#anorxic

[your-blood-is-my-drug]

inkább érzem a csontjaim, mint az étel ízét

[angelcake-99]

Since relapsing , I have most of the restrictive behaviours of before but not the ideology .

Nothing that I used to belive I have kept .

Such as :

I don't think being thin or extra thin is any prettier than curvy or bigger women or average.

I don't want people to worry for me , I am an not dependent on others care and attention .

I don't want to feel dizzy or have grey skin or be unhealthy. It's too much of any inconvenience for me .

I don't want to go to hospital like I used to so badly . Cause I honestly don't care .

BUT I still have all of my behaviours of restriction and starvation back so I'm kinda in this limbo of not eating but not actually caring about the end result .

[bellaluvsblog]

i found photos of myself from when i was skinner and i wanna d13

[b-h-gnome]

Hey my other account @/bh-gnome was termed. Please help me find my people :(

[sharingang]

from @anorxeics on twitter

[im-nothing-and-n0body]

(Tw ed topics: ana recovery, arfid)

You know what’s so fucking stupid? I genuinely had an easier time eating when I was anorxic. I’ve been recovered for months now but my arfid is consistently getting worse than it’s ever been in my entire life. There’s like no foods I actually want to eat and maybe ten I can tolerate when needed. It just feels so stupid like I tried so hard to recover and it feels like it was fucking pointless

[uglyball]

oh shit i forgot i was supposed to become anorxic today

[liquoricevipixidust999]

From @anorxeics on Twitter/X

[fliimsyfiingers]

anyone else get an annoying pain in the roof of their mouth when eating after fasting?? It's obnoxious as hell

[kyamarshy]

TW *ED*

Almost ended up rhyming my eating disorder

"But something shifted in my head and the channel has been set to past bullies again

And I'm almost convinced I'm clinically obese

And I'm starving myself cause Everytime I eat I feel like throwing up again"

[your-blood-is-my-drug]

Ironikus

Régen mindig azt hajtogatták, hogy a szépségért megkell szenvedni, most meg könyörögnek, hogy egyek végre.

[angelcake-99]

The worst thing in the world is when the man(person) you love makes you food ( which is his favourite to do ) and you are fighting yourself to eat it and not eat it at the same time .

So instead you sit there and stare at it . And now you've worried him . I don't like people being worried for me anymore it's not one of my things anymore .

So I drank down the soup and meat that was beautifully cooked by him even if it was my own portion .

Please guys try for your loved ones .

[bellaluvsblog]

i just want to be told “i love you so much” in a romantic way again

[godhatesadam666]

So today a friend gave me some serious advice so I thought I'd pass it along for wherever perspose you need it here from him to you:

everyone can do it, just not everyone actually does, a big habit of us as humans is to say try we keep saying we'll try, we're trying etc don't try, do. If its about yourself and to do with yourself, you can work through anything the only one who can do anything about you, the only one who can work through you is you in any situation, people can only guide us and give advice. it's only through being ourselves that we can develop and grow. if someone can't respect or accept you for who you are they don't deserve to be in your life. when we like people or be with them even if not casual we should be joining eachothers journeys not becoming the journey or having them become ours this guy is not the road, he is but a junction along that road.

[sadangelbabe]

I refined It and made it 19 CALORIES!!

Just 2 mushrooms 8 cal

2 tbsp of green onion 6 cal

1 beef bullion cube 5 cal

And what ever seasoning!!!

I'm eating mine with toast to make it more filling but you dont have to if you dont want.

[think-cxntrxl]

YALL GUESS WHOS BACK

Anyways I was in recovery for a hot sec but like mentally? Was not doing good. I started college and I was horrifically depressed(still am) and could barely get out of bed. I wasn’t as obsessed with my food and weight which i guess is good? But it’s like i woke up one day, and realized i look disgusting, in five months I had gone from 110 lbs to 145 lbs and i felt god awful about it. I sort of forced myself to stay in recovery for a few months but the damage was done and i was back to obsessing over my body. I was able to eat healthily for a while, i was desperate not to slip back into this. But for about a month I have been slowly eating less and less every day, I’ve been going to the gym almost religiously, and today i actually paid for a workout plan based around my body type. I’ve been hesitant to post on here because i’ve been in denial about my relapse, but i’ve been creeping the tags too often and now i’m back. It sucks, and i definitely don’t encourage this. For a short period of time between my depressive episode and the start of my recovery i really was happy so if recovery is even remotely an option please don’t let it get away from you.

Anyways I’m back and I’ll be journaling my new workout routine on here as well as what foods i eat. I’ll also definitely be revolving a lot of motivation and inspo just for myself bc it helps me!