#annaliese paige

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If you were to cast an All Stars Part 2; with girls from cycles 18-24, who would you pick? Let’s assume you have to follow the OG All Stars cast rules (no winners, and no more than 2 girls from the same cycle). Let’s also assume this is a dream scenario where everyone says yes- even ppl who are way too busy/ successful like Leila or ppl who’ve come to hate ANTM like Chantelle.

This has been answered before but it’s been a while haha

Annaliese C18

Laura C18

Nastasia C19

Kiara C19

Renee C20

Jiana C20

Lenox C21

Shei C21

Mamé C22

Lacey C22

Cody C23

Courtney C23

Khrystyana C24

Jeana C24

Alternates: Leila, Kristin, Nina, Kari, Chantelle, Hadassah, Paige, Liberty

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The Smartphone Hour (Everyone Tells Libby to Date Lee)

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Re: sensory "bullshit vampire powers" and autism being associated: I think that might lead to an interesting culture contrast between Dorley and the graduate school.

Like, Dorley is probably going to have a higher than background population level of autistic people, because 1) autism and gender-variance often go together, 2) they're selecting for people who don't function well in mainstream society. But Dorley is very culturally allistic. They're very much aiming for a polished middle/upper class conventionally feminine image, and they totally come across as the sort of place where there's a lot of social tight-rope walking, and they're intensely cop-brained in a very neurotypical feminism way. It feels revealing that pretty much all the characters in the original story read allistic to me; like, I feel like an autistic person would likely have a substantially harder time there and have more discontents than we see in people like Christine, Paige, Indira, etc.. Whereas I think the graduate school might be much more heavily selected for autistics, because they're the people most likely to develop interesting vampire abilities when they transition (and they can be selected pretty reliably; Annaliese has a way easier time smelling autism than smelling classical gender dysphoria; autism has a bunch of physiological stuff associated with it, it's going to have a much more obvious body odor signature). And that's going to influence the culture; the graduate school will be a lot more culturally autistic.

Like, Dorley really comes across as the sort of place where if you make a habit of getting up in the morning, brushing your teeth, throwing on a shirt and shorts or a bathrobe, and just hanging out like that, you will get a lot of social pressure to "put some care and effort into your presentation," and authority figures will have words with you about it, and possibly if you're stubborn enough about it there's going to be some sort of truly scary coercive "intervention" about it. Whereas I think the graduate school would be the sort of place where people do that all the time. I think the graduate school would have substantially more tolerance for behaviors that are coded male or don't fit into an upper/middle class socially conventional "proper lady" persona, and would have substantially less hypocrisy.

Like, e.g. I'm modelling both Dorley and the graduate school as actually pretty poly and kinky and horny (including in some pretty messed up ways), but the graduate school as a lot more honest and open about it. Dorley girls definitely come across as the sort of people who have substantial hang-ups about not wanting to be seen as promiscuous or perverted and wanting to pass for the relatively socially accepted wants to get monogamously gay married kind of LGBT person.

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I suspect that Dorley would also have a substantially above population average number of a different kind of neurodivergent people: sociopaths. They're literally selecting for antisocial behavior! And I could definitely see this interacting in some weird ways with their whole deal.

I think "housebroken" sociopaths with good self-control might actually be really valuable to and valued by Dorley, for sponsorship and other potentially seriously morally injurious parts of running Dorley, because people who are immune to moral injury would be really useful to them for those roles (sociopaths with bad self-control probably mostly just get washed out). And they're probably not going to consciously know they're doing this, but they're likely going to notice that some women aren't as psychologically damaged by certain jobs, assign those jobs to those women, and value them as people who can do those jobs without burn-out. And they may even be consciously doing this at the highest levels, cause if sociopathy is a neurodivergence Annaliese can likely smell it on people (well, smell small physiological differences downstream of the causative genes).

I think Elle would be very interested in "housebroken" sociopaths as recruits for the graduate school too. There's probably going to be some of them there and they will be very self-aware about it being a neurodivergence (they got picked on the basis of "Annaliese can literally smell it"). Likely they're a good chunk of the ones who second transitioned older and don't look like twenty-somethings; I think Elle would want to give them a decade or two at Dorley first to make sure they're properly housebroken.

And... I'm undecided if I actually want to take her characterization in this direction, but if occurs to me that it would actually make a lot of sense if Maria is a "housebroken" sociopath (or at least cousin-y to that neurotype) who's self-aware about it, especially with the way I'm modelling her? Like, the characterization I've been building for her is that her preferred role in Dorley's administration is basically "Bea's sin-eater"; she takes the most morally injurious parts of Dorley's administration on herself to protect her friend from moral injury. She's the one who consults with Annaliese and decides who to bring into the basement. She's the one who works with Annaliese during the thrall sessions, administering the injection and stuff. Bea doesn't know about the thrall-brainwashing part of what happens to the graduate school girls, but Maria does, and Maria and Elle collude to conceal that knowledge from Bea, and on Maria's part that's partly about wanting to protect her friend from emotional pain.

Tangent: it could just be that I have a very poly-shipping-inclined mind, but am I the only one who gets a Smithers/Mr. Burns vibe from Maria and Bea? I'm definitely inclined toward modelling Elle/Bea/Maria as a poly V (or, like, V with more stuff attached to the sides, we know from the last canon chapter that Maria has another partner and I really, really, super don't see Elle being mono, especially not with a human).

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About: OCs!!

This blog has a number of OCs (between 6 and 10, depending on how you’d define a nonessential cameo character) in addition to the 8 canon characters, so I thought I’d write them down for you. I do try to keep the gang small and use only the understudies and main cast, but I’m a sucker for fleshing out a world. Here goes.

Ben Applebaum (yes, like the one from Pitch Perfect it’s my au I do what I want).

Age: 20 

Birthday: November 27th (bn 1996)

Faceclaim [FC]: Colton Ryan - standby Connor/Evan/Jared

Diagnoses: Schizotypal Personality Disorder (STPD)

Random but Important Facts [RIFs]: homoromantic asexual; dating Jared; was homeschooled from sixth grade through the rest of high school; big on ghosts; only wears clothing because society says he has to

Kip Kleinman

FC: Asa Somers - standby Larry

Age: 47

Birthday: TBD

Diagnoses: None

RIFs: super gay; yes he’s Jared’s biological father; works for Starbucks and is therefore always overcaffeinated; tries to be the cool parent and fails but hey at least he’s funny

June Maddison-Beck

FC: Garrett Long - standby Heidi/Cynthia

Age: 49 (this is a somewhat blind guess as I’m not sure of Garrett’s actual age)

Birthday: July 1

Diagnoses: none

RIFs: Alana’s paternal aunt by marriage; Libby’s mom; has been widowed 15 years and is still a cinnamon roll; literally just a ray of sunshine that everyone can’t help but love

Kaeto (formerly known as Lee) Paige

FC: Michael Lee Brown - standby Evan/Connor/Jared

Age: 19

Birthday: April 16th (bn 1998)

Diagnoses: Depression, Anxiety, mild ADD, Anorexia/Bulimia (in recovery)

RIFs: the youngest of the squad and basically Jared’s adopted son; identifies as straight male (intersex transboy); has a service dog named Michi (pronounced Mickey) and she’s a pitbull and everyone loves her; has a highkey crush on Libby that he thinks is lowkey but it’s definitely not is now dating Libby and they are very much disgustingly in love

Oliver Ryan

FC: Nick Sacks - standby Jared/Connor/Evan

Age: 19

Birthday: TBD

Diagnoses: PTSD as a result of child abuse, more to be added later

RIFs: riased in a very conservative family; beign gay really didn’t help his situation; moved away from home as soon as he was sure he could support himself

Vivienne “Libby” Maddison-Beck

FC: Olivia Puckett - standby Zoe/Alana

Age: 23

Birthday: August 20th (bn 1994)

Diagnoses: Seasonal depression (starting late July/early August, ending around October)

RIFs: Alana’s cousin and June’s daughter - she and A are practically sisters they spent so much time together as kids; blames herself for the death of her father, who died in a car accident going to get her food; works with little kids; Libby is short for Vivienne of all freaking things; loves Lee more than life itself tbh but pretends it’s just Friendship/bc he’s got a dog and literally no one buys it but Lee; is dating Lee and they’re disgusting but everyone’s still happy about it

Cameo/Minor Characters (i did not mean for almost all their names to start with “a” it was a coicidence)

Annaliese Paige

FC: Lisa Brescia - standby(?) Cynthia/Heidi

Age: 45

RIFs: Lee’s Mom; born in Lübeck, Germany

Avery Bennet

FC: Neil Haskell (Hamilton Broadway castmember)

Age: 27

RIFs: originated in Quiet Observations [QO], the prequel/accompaniment to the AU; works a lot with mentally ill teens; I didn’t mean to bring him into the blog Y'all just love him cuz he’s pretty I swear; he’s a bi nurse who is 300% done with the world’s shit

Aaron/A'isha Beck

Alana’s parents

Leslie Odom Jr/Nicolette Robinson

living embodiments of “Black Don’t Crack”

Lily Applebaum

FC: Adrian Bumpass (Colton Ryan’s adorable gf)

Age: 23

RIFs: Ben’s older sister; more wholesome/sweet/All-American than apple pie but will kill a man with her pinky for her brother; another primarily QO character

Jasper Darcy

FC: Thayne Jasperson (Hamilton Broadway castmember and former Newsie)

Age: 24

RIFs: Connor’s first boyfriend/crush that he was aware of; is both indirectly and directly responsible for Connor’s addiction struggle (though no one blames him); moved away while Connor was still in high school and has returned but only recently made contact; engaged to Avery

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for antm if you could cast for a 2nd allstars who would you cast?

I’ve definitely answered this a few times (it’s been a while though lol) but here’s the most recent update! Limited it to post Cycle 17, picked 2 from each cycle plus an alternate

Cycle 18: Laura/Annaliese. ALT: Catherine

Cycle 19: Nastasia/Kiara. ALT: Victoria

Cycle 20: Renee/Nina. ALT: Jiana

Cycle 21: Lenox/Shei. ALT: Raelia

Cycle 22: Mamé/Lacey. ALT: Hadassah

Cycle 23: Courtney/Cody. ALT: Paige

Cycle 24: Jeana/Khrystyana. ALT: Liberty

I know several of these choices would likely never return, but that’s who I’d pick as of today

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Who do u think r some underrated models? Not like they should have won type of underrated but like they deserved better than the placement they got? Love your blog!

Thanks for the love! I feel like there are so many underrated models, but I’ll try to keep it somewhat short.

Underrated by the judges: Jenascia C2, Michelle C4 (placement was fine, call-outs were not), Leslie C6, AJ C7 (but I think she would’ve gone far had she not given up), Felicia C8, Victoria C9, Marvita, Aimee, & Katarzyna C10, Brittany C13, Kayla C17, Annaliese C18 (same as Michelle), Nastasia C19, Matthew & Shei C21, Ava & Justin C22, Cody & Paige C23, Liberty & Christina C24

I’m definitely missing a ton, but those were the ones that came to mind right away. Thanks again for the question! :)

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Who would you pick for Miss Congeniality for every cycle?

I’m going to assume that winners are out of the running

Kesse

Xiomara

Toccara

Christina

I wanna say Bre but I think granola-gate disqualifies her lol. Maybe Diane?

Joanie

Brooke

Jael

Janet

Anya

Lio

London

Laura

Tatianna or Simone?

Chris

Jaclyn

Laura again

Annaliese

I guess Nastasia? I almost said Jessie lmao

I legitimately have no idea. Don or Jiana?

Again no idea. Maybe Ben or Raelia?

Justin

Paige

Khrystyana

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I'm super angsty so how about a one shot of like, when Libby starts developing feelings for Lee at the very beginning and her trying to distance herself from him for a while because like she seems to believe he'd be better without her sadly and him not realising why and being sad but then she realises it's not helping either of them and he doesn't find out why she did it but it's cute and they're friends again at the end please and thanks lol

Ahahahahahahahahahahaha I can’t write short things so here’s a case study of their relationship loosely (?) based on this ask whoops I have important assignments to do but nope here I am

“He’s cute, don’t you think?” Zoe asked, leaning in conspiratorily. “In a puppy kind of way. One look at him and your heart just fuckin’ melts. I want to cuddle him so hard.”

Libby gave her a concerned look. “You know he’s sixteen and I’m an adult, right? I think it might be illegal for me to answer that question.”

Zoe rolled her eyes and laughed. “Okay, you got me there. Say in two or three years, when he’s not jailbait anymore, would you agree that he’s schnuggle material?”

Libby wrinkled her nose in mild disgust. “Is that some sort of euphemism? I hear you use it a lot and Evan’s face gets really red whenever you do...”

“What? No!” Zoe’s face was a mixture of horror, confusion, and mild amusement. “No, it’s like snuggling, but not. It’s more warm and fuzzy than snuggles, so we call it schnuggles. It’s a Murphy family trademark.”

“Somehow, I’m still not convinced.”

“You’re the worst. And don’t think I don’t see how you’re trying to avoid the question.”

Sighing in defeat, Libby looked across the room to the corner where Lee was sitting alone, face partially buried in a book. His leg tapped consistently and the end of one of the strings of his hoodie was stuck between his teeth. Despite the nervous fidgeting, he still turned the pages of his book without a problem, and his eyes showed quite clearly that he was far, far away from the rest of them. 

Zoe was right. There was something undeniably endearing about Lee Paige, but Libby just couldn’t put a finger on what. If it was his big, dark blue eyes, the way his floppy hair always looked soft, the naturally sweet, boyish way his face was put together, or something else entirely. 

Two years later, Libby still can’t figure out what it is. His eating habits have improved, so there’s now a glow to his skin that hadn’t been there when she’d met him. He’s become more comfortable with laughing louder and smiling with teeth. His mindset still wasn’t always positive, but he could at least be honest with his friends about when it was bad. There were still days that he couldn’t, of course, like two weeks previously when he’d had a panic attack while helping Libby study for her upcoming finals.

She’d never dealt with a panic attack before. Alana going into sensory overload or her mother sobbing uncontrollably after waking from a nightmare, sure, but this was uncharted territory. She’d heard enough from Evan and other kids with anxiety to know that telling someone to take deep breaths only made it worse. So, instead of trying to make Lee calm down, she’d wrapped a blanket around his shoulders, dimmed the lights in her living room, held his hand loosely, and hummed the lullabies her dad had sung to her as a kid. Eventually, his distress had left him be but drained him of energy, so Libby had to call Annaliese and explain why her barely eighteen-year-old son was going to be spending the night with a girl who was nearly twenty-two.

Lee ended up asleep on her couch, wrapped in the same blanket she’d given him at the start of it all. Libby had dragged a sleeping bag out of her closet and slept on the floor next to the couch. When she woke up the next morning, the first thing she saw was Lee. As she made that first, cat-like stretch of the day, her hand accidentally brushed his hair. It really was quite soft. She spent several long moments playing absently with his hair before realizing what she was doing and bolting into the bathroom.

They’d spoken over breakfast at the cafe down the street from her apartment. She walked him to his car and hugged him before he got in. For all intents and purposes, Lee and Libby had parted on the exact same terms they had been on when they met up the previous evening.

Still, they hadn’t spoken since. Libby had tried texting him, had even typed out messages and been a millimeter away from hitting send, but her mind always conjured the feeling of his hair between her fingers right as she went to make a decision.

I can’t have a crush on Lee. He’s young, inexperienced, wracked with insecurities - and this is all assuming he’d like me back. He’s still got so much growing to do, and I’d try to convince him to do it my way whether I meant to or not. I can’t do that to him.

With that in mind, Libby went back to hanging closer to Alana, even if it made her the third wheel to the mush fest that was her cousin and Zoe. Lee went back to hanging on to Jared. Ben made a friend. Finals came and went. Libby got her credential. It worked out alright.

“Hypothetically, which two team members would be the ultimate power couple?” Jared read. They were doing a lighthearted Q&A for the You Will Be Found YouTube channel and most of the questions had been similar to this. “So I guess we’re excluding the actual couples we’ve got here, then.” The rest of the gang nodded in agreement. “Alright, since this is purely hypothetical and not at all bound by reality, I’m gonna go straight out and say Alana and me.”

“Was that a lesbian pun or a pan pun?” Zoe asked. “Because there’s nothing straight going on between the two of you.”

“Yes,” Jared replied, not looking at her. “Either way, Team Autism for the win. Everyone else can go home.”

Zoe snorted and poked him with her foot. “Well, I’m formally nominating Libby and Lee.”

“Ooh, I’m with her on that,” Alana agreed.

Libby looked down at her hands. She did not want to know where Lee was looking.

Jared turned and gave Alana a look that was both annoyed and betrayed. “You’re with Zoe on everything,” he whined. “What am I, chopped liver?”

“You’re a dick,” Connor corrected. “And I’m with Zo and Lon on this one. Hypothetical Lee and Lib would kick Brangelina’s ass.”

“Enough from you, Wednesday,” Jared decided grumpily. “Is anyone on my side?”

“I nominate Lee and me,” Ben decided. It was one of the few times he’d opted to participate in a video and a single of perhaps a handful of occasions when he’d spoken unprompted.

Jared groaned and threw his hands into the air in surrender. “Alright, alright, Leeb wins. I’ll set the wedding for labor day 2017.”

Zoe frowned. “Leeb is a shit ship name, Kleinman.”

“I didn’t ask for this!”

The comments of the video were widely people either debating ship names for Lee and Libby or cheering on the fact that there were others who ‘saw the obvious romantic tension’ between the two of them. Libby felt mildly sick to her stomach.

“He was kidding about us getting married, right?” Lee asked, coming into the kitchen and startling Libby from her thoughts.

She laughed. “Oh, yeah. He loves you way too much to hitch you to me of all people. The internet will be disappointed, but you’ll be safe.”

Lee shrugged. “I can definitely think of worse things than you.”

“I appreciate the compliment, but you’re allowed to have the bar a bit higher than that.” She laughed as she took a sip of coffee.

“I think the bar is right where it needs to be.”

Libby smiled and set down her now-empty mug in the sink. “I missed you.”

“I missed you, too.”

“I need you to know that you didn’t do anything wrong. I’ve been crappy lately and none of it’s on you. If you can swing it, I’d like to go back to where we were. If not, I totally understand and I’ll respect it. Any and all the space you want, you can have.”

Lee gave her an amused smile that lit up his sweet, boyish face in a way that made Libby’s heart melt.

“Did you miss the part where I said I missed you, too?”

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pick 14 girls for all stars, and choose one all stars 1 girl to give the latrila treatment and bring her back for redemption.

Ooooh alright! I’m going to interpret that as 14 + 1 returning All-Star. I’m sticking to post Cycle 17 girls (besides the one returning All-Star pick), and attempt to mostly pick girls who would realistically return a second time (with a couple exceptions lol).

In no particular order:

Laura LaFrate (C18)

Annaliese Dayes (C18)

Nastasia Scott (C19)

Renee Bhagwandeen (C20)

Nina Burns (C20)

Lenox Tillman (C21)

Shei Phan (C21)

Raelia Lewis (C21)

Mamé Adjei (C22)

Lacey Rogers (C22)

Cody Wells (C23)

Paige Mobley (C23)

Jeana Turner (C24)

Khrystyana Kazakova (C24)

As for the All-Star redemption girl, I’m going to take the unexpected route and bring Sheena back into the running. I wanted to see more from her on Cycle 17 and I think she was cut too soon. (honorable mention to Brittany as well).

That was a fun list to put together, thanks for the question! :)