#anons u are so dear to me

[lov4hgirl]

Waittt that made me run back to twt so fast. Not only are ur anons multilingual and funny af, theyre also the second coming of sherlock holmes

ME TOO LITERALLY 😭😭😭 im like whoa??i missed that chapter?? 🧍🏻‍♀️ and its the way i think anon thought I KNEW it but i didn't not until i saw the inbox 😭 ugh the sheer TALENT of these anons <3333 thank you all for gracing my inbox, truly 🫂🫂🫂💗 ok but the sherlock holmes is so 😭😭🤣 ABABSHSHAJAKA they got the keen eyes nd everything mhm

[cutie-lumi]

Cosmic 💐🌟

[ask-eden]

So wait I don't get it is Alaxia the bad guy or not?

(( I just like men who occasionally experience guilt ))

[sneckoil]

i need you to know that your jonah magnus art has changed me on a fundamental level. i come back to your blog every now and then and search "jonah" and i simply Look at the most evil trans man to exist

😅 aahhhah

[fatuismooches]

The most ominous and threatening motivation: Imagining Dottore judging your grades.

That imagery got me through my lab training I'm not even kidding I was the first one to pass the histology practicals in one go during assessment 😭

The delulu got me making the most detailed specimen slides, on Dottore we stress 🙏🛐

Good luck on ye finales, may your pen be swift and your mind even so 🫡

HELP THE IDEA OF DOTTORE JUDGING ME HAS ME SHRIVELING UP INTO NOTHINGNESS... physically CANNOT handle that so I'm going to imagine him praising me after working my ass off instead 😭🙏🙏 (and congrats on your training!! that sounds really hard im proud ❤️)

"On Dottore we stress" is going to be my new catchphrase thank you. We are all stressing on Dottore to keep us going fr 🤭

[swordheld]

how did u choose your username?

oh, this is a fun one!! i think i considered being swordtold at first, for that very ancient myth vibe of the sword being this narrative tool for adventure and structure and physical time, the parable being passed down through the centuries until it meddles into modern day rhetoric and ideology – a kind of fantastical tool, a spark of magic, of possibility.

i like the arc of the story of a place being physical / having it be held by time and hand alike, wearing with the years and having it become something different to each holder, each reader, each experience fantastical and individual.

having that kind of physicality to it; swordheld is the action of taking up and holding the sword yourself, choosing your own narrative, leading your own story. self-identity has always been something i struggle with (a novel concept i know, i know), so it felt right for this blog, since most of my older blogs before this one have been just me silently reblogging and never really posting anything myself, and i wanted this to be the change to that.

i've always had trouble wranging my social anxiety, esp. on the internet, and previously thought that keeping my words to myself helped keep the timeline cleaner, in a way, no messy thoughts for others to sort through, especially ones i believed no one would want to read anyway? but it never felt right, keeping myself apart from it all, esp. not in the way i so avidly enjoyed reading others' posts and additions, keeping their words close to my heart.

i wanted it to reflect that this was a space i was holding for myself? and i'm a little slow on the uptake sometimes, but this - this i think i got right. i love being here, on this blog, and the joy that it brings me. everyone else enjoying it too has been a wild ride that i never expected, and still surprises me, one that brings a little extra thrill to my heart whenever i think about it.

i had other urls that i liked, but i didn't want this blog to be tied directly to any of my fandom/story interests, since i wanted it to really just be a sort of archive of artistic inspiration and resource, like a little library or museum. i use them now as lil sideblogs of more niche interests now, which is rather lovely.

it hasn't always felt like it fit perfectly, the way that i'd like, but for some reason i can't think of really wanting to change it anytime soon. it feels mythic yet modern in a way that feels like puzzle pieces finally slotting into their place, something my own and inspirational to me, like a lantern i'm holding to make my way by. my own kind of light, if that makes sense – a star i know by name.

[13eyond13]

With you stating Near is the type to just blurt out his crush, I am imagining this happened several times at Wammy's, and Mello just thought he was baiting him instead of confessing to him. Near is just left wondering each time how someone so smart can be so dumb.

Hahaha yeah, the thing I find funniest and most angsty about Near and Mello both is how much they miscommunicate nearly 100% of the time

[coffeeshib]

Hi! I’ve recently visited your page again, after a longer tumblr break and saw your posts about people’s comments on your fics. It made me both sad and angry. Sad because they’ve managed to take away your joy for writing Supercorp and angry that people feel like they can type out any hurtful thought that goes through their head, for a thing that is absolutely free and made with so much passion and care. 😒🤬

For what it’s worth, I always loved the way you write both of them. AND the fact that you don’t ignore Kara’s trauma and struggles. “i’m spilling all my words (but you keep 'em to yourself)” will forever be one of my favorites. Thank you for the hours of joy and fun you have given us! I hope you know that for every entitled commenter there are ten times more people who love your works! 🫵🏻🤘🏻

ahh thank you so much, i appreciate this. i have to say, sc still has me by the neck, i do plan to finish that fic & maybe write some more but it won't be anytime soon. i had hoped that the fandom would calm down with the kara hate after the show ended but i was wrong, it still hasn't changed.

when you've been writing for sc for so long, the frustration builds up, & there have been many times where i felt like i needed to (& did) restrict myself when writing them. it stops being enjoyable when people are constantly calling kara 'stupid' & insult her in many different ways for not being the happy sunshine kara danvers who takes care of lena all the time.

personally i love reading & writing the reverse situation (lena who's being the patient loving one & also the shoulder for kara to lean on) because the show didn't give us enough of that. unfortunately, people don't respond well whenever kara is struggling with her issues & lena isn't the one who's being comforted.

i write what i like & that's what i'm always going to do, but this build up of frustration over the past years & always anticipating kara hate every fic/chapter killed the joy a lot.

i've seen some authors speak about this too & it's genuinely sad to see! people can like & dislike whatever but it's important to note that there are readers out there who don't realize that their personal feelings against kara also affect authors & their love for writing supercorp

[nombitenary]

started off the chris lore with one good post so i have to follow it up with a bad one: the insides of his beast form/his glow is yellow when he's Up To No Good because my favourite colour is yellow and i wanted an excuse to draw yellow guts. Some may think it's because he's blond, but nnnnope. I just like yellow :}

[isawken]

me: goes to great lengths to describe something as succinctly but also as detailed and clearly as i possibly can

someone: misunderstands my intent

me:

[wonyopout]

https://x.com/daengdaengjoa/status/1829340625386492356?t=7jJiFLFevTFzNvW4Az0YcQ&s=19

don't you just love it when the obsession is mutual?

+ this like woah this loving gaeul shit gets Serious for wony omg

[bunnymedley]

Bestie we COULD play tf2 but I suck sooooo bad I didn't even know there WAS bad melee detection I would disappoint you immensely

lets disappoint each other baby lets do it

[tojisun]

(hockey noob anon again)

thank you for the answer 😭 that sounds so heartbreaking, but how great for hughes to have led them to their tentative comeback, even with such a crushing loss in the final moments. the injuries must have been crushing for team morale and yet they still pushed forward. i know nothing about hockey (ive heard of the canucks obvi but i only sparingly watch a friend's hockey matches) and hearing you talk about it is very enlightening and interesting, don't apologize for rambling 🧡 best

absolutely!! he is so far the most loved captain (according to seasoned fans) and im glad that he and his team were in BC to see how loved they are. i hope they’d be hungrier next season because they honestly did so well this year 🥹

and yea! it was bad as a fan hearing about the injuries but thinking about how much worse it must have been for the team, especially during such clutch moments. i hope to see them all next season again. ive been seeing people predicting trade-offs and its kept me awake, in fear hhhhh

im glad that u enjoyed my rambling 🥹 i tend to over fixate and use my lil blog as an outlet so teehee <33

take care my dear :3

[phoenix-before-the-flame]

trans natsu

He's heading out for the day!

[Answering old asks. Requests are NOT open]

[kachinnate]

how would u describe evan hansens whole like. Deal. any character analysis for him? i love the way u write him

firstly: thank u!! ;_;<3 i feel as if my current stuff up on ao3 doesn't 1000% reflect how i Would write him now or maybe i just hate my old writing who knows 😭 but regardless it's for the most part up to par w/ how i feel abt heem....

so what i think his deal is is that he's an unintentionally sorta selfish kid riddled with severe self-loathing and mental illness and a desire to be wanted for Something despite the fact that He doesn't believe there is Something there for him to be Wanted for. and the selfish part mainly being in how he is so In His Own Head and kinda chooses to accept that he's a failure and that no one likes him and he has nothing no one alone when that isn't / doesn't have to be the case. like.... thinking he's the main character but in the inverse/wrong way if that makes sense some sort of inferiority complex 😔 i also believe he intrinsically can be kind but i don't think he's Nice, just overtly polite and therefore sorta Appearing as nice

when i was a teenager and just starting to write fic for the first time i would write evan kinda like... purposely a bit meaner than one might fkjgsndf at the time out of spite because it annoyed me so much seeing a lot of people in the majority of fanon spaces depict him as an uwu smol anxiety boy... however, looking back on it i Do think i was onto something for Different reasons 😭 mostly being that 1. i tend to lean a bit towards the arena stage characterization of him, which was objectively a bit more harsh and a bit more rude and 2. in most of the contexts i had written him in, it was w jared specifically in which case i do think he would more or less abandon most of his Need to Be Nice / Polite / Unoffensive because depending on the context 1. he's accepted the fact that 'jared doesn't like him' and therefore doesn't try as hard to give off a good image or pretend to be something he isn't because he doesn't really see a point and thinks jared is just Always gonna be a dick to him / think of him as a 'family friend' (which i'd like to believe he knows is bullshit regardless) or 2. he Does recognize jared as a friend and for the same reasons feels comfortable enough to not put up a front. maybe a mixture of both ! again it sorta depends on the context

his adamance (i'm not sure if that's a word) to the idea that he's such a loser who can't get better no matter what i think makes it much harder for both himself and others to like Be Close to him but yet he wants it so bad and simply doesn't realize he is inadvertently part of the problem. there isnt specifically any One Way he wants to be, he just doesnt want to Be Him... because to him it's clearly wrong and not right and why nobody sees him and why he feels alone etc etc etc

but all that to say -- that's how i personally try to write him when i do jsdkfnsdf obviously that's not The Right Way[tm] or how i expect everyone to see his characterization (and it probably doesn't encompass like even all of My thoughts either i'm just rambling a bit as i procrastinate further on a paper) but! hopefully that answers ur question

[dreamingdruka]

Went directly to your inbox with this, hope you don't mind because I love arguing about irrelevant shit for fun

; are certainly better than whitespace because you can actually see them! When I add additional whitespace and my code doesn't work how will I find it huh? It's literally invisible /j

Also your compiler will tell you "expecting ; at line 4" or something like that most of the time

Ps. I actually think both phyton and c languages are pretty solid I just think c# is better if you want to start learning coding.

There are plenty awful programing languages out there that are much worse than both of them. Like the one I have to use at work 😭

ok i think ur right re the ; being atleast visible but the thing is, python doesnt need an end of line indicator! it only needs indentation! and that is pretty easy to do with even the standard python ide. with the ; languages, thats not the case. i put ; a the end of the line but even then its so difficult to see what code ive written and where it needs to be and i have to indent stuff anyway to be able to make anything out. altho that is a good point re the 'compiler will tell expecting ; at line 4' but so does python! it does tell you 'expecting indent at line 4' so i think that evens out

also i have never touched c# actually. so far my experience with those has been only c and c++ the first of which was required in my syllabus and the second bcoz everyone i talked to insisted that c is trash and that i should do c++ to actually understand the data structures stuff they were teaching us. i ended up getting pretty annoyed with c and then i started focusing on ml which is pretty much a python thing so i didnt do much of c++ too so yeah im mostly just focusing on that rn. wiat i just started rambling um anyway