#anon i hope you know this question made me cry. don't ask why i'm very sensible atm

[5uptic]

is hbomberguy the same guy as hbomb from the hafu lobbies?

he's not 😭😭😭 but i'd be lying to you if i said i wasn't confused by this for weeks a couple years ago

[gffa]

People shouldn't be too hard on Mon!

I absolutely love and is grateful of Freed's understanding and appreciation of the Jedi, apparent in the book, apparent in the interview he'd given for the book:

"For me, the excitement of the time period here, is that I tend to think of 'Star Wars' as a setting with plenty of room for grey area stories and moral ambiguity, but there are very clear lines of good and evil as well. There's no version of 'Star Wars' in which you look at the Emperor and go, 'Well, maybe he had some good ideas.' No, the Emperor is evil. And the Jedi and Luke at their best are good. Everything else exists somewhere in there. This is a period where the remains true but no one really knows that the Emperor is evil.

"As far as the public is concerned, this guy just won the worst war in living memory. The Clone Wars were this horrendous affair and Palpatine has put an end to it. Yes, he's declared himself Emperor but he's not the embodiment of all evil. There's not even a Death Star out there. On the absolute good side, the Jedi have sort of been tarnished in recent years. War scrapes away at the shining morality of any organization."

I think Freed really understands what Lucas meant when he said "The Jedi have been corrupted by this war."

...but I still don't hold it against Mon cause she's going through hell and she spoilerspoilerspoilerspoiler in the later half of the book. I think she's fascinating, wonderful, equally valid character with equally valid viewpoints as Bail within context of their own worlds and experiences in this novel.

The editor of the book said it best:

Bail – knows the truth about Palpatine, the Empire, and the fall of the Jedi. Caught between his commitment to truth and justice at any cost, and the duty he has to the daughter he’s been entrusted to protect.

Mon Mothma – a master politician, who believes – like so many – that opposing Palpatine is part of the regular game of politics. She doesn’t yet realize, Palpatine stood up from the game board years ago, and she’s playing against shadows.

Mon and Bail are allies, but not really friends (at this time). Padme was their link, and now, she’s gone. Where does that leave them?

For Mon and Bail especially, the secrets Bail holds that he cannot reveal leaves a gulf between them. And what does it mean when they find themselves at odds with each other, over truths they cannot speak?

prev anon) I'm talking about their different mindsets and experiences and viewpoints born from those and I'm not excusing Mon's... *spoilers* anyway I hope you enjoy the rest of the book! It's so nice seeing an author like Freed, who usually writes non-force side of sw, handling the jedi with such warmth, understanding and awareness

This was such a reassuring message to get, thank you! I've been avoiding spoilers for the book as best I can, but I'm only a quarter of the way through it and I was wondering how the various themes were going to go, but Freed's interview quotes and your comments have made me glad that I'm picking up what this book is putting down, because that's exactly how I've been reading it. (And why I'm hoping to encourage more people to read it--though, I will give a warning that this book can be uncomfortably prescient about current events in a way that I wouldn't say Alexander Freed Is A Witch, but that can be very hard to read about if you're not in the headspace to deal with a lot of reflections of the dumpster fire we're currently in.) As for Mon, I hope nobody comes down on her for this, because as much as I scream, cry, throw up, etc., over Bail's scenes, in general I lean a bit more towards Mon's way of doing things, because I think her approach is her answer to the question, "But what can actually be truly achieved?" That she is looking at an incredibly shitty situation with only shitty options and asking herself what can she actually get done, what does she have a snowball's chance in hell of success with? And she knows clearing the Jedi's name at this point in time is not on the table, not when there are a million other things that might actually do tangible good for the galaxy. And I don't disagree with that! I love the Jedi more than anyone, but clearing their name isn't more important that, say, trying to stop the Wookiees from being classified as a non-sentient species! Clearing their name isn't important enough to blow all your political capital and having nothing to show for it when there are people who you can help, with a chance that will actually succeed! Bail's idealism isn't stupid, he's incredible and the galaxy needs a shining light like him, it's necessary for the bigger hope for the future, we can't make it through the dark times without bright, shining hope. So even when they don't always think positively of each other, I never get the sense that Bail and Mon don't understand that the other is doing what they think is best. They just disagree on what that is. And it makes sense! Bail knew and was friends with the Jedi! He knows the truth about Palpatine and how important all that Force shit is to what's going on here! Mon is operating with the idea that this is a political battle--and she's not entirely wrong, she's necessary to the recovery of the galaxy, too, just as Luke is necessary to save the day, so too is Leia, and I sort of see that reflected in Bail and Mon's approaches--one is focusing on the mystical and one is focusing on the political and I think both are important here. So, I have nothing but hearts for Mon Mothma and what she's trying to do for the galaxy.

And I don't see them as antagonists here, I see them as two people who look at each other with the understanding that there is deep love and compassion for people in the other, that they want this other person on their side not just for political alliances but because they care, and maybe they want to scream in frustration that the other person can't see what they see, but I don't feel for a second that this is going to end with them anything other than them as friends. Their scene in Rogue One implies she knows about Bail knowing a living Jedi, if not directly knowing about Obi-Wan Kenobi, which isn't something he would tell just anyone. I'm hoping for the same with Saw, there's going to be conflict about their approaches, and I love that that's clearly a theme/why these three characters were chosen as the pillars of this book, that each of them are shown to have their reasons why and that each of them serve a purpose. I scream/cry/throw up more about the Jedi because that's the most fun for me, but I am enthralled with Mon's chapters just as much, the political tightrope she's on, and I would encourage people to read for those aspects just as much as I would encourage them for crying about the Jedi. ANYWAY, EVERYONE SHOULD READ THIS BOOK FOR YOURSELF, I'm having fun with the snippets I'm posting, but the book is so much more than those things! It's one of the best SW for rounding out the characters and filling in the transitions between the movies and TV shows, but in a way that keeps the tension and emotional gut-punches despite that we know where it's going. ALSO, MON MOTHMA AND BAIL ORGANA ARE THE BEST, I'M WILLING TO FIGHT THE INTERNET OVER THIS

[vampirebloodie]

Adam Stanheight x reader? Like how Lawrence describes his daughter & wife, have Adam describe his relationship with the reader.

Hope you like it, anon! <3

Best Thing In My Life | Adam Faulkner-Stanheight x Reader

Summary: You carry Adam's baby and the position of the best thing in his life

The time in that bathroom seemed like it would never end, Lawrence and Adam were still trying to understand what they should do to get out of that trap without physical harm. They had already understood that they needed to cut off their own leg that was trapped in chains, but where would they get the courage to do something like that? Lawrence looked at the photo of his family tied up there, helpless, not knowing what he could do to help Alison and their daughter.

“I feel horrible that i can’t help them. Alison and Diana are everything to me. I know i made a mistake cheating on Alison, but i love her since we met years ago. She is the woman of my life.”

The doctor lamented, he didn't even have enough water in his body to shed tears.

“I wonder if they did something to Y/n like they did to them.”

Adam said leaning against the wall, inside he was in pure despair, but he tried to hide it as much as possible, he didn't want to appear weak, no matter how weak he was.

“Y/n? Your relative?”

He asked.

“Something more than that. She is the best thing in my life. Is my girlfriend. I don’t think they would have the courage to do anything to her.”

“If they did something to a child like mine, why wouldn’t they do it to your girlfriend?”

Lawrence asked and Adam ignored his rude question.

“She is not alone. She's pregnant, carrying my baby. I was dedicating myself so much to photography to support both of us and him or her.”

Adam ran his hand over his face, starting to cry. Lawrence was silent for a few seconds before sighing, he was a little shocked now, Adam is gonna be a dad, just like him. If they were close to each other, they would definitely have hugged each other at that moment.

"I'm so sorry."

“I... She was the best thing that ever happened to me. I was bullied a lot in high school for being introverted, she was a new student, in the first week without even knowing me she helped me and stopped them from hitting me. She started hanging out with me and even though she was teased for being pretty and hanging out with a "weirdo" like me, she never stopped. After that i started to look at her like the wonder woman of my dreams, we've been together for 7 years and counting, in fact i was planning to surprise her and ask her to marry me, until i ended up here. She probably came home and saw everything set up, but she didn't saw me there. ”

He explained with a sad face.

"Don't worry. We’re going to get out of here and you’re going to see her again. I want to see my family too. Alison and i are not what we used to be, but i know she still loves me as much as i love her, the feeling may have cooled, but our love for Diana can overcome everything. My little girl is such a miracle in our life, she is so smart and curious. Just like her mother when was a teenager. I'm so proud of my baby”

Gordon said smiling, Adam started running his hands through his jeans looking for something, until he took a photo out of one of the pockets and showed it to Lawrence.

“Look look, at least he didn’t take that from me.”

Lawrence couldn't deny it, she really was very beautiful and had a magical smile that could easily charm anyone who passed by her. The photo showed her and Adam together holding a pregnancy test in one hand and a photograph of an ultrasound in the other hand, smiling extremely happily as a couple in love should be.

“She’s beautiful, isn’t she? She is the love of my life, she is everything to me, she is the thing i am most grateful for having in my life. My family never supported me in being a photographer, unlike her who always helped me despite all the judgments. Being with her every day makes me happier and warms my heart, it's like im in paradise and she's my goddess. ”

Adam said smiling silly caressing the photo, the blonde laughed.

"Do not laugh. Lawrence, im really scared i'll never leave here and i won’t be able to see her again.” He admitted, frustrated.

"Ok ok, we going to get out of here, we’re going to find a way to do this, you’re going to find your wife, even if i leave first and come back for you.”

"You promise?"

“I promise you, Adam.”

Final note: please, reblog if you liked! 💖

[verdantwyrm]

First of all, incredible analysis of Anya! I'm hanging it up in my imaginary museum and shining spotlights on it like that one this is where I'd put my trophy if I had one meme.

Second of all, I don't know if anyone's actually talked about this, but I always find it so strange when people say Anya wishes harm on Curly/Jimmy when she's so determined to go to medical school. In conjunction with the line, "I have to believe our worst moments don't make us monsters," she's more likely than not the type of person who wants to go to medical school to be able to help people rather than the type of person who's going to medical school to get rich. She wouldn't wish harm or death on either of them, and it makes me a bit sad to see people writing/portraying her like that when she would've been the type of doctor who believes every life has intrinsic value and is worth saving no matter what.

Follow-up question/side thought: what type of doctor do you think Anya would've been? She canonically reads psychology books, but imo, that doesn't really say much other than she would've been a well-rounded, popular doctor.

Sorry if my rambling didn't make sense; I'm a bit sleepy rn but wanted to hear your thoughts. I hope your day has been going wonderfully!

╰(*´︶`*)╯ Thank you so much Anon!! I was so worried about it because truthfully, there isn't all that much to say about her that isn't tied to the other characters, and we see so little of who she is outside of Jimmy's POV, so it's going to be from a place of bias and dehumanisation, so I tried to make the best out of it I could and include as much as of her character as I could. Besides, I had already talked plenty about her, so everything was made up of stuff I had already said somewhere else.

I also find it very strange to say that Anya is someone who would willingly do such a thing, not only does it go against her whole reason to be a doctor, but it also goes against her character, her kind, forgiving and understanding nature. She would make the perfect doctor because she sees people for who they are and still administers help and aid to them, even despite her personal feelings and soon the very difficult act of giving Curly his medication, she still tries for him until he physically can no longer stand it. I've mentioned in that analysis why I hate the "Final Girl" trope and why it shouldn't and couldn't be applicable to Anya because I do not see any situation at all where she could hurt Curly or Jimmy out of any reason, it's not her, and even in the instance of a true psychotic breakdown due to stress, the most she would do is threaten them or attempt to defend herself, she would never go out of her way to actively cause harm, especially onto Jimmy, someone she's already so terrified of and is constantly spooked by, almost flinching every time he says anything.

As for your final question, I honestly headcanon her to be a Paediatric nurse, working in the children's ward. I see her very much so with the constant energy of attracting kids no matter where she goes because she's just so friendly, and nice and kids love her. It's like how Capybara have a constant chill vibe about them no matter what or where, children can sense that, and they cling to her like magnets. She gets along well with kids, wants to have her own family once, can't cry thinking about little babies and them laughing, and wishes to push effort and pursue her dreams of ensuring that children are safe, healthy, and happy. It brings her great fulfilment to accomplish something like that, helping something so young nd so fragile prosper in life. She's loved by all the other nurses and doctors because she's just so charming, always helps babies soothe for needles, knows exactly how to entertain children waiting for their parents, and she's very well educated in all sorts of things which provides very good conversation.

And don't worry, your rambling makes perfect sense! Thank you so much for asking, I hope you have a lovely day too! ☆ ～('▽^人)

[orange-peony]

An ask game for writers to procrastinate working on your WIP(s)

Thanks for tagging me @wellbelesbian!

1. 🦈Tell us the name of your/ one of your WIP(s):

I'm actively working on "Home sweet home" and "Thorns", but I also have a few stories at planning stage with various titles.

2. 🍄Describe your WIP/one of your WIP(s) in the format of “___ + ___ =___”

Hallmark movie + snowbaz = a lovely mess

3. 🌍What tags or warnings will one of your WIP(s) need if you intend to share it?

The drarry one has PTSD as a warning, the snowbaz one has Fiona's mad chihuahua and a very thirsty Simon + Baz. And Dev deserves a tag for himself, as per usual.

4. 🧭An alternative title to one of your WIP(s)?

I've got one with an interesting temporary title, but I don't know if I'm going to post it for an anon fest, so I can't share it.

Let's go for the snowbaz one "The veil opens again" (the title will most likely change - it's set 20 years in the future when the veil opens and married snowbaz with their kids visit Watford, so that Baz can see Natasha again, and then Lucy also appears).

5. ⚠️Which WIP your most likely to finish or update next?

I'm trying to work on alternate weeks on my drarry and snowbaz BB, also because one is kind of angsty and the other one pretty light, so it's easier for my mood. The snowbaz will post first because it's due sooner.

6. 💾What is your document of your WIP/ a WIP called? (not the stories actual title but what you’ve saved it as)

They're organised by fandom, and the folders usually have the title of the fic, unless I haven't decided on a title yet. I have a "multiverse" one and a "soulmates" folder.

7. 🖍Post Any sentence(s) from your WIP.

Drarry - “I forgot to mention that I’m an Unspeakable,” Draco says.

Snowbaz - “Well, I would kiss you.” I don’t know why I said that. Fuck.

8. ♻️A scrapped idea for your current WIP.

Some super angsty subplot that I decided to ditch because it made me want to cry. 😭

9. 🤔What’s a story you’d love to write but haven’t even started yet?

I'd love to write a drarry multiverse, but I also have a couple of drarry fics that I've planned but haven't got the chance to start writing yet (one is a soulmate fic and the other one features professional scapegoat Draco). As for snowbaz, I'd love to write another AU.

10. 🤡How many WIPS are you actively working on?

I'm actively working on 2 - my drarry and snowbaz BB fics.

11. 🛠Is there a scene or anything in the WIP you are struggling with right now?

Draco is being a lot softer than he was meant to be, and Harry was supposed to be angrier, so I'm struggling a bit with a scene, but I'm getting there (I hope).

12. ❤️Not a question, just a second Kudos to send.

A shower of kudos to you all! 💙

Tagging (no pressure): @bubble-gumhead, @artsyunderstudy, @hushed-chorus, @you-remind-me-of-the-babe, @peachpety, @lumosatnight, @facewithoutheart, @martsonmars, @cutestkilla, @thewholelemon, @larkral, @fatalfangirl, @cassiaratheslytherpuff and anyone who wants to do it (just say that I've tagged you!)

[ray935sworld]

Hello, hello) it's me? yes, finally 👻. I’ve got my nails done, so now I could use 💅 just for fun (I feel better if you're interested, but anyway)

I hope you've been doing well lately. I'm sorry that the last ask may have seemed passive-aggressive to you, I HONESTLY AND SINCERELY wrote it only with love and respect. (and probably with a bunch of mistakes…) English is not my native language and the semantic structure of sentences and grammar suffer from this, once again I am very sorry about it.

And FINALLY, I finally finished that wonderful chapter of my favorite divorce. Luka is my dearest stronghold of the mind, and I love him for that. I sincerely believe him, he seems so loving and caring to David, I'm glad that Marc gave him another chance.

BUT with all this fuss, I almost forgot that Marc doesn't even know what caused Mr. "I'm delusional " to behave like this and only now hears the reason. Is it horrible, did he not know the reason all this time??! What a nightmare. What a crazy hell he lives in. Oh, my dear Marc, you're wonderful, you absolutely don't deserve it.

AND yes, the scene with David is terrible, really scary and painful, and even if I understand Vale’s position (which is crazy and delusional as fuck, because it is Marc there is no way, absolutely no way, he can do that) - he believes that he was betrayed, his actions make sense, but damn it, even if you believe he is not yours, is just disgusting. Disgusting behavior. You solemnly assured me that he would answer for it, well... I'm waiting, I really have to grind my teeth, well, it's not that easy, but I'm trying.

As a wonderful @calia23 already said «MY BABY MY POOR BABY! VALENTINO DID IT ON PURPOSE! I JUST KNOW! That he crawls on his knees isn't enough, I need him to suffer!!!», Thank you so much for this.

Thank you for reading my essay,

A thousand kisses to you and your writing 💖

P.S., jokes aside, ghost-anon is absolutely love, please don't change it. Another thousand kisses 💕)

OMG HEEEY MY DEAR 👻 ANON. It's so good to hear from you again!!!

Well, what else can I say except ✨💅SLAY 💅✨

And oh I'm so sorry if it seemed like that passive aggressive was meant in a rude way. I definitely understood it like fun passive aggressive like that "you made me cry with Santi WHY?" I just read it in my head that way and thought it was funny. And please ABSOLUTLY NO WORRIES about english grammar or spelling and stuff like that. I'm not a native speaker either and I love learning languages so I totally understand the struggles. Feel free to describe if there's a word you use in your native langue that you see fitting in a situation but there no equal translation, if you want to. I really don't mind.

So about the divorce AU - OH LUCA MY LOVE 💕 when thinking about his place, making him the loving uncle even post divorce wasn't even up for debate.

And about the question if/ what Marc knew for the reason, so Marc definitely knew that Vale assumed that David isn't his son. I mean in this AU Vale even tells the press. And they had a few fights about this (and the dangerous racing still exists but is only a minor part) At a later point, I'll definitely take the fights they had during the last weeks/ months of their relationship into account and describe them. So Marc knew about the reason (that Vale believed that David isn't his biological son) but I really wanted to kind of highlight Vale's view (which will come back later too! There's a lot of figuring out to do) to show why he reacts so strongly.

I mean Vale's accusation and behavior is very extrem especially cause it is towards two people he considered the people he loves the most in the world. So I feel like the explanation that he sees David as the physical prove of the betrayal is important to understand Vale's view (even if it's wrong and he is delusional but he doesn't believes he is delusional and yes I will milk this part so much you won't believe it! Trust me, my goal is it to make you feel sorry for Vale)

And I love writing disgusting action that have somehow an understable reason so this is also just me being mean in writing ☺️😈

OH AND THAT MAN WILL SUFFER. Mentally (and physical) definitely. But be aware that this AU will kind of take very long. I hope to write soon a little more and then get to the part where I can make the chapters longer but the real suffering Vale part will only be after a little more poor David moments

OH YES @calia23 really brought it to the point. Absolutely lovely. She's amazing. Totally stunning. She is also the one helping me with all this and helps developing many rough ideas and concept. Literally I sent her essay messages after essay messages and not only does she actually reads them but she comments and ask about it!!! MUCH LOVE AND KISSES TO HER! 💕💕💕

And oooh, thank you so much, thousand kisses to you too! I'm so thankfuk for your sweet message :)

[wings-of-ink]

Hello! I went to sleep while finishing GC so naturally I had dreams abt it and some random questions- would you ever consider adding character descriptions for a Trans MC? (I know this is more work for u so feel free to ignore jus curious).

Also on that note I wanna add that the naming scene did in fact make me cry, I know it’s not the internet to be trans coded but- it just struck a cord with me- jus the fact that I got to choose my name and my fathers were happy for me🥲😭🙏🏼a whole box of puffs+ gone in one sitting. I can’t express how much I LOVE Da and Papa, they’re my Roman Empire I love them so much. They’re just so loving and accepting 🥲I wanna hug them

Speakin of characters I’d like to hug- Will we still be able to dig deeper into Zahns backstory even if we don’t romance them? Bc…I just…I wanna drag them back home far FAR from their Sect and just love them (platonically) forever. I wont deny tho I’m just very curious about their cult and like…wtf is going on there 👀

Ok this is already too long I’ll leave it at that💞gonna go reread this masterpiece now.

(Side note your description of the honey cakes made me wanna try them so I’m currently looking for recipes 🕺gonna eat them while I reread)

Have the loveliest day!

Sincerely,

-Oswin obsessed anon

Hello my dear!

First off, that is very sweet and I am loving that you dreamed about it!

I had wondered about making something of the sort, but like you said, it adds to an already complex system. My thinking when I did the character creation as it is was that, at least in this world, whoever you are - you just are. That's kinda how I see myself because I've always been in a grey area for my own identity. So, I just am. That's why I didn't enter any sort of specified option for transitioning.

I don't know if anything like the Trans descriptors will be in the game. If I did them, I'd want them to be at least meaningful. So, I won't say no, and it's something I'll take to heart when I consider the scope of the project.

I am thrilled that the naming scene was meaningful for you. I think I know how you feel there.

If I could magic any two people from my IF to life, I would probably go with Papa and Da, lol. Sorry to the RO lovers, but the world needs these daddies!

You will definitely see more of Zahn's backstory even if you don't romance them. Each RO will have that sort of baggage and you will be able to "try before you buy" so to speak. I haven't decided how deep that will go or how those will change depending on if they are romanced or not. I'm considering designing it so that you would need to romance them to get the entire scope of their background, problems, and such and help them find some sort of closure during their route. Zahn will start opening up more before you know it though!

Not to worry about a long ask - I love reading! Lol

I actually found a honey cake recipe that I wanted to post with a future update for chapter 3! But I'll pop it in here for you in case you want it. It's a bit fancier than what would be available to the MC's family, but it would be delectable. This chef is my all time favorite as well. Love the way he talks and his silly puns. I use his methods and recipes a lot and they never fail.

I hope your day is also lovely, Anon! Thank you for dropping in! ^_^

[eksentrismi]

if it's not too offensive or too much to ask, why are you attracted to inanimate objects? they can't love you back or anything like that, so i don't really get it.

It's alright, anon, I personally don't feel offended by your question. I suppose it probably can sound kinda odd to people who haven't heard of this stuff before etc. Sometimes I tend to forget that most people don't actually see objects as attractive, lol. And it doesn't help when there's lots of content, reaction videos and documentaries online, where objectum people are being mocked and made fun of, etc. It really sucks to see that kind of stuff, bullying is never okay imo </3

Anyways, well, it's complicated to explain why I get attracted to old tech and such. Like of course, I do know that they're just inanimate objects. Pretty much like in the case of fictional characters; I also love them a lot too and find them really attractive, but I understand that they're not really "real" and they'll never know me, they'll never love me back really etc. Sometimes it does make me feel a bit sad, but well, that's just how life goes. Can't do much about it.

Before I found out and realized I was objectum maybe an year or two ago: before that, I've always generally been very fascinated by old tech, finding it really cool. I'm an autistic dude, who grew up with old 1980's, 1990's and early 2000's tech. And I easily developed deep bonds to my electronic devices, favorite clothes, collectibles, plushies and whatever other objects I had that I found somehow cool-looking. Not romantic bonds, but like... generally deep bonds, I just got really attached to them, they brought me comfort etc. If my favorite plushie fell on the ground from my bed, I always felt really bad about it and would even cry about it as a kid. I held my favorite objects very carefully, always treating them well despite knowing that they were just inanimate objects with no feelings whatsoever. It's very complicated to explain and probably sounds silly anyways, sorry. It's probably good to note too though that I've always been extremely sensitive, lol: I'm really the type of guy, who literally cries at some ads too etc for no reason really. I still like to collect old tech and they're very valuable to me. <3 And well, nowadays whenever I see cool-looking old tech, besides the aesthetics; I also think that it's attractive to me and I get thoughts in my mind, in this "wow, that old electronic device over there looks really cute/handsome to me actually, I like how the tactile buttons and the colors look, the material looks pleasing to my eyes too, the shape is nice etc." way. Those kinds of thoughts just feel normal to me, but it's all pretty much just in like only either a romantic, platonic or aesthetic way. I just think that some electronic devices are good-looking, lol, IDK how to explain that any better than that.

Sorry, this all probably sounds like really incoherent rambling, I didn't know how to exactly write this reply here and I'm probably not the best person to ask from or explain these things out as I actually just suck at explaining stuff, lol. But I hope this helped answer your question at least a little bit!

[little-miss-dilf-lover]

More TEXT CONVOS!! (Also I want you to know that you can disregard the drabbles ! I just hope you're doing well and taking care of yourself  💗💗) 💺 anon

🍊) My little (brat) princess

🍊: I hid a bag in our closet. If you find it, do not open it. 🍒: Well now I kinda want to look for it 🍊: Please don't. 🍒: :( 🍊: I'm serious. 🍒: What even is inside? 🍊: It's a surprise.

🍒: About to take a bath, alone 🍒: No one here to wash my hair for me 🍒: Or leave kisses on my neck and shoulder 🍒: Or run their hands down my body 🍒: HOW ARE YOU AT THE FRONT DOOR ALREADY??

🍊: My love for you is like diarrhea 🍊: I can't hold it in 🍒: Am I supposed to say something nice?

🍊: How would you feel if I shaved? 🍒: Please just tell me you didn't 🍊: Well... 🍊: Yeah I was just kidding love 🍊: WHY DID YOU TELL LEMON WE'RE GETTING DIVORCED?

🍒: How much until your cute ass gets home?? 🍊: I'll be there in less than an hour ❤️ 🍒: Prepare yourself because the moment you step in I'm gonna jump in your arms and attack your pretty face with kisses 🍒: I can't wait to cuddle and hear you complain about the mission 🍊: I'm so in love with you

🍊: [1 image attached] 🍒: Screaming, crying, shaking, shitting, pissing, banging my head againts the wall, ripping my hair out, clawing out my heart, slamming my fists on the table 🍒: You look lovely

🍒: Hello my mandarin 🍊: We're not doing this

🍒: I think Tan hates me 🍊: Excuse me? What made you believe that? 🍒: That was meant for Lem 🍊: Why would you tell him you think I hate you? 🍒: Because he's very funny and I love to gossip with him 🍊: I'm funnier than him actually. And that still doesn't answer my question 🍒: You didn't ask me to be your valentine :( 🍊: That's because we've been married for 8 years, I assumed you're already my valentine 🍒: You have to ask :( 🍊: Fine. Will you be my valentine? 🍒: Yes :) [Tan reacted with ❤️]

[Unknown number]: Hello my beautiful wife. I am curently writing this message to apologize and ask for your forgiveness. Please unblock me. Yours, Tangerine. 🍒: ENOUGH

🍋) Silly goofy guy

🍋: How's my favorite person in the world doing? 🍒: What did you do? 🍋: Jumping to conclusions I see 🍒: Lemon what did you do? 🍋: Promise you won't get mad 😆 🍒: I promise 😊😊😊🔪😊😊 🍋: I broke your heels 🍒: ... 🍒: Well did you at least take some photos?? 🍋: You know it 🤪 🍋: [5 images attached]

🍋: Should we play minecraft? I wanna finish our train 🍒: Tan said he doesn't want to :( 🍋: Tell him to mind his business

🍋: I was drinking bubble tea and choked on the balls so I spilled the drink everywhere 🍋: Now Tan won't even look at me

🍋: I've been looking for my gun for 2 hours only to realize I don't have it anymore 🤣🤣🤣🤣💃🥳😆😼😼

🍒: He's my little anal ☺️ 🍒: ANGEL 🍒: ANGEL I MEANT ANGEL 🍋: THE WAY I SCREAMED 🍒: DON'T SHOW THIS TO HIM 🍋: HE'S LOOKING AT ME NOOO 😭😭

🍊🍋🍒) The fruit bowl

🍒: Do you ever just 🍋: Yeah, but 🍋: Yk? 🍒: Damn man I sure do 🍊: Is this why you two created this group chat? 🍋: Actually it's so you can like and subscribe 🤯👽❓ 🍒: But first, a word from our sponsor!! 🍊: I'm so done with you both

🍋: Should I dye my hair? 🍊: Absolutely fucking not 🍒: Pookie no it won't look as good as it does now!! 🍋: Love you guys 🫶 🍋: I already bought the hair dye 🍊: WHY DID YOU EVEN ASK? 🍋: I'm in a silly goofy mood 🍋: So green or blue? 🍊: I will smash your head through a window 🍒: LEM LISTEN TO US!! 🍋: Yo I kinda look like the joker

🍒: [2 images attached, it's photos of Tan and Cherry hugging] 🍒: These look so good! 🍒: Lem best wingman AND photographer 🍋: Fucking finally. It was getting annoying 🍊: Would you stop it already? 🍒: Yeah, it wasn't THAT bad 🍋: [1 image attached, text convo of Tan talking about Cherry to Lem] 🍊: DELTE THST RIGHT FUCKING NOW 🍒: 🤣 🍋: Oh I know you're not laughing Cherry 🍋: [1 image attached, text convo of Cherry gushing about Tan to Lem] 🍒: THAT'S MESSED UP

+ bonus 🍊: Made her laugh today and I can't get it out of my head 🍊: It's driving me nuts 🍊: I must've looked fucking stupid the way I just stared at her 🍋: Talking about her again? 🍊: Who else do I ever talk about you nob 🍋: So did you ask her out? 🍊: What do you think? 🍋: I'm thinking no because you're a pussy 🍊: Fuck off

🍒: Ok so I was talking to him earlier today and he just put his hand on my shoulder and got really close to my face but I feel like he was mostly looking at my lips. Maybe it was just my imagination 🍒: Anyway, does he do this to everyone? 🍋: Girl

hii angel!!! I really do want to be able to write them for you, I’ll keep them in my inbox and will def try to do one of them, but if not, keep them noted down and I’ll get around to them eventually 💓💓

THESE ARE SO FUN!!!?? loved them all, especially..

^ why would he tell us if he doesn’t want us snooping??????

^ lem would be the mediator, trying to rationalise tan not to shave (even if he was messing) he doesn’t want to see his bro with a baby face

^ ALL OF THAT😭😭 and then, you look lovely. I HAVE A PICTURE IN MY HEAD AND I NEED TO ADD IT bc it works well and obviously bc it’s hot 😩😩😩😩😩😩

^ tan would be acting like he doesn’t know lem😭

^😭😭😭😭😭 we just have random half conversations (but we each no exactly what the other is thinking) and it just annoys tan sm. “what did you think about that thing?” “that was so crazy. what did you think about that other thing? not that thing but another thing?” “holy shit man, but did you see?” “RIGHT? and then?” “omg😭”

^ lem got the receipts 😭😭😭😭

^😭😭😭😭 “bc you’re a pussy” and “girl” lmao

[gyllenhaalstories]

Hey :D I watched a few movies with Jake and I was wondering what are your fave movies and your least fave? Just curious!

hi anon!!! i hope you've enjoyed the movies you've watched so far!!! 💖 i've made it through almost his entire filmography, i think i'm missing 2 of them? yeah, that's about right. i'm avoiding nocturnal animals like the plague so maybe one day i will be brave enough to watch it and complete jake's whole filmography. it was pretty easy to select my 3 least favourites, but my top 3 had me questioning everything. i just love so many of his movies, it's not my fault! thank you so much for asking this question! i love rambling.

TOP 3 FAVOURITE MOVIES

Demolition (i remember watching this movie and i loved it so much that i watched it a second time right away. it holds such a special place in my heart and it always will!)

Brokeback Mountain and Love & Other Drugs (it feels criminal to put them at the same level but i just love them too much okay!!! they both make me cry a river)

Road House (yeah <3 jake has so many amazing movies but the rewatchability factor is very important to me and i've watched the movies mentioned above SO MANY TIMES and what's the other one that i also watched an alarming amount of times? road house. it's funny, it's pretty, it's not boring, it's not too long, it's got some depth, it's just so good. ambulance would also qualify, i love it so much too. if i was smart i would put wildlife because it gave me a similar gut punch as demolition did the first time i watched it, but i'm not smart so my vote goes for the gyllentitties)

TOP 3 LEAST FAVOURITE MOVIES

The Sisters Brothers (i love john morris & his multiple accents so much and there are elements of the movie i liked, but... it's so long... it's so boring... it's so yeehaw gold rush... it's one of the few movies of jake i have on DVD and i can assure you it won't be played very often <3)

Highway (call me boring and lame and everything you want, but i don't like alcohol and weed and stuff centered around those topics so it's kind of obvious that this movie wasn't for me. pilot's cute, i like him, but yeah. it took me forever to find this movie online in english and not spanish or russian? for some reason? so the intensive research was not all that worth it. if i ever watch it again, it's for pilot)

Life (i love david jordan and his yo-yo!!! i love him so much!!! i watched 2 alien movies in my life and they were essentially the same and i did not like them. why do they always let the aliens inside the spaceship??? aren't astronauts supposed to be smart? it's so stupid that they just think it will end well. it never ends well! so yeah i'd rather watch accidental love than life and that says A LOT.)

honourable mention for spirit untamed. i will never watch spirit untamed. i grew up watching spirit: stallion of the cimarron and my spirit would never!!! i can tell that jake's voice acting improved a lot between this movie and strange world and that's all that matters.

as a bonus, i'll give you the 3 movies that pleasantly surprised me! moonlight mile (i wasn't expecting much? i don't know, i thought it would be pretty meh but it was so good! i really liked it and it's definitely one of my rare comfort watches because jake hates me and doesn't do enough movies i can just watch easily), end of watch (it's so... intense. i almost threw up because of a certain scene, i thought i would have stopped watching before the end but i loved brian taylor so much) and stronger (one of jake's most underrated performances like woah this was so painful and so good and so yeah! i really liked it. you can tell that jake was passionate about telling this story and it deserves a lot more recognition). i'm done rambling now, thank you again for sending this! 💖

[polarisbibliotheque]

Sorry, I saw one post and a half of yours and I'm already a fan.

I still have to scroll down your blog to see more about you, but I saw that two-post-long answer you made for an anon ask (btw, you have such poetic vibes :D your style made me smile, seriously) and I couldn't holf myself to ask:

Hm, have you ever heard of... I mean, "whump"?

If yes, what are your thouhts on it?

(you don't need to answer this, specially if it makes you unconfortable in any ways or anything else XD)

However, I hope you have a wonderful day/noon/afternoon/evening/night(?) !

Hello hello!! First things first, sorry for taking SO LONG to answer, I had a ton of health issues the last couple of months >.<

Secondly, thank you SO MUCH for being so kind!! I saw all your reblogs of that huge answer for such a tiny thing I did and thank you. I'm really happy you like my style too, that makes me smile!

Now now, about your question on whump, I'm gonna be very honest, I had to Google it to make sure we're on the same page HAHAHAHAHAHA

Jokes aside, I know it's sort of a term for hurt/comfort fanfiction - but it's not really clear to me if it's a kink thing or not.

Because you see, if you're talking about hurt and comfort, I mean, that's basically what I write HAHAHAHA writing for the Devil May Cry fandom, inevitably someone will be hurt/tortured/mentally abused somehow.

Or impaled. A lot.

(I mean, that's all this bitch has done for the past 5 games)

And also there's the whole thing with Vergil, his twin brother, being kept as a slave in Hell for 20(?) years and coming back after dragging his crumbling body out of there to find out he has a son and being the peak of cluelessness in the Universe - and me being adamant he deserves love after all that.

So I guess everything I write has a LOT of hurt - and I even put some serious warnings before the fics, 'cause everyone is traumatized in this household - but despite of that, they still can find love, happiness and somewhat soothe all that pain and trauma.

(dramatic, real, horrible, but stil comforting xD)

As a kink, though, I don't enjoy it - and I also don't enjoy putting characters I love through pain and suffering just because. That's why I have a love/hate relationship with horror media: I LOVE horror, but I HATE exploitation.

Movies that have just people being abused, hurt, dismembered and all that kind of horrible stuff happening just because without a real reason to be on the plot - meaning, torture porn - just make my blood boil. And there's a lot of that in horror.

I like when things are more psychological and actually have a REASON to be there. So, in my writing, I'll never torture a character just for the pleasure of doing so and for the pleasure of the reader, I need a point out of it.

For instance, on my cyberpunk-style story, both main characters have gone through a terrible experience together and lost someone who was really dear to them. Both of them went through a lot of physical pain, lost some limbs and needed to install cyberprosthesis, and lost everything they had worked for til that point in their lives.

Horrible, yes. But they had to go through it so I could start the story: because of all of this, the guy made an anarchist/terrorist group and just wants to burn down the city along with the people in power who allowed all that to happen to him, while the woman becomes the best killer for hire so she can get enough money to live and, eventually, retire.

All that physical and psychological pain is a very important plot point and I can't take it away from the story, or else there's no story to begin with. Meanwhile, every time I'm writing I'm thinking "how can I make this as unpleasant as I can so the reader can understand the crushing feeling of all of this?" hahahahaha

That's why I'm not into pain kink - I respect everyone who is, but I can't do it, I feel no pleasure from it.

That's my opinion, I think. For pleasure's sake, I don't like it, but for plot, I really like it. I think it has a hopeful note to it - that even after the storm, the days will shine bright again, you just have to go on. That's what I enjoy from writing things like this, the hope.

Who would've known, I'm not 100% a bitter bitch hahaha

Reading my personal original stories, I think all of them have a painful background and many unpleasant scenes. But I like it, because it's human nature and how life is: bad things will happen, we can just try to make the good ones count even more :)

I hope that was a good answer to your question hahahaha

Thank you once again, and I hope you have a lovely week ahead!! Feel free to spend some time around and ask things if you'd like! ^^

[supernaturallyginger]

I watched like 40 episodes in 3 days. Wow. And hellsite now has a luffy tab. Wow. This anime watches itself, the next thing i know is that i clicked on the next episode button.

I can kinda see why my friend said it's like jojo, some of the characters and fights are weird, but more in a unique quirky way than in a bizarre way.

I like this zoro guy a lot. With the navigation skills he has, it's a miracle he even found pirates, yet everyone recognizes him as pirate hunter zoro. Impressive. Guy has one brain cell and it revolves around swords and his friends. Also will i be seeing johny and yosaku again? Those were funny guys.

Usopp's friend's butler turning out to be a catboy pirate is one hell of a story. I liked how he adjusts his glasses that way because of the claws that he fight with. And the other guy who also hypnotized himself!

Very sexy of that pirate cook that he saved little sanji because they have the same dream. Kind of a dilf.

And he made food for those pirates because he knows what it's liketo starve...bro...

I do not want to question how those starved out pirates became ready to fight two minutes after consuming food so... yeah. How? Lol

And there are pirates who work for the government. But like which government? Is there only one?

Nami: im quitting and stealing your ship

Luffy: no you're not :) you're our navigator, our friend!!:D

Racist shark merman pirate. Smh this anime

All these bitches have sad backstories, but nami's got to me specially. And when she asks luffy to help her and he gives her his hat, his treasure i almost started crying. I also liked the Ost very much when the crew marches to kick arlong's ass. I'm glad luffy destroyed the room she slaved away drawing all those maps.

First i saw pinwheel hat guy i thought his design is funny, but ot turns out he wore the pinwheel to not scare little nami🥺

Every time Luffy says he will be the pirate king im like i sure hope so bestie :) <3

Baby's first wanted poster!!! Love happy they are about it and then nami is like you guys do realize it means people will come after us???haha. And even shanks got to see the poster!!! Amazing.

I like it so far!!!

Have a good night/day!!!

omg anon!! I never saw the tumblr notification for this and then an entire month passed....???? literally how is september almost over??

I AM SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED WHAT YOU SAW SO FAR!! THE EAST BLUE SAGA IS SO NOSTALGIC TO ME <333

a few notes:

no Zoro's two bounty hunting pals don't come back :( they are in like one filler episode pretty early on but that's it for them. I miss them <3

Zeff is 100% a dilf. he can feed me any day!

do not apply too much logic into food = instant healing because it will happen time and time again

government and politics become a big part of the overarching story as one piece goes on. but yeah. there is one world government overseeing most islands. each island also has its own leadership. but the world government pulls the strings in the bigger picture and have control over the marines

this will not be the last time you see racism and fish

Luffy's first wanted postered omg <333 <- now deeply considering rewatching all of east blue

anon, I am so glad you are having fun with one piece!! it's a great series to binge!!!

have an awesome night/or morning/or whatever <333

[anevergreenknight]

the way that you very obviously send yourself anons makes me giggle

the last 4 or 5 asks except the "what's my type", and "selfie" where from me. I found it interesting that I could send myself asks instead of . As pathetic as it is, I needed to talk myself out of the last two stressful days. These are the ones I asked myself.

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I needed to vent so I asked these three questions for myself because my goodness, did I want to cry all day today and do nothing but wait till they were going to help me. I don't like feeling like I have to depend on people and wait until they find it fitting to do so. Even if it was just going to be me waiting till 2pm to replace the battery. I wanted to feel useful and so I took the battery out myself and walked to Walmart auto shop and boom. I'm really glad I did that. I got triggered when they told me that. It took me back to the year I stopped relying on them and just walked everywhere. Did you see how much I rambled and made a big deal out of nothing? Who else was going to accept my rant!?

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This one was more of an internal question because of current circumstances and although time has and continues to pass, my affinity towards them will remain. I do stand by tagging them as such because that's honestly how I see them. But it's not because of their body? How do I explain myself without revealing anything but my admiration? Aghh— okay so, obviously they're SEXY AS FUCK ❤️‍🔥. Their body is super adorable with a cute, soft, and gradable tummy/back/hips 💕, their amazing bonkers (sorry if this offended you - but it's true) 💝, thighs to drown in 💘, with a hot juicy ass 💓, and their décolletage/collarbones/shoulders will always have me smitten... But again, that's not why I referred to them as such — To me, they will never be just some sexy body, a "piece of meat", sexual object (ALTHOUGH, I have sexualized about them a bit 😅😐), or an ordinary lewd Tumblr post. Yes, she's a work of art, like sunsets, and reminds of that Bruno Mars locked out of heaven song. However, I've been able to experience just how amazingly awesome they are and see how they are this, as they deal with that and this, and all while being THAT, which to me is one of, if not the most important role? How they're able to deal with all of that makes them a gorgeous hot mess, and despite all of it, they still remain endearing, making them the most beautiful girl out there. sigh, I feel as though I can write about them until the universe dies out. And I'll keep writing afterwards. Anyways, That's why I tag them that way. That being said, because of circumstances, it did make me feel rude and creepy hyping them up yesterday since I don't know if it's okay to do so. I was actually scared and worried about receiving a "cease and desist" dm. So that's why I sent myself that ask: is it okay for me to still hype and woo over? Am I doing this wrong? I hope this made sense.

That being said, that's me 👇🏽 every time I see their sexy pics and I'm not one bit ashamed to admit it.

The Washington ask is just me being excited but having no one else to express my excitement about. I should have just posted an update on it, I just got hooked up with the whole "wait, I can send myself asks?" Thing. Anyways, I am excited and scared about my visit over there. A lot of cars are going to be honking at me and I might be stopped by the popo because I'll most likely be driving too slow :/

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It feels so refreshing to be honest about this. Yes, I'm extremely pathetic for doing so, but I'd rather talk to myself into madness than bother anyone.

I'm embarrassed, but glad to see you got amused by me being a loser. I was going to stop sending myself asks now that I got caught, but I'll keep it going here and there just to keep you giggling 👍🏽 It feels like you know me well enough to know which are the ones I'll send myself ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (not anytime soon tho)

Okay, take care anon 😊😊

[zerobaseonefics]

warm you up ㅡ park gunwook (requested)

park gunwook x gn!reader

genre : fluff

warnings : none !! i'm sorry i took so long with your ask dear anon :(( hope you'll like it

gunwook was close to cry when he saw you this morning in your big puffer. you looked so cute, trying to disappear in it to protect yourself from the cold.

but as much as he find it endearing, he could see you were really, really cold.

you hated winter. well, no, you loved looking at the snow by the window, being wrapped up in a plaid with a hot chocolate and a christmas movie for background noise. but as soon as you stepped outside, you just wished you were back to the warmer days.

school was hell. you were pretty sure the whole academic system was made to cause your downfall, because why the fuck would they send you on a school trip during winter? and it wasn't some school trips where you could spend the day indoors, no, they sent guys to the fucking mountains to go hiking.

if you hated winter (the season ‼️😟), gunwook will hate it as well. even as a friend, he's kind of a protective person and he likes to help his dear ones in whatever situation. now you were feeling cold, and it was not just because you were overly sensitive to this weather, it was in fact VERY cold. oh, how he wished he could just take you somewhere and hug you to warm you up. but he couldn't just leave the rest of the class with you to take you somewhere hot. plus, he was way too shy to hold you in his arms.

throughout the day, gunwook tried to warm you up subtly. it was just small little things, and you didn't even realize his attentions earlier. at first, he was clumsy as he didn't know what to do. he stole your phone to make you run and feel warmer... yeah, you weren't very happy about it. then, he made sure when you walked that you were always on a spot where the sunlight was hitting, so you could be where it's hotter. but gunwook figured out it wasn't enough at all.

"y/n, what do you think about my gloves?"

"hum... they look good?"

you were taken aback by the sudden and weird question, but you answered anyways. gunwook stretched his arms to you his gloves better.

"you want to try them on?''

"why would i want to try them on-"

"okay, i'm letting you try them only because it's you."

you accepted with frowned eyebrows, confused about his actions, but you let it be only because you had no gloves and you would love to warm up your hands even for seconds. he took off his gloves and insisted on putting them for you, which you let him do. while you were looking at your hands now covered with his black woolen gloves, gunwook also took off his scarf to wrap it around your neck and your head to cover your ears. you looked at him, even more confused.

you didn't have to ask him anything, because he talked before you could.

"i was thinking they would suit you better than me."

"aren't you cold?" you asked a bit worried.

"don't worry, i can handle this kind of weather", he responded, trying to look cool.

"tch, you're bragging" you scoffed.

you looked at his hands that were already getting red from the cold. you sighed : he didn't have to endure the cold for you... you looked back up to him with a smile.

"thank you, gunwook."

and now, the redness of his hands went to his cheeks, because you took his hand in your and put it in your pocket.

"let's go, we have to catch up with the rest of the class."

gunwook let you drag him happily towards the rest of the group, and despite the freezing weather, he couldn't help but feel warm thanks to your hand.

[animeomegas]

Ooo! So happy you hit 4k!!

Can you do one with Denki Kaminari where they were childhood friends but didn't know they were getting married to each other until very recently, and a game of 20 questions?

Keep up that great work!!

-Ghost Anon

I will! I hope you like this, Ghost Anon!! <3

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DENKI + CHILDHOOD FRIENDS + 20 QUESTIONS

The game of 20 questions had been your suggestions as a way to spend a gloomy and stormy afternoon stuck inside. You had intended to play it in the drawing room, but Denki had insisted that the game was best played in private, in your bedroom.

Which was why you and Denki were now lounging on the floor of your bedroom with a bunch of pillows and blankets, listening to the rain pound on the window.

"Do you want to go first?" Denki asked, grinning.

"We've known each other forever, I can't think of anything I don't know about you..." you said, trying to wrack your brain for something. "Oh! I know! If you had to get a job, what job would you get?"

"That's such a boring question."

"You're so annoying," you laughed, hitting him with a pillow. "It's my question, I can ask whatever I want."

"Fine," he groaned, drawing out the word and flopping back onto some blankets. "I guess... I guess I'd try and join the army or something?"

"The army?" you asked, eyebrows raised. "Denki 'I like sweet buns and hate exercise' Kaminari would join the army."

"I don't know," he said defensively, scratching his arm. "I just, I don't know, I could help people."

You dropped the comical surprise when you saw that he was genuine. You didn't want to mock or tease him if he felt strongly about something. Your mother would never let you live it down if you made your fiancé cry during the week before your wedding.

"I would be honoured to have someone so loyal guard me," you said softly, poking him in the stomach. "I was only teasing."

Denki perked up easily. He had always been easy to cheer up.

"It's your turn to pick a question."

Denki hesitated for a moment, but before you could ask, he started to speak.

"You said you don't know what to ask because we've known each other so long," Denki asked. You stared at him, wondering where this was going. "But we've only known each other as friends, not as married partners."

"You are going to turn this game into something more appropriate for our wedding night, aren't you?" you asked, amused.

"What kind of things do you like in bed?" Denki asked. His voice was steady, but a little pink blush on his cheeks gave away his embarrassment.

"Denks," you laughed, hugging a pillow in embarrassment.

"What? We're going to need to know this stuff, right? For heir making."

You snorted.

"Don't laugh at me!" he whined. "You know I'm right."

"Pick another question, Denki."

"Fine," he sighed dramatically. "How easy if the cook in this palace to bribe?"

"Denki!"

[sekai-archives]

hey li! May I request some Rui and Toya angst where mc breaks up w them? you don't have to do this btw!!

A Breakup

Features: Kamishiro Rui, Aoyagi Toya

- ♡ warnings: this is angst. Crying. Let me know if I missed any

- ♡ notes: a bit ooc. Got carried away with this. I'm not the best of angst but I gave it my best shot, thans for the pain anon ♡ poorly proofread

Rui Kamishiro

Rui felt like he had a good understanding of emotions, he knew when he was happy or when he was discontent with himself. Though one feeling, he struggle to comprehend was belonging to something. Must of days whilst his classmates played together and gossip during the hours of lunch, he was found at the rooftops with only the air to greet him.

He felt like an outsider to the world, that one lonesome child in the corner, too afraid to mutter a word to his peers. He wasn't necessarily upset by this either, he had grown to be accustomed to being alone, becoming desensitized in the solitude

That was until he met you.

You greeted him with nothing but endless kindness, little words of affirmation kissing the lobes of his ears. Even when he felt like an outsider to the world, your benevolence met no ends, boundless as you held him in your arms, brushing away his troubles

And that is why in that very moment, Rui felt his hopes and emotions crush like powder as those simple quick words left your lips in a firm sentence.

" We should break up"

That was joke, right-? Yet there was no hesitation in your voice. Not a quiver nor stutter to indicate otherwise. Your eyes were also void of that glimmer you use to stare at him as well, glinting like stars that would greet him each and every day. Instead, it was monotone, vacant of the care that use to love him. Cold. And hurting as well.

In the shock of the moment, he was rendered silence, his head racing at a dangerous speed, hazardous to a crash. But as he reached back to his senses of rationality, all he could do was fake a smile. "I understand." Perhaps you both would talk it out but ultimately you remained the same about your choice.

Why? That was word that had lodged itself in his thoart yet he had no energy to mutter it out even as a meek whisper.

He tried to pry the lingering eyes off him. Nene and others would ask if he was fine. The question always brought a sharp pain, a pierce to his chest, eyes etching with tears that he swiflty blinks away. The lie forming of his on his lips, "I'm fine" That couldn't be further from the truth and his actions proved otherwise

He quite literally locked himself in his room, his head buried in a cluster of blueprints and spare parts with the sole excuse that he had work to do for upcoming shows. But a quick chat with Tsukasa disproved that very quickly. Really, Rui was looking for any way to avoid crashing paths with you again. To see you be so happy without him whilst he's still struggling to let go

Rui tried to tell himself that he shouldn't be sad that this was expected. Afterall, who would want to be with the outcast? He'll get over it in couple of days, he reckons.

Yet as Rui sat on the rooftops, the spot beside him vacant of your presence, your smile and every part of you, he couldn't help but choke out a sob( his classmates noticed how his cheeks looked a tad puffy yet they silently collectively agreed to leave the pruple haired boy alone). Fingers going numb that use to hold onto yours, grounding him back to reality as soothing words leave you. It felt so wrong not feeling you beside him. But all he was met was with the silence as the wind blew blew over his ears.

His eyes lingered on the view in the distance. He could still hear your voice, giggling as you crack one of those corny jokes that still made his stomach hurt from laughing. You always found the view to be beautiful, a series of colors stringing together to make a scene both you and Rui could share. But now you probably in the cafeteria, laughing with your friends as they gossip of today's news.

And over time he would reach those days when the hurt washed away and he held a genuine smile to his face. Perhaps the both of you can remain friends, not allowing the previous bond to affect you now.

But even still, whenever he goes to the rooftops, he still can't help but squint at the distance, searching for something that no longer existed.

The view never looked quite the same.

Toya Aoyagi

Toya wasn't quite sure what to expect when you both started dating. The idea was new and forgien to his inexperienced hands. But he nonetheless made a silent promise to act the role as your partner to the best of his ability

It was bumpy process, he would admit. He knew he had a rather cold exterior, a concrete wall protecting his vulnerabilities from the world's harsh cruelties. Yet he could not deny that you somehow found a way to chip away at those walls.

You were so kind to him, someone who gave him the reassurance he needed when emotions hit harder than bricks. You provided an escape from his family, one where he didn't need to have his gaurd up.

And overtime you learned, there was more than his rather stoic nature. That deep down all his flaws and imperfections, Toya was a good friend. And a good partner.

Though what brought you to this situation? Only you knew.

" Hey Toya, I think it'd be better if we go our separate ways."

He already could tell something was wrong before you spoke those words. You were more quiet than usual, fingers fidgeting over your sleeves. Silence was shrouding the pair of you- it was like he wasn't even there.

And Toya made the mistake of asking. The very act that led him to this predicament.

Toya was never one to react through ranges of expressions, but this didn't stop his shoulders from going slack, his eyes widening in disbelief- jaw slightly apage, astonished and confused at the same time.

Like Rui, the pair of you would talk it out, being a peaceful closure to your relationshipm But he nonetheless respected your wishes, surely you had good reasons to end things. "If that's how you see it, then I will respect that"

Normally, Toya didn't allow his mind to ponder on topics for too long. It was quite simple for him to shrug off quarries, leaving without a second thought. But this? Admittedly lingered in his mind for much longer than he wished. Was he too tense? Perhaps too emotionless, it gave the impression he didn't care? It didn't matter now. The only person who held the answers was you and you were long gone

He was quite well at hiding his pain compared to Rui. Doesnt even mumble a peep to Akito other than a few blunt words. His expressions remain the same as well, not a note of hurt other than his droppy eyes- struggling to recieve sleep in the aftermath of the breakup. Though people can notice how he starred off into the distance, or how his eyes lingered on spots you use to sit at.

His pile of arcade prizes increased in number as well- subconsciously collecting awards he had normally gifted to you. It hadn't even occurred to him that he still acted upon among old habits. Even though the prizes took up space in his room, it served to epitomize on the lonely cold presence thst he truly was standing in.

And at the dead of nights, void of anyone's prying eyes or judgeful thoughts; his face goes red with faint droplets wetting his cheeks as he makes the mistake of reminiscing for just a second. His knuckles goes pale as his clutch around the pillow fails to cease, his tears leaving marks on the fabrics.

He knew he was waiting for something that was far out of reach. And the realization always caused his body to run numb, a wave of needles to pin against the surface of his heart. It was also then upon that moment, he truly recognized how strong you made him feel and now rendered to a peice of broken shards stitched together with tape only visible in solitude

However, Toya does learn to move on with the mercy of time. A little faster than others.

And when he does pass you by the hallway, he greets you with a mere wave, void of any hurt in his stature.