallion says it's hot girl summer so we must all be hot girls 🧎‍♀️ it's ok bc that means your standards are high so the men will have to WORK in order to get your attention as they should 💅

yes there is another traitor but who knows 👀👀👀👀

i've been good!!! sorry it's been another week since i've answered DFJKSASK i've just been watching a whole ton of pokemon and other cartoons from my childhood bc i've been so tired recently 💀 i'm gonna try my best and get some writing done asap too! how have you been, my love?

[lonelier-version-of-you]

Do you have a fav scene between Henrik & John?

That's a really good question. I don't know if I could pick a favourite - all their interactions are brilliant.

First thing that came to my mind when I saw this ask - so make of that what you will - was the scene between them in John's lab in Report to the Mirror part 2. "It's time people saw you again, John. The real you. Us." I don't know what it is about that scene. Maybe the fact that it's Henrik in his evil era. Maybe it's the way Guy delivers the line, or the way Henrik looks at John in that scene.

Obviously the "I won't let you go" scene is iconic. And for good reason - it's so utterly romantic in every possible way. And the moment at the very start of the scene when John drags Henrik into his dorm room and they're both just so utterly overcome with emotion, Henrik apologising on a loop and John in distress and shock over the whole thing and the thought of losing Henrik... just... gah. It's a beautiful scene, it really is. Also, again, just... the way they look at one another. The look on Henrik's face when he puts his hand on John's shoulder and promises not to leave him, especially. <3

There's an underrated but lovely little moment in Primum Non Nocere part 2 when Henrik walks into John's lab to talk to him, and he's standing in the doorway, and John walks up to him and it's framed so it looks as though John's looking in a mirror and seeing Henrik... POETIC CINEMA.

Speaking of poetic cinema, their whole scene at the start of No Matter Where You Go, There You Are part 2 when they're flirting in John's lab and then they're walking through the basement together and John is practically bowing in front of Henrik like a loyal knight. I adore that scene. https://lonelier-version-of-you.tumblr.com/post/678634440605548544/john-and-henrik-in-s20e13

Basically every scene they have in Stains is brilliant and perfect and so romantic and I'm not even going to bother listing them all (although special mention to John's love letter - "but it was you, my friend, who provided the greatest gift of all: purpose." <3).

Going back to Report to the Mirror, I adore this conversation in part 1:

John: But you... your visit to Lisbon, the chance to show you Lana... realigned something in me. The guilt that had been consuming me lifted.

Henrik: And turned into something else?

John: Yeah.

Henrik: Something... positive?

John: *nods* But it was because it came from you.

Henrik: Well... I'm very glad. *adorable little smile*

And when Henrik's talking about John operating on Roxanna alone and he says: "I can't imagine what that felt like. Emotionally, I left you to face that. I won't do it again." And just gives him the loveliest little look. Just. GAAAAAH THE LOVE OF IT ALL.

Also, it's just, like, the fact that by the end of the two-parter Henrik's broken his promise; John asks Henrik to drown with him, and Henrik refuses. He leaves John to face death alone. And if that won't break your heart I don't know what does. 😭😭

And then, of course, the beautiful, beautiful scene in part 2 where they talk about the night John saved Henrik's life. If not my favourite Johnrik scene, it must be at the very least in the top 3, because it's just... perfect.

John: I know how you suffer. Every day, like the rest of us, you report to the mirror. But when you come into work, you come into a place where so much tragedy has befallen you. And yet you're still able to carry on. For this vision. So that we can do this together. If we don't have this, then... how do you do it, Henrik?

Henrik: It was you who pulled me from the water, John. I've never forgotten that.

John: I very nearly joined you. I swam out to where you were, saw you disappear under the surface, and I thought about joining you.

Henrik: What stopped you?

John: *shakes his head* I don't know... *looks at a text on Essie's phone from Meena about "taking down Gaskell"* *laughs sadly, shakes his head again, looks back at Henrik* ...I don't know.

[luvdsc]

honestly as much as i see where these anons are coming from… you all DO realise this is tumblr, right? not… high school?

i get that some of you have trauma from being excluded in stuff in high school but that doesn’t mean it carries over to social media ✋🏻 friends doing stuff together isn’t exclusive. all three of them have an audience so they’re announcing a collab. same way anyone making a collab with another youtube creator would.

it shows a lot about how you guys view writers on tumblr. you think it’s bad for them to do the same shit other creators on other platforms do? and why? because they’re writing fanfics? it’s a writing collab between three friends and they’re announcing it to get all their followers to see and be aware. what’s so bad about that?

stop being toxic high school behaviour to tumblr ffs. especially not with people who aren’t even in high school anymore.

Hey, sweetpea !! 💕 genuinely asking - can you please explain how you understand where the anons are coming from? Because I am truly lost as to why a collab is seen as “cliquey.”

I really don’t understand how wanting to do fun things with friends is seen as exclusive. Like from what I’m thinking, am I supposed to invite strangers to go shopping with me and my friends? If I post an insta story tagging my friends when we go out to get dinner together, is that exclusive because I didn’t invite everyone else to come along with us?

Why did our collab specifically incite that reaction when other writers / creators also collab by reaching out to people they know / want to collab with? I personally don’t see anything wrong with what we did. We posted one collab masterpost, and that was it. We didn’t even reblog each other’s fics (yet) 😭

andjdjdjdk somewhat unrelated note, lana and i have both graduated from uni already too and so did moon i think (gotta verify when she’s awake lol), so we’re definitely past high school 🤧 and also, big congrats to lana for graduating a week ago 🥳🥳 she’s now one degree hotter !!! 🔥